We are saved by Grace. Your daddy taught you that over and over. Please read Romans chapter 5. GOD touched my heart and asked me to reach out to you again, to remind you of His Grace.
#1 You need faith
#2 We have access to GOD's Grace by faith
#3 We glory in tribulations. Tribulation worked patience, and patience experience, and experience hope. And hope maketh not ashamed
#4 Christ died for the ungodly
Christ hung on that cross, died for you and for me. You need not be ashamed. If you have but the faith of a mustard seed, give your life to Christ. Do it now. Repent of your sins. Be made whole. Is my prayer for you, for us, for our family in Jesus' name.
Saturday, June 30, 2012
PTL!
Witnessing your sexual acts with multiple partners at age 19 was shocking! Why did I think it was a one time fluke? I could not believe it. I would not believe it. When the men realized all eyes were on them, when they noticed every one in that day room was frozen in fear and loathing they picked you up and took you into another room and closed the door.
Every one in that day room was agasp. Everyone was talking about you. One man whispered; "Hey man! That's her mother!" I didn't know what to say, how to react. I was still a child, still a virgin (so I thought). "Oh I don't care." ; I lied, pretending to be non-chalant, worldly. I was so ashamed I was speechless, my brain was numb. I screamed at you in the car when we left, after what I thought was an endless night. "WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTHER!?" You would not answer me. You would not look at me. Your eyes fixated on the road, staring blankly straight ahead. My pleading fell on deaf ears. Like so many of your terrible shocking deeds, I let it go. What's the use? I thought. Within a few days I rejoined your "posse", engaged in your fantasies, played my bit part and stuffed that deed away with hundreds of other mystifying acts.
We went to church the very next day. We went to church every Sunday. You never let us miss "church". Why? Why did we attend churches that taught us nothing? Churches that taught me to forgive you and to take your crap? Churches that taught "GAWD don't put no mo' on you than you can bear".
I discovered 2 Thessalonians, chapter 2 on my own. It explains you. "We beseech you, brethren....That ye be not shaken in mind, or be troubled, neither by spirit, nor by word.....as the day of Christ is at hand. Let no man deceive you by any means...and that (wo)man of sin be revealed; Who opposeth and exalteth himself above all that is called GOD, or that is worshipped; so that he as GOD sitteth in the temple of GOD showing himself that he is GOD."
That is why you preach, sit proudly in your fine robes, dangle your five thousand dollar gold cross.
I am going to give you babes in Christ this milk very slowly and very tenderly. GOD turned Martha over to a reprobate mind. She is delusional, thinking she is GOD. Arrogant and lascivious , lustful, coveteous, despising authority she became an abomination. It can easily happen to you. Hate and disrespect authority, feign "religion", hate and plot against your love ones, demand to do what ever you please, when you please. Become vain, over admire yourself, call yourself pretty, demand constant compliments.
"For the mystery of iniquity doth already work: only he who now letteh will let, until he be taken out of the way." In other words when you allow yourself to become a rank reprobate there is no help for you, just death.
"And then shall that Wicked be revealed, whom the LORD shall consume with the spirit of His mouth, and shall destroy with the brightness of His coming:" You are being revealed, exposed. GOD's prophetic WORDS are being shared and repeated by His children. There is a Revival going on. There are some true Holy Ghost filled, will not be fooled, will not be intimidated true Christians on this earth that will not be terrorized by you or your kind any longer. We shine brightly! We testify boldly.
You and your kind are going to perish Martha. "...because they received not the love of truth, that they might be saved."
"And for this cause GOD shall send them strong delusions, that they should believe a lie; That they all might be damned who believed not the truth, but had pleasure in unrighteousness."
That is all the milk I will give you today. Please ponder this question; "Do you take pleasure in unrighteousness?" Does sin make you happy? Have you laughed at me with her? Do you delight in my pain?
Study this chapter children. Get understanding. I stand fast and hold the traditions which were taught to me by my grandfather. I am comforted by GOD's WORD and I know that I am doing a good work.
Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing.
"May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
P.S.
GOD has revealed to me that your shocking cruelty was designed to keep you a secret. In your serious delusion you did believe your anonynity made you guiltless. You truly can not care or love. You are totally void of compassion or caring. In your sick delusional mind you believe yourself to be above GOD, smarter than GOD. Your hatred for GOD and all His children is rank . You are in shock and disbelief. For the first time in your 86 years your tired "mojo" is not working. GOD truly took all the fear and trembling you planted in my heart away from me. Not only do I tell on you I do it proudly! PRAISE THE LORD!!!
Every one in that day room was agasp. Everyone was talking about you. One man whispered; "Hey man! That's her mother!" I didn't know what to say, how to react. I was still a child, still a virgin (so I thought). "Oh I don't care." ; I lied, pretending to be non-chalant, worldly. I was so ashamed I was speechless, my brain was numb. I screamed at you in the car when we left, after what I thought was an endless night. "WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTHER!?" You would not answer me. You would not look at me. Your eyes fixated on the road, staring blankly straight ahead. My pleading fell on deaf ears. Like so many of your terrible shocking deeds, I let it go. What's the use? I thought. Within a few days I rejoined your "posse", engaged in your fantasies, played my bit part and stuffed that deed away with hundreds of other mystifying acts.
We went to church the very next day. We went to church every Sunday. You never let us miss "church". Why? Why did we attend churches that taught us nothing? Churches that taught me to forgive you and to take your crap? Churches that taught "GAWD don't put no mo' on you than you can bear".
I discovered 2 Thessalonians, chapter 2 on my own. It explains you. "We beseech you, brethren....That ye be not shaken in mind, or be troubled, neither by spirit, nor by word.....as the day of Christ is at hand. Let no man deceive you by any means...and that (wo)man of sin be revealed; Who opposeth and exalteth himself above all that is called GOD, or that is worshipped; so that he as GOD sitteth in the temple of GOD showing himself that he is GOD."
That is why you preach, sit proudly in your fine robes, dangle your five thousand dollar gold cross.
I am going to give you babes in Christ this milk very slowly and very tenderly. GOD turned Martha over to a reprobate mind. She is delusional, thinking she is GOD. Arrogant and lascivious , lustful, coveteous, despising authority she became an abomination. It can easily happen to you. Hate and disrespect authority, feign "religion", hate and plot against your love ones, demand to do what ever you please, when you please. Become vain, over admire yourself, call yourself pretty, demand constant compliments.
"For the mystery of iniquity doth already work: only he who now letteh will let, until he be taken out of the way." In other words when you allow yourself to become a rank reprobate there is no help for you, just death.
"And then shall that Wicked be revealed, whom the LORD shall consume with the spirit of His mouth, and shall destroy with the brightness of His coming:" You are being revealed, exposed. GOD's prophetic WORDS are being shared and repeated by His children. There is a Revival going on. There are some true Holy Ghost filled, will not be fooled, will not be intimidated true Christians on this earth that will not be terrorized by you or your kind any longer. We shine brightly! We testify boldly.
You and your kind are going to perish Martha. "...because they received not the love of truth, that they might be saved."
"And for this cause GOD shall send them strong delusions, that they should believe a lie; That they all might be damned who believed not the truth, but had pleasure in unrighteousness."
That is all the milk I will give you today. Please ponder this question; "Do you take pleasure in unrighteousness?" Does sin make you happy? Have you laughed at me with her? Do you delight in my pain?
Study this chapter children. Get understanding. I stand fast and hold the traditions which were taught to me by my grandfather. I am comforted by GOD's WORD and I know that I am doing a good work.
Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing.
"May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
P.S.
GOD has revealed to me that your shocking cruelty was designed to keep you a secret. In your serious delusion you did believe your anonynity made you guiltless. You truly can not care or love. You are totally void of compassion or caring. In your sick delusional mind you believe yourself to be above GOD, smarter than GOD. Your hatred for GOD and all His children is rank . You are in shock and disbelief. For the first time in your 86 years your tired "mojo" is not working. GOD truly took all the fear and trembling you planted in my heart away from me. Not only do I tell on you I do it proudly! PRAISE THE LORD!!!
Friday, June 29, 2012
What you want is not always what you need
All people have a long lists of what they want. If we cut that list down to just things that we need that list will quickly become very short. My grandfather often made a rather shocking revelation; "*N****** buy what they want and beg for what they need." By *n****** he meant people of low character. When I use the "n" word I mean it the same way. I firmly believe there is only one race, the human race. All people are subject to human frailty.
We all need food, water and shelter. We also need to know GOD's Truth. Some truth is so hard we avoid it. Like the truth that has been haunting and plaguing my family for well over seventy years. I am going to tell you because my family refuses to hear it. They refuse to believe.
The truth is that my "mother" Martha Jane Walters is the lowest, commonest, most selfish woman that ever lived. She is cunning, conniving, manipulative, murderous and is a practicing soothsayer. She is a practitioner of "witchcraft" of the highest order. And she has the unmitigated gall to be a licensed preacher in the A.M.E. Zion Church!
O.K., so how did we get here? How did she get so far for so long? She did the unthinkable. That is the greatest ploy a demon can devise. Commit acts so repugnant and deplorable that your victims will not dare repeat them. Hearers of her deeds will run! They will call you a foul mouthed liar. Impossible! Improbable! Why? No way! She's so sweet! "I just luv hur tah death!"
Let me get you "naysayers" and "forgive hur-ers" out of the way right now. I did forgive her, over and over for 58 years! I showered her with gifts, I loved her and I was a dutiful daughter. She is the one that insisted on continuing her low common life.
You must know that she thinks she is the smartest woman that ever lived . She may be, I don't know. I know that she is incapable of love. Her "preaching" is totally phony and she is sexually perverted and extremely violent.
GOD revealed some things to me that have me prostrate with grief. So repulsive I will not tell. I will not repeat them. So, what is my point? Be careful! She is no where near finished. She gets off on inflicting excruciating pain clandestinely. Causing you to suffer while watching you and pretending to comfort you gives her the greatest pleasure she has ever known.
You need to know! GOD revealed it to me. Pay me no attention! Run into her arms, go get your "token" gift. Dismiss me as some blabber mouth fool. "You get your just and honest due on this planet earth." (RGD 1982)
It all started when she smashed a tiny defenseless puppy between two bricks as a child. I know there is nothing you can do. She is fierce and vicious, a notorious liar. There is no good in her. I know that you don't want to know, but you need to know.
According to the Bible, there are a lot of women just like her. She is a reprobate. Those are not her prayers. She stole them off of a tape I gave her years ago. I always wondered why she had to steal prayers and sermons.
Gird up your loins. Accept GOD's truth. "Shun the very presence of evil." Stay in His WORD. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
We all need food, water and shelter. We also need to know GOD's Truth. Some truth is so hard we avoid it. Like the truth that has been haunting and plaguing my family for well over seventy years. I am going to tell you because my family refuses to hear it. They refuse to believe.
The truth is that my "mother" Martha Jane Walters is the lowest, commonest, most selfish woman that ever lived. She is cunning, conniving, manipulative, murderous and is a practicing soothsayer. She is a practitioner of "witchcraft" of the highest order. And she has the unmitigated gall to be a licensed preacher in the A.M.E. Zion Church!
O.K., so how did we get here? How did she get so far for so long? She did the unthinkable. That is the greatest ploy a demon can devise. Commit acts so repugnant and deplorable that your victims will not dare repeat them. Hearers of her deeds will run! They will call you a foul mouthed liar. Impossible! Improbable! Why? No way! She's so sweet! "I just luv hur tah death!"
Let me get you "naysayers" and "forgive hur-ers" out of the way right now. I did forgive her, over and over for 58 years! I showered her with gifts, I loved her and I was a dutiful daughter. She is the one that insisted on continuing her low common life.
You must know that she thinks she is the smartest woman that ever lived . She may be, I don't know. I know that she is incapable of love. Her "preaching" is totally phony and she is sexually perverted and extremely violent.
GOD revealed some things to me that have me prostrate with grief. So repulsive I will not tell. I will not repeat them. So, what is my point? Be careful! She is no where near finished. She gets off on inflicting excruciating pain clandestinely. Causing you to suffer while watching you and pretending to comfort you gives her the greatest pleasure she has ever known.
You need to know! GOD revealed it to me. Pay me no attention! Run into her arms, go get your "token" gift. Dismiss me as some blabber mouth fool. "You get your just and honest due on this planet earth." (RGD 1982)
It all started when she smashed a tiny defenseless puppy between two bricks as a child. I know there is nothing you can do. She is fierce and vicious, a notorious liar. There is no good in her. I know that you don't want to know, but you need to know.
According to the Bible, there are a lot of women just like her. She is a reprobate. Those are not her prayers. She stole them off of a tape I gave her years ago. I always wondered why she had to steal prayers and sermons.
Gird up your loins. Accept GOD's truth. "Shun the very presence of evil." Stay in His WORD. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Eighty-six years old ...
and you don't have the manners of a cat. Old as Methuselah and you haven't taken the time to learn one **** thing!
WOMAN! You can not possibly become more ignorant. You are lost and it does not appear you will ever be saved.
Dr. Charles Bacote my professor at Atlanta University told the class this story one day. He was a contemporary of Dr. W.E. B. DuBois and shared this story. Dr. Bacote described Dr. DuBois as being very arrogant and unfriendly. Always dressed to the nines, he wore spats , kid gloves and carried a gold topped cane everyday. It seems that Dr. DuBois was out driving and accidentally went down a one way street. He said that Dr. DuBois exclaimed; "Look at all of those fools driving the wrong way!"
That's you Martha. You are totally oblivious (or you pretend to be). You have never been wrong in your entire life! You invented the "back lie". When caught in your wrong doing, you take the time to create a "back lie" to protect you from your culpability.
There is no lie too low, too terrible and sickening for you to tell. I shudder to think what you have said about me.
There is one lie that I have decided that I am not going to let you get away with. Your third husband. You smeared and slandered that man's name. I agree that he was some what of a gigolo. Only because you made him one. He was far too young for you. You knew him for less than 45 minutes before you took him back on post to collect his things so he could move in with you. You were married and your second husband was serving in Viet Nam. Yea, your second husband, the one you used to beat all the time. It never phased you. Whorish and arrogant about it. Blatant!
The next day you took him to Fleishman's Big Store and outfitted him like a prince. Where did the money come from? You were feeding us grits and grease at the time. You mistreated that man and "whored" around on him like a dog. You mistreated him just like you did us. I can still hear how you cussed that man. Granddaddy told you repeatedly; "Mathy Jane ain't no man gon' stay wid you talking to him lak dat." He eventually got brave enough to leave you and you pitched a fit, lost your mind. You told all kinds of lies on XXXX. We let you tell them, afraid to correct you, afraid to speak up.
You should have been locked up. They should have locked your a** up when you stabbed that woman in Raleigh for calling you a 'ho. I don't get it. You don't mind being a 'ho, but if anyone calls you a 'ho you go off.
What gives you the right to mistreat people? What gives you the right to hate any and everyone that tries to admonish or criticize you?
How dare you plan to leave this earth without apologizing for all of the wrong you've done? Just who do you think you are? You are not worthy! How dare you MURDER my grandfather and stage a fake suicide!
How dare anyone be dumb enough or sorry enough to believe you. GOD bless my cousin C*** R*******, his nephew. He wasn't afraid of you. He had the courage to say you did it. He had the courage to call you out and I am proud of him. I will not say on this blog what you said about him and his children. (not today anyway) They will know.
Stand on His WORD children! Stand flat footed on His WORD!
WOMAN! You can not possibly become more ignorant. You are lost and it does not appear you will ever be saved.
Dr. Charles Bacote my professor at Atlanta University told the class this story one day. He was a contemporary of Dr. W.E. B. DuBois and shared this story. Dr. Bacote described Dr. DuBois as being very arrogant and unfriendly. Always dressed to the nines, he wore spats , kid gloves and carried a gold topped cane everyday. It seems that Dr. DuBois was out driving and accidentally went down a one way street. He said that Dr. DuBois exclaimed; "Look at all of those fools driving the wrong way!"
That's you Martha. You are totally oblivious (or you pretend to be). You have never been wrong in your entire life! You invented the "back lie". When caught in your wrong doing, you take the time to create a "back lie" to protect you from your culpability.
There is no lie too low, too terrible and sickening for you to tell. I shudder to think what you have said about me.
There is one lie that I have decided that I am not going to let you get away with. Your third husband. You smeared and slandered that man's name. I agree that he was some what of a gigolo. Only because you made him one. He was far too young for you. You knew him for less than 45 minutes before you took him back on post to collect his things so he could move in with you. You were married and your second husband was serving in Viet Nam. Yea, your second husband, the one you used to beat all the time. It never phased you. Whorish and arrogant about it. Blatant!
