Listen carefully; "None but the righteous shall see GOD"

Please listen very carefully; "None!" None, not One, no One but, the righteous shall see GOD. Notice, GOD does NOT identify the righteous by color! By age, gender, sexual persuasion.  You must be righteous!

What is righteousness? It is kindness , compassion, it is true love.   It is love at first sight! Praise the LORD! I loved my granddaddy at first sight, and I knew he felt the same way. If my grandfather ever told me that I was the jewel in his crown once, he told me a million times.

Parents, if you want your children to live right, to do right, compliment them. Tell them what they can do, NOT what they can't do or should not do.

I do hope and pray that the millions of people crowding into "churches" every Sunday know that GOD does not take attendance. [HE] doesn't need to, [HE] knows our hearts. GOD knows the number of hairs on our head.

If you are running to "church" trying to keep bad luck and tragedy off of your lying , whorish ass, stay home, read the Bible on your own. Pray, fast, purge.

If you are a racist, if you believe any race, any creed, any color to be superior, you are no Christ lover. You may be a Christian because you blindly follow tradition. You sacrifice and go without, tithing, sincerely believing GOD demands one tenth of your income.  Not once have you ever asked yourself why? You sit under Jesus pimps screaming; "Would a man rob GOD?" never knowing or caring or understanding the narrative around that scripture.

The truth is we all have to work out our own soul salvation. "Live, Laugh, Love!" Love you! Love you enough to stop lying to yourself.  Love yourself to know the truth.  I spent sixty-two years trying to earn my birth mother's love.  Why? She wasn't worth my time.  "Know thyself!"  Know your worth.

Why did I cover and cloak for her perversion? Why did I pretend that it wasn't her fault? Why was I her bitch? She was my mother, she was clairvoyant, she could read my mind.  Mathy read minds and she was a spiritual vampire.

I do pray fervently for all of my fellow victims.  I pray the Dear LORD pierces the hearts of  all five of my brothers with a finger of love, wipe away all hatred, all guilt, all fear.  I pray all five of my brothers will be abundantly blessed, that they rebuke that albatross that rejected them first, ruined them on purpose.

"Come ye out from among them."

"Those that wait upon the LORD …"

LORD how did I do it? It had to be you LORD! Severely sexually molested! Starved, feed a diet of nothing but grits and grease for months! Cursed DAILY! CURSED LIKE A MANGY DOG DAILY! MARHA JANE WALTERS TREATED HER IMMEDIATE FAMILY LIKE MANGY DOGS! MURDERED HER OWN FATHER AND NEVER SO MUCH AS PUT A HEADSTONE ON HIS GRAVE!

She did put on a show of wearing all black for two or three years claiming she was in mourning like Scarlet O'Hara in Gone With The Wind.

No one helped us, no one came to our rescue.  The fact we didn't tell didn't help much.  I know now we enabled our abuser.

Martha dropped me off.  How many freshman get "dropped off" for college?  Mathy was in a hurry.  She had to get her tall, fine, yalla, almost-good haired husband back to Ft. Lee, Virginia.

LORD you are so wonderful and I was so dumb and blind.  Martha wanted to know how much money I had managed to save while spending the summer with my "fabulous cousins".    I like a fool,  told her, before I knew it I was back under her thumb and broke.   She promised to make her new husband buy all my new school clothes for college.  What did I get? A cheap coat,  too small from "Robert Hall" and cussed the fuck out for being dumb enough to listen to her. "I ain't promised you shit!  You duh fool!  You should ugh stayed up'dere, earned some mo'money."

Little did I know, little did Mathy know, she did the best thing she could have ever done for me.  Martha's foul evil demonic treatment gave me hope, gave me drive, gave me tenacity.

Did I notice all the other families making a big day of the "First Day Of College"?  Sure, lucky them , two parents, doting mothers, loving siblings.   I didn't complain.  I knew why.   I was; "a black bastard, I had no daddy  …I should be glad she didn't flush me down the toilet with the other five." Yada, yada, yada, I heard it every day for my entire life.

My LORD from Zion, my own birth mother did harangue, blessing block, stalk, lie and plot on me for sixty-five years!

Beaming!Pure grinning because I am over here renewing my strength!

PRAISE THE LORD!

Why I am so excited!

I can't stop bragging.  From day one, this low evil slut was up to no good as far as I was concerned.  As far as we were all concerned, really.

Martha let me know at three years old how much she hated my "black muthfucking guts! You! You luddle black heifer! Telling Wright who you damn daddy is!"

Martha put on a show, a complete spectacle.  Martha had a melt down.  I can understand now.  There she was twenty-nine years old with three bastard children by three different men IN THE FIFTIES! .  I am sure everyone talked about her, as they should have.  Good girls from good homes never fell so low.

I am disappointed that the woman that would regularly tie us up, beat and brutalize her little children bloody,  never so much as parted her lips to her first cousin and his signifying girlfriend.

I do amaze myself.  I had to be quite the progeny,  to not only be able to tell my mother of the inquisition but, I clearly remember being proud of the fact that I knew a man's name that I had never met.  I knew my brother's father's name as well.  Was I praised?  No, I was crucified!  It is a wonder, a miracle that I ever spoke again.

Then when I was four and Mathy Jane came and kidnapped us when she heard the government would give her an allotment check if she pinned our birth only this "Bama.  That is exactly what she did and the first thing those two buzzards did , was sexually molest us and I told my grandaddy!

Mathy always pretended that was the reason she always hated me, stalked me and treated me like shit.  The fact is Martha Jane Walters hated every one!  Was jealous of every one because her hardheaded stiff necked ass flunked out of Virginia Union University her first semester.  Too proud to tell, she kept lying and taking her daddy's money.  Who did she hate and blame when she got caught? Her brother.

GOD promises to contend with those that contend with [HIS] children.  My grandfather used to warn her, I heard him over and over; "Mathy Jane! Gwen ain't the one, she sho'ain't the one you need to be messing  wid."

Martha was put in charge of drug clearance and Quality Control  for Womack Army Hospital.  What did she do ? Smuggled me free,  highly addictive drugs.  What did I do? I took them by the directions because that is how lame I was.  What did GOD do? Let some thug break into my apartment and steal my stash.  I had more illegal narcotics than any drug dealer.  Never abused them, never tried to sell them.

What is my point? "No weapon!"  No weapon formed against you shall prosper if you live righteously, love the LORD, hear , trust and obey.

trump is going to go down in flames.  Just like my birth mother, he has grown accustomed to winning so much , the possibility of losing,  has never crossed his little mind, until lately.  Look at this face.  The man is troubled.

Martha knew though.  She knew she would be dead but, she knew she would be discovered and discussed.  She knew she would be a lesson against trying to pimp Jesus.

The Joy of the LORD!

The Joy of the LORD is here! It is here , I am rejoicing.  GOD is knitting me back together one cell at a time.  This world will have to excuse me but,  the imps of this world took my breath away. GOD called me to this world sixty-five years ago, " brought me from a mighty long way!"  Planted me in the belly of  one of the lowest, demon possessed whores that ever lived.

Dear LORD I thank You for saving me, for setting this captive free!  Yes, that volunteer low whore for satan did in fact put a hurting on  me, on us, but  I SURVIVED!

PRAISE THE LORD!

LORD my soul is on fire with The Holy Ghost just remembering, just counting all the times you saved me from Martha's wicked best!  That evil fallen woman stalked me, stalked us for EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS  declaring she had won! Appearing to win while she was losing and on her way to hell.

The joy of the wicked is folly.  Yes, Martha Jane Walters was a reprobate, a slave to sin. No, not little regular sins like lying and stealing.  this whore insisted on practicing  WITCHCRAFT!  INCEST! PEDOPHILIA! MURDER! 

Well, how and why did she get away so long? Enablers, cowards, the pusillanimous.  So called Christians packing churches every Sunday for luck, for show, for graft, to see and be seen.

"Depart from me! I never knew you!"

Yes, my birth mother was a sick sadist of the worse order!

"Folly is joy to him (her) that is destitute of wisdom: but a man of understanding walketh uprightly. (Proverbs 15:21)

That is the truth! Nothing made Mathy Jane happier than one of her undercover "root working"schemes working.  She was destitute of wisdom. Her feet were swift to run to mischief.  The poor woman surrounded herself with books in order to look "smart".  Martha was very interested in sounding smart, being thought of as brilliant,  while actually having no thought or desire to ever read one book thoroughly.  Like trump, Martha was all about the con, the "art of the Con".

