"Let the mind of Christ be in you." 2 Thessalonians 2:2
The key word here is "Let", allow, permit. Do not squelch the Spirit. "Cleanse your hearts." Your evil thoughts and deeds may make you popular and welcome in this world. You may contaminate others with your filth and jaunty attitude.
You will not win. You will go to your grave ashamed and shunned. You must pray for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. You can't pretend, dress up and "talk the talk". You can't be amused and delighted by the throngs of people that you fooled for your whole life.
You better hurry up and know that you only fooled yourself.
Dear LORD I pray for all of Martha's victims, all the men she emasculated and stripped of their manhood. She cheated. She did the unthinkable. As their "mother" she took cruel advantage in their infancy.
The poor woman did the same to all the men she "loved", the men she tried to possess. Then she hated them, and spewed vicious lies on any and every one that escaped her "mad house". Dear LORD touch her mind, touch her heart with a finger of love. Release her from her self imposed prison. Bind her LORD, interrupt her demonic thoughts.
Blog followers please don't feel sorry for me. Rejoice with me. Celebrate identifying and binding satan. Don't just shake your head at my situation. It may be a good idea to check around your own front door.
"There is nothing covered that shall not be revealed."
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Saturday, June 29, 2013
"Whur you gwine?" ...
"Whut's yo' hurry? What you trying to do? ... hurry up and wait?"
Another gem from The Jerome Walters Chronicles.
Most important lesson in life; "Don't assume to know anything. Don't judge a person by the way they look, sound or color of their skin. You don't know what blessing you might miss assuming somebody is less than you. Not as smart as you, not as pretty, don't have as much material wealth. They sound "country" so they must be dumb. You can trick them because you are the smartest or the lightest.
Second most important lesson in life; "Race means nothing! There is no such thing as a superior race. There is no race, sex or gender that is superior. Yes, we have conquerors that punish us into believing and accepting their "superiority". You no longer have to go along with that stupidity. You are free to think for yourself. You are permitted to exercise Critical Thinking. You can cut the apron strings, cut the umbilical cord from that overbearing, obnoxious, suffocating narcissist.
If any one has just cause to describe you in such a manner you need to go and prostrate yourself on your belly, begging GOD to forgive you. If you don't, the whole world will know that you were one wicked, lost, never to be found soul.
Another gem from The Jerome Walters Chronicles.
Most important lesson in life; "Don't assume to know anything. Don't judge a person by the way they look, sound or color of their skin. You don't know what blessing you might miss assuming somebody is less than you. Not as smart as you, not as pretty, don't have as much material wealth. They sound "country" so they must be dumb. You can trick them because you are the smartest or the lightest.
Second most important lesson in life; "Race means nothing! There is no such thing as a superior race. There is no race, sex or gender that is superior. Yes, we have conquerors that punish us into believing and accepting their "superiority". You no longer have to go along with that stupidity. You are free to think for yourself. You are permitted to exercise Critical Thinking. You can cut the apron strings, cut the umbilical cord from that overbearing, obnoxious, suffocating narcissist.
If any one has just cause to describe you in such a manner you need to go and prostrate yourself on your belly, begging GOD to forgive you. If you don't, the whole world will know that you were one wicked, lost, never to be found soul.
Pilgrim Jubilees singing "old Ship of Zion"
I remember my grandfather taking me to Snow Hill, Mount Olive and other little churches in Wade and Godwin. He took me to "Sanging". That's what we called it, "Sanging". These were singing competitions. The churches would be packed. Many churches didn't have pianos, very few had an organ. But, we made our on music. It was the best music I ever heard. Let's make sure our children share in this legacy. Expose them Tell them about the "Good ole days". Praise The LORD!
Demon!
Demon!!!! Are you a sho'nuff fool!!!? How do you think you are going to hide from GOD!!!?
GOD sees you! He is looking at you right now! How are you going to teach me; "GOD sits high and looks low." Knowing full well that you are the demon that you are. Always up to mischief. You are not funny. Why be a fake Christian when you can be a real one? Salvation is free!
Do you really think I'm that stupid, that dumb!!!? You are my mother. You have superior intelligence. Just how did you expect to have 6 dumb children? Intelligence rides on a dominate gene. You could not have a dumb child if you wanted to.
I lost a lot of that terrifying fear you instilled in me when you got "religion". Thank you for bringing me up in the church. GOD saved me and He can save you too.
GOD's watching, still waiting.
GOD sees you! He is looking at you right now! How are you going to teach me; "GOD sits high and looks low." Knowing full well that you are the demon that you are. Always up to mischief. You are not funny. Why be a fake Christian when you can be a real one? Salvation is free!
Do you really think I'm that stupid, that dumb!!!? You are my mother. You have superior intelligence. Just how did you expect to have 6 dumb children? Intelligence rides on a dominate gene. You could not have a dumb child if you wanted to.
I lost a lot of that terrifying fear you instilled in me when you got "religion". Thank you for bringing me up in the church. GOD saved me and He can save you too.
GOD's watching, still waiting.
I won't give up ...
and I won't give in. I am going to keep proclaiming the goodness of GOD until somebody listens. My story is one of the greatest stories ever told. I thank GOD for my journey, my unique life, my testimony.
My immediate family and extended family still remain silent on this issue. It is not that my my relatives don't believe me, they believe me. The fact is they don't want to believe me. No one in their right mind would want to claim this truth. So, they continue to suffer, living in fear and hoping this "problem" will just magically go away.
The fact is we were all duped! She deliberately led us astray. We all should have known better. Granddaddy kept trying to tell us.
You are excused. I love all of you any way. I love you because Jesus commanded me to. It feels good to love you. Your burdens are lifted when you don't hate. "Love ye one another!" Celebrate one another, lift each other up!
Poor Martha has suffered with extreme debilitating hatred, envy and jealousy for 88 years. That's too long to be wrong. That's not natural. At some point we all learn from our mistakes. But when you are foolish enough to trade terrifying fear for love and respect you are beyond my help. You don't want to stay in contact with me. I am not going to put up with your foolishness. I am not going to "amen" your lies. I am not going to keep silent in fear.
You are not going to pump me for my dreams and aspirations and run ahead of me to destroy them. You are not going to tear down my self esteem that is already too low. I was born an illegitimate black female in the south. Called "nothing but a black bastard" every day of my entire life by the woman that caused me to be a bastard in the first place.
I know fear. I know what it means to be terrified, to run for your life. I know what it is to scream; "Save me LORD!" as your mother prepares to "beat the living water s*** out yo' sorry black a**".
For those that don't know, for those of you that failed to comprehend, jumped to conclusions. This blog is not about how my mother mistreated me as a child. It is about Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureaux being a consummate closet demon RIGHT NOW!!!!
It is about a very beautiful charismatic brilliant sociopath! She is a Ted Bundy. Don't be shocked, be delivered. Stomp that devil under your feet. That mother, grandmother, auntie, cousin, that you think you know, does not exist. It's all smoke and mirrors. There is no good in her.
Sure she did some good things for you along the line. She said some kind things, gave you some gifts, inflated your ego. But, she broke up your marriage, destroyed your home, your good name, plotted against you, turned you into the police and IRS. She can't help it. She is a demon, an imp for the devil.
She swindled us and robbed us of our birth rite just like that serpent did Eve. I always thought Eve was simple minded, naive, easily duped.
Are you easily duped? We all know she worked roots. Why didn't we know that she would work them on us? We all know she murdered JEROME WALTERS!
I finally understand debilitating terrifying fear. Cruel slave masters used to stake miscreant slaves to the ground, naked, spread eagle. Then "hide" them. "Hiding" was the cruel method of creating a good obedient slave. A cat of nine tales was lashed across the slaves back repeatedly, ripping off flesh. Once the slave's back had been sufficiently shredded, red cayenne pepper , turpentine and salt were rubbed into the wounds.
This strange concoction not only burned to high heaven but it purged all hopes of an infection. It sterilized the open wounds in the worst way possible. Not only was this poor slave subjected to excruciating pain and torture but all of the other slaves on the plantation were forced to witness.
When I look back over my life I see my mother as that cruel slave master. My mother made us witness the worst types of torture. No wonder we were so obedient, pure modern day slaves. The absolute property of Mathy Jane.
I read every volume of the Rawick and WPA slaves narratives. The love that many slaves had for their former masters never ceased to amaze me.
My poor relatives are very much like those four million slaves set free in 1865. Most former slaves chose to remain on the exact same plantations. I would laugh until I cried in the Trevor Arnett library, visualizing that former slave bragging; "I's quality n*****. I blonged to Master Alexander Stevens folks. Dey wuz quality white folk."
Are you still proud to be the property of Martha Jane Walters?
I forgive you Mathy. You were ignorant and refused to know any better. I do pray that you get right with GOD. There is really no point in your continued hiding and lying. I have told a huge piece of our story.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
My immediate family and extended family still remain silent on this issue. It is not that my my relatives don't believe me, they believe me. The fact is they don't want to believe me. No one in their right mind would want to claim this truth. So, they continue to suffer, living in fear and hoping this "problem" will just magically go away.
The fact is we were all duped! She deliberately led us astray. We all should have known better. Granddaddy kept trying to tell us.
You are excused. I love all of you any way. I love you because Jesus commanded me to. It feels good to love you. Your burdens are lifted when you don't hate. "Love ye one another!" Celebrate one another, lift each other up!
Poor Martha has suffered with extreme debilitating hatred, envy and jealousy for 88 years. That's too long to be wrong. That's not natural. At some point we all learn from our mistakes. But when you are foolish enough to trade terrifying fear for love and respect you are beyond my help. You don't want to stay in contact with me. I am not going to put up with your foolishness. I am not going to "amen" your lies. I am not going to keep silent in fear.
You are not going to pump me for my dreams and aspirations and run ahead of me to destroy them. You are not going to tear down my self esteem that is already too low. I was born an illegitimate black female in the south. Called "nothing but a black bastard" every day of my entire life by the woman that caused me to be a bastard in the first place.
I know fear. I know what it means to be terrified, to run for your life. I know what it is to scream; "Save me LORD!" as your mother prepares to "beat the living water s*** out yo' sorry black a**".
For those that don't know, for those of you that failed to comprehend, jumped to conclusions. This blog is not about how my mother mistreated me as a child. It is about Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureaux being a consummate closet demon RIGHT NOW!!!!
It is about a very beautiful charismatic brilliant sociopath! She is a Ted Bundy. Don't be shocked, be delivered. Stomp that devil under your feet. That mother, grandmother, auntie, cousin, that you think you know, does not exist. It's all smoke and mirrors. There is no good in her.
Sure she did some good things for you along the line. She said some kind things, gave you some gifts, inflated your ego. But, she broke up your marriage, destroyed your home, your good name, plotted against you, turned you into the police and IRS. She can't help it. She is a demon, an imp for the devil.
She swindled us and robbed us of our birth rite just like that serpent did Eve. I always thought Eve was simple minded, naive, easily duped.
Are you easily duped? We all know she worked roots. Why didn't we know that she would work them on us? We all know she murdered JEROME WALTERS!
I finally understand debilitating terrifying fear. Cruel slave masters used to stake miscreant slaves to the ground, naked, spread eagle. Then "hide" them. "Hiding" was the cruel method of creating a good obedient slave. A cat of nine tales was lashed across the slaves back repeatedly, ripping off flesh. Once the slave's back had been sufficiently shredded, red cayenne pepper , turpentine and salt were rubbed into the wounds.
This strange concoction not only burned to high heaven but it purged all hopes of an infection. It sterilized the open wounds in the worst way possible. Not only was this poor slave subjected to excruciating pain and torture but all of the other slaves on the plantation were forced to witness.
When I look back over my life I see my mother as that cruel slave master. My mother made us witness the worst types of torture. No wonder we were so obedient, pure modern day slaves. The absolute property of Mathy Jane.
I read every volume of the Rawick and WPA slaves narratives. The love that many slaves had for their former masters never ceased to amaze me.
My poor relatives are very much like those four million slaves set free in 1865. Most former slaves chose to remain on the exact same plantations. I would laugh until I cried in the Trevor Arnett library, visualizing that former slave bragging; "I's quality n*****. I blonged to Master Alexander Stevens folks. Dey wuz quality white folk."
Are you still proud to be the property of Martha Jane Walters?
I forgive you Mathy. You were ignorant and refused to know any better. I do pray that you get right with GOD. There is really no point in your continued hiding and lying. I have told a huge piece of our story.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Friday, June 28, 2013
GOD is Amazing!
Dear LORD thank You for your bountiful blessings! Thank you for keeping me. I praise you! Thank you for true knowledge and understanding.
I am an instrument! I am living proof that GOD will do just what He said!
Please permit me to digress. From the outside it seems like an extraordinarily long time. But, what did GOD tell us about "long suffering"?
I am just so delighted that I must brag. I must proclaim the goodness of GOD. "You can't win for the fix you in, I can't lose for the stuff I use!" She must have said that every day. It was her theme song. The poor woman never knew that she didn't need that. I think she thought she was helping GOD out because she thought He was too slow.
Although my mother is very cruel, she is a great comedienne. She will keep you in stitches. Growing up the first thing she taught us; "If some body hit you, you bedder hit'um back. If you come home wid you ass beat, I'm gon beat yo' ass!"
As children we would fight and felt free to use any instrument at our disposal to whup your a**. Now, she made us go to Sunday school and vacation Bible school. We were taught the WORD of GOD (well) on main post by the Army chaplains.
So, I was around 8 and I remember questioning my mother about "turning the other cheek"; like Jesus said. My mother replied; "Well if you gon let n***** gang up on you and whup yo a** while you waiting on Jesus, be my guest. ... Jesus too slow."
We both laughed. Nobody ever beat me up either. Word got out; "She maybe luddle ... but she crazy!"
(I am glad I changed.)
I am an instrument! I am living proof that GOD will do just what He said!
Please permit me to digress. From the outside it seems like an extraordinarily long time. But, what did GOD tell us about "long suffering"?
I am just so delighted that I must brag. I must proclaim the goodness of GOD. "You can't win for the fix you in, I can't lose for the stuff I use!" She must have said that every day. It was her theme song. The poor woman never knew that she didn't need that. I think she thought she was helping GOD out because she thought He was too slow.
Although my mother is very cruel, she is a great comedienne. She will keep you in stitches. Growing up the first thing she taught us; "If some body hit you, you bedder hit'um back. If you come home wid you ass beat, I'm gon beat yo' ass!"
As children we would fight and felt free to use any instrument at our disposal to whup your a**. Now, she made us go to Sunday school and vacation Bible school. We were taught the WORD of GOD (well) on main post by the Army chaplains.
So, I was around 8 and I remember questioning my mother about "turning the other cheek"; like Jesus said. My mother replied; "Well if you gon let n***** gang up on you and whup yo a** while you waiting on Jesus, be my guest. ... Jesus too slow."
We both laughed. Nobody ever beat me up either. Word got out; "She maybe luddle ... but she crazy!"
(I am glad I changed.)
Let nothing separate us from the body of Christ!
"Greetings in the name of the LORD Jesus Christ!" (A memorized rote salutation from one of the many churches I attended in my 62 years on this earth.)
My point is, be careful or rote memorization without understanding. Make sure you are not repeating something that you heard and don't fully comprehend.
#1 - YOU MUST STUDY GOD'S WORD!!! Simply attending church services will never be enough.
#2 - "LET NOTHING SEPARATE US FROM THE LOVE OF GOD, WHICH IS IN CHRIST JESUS OUR LORD."
Are you separated from the body of Christ? Do you use terms like "our race"? Do you rank people by the color of their skin? or status? Do you let people tell you who to hate or who to love? Who to fear, who to respect?
GOD does not want us warring with each other, insulting each other and stirring up hatred. GOD does want His Truth told. All the gold crosses, clerical robes, titles and longevity can not protect you from GOD's Truth. From His wrath, from His WORD being revealed through your life.
GOD's Truth should be embraced and celebrated in your life. If you are ashamed, fearful and living in denial of your truth, pray for deliverance.
How dare you hate the "truth-tellers". Does keeping your awful deeds secret save you? Are your deeds erased or forgotten because you have managed to keep them from public view? How dare you scream; "You remember too much!" You said that with hatred and scorn in your voice. Then I remembered, that's how you controlled us, manipulated us. Scowling and roaring. Lacerating us with racist insults; "Git out dat sun gitting black! .. you black enuf!" "You got a n**** nose! You got gun barrels!" "It's a good thang you got good hair. GAWD didn't give you nuttin' else."
Were you in that much pain? Were you in such excruciating pain that you had to inflict debilitating excruciating pain in order to feel good? Is pain your pleasure? Were you ever concerned about your victims?