The next day you took him to Fleishman's Big Store and outfitted him like a prince. Where did the money come from? You were feeding us grits and grease at the time. You mistreated that man and "whored" around on him like a dog. You mistreated him just like you did us. I can still hear how you cussed that man. Granddaddy told you repeatedly; "Mathy Jane ain't no man gon' stay wid you talking to him lak dat." He eventually got brave enough to leave you and you pitched a fit, lost your mind. You told all kinds of lies on XXXX. We let you tell them, afraid to correct you, afraid to speak up.
You should have been locked up. They should have locked your a** up when you stabbed that woman in Raleigh for calling you a 'ho. I don't get it. You don't mind being a 'ho, but if anyone calls you a 'ho you go off.
What gives you the right to mistreat people? What gives you the right to hate any and everyone that tries to admonish or criticize you?
How dare you plan to leave this earth without apologizing for all of the wrong you've done? Just who do you think you are? You are not worthy! How dare you MURDER my grandfather and stage a fake suicide!
How dare anyone be dumb enough or sorry enough to believe you. GOD bless my cousin C*** R*******, his nephew. He wasn't afraid of you. He had the courage to say you did it. He had the courage to call you out and I am proud of him. I will not say on this blog what you said about him and his children. (not today anyway) They will know.
Stand on His WORD children! Stand flat footed on His WORD!
If you have scorned me,
I forgive you. If you have laughed at me, talked about me at her behest, I forgive you. What do you know? P.T. Barnum said a sucker is born every minute. That is why you have to read and study on your own.
If you hate to read you deserve to suffer. If you are an anti-intellectual, easily manipulated, gleefully run down the wrong path. You will get the life you deserve.
Do you pray? Do you ask GOD for His guidance? Can you take advice, correction? Can you accept GOD's Almighty Truth?
If you hate to read you deserve to suffer. If you are an anti-intellectual, easily manipulated, gleefully run down the wrong path. You will get the life you deserve.
Do you pray? Do you ask GOD for His guidance? Can you take advice, correction? Can you accept GOD's Almighty Truth?
I was just a little girl ...
a little girl of four years old. They "touched" me. They "touched" me wrong, forbade me to tell it. They want me to shut up. They want me to stifle my truth. I WILL NOT! I want the next potential pedophile to think twice. I want the world to know that GOD keeps His promises and His children. GOD ignited a fire in me. He ignited His Truth and Glory. GOD warned me! GOD protected and shielded me.
She laughed her hideous laugh. She thought it was funny. She thought I was her property to do with as she pleased. She was a "know-it-all" that knew nothing. She despised authority. Despises it still.
So what? A mere piss ant still screaming and having tantrums. You better tell her. You better tell her to come to GOD's Truth. Yea, she sure made a complete mess out of her life. Tell her that her phony fake preaching will not save her. Tell her to shut up, to quit wasting her breath. Tell her to get down on her knees and to beg GOD for forgiveness. Tell her to fast and pray. You fast and pray also.
We are saved by Grace. GOD's Grace is abundant. You do have to repent. Is that too high a price to pay?
Is Jesus in your heart or just plastered across your lips?
What will you do to be saved?
Are you arrogant and defiant?
Are you like her, think that you are so pretty, such a skillful liar that you can do what ever you please?
Do you think your foul mouth and foul attitude matters to the world?
Is she your shero?
GOD help you!
She laughed her hideous laugh. She thought it was funny. She thought I was her property to do with as she pleased. She was a "know-it-all" that knew nothing. She despised authority. Despises it still.
So what? A mere piss ant still screaming and having tantrums. You better tell her. You better tell her to come to GOD's Truth. Yea, she sure made a complete mess out of her life. Tell her that her phony fake preaching will not save her. Tell her to shut up, to quit wasting her breath. Tell her to get down on her knees and to beg GOD for forgiveness. Tell her to fast and pray. You fast and pray also.
We are saved by Grace. GOD's Grace is abundant. You do have to repent. Is that too high a price to pay?
Is Jesus in your heart or just plastered across your lips?
What will you do to be saved?
Are you arrogant and defiant?
Are you like her, think that you are so pretty, such a skillful liar that you can do what ever you please?
Do you think your foul mouth and foul attitude matters to the world?
Is she your shero?
GOD help you!
You don't have to live ...
ashamed. You don't have to live below your means. GOD has prepared a banquet for you. He wants to honor you with the best. Please do not let some loud talking vulgar "woman" keep you from your legacy. Come claim your blessing. Jerome Walters lived a good life. He was a good man. A man after GOD's own heart. He had a problem. He had a wild wayward daughter that would not be corrected.
She is not nearly as smart or fierce as she claims to be. Cruel, yes. Repugnant and despicable, yes. She has no power. She has a lot of mouth and foul curses. She can think and talk faster than most. Don't let her intimidate you. She is all bark and no bite. Her witchcraft and black magic can no longer hurt you. GOD took that away from her. You are protected. "... the LORD knows how to rescue the godly from trial, and to keep the unrighteous under punishment until the day of judgment, and especially those who indulge in the lust of defiling passion and despise authority." (2 Peter 2: 9- 10) GOD is going to keep his foot on her neck. He always has and he always will. Nothing she ever did ever prospered her anything and it never will. Driving a Cadillac is nothing. It is a crumb from the table of Satan.
Don't be so easily satisfied, so easily fooled. What happened to the sixty-five acres of land your grandfather left you? He left you land, a huge house, a man made lake, barns and vineyards, orchards, a coveted tobacco allotment. What happened? Satan! Fear! A daughter that refused to live in Covenant with GOD.
Come back! Come back to the old landmark. Claim your proud legacy. Know who you are and whose you are. "But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, GOD's own people, that you may declare the wonderful deeds of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light. Once you were no people but now you are GOD's people; once you had not received mercy but now you have received mercy." (1 Peter 2: 9 - 10)
I will not be robbed! I will not be tricked and shanghighed by the devil. My grandfather was a brilliant anointed man of GOD. He blood still runs warm in my veins. I don't have to lose my legacy, GOD's promise because my "mother" lost her way.
I will not keep her secrets. I will not be ashamed. I am proud of my grandfather and the world will know. I walk tall and I walk proudly. I am a WALTERS! I am so glad this brilliant brave man is a part of me, taught me and groomed me to be the person I am.
If you want to live in a pit, begging, borrowing, scheming just to make it day to day, that's on you. You don't have to. Study your history. Know who you are and whose you are. If you want to live under the influence of Mathy Jane for a few token "gifts", go ahead.
Never say I didn't tell you. Never let it be said that I didn't warn you.
Long live the WALTERS Clan!
She is not nearly as smart or fierce as she claims to be. Cruel, yes. Repugnant and despicable, yes. She has no power. She has a lot of mouth and foul curses. She can think and talk faster than most. Don't let her intimidate you. She is all bark and no bite. Her witchcraft and black magic can no longer hurt you. GOD took that away from her. You are protected. "... the LORD knows how to rescue the godly from trial, and to keep the unrighteous under punishment until the day of judgment, and especially those who indulge in the lust of defiling passion and despise authority." (2 Peter 2: 9- 10) GOD is going to keep his foot on her neck. He always has and he always will. Nothing she ever did ever prospered her anything and it never will. Driving a Cadillac is nothing. It is a crumb from the table of Satan.
Don't be so easily satisfied, so easily fooled. What happened to the sixty-five acres of land your grandfather left you? He left you land, a huge house, a man made lake, barns and vineyards, orchards, a coveted tobacco allotment. What happened? Satan! Fear! A daughter that refused to live in Covenant with GOD.
Come back! Come back to the old landmark. Claim your proud legacy. Know who you are and whose you are. "But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, GOD's own people, that you may declare the wonderful deeds of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light. Once you were no people but now you are GOD's people; once you had not received mercy but now you have received mercy." (1 Peter 2: 9 - 10)
I will not be robbed! I will not be tricked and shanghighed by the devil. My grandfather was a brilliant anointed man of GOD. He blood still runs warm in my veins. I don't have to lose my legacy, GOD's promise because my "mother" lost her way.
I will not keep her secrets. I will not be ashamed. I am proud of my grandfather and the world will know. I walk tall and I walk proudly. I am a WALTERS! I am so glad this brilliant brave man is a part of me, taught me and groomed me to be the person I am.
If you want to live in a pit, begging, borrowing, scheming just to make it day to day, that's on you. You don't have to. Study your history. Know who you are and whose you are. If you want to live under the influence of Mathy Jane for a few token "gifts", go ahead.
Never say I didn't tell you. Never let it be said that I didn't warn you.
Long live the WALTERS Clan!
"SAVE ME GEEEEEEEEEEEEZUZ!"
"HELP ME HOLY GHOOOOSSSSTTTTTTTTTTT!!! HAVE MEEERRRCCCYYYYYYYYYYY FATHER! PRAISE THE LAWD! PRAISE THE LAWD!!!"
That was me, that was my cry at eight years old. Why? Because somebody thought they could turn a 'ho into a housewife. Somebody thought praying for her would help her, would change her. They didn't know they had a tiger by the tail. No one would dare utter the "d" word. (Demon) I know for a fact that is all she is and (probably) all she will ever be. Somebody didn't read their Bible carefully. Some ignorant preacher told them there was no such thing as demons or devils. Somebody skipped over the part where Jesus told us to look at their fruit.
What is my point? You can be ignorant and ignore GOD's admonishment if you want to. You can lie, deny and hide wrong doing for a "loved one" if you want to. You can pretend all her fake praying and preaching is for real if you want to. You are going to pay a high price. You will be miserable. You will suffer! And that demon you successfully hid for eighty-six years will never care. She will never miss a wink of sleep.
People there are "people" on this earth that live for one purpose only, to hurt you, to destroy you. They are reprobates who only desire to lead you into captivity. They are low common cheaters. They want to get you early. They take advantage of you as infants. Why would any woman beat a baby for crying? Beat a toddler severely in the presence of her children?
The slave masters would have public floggings to insure obedience from his slaves. My "mother" did the same thing. It had the same affect. Her cardinal rule; "Don'cha muthaf********* n****** tell'ah muthaf******** thang dat go on in dis house!" That was her mantra, that was her creed and that was what we lived by.
I know now that I gave my life to Christ at eight years old. GOD saved me from that beating and many more. My getting the Holy Ghost would tickle her, make her laugh. I caught on immediately; "This Jesus guy is alright!"
"Now to lay me down to sleep I pray the LORD my soul to keep. If I should die before I wake, I pray the LORD my soul to take." My granddaddy taught me that. Every night before I snuggled under my grandmother's homemade quilts in that big iron bed, I got on my knees beside my grandfather repeating that beautiful prayer.
It was a nightly ritual. Granddaddy would go to the pump and pump a bucket of fresh cool water, pour it in a wrought iron kettle, heat it and pour it in a tin foot tub. When he got the temperature just right we were instructed to put our feet in. My granddaddy scrubbed our dirty little brown feet with his homemade lye soap. Then dried them with a rag that was a "rag". Usually some salvaged cornmeal or flour sack.
What you do for GOD will last. My grandfather was never anything but kind to us. He never hit us once. He never hollered at us or cursed us in any way. He taught us by example. Always up with the chickens we followed him around like two little "beddies" watching him.
He gathered the eggs from his chicken coop, fed the hogs. I remember the hogs in particular because he feed them what he called "slop". He saved potato peelings, discarded vegetables, table scraps, even dishwater and mixed it with "hog feed". I would watch him pour it in the trough. He would holler "Sue-weeee" and the hogs and little piglets would come running.
His hog pen was what I considered to be a long walk from the house. It was down wind. His hog pen was shaded by a huge pecan tree. The hog pen was divided into sections. One section was reserved for the "bo' hog" (boar). When the sow had her piglets he was sure to secure that "bo'hog" away from the little piglets. He explained that the "bo'hog" would sometimes eat the little pink piglets. He also told me that on rare occasions the sow would do the same thing.
I am one of those rare occasions. Some "mothers" don't recognize or have any natural or maternal feelings for her offspring. My grandfather made intercession for his piglets and GOD made intercession for us.
Dear Heavenly Father I thank You. I thank You for Your tender Mercy. I thank You for Your Grace. Bring her into Your Kingdom LORD if it be Thy will.
No LORD she is not dumb. Perhaps she is too smart, too clever. She had sense enough to hide behind your WORD. If it be possible LORD touch her, pierce her heart with a finger of Love is my prayer in Jesus' name. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ I pray for her sick soul.
Dear LORD I pray for the ones still hiding her, still fearing her. Release them from her curse LORD! Free them from that awful succubus. Take their shame LORD. Let them know that they have nothing to be ashamed of. Let them know that Jerome Walters left them a mighty legacy and that all they have to do is claim it.
Stay in His WORD children. Study your Bible. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you on Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch , JEROME WALTERS)
That was me, that was my cry at eight years old. Why? Because somebody thought they could turn a 'ho into a housewife. Somebody thought praying for her would help her, would change her. They didn't know they had a tiger by the tail. No one would dare utter the "d" word. (Demon) I know for a fact that is all she is and (probably) all she will ever be. Somebody didn't read their Bible carefully. Some ignorant preacher told them there was no such thing as demons or devils. Somebody skipped over the part where Jesus told us to look at their fruit.
What is my point? You can be ignorant and ignore GOD's admonishment if you want to. You can lie, deny and hide wrong doing for a "loved one" if you want to. You can pretend all her fake praying and preaching is for real if you want to. You are going to pay a high price. You will be miserable. You will suffer! And that demon you successfully hid for eighty-six years will never care. She will never miss a wink of sleep.
People there are "people" on this earth that live for one purpose only, to hurt you, to destroy you. They are reprobates who only desire to lead you into captivity. They are low common cheaters. They want to get you early. They take advantage of you as infants. Why would any woman beat a baby for crying? Beat a toddler severely in the presence of her children?
The slave masters would have public floggings to insure obedience from his slaves. My "mother" did the same thing. It had the same affect. Her cardinal rule; "Don'cha muthaf********* n****** tell'ah muthaf******** thang dat go on in dis house!" That was her mantra, that was her creed and that was what we lived by.
I know now that I gave my life to Christ at eight years old. GOD saved me from that beating and many more. My getting the Holy Ghost would tickle her, make her laugh. I caught on immediately; "This Jesus guy is alright!"
"Now to lay me down to sleep I pray the LORD my soul to keep. If I should die before I wake, I pray the LORD my soul to take." My granddaddy taught me that. Every night before I snuggled under my grandmother's homemade quilts in that big iron bed, I got on my knees beside my grandfather repeating that beautiful prayer.
It was a nightly ritual. Granddaddy would go to the pump and pump a bucket of fresh cool water, pour it in a wrought iron kettle, heat it and pour it in a tin foot tub. When he got the temperature just right we were instructed to put our feet in. My granddaddy scrubbed our dirty little brown feet with his homemade lye soap. Then dried them with a rag that was a "rag". Usually some salvaged cornmeal or flour sack.
What you do for GOD will last. My grandfather was never anything but kind to us. He never hit us once. He never hollered at us or cursed us in any way. He taught us by example. Always up with the chickens we followed him around like two little "beddies" watching him.
He gathered the eggs from his chicken coop, fed the hogs. I remember the hogs in particular because he feed them what he called "slop". He saved potato peelings, discarded vegetables, table scraps, even dishwater and mixed it with "hog feed". I would watch him pour it in the trough. He would holler "Sue-weeee" and the hogs and little piglets would come running.
His hog pen was what I considered to be a long walk from the house. It was down wind. His hog pen was shaded by a huge pecan tree. The hog pen was divided into sections. One section was reserved for the "bo' hog" (boar). When the sow had her piglets he was sure to secure that "bo'hog" away from the little piglets. He explained that the "bo'hog" would sometimes eat the little pink piglets. He also told me that on rare occasions the sow would do the same thing.
I am one of those rare occasions. Some "mothers" don't recognize or have any natural or maternal feelings for her offspring. My grandfather made intercession for his piglets and GOD made intercession for us.
Dear Heavenly Father I thank You. I thank You for Your tender Mercy. I thank You for Your Grace. Bring her into Your Kingdom LORD if it be Thy will.
No LORD she is not dumb. Perhaps she is too smart, too clever. She had sense enough to hide behind your WORD. If it be possible LORD touch her, pierce her heart with a finger of Love is my prayer in Jesus' name. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ I pray for her sick soul.