Martha even refused to  read her The Seven Lost Books of Moses   thoroughly, carefully.  For if she had , she would have known to never mix her "hand".  (If you practice WITCHCRAFT, You never mix your "hand" , you never practice good and evil, you must pick one.  The penalty , is insanity, of which Martha's bizarre behavior bears proof. )

She's gone now, finally.  I am rejoicing, finally. Beaming! PRAISE THE LORD!

"Come ye out from among them."

"Weeping may endure for a night but, Joy comes in the morning!

I'm so excited! PRAISE THE LORD! The wicked WITCH  is dead! THANK YOU JESUS!

Who knew? Who could know such evil could exist?  For so long? As an ordained minister?  GOD! Finally realizing my birth mother was demon possessed!  A poor fallen woman laden with deep, sick, perverted sin and debauchery tried to destroy me!  My granddaddy! The entire Walters dynasty on the down low. Martha Jane Walters did all of her EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS of dirt , under the guise of being a good Christian.

GOD told your dumb ass not to mock [HIM]. You did it anyway.

Martha Jane Walters was low life and common , knowing full well she knew better.  Poor foolish Martha did believe the voodoo and conjure she collected from graves in the name of the "Father, Son and Holy Ghost"  was more powerful than GOD [HIMSELF].

How did she get so ignorant? How did she fall so low? An anti-intellectual, an ignorant slut, a pseudo-intellectual. I have to laugh , my mother was like Charlie the Tuna, she just wanted to look good, to look the part.

Martha Jane Walters knew full well she was a reprobate but, she didn't mind, she loved it. Why? Because she was in charge! She bellowed, we bowed!

She's gone now though.

PRAISE THE LORD!

I stay fighting!

I'm a slugger! My fists have been balled up since birth. No, I do not take my existence for granted. Yes, I am glad to be here,  even if my own mother hated me with the deepest passion.  What did my own mother do to me that this world hasn't tried?

If low scum, ravenous wolves,  have invaded our pulpits, it is our fault. If you know a preacher to be a demon and you never open your mouth, you deserve the life you are forced to live.  If my five fellow victims rather remain silent , than reveal the very ogre that deliberated destroyed their lives because she was a demonic freak and they still remain too mortified to so much as give me a nodding wink, they deserve to suffer.

Did Martha really think she was that smart? That powerful? Why was she so proud of her little bullshit conjure?  Terrorizing cousin Rachel with witchcraft made her so proud. Scheme after scheme, Martha sunk lower and lower. She never admitted it but, knowing I disapproved of her life style, the incredible audible pain I spewed on her for having sex with all of those young soldiers in my nineteen year old presence,  killed any hopes she ever had of convincing me she was a stable person.

I stay on the battlefield fighting because I am a warrior woman! Made so by this corrupt, greedy, racist, immoral world!  I stay on my knees because my own birth mother was the most evil woman that has ever lived!

I stay fighting because I have courage! I stay fighting because I know evil can NOT win.  I will stone bust you upside the head with the truth because fate linked me up with Mathy Jane!

Men stop impregnating lunatic, insane, sadistic,  demon possessed whores!  So she preached! trump is President! So!

Be ashamed! We were disgraced and lacked the faith to face our greatest nemesis OUR OWN MOTHER! Jesus told us our enemies would be of our own household! Yet, we are deaf! Jesus told us mothers would be against daughters!  Hearts would wax cold! They don't want to feed grandma and grandpa!

The potus gives the nod, the wink-wink, go ahead kill as many of "them" as possible.  We got your back.''

My mother didn't think GOD was paying any attention either. The woman ended up so ashamed, so degraded by volunteer sin,  she jumped in her grave, wasn't even sick.

"Come ye out from among them."

"WHAAAAAAAAATTTTTT!!! YOU MEAN TO TELL ME!"

Humbled unto death.  Just prostrate with humility, swooning, staggering while rejoicing, thanking GOD for honoring me with [HIS} Love, Protection, Anointing!

I praise you LORD! Sitting here right now looking back over my life, I swoon, ball up in a fetal position and rock. I just rock, self soothe.  LORD Jesus Christ how did MARTHA JANE WALTERS  go so wrong?   How could any one be so wrong, so long? MARTHA JANE WALTERS  was one sick human being!

Why did I take it so long? Why was I blind? Conditioned! Stockholm syndrome! No, DIVINE ORDER!

"The wicked shall cease from troubling."

"Come ye out from among them".  Don't fear them.  What finally brought me out of my terrifying fear? I did follow the example of my little "half raised" daughter.  My daughter made her cry, refused to lie for her. I was proud.

For what ever reason, I have always loved my daughter.  She is ABSOLUTELY  the best thing to ever happen to me or for me.  I'm humbled, overwhelmed by the goodness of GOD.

Maybe I  just wasn't scared enough.  She said I remembered too much. WOMAN!  No one can come to this earth, live the life you lived and just leave! No! No! No! Have some damn manners for once in your life.  Have some compassion! 

No, I may never know what happened to the woman that birthed me. I can only speculate, practiced conjure and  became THE SICKEST INCESTUOUS PEDOPHILE FAKE PREACHER THAT EVER LIVED!  If not THE, One , one of far too many , unfortunately.

 I know she's dead and that makes me happy.  I know better than to fool with witchcraft! I refuse to be a LIAR! A whore! A thief! A robber! A jealous, envious person.  I refuse to be a bad mother.

PRAISE THE LORD!

Don't you give up!

Don't you fret! GOD can NOT fail! You may not listen, you may not heed. But, Almighty GOD can NOT fail! The evil doer can NOT win!

The most glaring truth about the evil doer, s/he commits evil with glee! S/he brags much too early.  I do understand why my mother felt it was safe to laugh at me, to mock me.  I was old.  We were both elderly women.  She was a monster and I was her bitch.  She was popular, thought she was famous. She gloried in the fact that her phone rang  "off the hook" , none stop.  Her advice was sought by many.

Martha was a farce, a fake.  Worse than a fake friend because she worked conjure against you while slathering all that good "Christian love" on you.  Martha layed hands on people, "healed" them, gave them communion, entered them into marriage.  Worse, gave them "last rites".

I still haven't heard from her church, Simon Temple African Methodist Episcopal ZION  Church on Yadkin Road, in Fayetteville, North Carolina.  If the AMEZ church permits this kind of person to preach and never issue an apology, a retraction, a prayer, nothing, something is wrong.

People do NOT know the Word because it is NOT being preached.  Listen to what is being preached.   Is every sermon about money, tithing, you and your family sacrificing?   Have you noticed the deep economic divide?  Your pastor owns a fleet of cars and you are still on the bus!   If your minister's claiming prosperity to be a blessing from GOD, you might want to pause a moment.

Well, if you study GOD's Word carefully you know evil doers are going to rage.  It is written.  It has to be done.  No matter.  It is All in Divine Order. Endure to the end.

"When you get down to it"

Well, well, well, when you get right down to it, it doesn't matter what the evil doer does to you.  It is ALL in Divine Order, none can escape the wrath to come.

Here I am old, fat, and happy.  Relieved, set free. Martha was a psychic , she could read Tarot cards perfectly.  Martha could read minds.  Unfortunately she used it against you.  She certainly used it against me.  But GOD!

GOD can break every chain if you ask [HIM], pray right, live right.  Yes, you must live right.  That is where Martha failed.  She could not live right.  She was carnal, she had no morals.  The fact is Martha had no morals because she didn't want any. Morals hindered Mathy's fun.  She was a rapist! A sadist! A MURDERER MANY TIMES OVER!   Always claimed Christianity and honesty to be some form of deep stupidity. Martha's motto was; "Git dem' fo'dey git you!"

I am a clairvoyant empath.  I can feel , discern other's pain, their hatred, jealousy, envy.  All too often I can feel way too much.  I can discern evil spirits, people possessed by demons.

If you have a demon, you must rebuke him/her.  You must pray, fast, purge.  You must pray for the strength to face your truth.  I was nearly sixty years old before I found the courage to humbly approach my mother concerning my savage rape (orchestrated by her) when I was eight years old.

Sure, she cussed me like a dog, spread more lies and more hatred on me.  So!?  She was the foul thing.  Any one rejecting me for the likes of that low whore can be nothing but simple imps themselves.  I can understand being fooled by Mathy for so long.  She was good at being evil, she was satan's best.

I was struck by something she said as she cursed my socks off for even suggesting she could ever do what we both knew full well she did; "I'mma Ordained MINISTER!"