Well, I forgive you for your ignorance. I forgive you for your root working and conjure. I forgive you for murdering your own daddy.
I can't let you continue to block blessings from Christ Jesus. I will not let you continue to lie on me in order to cover for your sexually perverted life. You are a pedophile. You are a rapist! Yes, you are a very disturbed sociopath. Come out from behind that robe. Quit claiming Simon Temple. Quit claiming your great love for the LORD, knowing full well that you are lying.
You are caught! You are busted! Give the rest of your life to Christ. Stop hating. Stop lying. Stop blocking blessings. Pray for GOD to cleanse you, to wash you white as snow.
Tell every one that you lied, lived wrong, but now you finally see the light. What an awesome testimony!
I pray that GOD will grant you wisdom and grace today.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
My point is, be careful or rote memorization without understanding. Make sure you are not repeating something that you heard and don't fully comprehend.
#1 - YOU MUST STUDY GOD'S WORD!!! Simply attending church services will never be enough.
#2 - "LET NOTHING SEPARATE US FROM THE LOVE OF GOD, WHICH IS IN CHRIST JESUS OUR LORD."
Are you separated from the body of Christ? Do you use terms like "our race"? Do you rank people by the color of their skin? or status? Do you let people tell you who to hate or who to love? Who to fear, who to respect?
GOD does not want us warring with each other, insulting each other and stirring up hatred. GOD does want His Truth told. All the gold crosses, clerical robes, titles and longevity can not protect you from GOD's Truth. From His wrath, from His WORD being revealed through your life.
GOD's Truth should be embraced and celebrated in your life. If you are ashamed, fearful and living in denial of your truth, pray for deliverance.
How dare you hate the "truth-tellers". Does keeping your awful deeds secret save you? Are your deeds erased or forgotten because you have managed to keep them from public view? How dare you scream; "You remember too much!" You said that with hatred and scorn in your voice. Then I remembered, that's how you controlled us, manipulated us. Scowling and roaring. Lacerating us with racist insults; "Git out dat sun gitting black! .. you black enuf!" "You got a n**** nose! You got gun barrels!" "It's a good thang you got good hair. GAWD didn't give you nuttin' else."
Were you in that much pain? Were you in such excruciating pain that you had to inflict debilitating excruciating pain in order to feel good? Is pain your pleasure? Were you ever concerned about your victims?
Well, I forgive you for your ignorance. I forgive you for your root working and conjure. I forgive you for murdering your own daddy.
I can't let you continue to block blessings from Christ Jesus. I will not let you continue to lie on me in order to cover for your sexually perverted life. You are a pedophile. You are a rapist! Yes, you are a very disturbed sociopath. Come out from behind that robe. Quit claiming Simon Temple. Quit claiming your great love for the LORD, knowing full well that you are lying.
You are caught! You are busted! Give the rest of your life to Christ. Stop hating. Stop lying. Stop blocking blessings. Pray for GOD to cleanse you, to wash you white as snow.
Tell every one that you lied, lived wrong, but now you finally see the light. What an awesome testimony!
I pray that GOD will grant you wisdom and grace today.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Some people ...
run and scatter like roaches when you turn the lights on. A roach is a menace, a pest, a nasty parasite, so of course it wants to remain in the dark. Roaches can do a lot of damage in the dark.
Did you know that roaches are cannibalistic? When they don't have anything to eat,they will eat each other.
You will never find a group hollering; "Save the roaches!" The only good roach is a dead roach. I hope you are not like a roach. I hope you don't go scurrying from the truth, hiding in little dark spaces, forcing your body into little cracks in order to survive. Periodically peering out, watching, waiting for the coast to clear.
"There is no danger in GOD's water." And there is no danger in GOD's truth. "Know ye the Truth!" Be set free today.
Make sure you know that Christ came so that you can have life more abundantly. You don't have to scavenge your way, barely getting by on some one's crumbs.
Food for thought. (I hope you got the pun)
Did you know that roaches are cannibalistic? When they don't have anything to eat,they will eat each other.
You will never find a group hollering; "Save the roaches!" The only good roach is a dead roach. I hope you are not like a roach. I hope you don't go scurrying from the truth, hiding in little dark spaces, forcing your body into little cracks in order to survive. Periodically peering out, watching, waiting for the coast to clear.
"There is no danger in GOD's water." And there is no danger in GOD's truth. "Know ye the Truth!" Be set free today.
Make sure you know that Christ came so that you can have life more abundantly. You don't have to scavenge your way, barely getting by on some one's crumbs.
Food for thought. (I hope you got the pun)
I am just as much kin to you ...
as you are to me. What!? I'm Not supposed to tell on you because you birthed me into the world? I'm supposed to care about your feelings while you disregard mine? I am supposed to trust you when you have Never been trustworthy.
"Honor your MOTHER and father!"; you scream. Were you honoring your father with that .38 bullet in the heart? "Ah ain't duh one dat killed him!" : you hollar. "I ain't the one that killed him." Ummmmm ... does that mean you are admitting that he was killed, didn't commit suicide?
No, they Know. We all know you did it. We just didn't want to know that you finally sunk that low. You were already low enough. Knowing that you finally hit rock bottom was unbearable, so we played along with your little game and pretended. We were all glad when you became an ordained minister. You had to act better. You had to quit cussing, ranting and raving like a lunatic for 22 hours a day.
I should have known you were a demon. You never slept! You were always up at the crack of dawn enslaving us. I hope no other woman cusses and curses all day over nothing.
Back to your labeling me as a disloyal backstabber. I am loyal to the LORD! Any one that puts anything or anyone before GOD is not worthy of the Kingdom.
"Honor your MOTHER and father!"; you scream. Were you honoring your father with that .38 bullet in the heart? "Ah ain't duh one dat killed him!" : you hollar. "I ain't the one that killed him." Ummmmm ... does that mean you are admitting that he was killed, didn't commit suicide?
No, they Know. We all know you did it. We just didn't want to know that you finally sunk that low. You were already low enough. Knowing that you finally hit rock bottom was unbearable, so we played along with your little game and pretended. We were all glad when you became an ordained minister. You had to act better. You had to quit cussing, ranting and raving like a lunatic for 22 hours a day.
I should have known you were a demon. You never slept! You were always up at the crack of dawn enslaving us. I hope no other woman cusses and curses all day over nothing.
Back to your labeling me as a disloyal backstabber. I am loyal to the LORD! Any one that puts anything or anyone before GOD is not worthy of the Kingdom.
Fred Hammond - No Weapon
Attention All Believers in Christ, let's get together over the Internet and have a "sho'nuff" Hallelujah Holy Ghost good time. Let us collectively stomp the devil under our feet and shout Glory! Praise the LORD!
This poor ignorant woman was too proud, too stubborn to listen to almighty GOD, to her father. Pray for her. She got "waylayed". She got tricked. She dug a pit for others. She dug a big pit for me (and probably for you) She fell lock stock and barrel for the devil's lies. Pray for her!
Pray for all the lost and fallen. Pray for those too blind, crippled and crazy to hear from the LORD. Too beaten and brutalized to put their trust in GOD. Pray to break their yoke of fear.
Be abundantly blessed today. Spread GOD's WORD. Do Not be ashamed!
This poor ignorant woman was too proud, too stubborn to listen to almighty GOD, to her father. Pray for her. She got "waylayed". She got tricked. She dug a pit for others. She dug a big pit for me (and probably for you) She fell lock stock and barrel for the devil's lies. Pray for her!
Pray for all the lost and fallen. Pray for those too blind, crippled and crazy to hear from the LORD. Too beaten and brutalized to put their trust in GOD. Pray to break their yoke of fear.
Be abundantly blessed today. Spread GOD's WORD. Do Not be ashamed!
"Jesus is waiting ..."
(singing) "Jesus is tenderly calling for you and for me."
It's been a long time coming but, it's coming. None of us can escape the retribution we are due. Yes, we have all made mistakes, sinned, if you will. We sin because we are human. We have spots and blemishes, weaknesses, we will slip and tell a lie if we are truly frightened of the consequences for our truth.
There comes a time when everyone has to look at their lives,reflect and review. You should never be so cowardly that you can not look honestly at your own life.
My grandfather did not curse. He was a true southern gentleman, always freshly attired, haircut, moustache
neatly trimmed. He wore very expensive hats and "Flo-shine shoes" (Florsheim). I think I heard him mutter the word s*** 3 times in the 27 years I knew him. Every time he said it, it had something to do with you. Yes, he did use the "n" word profusely. But, he taught me all men are equal.
He said ; "N******always trying to dump their dead s*** on somebody else." That's you Mathy. Living out lie after lie for 88 years. You pretended to lose your mind when your tall handsome husband left your a**. You could not admit that you mistreated him, did everything to emasculate him. You whored around on him and you didn't always wash or brush your teeth. Your house was pig nasty and you were always ignorant and hostile. Did nothing but rant and rave all day. He was going to have to kill you or leave. He chose to quietly escape.
When he left you pinned it on me! Claimed that I was the cause of it! LIAR!!! That is your dead s****! Entirely of your own making. Own it! Accept it!
Why did you kill your daddy? Was it because he told you over and over ;" that man ain't gon stay wid you Mathy ... ain't no man gon let no woman talk to him lak dat!" You didn't listen. Did you think outfitting him and putting your Cadillac in his name was enough , would placate him? Or did you truly believe that your "root working" was that good?
I think you just knew you had some power. Uncle Will died (the family root worker) and you tricked grieving aunt Olive out of his books on conjure and witchcraft. You promised to destroy them. But, you lied. Read and studied every word, especially his "Lost Book of Moses".
You were just like a little girl in a candy store. When cousin Rachel went fleeing, screaming into the night, after you sprinkled your dust in her suitcase, you knew, just knew, you had the power.
Granddaddy told you that you were going to hell. You just grinned that demonic Cheshire cat sly grin and proceeded to do as you pleased. You blocked blessings, stood in the way of dreams and hated! 88 years of insane jealousy and secret hatred. What did you get? You got tricked! That's what you got! The devil will trick you out of your destiny, out of your anointing, every time.
You can cling to a demon if you want to. You can play ignorant and retarded. You can pretend that I am speaking in Greek, that you are deaf and can't hear me. I came to tell you, leave all of that mess alone. Don't bother with horoscopes, Ouija boards, tarot cards, palm readers. Shun all of that "mess". It is form satan. It will keep you from your blessings. Put your trust in Almighty GOD. You will never need or want for anything. "I once was young and now am old. I have never seen the righteous forsaken or his seed begging bread."
"Deliver me, O LORD from the evil man: preserve me from the violent man; which imagine mischiefs in their heart;" (Psalm 140:1 - 2a)
Stay in His WORD children. Pray every day for GOD to take that awful fear that has been planted in your heart. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
It's been a long time coming but, it's coming. None of us can escape the retribution we are due. Yes, we have all made mistakes, sinned, if you will. We sin because we are human. We have spots and blemishes, weaknesses, we will slip and tell a lie if we are truly frightened of the consequences for our truth.
There comes a time when everyone has to look at their lives,reflect and review. You should never be so cowardly that you can not look honestly at your own life.
My grandfather did not curse. He was a true southern gentleman, always freshly attired, haircut, moustache
neatly trimmed. He wore very expensive hats and "Flo-shine shoes" (Florsheim). I think I heard him mutter the word s*** 3 times in the 27 years I knew him. Every time he said it, it had something to do with you. Yes, he did use the "n" word profusely. But, he taught me all men are equal.
He said ; "N******always trying to dump their dead s*** on somebody else." That's you Mathy. Living out lie after lie for 88 years. You pretended to lose your mind when your tall handsome husband left your a**. You could not admit that you mistreated him, did everything to emasculate him. You whored around on him and you didn't always wash or brush your teeth. Your house was pig nasty and you were always ignorant and hostile. Did nothing but rant and rave all day. He was going to have to kill you or leave. He chose to quietly escape.
When he left you pinned it on me! Claimed that I was the cause of it! LIAR!!! That is your dead s****! Entirely of your own making. Own it! Accept it!
Why did you kill your daddy? Was it because he told you over and over ;" that man ain't gon stay wid you Mathy ... ain't no man gon let no woman talk to him lak dat!" You didn't listen. Did you think outfitting him and putting your Cadillac in his name was enough , would placate him? Or did you truly believe that your "root working" was that good?
I think you just knew you had some power. Uncle Will died (the family root worker) and you tricked grieving aunt Olive out of his books on conjure and witchcraft. You promised to destroy them. But, you lied. Read and studied every word, especially his "Lost Book of Moses".
You were just like a little girl in a candy store. When cousin Rachel went fleeing, screaming into the night, after you sprinkled your dust in her suitcase, you knew, just knew, you had the power.
Granddaddy told you that you were going to hell. You just grinned that demonic Cheshire cat sly grin and proceeded to do as you pleased. You blocked blessings, stood in the way of dreams and hated! 88 years of insane jealousy and secret hatred. What did you get? You got tricked! That's what you got! The devil will trick you out of your destiny, out of your anointing, every time.
You can cling to a demon if you want to. You can play ignorant and retarded. You can pretend that I am speaking in Greek, that you are deaf and can't hear me. I came to tell you, leave all of that mess alone. Don't bother with horoscopes, Ouija boards, tarot cards, palm readers. Shun all of that "mess". It is form satan. It will keep you from your blessings. Put your trust in Almighty GOD. You will never need or want for anything. "I once was young and now am old. I have never seen the righteous forsaken or his seed begging bread."
"Deliver me, O LORD from the evil man: preserve me from the violent man; which imagine mischiefs in their heart;" (Psalm 140:1 - 2a)
Stay in His WORD children. Pray every day for GOD to take that awful fear that has been planted in your heart. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
You gon mess around ...
and get left back. That's what we used to say to students that didn't pay attention or study. We all knew that we had to study in order to learn properly. The math teacher taught you how to do the problem. But we all knew that we had to practice doing that problem in order to catch on to steps. Practice did make perfect.
When we saw that problem again on the test we got it right because we mastered it. Homework was real. Sometimes you would have to stay up late at night completing your homework. There was no such thing as turning it in late. As a matter of fact you would be ashamed to tell your teacher that you didn't have your homework. Some nerds like me took pride in writing in the best manuscript. Embellishing your numbers or problems artistically. For that very reason Geometry was always my favorite math class. I had a pack of colored pencils that I cherished. I loved walking in the room seeing my homework on display with a big red 100% on it.
Some where between my graduating from high school in 1969 and entering the teaching profession in 1974 , that all changed. I had no idea that I was going to be confronted with so many lazy, disrespectful, "want an 'A' for nothing, lying, backstabbing, generation of vipers, in my life!
I retired after 30 years and I never want to go back. I would rather eat (excrement) with a knitting needle and sleep in a hollow log.
The American public school system has systematically ruined countless generations of would be scholars. Teachers are not magicians. You can't learn and retain anything just because a teacher stood in front of you for and hour trying to "teach" you.
How dare you resent reading and absolutely refuse to do it ,then blame me when you flunk the test!
I don't know what America is going to come to. It is not going to end well. The Bible speaks of a "generation of vipers". They are sure here! I am not exaggerating. Look at them! Pants hanging off their behinds. Why? They are telling you what to kiss. They mean it. They are mad! These children are angry, feel entitled! Will stand in your face, cuss you straight out. Call you boring. Tell you that you can't teach, that you don't make learning fun, that you don't know what you are talking about.
No respect! Teachers in America don't get any respect and very little monetary compensation. "You get what you pay for." "You get your just and honest due on this planet earth."
We live in a country that deliberately created millions upon millions of selfish, spoiled, non-thinkers. We cry foul when they hunt us down in our schools and colleges and take our lives in mass.
Every one is arguing over gun control. It is not "gun control", it's mind control. It's pay back for throwing our children away. It's our fault for neglecting our greatest natural resource, our children.
"Just saying." All those that want to learn, that want to earn a quality education, will.
When we saw that problem again on the test we got it right because we mastered it. Homework was real. Sometimes you would have to stay up late at night completing your homework. There was no such thing as turning it in late. As a matter of fact you would be ashamed to tell your teacher that you didn't have your homework. Some nerds like me took pride in writing in the best manuscript. Embellishing your numbers or problems artistically. For that very reason Geometry was always my favorite math class. I had a pack of colored pencils that I cherished. I loved walking in the room seeing my homework on display with a big red 100% on it.
Some where between my graduating from high school in 1969 and entering the teaching profession in 1974 , that all changed. I had no idea that I was going to be confronted with so many lazy, disrespectful, "want an 'A' for nothing, lying, backstabbing, generation of vipers, in my life!
I retired after 30 years and I never want to go back. I would rather eat (excrement) with a knitting needle and sleep in a hollow log.
