Marvin Gaye - What's Going On

Seriously, what is going on?

An orange orangutan may very well become our next President. Demons running to and fro destroying families, innocent children.  Our entire nation is hanging in the balances. The "American Way of Life" is in serious danger.   Most pastors are no more than greedy pimps, teachers underpaid baby sitters.

We are all mad,  pointing fingers at each other, blaming and dividing. Racist! Ethnocentric! Anti-intellectual!

The generation of vipers predicted to come,  are here, making our world miserable, daring any decent human being to attempt to stop them.

Perhaps it is time for the Rapture?

"Be ye also ready."

"Well! What the problem is?"

"Dear LORD help me!"

Prop me up on every leaning side.  Jesus you told me to know my truth and be set free.  My truth; my own mother was a filthy buzzard, a corrupt incestuous sadistic pedophile that delighted in tormenting me.

Help me LORD!  It took me over fifty years to gain the courage to so much as mention my savage rape at her hands and her buzzard husband.

Give me strength LORD! Not only was I savagely raped and severely sexually abused as a child , I was rejected by every one I know when I told!  That whore I was forced to call "mother"  never let up.  Never changed, waxed worse and worse with each passing day for eighty-seven years!

Dear LORD thank you for permitting Martha to trick me out of the State University of New York in Binghampton to attend Atlanta University where I researched voodoo and conjure and discovered my own mother between every page.

Thank you for permitting my mother to stalk me with her voodoo and sick manipulative lies for my entire life.  Thank you for her Flying Monkeys that still hate me for her. Thank you for keeping blinders on me so I  could not possibly  know, could  never imagine that my own mother would violate my precious body in search of demonic power.  Not one of us,  but both of us!

That is the rub, I told and am still telling.  That poor boy is hiding , silent, defeated, totally destroyed by his own mother,  unable to find the courage to admit his truth.  Help him LORD.

I found it Martha.  I found your illiterate primitive savage secret.  Some practitioners of the Occult believe taking the virginity of small innocent children will ensure them demonic power forever.  That was you Martha.

I don't blame you.  I would not repent for that shit either.  You are better off dying and going to hell.  Woman when you fell, YOU FELL!  Yes, I can kind of understand your deep secret hatred for me, for granddaddy, for every one not as immoral as you.  Yes, I know how your burned, raged, roared every time any one criticized you for your low morals.

But, preaching!?  Why? Just what did you think you were doing? I should not ask if you thought you were fooling GOD because you knew you weren't.   Was it an attempt to remain close to me, to us? Once we were grown and gone, out of your hair, why wasn't that enough?  Why did you have to keep stalking, tricking and lying? Why did you demand to control every one's life never having the ability to control your own?

No, I  am going to tell.  You have to be made known.  I refuse to keep you a secret. Alice Walker was hated for writing the Color Purple by many but,  that one book helped to save my life.  Later Alice exposed clitoral mutilation.  It is a disgusting subject but the fact Alice had enough courage to expose it in writing helped to bring about massive change.

That is what I want.  Raped babies, abused babies at the hands of their own mothers, this should not be.  No ordained minister should be involved up to her eyeballs in such filth.  No preacher should brag she is not repenting.   GOD said No!

Yes LORD,  let her rot and the racist horde that is just like her.  Let them all crowd up in churches pretending to speak in tongue while holding vile racism in their hearts.  Let them waste their time and money putting on a show pretending to love you so much while doing absolutely nothing for the innocent children they know full well are being violated.

Dear LORD, thank you for my stripes, my rejection, my crucifixion .  Help me to holdup LORD.  Hold me in Your arms  until my change comes.

In the Mighty Name of Jesus Christ Our LORD I pray.

OK

He has an excuse for not revealing his tax returns, now he wants to worm out of the debates because OF THE NFL FOOTBALL SCHEDULE!  My LORD from Zion!

"By hook or crook" was my mother's motto.  DT's also evidently.

Evil demon possessed people running to and fro seeking whom they shall destroy.  Our demon did not cast her eye far from her family.  While my mother did proudly brag to me before her death that it was she all along.  She bragged, she gloated suggesting that it was her superior intellect and my deep stupidity that kept me as her bitch for my entire life.

Not so Martha. I really had no idea such evil was even possible.  Plus you lied.  You were phony and disingenuous .  You were a snake, a VIPER!   There was not one evil demonic thing that you ever did to me that did not ultimately benefit me.  So , you proved your little "goofer dust" worked.  I lost three houses.  The first was in the "Hood", the second turned "Hood".  That area is now a murder zone.   The third is now "Hood".  That "husband" you ran off is not only "color struck" but "Gay".

So, I say thank you LORD.  You never loved me, pure hated me!  I say thank you LORD!  You convinced the vast majority of my family and friends to HATE  me, to HONOR you and to laugh as they scoffed and rebuked me.  My own brother ridiculed me on FB, my niece, my cousins, my family, my friends.  You laughed, you roared.  Yes, I cried but today I rejoice.

Any one foolish enough to love and honor a woman like you does not deserve to be in my life.

Praise the LORD!

"Come ye out from among them"

Some people don't believe in Christ, have no faith. For sixty-five long years the enemy has deliberately vexed and tortured me.  The fact that my greatest enemy was always my own mother is excruciatingly painful but GOD's grace and mercy have sustained me, kept me up, kept me going.

My horrible demonic mother caused me to lose three beautiful homes and five brothers. But, what I gained is priceless.

Praise the LORD!

I am no longer fooled.  I will not cast my pearls before swine.  I will not waste my breathe trying  to convince my blood kin of how horrible Martha was.  My brothers can look at the scars and burns on their bodies.  The ones that were sexually molested and raped know.  The brutalized and scorned know. Do know that you don't have to be ashamed.  Cast that shame on that low unrepentant fallen woman that birthed us and was determined to destroy us by any means necessary.

• WITCHCRAFT
• SEXUAL MOLESTATION
• RAPE
• BRUTAL BEATINGS
• STALKING
• SABOTAGE
• PLOTTING / DIGGING DITCHES
• FALSE PREACHING
• LYING/ MANIPULATING
• TRIANGULATING
• GAS LIGHTING
• MURDER! 

If I die and go to hell, if I perish,  it will not be for defending or cloaking the likes of MARTHA JANE WALTERS HODGES DOSTER WATSON LAMOUREAX!

Do not continue to  lie and deny for a dead demon.

"It is what it is"  family, "Come ye out from among them"  GOD's Grace and Mercy is sufficient for thee.

You don't have to have a Cain Spirit

I do blame my mother's Cain spirit on ignorance.
While she bragged about being so much lighter than I am, I really don't see much difference.  This picture was taken in 1975.  My mother was caring for me after major emergency surgery.  Our relationship was one of jealousy and love.  She was always jealous of me and I was always trying to win her love.

I understand.  Poor little raped Martha had been impregnated many , many times before I was born.  No,  she didn't want me, abandoned me, left me in a whore house and laughed about it.  Deliberately taunted me about that sensitive subject for sixty-two years.  That is what a fallen woman will do when she is sadistic.  Please do not wait or expect these people to change.  Don't think you can talk good sense into them either.

Don't worry, GOD has a reason for them, a purpose, a plan.  It is all in Divine Order.

I do believe GOD led me to this place , at this time to save innocent children. I do think we embarrass GOD mistreating and abusing children.  This must stop.  We have reached the point in this world when incest and pedophilia can no longer be ignored or hidden because most find the subject too repulsive to touch.

I must sound the alarm.  I can not quit.  When the evil doer is demonic enough , arrogant enough to secure a license to preach and live the life my mother lived , some body's got to stand up.  Some one must sacrifice their life, their happiness, their security and say something.  I say; "Lord send me."

GOD did permit Martha and her fellow perverts  to torture and attempt to ruin me "For such a time as this".  I am so privileged, surviving a malignant narcissist and learning so much from that experience I readily recognize the exact same characteristics of my mother in DT.

This world better be careful, cautious, heed GOD's warnings.  My mother turned us every which way but loose.  If DT gets in the White House it is over for this Civilization.

America, it is time to pray.  To live right, to stop lying and cloaking for demons.

Man, now I know ...

how the captured run-away slaves felt.  I know how Gabriel Prosser, Nat Turner and Denmark Vesey felt.  How John Brown felt, betrayed.  All these men lost their lives trying to free a bunch of worthless niggers, snitches.  Satisfied docile slaves.  Volunteer imps.  Crabs in a barrel determined to keep every crab in that barrel , making sure every crab suffer the exact same fate even if it requires the greatest con game imagined.

Don't say it can't happen, is not happening.   We see it every day.  Black people are killing and destroying other black people at an astronomical rate while fake black leaders are enraged about police brutality.  Of course I hate police brutality too.  I hate racism but I am not going to lie and pretend blacks are not culpable and do not participate greatly to our demise.