Dear LORD I pray for the ones still hiding her, still fearing her. Release them from her curse LORD! Free them from that awful succubus. Take their shame LORD. Let them know that they have nothing to be ashamed of. Let them know that Jerome Walters left them a mighty legacy and that all they have to do is claim it.
Stay in His WORD children. Study your Bible. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you on Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch , JEROME WALTERS)
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
You've never had any
right to be common. You have never had the right to be a cold calculating liar and societal misfit. You are a bully, a cruel sadist, just ignorant and dumb enough to think you could manipulate GOD. Spend your last few days on this planet repenting. Fix the wrong you've done. Stop scheming.
Your super sleuth scheming got you where you are. Rotting in the most foul life too repugnant to know. Say you are sorry! You sorry ****! Die! Go to your dirty little grave knowing that no woman on this earth is lower than you are, more selfish than you.
Shame on you for living. Shame on you for taking up space, breathing GOD's clean air. Don't you crawl back up in a pulpit until you confess. Don't go to that family reunion telling lies, faking like you are something that you ain't. Don't run there hugging and kissing on people that you hate.
Oh yea ,you are known. You are known all over the world. GOD revealed you. Now repent! Clean yourself up. Stop hating, quit being jealous. Say you were wrong! Say your daddy was right.
Mathy Jane the only thing that will get you out of this mess is the truth, GOD's honest Truth. By His Grace we are saved. I pray GOD's Grace and Mercy over you.
Pray over it.
Your super sleuth scheming got you where you are. Rotting in the most foul life too repugnant to know. Say you are sorry! You sorry ****! Die! Go to your dirty little grave knowing that no woman on this earth is lower than you are, more selfish than you.
Shame on you for living. Shame on you for taking up space, breathing GOD's clean air. Don't you crawl back up in a pulpit until you confess. Don't go to that family reunion telling lies, faking like you are something that you ain't. Don't run there hugging and kissing on people that you hate.
Oh yea ,you are known. You are known all over the world. GOD revealed you. Now repent! Clean yourself up. Stop hating, quit being jealous. Say you were wrong! Say your daddy was right.
Mathy Jane the only thing that will get you out of this mess is the truth, GOD's honest Truth. By His Grace we are saved. I pray GOD's Grace and Mercy over you.
Pray over it.
Predatory!
A predator is someone or something that lives by hunting. They seek and hunt down the weak to devour and destroy for their own pleasure or gain. That is certainly acceptable in the animal kingdom. Unfortunately that seems to be the way for far too many men and women.
My mother often told me this was a "dog eat dog world", that only dummies were honest. She criticized her parents for teaching her to be honest. "My ignut a** parents were honest. Honesty don't get'cha no where." Obviously she certainly believed the rot she spewed because she has lived a totally dishonest life for her whole life, 86 years. Let me rephrase that. I will call it a quasi-dishonest life. She always worked, always had an honest 9 to 5 job. Often had a part time job to supplement that job. But for some reason she was always a thief. An excellent salesclerk (she could sell an Eskimo a freezer). She made a lot of money for Capitol department store. You can be sure she wasn't leaving there every night with out stealing something, a blouse, a scarf. Frankly I didn't see anything wrong with it. So my mother was a little "clepto"? Who was she harming? We always laughed together because everything she stole was always a little pissy. (She smuggled her ill gotten gain out stuffed between her legs, hidden in her underwear) They loved her, named her saleswoman of the month repeatedly.
We called her a hustler, reading palms, tarot cards, selling "lucky hands", removing demonic spells. A hustler , flea marketing. A hustler fronting for her pimp drug dealer cousin with his bail bonding company. I didn't see anything wrong with it. Make your money, make your paper. The thing was she didn't want you to make any paper. She didn't want you to prosper. If she heard that you might be happy the top of her ears turned red.
Then she complained. We were the reason she never made it in life, never got rich. My thieving brother, his thieving wife and his thieving kids kept her from prospering in the flea market business. "I felt sorry fa' dah sorry n****** ... I let dem work fa' me. Dem n**** out 'dere selling my stuff fa' less dan I paid. Plus dey was stealing me blind! You can't have nuttin' trying to help sorry n****!" That's why she would not sell him her van when she finally quit flea marketing. "I'll give it away before I'll give it to him!" And that's what she did. She gave it away.
Honest ignorant parents, a thieving son, n***** that would not pay. Poor Mathy Jane was always trying to help people. Always putting cars in her name for ungrateful relatives. She couldn't rise in that church because of all the f***** bishops.
Poor Mathy Jane, just a loving, sharing ,giving woman trying to live for GOD. Her secret dirt did not matter. It did not affect her. There are two things Martha is never going to do, admit to her wrong doing or tell the truth, ever. She is a pathological liar. Often humorous, a consummate liar, just the same. You can't heal or come to GOD's Truth lying. Lying, screaming, performing, will not get you to GOD's Truth. Making everyone responsible for your sins will not help you. Martha's greatest weakness is her awful envious, covetous nature.
I was eleven years old and I came running home all excited. This lady gave me my first piano lesson. She marveled at my talent. She told me she would teach me for twenty-five cents a lesson. I ran home and told my mother. She scowled, forbade me. "YOU AIN'T TAKIN' NO PIANO LESSONS!" That was the end of that. She was my mother. She was the authority figure in my life. I look back and can clearly see what the problem was. She was jealous. Jealous, common, lustful, low down, and just plain scummy. You could not get another pornographic magazine or book under her bed. She prowled Vick's drive-in every night looking for prey. Created a a sex den in the back bedroom. Brought some stranger home every night. She made me clean up her empty Emko bottles, disgarded used condoms and towels up once. I protested so much I didn't have to do it again. She made me wear a huge red padded bra to school when I was in the seventh grade. I was flat chested, still undeveloped. I'm sure I did not weigh over seventy pounds. I was humiliated. When I got home I threw that bra away.
That's my point. In order to love Mathy Jane you must be willing to be humiliated (over and over). You must keep her secrets. You must never tell. Tell and you get cussed out, get jumped on, get a "root" put on you. She lies. She is going to put a "root" on you regardless. She is going to watch you like a hawk. Do not share your goals and ambition with her. She will run ahead of you to block it. Mathy is a freak. She will follow you around menacing, doing things like throwing one of your shoes away. Just one, it is more fun that way. If you have a beautiful favorite suit that you look stunning in, she will steal just the skirt or the pants.
You have to watch her closely. She will throw your phone charger away. Or she will invite you to her home, tell you to bring your cat, then secretly throw your cat out. Yea, Mathy Jane is messed up. You can't help her. You can't help a person that fakes Christ. You can't help a person that is proud to be demon possessed. Jesus said "Shun the very presence of evil". I know you want a mother. I want a mother, but not at any cost.
I don't want to be mothered by some freak that I can't trust. A woman that has only one desire for me, my destruction. Some people are in fact predatory. They live in an animal kingdom. I am a Christian. I love the LORD! It is my desire to live in GOD's kingdom. I will not abide her, hide her or lie for her. If you have a relative with a predatory mentality, I pray that you will see the light.
Martha is that foolish woman in the book of Proverbs that plucketh down her house with her own hands. I found some beautiful scripture that I want to share with you. "She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of kindness." (Proverbs 31:26)
"She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness." (Proverbs 31:27)
"Every wise woman buildeth her house: but the foolish plucketh it down with her hands." (Proverbs 14:1 )
" (S)He that hideth hatred with lying lips, and (s)he that uttereth a slander is a fool." (Proverbs 10:18)
GOD told her that she was going to be known. She didn't care, had no respect for GOD and His laws. She still think she's winning. She still has far too many supporters. I'm sorry, I can't do it. I grew tired and exasperated. MURDERING my grandfather did it for me. I tried to forgive her. I tried to forget. I caught her up to her eye balls in witchcraft not too long ago. That was it for me.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
My mother often told me this was a "dog eat dog world", that only dummies were honest. She criticized her parents for teaching her to be honest. "My ignut a** parents were honest. Honesty don't get'cha no where." Obviously she certainly believed the rot she spewed because she has lived a totally dishonest life for her whole life, 86 years. Let me rephrase that. I will call it a quasi-dishonest life. She always worked, always had an honest 9 to 5 job. Often had a part time job to supplement that job. But for some reason she was always a thief. An excellent salesclerk (she could sell an Eskimo a freezer). She made a lot of money for Capitol department store. You can be sure she wasn't leaving there every night with out stealing something, a blouse, a scarf. Frankly I didn't see anything wrong with it. So my mother was a little "clepto"? Who was she harming? We always laughed together because everything she stole was always a little pissy. (She smuggled her ill gotten gain out stuffed between her legs, hidden in her underwear) They loved her, named her saleswoman of the month repeatedly.
We called her a hustler, reading palms, tarot cards, selling "lucky hands", removing demonic spells. A hustler , flea marketing. A hustler fronting for her pimp drug dealer cousin with his bail bonding company. I didn't see anything wrong with it. Make your money, make your paper. The thing was she didn't want you to make any paper. She didn't want you to prosper. If she heard that you might be happy the top of her ears turned red.
Then she complained. We were the reason she never made it in life, never got rich. My thieving brother, his thieving wife and his thieving kids kept her from prospering in the flea market business. "I felt sorry fa' dah sorry n****** ... I let dem work fa' me. Dem n**** out 'dere selling my stuff fa' less dan I paid. Plus dey was stealing me blind! You can't have nuttin' trying to help sorry n****!" That's why she would not sell him her van when she finally quit flea marketing. "I'll give it away before I'll give it to him!" And that's what she did. She gave it away.
Honest ignorant parents, a thieving son, n***** that would not pay. Poor Mathy Jane was always trying to help people. Always putting cars in her name for ungrateful relatives. She couldn't rise in that church because of all the f***** bishops.
Poor Mathy Jane, just a loving, sharing ,giving woman trying to live for GOD. Her secret dirt did not matter. It did not affect her. There are two things Martha is never going to do, admit to her wrong doing or tell the truth, ever. She is a pathological liar. Often humorous, a consummate liar, just the same. You can't heal or come to GOD's Truth lying. Lying, screaming, performing, will not get you to GOD's Truth. Making everyone responsible for your sins will not help you. Martha's greatest weakness is her awful envious, covetous nature.
I was eleven years old and I came running home all excited. This lady gave me my first piano lesson. She marveled at my talent. She told me she would teach me for twenty-five cents a lesson. I ran home and told my mother. She scowled, forbade me. "YOU AIN'T TAKIN' NO PIANO LESSONS!" That was the end of that. She was my mother. She was the authority figure in my life. I look back and can clearly see what the problem was. She was jealous. Jealous, common, lustful, low down, and just plain scummy. You could not get another pornographic magazine or book under her bed. She prowled Vick's drive-in every night looking for prey. Created a a sex den in the back bedroom. Brought some stranger home every night. She made me clean up her empty Emko bottles, disgarded used condoms and towels up once. I protested so much I didn't have to do it again. She made me wear a huge red padded bra to school when I was in the seventh grade. I was flat chested, still undeveloped. I'm sure I did not weigh over seventy pounds. I was humiliated. When I got home I threw that bra away.
That's my point. In order to love Mathy Jane you must be willing to be humiliated (over and over). You must keep her secrets. You must never tell. Tell and you get cussed out, get jumped on, get a "root" put on you. She lies. She is going to put a "root" on you regardless. She is going to watch you like a hawk. Do not share your goals and ambition with her. She will run ahead of you to block it. Mathy is a freak. She will follow you around menacing, doing things like throwing one of your shoes away. Just one, it is more fun that way. If you have a beautiful favorite suit that you look stunning in, she will steal just the skirt or the pants.
You have to watch her closely. She will throw your phone charger away. Or she will invite you to her home, tell you to bring your cat, then secretly throw your cat out. Yea, Mathy Jane is messed up. You can't help her. You can't help a person that fakes Christ. You can't help a person that is proud to be demon possessed. Jesus said "Shun the very presence of evil". I know you want a mother. I want a mother, but not at any cost.
I don't want to be mothered by some freak that I can't trust. A woman that has only one desire for me, my destruction. Some people are in fact predatory. They live in an animal kingdom. I am a Christian. I love the LORD! It is my desire to live in GOD's kingdom. I will not abide her, hide her or lie for her. If you have a relative with a predatory mentality, I pray that you will see the light.
Martha is that foolish woman in the book of Proverbs that plucketh down her house with her own hands. I found some beautiful scripture that I want to share with you. "She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of kindness." (Proverbs 31:26)
"She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness." (Proverbs 31:27)
"Every wise woman buildeth her house: but the foolish plucketh it down with her hands." (Proverbs 14:1 )
" (S)He that hideth hatred with lying lips, and (s)he that uttereth a slander is a fool." (Proverbs 10:18)
GOD told her that she was going to be known. She didn't care, had no respect for GOD and His laws. She still think she's winning. She still has far too many supporters. I'm sorry, I can't do it. I grew tired and exasperated. MURDERING my grandfather did it for me. I tried to forgive her. I tried to forget. I caught her up to her eye balls in witchcraft not too long ago. That was it for me.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
I am ashamed of you!
Hiding in fear when GOD told you that you didn't have to. I am ashamed of your abysmal ignorance. Attending church every Sunday just for the good music and listening to someone hollering and saying nothing.
WHAT DID YOU LEARN? Were you edified? Did that "preacher" open up your understanding to any part of GOD's WORD?
Did you go to show of your new clothes? Did you go because you think you are so good looking? Did you go to get complimented and praised? Did you lie and say you tithed when you didn't?
Do you live in fear? Are you easily intimidated? Are you living in Covenant with GOD? Do you fornicate and then pray to GOD that you are not pregnant? Do you sleep with men for money, to pay your rent or car note? Do you lie to "keep n***** out'cha bizness"?
Do you envy, get seriously jealous when you think someone "undeserving" got "blessed"? Do you stir up strife, start confusion because you are bored? Are you functionally illiterate? Have you ever read a complete book? Can you formulate or write a decent essay? Are you jealous and envious of people that can?
Do you think not getting caught means you are innocent? Do you think keeping quiet, silent, proves your loyalty? Do you tremble and quake at the thought of that demon that still holds you hostage? Are you hanging around waiting for that ***** to finally die like every one else? Will you tell then? Are you so frightened that you have to wait for her to be dead and finally safely buried in the ground before you will act? Will you finally come running and confessing that you knew all the time?
Did you let her steal your spirit, your manhood? Did you let her run off with all of your joy and dreams? Are you afraid to recognize her and call her what she truly is? When she told you; "Don't you think back n****!" did you heed her?
She told me that I wasn't S***! She was wrong. I am somebody. I am a child of GOD. I am a child of the Most High King. She is the one that "ain't S***!" You can tell her I said it. You can tell her I said it with an attitude. With malice and forethought. (GOD forgives me)
Back to you. Grow a set of gonads. Clearly she still has yours! She has five sets of ***** in her pocket. The nerve, the greed! Take them back! Tell her the truth! Look her in the face and tell her the truth about herself. Why are you waiting on her to die? You might die first. We are all old. (Old enough to die)
Who is she? What has she ever done for you? Are you too dumb, scared, or both?
I will not shut up! Get tired. I don't care. She is worth talking about. Did you ever notice that was a carnal sin to her? "Dey talkin' 'bout me! All dem n**** do is talk about me!" How could you not? Just how dumb is she? You can not live a scandalous life and not expect to get talked about. That should have been our first clue right there.
Have mercy! How much carnal sin can one person commit? Again, what are you afraid of? You don't believe her "roots" can hurt you do you? I hope you have noticed they are not working. Read your Bible. Trust GOD. Stop hiding. Come out in the open and don't waste another minute of your precious life waiting on that succubus to die.
WHAT DID YOU LEARN? Were you edified? Did that "preacher" open up your understanding to any part of GOD's WORD?
Did you go to show of your new clothes? Did you go because you think you are so good looking? Did you go to get complimented and praised? Did you lie and say you tithed when you didn't?
Do you live in fear? Are you easily intimidated? Are you living in Covenant with GOD? Do you fornicate and then pray to GOD that you are not pregnant? Do you sleep with men for money, to pay your rent or car note? Do you lie to "keep n***** out'cha bizness"?
Do you envy, get seriously jealous when you think someone "undeserving" got "blessed"? Do you stir up strife, start confusion because you are bored? Are you functionally illiterate? Have you ever read a complete book? Can you formulate or write a decent essay? Are you jealous and envious of people that can?
Do you think not getting caught means you are innocent? Do you think keeping quiet, silent, proves your loyalty? Do you tremble and quake at the thought of that demon that still holds you hostage? Are you hanging around waiting for that ***** to finally die like every one else? Will you tell then? Are you so frightened that you have to wait for her to be dead and finally safely buried in the ground before you will act? Will you finally come running and confessing that you knew all the time?
