Cleo's Mood

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME!

I shall call this post "Rachel's Mood". I claim this soothing , healing song with all humility. Yes, I am a "These are They".  Yes, I came out of Great Tribulation! Absolute HORROR UNLEASHED!  Yes, World my "birther" was one sick, psychotic, sadistic, common, INCESTUOUS/PEDOPHILE,  Low Whore,  that had just enough cunning and Malignant Treachery , to take down the entire Walter's Clan!

YES! the low whore, disciple of satan , tricked the AFRICAN METHODIST EPISCOPAL ZION CHURCH OUT OF A LETTER OF ORDINATION!

Yes, that low life , closet whore,  took pride in secretly stalking all six of her children!  Destroying US on the sly, ripping US limb from limb,  for her secret Sadistic , Demon Possessed Pleasure!

Yes, the low whore grinned from ear to ear every time her "conjure" worked.  Every time s/he broke OUR hearts with some lie , some promise, s/he volunteered to make US crave.

 However, make sure you know, the low slut,  got as good as s/he gave.

Always a whore, always  a prostitute, s/he could NEVER get a good man to marry her! No surprise,  dumb whore! Why should any good looking man,  of good quality,  ever want you,  ever want your sick, psychotic, pathological lying, whorish, stanking ass? 

Wo/Man! satan himself wanted no part of you!

What did you ever have to offer? "Good hot pussy" Shut up , you slut!

Bitch, you demanded every cent, every "check" , every "nut" , every dick, every dream, every ounce of masculinity , from every man or woman  that "desired" you.

Bitch, I can assure you, you were NEVER worth "hauling to the field". WORTHLESS! NO COUNT! d t, before d t.

Why? Your skin color!? Your hair texture!? Your  IMAGINED brilliance? Your imagined intelligence, your imagined mastery of the "Black Arts".

Just rot bitch! Yes, the "Cat is out of the bag",  and you should have repented.

While I sit here in my quite solitude, still angry, still smoldering from the horrid filth that low life slut heaped on me (secretly) for Sixty-two YEARS! I really Rejoice! I am HAPPY!

My GOD from Zion! What kind of Creature demands to birth children to waste, to flush down  toilets, then BRAG! Then secretly stalk, bludgeon, conjure , every one , that perhaps knows, actually suspects , you of being the common vermin, the viper, you always were?

My LORD from Zion! SAVE ALL OF US!  Dear  LORD, please do what My "Church", My "Churches" , My friends, My family, NEVER did! Call out the low common beasts that deliberately, rob, rape, injure, molest, bludgeon, burn, brand, scald US, then Refuse Repentance, in Your Mighty Name LORD!

Shake her out, shake them out like the closet vermin they really are. LORD!

Yes, I feel good. Birthed to a sick succubus , married a sicker succubus, reduced to dung by white supremacy.  So!? I endured to the end and did some Great Teaching in the Process!

BEAMING!

LET GOD ARISE!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Wednesday, September 30, 20/20

Phil Collins - In The Air Tonight (Official Music Video)

Swooning! Born into the clutches of an ignorant imp, so foolish, so full of pride, s/he deliberately chose Me,  to destroy.  To sacrifice on her alter of empty, foolishness, volunteer servitude.

It can't be done! I AM ANOINTED!

NO! The  "likes of you , NRVER loved me. NEVER COULD.

So? That is the best thing you ever accidentally did for Me.

Well, dumb ass, just how do you intend to keep , lying from your dead ass grave?

It can't be done. You evildoers CAN NOT WIN!

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Tuesday, September 29,20/20

Booker T. & The MG's - Time Is Tight

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME! "TIME  is Tight"! Don't waste another mili-second of your precious life,  worrying about shit that was fucked up when you got here!

My stupid ass, lying ass, common ass, sadistic, pathological lying , sneaky ass, creepy ass, untrustworthy , "mother/birther",   wasted eighty-eight years , of what could have been a "good life" , trying to escape punishment.  Behaving like satan's "Bottom bitch",  cloaking GOD's "Truth". Deliberately blocking My, Our,  blessings, stabbing Me, Us,  in the back , because s/he claimed I was "Too Black"!

"My LORD from Zion"; how evil is an evil , demon possessed imp, determined, willing,  to completely fake "Christianity" , in order to destroy  those they  have decided are unworthy of GOD's love?

I can laugh now, I bought it, "Hook , line and sinker", until that low slut,  mailed me a letter chocked in her SHIT! "BITCH! YOU ARE A MUTHAFUCKING DEMON!"  "Low 'hoe! You just revealed your sick, sadistic, dick loving, demon loving, demon possessed SELF!"

Now, here comes d t! This bitch ain't paid his taxes, his "fair share of taxes, forever". So! Who didn't know? WE didn't know a lot of SHIT, until Baraka was elected.  Damn, ... this is ALL some,  straight up BULLSHIT! Democracy is nothing but a dream! Ninety-nine, point nine percent of Black people shall NEVER so much as smell "Democracy". 