No greater traitor, dream destroyer was my mother.  The worse thing about her was her stealthiness, her ability to con and mesmerize.  You know she had to be satan's perfect demon in order to pull off her despicable life for eighty-seven years.

Do her victims know they were her victims? Yes! Well why do they remain silent, mum? Co-conspirators, human beings without natural affection also.  So called Christians of little faith.

What about her church?  What about it?  They would not even pray for her.  Ran off and left her in a ditch.

Why am I the only victim of this lecherous creep to speck up and reveal her?  Yes, she was a ball buster and I am not a man and I can not imagine revealing to the world that my own mother physically and sexually abused me from birth.  No, I will not criticize any one in that position.  I will continue to pray and fast for you.  I do pray that Almighty GOD will restore the manhood that beast stole from you.

Dear children be abundantly blessed today as you travel this road called life.  In the Mighty name of Jesus Christ our LORD I pray.

I did ask GOD

why was my mother so evil for so long? (HE) said because she always got away, was never punished. None of her bludgeoning, sexual assaults, stabbings, scaldings, burning, branding, out and out rape, attempted murders or murders, hatched plots, abandoned plots, lies and misdemeanors were ever punished and or assigned to her.

Martha was a brilliant demon, what ever mischief she did, no matter how dirty the deed she was always cunning enough to lay it at someone else's feet.

Martha really did think she was winning, was really delusional enough to think she had power.  She forgot "Whom the LORD loveth (HE) chastiseth ."

The fact that my mother deliberately committed so much evil in her life time, died without repenting or apologizing does not mean GOD was not with me, with us.  The demons that plagued my mother had GOD and the LORD Jesus Christ working overtime.  That is why we are still here, why I am able to tell this story.

Thank You Jesus!

Wrong can not be made right

Evil, shocking, sick acts should not be ignored. World please accept this post as a warning.  GOD told us that some of us would be imprisoned that we might be tested.  That we had to endure to the end.

Of course I'm deeply saddened when I visualize what might have been without my mother turning renegade demon.  Perhaps my medical doctor brother could have found a cure for cancer, my brilliant musician brother could have produced music to soothe this evil world, another Beethoven.

Perhaps I could have written the world's greatest master piece, a novel overshadowing Gone with the Wind. But,  a demon got up in our family and we could not rid ourselves of her pestilence because she was so evil, lying, manipulative, immoral, terrorizing, murderous  and she used WITCHCRAFT!

I will not lie.  I am very ashamed of my family, of my brothers, really all my kit and kin.  I can't help it, it is the truth.  My MOTHER MARTHA JANE WALTERS  HODGES DOSTER WATSON LAMOUREAUX  murdered my grandfather JEROME WALTERS  in 1979 and got clean away.  Very few ever suspected her.

How can you claim #Black Lives Matter when one of the greatest men that ever lived was mowed down, shot dead in the heart by his own daughter and you have never so much as nodded in agreement? How can that be?  How can you care more about murdered black men that you never met than a murdered member of your own family? Your argument is ridiculous.

• "We don't know for sure." You know that slut! You know her history.  
• "It ain't none of my business. I don't want to start nothing."  Believe me you didn't start it.  The evil engulfing our family started with the fall of man.
• I'm just going to praise the LORD verbally, to the excess.  I will impress others by attending church "religiously", never cussing, pretending to be pious.  I will even lie and pretend to tithe, pretend to love and care for others.
• "It happened so long ago, let's just forget it." The LORD Jesus Christ was crucified over two thousand years ago, why don't we forget that too, why don't we let that go?

The fact is we are spiritually blind.  Most people are man pleasers, liars and cowards.

"Come ye out from among them."

"GOD is good all the time!

All the time GOD is good!" The positive refrain I repeated in unison with the huge congregation  while attending a great church in Atlanta.  It was while sitting up in the balcony of this church that Jesus Christ spoke to me (again).  Sent me home.  GOD sent me back to my "mother".  I had escaped.  I had been free for nine years.  No, I didn't know exactly what I was free from.  I just knew I felt better  finally free from her lair and was doing a lot better financially and in my career.

I heard Jesus' voice.  I wasn't even shocked .  Jesus has talked to me directly many times in sixty-five years.  I do not care about any one doubting me because I know.

I know I was  eighteen when GOD  told me Martha was a witch that hated me , was trying to destroy me.  The humanness and political correctness  in me  helped me  talk myself out of such nonsense.  Plus Martha was good.  She could feed us a pot of week old pinto beans and have us complimenting her.  We had no rice, cornbread , meat or Cool-aid.  Just fucking half spoiled ass pinto beans.  We loaded them down in black pepper and hot sauce.  Said ; "Thanks Ma!"

After all we were riding around in a brand new Cadillac. What could be more important, a decent meal or profiling like we were some big shots?  We had to look good of course. And it was the greatest motivation I could ever get to study.  Yes, I was a scholar, as was my brother.  You didn't have to tell us twice.  We knew intellect, a college education , was our only ticket out.

What I did not know was how incredibly evil and treacherous my mother really was. We knew she would go off, stab or shoot you but , that insane jealously I thought was reserved for others.  No, Mathy hated every one.

Murdered her daddy.

Died swearing I was destroyed.

How sad.

We must break this curse!

Not only am I suffering under a generational curse, this  whole world is, "Man" is.  Lying and denying can't heal us. We all must "Man Up".  My fellow victims must come forward.  They must stop their suffering, at least the hemorrhaging.

I get it, I sure get it.  That deranged lunatic would not let us so much as complain knowing her damn stanking nasty ass was a pervert!  I'm so glad I told my granddaddy about those hot soapy enemas when I was four.  Sure, she hated me for telling, mocked and crucified me but the enemas stopped.

All people need to do more to protect children. GOD is not happy about the way we mistreat children.  "Suffer the little children to come unto me, forbid them not the Kingdom of Heaven."  When you sexually violate a child they are RUINED! Robbed of their innocence.

No one has the right to do that.  Martha was never that dumb or  that immature. She was that evil, that selfish, that maniacal, but never that stupid.   She was that hardheaded.  Her daddy begged her to stay off of graves.  He taught her better.  She was just WICKED!  Martha chose evil because she was evil.

I keep trying to excuse her, blaming her rape.  I was raped!  The difference , I was raped in secret.  She drugged me, had the decency to get me drunk.  I do think Mathy used me deliberately as bait to get a husband.  Then used me to keep him because she was not about to give up whoring. She knew that damn man she married was a pervert.  The very first thing he did was start molesting me at age five. She had something to do with it. How could she not? A pervert is a pervert!  That is why we call them perverted.  They are not "right".  Something is wrong with them.  Something was wrong with Martha. Her temper was unreal! Who ever heard of woman pure beating the dog shit out of her new husband when caught in fornication?

How many women willingly have sex in the front seat of their car while two of her children  are in the back seat?

How many women will threaten to beat the dog shit out of her children if they ever breathe a word to anyone about her true character? Is that why she held me down in the woods cursing me like a dog when I was THREE?  That is what she said, told me to stay out of her muthafucking business! I was three!

Why wasn't Martha ever arrested for assault and battery? I do think she was arrested for prostitution. I bet if I go through the Archives in Fayetteville I will find her arrest record.

Why was Martha so full of hatred? That was self hatred.  I am sure being raped at age eight caused a great deal of confusion. She was highly sexed.  Her family was quite inhibited.  Granddaddy was too modest to say the word pregnant as an old man.  He thought it a vulgar word, said "in family way" instead.

My mother tried to tell me the community rejected her.  Is that when and how she diverted her attention to witchcraft?  Witchcraft was prevalent in the slave community.  Blacks always used it against fellow slaves, rarely whites.  Look at my mother targeting her own family.  The sixty-five acres of land we lost was hers, ours.  Our failure was her failure.

Who wants the most of nothing?  Who wants to be the "Top of the bottom"? A damn imp, my mother.  A nigger. Niggers are real.  "Look at their fruit!" "Shun the very presence of evil."  Shun all niggers.  Imps, people with evil lying spirits.  Up preaching, unread, unprepared, entertaining, uncommitted, full of evil, jealousy, mischief. "From such stay away."

Any one keeping  the likes of Mathy  a secret is no Christian.  How can anyone know such a woman ever preached, every soiled GOD"s name and never say a word!?

"Come ye out from among them."

Why I'm pro-choice

A woman's right to choose should never be infringed.  Aborting babies is not new. The Romans used to leave  unwanted female babies on the steps of the temple to die or be enslaved.

I am in favor of the practice of abortion because my mother had five coat hanger abortions.  I am sure she suffered in excruciating pain. That has to be the reason she hated us so much.  For some reason she decided to deliver six of us.  She used to tell us that we should be glad that she didn't flush our sorry black asses down the toilet like she did the others.