"Thou fool!" Go wash!   GOD told us to repent of our sins, not cover them.

I just came to warn people against WITCHCRAFT!  Witchcraft is in the CHURCH! Don't play, don't turn your head, do not fear.  Just cast the evildoers out.

"Trust and Obey."

No Danger in the Water

Dear LORD thank you for this Christian Experience! Thank you for the little church on the side on the road.  Thank you for the church with nothing but an old piano and two tamborines.

Than you for no screens, nothing but a paper fan for air conditioning. Thank you for the sincere Christ lovers! Thank you for Jerome Walters!  Dear LORD I thank you for putting a righteous man in my life.

Thank You for saving my very life over and over for low these many years! Thank You for protecting me from the evil and unjust man, the unjust woman.   Thank you for saving me from my demon possessed mother!

Deliver All that wish to be delivered LORD.

PRAISE THE LORD!

L.T.D.-love ballad

I learned to engulf myself in great music early in life!

Dear LORD, thank you for never revealing the healing nature of music to my evil birth mother.  The slut would have taken that too.  Sure she would have. The low demonic whore MURDERED  my grandfather because she knew how much he genuinely loved me.

My grandfather was my roommate when he lived with us.  We shared a bond. I was attentive to my grandfather.  Freely bathed him like a baby.  Powered, lotion-ed him.  Cut his nails, cut his hair, shaved him. Anointed is body with healing oils.  Soaked and brushed his teeth.  Mainly, I sat at his feet and listened, learned.

I learned that evil never wins.  I learned that ; "It will all come out in the wash."   I learned GOD maketh NOT ashamed.  Mainly, I learned there is POWER  in the Word Jesus!  Just say HIS Name!

DO KNOW AN EVIL PATHOLOGICAL LIAR WILL NEVER APOLOGIZE Al green-How Can You Mend A Broken Heart.wmv

Apologizing for wronging a loved one goes a long way.   Martha knew full well  something as simple as a whispered "I'm sorry" would have healed me, kept me going.  No, she opted to "stomp a mud hole in my ass".  In Martha's mind I was nothing.  How many times did she tell me that I wasn't shit?

How many times did I deliberately let her win? I get it, fully understand it.  How can you apologize for something that secretly gave you pleasure?

You can't,  understand abominable evil . It's REAL! It is here! It is among us! It is in the Church! (Revelation 2:20)

I can not understand Christians that dismiss "ministers" like my birth mother.   I imagine granddaddy gave up on trying to save, stop, advise or admonish his only daughter years before I was born.  My poor granddaddy would view Mathy's repugnant shit, shake his head in disgust , turn on his heels and walk away. My grandfather accepted the role of peace maker , other wise our lives would have been far worse.

Imagine a cruel, sadistic, perverted male demon wearing a dress and two wigs! Picture that as your mother. If you don't fall down on your knees and cry out to Jesus, if you don't have a " come to Jesus" moment after surviving a woman like MARTHA JANE WALTERS  , you are lost to satan forever!

Every time I visualize my grandfather I see a tall, very handsome man,  weathered by the sun, frayed , frail but,  unbroken, leaning back on the two legs of  his cane bottomed straight chair resting against his house,  reading his Bible.

If I lean in carefully, I can hear him telling me to endure to the end, that; "Jesus will fix it."

PRAISE THE LORD!

Shot gun!

 My grandfather taught me how to shoot, load ,  unload and clean a rifle when I was eight years old. Told me to shot to kill if ; "a'arr nigger eva' mess wid you.  I mean shoot to kill too! Don't be playing  …shoot him ded! " 

  I sure paid attention. Granddaddy was not dumb , he was a very wise man.

Why would any intelligent man ever consent to marry a woman like my mother? A  loud, low, old ignorant whore with THREE CHILDREN!  A man that took regular ass whoppings from his new wife in the 50's. I think granddaddy could smell the PERVERSION  on that nigger a mile away.

Yes, he was a PERVERT!  Martha knew he was a pervert! That is exactly why she married him. She could exploit her perversion, trick him into molesting her children.  That would "tie a knot in his tail". 
Then the 'hoe could do exactly like she did, prostitute, have sexual relationships with kin, men, women children, groups!

She did too!

Was it worth it Martha? You were always angry, raging, upset, jealous, selfish, plotting, paranoid.  Was it worth it?

Very evil women are treacherous  enough to do that.  Especially women like my birth mother that totally forget her children are hers.  She has zero compassion for them because she is in fact a demon possessed sadist. She preaches for cover.  She hates GOD with a passion.  She is a SLUT!  COOL AS A CUCUMBER! 

Died grinning, now she's spinning.

"You might get by but, you WON'T GET AWAY!"

P.S.

My birth mother  deliberately  MURDERED  my grandfather in 1979, her hand never so much as shook, her voice never quivered.  I was old before I could rid myself of the "palsy"she inflicted me with.

You can collude with satan if you want to. You see what Mathy got.

"Correct a fool and get a blot."

The evil doer like my mother interprets that scripture to mean; leave her alone because she's won, can't lose.  She is a liar, a fake, as fake as those one thousand wigs she owned.

Why couldn't we see it?  My mother was a "drag queen".  When she wanted to impress she would sit in the mirror for hours applying very light make up strategically.   Washing, perfuming, girdling, padded bra-ing, lotion-ing, soft-ing . (Making herself attractive the same as a black widow spider prepares her nest.)  Martha loved hair so much she often wore TWO WIGS!

For some reason I sat fascinated watching her magically transform to "something" very attractive, smelling good! looking good!  Little did I know she was attempting to mask her emptiness, her stubbornness , her soullessness.

We were always laughing and talking, talking about other people. Screaming with laughter at the stupidity of "others".  Yes, I refused to believe that I was a victim! She always assured me that I was her favorite.  She just had to put on "wid dem other niggers."

When a man or woman resorts to using children for their sexual pleasure, all is lost.  It is over for that individual. They have clearly crossed the line of all decency, of all common sense. Martha knew full well she was a pervert.  She did not care,  only because she could not care.  Martha's lust , carnal drive was high, her morals low.  Plus, Martha was deliberately stupid.  Martha preferred cheating on a test to actually studying. She preferred looking at the cover of a book and guessing what it said.  Martha demanded to destroy everyone she could.  The fact you were kin delighted her, made it much easier to exploit you.

Martha knew it was over for her when that "boy" came back in 2005.  She should have known it was over for her when I came back in '97.

Dear LORD deliver all of the severely abused children still held captive by their demon possessed mothers. Women so common and depraved this world refuses to know.  I understand, I refused to know for FIFTY-EIGHT YEARS! 

That "boy" came back, Martha's memory started slipping, GOD sent me visions, re-opened that part of my brain that had been mercifully shut down.  Once caught she behaved the way she always did when caught, she attacked! She insulted!  She cussed me out! She smeared my name! She smeared GOD's name, laughed in GOD's face.

GOD said NO!

It is ALL in Divine Order!

Trust NO Man!

Dear LORD thank You! From the bottom of my heart I thank you.  We did NOT know, we could NOT know.

"Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, 

Nor have entered into the heart of man

The things which GOD has

Prepared for those who 

Love the LORD."

1Corinthians 2:9

In other words, what GOD has for me, is for me.  My ignorant deeply depraved mother died laughing at me, declaring that she had won.  But, really, what else could she do? There she was preaching falsely every Sunday knowing full well she was a sexual freak, a complete reprobate, a human being full of nothing but revolting hatred, envy and jealousy.

"Know ye the Truth and the Truth shall set you free!"

My LORD from Zion! My birth mother was a DEMON!  A two legged viper sent to this earth to mock GOD! And she did! MARTHA JANE WALTERS  smeared GOD's name! Treated [HIM] abominably .  "If you did it unto the least of these my children, you have done it unto me."

Was it worth it Martha?  A troll! A perverted, cruel, sadistic troll demanding to be loved or you would torture the secretly persecuted more than usual for interfering with your perversion.

"Get thee behind me satan!"

Who told you to hide in the "church"? The "church" was the wrong place to drag me.  Woman you demanded compassion for yourself while giving it to NO ONE!  It can't be done.

Martha you lived EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS playing house, dress-up and pretend. Yes, you were a miserable wretch sent to this earth to utterly destroy GOD's anointed. It can NOT be done.

"For if a man think himself to be something, when he is nothing, s/he deceiveth himself." Galatians 6:3

It is ALL in Divine Order!

