Divine order!

GOD is so Wonderful! He has been lining this "thing" up from the beginning. Put me slap dab in a prophets lap. I was nurtured and spoon feed on the WORD.

You can't police the PO-Lice , teach a TEA-chu, or shut up a born Prophet!

PTL!

Thank you Jesus!

Got that Joy!

You know this world did NOT give it to me!

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You got to move!

When the LORD gets ready, YOU got to move!

PTL!

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How do I explain to all ...

my friends and relatives that shun me, avoid me, un-friend me on Facebook, create false accounts, see my name on caller ID and refuse to answer,  that I am not the ogre, the monster, the repulsive reptilian they think I am?

How can I explain to my loved ones, to all that think they know me that I "knew".  I knew something was very wrong with that woman from my first recognition of her.

A cruel slut.  Pure and simple, a cruel sadistic, pathological lying slut.  Did her rape produce that?  I think not because she made sure I was brutally raped at eight.

What kind of person insists on committing the most repugnant, disgusting, revolting deeds for the sheer joy of doing it and escaping punishment?

Well that was Martha.  From openly fornicating in the front seat  of her newly wed , too young, husband's car.  Nearly beating the life out of him for merely seeing,  for objecting.  I was four years old and can still clearly see that tragic violent seen in my mind's eye.

"Why can't you just get ova'it!?"

My LORD! My LORD! I have a tragic painful memory for every day of my life for 62 YEARS!

You ask me why I cry.  We were never permitted to cry.  This bitch was so sadistic she would beat us brutally and dare us to so much as touch our scars.

"Dry up dem muthafuckin' tears!  Duh mo' you cry, duh less you piss!"

#BLACKLIVES MATTER my ass! I've been black for 64 years and I know better.  It is NOT color it is CHARACTER!

If your head is in the lion's mouth you don't make any sudden moves.  I see you are a Nazi.  I know you have a big gun.  I am not about to antagonize you.

"Kind words turneth away wrath".  Proverbs, read it, apply it.

I post a lot , #1 because Almighty GOD told me to.

#2 I am a retired teacher.  I have a lot to say.

#3 I caught A PURE ABOMINATION TO CHRIST UP IN THE PULPIT PREACHING!

#4  There are far too many men and women still suffering on this earth , confused, abused and deliberately destroyed by extremely whorish demon possessed MOTHERS!

#5 "It is written."

PTL!

We call it a "secret war" ...

but the only secret is the enemy.  Rarely can we know the "enemy" without looking at their fruit.  My greatest enemy,  the greatest nemesis and hinderance to GOD's goodness was my own mother, Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamaureaux!  An ABOMINATION! A MONSTROSITY! Deliberately held her entire world, her family,  captive, trembling in debilitating fear for 87 YEARS!

GOD said No!

Oh Dear LORD, how can I explain to your dying world,  ALL LIVES MATTER?  My life mattered.  No, it did not matter to my mother.  She lived to crucify me!    Just me!  Sure she did deliberately wound and torture others.    But she wanted my life!  That imp for satan wanted me to suffer, to pay for her debauchery, her carnal, lustful, repugnant sins.

I am still clawing my own eyes out after witnessing her take on a group of young soldiers in the day room of her boyfriends barracks , when I was nineteen.    She purely hated me for complaining, for screaming my disgust when we got back in her Cadillac to leave.

The woman was married to a man much too young for her.  Was treating him worse than a quarry slave.  Was still having "relations" with her ex-husband,  the one she made violate her children!  I know now the terrible sexual acts those two buzzards perpetuated against me was for "power".  Yes,  the dumb slut was told and did believe taking the virginity of young children would give her "power".

Martha Jane Walters volunteered to become something so evil she could not ever be discovered or discussed in life.   This whore had to leave here!  She must be safely dead in order for us to feel safe enough to count our scars.   Read all of II Thessalonians.

GOD said No!

Rather than admit her wrong  doing and change,  it was more convenient to hate me, to lie on me, to cause every one in the Walters family to carry secret hatred and revulsion for me!

True, I am totally ostracized by nearly every single person in my family.  I cry daily because my truth embarrasses them.  NOT MARTHA! NOT THE PATHOLOGICAL ROOT WORKING CRUEL SADISTIC PERVERTED PEDOPHILE!

My family agrees that my skin is too black! (But black lives matter) I am too opinionated.  I think too much of myself.  I am too educated and bookish.  I use too many big words.

And the world says ; "Why don't you just shut up!  You're a nobody!  You're black, you're female, you're old, you AIN'T SHIT!"  That is exactly what my mother screamed at me when I graduated from college with honors and my virginity.

JEALOUS! Covetous! Sneaky!  Common as any mangey stray dog in heat!

No wonder granddaddy didn't tell me.  Too common to be believed!

"Come ye out from among them."  Come to the light.  Brothers, all five of you, come up out of that early grave your mother sealed you in.  Don't you dare remain destroyed! Robbed! Rebuke satan! Rebuke that skank, Mathy Jane.

I won't keep her a secret!

I can't!

PTL! 

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"Know ye the Truth!"

Praise the LORD! Than you Jesus! I am purely jubilant! No, I did not hit the lottery.  I discovered the undisputed truth!  If you don't know, if you never learn, it will not be because of me.

Well, well, well, Martha finally pulled the ultimate Mathy Jane.  A Mathy Jane is a term , I am not sure if I invented it or inherited it.  But it is real and you don't want it!  It means to successfully "pull off" (execute) the ultimate betrayal, the ultimate scam.  Not for wealth, fame or great gain.  You do it for the  sheer pleasure of the pain you inflict and laugh.  You laugh heartily and long.  No, you don't get anything.  You do not benefit in the least way other than knowing you are a secret monstrosity and not one of your victims has the kahunas to ever breathe a word about you, the real you.

A Mathy Jane is when you do something dirty and disgusting, repugnant,  to someone after you have gone to great lengths to re-earn their confidence again!  You do something so horrible and disgusting, your victim prays for death.

Martha Jane Walters lived the longest lie possible.  A miserable lecherous woman full of the rankest, foulest, hidden hatred and blatant ignorance possible.  Martha was a MURDERER  many times over.

She did MURDER babies!  How do I know!?  She bragged about it, nearly daily.  "I flushed five of den black muthafuckers!"

I was a child, what did I know.  Abortion wasn't even legal yet.  My mother said it so proudly, I thought it was normal.  Little did I know. My mother was always on graves collecting "dust".  Again, little did I know this was a demonic practice until my grandfather, Jerome Walters, taught me better.

I was privileged to see this post  on FB this morning ; " People cry, not because they're weak.  It's because they've been strong for too long." - Johnny Depp

My heart bleed.  It is the pure absolute truth.  Born into the clutches of the sickest most demon possessed being  to hit this earth  lately.  It came to me.  Jesus' truth swept over me; "Know ye the truth and the truth will set you free."

No matter how loathsome, how repugnant and vile your truth is, know it!  The fact my mother was the victim of child rape was hidden from us.  All of Martha's vile cruel acts as a demon possessed child were never mentioned.  Not even the fact that Martha became extremely promiscuous,  was labeled the whore of Wade Station because she was prostituting by age fourteen.

"Don't talk about it!  Don't you black mutha********* ******* tell a mutha****** thang dat go on in dis house!" was our sour daily substance.  I have to laugh.  We were eating grits and grease while profiling with our "mother" riding around town in a long sleek Cadillac .  Grits and Grease! Help me Holy Ghost , we survived!

I mothered myself, I raised myself.  I protected myself as best I could from sexual predators.  I educated myself!    GOD gave me a house, I won it.   Children, that was the beginning of the end.    That Mathy Jane had,  had enough of my winning.    I graduated from college with honors without one red cent from her or anyone. PTL!

I was beautiful, I was talented.  I was the daughter my grandfather always wanted.  He honored me for it, purely spoiled me.   There was not one time in 27 and one half years years Jerome Walters told me no. Not even when I was wrong.  I never saved my money, never had one red cent.  Perhaps because I knew all I ever had to say was' "Granddaddy!"

Well the low demon possessed whore came after me with a vengeance .  MURDERED my grandfather simply because I loved him, doted on him, sat at his feet, listening and  learning.