Not so, they were spared.  The price we were forced to pay for being born to that albatross was not worth it.

My mother was a demonic succubus and we all would have been better off never seeing the light of day.  No child should be made to suffer at the hands of such a perverted sociopath.

We would not have been missed.  Very few have ever cared about our true misery.  If a woman doesn't want her baby, believe her and don't make her have it.  If a sick demented whore like my mother has a child or children, see about those children.  Mark her, keep your eye on that sneaky lying whore.

Don't let an eighty-seven year old demon crawl her sick perverted ass in a grave talking about she is the "Mother of the Church".

Bitch just gon' come here and ...

  torture the shit out of me on the sly. Dumb muthafucker! Dumb as FUCK!  Bitch you were so damn dumb, you worked roots, excelled in conjure and your dumb demonic ass still died broke.

You were  never more than a low whore always selling pussy.  Bitch! How did you get like that?  Was it because you were "light bright, damn near white"?  Did you turn whore because men paid you for your "precious body" ?  Did you really believe the color of  your skin made you better? More desirable? Some how blessed? Anointed?

Why were you so nasty? Children?  Little children? Boys? Your own sons?  Why did you have me raped ?  Why did you get me drunk first? I WAS EIGHT YEARS OLD!

I've concluded it was the witchcraft.  You did deliberately visit graves conjuring evil spirits.  I know that for a fact.  Didn't you know better? OK, you chose satan while pretending to love GOD.  Why? If your god was so great why didn't you just rely on evil?  Why were you double minded? Or were you? Did you ever mean one word you ever said, ever prayed?

Please let me backtrack and try to make some sense of our lives.  As a small child you hated your little brother.  Burned him severely and busted his skull open.  Your behavior as a child lends itself to the theory of demon spawn.  Martha you were  born a demon possessed child.  Were you really Jerome Walter's seed?  How could such a good man have such an awful daughter?

How could you just murder him?  How could you do the awful things you did and NEVER REPENT? 

The greatest consolation I have is that you and your kind were predicted to come  and Almighty GOD said you shall proceed no further.

Praise the LORD!

"In due time …"

Evil can't win.

Evil can't win, one plus one can never equal three.  How do I know? GOD said it! Told me when I was four years old.

Praise the LORD! So, this old lecherous, nasty  common carnal woman demanded to ruin me because I invaded her precious body.  Picked on me and tortured me and my five surviving brothers and entire family for my entire life.

Clapped her hands, squealed like a pig and went on and died and went straight to hell for being an unrepentant fake root working preacher.

Ruined me, mocked me while pretending to be my friend, my loving mother.  I don't believe Martha Jane Walters ever had one positive thought toward me or any one else, ever. Period. None. Nad-da. Never.   Not in her entire long life.

I was devastated when I thought I had lost my entire family due to the manipulation of that woman.    If you still love, admire or cloak for that woman, you are the one that lost.  You are not only woefully lacking in morals,  you are a coward.

I am in prayer, I am fasting for every one that truly loved Jerome Walters but  fear speaking up for him because of that woman.

Jerome Walters was a MURDERED  Christian.  Martyred, crucified for his love of Christ Jesus.  His enemy was in his own household just like Jesus said.  I will not turn my back on my grandfather.  I will not let some demonic whore's lie live forever.

Evil can not win if true Christ lovers refuse to be intimidated, ruled by satan.

Stupid Martha just swore she was winning, that she won.  GOD was just merciful, let her get in a grave before she could be fully exposed.  She still didn't win and Jerome Walters did not lose.  I am prouder of my grandfather today than I have ever been.  Unlike me,  he knew the true nature of his daughter. I am sure he was not in the least surprised when she shot him in the heart.  He would be the first to forgive her,  that is why he always taught me; "Don't worry daughter, Jesus will fix it."

I almost missed my blessing ...

Raging with anger against my demonic mother for mocking me when I was seeking comfort for my rape and molestation.  Not only did she cuss me out for having the nerve to bother her about my  pain, my humiliation at her hands, told me not to piss on her grave when she was dead.

I fell for it, lock, stock and barrel. I roared, I cried, I screamed,  tormented by grief.  A murdered grandfather and no one ever caring except for one other cousin.  It still breaks my heart, . My grandfather, Jerome Walters was a good man.   Left of legacy of love and helping every one he could.  No one had to stand up and lie for my grandfather at his funeral.

Five dead, flushed siblings. Tortured, starved, molested, raped, robbed, humiliated, sabotaged , drug through the mud and thoroughly hated.  That's my mother's legacy, her truth.

What did you hate me for?  You were the nasty whore! You committed incest!  You were the one "hooking up " with strange men in the SIXTIES!  Martha you were a pioneer whore! You were "Tinder" before the internet!  You were "Miss Cleo" first. You  introduced Fayetteville to Tarot card reading.

I was so angry that I permitted you to mistreat and torture me for my entire life, that I forgave you for everything and you turned around and mocked me!  Laughed in my face swearing that you had single handedly defeated Almighty GOD with your feeble voodoo.

I am a walking talking miracle!  Martha how many times did you attempt to kill me and fail?  I know about tricking me into driving a car without brakes for an entire year.  Sure, I know all about the rape and sexual molestation you orchestrated .  But, what evil did you do that I didn't discover?

How many times did you try to poison me, us? I know you knew the power of your tongue yet you used it against all of us daily without fail. "He gon' lose that house!" .  What were you really thinking when you were declaring your undying love and deep admiration?

A ravenous wolf! Nothing but a legion of demons hiding behind pearly  white teeth, a winning smile and "warm fuzzy love".  LIAR! LIAR! LIAR!

A pure imp screaming; "GOD said a LIAR wudden tarry in hiz sight!" Knowing full well you were lying and putting on the entire time!

Martha you didn't win.  No one believes you loved GOD, were a real preacher or a virtuous woman. You were a low stank whore and I am very glad you are dead.  "Death to all tyrants."

You lived eighty-seven years smearing and destroying every one you believed to be good.  You hated all righteousness just like the Bible says.

No, Martha you will not rob me one more time.  I will not miss Christ Jesus fooling with your demonic ass.  I will continue to pray and fast and thank Almighty GOD for delivering me from the likes of you.

Rot imp!

How in the world?

How in the world do I have the audacity to be shocked by DT's popularity?  Didn't I just survive the wickedest, most  demonic fallen woman that ever lived?

Why can't the majority of "Americans" be fooled, I was fooled for sixty-two years?  Didn't I love my  mother?  Didn't I shower her with gifts? Forgive her for abuse after abuse.  Didn't I pretend I didn't know she was in on my molestation and rape?  Didn't I remain clueless?

Wasn't I silent concerning her brutality and witchcraft?  Wasn't I dumb enough to believe that one day Martha Jane Walters was going to wake up and be the good person she always pretended to be?

Wasn't I proud  to sit up in church listening to her preach?  Didn't I stroke her ego every day telling her how much I  loved her, how beautiful she was, how kind and loving?  Didn't I just go ahead and pretend with the rest of my family that she didn't murder her own father?

Didn't I forgive her after forty-six years of terrifying abuse?  Didn't I turn my head in ignorance when I caught her red handed trying to deafen my newborn baby?

Didn't I witness one cruel act after another? Why didn't I know how much she really hated my grandfather? Me? All of us?

I had not read or comprehended 2 Timothy3:1-7.  Now I get it, I really get it.

Don't worry, evil can't win and the evil doer shall proceed no further.

Arrogance!

I am sitting here thanking GOD for saving me, for sparing my life from that awful succubus I called mother.

Arrogant! Just evil! My mother's body language was always arrogant.  No matter what Martha did, she always walked away arrogantly,  angry with her victims as if we made her do what ever foul act she had just committed.

I shall never forget her behavior when she tried to pimp me out to her husband at fourteen.  Luckily for me Martha decided to get her husband drunk before she sent him into my room with his "manhood" rock hard in his hand.  He nudged me with it.  Shoulder, face, I'm not sure.  I know I was blasted out of my sleep.  I know I went running and screaming to my mother.  I know she looked shocked.  I know she faked a fight , caused such a commotion in the motel  her husband was arrested.

No,  he wasn't arrested for attempted rape or molestation.  No, she didn't tell the military police either.  What she did do was almost beat the military police to the jail bailing his perverted ass out.  I will never forget her confident "flat ass" walk.

For eighty-seven years Martha's walk never changed.  Back straight, gait steady .  It is as if Martha knew, just knew GOD would never help me, would never rescue my "too black" ass from her treachery.

I certainly understand Martha's confidence.  I can recall all the blood, the brutal beatings and not one day of punishment or rebuke for Martha.  Talk about a "teflon don", Martha was a teflon demon.

