Dear LORD, thank you so much for ...

your Divine Order. Thank you for righting wrongs, for intervening in our lives, for making the crooked way straight.

Thank you for revealing the hideous monsters that plagued that woman I called mother. Dear LORD do take the blinders off of my terrified brothers, my deaf and blind family.

Deliver all the innocent abused children of this world from these monsters. Take the blinders off, unstop the deaf ears. Free my fellow "cell mates" , truly yoke fellows, from that ravages of that sick whore.

Martha made a very deliberate choice to become the monstrosity she became.  Nothing but shame and excruciating pain was our reward for loving her. I will not say trusting her, few ever trusted her.  We did what she commanded because we had no choice. No fathers. The few that had legitimate fathers, didn't. One was a pervert the other much too young.

She taught them to hate me. That slick conniving whore did deliberately teach my entire family to hate me. She did make me her scapegoat.  What a very foolish woman chasing carnal pleasure from every warm body willing and unwilling.

I know now Martha lived in complete darkness, complete utter depravity. I knew at four. I was repulsed by the madness. The horrid vulgar  images still float in my head. ( Dear LORD how did I survive?) What a common cunt! First she dumps us on her parents that she secretly hates, openly and loudly blames for her lousy life.  Just dumped us for the first formative years of our lives , then stormed in and snatched us from the loving nurturing arms of our grandfather.

Some one should have known better. Some one should have cared.

Purring , pretending that she finally saw the light. Really never wanted to marry that runty little troll, never admitting that was the best she could get because her horrifying reputation proceeded her.  Martha mistreated that man, totally emasculated that man. Beat him to a pulp when he caught HER in fornication! Martha exploited her childhood rape into an excuse to become the lowest degenerate possible.

It makes so much sense to me now, the raped became a stealth closet rabid rapist. Delivered six innocent children into her madness and MESSED US UP!

I do feel sorry for her. It is a tragedy. A raped child became a rapist! It actually happens often. I am
glad it didn't happen to me. I do want all children abused from infancy to know they are not the scum of their abusers unless they continue that abuse. If they lie, abuse and lie, the vicious cycle continues.

I am very saddened by my brothers that are so blind, so defeated , they honor that sick whore instead of Jerome Walters.  They should know their behavior is cowardly. I pray they soon learn the female
viper that hated them was a man eater , a pure pestilence.

Children of abuse you are not forsaken. Trust GOD He will pick you up. Purge yourself of every lie you've been fed. The color of your skin does not disgrace you. The evil predatory imps that enslaved you, disgrace you.


My mother blasted me with "you're a black BASTARD!" every day of my life , conned me into counting myself fortunate because I was not one of the flushed five or nine. The number changed every day. I do know that Martha was so proud of the babies she killed she bragged about it for 87 years.

There is no hiding place for the hopeless sinner. Fake preaching and a following of the blind and just as ignorant imps won't save you.  GOD said to repent of your sins, not to die lying, pretending, blaming and cursing GOD.

"Be ye hot or cold or get spewed." Martha got spewed. Her "church", her followers will get spewed soon enough. Refusing to honor Jerome Waters in deference to that dead demon. There is no excuse for blind stupidity. Know your truth brothers! You were deliberately raped and ruined by your sick depraved demon possessed mother! "Come ye out from among them."  You should know there is Power in that name JESUS!

I pray that all of my relatives will finally take their blinders off, finally know and embrace their truth.
Finally rejoice, dance on the head of the sick albatross that deliberately enslaved us for her own sadistic pleasure .

Over here praising  you LORD! Just thanking you for delivering me from the clutches of a volunteer sick demon. Thank you for snatching me out of the lion's mouth. Free my entire family if it be Thy will LORD!

PTL!

"As a man thinketh ...

so is he."  In other words, you are what ever you inwardly think you are. Please do not fool yourself with your pronouncements or announcements. "I'm a lady!"  "No, that's not me I am not that kind of person."

World, do know that there are far too many vipers on this earth, in good families, IN THE CHURCH. These vipers are deliberately ruining, attempting to thwart GOD's plan, his Divine Order.  My sexual molestation began at four! The little girl in me is still weeping over the savage inhumane treatment deliberately inflicted  upon me by my own mother.

Oh yes, it was her greatest desire to destroy me.  To destroy my grandfather. To destroy all joy, just mutilate any chance I ever had of any hope.
Announced it too! "You ain't taking no piano lessons!" The low stanking whore spewed that on me when I begged her to let me take lessons from a lady that complimented me. If you wanted to be hated severely and openly by Mathy Jane, get something, enjoy anything. That low stanking viperous  whore was coming after it and you with a vengeance!

I am still amazed !   Absolutely astonished that we let this thing remain loose to plague US! Just US, the WALTERS family.  She was far too cowardly to try her "insanity" any where else.

"As a man thinketh in his heart"; she preached, which proves she knew better.  Why all the name calling Martha? Why was my color so repugnant to you? Why did you call me a "luddle black bastard" every day of my life? Why did you tell me I wasn't shit? Why did you call my degree with honors worthless? Why did you only see evil in me?

The evil was in you Martha Jane!

"Cast not your pearls before swine"'. Never waste your breath on a fool.

I understand it so clearly now.  Martha THOUGHT she was a low whore, unworthy of love, only capable of cunning and treachery. Did her childhood rapes and molestations contribute to her self loathing?  I am sure it did.

Why was she such a pathological liar? Was it fear? Was it habit? No, it was a total lack of faith in Almighty GOD. "Many are called, few are chosen."

Why did we subject ourselves to her evil demonic cruelty so long?   Stockholm  syndrome?  Lingering "slave mentality" ?  Docility! We're we that crushed and defeated? She should have rotted in prison for that one savage beating laid on my brother, alone.

I do not want this pattern of abuse to continue. My mother was in fact severely sexually perverted! You don't want to ever know the true depth of her depravity.  Do know it was low enough to  prompt her to practice primitive slave voodoo. Do not laugh. It does work. (Revelation 9:21)

Do know that my low lying insanely jealous corrupt mother tricked me, completely conned me out of leaving a prestigious Graduate school I was attending.  I ended up attending Atlanta University , majoring in African American Studies. Did my Madter's Thesis on VOODOO AND CONJURE as revealed through slave narratives.

Busted! My old "root working", primitive as any "witch doctor" in a Tarzan movie.  A throw back to the Salem Witch Trials, did live, did practice evil while passing her demonic self off as an ordained minister.

Yes, the disengenious black community let her get away out of fear.  Just like Martha , Jesus on their lips, far from their hearts.

No, matter what.  MJW knew better. It is obvious that she always knew better. Her pattern of perfect deceit proves she knew better.

Martha was a savage batterer. She was a rapist. Who knew? My poor grandfather lived 84 years and died to modest to say the word pregnant out loud . "She is in family way" was the polite expression he used.

Did he know his daughter was a ravenous wolf in shee's clothing? Did he know she was a pedophile? A pioneer sexual beast , an abuser? Did he turn away from her "affliction" one too many times?

World, you need to know, Mathy Jane is your future man and woman. Do NOT fear her! Do NOT tolerate her! Announce her! Snatch her cloak off! Trample her under your feet!  Rebuke and denounce her! Be made whole today!

PTL!

Put your trust in GOD!

"In all thy getting, get understanding"

It is another beautiful day in Conyers, Georgia and I'm feeling fine. I put all my trust in GOD. Got in the practice of calling on Him early in life.  Born to a savage, perverted, ignorant, extremely whorish demon.  To this very day, the daily deeds and sick perversions practiced by that woman I was paid to call mother makes my skin crawl.