Did you let her steal your spirit, your manhood? Did you let her run off with all of your joy and dreams? Are you afraid to recognize her and call her what she truly is? When she told you; "Don't you think back n****!" did you heed her?
She told me that I wasn't S***! She was wrong. I am somebody. I am a child of GOD. I am a child of the Most High King. She is the one that "ain't S***!" You can tell her I said it. You can tell her I said it with an attitude. With malice and forethought. (GOD forgives me)
Back to you. Grow a set of gonads. Clearly she still has yours! She has five sets of ***** in her pocket. The nerve, the greed! Take them back! Tell her the truth! Look her in the face and tell her the truth about herself. Why are you waiting on her to die? You might die first. We are all old. (Old enough to die)
Who is she? What has she ever done for you? Are you too dumb, scared, or both?
I will not shut up! Get tired. I don't care. She is worth talking about. Did you ever notice that was a carnal sin to her? "Dey talkin' 'bout me! All dem n**** do is talk about me!" How could you not? Just how dumb is she? You can not live a scandalous life and not expect to get talked about. That should have been our first clue right there.
Have mercy! How much carnal sin can one person commit? Again, what are you afraid of? You don't believe her "roots" can hurt you do you? I hope you have noticed they are not working. Read your Bible. Trust GOD. Stop hiding. Come out in the open and don't waste another minute of your precious life waiting on that succubus to die.
I am not doomed and ...
I am not forsaken. I am blessed and highly favored. I can say that for real and mean it. I know it. I know a lot of people say that, just repeating something they heard. Some people say it for the sake of their "fake religion".
GOD blessed me to be able to say it for real. To say I am jubilant is an understatement. You see GOD saved me from one of the most brilliant demons the devil ever created. Who knew, who can know, that the most vile, treacherous, conniving, selfish, cruel, carnal being can be closeted and protected in good church going families?
Why is it that the church is the last place we look for demons? Jesus warned us. We heard, but refused to listen. I tell you when I look back over my life I can scarcely believe all the evil she got away with. Yet, GOD protected me, saved me from her sick depravity.
Lets get her depravity out of the way right now. First, remember I taught you that the woman you know as Martha Jane Walters is no more. She sold herself to the devil at age sixteen. That flesh and blood you see is an aberration.
If you don't want to know GOD's Truth stop reading. GOD needed some one to tell you, to save you. GOD sent me. I am the only one that no longer fears her. I pray for my family's salvation. I pray for their courage. I pray that GOD will touch their hearts with a finger of love and deliver them from that monster.
Stop! This is not anger talking. This is love. I loved my grandfather and I am very proud of his legacy. He has nothing to be ashamed of. I will not let his name be slandered and tarnished by a sick demon.
You don't think she is a demon, huh? Why? Because she purrs like a cat and compliments? Because she is a laugh a minute and will slip a little change in your pocket? Jesus told you to look at her fruit. LOOK! I know I am not the only one she committed her carnal deeds in front of, or against.
She frightened us, she terrorized us, forbade us to tell. I am ashamed of her. GOD is ashamed of her. She is blind and foolish and refuses to hear. She is an abomination. She will not be criticized or admonished by anyone for any reason. That is why she MURDERED her 84 year old invalid father. He always kindly admonished her.
She is perfect! A perfect fool. To this very day, at eighty-six you better not think of saying anything against her. She comes unglued. Always known for her vile temper, foul mouth and black magic. If Mathy won't slap a "root" on you before 40 gods can skin a minnow, it can't be done. She will do it and in her sick depraved mind she feels justified and will brag that she did it! Poor Mathy Jane is still a child. Unfortunately a very wicked child. So evil you don't want to know about her. You don't want to hear about such. You must! GOD wants you to know. Knowledge of such evil is your only hope for protection from such. She is one among millions. Yes, unfortunately too many are hiding in the church just like her. BEWARE! Don't be foolish. Don't be intimidated. Stand up to the devil! Stand up to evil.
I will tell you one thing I know. You can search the world over and you will not find anyone more cruel and sadist than Martha Jane Walters! It is the truth, bear it. A woman so cruel we grew accustomed. She taught us not to question and above all to never tell.
I am sickened by her depravity and my cowardice. I finally forgive myself. She was my "mother". She shaped me and molded me. We all had to lose ourselves, give up our spirits and humanness. We knew that we were to never have any joy, any love, any peace in our lives without her permission.
I refuse to be her dutiful slave any longer. She taught me that she was brilliant and beautiful. That I was lucky to be in her presence. Yes, she is a fool. No, she will never repent. If you are ever to get away from her you will have to take the initiative to free yourself.
She has no power, just a loud vulgar mouth an the ability to commit the cruelest acts unimaginable without a care in the world. She is a "bad seed". As horrible as she is, do not fear her. She has done her worst. I still pray for her. My prayers may be in vain. I pray for you. I pray for my five brothers. May they wake up and see clearly through her maniacal scheme. She involved them in her "sickness" just to keep her cover. She does not love them. She does not love herself. Satan rendered her incapable of love decades ago.
She made a terrible mistake, hiding in the church. The greatest mistake she made was leaving me with my grandfather for the first four years of my life. That was enough time for his manly influence, truly Christian influence to effect me. It took me a long time to get up. It took a lot a prayer and Bible study for me to gain the courage to stand up to her.
If you have a demon in your life, some creature still demanding to control you, read the book of Acts. GOD gives us Holy Ghost Power. Stand on the head of that viper and crush her.
Stay in His WORD children. Read and study your Bible for yourself. Remember ; "Apart from Christ you are nothing." STAND ON HIS PROMISES!
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
GOD blessed me to be able to say it for real. To say I am jubilant is an understatement. You see GOD saved me from one of the most brilliant demons the devil ever created. Who knew, who can know, that the most vile, treacherous, conniving, selfish, cruel, carnal being can be closeted and protected in good church going families?
Why is it that the church is the last place we look for demons? Jesus warned us. We heard, but refused to listen. I tell you when I look back over my life I can scarcely believe all the evil she got away with. Yet, GOD protected me, saved me from her sick depravity.
Lets get her depravity out of the way right now. First, remember I taught you that the woman you know as Martha Jane Walters is no more. She sold herself to the devil at age sixteen. That flesh and blood you see is an aberration.
If you don't want to know GOD's Truth stop reading. GOD needed some one to tell you, to save you. GOD sent me. I am the only one that no longer fears her. I pray for my family's salvation. I pray for their courage. I pray that GOD will touch their hearts with a finger of love and deliver them from that monster.
Stop! This is not anger talking. This is love. I loved my grandfather and I am very proud of his legacy. He has nothing to be ashamed of. I will not let his name be slandered and tarnished by a sick demon.
You don't think she is a demon, huh? Why? Because she purrs like a cat and compliments? Because she is a laugh a minute and will slip a little change in your pocket? Jesus told you to look at her fruit. LOOK! I know I am not the only one she committed her carnal deeds in front of, or against.
She frightened us, she terrorized us, forbade us to tell. I am ashamed of her. GOD is ashamed of her. She is blind and foolish and refuses to hear. She is an abomination. She will not be criticized or admonished by anyone for any reason. That is why she MURDERED her 84 year old invalid father. He always kindly admonished her.
She is perfect! A perfect fool. To this very day, at eighty-six you better not think of saying anything against her. She comes unglued. Always known for her vile temper, foul mouth and black magic. If Mathy won't slap a "root" on you before 40 gods can skin a minnow, it can't be done. She will do it and in her sick depraved mind she feels justified and will brag that she did it! Poor Mathy Jane is still a child. Unfortunately a very wicked child. So evil you don't want to know about her. You don't want to hear about such. You must! GOD wants you to know. Knowledge of such evil is your only hope for protection from such. She is one among millions. Yes, unfortunately too many are hiding in the church just like her. BEWARE! Don't be foolish. Don't be intimidated. Stand up to the devil! Stand up to evil.
I will tell you one thing I know. You can search the world over and you will not find anyone more cruel and sadist than Martha Jane Walters! It is the truth, bear it. A woman so cruel we grew accustomed. She taught us not to question and above all to never tell.
I am sickened by her depravity and my cowardice. I finally forgive myself. She was my "mother". She shaped me and molded me. We all had to lose ourselves, give up our spirits and humanness. We knew that we were to never have any joy, any love, any peace in our lives without her permission.
I refuse to be her dutiful slave any longer. She taught me that she was brilliant and beautiful. That I was lucky to be in her presence. Yes, she is a fool. No, she will never repent. If you are ever to get away from her you will have to take the initiative to free yourself.
She has no power, just a loud vulgar mouth an the ability to commit the cruelest acts unimaginable without a care in the world. She is a "bad seed". As horrible as she is, do not fear her. She has done her worst. I still pray for her. My prayers may be in vain. I pray for you. I pray for my five brothers. May they wake up and see clearly through her maniacal scheme. She involved them in her "sickness" just to keep her cover. She does not love them. She does not love herself. Satan rendered her incapable of love decades ago.
She made a terrible mistake, hiding in the church. The greatest mistake she made was leaving me with my grandfather for the first four years of my life. That was enough time for his manly influence, truly Christian influence to effect me. It took me a long time to get up. It took a lot a prayer and Bible study for me to gain the courage to stand up to her.
If you have a demon in your life, some creature still demanding to control you, read the book of Acts. GOD gives us Holy Ghost Power. Stand on the head of that viper and crush her.
Stay in His WORD children. Read and study your Bible for yourself. Remember ; "Apart from Christ you are nothing." STAND ON HIS PROMISES!
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Monday, June 25, 2012
If you think reading ...
my story makes you feel uncomfortable. Try to understand my pain and discomfort. Hot soapy enemas at age four. This ***** is crazy! I know now the only thing that saved me from a lot worse was my big mouth. I did blab. Something she cursed me for often.
I am pretty sure I told my granddaddy about the enemas. She did suddenly discontinue them.
Make sure you know there are some wicked, twisted, confused, common people on this earth. Don't you leave your child with anyone! Not until they can talk. Make sure they can and will tell.
Believe me, if there is one Jerry Sandusky, there are millions upon millions.
Why should I keep her a secret?
What if you found out that she "touched" your child, ruined your son or daughter? What if you found out that I knew about her proclivities and never warned you?
Does she get to get away with murder because she is a preacher? What Bible are you reading? Are you too embarrassed to say something? How do you think I feel?
I press on with this Truth and I will be heard!
I am pretty sure I told my granddaddy about the enemas. She did suddenly discontinue them.
Make sure you know there are some wicked, twisted, confused, common people on this earth. Don't you leave your child with anyone! Not until they can talk. Make sure they can and will tell.
Believe me, if there is one Jerry Sandusky, there are millions upon millions.
Why should I keep her a secret?
What if you found out that she "touched" your child, ruined your son or daughter? What if you found out that I knew about her proclivities and never warned you?
Does she get to get away with murder because she is a preacher? What Bible are you reading? Are you too embarrassed to say something? How do you think I feel?
I press on with this Truth and I will be heard!
Don't feel sorry for me...
feel sorry for your simple self. Somebody convinced you that you were better, could do just what you pleased because you had light skin. You were stupid enough to believe that trite.
Some one told you that you could be common and carnal if you were a good enough liar. (Nobody told you about birth control, did they?)
Some one convinced you that your fake preaching would save you from the wrath of GOD. Who told you that "wichcraft" was some special magic that only you could control?
You look in the mirror and see the fairest, most beautiful, brilliant woman in the land. I suggest you look again. While you are looking, look at the clock. Look at your deeds. I know they are too hideous. LOOK AT THEM ANYWAY!!! You did them! Now you own them. Don't you dare try to lay blame on anyone but your sorry self.
That man you got to molest me has been dead for over twenty years. Most of your partners in crime are dead also. Take your burdens to the foot of His cross and leave them there.
I ain't shutting up! You can't make me. I would have told on your ***** ******* *** along time ago if I could have figured out what you were up to. No, I listened to theses dim-witted half saved preachers talking about forgive you. They never told me that you had to repent. They never said a word about witchcraft. They never told me that your enemies would be of your own household. They just told me to tithe and to trust in the LORD. I am glad they were right about trusting in the LORD.
Now it is your turn. YOU TRUST IN HIM! Confess your sins. Repent! Say you are sorry. Say that you are ashamed of yourself. Quit hiding behind your pride. You don't get off because you are "yalla" and have good hair. GOD can not care less that you were once beautiful and had big legs and a flat *** like a white woman.
You can't trade your filth for GOD's Goodness. Quit lying! I am not the only one you messed over, tried to obliterate. Shame on you. How do you sleep at night?
Nothing you did to me ever amounted to anything. Your enslavement taught me discipline. Your perversion made me a sancified eunuch. You slept with my husband. I don't care, he was a ******. You rooted me out of the house I won. So what? It was in a bad neighborhood. You ***** slapped me over and over, told me that I was dumb, that made me study. You sent me to college with nothing. I had no clothes and no money, so I studied hard and earned a degree with honors. You destroyed every bit of prose, poetry, three manuscripts and my masters thesis, but you sure gave me a better book. I could have never dreamed of such a page turner.
You had nothng to do with it. But, through you I inherited the best grandfather a person could ever have. I thank you and Praise the LORD!
Some one told you that you could be common and carnal if you were a good enough liar. (Nobody told you about birth control, did they?)
Some one convinced you that your fake preaching would save you from the wrath of GOD. Who told you that "wichcraft" was some special magic that only you could control?
You look in the mirror and see the fairest, most beautiful, brilliant woman in the land. I suggest you look again. While you are looking, look at the clock. Look at your deeds. I know they are too hideous. LOOK AT THEM ANYWAY!!! You did them! Now you own them. Don't you dare try to lay blame on anyone but your sorry self.
That man you got to molest me has been dead for over twenty years. Most of your partners in crime are dead also. Take your burdens to the foot of His cross and leave them there.
I ain't shutting up! You can't make me. I would have told on your ***** ******* *** along time ago if I could have figured out what you were up to. No, I listened to theses dim-witted half saved preachers talking about forgive you. They never told me that you had to repent. They never said a word about witchcraft. They never told me that your enemies would be of your own household. They just told me to tithe and to trust in the LORD. I am glad they were right about trusting in the LORD.
Now it is your turn. YOU TRUST IN HIM! Confess your sins. Repent! Say you are sorry. Say that you are ashamed of yourself. Quit hiding behind your pride. You don't get off because you are "yalla" and have good hair. GOD can not care less that you were once beautiful and had big legs and a flat *** like a white woman.
You can't trade your filth for GOD's Goodness. Quit lying! I am not the only one you messed over, tried to obliterate. Shame on you. How do you sleep at night?
Nothing you did to me ever amounted to anything. Your enslavement taught me discipline. Your perversion made me a sancified eunuch. You slept with my husband. I don't care, he was a ******. You rooted me out of the house I won. So what? It was in a bad neighborhood. You ***** slapped me over and over, told me that I was dumb, that made me study. You sent me to college with nothing. I had no clothes and no money, so I studied hard and earned a degree with honors. You destroyed every bit of prose, poetry, three manuscripts and my masters thesis, but you sure gave me a better book. I could have never dreamed of such a page turner.
You had nothng to do with it. But, through you I inherited the best grandfather a person could ever have. I thank you and Praise the LORD!
" We've come this far by faith...
leaning on the LORD..." I am still singing it. I can still hear it. No, the voices of Wesley A.M.E. Zion Chapel weren't that great. We only had a piano and some tamborines. But, the music was a symphony orchestra to me.
It was a little church but it had some prayed up sanctified members. No, not all, just some. All you need is some. One was my granddaddy, I'm proud to say. If you don't have a Jerome Walters in your life feel free to borrow from the proud legacy of mine.
I am a proud graduate of North Carolina A&T State University with honors because of him. I am a Coca-Cola Educator of the Year due to his influence. I am the proud mother of a brilliant Boston University graduate due totally to his wisdom and love.
Please don't let a dim-witted demon rob you of your legacy, of your inheritance. Please know that intelligence of the highest caliber runs in your family.
Just because there is an ancient demon still menacing and troubling in your family is no cause for you to give up or settle for less than your best.
You know what she told me one time? No she didn't tell me, she screamed it at the top of her lungs for hours. "YOU AIN'T S***!!!" I didn't know the ***** was jealous. She said it was because she loaned me $300 in September to buy my first car that she conveniently put totally in her name to rebuild her credit. (Because her too young gigolo husband finally escaped her demonic clutches). My own "mother" lacerated me with vile insults over and over because it was Christmas and she didn't want my s**** Christmas gifts.