Martha shot her own father in the heart.  Shot him with the same gun used to murder her brother on the anniversary of his death, February 10, 1939.  The evil demons that plagued Martha, that crawled all over her decided to take Jerome Walters' life February 10, 1979.

Evil can't win.  Any one, any kin that prefer that woman to me, you are not my friend.  Sure, we may be kin but I refuse to fear a dead demon.  I  refuse to lie and say I love or miss her.  I will not so much as say R.I.P. because that is a lie.  I do not wish her any peace.  She does not deserve any peace.

I refuse to search my mind trying to find some reason to love and forgive her.  I would rather warn people of such evil.  When people read the words "ravenous wolf" I want them to have Martha Jane Walters as a reference.

Arrogant! Full of false pride.  Full of demonic evil with no more manners and respect for GOD than to Preach!

Martha Jane Walters was never more than a vile troll that lived for eighty-seven years lying, faking and working witchcraft.  It is alright; "they shall proceed no further."

"Come ye out from among them."

Suddenly old.  No, I don't mind being old, it is the "suddenly old" that bothers me.  The last time I looked I was a fine forty-five, doing pretty well I thought.  Life was not perfect but I was living in a beautiful condo and life was pretty grand for a person of my humble beginnings.

I decided to forgive my mother for the filthy fecal matter smeared letter she sent me and I felt GOD tell me to not worry about her taking my grandfather's life.  She was preaching now, an ordained minister.  People called me long distance to encourage me to forgive my mother , to leave all of her mistreatment in the past.

I certainly understand few having any comprehension of my mother's evil.   I lived it and didn't get it.  Believe me, the blinders were on,  held on tightly by hope and desire.

What did I hope for? A real mother, a real genuine loving relationship in a good family.  I wanted what every one else had, or said they had.  Yes, I wanted the brick house, the white picket fence, a loving spouse, enough money to live grand.

No such luck for my life.  I woke up in the clutches of a damn PERVERT.  No regular run of the mill pervert either.  This bitch was brilliant.  Why didn't I know? I was four , watched her beat the pure dog shit out of her brand new husband.  They were still "newly weds". She was in the front seat of his brand new car fornicating while we sat in the back seat.

When I think about it now I know we had no business there.  I love you granddaddy, but you should have never released us into the care of that whore.  We were covered though.  You covered us with your fervent prayers and GOD did the best (HE) could.

Truthfully it was just too long.  The entire Walters family was forced to suffer far too long.  Martha's evil was never necessary. Her evil was her choice.  True,  she was raped as a child but to turn into such a savage secret demon was never called for.  Evil was Martha's choice.  She was delusional and she did die thinking she was more powerful than Almighty GOD.

She died bragging,  celebrating all the vile deeds she got away with.  Always grinning in our faces while stabbing us in the back.  Sure, she always encouraged us to go to college, just never gave us a red cent and managed to sabotage every effort to earn a scholarship.

What destroyed Martha? Jealousy.  Insane jealousy.  She had a Cain spirit that she always denied, lied about,  for cover while engaging in the demonic witchcraft. Destroy! Lie! Fake! Steal! Mutilate! Humiliate! Strangle! Bludgeon! Make them call you "Reverend".  My mother belonged to satan!  If any fallen woman was ever satan's whore,  it was my mother.

Jesus told us we shall know them by their fruit.  Incest, pedophilia, rape,witchcraft, murder, a simple sample of my mother's fruit.  But, she didn't get me! I am not destroyed! Now that I finally know my truth I am getting better every day!

Praise the LORD!

"Come by here LORD ...

somebody needs you." That was my grandfather's prayer.  He used it sparingly. My grandfather wasn't the kind of man that talked much.  He only talked when he had something to say.  But, when he said something it was something worth while, honest, encouraging, supportive, definitive, the truth.

What granddaddy didn't do was "snitch", that is tell us what was wrong with his daughter.  She was one damn fool.  Always fighting, cussing, getting sloppy drunk, attacking someone viciously and always playing the victim.

The worse commet my grandfather ever made about my mother was calling her a "lion".  "When your head is in the lion's mouth, you don't make any sudden moves!"    Unfortunately for me I needed hard evidence.  Evidence harder than her unrelenting mistreatment and torture because in between starving, humiliating, molesting and degrading us she was pumping us up with compliments.  With declarations of her undying love and promises of great gifts of money and things.  Always hinting that she was changing for the better.

No such thing.  As it turned out little raped Mathy Jane turned monster, turned violent rapist herself.  Martha was a pervert.  Undoubtedly the entire family blamed her rape for her extremely low morals and tremendous promiscuity.  No one talked about it.  We just tipped around and let Mathy have her way.

I was eleven and we were living on the campus of Fayetteville State Teachers College.  It was a huge white frame cottage, surrounded by trees on a dirt road.  My mother's second husband was transferred to Germany and my mother was preparing  us to go.  At least that is what she said.

That lying whorish Mathy knew her damn lying nymphomaniac ass was lying.   she never intended to follow that "black ape" any where.   She was just using him, demanding his check.  I'm mad because she made us take the entire battery of shots, vaccinations mandated by the Army just to fool her foolish husband.  Yes, Martha knew she was married to a jet black fool that worshipped her for her "whiteness".

My mother milked her "whiteness" too.  She made a lot of money off of men that lusted after white skin but didn't want to end up like Emmit Till.

My mother set up her own little "den of iniquity"  in the back bedroom.  Unfortunately for my brother it was his room.  Martha would cruise Vick's Drive In by night profiling in her husband's  power blue convertible Bonneville Pontiac.  It was her "young soldier"  magnet .  Martha would bring those young men home regularly, slip them in the back door.  I was very young but even I caught on to what my mother was up to when she made me clean up her "cum towels" and Emko bottles.  ( A spermicide)

I always wondered why granddaddy deliberately ignored this practice.  It makes sense now.  Martha gave her entire family hell with her promiscuity .  She started having sex at eight and never stopped.  Not only was she extremely whorish, extremely violent and explosive if you objected.  Say something! Give her the side eye.  See if you didn't get cussed out, jumped on and "rooted".

I'm not nearly as upset as I was when I realized how my own mother deliberately tried to ruin me for sixty-two years when I acknowledge that Mathy was stuck.  She never matured pass the immature selfish little girl that was violently raped.  Poor Martha died a twelve year old at age eighty-seven.  How sad.  All because of pride, all because she could never find the courage to stop lying.

Martha was a pervert.  She knew it, I'm sure that is why she always deliberately mispronounced it .  In referring to her second husband she always called him  a pre-vert, not pervert.  No matter.  They both were buzzards,  She was about six years older than he was , so I am very sure he molested us at her request or demand.

If Martha were here now I would remind her "GOD maketh not ashamed."  satan makes ashamed!  Look at the life Martha lived!  Served satan is secret and messed up her life beyond redemption.

So, LORD , I am praying my grandfather's prayer in earnest; "Come by here LORD, somebody needs you."

"You're going to need somebody …"

"No man is an island, no man stands alone." You are going to need somebody.  We all need love,  to love, to be loved and to give love.  Real love, not that artificial bullshit my mother slung.

Don't forgive me, pray for me if possible.  It looks like I am the "Lone Teller".  My evil despicable mother lived for eighty-seven years kicking up dust, lying, fornicating, committing adultery, incest, pedophilia, root working, assault and battery, breaking and entering, making terroristic threats , MURDER and preaching.

So, don't forgive me if you think I'm confused.  No doubt I am but, I'm not lying.  I'm just trying to heal. Praying and fasting, reading, studying and thanking GOD for finally taking that "thang" off this earth.

Get the rest of them GOD!  Snatch their robes off.  Expose these no-mannered imps up in Your pulpit lying! No shame!  No visible shame.  They seem very confident, sound outstanding.  But, You know.  They know You know too,  that's why they are trying so hard to get in a grave before they get discovered.

They also hope the color of their skin will keep them off the radar screen.  But, here comes #Black Lives Matter.  If #Black Lives Matter so much why do blacks mistreat other blacks more than their own perceived enemies? Black self hatred.

Yes, Black self hatred is real.  I'm living proof.  Black people do not care about black people! Bullshit! We don't trust each other, we don't like each other.  I've been black for over sixty-fiveyears and I don't like the muthafuckers!  Yes, there are some good ones, mighty few though.

Again, it is not color or race, it is spiritual.  Imps like my mother cleverly hide behind color to do their evil.

Do like Jesus told you, "Look at their fruit!"

My mother was raped and ruined by age eight.  She became a beast but was kept a secret out of fear.  What could we have feared that was worse than she was? The truth.  Was knowing the truth about Martha worse than struggling, living in sheer terror  trying to escape the clutches of this creep every day for decades?