An ignorant demon that set out to ruin every one in her world just so she could look better, have more money, more "honor".(  A morally bankrupt woman, IMMORAL,  without one shred of decency. ) Not the world, just her world, just her family, her children and did. Martha did die happy and satisfied that she had totally ruined, head fucked , mentally, physically and spiritually annihilated her children that did not pay her enough homage. The children that out did her.  Martha used fake maternal love, out and out lies, cunning, overt and covert conniving and CONJURE to destroy us. MURDERED that interfering know it all daddy. Totally destroyed the reputation of that black ass daughter and that medical doctor son.

  At least she died thinking she had.

Warning! If you want to be despicable maggot scum, live the low life of Martha JANE Walters. There is no excuse for her. And I refuse to be ashamed of her deeds and my long association with her.

I am marveling at the brilliance of the community, labeling her "common as bat shit" early. Marta did not disappoint.

If you ever find yourself in the clutches of an evil abomination , trust GOD. If you wake up and discover you are "living" in satan's lowest, foulest hell, with a secret closet reprobate pedophile incestuous nymphomaniac sadistic whore , pray.  Trust GOD to deliver you, He will.

Evildoer that preaches, every word in that Book is true , whether you believe it or not!

Delivered!
Set free!
Rejoicing!

PTL!

Time is on my side

"FurstofallgivinhonortuhGAWD! I'm coming tuh you LAWD asan empty pitchur'fo auh full fountain 'siring tuh be filled wid yo'goodness LAWD, LAAAAAAAAAWWWDDDDDDDD IF DEY BE ANYTHANG..."

All rote, all memorized and repeated in unison every Sunday. Why were we there? I was there by force. I was a child. I had no choice . I am not complaining, I am thanking! I am thanking Almighty GOD for intervening in my life, for leading and guiding me, for protecting me.  Most of all for elevating me. For purging me of the that feeling of revulsion, of unworthiness , of worthlessness cast upon me by my own mother,

My Mathy Jane Experience was my "prison" experience. " Some of you will be cast into prison that you might be tested,"

Tested!  Washed whiter than snow!

The myth that every one is alright, that most people are just fine , is perpetuated by our silent fear.  "Just don't say nothing,"  What kind of nonsense is that?

My family, me, my brothers, my grandfather endured the most sadistic slut that ever slithered on this earth because she held us captive.  She was the lunatic , maiming, raping, assaulting, stabbing, shooting, cursing, lying, STANKING around with the keys to the Asylum jingling in her pocket.  She was a  monster ,  and she was NOT going to be held accountable, ever!  BLASPHEMOUS ! PREACHED! Practiced every abomination she could.  Lived despicable, died despicable. Died a ravenous despicable UNREPENTANT beast.

An 87 year terrorist finally died, just expired like a parking meter. No apologies, no regrets, no explanation, no justice, no peace.

An ogre that loathed secretly, humiliated openly , every one she pretended to love. Died still attempting to prove GOD was  NOT real ,   "A present help in time of trouble."   Martha said it and meant it; GOD  was just as phony and insincere as she was. ( No one believed in Him. Most people just claimed they did. Honesty was stupid , only practiced by dumb ignut niggers like her father.)

Most people were just as low, just as lying,  as she was. So, "Go on and do what ever you want to do. Just don't get caught!  I did't beat him FUH stealing,. I beat him fuh gittin' caught."

What was Martha's proof? We were! We, her six surviving children. We were all elderly, the youngest considered old, still were in her hands.  Still tethered to her inescapable evil. We were all elderly, lives spent and according to her, all losers.

Mathy was laughing. The fact Martha made it to "ordained minister" , "mother of the church" and loved by her victims (she was still secretly destroying) emboldened  Martha. MJW, the evil snake serpent mother. The woman that cast that dispersion upon me, deliberately cast me in her low light.  Martha was a secret imp that secretly cast everyone and everything she touched into her filth.

Died laughing. Died a secret. Died daring me to tell. I promised to tell when I was eight. She cursed me like a dog. I confronted her again at fifty-eight, she cursed me like a dog.  My fellow victims, yoke fellows , deferred to her out of habit, out of conditioning, out of terrorizing fear. I understand.  The Truth our mother left us is too hard to know without GOD on your side.

When you finally admit the Truth about MJW  you are going to need an anchor. I pray your anchor holds.

PTL!

A freak of nature.

It does happen. Every once in a great while Mother Nature will get her wires crossed, something will go wrong. I have seen the preserved remains of two-headed snakes, a chicken that lived much too long after being beheaded.

We all know of, have heard  of incest. I've only had one pastor to so much as mention it from the pulpit.

Of course that subject was always avoided and forbidden in MJW's house. That did not mean she did not practice it however. MJW practiced everything forbidden to man in the Bible. Not only did Mathy JANE do exactly what she pleased,  with whomever she pleased, when she pleased, you were not going to open your mouth. You were not going to object, complain, show symptoms , think, define, consider, contemplate or EVER TELL!

You were Mathy's property. You belonged to her. There was no such thing as a boundary and if it came out of her mouth,  that was your reality, your truth, "shut the fuck up! The mo'you cry the less you piss! Fuck you bitch! I'm an ORDAINED MINISTER! (If GAWD didn't condone me He would not let me preach so well to thunderous applause. To souls being saved.)"

"A double-minded man is unstable in all his ways."

MJW's heart was black as soot and she knew it.  For 87 years MJW slithered around very aware of the fact she was a fallen,  extremely whorish woman for satan. While MATHY enjoyed the illicit sex, it was not carnal pleasure that kept her bound. It was her blatant ignorance. Martha was highly unread. Not dumb but very anti-intellectual . Very unmotivated to acquire a single  simple fact of real knowledge.

No, I don't know what happened or when it happened but something went wrong in the body of Christ. Something is still wrong. People are still foolishly blaming skin pigmentation for Man's Inhumanity to Man.

MJW lived and died the life she fully deserved. She knew full well her deep demonic cruelty was not courage. She knew she murdered her own father and was very glad, very proud of that fact.

MJW was in fact a home made witch. Very bush league. She could have been at the least,  a multi millionaire. MJW let her severe hatred and jealousy get in the way of her demonic blessings. She could have conned satan out of a lot more than a second hand Cadillac and ghetto preaching.

Be aware. Know your surroundings. Know your people. My grandfather's frequent question upon meeting you for the first time; "Who yo'peoples is?"

The moment you declared your family name, granddaddy nodded, gave his approval or gave you a look. One thing we all knew in Wade Station, family name meant a lot. It said something. Unfortunately even good families will have members that turn out wrong. Don't let her hide, begging your protection. Do remember she is the one that deliberately ruined you. Very few people have been made to suffer the way of the WALTERS clan.

Let go! Let go of her abysmal lies. Of course she never confessed or apologized. How could she! When you are too repugnant an abomination to know, you do deserve prayer, not pity.  No you do not deserve secrecy. You and your kind are multiplying faster than I can type.

You all are liars. You can be stopped! You will be known.

PTL!

Pain and humiliation ...

The only true gifts my mother ever gave me. I do pray for her and all such human beings.  Miserable wretches full of disbelief, guilty of weak faith. Very good cheerleaders for GOD. GOD is always in their mouths. They do loudly declare the goodness of GOD , every day ,all day. They do make great "preachers".  Always charming and charismatic, ALWAYS LYING! Pure prevaricators. Not one word of truth in them. No honesty, no integrity, no Christ like spirit.