Well, I feel much better now.  I finally understand why I have cried enough tears to float a fleet of battleships since my long lost brother returned home in 2005 with SOME SHOCKING LONG HELD SECRETS!

For all my critics that cry; "Don't tell …keep it to yourself …or we are tired of hearing about it …change the subject ..you are depressing, a joy snatcher, you bring gloom and doom …" ;
No, I'm Free!

If GOD suddenly healed you of cancer, canceled your death sentence , would you not holler, scream in delight? In pure ecstasy !  Wouldn't you count it a privilege to tell the entire world about the goodness of GOD?

That's me, not only am I glad to be set free, I do not want my fellow victims to continue suffering in silence.  

You have to be a terrible , sick, sadistic monstrosity for people to still fear you in death.  And you have to be a bigger fool to believe in the power of her "roots".  To say "forget it!" let it go, why that is a sacrilege!  GOD blessed me to TELL THIS TRUTH! I am not the only captive yearning to be set free.

I came to tell you; "He Will do it!" JESUS WILL FIX IT!

I pray for your deliverance today.  May all of my kit and kin finally know the undisputed truth. Thank you GOD!

PTL!

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When all else fails, try Jesus

Try  the real Jesus, not that clown, that hocus pocus, root working, do this, do that to get blessed, illiterate, anti intellectual, jealous, covetous,lying, fornicating hypocrite icon, plastered on every imps lips.

You will know them by their lack of fruit.  All mouth! All fake! All cowards!

I did ask GOD why my mother preached?  He said to confuse, to block blessings.  She was the worse. He kept us blind in order to save us.

PTL!

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Howlin Wolf -- I'll Be Back Someday

Just sitting here wondering what my loved ones are holding onto, and why?  Hot air! Lies!  A very repugnant false life that even she was too embarrassed to claim!  The nerve!  This woman never gave me one red  cent towards my education, ever.

As a matter of fact she did deliberately use her position, her status as my mother to hurt me worse than any imp from satan.  Martha, never told us, never let on, but she was blood thirsty .  She was in dire need of some more helpless puppies to crush.

Forced to settle for us she did deliberately keep GOD on His toes protecting us.

And some ignorant "know-it-all-NO-NOTHING-dumb ass muthafucking illiterate 'ho bitch",  is more concerned with my language.  Bitch! If you are not the dumbest whore that ever lived.

Jesus said you dumb muthafuckers would strain at a gnat and swallow a camel. (Matthew 23:24)

Bitch!  You are not that dumb.  You are just as wicked, carnal, greedy and uncaring as Martha.  You might not go down on graves, but, you are "going down" on something.  There is no way any one as thick as you could have ever been a successful educator for 30 years!

Bitch!   You kept school!   Passed out paper and pencil, kept attendance.  Go sit down!  You are worthless.  Not one "like", not one "share".   Got the nerve to tell me what you are tired of seeing on your page!  Scroll on BITCH! 'HO BITCH ASS MUTHAFUCKER!

Warning!  Stay paired up with the likes of Mathy Jane, keep on.  I hope you see and comprehend what she got for her demonic trouble.

PTL!

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Howlin' Wolf - The best of (full album)

Thank you LORD for your tender mercies, abundant blessings, miraculous healings, great wisdom and understanding.  Thank you for a tender heart.

Is that what set off Mathy's horrendously long, excruciatingly painful secret campaign of deceit and treachery against me?  Why did she hate me?  Why did Martha Jane Walters purely burn with the sickest most repugnant perverted hatred possible against every one she ever knew and pretended to love?

Evil!  Evil is real!  I saw it!  I lived with it, learned how to maneuver , to steer clear.  Praise the LORD! I certainly understand why my revelations are so shocking.  Martha Jane Walters was unreal.  She was a human beast, a waste of human flesh.

Martha did live in her own private hell, torturing and vexing at will.  She did terrify and she did emasculate.  I went and got my "balls" back.  I was old when I retrieved them, but I got them.  Most of them,  any way.

I am angry, mad at myself for taking so much time trying to help that old lying perverted "stanking" slut.  What a human piece of SHIT!   And the dumb retarded whore had the nerve to beat me over the head with that taunt""You ain't SHIIIIIIIIITTTTTT!!!!".  Pretending to be crazy, pretending to be drunk off of one sip of beer.  Cursing and ranting and raging for hours, days!  Simply because the lazy low 'ho didn't want to work, was just as lazy and greedy as a stray dog.

GOD said No!

Why didn't one of us just off the bitch!?  Why didn't I ever desire to cut her throat from ear to ear or stab her in the heart like I promised GOD I was going to do her husband?

GOD has a Plan, a Purpose.  I am sure I would have never bothered to call on GOD, to believe on Him, without my Mathy Jane Experience.   You rot in hell you filthy cur!  GOD gave you 87years to get it right and with each passing year you only grew worse.  You "Waxed worse and worse" just like the LORD predicted.

You were much too clever, much too brilliant in your deceit to ever be discovered in your long miserable life.    So, my LORD, my Savior, The LORD Jesus Christ,  told me to look at your fruit.  You bristled and made up the damnest lie.   Said we were your fruit.  That was a good one. Pure brilliance, a quick brilliant retort like that could come only from satan, your father.   That kind of stupidity and illiteracy can only be tolerated by the most anti-intellectual and also just as carnal and just as common.

Martha, you did, you were successful in creating lustful, carnal, selfish greedy imps much like yourself. Uncaring, unable to love, pathological liars, just like you.

You were a nasty, stanking promiscuous whore Martha.  I want the world to know.  I want men and women that insist on "freaking" to  know the consequences of such mentality.  Men, shun women that invite you into their beds with their children used as sex toys.

You will know.  Desolation is here.  Pray for salvation.  Seek it.  Shun all Mathy Janes, all lascivious, perverted reprobates, ESPECIALLY THE "ROOT WORKING" PREACHERS!

Pray.

PTL!

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"Is I'm right or is I'm wrong?"

Please love yourself fiercely!  Value your body, it is the temple of the Holy Ghost, do not defile it.

Do not have a nasty attitude because you think you are better than others.  Familiarize yourself with the concept of equality.  We are all equal, all the same.  None of us came to stay always.  Do leave a positive imprint of good deeds.

Please do not cause friends to have to lie or disremember at your home going .  

"Live by the sword, die by the sword."  I don't know what you always hated me for?  You were the evil , lying, lascivious reprobate.  I am proud to say that I never did you any wrong.  Not ever.  PTL!  That was GOD.

You treated me like I was "retarded".  It is a good thing I wasn't!  There in no telling what your despicable, immoral ass would have done.

I am just warning people, begging them to read their Bible, to discern low imps like you.  A lie is the first and best clue.  

"If you will lie, you will steal, if you will steal you will kill."  Martha Jane Walters put some flesh on those words.  Guess where I heard those words?  Her mother, my grandmother Rachel

PTL!

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Howlin' Wolf & Eric Clapton ~ ''Goin' Down Slow''&''I Want To Have A Wor...

We are all looking for the enemy in the wrong place.  Our greatest  enemy is not Isis or foreign terrorist .  Our enemies are home grown!  We can't go to the theatre, or to church!

Our schools did deliberately fail us, as well as our "churches".

You are still not forsaken.  Save yourself.  Think! Look! Consider! Pray! Study!

PTL!

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Please tell me

Please tell me that you are not as stupid as you pretend.

Growing up in the country I learned to be careful around animal excrement.  Shit was every where!  Chicken shit, dog shit, horse shit,  cow shit and even goat shit!

We never moved it or anything.  I do know that periodically granddaddy would clean his mule stable of  horse shit and put it around his plants.  The same for the chicken shit.  No, we all hated the very smell of hog shit,  so the hog pen was always strategically placed far away and down wind of the house.  Often near the family "outhouse."

One thing we were taught as children,  was not to  go stirring up "old shit".  It would refresh the smell.

So tell me, who are these people demanding to take down Stone Mountain, demanding to erase the entire legacy of the South without so much as a vote?    We all know that flag spectacle was for votes.