No.  Finally knowing, finally gaining some understanding of who and what my mother was brings me joy.  Jesus told me to know my truth, to be set free.  So, my truth, my mother was a brilliant little ingenue raped and totally ruined by age eight, turned demon and remained a raving demon for eighty-seven years.

I'm multi-talented  because my mother was multi-talented.  I too am clairvoyant, as was my mother and grandmother.  I choose not to use my gifts for satan.  I  must call victims and men and women like my mother to Christ.  Stop your evil!

Forget being a perfect Christian that doesn't curse, drink or sin.  That should not be your focus or your struggle.  Live righteously ,  love fiercely , save children.

I have great compassion for all children because a few good men and women had compassion on me.  Yes, my perverted mother and her perverted men tried their damnest to destroy me early in life. It didn't work, it backfired. Yes, I was born into the demonic clutches of a false preacher but, I still got the Word.  Found about about GOD's Divine Order, counted my many blessings and am finally moving on.

Praise the LORD.

"He said, she said"

This world is messed up.  "Wars and rumors of wars", we know, we all complain.  We try, well some of us try to co-exist on this planet.   Some were planted here to cause misery, havoc, confusion. "You will know them by their fruit."  We have never done a good job of keeping  evil under control.  The main reason is our collective ignorance and fear.  Learned docility, mental numbness.

  Man is by nature extremely cruel, inhumane.  Yet we get up daily looking forward to the struggle.  We struggle through the birth canal only to be born to keep up the  struggle for the rest of our natural lives.  The unfortunate truth, the darker your skin, the greater your struggle.

While I understand the mission of #Black Lives Matter it is very disingenuous. We must clean up our own homes first.  Self-hatred has the black community by the "balls".  How can black people expect to compete, to thrive in a racist world when we are in fact racist?

No one ever hated black people more than my own  mother! Not only did she hate us, worked feverishly against us! My brother over came her incest, pedophilia, many brutal beatings and rapes and did become a medical doctor.  For what?  The stanking slut shut down his practise.  My brother was the first black doctor to have an office on prestigious Owen Drive in Fayetteville, North Carolina and his own nasty incestuous jealous mother ran him out of town!

We can't blame that on white racist.  That was our mother.  She was always a ravenous jealous sneaky slut that demanded we keep her a secret.  I WILL NOT! I'm telling every thing I know on that heartless whore! "Root working" nasty imp!

My mother was inhumane.  I'm sitting here thanking GOD that I'm not in a straight jacket , in the grave or foaming at the mouth while rubbing shit in my hair.

That is what my mother wanted.  She hated!   Martha Jane Walters was born October 9, 1925 and hated , pure  hated every one and everything non-white with a vengeance.  Was a closet freak , did more damage in eighty-seven years than can ever be calculated.

Far too many people are wasting their time fighting a race war.  It is not race, it's spirit.  My mother was a pure demon.  She was legion.  When your mother is so evil that you would rather just suffer than reveal her, your mother was Martha Jane Walters!

No greater evil has ever crawled on this earth! For sixty-two years she complained to my face; "You're BLACK! YOU'RE TOO BLACK!"    

My mother was always so proud of her color, her hair that she never grew as a human being.  She should have been because that is all she ever had going once you realized what a promiscuous nymphomaniac slut she was.  I do believe my mother purely loved being a whore of the prostitute variety.  She bragged about it enough.  But, why preach?  And most of all why hate?

My mother preached for cover, pure hated GOD and all righteousness.  Put on a mask so that she could get up close on you to chunk some of her "dust" on you.  In her entire eighty-seven years I don't think anything pleased my mother more than harming me . Harming me in secret of course.   I'm sure she enjoyed my bewilderment.  Just like she did her lovers, her men.  At eight-seven Martha was still collecting checks, swindling, taking advantage of any and all that fell for her sweet siren, her put on performance.

No, family Martha was not any thing like the "mother of the church" she pretended to be. I'm laughing because I know she is somewhere laughing.  Martha was a BULLDAGGER! Hated all men, all women.  Martha was a closet HATER!

The idiots still love her,  or think they do.  I know my brothers will not let me say one word against their "mother".  You can say anything about my granddaddy, the one she murdered.  The one that acquired sixty-five acres of prime farmland, a home, a man made lake, orchards, vineyards.  They are still blind and refuse to recognize Jerome Walters was in covenant with GOD. That he was a righteous man that prayed fervently for his family.

Martha Jane Walters came here and destroyed everything my grandfather built, molded and shaped with his hands, his intellect, with his righteous spirit.  She died laughing foolishly believing I was utterly destroyed by her.  No such thing.  It is all in Divine Order.  I will publish!  I will get my book, my movie.

Conflicted, confused, delusional,   the price my mother had to pay for becoming a witch, a "root doctor" a soothe sayer, a conjurer  and a PREACHER! .  Don't do both.  Don't ever be "double minded".  "Be ye hot or cold, or get spewed."

No, there is absolutely no excuse what so ever for my mother being the horrible hideous person she proved to be.  There is no excuse for any one to defend her or attempt to cloak for a dead demon.

"Come ye out from among them."

I'm so glad I'm not as fat I as I used to be.

For my entire life my own mother made me feel so bad for being a hopeless loser, told I wasn't shit.  Little did I know that it was not me, it was her.  Unable to tell the truth about anything. Sexually natured like a man she chose she hate me.

Yes, my own mother gutted me like a fish.  I'm healing.  Perhaps much too slowly for most but, I'm getting there.  I will get to the Promised Land.  No, not on man's time table, on GOD's.

People may poo-poo what that slut did to me and never care because of the color of my skin or lack of finances but I know GOD views me the same as my fellow man.  If my own mother was racist enough to think she could and should  destroy her entire family because she was damn near white , that is her ignorant loss.

If I married a man that declared my skin too black for him, that's his loss.

Hold on   …I'm coming.  I'm healing, losing weight, enjoying my Golden years.

Praying and fasting, knowing GOD is fixing it.

PTL!

"Hold on"

"I feel good!"

I love James Brown , one very underrated genius.  What if James Brown got paid what he was worth? We brag about Bill Gates, the FB man, even Donald Trump.  What if James Brown got the money he deserved for his brilliant creativity?

I consider DT to be a very fortunate white man.  An accident of birth put him in the "right" place.  He reminds me of my "mother", just as damn ignorant and lying.

So!?  How many beds can you sleep in ? How many houses can you live in? So he has more money than most people can spell?  He can't take it with him! Shit! He got to die just like I do!  And guess what …  his shit stank too.

He is equal to me and every body else in GOD's eyes.  GOD is no respecter of man.  He is a trickster.  So!? He can't win.  No, he can become President.  But …he can't defeat GOD.  So?

My "mother" foolishly did every thing evil she could in her youth.  When she woke up she was repulsive, couldn't stand herself.  Was deeply and secretly ashamed of herself.  Never enough to change though.  Much too delusional.  Martha was just too full of con to ever go straight.  Plus,  know when to give up.

Granddaddy told me to give up when I was eighteen. "Leave heah and don't nevah come back!"  GOD even told me.  I did the best I could to escape Martha.  I am human and I had no one.  Terrifying fear kept me tethered to her. She murdered my grandfather.  But,  one day I had my daughter. Found out what real maternal love really is.  Praise the LORD! One beautiful brilliant child that has brought me nothing but joy!

Yes, my own mother was a demon, a witch and she did secretly torture and vex me for sixty-two years.  So!? I'm fine! RETIRED! Walking my dogs, drinking coffee, reading, pontificating, enjoying the American dream.  She's dead.  I know "the deal"  and I'm not cloaking for her. I do think poor Martha thought it was her voodoo and viciousness that kept her a secret.  It was our shame. VOODOO, WITCHCRAFT! in the twenty-first century! A PREACHER!

She bragged that she fucked my life up.  Yes, I cried just remembering "what could have been'.  Then, I said; so!  Life sucks!  It sucks for every one.  It sucked for Jesus. But, it is going to be alright.  I've been "broke" my whole life.  "Broke" ain't nothing to me but an adventure.

For my whole life poor Martha was always  around to snatch, steal, destroy, lie and just be the ignorant imp she was.  She didn't win.  Sure, she scuffed me up but I'm still here. I FEEL GOOD!

 I WON A HOUSE! A RED BRICK HOUSE!  Sure I've had some bad experiences due to the interference of my insane mother but I have done well as a result of her torture so "I won't complain".

Good looking out GOD!

What is the cost?

What is the true cost of an unrepentant life? Can it be measured? Will any one ever care?