Vicious, vulgar, hideous,   sounding brass. An ogre, a malignant monstrosity, daring her victims to love GOD , to trust Him. A roaring "root working" monster.  A primitive thing left over from slavery. Truly a volunteer imp if there ever was one. Yes, I did witness my own mother shake her "dust" and clap her hands. Yes I did have to listen to her squeal like a pig every time she thought she won.

GOD maketh not ashamed. GOD does not lead His Children into captivity.  Some how, some way, my mother convinced us that her shame was ours, her secrets were our secrets. I have no vested interest in protecting such a beast and find it difficult to fear a dead demon.

Yes, I am still mystified by her incredible, unknowable, deeply disturbed demon possession. BUT I AM FREE!

An idiot fallen woman demanding every one she touched, corrupted, impressed, bow down and serve her. YOU ARE A LIAR sAtan! BOW DOWN YOU IGNORANT IMP!

 A haint , a home made witch demanding to be kept secret and honored. Regaling her awful deeds daily to guarantee you remain her terrified "flying monkey".

World, a woman caught in the very act of fornication , ravenous enough to get up and bludgeon her accuser is NOT TO BE FEARED, held in secret . She must be made known!

I Peter 4:16

GLORY!

MJW demanded to be honored.

That day will never come!

PTL!

Chickens do come home to roost,

Guineas too.

Some evil doers are intractable! Stone walls! Some evil doers will have their way and you will not so much as frown. You will not object!! YOU WILL NOT TELL! YOU WILL NEVER BREATHE ONE WORD OF YOUR AWFUL REALITY TO A LIVING SOUL!

No, you will not tell GOD, as a matter of fact you refuse to believe your reality. Yes, you have decided to go along with this (?) [no name for this spiritual aberration] because you have no choice. No precedent has been set for this type of monstrosity.  You are shocked beyond your ability to comprehend daily. There is no way to keep up with this evil predicted to come.  Just breathe, just put one foot in front of the other. Very slowly and very methodically plan your get away.

"LORD if you let me get away this time, I promise I won't come back. I promise!" You lie, the bitch tricks you again. You might not mind so much if she didn't get on her horn broadcasting your failures to the world.   Failures she pre-planned, ditches she pre-dug. So, you push on, fighting other enemies; racism, gender bias and sheer ignorance.

Just who will believe you? This can't be true! There is no way any one human being on this earth is as common as the woman you must call mother. SEX WITH THE DOOR WIDE OPEN! Really!!! In "Church" all day and Night and every Sunday! "You still nasty , you still morally bankrupt!'you are still a pedophile! An INCESTUOUS FEMALE RAPIST!"

The fact you had sense enough to hide your proclivities proves you had sense enough to not practice what you so skillfully and wantonly hid.

"Fear no man." I heard you for decades Jesus.  But I was conditioned just like a quarry slave.  A savage , ignorant, morally bankrupt woman that tried to pimp me at 14, sold my virginity to my "stepfather" when I was eight kept me terrified and confused.

Preach all you want sinner man, sinner woman. Give yourself titles. Put on aires. Lie with wreckless abandon from the pulpit. Strut while you falsely believe GOD is not moving.

Do the worse thing any human being can do to a fellow human being. Be sure you are  most cruel and savage with infants, small children and the elderly.  If anyone ever comes at you bearing GOD's Truth, annoying  you with the truth, tear them from limb to limb with your vicious lies and filthy cursing. Use GOD! Yes, be idiotic enough to go down on graves hunting power. Forget how foolish, how primitive and depraved you must be to practice such and "preach".

Do it anyway. Laugh as the very foolish that  confuse your cruelty with courage., your lies with GOD's truth. Destroy those children. Never change your mind. Never let go of your secret envy, jealousy. Enjoy being the low viper you are. Slither, slither, lie, lie. Relish in all destruction they will never know. Worship the evil one on the sly. No one will ever know or believe. You preached so good you fooled yourself.  These dummies will never know.

"Awake from your slumber."

There is Power in that name! JESUS!

PTL!

Fifty years in the making ...

Yes, evil doer you will pay, you will reap.  One thing the old evil doer finds impossible to comprehend; GOD's Time, His Time table.

Simple imps like my mother view "delay" as proof of their demonic "gifts".  GOD sees a fool, a repugnant reprobate. Yes, my mother suffered with the worse possible Jezebel jealousy possible.

She did suffer from extreme low self esteem because she deserved too.

I was in the sixth grade, attending Newbold Traing School, thriving . "Mother" turned the second bedroom in our quaint Fayetteville State Teachers College cottage  into a den of iniquity. It was a small room  off the kitchen , in the back of the house. There was a hall door that could be closed.

If you dared to open that door after midnight on any given night you were sure to enter into hell, you would enter into a world of no return. It was a world of extreme fornication, group sex, pedophilia and incest.

Martha put her elderly father in the huge living room, the boys in the hallway and my older brother remained in the "sin den". This room was where Martha brought her secret lovers. Young soldiers she picked up nightly from Vick's Drive In.

We all knew what Martha was doing.  We all knew her pornography was so prolific, piled so high it held up her bed. I remember it well. It was the foulest, the filthiest, pure carne! All women, all wet cunts.

Fifty years in the making, over fifty years in the making. GOD told me to know my truth. My Truth; my mother was a vile sadistic incestious nymphomaniac pedophile MURDERER,  that preached.

Jesus warned us. "Ravenous wolves in sheep's clothing..."

When a woman falls low enough to haunt graves seeking power in order to satisfy her disgusting carnal proclivities,  we do have to wait for that abomination to finally exit the planet.

Do know Martha Jane Walters is the wave of the future. She is the new woman.  Read my blog and weep.

"Jesus weap."

I weap tears of Joy! I am praising the LORD! Only the LORD GOD Almighty could save me. save my family , from such a creature.

Dear LORD, thank you for II Thessalonians !

"SHUT UP!!!"

Could those two words be the cause of my loquaciousness ?  I think so …that and the fact that my own mother was a "talkaholic".  My mother never "shut up".   She talked in her sleep.  The very unfortunate truth about her incessant babbling, she was often lying.  If she wasn't lying she was flattering you to disguise her hatred and jealousy .  She was buttering you up to take you down.

It is time for this world to quit lying and making every woman that delivers a baby some kind of saint, the Virgin Mother Mary.  The fact is, an immoral, unprincipled , corrupt woman will be an immoral, unprincipled , corrupt mother.

I do blame the man.  Man, if you are a real man, do not impregnate a woman you would not marry.  A woman you do not trust, do not want.  And most importantly, if you do in fact impregnate a hideous whore like my mother, see about that child.  GOD does not excuse you because the mother is a low whore.

Why were you with a low whore in the first place?   What does that say about you?  True,  my mother did end up marrying a pervert, a man with equally low morals.  That should not be.   I am sure GOD cried when those two buzzards found each other.

No matter.  GOD was there, is here, has never left me and never will.

I must marvel at my mother's tenacity.  She never tired of her wickedness.  AND SHE WAS GOOD!  I never would have known.  I would have remained clueless without the sudden return of my long lost brother.  He was gone, some where in the wind,  for twenty-five years.  I was blind, deaf and dumb.  I get it now, can see it clearly with 20/20 hindsight.  As a matter of fact I should have known.  I should have known,  if that had been in GOD's Divine Order.

I find it scandalous that my mother got away with her evil for so long.  I find it offensive to GOD that we assigned her evil to Him.  We did not  blame Him but, for some reason she taught us, the world taught us, that she had to be tolerated.  Not only tolerated,forgiven without acknowledging her sin but,  kept secret.  "Tell and die!"  and I do mean die!  She stabbed a woman once for calling her a whore.  Funny, she was a whore.  She was whoring on her first husband that was blind.  I have to laugh.  I bet that woman never called another woman a whore.

