Reggae - Gregory Isaacs

Be abundantly blessed today as you discover or re-discover the pure Joy of GOD's Magnificent love over your life.

If their be any good things, think on these things.  "Get thee away from thy people, thy father's people."  If you are in a family of low moral character, separate from them. Do study, do pray, do ask GOD to show you how.

Never let a "lesser than" tell you about your dreams.  Examine their status?  Just how are they living?  Is your mentor a closet whore, selling a little ***** on the side to supplement her meager pay check.  A check she claims is small because she is female, or jealous black ***  NNNNNN are always blocking her blessings.

If you listen carefully you will soon hear 87 years of excuses.  She will always have loyal simple imps that worship at the throne of color and race.  Racist coons, volunteer slaves.  Do not waste your breathe trying to lead them out of captivity.

One thing about it, all six of us share the same mother.  Yes, the whore did convince me that she really loved me only and hated all the rest of them dumb assed, no- sense-ED NNNNNN!

Do not condem or low rate, the inner yearning for a mother is strong.  I didn't get a mother, I didn't even get the "wire monkey", I got Caligula/ Dr Jeckel Mr Hyde Lucifer's concubine common bitch!

I hate to admit it, GOD knew what I needed.

Ride on King Jesus!

No man can hinder thee! Praise the LORD! I am doing the "Stanky Leg" on satan's head!  My mother is taking a lashing for every foul secret deed!  Malachi 4:1,  is real!   Yes, I do believe my poor mother was ignorant enough to believe that she was getting away, that she was in fact fooling GOD,  as much as she did every person she ever knew.

She did admire herself quite a bit.  She did sell her precious body, her temple ,  for filthy lucre,  then the dummy turned around and insulted, burned, bludgeoned, humiliated and drug us into captivity for knowing, for telling, for just being.

She claimed we prevented her from becoming a model!   From earning a four year college degree.  Her always funky, nasty, snotty, rebellious, attitude,  had nothing to do with  it.    She was just as evil as she was demonic!  She had "shame" that she refused to notice, to acknowledge , to accept. dump it on someone one else was her life's motto.

Please do not dare think that YOU COULD NEVER BE MARTHA!   We are all Martha!  I was Martha so many times,  caring my .38 H&;R pistol!  A self styled Annie Oakley/Barney Fife , in the big city of Atlanta, in my late twenties.

Without GOD, without a true prayer warrior praying for you , we are  walking on shakey ground.  We are all walking on shaky ground.  But you will feel better if you follow The Holy Spirit.

satan wants your anointing, your gifts, your talents.  He wants you distracted by your flaws, your "inadequacies".  You better do some homework.  That is not a flaw.  You are GOD'S HANDIWORK! HE ONLY MAKES MASTERPIECES!

My daughter took me to Italy! I toured like a big baller.  Yes , I did rub me a handful of Michangelo' s David, a true MASTERPIECE!  I did say THANK YOU LORD!  He did remind me that it is what I do for Him that matters.

He told me to hurt,  to cry aloud , every time a little baby, an infant, a toddler is taken into Grady Hospital with their insides torn apart!   He told me NOT to keep it quiet!  IT IS IN THE CHURCH! Lonely women that deliberated run every man off,  have unnatural affection for their their sons and daughters!  Praise The LORD!

If my SHINE is too much for you, if you know,  no one in your family,  could ever sink so low, good for you.   If you think tithing and church attendance will keep this wolf from your door, perhaps you should check to see what filth is on the Internet.

She told me, told all of , that we better not tell EVER TELL it!    I want my picture in the dictionary next to SNITCH!   Next to ; "survivor of the most horrendous , devious, low-snake-in-the-grass-daddy-MURDERING,  woman that ever lived!"  Picture me grinning!

The best part of my story is not that GOD put flesh on His WORD through me.  The best part  of my story is,  that He chose me!    Me. a little black bastard, "throwed- away" baby, Praise the LORD!

Be careful of what you say to your children as you shape their little minds like clay.

Grandmother Rachel: "Dat luddle gul been heah (here) befo' ….Mathy Jane don't you mistreat that chile…she didn't ask tuh come heah."

Granddaddy: "Mathy Jane…I believe you bedder leave dat'un alone…she ain't the one fuh you to be messin' wid…that one is anointed.  She got healing hands and old folks sense!  Yea, I believe she been heah befo' …mark whut I tell you."

Well,  we are now at the end.   I'm so glad she beat and tormented me in secret.  She proved I was a good steward.  I kept the faith! Praise the LORD!

Jesus said that if you will lose your life for Him, He will save it.  HE WILL LIFT YOU UP!  But if you try to save yourself,  try every scheme in the world to win,  fail to put your trust in Him! You will lose your life.

Please do NOT do a homemade, hachet job on GOD's Almighty WORD!  Be Hot or Cold.  Do not dare use GOD's WORD, His Image, His Brand, to enslave and have your way.

GOD said No!

I hope you know...

"Shucks",  I hope I know…when GOD comes to get us , He doesn't have to wait on our invitation.  He doesn't announce when He is coming.  You have to be ready.  You have to have your affairs in order.  Living a complete lie because your mother drug you into her dirty world is no longer  a valid excuse.

I must say this,  as I pray over this curse, this vexation of the spirit. I loathe dumb people.  People of obvious low intelligence that do have in their possession so-called college  degrees. Foolish men that think A.D. stands for After Death and people that think "cussing", saying bad words is a sin.  That tithing is a commandment and that GOD takes attendance.  I do especially "despise" mental midgets that try to embarrass me by slinging insults on FB.  ( Go some where and sit your ignorant *** down, spreading ignorance! ) Stupidity concerning GOD's WORD vexed my grandfather also.

I must address these so called Christians that have never read the Bible completely,  from top to bottom.  Like my mother, just search it for words to enslave.

These people on Facebook that are quick to brag about how they un-friended some one of obvious "low morals".  When you did that brother, did you know that you were judging? Did you know you were the "first to throw a stone"?

Hey cousin/preacher that claims to be an Evangelist, my Bible says not to hold mother, father, or AUNT is higher esteem than GOD.

So, why are you preaching?   Are you trying to be like your mentor?  Are you also a "dirt chunker?".  I did notice your eyes get mighty big and I saw your entire demeanor change when you saw my fine dwelling, my home, that Almighty GOD gave me.

GOD is no respecter of man, of color, of status, of rank,  or position.  And if you really want to get in trouble with GOD, claim to be a preacher before He proclaims you!

I am not a preacher! I am a retired teacher,  making observations about this world.  And always Praising the LORD,  simply because He Blessed me ,  saved me and showed me a better way.

Believe it or not, I thank every one, every friend, every loved one,  that treated me with such disdain, with disrespect,  with out and out cruelty.   I thank every one of my friends that went way out their way to make me feel worse than I knew possible.  I thank them for throwing dirt in that ditch when they saw me suffering.  I thank my brother for running off with the rope.

Over the years the dirt built up.  The dirt thrown on me,  for so long, for no reason,  other that hatred and jealousy,  helped me to just walk out of the pitch my mother tried to bury me in.

Now I am shaking the dust off!  My gourds are planted.  My dolls are lined up for painting.  I have four sewing machines, a kiln, I have every thing I need.  I was wounded.  satan did lay me low with his merciless cruelty.

Cool!

Jesus fixed it.

PTL!

It serves you right to suffer!

If you know you have a loving, forgiving GOD and you refuse His indwelling … you deserve to suffer.  satan is going to slay you.  You might need a little taste of his mistreatment before you believe.

Cool.  I am willing to see it, watch it.  I will hold your hand.  Your head is hard.  Your neck is stiff.  Your pride is glaring  You are his or you are the LORD's.  There is no in between.  Read your Bible.

Even if you reject GOD, pretend He doesn't exist.  He still is!  He still sees you.  He saw you when you let satan shame you.  Only the indwelling of His Holy Spirit will remove that stain.

Stop living a lie!

This is the real world! Quit playing.  I do think my poor evil monstrosity mother was playing.  A spoiled rotten brat , play acting until the end.  When was Martha ever held accountable for a single action?

She "punked" her own daddy out!  She was a beast!   "Cutting the fool on him, on *Henry Rankins' porch , right on Highway 301, sealed her deal.  A known demon,  pure evil-sold-out-for-satan-disciple, reprobate, incorrigible ,  fool.   She won.  Mr. *Wifford, had to save her daddy's life!  This young hell-e-un was only 16, known to turn out hell.  Known to send satan running and seeking cover.