 Is the poor black man still the ignorant uneducated coon the carpetbaggers courted, exploited and re-enslaved on the sly?  As a matter of fact "they"  very slyly expanded slavery to include all of the masses, "they"  call  it "minimum wage" and a "fixed income".

Can you dumb muthafuckers vote on helping EVERYONE AT THE SAME TIME!?  Why are our seniors suffering?  Why are our youth being deliberately dumbed up and robbed of a quality education? Why are our children denied the opportunity to think critically?

I must say if I had known in my youth what a sweet pimp game all politicians are involved in, I may have been tempted.   I still could not exploit the ignorance of the masses,  however.  You see, I trust GOD to supply all of my needs.  I know the difference between cussing and cursing.

I also know that Jesus will fix it , one day.  That desolation comes as a whirlwind.  Every one will reap exactly what they sow.

So,  stand by your lie and hatred "Donald Trump-10-billion-dollar-lying ass".   All the money in the world can not bring you joy.   Will not remove your repugnance.  When you are ignorant, deliberately hateful and sadistic,  you are repugnant.

My poor ignorant sadistic mother got her jollies off of robbing, snatching, lying, molesting, raping and fake preaching for 87 years.  What did she get?  Nothing!  A bad name.

It is still Free Will.    Do just like you want.   Follow whom ever you want.  As for me and my house we will follow The LORD!

PTL!

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Jimi Hendrix - Have Mercy (RARE ... NEVER RELEASED)

Jimi Hendrix - Have Mercy (RARE ... NEVER RELEASED)

"Look well to your going"

Plan your life!  Don't live your life randomly.  Map out your destination.  I taught for 30 years and when it came to some students, most rarely had a realistic dream.

Sure you can be a rapper, provided you can rap, create lyrics and practice.  You are not going to be anything laying up on your ass getting high and fornicating all day.  As a matter of fact you will not find a partner willing to fornicate with you without some cash.

Your COLOR guarantees you nothing.  If you want something, earn it.  Stop trying to be a hustler and a crook.  Tom Joyner, "The Fly Jock", stop encouraging "players".  Most men do good to get one good woman in their life time.  Don't stir their simple easily lead imaginations into captivity.

"Whorisness", infidelity has ruined this world.

I know so many undeserving, unqualified "individuals" that got their jobs for , not laying  on their backs, but, for getting on their knees.  And I don't mean they got on their knees to pray.  They "preyed" alright.

No thanks.  I would rather stay in the classroom.  If you don't believe me, look at their fruit.  Twenty -two minute lunches. no hot water, soap or toilet paper.  Thousands upon thousands of innocent children herded onto busses daily to be delivered to some prison like structure in order to be warehoused and dumbed up.

Not true!?  Well why did they have to cheat so?  And why are they still cheating?

No one cares right now.  The world will care when theses deliberately manufactured , ignorant, illiterate vipers turn on the hand that feed them.

We see it now.  Most of us are not ready to call a "thing a thing".  It is not COLOR, RACE, GENDER, AGE or ECONOMIC STATUS!

It is CHARACTER!  All immoral people are liars .  All are rude and hostile.  All are bullies and segregationists.  They live by divide and conquer.  Very much like my wicked mother.  I was very hurt when she successfully threw me out of the family.

Now,  I am glad! glad! glad!  Glory! Glory!

PTL!

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"Say what you mean, mean what you say"

Martha: "It's a dog eat dog world and I'm the big dog."

Why didn't she just tell me that she was just another weak faith imp?  Why didn't she just admit that her intelligence quotient  was so low she deliberately chose to put her faith in dirt, actual real dirt, from some murdered man's grave,  for it's "power"?

You did not tell me because you knew you were wrong!  You knew you were an absolute lying, weak, impotent, corrupt imp for satan.  You know you loved your status; "yalla wench".  Martha you were still enslaved.  You volunteered to be the "yalla wench" in order to get more favors.

Well, it is called Free will.  You "willed" your life.  You went too far when you manipulated mine.  The Dear LORD kept me blind.  "Vanity is vexation of the spirit."  GOD sure demonstrated that through you.  No one could have loved and admired you more than you loved you.

Martha Jane Walters you were called here to put flesh on the WORD.  GOD called me here to explain it.

PTL!


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"Believe also on me …"

So, here we are in 2015, with evil spirits as ancient as time itself.  We do have foolish men and women visiting "two headed doctors".

 I don't know why my truth or truth telling is shrouded in so much secrecy.  You can't hide from GOD. I do understand your deep shame , however.  I have to laugh.  I see your dumb primitive -still-a-step-n-fetch-it-coon-slave-from- Gone With The Wind!"  I do understand why you demand strict secrecy. And I do fully understand why no one wants to tell on you.

But, it's true.  It is the real you, a modern day WITCHDOCTOR THAT PREACHED!

Some body is going to have to answer to somebody, eventually!

Don't you worry, you fake-wanna-be-"Christians",   got Jesus plastered on your lips,  #BLACKLIVES MATTER! ,  lying hypocritical,  whore mongering,  covetous , jealous haters, will get exactly what you deserve, NOTHING!  You do suffer with "crabs in a barrel " mentality.  You can't blame the white man for that.

We are engaged in Spiritual Warfare!  Race, Color, Gender, has absolutely nothing to do with it.    As  a matter  of fact, division, all division is created and orchestrated by the evil one.

Ranking, separating, planting seeds of hatred, all come directly from the evil one.

GOD told us in Proverbs that soft words turn away wrath.  I am sorry, I can not and will not,  come to your rescue,  when you knowingly cursed and deliberately antagonized  some Nazi caring a gun.

"Ladies", you just can't go out here and "lay up" with anything wearing pants and expect the law to make him a decent dad for your child.  You never cared about that child in the first place.  You are a stankin' 'ho and so is that low buzzard blowfly maggot of a man.

Making babies and demanding the whole world stop and provide for you.   Something has gone very wrong in the "Body of Christ".   America, we have groomed and developed a generation of vipers.  The lazy heifers "lay up" and don't prepare breakfast for their own children.

My mother was possibly one of the lowest whores that every lived, but, even she fixed us breakfast.

PTL!

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There is nothing like the country

Young parents with small children, move to the country,  if you can.   I started out in the rural south,  on my grandfather's farm,  in Wade Station, North Carolina.    Wonderful days!  The absolute best days of my entire life!

One thing for sure, we NEVER wore shoes in the summer.  Yes,  we stumped our toes and bruised our feet over and over,  but,  there was nothing like squishing that soft white hot baby powder fine  dust  between our toes,  as we walked back and froth from granddaddy's house to Aunt Maggie and Uncle Lee's.

Little would be "street urchins" blessed from humbled beginnings , blessed, put directly in the laps of "good, honest, country folk" as caregivers.  PTL!

I remember playing "Hide and Seek", "Goosey, Goosey Gander" and other childhood games,  but,  for some reason this activity stands out in my mind today.   Just for fun  we would walk gingerly in some one else's tracks, trying desperately not to stumbled, to smear the imprint.  I always looked for the biggest tracks.  Tracks that looked like human spatulas.

"Well, I guess you heard …";  I traced my mother's tracks. What I saw and finally understood will curl your hair!   Praise the LORD!  Dear LORD,  thank you for keeping me blind!

PTL!

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"Mercy, Mercy"

"Spoilers" are real.  Children do know there are women, mothers,  on this earth low enough to destroy entire families.  Not out of ignorance mind you, out of pure evil.  Out of an evil spirit that can be traced back to the LORD Jesus Christ.

GOD perceived the wicked jealousy lurking in Judas' heart.  He permitted him to act on it.  We all the know the  out come of that story.  It was Divine Order, preordained by GOD.

  My mother Martha Jane Walters  was possessed by an ancient evil spirit, something straight out of the Bible.  Something of cataclysmic proportions .  Something so unholy she ultimate MURDERED one of the best human beings to ever walk this earth.

She won.  Or did she?  Some of my fellow captives claim their terrifying fear causes them to remain stoically silent.  Personally, I think they are just as low and immoral as their mother.