Shouting Glory to HIS Name!

Humble yourselves and shout Glory! Why does Jesus call the ignorant, lecherous, lying clown of a preacher ravenous? Because they are! Greedy bastards!  There is absolutely no excuse for a woman like my mother.   GOD had a purpose, a great plan for permitting her to vex for so long.   If nothing else , hopefully many will turn from WITCHCRAFT.   WITCHCRAFT messed Mathy up!

That dumb whore teamed up with the devil, became a PEDOPHILE! AN INCESTUOUS PEDOPHILE! The dumb whore preached falsely, lied like a rug, hated  with a vengence, plotted non ceasing, ended up MURDERING her own Father! A good man.  Lived EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS! NEVER REPENTED FOR ANYTHING! NOT EVEN LITTERING!

I'm mad because she waited until she was in her eighties to basically confess, to hint , that she was the viper, the evil doer, all the time. I'm mad because she cut the demonic fool proclaiming her innocence.  I'm mad because she NEVER changed.

I'm pissed because she was MY  mother.  Shit, why wasn't being born a black bastard considered punishment enough for her demonic ass? DE-MON-IC!  Some people are DEMONIC! And far too many of those DEMONS  are up in CHURCHES preaching right now because most people are too sorry, too lazy to read!

I have to laugh! My birth mother made my life so miserable I turned to READING!  I read the Bible and discovered her common , nasty, demon possessed ass!

"Come ye out from among them."  If I have to honor such a woman to be accepted by my family, by society, "F" you (forget) you!

"Amazing Grace!"

Hallelujah! Praise the LORD! Back straight. Head held high! I'm delivered! Saved from despicable sin! Saved from the clutches of a raving maniac! A mongrel monstrosity, a PURE PERVERT! A sick and demented sadist that was able to get away, unscathed, left loose because we feared her.

Of course we feared her, we had good sense.  Martha had NO MORALS! None! Not ONE! It is a good thing she was such a brilliant actress and perfect pathological LIAR!

There is a silver lining, the bitch is dead! "The wicked shall cease from troubling."  They cease, just cease.  You'll look for them and they will be gone.   Poof!  If they were extremely foul like my birth mother their stench will linger for a little while.

One thing I know, it was GOD! It had to be the Hand of the LORD GOD Almighty that saved me from that closet demon.  PREACHED!  Preached stolen sermons LORD! In what world is that right? GOD's Word says; "Thous shalt NOT steal" yet,  you are standing in front of a large congregation putting on a top of the line floor show.  You got people on their feet, shouting, amen-ing, getting the Holy Ghost with your stolen sermons.

Let's go back and examine this, let's determine why you were so stiff-necked, so unreachable.  Why lie? Why not write your own sermons?   LOW SELF-ESTEEM!  (possibly) Now, why was your self esteem so low? Because you were a PATHOLOGICAL LIAR! Now why were you a PATHOLOGICAL LIAR? Lack of faith? Just ignorant, woefully uneducated!  Bitch you were so dumb, you  practiced WITCHCRAFT AND PREACHED!  Bitch! You deliberately treated GOD like shit because you treated you father like shit, your children , your entire family because you were a REPROBATE! The day you started visiting graves was the day GOD released you over and washed [HIS] hands of you!

I am so glad granddaddy put me onto reading the Bible, searching for understanding early in life.  Trusting and obeying GOD's Word has certainly saved me from your worse.  If people are wise they will heed Jesus and come from among the lost, the blind, the hateful racist.

That's where you really messed up Martha, hating black people. It is not color, it is spiritual.  Far too many people are plagued with demonic spirits like you and far too many people fear them, try to placate them.  I won't!  I'm proud to tell on your lying , whorish, MURDERING ASS!

Contend with GOD's children if you want to.

If you don't know by now ...

The irony of ironies, I can't possibly remember the number of times I went to my dear mother crying, grief stricken about some evil person, some evil deed that had befallen me.  Never, ever, suspecting she was my problem, my greatest possible enemy.

How do I explain "I knew" but, I didn't know. I knew something was wrong, something was amiss , something strange was going on. I did dismiss her "voodoo", her ignorant conjure , as more a con game than something truly evil.   Something to embarrass us further with.  Just something else to keep secret. Martha lied all the time and if you had good sense , you went along with her current lie, back-lie, side-lie, additional-lie, back-up lie, just-incase lie.  Mainly, you just shut the fuck up.

Granddaddy tried to admonish her, to teach her better.  She responded by throwing the longest, worse most infantile temper tantrum in the modern era.  I am sure that is why she shot granddaddy in the heart.  She was lazy as a dog.  She was cheap, greedy and selfish.  No, she was not about to let the government take his Social Security check in order for him to have a full time nurse. She is the reason he ended up with one leg, too cheap to take him to Cape Fear Valley.

The "nosy bitch" (nurse)  coming once a week was enough for Martha.  Martha lived EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS  completely in her own head!  Completely delusional and poisonous.

I 'm sitting here marveling at the goodness of GOD.

GOD is real! [HE] may NOT be real to you.  You may not have ever felt [HIS] loving tender arms, I HAVE!

 Martha, you know I told you over and over, many times, I remember my grandmother making you promise to never mistreat me again. I was only three years old and I clearly remember because I was intelligent enough to be happy.  Intelligent enough to know your ass was fucked up!

 She was on her death bed in Lumberton. You snuck us in because you never obeyed one rule or boundary in your entire life.

You lied to your mother Mathy Jane.  You lied to GOD! You never had to be perfect.  GOD never cared if all of your children had a different daddy.  You lied! You got caught in your lies and lied to cover up more lies. Why? You just made yourself more despicable .

GOD is not looking for perfect, [HE] is seeking the righteous! The thirsty! The hungry!

PRAISE THE LORD!

Richard Pryor as Mudbone : Cock-Eyed Junior & Bubba

We laughed, sat down and listened to this album with her , knowing full well she was exactly the same.

Over here, deliriously happy!

Dear LORD, I'm so happy! I'm so happy , I can't stop crying! "Trust and obey", Just trust and obey.  Evil can NOT win! For SIXTY-TWO YEARS I ENDURED! THE ENTIRE WALTERS FAMILY ENDURED THAT ALBATROSS FOR EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS!  

Why? Fear! Fear we inherited, fear taught to us by our enslaver!  What a slut! I'm laughing at her deep ignorance, taking deliberate advantage of us, punishing us for her mistakes.

I'm laughing because she is finally dead and the shit is finally funny.  She beat the pure dog shit out of her "husband" and HE CAUGHT HER FORNICATING IN THE FRONT SEAT OF HIS CAR!

He took it.  The dumb idiot got his ass beat by his newly wed wife,  that already had three children , was way older and was a two legged viper.  He took it.  He took Mathy's shit for Ten Years, therefore he deserved to suffer.

Will America let a a troll and his minions come to power ?

Martha died laughing at me, at us, refused repentance and went straight to hell as far as I'm concerned. I will not keep silent about such a low,  ignorant, corrupt, repugnant,  disrespectful slut.

The evil doer pimps GOD to the gullible,  not realizing the Holy Spirit is indeed real.  You do have to live righteously.  You can NOT be a liar and you can NOT be afraid.  You certainly can NOT be racist or color struck!

IT IS ALL IN DIVINE ORDER!

None but the righteous shall see GOD

Dear LORD you are so wonderful! How easy it was, how easy it must have been to take complete advantage over her own children.  Number one and foremost , none of us had a daddy! Number two , she feed us nothing but poisonous ignorance and lies from our conception.  Then she piled on sex abuse, physical abuse, topped it with emotional ,  psychological and financial abuse, all under the eyes of the "Church".

I'm sorry folks, satan has reduced the "Church" to a racket , a bunch of swindlers. (Revelation 2:20) Why didn't they catch my mother? They are just like her, greedy, full of pride, color struck, double minded, weak, full of fear.

My mother was the scariest monster I ever saw.  She was paranoid, full of fear. She was a full fledged reprobate, full of mischief.  I gave her Obama yard signs, stickers, everything,  she  (claimed) was afraid to display them and she lived in a black neighborhood.

What good is living,  if you are living in fear? No, I don't like to fight but, fight we will,  if you wrong me, try to take advantage of me.  I guess that stems from my childhood of trauma.  Maybe I would have always stood up for myself,  anyway.

Something about the words ; "You black muthafuckers come git yo'beatin'!" didn't sound too civil . too Christian, to me , so therefore I felt obliged to take to the woods until the coast was clear. (Dear LORD, is that how I learned patience? Spending hours upon hours in the woods alone, hiding from a fucking lunatic?)