Martha Jane Walters had to be endured.  She had to be allowed to "let" until she be "taken out of the way."   We had to learn first hand how we have strayed, gotten away from that Book.  We had to see up close and personal how we let satan lead us into captivity unawares.

Martha was my fieriest demon because she very successfully attacked my psyche , my self-esteem.  Got me early, started her secret war against me while I was still in her corrupt womb.   She was very free with epithets, with pronouncements over my life.  "You ain't ****!"  "YOU TOO LAME!"  YOU A GOODY-TWO-SHOES!"  "You too black!"  "Ain't no man nevah gon' want you."

Psychological taunts and digs.  Constant, unrelenting.  Always artfully hidden in between "caring" or "giving", always behind a sweet smile.  I want you to know, I want the whole world to know, I knew.  Of course I knew.   Being around her, Martha, Martha Jane, Mathy, Mathy Jane, Mathy Jean, Madame Watson, Reverend Watson, whom ever she was playing that day,  could unnerve you, make your hair stand up on the back of your neck.  No you could never quite put satan on it because Jesus was always in her mouth.  These demons, theses ravenous demons in sheep's clothing have a form of "godliness".  They can , will and do fool us daily.

This is precisely why you have to study your Bible INDEPENDENTLY.  I did ask my mother how she could read her "clients so perfectly.  She told me that their heads start to nod subconsciously when she hit the right subject and besides people only had there types of problems that mattered anyway., Love, Financial or Health!  My mother was a keen observer of human behavior.

 I always suspected she was a lesbian.  It was obvious!  She was a man-eater!

I didn't care.  We never cared!  But, don't go out,  do your dirt in the dark and come home overwhelmed with guilt and savagely beat your children, rape and ruin your own children because you know that you are pure filth!

Don't preach to cover your filth, to divert attention from your guilty promiscuous, pioneer freak, no-holds-barred-adventurous-free-love-Sodom and Gomorrah ***.

I have no way of knowing.   But I bet every savage act of complete cruelty leveled  on or at us by Martha was proceeded by some vile hedonistic act that she enjoyed the carnal pleasure of preforming but withdrew ,  denied and beat us with her guilt when she returned home.  Martha was conflicted because she was a LIAR!

Thanks to her I don't have to lie about my sexuality.  I have none.  My flesh is crucified!  No "nasty-ier" a woman has ever lived.   Don't sing and believe that song,   you do not want a freak in the sheets,  because she will be a closet demon, your worse nightmare.

My granddaddy advised me to never do anything that I WOULD BE ASHAMED TO ADMIT I DID.
Good advice.  satan has nothing to keep you bound with, no guilt, no shame.  While Jesus is calling you to the light, to the truth, you can't come because your own sick as a **** house rat mother, did deliberately lead you into some filth and the no mannered heifer , just left you there.  No mercy! No compassion! And you remain loyal! You deserve to suffer you dim-wit!  She bragged to every one he scrambled your brains like and egg.  How dare she make such a brag and you take it!

I am the only child that ever hit her back. the *itch slapped me and I slapped the whore back!   I was eight but I think I got that fight back impulse from her.   She always accused me of being a back talker.  Nothing you could do was going to make her happy.  If you succeeded, she was insanely jealous.  If you failed, she was equally jubilant.  Something to prove that she really wasn't as bad as people said.

You can't repent of your sins because they are far too repugnant to remember!  You would rather gouge your own eyes out with a dull, rusty spoon!  Of course you don't go to church! WHERE WAS GOD!!!?  WHERE WAS THIS LOVING *******************WHEN I NEEDED HIM!!!?

And this lying hypocritical pusillanimous world demands that you keep lock step.  Just lower  the deeply disturbed whore into the ground,  as quickly as possible.    Pretend like you are not affected.  "Go on with your life!"  Knit your damned black ***, ruined, every-dream-snatched self,  back together.  Let your ***** relatives gloat!  Dumb ***, never finished high school, lecherous, lusting, predatory imps.

"Get thee into a far country!…get to stepping!  …shake the dust off of your feet! leave no forwarding address…no caller ID!? , you better leave a message…if YOU be kin, you are No friend!"

The "thang", that albatross, hauled off and died at 87,   without so much as an "excuse me", "I'm half way kinda sorry".    I did think she had more manners.   I did so look forward to her apology, after all she did preach GOD's WORD.  

Don't worry about it.  It is all in Divine Order.  I kept the faith.  I know my redeemer lives.  GOD has turned all of my pain into prosperity!

I do not want to be associated with people low enough, common enough,  to cloak for a dead demon.  They have to be,  just as wicked, just as lost, just as deceived.

Let me hurry up and tell...

you how good GOD is! Who do you think enabled me to retire at 57? My mother, my own dear sweet mother , that I completely forgave for everything in 1997!  I threw it all in the sea of forgetfulness.

We were thick as thieves . I showered her with gifts . I finally had a mother . She was an ordained minister and I was proud.

"GAWD, sit high , but He lows low!"

He sure does! PTL!

GOD will take care of you

Yes He will! I was three.  Yes, she broke my heart over and over for 62 years.  But she never broke my spirit! Praise the LORD!

Don't ask me how I know.  All I know is, I know.  They played this song at my grandmother Rachel's funeral.  I was three years old.  I remember the nurses dressed in white uniforms, the nurse hats, the smelling salts, the black hearse.

Wow! GOD is Good!

I will say this a few more times.  If you are a "cloak-er" of a MURDERER,  you are accursed.  Read your Bible.  Read about Covenant blessings.  If you are blood kin of Jerome Walters and you defer to a dead demon out of habit or fear, you are accursed.

To be accursed means you will never prosper.  You money will run through your hand like sand.

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Peter Tosh-That's What They Will Do

Please forgive them.   But make sure you know that extremely evil mothers are absolutely the lowest vermin on earth.  I forgive her because she was human.  But her memory will suffer for her merciless, heartless foul cunning.

STAY OFF OF GRAVES!

I would be a ghost!

Seriously, if I died suddenly, like right now, I would come back!

Why!?

"I ain't ready to go!  I have some unfinished business."

It is funny!  I love living and this **** is painful!  Most people are blistering blithering idiots.  Selfish, lying, whorish, broke, begging, needing.  I know there are some good people.  (Mighty few, though)  If you have good friends and family please value them.

If there is a scum bag in your family, out them and move on.  NEVER , EVER PUT UP WITH PATHOLOGICAL LIARS!  A pathological liar, is a liar, so common they will keep lying, knowing damn well , you know they are lying.  They will spin back-lies, half-lies, little white-lies, trying to convince you, you,  are the one with the problem.

They will bring major drama, cursing, fighting, breaking, busting, tearing down, tearing up, and throwing a fit until you finally just give up.  Some that are very cowardly will run from you, leave the home for a few days, until you cool off, until you come to your senses.

Dear LORD! Deliver the righteous from such  a succubus, a vexation of the spirit!

These predatory vipers use your love against you.  If you do in fact love them, you are in trouble.

And if they are common enough to put on a begging, crying, pitiful act….RUN!

Love yourself!  Love GOD!  Yes, GOD first!  But,  love yourself.  Have some standards.  Establish boundaries.  Be quick to hear.  Learn to listen, to comprehend.  Don't simply wait your turn to talk, silently planning your vitriolic stinging response,  rather than hearing the opposing party.

"Lean not to your own understanding."  Keep assuming you know anything.   My story is not about race!  My story is NOT a black story.  It is a HUMAN tragedy!  (Any one too dumb to get that,   any slow -to- comprehend person , that keeps insisting that I keep my secrets because my story may embarrass black people.  To you I say;"drop dead" and "the letters will let until they be taken out of the way".  Get out of GOD's way!  Go read a book! Acquire some real knowledge!  Stop repeating myths and above all stop HATING!

We have human tragedies precisely because people are human.  "Human" as in as close to an "animalistic" state as we can get and still resist running in packs and sniffing each other's butt when we greet each other.   Man in his human condition is carnal, selfish, and greedy.  He is uncivilized.

Remember:

• We did not come here to stay always
• Life is a vapor at the longest
• It is what you do for Christ that lasts
• Seek ye first the Kingdom of GOD and all else will be added unto you
• Pray and study your Bible everyday
• Bless as many as you can while you can.  If you can not give them money, offer them your hard won wisdom 

P.S.  I am not the Christian you want to shun.  I am proud of my scars.  Shun the perfect one that claims to have always been perfect.  By the time my mother died at 87, I think she thought she was a virgin! LOL

If you want to be happy ...