Children, please do not remain as dumb and as blind as I did.  I just would not believe my own eyes, my own ears.   I refused to remember or dwell on my own personal experiences.  satan was my teacher and she only preached one sermon "honor thy mother…"

Martha was a horrible unrecognized monster but we always "knew".    We were always like that poor little skittish antelope trying to sip some water from the crocodile infested lake.  Every sound startled us.  Timid, frightened,  because life had done us so much wrong,  we (foolishly)  turned to our own mother.  Never knowing what a sick sadistic common wretch she truly was.

A "Spoiler".  She stole one brother's brilliant musical career.   Was a sly root working python that deliberately crushed that boy's spirit and heart.    Damn you to hell Martha Jane Walters!

  I am a mother.  GOD taught me about maternal love, something you never had.  We would have done better in life nourished on strychnine  by a real viper,  instead of a two legged one.

You destroyed my brother's medical career out of sheer jealousy.  Rot in hell you scummy bitch!

You came after me ravenously, destroyed all my writing, my art, my everything,  for 62 years.  The best and only good  thing  you ever did for me was give me your father, Jerome Walters.  A brilliant man that you pretended to love and admire , but secretly envied,  until you got jealous and attempted to destroy.   You did die falsely believing you successfully stole his good name , his mantle.  [ Talk about unworthy to untie someone's shoes! ]

 YOU DID IN FACT SUCCESSFULLY MURDER HIM!  What did you get?  Sure you stole his money, robbed his "other grandchildren", but what did you get?

"Live by the sword, die by the sword."  Live by lying, hating, "root working" , poisoning, ultimately destroying everything good, everything right and innocent,  everything that brings joy and demand to rest in peace.   Leave your broken "flying monkeys" here to defend your "good name", the false image you took 87 years to create.

Do that and see what you get!

Children, the methods of a "Spoiler" are always the same.  First they love and admire you, build you up mightily and purposefully, just to tear you down.    Jealous of your gifts,  they lust after them, try to copy, then they finally hate with a vengeance.

All "Spoilers" are bullies daring you to tell on them , to reveal one truth about them because their lives are much too disgusting to ever be believed.  Plus the "Spoiler" goes to great lengths to create a false  persona.

They preach fully hating GOD and all goodness with a passion.   We have no excuse.   Jesus told us these "RAVENOUS WOLVES IN SHEEP'S CLOTHING …" would invade our "churches".

GOD can NOT lie and it is time for ALL of us to pay attention!

#1 FEAR NO MAN!

#2 TIME CHANGES ALL THINGS!

#3 JESUS WILL FIX IT!

#4 PTL!

#5 I PRESS ON   ...

"Do what you ...

wanna …"  was generally granddaddy's retort as he turned abruptly on his heels, walking away, erectly and defiantly.  He never gave up or gave in.  He declared his wisdom and "fretted not".

"Fret not thyself because of evildoers, for soon they shall be cut down and wither as the herb."

That word must be taken in perspective.  My 64 year journey has taught me that my idea of "soon" and GOD's idea,  are not the same.  My evil mother is finally dead and I am having an hilarious time writing jokes about her.

My mother was hilarious!  You just didn't want her to be "your mother"  or to be her target.   There is not one thing my mother successfully did to me that GOD did not turn into a blessing, even her phony preaching.

Especially her phony preaching, that was indeed the best thing she did for me, that  and leaving me with Jerome and Rachel Walters for the formative years of my life.

She was such a lying phony,  all lying hypocrites disgust me.  Don't let me catch you in a lie.  Shun!  You are shunned, you are given the stank eye.  Don't let me catch your "fruit" stinking.

If Hate is in "it", GOD is not in "it".  If fear is in "it", GOD is not in "it".  If you have to tell lies or act a lie or threaten, GOD is not in "it".

ALL LIVES MATTER!  You can't fix or fixate on one human problem at a time.  You are disingenuous !  You are a liar and  a covetous hater.  THERE IS ONLY ONE RACE, THE HUMAN RACE!

Frankly,  I think far too many small minded imps use GOD as a cover.  My mother taught me one thing, she could not discern the Bible.  Not the simplest principle. I gladly wrote sermons for her, helped her get them from the Internet.

Ask the average person posting placards declaring #BLACKLIVESMATTER to explain their position eloquently, precisely.  They can't.  They are just like my mother.  They want the spotlight.  You can't work with them, ever.  Their secret envy destroys every thing.  First they admire you, then they try to copy you, pretty soon they hate you.

Don't serve satan, the evil one.

"Check yourself before you wreck yourself."

PTL!

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Brain Cancer!

I am not a medical doctor but I have discovered a very widespread, noncommunicable, very threatening disease, a type of Brain cancer.  It is malignant hatred, pretend love.  Be careful for it is viperous and can be implanted in every cell of your mind by an evil ,whorish,  manipulative mother that refuses repentance and bars her own children from salvation .

This type of Brain cancer occurs when a person's otherwise normal mental processes become corrupt and confused.   They actually become deadly.  Ladies and gentlemen, when you become something so repugnant, no one will so much as repeat your deeds, you have become an abomination!

satan, the evil one, wants every one to become an abomination.   Once you cross the line of committing incest and pedophilia , you have gone too far.    More than likely you will  remain an imp for satan.   That is why satan deliberately targets whorish women, women that no man would have as a wife or spouse.   [These  women are relegated to the bottom of decadence.  Freaks!   These women are so despicable they have to resort to WITCHCRAFT in order to "keep" a "spouse". That is why satan reduces that woman to something so common she destroys her own young on purpose.]

GOD said No!  If you say, "So what?"  "Who cares?", you are just as viperous.  And if  you think GOD doesn't care, doesn't love you, you are just as ignorant.

Jesus made a point of warning us about ruining, molesting, harming small children.    "Suffer the little children …"   suffer means let, permit!"    Your lame excuse: "Well somebody did it to me !";   is all the more reason to never become a monstrosity and turn over heaven and hell trying to escape punishment for  committing your filth because you like it.

Shame on you and all of the filth that support and justify you.

 Most are  permanently lost, deliberately blind, so shamed by the evil one.    I want every child of GOD that was led into captivity by their own mother or some other "trusting adult", to know,  you are forgiven,   finally forgive yourself.

You were a child, you were helpless.  It was your very carnal mother and her very carnal adult lovers that violated GOD's laws , then deliberately and cowardly tried to pin that shit on you.    No way!  "I am not going down in your ship"*


That's your fault.  You should have told me why you were repeating pearls of "wisdom" like; "I'wud take dat tuh my grave!"

Well you took it to your grave, now you are going to rot in hell for eternity!    Serves you right.  You were never that stupid, but,  you were that wicked.    I do thank GOD every day for you, for the Mathy Jane Experience.

Like most people I would have never bothered to call on the LORD.  I would have dismissed Him like most in this world.  Instead I am electrified by His Goodness,  Amazed daily, hourly,  by His Mercy!

I am still a little pissed.  You were much too vicious!  You were a savage!  A pure damn cannibal!   A monstrosity!  Bitch!   You never let up and You NEVER FUCKING LET ON!

GOD fixed your ass when He brought that boy back AFTER 25 YEARS!  "You thought you got away!? Didn't you!?  Should have read that Bible you paid so much money for, toted and fronted with.".  That sure fucked your shit up, didn't it?    Why you undercover slut!    GOD said No!

What time is it!?

Desolation time!

PTL!

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*thank you pastor Sammy for that great sermon

Walking on water ...

Rachel tried desperately to not grow bitter, to "wait on the LORD".

She was, yes,  she was very bitter or at the least,  in a critical state of excessive mourning.  Rachel was tired of crying.  Every day tears would flood her eyes, so much so her eyes were permanently puffy.

Everything was a trigger.  Most music, smells, seemingly normal every day activities could and would set Rachel off!  Wailing! Mourning! Lamenting!   Rachel suffered with severe bouts of depression, PTSD, anxiety.  Why?  MARTHA JANE WALTERS!

Every morning since 2005 Rachel got up thanking GOD for sparing her life and saving her from Martha's deepest most carnal secret sins.  "Praise the LORD! Praise the LORD!"  What a sick whore.  That slutty Mathy tried to con me with that "we need the money" shit.  That it was smart and a good hustle, shit.  That I should keep my mouth shut because she was my mother, shit.