I have the audacity to often wonder how I could have survived slavery, hell, I did!  I was just as much a slave as any human being ever held captive, against his will , on this earth.  Martha did not permit one of us to own our own life, our own minds, our own thoughts. We had to think and articulate her stupidity or face her foul ridicule, her rejection.  The nerve! (If I had only recognized what a low slut Martha was. If I had only connected the dots, dotted the eyes, crossed the tees. Martha was a PERVERT!)

 Made us feel guilty for achieving anything, having anything, for not putting her first, for resisting being a constant punching bag, HER foot stool,  HER piece of shit garbage for her to pretend to rescue.

Martha would get on the phone telling every one how she had to pay your rent, keep your lights on, help get your dumb -no -credit- having- ass a car, never once sharing the deep disturbing evil she was up to, the fact that she was totally against you,  escaped her silly brain in the mind numbing game she invented as she went along.   Martha, did deliberately destroy the slightest self-esteem any of us could have ever had.  Why? MARTHA JANE WALTERS WAS A SICK, DEMON POSSESSED SADIST! 

No, she had no compassion for us, for any one.

This orange man has no compassion for anyone, either.  It is starting to show on his face.  His face is starting to resemble dried out dookie, a cow patty bleached by the sun.  He can humble himself.  He can turn around.  He can pray, purge, fast, study.  He can be redeemed!

The Holy Spirit struck Saul down on the Damascus Road. He used to kill Christians!  There are many great stories of evil men changing at the last minute.  Jesus said that we can ALL come into the Kingdom,  even in the last hour.

PRAISE THE LORD!

Say what?

When I told people how my mother swore  at us, declaring that she was the one that kept our black  assholes open and reduced us to a diet of nothing but grits and grease for months,  they automatically assume we were poor.  No such thing, my mother drove a long white Sedan de'ville Cadillac !  She just hated us and she was always extremely secretly sadistic.  Sadly she was able to remain so because we feared.  She did evil demonic things to us that we deliberately did not tell for fear that she would do worse and she would have.

"Be NOT deceived; GOD is NOT mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall s/he also reap." Galatians 6:7

She is finally dead now! PRAISE THE LORD!

"Wait upon the LORD!"

There is only one truth, One Truth, the whole Truth and nothing but, the truth SO HELP ME GOD!!!  , so help You GOD.

 Dear LORD, I am humble, I am grateful! One of Martha's last jabs; "Yo'life didn't turn out duh way you planned it, did it?"  Somehow I knew the little dried up troll was bragging.   Of course she was. Poor Martha, that was always her nature.  That was all she had.  That is what satan reduced her too.

Martha's favorite thing to do , was to not only scam people out of their hard earned money but,  to brag about how clever her devious scheme was and how her victims were always too dumb to catch on.  Martha flashed the money she "earned" from turning tricks.  Plus, Martha made sure that I knew,  that she was no regular cheap whore. She charged high prices for her pussy.  "If you charge a nigga enough, he'll call you a lady."

What horse shit. You are still a WHORE! My mother was angry with me for not going that route and then having the nerve to tell her I learned from her mistakes.

Yes, my own birth mother did in fact stalk me for sixty-two years. I am not her only victim.  If you knew her, you were her victim also.  Martha was "like unto" that serpent in the Garden of Eden trying to trick people into eating forbidden fruit.

No,  we did not lose, GOD put us in a position to win.

"Fear No man!" Fear nothing! One thing for sure Martha taught us to fear her.  Chased and held us down with voodoo. I rebuke you satan!

Remember this, the only way any weapon formed against you can prosper ,  is if you remain in fear of evil monstrosities such as Martha and trump.

Free Fall!

"If each one would teach one …"

Do we all suffer with envy, bouts of jealousy? I don't.   Is it because I had a horrid mother and know what jealousy feels like? Is it because I am so gifted? Am I gifted because I was persecuted by a lunatic mother for sixty-two years?  Do I have the gifts GOD gifted me with in the first place?

I know Martha Jane Walters was a fucking lunatic and should have been locked up! Kept away from decent people.  I know I thank GOD for her. One Mathy Jane is all I needed.  I am a believer. "I do believe in ghosts. Idobelieveinghosts.Idobelieveinghosts."

Mathy is very dead, thank GOD!  GOD is contending with her just like [HE] promised! PTL!   Martha NEVER accepted any consequences for ANYTHING! EVER!

LORD help me Jesus! Did Martha think that phony preaching was some kind of trade? No.  did she preach in order to keep us confused?   Or was she just a ravenous wolf because Jesus said she would be one?

LORD, I hate to admit it, I believed her.  I fell for it , "hook , line and sinker" and I was one of her chief victims!

Yet, she remained a SOCIOPATH! A SADIST!  An incestuous pedophile that convinced us "snitching" on her was equivalent to betraying Christ.

We only need one.  Be that "one" to some child.  Be the "one"with a smile, a compliment, a listening ear.   Perhaps a shoulder to cry on.  Be a voice for one child! Speak up for one child!  Look in the eyes of one child and assure him or her that you will never betray them, never let them down, NEVER let any one or anything hurt them!

You never know how much your caring matters.  My "one" was Jerome Walters, my granddaddy!

PRAISE THE LORD!

Thank You Jesus!

I see so much of my life running parallel to America right now.  America is in love with a whore she hates.  In retrospect my birth mother should have never been permitted around children.  She should have been locked up with the criminally insane.  Lucky for her , she was attractive, very witty, charming and extremely charismatic. She was a viper, just the same. An Asp, an extremely poisonous snake.

It was her choice.  I thank GOD for her.  I never would have read my Bible.  I dare say I would have developed the tenacity I have, the chastity, without her evil demonic,  unrelenting interference . I thank you LORD!

There are so many people unsure of the Holy Ghost, GOD's Divine Order. I know and I know!  I have so many miraculous "coincidences", pure interventions,  I know Almighty GOD holds me in the palm of [HIS] Hand!

PTL!

 Discern, discern!  No,  your mind is not playing tricks on you.  "Your enemies shall be of your own household"  Look at their fruit.  When I think about it, just who else could my mother get to torment without ceasing?   She had to use us, everyone with the slightest intelligence caught on and moved on as rapidly as they could. We stayed because we were stuck, born into her clutches.   She claimed she stopped being a voodoo priestess when she got saved.  She stopped when she fleeced all the dummies she could.

No, she NEVER stopped, she just became more clandestine, sneaky, conniving. Martha was the human equivalent of an "egg sucking dog".

Was granddaddy trying to pass his wayward daughter off on others?  I know he was glad when that pestilence left his house.  There is no reason, anyone so evil should pretend to love GOD so long and be totally lying.

A long time coming

"You might get by but, you won't get away."  I do not care who you are, how old you, your color or your status.  We will all pay for every idle , evil word that ever came out of our mouths.

Why was I so shocked? Why did I fall completely apart? Why did I refuse to acknowledge what I subconsciously knew for so long?

It is all good.  I arrived on the campus of N.C. A.& T State University a total independent woman.  I had $1.35 that escaped my mother's greedy eyes. I had nothing but, tenacity and terrorizing fear of doing anything, of making the slightest mistake and have to live under that mentally disturbed whore's  reign of torture again.

Now, I know why my mother had no childhood friends, none.  I now can understand  why people walked wide where Mathy Jane was concerned.  I don't know what it was. I do know that she could do "some thangs".  I know for a fact Mathy's "goofer dust" would get you acquitted.  She could get you the man or woman you lusted after.  She could get your "nature' back and she could put you in the floor writhing in pain, skin turning black and shedding like a snake.

I also know now, that no preacher, no ordained minister,  has any business doing such,  to any one, EVER!


I know the fact I am still HERE!,  can still string two words together is a MIRACLE!  I'm a walking, talking, MIRACLE!  I'm due to be DEAD! Destroyed!  Annihilated by my own birth mother!  GOD said NO!

PTL!

Now here comes this trump imp, using the same tired methods as my evil ass mother.  Go sit down satan! Your time is up chump! You played your dumb ass self.  I hope they lock your lying ass up!

Why lie?  A lie can never be made true!  You can't back lie, deny and bully.  Guess what dummy? Holy Ghost Power is real.  Don't think you are going to escape GOD's wrath just because you falsely believe you always have.