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for the rest of your life, never make a pretty woman your wife. Of course this in not true.  But Jimmy Soul must have met my mother. She was beautiful on the outside.

The hardest part of my ...

journey has been trying to shed this ridiculous feeling of repugnance.  My evil mother did deliberately make  feel like the most repulsive, repugnant piece of dung on the bottom of her shoe.  She delighted in it.  Was extremely secretive about it.  Which means she was in full possession of all her faculties.

I do think Martha's greatest gift was mind manipulation.  She bragged about it; "I kin scramble any nigga's brains."

She did not lie on that score.  How else can you explain five grown men remaining allied to a dead demon?

No thanks!  Did I eventually see through her extremely complicated web of lies because of my gender? Is it because I eventually became a mother?  I must say I was shocked when that wave of love swept over me the minute my precious little baby girl busted through my "bottom" like a 1955 Buick!

She was worth it!  Every bit of mother hen came out of me.  I hid and guarded her the same way a feral cat hides her kittens.  I announced to everyone; " Come see her in the hospital, behind the glass or wait until she is six weeks old!  Don't bring your disease ridden bodies around my baby."

I was called crazy!  I didn't give a damn!  'This is MY Baby!  I sacrificed my life to get this baby.  (I had no money for artificial insemination, never thought about it.  My friend had the prettiest baby I had ever seen and I wanted one!  Made it my business to seek out a "mate".)

Is it instinctive?  I never wanted to see my child suffer a headache.  Day one flash cards and a book in my hand, in my daughters face.  She would have a leg up!   No public school would ever get the opportunity to dumb up my child.   No more club for me!    GOD told me my job was to nurture that child FIRST!

I just want to take one moment to brag about GOD's Divine Order:

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• I was so severely sexually molested as a young child (all orchestrated , plotted and planned by my low devious mother) that I became chaste, truly crucified my flesh.  It was easy.  I can't brag. When you carry the images my mother showered on me, it is easy to never be carnal.  From what I have observed among my family and friends and according to all of the viagra and erictile disfunction commercials,  sex must really be something good.   Like that old Blues song goes; " You can't miss what you can't measure…so go on and have a little pleasure...you can't miss what you never had …how sad."
• She cursed and beat me like a mangy dog, I learned to love being alone.  I loved being any where she wasn't.  I loved to read,  to think, to dream of oe day escaping her prison.
• I turned to art, painting, drawing.  I know now why I make dolls, turn all of my gourds into "big breasted " mammies .   I was never breast feed.   My evil mother did not so much as bottle feed me.   We did not bond.  Good!  I have no problem revealing her.
• I was so mistreated and suffered daily for being born, for being black, for being a bastard, for being smart, for every compliment, for every gift any one was kind enough to give me.  For my Aunt Virginia taking a jar of water and a can of Royal Crown  hair grease and making me beautiful!  For covering my head in Shirley Temple curls, for telling me I had "water and grease knots".   I was so miserable I sought the LORD!
• Trying to win her love,  I went too far.  Graduating from college with honors,  without a penny from her.  Her father sent all of the money he made on his crop of tobacco, for who knows how many years, before it was discovered that the pathological liar had told another lie and she was not even in school!
• Surviving and thriving after her merciless parenting has taught me that I can do anything with GOD! And to always Praise the LORD!

(I do thank my FB friend for this scripture.  GOD sent it directly to me through her.  GOD bless her ministry abundantly.)

2 Thessalonians 2:7
"For the mystery of iniquity doth already work: only he who now letteth will let, until he be taken out of the way."

Old evil,  lecherous,  root working,  women , like my mother,  will continue to sit in doorways beckoning with their beauty and fluttering their long eyelashes , deliberately directing our youth into captivity.   Some of these women are so evil and devious, so threatening, so terrorizing and brutal they must be taken  out of the way before the innocent can even begin to heal.

She is gone now.  We can all breathe a sign of relief collectively.

Remember what GOD told me in 1982; "You get your just and honest due on this planet earth."

Praise the LORD!

Glorified!

He said no weapon formed against me would prosper and that is exactly what He meant.  An old simple minded, fast ***, fallen, whorish woman,  thought she knew every thing and falsely believed every man wanted her, or should want her.  Even kin, it didn't matter.

Why?   Rebellious, hard headed, full of pride and she did seriously hate GOD.  She hated GOD for His commandments and she hated her saintly, truly saved father , for constantly , gently admonishing her.

Poor foolish Martha was lured to the dark side with her great gifts for the occult and her serious insane jealousy.  She hated her own first cousin *Ivey Jane for have "straight as a shingle" hair and being more white looking.   Martha raged so irrationally that she threw *Ivey Jane's brand new "Sunday-go-to-meetin'" shoes in the fireplace.

Little evil redheaded Mathy Jane was always up to no good.  She was unexplainable and dreadfully evil.  I found my mother again today in Isaiah 65!

What is it?  GOD's Divine Order! Hallelujah!

Please permit me to take you a little further in this WORD.

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13 - 14: "Therefore thus saith the LORD GOD, Behold, my servants shall eat, but ye shall be hungry; behold, my servants shall drink, but ye shall be thirsty: behold, my servants shall rejoice, but you shall be ashamed: Behold, my servants shall sing for joy of heart, but ye shall cry for sorrow of heart, and shall howl for vexation of spirit."

23 -24 :"They shall not labor in vain, nor bring forth for trouble; for they are the seed of the blessed of the LORD, and their offspring with them.  And it shall come to pass, that before they call, I will answer: and while they are yet speaking, I will hear."

"They shall not labor in vain"  GOD did not call me here to be Mathy's footstool, her dirty washrag.  A woman so common she offered her own little brown bastard children to her lovers, just because she could.

My mother never tired of showing me how much she truly hated me, was viciously jealous of me and fully intended to ruin me and make me a worse wretch than she was.  GOD did not permit me to suffer and survive her secret cowardly torture for 62 years  for nothing.  For people to say; "Just get over it! Move on with your life."  At 63 this is my life.  At the longest it is not long.  This is the last chapter of my book.  Why didn't some of you tell that horrid lying "preaching, reaching, scavenging"  whore to leave me alone?

Did she foolishly think she was winning?  Apparently so.  Was she as common as bat ****, like the people in Wade Station, North Carolina, always said?  Apparently so.

I have surmised that abominable fear and sheer ignorance,  kept Mathy "protected" from the law.and the horror of her many acts and daily deeds,  kept us stunned, mortified,  in the deep shame that she should have experienced.

"…nor bring forth trouble."; I am not telling to make trouble.  I am telling because GOD told me to tell!  Because I promised her I would tell when I was eight years old and she cussed me out for having the nerve to complain about being viciously RAPED!

"Dry dem f***** tears up! The mo' you cry, the less you piss!"

"… for they are the seed of the blessed of the LORD,"   I am the offspring of a brilliant, anointed man of GOD!  JEROME WALTERS!   I know that he was blessed because he was a black man that acquired 65 acres of land in the rural south when blacks were prohibited from buying  such land.  I know he was blessed because he had orchards, vineyards, barns, a huge rambling ranch style home.  I know he was blessed because he could lend and never mention repayment!  I know he was blessed because to hear him speak,  would put you in awe.   He was wise, he was kind and most of all he was humble.  A  great anointed man of GOD,  that his own ignorant, foul, succubus of a daughter, did dare MURDER!  Why? Jealous! Covetous!    She did laugh at him, lie on him, at us, on us for our entire lives.  Did offer us up as sacrifices to her family and friends in order to divert attention from her foul life.   And did die thinking that she would get away forever.

Did die cursing GOD, bragging that she wasn't repenting for ****!

She did MURDER him in 1979.  I did start contacting my family and the Fayetteville Police Department in 1988, all to no avail.

A woman that will rape and brutally assault her own babies,  a woman that did brag about flushing 5 of her babies down the toilet, would have no problem shooting and old 84 year old infirm man in the heart.

For all my nay sayers that say; "Forget it!"  Are you really that common? that immoral?  My grandfather was not a dog or a blowfly.  He was a poor man liken unto Job,  vexed with the most whorish rebellious daughter possible.

How dare you be dumb enough to permit this world to identify your heroes for you.  You worship, remember and cherish the name of men that you didn't know.  Tomas Jefferson took the virginity of 13 year old Sally Hemmings and made her his concubine when he was 42.  I bet you skin and grin when you hear his name.  You cherish his face on that money.

George Washington never had any children, he was rendered sterile as a result of syphilis and he died from pneumonia when Martha held a musket on him and made him stand in the Potomac river for hours when she caught him fornicating in the slave quarters.