Why? Because she preached?  Please do not offer her lame excuses, her color, her ignorant parents, racist white people.

"Take your licks."  If you do wrong, quickly admit it.  Admit what you did wrong, where you went wrong.

I saved up my grief.  I refused to be soft around my mother.  I refused to cry because she told me ;"Duh mo' you cry …duh less you piss!".  I became harden, stoic. I guess I was waiting to exhale.

 My mother was an extremely evil sociopath.  Worse she was unrecognized, unrepentant, unpunished.  She was a wretch, a saboteur, a pathological liar, a witch, a root worker THAT PREACHED!

Do not hold your tears in hoping for a different outcome.  Jesus told us to know our truth.  The truth is not easy when it is truth like mine , ours, held by a complete reprobate.

My mother made me think my tears meant that I was weak.  I was already black, blind, short and defective.  I wasn't as smart as she was, although she thought I was pretty intelligent.  I was lucky.  But

No matter,  it is true.  satan can NOT Win!  GOD is not about to let some piss ant like my mother come here and block anyone's blessings. GOD is NOT about to let some MURDERING reprobate win because she got away wither deep dark sins for so long.  It is just a matter of time.  "Time changes all things".

 I do pray for my brilliant talented brothers.  All handsome men that would have made very good husbands and very good fathers to some very good women.

 "Love never fails."

Become Christ like.  "Let GOD fight your battles."

PTL!

I press on   ...

"In all thy getting, get understanding."

Thank you Jerome Walters.  Thank you Jesus.  I heard and comprehended those words early in life.  I have always been keenly aware, brilliantly perceptive.  I had to.  If I expected to navigate and survive the pits pre-dug for me by my own mother.

Dear LORD,  the lost is incredible.  You said in Your Word if we try to elevate ourselves through unscrupulous means we would be brought down.  Wrong can never be made right.  Evildoers waste their time scheming and dreaming of defeating the Righteous.

Is that why Mathy Jane murdered her own father LORD?  Was she trying to defeat GOD?   Was she trying to erase and eradicate all evidence of the truth about her life?

Martha was so confident that granddaddy would never reveal her that she laughed in his face as he kept mum.  There was so much we didn't know and would have never known if Mathy Jane had not volunteered, had not been bragging and running off at the mouth.

I know now that Martha was never smarter than me as she bragged.  She was just older, more hardened, more corrupt.  Paying a prostitute to give a "client" oral pleasure was not a sign of her superior intelligence.  It was merely evidence of her sick criminal predatory mind.  If was evidence that she was a woman of very little virtue, very little faith in a true living,  loving GOD.

Poor Martha spent the better part of her life preaching and proclaiming the goodness of GOD while not believing one single solitary word.   My grandfather must have memorized the entire Bible.  He quoted it chapter and verse, often.  He,  unlike his daughter, believed every word.  Liked every word, set an example for his descendants to follow.  He taught us about "Covenant" living and GOD's promises.  Mathy Jane quickly and always dismissed such knowledge as garbage. (So, why preach?)

Well,  I admit to seriously having a nervous breakdown, a total collapse.  First , just recognizing how truly evil my mother absolutely was slayed me.  How any one human being could be so evil, corrupt and purely perverted for eighty-seven years and never desire to change,  AND GO UNRECOGNIZED, UNREPENTANT, UNAPOLOGETIC, knocked me for a loop.

"Forgive and forget" was our life.  Let Mathy Jane do and commit all kinds of evil and treachery on a daily basis.   Mathy Jane gets to do all the evil, we get to forgive and forget. (And keep silent.  To love Mathy Jane was to suffer in silence.)

It happened in 1979 and I still can't get over it.   Perhaps if I had been made aware of her incredible evil along the way.  I knew about the five aborted babies.   She bragged about "flushing" them so nonchalantly, so gleefully, so often,   it really didn't phase me as it should have.

Did "Christianity" condition me, us, to tolerate Martha's extraordinary evil?  No, she did!  The mother is the first teacher and the greatest teacher.  When your mother is a corrupt perverted pedophile, you have a problem.

I grew to maturity with an awful problem.  An extremely evil, treacherous, lying, malignant narcissistic mother was my inheritance, my "cross to bear".  I bore it well.    Only a few major mental breakdowns in sixty-four years,  is due to the goodness of GOD, His tender mercies and the fervent prayers of Jerome Walters.

My grandfather always declared; "Time changes all things."  No truer words have ever been spoken.  To know that your own mother hated you with a deep passion and never wanted anything but the worse for you is devastating.  Finally acknowledging that you were  always the dummy standing there whimpering, pleading and crying for this "thang" to please  love you,  depresses you even more.

Dear LORD  please do not let me lose the love I have,  chasing a love that I can never receive.  I rebuke you satan! Bow down!

Dear LORD I thank you for my beautiful, brilliant, loving daughter.  Dear LORD you surely "showed out" when you created her.  I know you blessed me beyond measure and I thank you.

I view Martha Jane Walters as stepping stones, misery that had to be endured like child birth.  Yes, I am glad she is gone!  Praise the LORD she is gone.  Yes, I will talk about her, describe her, warn of her. Yes, LORD I will warn the world about women so low they willfully, gleefully and gladly commit incest, MURDER and "chunk dust".  A self styled, home made "witch", a country "root doctor" that decided to preach for cover.  GOD said No!

Keep on you evildoers!  Keep on knowing full well you are wasting your time.  While you may falsely believe you are keeping GOD's children away from their promised blessings you are merely a tool to usher them into the Kingdom.

GOD sees you evildoer.  You can't get away.  All your lying, intimidating, "dust chunking" mean nothing to GOD.  What you did was expose your ignorant primitive reprobate self.

Evildoers that preach, do know that you are teaching the truth.  My mother preached the Truth concerning GOD's Word.  She chose not to believe.  She chose to stand in a pulpit lying, trying to cover up all the filth she drug behind her, lying and denying.

For eighty-seven years Mathy Jane bragged that she was winning.  Something tells me she knew she was losing all the time.    I do think the day Mathy Jane poured that pot of hot boiling coffee on her son was the day she should have been put out of her misery.  All she did was wax worse.  She did not heed, feel ashamed or apologetic.  She felt slick, considered herself a brilliant liar, a secret disciple of the evil one.

One thing I have learned from my tremendously long Mathy Jane Experience,  a miserable lying woman will bring untold, incalculable misery on her entire family for hundreds of years if that succubus is not stopped, hindered, prevented, exposed or revealed.

The Mathy Jane demonic whores of this world must be revealed, made known.  When a person comes out of misery they must tell , they must brag about he goodness of GOD.

I'm bragging! I'm testifying of the goodness of GOD!

Praise the LORD!

Thank you Jesus!

Thank you for letting my soul know there is no excuse for such evil.  Martha knew better.  She knew better, far better than we ever realized.  Yes, she did despitefully use us.  It did cost her.  She pretended that she didn't care.   She did.  She career enough to become something extremely evil and cunning.

No, Martha did not mind going to hell, spending eternity in hell because she foolishly lived eighty-seven years in hell.  Her deep shame for her "afflictions" was torture enough.  No wonder she tortured so many people so willingly.  She was tortured.

She could not let that ignorant pride concerning her skin and hair go.  She knew no one cared.  She knew it was a lie from satan.  But, it was the only thing she had.  Pregnant  "umpteen" times by age 26, uneducated, practically illiterate , what could she do?  Could she humble herself? apologize? admit she was wrong? Never!  "Pride goeth before a fall."