"Well! Low stanking 'ho bitch!  If we are such great kin, why would YOU, my own mother try to prostitute me in the first place!? …You is a stankin' 'ho.  They don't come no lower.  You hit rock fucking bottom.  You are scum!  And if you think I am going to keep your lying, "root working" false preaching a secret just because I called you Mother, you better think again bitch!"

And all that think I'm a snitch, you can kiss my ass too!  You "no Bible reading" illiterate hypocrites!

Consider the source.  Do not let any one or anything think for you.  Do not be afraid to go against the grain.  Jesus told us that most would do wrong.  "Wide is the road that leads to death and destruction.  Narrow is the path of righteousness."  Few will do it.  Most will believe man and falsely believe they are missing out on something.

As an "asexual" I have one question for the sexual, if sex is so good and you can't live without it, why must you have "toys" and pornography, drugs, prescription and designer?

Is there the slight possibility you are doing something that you really don't want to do?  Are you , yourself, secretly ashamed of your sexual practices?  Would you proudly tell of the things you do in your bedroom?

So, old evil, sneaky, treacherous, viperous,  diseased ass,  Martha did deliberately ruin me, violated me severely as a small child, perhaps an infant.  Martha knew full well why I showed no interest in dating, in marrying.

Again, Divine Order.  I am fine with it.  "You can't miss what you can't measure."

Martha's Jezebel intention was to lead  ALL of us into shameful captivity , to involve us in deeds we would be terrified to reveal.  I saw her do that to her  many "husbands".  I witnessed it along with her "conjure hexes".    It worked but not in my case because GOD MAKETH NOT ASHAMED!

Give your life to Christ!  You will walk tall and proudly.  No man will hinder you.  GOD makes wise the simple.  Remember, if there is a lie in "it", fear in "it", jealousy and envy in "it, GOD is not in "it".

PTL!

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EPIPHANY!

You must practice critical thinking or perish.  "My people perish for lack of knowledge."  GOD knows most people will never take the time to sit down and read that book.  Too busy suffering, deliberately living life back asswards.

I taught social studies for 30 years and I can count the number of students that actually read.  Very few. Most would turn to the Review Questions I assigned and flip through the index looking for the answers.  Some students were so lazy they would aimlessly copy the entire page , they claimed contained the answer.

Very few of my students had the slightest intellectual curiosity.  It made my day extremely  long.  I was reduced to a zoo keeper, a warden.  The vipers far out numbered the decent students when I left the public school system  in '08.

Scholars was a term I insisted on using and THEY SCOFFED!

My mother actually thought she was smart enough to enslave me.  She did enslave me, but, it was not ever her superior intelligence.  It was terror.  Sheer terror.  She was a common beast.  She did do exactly what Jesus predicted.  She did wrap herself up in sheep's clothing.  She was ravenous.  She was insatiable.

satan comes for to steal, kill and destroy.  I don't care who you are, if you look closely are Martha Jane Walter's fruit; she was always stealing, bragging about killing and definitely destroying.

She did deliberately destroy my grandfather's good name.  She did it because he was right.  He had the audacity to tell her that we were nothing without Christ.  That simpleton set out to prove him wrong.  Set out to prove Almighty GOD wrong.  Did foolishly believe that she could gather dirt off of graves and gain "power".    (Pray  mightily for the ignorant still hiding among you.)   He knew she was nothing but a whore.    He never said anything, just gave her that "I know you are a whore" look.  She didn't like his "knowing".  I guess she wanted him to erase his mind like she did us.  "Don't you f***** think back! ******!".

The nerve of satan.  No one loved to quote the Bible more than my mother.  "Honor thy mother and father so thy days might be long on duh earf…"

She said that every day, all the time.  This Biblical knowledge from the mouth of a cold blooded MURDERER!

GOD said No!

This demon followed me around destroying my writing, my art, my clothes, my relationships.   (A stanking 'ho , just skulking and destroying .)   There may be many, many more Mathy Janes in the world.   I just want to make their sick treachery and destruction a little harder to pull off.  I do want people to know that there are some stank females on this earth that should be dropped in the middle of the  ocean with a millstone about their necks , just like Jesus said.

PTL!

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"Dem yo' germars! Ain't nobody got no bitness touchin' yo'germars but you!"

Dear LORD, thank you!  I know that it was you that spoke to Jerome Walters that morning while I was yet,  still,  an infant, a mere toddler.    For some reason granddaddy felt a need to pass that information on to us.

We were standing in  less than three inches of tipid water, being washed in his homemade lye soap with an actual torn rag, preparing for "Sunday-go-tuh-meetin'" ,   taking our traditional "Saturday night" bath.

The tub was galvanized steel, we called it a tin tub anyway.   When he finished, he cleaned it out and hung it back in it's proper place on the rough hand hewn wooden plank wall of  his screened- in back porch.

Again GOD.  His Divine Order.  satan runs nothing.  Mathy was always running her mouth, always lying.  She could not help it.  Precisely the reason I will not tolerate a liar or a whore in my life to this very day.

I feel sorry for any man or woman that has to bear the burden of a Mathy Jane.  I am not ashamed to admit that I watch 'First 48 Hours'  with an open mind.  No, I do not condone  murder.  But,  I do know some people will push you that far.  That is why we must pray daily.

Wear out your knee caps!   Pray!   satan is busy and women like my ignorant mother are far too fierce.  Get baptized!   Put your armor on!     Jesus is your anchor.  Get your anchor.  Make sure your anchor holds, grips a solid ROCK!

You are going to need Him!  We ALL need Him!  Every hour we need Him!  If you don't know how much you need Him, I feel sorry for you.  I pray for you.  I pray GOD wrap His loving protective arms around you the balance of your days.  

PTL!

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Touching the hem of His garment ...

I know that I am being made whole right now.  GOD is blessing me.  He keeps right on!

satan keeps right on cursing me.  It is alright.  satan can't win.  My ignorant heartless common "mother" could not win.  How she could live 87 years and remain completely lost, completely sold out to satan is simple to understand.  She could never stop lying.  Her mouth was cut to lie.  She was a pathological liar bent towards sadism.

No,  I don't like her.    If I am consumed with hating her right now,  please forgive me.  But I gave her 62 years worth of chances.  I forgave and forgave,  for 62 years!   So, please forgive me for being a little salty.  She tricked me with GOD.  I bought her act, hook, line and sinker!  Only to have that whore turn on me and become the real honest , sure enough common, common as bat shit, MONSTROSITY,   she always was!

Granddaddy should have "run her off", like Sug Avery in The Color Purple.  I would love to be around when this whore has to explain herself to GOD!  A stank low scummy viper always hollering; "Come git yo'beatin'!"  Never could find the courage she deliberately had no problem beating out of her many, many victims.

A woman that stood in the pulpit of Simon Temple A.M.E.Zion Church , telling her congregation that my grandfather, Jerome Walters,  could not wait on GOD!

GOD said No!

 You lying, stanking, gross, repugnant, repulsive, no mannered, GOD hating Whore!

Warning!  If you are a Mathy Jane, a low life root worker,  running around  trying, demanding to destroy GOD's children,  on the sly, YOU BETTER SIT DOWN!  You better do it now!

PTL!

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An open letter ...

to what is left of humanity in the year 2115.

Dear future human beings,

I am sorry that we left GOD's beautiful earth in such a mess.  I did try to warn them but I was utterly cast down.  "My people" said they did not want to know, said that I  made "my people" look bad.  No, not that ogre,  not that beast, that evil demonic lascivious reprobate,  allowed to run loose for 87 years!

 She died a pretend queen, with pretend mourners, all scared shitless by her demonic "power". (Secretly I know every last one of them was just as relieved and "freed",  as I was.)

Now, the world is all messed up!  Worse than Rome and Babylon ever dared to be.

Survivors, if you find this blog, translate it into as many languages as you can.  Print it!  Disseminate   it!   Pass the word.   Warn the world about the wrath to come, about the hidden incest , pedophilia cloaked in and by the church , a wide spread secret plague found  through out the world.

Warn them.  Warn the people of the dangers of anti-intellectualism, of greed, or carnal pleasure.  Warn of the cruel, coldness that is coming to over take the world.  A world suffocated by selfish, lying vipers that Preach!  Selfish, lying vipers that refuse to hear!