You don't read, you don't study, but you scoff and quick to tell me to shut up!  I will shut up when we "disremember"  the Holocaust.  When we forget slavery and every war fought for personal freedom and liberty.

I am Rachel Gwendolyn Doster, the proud granddaughter of a righteous man, the man that saved my life.  Praise the LORD!

Trust Him!

GOD put Adam to sleep when He took his rib to make his helpmate , Eve . GOD rocked me to sleep while my own mother delighted in her secret torture, feed by her irrational insane jealousy. 

Dumb "YALLA heifer" found out far too late in her rebellious life that color has nothing to do with GOD's anointing.

Was she finally just too ashamed to repent? Perhaps? She was a wretch, something so dispicable, GOD TOLD ME TO WARN!

Be very careful. Don't be so quick to ridicule and revile me. Don't be so quick to scream ; "Shut up!" Do not let your dull understanding convince you that you can begin to comprehend GOD's Divine Order.  And what ever you do, do not be a stumbling block. Get out of GOD's way!

Praise the LORD ...

from whom all blessings flow.  GOD just showed me something.  He revealed something very key to my healing.  He had to let Mathy be Mathy.  He deliberately let her have her way for 87 years so that I could see , could be confident in every word of that Book!

My testimony will not save all , but GOD has assured me that some potential slaves for satan have been saved, prevented.  There are many that will never touch witchcraft, Tarot cards, Ouija boards, or go near the occult as a result of what they have learned here.

I lost all five of my brothers. They are gone.  She very successfully taught them to hate their own grandfather and me.  She was always serpent-ish, slithering around, half dressed, wearing nothing but a bra and half slip, using the bathroom with the door standing open.

Woman!  GOD said NO to nasty whorishness!

Having loud carnal sex with the door open or unlocked, pretending it was an accident.  If any of my family hates or rejects me,  for the likes of her, so be it!  Bye!   Because I refuse to be conned.    You accuse me of being unforgiving because I refuse to be the blithering idiots you five are.

You have no defense !  You are not that dumb or in love.  We suffered together!  She held us all hostage, mistreated all of us.  I think two, the two born in "wedlock" she pretended to prefer and to treat better.  I notice she never gave you two five cents to go to college with either.  She told just as many lies on you and "rooted" you just as much.

She tied you up like a hog and nearly beat you to death!  Left you in a bloody pile, targeted your testicles and penis! And made us watch in horror!

That's "yo'mama"?  Never did anything but stalk and destroy you.  Somebody is lying!  You five have other reasons for cloaking for Mathy.  You need not cloak.  It is coming out.  It is going to be made known.  Don't believe me.  Believe in GOD's WORD.

Get it right!  How can I forgive her for something she claimed she never did.

Glad to be a blabber mouth for Christ!

"I'll always love my mama!"  Go straight to hell with her!

No wonder she suffered with ...

debilitating self hatred.  She should have!  Martha was a pervert. plain and simple.  Of course her childhood rape pointed her in that direction.  But what kept her there?  Going down on graves conjuring up evil spirits, a sure sign of the most ignorant stupidity I ever heard of.

The fact that she was a PATHOLOGICAL LIAR did not help her.  

Dear LORD, please forgive me.  I know that I should not be glad that my mother is dead.  But, I will not lie.  I am jubilant !  That woman was a beast!  Dear LORD, if you have any more women like that, do the best you can to keep them away from GOD's innocent children.

Make them known LORD, reveal them.  Sometimes I do get a little lonely.  I have no friends , well very , very few.  I have no family, very few relatives dare even associate with ME!  It tears me up inside to be hated on account of her.  I wonder if any one can possibly know what it feels like to be hated and despised by your own mother for 62 years?  Lied on and set up repeatedly, always trying to arrange some sexual assault ? Canceling great careers.  I could have been the first black female anchor in Greensboro, NC.  I foolishly shared that news with my mother.  So you know it never happened.  The first black paralegal with the city attorney for Fayetteville, NC.

My daughter wants to know why I kept sharing, keep trying to win her love.  It had to be GOD's will, His Divine Order.  Or perhaps I am as dumb as my mother always declared me to be.

The wicked demons eyes would turn fire red and she would mock me; "Yo' life didn't turn out lak you planned it,  did it?"  Get a pet, a little dog or cat, express love for it, it would be dead the next day.


I really didn't know more mistreatment was even possible.  Any one that prefers to shine her "halo" and pretend that she was a preacher must be just as wicked, just as demon possessed as she was.

Jesus told us that many are called and few are chosen.  When GOD said few, He sure meant few.  I had no idea he meant few as in "two", LOL.

One thing about it, I am not stupid.  My ignorant mother told me that I thought too much of myself!  Woman you were a fool!  One complete idiot.   Every time I think about your "dirt chunking", I fall on my knees!

You blithering idiot!  And it hurts me to know, in order for my family to still love you, to still fear you and you as dead as dead can be, they must be operating on one brain cell!

Than you Jesus, you said to shun, from such stay away.

I know you all know!  If you are as dumb as you pretend to be, you deserve to be lost.  You deserve the hell you are rotting in.  You all have Mathy Jane disease.  Talking to her lying *** was like preaching to a brick wall.  At least she would pretend to listen.  She did pretend to love the LORD and she would repeat the good information you taught her.

And for all the friends and family that shun me for my unrelentless rant about severe sexual child abuse, you are liars too.  You are merciless and uncaring also.  Pray! Pray for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.
*"There are only two states f being: submission to GOD and goodness or refusal to submit to anything beyond one's own will - which refusal automatically enslaves one to the forces of evil.  We must ultimately belong either to GOD or the devil.  This paradox was, of course, expressed by Christ when He said, 'Whosoever will save his life shall lose it.  And whosoever shall lose his life, for my sake, shall find it."

"There is no neutral ground in the universe: every square inch, every split second is claimed by GOD and counter claimed by satan." C.S. Lewis

"We must choose."

If you really want to know why I am so devastated, my mother was so good.  I am sure no greater closet demo monstrosity has ever lived.  With that, my greatest wish is death to tyrants, and a miserable torturous death to all baby rapers.

Sucked in by a succubus

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Praise GOD Almighty for delivering me from the hands of my mortal enemy!  Jesus you told us in your  WORD that mothers would be against daughters, daughters against mothers.

Born with a good spirit, a Holy anointed spirit, I  suffered, I was forced to suffer mightily, mysteriously, over and over, by a mortal enemy,  I failed to identify clearly as such for many, many years.

At 63,  I know full well what love feels like and I know what unbridled secret demonic hatred feels like.  Plagued by a succubus, mocked, stalked, crucified, lied on, tortured and tormented by a homemade demon for my entire life, I am finally coming to myself.  Finally realizing that I have a right to the Tree of Life, that I am somebody!

GOD said NO!

Born October 9, 1925, in Wade, North Carolina, to Jerome and Rachel Walters, a girl child so mystifyingly evil , it still takes my breath away to describe her.  As a result of her maniacal stealth constant evil,  I suffer with PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder).

Thanks to the information highway I have discovered the many names for my mother's condition; malignant narcissist, pathological liar, sadistic sociopath, nymphomaniac, psychopath .  Every name for something evil describes the woman that held my heart hostage for her carnal pleasure for decades.

A beautiful, charismatic, gifted woman that "lived" on this earth for 87 years as the most evil despicable successful succubus that ever lived.   Jesus did tell us to look at their fruit.  To listen to Martha, her sweet siren, you would be enraptured, her slave forever.

But if you look at her fruit and refuse to entertain any excuse from her lying foul mouth, you will know and you will shun.  There is no blessing in honoring her memory.  There is a curse.  Love her if you want to,  you are accursed.  Refuse to honor JEROME WALTERS, you are accursed.

Keep pretending that you don't know and don't want to know about such whorish women.  You better get on your knees right now and pray that your son or grandson never falls into the clutches of such a creature.  There is no freedom, there is no escape, SHE IS A SUCCUBUS!

I tell you GOD is tired of this mess!  There is no reason on this earth for this creature to have been allowed to live so wrong, so long, other than our collective ignorance.    Ignorance and lack of knowledge feed to us by her.

• Don't nevah git baptized again, dey ain't but one baptism
• Honor thy mother! (Very hollow disingenuous words from a woman that shot her own father in the heart and laughed)
• You sitting on a gold mine
• Truth and honesty don't get you no where but USED
• I would take that to my grave
• GAWD too slow

"My people perish for lack of knowledge."  Most people do not read the Bible.  Most people are lost running from pillar to post leaning to their own understanding.  Positive that the keen intelligence, satan deluded them into believing they possess,  is enough.