I listened LORD.  Yes, I am a wretch undone.  We all are.  Man is weak, man is ignorant.  But, I am humble LORD.  I am humble and I am grateful.

I just want to say thank you.  No, my life has been far from perfect but it has been good!  No better daughter could any woman  ever have! PTL!

That little girl stopped what she was doing.  Flew here and saved her mother from utter ruin! PTL!

I know there is a GOD and I know He loves me!

"Be as wise as a serpent ...

but as gentle as a dove."  A person as wise as a serpent is an alert person, all their antennae are up, scanning for danger.

I noticed it often, over and over, never knowing what it was, always suspicious, always cautious,  wary.   I certain;y understand why.  I was four the first time I found my "behind" up in some man's face, in harm's way,  at the very secret urging of my "mother".

Did she think she was clever enough to get away for ever?   Yes!  No one was more upset, more riled and vexed than Martha for the two of us,  the two close kin that expressed doubt about her suicide  explanation for her father's untimely death by .38 caliber bullet in the heart.

Martha always bragged about how good looking her father was, so she certainly was not going to shoot him in the head and make him unfit for an open casket.

Martha was one woman that fully believed she had the right to do just as she pleased, exactly when and how she pleased.   And did!   Why not?  When was she ever stopped?  When was her evil ever prevented?  Just when did her victims ever reveal her?  Why?  You could not tell what she did. If you told , you were going to be the one scorned, reviled, rejected.  Few would believe you and even fewer would ever care.  There were no words in this child's vocabulary.

"Don't you ****** eva' tell nobody!  …Dis our luddle secret."

The truth is Martha Jane Walters was a pedophile!  A pedophile from childhood.  A sexually promiscuous child that was not going to be stopped.  Why wasn't the man arrested or murdered for raping her three times?    THREE TIMES! How does an eight year old child go about getting raped thee times by the same "family friend'?

Families shouldn't keep secrets and families should not cloak for reprobates.

Divine Order in affect!  Crooked ways being made straight.  "Chickens coming home to roost."  "Just and honest due being handed out."  Jesus fixing it!

PTL!

I press on   ...

I have to laugh ...

there is one thing my mother hated.  Other than just hating me for bothering her with my worthless life, Martha hated the fact that I could talk.  That I communicated so well.  Whether in writing or verbally.  I am a great communicator.  How can I help it?  My great-grandmother, Mary Wright Walters was a brilliant communicator, as was her mother, Mary Wright.  As, was my grandfather, Jerome Walters.

It seems that my mother demanded that I be retarded, slow to think, an inarticulate stutterer.    Just how was she,  an very intelligent woman,  ever going to have dumb children?    Intelligence  rides the dominant gene.  My mother may have reproduced with men less intelligent but,  her remarkable intelligence over rode any possible dimwittedness.

Martha did have a criminal mind.  I don't have it.  Praise GOD that gene bypassed me.  Anger, a quick temper, I do have unfortunately.  I pray daily.  When vexed, GOD dispatches His angels to keep me from harm, to keep me from harming others.

LORD I thank You.  I thank you for my journey.

PTL!

I press on   ...

"You can't make me doubt Him!"

Please, lean not to your own "misunderstanding".   Pray, ask GOD for His guidance daily.  Only He can lead you in the path of Righteousness.   If you know anything about this cold,  cruel , world we inhabit, it is to not trust man, woman.  Some creatures are extremely predatory.  Man is one creature that is  extremely predatory,  without proper guidance and instruction.

'If a rose is called by another name is it still a rose?'  If you call a complete ignorant demon , "mother", does that make her a "mother"?  "If your right eye offend thee, pluck it out."

The day Mathy deliberately scalded her little black bastard son with a pot of boiling hot coffee,  just because she could,  just because she was a superb actress and would never be suspected, just because she was secretly ashamed of herself for having so many bastard "younguns" without daddies.  Just because Martha Jane Walters was a complete sold out imp for satan , that day  should have been the day Jerome Walters plucked.   That should have been the day Mathy  was plucked from "among us", cast into prison to rot.  I understand, granddaddy did not want to see what he saw.

For sixty-two years I did not want to see what I saw.  I for sixty-two years I experienced horrors still too painful to recall.

It is all in Divine Order.  Martha was tolerated because she was a part of GOD's Supreme Plan.  She is a demonstration of how He makes "every crooked way straight.".   Some imps for satan left evidence of their handy work on my "house".  Why?  They know full well they can not prosper.

Unfortunately when you are a reprobate, you are an imp.  An imp is a slave for the evil one.  The imp has no mind of his/her own, no self control.  They are little piss ant robots for satan.  While embarrassed by their own evil deeds,  they are powerless to stop without calling on the mighty name of Jesus!

An imp will lie!  Will perpetrate, will put on a complete Los Vegas performance on the demand of the evil one.  But do know that an imp for satan will never humble his or herself to Christ.  They can not do it.  And worse, they will hate you the more for knowing their truth.

"To GOD be the Glory!"  They can't win.  Martha died knowing full well that she sank to the bottom of  satan's bottomless pit. She was not sorry nor in the least way remorseful.  She was greedy, ravenous, just wanted to take as many with her as possible.

GOD said No!

"Bow down satan!"

PTL!

I press on   ...

"Time changes all things"

Just another "factoid" taught to me by my grandfather.  Had he been born white and privileged , there is no doubt that my grandfather would have stood out as a fearless hero, a great philosopher, a great religious leader.  As it was, GOD planted him where he was needed most, by many, in the belly of the beast.  On a farm in rural North Carolina at the turn of the century, when "blacks" suffered nightly for being "black".

There are over seven billion human beings on this planet earth and I count it a privilege to still be among the living.  GOD is still granting me the opportunity to make a difference.  If nothing else, my life proves that a sociopath, a witch, a volunteer imp for satan,  can be overcome.

My life alone demonstrates that the "fervent prayers of a righteous man availeth much."  Time does change all things.  Mathy  did birth us, conditioned us to absorb the most excruciating pain for her sadistic pleasure.   Enduring the slightest pain was something she could not do.  We had to nurse her through her "hangovers" ever weekend.  "Chrush duh ice inside a towel wid duh hammer!  I want Saltine crackers! I WANT CHICKEN AND RICE NOT NO CHICKEN NOOOOOOOODLE!!!  I want ice cold Coke not no ************ Pepsi! BRIIINNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGG MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!" 

Growing up I had no idea I was essentially my mother's quarry slave.  Did she ever expect me to catch on? to live that long? Not only did we live long, I lived long enough to ask for, to request an apology, at least an explanation.

I did not expect to get cursed out.  And I did not expect my family to abandon me for her.  Not her!  She did not fool anyone.  Sure we tolerated her, but we were never as fooled as we pretended. We (I) watched her "work roots".  I dismissed it and considered her ignorant and her practice something left over from slavery.

To discover so many people still fearing her is startling.   (They must be taught better.)

She could not so much as have a baby without demanding every "knock- out- drug" known to man.

I on the other hand, I delivered my baby after twenty-eight hours of "natural childbirth".  I could not risk her mental health with my use of drugs, pain killers. I remember giving all that pain up to Jesus., praying that He bear it for me. (He did. ) She was born with the umbilical cord wrapped tightly around her neck, slowly suffocating her as she was being delivered.

GOD was in the room, He marched around that delivery room.  Just as my daughter was being born the doctor rushed in!  Saved my daughter in the nick of time.  No one was there except for GOD.  No nurse, no attendant, no husband and no mother.  Just GOD!

satan has stalked and whooped on me for sixty-four years! "Bow down satan!" You impudent, ignorant, always losing, never learning cur!  How can you be so tenacious, never giving up on evil?  Always spying, plotting evil? Sit down satan! Sit your dead ass down!