The American public school system has systematically ruined countless generations of would be scholars. Teachers are not magicians. You can't learn and retain anything just because a teacher stood in front of you for and hour trying to "teach" you.
How dare you resent reading and absolutely refuse to do it ,then blame me when you flunk the test!
I don't know what America is going to come to. It is not going to end well. The Bible speaks of a "generation of vipers". They are sure here! I am not exaggerating. Look at them! Pants hanging off their behinds. Why? They are telling you what to kiss. They mean it. They are mad! These children are angry, feel entitled! Will stand in your face, cuss you straight out. Call you boring. Tell you that you can't teach, that you don't make learning fun, that you don't know what you are talking about.
No respect! Teachers in America don't get any respect and very little monetary compensation. "You get what you pay for." "You get your just and honest due on this planet earth."
We live in a country that deliberately created millions upon millions of selfish, spoiled, non-thinkers. We cry foul when they hunt us down in our schools and colleges and take our lives in mass.
Every one is arguing over gun control. It is not "gun control", it's mind control. It's pay back for throwing our children away. It's our fault for neglecting our greatest natural resource, our children.
"Just saying." All those that want to learn, that want to earn a quality education, will.
You can't define me!
How are you going to define me when you don't know who or what you are? Work on yourself first. GOD told you to; "work out your own salvation with fear and trembling." No, you didn't pay that no mind. Your daddy told you to "never do anything that you would be ashamed to admit you did." You made sure you ignored that advice.
You refused to go to college, dropped out, fled or something. But, you had the nerve to take your daddy's hard earned tuition money. You pretended like you were still in college. You lied! You acted out a lie. When you got found out, discovered, you hated. You hated everyone that told on you, that talked about you.
Not one bit of remorse or regret. No apology, no promise to pay the money back. Just mad! Just angry; "Don't you sorry a** n****** say S****! to me." "Eva'body always talkin' bout me! Stay out my bizness! Git yo' own bizness to tend to. GAWD made you and GAWD damn You!"
That's always been your attitude Mathy and that is why you have floundered and failed. You poor woman. For 88 years you have failed to see the error of your ways. GOD told you that; "envy is rottenness to the bones." You deliberately chose rottenness. All the while claiming that you were the most brilliant, the most beautiful, the kindest, the most generous. All lies from your corrupt imagination.
No, you will not remain anonymous. My immediate and extended family will not remain clueless. My brothers can remain in your clutches if they want to. I won't! and I will tell! For those of you that advise me to;"get over it, already." How? How do you get over a life time of secret torture? How can you not think about it? Not be consumed? Sure it is easy for you to say if your biggest problem has only been a hangnail.
How can you understand my plight, empathize with me, if you had a normal loving mother? You have no reference. It is beyond your comprehension. It is not that you were luckier or more blessed. The life GOD destined for me is the one that I have lived and enjoyed.
I enjoyed every failed scheme. You never gave me one red cent to further my college career. Why? Were you hoping I would drop out, give up? I called you at the end of every semester crying because A.&T. would refuse to let me take my exams until my tuition was paid. You always said the exact same thing;"I ain't got no f****** money!" , while you tooled around town in your new Cadillac.
From the way I've been spilling my guts on this blog for the past several years it is obvious to both of us, that I always knew. I knew when you threw those dry unwrapped peanut butter sandwiches in my Superman lunch box, when I was six years old that you never cared for me, never loved me.
Perhaps I can't understand "lack of natural affection". But, GOD can. He can understand His children that He was forced to release over to a reprobate mind because they refused to listen, refused to obey.
I can't hate you for not loving me. The truth is, your "not loving me" was the best gift you ever gave me. That and my grandfather, Jerome Walters. How any one with such a loving wise father could turn out so blind and ignorant is beyond me.
It is like you loved taunting him with your disobedience. Your loved flaunting your many sins in his face. Then cursing him out if he dared to say anything. Why the bullet? Why did you shoot your own father in the heart? What kind of mind do you have? How could you perpetrate such a cruel hoax against such a righteous man?
You are not trying to put your pea brain up against Almighty GOD, are you? Yes, I was always afraid of you. No, it was more than afraid. I was terrified! I was terrified to know the truth. I didn't want to know. I didn't think I could bear it.
"Know ye the truth, Know ye the truth, Know ye the truth ..." Jesus kept talking to me. Kept telling me; "Fear no man! Fear no man!..."
I know that I never would have made it without GOD on my side. Woman! You fell low and can't get up. Your phony friends won't help you up. They are glad that you are in that ditch. How could you choose evil over good? How can you prefer satan over the LORD Jesus Christ!? Did you really believe that your hair and color entitled you to have your way?
Well, you have hated me for 62 years for absolutely no reason. You always said that my mouth ran like goose s*** under the moon light. (you are so eloquent and picturesque in your speech) Maybe this blog will give you reason. Perhaps now your awful hatred can be justified. No ... I've got to talk about you. I must tell. This is the only way I can heal properly. This is the only way I can know what I am really thinking.
You know that. You are a prolific writer. No, you never published. But, you could have. Yes, you could have been a beauty queen, a great actress or a great writer. Poor Martha, you chose evil. I don't know why. I do know that you can "unchoose" it. You can rebuke the devil. You can still give your life to Christ.
No, I am not going to stop talking about you because you life is too juicy. You are much too clever an imp for the devil to slip by unnoticed. I never thought I would say this but, thank you for hating me.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
You refused to go to college, dropped out, fled or something. But, you had the nerve to take your daddy's hard earned tuition money. You pretended like you were still in college. You lied! You acted out a lie. When you got found out, discovered, you hated. You hated everyone that told on you, that talked about you.
Not one bit of remorse or regret. No apology, no promise to pay the money back. Just mad! Just angry; "Don't you sorry a** n****** say S****! to me." "Eva'body always talkin' bout me! Stay out my bizness! Git yo' own bizness to tend to. GAWD made you and GAWD damn You!"
That's always been your attitude Mathy and that is why you have floundered and failed. You poor woman. For 88 years you have failed to see the error of your ways. GOD told you that; "envy is rottenness to the bones." You deliberately chose rottenness. All the while claiming that you were the most brilliant, the most beautiful, the kindest, the most generous. All lies from your corrupt imagination.
No, you will not remain anonymous. My immediate and extended family will not remain clueless. My brothers can remain in your clutches if they want to. I won't! and I will tell! For those of you that advise me to;"get over it, already." How? How do you get over a life time of secret torture? How can you not think about it? Not be consumed? Sure it is easy for you to say if your biggest problem has only been a hangnail.
How can you understand my plight, empathize with me, if you had a normal loving mother? You have no reference. It is beyond your comprehension. It is not that you were luckier or more blessed. The life GOD destined for me is the one that I have lived and enjoyed.
I enjoyed every failed scheme. You never gave me one red cent to further my college career. Why? Were you hoping I would drop out, give up? I called you at the end of every semester crying because A.&T. would refuse to let me take my exams until my tuition was paid. You always said the exact same thing;"I ain't got no f****** money!" , while you tooled around town in your new Cadillac.
From the way I've been spilling my guts on this blog for the past several years it is obvious to both of us, that I always knew. I knew when you threw those dry unwrapped peanut butter sandwiches in my Superman lunch box, when I was six years old that you never cared for me, never loved me.
Perhaps I can't understand "lack of natural affection". But, GOD can. He can understand His children that He was forced to release over to a reprobate mind because they refused to listen, refused to obey.
I can't hate you for not loving me. The truth is, your "not loving me" was the best gift you ever gave me. That and my grandfather, Jerome Walters. How any one with such a loving wise father could turn out so blind and ignorant is beyond me.
It is like you loved taunting him with your disobedience. Your loved flaunting your many sins in his face. Then cursing him out if he dared to say anything. Why the bullet? Why did you shoot your own father in the heart? What kind of mind do you have? How could you perpetrate such a cruel hoax against such a righteous man?
You are not trying to put your pea brain up against Almighty GOD, are you? Yes, I was always afraid of you. No, it was more than afraid. I was terrified! I was terrified to know the truth. I didn't want to know. I didn't think I could bear it.
"Know ye the truth, Know ye the truth, Know ye the truth ..." Jesus kept talking to me. Kept telling me; "Fear no man! Fear no man!..."
I know that I never would have made it without GOD on my side. Woman! You fell low and can't get up. Your phony friends won't help you up. They are glad that you are in that ditch. How could you choose evil over good? How can you prefer satan over the LORD Jesus Christ!? Did you really believe that your hair and color entitled you to have your way?
Well, you have hated me for 62 years for absolutely no reason. You always said that my mouth ran like goose s*** under the moon light. (you are so eloquent and picturesque in your speech) Maybe this blog will give you reason. Perhaps now your awful hatred can be justified. No ... I've got to talk about you. I must tell. This is the only way I can heal properly. This is the only way I can know what I am really thinking.
You know that. You are a prolific writer. No, you never published. But, you could have. Yes, you could have been a beauty queen, a great actress or a great writer. Poor Martha, you chose evil. I don't know why. I do know that you can "unchoose" it. You can rebuke the devil. You can still give your life to Christ.
No, I am not going to stop talking about you because you life is too juicy. You are much too clever an imp for the devil to slip by unnoticed. I never thought I would say this but, thank you for hating me.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Monday, June 24, 2013
bobby bland - aint nothing you can do
Bobby Blue Bland,
(Robert Calvin Bland) died yesterday (6/23/2013) in Memphis, Tennessee at the age of 83. He left a great legacy of down home gut wrenching music. I love this song. It is so true. "When you have a heartache, they ain't nothing you can do."
He must have been peeking in my window. I was 11 and some how stumbled upon a very kind lady that gave me a free piano lesson. She declared that I had promise and offered to teach me for 25 cents a lesson. I ran home and told my mother. I will never forget how she growled and snarled; "You ain't takin' No Piano Lessons!" And I didn't. To this day I never learned to play the piano. I had childhood friends that complained about being forced to take music lessons and dance lessons.
Most parents want only the best for their children. But I want you to know, to put you on notice that there are some parents that need to destroy their children just so their sorry lives won't look so bad.
It doesn't matter. It is not going to work. GOD is watching. He knows every thought. He knows the number of hairs on your head. Why would a woman get into competition with her own daughter? "...mothers will be against daughters..."
You need to know that; "You might get by, but you won't get away." "GOD will slow walk you down. He will reveal you."
(Robert Calvin Bland) died yesterday (6/23/2013) in Memphis, Tennessee at the age of 83. He left a great legacy of down home gut wrenching music. I love this song. It is so true. "When you have a heartache, they ain't nothing you can do."
He must have been peeking in my window. I was 11 and some how stumbled upon a very kind lady that gave me a free piano lesson. She declared that I had promise and offered to teach me for 25 cents a lesson. I ran home and told my mother. I will never forget how she growled and snarled; "You ain't takin' No Piano Lessons!" And I didn't. To this day I never learned to play the piano. I had childhood friends that complained about being forced to take music lessons and dance lessons.
Most parents want only the best for their children. But I want you to know, to put you on notice that there are some parents that need to destroy their children just so their sorry lives won't look so bad.
It doesn't matter. It is not going to work. GOD is watching. He knows every thought. He knows the number of hairs on your head. Why would a woman get into competition with her own daughter? "...mothers will be against daughters..."
You need to know that; "You might get by, but you won't get away." "GOD will slow walk you down. He will reveal you."
Plug up your ears!
Quit listening to those lies straight out that demon's mouth. Practice discernment, child! It is not where you are from, it is where you are going.
"I'm from right 'round Lumberton." ; my grandfather would say. " I come up here from Robeson county following Pap, my daddy. He was tenant farming for Old mistah Lem. We wuz puttin' in 'bacca ... my daddy reached fa a limb to beat me. I said;" Old man you ain't gon' beat me no mo! ... I wuz twenty one years old ... still working fah my daddy, still letting him take eva' cent I earned."
I would sit around my grandfather for hours just listening to his stories. Using my vivid imagination to see the beautiful landscapes, hear all the great adventures. I loved how he told me that I was just like his grandmother. "Naw, she didn't take no gruff off nobody. Ah tiny luddle thang lak you, granddawthur. She was a free issue, bought hur own freedom ... sho did!"
I heard many stories growing up in Wade, North Carolina with my granddaddy. The best one, I know and experienced. It had to be around the Christmas of 1959. It seems this old cracker named Cleo *Mo took a notion to blow up our church, Wesley A.M.E. Zion Chapel. It sat right there on highway 301, in between Godwin and Dunn.
Well this old white man didn't have a lot of fondness for black folks it seems. I don't know why. He was rich and owned and farmed a lot of land. He even owned a "filling station" and grocery store. He was known for working n****** for nothing, making himself richer everyday.
Well I guess all that money, land and being white didn't make him happy enough. They say he loved to drink as in "get sloppy drunk". Well on this very cold frigid night the devil told him and that old Indian he hung out with to drive down the road and take some dynamite and blow our church up. Things definitely didn't go the way they planned. It seems his pickup truck was just full to the brim with dynamite.
Cleo *Mo and the old Indian were as drunk as skunks, driving up and down the road at midnight causing havoc. They say Cleo lit the fuse on the bundle of dynamite and handed it off to that old Indian to throw into Wesley. When the Indian went to throw it, the dynamite hit the glass window and fell on the floor of the truck. The old Indian forgot that all the windows were rolled up because it was so cold. They didn't have push buttons on windows like the do now. They say that old Indian fumbled in the dark for the bundle of dynamite but it must have rolled under the seat or something because he couldn't find it. Well, he didn't find it it time.
That old pickup truck, Cleo *Mo, and the old Indian blew clear to smitter-rens! Broke out all the front windows in Wesley. It was such a great explosion, it blew out windows for miles around.
They never had to bury Cleo *Mo and that old Indian. There was nothing left! I remember sifting through the bomb site. I was a little girl walking through the ashes picking up pieces of leather and melted metal.
I was pretty happy that day. The nerve of those two idiots, trying to blow up my granddaddy's church. We all laughed and said in unison; "GOD sits high, but He looks low."
Praise the LORD!
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"I'm from right 'round Lumberton." ; my grandfather would say. " I come up here from Robeson county following Pap, my daddy. He was tenant farming for Old mistah Lem. We wuz puttin' in 'bacca ... my daddy reached fa a limb to beat me. I said;" Old man you ain't gon' beat me no mo! ... I wuz twenty one years old ... still working fah my daddy, still letting him take eva' cent I earned."
I would sit around my grandfather for hours just listening to his stories. Using my vivid imagination to see the beautiful landscapes, hear all the great adventures. I loved how he told me that I was just like his grandmother. "Naw, she didn't take no gruff off nobody. Ah tiny luddle thang lak you, granddawthur. She was a free issue, bought hur own freedom ... sho did!"
I heard many stories growing up in Wade, North Carolina with my granddaddy. The best one, I know and experienced. It had to be around the Christmas of 1959. It seems this old cracker named Cleo *Mo took a notion to blow up our church, Wesley A.M.E. Zion Chapel. It sat right there on highway 301, in between Godwin and Dunn.
Well this old white man didn't have a lot of fondness for black folks it seems. I don't know why. He was rich and owned and farmed a lot of land. He even owned a "filling station" and grocery store. He was known for working n****** for nothing, making himself richer everyday.
Well I guess all that money, land and being white didn't make him happy enough. They say he loved to drink as in "get sloppy drunk". Well on this very cold frigid night the devil told him and that old Indian he hung out with to drive down the road and take some dynamite and blow our church up. Things definitely didn't go the way they planned. It seems his pickup truck was just full to the brim with dynamite.
Cleo *Mo and the old Indian were as drunk as skunks, driving up and down the road at midnight causing havoc. They say Cleo lit the fuse on the bundle of dynamite and handed it off to that old Indian to throw into Wesley. When the Indian went to throw it, the dynamite hit the glass window and fell on the floor of the truck. The old Indian forgot that all the windows were rolled up because it was so cold. They didn't have push buttons on windows like the do now. They say that old Indian fumbled in the dark for the bundle of dynamite but it must have rolled under the seat or something because he couldn't find it. Well, he didn't find it it time.
That old pickup truck, Cleo *Mo, and the old Indian blew clear to smitter-rens! Broke out all the front windows in Wesley. It was such a great explosion, it blew out windows for miles around.
They never had to bury Cleo *Mo and that old Indian. There was nothing left! I remember sifting through the bomb site. I was a little girl walking through the ashes picking up pieces of leather and melted metal.
I was pretty happy that day. The nerve of those two idiots, trying to blow up my granddaddy's church. We all laughed and said in unison; "GOD sits high, but He looks low."
Praise the LORD!
Copyright 2013 All rights reserved
"Dat Man know what He talkin' 'bout!"
"You heah me! ... He sho' know!"