"You done runt out dawthur ….you can't go no lower." I am very sure I was barely three when I heard my grandfather deliver those words to that woman,  Mathy Jane,  the infrequent interloper that came by whenever she needed more money.

Something so evil and deplorable she refused to look at herself.  We got sucked in by a succubus.
Six children born into the clutches of a selfish, heartless, merciless, sick, sadistic, greedy whore, so disrespectful, so rebellious and common , she preached!

That Jezebel/Python searched for a "church" where she could be adored , honored and accepted,  though she was as phony as a three dollar bill.   (Martha was always hostile, angry, insulting.  I know for a fact that she hated all of her pulpit associates because she told me.  She called them all bunch of dummies.  She demanded to be the one selected to preach in her pastor's absence.  She stole sermon's blatantly stole Jasper Williams an Augusta H. Hall, dry)   Martha did not preach one single day to save souls!  She preached because she needed to find a place to wear her fine clothes. Where she could slay people with her fineness, almost "whiteness".  A place where she could act holy and put on a show for a few hours a day.  Some where to park her luxury car.

GOD said NO!

Thank you LORD, my bad dream, my 62 year nightmare,  is finally over.  Praise the LORD.  Honor her or remain silent concerning your constant abuse, if you want to.  You will never prosper.

"Judge not that you be not judged"

It is no secret what GOD can do.  He can and will do mightily. I am living proof.  I have been through the fire!

I said Dear LORD, how do I explain my anointing to unbelievers? "You don't have to.  Like minds come together, are drawn to each other.  Those that have scorned, mocked,  and ridiculed you when you were at your lowest,  all knew better.  Like your mother they refuse the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.  They don't want it.  They live to hate, revile and injure. It gives them joy because they refuse to look inwardly.  Do forgive them.  They do not care, can not care and will never care without the indwelling of the Holy Spirit."

The Dear LORD has spoken very clearly to me, led and guided me for my entire life.  GOD strengthened me to know my most horrible truth.

"Don't you(blankety , blank, blank tell a _______ ______ thang dat go on in dis house!"  That was our law.  We all knew better to breathe a word about anything that went on in my mother's house.  Did I fully comprehend how deeply evil and depraved she actually was? No!!! GOD put blinders on, put me on auto pilot until I could understand.

My mother did exactly what she wanted to, with whomever she wanted to , when ever she wanted to.  Was she a master liar ? " Yes!  A brilliant actress?  Yes!  Did she know that she would be found out, revealed to the world by me, one day?   She sure did because she told me, Mother's Day, 2005.

I was mystified.  "You'll be duh one tuh betray me one day!" ; she angrily scoffed and barked.  Like the frail docile slave she created, I responded; "I would never do that mother."  Little did I know.

I am sitting here humbled, marveling as GOD unfolds His WORD in my heart.  Crying, Thank you Jesus! Thank you Jesus!

I do know this misery I suffered, we suffered, had to be done.  When merely reading the word about ravenous wolves infiltrating GOD's house, His pulpits, it is simply literature.  But when you put a face on it, add the sick deeds done to innocent children by their so called anointed preaching mother you will get someone's attention.  To realize that one woman could be so common, so evil,  for so long, not undetected, but feared, is more than amazing, it is the fulfillment of GOD's Truth, His Justice .

A loathsome creature so feared she roared and destroyed for 87 years , unencumbered.  GOD said NO!

A woman so horrible,  granddaddy had no answer for her behavior , other than; "When your head is in the lion's mouth, don't make any sudden moves."  And: "Leave heah (here) and don't nevah come back!"

Martha was an evil despicable tyrant but also so unmerciful you could not flee her.   She would not leave one victim alone.  It was as if she were pleading; "I need some one to torture!  I can't look at my  own despicable life! I need someone to cast down, walk on, ridicule, over and over.  Since you nitwits were born to me. Since that righteous GOD,  that I secretly hate, saddled me with your worthless ***,  because I am full of pride over my good looks, light skin, good  hair, and "skills", I chose you to sacrifice you.  I will sacrifice you Gwen!  You will be my footstool. I am merciless and full of abominable hatred.  I  will destroy you gladly for my king satan.  I fully intend to snatch every dream, every gift, every hope, every promise, you ever thought of having."

Do know that somewhere between my mother and ex-husband, every manuscript, (including my master's thesis),  every book of poetry and prose, every piece of art, was destroyed while I was birthing my daughter alone.  Completely alone, in Southwest Community Hospital ALONE! No mother, no husband, not even a friend. No nurse, no attendant , no doctor.  I suffered mightily for 28 lonely hours. I refused all painkillers, no anesthesia , for fear it would harm my  beautiful baby, someone I loved dearly the moment I conceived.

No, I was not totally alone because I had Jesus.  He held my hand during the whole ordeal.  When my baby was born with the umbilical cord wrapped tightly around her neck, GOD interceded, sent the doctor in.

For all my critics that scream; "Shut up! I am tired of hearing it.  I hope you know that you are also merciless.  You know that there are men and women that do in fact rape their own babies while you scream shut up.   Incest and pedophila is on the upswing,  while you scream "Shut up!" May the Dear LORD have mercy on your soul.

Something to ponder, if my mother born in 1925, became something so repugnant, the world refuses to know about her, what does this new generation promise?  They have the vile Internet?  There are far more greedy ravenous selfish "preachers" in existence today.  Fewer and fewer read the word, less than that genuinely study it.

I am still very ashamed of my mother. ( Pray for me.)  I do know she had to be.  We had to go through this in order to see, to know, that every Word in that Book is true.

When I realized that my own mother  was so devious,  she forced me to drink a whole tumbler of alcohol at eight years old , so that she and her just as despicable husband could rape me, I was deeply ashamed.

Now I am proud.  I can look back over my life, 62 years of mystifying pain, and understand why.  Martha was too common.  The people in Wesley Chapel A.M.E. Zion church knew.  "Common as bat ****!" was all I ever heard as a small child.  People said that in the church!  I don't think they would have let her in without granddaddy's presence.

I do not know when her evil started.  I don't know if she was born evil.  I know that it was her first cousin that shared with me the fact that my mother smashed a puppy to death between two bricks when she was a child.  I do know that she remained secretly sadistic for her entire life.

I love and forgive every one in my family.   She was a tyrant!  She was a beast! Continue to hate and revile me if you so desire.  But, not one of you can point to anything that I ever did wrong to you.  I have never lied on you or hated you in any way.

I do cry for you.  I was privileged to see the evil she did unto you.  She did pick and chose the ones to savagely beat and the ones to spoil and pretend to love deeply.  "You luddle black bastards"  We suffered the most.  If our fathers fled her evil before she could get their names on a marriage contract, we suffered!  We suffered so mightily,  we came to accept it as normal.  So beaten down and trauma bonded,  we learned to be grateful for a phony smile.

GOD said NO!

Help me LORD Jesus! Send me a publisher, a great publisher that is honest.  Send me a producer, put my life on film!  Send me,  good merciful Jesus,  loving children to help me fulfill your will.  And it is done in Jesus' name. Amen.

Junior Wells - Cryin' Shame

I am not with any of this racial division and color bias.  Not one bit.  If I had one dime for every time my mother blasted me for the color of my skin I do believe I would be a millionaire.

Why hate people for the color of their skin?  They can't go back up into the womb and change it.  Martha had to blast every one darker than she was because that is the only thing she had that made her feel better.  She could not possibly feel good about her low moral character, or her total inability to be truthful on any subject.

A shameless, merciless, conjuring "root worker" that very successfully fooled every one she knew or met that she genuinely, sincerely, loved the LORD.

The only time I saw her cry was when that young third husband ran off with the Cadillac she did put in his name.  She fooled us into believing she was a hurt, scorned, wronged woman.  She was just hurt that he ran off with her long sleek car and now she had to start over scrambling some other man's brains.

Some things are a crying shame.

FREE WILL!

Dear LORD!  I am down here on my knees thanking you for FREE WILL!  I am thanking you for making intercession for me when I was unawares!   I am am blessed! I am  RESTORED! REDEEMED! REJOICING!

Dear LORD thank you for my blindness! My thickness, my naivety , my failure to comprehend the serious danger I was in.  Thank you for the fervent prayers of a righteous man.  Thank you for the good souls that stood in the gap for me until I could get on my feet.