GOD said No!

That is unfair!

That is baby rape!

That makes you a MONSTROSITY!

That makes ALL SILENT OBSERVERS SOMETHING FAR WORSE!

DO PRAY!

COME JESUS!

PTL!

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"What am seen"

"Naw life anit fair but it sho' is fun.  You got tuh know yersef' though.  Day iz sum vipers out heah!  Ain't got no manners.  Don't leave'um 'round yo'chullun! Nevah!  At no time!  Not if  they be kin, specially if they be kin or sum kinda "step" daddy.   Keep yo'eyeballs on'um.  Whur dey at!? In duh Chuuuurch chile!   If you go tuh a church dat won't tell'you,  you aint in no real chuuuurch.  You jest playin' chuuuurch!    You bedder pay'ttention!  And teach yo'chile , yo'churin'tuh not let nobody touch dey germars.

I wuz two and my granddaddy taught me;" Heah, take dis rag and wash yer germars yo'sef…dem yo'germars and ain't nobody got no bitness touching them,  but you."

Praise GAWD Almighty!  I keep tryin' tuh tell you!

duh debil tol'me tuh shut up, I tol'dat no manmus mutha******* to shut dhu ****up! and I kicked duh simple lying azz mutha******* in hur mutha******** azz!

I sho'did!

PTL!

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"I can see you!"

Dear LORD I thank you for this journey called "Life".  I thank you for all of my unique experiences.  Thank you for this day!  Thank you for taking my blinders off, enabling me to see the monstrosity we inherited.

This world will be two hundred years catching up to Martha's abominable evil.  What a sick woman.  A reprobate, that knew full well she was a reprobate but demanded to be one.  Martha Jane Walters preferred to be a reprobate.  She had weak faith in GOD, in good, in all things innocent.

Martha was drawn to sin and wrong doing like a moth to a flame.  Lascivious!  I have no idea of the pleasure sexual activity gave Martha.  I know she always swore that there was nothing better than sex.  She reminded me of that a few years before she died.  (Horny at 80, LORD, help us!)

If we had a rewind button we all could go back and fix our lives.  There is no rewind button, only repentance and Martha cleverly avoided that word for 87 years.   It is so clear to me now, Martha burned, she suffered.   She was never free.   She did put on a very convincing act.   I was fooled!  Completely!  Thoroughly!  GOD sent my long lost brother back and , snap, snap, snap,  …the missing pieces of the dark puzzle fell neatly into place.  "Yo'might git by, but you won't git away!"  

Martha was a born criminal,  much too dishonest and gleefully cruel  to admit or face her problems through a psychiatrist or therapy,  she chose WITCHCRAFT!

WITCHCRAFT  and Preaching!  GOD said No!

My family's fall from grace can all be traced back to one single person; Martha Jane Walters.  Make sure you know GOD warned us about such evil.

For 62 years she was looking at me out of her "side eye", stalking, plotting and losing.  Yes, she was losing big time.  Having  to phony up her resumé with half lies while I thrived!   Magna Cum Laude,  writing. acting, teaching, winning, winning.

My mother taught me early that we lived in a predatory world and the only way to make it in this predatory racist world is to be worse.

GOD put Jerome Walters in my life to teach me different.    My grandfather was the polar opposite of his daughter.  She was a tough heifer, died cussing, cursing, lying and threatening with her "goofer dust".  "Good riddance!"

I only have one thing to say today; all those that choose to remain enslaved by a sick,  sadistic,  perverted monstrosity's name and image, go right ahead.

I'm free!

I'm testifying of the goodness of GOD , not only because He told me to, but because it is right.   It is decent, it is common courtesy.   I will not be common because the majority of people in this world are common and uncaring.   How dare I  get on my knees and beg GOD to bless me while I do nothing for others.  Nothing.  Nothing but criticize.  Nothing but hurt the already hurt.  My mother did not want me and did cleverly, coyly, eviscerate me for 62 years.

I wasn't enough.  The stank lying whore demanded to take every living soul she could with her.  No not me!  I jumped ship!  Bye!

Even if I am as dumb as she always declared me to be, I'm not dumb enough, nor broken enough to keep her a secret.  I tell on that woman voluntarily,  without forethought or malice,  so help me GOD!

Dear LORD, than you for  the privilege, for the honor!  Amen!

Do know the "cat is out of the bag.  I dun tol'it!"

Walking tall in my golden years, "Walking on air! Ain't touching ground no where!",  retired, don't hit a lick at a black snake.    Redeemed!    Proud that JEROME WALTERS was my grandfather, that GOD saved me, opened doors for me, stood me up, set   my feet on a ROCK to stay!

PTL!

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GOD should not get ...

a bad wrap, a tarnished image,  because of obvious Jesus pimps.  Your pastor wearing a blood red pin striped clown suit, complete with gold chain, red Fedora and red and white wing tip gators, should give you a clue.

Some people are thick and some are blind and GOD help the child born into that.

We all can still read and we all have limitations, a bottom line.   We all have a certain level of acceptance.  It is your choice.  I think a woman that puts up with a philandering man gets exactly what she deserves.

I am not judging you.  I am comparing myself to you.  I do have certain standards, certain limitations.  If I had not witnessed such low common whore mongering,  so often , perhaps I would be more tolerate.   I know for a fact; "Once a 'ho, always a 'ho!" "'ho s, love to 'ho"  That is why they are called 'ho s.

'Ho s should not hate on other women that choose to not be 'ho s.

Old women, we do need to save our daughters and granddaughters.  We should tell them and remind them that they have the keys to the "kingdom".  We should remind them to never do anything they are not comfortable doing and they might want to be very careful of where they put their mouth.

Good Christians are honest, they are real.  They do not pretend and most of all they know this war is Spiritual.  Good Christians do pray for one another.  Good Christians do love, do share.

All good Christians do proclaim the coming of the LORD!

Not one good Christian is afraid of satan, of the evil one.

GOD shares His vision with His children and we already know that we have won!

PTL!

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I always loved this man.  His music always gave me cause to keep living, to keep trying, to never kill myself or others.

I thank GOD for music.  I know for a fact, music has sustained my soul.  I do not like people that don't like music.  I centered every lesson I taught around music, for 30 years!  Students that complained about my music did not fare as well as they otherwise might have.

Students that were deliberately hateful to me,  suffered as well.  No, I never took anything from them.  But,  I never gave them any thing either.  Did I give them the "stank eye"?   I am sure I did.  I realize I was often immature on some level.  I felt that if you were dumb enough to say something very hateful, very vulgar and you were not a bright scholar,  I had no obligation to help you on your way.

I am tired of GOD taking a bad rap because of false preachers like my mother. I do not agree with keeping her secret.  I only regret my great courage came a little too late.  Perhaps that is a good thing.

I do trust GOD.  I do know that He has a Plan.  I know He created me for a Purpose and I am going to obey His voice no matter who gets offended.

Yes I am angry!  "I am hotter than fish grease!"  A grown man and  woman putting their filthy nasty hands on a child (their own child/children) and deliberately hiding behind a licence to preach!  Mocking GOD! Refusing to repent at 87 years old!  

GOD said No!  I will not uphold such a beast and I will  make a big deal out of i!  .  I'm retired,  I don't have to hit a lick at a black snake!  Every pervert and pedophile still in the AMEZion Church better look out.  As a matter of fact, time is out for every perverted pedophile on this earth!

Bow down satan!

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"When and where I enter"

is the title of a book I read many years ago.  It is a book on women's history.  All women have not been weak and docile.  Bottom line, I love the "attitude".  The tone , the intonation, is the same as mine, I AM THAT I AM !

I do believe I came here with that attitude.  While forced to submit to a terrifying demonic force and forces, I was fiercely independent on the inside.  I  was never one to articulate my every thought , I have always been a keen observer.  I am an elitist .  I do not like people that are obviously , woefully uneducated.  You have no excuse.  Libraries are free and we do have the Internet.

I do feel sorry for our world.  I know for a fact that far too many students being pushed out of out schools are at best functionally illiterate.  We may watch Jerry Springer and Steve Wilcos now, watching, being entertained and or shocked .