"What man you talkin' bout?"
"Jee-zus! fool! ... He know 'cause His Father taught Him ... Let me tell you rat ni ... You learn to listen to Jee-zus you gone be alright."
"You 'sho!?"
"I 'sho is! Jest as 'sho as He rose from the ded and ascended into heben and sits on duh right side of GAWD our Father! Furst thang He told you wuz to "love ye one another as I have loved you." He didn't give us no room to do it our way. Make 'sho you know that deh is some peoples dat gone try and be slick. They want to slick they way thru life. Don't wurry, dey ain't gone git nowhur."
"Hi you know?"
""Cause He dun told me! It's in His book! Praise duh LAWD!"
"You say Praise duh LAWD too much! Don't nobody want to hear all dat. It don't take all dat!"
"Well when do you Praise duh LAWD?"
"I praise Him when I need sumpt'un'"
"Well that might be the 'cause of all your misery ... If'fen you knew the LAWD in the pardoning of yo' sins, if you prayed fa' Him to indwell in your heart He might wud lead you in the path of righteouness."
"GAWD know my heart Honey!"
"Yea, dat might be duh 'cause of all yo' misery ... GAWD know. GAWD is trying to tell you that you been lied to, lead astray. Money, cars and houses ain't whut make you happy. Marrying a purdy man or woman ain't gon' do it either. You need the Holy Ghost! You need to know that we all duh same in duh eyes of the LAWD. He love all of us duh same. You don't haft tuh be highly educated, yalla or near bout white. You don't haft to be rich or speak duh King's English. Dere ain't no shame in the Holy Ghost. Dey ain't no shame at duh foot of the cross. Quit trying to follow dis world. Don't follow the crowd. You know dey on dat wide road."
*Today's blog is in honor of my grandfather, Jerome Walters. He was born in Robeson county , North Carolina, July 10, 1894. He was a brilliant man and his love and anointed teachings saved my life. My grandfather was truly phenomenal , a true philosopher. The racist attitudes of mankind robbed him of the opportunity to become a great orator or published professor. His own daughter took his life when he was 84 years old. I do not subscribe to the philosophy of suffering in silence for the good of the perpetrator.
If the truth were known, if the laws had been followed she would have been incarcerated at age 16. Do not judge me. This blog was created and dedicated to my healing. GOD is knitting me back together one cell at a time. The world needs to know that there are some evil brilliant Jezebels on this earth. The greatest irony is that many of them are hiding in our churches. Sitting in pulpits, occupying high places, full of the devil. Just as demonic as the day is long.
The first time Martha tried to kill her daddy she was 16. For some reason she escaped incarceration. But I want you to know that every day since her attempted murder, she has never been anything but a phony demonic witch. Please don't misjudge me and think this is hate talking. I no longer hate her. "I count it all joy." No, I don't respect her. I refuse to associate with her. Yes, she is kin, but she is not my kind.
Jesus told us to fear no man (woman). Look where fear will get you. You will be tethered to a demonic woman that you know is plotting to destroy your life. She will rob and destroy, lead you astray and laugh in your face, over and over! She will laugh in that shrill high pitched shriek of a demon , delighted and titillated in your torture. You can not fear her. You must flee her! Fear will keep you complacent, your mouth shut, hurting, in devastating pain waiting on that old succubus to die. It is not for us to decide when she should die. Evidently GOD wants her here for His own purpose.
Don't wait on this world to free you. The truth is, no one in this world cares. Who has time to care about you? You must care about yourself. You must love yourself, although she taught you to hate yourself. She destroyed every bit of self-esteem you could have had. Trust GOD! Lean not to your own understanding. Don't listen to another lie spewing out of her mouth. Jesus came to rescue you, to give you an abundant life. Have Faith, trust GOD with all your heart and mind.
"Know ye the truth and the truth will set you free!" Throw that dead demonic weight off of your back. Live the life that GOD destined for you. Read and study your Bible. Sing in the sunshine!
Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
"What man you talkin' bout?"
"Jee-zus! fool! ... He know 'cause His Father taught Him ... Let me tell you rat ni ... You learn to listen to Jee-zus you gone be alright."
"You 'sho!?"
"I 'sho is! Jest as 'sho as He rose from the ded and ascended into heben and sits on duh right side of GAWD our Father! Furst thang He told you wuz to "love ye one another as I have loved you." He didn't give us no room to do it our way. Make 'sho you know that deh is some peoples dat gone try and be slick. They want to slick they way thru life. Don't wurry, dey ain't gone git nowhur."
"Hi you know?"
""Cause He dun told me! It's in His book! Praise duh LAWD!"
"You say Praise duh LAWD too much! Don't nobody want to hear all dat. It don't take all dat!"
"Well when do you Praise duh LAWD?"
"I praise Him when I need sumpt'un'"
"Well that might be the 'cause of all your misery ... If'fen you knew the LAWD in the pardoning of yo' sins, if you prayed fa' Him to indwell in your heart He might wud lead you in the path of righteouness."
"GAWD know my heart Honey!"
"Yea, dat might be duh 'cause of all yo' misery ... GAWD know. GAWD is trying to tell you that you been lied to, lead astray. Money, cars and houses ain't whut make you happy. Marrying a purdy man or woman ain't gon' do it either. You need the Holy Ghost! You need to know that we all duh same in duh eyes of the LAWD. He love all of us duh same. You don't haft tuh be highly educated, yalla or near bout white. You don't haft to be rich or speak duh King's English. Dere ain't no shame in the Holy Ghost. Dey ain't no shame at duh foot of the cross. Quit trying to follow dis world. Don't follow the crowd. You know dey on dat wide road."
*Today's blog is in honor of my grandfather, Jerome Walters. He was born in Robeson county , North Carolina, July 10, 1894. He was a brilliant man and his love and anointed teachings saved my life. My grandfather was truly phenomenal , a true philosopher. The racist attitudes of mankind robbed him of the opportunity to become a great orator or published professor. His own daughter took his life when he was 84 years old. I do not subscribe to the philosophy of suffering in silence for the good of the perpetrator.
If the truth were known, if the laws had been followed she would have been incarcerated at age 16. Do not judge me. This blog was created and dedicated to my healing. GOD is knitting me back together one cell at a time. The world needs to know that there are some evil brilliant Jezebels on this earth. The greatest irony is that many of them are hiding in our churches. Sitting in pulpits, occupying high places, full of the devil. Just as demonic as the day is long.
The first time Martha tried to kill her daddy she was 16. For some reason she escaped incarceration. But I want you to know that every day since her attempted murder, she has never been anything but a phony demonic witch. Please don't misjudge me and think this is hate talking. I no longer hate her. "I count it all joy." No, I don't respect her. I refuse to associate with her. Yes, she is kin, but she is not my kind.
Jesus told us to fear no man (woman). Look where fear will get you. You will be tethered to a demonic woman that you know is plotting to destroy your life. She will rob and destroy, lead you astray and laugh in your face, over and over! She will laugh in that shrill high pitched shriek of a demon , delighted and titillated in your torture. You can not fear her. You must flee her! Fear will keep you complacent, your mouth shut, hurting, in devastating pain waiting on that old succubus to die. It is not for us to decide when she should die. Evidently GOD wants her here for His own purpose.
Don't wait on this world to free you. The truth is, no one in this world cares. Who has time to care about you? You must care about yourself. You must love yourself, although she taught you to hate yourself. She destroyed every bit of self-esteem you could have had. Trust GOD! Lean not to your own understanding. Don't listen to another lie spewing out of her mouth. Jesus came to rescue you, to give you an abundant life. Have Faith, trust GOD with all your heart and mind.
"Know ye the truth and the truth will set you free!" Throw that dead demonic weight off of your back. Live the life that GOD destined for you. Read and study your Bible. Sing in the sunshine!
Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Saturday, June 22, 2013
"There is Power!"
"Wonder working Power in the blood!"
Dear LORD this prayer is for the brokenhearted, the dismayed, those that have been purloined, the lost. Look down from heaven and have mercy on us.
Thank you for your Power. Heal all of your children that have been crushed, reduced to dust. Pick us up LORD. Set our course, right our wrongs, live in us abundantly.
There was another article in the paper today, a 26 year old man killed his girlfriend's 2 year old son because he said the child disrespected him. Instantly it reminded me of when my "mother" held me captive in the woods just beyond my grandfather's house. She kept me in the woods cursing me, spewing filthy venom on me for telling my cousin Wright Walters who my daddy was. I was 3 years old!
How long LORD will these predators live among us? How long will the world tolerate baby rapists? How long will we keep silent and turn our heads because the truth is too revolting to know, to think about?
Dear LORD I pray for that little baby and all our children that are in the hands of demonic predators right now. Protect them LORD! Deliver them from the hand of evil.
I don't understand such evil. I know it exists. I know that it is only by the Grace of Almighty GOD I am still living and able to testify. I know it for myself. The world is in shock! My family is in "silent shock". Too ashamed to help me testify, waiting around for that old demon to die.
What are you going to tell GOD when you see Him? "Yes LORD I knew, but I didn't want to say nuttin'" "I just cudden believe it LAWD ... she was always nice to me." "I wuz her favorite, she nevah did nuttin' to me." "My name is Les ... keep me out dat mess."
It is one thing if you don't have a dream. But, it is an entirely different issue when your dream is to destroy everyone else's dream.
A young man pulled himself up by his own bootstraps. Brutalized and despised for being a bastard child to a closet harlot. Became a medical doctor despite a mountain of adversity. Established a thriving practice on Owen drive. He was doing too well for that demonic mother. She came in like the she devil she is and destroyed it. Humiliated "that boy", told lie after lie on him. He left town for 25 years.
"There is Power, wonder working Power in the blood of the Lamb." We don't have to continue to be victimized by this troll. GOD exposed her for the phony preacher she is. She means you no good. She has no love in her heart, just pure raw hatred.
Put her under your feet. "There is Power! Wonder working Power!" Put her where she should have been for 88 years! What are you afraid of? Are you afraid of GOD's Gospel Truth? Are you afraid that she will hate you? She already hates you. That is all she has every done since you breathed your first breath. She is a liar and wants to even the score. According to her she would have finished college, her life would not have been ruined if you n****** hadn't been born.
She thinks she did right. She has the right to secretly torture you and steal any possible hope for joy and success. She's "yalla", light bright and damn near white. She has good hair. She can do what ever she pleases. She is the smartest, the best and the brightest. She prays, she thinks that she has GOD in her pocket. She is a great actress. She can fool GOD Himself.
"There is Wonder working Power in the Blood." You better know it. Put on the whole armor of GOD. Pray, seek His face. "Choose you this day whom thy shall serve." Are you going to continue to cower? To run from the truth? Why are you ashamed? You didn't do it! She did it!
There is no point in you lying and denying for her. "For the wrath of GOD is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men (women) who hold the truth in unrighteousness." (Romans 1:18)
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Dear LORD this prayer is for the brokenhearted, the dismayed, those that have been purloined, the lost. Look down from heaven and have mercy on us.
Thank you for your Power. Heal all of your children that have been crushed, reduced to dust. Pick us up LORD. Set our course, right our wrongs, live in us abundantly.
There was another article in the paper today, a 26 year old man killed his girlfriend's 2 year old son because he said the child disrespected him. Instantly it reminded me of when my "mother" held me captive in the woods just beyond my grandfather's house. She kept me in the woods cursing me, spewing filthy venom on me for telling my cousin Wright Walters who my daddy was. I was 3 years old!
How long LORD will these predators live among us? How long will the world tolerate baby rapists? How long will we keep silent and turn our heads because the truth is too revolting to know, to think about?
Dear LORD I pray for that little baby and all our children that are in the hands of demonic predators right now. Protect them LORD! Deliver them from the hand of evil.
I don't understand such evil. I know it exists. I know that it is only by the Grace of Almighty GOD I am still living and able to testify. I know it for myself. The world is in shock! My family is in "silent shock". Too ashamed to help me testify, waiting around for that old demon to die.
What are you going to tell GOD when you see Him? "Yes LORD I knew, but I didn't want to say nuttin'" "I just cudden believe it LAWD ... she was always nice to me." "I wuz her favorite, she nevah did nuttin' to me." "My name is Les ... keep me out dat mess."
It is one thing if you don't have a dream. But, it is an entirely different issue when your dream is to destroy everyone else's dream.
A young man pulled himself up by his own bootstraps. Brutalized and despised for being a bastard child to a closet harlot. Became a medical doctor despite a mountain of adversity. Established a thriving practice on Owen drive. He was doing too well for that demonic mother. She came in like the she devil she is and destroyed it. Humiliated "that boy", told lie after lie on him. He left town for 25 years.
"There is Power, wonder working Power in the blood of the Lamb." We don't have to continue to be victimized by this troll. GOD exposed her for the phony preacher she is. She means you no good. She has no love in her heart, just pure raw hatred.
Put her under your feet. "There is Power! Wonder working Power!" Put her where she should have been for 88 years! What are you afraid of? Are you afraid of GOD's Gospel Truth? Are you afraid that she will hate you? She already hates you. That is all she has every done since you breathed your first breath. She is a liar and wants to even the score. According to her she would have finished college, her life would not have been ruined if you n****** hadn't been born.
She thinks she did right. She has the right to secretly torture you and steal any possible hope for joy and success. She's "yalla", light bright and damn near white. She has good hair. She can do what ever she pleases. She is the smartest, the best and the brightest. She prays, she thinks that she has GOD in her pocket. She is a great actress. She can fool GOD Himself.
"There is Wonder working Power in the Blood." You better know it. Put on the whole armor of GOD. Pray, seek His face. "Choose you this day whom thy shall serve." Are you going to continue to cower? To run from the truth? Why are you ashamed? You didn't do it! She did it!
There is no point in you lying and denying for her. "For the wrath of GOD is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men (women) who hold the truth in unrighteousness." (Romans 1:18)
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Friday, June 21, 2013
Everybody Plays The Fool - The Main Ingredient (1972)
You don't have to remain a fool just because you played the fool.
The O'Jays - Back Stabbers
Don't you dare believe that all
Backstabbers are strangers, or so called friends. Some of them are in your family. In your household. Jesus is trying to tell you.
Backstabbers are strangers, or so called friends. Some of them are in your family. In your household. Jesus is trying to tell you.
"The best laid plans ...
(schemes) of mice and men often go awry." I understand what John Steinbeck understood, evil can't win. No matter how brilliant you are or think you are, your evil demonic plans will fail you every time.
Why? Because they are demonic, your plans are from the evil one. This is GOD's world. "He sits high and looks low." "His eye is on the sparrow."
From birth I knew I was His little sparrow. A little brow sparrow. I have always loved GOD. I could never "not love the LORD". It was something I always knew I was born to do. The very thought of the LORD has always made me feel warm and protected. I've never had any doubt that GOD loves me and will always lead and protect me. I guess you can call it confidence.
You need Confidence in this life. If you intend to walk, survive, and thrive on this earth, you need the Confidence of Almighty GOD, confidence that only He can plant in your heart.
GOD planted His Love in every heart. It must be nurtured, cultivated. I assure you that it is there. Please learn to listen to the voice of the LORD whispering in your ear. You know GOD loves you. You don't have to earn His love. If you truly love the LORD, your greatest pleasure is to live right, is to serve Him. Scheming, deceiving, lying and plotting is not necessary. Ladies you don't have to sell yourself into bondage, exchange your beautiful body to someone you detest for rent or your car note. Those are lies from the devil designed to rob you of your confidence, of your faith.
Yes, you are going to be rebuked, talked about, scorned. Most of all you are going to be manipulated, led astray. The evil one wants to keep you from the victory that is yours. The evil one wants you destroyed, flat on your back, under her feet.
Quit listening to them, don't keep company with them. Rid your mind of the ignorant nonsense they taught you. Rid yourself of the hatred they planted in your heart.
Dear LORD, thank You for Your WORDS, Your wisdom.
I always knew. Yes, I knew that something was mighty wrong with her. I didn't have a name for it. I knew that it was terrifying and the best I could do was keep my mouth shut, try to say our of her way and earn an excellent education. I was a child but I always knew that an education, a degree was the key to my freedom.
I am glad that I didn't know how much she hated me, how much she envied me and how desperately she wanted to destroy me. I couldn't have made it. I will tell you right now. This woman made me contemplate suicide more than once. Motherhood saved me. Birthing my beautiful daughter changed my life. My daughter and Jerome Walters are the two great loves of my life. Both are wise and GOD sent.
My daughter created this blog for me. She heard and saw me cry everyday. As a very loved daughter she could understand my pain. It is one thing to have an unloving mother that does not care about her children, about her daughter.