Sometime in September, 2013, I do believe the evilest, most demonic , cunning, manipulative woman that ever lived was finally lowered into the ground for our safety, for our deliverance.  She finally went too far when she as a minister of the Gospel started bragging, started spewing braggadocios quips about how she wasn't repenting for ****!

GOD said NO!

A woman so selfish, so immoral, so unmerciful, she did deliberately take her entire family down, in order for her to be number one.  Martha Jane Walters never loved anyone in her entire life.  Nothing but a raging demon possessed, malignant narcissistic sadist!  Merciless!  A woman so evil and selfish you could not win.  She sadistically tormented us for loving her and sticking by her side.  She tormented you, stalked you when you fled.   She called every boss we ever had!  Engaged in nothing but smear campaigns.    Delighted in destroying every marriage she could by every means she could while grinning in your face!

This woman wanted nothing from anyone but the allegiance of her tormented victims.  She demanded to be surrounded by her "flying monkeys", little imps that did her biding without question.  "Don't you f****** n****** even f***** think back!"

Sick and sadistic for 87 YEARS!

GOD said NO!

Why did we suffer so, suffer so long, so so mightily?    Lack of knowledge .  Sure we went to church, never learned nothing!   We were just encouraged  to take more of that demonic whore's crap.  "Gawd, don't put no mo' on you than you can bear."

Not one word about fleeing or shunning the evil doer that held us hostage.  This is the beauty children! That Jerome Walters, that good man, that one true Christian, was praying, did in fact sacrifice his life for ours,  knew this very day was coming.

Every day of my life when I went to my grandfather mystified by another evil deed heaped on me by my own mother, grandaddy always delivered the same message; "Don't worry dawthur, Jesus Will Fix It."

I do pray for and forgive all of my haters, my scorners.  You can't know what message GOD has placed in my heart.  I pray for that Jezebel spirited  woman that is attempting to block my path, my blessings , by declaring me a liar.    A woman so ignorant she preaches racial division, declared that I am a liar because she knows no black woman could ever be so evil.  Shut your mouth and get out of GOD's way!

Read Matthew 28: 18 - 20 today.

"And Jesus came up and spoke to them, saying, All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth.  Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son, and the Holy Ghost, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age."

Praise GOD almighty!  I just copied that out of my inheritance.  One of the few things of any worth that my mother ever gave me.

I can not help being humbled, marveling at the knowledge and image I still carry in my head.  Two little brown bastard toddlers standing in a graveyard (The Cow field, Coefied) on the bank of the Cape Fear river watching my mother collect her "goofer dust".  A woman so depraved she taught her toddlers how to collect it.  I shall never forget that lesson.

"If you want to do good, git yo' dust off a innocent baby's grave.  I use Norresa.  Ni, (now) if you want to do evil, to harm, you go ova' heah (here) tuh dis murdered man's grave.  Git on you knees when you collect it, scoop it up in yo' right hand and throw it ova' yo' left shoulder. Chuck it! One fuh duh father, one fuh duh son, and one fuh duh holy ghost.  Take duh rest and sew it up in  red flannel , soaked it in Hoyt's cologne."

There is nothing else I need to say.  Just what kind of woman would do such a thing?  A raging lunatic!
A MURDERING, lying, manipulative, miserable wretch!  GOD broke that bond, unyoked me from that demon.  Praise the LORD!

If you know like I know and you still love her, still admire her, GOD help you!

To all my kit and kin, to all my friends, enemies and friendemies, be abundantly blessed today as you search out your soul salvation.

Where am I?  Down at the cross, on my knees, praying for my whole family.  Praying for the restoration of my grandfather's good name.   CHILDREN OF GOD MY GRANDFATHER NEVER KILLED HIMSELF!  That miserable wretch of a woman did in fact hake his life! Not only did she take his life, she did deliberately take our lives! So jealous you wnted nothing more than to grind each and every person of goodness, of hope, ground into fine powder because she was a no mannered selfish rebellious BEAST!  She tore us all down!   GOD told me IT IS DONE!  THAT JESUS FIXED IT! 

Too much dust

This big fat buffarilla woman disturbed my mother's sleep, it was about one in the morning . The woman had come to see her ,  (my mother) , about a week prior, seeking MADAME ******'s help.  (Madame ****** was some shame my bored mother created on a whim.  She read Tarot cards, palms, guaranteed all men their "nature" back, decades before Viagra.)

This Magella -Gorilla woman  brought a picture of one fine Adonis looking man with her.  This woman pined for this man's love, for his attention.   My mother took her money , gave her the "dust" and told her to sprinkle it in  the man's shoes.

I did chide my mother for her awful swindle.  I was the door keeper and greeter.  I seated the ignorant and destitute, inquired about their misery or concerns.  It was all so mysterious.  Martha worked out of her  kitchen.  Dressed in gypsy flowing robe, head wrapped in a beautiful scarf, and feigning some foreign homemade accent.  She was Hilarious.

This poor woman was a big ugly woman.   My mother laughed and replied that a nigga would screw a snake if someone held his head.

Sure enough, the woman called from a motel where they did the deed. He did commit fornication with her.  Unfortunately while dressing the man was puzzled; "Whur all dis dirt come from ? " and poured the dirt out into the trash.

The woman called in a panic,  demanding to know what to do. Martha responded; " You weren't supposed to pour all of it in his shoes! I said sprinkle! That means grains , (dumb ass)."

We laughed.

My mother conjured me , but obviously , too much and far too long.  Too much dust.  PTL!

87 years of evil treachery.  My LORD ! My LORD!

DIVINE ORDER

• GOD deliberately planted me in the belly of a woman lower than any ordinary whore.  She was a sick sadistic sociopath.  A deeply disturbed woman, full of   insane jealousy.  A woman so cunning and disrespectful to the Holy Spirit she dared to preach.  Secured a license , not for the purpose of saving souls, but to destroy and prevent any form of happiness, to kill all joy,  from everyone unfortunate enough to love her,  while she roared with laughter.
• GOD placed JEROME WALTERS IN MY LIFE TO SAVE ME!  I would have been lost, completely decimated,  sacrificed to every form of debauchery for MARTHA JANE WALTERS' perverted pleasure.   She,  my mother , was a PERVERT!  A complete REPROBATE and she knew it,  and was proud of it.   She did put on sheep's clothing.  She was a RAVENOUS WOLF.   She preferred faking "religion".  Jesus on her lips was her ploy to keep you near, to keep you confused.  GOD SAID NO!
• NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST ME SHALL PROSPER!
• WHAT IS DONE IN THE DARK SHALL SURELY COME TO LIGHT!
• EVERY WALTERS THAT CONTINUES TO HONOR HER INSTEAD OF JEROME WALTERS IS ACCURSED! You will never prosper.  Every things you attempt will come to naught.  She hated you too!   
• Life is a vapor.  GOD did not send us here to stay always.  He did send us here to upift the Kingdom.  Martha's horrid life uplift's the KINGDOM!  You now know clearly that you must personally study GOD'S WORD for yourself.  You know to beware of flattering words, empty promises.  You will know to look carefully at the fruit of those that keep you on your knees, those that keep you confused.

I am not bragging...

I am facting!   One of my mothers's favorite jokes. I am facting and bragging!  Me and GOD , under satanic attack for 62 years!  With the help of the LORD I fought off a succubus! We won! If you want to ever win, choose GOD.

Why were nearly 4 million slaves still suffering under the lash of slavery in 1865? Why did so many remain on the same plantations?  Fear! They were trauma bonded.  That is precisely what our evil Jezebel mother did to us.  We are all suffering with PTSD.

I would have never known without my brother returning after a 25 year hiatus! Divine Order brought him back and the gig was up!

Skank! Would not come to CHRIST, to the truth.  She did falsely believe she was smarter than GOD. Truly believed her brilliant acting and superior ability to scramble brains would always prevent her detection.

The truth is, who knew such evil possible?

Well! Choose ye this day whom thou shall serve.

Pressing on in Jesus' name! Healingl Restored! Redeemed! And always praying the LORD!

Kiss an angel good morning ...

by Charlie Pride was one of my mother's favorite songs.  I loved it too.  Like Charlie, my family loves Country music.  Some call us black hillbillies.  Well, so be it.

The truth is we are ONE people, GOD's people.  The color of our skin is as insignificant as shoe size.  Stop putting people in a box labeling them, making certain assumptions based on skin color, status or ethnicity.  You know better!

My poor mother lived 87 years bragging on her color and swearing dark skin people were the bain of her existence when in fact she was something so repulsive she had to hide from herself.  Something so common she hated everyone that could live a sincere life.