LORD help me to tell this , to share my truth.  My beautiful brilliant mother was sexually assaulted very violently as a child.  Of course she was traumatized, she was over eighty years old before I ever heard anything about this.  It made sense.  Mathy Jane was evil!  Would just as soon stab you, cut your throat,  as shoot you.    She was a full fledged "root worker", a witch, a practitioner of the Occult. "Would and did" .  Martha would do what she pleased anytime she pleased. "Would and did!"  Would do it, and did do it.   Everything but apologize and repent that is.  I know for a fact she was a man beater.  I watched her beat her second husband to a pulp for catching her in fornication!  If that's not a two legged demon I don't know what is? Was it because she was the victim of a brutal rape?  Is that why she became a closet rapist?

My mother was evil!  Not only was she evil, I was her scape goat.  That low life common trick had  one wonderful time playing with my "head" for sixty-two years.  No, it didn't end well.  She cussed me like a dog for having the audacity to annoy her, to question her about my rape when I was elderly.  We were both elderly, she was an ordained minister! She cussed my socks off and she was the one lying!  

 It turns out she hated GOD all the time.  When she called me old and ugly, broken down; "You look oak the mutha of 'leben head of churin!" ; she was talking about herself. By my calculations she was the one with elven head of children.  The five she aborted and the six she birthed full term.

The Scripture declares they hate righteousness and Mathy  sure hated me. Murdered granddaddy.  Just took his life! Bam! One .38 to the heart. Bam! Not one damn tear.

Sad to say.  I am not the only one she raped or arranged to be raped.  Martha was some kind of freak. Blood and fecal matter had a prominent place in Mathy's mind.

Mental illness is no joke !  People are dying, being murdered in droves.  Demons are fucking real!  You can't turn for the MUTHAFUCKERS!  (Pun intended) These pimp preachers will never tell you, so busy fleecing.  You better read that Book for yourself.  The "Church"  would have never saved me from the likes of Mathy Jane. I blame the "Church" for creating her.

A damn demon! A MURDERING PSYCHOTIC NYMPHOMANIAC SOCIOPATH UP PREACHING! GIVING IN MARRIAGE! BAPTIZING! GIVING COMMUNION! COMMITTING TO THE GRAVE!

LORD No!  An "anti-mother" trying to get by, to lure,  to destroy for a laugh.  GOD said No!

Dear LORD thank you for not letting Mathy Jane kill more of us than she did.  And thank you for taking her out.

Praise the LORD!

Say what you wanna'

…she sure lived the life she wanted. True, it was horrible, reprehensible but, all hers.

Unique!

Unique my ass! Fucked up is more like it.

What do you do? What can you do?

You survive! You survive muthafucker! You survive! You will learn to catch on real quick.  You will become extremely observant when your mother is in fact a "root working" whore.  You will also learn not to trust lying ass hypocritical people.  People that will gladly throw you under the bus to protect their own ass.

I am on a mission!  Not only to save my grandfather's good name but to teach a little wisdom concerning GOD's Word.  GOD is not racist! (HE) is not homophobic.  (HE) is not unforgiving, (HE) does forget.

You can not be a "Christian" like Martha, part-time, weak faith, begrudging, ungrateful, devious , deceitful, conniving, covert, jealous, loud, unrighteous and most of all unrepentant.


"Come ye out from among them."

Mark the "racist" man or woman.  Something is wrong. Pay attention to the person that is too willing to compromise with righteousness.  If you catch a loved one lying on you, if for some reason their behavior toward you is painful, humiliating, dangerous, immoral, dissociate yourself from them.  "Shun the very presence of evil!"  Please do not allow any one to intimidate or coerce you with guilt for their sins.  My mother deliberately made wrong right! When her second husband that she scorned relentlessly for his "Crow blackness" lost all of his entire paycheck gambling she forced him to rob a young soldier that came into Womack Army Hospital DOA. They laughed about it forever.   Bragged, yet I was sworn to secrecy. If they truly cared about the opinions of others they would not have done what they did.  Why is the onus placed on me? I'm a victim, one of her many statistics.  Why am I the pariah?

Love yourself!  You were a child! Your mother was much older.  Caught red handed.  She can not get away even if you are willing.  "For it is written."  The nasty heifer knew it was written when she did what she did.  Rather than apologizing her solution was to utterly destroy her many victims.

Lies you tell satan! You better bow you funky ass down! Chasing GOD's anointed with some "graveyard dirt"!  Bitch! If you don't "look a fool"!

A preacher! Did you ever bother to read the Bible?  I know you "Cherry picked" it enough.  You should have read it.

If you are not a Bible reader, if  you don't have time, just flip to the back of the book.  Just go straight to Revelation.

No one can pretend to be righteous and commit horrid unrighteous sin for over eighty years and think GOD is ok with that.  If a person pretends to still be terrorized by a dead demon, that is their choice.  Who am I to say you are not?  Our mother was "bat shit crazy".  It stands to reason all of us are likewise.  It is only by the Grace of GOD that I have done as well as I have.

It is all in Divine Order!  Plus, it is  possible to be that blind.  Our truth is too painful, too long.  We all have suffered far too long without relief.

No,we were never dumb, just over whelmed.  You can become overwhelmed by evil.

Pray. Fast. Pray, fast without ceasing.  Seek the LORD while (HE) may be found.  Know your truth though.  Do not deny your truth because you find it too painful , because you want to label it an impossibility. I liken it unto hitting the lottery. We hit the lottery for demons, for a demon laden silly woman so vicious we had to wait for death to over take her to "know" her.

Heartless, selfish, greedy, conniving, lecherous, pathological. A nigger! A real nigger! A genuine imp! Well shit! They are real! It has nothing to do with skin color, more like heart color. Did Martha really think she was smart enough to get away? No! She didn't care.  She was that selfish, that primitive, that delusional, that childish.

I am laughing, having finally solved the "one shoe mystery".  That is proof Mathy never matured beyond that of a twelve year old emotionally.

All those nice shoes, expensive, good looking shoes.  All those ruined suits, outfits…what did she want? She wanted my joy.  Well my LORD, the more Martha did something stank, secret and low to me, the lower she felt.

Well, you don't say!

Still standing ...

Divine Order- righteousness Almighty GOD set in place eons before the devil knew s/he was evil.  I'm laughing now but just a short time period ago it really wasn't that funny.  I'm getting over it, very, very slowly.   My "mother" not only successfully murdered my grandfather , she was a demon plagued silly woman held captive by wives' tales and superstition for eighty-seven years! 

She was tiresome.  I aged tremendously under her false artificial love.  Martha was one damn fool.  Well, she played one damn fool. There is absolutely no way for her to be as stupid as she pretended to be and still manage to escape punishment.  Maybe  I'm dumber than I think but I thought she was a great preacher.  I always enjoyed her sermons, always learned something.  Why didn't I know she was lying? She was that sneaky!   She was a two legged serpent.  When the scripture refers to the woman that  is a  vexation of the spirit , it is referring to women like my "mother".

"Come ye out from among them."

Buddy Guy and Stevie Ray Vaughan - Champagne and Reefer

My mother bragged her "mojo hands" could scramble anyone's brains.  She swore by her power and demonstrated it.  Kept a "pet nigger" for over forty years, married him when she got ready.  If there ever was a "zombie", He was a zombie.  He gave her his whole check.  It didn't matter, if you had money and Mathy smelled it, you no longer had any money.

If you had a love life, a career, any thing that looked like joy , if you associated with Mathy You were not going to have it long.

Yes, Martha was the type of woman that would rob her lover if he got too drunk.  Yes, she did try to pimp me out to her husbands. Yes, Martha was pretty common, pretty jealous and just damn dumb.

While she was proud of her ability to work some pretty decent witchcraft she should have kept reading.  She should have known she wasn't going to prosper.

Just how evil can evil be?

Evil can be so evil we will turn a collective blind eye to it.  Evil can be so evil we just refuse to know, reject that truth. "Let's just suffer.  LORD give me strength!" That was always my attitude concerning Martha Jane Walters.  I had no way of getting rid of her ass.  She was a hideous whore , grabbing, latching on to you, pulling, tugging, smothering, molesting, lying and mostly leading astray.

A MALIGNANT NARCISSISTIC SOCIOPATH!  Tell somebody!  Who knew? Every single person that assisted my "mother" in acquiring an ordination to preach needs their ass kicked.  Something tells me all these DT supporters are going to be in the same boat.

One very common thread I see (pun intended) concerning the dreadful deeds perpetuated by the woman I was forced to call mother.  She was so ashamed she hid her monstrous deeds from herself, pretended that she would never do what she in fact knew she did and enjoyed doing .  Rape!  How do you justify raping your own little innocent children? She couldn't of course so she deliberately hid her horrible demons behind more intimidation, more insults, brutality, assault and witchcraft.

I'll say it if no one else ever does. "BITCH! I'M SO GLAD YO'MUTHFUCKING ASS IS DEAD!"

Woman! You were the stankingest,  lowest whore that ever lived.  I'm sixty-five and still having night terrors.  I don't care, right or wrong, if I picked up the Fayetteville Observer and read where dogs had dug up your grave, scattered and gnawed your bones, I would be happy. I would be delighted.    I would be walking on air.