My mother had no excuse for mistreating her own father so.  She had no excuse for her continued rebelliousness either.  She knew better.  Unfortunately Martha was dragging three demonic spirits with her.  She had a Cain spirit of envy and jealousy.  Every human being is subject to the influence of such.  It can be prayed away.  Martha had a Jezebel spirit.  She loved it.  It was a seductress, exactly what she wanted to be.  Martha also had a Python spirit.  She acquired that spirit going down on those graves collecting "goofer dust".

Martha could have ended her relationship with all those spirits if she had only desired.  Do desire to be saved children.  Do desire the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.

PTL!

I press on   ...

Steve Winwood, Eric Clapton - Can't Find My Way Home

"Pride goeth before a fall"

The evil forces of this this world will render you a total mental cripple.  You will know that you are wrong but vehemently refuse to change because you are too perfect to be wrong.  You worry about what the world will think about you,  knowing your deep dark secrets, while not ever caring about your sick demonic deeds.  Falsely believing and declaring secrecy and silence is all you need., you wax worse and worse.

Pride will keep you from apologizing to your victims.  It will make you hate your victims more than you already secretly hate them,  for having the nerve, for having  the "grit in their craw" to confront you, their deeply closeted tormentor.

Pride will make you believe your own lies.  When caught, caught red handed, you will act the pure demonic fool, you will feign mental illness, you will roar , though you now be extremely elderly and toothless.

Pride will make you give monetary gifts to your flying monkeys in exchange for their complicity.  "Just close your eyes to the truth. Put that truth away, far away. Put one foot in front of the other.  Press on.  Forgive! Press on! Live confuse, beleaguered, vexed.  Press on."  That was my life for so long.  Do know,  at no time was I not searching for the truth.  I found out that you will never get the truth from a professional liar.  A lie can never be the truth even if every member of your family cling to it.  Nothing, no one can make a Christ lover give up the right for the wrong.

A rock will cry out before I will bend to satan! Yes, "it doth appear" I bent or feared pure evil for a very long time.  Do know I was being shaped, prepared, broken and remade.  Do know, this world, not clever demon, no matter how clandestine, can make me doubt GOD!

We all must do what the Holy Spirit urges us to do.

I know my redeemer lives!

I know I was created for such a time as this!

I know I must preach and proclaim the love and forgiveness of our LORD Jesus Christ!

PTL!

I press on    ...

I really don't think ...

it was a collective decision.  It was more conditioning out of fear, of failure to question, failure to accept our awful truth.  Just human myths and alibis kept us tethered to this albatross.  We would not so much as parted our lips to her otherwise.   The best analogy I can think of is of a frog boiling in a pot.  The little frog was placed in the pot as a tadpole, the heat was gradually turned up.  We accepted our excruciating pain and stupidity , not because we wanted to , we had just grown up so accustomed to mistreatment , we accepted it as a part of life.

We,  as an extremely fearful society ,  are always yelling "hush", "just don't say nothing!"  And very sad to admit the greatest rebuke I have received for finally revealing my mother have been from so called "Christians".  Christian idiots.  People that wear the "church house" out.  People that tithe and serve in great capacities.  People more worried about perception than reality.  People that willing live with people they hate, talk about them behind their backs and would never confront them to their face.  People ready to brag to GOD about their good works.  People blind and won't see.

Martha was what Mathy was, an abomination!  A female rapist, perverted sociopath, a loud clamorous bangee, imp, monstrosity, that you did not want to meet on your worse day,  ever,  in life or in the here after! .  Oh yes, Mathy was a tragic accident going somewhere to happen.  She was NOT going to be recognized, criticized, ostracized or prevented!  You were going to endure her in silence!  Not one word of truth were you ever going to speak concerning her "condition".

Martha knew full well that she had a "condition".  She knew full well that she was evil, jealous, lustful, common and despicable.  She knew that you knew and we all knew to not speak on it, to ignore it.  To pretend that it didn't exist or to hurry and forgive and never expect such to happen ever again, but brace yourself anyway.

Just live your life struggling, fighting for every crumb,  for this lecherous reprobate to  grin in your face and secretly snatch it back.  It was a  sick game with Martha. You had to play it!  You had no choice!  Your head was in the lion's moth!  You could not win!  "You can' win fuh duh fix you in!  I can't lose fuh duh stuff I use!"

Do know Martha sang that song to us every day of our lives.  Yes, she did deliberately humiliate us and yes,  she did get completely away, EVERY TIME!   Yes, she did MURDER her own father in an attempt to keep us away from a loving, protecting, forgiving GOD.  Martha lived the life of a complete reprobate, ravenous wolf.  She enjoyed it , as well she should.  She made it up, made up the rules as she went and she was always the winner.

So, why did my mother write me a letter, wipe her behind in it and mail it to me?  Why did she expect me to understand that? to accept that kind of treatment still? What made her think there was anything right about such reprehensible behavior?  Why did she brag about hat act to others?  Why did they accept it?  Why did they tolerate such a relative? Where was GOD?  What kind of mind could conceive of such an act?

Something is missing!  Where is the love? the compassion? understanding?  Where is the honor? the respect?  There is none.  Martha Jane Walters was a bully!  A complete bully imp of the highest order.  A complete imp for satan.  GOD gave her brilliant talented children.  She didn't want them  (no,  not one) but was too selfish and too proud to give them away, to place them in loving homes.

Kept them to humiliate and torture,  over and over.  Never changed her tactics.  Never changed her modus opirindi.  Never accepted responsibility for her own actions.  Never told the complete truth about anything, ever!   Lived as a  jealous lying hater, died a jealous lying unrepentant hater.  Preached repentance for others, never for herself because satan rendered her delusional.  She was confused.  She preached stirring sermons reinforcing her serious delusion.  "Ordained minister" in front of her name helped to keep her blind.  Our collective cowardly enabling behavior,  did not help our plight.

Did GOD get tired or was it all in Divine Order?  I know GOD created me for such a time as this!  People need to know that they don't have to be perfect.  You don't have to be faithful attendees or rabid Bible readers for GOD to step in and turn your life around.

Just say Jesus!  You can say it in a still quiet voice or you can yell it.  Just know that He is coming!  Just know there is light at the end of the darkest tunnel.   Just know that when you hook up with Jesus the devil can't do you any harm , no matter how long she has held you captive.

PTL!

I press on   ...

"Call a thing a thing."

Call what is, what it is.  If I had not lived it, I would not have believed it.  I now know full well why Jesus admonishes us over and over to have courage, to fear no man.

If anyone knows what a terrorist satan is, Jesus does.  Evil depends on debilitating, irrational fear planted deep and planted early. Why else would satan dictate to one of his imps to violate small children so early in their lives?

World do know some of those raped violated children become likewise but some become the opposite. What satan designed for evil, GOD is using for good.  Praise the LORD!  I will not be, I refuse to be defeated because my mother was.  Because she declared that I was.  She was just wishing.  MJW was not about to take responsibility for her own actions and she was eighty-seven.  What was she waiting on?

"Pride goeth before a fall."  Delusional evildoer, please do not think you are going to get away for ever, just because you thought you were getting away for decades.  All in "due time". All in "due season".

MJW was the product of an extremely evil mind.  A mind she wanted, solicited and was granted.  No, matter what,   this whole experience has made me a much better person than I might have otherwise been.

I am living proof GOD answers prayers, delivers, keeps His Word and most certainly has Divine Order!

Preach the Word in season, out of season.