Why you must know my life story; Martha Jane Walters is the tip of the iceberg.  The proliferation of such women, such mothers signals the downfall of man.  When my book is published it is my prayer that all men and women will exercise great caution before they create a life.

Men and women that freely fornicate with any and every one, do it if you want to, but you will be deeply ashamed.  Women left with these unwanted children will punish them forever.

I have pieced my mother's horrible reprobate life together and it is obvious to me why she became a sick sadistic lying whore.  She was lost, blind, stupid and extremely rebellious.  I found my own mother in 2 Timothy 3:1 -7.   Don't laugh, don't mock,  don't scorn, you will be there soon enough if you are a liar, if you fail to crucify your flesh.  If you mock GOD.  If inwardly you hate GOD and His commandments.If you carry secret jealousy and covetousness in your heart.

"But realize this, that in the last days difficult times will come For (wo)men will be lovers of self, lovers of money, boastful, arrogant, revilers, disobedient, ungrateful, unholy, unloving, 
irreconcilable, malicious gossips, without self control, brutal, haters of good, treacherous, reckless, conceited, lovers of pleasure, rather than lovers of GOD; holding a form of godliness, although they have denied its power, and avoid such (wo) men as these.  For among them are those who enter into households and captivate weak women weighed down with sins, led on by various impulses, always learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth."

Praise GOD almighty! I read that and nearly fell out of my seat.  GOD's WORD predicted my mother , described her down to her teeth.

• No one loved Martha more than Martha loved Martha.  She was her favorite person.  Now I know why she took me  shopping , just to buy herself a Cadillac trunk full of shoes;"I want all of these (10 pair) in every color you have! I am very sure she ended up with one hundred pairs of shoes! I remember that day clearly in Buster Brown's in Eutaw Shopping Center on Bragg Boulevard  ….Oh, Gwen pick you out a pair (a pair as in ONE) from the sales rack" 
• Boastful, all my mother did was brag on herself.  No one that knew her can ever call me a liar on that score.  "I'm light bright and damn near white! I can scrambled a nigga's brains lak an egg!"
• Arrogant, if you knew her you know she looked down on every one not as fortunate as she was .  Her greatest pleasure was whizzing by fellow church members, walking to Wesley Chapel in the hot sun on Highway 301, in her long sleek Cadillac.
• Revilers, disobedient to parents.  My mother took great pride in doing everything her father kindly advised her not to do. Ungrateful, just like clockwork, my mother was on my grandfather's porch begging for money, because some man had done her wrong.  Money! Money! Money! you could never give Martha enough of your money.  She never paid you back.  Be foolish enough to remind her of a debt she owed.  You would be lucky to escape without any blood being shed.
• Unholy, very unholy, all practitioners of "Witchcraft" are unholy.  Unloving; she was iceberg cold when she wanted to be, beating you severely and always calling you every filthy name she could think of.  I have a handsome brother that thinks he is ugly.  My mother made him pay for being an "outside" child. She was newly married to her 2nd husband, tried to abort this baby at 6 month gestation in 1956! He was born weighing two pounds 2 ounces and she made him pay for embarrassing her.  A poor boy, tall and brown just like her lover.  Her unsolicited explanation ;"He look lake my mama's people."
• Irreconcilable!  She sent me a fecal matter smeared letter for no reason other than to blame for her third husband fleeing her.  (The man ran for his life when he realized what he had married. She tried to tie a "knot in his tale".  Martha very cleverly seduced her men into doing the unthinkable, molesting and raping her children for her pleasure ,then she held it over their heads if they ever tired of her abuse.  I was estranged from her for 9 years for that "letter".  GOD sent me back to her.  I totally forgave her for everything.  She responded with the secret treachery she heaped on me unawares.
• Malicious gossip, Martha's favorite pastime was getting on the phone, lying and tearing everyone she knew down.
• Without self control, none, moved her soon to be 3rd husband in after knowing him less than 45 minutes. Moved him in, lock , stock and barrel, while her 2nd husband was serving in Viet Nam! Had sex with a bunch of men, in my presence, when I was 19! (I ain't been right since) 
• Haters of good,  Well she sure hated her daddy and she sure hated me.  Called me a lame do-gooder, "Miss Goody-two-shoes" was my family name.  She taunted me for being honest, a truth teller. (My LORD! My LORD!)
• I thought I would go through the list.  There is no need I have made my point.  She did deny the power of Almighty GOD in favor of conjure and voodoo.
• GOD did tell us to avoid such people.  But it is very difficult when you are born into the cluthes of such an abomination.

Study your Bible daily children.  Put some flesh on GOD's WORD.  I know that Almighty GOD saved me.  Placed Jerome Walters in my life to protect me from my evil, vile, repugnant mother.  He stood in the gap for me, prayed for me, for us.

I did morn and cry when I lost my entire family.  But GOD told me that it is all in Divine Order.  "Many are called, few are chosen."  Hate me, shun me, revile, ridicule me if you want to.  If you can't receive this message, clearly it was not meant to be.  You can serve evil fickle man if you want to , "As for me and my house, we will serve the LORD!"

No,  I will never shut up and I will not back down.  "Let he who hath ears hear." And Always Praise the LORD!  Be abundantly blessed today as you continue on your way.  But if you ever wonder why you can't quite get there, do know that it is your disobedience. satan has you in the palm of his hand and every time Jesus sends and angel to save you , you swat her away.

Salvation is free. the way of the transgressor is hard.  The price you will pay for your failure to heed GOD's WORD is too high a price to pay.  Sin is not worth the anguish.  And never forget satan is a lying trickster!  Look what he did to my poor mother.

Do you love me?

A better question is, do you love yourself?  How do you treat yourself? Do you permit people to mistreat or abuse you because they claim they have a right to because of the color of your skin?

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My poor mother died truly believing that she was entitled to be a whorish predator because of the color of her skin.

Whoa,  she is not the only.  You can buy into that slave "yalla" crap if you want to.  We had to listen to my mother brag about her color and hair every day of our lives.  I am so glad my grandfather spoke up every time she abused me about the color of my skin.

"Don't pay no attention to yo'mama dawthur …she ignut!  I always wished I wuz brown lak you."

I will not perpetuate racism or "colorism".  THERE IS ONLY ONE RACE! THE HUMAN RACE! 

We do live in a pluralistic society and we should not see color.  i can understand having a preference.  But, please do not believe a certain color makes a person better.

I don't care if a rich black man marries a white woman.  Marry who you please. But, please do not rank people by race or skin color.  Do not assume I am less intelligent or less worthy because of the color of my skin.

You will know ...

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First of all please permit me to scre-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-mmmmmmm; THANK YOU JESUSsssssss! Praise the LORD I am humbled! I was broken, smashed to bites, ground into dust, a fine powder, by my own "mother"!

62 years of SECRET SATANIC attack!  For no apparent reason.  I said apparent, I know now GOD has a purpose for my (our) excruciating pain.  The Dear LORD reveals it all in His Book.  You do have to study it.   "Study to show yourself approved."  "My people perish for lack of knowledge."  And may I add, a serious lack of faith.  We holler Jesus! Jesus! attend church every Wednesday night and Sunday, to no avail.  All babes in Christ must dig deeper and woe unto anyone that refuses Him.

No, Martha Jane Walters and your entire demonic horde,  you have been found out, revealed from heaven.  Run you curs!  Every last one of you shameless, immoral, ungrateful, blind, deaf, simple imps.

Are you really dumb enough to side with a Jezebel whore straight from the lowest bowels of satan's vilest hell? Or are you still traumatized, frozen in a catatonic  state?  In sheer disbelief that all the great tragedy that befell you was orchestrated by your own mother for her sadistic pleasure?

While Martha was a great "root worker", she was merely a pawn for satan, a slave serving satan while she thought she was winning.  GOD lifted the veil! He opened my eyes.  I did say,  GOD why so long?  Why the secret savage cruelty?  He told me the demonic Jezebel-Python spirit that controlled my mother,  sensed something incredible in me and roared with jealousy and set out to destroy me.  To tear me from limb to limb, to grind me into  dust , while putting on the greatest performance ever seen.  "Mother of the church", loving supportive mother, someone merciful and caring.

GOD said NO!  Because the Dear LORD wants us ALL saved , He gave Martha time and space, 87 YEARS,  all to no avail.  Too stiff necked, too full of pride, too lying to ever come to the Light, to come under Grace.

  Do know that all lies are from satan's mouth and all lies stem from fear.  Martha Jane did instill incredible fear in us.   She was a savage brute! A common low whore that was secretly proud to be a child of lucifer himself.