America will pay.  We all will pay.  We are paying now.  But, it is going to be far worse.  Beast! Pedophiles! Perverts and no one is helping the children.

Point?  No one will tell me what to think, how to think, what to say, when to say it or where to say it.  All relatives and friends that want to distance themselves from me because they claim to be offended by my message, my crusade,   you are a disingenuous LIAR!

The subject of pedophilia and my "language" upset you.  No, you are just another uncaring being.  Most people on this earth do NOT get blessed simply because they don't bless.

One of the last moments I spent with my mother (before I knew , I knew), she made me feel so sorry for her.  She was reminiscing about ;" …nevah haven' no friends … my mama tole me that I wud git some friends when I got to high school."

I am sure Martha had few friends.  She deserved few friends.  Martha was a sick psychopath, a malignant narcissist.  A monstrosity allowed to reign "for such a time as this."

That Book is real.  Study it!

PTL!

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"Look down that lonesome road"

Your road is going to be lonely.  You must walk it alone.  But don't walk it bullied and controlled by your ignorant demonic mother that never tired of tormenting you and NEVER  came to the truth or repentance.

Let me hurry up and tell you why GOD gave us that Book.  We need it!  We need it and we need Him!  If my tragic, extremely painful life demonstrates nothing to you, you can clearly see you need cover.  You need GOD's intervention. and guidance.

satan cheats!  S/he is a common low whore.

 "You done runt out dawthur …you can't sink no lower."   That is all Jerome Walters had to say on the matter.  There was no more that could be said.  I am sure , I was , at the most two years old.  I remember Mathy screaming, hollering, her innocence.

"Dey one thang' bout duh truf   …it will make you fighting mad or shouting' glad."

No one won that day.  Granddaddy knew who and what Martha was.  He knew there was no point in continuing to waste his breath on her.

"Nevah waste yo'breath on a fool   … or cast your pearls befo' swine …"

"You can lead a hoss to wadder, but you cain't make him drank …fools die 'fuh' won't of wisdom …well go on …do jest lak yo'wanna …it ain't gon' end well … I dun tole'cha."

My LORD! My LORD! Never in a million years did I expect my life to end up like this.  This is not the great honor and distinction I yearned for.    I knew though.    I knew all the miserable time.    I so hated being a fake.  Going places and my beautiful, charismatic "mother" introducing me proudly as her beautiful daughter.  I did love it.  Did I think it was fake?  Some time.  But I wanted it to be real so desperately, I went along.   Why, the very word MOTHER is an icon.  The title is sacred.  Do you want to die, quick, fast and in a hurry?  Talk about somebody's mother!  Even people playing the "dozens" steer clear of overly harsh "mother diss".

I know I am not the only person with an evil manipulative mother.  Too many people purely hate their mothers.  Too many bitches are too evil.  Too many women take advantage of being female.  My mother did.  She was a "lady" until she wanted to pulverize your ass.  The bitch became one demonic Hulk in less that 30 seconds.  Say the wrong thing!

I wonder how many other people in this world are just going along, playing along for the viewing public?

I couldn't do it in that "marriage".  Martha Jane Walters was enough of living with a fake, down low ******!  Plus, I knew that if I did not soon shed myself of this ignorant albatross, I was going to catch a case.  My daughter would never get to know me and my poor baby would fall in the hands f the dreaded Mathy Jane.

GOD intervened , saved me, saved us.  I still purely hate "fake Christians".  That "thang" lived in
church" too.  No wonder so many people doubt GOD.

Don't look for GOD in a building.  That is fellowship.  Find GOD in your heart.  If He is not there, pray for the indwelling.  And what ever you do, don't lie!  GOD DOES NOT LIE!  HE DOES NOT REQUIRE YOU TO LIE!  To clam, to dis-remember.

GOD told me to tell on this "stanking" 'ho!  The foul language is real.  If you think it is bad now, you should have heard me growing up.  I cursed in high school!  Why I was never sent to the office or reported was because my teachers always loved me, and apparently secretly agreed with what ever I was vulgarly venting about.

I was the same kind of teacher.  I would turn a blind eye to students I favored.  I was always so proud of my scholars.  Students that read, studied were still competitive.  Students that were aggressive learners, young philosophers.  Respectful but had big dreams and knew to respect and honor anyone trying to help them, from the janitor on up.

There were too many students that made me pray.  Vipers!  The vipers are here!  That was a viper that shot up the movie theatre in Louisiana last night.  The vipers are every where.  Don't live in this world unprotected.  PRAY!  

HONOR GOD! HONOR YOUR MAKER! PRAY!  DO NOT BLAME GOD FOR THE WORKERS OF INEQUITY! 

Study!  Show yourself approved!  "Come ye out from among them!"

PTL!

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"Praise GOD from whom all blessings flow"

I am sure, if pressed, I can recite every creed and doxology in the AMEZion "manuel".  No, I don't knock it, I love it.  I thank Almighty GOD,  that while my  mother was bent toward evil, she loved "Church".

I love "Church" and the Church to come.  There will be no more Mathy Jane Jezebels. There will be no more sneaky, whorish men and women mocking GOD and blocking blessings!   Martha's evil was too sadistic, far too severe to be discussed.  Ignorant family secrecy and deliberate misunderstanding of GOD's WORD kept her in our lives.  Plus, Mathy Jane, had to be.  GOD had to "Let" her "let" until she be taken out.

Martha's evil would take your breath away.  She would do things so shocking, so repulsive, so reprehensible, you never wanted to ever think about them again.  To speak of them would be agony, I always expected.  I just found not do it.  I could not bring certain images to my mind.  I went along.  I studied, I planned my get away.  I had know idea the sick whore would lure me back just for the sadistic fun of it.


"Naw ….can't be   …impossible"; I always rationalized her deeds.  Plus, I wasn't into getting assaulted, verbally and or physically.   Say "sumpt'in!"  Just say anything.  Roll your eyes, indicate that you disapproved of anything Mathy Jane did.  See if you were not soon suffering.

I am sure all of those starvation diets she cleverly "designed" had something to do with me, something I said.  I see now, while Martha carried a great masculine bravado persona, she was a coward.  Who can't tie up their already destroyed 12 year old son ,  beat him into a bloody pulp , then dare him to ever tell a living soul?

As children I guess we thought that meant she was tough,  one not to be messed with.  I know now she was the lowest coward that ever lived.  Martha lived the life of a low,  cowardly,  despicable,  human being.   She was beyond trifling.  There is no excuse because she knew.  Martha did not care!  She could not care because she was void of all morals, she never met a boundary she was bound to respect, that she would not deliberately, viciously and savagely cross! AND YOU WOULD NOT TELL ON HER!!!

Again, my blog is where I come to heal.  I do need healing.  GOD is healing me one cell at a time.  I am learning.  Demon possession is not only possible, it is prevalent.

Put your armor on children.  Pray!  Pray for the indwelling of GOD's Holy Spirit.  You need it.   Don't let the evil one talk you out of it.  satan doesn't play fair.  S/he does the unthinkable, all the time.

I am sure there are many people that just loved my mother, adored her and thought the world of her.  I know you did, because I did.   I did knowing her past, knowing her present.  I was still foolish enough to forgive her time after time, after time.

Martha was that good of a demon, that great of a liar, an actress, a phony "Christian".

I knew she MURDERED  my grandfather.  Yet, I went back to her lair after a 9 year hiatus.  Yes, I did con myself into believing she would apologize one day.

Yes, GOD sent me back because only GOD could know, what I didn't know.  What would have never crossed my mind.

Bow down satan.

PTL!

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"Call a thing, a thing"

Call what is, what it is!  My mother, Martha Jane Walters, was a perverted pedophile.  She was a lot of other things, but perverted pedophile,  stands out.   I have to be slightly amused.  Most people don't have the courage to read or think about a person like my mother.  What about us, what about me?  We had to live her, survive her!   But I  think all of it can be traced back to the fact that she was raped as a child and became a  pedophile.

She told me that she hated her mother for always beating her and accusing her of playing with her younger brother's "pee-pee".

A small child inappropriately touching another child is not entirely new.  How do we handle such a situation is new.    Beating is certainly not the answer.

