It was "Social Studies" period. We all sat neatly in perfect straight rows, pretending to listen intently to this very porcelain white, overly freckled , fire red head, read aloud our history lesson.
We covered Slavery and the Civil War in less than two pages and half of one page was devoted to an illustration. I shall never forget that picture, rows and rows of black slaves bent over in a cotton field SINGING! According to the caption under the picture they were DOCILE!
DOCILE! Docile as in muthafucking domesticated! Domesticated like a cat or dog, perhaps a horse. Docile, a people without WILL! A people with no ambition other than to out serve the "white man".
I was only ten years old, it was 1961, black people couldn't do shit in AmericaKKKa! We couldn't eat or sleep ANYWHERE! Everywhere a person of color went , there was a "NO WELCOME" Sign or a WHITE ONLY sign.
I was considered lucky. I had been rescued from the cotton field by my old whorish, pussy-selling, pathological lying, jealous, perverted, sanctified, confused DELUSIONAL DEMON POSSESSED mother.
Not only was Mrs. Dubanette snow white, so was the entire class. Three other "colored" children attended classes with me but, they were no count. Just as docile, simple, obedient and dumb as any "field slave". The three muthafuckers could barely hold a pencil.
The author of our text seemed to be apologizing for the enslaver, declaring how well the "negro" was treated, how they ate "pork". Even I knew they ate "shitterlings", were beaten severely and were made to serve the white man's "god" and them only.
I was sick to death of this lesson and was reading ahead of my "slow class" when I overheard Mrs. Dubanette declaring "joy" and "appreciation" for me, on my behalf.
"Nee-grows all love Abraham Lincoln for freeing the SSSSLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAVVVEEEESSSS , isn't that right Gwendolyn!"
Bitch!!! You better be glad I was only ten years old, that it was 1961 and I wasn't strapped! I know now what I wanted to say to your ass bitch; If black people are so dumb, why forbid them from learning? Why were we held back, kept from learning anything worthwhile other than kissing your white crusty ass? If we are so lazy, why didn't you sorry muthafuckers pick your own cotton?
If we are so fucked up and undeserving, Why fuck with us? Just let us fuck ourselves up?
Because the whole thing is Spiritual, color has nothing to do with it. You jealous haters have not because you ask not. Your "faith" is fake, just something you say out of habit.
That old snow white slut was jealous, was shocked! Black, beautiful and brilliant! The old low-whore for satan was trying to take me down a peg or two.
GOD gives liberally, not according to skin color, gender or status. The Holy Spirt blesses us with Grace! "Grace touches Grace!"
Be well, be strong, be powerful. Be Fierce! Most of all be honest. Do NOT lie for liars! Do NOT honor dead demons like my mother.
REVERSE THE CURSE!
"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"