In other words always tell GOD's Gospel Truth no matter how disturbing initially.  All great truths, revelations have been meet with great rebuke and scorn.  The fact that the earth revolves around the sun was a terrifying truth man did not willingly accept.

Fact: there are far too many men and women, in the "Church" ,  ravenous wolves.   Revelation 22 is real!   Family secrets concerning perversion are in fact destroying the family unit a great deal more than people are willing to realize, to accept, to face.  Fear of our truth keeps us bound, pawns for the evil one.

It is pride.  Man hates to be wrong.  My people will debate you to exhaustion,  just to twist your words and bully you into contradicting yourself,  so they can appear to be right.  Some poor unfortunate people so full of self hatred and ignorance will deliberately attempt to destroy every one that loves them just so they will never be viewed as wrong or criticized.

That is pride!  As stupefying as it can be, but it is real and stems from that Cain spirit.  Some families can rent a mansion, live in it, four or five generations, ten,  twenty people.  Some families pool their resources, start businesses, love and cooperate with each other.

Some women are fallen whores that prefer to bully, intimidate, practice witchcraft, fake preach, than live right.  Some men and women think they have the right to do just as they please,  just as long as they please,  based on a delusional lie concerning pigmentation and hair texture.

I used to blame my mother for being so stupid.  While, she should be blamed,   the people that accept such ignorance are worse.  What does skin color prove?  I think a person can have a preference for skin color because that is human.  Natural attraction is real.  I am short but  have always had a height requirement in my mind.  It is not prejudice, it is a preference.  That doesn't mean I should hate all short men, label and hate them.

I know, every thing I need to know is in that Bible.  I know no greater evil abomination ever slithered on this earth,  making out like she was an ordained minister, a pastor, a loving daughter, sister, mother, pastor, friend, mother of the church.

We were had!  And we were had bad!

Attention evildoer, before you do your evil, count the cost.  Consider what you will do, or must do when or if you are caught.  Cursing out your victim or victims is not the best choice when you are eighty -seven years old.  What are you trying to prove?  You did it!  You know you did it!  We all know you did it!  So,  why are you trying to make me take low? lie? Why should I continue lying and cloaking for you?  You proved to be my worse enemy.

I loved you!  I did everything for you!  How dare you hate me for humbly begging for a small quiet apology!  So,  cursing me for knowing my truth is worse than the demonic sexual acts you perpetrated on me, on us?  Worse than the thousands upon thousands of lies you told on me, on us.

Martha Jane Walters,  the best thing about your extremely long abominable life,  it clearly demonstrates GOD will do just what He said!  It is all in Divine Order!

"Know ye the truth and the truth will set you free!"

PTl1

I press on   ...

She did her worse ...

but GOD was always at His best! Praise the LORD! One thing I know, reprobates keep GOD busy.  Busy rescuing, snatching out of harm's way!

I know my Mathy Jane Experience has been a marathon, a sixty-four year marathon!  satan truly had me bound.  I was on my very last "life line".  GOD sent me help! Snatched me out of the jaws of the evil one.

I am refreshed.  I am redeemed.  I am restored!

Thank you Jerome Walters for teaching me ; "Jesus will fix it."  A sure fact!

PTL!

I press on   ...

"You can't make me doubt Him!"

Some old time preaching.  Some good preaching, a good Word. I do hope more and more people will think critically, live righteously and expose evil.  You will not have evil  in your family, in your home if your refuse to tolerate it.   "If your right eye offend thee pluck it out!"  This crazed woman doing every evil conceivable , then carefully concealing her guilt in front of the public eye.

Martha readily admitted all of her acts at "home", in private.   Laughed and bragged about them.  Why did we bear her so long?  Other than being thoroughly brainwashed we were always economically dependent.  Martha instinctively gravitated to "power of the purse strings".  "Broke" will make you humble.  You will take a lot of name calling, and public humiliation if you are down and out.

The worse thing any family can do is tolerate a sick sociopath because her sins are too repugnant to repeat.    If a family is just too ashamed to admit to the world that they have a demon vexing them.  If they think silence is their best strategy , very few will ever know of their awful pain.

You do gladly go along with her masquerade , or charade , more out of a need for protection from the out of control ogre than actually believing she means what she preaches.  Some how she gets you to agree that what she preaches is impossible but it sounds good.  That GOD doesn't not really expect it.  She could not do it so loves to remind you that you can't do it either.

Strangely, it just dawned on me, a woman so vicious and psychotic about her reputation cared nothing about destroying it.  Every and any thing was do-able if you just kept it secret.

There it is right there in the Word.  Jesus gives us so much wisdom.   We all know that we can NOT go wrong following Him.  No matter what this world serves us, GOD keeps a ram in the bushes.  I am so humbled right now I can scarcely write, or speak.

My daughter, my little baby , came home and rescued her mother ! Snatched me out of the lion's mouth! It is GOD!  That Christ like spirit alive and well in my daughter was prayed up, prayed over many generations ago.  Praise the LORD!

I had a meltdown but GOD picked me up!

PTL!

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"A need to know basis"

I am a firm believer that GOD reveals His truth to the believer on a "need to know basis".  I did not know that my mother was a complete, fit to be in prison, sociopath.  I did not know that I was being horribly mistreated.  No, it wasn't my stupidity either.  My mother kept "suga" in her mouth.  She would "purr" and lie.  She would literally piss on you and convince you that it was fresh rain.  Just to reinforce your deep coma she would make you thank her, thank her profusely,  thank her often.  Yes, she would get you out in public and humiliate you.  All her drama was feed by her insecurity , insecurity she refused to face and masked with a phony sense of superiority, always reminding everyone of  the color of her skin. and the texture of her hair.

Martha was extremely manipulation, cunning but most of all she was terrorizing.  She did beat babies.  She did do things that I have decided to not repeat.

"No boundaries".  When you curse at and assault a toddler , you need help.  The community should have never turned a blind eye to Martha, though she be fierce.

All the evil Martha perpetuated against me GOD turned around.  If a Mathy Jane Experience  will not motivate you to study, pursue your dreams, nothing will.  We all need a little motivation, encouragement,   "You can do it"  people.  Just one or two.  I had a few.  Jerome Walters, my grandfather and my daughter!

GOD took my blinders off slowly, very slowly, sixty-two years.  Yes, I had a "breakdown".  But GOD picked me up.  "When your mother and father forsake you, I will pick you up."

It is important to know and study the scripture for yourself.  It is important that you live righteously.  It is one thing,  to do something wrong out of ignorance.  But,  to deliberately , willfully engage in wrong doing because you are full of sick envy and jealousy!?  GOD said No!  Do not count what you considered your success as proof that you were winning, that GOD was not watching, was not large and in charge.

I learned from you.  I learned from your sermons.  I had no idea that you spoke falsely, that all your righteous rhetoric was a rouse, a con.  You conned yourself dummy.  That is alright.  We all have sinned and come short .  You knew that, you preached it.  You chose satan, satan kept you blind and deluded for eighty-seven years. It was pride.

Yes, many will learn from your life.  Many will learn from my testimony to trust GOD, to free fall.

When you know better, know you know better.  When you just flat refuse to care, apologize, to soothe or make right sincerely, you are an abomination!  "From such stay away!" "If your right eye offend thee, pluck it out."

When your only defense is; "SHUTDUHFUCKUP!"  When you are so common, so low as to blatantly murder your own father and demand not to be bothered or reminded of the "event",  you are out of order!  Not only are you "out of order", so are the people that support you.  Our GOD is not a GOD of confusion, of lies.  Our GOD is the  GOD of Order, Truth, Justice.