A Silver Lining

Hallelujah! Hallelujah! It is ALL in Divine Order! Evil can NOT win.  Yes, I cried, lost it, totally lost my mind when I finally accepted the fact that my own mother NEVER loved me, NEVER , not one single day in SIXTY-TWO YEARS! 

Worse, in reality she was a fallen woman too sorry to get up.  She was a deeply disturbed sociopath, psychopath , SADIST  with a gift of gab, with great charisma, a low whore that birthed babies to be used as tools to help her exploit and extort every one she could.

Looking back over my life I fully understand why GOD put such blinders on me, rendered me unconscious while (HE) piloted me to safety, to  this day. Thank You Father! My life was ALWAYS  in mortal danger! MY MOTHER WAS A DEMON!

SO!?

GOD KEPT ME!

PTL!

The arrogance of evil

President Obama wrote The Audacity of Hope , it looks like I am writing The Arrogance of Evil ,  from the first moment I tried to suckle at her dried up , hard ass, demonic breasts,  I've been struggling.  Struggling to stay alive, as unmolested as possible. As unhindered as possible , considering my own mother was an ignorant ass,  nigger demon, a fucking female Stephen,  left over from the institution of slavery.  I've done exceedingly well , considering the number of vipers I've encountered.

Martha Jane Walters,  a woman so greedy, so whorish, so self-absorbed,  they tell me her kit and kin arrived driving Uhaul trucks to fleece her home.  Not strangely, gratefully, merciful GOD led me away from her a few years before she finally passed.

I was gone but, never forgotten.  She was busy hating me, spreading lies on me because I had the damn nerve to keep pressing about my grandfather's "mysterious death".  Mysterious death, nothing, the low whore for satan MURDERED  him.

The low whore for satan had beaten us down to nothing, pure dust. (Stockholm syndrome to the one hundredth power)    All we did,  was her bidding.  We (I) kept her filthy house clean, washed all the clothes, took immaculate care of her flower garden.  I'm screaming! I was a damn SLAVE!  Enslaved by my own mother!  I love gardening .  I got it from my mother.  Martha had us outside, weeding, planting, pruning, cutting before the sun was up every week-end.

For what ever reason, I never noticed, she only supervised.

The arrogance of evil is being played out thoroughly in our government.  Mike Pence,  suggesting "homosexuals" undergo conversion therapy. The nerve!  The nerve of every so called Christian that judges, vilifies , hates and persecutes another human being.

My mother knew I wasn't gay. She knew full well that I am asexual and she knew why.  But, before she would admit that she was indeed a closet rapist, an incestuous pedophile , she threw me under the bus,  The Arrogance of Evil!

What happened?

The blinders finally fell off.  Just that simple, I finally saw what I refused to see for SIXTY-TWO YEARS!  That slut was a FREAK!

Help me HOLY GHOST! 

I know granddaddy meant well, deliberately not revealing his DEMON POSSESSED DAUGHTER.    Some how granddaddy knew that scripture well; "Endure to the end".

No, there was no way to stop Martha short of murder.  She was truly vexation of the spirit.  We had to listen to her brag about how she flushed five of us down the toilet.  We were the lucky ones according to her.  She kept us around to rape savagely, molest, torture, burn, scald, starve and stalk at will,  until GOD finally put her demon possessed ass in the ground.

Why preach? Bored? No! Mocking GOD just like (HE) said the ravenous wolves would.  Just like trump,  an idiot so delusional,  he thinks his TEN BILLION DOLLARS make him  god, not a god  but , THE GOD!

"Come ye out from among them!"

First, having money does not mean you are blessed by GOD.  One thing my birth mother always told me, "satan bless too , ni."

If any one knew,  she did,   EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS OF SICK DIABOLICAL SIN! Not one hitch! 

While that kind of life may impress  evil doers, I know better.  I am going to SHUN you!  "Get thee behind me satan!"

satan's time is up,  that is why he is in a mad rush to upset , to destroy, to persecute, vilify, kill, exterminate.  What he doesn't know, his Raid can is pointing back at him.

PTL!

P.S.

 The saddest part of living my mother's extra long life, in the end she rejected Christ knowing full well she was forgiven.  How tragic.  Most  of us are going to get lost on our journey home.  But, don't stay lost.  Martha knew she was a perverted, promiscuous , nymphomaniac whore.  She knew it was her choice, she loved it, bragged about the money.  She recruited.  So, why lie? Why? Why hate when you are rejected? Why hate when your loved ones are trying to help you.

Demon possession is REAL!Don't let any one fool you. DO NOT GO DOWN ON GRAVES COLLECTING DIRT! 

Most of all, why live a phony pretend life.  Martha would just go on and on making up shit, back lying to fix the new lie.  Mainly Martha cursed you out, cussed your socks off and shook some of her dust on you for having the nerve to remind her of what she called LUDICROUS!  Martha didn't care if you caught her in the very act, it wasn't true!

Her fellow pervert caught her fornicating in the front seat of his brand new car and SHE BEAT THE BRAKES OFF THAT NIGGER!

Dear LORD, if that is not a demon, there is no such thing as a demon.  He took it, and she beat him for the next ten years.

Learning, gaining, growing

My LORD, don't let my living be in vain.  I've learned a great deal on my journey. I know racism is some form of demon possession.

Dear LORD, thank you for placing Jerome Walters in my life, one wise wonderful man.  His life was tragic , one painful event after another and unfortunately he was burdened with a wayward, deeply disturbed daughter.  I know granddaddy had to be heeding the Spirit of the Holy Ghost when he put me onto Bible study early in life.

Pride does go before a fall. I'm still stunned, astonished by my birth mother's true evil.   Discovering who and what she really was this late in life is a blessing.  "Trust and Obey".  I went back to that woman's sick, demented torture only because the Holy Spirit urged me to.  Yes, LORD, thank you for revealing what I didn't know, what had never occurred to me.

Yes, poor Martha had a baby at sixteen, considered her life ruined and plotted revenge on GOD, her father and every man, woman and child that ever lived.  Reduced her own dumb ass to demon possession.   Took her own dumb ass down on graves robbing them of their dust.

Look at what happened to her! INCEST! PEDOPHILIA! PROSTITUTION! ROBBERY! RAPE!  MURDER!  

The Holy Spirit maketh not ashamed.  Serve satan if you want to, preach AND practice WITCHCRAFT if you want to.  You will end up like Mathy Jane, AN ABOMINATION TO 
GOD!

"Come ye out from among them."  Who LORD? Who is "them"? The lock steppers , the blind, the stiff necked, those full of pride, overly proud of their skin color, overly proud of their wealth and status.  Get away from the sniveling cowards, those too afraid to stand up for themselves, those that prefer to cloak for a demon because that demon did infact force them deep into captivity.

If you call yourself a Christian and you support the likes of trump you are mislabeled, you ma'am or sir , are a full fledged demon.  "Birds of a feather flock together."

Granddaddy: "Time changes all things"

I was a new mother but,  you could not tell it from my behavior around my mother.  I'm not going to lie, that slut had me chained and bound.  I was a new mother without a husband.  Oh, I was married but Mathy soon ran his punk ass off.

My mother invited me to Chester, to spend the holidays with her and the rest of my family.  Little did I know that I was summoned to be her pawn, something to be laughed at, picked at, degraded, something for her to reduce to a pile of dung so she could look good.   From that day to this,  I became known as "Wid yo'broke ass!" 

No, I've never had any money.  Yes, I have barely lived, scraped out a living pay check to pay check.  What I didn't know, my own "mother" was always behind my excruciating pain. 

No, there was no possible way to win with my mother.  First,  I was a bastard, a too black bastard that she tried to convince was retarded.  My IQ measured 146 in the fourth grade and this whore pummeled me into unconsciousness.  No, I was never going to get a man because I was too dark and too hard lucked. (I always wondered why my mother thought I had the worse luck in the world.)

I've had sixty-five years to contemplate, to mul over my birth mother's condition; DEMON!  A FULL FLEDGED MUTHAFUCKING DEMON WALKING THE EARTH FOR EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS!  

My sometimes,  rather unsympathetic daughter,  wonders why we didn't just kill the bitch.  Good question. TERROR!  Terror is real! satan is real! satan got his black ass up in the Church terrorizing!  Right now! This very moment. There are billions of people right now calling themselves Christians that have never read the Bible, will never read it.

There are billions of Christians right now just like my mother, color struck, racist, lying, stiff-necked, hardhearted, selfish, greedy.  You don't believe me, then why is trump POTUS? Why is that troll from the lowest bowels of hell our "leader"?