I didn't know to tell her that she in fact was the one that wasn't s***! She was the one that had me violently raped by her husband. (fake stepfather) I didn't have sense enough to ask her why she had never given me one five cent piece to go to college. It never occurred to me that she was still affected by her fake college attendance. Granddaddy never reminded her of how she collected his hard earned tobacco farming income to pay for tuition to Virginia Union University that she no longer attended. She lied and faked, took his money and spent it on herself. Never had one qualm or sense of guilt or regret. Granddaddy never told me that, never mentioned it. She told me that herself.
She screamed that I wasn't s***. Did a part of me believe it? I must have because I spent the majority of my life trying to please her, trying to honor her. I spent my whole life holding and hiding her secrets. She was a crook and she was a whore, but that was her business. She secretly hated everyone she knew. She hated my uncle. I never told. There is not one person in my family that she doesn't secretly hate and have a vendetta against.
It was only when GOD hit me upside the head like a thunderbolt that I came to. She went too far in her demon treachery. GOD finally opened my eyes and my ears. Why was I blind so long? I could not believe it! There was no way on GOD's green earth any woman could be so cruel, so vile, so common. Yes, I saw her using "roots". But, it never occurred to me that she would be low enough, common enough to use them on me. No woman would use witchcraft against her own family! Not, and call herself a preacher. No one who loved the LORD as much as claimed could do so many evil despicable things so often. Every day was tragic and painful due to her. You see Mathy Jane came up with a magic scheme, a magic formula. She could do any and everything she pleased. She could commit every lustful common act known to man and get away unscathed. All she had to do was involve you, twist your little simple mind. Call you black and ugly, tell you that you weren't s***. And she could get clean away. She could use her guile and charm to mesmerize all you simpletons. There was no way that Mathy Jane was ever going to lose. "I can't lose for the stuff I use and you can't win for the fix you in."
Look at her, 86 without a care in the world. You invited her to the family reunion. I know you did. You will proudly pose with her and post your pictures on facebook. You will continue to call her the Queen, bow and scrape to her because you have eyes that do not see, ears that cannot hear. GOD has yet to slap you upside the head with His thunderbolt.
Everyday I lived, we lived, we were doomed to be her narcissistic supply. She will never be wrong. Nothing will ever be her fault. She will continue to tell you her magic lies. Everyone in her life will have to bear her guilt and shame. She will pretend to love you until she is lowered into her dirty little grave. She will die perfect. She will die with all of her lies still on her lips. Some will still love her.
Jesus will say; "Get thee behind me Satan. I never knew you." I will keep singing; "We've come this far by faith.."
Be blessed children. Claim your great legacy. That toothless demon can't hurt you any more. Her "roots" can't work. She has been found out. She is weighed in the balances and she is found wanting. Do pray for her salvation. In Christ Jesus' name I pray, Rachel Gwendolyn.
It was a little church but it had some prayed up sanctified members. No, not all, just some. All you need is some. One was my granddaddy, I'm proud to say. If you don't have a Jerome Walters in your life feel free to borrow from the proud legacy of mine.
I am a proud graduate of North Carolina A&T State University with honors because of him. I am a Coca-Cola Educator of the Year due to his influence. I am the proud mother of a brilliant Boston University graduate due totally to his wisdom and love.
Please don't let a dim-witted demon rob you of your legacy, of your inheritance. Please know that intelligence of the highest caliber runs in your family.
Just because there is an ancient demon still menacing and troubling in your family is no cause for you to give up or settle for less than your best.
You know what she told me one time? No she didn't tell me, she screamed it at the top of her lungs for hours. "YOU AIN'T S***!!!" I didn't know the ***** was jealous. She said it was because she loaned me $300 in September to buy my first car that she conveniently put totally in her name to rebuild her credit. (Because her too young gigolo husband finally escaped her demonic clutches). My own "mother" lacerated me with vile insults over and over because it was Christmas and she didn't want my s**** Christmas gifts.
I didn't know to tell her that she in fact was the one that wasn't s***! She was the one that had me violently raped by her husband. (fake stepfather) I didn't have sense enough to ask her why she had never given me one five cent piece to go to college. It never occurred to me that she was still affected by her fake college attendance. Granddaddy never reminded her of how she collected his hard earned tobacco farming income to pay for tuition to Virginia Union University that she no longer attended. She lied and faked, took his money and spent it on herself. Never had one qualm or sense of guilt or regret. Granddaddy never told me that, never mentioned it. She told me that herself.
She screamed that I wasn't s***. Did a part of me believe it? I must have because I spent the majority of my life trying to please her, trying to honor her. I spent my whole life holding and hiding her secrets. She was a crook and she was a whore, but that was her business. She secretly hated everyone she knew. She hated my uncle. I never told. There is not one person in my family that she doesn't secretly hate and have a vendetta against.
It was only when GOD hit me upside the head like a thunderbolt that I came to. She went too far in her demon treachery. GOD finally opened my eyes and my ears. Why was I blind so long? I could not believe it! There was no way on GOD's green earth any woman could be so cruel, so vile, so common. Yes, I saw her using "roots". But, it never occurred to me that she would be low enough, common enough to use them on me. No woman would use witchcraft against her own family! Not, and call herself a preacher. No one who loved the LORD as much as claimed could do so many evil despicable things so often. Every day was tragic and painful due to her. You see Mathy Jane came up with a magic scheme, a magic formula. She could do any and everything she pleased. She could commit every lustful common act known to man and get away unscathed. All she had to do was involve you, twist your little simple mind. Call you black and ugly, tell you that you weren't s***. And she could get clean away. She could use her guile and charm to mesmerize all you simpletons. There was no way that Mathy Jane was ever going to lose. "I can't lose for the stuff I use and you can't win for the fix you in."
Look at her, 86 without a care in the world. You invited her to the family reunion. I know you did. You will proudly pose with her and post your pictures on facebook. You will continue to call her the Queen, bow and scrape to her because you have eyes that do not see, ears that cannot hear. GOD has yet to slap you upside the head with His thunderbolt.
Everyday I lived, we lived, we were doomed to be her narcissistic supply. She will never be wrong. Nothing will ever be her fault. She will continue to tell you her magic lies. Everyone in her life will have to bear her guilt and shame. She will pretend to love you until she is lowered into her dirty little grave. She will die perfect. She will die with all of her lies still on her lips. Some will still love her.
Jesus will say; "Get thee behind me Satan. I never knew you." I will keep singing; "We've come this far by faith.."
Be blessed children. Claim your great legacy. That toothless demon can't hurt you any more. Her "roots" can't work. She has been found out. She is weighed in the balances and she is found wanting. Do pray for her salvation. In Christ Jesus' name I pray, Rachel Gwendolyn.
I WILL NOT BE ROBBED!
I will not be broken and utterly destroyed as you wish. I will not be your stepping stone or proof that you are somebody. You can not take my brain, my eyes or my ears. Blind Ray Charles can see from the grave that you are a common deceitful manipulative conniving greedy selfish woman, who had the audacity to try to replicate herself through her children.
A woman too stubborn, wicked and depraved to own up to her responsibility or admit one single mistake. I don't have to be foolish because you are. I don't have to live in fear because you are a terrorist.
I will not be robbed of my inheritance by a dim-witted demon. I know who I am and whose I am.
"But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should show forth the praises of Him who hath called you out of darkness into His marvelous light:" (1 Peter 2:9)
Remember we are engaged in Spiritual warfare. The enemy wants you to abandon your inheritance, your great legacy. That demon wants you depending on the meager crumbs from her table. The stingy ***** teases you with a few token fleeting "gifts". She will give you something wrapped in an insult, packaged in defeat and self loathing. She will make you feel about an inch tall, remind you that your life didn't turn out so well. She will make you think that she is laughing with you when in fact she is laughing at you. She will tear you down with her two edged tongue. She can't help it. She is jealous. You can never fall low enough for her. She wants you under her feet. Tell her that it is impossible. She saddled you with her darkest sin. You are forgiven. You were a child, it is not your fault. Don't think you share any secrets with her. She ran ahead of you, told every one your secrets and laughed. No, she left out all the parts that involved her. Do know she gleefully told about your past, your indescretions. If you didn't do anything dark enough to shame you with, she lied.
Don't ever forget, she is a backstabber. A low common one, one that stabs you in the back repeatedly, twisting it. She can't get her daggers deep enough while she laughs in your face, hugging and kissing you. Pretending to care and love you.
WARNING! Any person that could coldly, violently , maliciously with forethought and malice, take the life of her saintly father is not to be trusted EVER!
What is her defense? A lame "Why I do dat?" While still bragging she tried to kill him when she was sixteen! You know the many horrible sins she committed against you. You can wait on the ***** to die. I won't! I refuse to be held hostage by her horrible unbearable deeds. I want no part of her. I wish I could rip her terrible memory out of my brain.
I can read *****! I can think. I do have good sense. My some times very tragic life has taught me a few things:
#1 - Never wait on the world to validate you. Let GOD place His stamp of approval on you.
#2 - Some people are pure garbage. Just stank evil. You can try to help them and lift them up if you want to. They will only pull you down into that filthy pit with them. Jesus told you to shun them. I suggest you listen to Jesus. You can put lipstick on a sow. She will still be a sow, not a prom queen.
#3 - GOD will do just what He said. He will keep every promise. He will never leave or forsake you. He will deliver you from all evil if you ask Him. If you pray, if you seek His face.
#4 - What is done in the dark shall surely come to light. It might come kicking and screaming and denying, but it is coming.
#5 - Some demons will fight GOD's Almighty truth to their dying day. That's pride. GOD told us about such people.
As for me I am going to sing in the sunshine. I am going to salvage what is left of my life and enjoy it. I am abundantly blessed. I am anointed and appointed to tell GOD's Truth and I am telling. If you can't receive it, that's on you. If you want to continue to be held hostage by her lies and manipulation, that's on you. If you claim you love her and you are foolish enough to believe that she loves or cares one wit about you, you are dumber than I thought.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster, (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
A woman too stubborn, wicked and depraved to own up to her responsibility or admit one single mistake. I don't have to be foolish because you are. I don't have to live in fear because you are a terrorist.
I will not be robbed of my inheritance by a dim-witted demon. I know who I am and whose I am.
"But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should show forth the praises of Him who hath called you out of darkness into His marvelous light:" (1 Peter 2:9)
Remember we are engaged in Spiritual warfare. The enemy wants you to abandon your inheritance, your great legacy. That demon wants you depending on the meager crumbs from her table. The stingy ***** teases you with a few token fleeting "gifts". She will give you something wrapped in an insult, packaged in defeat and self loathing. She will make you feel about an inch tall, remind you that your life didn't turn out so well. She will make you think that she is laughing with you when in fact she is laughing at you. She will tear you down with her two edged tongue. She can't help it. She is jealous. You can never fall low enough for her. She wants you under her feet. Tell her that it is impossible. She saddled you with her darkest sin. You are forgiven. You were a child, it is not your fault. Don't think you share any secrets with her. She ran ahead of you, told every one your secrets and laughed. No, she left out all the parts that involved her. Do know she gleefully told about your past, your indescretions. If you didn't do anything dark enough to shame you with, she lied.
Don't ever forget, she is a backstabber. A low common one, one that stabs you in the back repeatedly, twisting it. She can't get her daggers deep enough while she laughs in your face, hugging and kissing you. Pretending to care and love you.
WARNING! Any person that could coldly, violently , maliciously with forethought and malice, take the life of her saintly father is not to be trusted EVER!
What is her defense? A lame "Why I do dat?" While still bragging she tried to kill him when she was sixteen! You know the many horrible sins she committed against you. You can wait on the ***** to die. I won't! I refuse to be held hostage by her horrible unbearable deeds. I want no part of her. I wish I could rip her terrible memory out of my brain.
I can read *****! I can think. I do have good sense. My some times very tragic life has taught me a few things:
#1 - Never wait on the world to validate you. Let GOD place His stamp of approval on you.
#2 - Some people are pure garbage. Just stank evil. You can try to help them and lift them up if you want to. They will only pull you down into that filthy pit with them. Jesus told you to shun them. I suggest you listen to Jesus. You can put lipstick on a sow. She will still be a sow, not a prom queen.
#3 - GOD will do just what He said. He will keep every promise. He will never leave or forsake you. He will deliver you from all evil if you ask Him. If you pray, if you seek His face.
#4 - What is done in the dark shall surely come to light. It might come kicking and screaming and denying, but it is coming.
#5 - Some demons will fight GOD's Almighty truth to their dying day. That's pride. GOD told us about such people.
As for me I am going to sing in the sunshine. I am going to salvage what is left of my life and enjoy it. I am abundantly blessed. I am anointed and appointed to tell GOD's Truth and I am telling. If you can't receive it, that's on you. If you want to continue to be held hostage by her lies and manipulation, that's on you. If you claim you love her and you are foolish enough to believe that she loves or cares one wit about you, you are dumber than I thought.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster, (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Sunday, June 24, 2012
It is very hard
to remember and even harder to understand. "We war not against flesh and blood. We are engaged in spiritual warfare." Truly it is a war of good and evil, of Holy and demonic. You look at that person standing in the flesh. Cursing you, cussing you, tricking and manipulating you and you grow weary and exasperated. "Why are you so evil?" ;you scream! "Why are you so corrupt and carnal? " " How can you do such sick demented things and not care? " When you find such behavior in another human being do know that person is possessed with a demonic spirit.
It is hard to believe but the person you seek, the person you look for is not there. She can not hear or heed you because she is in fact an aberration. She is no longer here. Her soul is lost. She lost her soul too soon, a willful wayward girl of sixteen.
There is a lesson to be learned here. Love GOD first! Honor GOD in all that you do. Never believe there is a shortcut to success. And never, never engage in witchcraft. Be mortally afraid to solicit evil spirits.
If you ever find yourself engulfed in evil, pray. Pray and fast. If you know someone that is lost, pray for them. Fast for them. Pray for their return. Pray for their salvation. You will be hated. So what? You are going to be hated regardless. Make sure you know you don't have to go down in their ship. Do not count yourself as "kin". GOD absolves you of that "kinship".
Mourn for her, admonish her, but do not follow her into the captivity she volunteered to go into.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
It is hard to believe but the person you seek, the person you look for is not there. She can not hear or heed you because she is in fact an aberration. She is no longer here. Her soul is lost. She lost her soul too soon, a willful wayward girl of sixteen.
There is a lesson to be learned here. Love GOD first! Honor GOD in all that you do. Never believe there is a shortcut to success. And never, never engage in witchcraft. Be mortally afraid to solicit evil spirits.
If you ever find yourself engulfed in evil, pray. Pray and fast. If you know someone that is lost, pray for them. Fast for them. Pray for their return. Pray for their salvation. You will be hated. So what? You are going to be hated regardless. Make sure you know you don't have to go down in their ship. Do not count yourself as "kin". GOD absolves you of that "kinship".
Mourn for her, admonish her, but do not follow her into the captivity she volunteered to go into.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Saturday, June 23, 2012
You will have to
search the world high and low to find someone dumb enough to "go your bail". Didn't you know this day was coming? The only thing you ever had over me was 26 years. I was three years old and somehow I knew that you were common.
You are common! No, let's not move from that very important fact. No, you can't fight me. Sure, go ahead and cuss me. Is that all you have left in your arsenal? What happened to your good "goofer dust"? All that fabulous "root working" you are famous for?
No, you can't change a thing that you did. But, you can say that you are sorry. You can apologize. Your supreme arrogance will not help you now. I could not possibly careless about your "color" and hair. Your pseudo education is not impressive.
I am so overwhelmed by your "commonness" I can hardly breathe. Hiding behind the fact that you call yourself my "mother", you are a woman, a preacher. In fact those are good reasons to refuse or fail to know the truth. Foolish, easily manipulated people look for logic. (I looked for logic for 58 years) Of course there is no logical reason for your existence, for your common low carnal life.
You did it because you are a reprobate with no desire for salvation. You thought you were so smart. It never occurred to you that GOD is real. Not just a tool for you to use to snare His children.
So you are caught in your own net. Sitting down there in the pit you dug for me, for others. Any body that wants to love you, can. They have my full permission. You know you are going to do something bad to them just as some as you can. You can't help it. You are a "bad seed".
Please do not tell me that I am the only one you confided in. Don't they know that you talk about everyone like a dog? They might not know that you work "roots" on them specifically. We all know that you are a "root worker".
Rather than getting the weak and gullible to say nice things about you, why don't you just repent? GOD is not going to change His WORD for you. I am shocked. A woman that did every thing to try to destroy her own family. A woman that had her hand in destroying as many lives as she could has the nerve to want a good name.