You dishonor GOD greatly when you fail to trust Him, lean to your own understanding.  Accept a lie for the Truth because you fear looking at yourself.  We all must look deeply at ourselves.  The hour is growing late.  Why are you still trying to please negative, back-biting hypocritical man?

Get in trouble, you'll have no friends when you need them.  If you have GOD, "He got you!"  Free fall!

GOD is not going to change His Word to protect the reputation of a reprobate because she preached.   (She never preached for GOD any way.  She preached for her own glory.)  It does not matter how high you climb in man's world, that is not GOD"s World, not His Plan.

No matter how vile and vicious this world is towards me I will love the LORD!  Cling to Him , thanking Him for rescuing me once again.  For "keeping a ram in the bushes".  For leading and guiding me. For these tickets on the fifty-yard line of the Falcon's home game today!

Trust and obey!  Be abundantly blessed as you live and learn, observe and decide the right path, discover the right direction, today.   Recognize your mistakes early, acknowledge them and refuse to repeat them.   Get out of that critical, negative, whining, blaming, never learning line.

Do not buy what you want then turn around and beg for what you need.  "Look well to your going."

Gifts of love and kindness are free.  Give, love, compassion and understanding over negativity.  Most importantly do not ever let anyone successfully block your blessings.

Brush your teeth with this affirmation; "I was born for Greatness, If I am to Be, What I want to Be, IT IS UP TO ME!"

No man, no  woman, no thing can hold you down if you seek GOD first.  Pray for the indwelling of His Holy Spirit.  Shun evil and shun evil doers.

Praise the LORD!

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Never give up!

No matter how long the evil one stalks you, vexing, sabotaging playing head games, know that evil will never win.

Do know that my beautiful intelligent mother suffered from the worse form of malignant insane jealousy impossible.  It made no sense.  Poor Martha could not see, appreciate or enjoy her own gifts for the larceny and demonic envy that lived in her heart.

Martha was a bully of the worse order.  A female rapist!  Yes, she was raped as a child but that is no justification.  Martha purely hated this world and all that dwell in it.  Everything about her was false, a fake.  The only thing real about her was her savage sadistic humiliating schemes to destroy those she pretended to love.

More than anything Martha wanted control.  I do think it was her despicable insane promiscuity, her inability to control her carnal urges.  Martha was a sex maniac, truly a nymphomaniac.  Ironically in one of our last conversations she was lamenting about how good sex was.  "If GAWD made anything bedder dan sex, He kept if fuh hizsef!"

My first thought was; "Is she trying to rub it in?  She knows full well all the sick things she did to me and had done to me to render me a complete eunuch.  Is she gloating?"

While Martha never paid on earth for one single demonic deed, she was indeed a miserable wretch.  Always comparing herself to others.  Always overly critical of every one, every thing.  Always name calling, baiting, smearing, deliberately creating a hostile nasty environment.

For some reason Martha felt extreme secrecy, hushed mouth fear,  was the key to her success as a double agent for satan.

Dear LORD I pray for  delivery for such evil men and women.  I did learn that name calling and brutality to be their chief weapons.  That and insincere flattery.  I know now anything Martha ever praised me for was for something she fully intended to take, snatch, ruin.  Do know anything nice, sweet, comforting coming out of her mouth was a lie.  It was something she thought you didn't deserve and most importantly she did believe she was cunning enough to steal it from you and destroy it because she did falsely think herself brilliant.

Do know every single demonic act she cleverly perpetuated against me, GOD turned it around in my favor.

"I shaved yo'head three times when you wuz luddle!"  World do know that I had the most beautiful luscious  head of hair.  She did envy it, would take a yardstick to measure it.   Over and over, for my entire life the LORD has protected me from evil.  Praise the LORD!

The best thing I can say about my mother is she drove me to Christ!  Praise the LORD!

No matter what, no matter how evil your loved ones, trust GOD.  Always pray.  Prayer is your vital breath, a sincere connection to Our Father.  Never give up!  Never doubt.  Do learn to listen, to discern.

Do follow Jesus' advice.  Go into your secret closet to pray.  Do fast.  Do model your life after Christ's.
DO NOT LIE!  Know your truth.  I know mine.  The lowest, evilest, commonest, most ravenous wolf, was my birth mother.

That's it.  She was my vehicle to this earth.  That's it.  I was never her property to use and abuse.

Poor Martha was an extremely spoiled manipulative little girl.  She never grew up.  Her emotional maturity had a range from three to twelve years old.  Her extreme violence and filthy mouth kept us silent, intimidated.  Yes, and her conjure too.  Martha was good at voodoo, witchcraft.  I know,  I saw! I am a living witness!  I am so glad she took me down on graves at midnight as a toddler!  Parents do not think babies and small children are all dummies.  My grandmother announced it; "She been here before!'"

Thankfully she is safely dead now.  My prayer is for my entire family, for every descendant of Jerome Walters.  Come out of the dark.  Come out of denial.   Come to the LIGHT !   "Know your truth!"  In the mighty name of Jesus Christ Our LORD I pray.

PTL!

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Praise GOD Almighty!

We wrestle not against flesh and blood but principalities, against evil spirits in high places.  Spirits of darkness in high places.  A "high place" is a position of authority, you mother, your father.

My mother was at war with her father (secretly), was overcome by evil.  Was evil, was dastardly.  I fully understand the world not receiving me,  not understanding, not caring.

We do occupy an extremely evil world seemly controlled by satan.   Don't worry, he is on his way out.

The sight of those so called handkerchief head "preachers" praying with that monster Donald Trump, gave me chills.  Really!  Is it the money?   Has money become our GOD?  Yes!

This man proudly announced that the first thing he will do as President is send the refugees back to Syria!  Really!  Proud to have no compassion!  Proud to be racist and full of hate because he claims to have over 10 billion dollars.  So!

What if your soul is required of thee tonight?  You can't take the money with you.

Donald Trump is  a vicious, conniving, low life common bully, just like my mother, MARTHA JANE WALTERS.  A low common woman that fell down and was too wicked to get up.

"Thou he slay me, I will serve the LORD!"

All those wasted years, me trying to take over for my grandfather, modeling his behavior of kindness and prayer dealing with his demonic daughter.  It is not over.  She has not won, nor will she win.

Naively I did falsely believe she would apologize one day.  She always hinted that she would.  Brief episodes of kindness, a few kind encouraging words along the way.  The whore was playing me.  Martha Jane Walters played the whole world for 87 years!    The whore played me, us, the world,  because that was what  she was and all she was ever going to be.

I will not bow down to low scum!  I will not lie and cloak for her as she demanded.  Her witchcraft will not prosper!  I have girded up my loins.  GOD gives me strength.  Praise the LORD!  I will not bow down to satan!  I will not keep silent out of shame or intimidation.

No wonder the A.M.E. Zion Church  never responded to me.  Vipers, all slick slimy vipers! Christ on their lips to ensnare, to dupe, to enslave.  No evidence of Christ in their hearts.

"Wide is the road that leads to death and destruction".  Far more people will do wrong than right.  No, matter what, no heartless whore is going to come here , MURDER  my granddaddy, sexually molest, rape , ruin,  destroy , vex and menace ,  for decade after decade, die declaring that she defeated GOD.

Martha Jane Walters did not defeat GOD!  We failed GOD!  We did not honor Him with righteous living or any form of the Truth.  We let that whore, these whore "preachers", entertain us.  Nothing but sounding brass.  Empty vessels, void of humanity, love, kindness.  Full of hypocrisy, vile evil IN THE CHURCH!

Quivering, quaking, cloaking for a low demon!   Why!?   GOD said No!

To GOD be the Glory!

PTL!

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