Did my mother experience a great deal of brutality after her rape? Did this cause her to spiral out of control and end up the monstrosity she died as? I am mystified.   How do I know it actually happened?  Martha was such a liar.

I do not doubt that she was a child predator.  The three rapes she told me about and the fact she did smash a puppy.

If nothing else, a long exhaustive list of demonic deed, after demonic deed,  proves something was very wrong with Martha.

I have decided that I don't want too be included in a family that will deliberately keep such a creep a family secret.  A family willing to keep the likes of Martha  secret will not miss me.

Her church?  I can't go in there.  She told me, she said it, she told me what kind of people they were … I guess she didn't lie.  I do know that my Mathy Jane Experience has taught me a lot.  It sure taught me that my grandfather was right.

"Man does not do what is right.  Man does what is convenient."  

I am leaving all my blogs ,  when I am not around people can conveniently peruse them at their own leisure.   Finally accept the truth.   They can study my blog and trace the ravages of a complete psychopath.

"We didn't come here to stay always."  No, GOD called us here to do something for Him, for Kingdom building, then leave.  Leave a legacy worthy of study,  if not emulation.  Please don't  live, torment and just die!

Do repent of your sins.  Do pray.  Do seek GOD's face.

PTL!

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I believe in miracles

I think I melted away yesterday.  Just pure melted.  You could have poured me down any drain.  I'm still here, still doing what I have to do to "carry on".

I was sharing (very nonchalantly ) with someone I love and admire very much, the fact that GOD has been talking to me, leading and guiding me for 64 years.  I was shocked, actually dumbfounded when I heard her reaction;"I known you THINK you have been talking to GOD all these years." And laughed.

All I can say is; "What am seen, can't be denied."  I collected that from one of the volumes of slave narratives I've  read.  I read 48 volumes of slave narratives and black people treat and have treated me like I have leprosy.

There is only one race, THE HUMAN RACE!

I have not been mistreated on this earth because of the color of my skin, it's the only "valid" argument the evil one can come up with.

"Suffer the little children to come unto me.  Forbid them not the Kingdom of Heaven".  You put your nasty,  filthy,  perverted hands on  your own children.  Bragged that you  flushed FIVE innocent babies   down the toilet.  You were so no mannered and so much of a pushy terrorist bully, you demanded to PREACH!

You preached , you perverted, you refused to repent and now you left a lot of people here just as low and immoral as you were.

I do not care who you are, or where you are, to know a woman like my mother and continue to remain silent , is not GOD's will.  How do you expect GOd to bless you and you know satan had a serpent in the pulpit and you never opened your mouth?

You can't blame that on GOD or on white people.

I'm sorry, you don't have to shun me, I shun you.  I refuse to associate with people common enough to kept silent over the likes of Martha Jane Walters!

# BLACK LIVES MATTER!   And not one black person will so much as speak to me or discuss how my mother was able to pull off her great affront to GOD!

Every one is consciously silent.  Voodoo/ Witchcraft, rape, molestation, and pedophilia are subjects that are never to be discussed.  Just shut your mouth.  Heal yourself.  Pretend to be "normal".  "Just don't think about it."

That's right,   black America, let's not think about it.  Let's blame white people, white America,  for all of our problems.

I am so glad I found out in time, "color" was just a ruse.

PTL!

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His Grace and Mercy

I am so humbled, I feel faint.  At this precise moment I am as weak as water.  Amazed! Honored! Anointed! Appointed!  Praise the LORD!

It had to be GOD on my side.  Dear LORD,  thank you for the blinders.  Thank you for the antidote, the balm in Gilead.  "There is a balm in Gilead to save the sin sick heart."

An arrogant demon came to this earth and enslaved, massacred, butchered, destroyed, decimated  and enticed,  far too many into captivity.

There are two people on this earth that Martha Jane Walters should have kept her filthy talons off of; Jerome Walters and myself.

I see her diabolical secrets are still safely hidden and cloaked with others.  I won't!  That savage did me (us) too much wrong.  That lascivious demon laughed in my face, stabbed me in the back, repeatedly, for 62 years!  Robbed me blind.  Traded her miserable whorish life for mine,  knowing full well her sadistic deeds had left me a shell of a woman, a complete eunuch.

Martha knew.  Martha also knew,  I knew.  We both knew that we were both too weak to face the truth.  I think it was around 2005.  We were excited, elated.  My long lost brother had returned home after 25 years!

I assumed he just could not take her controlling him any more.  I had no idea what deep secrets lay buried.

 We were driving slowly down Highway #301 in Wade, North Carolina.  Reminiscing,  my "mother" was pointing out the house she was born in, laughing about that famous Miss Jody Cook.    For some reason, I insisted on visiting my grandfather's grave.  I was ashamed to admit it, I had never been back since we laid him to rest in 1979.

Martha always had an excuse for never wanting to visit his grave.  Mainly,  it was always too "grown up", the weeds and trees had taken over.  "Yo'cain' t git down in dere'"

I had been gone for too many years.  Plus,  I knew if I pressed her too hard , I was going to get the "treatment".  The silent treatment, the talked about to my face treatment,  called filthy names to my face and behind my back.  The withdrawal of phony love "treatment".

It wasn't worth it.  Granddaddy was still dead.  He wasn't going anywhere and I might have to remember that it was she, Martha Jane Walters MURDERED HER OWN DADDY!

Dear LORD, help me tell this story.  It was the eyes.  The same red glowing demonic eyes I saw when she held this three year old down in the woods cursing the life out of me.  I saw those same eyes when she brutally and savaged beat my naked twelve year old brother nearly to death.

I saw those eyes when I was raped!  I saw those same red hell fire glowing eyes when I caught her trying to deafen my newborn daughter.

GOD said NO!

Bow down satan!  Go straight back to hell , you cur!

PTL!

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"This bitter earth"

Tiny, little body nearly earth bound.  Little stubby legs, raggedy, in dirty "draws" I used to watch her.  Actually stare.  A little brown baby in this horrible, wicked world alone.  Well, not quite alone.  I had my granddaddy and that "no count" woman that claimed to be my mother.

I didn't know a lot at two but I knew this woman purely hated me.  Truthfully, I didn't think much of her either.  So, her deliberate failure to hug or comfort me was alright.

I was granddaddy's lap baby.  If he sat, I was there, climbing his long legs like a little monkey.  Do know the bitch begrudged me that, too.

Why am I telling?  I am proud!  What an awesome GOD I serve!  Look what my GOD saved me from!

PTL!

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"A sad and pathetic truth" ...

was the name of a poem I wrote in the late 70's.  I used to do "Poetry Slams" in little clubs and on the WRFG.  My "mother" picked at me, called me lame and weird.  I did it any way.

Botom line, my poem blames black people for the problems of black people.  I told the truth.  Martha!  You started sexually molesting, burning and branding your own children in infancy.  The fact that you got clean away is not impressive.  It is nothing your descendants should admire.  Martha Jane Walters!  You MURDERED your own father and I am the only living relative willing to reveal you.

I will succeed!

My "Sad and Pathetic Truth" was the most real "Poem" I ever wrote.  While heart breaking, it is true, every word.  I sit here barely whole, subsisting  on a "minimum wage" pension because I was blessed with an evil, ignorant, greedy, demonic mother.

A cursed family is mine, brothers still happy with crumbs, docile slaves every last one of them.  Human beings so degraded, so defeated by a MONSTROSITY , they think they are happy.

I don't know what happened, but, I reject The Mathy Jane Experience.  No,  low whorish woman is going to come to this earth, live the life Martha Jane Walters lived for 87 years, and just die!  No apology, no confession, no inheritance, no explanation, nothing!

Hell No!  This common slut left so many defeated, devastated bodies  strewn behind her it is indeed a HOLOCAUST!

"Can't tell on her!?"

GOD blessed me (us), saved me(us) and you think I'm not going to brag about it!?  Testify of the goodness of GOD!?  I have to!  I must!  GOD has been too good to me , I must  scream, I must  shout,   I must  praise Him!

My "mother" happened to be a black woman , but, I assure you,  the depth of her depravity had nothing to do with the color of her skin.

My story, my testimony is the best example of Spiritual Warfare you will ever find.

Dear LORD, thank you for my Mathy Jane Experience!

PTL!

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