But, to have a malignant sociopath, a hideous monster stalking you and secretly trying to destroy you for 62 years is more than most can bear. She is so phony and insincere she will make you wretch. Smeared down in her Fashion Fair, wearing one of her thousand wigs, lying, exaggerating and putting on a show. This poor woman loves no one. Never has and never will. People are disposal to her. Something to be used, destroyed and discarded.
My revelations might be late, but they are not too late.
You knew it too. You sensed something was wrong with her also. One minute praising GOD and quoting the Bible, the next minute bragging about some demonic scheme she pulled off. Playing Madame Watson and tricking people out of their money.
Any woman ignorant enough to go down on a graveyard collecting dirt off of a murdered man's grave and believing that it will give her power should be shunned. "Get thee behind me satan!"
"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined." Henry David Thoreau
I want the entire world to know that I am one "throwed away baby" that refuses to be robbed of her birth rite. No demon from the pit of hell is going to rob and destroy me!
I shared my dreams with you. You instinctively went to plotting and blocking. You were determined to make me a hideous thing lower than you. You robbed my brother of his medical career because you are insanely jealous and corrupt. You live to see him suffer every day. You want him to pay because his father refused to marry you. You robbed my other brother of his musical career, of his self esteem, of his confidence. You hate him for being an "outside child". One caught in your husband's "net". ("All caught in yo' net is yourn!") You are mad because he survived when you tried to abort him. You hate the fact that he betrayed you by growing tall and brown and refusing to bear a resemblance to the short jet black man you tried to pin him on. (You had the nerve to name him a derivative of his real daddy's name!) He lives in mortal fear of you. I pray that GOD will grant him courage.
You robbed me for a very long time. But, I finally got my confidence back. I am walking confidently in the direction of my dreams. And I want you to know that it feels mighty good.
Stay in His WORD children. Know that GOD will never leave or forsake you. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch,, JEROME WALTERS)
Why? Because they are demonic, your plans are from the evil one. This is GOD's world. "He sits high and looks low." "His eye is on the sparrow."
From birth I knew I was His little sparrow. A little brow sparrow. I have always loved GOD. I could never "not love the LORD". It was something I always knew I was born to do. The very thought of the LORD has always made me feel warm and protected. I've never had any doubt that GOD loves me and will always lead and protect me. I guess you can call it confidence.
You need Confidence in this life. If you intend to walk, survive, and thrive on this earth, you need the Confidence of Almighty GOD, confidence that only He can plant in your heart.
GOD planted His Love in every heart. It must be nurtured, cultivated. I assure you that it is there. Please learn to listen to the voice of the LORD whispering in your ear. You know GOD loves you. You don't have to earn His love. If you truly love the LORD, your greatest pleasure is to live right, is to serve Him. Scheming, deceiving, lying and plotting is not necessary. Ladies you don't have to sell yourself into bondage, exchange your beautiful body to someone you detest for rent or your car note. Those are lies from the devil designed to rob you of your confidence, of your faith.
Yes, you are going to be rebuked, talked about, scorned. Most of all you are going to be manipulated, led astray. The evil one wants to keep you from the victory that is yours. The evil one wants you destroyed, flat on your back, under her feet.
Quit listening to them, don't keep company with them. Rid your mind of the ignorant nonsense they taught you. Rid yourself of the hatred they planted in your heart.
Dear LORD, thank You for Your WORDS, Your wisdom.
I always knew. Yes, I knew that something was mighty wrong with her. I didn't have a name for it. I knew that it was terrifying and the best I could do was keep my mouth shut, try to say our of her way and earn an excellent education. I was a child but I always knew that an education, a degree was the key to my freedom.
I am glad that I didn't know how much she hated me, how much she envied me and how desperately she wanted to destroy me. I couldn't have made it. I will tell you right now. This woman made me contemplate suicide more than once. Motherhood saved me. Birthing my beautiful daughter changed my life. My daughter and Jerome Walters are the two great loves of my life. Both are wise and GOD sent.
My daughter created this blog for me. She heard and saw me cry everyday. As a very loved daughter she could understand my pain. It is one thing to have an unloving mother that does not care about her children, about her daughter.
But, to have a malignant sociopath, a hideous monster stalking you and secretly trying to destroy you for 62 years is more than most can bear. She is so phony and insincere she will make you wretch. Smeared down in her Fashion Fair, wearing one of her thousand wigs, lying, exaggerating and putting on a show. This poor woman loves no one. Never has and never will. People are disposal to her. Something to be used, destroyed and discarded.
My revelations might be late, but they are not too late.
You knew it too. You sensed something was wrong with her also. One minute praising GOD and quoting the Bible, the next minute bragging about some demonic scheme she pulled off. Playing Madame Watson and tricking people out of their money.
Any woman ignorant enough to go down on a graveyard collecting dirt off of a murdered man's grave and believing that it will give her power should be shunned. "Get thee behind me satan!"
"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined." Henry David Thoreau
I want the entire world to know that I am one "throwed away baby" that refuses to be robbed of her birth rite. No demon from the pit of hell is going to rob and destroy me!
I shared my dreams with you. You instinctively went to plotting and blocking. You were determined to make me a hideous thing lower than you. You robbed my brother of his medical career because you are insanely jealous and corrupt. You live to see him suffer every day. You want him to pay because his father refused to marry you. You robbed my other brother of his musical career, of his self esteem, of his confidence. You hate him for being an "outside child". One caught in your husband's "net". ("All caught in yo' net is yourn!") You are mad because he survived when you tried to abort him. You hate the fact that he betrayed you by growing tall and brown and refusing to bear a resemblance to the short jet black man you tried to pin him on. (You had the nerve to name him a derivative of his real daddy's name!) He lives in mortal fear of you. I pray that GOD will grant him courage.
You robbed me for a very long time. But, I finally got my confidence back. I am walking confidently in the direction of my dreams. And I want you to know that it feels mighty good.
Stay in His WORD children. Know that GOD will never leave or forsake you. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch,, JEROME WALTERS)
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Cunning ... clever!? Really!?
Where did you get that from? When was being sneaky ever an attribute? Who confuses cruelty with courage? You can't demand to be honored. You can't yell and scream at me, curse me out and shame me into honoring you. Naming and proclaiming yourself as the family matriarch. Hogwash! The family s***! You can't make me keep your secrets either. No matter how deplorable they are.
Can't you hear GOD calling you? How did you get so lost, go so wrong, for so long? "Preaching and praying" the whole while! Declaring your great love and devotion while throwing rocks and hiding your hand.
You had to know that GOD was going to reveal you one day. You knew that GOD was going to take the blinders off. Cut the fool, pretend to be shocked. Once again declare what you would never do. Declare it to the same people that witnessed you commit every sin known to man.
So go to your grave hating me, hating all truth tellers. Go to your grave with lies on your lips, conning and manipulating. Go to your grave laughing, unrepentant. Go to your grave proud that you lived the life of a low common reprobate. Proud that you savagely sexually molested your children.
Go straight to hell knowing full well that you destroyed every career you could. No, there is really no point in your confessing now. You are still not sorry. You still can't love. You still don't know what the truth is.
I am on my bended knees praying for you right now. I pray that GOD will have mercy on your soul and release my poor brothers from the bondage you put them in. I pray that GOD will give them the courage to crawl out of that pit with you.
I pray that GOD will heal their broken hearts and lead them to the light. I pray that they will look at your fruit and finally see how you deliberately, cleverly and cunningly destroyed them.
To GOD be the Glory!
Can't you hear GOD calling you? How did you get so lost, go so wrong, for so long? "Preaching and praying" the whole while! Declaring your great love and devotion while throwing rocks and hiding your hand.
You had to know that GOD was going to reveal you one day. You knew that GOD was going to take the blinders off. Cut the fool, pretend to be shocked. Once again declare what you would never do. Declare it to the same people that witnessed you commit every sin known to man.
So go to your grave hating me, hating all truth tellers. Go to your grave with lies on your lips, conning and manipulating. Go to your grave laughing, unrepentant. Go to your grave proud that you lived the life of a low common reprobate. Proud that you savagely sexually molested your children.
Go straight to hell knowing full well that you destroyed every career you could. No, there is really no point in your confessing now. You are still not sorry. You still can't love. You still don't know what the truth is.
I am on my bended knees praying for you right now. I pray that GOD will have mercy on your soul and release my poor brothers from the bondage you put them in. I pray that GOD will give them the courage to crawl out of that pit with you.
I pray that GOD will heal their broken hearts and lead them to the light. I pray that they will look at your fruit and finally see how you deliberately, cleverly and cunningly destroyed them.
To GOD be the Glory!
BO DIDDLEY 55 Bo Diddley
A southern gentleman from my neck of the woods. Truly an "unsung musical genius"
Are you Retard-DEAD?
Are you ReTAR-DEAD? I didn't say retarded as in low functioning mentally. I said ReTAR-DEAD, as in slow to catch on to GOD's WORD, His wisdom and understanding. You read the WORD, hear the WORD, and even preach the WORD. But, you still don't get it. Still don't understand it. "You blind and won't see."
Are you a mature person, but still childish and infantile? Do you still throw tantrums trying to convince people those lies spewing out of your mouth are true? You know you lying! You know, I know you are lying. So why are you still lying? Do you think you can scare me or intimidate me into believing you, pretending to believe you?
If you are a mature person (as in age not emotionally) harboring hatred, envy and jealousy in your heart, you haven't grown. If you never learned or refused to learn from your mistakes, you failed to thrive. Babies born prematurely are put in incubators to simulate the womb, to help them grow and mature to a normal birth weight. If the oxygen and extra care they receive fail and the baby dies, the doctor will write "failure to thrive" on the death certificate.
If you have lived on this earth for many years and still cling to ignorant nonsense, if you are still lying, still sneaking around committing unpardonable sins, you failed to thrive. You are ReTAR-DEAD!
If you decided long ago that you were going to do any and everything you pleased because you are smarter than everyone else. If you know that all you have to do is put on a performance of crying, pretending to be broken and misunderstood in order to get your way. If you resort the the filthiest, vilest cussing and cursing to intimidate and terrorize your accusers, you are ReTAR-DEAD!
If you are famous for your collection of guns, your M-16, your uzzies, rifles and pistols. If you brag ;"Grandma is strapped!" You are ReTAR-DEAD! All the guns in the world will never protect you from the wrath of GOD!
"For the wrath of GOD is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men (women) who hold the truth in unrighteousness." (Romans 1:18) If you don't understand that scripture. If you still can't comprehend, you are ReTAR-DEAD!
If you have lived a horrible reprobate life. Never loving, just pretending in order to get your way. If you deliberately lead every one you ever knew into captivity, started preaching to cover your sins, you are ReTAR-DEAD!
"For there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; neither hid, that shall not be known" (Luke 12:2)
I just came to tell you; "You will get your just and honest due on this planet earth!" PTL! GOD could not care less about the color of your skin or the texture of your hair. GOD is not impressed by your eloquence or fake college degrees. He doesn't care how many sermons you preached, how many you saved.
You are using GOD's WORD, putting on a performance to impress people, to con them into believing that you are something that you are not!? Do you think GOD is going to let you do that!? Really!?
You need to do some more Bible study. "I tell thee thou shalt not depart thense till thou hast paid the very last mite." (Luke 12:59)
GOD is coming back to judge the quick and the dead. The quick to comprehend, to catch on , to heed His WORD. The dead in Christ, the dead to Christ and the dead in Spirit. The ghouls and imps that crawled this earth menacing and destroying. Yes! You will have your part in that Lake of Fire!
To GOD be the Glory! Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you,cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Are you a mature person, but still childish and infantile? Do you still throw tantrums trying to convince people those lies spewing out of your mouth are true? You know you lying! You know, I know you are lying. So why are you still lying? Do you think you can scare me or intimidate me into believing you, pretending to believe you?
If you are a mature person (as in age not emotionally) harboring hatred, envy and jealousy in your heart, you haven't grown. If you never learned or refused to learn from your mistakes, you failed to thrive. Babies born prematurely are put in incubators to simulate the womb, to help them grow and mature to a normal birth weight. If the oxygen and extra care they receive fail and the baby dies, the doctor will write "failure to thrive" on the death certificate.
If you have lived on this earth for many years and still cling to ignorant nonsense, if you are still lying, still sneaking around committing unpardonable sins, you failed to thrive. You are ReTAR-DEAD!
If you decided long ago that you were going to do any and everything you pleased because you are smarter than everyone else. If you know that all you have to do is put on a performance of crying, pretending to be broken and misunderstood in order to get your way. If you resort the the filthiest, vilest cussing and cursing to intimidate and terrorize your accusers, you are ReTAR-DEAD!
If you are famous for your collection of guns, your M-16, your uzzies, rifles and pistols. If you brag ;"Grandma is strapped!" You are ReTAR-DEAD! All the guns in the world will never protect you from the wrath of GOD!
"For the wrath of GOD is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men (women) who hold the truth in unrighteousness." (Romans 1:18) If you don't understand that scripture. If you still can't comprehend, you are ReTAR-DEAD!
If you have lived a horrible reprobate life. Never loving, just pretending in order to get your way. If you deliberately lead every one you ever knew into captivity, started preaching to cover your sins, you are ReTAR-DEAD!
"For there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; neither hid, that shall not be known" (Luke 12:2)
I just came to tell you; "You will get your just and honest due on this planet earth!" PTL! GOD could not care less about the color of your skin or the texture of your hair. GOD is not impressed by your eloquence or fake college degrees. He doesn't care how many sermons you preached, how many you saved.
You are using GOD's WORD, putting on a performance to impress people, to con them into believing that you are something that you are not!? Do you think GOD is going to let you do that!? Really!?
You need to do some more Bible study. "I tell thee thou shalt not depart thense till thou hast paid the very last mite." (Luke 12:59)
GOD is coming back to judge the quick and the dead. The quick to comprehend, to catch on , to heed His WORD. The dead in Christ, the dead to Christ and the dead in Spirit. The ghouls and imps that crawled this earth menacing and destroying. Yes! You will have your part in that Lake of Fire!
To GOD be the Glory! Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you,cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Be patient
"Be patient, wait on the LORD." I've heard that wise admonition all of my life. "In all thy getting, get understanding."
Understand this word, patience. This patience does mean to wait, but to wait with anticipation, to expect, to foresee. Have faith. Know that GOD is going to bless you with the desires of your heart if you live right and serve Him. If you have faith. If you know in every fiber of your being that GOD loves you, wants to bless you.
Yes You! The first thing you need to get rid of is that inferiority complex that this world has saddled you with. GOD loves the color of your skin. He made everything beautiful and in His own image.
Why would GOD make people that He considers to be ugly or repulsive? That is a lie from the evil one. Do not spend one second believing the color of your skin, the texture of your hair or the conditions of your birth can prevent you from any thing.
First of all get quiet. "Go into your secret closet" Listen to that still small voice in your head. GOD will tell you what He wants you to do. What He brought you to this earth to accomplish. Once you know, pursue Your dream. Not, someone else's, not one you saw in the movies, not one that will please man. Know that nothing you will ever do can please mortal man. The "human-ness" in man, combined with the lack of Christ, makes man seek your failure. His or her "human-ness" delights in the failure and pain of others.
Pray for these poor fallen creatures. They are lost. They can not hear the voice of the LORD. They are blind and can not see His miracles and wonder working power.
Please GOD. That is your appointed duty. GOD brought you here to help lift His Kingdom on earth. How dare you let imps over run GOD's Kingdom. You have Power. GOD gave it to you. He told you to tread on serpents and snakes. He did not tell you to be afraid, to live in fear. You are not a wimp and Jesus was not a punk. Jesus was a Revolutionary! He came that we might ALL have life and have it more abundantly.
If someone stole something from you, take it back! If they stole your self-esteem, telling you that you were too black, too short, too dumb, too poor ... shut them out. Keep them out of your life, out of your presence. The Bible says; "Walk not in the counsel of the ungodly."
Any one spewing all that negativity on you is ungodly. Rid your heart of hatred. Who taught you to hate and why?
Get up praising the LORD, knowing that you are going to be victorious in your appointed duty. Praise the LORD! Serve Him with your gifts and talents.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn, (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Understand this word, patience. This patience does mean to wait, but to wait with anticipation, to expect, to foresee. Have faith. Know that GOD is going to bless you with the desires of your heart if you live right and serve Him. If you have faith. If you know in every fiber of your being that GOD loves you, wants to bless you.
Yes You! The first thing you need to get rid of is that inferiority complex that this world has saddled you with. GOD loves the color of your skin. He made everything beautiful and in His own image.
Why would GOD make people that He considers to be ugly or repulsive? That is a lie from the evil one. Do not spend one second believing the color of your skin, the texture of your hair or the conditions of your birth can prevent you from any thing.