"Come Jesus!" Help us ALL Holy Ghost.

It was cold

It was cold, very cold inside the house at 825 Dwain Drive, Fayetteville, North Carolina.  It was freezing outside. It was not just winter in America, there a was cold winter growing in my heart.  I sat straight, erect, looking at nothing.  I could not focus, I could not think. I could not move.  For the life of me,  I could not tell you how I got to my mother's door from Atlanta so fast.

The relatives kept coming, dropping off food, hams, chicken, cake, drinks.  The relatives kept coming, kept paying their respects.  I sat there wondering if any of my fellow victims were thinking what I was thinking.  Then it happened, Martha took us back to the bedroom were the deed was done and expressed very pridefully; "See whur yo' granddaddy put the gun back after he shot hizsef!"  Holly molly! Woman you are talking to a MEDICAL DOCTOR AND A SCHOOL TEACHER! Two people you beat, raped and terrorized since birth.  No, we didn't say anything.  I am not ashamed because I read that some demons have to be endured to the end.

I remember calling my principal immediately, just as soon as I got the news.  It was a Saturday morning, around ten a.m.  It was a little late for me to still be in bed.  For some reason I was. I must have gone out the night before, after all I was only twenty-seven.

I remember that phone blaring, disturbing some good dream I imagine, it was her, my "birth mother".  She was screaming at the top of her lungs; "DADDY   JEST  BLOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEDDDDDD HIS HEART OUT! DADDY JEST KILLED HIMSELF!"

Everything went dark! My brain shut down completely.  I did not dare say the first thought that came to my mind.  "You did it! You finally did it didn't you! You stanking slut! You stanking slut bucket! You foul demon!"  Yes , I thought it but,  I didn't dare say it.  No one ever told Mathy Jane what they thought.

The saddest fact of all, we were always right. Mathy always hated us.  She was always up to no good, always up to some sadistic, sick, foul, repulsive shit!  Martha  hated every human being that ever lived , anyone that she perceived to be smarter, prettier, or had more money.  No, there was no way we were ever getting Mathy to change.  She was a demon.  She was truly a pervert, a pedophile.  Yes, she was everything evil and despicable.

Sure, she blew Jerome Walter's heart out.  So!?  She could never take his wisdom from me.  My grandfather knew more in five minutes than that low whore did in EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS!  

"Come ye out from among them."

Why I am shocked

At no time in EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS  did this mental midget learn SHIT!  Never , not one day in EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS  did this whore humble herself, try any form of self improvement.

Martha Jane Walters lived EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS  as a pathological LIAR! A PERVERT! A PEDOPHILE! A MURDERER! A CONJURER! 

GOD said No!

Enough said.

"Come ye out from among them."

I had a great pastor once.

Rev. Luvenia Robinson was an associate pastor of a church I formerly attended.  She prayed the most awesome prayers.  Our church recorded the pastor's sermons and sold them after service. They were always well worth it.  I always bought two, always sent one to my mother.  That silly fool, memorized them, preached them as her own.  Yes, I thought it more laziness than corruption.  She explained that all pastors did it. Perhaps.

I know one thing, Reverend Robinson always said the same thing; "I didn't come hear fo'no form nor fashion! I didn't come here to put on no flo'show!"

If you can't be real, if something is preventing you from being sincere in the Word, go fix that. Do not ignore that.

After my horrible ordeal in Fort Gordon, Georgia, do know Martha nearly beat the MPs back to the stockade.  She signed those papers releasing him and advised me to keep my damn black ass mouth shut about what the nigger had just attempted.

Worse, yes, it gets worse.  One or two days later we are back at "home", those two buzzards were going after "it" like two hogs in heat.  I accidentally  walked in on them because it was in the middle of the day and her door wasn't locked!

The buzzard was shipped off to Viet Nam where we prayed he would meet his maker every day, per advice and urging  of our  "mother".   I did finally find the courage to ask her if she was going to divorce him.  My birth mother responded with rapid fire flippancy and pride; "Hell No! Got to git dat money honey!"

Yes, this is the same slut that had the nerve to hate me.  Why hate me?  What made your dumb ass ever think you were ever smart enough to serve GOD and satan? You?  You never read two books thoroughly in your whole long life!  You hated your own daddy with a passion!  Not only did you disrespect him, you MURDERED HIM!

You knew the solution; repentance.  Yes, just that simple.  I see, you preferred to rot.  Well rot then!

I got Joy!

Praise the LORD! I know there is a GOD! I was barely fourteen years old, TERRIFIED!  Running down a hotel corridor screaming my lungs out.  The MPs (military poise) came, hauled his ignorant perverted ass off. The damn slutty ignorant ass nigger had startled me to consciousness with a HUMONGOUS BIG BLACK HARD AS NAILS DICK PRESSING UP AGAINST MY FACE!!!

No, I'm NOT right! No, I will never be right either!   But , to discover the cause of your life time of misery was in fact your own birth mother will make you heave.  You will crumble!  You will coil up in a tiny ball and pray to disappear.

Worse, let that low slut be a PREACHER! An Ordained Minister! You are dust! You have been ground away.  You are nothing.  So, satan thinks.  No nigger! GOD brought me here for such a time as this.  I can easily identify all of trump's mind games, snitching on himself.  Just like my mother, he leaks stuff he can and will be found innocent of,  just to keep you confused.

IGNORANT!  Allergic to knowledge, to common sense.  LORD help us because if he is exactly like my mother he is indeed a PEDOPHILE! INCEST  is a great possibility.

It's all good.  My mother's abominable evil made me a better person, trump's evil can only make us a better nation.

PRAISE THE LORD!

Stevie Wonder - Don't You Worry 'Bout a Thing

LORD I thank you! I'm up early thanking you! I'm delirious with joy! Thank you for pulling me up out of that pit my own mother sealed me in! HALLELUJAH !!!

LORD your mercies endureth FOREVER! I never had a chance! We , not one of "eleven head of children" ever had an iota of a chance.  I'm  NOT sorry, any little infant, any baby born into the sick, demonic, manipulative,  sociopathic, psychotic ,  maniacal hands of Martha Jane Walters and survives, is BLESSED! 

Yes! I'm up early dancing! Dancing on satan's burr head. (Tried to get me through my mama, you failed because Almighty GOD kept Jerome Walters around to stand in the Gap.)

LORD I thank you.  I came to this world and this world treated me worse than a mangy, rabid, scalded dog, starting with my Own MOTHER !

Help me LORD! My body remembers the pain.  That slut did something very sick , sadistic and demonic to me as an infant!  Revisited,  punishing me with some form of excruciating pain for SIXTY-TWO YEARS! 

But, I SURVIVED!  I made it! 

I am living proof GOD sees, GOD moves, GOD pities every grown.   "Fret not thyself because of evil doers, be not envious of the workers of iniquity for SOON…"

Yes,  LORD, Martha Jane Walters was one of the worse workers of iniquity  that ever lived.  Fellow victims, if you want to LIVE,  really live, guilt free, lie free, REBUKE THAT DEMON FROM HELL! 

She was NOT your mother!  We never had a mother, we had a monster, a mongrel monstrosity. SHE'S DEAD! SHE'S DEAD! PRAISE THE LORD SHE IS FINALLY DEAD! CELEBRATE THE GOODNESS OF GOD!

Rejoicing! Praising! Beaming! 

P.S.
The last thing my poor fallen stiff necked birth mother told me was not to piss on her grave when she was dead.  I'm not pissing but I'm sure rejoicing! PRAISE THE LORD! "WON'T (HE) DO IT!?"

"Fret not thyself because of evil doers

My birth mother lived EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS  and never once repented or apologized for ANYTHING! SHE MURDERED HER OWN FATHER AND NEVER SO MUCH AS UTTERED EXCUSE ME!

I am in fact an EMPATH , I can feel the excruciating pain of others.  Believe me, it is no gift.  I can also perceive, discern deep hatred and jealousy.  My birth mother had the deepest, sickest, vilest hatred for me since my conception.  I felt it, always felt it. It was indeed a dagger in my heart that she would walk by and twist sometimes in secret, sometimes in plain view.   Of course she always denied it.  It was a problem.  Martha was a full fledged REPROBATE!  Her sins were never to be denied her.  She could do it because SHE was in charge of us, owned us, we were her property.  Yes, Martha was one sick human being.