I would smile from the inside out.  Why? Because you never ever had to be the low immoral woman you in fact were and  hid much too cleverly for much too long.

You and "dodo"! Bitch! For some reason the "My bath cloth caked full of shit incident" returned to my memory again this morning.  I relived washing my face in a bath cloth someone had packed with human shit, fecal matter. Of course I now know it was you.

What a sad creature you were Martha.  Always trying to trap someone into loving you.  Always relying on WITCHCRAFT! Witchcraft and preaching!  Not only did you practise witchcraft and preach,  had the damn nerve to demand to be kept secret. How are you going to keep me from talking and your ass is dead?

Not only that , your fruit was reprehensible! INCEST! PEDOPHILIA! MURDER! I'm supposed to keep quiet, keep silent , about your repugnant life?  Why? Why would I have any interest in protecting you when you certainly never had any desire to protect anyone, ever?

I know you don't want to see GOD.  I know your demonic soul is looking for a rock.  No one could stop you .  You did think you were smarter than GOD.  You were wrong, now reap.

Good enough! Hard headed whore.

GOD did it!

"Hold my mule!" Y'all ain't 'gon 'believe this but, GOD rescued me.  (HE) snatched me out of the "bull rushes", the "fiery furnace", the "lion's den".  Not once, not twice but for ever.  The Dear LORD looked upon my humble birth and had mercy on me and for that I thank (HIM), am eternally grateful!

I can not abide child abuse.  I will not tolerate it. There is a re-apprearing post on FB asking if cursive writing should be taught in the public school? Of course it should.  It isn't and it will not be.  Good enough for any group of people that leave the education of their "race', ethnic group, or community up to the "oppressor".

No one should have to tell you to supplement your child's public school education.  Yes, do pay extra money for camps, classes, enrichment, braces, counseling, tutoring, etc.  This is your child!

I had a parent that refused to tutor her own son once.  She screamed at me, that "tutoring her son"  was my job.  Her son was in the eighth grade,  reading on a second grade level.  What could I do?  I told her the solution was simple, just listen to him read aloud while she did the dishes or what ever.  I must have hit a nerve , where upon she screamed at me like I was her nanny; "That's yo'job."   I did not answer back.  I had already gone too far.  I let this nit wit principal con me into releasing my home phone number.  (  Never do that. That is far too much to ask!)

Worse, found out some  of the same administrators that ordered us to release our personal phone numbers and addresses for the sake of public relations deliberately kept their's private.  That is a double standard. That is ridiculous.  That is what happens in the "un-unionized" south. That is what happens when you use fear to intimidate your work force and your work force is too zombied out to protest, too racist to work together.

Well, my "youth" is gone.  It is "spent". It did not take long.  It was truly a "flash in the pan", a vapor, a brief mist.  That is why my message is so pressing.  GOD said these demons shall proceed no further.  Mathy went as far as she could go.  She was disgusting.  But, she was guilty.  I know what I know.  She was nasty.  She was foul.  The evil doer attempts to black mail her victims with collective shame.  I have nothing to be ashamed of.  You other buzzards,  on the other hand, I certainly understand why you wish to keep your secrets,  secret.

Good luck with that. You all are trying to hide a "pink elephant".  No one, nothing, can prevent GOD's Word, (HIS) Plan, (HIS) Divine Order.  How dare you pretend to be so stupid.

"At the Cross, at the Cross …"

"Evil can't win!"

"Jesus will fix it."

I don't know how (HE) does it but I know (HE) does it.  I know IT IS ALL IN DIVINE ORDER!

Before I move another "further" let me say, re-iterate how absolutely grateful I am to my Heavenly Father!  May I say THANK YOU JESUS!  Do you mind if I take just a few moments to leap and bound with joy? Yes, I've known pain, degradation, betrayal, robbery, rape, assault.  I've been lied on, slandered, conned, betrayed, bamboozled, laughed at, rejected, left out and ostracized and all of it has been good. I count it all joy.

Yes, I was one sexually abused, verbally and physically attacked child by her own sneaky mother.  A woman that proved to be a human pestilence .   A "non-friend", a back-stabbing  betraying 'hoe! A low life lying slut that only looked out for her greedy ass self!  A woman devious enough to live a reprehensible life for eighty-seven long years virtually unscathed. My mother was an extremely malignant sociopath that came to this earth and did everything the prophets predicted she would do.

Don't worry.  She can go no further.  We, the living get to preform an autopsy on her life, compare it to the Book and amaze ourselves with the truth.

The first thing my Mathy Jane Experience has taught me, evil can't win.  It is all in Divine Order.  When GOD gets ready (HE) is going to move.  We all had to notice the beautiful statuesque blonde billionaire wife of DT delivering the most fantastic speech in her "siren" and before it is over the Internet comes alive exposing her obvious attempts to plagiarize.

I'm used to that.  My "mother" was not only famous for plagiarizing but for destroying your gifts.  Poor Martha was an imp. She could not create independently, on her own. She had no creativity artistically but she could copy, duplicate, she just could not originate.  She had to steal and then demand credit and you had to pretend you didn't know she stole it or you were ok with her thievery.

[The thing about imagination that is a gift from Almighty GOD.   (HE) gives it liberally to whom (HE) pleases.  Your "haters" can't stop you.

The thing about the malignant narcissist , you must go along with their farce.  the entire world must play along.  So, now DT is the GOP's nominee for President of the United States.  GOD help us.

What kind of people are willing to trust the highest most important job in the world to a carnival barker? A P.T. Barnum? People that can't get the reference. AmeriKKKa has finally dumbed itself out of existence.]

Either way you were uncomfortable .  It didn't matter Mathy Jane wasn't going to listen and you were the fool for being honest.  You were mocked, ostracized, left out, ridiculed, molested, humiliated, made a fool of, starved for maternal love, starved for nutritious food.

How cruel.  No one is that cruel. A pot of hot boiling coffee on a toddler!? No, Martha should have gone to jail.  It was over for her, over for the entire Walters family the day Martha bludgeoned that puppy to death.  Jesus very clearly said ;"Shun the very presence of evil!" But when we confuse shunning with forgiving and give satan a foothold hold we get a Mathy Jane Experience , the worse possible, lowest most common whore on earth living and vexing for damn near a century.

Study your Bible for yourself! You do not have to be anyone's foot stool! You do not have to be anyone's fool! Stand up! Fight back! Tell somebody!

Mental illness is real and this is what happen when a family tries to hide the culprit, permits her to run loose, to run amuck under the guise of "religion".  Just call a damn devil, a ************ demon a pastor, a minister!?   Just give satan's 'hoe a license to preach.  Just do it!

People we have become so blind, we lockstep out of sheer habit.   We are in "churches" following pure demons.  Following them straight to hell.  "Come ye out from among them."

This could end

All this evil madness of murder and mayhem could end right now.  We don't have to do it.  We all can talk and we all know how to be honest.  The predator is never honest.  They can not trust the truth, of being honest, fair, sharing, caring.

My poor selfish lying mother could never think beyond herself.  Every one, every thing was her tool, her property.  Why? Little faith and she said GOD was too slow.  My mother claimed she couldn't help it.  She would never admit it, but she was one sly sick demented sociopath.  A female rapist! How rare is that?  Maybe it is not that rare, just that secret.  No matter, she wasn't admitting it and she wasn't changing.  You better get in line and lie and deny with every one else.

Martha was superior.  That was her story, her belief.  Yes, she was lazy, had the attention span of a gnat. Yes, she was whorish.  Why was she always getting pregnant? That is how carnal she was, how promiscuous she was.  Martha was a nymphomaniac.  Unfortunately it was a subject too taboo to touch.  We all pretended, turned our heads, ignored, played dumb, went blind, could not see.

We all felt the repercussions. Refusing to feed us.  Refusing to keep her house clean. Practicing bizarre WITCHCRAFT  right out in the open.  Cursing for hours and hours, non stop.  I now know that was some manifestation of her bi-polar manic depressive personality.  One minute she was up about to do something great, phenomenal.  Then retreating to failure, "Fuck you muthafucking black ass niggers that destroyed my life, ruined my chances, fuck all you niggers!"

We did well to not get murdered.  I do think she poisoned all of us once.  I love the fact she loved "Church".  Her loving "Church" and playing "Church" saved my life.

No, I don't get it.  Why couldn't you do what you pretended to do? Lack of faith, too much pride.  "Pride goeth before a fall."

Why do we have black soldiers returning from Iraq killing Policemen?  Why do we have so many "crazies" willing to mow down lives?