Keep searching. Try to find a worthy good person to "go your bail", to say something good about you. Tell them to tell GOD what a great person you are.
Try praying. Try fasting.
You are common! No, let's not move from that very important fact. No, you can't fight me. Sure, go ahead and cuss me. Is that all you have left in your arsenal? What happened to your good "goofer dust"? All that fabulous "root working" you are famous for?
No, you can't change a thing that you did. But, you can say that you are sorry. You can apologize. Your supreme arrogance will not help you now. I could not possibly careless about your "color" and hair. Your pseudo education is not impressive.
I am so overwhelmed by your "commonness" I can hardly breathe. Hiding behind the fact that you call yourself my "mother", you are a woman, a preacher. In fact those are good reasons to refuse or fail to know the truth. Foolish, easily manipulated people look for logic. (I looked for logic for 58 years) Of course there is no logical reason for your existence, for your common low carnal life.
You did it because you are a reprobate with no desire for salvation. You thought you were so smart. It never occurred to you that GOD is real. Not just a tool for you to use to snare His children.
So you are caught in your own net. Sitting down there in the pit you dug for me, for others. Any body that wants to love you, can. They have my full permission. You know you are going to do something bad to them just as some as you can. You can't help it. You are a "bad seed".
Please do not tell me that I am the only one you confided in. Don't they know that you talk about everyone like a dog? They might not know that you work "roots" on them specifically. We all know that you are a "root worker".
Rather than getting the weak and gullible to say nice things about you, why don't you just repent? GOD is not going to change His WORD for you. I am shocked. A woman that did every thing to try to destroy her own family. A woman that had her hand in destroying as many lives as she could has the nerve to want a good name.
Keep searching. Try to find a worthy good person to "go your bail", to say something good about you. Tell them to tell GOD what a great person you are.
Try praying. Try fasting.
When you are too dumb
to know that you are stupid, you are in bad shape. The headlines today roared with "Coach guilty of 45 counts" Penn State's Sandusky used position to lure boys into abuse. And America pretends to be in shock. " BELLEFONTE, Pa. - Jerry Sandusky was convicted Friday of sexually assaulting 10 boys over fifteen years, accusations that had sent shock waves through the Penn State campus and led to the firing of the schools beloved Hall of fame coach, Joe Paterno."
Why all the feigned disbelief and shock? "..in the words of lead prosecutor Joseph McGettigan III, Sandusky was a 'predatory pedophile.' "
Predatory pedophile, why do people act like that is a "condition" so rare? Every family I know has at least one. Growing up we called them "nasty". Notice, I said every family I know. Maybe I am just cursed? Am I cursed or honest?
If you haven't had that talk with your child you better. Every parent should warn their child about that "touch". You know, they have that "talk" in the public schools now. If some one touches you in a place that makes you feel uncomfortable... Or if some adult wants to play a game called "we have a secret". Why do we have so many agencies devoted to child protection if "predatory pedophilia" is not a serious problem?
I can not say that sexual child abuse is on the rise. I don't think so. The Bible warns against incest and sins or carnal lust. I personally think honesty and courage is on the rise. (Praise the LORD)
Theses "predatory pedophiles" think they are so smart. They sincerely think that they are undetectable and will never be known. Their immediate lust is their only concern. Plus they justify their deed. Sandusky established a charity, The Second Mile, for at-risk youth.
Very good logic for a "demon". They are poor destitute children anyway. Who cares about them? Some of their parents probably gladly took the money. We see it all over the world. "White collared, wealthy businessmen" from the U.S. make frequent visits to Mexico, Brazil, Peru, Thailand to find "happiness" with pre-pubescent little boys (and girls).
We don't care. They are poor, so what? "Dey just gon' be luddle hoes anyway."
This man is 68 years old and he is awaiting sentencing. They claim that he could get life. He's 68! So what?
How and why was he allowed to violate innocent children so long? We are an uncaring nation of selfish narcissists, too dumb to know that we are stupid.
One of Sandusky's defenders allowed herself to be filmed saying;"But he helped thousands!" No sweetheart, you can't trade your filth for innocence.
"Defense witnesses, including Jerry Sandusky's wife, Dottie, described his philanthropic work with children over the years, and many spoke positive terms about his reputation in the community." That's why he did it. "A wolf in sheep's clothing." Don't look for horns, a pitchfork or a red suit. Look at their fruit. Listen to their conversation. Do not dare think common carnal behavior is a proclivity unique to any particular race or gender.
I firmly believe that it is not on the rise. Sincere bold "Christians" are on the rise. GOD's Grace is manifesting Itself.
We all need to sweep around our own front door. My "mother" is a predatory pedophile. I proudly tell you. I tell you because it is true. She is low and common, refuses to come to repentance and the Holy Spirit compels me to tell you.
She hides in the church as an associate pastor. I know, the nerve! Why would GOD hide you? Your fake preaching "ain't that good". You don't give up enough cash for me to keep my mouth shut. You ought to be ashamed of yourself. But, then again you are too dumb to know that you are stupid.
Stay in His WORD children. Not only will Our Father give us the power of discernment, He will give us boldness. He will give you the strength, the courage to step on that demon's neck and He Will give you a VOICE. GOD will put the eloquent WORDS in your mouth child! (Praise the LORD!)
Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you. cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Why all the feigned disbelief and shock? "..in the words of lead prosecutor Joseph McGettigan III, Sandusky was a 'predatory pedophile.' "
Predatory pedophile, why do people act like that is a "condition" so rare? Every family I know has at least one. Growing up we called them "nasty". Notice, I said every family I know. Maybe I am just cursed? Am I cursed or honest?
If you haven't had that talk with your child you better. Every parent should warn their child about that "touch". You know, they have that "talk" in the public schools now. If some one touches you in a place that makes you feel uncomfortable... Or if some adult wants to play a game called "we have a secret". Why do we have so many agencies devoted to child protection if "predatory pedophilia" is not a serious problem?
I can not say that sexual child abuse is on the rise. I don't think so. The Bible warns against incest and sins or carnal lust. I personally think honesty and courage is on the rise. (Praise the LORD)
Theses "predatory pedophiles" think they are so smart. They sincerely think that they are undetectable and will never be known. Their immediate lust is their only concern. Plus they justify their deed. Sandusky established a charity, The Second Mile, for at-risk youth.
Very good logic for a "demon". They are poor destitute children anyway. Who cares about them? Some of their parents probably gladly took the money. We see it all over the world. "White collared, wealthy businessmen" from the U.S. make frequent visits to Mexico, Brazil, Peru, Thailand to find "happiness" with pre-pubescent little boys (and girls).
We don't care. They are poor, so what? "Dey just gon' be luddle hoes anyway."
This man is 68 years old and he is awaiting sentencing. They claim that he could get life. He's 68! So what?
How and why was he allowed to violate innocent children so long? We are an uncaring nation of selfish narcissists, too dumb to know that we are stupid.
One of Sandusky's defenders allowed herself to be filmed saying;"But he helped thousands!" No sweetheart, you can't trade your filth for innocence.
"Defense witnesses, including Jerry Sandusky's wife, Dottie, described his philanthropic work with children over the years, and many spoke positive terms about his reputation in the community." That's why he did it. "A wolf in sheep's clothing." Don't look for horns, a pitchfork or a red suit. Look at their fruit. Listen to their conversation. Do not dare think common carnal behavior is a proclivity unique to any particular race or gender.
I firmly believe that it is not on the rise. Sincere bold "Christians" are on the rise. GOD's Grace is manifesting Itself.
We all need to sweep around our own front door. My "mother" is a predatory pedophile. I proudly tell you. I tell you because it is true. She is low and common, refuses to come to repentance and the Holy Spirit compels me to tell you.
She hides in the church as an associate pastor. I know, the nerve! Why would GOD hide you? Your fake preaching "ain't that good". You don't give up enough cash for me to keep my mouth shut. You ought to be ashamed of yourself. But, then again you are too dumb to know that you are stupid.
Stay in His WORD children. Not only will Our Father give us the power of discernment, He will give us boldness. He will give you the strength, the courage to step on that demon's neck and He Will give you a VOICE. GOD will put the eloquent WORDS in your mouth child! (Praise the LORD!)
Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you. cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Friday, June 22, 2012
I will not keep silent!
"Now the LORD spoke to Paul in the night by a vision, "Do not be afraid, but speak, and do not keep silent; for I am with you, and no one will attack you to hurt you, for I have many people in this city." (Acts 18: 9 - 10 NKJV)
I Will Not keep silent. I will tell every thing I know. I witnessed it. I saw it with my own two eyes. She "rooted" my cousin Rachel. Her own first cousin! Her uncle Dan's daughter. I heard that hideous laugh . She squealed like a hog. I was involved. She sent that demonic spirit through me. She laughed.
I Will Not keep silent. She is a pervert. There is no act too common for her. She is greedy. She can't get enough of "nothing". She is selfish and self-centered. It is impossible for her to love herself more.
She is a MURDERER! She took the life of her own father! He was a good Christian man! How could she? Better yet, how could we keep silent? Refuse to know, refuse to tell? FEAR! But, Jesus said "Fear no (wo)man!" We could not or would not hear him. I can hear Him now. I WILL NOT SHUT UP! I WILL NOT KEEP SILENT!`
I did not know. I could not know that she practiced her witchcraft on her own family, on me. I have infallible proof and I am telling! If you don't find freedom, if you don't break free, it is your own fault.
She preaches for cover. Too foolish to understand her Bible, the one she fake preaches from, she does not believe that she will be known. She believes that everyone will believe that I am the nit-wit she makes out I am.
If I am lying. If I am the horrible drug addicted person that you have always painted me to be, why didn't you as a mother get me some help? If you are as religious as you pretend to be, why didn't you get your church to pray for me?
You wasted your whole life Martha. You wasted your whole life being a demon for nothing. The devil tricked you. You got nothing for all of your evil. Nothing, but the sick depraved name you deserve. Serves you right!
I Will Not keep silent. I will tell every thing I know. I witnessed it. I saw it with my own two eyes. She "rooted" my cousin Rachel. Her own first cousin! Her uncle Dan's daughter. I heard that hideous laugh . She squealed like a hog. I was involved. She sent that demonic spirit through me. She laughed.
I Will Not keep silent. She is a pervert. There is no act too common for her. She is greedy. She can't get enough of "nothing". She is selfish and self-centered. It is impossible for her to love herself more.
She is a MURDERER! She took the life of her own father! He was a good Christian man! How could she? Better yet, how could we keep silent? Refuse to know, refuse to tell? FEAR! But, Jesus said "Fear no (wo)man!" We could not or would not hear him. I can hear Him now. I WILL NOT SHUT UP! I WILL NOT KEEP SILENT!`
I did not know. I could not know that she practiced her witchcraft on her own family, on me. I have infallible proof and I am telling! If you don't find freedom, if you don't break free, it is your own fault.
She preaches for cover. Too foolish to understand her Bible, the one she fake preaches from, she does not believe that she will be known. She believes that everyone will believe that I am the nit-wit she makes out I am.
If I am lying. If I am the horrible drug addicted person that you have always painted me to be, why didn't you as a mother get me some help? If you are as religious as you pretend to be, why didn't you get your church to pray for me?
You wasted your whole life Martha. You wasted your whole life being a demon for nothing. The devil tricked you. You got nothing for all of your evil. Nothing, but the sick depraved name you deserve. Serves you right!
I greet you ...
in the name and saving Grace of our LORD and Savior Jesus Christ. "I'm gettin' up soon in the morning, I believe I'll dust my broom." That means I am going to clean what I clean with, that I've had a great epiphany and I've seen the light and I'm going to make some major changes in my life.
True, there are some sick people on this earth. Do your best to avoid them, unfortunately some can't be avoided. Catch on as soon as you can and move on.
We live in an absolutely beautiful world with many wonderful truly good people. Pray for them. Cherish them, cherish their memories. You are going to run into some ugliness in this world. It can not be avoided. No, that is not the world GOD designed or wants for us, but there are some demonic forces that insist on troubling, having their way. Rebellious spirits suffering from the sin of envy. "A sound heart is life to the body, but envy is rottenness to the bones." (Proverbs 14: 30 NKJV)
"Rottenness to the bones" is an understatement. The sin of "envy" will make a fool out of you. Here I am at sixty-one years old still trying to scrape up a little joy. Only because I just happened to be born into the wicked clutches of the most miserable woman that ever lived. A confused creature, a fallen woman full of "love", full of hate.
True this all could have been avoided if she were not guilty of the sin of pride and rebellion. "A merry heart makes a cheerful countenance, but by sorrow of the heart the spirit is broken." (Proverbs 15:13)
"A broken spirit" is what she attempted to afflict me with. I can not say that my spirit is not broken still. I do know that I am in recovery. I know that the LORD is healing me. What kind of mother spews vicious vulgar curses on their own flesh and blood? Better yet what kind of person enjoys it, derives pleasure from it?
"Folly is joy to him who is destitute of discernment, but a man of understanding walks uprightly." (Proverbs 15:21)
Poor Martha is and has always been desperately void of any understanding, other than to do evil. It is a fact. Why would I ever want to keep her wicked life a secret? My grandfather was a very wise man. He walked uprightly. Not to be seen or for any reward. He did it just because he carried the love of Christ in his heart.
I am a product of my grandfather's wisdom and I am exceedingly proud. His great granddaughter is a brilliant intellectual, the product of Boston University. She carries his proud legacy, walks worthy and she is blessed.
That ignorant evil monster tried to deafen her, to cripple her. The fool didn't get away, only exposed. That was just another piece of this huge unexplainable jigsaw mystery. A mystery I solved by reading my Bible, studying GOD's WORD.
Dear LORD thank you for protecting and delivering me from that demon. A demon kept secret by fear, manipulation, voodoo and shame. We were all controlled and kept helpless by one of the most maniacal demon possessed creatures that ever walked the earth. Therefore I do not hold any negative feelings toward my brothers and other relatives. They remain her blind minions and I understand. It took me 58 years to finally see the light and I was one of her chief victims! I do pray for the deliverance of my loved ones, my family, everyday.
You cause every one to fear you, pretend to revere you, to need you financially. Just so you can talk about them, ridicule them, rip them open and rake them over hot coals. How does that make you feel better? I heard that you call yourself a matriarch. No such thing. You are a vile repugnant, despicable monster that never came to the knowledge of GOD's Supreme Plan or Holy Ghost. You insisted on being famous, lauded and known. You will be known, that's for sure. You actually think you can do anything you please as long as you please. "The LORD is far from the wicked, but He hears the prayer of the righteous." (Proverbs 15:29)
I have a Holy Ghost party every day. I am jubilant. I jump and cry with joy. I thank GOD for giving me eyes to see through you, ears to hear. Praise the LORD!
Stay in His WORD children. If some demon has you down, pray for deliverance. Make sure you say the LORD's Prayer every day. Read some scripture every day. Do not leave your soul salvation up to some preacher or church. Jesus warned us that these ravenous wolves would invade the church. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
True, there are some sick people on this earth. Do your best to avoid them, unfortunately some can't be avoided. Catch on as soon as you can and move on.
We live in an absolutely beautiful world with many wonderful truly good people. Pray for them. Cherish them, cherish their memories. You are going to run into some ugliness in this world. It can not be avoided. No, that is not the world GOD designed or wants for us, but there are some demonic forces that insist on troubling, having their way. Rebellious spirits suffering from the sin of envy. "A sound heart is life to the body, but envy is rottenness to the bones." (Proverbs 14: 30 NKJV)
"Rottenness to the bones" is an understatement. The sin of "envy" will make a fool out of you. Here I am at sixty-one years old still trying to scrape up a little joy. Only because I just happened to be born into the wicked clutches of the most miserable woman that ever lived. A confused creature, a fallen woman full of "love", full of hate.
True this all could have been avoided if she were not guilty of the sin of pride and rebellion. "A merry heart makes a cheerful countenance, but by sorrow of the heart the spirit is broken." (Proverbs 15:13)
"A broken spirit" is what she attempted to afflict me with. I can not say that my spirit is not broken still. I do know that I am in recovery. I know that the LORD is healing me. What kind of mother spews vicious vulgar curses on their own flesh and blood? Better yet what kind of person enjoys it, derives pleasure from it?
"Folly is joy to him who is destitute of discernment, but a man of understanding walks uprightly." (Proverbs 15:21)
Poor Martha is and has always been desperately void of any understanding, other than to do evil. It is a fact. Why would I ever want to keep her wicked life a secret? My grandfather was a very wise man. He walked uprightly. Not to be seen or for any reward. He did it just because he carried the love of Christ in his heart.