I only have one message for you today children; "Fear no man, fear nothing."  Fear will make you lie.  If you are a LIAR, satan is your father.  Find out what you are afraid of .   Chase it down.  KNOW the source of your deep shame.

I know that Martha targeted my (our) "sexuality".  Molesting us the very first night  she tricked my grandfather into releasing us into her care.  I call still see both those buzzards grinning with their pearly white teeth.  The abominable evil that controlled Martha targeted our sexual innocence, then our pride, our self esteem, our courage, our emotions.  Sure, I was severely psychologically damaged.  By age eight  I was through with this world.  We resorted to hiding in the libraries on main post. (Fort Bragg, NC)

The librarians marveled at the two pretty little brown children pouring over books daily until the library closed.  Then we would haul stacks of books home.  I found solace in great literature.  My brother read science and math books.  We grew to maturity, that slave of an ABOMINATION,  that Mathy Jane thang,  never let go, that tenacious bulldog -snapping turtle,  never let go and never let on that she was seriously satan's concubine, not his bride.  Martha Jane Walter's was satan's whore! She was too common to be his bride! That's low, I know, but every word revealed to me from Almighty GOD is true!
Martha Jane Walters was never satisfied with our collective pain or shame!  That whore loved us to death, syrupy sweet nothing,  slathered all over us,  while she stabbed us deeply in the back, twisting a dirty rusty dagger while she grinned and purred.   Visited our homes chucking "dust".  Mailing us letters full of "dust" or excrement, all the while professing her innocence.  She scratched her head along with us , helped us to look for the demon that hated us, knowing full well it was her,  all along.

GOD said No!

I did ask GOD, why did she MURDER him?  Why did she take the life of such a good man?  "She was a thief, a common whore, a common jealous, envious whore that wanted nothing but her father's mantel to  fake with, to flaunt,  like she earned it.  She did want to ruin his good name!   She hated him deeply for his goodness, for his mercy, for his stupidity!  She thought he was stupid for loving her, for never giving up on her.  Martha secretly hated everyone that loved her because she secretly hated herself."

Love yourself children.  Come out of that ignorance you are incased in.  "Know ye the truth and be set free TODAY!  Come to the Light!  Come out of that deep dark pit your demonic, satanic,ignorant,unrepentant mother/grandmother/aunt/cousin/friend/pastor left you in."

PTL! "You will know"  Before you judge me so severely that you miss out on your healing, take the time to LISTEN! To comprehend, be receptive, pray for understanding.

GOD did not bring me here to be Martha Jane's dirty washrag! He did not bring Jerome Walters here to be Martha Jane's footstool!  GOD said No!  and You will know that GOD is GOD, GOD IS GOOD,  and no ignorant "goofer dust", no vile reprobate , bold enough to crawl up in GOD's pulpit LYING , is going to stop or prevent GOD'S DIVINE ORDER!

Keep cloaking for the guilty if you want to.  Keep lying and denying for a demon.  GOD will not bless you! YOU WILL NOT PROSPER!  Humble yourselves, get baptized (go under the water), come to the Light.

Be abundantly blessed today .  Always pray, always seek His face.  Put GOD first and always Praise the LORD!

Pressing on in Jesus' name!

[Excerpt from The JR WLTERS CHRONICLES   March 21, 2015   All rights reserved.]

Yes, I am singing ...

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my joy bell is ringing.  satan thought he had me bound. Martha Jane Walters died laughing, positive that I was utterly destroyed.  As much as bragged; "Yer life didn't turn out lak you planned …did it?"

I certainly can understand her great confidence.  83 years old at the time, winning, winning, at least she thought.  She had a man the same age as her oldest son for a "husband".  He knew well to hand over his check, sit down in her family room in the dark, using a huge wooden plank for a food tray.  He knew not to complain.  He knew to never think for himself, just sit up under her and rot.

I know that my mother was very proud of her "gifts".  She was quite clairvoyant .  I was amazed when she read her Tarot cards perfectly.  I was a witness when she told the beautiful young lady that she was pregnant with triplets.  *Lillie was unmarried and found herself pregnant  for a married man in 1964.  Of course Madame ******'s advice was an abortion.

Every day, granddaddy's same admonition; "You going tuh hell dawthur."  Everyday she laughed and paid him no attention.

My joy bell is ringing because I can look back over my life and finally see what a great failure she was.  What if she had loved her bastard children instead of beating, raping, brutalizing, terrorizing, holding hostage ?  What if she nurtured instead of covering her devious sick plot with platitudes of her make believe love?

"No weapon formed against you shall prosper."  "Shall prosper", shall benefit the evil doer.  It is clear to me rebellious Martha hated GOD,  hated Him for her shame.  Martha was a complete and utter fool.  She blamed me for her "outside child" that she had on her husband.   "… ain't nun ugh her m******* bizness!  My son forsuke me! She duh 'cause of it! "   For 62 years I was the cause of everything that went wrong in Martha's miserable life.  Not her incest, not her pedophilia,  not her extreme whorishness, not her pathological lying, not her brutal beatings of any and all that dared to admonish her.  Not her thievery, her plotting .  Not even her delving into the occult to assure that she would always have her way, would always drive a Cadillac.

 Looking back over her life I can certainly see why she was so deeply ashamed.  Put out of school for pregnancy at age 16.  My brilliant brave grandfather went before the board of education in Cumberland County , North Carolina and pleaded her cause.; "Gentlemen, the fact that my daughter is in family way, is all the more reason she should be permitted to remain in school.  She will need and education.  Do not punish her forever for making one mistake"  

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The cold judgmental hearts of the school board, so moved by my grandfather's eloquence,  she was permitted to remain in school and graduate.  It did not change Martha's cold ungrateful heart.: "I hate dat N******! Dat damn yalla n***** ruined MY LIFE!"  That was in reference to her first born.  That is what she said behind his back.  She was syrupy sweet in his face.  I wonder if he ever wondered why his house burned down, why he lost all of his land, his inheritance from his grandfather?  

It is obvious to me now, Martha was never no more than a very bored, spoiled brat,  whore,  that bitterly and not so secretly hated everyone, the entire world for her mistakes.

I found this description on Facebook; "NARCISSISTS ARE MASTERS OF ILLUSION, THEY PLAY THE POOR ABUSED VICTIM WHILE IN TRUTH THEY ARE WREAKING HAVOC BY TORTURING, MISTREATING AND ABUSING THOSE THEY FOOLED INTO LOVING THEM" - Y. Clerebout

Do not blaspheme the Holy Ghost!  Do not use GOD's name in vain.  No one can tell me that I wasn't there as a toddler, at midnight, under a full moon, with my mother as she collected her "goofer dust" in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost.

Martha was a stalker, you would never enjoy the good abundant life GOD promised you with her around.  She would grin in your face and feed you poison.  Martha did delight in my failure, at the doors constantly slammed in my face.  She delighted and cheered at all of our misfortune.

What a long miserable life full of debauchery.  "Judge not that you be not judged."  I am telling you because GOD told me to.  After 62 years of secret savage rebuke from my mother, I certainly don't need weak faith-ed, "know-it-alls" to tell me to shut up and get over it.

How dare you think there is only one Mathy Jane?  How dare you be dumb enough to think that you or any one in your family is safe from such creatures?  Do know that  the misery Martha Jane Walters did deliberately cause and delight in for 87 years is NOT  over.

Warning world, she is here by the millions! And she is growing! Stiff necked rebellious lying sadistic bullies that refuse to live in a world where anyone is happy, where any one appears to have more than her.

Jesus said shun, from such stay away.   I was very offended and deeply heart when my entire family turned against me in favor of her.  I was offended until I realized many are just like her.  Just as jealous, just as lying and deceitful.  Just as common and no count.

It is "Free Will" .  It is their choice.  "Man does not do what is right dawthur. Man does what is convenient ."; the eloquent words of my brilliant grandfather.

It is not convenient to shake that "roach" out of GOD's robe for Simone Temple A.M.E.Zion Church right now.  I do know that my mother called them all ;" …greedy dogs and a bunch of f******!"

Martha was double minded.  She did entertain demonic spirits that did ultimately steal her anointing.
There is no shortcut to salvation.  You must pray and study your Bible daily.  You must think critically, seek GOD's face.

"For GOD I live and for GOD I will die."  For all the friends and family I have lost for baring my soul in an attempt to heal from this excruciating long painful journey, may you never know such pain and may your heart be made glad in Jesus Christ.

"Don't worry dawthur, Jesus will fix it."