First of all get quiet. "Go into your secret closet" Listen to that still small voice in your head. GOD will tell you what He wants you to do. What He brought you to this earth to accomplish. Once you know, pursue Your dream. Not, someone else's, not one you saw in the movies, not one that will please man. Know that nothing you will ever do can please mortal man. The "human-ness" in man, combined with the lack of Christ, makes man seek your failure. His or her "human-ness" delights in the failure and pain of others.
Pray for these poor fallen creatures. They are lost. They can not hear the voice of the LORD. They are blind and can not see His miracles and wonder working power.
Please GOD. That is your appointed duty. GOD brought you here to help lift His Kingdom on earth. How dare you let imps over run GOD's Kingdom. You have Power. GOD gave it to you. He told you to tread on serpents and snakes. He did not tell you to be afraid, to live in fear. You are not a wimp and Jesus was not a punk. Jesus was a Revolutionary! He came that we might ALL have life and have it more abundantly.
If someone stole something from you, take it back! If they stole your self-esteem, telling you that you were too black, too short, too dumb, too poor ... shut them out. Keep them out of your life, out of your presence. The Bible says; "Walk not in the counsel of the ungodly."
Any one spewing all that negativity on you is ungodly. Rid your heart of hatred. Who taught you to hate and why?
Get up praising the LORD, knowing that you are going to be victorious in your appointed duty. Praise the LORD! Serve Him with your gifts and talents.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn, (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Can't No Devil
shut me up! Ain't no devil from the bowels of hell got the power to shut me up. PTL! Yea, you shut me up when I was a child. You beat me and bullied me into keeping your secrets. When I got old enough I buried them deep. I thought if I kept your secrets that you would appreciate me, finally love me and everything would be fine.
I was wrong. You only got worse. Grew stronger and more confident in your deceit and conjure.
How dare you! How dare you think GOD doesn't love me. How dare you not believe that He walks with me, talks with me. How dare you think the entire world is dumb, that you are the only one with any sense.
How dare you try to convince people that I hate you. If I hated you, I would not try so hard to lead you to repentance. If I hated you, I would have never forgiven you.
You did wrong. You've done terribly wrong. You've done the unthinkable for 88 years! One of these days GOD is going to call you home and you are going to have to give an account for your awful life. You won't be able to cuss GOD out and tell Him to "kiss yo' a**". You will not be able to say to GOD what you said to so many; "GOD made you and GOD damn you!"
All your little quick sacky remarks won't get you the "honor and respect" it earned you on earth. I am going to tell you what granddaddy told you; "Look well to your going ... your coming in ... your going out." (Study the book of Proverbs)
GOD bless and keep you.
Your daughter,
Rachel Gwendolyn
I was wrong. You only got worse. Grew stronger and more confident in your deceit and conjure.
How dare you! How dare you think GOD doesn't love me. How dare you not believe that He walks with me, talks with me. How dare you think the entire world is dumb, that you are the only one with any sense.
How dare you try to convince people that I hate you. If I hated you, I would not try so hard to lead you to repentance. If I hated you, I would have never forgiven you.
You did wrong. You've done terribly wrong. You've done the unthinkable for 88 years! One of these days GOD is going to call you home and you are going to have to give an account for your awful life. You won't be able to cuss GOD out and tell Him to "kiss yo' a**". You will not be able to say to GOD what you said to so many; "GOD made you and GOD damn you!"
All your little quick sacky remarks won't get you the "honor and respect" it earned you on earth. I am going to tell you what granddaddy told you; "Look well to your going ... your coming in ... your going out." (Study the book of Proverbs)
GOD bless and keep you.
Your daughter,
Rachel Gwendolyn
"You are not forsaken!"
Those words are ringing in my ears. Praise the LORD! My ability, my willingness, to praise the LORD profusely, all day, any way I can, is truly a blessing.
GOD wants You to know that you are not forsaken. GOD is with you. He was with you in the womb. He is with All of us. It is a mystery. I can't explain it. But, I can exclaim it and I will!
It is a fire shut up in my bones. It is the Holy Ghost!
GOD told me to tell You:
#1 - Don't you ever give up! Don't ever let the devil win!
When you compromise, when you forfeit your dreams and aspirations to appease the evil one, you are wrong. Please open your eyes and see. GOD loves You, wants you abundantly blessed and happy.
The evil one has low self esteem and is confused. She thinks that thwarting GOD's goodness is her appointed duty. Pray for her. GOD released her over to a reprobate mind a long time ago. (She can still be saved) Don't listen to the lies of the devil. It is never too late. You are never too old. You can break free and you can be everything you dreamed of. You can love passionately and you can trust again.
#2 - Increase your faith! Pray for it. Listen to that still small voice. Know that GOD will do just what He said. Let GOD have His way. Never be ashamed to tell the world that you live for Christ. GOD did not put you on this earth to crawl on your belly like a snake. You don't have to be satisfied with meager earnings. You don't have to self medicate and miss the joys and blessings of fatherhood. You don't have to give up your passions. (How can you give up everything you worked your whole life for?)
#3 - Know that you are worthy. Know that it is GOD's good pleasure to give you the desires of your heart.
#4 - Don't give up the right for the wrong attempting to protect a woman that is not worthy. Know the true depth of a mother's sincere love. A real mother will give her own life before she will let any one or anything harm her child. Don't believe the lies of this world. You are not biploar, you are damaged. Let GOD heal you, let GOD make you whole.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
GOD wants You to know that you are not forsaken. GOD is with you. He was with you in the womb. He is with All of us. It is a mystery. I can't explain it. But, I can exclaim it and I will!
It is a fire shut up in my bones. It is the Holy Ghost!
GOD told me to tell You:
#1 - Don't you ever give up! Don't ever let the devil win!
When you compromise, when you forfeit your dreams and aspirations to appease the evil one, you are wrong. Please open your eyes and see. GOD loves You, wants you abundantly blessed and happy.
The evil one has low self esteem and is confused. She thinks that thwarting GOD's goodness is her appointed duty. Pray for her. GOD released her over to a reprobate mind a long time ago. (She can still be saved) Don't listen to the lies of the devil. It is never too late. You are never too old. You can break free and you can be everything you dreamed of. You can love passionately and you can trust again.
#2 - Increase your faith! Pray for it. Listen to that still small voice. Know that GOD will do just what He said. Let GOD have His way. Never be ashamed to tell the world that you live for Christ. GOD did not put you on this earth to crawl on your belly like a snake. You don't have to be satisfied with meager earnings. You don't have to self medicate and miss the joys and blessings of fatherhood. You don't have to give up your passions. (How can you give up everything you worked your whole life for?)
#3 - Know that you are worthy. Know that it is GOD's good pleasure to give you the desires of your heart.
#4 - Don't give up the right for the wrong attempting to protect a woman that is not worthy. Know the true depth of a mother's sincere love. A real mother will give her own life before she will let any one or anything harm her child. Don't believe the lies of this world. You are not biploar, you are damaged. Let GOD heal you, let GOD make you whole.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Monday, June 17, 2013
Wonder Working Power!
Dear LORD thank you for Your Wonder Working Power! Thank you for another day to serve You! It is a beautiful day in Atlanta. Wet, freshly scrubbed by a summer rain storm.
I'm smiling, I'm grinning, I'm winning! All due to my all knowing,omnipotent, all powerful merciful GOD.
Dear LORD I just want to say thank you. Thank you for lifting me out of that awful pit. Lift others LORD. Lift all that want to know you, want to live right.
Dear LORD thank you for Your Divine Order!
Help us all to hold out until our change comes.
I'm smiling, I'm grinning, I'm winning! All due to my all knowing,omnipotent, all powerful merciful GOD.
Dear LORD I just want to say thank you. Thank you for lifting me out of that awful pit. Lift others LORD. Lift all that want to know you, want to live right.
Dear LORD thank you for Your Divine Order!
Help us all to hold out until our change comes.
Saturday, June 15, 2013
"Honor thy Father and Mother!"
For sure! This is a commandment. "Honor thy father and mother; (which is the first commandment with promise) That it may be well with thee, and thou mayest live long on the earth.' (Ephesians 6:2-3) No doubt, that is an excellent admonition. But, let's not neglect a very important part. "Parents provoke not your children to wrath less they become discouraged." (Colossians 3:21) "And ye fathers, provoke not your children to wrath: but bring them up in the nurture and admonition of the LORD." (Ephesians 6:4)
"Ladies" you can not be a neglectful, abusive, sadistic mother and demand to be honored because you have forced your victims to call you mother. Come out from behind that rock Mathy! You know better. You preached the sermon and you bragged about it.
"I was invited to be the guest speaker for the Mother's Day luncheon. I took my props you know. I had my cabbage patch doll. I told them the story .......(ya da ya da) take the baby and nurture it for me and I will pay you your wages."
The fact that you preached these words means that you know better. You know full well you have not earned any wages. My brother became a medical doctor and could not enjoy his own graduation for you begging and demanding. "XXX, I want you to buy me a house, a brand new Cadillac and a mink coat."
It has always been "me-me-me" with you. You didn't send or give him one red cent in college or medical school. True, you did sneak and buy him an old car. (He couldn't tell me because I would have felt slighted)
What's with you always making us keep secrets? You pretending that we are the chosen ones, your one golden child. Keeping us separate, divided. Promoting jealousy and suspicion. "You know I can't stand dem begging n******. They only come tuh see me when dey need sumptin' or begging and stealing. I don't want them damn black a** n**** in my house. Dey don't love me lak you do."
When you are a good mother, a good parent, you don't have to be two-faced, you don't have to be phony and manipulative. You don't have to lie and put on a show. You don't have to hate or be jealous.
The fact is, you have to be honest and forth right. There is no getting around it. You can't win. "Know ye the Truth!"
The sad fact is there are so many mothers like you. We all see them everyday. Women dressed to the nines and their little children ragged, snotty nosed and unkempt. You can see the neglect in their sad little eyes.
Didn't you know that you would be found out? You preached it! Tomorrow is Father's Day. GOD gifted you with the greatest, wisest, loving Christian father a daughter could have. You holler; "Honor thy father and mother!" the loudest.
Come on now, when are you going to come clean? A lie can't live forever. Are you willing to spend eternity roasting in hell before you will humble yourself before the LORD and ask for forgiveness? Really? Are you that stubborn, that lost?
You know why your sons will not say a word against you. You instilled devastating fear. You were no more than a savage ignorant brute. I am intrigued by my own story. I am amazed how you could behave like the loving protective mother in front of people but revert to the sickest sadistic monster just as soon as their backs were turned.
GOD is telling me that you knew all the time. That you confused treachery and sadism with intelligence, cruelty with courage. You always demanded to be the smartest, the prettiest. You demanded to be worshiped. It's funny, Cinderella was one of my favorite fairy tales. I likened myself to her. I was a modern day black Cinderella. You were my evil stepsisters. Yes, stepsisters, because you had so many different personalities. Each one more evil than the last.
So, you don't like me talking about you. You said that I remember too much and should shut up; "jest git ova' it!" Well I can't. How can a person get over 62 years of clandestine covert and overt abuse over night?
True, I knew all the time but I was frozen in fear and disbelief. True, I talk to you and talk about you every day. There is not a day that passes that I don't find myself crying or cursing over some horrible act you committed against me or my siblings, or some family member or friend.
No! you must be talked about. You must be known to the world. The Holy Ghost compels me to tell this story. If you didn't want me to tell it, you should not have done it. Or at least known when to stop. The fact is you are still a practicing "Root Worker" right now. This very minute you are seething with anger and contempt. You hate GOD! Mad as hell that your daddy was right. Mad as hell with me for being stupid enough to listen to him. Well, miss mam, I had to gravitate to my grandfather because you certainly rebuked, rebuffed and ridiculed me.
But, look at the Goodness of GOD. GOD is still waiting. He is standing there in front of you with His hand out stretched. Won't you come? Won't you finally confess? Aren't you tired of living a life of sin?
Let that ignorance go and turn to Jesus. Get on your knees, confess your sins. Don't hate me because you are getting your "just and honest due". Don't hate me because GOD is "righting all wrongs". I didn't make this world and I sure didn't make myself.
I must laugh at the irony of our predicament. You have stalked me for 62 years pretending that you love me with nothing but sabotage on your mind. Since my birth you have attempted to block my blessings. You successfully destroyed practically every piece of prose and poetry I ever wrote. You destroyed my master's thesis. All, to prevent me from becoming a published author because you blamed my birth for your lack of success.
Now look at me! Look at us! You gave me the most fascinating page turning book every written. "To GOD be the Glory!"
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing,"
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
"Ladies" you can not be a neglectful, abusive, sadistic mother and demand to be honored because you have forced your victims to call you mother. Come out from behind that rock Mathy! You know better. You preached the sermon and you bragged about it.
"I was invited to be the guest speaker for the Mother's Day luncheon. I took my props you know. I had my cabbage patch doll. I told them the story .......(ya da ya da) take the baby and nurture it for me and I will pay you your wages."
The fact that you preached these words means that you know better. You know full well you have not earned any wages. My brother became a medical doctor and could not enjoy his own graduation for you begging and demanding. "XXX, I want you to buy me a house, a brand new Cadillac and a mink coat."
It has always been "me-me-me" with you. You didn't send or give him one red cent in college or medical school. True, you did sneak and buy him an old car. (He couldn't tell me because I would have felt slighted)
What's with you always making us keep secrets? You pretending that we are the chosen ones, your one golden child. Keeping us separate, divided. Promoting jealousy and suspicion. "You know I can't stand dem begging n******. They only come tuh see me when dey need sumptin' or begging and stealing. I don't want them damn black a** n**** in my house. Dey don't love me lak you do."
When you are a good mother, a good parent, you don't have to be two-faced, you don't have to be phony and manipulative. You don't have to lie and put on a show. You don't have to hate or be jealous.
The fact is, you have to be honest and forth right. There is no getting around it. You can't win. "Know ye the Truth!"
The sad fact is there are so many mothers like you. We all see them everyday. Women dressed to the nines and their little children ragged, snotty nosed and unkempt. You can see the neglect in their sad little eyes.
Didn't you know that you would be found out? You preached it! Tomorrow is Father's Day. GOD gifted you with the greatest, wisest, loving Christian father a daughter could have. You holler; "Honor thy father and mother!" the loudest.
Come on now, when are you going to come clean? A lie can't live forever. Are you willing to spend eternity roasting in hell before you will humble yourself before the LORD and ask for forgiveness? Really? Are you that stubborn, that lost?
You know why your sons will not say a word against you. You instilled devastating fear. You were no more than a savage ignorant brute. I am intrigued by my own story. I am amazed how you could behave like the loving protective mother in front of people but revert to the sickest sadistic monster just as soon as their backs were turned.
GOD is telling me that you knew all the time. That you confused treachery and sadism with intelligence, cruelty with courage. You always demanded to be the smartest, the prettiest. You demanded to be worshiped. It's funny, Cinderella was one of my favorite fairy tales. I likened myself to her. I was a modern day black Cinderella. You were my evil stepsisters. Yes, stepsisters, because you had so many different personalities. Each one more evil than the last.
So, you don't like me talking about you. You said that I remember too much and should shut up; "jest git ova' it!" Well I can't. How can a person get over 62 years of clandestine covert and overt abuse over night?
True, I knew all the time but I was frozen in fear and disbelief. True, I talk to you and talk about you every day. There is not a day that passes that I don't find myself crying or cursing over some horrible act you committed against me or my siblings, or some family member or friend.
No! you must be talked about. You must be known to the world. The Holy Ghost compels me to tell this story. If you didn't want me to tell it, you should not have done it. Or at least known when to stop. The fact is you are still a practicing "Root Worker" right now. This very minute you are seething with anger and contempt. You hate GOD! Mad as hell that your daddy was right. Mad as hell with me for being stupid enough to listen to him. Well, miss mam, I had to gravitate to my grandfather because you certainly rebuked, rebuffed and ridiculed me.
But, look at the Goodness of GOD. GOD is still waiting. He is standing there in front of you with His hand out stretched. Won't you come? Won't you finally confess? Aren't you tired of living a life of sin?
Let that ignorance go and turn to Jesus. Get on your knees, confess your sins. Don't hate me because you are getting your "just and honest due". Don't hate me because GOD is "righting all wrongs". I didn't make this world and I sure didn't make myself.
I must laugh at the irony of our predicament. You have stalked me for 62 years pretending that you love me with nothing but sabotage on your mind. Since my birth you have attempted to block my blessings. You successfully destroyed practically every piece of prose and poetry I ever wrote. You destroyed my master's thesis. All, to prevent me from becoming a published author because you blamed my birth for your lack of success.
Now look at me! Look at us! You gave me the most fascinating page turning book every written. "To GOD be the Glory!"
