Just another flawed human

My mother said I was stuck up, thought more of myself than I should have.  I certainly understand what would make her say that.  An ignorant woman that told me every day of my life that I was too black!

She said it like I picked my color.  With the help of my 20/20 memory I clearly perceive she was trying to lower my already low self esteem.  From my first recollections of meeting this Mathy Jane she had a long list of grievances against me.

#1- "Dat damn X, yo' damn daddy! went to get sum milk and I ain't seen his black a$$ since! He didn't want me cause I had all you bastard younguns."

#2- "I gave yo' black a$$ away!  I gave you to a madame dat ran a 'ho house ... my mama made me go and git you!"

#3- "Duh world will nevah receive you!  Duh world will always consider you ugly cause you so black!"

#4-"You a Miss Goody Two Shoes!...always honest! always tellin' duh truth.  Honesty dont git you no whur but broke.  My mama and daddy wuz two honest a$$ broke a$$ n******"

#5-"You can't git no man! Aint no man nevah gon' want you! You ain't got sense snuff to git no man.  Don't no man want no black a$$ woman!"

Jesus did tell us, He did warn us that mothers would be against daughters, daughters against mothers.  That word "against" didn't prepare me for the awful ambush, the pure setup, her fool proof plan for my total destruction.

One of the last daggers Mathy stabbed me with was in '08 when I was nursing her around the clock after her knee replacement surgery.  "Yer life didn't turn out lak you thought did it!?" half sneering, half gloating.

Well just whose life turns out the way they planned, envisioned, dreamed?  Poor little Martha, fallen (but refused to get up), lying, corrupt, untrustworthy.  Every thing "Dem Wade N*******" said about her was true.  "Common as Bat S***!"

The Dear LORD placed Jerome Walters in my life and let me keep him for 27 years.  GOD knew the horrible intentions that ignorant overly fertile monster had for all of us.  Our total destruction, our annihilation, just so she could laugh.  Just so she could have someone to feel superior too.

Smash another puppy, pour a hot pot of boiling coffee on another little toddler, burn as many people as you can, get away with it and laugh, laugh, laugh.  By the time the world figures you out, by the time that snitch gets to snitching you will be long dead. (laugh, laugh, laugh)

Adults outside of the family learned, knew to stay clear of Mathy Jane.  Hundreds or dare I say thousands of poor soldiers on the Post (Ft.Bragg) didn't.  Mathy was going to get your money.  She was going to fleece you and laugh, run over you in her brand new Cadillac.  And you better stand there, let her run over you and you better not say anything.  Be grateful that she even gave you the time of day because she is Mathy Jane! "I'm light bright and damn near white! Dont you f*** wid me!"

I forgive her LORD.  Martha Jane Walters followed the world just to defy her daddy, to defy GOD.  Martha NEVER took responsibility for her own actions.  Lived 87 years and was NEVER wrong.  Anything she ever did wrong needed to be done and it was your fault for making her do it.

My Grandfather never cursed her one time, not even when she cursed him.  I know GOD placed Jerome Walters in our lives to counter her great ignorance and deceit.  He sacrificed his life when he came to live with us.  GOD knew the full intentions of that demon that possessed Martha, knew it too well.

Dear family and friends, if there is anyone that still believes there was ever a righteous Mother Watson, all I can do is pray for you.  I pray for your delivery.  I pray that GOD will finally open your eyes and ears.  He can and He will if you ask Him.  He opened my eyes one day.

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

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