I am a product of my grandfather's wisdom and I am exceedingly proud. His great granddaughter is a brilliant intellectual, the product of Boston University. She carries his proud legacy, walks worthy and she is blessed.
That ignorant evil monster tried to deafen her, to cripple her. The fool didn't get away, only exposed. That was just another piece of this huge unexplainable jigsaw mystery. A mystery I solved by reading my Bible, studying GOD's WORD.
Dear LORD thank you for protecting and delivering me from that demon. A demon kept secret by fear, manipulation, voodoo and shame. We were all controlled and kept helpless by one of the most maniacal demon possessed creatures that ever walked the earth. Therefore I do not hold any negative feelings toward my brothers and other relatives. They remain her blind minions and I understand. It took me 58 years to finally see the light and I was one of her chief victims! I do pray for the deliverance of my loved ones, my family, everyday.
You cause every one to fear you, pretend to revere you, to need you financially. Just so you can talk about them, ridicule them, rip them open and rake them over hot coals. How does that make you feel better? I heard that you call yourself a matriarch. No such thing. You are a vile repugnant, despicable monster that never came to the knowledge of GOD's Supreme Plan or Holy Ghost. You insisted on being famous, lauded and known. You will be known, that's for sure. You actually think you can do anything you please as long as you please. "The LORD is far from the wicked, but He hears the prayer of the righteous." (Proverbs 15:29)
I have a Holy Ghost party every day. I am jubilant. I jump and cry with joy. I thank GOD for giving me eyes to see through you, ears to hear. Praise the LORD!
Stay in His WORD children. If some demon has you down, pray for deliverance. Make sure you say the LORD's Prayer every day. Read some scripture every day. Do not leave your soul salvation up to some preacher or church. Jesus warned us that these ravenous wolves would invade the church. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Thursday, June 21, 2012
I'm excited!
"Power to the People"! I lived through the sixties. I was a bra burner. (I never burned one, just stopped wearing them) No I didn't look nasty or pendulous. I was fine and perky.
I have always been bold and bodacious, honest and forthright. I don't believe in a superior race. I know money and status can't make you happy. Financial security is not necessarily a blessing from GOD.
I'm feeling good. I am retired, I don't have to hit a lick if I don't want to. I can look back on a well lived outspoken life. My motto has always been; "I don't take tea for the fever!" I got that from my "mother" ironically.
I always believed my "mother" to be heroic and pioneering. I watched her maintain her own cars, build a deck and beat a man's a**. (many times) I knew I would never be an abused woman. Bold and bodacious I could take a stage or microphone.
The greatest gift I acquired or inherited from or through Martha, is the gift of critical thinking. If critical thinking is stimulated from a lack of trust, I am the champion.
Make sure you know that no man can ride your back if you stand up. Stand up to evil. Don't be a wimp! Never let anyone make you cower or grovel in the dust. If they beat your a**, they beat your a**. Fight'um! Fight'um back! If you have to use a brick or a bat, gather all the courage and muster you have to let that devil know she is in for a fight. So you got fooled. So what? Yea you fooled me for a minute. Had me confused for fifty-eight years.
"Sophie home nigh!" You used to yell ; "Come get yo' beatin'!" You come get yours! Come get this truth! Come get your "come upance". Come get what you deserve, hiding behind GOD's cross. How are you going to use GOD to fool GOD? You didn't work that out did you? What is going to happen when your minions find out that they no longer have to fear you? You're 86 years old! You can't strip any one naked, tie, gag and beat them bloody senseless now! Your "roots" ain't working! Your lies are failing. You can only fool the volunteer defeated and dimwitted.
Never go along with wrong doing and lies. No matter how repugnant, how foul , stand up for the truth. Stand up for justice. Stand up for your grandfather, Jerome Walters! He stood up for you. He feed and clothed you and never said a mumbling word. He was proud to do it! He called you a jewel in his crown. Stand up for the truth. Trust GOD! He will bless you.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
I have always been bold and bodacious, honest and forthright. I don't believe in a superior race. I know money and status can't make you happy. Financial security is not necessarily a blessing from GOD.
I'm feeling good. I am retired, I don't have to hit a lick if I don't want to. I can look back on a well lived outspoken life. My motto has always been; "I don't take tea for the fever!" I got that from my "mother" ironically.
I always believed my "mother" to be heroic and pioneering. I watched her maintain her own cars, build a deck and beat a man's a**. (many times) I knew I would never be an abused woman. Bold and bodacious I could take a stage or microphone.
The greatest gift I acquired or inherited from or through Martha, is the gift of critical thinking. If critical thinking is stimulated from a lack of trust, I am the champion.
Make sure you know that no man can ride your back if you stand up. Stand up to evil. Don't be a wimp! Never let anyone make you cower or grovel in the dust. If they beat your a**, they beat your a**. Fight'um! Fight'um back! If you have to use a brick or a bat, gather all the courage and muster you have to let that devil know she is in for a fight. So you got fooled. So what? Yea you fooled me for a minute. Had me confused for fifty-eight years.
"Sophie home nigh!" You used to yell ; "Come get yo' beatin'!" You come get yours! Come get this truth! Come get your "come upance". Come get what you deserve, hiding behind GOD's cross. How are you going to use GOD to fool GOD? You didn't work that out did you? What is going to happen when your minions find out that they no longer have to fear you? You're 86 years old! You can't strip any one naked, tie, gag and beat them bloody senseless now! Your "roots" ain't working! Your lies are failing. You can only fool the volunteer defeated and dimwitted.
Never go along with wrong doing and lies. No matter how repugnant, how foul , stand up for the truth. Stand up for justice. Stand up for your grandfather, Jerome Walters! He stood up for you. He feed and clothed you and never said a mumbling word. He was proud to do it! He called you a jewel in his crown. Stand up for the truth. Trust GOD! He will bless you.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
"She went running,
running to the city crying there is a man that told me everything I have done." I sing that Mahalia Jackson song often, silently, in my head. I grew up with music, I have my own sound track in my head. It was great music. Gospel, rhythm and blues, country, classical and some jazz. I love music. I know I can't live without it.
I never just listened to the music, I listened to the words. That woman that Jesus met at the well heard GOD. Listened to him. She humbled herself, repented of her sins.
As a child I thought that was an example of what any woman would do if confronted by the LORD, by the truth. Be careful, that is not true. GOD reminds us in Proverbs how a foolish woman tears down her own house with her own hands.
"The wise in heart will receive commandments: but a prating fool shall fall." "He that walketh uprightly walketh surely: but he that perverteth his ways shall be known." (Proverbs 10:8-9)
"In the lips of him that hath understanding wisdom is found: but a rod is for the back of him that is void of understanding." (verse 13)
Well I was wrong. Wisdom and understanding is not automatic or common place. Stupidity is an awful waste. But when we see it, we have to recognize it and call it what it is.
"He that hideth hatred with lying lips, and he that uttereth a slander, is a fool." You are a fool Martha, a silly extremely whorish woman. A violent despicable manipulative wicked woman. That's the truth, your whole life in a nutshell. You may have conned my brothers into keeping you a secret. I won't! Why? You're still stupid! You're still fallen and corrupt.
So, you still have some blind followers, some still live in fear of you. So what? Do you think you've fooled GOD? You are groping in the pitch black darkness, afraid to come to light. A tiny depraved piss ant still trying to fight GOD. No, you are not laughable, you are a heartbreak.
I do want to share this with you today. That sick hatred you always felt was not for me, or for us (the children that you screamed you hated and wished you had never had) it was for you.
I can recall it like it was yesterday. I am sure I have mentioned it in my blog often. "Oh! mother, thank you for buying that dishwasher. It has helped me so much." I pleasantly and sincerely complimented you. Sure, I was lame and naive, up early every morning cleaning your house. (You thought you were torturing me. The fact is you were teaching me self discipline)
You said nothing. You pretended to not hear me. How could I know I struck your hate cord? How could I yet know that you were on a mission to utterly destroy me a thousand times worse than you ever destroyed yourself? The next morning I found that second hand dishwasher laying on it's side in the backyard, discarded. It lay there for months in the wind, in the rain, in the elements, rusting, useless.
Now please permit me to play psychiatrist. Only you knew that you shielded a deep hatred in your heart for me. The ultimate coward and liar you were never about to admit that your condition, your life, was the result of your hard head and rebelliousness.
I was a budding beautiful young lady with high moral standards and that disgusted you. Perhaps I was the young lady you always wanted to be. No, you never came out and said directly or clearly that you hated me. But,you sure set me up. Why did you need for me to be the whore that you were? No, you wanted me to be a worse whore. You want me to be a crack addict whore. Relax, that is never going to happen.
Again, make sure you get this. I was not the object of your hatred. You suffer from self hatred, self loathing. And you should. This was around the time you were screwing that fat, ugly, stank walrus, Mr. Smith. I did tell you that he "stunk", because he did. You defended him by saying he worked in a fertilizer factory. I said; "He's married." You said; "His wife is cripple, she is an invalid. He is waiting on her to die. He has a lot of money and no children."
I was too honest, said everything that crossed my fourteen year old mind. Evidently my truth hurt your feelings. In your still childish corrupt mind, your "hurt feelings" justified your sick sabotage. Pray to love yourself. Pray to forgive yourself. I am of the opinion that you have the worse case of self loathing possible. Hate the deed not yourself.
That woman went running to the city proud to repent. Proud to love the LORD. What if Jesus had met you at the well? You would have cussed Jesus out, probably would have stabbed him, laid hands on Him. You would have secretly spit in Jesus' water and laughed after tricking Him into drinking it. You sure would have put "roots" on Him, lied on Him and slandered Him.
I never in my life did you any wrong. The worse I ever did to you was go in your purse and take the money you took from me. I kept all of your secrets. I was obedient, humble and I loved you.
You can not make me give up the right for the wrong. I refuse to overlook your rotting fruit. I will not pretend or ignore the fact that YOU MURDERED my grandfather. (Did he hurt your feelings? Cause you to suffer rightful shame?)
Again, it wasn't granddaddy that you hated. You hate yourself. You demand to be lauded, worshipped, well thought of. That might make you feel good for a minute. Nothing can erase the deep sick self loathing you feel except for the Holy Ghost. By GOD's Grace we are saved. I pray GOD's Grace over you and for you. Come to the truth, come to the light. There is nothing in that darkness but hatred and vile wickedness. Continue to pretend that you hate me if that makes you feel better. I will continue to pray for you.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace,Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
I never just listened to the music, I listened to the words. That woman that Jesus met at the well heard GOD. Listened to him. She humbled herself, repented of her sins.
As a child I thought that was an example of what any woman would do if confronted by the LORD, by the truth. Be careful, that is not true. GOD reminds us in Proverbs how a foolish woman tears down her own house with her own hands.
"The wise in heart will receive commandments: but a prating fool shall fall." "He that walketh uprightly walketh surely: but he that perverteth his ways shall be known." (Proverbs 10:8-9)
"In the lips of him that hath understanding wisdom is found: but a rod is for the back of him that is void of understanding." (verse 13)
Well I was wrong. Wisdom and understanding is not automatic or common place. Stupidity is an awful waste. But when we see it, we have to recognize it and call it what it is.
"He that hideth hatred with lying lips, and he that uttereth a slander, is a fool." You are a fool Martha, a silly extremely whorish woman. A violent despicable manipulative wicked woman. That's the truth, your whole life in a nutshell. You may have conned my brothers into keeping you a secret. I won't! Why? You're still stupid! You're still fallen and corrupt.
So, you still have some blind followers, some still live in fear of you. So what? Do you think you've fooled GOD? You are groping in the pitch black darkness, afraid to come to light. A tiny depraved piss ant still trying to fight GOD. No, you are not laughable, you are a heartbreak.
I do want to share this with you today. That sick hatred you always felt was not for me, or for us (the children that you screamed you hated and wished you had never had) it was for you.
I can recall it like it was yesterday. I am sure I have mentioned it in my blog often. "Oh! mother, thank you for buying that dishwasher. It has helped me so much." I pleasantly and sincerely complimented you. Sure, I was lame and naive, up early every morning cleaning your house. (You thought you were torturing me. The fact is you were teaching me self discipline)
You said nothing. You pretended to not hear me. How could I know I struck your hate cord? How could I yet know that you were on a mission to utterly destroy me a thousand times worse than you ever destroyed yourself? The next morning I found that second hand dishwasher laying on it's side in the backyard, discarded. It lay there for months in the wind, in the rain, in the elements, rusting, useless.
Now please permit me to play psychiatrist. Only you knew that you shielded a deep hatred in your heart for me. The ultimate coward and liar you were never about to admit that your condition, your life, was the result of your hard head and rebelliousness.
I was a budding beautiful young lady with high moral standards and that disgusted you. Perhaps I was the young lady you always wanted to be. No, you never came out and said directly or clearly that you hated me. But,you sure set me up. Why did you need for me to be the whore that you were? No, you wanted me to be a worse whore. You want me to be a crack addict whore. Relax, that is never going to happen.
Again, make sure you get this. I was not the object of your hatred. You suffer from self hatred, self loathing. And you should. This was around the time you were screwing that fat, ugly, stank walrus, Mr. Smith. I did tell you that he "stunk", because he did. You defended him by saying he worked in a fertilizer factory. I said; "He's married." You said; "His wife is cripple, she is an invalid. He is waiting on her to die. He has a lot of money and no children."
I was too honest, said everything that crossed my fourteen year old mind. Evidently my truth hurt your feelings. In your still childish corrupt mind, your "hurt feelings" justified your sick sabotage. Pray to love yourself. Pray to forgive yourself. I am of the opinion that you have the worse case of self loathing possible. Hate the deed not yourself.
That woman went running to the city proud to repent. Proud to love the LORD. What if Jesus had met you at the well? You would have cussed Jesus out, probably would have stabbed him, laid hands on Him. You would have secretly spit in Jesus' water and laughed after tricking Him into drinking it. You sure would have put "roots" on Him, lied on Him and slandered Him.
I never in my life did you any wrong. The worse I ever did to you was go in your purse and take the money you took from me. I kept all of your secrets. I was obedient, humble and I loved you.
You can not make me give up the right for the wrong. I refuse to overlook your rotting fruit. I will not pretend or ignore the fact that YOU MURDERED my grandfather. (Did he hurt your feelings? Cause you to suffer rightful shame?)
Again, it wasn't granddaddy that you hated. You hate yourself. You demand to be lauded, worshipped, well thought of. That might make you feel good for a minute. Nothing can erase the deep sick self loathing you feel except for the Holy Ghost. By GOD's Grace we are saved. I pray GOD's Grace over you and for you. Come to the truth, come to the light. There is nothing in that darkness but hatred and vile wickedness. Continue to pretend that you hate me if that makes you feel better. I will continue to pray for you.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace,Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
I am laughing ...
GOD truly has a sense of humor. She demanded our silence. "YOU N******DON'T TELL A MUTHAF****** THANG DAT GO ON IN DIS HOUSEEEEEEEEEEEEE!" was our daily mantra. In addition every day I had to hear how I talked too much. "Yo' mouf run lak goose s*** by duh moon light!"
GOD messed around and invented the Internet, gave me the activity of my limbs and my brain. Now I can't shut up. I won't shut up. No, I have not told her most guarded secrets (yet). Telling my story heals me, frees me.
My grandfather told me to never do anything I would be too embarrassed to admit that I did. He told her too. But she was too rebellious, too stubborn and cruel to listen.
To GOD be the Glory! Praise His Holy Name!
GOD messed around and invented the Internet, gave me the activity of my limbs and my brain. Now I can't shut up. I won't shut up. No, I have not told her most guarded secrets (yet). Telling my story heals me, frees me.
My grandfather told me to never do anything I would be too embarrassed to admit that I did. He told her too. But she was too rebellious, too stubborn and cruel to listen.
To GOD be the Glory! Praise His Holy Name!
Thank you!
I thank all of my well wishers and sympathizers. I have been trough quite an ordeal, it is true. But, GOD tells me that my puny pain is not important. "Wasn't I always with you. Didn't I protect you from her worse. Now use your voice and your talent to expose the sin of selfishness. Expose a government of politicians that are in it for their own selfish gain. Expose the phony preachers pimping their flocks. Preach the WORD."
I thought I was going to write about the "Luck of the Uterus" this morning suggesting the simple biological accident of being planted in the right uterus would make all of the difference in your life. GOD taught me better. The Dear LORD in His infinite wisdom knows exactly where He wants us placed and why.