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing,"
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Friday, June 14, 2013
Another Beautiful day in the ATL!
"This is the day the LORD hath made we will rejoice and be glad in it." (Psalm 118:24) Don't get up dreading this day. Rejoice!
My grandfather used to joke; "When people git too old to set bad examples, they start giving good advise." I'm guilty. I am old and fat now. I can't wear those halter tops and booty shorts. I can no longer jump up on the table and dance the night away.
The truth is, I didn't know any better. I was young and trying to follow the world. Don't get me wrong. I certainly enjoyed being young and reckless but there are very few things I would go back and change, if I could. I was learning. I was listening and observing. Life has taught me a lot.
I am so glad I listened to my grandfather, followed his great advice. The greatest thing he taught me was to think critically. "Always think for yourself! ... Never do anything that you would be ashamed to admit you did."
If you do something that you are ashamed of, can never admit you did, you're in trouble. If you can't admit that you did something ,that you know you did, but you don't want any one to know that you were ever that common. You are going to have to lie.
After you lie and no one believes you , you are going to have to pitch a fit carrying on like a fool to intimidate people into believing you. Thus, you become despicable. Ultimately, you will lose a lot of friends and loved ones. Most of all you will lose "self-respect".
Well, you know people love to talk and they are going to talk about you because your deeds are worthy of conversation. Your deeds are dirty and delicious and everyone is looking for someone worse off than they are.
If you find yourself to be "common" and you are ashamed. Hurry up and admit it. Learn from your mistakes. What did Jesus do? He was always healing people then telling them; "Go and sin no more."
We all have to remember that. You've sinned. I've sinned. We have all sinned and been found wanting. We have all made mistakes, probably done something pretty ignorant and repulsive. When confronted, admit it, apologize and "go and sin no more."
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
My grandfather used to joke; "When people git too old to set bad examples, they start giving good advise." I'm guilty. I am old and fat now. I can't wear those halter tops and booty shorts. I can no longer jump up on the table and dance the night away.
The truth is, I didn't know any better. I was young and trying to follow the world. Don't get me wrong. I certainly enjoyed being young and reckless but there are very few things I would go back and change, if I could. I was learning. I was listening and observing. Life has taught me a lot.
I am so glad I listened to my grandfather, followed his great advice. The greatest thing he taught me was to think critically. "Always think for yourself! ... Never do anything that you would be ashamed to admit you did."
If you do something that you are ashamed of, can never admit you did, you're in trouble. If you can't admit that you did something ,that you know you did, but you don't want any one to know that you were ever that common. You are going to have to lie.
After you lie and no one believes you , you are going to have to pitch a fit carrying on like a fool to intimidate people into believing you. Thus, you become despicable. Ultimately, you will lose a lot of friends and loved ones. Most of all you will lose "self-respect".
Well, you know people love to talk and they are going to talk about you because your deeds are worthy of conversation. Your deeds are dirty and delicious and everyone is looking for someone worse off than they are.
If you find yourself to be "common" and you are ashamed. Hurry up and admit it. Learn from your mistakes. What did Jesus do? He was always healing people then telling them; "Go and sin no more."
We all have to remember that. You've sinned. I've sinned. We have all sinned and been found wanting. We have all made mistakes, probably done something pretty ignorant and repulsive. When confronted, admit it, apologize and "go and sin no more."
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Never could have made it
I don't know about you but I know that I never could have made it without the LORD on my side. Praise the LORD!
Dear LORD when I look back over my life and reflect on where you brought me from, I must Praise you. I must testify! I must tell the world!
I swoon, I mean I really get weak in the knees. I am so humbled by the goodness of GOD I can hardly speak. I am lost for words. I am truly in awe.
This little black girl that was born unwanted, came into this world unwelcome and seriously hated by her own mother. This little coco brown baby that had no father in evidence and was thrown away, was rescued by her grandmother Rachel. Praise the LORD!
Yes, I do Praise the LORD, every day, all day. Jesus said that if you are ashamed of Him, He will be ashamed of you. If you are ashamed to let people know you love the LORD, you are already lost.
I am saddened by the fact we can so easily believe closet demons that holler "LAWD! LAWD!", accept their lies as the Gospel truth, yet remain terrified to even look at their fruit. We repeat stupid statements like; "Touch not my anointed." and permit demons to remain in pulpits fleecing GOD's sheep.
Know that most liars are bullies. They will scream and holler and pitch a fit and force you to accept a lie as the truth. When you catch them up to their eyeballs in their deceit they will scream and declare to the entire world that you are a fool. "If dey put yo' brain in a Jay bird's head it wud fly backwards!"
My advise to you, don't let any bully intimidate you. "Know ye the truth!" Accept GOD's Truth. If it is too terrifying, too hard to know, ask GOD to strengthen you.
I just want you to know that GOD is wonderful. All knowing, all powerful and He will never let any closet demon parading around in clerical garb, calling herself a minister of the Gospel get away with anything.
GOD is revealing His Truth, blessing His children, righting all wrongs and having His way. Yes, children , Jesus is fixing it!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Dear LORD when I look back over my life and reflect on where you brought me from, I must Praise you. I must testify! I must tell the world!
I swoon, I mean I really get weak in the knees. I am so humbled by the goodness of GOD I can hardly speak. I am lost for words. I am truly in awe.
This little black girl that was born unwanted, came into this world unwelcome and seriously hated by her own mother. This little coco brown baby that had no father in evidence and was thrown away, was rescued by her grandmother Rachel. Praise the LORD!
Yes, I do Praise the LORD, every day, all day. Jesus said that if you are ashamed of Him, He will be ashamed of you. If you are ashamed to let people know you love the LORD, you are already lost.
I am saddened by the fact we can so easily believe closet demons that holler "LAWD! LAWD!", accept their lies as the Gospel truth, yet remain terrified to even look at their fruit. We repeat stupid statements like; "Touch not my anointed." and permit demons to remain in pulpits fleecing GOD's sheep.
Know that most liars are bullies. They will scream and holler and pitch a fit and force you to accept a lie as the truth. When you catch them up to their eyeballs in their deceit they will scream and declare to the entire world that you are a fool. "If dey put yo' brain in a Jay bird's head it wud fly backwards!"
My advise to you, don't let any bully intimidate you. "Know ye the truth!" Accept GOD's Truth. If it is too terrifying, too hard to know, ask GOD to strengthen you.
I just want you to know that GOD is wonderful. All knowing, all powerful and He will never let any closet demon parading around in clerical garb, calling herself a minister of the Gospel get away with anything.
GOD is revealing His Truth, blessing His children, righting all wrongs and having His way. Yes, children , Jesus is fixing it!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Never Would've Made It - Marvin Sapp
"Never Would've Made It" is not just a song, it is the absolute truth.
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Never give up on your dream!
I am reminded of Langston Hughes' poem ; "Dream Deferred" "What happens to a dream deferred? Does it dry up like a raisin in the sun? Or fester like a sore - and then run? Does it stink like rotten meat? Or crust and sugar over - like a syrupy sweet? Maybe it just sags like a heavy load. Or does it explode?"
A ravenous reader from birth, Langston Hughes was one of my favorite writers. His writing is so honest, so pure. Honesty is something I've always believed in. Not for religious reasons. Simply because it is right.
I want to tell every young person to never give up! If you feel a stirring in your heart, a calling, go for it. Pursue it. Please don't let your family, your "loved ones" prevent you from being the person you want to be.
Tune out all negative people. Tune into the voice of the LORD. Pray, ask Him how.
If you don't have a dream, get one. Spend some time alone. Get to know you. Don't spend your time comparing yourself to others. Don't try to copy other people. Be your unique self. "Do you!"
Do know that GOD is Awesome! His WORD is Awesome. His plans for you are Awesome. Be abundantly blessed today!
A ravenous reader from birth, Langston Hughes was one of my favorite writers. His writing is so honest, so pure. Honesty is something I've always believed in. Not for religious reasons. Simply because it is right.
I want to tell every young person to never give up! If you feel a stirring in your heart, a calling, go for it. Pursue it. Please don't let your family, your "loved ones" prevent you from being the person you want to be.
Tune out all negative people. Tune into the voice of the LORD. Pray, ask Him how.
If you don't have a dream, get one. Spend some time alone. Get to know you. Don't spend your time comparing yourself to others. Don't try to copy other people. Be your unique self. "Do you!"
Do know that GOD is Awesome! His WORD is Awesome. His plans for you are Awesome. Be abundantly blessed today!
Today is truly a beautiful day!
I'm blessed. I'm smiling. I'm praising the LORD. Jesus is "Fixing it". He is working it out.
I started writing stories at eight years old. But, unfortunately I was afflicted with a wicked mentally unstable mother that devoted her entire life to attempting to destroy every one she knew, particularly me.
Every single thing she did to destroy me, to break me has back fired. Praise the LORD!
I won prizes and accolades for my writing and my art. She destroyed my writing and my art, grinned and laughed in my face; "You can't win fa' duh fix you in. I can't lose fa' duh stuff I use." Cleverly and slyly tried to destroy my good name.
I am just as happy today as I can be and I want Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureax to know you didn't stop me. Yes, you delayed me quite a bit. Caused me a lot a pain and grief. But, you haven't stopped me.
If I remember correctly, you started me on the path of writing. I read your diaries and your Virginia Union creative assignments. You dumped me on your father often. He turned out to be my private tutor, better than any Ivy League professor.
I'm grinning from ear to ear today. Because that little girl, my little girl, the one you tried to deafen when she was one week old, tried to scald with a hot cup of coffee. That same 19 month old little girl you beat for peeing in your Cadillac, while you were driving through a car wash, is now the published author you never wanted her to be.
You said she was a fool for attending Boston University and majoring in screen writing. "Who eva' heard of such!?"; you said. "She a fool!" ; you said. "Better major in sumptin' she can git a job in."; you said. "She a fool moving to L.A., ain't even got no job."; you said.
Well, she is writing, is a member of the Writers Guild. Writes for a popular television sitcom.
She did it without you. You will never say you are sorry. You will never give up your deceit, cunning and cruelty. You will die an unrepentant liar. You think you stopped and blocked a lot of blessings. I hope and pray that one day you will finally realize the only life you successfully ruined was your own.
I'm happy in lovely Atlanta and my daughter is living her dream in lovely L.A.
Stay in His WORD children. Rest assured; "Jesus will fix it!" Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn(the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
I am going to tell you again
I am going to tell you one more time. Evil can not defeat GOD. Time means nothing to the LORD. Yes, there are a lot of little imps creeping around priding themselves in their "successful" treachery. Grinning and congratulating themselves because they truly believe that they got over.
Hogwash! I just came to tell you that you wasted your time and your life. Any one still afraid of you, that insists on living in fear of you and claiming their undying love for you, I feel nothing but sorrow for them.
How anyone can forget the one million torturous things you did to them, how you lied and plotted on them and still claim to love you, is beyond my understanding.
I do know if you love a whorish woman it will be at your own peril. You will be reduced to a crust of bread. Bet! Cover for her because she made you too ashamed to live, if you want to. I'm seeking higher ground. I am not asking her advice or begging her for her "love".
A common woman is just that, common. Nothing is worse. A common drunken drug addicted dead beat dad is regarded more highly than a common woman. Your looks can't make up for your lack of character. Don't hate me because you can't be trusted. And don't curse me for having a good memory.
I think if a woman, a so called mother is going to be common, she better have all sons. That son will never betray his mother no matter what she's done. I can understand that. A man doesn't have a maternal instinct. It is too hard for him to believe that she really doesn't love him. He wants to believe her lies, enjoys her company. That male instinctively wants to protect his mother. He can never be convinced that she is in fact unworthy.
Young men, be careful. Never let some whorish common woman trap you because she is beautiful and cunning. Don't go near her. Her lips and words are like honeycombs. You will lose and suffer miserably
for your entire life.
If you were born into the clutches of such a woman, pray. To GOD be the Glory! Let GOD set you free! Heed His Voice! Shun the presence of evil.
Hogwash! I just came to tell you that you wasted your time and your life. Any one still afraid of you, that insists on living in fear of you and claiming their undying love for you, I feel nothing but sorrow for them.
How anyone can forget the one million torturous things you did to them, how you lied and plotted on them and still claim to love you, is beyond my understanding.
I do know if you love a whorish woman it will be at your own peril. You will be reduced to a crust of bread. Bet! Cover for her because she made you too ashamed to live, if you want to. I'm seeking higher ground. I am not asking her advice or begging her for her "love".
A common woman is just that, common. Nothing is worse. A common drunken drug addicted dead beat dad is regarded more highly than a common woman. Your looks can't make up for your lack of character. Don't hate me because you can't be trusted. And don't curse me for having a good memory.
I think if a woman, a so called mother is going to be common, she better have all sons. That son will never betray his mother no matter what she's done. I can understand that. A man doesn't have a maternal instinct. It is too hard for him to believe that she really doesn't love him. He wants to believe her lies, enjoys her company. That male instinctively wants to protect his mother. He can never be convinced that she is in fact unworthy.
Young men, be careful. Never let some whorish common woman trap you because she is beautiful and cunning. Don't go near her. Her lips and words are like honeycombs. You will lose and suffer miserably
for your entire life.
If you were born into the clutches of such a woman, pray. To GOD be the Glory! Let GOD set you free! Heed His Voice! Shun the presence of evil.
Fear is an awful thing
Terrifying fear instilled early enough is nearly impossible to rid, to erase, eradicate. How can a man or a woman ever be the courageous beings GOD designed us to be if some strumpet terrorized and beat them bloody from birth?
I have no answer other than prayer. Too many people misinterpret their own fear, call it wisdom and think they are living cautiously. I can not criticize any one for looking the other way. For stuffing their hurt and disappointment deep down inside. For pushing those terrifying memories out of their consciousness in order to survive.
No, you don't have to talk about it. You can join your abuser in pretending that it never happened. But, it will follow you like a black cloud. It will haunt you.
For years and years I drove from Atlanta to Fayetteville, North Carolina to visit what I truly believed to be my loving mother. Every time my car approached the sign that read Fort Gordon I broke into unexplainable tears. I would become inconsolable. I didn't know why.
Yes, I knew what I remembered. I will never forget what my stepfather tried to do to me in that hotel when I was fourteen. I remember screaming! causing a disturbance. I remember the military police coming and my mother following them back to the stockade to bail him out. I remember begging her to tell the m.p.s what he had done and her refusing.
I remember the long ride back to Fayetteville with them. I remember walking in on them screwing like two hogs the very next day. I remember they were not in the least bit embarrassed and never stopped. I remember asking her if she was going to divorce him? Her telling me; "No, got to git dat money honey!"
I do remember sensing that she had All to do with it. Of course I suppressed it. I had no where to go. I was a child. I had no father in evidence.
I watched, witnessed my mother do a lot of very common perverted sexual acts over the course of my life. I refused to deal with it. I followed the lead of my grandfather, looked the other way, said nothing. Got up and went to church with her every Sunday. Laughed, thought it was comical how she called us to prayer every Sunday morning. "Will you black a** muthaf****** Git in here! You muthaf****** know I got to pray!"
Yes, I am mystified by her pride and stubbornness. More than anything I am mortified by the fact that a woman so common, so cold, devious and perverted has gotten away for so long. Then I ask myself, did she truly get away? GOD knows. I know. A lot of people know, actually.
Why is she still living? GOD has a purpose for her life. Why is she still lying and denying? What else can she do? That's her way, that her m.o. (modus operindi).
Many people think I am angry and upset about what she did to me as a child, as a young adult. While that certainly disturbs me. That is not my issue. I caught her deep in her demonic root working against me when I was old. I caught her trying to destroy us. She was elated when my brother lost his house. She laughed as if she were crediting her great ability to conjure. She was delighted when my other brother went from "sugar to s***". Lost his medical practice and had to end up living with her.
She talks about all of her grandchildren like a dog. Hates all of them for being born dark skinned.
Dear LORD, it looks like I am one of the very few that escaped the suffocating strangulating grasp of this monstrosity. Praise the LORD!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch,JEROME WALTERS)
I have no answer other than prayer. Too many people misinterpret their own fear, call it wisdom and think they are living cautiously. I can not criticize any one for looking the other way. For stuffing their hurt and disappointment deep down inside. For pushing those terrifying memories out of their consciousness in order to survive.
No, you don't have to talk about it. You can join your abuser in pretending that it never happened. But, it will follow you like a black cloud. It will haunt you.
For years and years I drove from Atlanta to Fayetteville, North Carolina to visit what I truly believed to be my loving mother. Every time my car approached the sign that read Fort Gordon I broke into unexplainable tears. I would become inconsolable. I didn't know why.