Martha was NEVER  happy.  Perhaps that is why she always pretended to be happy, to be rich, to be powerful, to be a god.  No, not even a goddess, Martha was a god that hated GOD, challenged GOD, fully intended to defeat GOD because she was always winning.

Well, Martha always thought she was winning.  Turns out she was losing all the time.  This whole trump Presidency reminds me of Jesus and satan. satan took Jesus up to a high mountain top, showed him the entire world and promised it to Jesus if (HE) would just bow down and serve him.  Jesus answered that "Man does NOT, can NOT live by bread alone."

Jesus told us to trust (HIM), not to lean to our own understanding. People refusing to see this mad man building up his war machine don't need to see.  We all need to prepare to perish.

"Come ye out from among them."

I shall never forget that day.

To this very day my stomach turns a flip every time I recall this event.   I am still in awe, astounded, out done, mesmerized.

I was very young, around nineteen I think.  Our cousin Rachel was making her yearly visit with her husband.  The Walters family used to be close.  All one had to do was call and need.  We teased our mother, calling her house the "Do drop in".

Any way for some particular reason, old Rachel was being old Rachel and reached up on top of the refrigerator to retrieve a snack.  I casually reminded her that those snacks were not for every one, that they belonged to my little brother, for his lunch,  on his summer job.

Rachel responded flippantly that she didn't care whose snack it was, she was eating it.  Now, pay close attention, this is the part that will curl your hair.  Suddenly I was cussing cousin Rachel out!  I mean low, gutter swearing!  Wait, suddenly I had a huge butcher knife in my hand, up to cousin Rachel's throat.

Of course cousin Rachel left immediately, never came back.  I was left trembling trying to understand what just happened to me, to us.  I ran into my mother's room horrified, embarrassed, confused. Mathy Jane is laughing, declaring she was just testing a new batch of her "dust".

"Yea, I sprinkled some in Rachel's suitcase! It sho' worked!"  (Then the bitch clapped her demonic hands and squealed like a pig.)   My mind was blown. I felt violated, used.  I was no more good to that side of the family.  How could I even begin to explain my behavior ? "Oh, by the way please excuse me, my mother was working her "roots" through me." Ridiculous, I cut my losses and let them think what they wished.

Please do not declare there is no such thing as demon possession, WITCHCRAFT, demon possessed pastors that preach.  Keeping them secret, cloaked, will not protect you.  Plus, your scars are obvious.  We must out them! Reveal them!  Stand against them!

Trust and Obey!

Old nasty woman!

Old nasty woman if you don't want to be an old nasty woman, you change for real, you don't pretend!  You don't put on a clown show preaching just because you can.

You smear GOD's Name ! You tarnish (HIS) image.  Plus, how can you stand yourself? You are like the person that pours on cheap perfume to cover their unwashed funk.  Woman! You were nasty!  I don't know how you could stand yourself.  No wonder you were always  pretending  to contemplate suicide.

Do you know I have found organizations devoted to healing from your kind? I've found many books devoted to malignant narcissists. No, there is no cure.  I do think imprisonment is an excellent solution.

No, people should not be  dumb enough or weak enough to fall for your bullshit over and over or imps should not be so brilliant or imps should not target their own family members.  Hell, Bernie Madroff enriched his family.

You kept all your money for yourself Mathy Jane!  That makes you one sorry slut! Bitch! You were so dumb you just wanted to be the "top of the bottom". How miserable!

The fact that you were black does concern me.  You sure support the stereotype of black people being immoral imps.  I know it is not color, it is ISAIAH  49:15!  You sure forgot who we were!  You sure never showed anyone any compassion and Almighty GOD is sure dealing with you.

LORD have mercy Jesus! That explains why I caught my own mother looking at me like I was a T-bone steak and she was a hound dog. I was thirteen and I'm still freaked out.

"Come Jesus!"

Sam Cooke Bring It On Home to Me lyrics

Yes, Dear LORD I do hurt for and feel for the woman left, abandoned with the unwanted children.  Children the result of hot carnal lust.  Babies brought into the world by deceit.  Yes, I care about them.

No, I do not agree that , that fallen woman gets to punish those children.  No, man or woman should be allowed to get away with their carnal filth because they are bold enough to preach. Yes, GOD does tell us to come boldly to the Throne of Grace.  Come washed! Come clean! Come full of repentance!

You can't sweep your filth under the rug.  Back up, go back to WITCHCRAFT!!! What kind of damn fool were you? FOR EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS!  Did you have some form of Down Syndrome?

What did you get!? You drove a Cadillac! So! A Cadillac is a car.  A car you could not take with you.  People called you pastor, minister, reverend , so?  People also called you Madam Watson, Sister Rico and I'm sure many other alias.

A lot of people, the majority being wrong,  will never make wrong right.  Yes, Jesus is fixing this.  For some reason I do think you thought you got away, escaped.  The truth is some evil people need to be dead and buried before you can successfully reveal them.  People like you and J. Edgar Hoover.

It's scary ...

I can not get away from it.  "It is what it is." My birth mother was certainly mentioned in Isaiah 49:15.  She sure forgot we were ever her children.  She certainly never had any compassion for any of us.

I still can't believe how she demanded to get away.  "Don't nun of you black muthafuckers FUCKING Think back!"   Seriously? Really? Sure that worked when I was three! Martha no one can keep up such a horrid life for EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS!  Just when had you planned to change? To repent?  Did you really think it easier to threaten and terrorize , manipulate, confuse, gaslight, your accusers, your admonishers?

How long was I supposed to let imps like you stop me by claiming the color of my skin was too repulsive, too black ?   Ridiculous!  Your tired feeble fake ass is just jealous!  Know this imps, everything you did to me GOD miraculously turned around in my favor.  So keep on!

Be a nasty whore if you want to.  Brag about selling pussy then run to the church teaching Sunday school and PREACHING!  Just disrespect GOD the exact same way you did your daddy! Be blind! Never see your mistakes.  Be WHORISH!  Test the limits! Sexually molest small children, teenage children, your own flesh.  Go ahead!  You will be long since dead before the world catches up to you but, YOU WILL BE KNOWN!

No, your name will rot.  Some dogs may even unearth your rotting bones because you were too stiff necked, too arrogant, too ignorant, too SELF WILLED  to listen to the voice of the LORD!

"If you live by the sword ...

you are sure going to die by the sword.  For whatever reason I have been consumed with grief, purely tormented finally admitting my own mother played me for SIXTY-TWO YEARS!  The bitch just terrorized me for her personal pleasure, me along with every other human being that she could successfully con.

The saddest fact is, if she had not been such a two-faced , lying gossip I never would have caught on.  If I had been treated normally, nurtured, respected, loved, I am sure I would have never bothered to read the Bible.  Why?  We all must admit, our pain, our torture, our fear and diseases bring us closer to GOD.

For that reason alone I do thank GOD daily for my Mathy Jane Experience.  But, I asking, I'm praying that you heal my broken spirit  LORD, do it now LORD!

Praise the LORD!

Shhhhhhhhhh! Be quiet, don't never tell nobody!

What kind of advice is that? That is the advice of a pedophile, an incestuous FUCKING FREAK!  A low whore trying to plot her way off of the planet without facing consequences.  It can't be done. Martha always declared that she didn't care what people thought.  What she meant to say was, she was going to do what the fuck she pleased, exactly when and how she pleased.

What pleased Martha? Making an absolute fool out of the same people over and over for EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS! EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS OF GETTING HER PURE ASS KISSED! OBEYED! NEVER QUESTIONED! NEVER CRITICIZED! 

 Martha Jane Walters, my birth mother lived in a very strange place, in her mind, in her imagination.  The problem was, Martha's mind was an evil place.  First of all it was built on pathological lies, volunteer lies for no reason.  And Martha's jealousy was unreal, out of balance.  No joy for anyone.  Martha was a vicious sadistic bully.  I'm sorry,  when your small child bludgeons a puppy to death, get them some help.  Don't hide that.  Speak on it! Teach on it! Far too many preachers are slipping because they are just greedy dogs.

Why go to church if you are not learning? not growing?  I know for a fact my mother hated her congregation.  They were all too black and too dumb.  She hated hugging and handshaking with a passion.

No,  my mother did not like black or dark skinned people. I'm laughing because she was more racist than  the greatest racist and she was black, or assigned to the black race. We may blame color but,  we all know it is is character, morals, understanding, level of intelligence.

Good Christians seek to understand, imps seek to distort, disrupt, create chaos.  One good thing about it, evil can't last forever.  It is All in Divine Order!

PTL!