The truth is, when I count my blessings I know I have enjoyed a wonderful life. I have traveled to many countries, spent a lot of money and overall had many great experiences. I am the mother of the world's greatest daughter, had the privilege of learning form one of the greatest minds on this earth. The fact I was able to figure this shrewd succubus out before it was too late is a testament to our all knowing, all saving GOD.
To my friends that tell me to get own with my life and to forget her. Thank you for your kind advice but you are wrong. You are just as wrong as "Job's friends". I understand, you are afraid that I will never be happy, never be "normal". I am happy! I can't be "normal". "Normal" was never in the cards for me. I have never had a desire to be "normal". For some reason I learned to love solitude, my "abnormality". I enjoy my own company. I garden, paint, make dolls, journal, create jewelry, write poetry and prose. I find most days to be very fulfilling , satisfying and much too short.
Perhaps I am a snob. I detest "dumb" people. People of low intellect, little knowledge or repeaters of babble. I am stubborn. I refuse to change. If you don't like me, stay away. If you want to use me, stay away. If you are jealous and envious, stay away.
I insist that you know about and be able to identify narcissistic mothers. Mothers are more important than fathers simply because they have the most influence. Society has painted her as a patron saint. Society paints all women with a magic brush and if you have a successful pregnancy you are automatically catapulted to "Mother of the Year" status.
No such thing! Look into the eyes of some of these children. Too many shrewish women are getting over on society. I must tell on my "mother" because it does give me great joy and healing. I must go on record and testify to the incredible greed and selfishness of this whore.
Whoa! Put on the brakes! Must you have every man, woman and child? You remind me of that Muddy Waters song; "My eyes keep me in trouble...I want eva' woman I see."
First of all **** you should have never put your corrupt filthy hands on me! To think you could use GOD and your voodoo/hoodoo/black magic/witchcraft simultaneously is a sacrilege.
You were predicted, foretold. You are a calamity, a "sign and a proverb". I thank GOD for you! PTL!
"Having predestined us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will." (Ephesians 1:5)
I was predestined, pre-ordained to belong to Christ. (You were too.)
"In whom we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, (ALL sins including sins as grave as yours), according to the riches of His grace; Wherein He hath abounded toward us in all wisdom and prudence; Having made known unto us the mystery of His will, according to His good pleasure which He hath purposed in Himself: " (verses 7 -9)
You can play the freak and the fool if you want to. You are going to have to pay up one day. Do what ever you please. Wallow in your lust. Be as carnal as you want to be. Forget GOD and try to fool others. You will end up a "sign and a proverb", a despicable thing. No, all will not recognize you, and some will demand to love you until your bloody end.
But, a few will recognize you, revile you and keep their distance.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
I thought I was going to write about the "Luck of the Uterus" this morning suggesting the simple biological accident of being planted in the right uterus would make all of the difference in your life. GOD taught me better. The Dear LORD in His infinite wisdom knows exactly where He wants us placed and why.
The truth is, when I count my blessings I know I have enjoyed a wonderful life. I have traveled to many countries, spent a lot of money and overall had many great experiences. I am the mother of the world's greatest daughter, had the privilege of learning form one of the greatest minds on this earth. The fact I was able to figure this shrewd succubus out before it was too late is a testament to our all knowing, all saving GOD.
To my friends that tell me to get own with my life and to forget her. Thank you for your kind advice but you are wrong. You are just as wrong as "Job's friends". I understand, you are afraid that I will never be happy, never be "normal". I am happy! I can't be "normal". "Normal" was never in the cards for me. I have never had a desire to be "normal". For some reason I learned to love solitude, my "abnormality". I enjoy my own company. I garden, paint, make dolls, journal, create jewelry, write poetry and prose. I find most days to be very fulfilling , satisfying and much too short.
Perhaps I am a snob. I detest "dumb" people. People of low intellect, little knowledge or repeaters of babble. I am stubborn. I refuse to change. If you don't like me, stay away. If you want to use me, stay away. If you are jealous and envious, stay away.
I insist that you know about and be able to identify narcissistic mothers. Mothers are more important than fathers simply because they have the most influence. Society has painted her as a patron saint. Society paints all women with a magic brush and if you have a successful pregnancy you are automatically catapulted to "Mother of the Year" status.
No such thing! Look into the eyes of some of these children. Too many shrewish women are getting over on society. I must tell on my "mother" because it does give me great joy and healing. I must go on record and testify to the incredible greed and selfishness of this whore.
Whoa! Put on the brakes! Must you have every man, woman and child? You remind me of that Muddy Waters song; "My eyes keep me in trouble...I want eva' woman I see."
First of all **** you should have never put your corrupt filthy hands on me! To think you could use GOD and your voodoo/hoodoo/black magic/witchcraft simultaneously is a sacrilege.
You were predicted, foretold. You are a calamity, a "sign and a proverb". I thank GOD for you! PTL!
"Having predestined us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will." (Ephesians 1:5)
I was predestined, pre-ordained to belong to Christ. (You were too.)
"In whom we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, (ALL sins including sins as grave as yours), according to the riches of His grace; Wherein He hath abounded toward us in all wisdom and prudence; Having made known unto us the mystery of His will, according to His good pleasure which He hath purposed in Himself: " (verses 7 -9)
You can play the freak and the fool if you want to. You are going to have to pay up one day. Do what ever you please. Wallow in your lust. Be as carnal as you want to be. Forget GOD and try to fool others. You will end up a "sign and a proverb", a despicable thing. No, all will not recognize you, and some will demand to love you until your bloody end.
But, a few will recognize you, revile you and keep their distance.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Monday, June 18, 2012
I finally had to admit it.
I literally bit the bullet. I have fought this truth my entire life. You have no morals! You are void of any sense of decency. Yes, it is a criticism.
Any one that can live the life you've lived for eighty-six years and remain unashamed is an outrage! Any person that can stand in a pulpit, stand before GOD and profess to be a "Christian", to claim to love the LORD, knowing full well she is lying, faking, pretending, putting on and NOT CARE, is bewildering to say the least.
For eighty-six years you have deliberately, knowingly, with forethought and malice destroyed your entire family. No, that's not mean, it's beyond selfish, way beyond greedy. There is only one word for it , DEMONIC! Not, any run of the mill demon possession either. You are Satan's imp on steroids.
STOP! You shall not proceed any further! To quote you "another futher". I got so tickled today. I actually laughed at myself. I could hear you clearly screaming in my ear; "YOU SHUT UP! ALWAYS RUNNING YO' MOUF'!" I was foolish. I was running my mouth, laughing, telling my cousins how you beat XXXXX when he was a toddler, just learning to walk. I was telling them how you beat him for defecating on himself. Dumb me, I didn't know that it was a secret. Did I actually think that was the proper way to potty train a child?
Why didn't you want your cousins to know? You did it. I was a little girl. You let me see. You didn't care if I knew.
Where did you get that from? Doing any and everything you felt like doing and tracking down every witness to intimidate. True, we all make mistakes. We are human. You are not GOD or a miny god. Fear means respect, dummy. Terrorizing and inculcating sheer fear is not "motherly". Deliberately leading everyone into captivity is not a mission or assignment from GOD.
Where did you get the idea that you and only you can do any and everything that she pleases and nobody better not say anything? You are not to be criticized, admonished, or told on. You are caught. You are revealed. You have been weighed in the balances and found wanting. You proclaim and brag that you are never repenting. Don't!
I have fully accepted the fact that you don't have a shred of decency in you. Not one ounce or iota of human decency or compassion. Any woman that could sexually molest her own children is worthless. Fallen below the lowest standard. Screaming a lie will not save you. You might be cool as a breeze but that is not a compliment. Your uncanny ability to slay and rob your own children should not make you proud.
It's cool. I have finally accepted the truth. I never knew a person like you was actually possible. YOU MURDERED YOUR OWN FATHER!!! for Christ's sake! I have no doubt. You will never apologize, repent or say you are sorry. You will die and continue to rot in the hell you created.
If the Holy Bible is ever re-written or revised I want them to put an asterisk beside the term "long suffering". I want your name by that asterisk because you are the true definition of "long suffering".
Any one that can live the life you've lived for eighty-six years and remain unashamed is an outrage! Any person that can stand in a pulpit, stand before GOD and profess to be a "Christian", to claim to love the LORD, knowing full well she is lying, faking, pretending, putting on and NOT CARE, is bewildering to say the least.
For eighty-six years you have deliberately, knowingly, with forethought and malice destroyed your entire family. No, that's not mean, it's beyond selfish, way beyond greedy. There is only one word for it , DEMONIC! Not, any run of the mill demon possession either. You are Satan's imp on steroids.
STOP! You shall not proceed any further! To quote you "another futher". I got so tickled today. I actually laughed at myself. I could hear you clearly screaming in my ear; "YOU SHUT UP! ALWAYS RUNNING YO' MOUF'!" I was foolish. I was running my mouth, laughing, telling my cousins how you beat XXXXX when he was a toddler, just learning to walk. I was telling them how you beat him for defecating on himself. Dumb me, I didn't know that it was a secret. Did I actually think that was the proper way to potty train a child?
Why didn't you want your cousins to know? You did it. I was a little girl. You let me see. You didn't care if I knew.
Where did you get that from? Doing any and everything you felt like doing and tracking down every witness to intimidate. True, we all make mistakes. We are human. You are not GOD or a miny god. Fear means respect, dummy. Terrorizing and inculcating sheer fear is not "motherly". Deliberately leading everyone into captivity is not a mission or assignment from GOD.
Where did you get the idea that you and only you can do any and everything that she pleases and nobody better not say anything? You are not to be criticized, admonished, or told on. You are caught. You are revealed. You have been weighed in the balances and found wanting. You proclaim and brag that you are never repenting. Don't!
I have fully accepted the fact that you don't have a shred of decency in you. Not one ounce or iota of human decency or compassion. Any woman that could sexually molest her own children is worthless. Fallen below the lowest standard. Screaming a lie will not save you. You might be cool as a breeze but that is not a compliment. Your uncanny ability to slay and rob your own children should not make you proud.
It's cool. I have finally accepted the truth. I never knew a person like you was actually possible. YOU MURDERED YOUR OWN FATHER!!! for Christ's sake! I have no doubt. You will never apologize, repent or say you are sorry. You will die and continue to rot in the hell you created.
If the Holy Bible is ever re-written or revised I want them to put an asterisk beside the term "long suffering". I want your name by that asterisk because you are the true definition of "long suffering".
May I tell you something?
That is entirely a rhetorical question announced to let any readers know that I am about to drop some knowledge on you. Not my "knowledge" mind you, GOD's knowledge, knowledge that I can assure you is Holy Ghost inspired. I have a testimony.
What good is a testimony if you keep quiet? Keep it to yourself? That's not a testimony, that's a secret. I will not keep my life, my journey, my horrific experiences secret. I am going to tell the world what you did to me. Not to embarrass or hurt you or to extract revenge as you proclaim. You have no ears to listen, no eyes to see, but there is a hungry mind in this world searching for an answer.
I wish there had been a Rachel Gwendolyn Doster in my childhood, in my youth. But, that is not what GOD wanted for me, evidently. Had I had a Rachel Gwendolyn Doster I would have freed myself from your long tentacles decades ago. The Dear LORD needed me to experience a woman such as you. I needed to be shaped, molded and purged. I truly praise the LORD and I am humbled by His Goodness and Grace every day of my life.
A person that I love dearly said something the other day that disturbed me. No, I have no anger for her but I did want to shake her. I do want her to know better. She is a young child, she has a right to "not know". I did the same thing at her age. I repeated ignorance I heard. I believed a great deal of the ignorance that was instilled in me, taught to me by my "mother".
Be careful of ideas that you repeat, of philosophies that you accept as fact or true. She is a pretty little girl, a young lady with a lot of promise if she will stop and listen to the right voice. She said basically :"GOD don't put no more on you than you can bear." There is a great deal of danger in holding that philosophy.
#1. What makes you think GOD is responsible for that burden? Could it be your hard head and rebelliousness is the cause?
#2. Make sure that you know that GOD only wants the best for you. The cattle on a thousand hills is His. He wants you to have life and to have it more abundantly.
#3. Every time you get out of His will, out of His Covenant you are going to suffer. You will pay a price. True it is hard to walk this road called life without bumping your head. You are going to make some mistakes. Some are going to make many. Only a fool will keep making the same mistakes over and over. Only a fool would lie and deny, suffer and then blame it on GOD. We all do it. I've done a lot of dumb things in my life. I knew better but I was hoping for a better out come. I asked GOD to send me a godly man. I got tired of waiting and picked out one myself. How did I know he was godly? He ushered in the church. Boy was that a mistake. But GOD in His infinite wisdom blessed me with the most beautiful, brilliant daughter any mother could claim.
#4. Put on the whole armor of GOD! Don't try to navigate this wicked world unprotected! Say your prayers! Every morning when you rise get on your knees and say the LORD"s Prayer. That is not superstition. That is reverence and honor. That is respect and humility. You claim ;"GOD is the head of my life!" Do you mean it or are you just repeating something you heard? Do you want to sound godly without being fully godly? Do you think salvation is for old, square or lame people?
#5. There is a voice, a still small voice, it is in your ear, listen to it. It is the voice of wisdom. It is GOD trying to communicate to you. Trying to guide you, trying to protect you. Trust GOD. Don't entertain demons. Do not tolerate people that have a demonic spirit. They only have one intention, to slay you. Never overlook wrong doing. Their evil manipulative nature is twenty-four/seven. They have no good in them and they certainly don't want to see it in you.
Stay in His WORD children. I want you to read Ephesians chapter one today. It is important. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster ( the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
What good is a testimony if you keep quiet? Keep it to yourself? That's not a testimony, that's a secret. I will not keep my life, my journey, my horrific experiences secret. I am going to tell the world what you did to me. Not to embarrass or hurt you or to extract revenge as you proclaim. You have no ears to listen, no eyes to see, but there is a hungry mind in this world searching for an answer.
I wish there had been a Rachel Gwendolyn Doster in my childhood, in my youth. But, that is not what GOD wanted for me, evidently. Had I had a Rachel Gwendolyn Doster I would have freed myself from your long tentacles decades ago. The Dear LORD needed me to experience a woman such as you. I needed to be shaped, molded and purged. I truly praise the LORD and I am humbled by His Goodness and Grace every day of my life.
A person that I love dearly said something the other day that disturbed me. No, I have no anger for her but I did want to shake her. I do want her to know better. She is a young child, she has a right to "not know". I did the same thing at her age. I repeated ignorance I heard. I believed a great deal of the ignorance that was instilled in me, taught to me by my "mother".
Be careful of ideas that you repeat, of philosophies that you accept as fact or true. She is a pretty little girl, a young lady with a lot of promise if she will stop and listen to the right voice. She said basically :"GOD don't put no more on you than you can bear." There is a great deal of danger in holding that philosophy.
#1. What makes you think GOD is responsible for that burden? Could it be your hard head and rebelliousness is the cause?
#2. Make sure that you know that GOD only wants the best for you. The cattle on a thousand hills is His. He wants you to have life and to have it more abundantly.
#3. Every time you get out of His will, out of His Covenant you are going to suffer. You will pay a price. True it is hard to walk this road called life without bumping your head. You are going to make some mistakes. Some are going to make many. Only a fool will keep making the same mistakes over and over. Only a fool would lie and deny, suffer and then blame it on GOD. We all do it. I've done a lot of dumb things in my life. I knew better but I was hoping for a better out come. I asked GOD to send me a godly man. I got tired of waiting and picked out one myself. How did I know he was godly? He ushered in the church. Boy was that a mistake. But GOD in His infinite wisdom blessed me with the most beautiful, brilliant daughter any mother could claim.
#4. Put on the whole armor of GOD! Don't try to navigate this wicked world unprotected! Say your prayers! Every morning when you rise get on your knees and say the LORD"s Prayer. That is not superstition. That is reverence and honor. That is respect and humility. You claim ;"GOD is the head of my life!" Do you mean it or are you just repeating something you heard? Do you want to sound godly without being fully godly? Do you think salvation is for old, square or lame people?
#5. There is a voice, a still small voice, it is in your ear, listen to it. It is the voice of wisdom. It is GOD trying to communicate to you. Trying to guide you, trying to protect you. Trust GOD. Don't entertain demons. Do not tolerate people that have a demonic spirit. They only have one intention, to slay you. Never overlook wrong doing. Their evil manipulative nature is twenty-four/seven. They have no good in them and they certainly don't want to see it in you.
Stay in His WORD children. I want you to read Ephesians chapter one today. It is important. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster ( the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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