Why are we raging?  Yes, the whole world is raging, is mad, is sadly disappointed.  I was sadly disappointed to discover or to finally accept the truth about my mother.  Did I know all the time?  Was I subconsciously giving her time to change? Was I trying to mother her? To mold her?

Why was Martha always able to say the right thing, but could never do the right thing? Is that faith? Was she afraid to Free fall?

I know I can trust GOD! I have ample proof! I am a walking, talking testimony!

Evil can't win!

I was a small child, around eight years old.  We were visiting the family home of our "stepfather",   Hawkinsville, Georgia.  I'll never forget it.  It was as if we had stepped back in "time".  My "stepfather's" brothers still lived on plantations as "sharecroppers".  They lived in "slave shacks".  Used a well, had outhouses, churned butter.  It was amazing. We had our "Emmit Till" moment.  Yes, we were almost lynched for violating the social code of "yas'suh".
I never ran so fast in my life! To think; some white people threatened to take our very lives for failing to say "yas'suh".  We could not say "Yes sir" because being uppity was worse than being disrespectful.

That was a very long time ago.  I'm sorry DT and all DT supporters.  I can't go back to that bullshit.  We have the same Father and can certainly learn how to share the same world.

Praise the LORD!

"Count it all Joy!"

LORD I hear you, am finally understanding.  "Gird up your loins", "Put on the whole armor of GOD".
Nearly eight billion people occupy this  very evil world.  My "mother" gladly warned me about the treacherous world she was attempting to prepare me for.

If I have anything good to say about my "mother" it is greatly diminished by her extremely evil demonic life.  My "mother" Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureaux was never more than an extremely selfish pathologically lying lazy anti-intellectual whore.  She claimed the white man made her the way she was. Her lack of morality, her primitive cruelty, her deep delusions, her witchcraft and our debilitating fear made her who she was and what we became.

The worse thing about this whole saga is it's waste.  An entire dynasty wasted, too many lives wasted and destroyed on her account.  Worse, her knowing full well what she was doing all the time.  Who knew there was any such thing as a malignant narcissist?  Who knew any woman could derive pleasure from committing sadistic acts? Who knew complete demon plagued human beings would drag their lying asses up in pulpits lying and fleecing? JESUS!

Every thing I know, need to know, Jesus has been telling, revealing to me , forever! LORD have mercy . I'm leaping straight up and down! Just knowing, just testifying of your goodness gives me joy!

Dear LORD thank you for your Joy!

The GOD I serve!

The GOD I serve is a Good GOD, a just GOD.  While racism does rile me, I know GOD's got this.  There is no evil that can befall me !  There is nothing, absolutely nothing the evil one can do to me.  The evil one has no power.  S/He has no manners.  No morals what so ever.  It is shameful.  Just pitiful but evil can't win.

"The wicked fleeth when no one pursueth." My "mother" deliberately plotted against me because she was an ignorant evil doer.  I really don't think she had as much faith in her witchcraft as she claimed.  It was just a ploy to keep the weak minded in line.

I am shocked to discover how many weak minded relatives I have.  Even she admitted that 99% of the time she was a total fake.  Even she was surprised when her shit work.  But Mathy was twelve!  She was mentally fucking ill! We are all blessed to still be alive.

Hannibal Lecters  are real.  Demon possession is more than plausible, it is real.  My "mother" had a legion of demons and she deserved every damn one of them.  Where in the world do you find people willing to practice witchcraft? Every day where!  That is what I am warning people against it!

Witchcraft "effed"  Mathy Jane's ass up.  If you want to end up like her, do like her.  Bitch, laughing and bragging she could scramble any man's brains, looks like satan scrambled hers.

Before you do, before you get as proud as Mathy don't forget to factor in CONSEQUENCES!

"YOU SHALL REAP EXACTLY WHAT YOU SOW!"

I guess it depends on your perspective

Yes, I am tired as in "'Woe out!" I never had any idea I would get old so fast.  "Life is like a dream, not always what it seems."

Our world is in an uproar.  I do understand why but I must remind myself all this was predicted, foretold.  No matter, it is amazing.  My "mother" was a demon, a damn muthfucking, sho'nuff demon! "The hell you say!" "What am seen can't be denied." I saw it, but I didn't see it.  I chose to ignore it, it could not be or "she'll change".  She'll get better, there is no way she can get worse.  After all she is my mother.  She does declare her love and devotion.  I do need her money.  I do bask in her praise. I do laugh when she is fucking with someone else.

She does work "roots". (She would not hurt me.  What do you mean she wouldn't hurt you!? THE BITCH MURDERED HER OWN  DADDY!  Flushed FIVE Babies down the toilet.  Poured a pot of hot boiling coffee on ***! What does GOD have to do!? Send you a signed letter!? Calling her stupid! How stupid is your ass?)

Mental illness is real.  Racism is real!

"Fear no man! no woman! nothing!" "Come ye out from among them!"

So many people call themselves "Christians", yet they are prejudice, hateful and full of  murderous hate towards people of the faith because of the color of their skin.

"Come ye out from among them."

Many so called "Christians" are just following the blind crowd.  They have never read the Bible and never will.  Far too many people are "color struck" hypocritical liars.

Jesus was not popular in (HIS) day, that is why (HE) was crucified.  If you are a true Christ lover you are going to be hated, persecuted, misunderstood, shunned.

-Cool.

"Are you talking to me?"

Whoa bitch! I didn't ask to come here.  Mistreating and molesting me is the best you can do for me because you claim I'm too black!   How 'bout you too fucking stupid bitch! Dumb ass muthafucker!

You could have been a lesbian if that is what you wanted to be. Why lie? You lied, then turned around and hated yourself for being a fucking liar! How damn dumb is that?

The 13th Amendment freed the slaves bitch!  Don't nobody like a 'hoe, hoe!  You didn't even like 'hoes!  You beat the dog shit out every man you accused of cheating on you.

No, I don't have any loyalty concerning your dead ass.  By the way, I am quite happy about that event because you never let up or let on.  Bitch, you were Beelzebub! There was no earthly reason for you to ever be so evil.  You didn't even make any money! You were satan's lowest  stanking 'hoe for free! What the fuck!? I know you made a little change for you but you could have gotten way more.   Martha, that is how selfish you were. Woman! What did you have between your ears?  Surely to GOD you were never that stupid. Was that pride , Martha?

 You son was the Prince of Darkness.  Yes, I found you buzzards in the Bible. Right there in black and white. Thessalonians , Praise the LORD.  Just how did you think you were going to get away when Almighty GOD said you can NOT get away?

It's cool.  Yes, I forgive you but, you have to reap.  There are far too many of you miscreants taking over the world.  Go sot down!

Give up fear!   That is GOD's Word for today.  Anything you want, you can have.  Love yourself.  Step out on faith.  Stop lying and denying.  Know your truth. Free fall!

Trained like a dog

For the rest of my days I will thank GOD for rescuing me.  I was in the lion's den, a fiery furnace, imprisoned by my own mother!

Not only was my mother a malignant narcissist she was EVIL! My mother, Martha Jane Walters made satan himself back up.  I swear to GOD satan feared my mother.  You talk about a stank nasty sadistic "'hoe"! Nasty! Just common as bat shit nasty! INCEST!  Pedophilia!  All covered over, sweep under the rug by great acting, brilliant lying and witchcraft.

My mother would have done well and totally escaped exposure or recognition if she had stayed out of the church.  Well,  she would have never had a problem if she had opted to live right, to love the LORD.  No way.  This "haint"  came here and ruled, just mauled and afflicted the Walters family for eighty-seven years!

You need to know!  Before you waste your time sitting up in some "church" two and three times a week, pouring your money, heart and soul into a ministry , you better know who you are serving.

Do not keep company with double minded people.  As soon as you hear the word WITCHCRAFT, run!

From the moment I opened my eyes  for the first time this   low slut for satan was vexing and tormenting me, all of us.  I should have known.  Those hot soapy enemas! My mother was a muthafucking freak!  I was four and told my granddaddy.  Mathy became unglued, labeled me the family snitch. Hated me and persecuted me forever!  How could I know this act was designed for her sadistic sexual pleasure?

I am becoming a lay psychiatrist in my efforts to de-mystify the evil that engulfed this woman I had to call mother.  Martha Jane Walters had a fixation with fecal matter.  She loved to gather shit to smear on you, to mail in a letter, to use in some demonic incantation. So, shit is a tool of the devil.  Makes sense.

The devil is a lie! Yes, Mathy it took me an extremely long time to figure you out and to rid myself of you but it wasn't your brilliance or satan's favor.  You trained us like dogs.  You taught us to sit, fetch, roll over, to do your bidding.  To be as loyal to you as a dog. To be as obedient as a dog!

You should have never taken me to church Mathy.  You should not have procured a license to preach. Out of all the horrible things you did for eighty-seven years, preaching falsely was the worse.

Bow down satan!