Yes, I knew what I remembered. I will never forget what my stepfather tried to do to me in that hotel when I was fourteen. I remember screaming! causing a disturbance. I remember the military police coming and my mother following them back to the stockade to bail him out. I remember begging her to tell the m.p.s what he had done and her refusing.
I remember the long ride back to Fayetteville with them. I remember walking in on them screwing like two hogs the very next day. I remember they were not in the least bit embarrassed and never stopped. I remember asking her if she was going to divorce him? Her telling me; "No, got to git dat money honey!"
I do remember sensing that she had All to do with it. Of course I suppressed it. I had no where to go. I was a child. I had no father in evidence.
I watched, witnessed my mother do a lot of very common perverted sexual acts over the course of my life. I refused to deal with it. I followed the lead of my grandfather, looked the other way, said nothing. Got up and went to church with her every Sunday. Laughed, thought it was comical how she called us to prayer every Sunday morning. "Will you black a** muthaf****** Git in here! You muthaf****** know I got to pray!"
Yes, I am mystified by her pride and stubbornness. More than anything I am mortified by the fact that a woman so common, so cold, devious and perverted has gotten away for so long. Then I ask myself, did she truly get away? GOD knows. I know. A lot of people know, actually.
Why is she still living? GOD has a purpose for her life. Why is she still lying and denying? What else can she do? That's her way, that her m.o. (modus operindi).
Many people think I am angry and upset about what she did to me as a child, as a young adult. While that certainly disturbs me. That is not my issue. I caught her deep in her demonic root working against me when I was old. I caught her trying to destroy us. She was elated when my brother lost his house. She laughed as if she were crediting her great ability to conjure. She was delighted when my other brother went from "sugar to s***". Lost his medical practice and had to end up living with her.
She talks about all of her grandchildren like a dog. Hates all of them for being born dark skinned.
Dear LORD, it looks like I am one of the very few that escaped the suffocating strangulating grasp of this monstrosity. Praise the LORD!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch,JEROME WALTERS)
Monday, June 10, 2013
"Know whut i found out ...
the other day? Liars don't like liars! Duh nerve! Hi you gon' be a liar, don't do nuttin' but lie and got the nerve to declare dat you don't like liars!
Dat mean you don't like yo'sef! ... and you shouldn't.
Know what else I found out? Peoples that don't like themselves, don't like people that don't like dem! Can you image such? Hi you spek me to like you and you can't stand yo'sef? Dat's why you lie all the time ...can't be yo'sef ...cause you ain't who you want to be.
Ni, let me tell you right now ... all this fantasizing and pretending to be somebody you ain't, ain't gon hep you none cause when you get thru play acting and puttin on, you still you.
You still that person that you hate, that you shame of. Why you trying to bully me into laking you? Why you stalking me? Why you all up in my bizness? Ain't you got no bizness of yo own?
Why wud any ho call hersef a lady? Calling yo'sef a lady don't make you one. Gettin' mad wid the men that told on you, don't hep neither. "If a man pay enuf fa' it he will call you a lady." Whur you git dat rot from?
You jest be talking' to hear yo' head roar. You ain't got a lick of sense. You can't run yo' own bizness... why you trying to run mine? No I tell you what ... you run yo' shoes ova' and I'll run my bizness.
I don't care nuttin' bout you not laking me. I don't lak you neither. Need You! What I need you fa? I need you lak I need another hole in duh head!
I need you to git way from me ... dats what I need. Yea! I do need Jesus! We all need Jesus! You always go tuh hollaring Jesus when you git in trouble. Why don't you hollar Jesus befo you git in trouble?
Hollar Jesus when you git tempted to do wrong. No, don't call me ... don't come by heah ..don't come to see me. Matter of fact .. jest forgit you eva' knew me. Cross my name out'cho memery.
Gawn ni! Git way from me! talking bout you don't lak liars. Do you lak Truth-tellers?
Dat mean you don't like yo'sef! ... and you shouldn't.
Know what else I found out? Peoples that don't like themselves, don't like people that don't like dem! Can you image such? Hi you spek me to like you and you can't stand yo'sef? Dat's why you lie all the time ...can't be yo'sef ...cause you ain't who you want to be.
Ni, let me tell you right now ... all this fantasizing and pretending to be somebody you ain't, ain't gon hep you none cause when you get thru play acting and puttin on, you still you.
You still that person that you hate, that you shame of. Why you trying to bully me into laking you? Why you stalking me? Why you all up in my bizness? Ain't you got no bizness of yo own?
Why wud any ho call hersef a lady? Calling yo'sef a lady don't make you one. Gettin' mad wid the men that told on you, don't hep neither. "If a man pay enuf fa' it he will call you a lady." Whur you git dat rot from?
You jest be talking' to hear yo' head roar. You ain't got a lick of sense. You can't run yo' own bizness... why you trying to run mine? No I tell you what ... you run yo' shoes ova' and I'll run my bizness.
I don't care nuttin' bout you not laking me. I don't lak you neither. Need You! What I need you fa? I need you lak I need another hole in duh head!
I need you to git way from me ... dats what I need. Yea! I do need Jesus! We all need Jesus! You always go tuh hollaring Jesus when you git in trouble. Why don't you hollar Jesus befo you git in trouble?
Hollar Jesus when you git tempted to do wrong. No, don't call me ... don't come by heah ..don't come to see me. Matter of fact .. jest forgit you eva' knew me. Cross my name out'cho memery.
Gawn ni! Git way from me! talking bout you don't lak liars. Do you lak Truth-tellers?
There is too much joy and beauty ...
in this world for any of us to suffer for a single day. GOD is Awesome His World is Awesome!
So why are so many of us suffering in misery? Suffering from lack. Lack of love, lace of money, lack of confidence, strength and courage?
If you are like me, some unbelieving, low excuse for a human being got a hold of you before you got a chance to mess up your own life. No matter the circumstances of your birth or your life, it is not over. As long as you are still breathing you have a chance.
Snatch that blood sucking demon from off of your back and put him or her under your feet. Smile, laugh, enjoy your life. Live your dreams. Glow and go! Laugh uproariously, travel extensively, live the life you always wanted.
Shun all evil, shun all negativity. Thank GOD daily.
Be abundantly blessed today children. Stay in His WORD. Study the Bible for yourself. Your assigned reading for today is Proverbs 6:26. "For by means of a whorish woman a man is brought to apiece of bread; and the adultress will hunt for the precious life."
Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
So why are so many of us suffering in misery? Suffering from lack. Lack of love, lace of money, lack of confidence, strength and courage?
If you are like me, some unbelieving, low excuse for a human being got a hold of you before you got a chance to mess up your own life. No matter the circumstances of your birth or your life, it is not over. As long as you are still breathing you have a chance.
Snatch that blood sucking demon from off of your back and put him or her under your feet. Smile, laugh, enjoy your life. Live your dreams. Glow and go! Laugh uproariously, travel extensively, live the life you always wanted.
Shun all evil, shun all negativity. Thank GOD daily.
Be abundantly blessed today children. Stay in His WORD. Study the Bible for yourself. Your assigned reading for today is Proverbs 6:26. "For by means of a whorish woman a man is brought to apiece of bread; and the adultress will hunt for the precious life."
Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Sunday, June 9, 2013
When in doubt, read the instructions!
Here I am sitting on the outside, looking on the inside. Well, I'm not quite sure. I may be on the inside , looking on the outside. It doesn't matter. All I know is I'm over here having a Holy Ghost party! I'm shouting, purely electrified with the Spirit. I'm thanking GOD for delivering me from one of the most incredibly devious minds every created.
My testimony is fascinating. I can't put this "book" down. I can not and will not stop declaring the Goodness of My Almighty GOD to the entire world.
THANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUS!!!!!!!!!
This poor woman still believes she is winning. Why? Because nearly all of her victims still bow to her, cower to her, cloak for her and refuse to reveal her true nature. They know that she hates GOD. They actually know deep down inside that she purely hates them. It is an inconvenient terrorizing embarrassing truth, so, many have decided to wait her out. Most are simply terrified and agree that when your "mother" is a monster like ours, the best thing to do is live in denial.
She can not be explained to the world. People will criticize you and scoff and say why didn't you do something to stop her long ago. No one will realize that we inherited this albatross. We were conditioned by her awful cruelty to look the other way.
Is my grandfather to blame? Were his daily admonitions too soft? Did he in fact know what an awful demon his daughter was? Or was he living in denial with us?
Today I am facing the fact, coming clean with myself. I knew all the time. No, as a child, I couldn't quite put my finger on it. I didn't characterize her behavior as "demon possessed". I'm sure I didn't know what that meant. I knew something was mighty wrong with her. "Something" that I was very ashamed of. It was "something" we were forbidden to know, forbidden to talk about. Instinctively I never trusted her, just watched her, listened and carefully planned my escape.
Pure Evil! My LORD! What do you do when you have a child and one day realize that she is pure evil, a demon seed!? Can you beat the hell out of her? Should you just talk to her, try to appeal to her "good will" and hopefully common sense? Or do you put up with her, look the other way? Do you let her bully and control you until she finally puts a .38 bullet in your heart?
I found out you read and study your Bible as well as pray. Every thing we need to know to survive and thrive in this world is in that Book. First thing, Jesus told us ;"Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you Free!"
Our Infinite All Knowing GOD knows the power of evil. He knows the gullibility and treacherousness of man. GOD knows that most of us can not handle the truth, can not bear it. So, we live out our long miserable lives attached to a demon that we secretly hate. Mystified year after year by her tricks and slander.
GOD told you to have faith. He told you that when your mother and father forsake you He will life you up. Most importantly He gave us an instruction book. You can't get anything out of that book if you are too lazy to read it. If you are so sorry and confused that you let that demon that is torturing you explain His WORD to you. He told you;"walk not in the counsel of the ungodly".
How in the world can you be dumb enough to let the one person that has never done anything but cause you misery advise you? Have you lost your mind!!!?
Ever time you get near the truth, every time you get close to discovering who and what she really is, she is going to mislead and confuse you. You will not think, you will not question. You will continue to be her imp. (To be an imp for the devil's imp is the saddest place you can be on this planet.)
Martha had many pregnancies that ultimately produced six living children. I compare our lives to the blind men trying to describe an elephant. One blind man likened the elephant to a snake when he felt the trunk, another a large flat wall, one said an elephant was a long skinny rope that keeps switching.
Our version of Martha depends on our gender, color, order of birth and how our six different father's treated or "mistreated" her.
Martha produced children from ages 16 to 42. She treated every one of us differently, all cruelly, yes, but totally different. Her favorite thing to do was to keep secrets. Pretending that you were her favorite. that you were the only one she could confide in, could trust.
I didn't think any of us ever doubted her love for the LORD. Then one day one brother shared the secrets she made him keep for sixty years. We compared notes. Another brother got drunk and told me what she said about me, what she was telling all of them while she was calling me and telling me what a wonderful daughter I was.
I think the worse thing a person can do is to be found in deceit. The worse thing that can happen to any mother is to be caught in her betrayal. I wondered, scratched my head. She demands that we all come home for Christmas or Thanksgiving. But, we never had a sit down dinner. She has a fine dining room complete with a beautiful dining room table. Her hutch or China buffet is complete and overflowing with fine China and sterling silver.
Why does she cook and invite each relative over to just sit in the kitchen? She will laugh and talk with you, then encourage you to fix a to-go-plate. Her paranoia is obvious. "I know you got to go. I know you busy. Thanks for dropping by."
What was she afraid of? Was she afraid that we would compare notes? How could a mother never know the phone numbers or addresses of my siblings when I asked?
The truth is, the pure fact is, Martha Jane Walters, has been running from GOD's Truth her whole life. She doesn't want to know because she can't face it. She is too ashamed. I don't think she started out to become such a notorious cruel demon. But, it was so easy. People are so simple and gullible, so easily frightened by foul curse words, guns and knives, and conjure. Plus, she was so easy to love. Kind on the eyes, a brilliant actress that could in fact read all of her children's minds.
Well, I just want to tell you that Martha has had her way or she thought she was having her way for 88 years. But, GOD has been large and in charge of this whole human mess and He Will fix it!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
My testimony is fascinating. I can't put this "book" down. I can not and will not stop declaring the Goodness of My Almighty GOD to the entire world.
THANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUSTHANKYOUJESUS!!!!!!!!!
This poor woman still believes she is winning. Why? Because nearly all of her victims still bow to her, cower to her, cloak for her and refuse to reveal her true nature. They know that she hates GOD. They actually know deep down inside that she purely hates them. It is an inconvenient terrorizing embarrassing truth, so, many have decided to wait her out. Most are simply terrified and agree that when your "mother" is a monster like ours, the best thing to do is live in denial.
She can not be explained to the world. People will criticize you and scoff and say why didn't you do something to stop her long ago. No one will realize that we inherited this albatross. We were conditioned by her awful cruelty to look the other way.
Is my grandfather to blame? Were his daily admonitions too soft? Did he in fact know what an awful demon his daughter was? Or was he living in denial with us?
Today I am facing the fact, coming clean with myself. I knew all the time. No, as a child, I couldn't quite put my finger on it. I didn't characterize her behavior as "demon possessed". I'm sure I didn't know what that meant. I knew something was mighty wrong with her. "Something" that I was very ashamed of. It was "something" we were forbidden to know, forbidden to talk about. Instinctively I never trusted her, just watched her, listened and carefully planned my escape.
Pure Evil! My LORD! What do you do when you have a child and one day realize that she is pure evil, a demon seed!? Can you beat the hell out of her? Should you just talk to her, try to appeal to her "good will" and hopefully common sense? Or do you put up with her, look the other way? Do you let her bully and control you until she finally puts a .38 bullet in your heart?
I found out you read and study your Bible as well as pray. Every thing we need to know to survive and thrive in this world is in that Book. First thing, Jesus told us ;"Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you Free!"
Our Infinite All Knowing GOD knows the power of evil. He knows the gullibility and treacherousness of man. GOD knows that most of us can not handle the truth, can not bear it. So, we live out our long miserable lives attached to a demon that we secretly hate. Mystified year after year by her tricks and slander.
GOD told you to have faith. He told you that when your mother and father forsake you He will life you up. Most importantly He gave us an instruction book. You can't get anything out of that book if you are too lazy to read it. If you are so sorry and confused that you let that demon that is torturing you explain His WORD to you. He told you;"walk not in the counsel of the ungodly".
How in the world can you be dumb enough to let the one person that has never done anything but cause you misery advise you? Have you lost your mind!!!?
Ever time you get near the truth, every time you get close to discovering who and what she really is, she is going to mislead and confuse you. You will not think, you will not question. You will continue to be her imp. (To be an imp for the devil's imp is the saddest place you can be on this planet.)
Martha had many pregnancies that ultimately produced six living children. I compare our lives to the blind men trying to describe an elephant. One blind man likened the elephant to a snake when he felt the trunk, another a large flat wall, one said an elephant was a long skinny rope that keeps switching.
Our version of Martha depends on our gender, color, order of birth and how our six different father's treated or "mistreated" her.
Martha produced children from ages 16 to 42. She treated every one of us differently, all cruelly, yes, but totally different. Her favorite thing to do was to keep secrets. Pretending that you were her favorite. that you were the only one she could confide in, could trust.
I didn't think any of us ever doubted her love for the LORD. Then one day one brother shared the secrets she made him keep for sixty years. We compared notes. Another brother got drunk and told me what she said about me, what she was telling all of them while she was calling me and telling me what a wonderful daughter I was.
I think the worse thing a person can do is to be found in deceit. The worse thing that can happen to any mother is to be caught in her betrayal. I wondered, scratched my head. She demands that we all come home for Christmas or Thanksgiving. But, we never had a sit down dinner. She has a fine dining room complete with a beautiful dining room table. Her hutch or China buffet is complete and overflowing with fine China and sterling silver.
Why does she cook and invite each relative over to just sit in the kitchen? She will laugh and talk with you, then encourage you to fix a to-go-plate. Her paranoia is obvious. "I know you got to go. I know you busy. Thanks for dropping by."
What was she afraid of? Was she afraid that we would compare notes? How could a mother never know the phone numbers or addresses of my siblings when I asked?
The truth is, the pure fact is, Martha Jane Walters, has been running from GOD's Truth her whole life. She doesn't want to know because she can't face it. She is too ashamed. I don't think she started out to become such a notorious cruel demon. But, it was so easy. People are so simple and gullible, so easily frightened by foul curse words, guns and knives, and conjure. Plus, she was so easy to love. Kind on the eyes, a brilliant actress that could in fact read all of her children's minds.
Well, I just want to tell you that Martha has had her way or she thought she was having her way for 88 years. But, GOD has been large and in charge of this whole human mess and He Will fix it!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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