Your fucking "Vote" doesn't count. Democrats don't give a SHIT about you either.

I was a fourteen year old child , keeping a sharp knife handy, promising GOD I was going to stab my "mother's" sick, sadistic, incestuous , pedophile husband, if he ever so much as touched me again...while totally overlooking my , just as sick, just as predatory "mother".

The People have No Power,  No Voice! The racist, evil, One Percent,  got evil and stupidity on lock! No wonder I was run out of "Education"!  This World has no room, no desire for "Critical Thinkers" or Truth Tellers. 

LORD, I accidentally married a "man" a "tri-sexual", so lost, so delusional, so stupid, un-read and poorly educated, he actually thought the Bible was some kind of "magic tool". Some mysterious Book, that you could touch, or rub and just ask this "mysterious good" for what ever you ever wanted.

Yes, I accidentally married a slut, so low, so lost, s/he really believed his skin color , a blessing from Almighty GOD! Thought I s/he be glad to get him. Claimed he was "bi-sexual" when finally caught! Sick! Sick! Sick! "Get thee behind Me satan!"

Jesus was a critical thinker, a wise man, look what the "religious leaders" did to [HIM].

My , Our "mother/birther" had Us, sitting up in Wesley A.M.E.Zion Church , in Wade, North Carolina, eight , nine, ten, twelves HOURS! EVERY MUTHAFUCKING SUNDAY FOR A ZILLION YEARS! FOR WHAT? Dumb WHORE!  Did you really think "Church" was some type of laundry? A place to go and wash your sick, psychotic, carnal, INCESTUOUS/PEDOPHILE/MURDEROUS SOUL clean?

For Eighty-Eight YEARS, Bitch? So, just how stupid were you, really? 

Oh, by the way, money is NOT Power and none of you,  lascivious, sadistic, ravenous wolves,  shall get away!

BEAMING!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Tuesday, September 29, 20/20 

JUNIOR WALKER and the ALLSTARS - "WHAT DOES IT TAKE" (to win your love) ...

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME! The Secret, Closet, Sick, Sadistic Whore is DEAD SEVEN AWESOME YEARS!

World! Don't you dare look to one good "Christian" , or the "Church" to save You. SAVE YOURSELF! "Look well to your going, your coming in, your going out."

 As my Brilliant GrandDADDY taught me , many, many years ago; "Man does NOT do what is right, man does what is convenient."

In my total sixty-nine years of "unending struggle", confusion and deep affliction,  on this green Earth, I have met very few  Blacks of "authority", or importance , that were not  complete "boot licking, closet dick sucking, uncle tomming, skinning, grinning imps. 

Don't trust any of them! They will BACKSTAB YOU!  Sell you down the river! Pimp you out, deliberately destroy your life, then laugh. They will steal your shit, then help you look for it!

These whores will lay up in your house, screw your husband, shake their "goofer dust" all over your house! Use evil practices, poll-tices, conjure, voodoo, evil thoughts, evil prayers, evil imagining,  to hold you down,  because they hate you! Envy You! (Secretly) Blame you for what they reap.

My "mother/birther" blamed us for her nine unwanted babies, straight in a row.  We were the reason no decent man would have her lying, sick, sadistic, pathological lying ass.

Why didn't you know? Why didn't her "Church" know?  Why didn't the good "Christians" of this World know? S/HE WAS DEMON POSSESSED AND DEMON PROTECTED!

No, they (all unrighteous, lying imps and blessing blockers) are going to stalk you. No, you can't easily get away from them ,  if they be "kin". 

Just pray for them." Let GOD handle it. Jesus will fix it!

Thus, that AG of Kentucky. So? He has to look in the mirror. Why be mad because he is too immoral to be ashamed?   Stop being shocked by the acts of demon possessed wo/men.  Be glad you saw. Thank GOD you are a witness. Praise GOD for granting you the Grace to NEVER be so weak!

"Oh ye of little faith", yes,  it is in fact true, satan, demons, imps, white supremest, got this World on lock. BUT, However, their time is up! Thus all this Rage, Persecution. Let'um. My "mother/birther" came to this good green Earth, cut the complete,  Demon Possessed Fool , for Eighty-Eight years! Good,  because d t shares all of her secret characteristics, I can't continue to be a "religious fool".

DELIVERED!

Relax, don't worry. IT IS ALL IN DIVINE ORDER!

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Tuesday, September 29, 20/20

Pick Myself Up : Live

Please lean in , and do your best to understand, I do sincerely believe ; "The Advent of tRUMP";  is Karma, amerikkka's "Chickens coming home to roost".

While, amerikkka has always claimed, bragged, defended it's "Colonialism", acts of aggression, and EXPLOITATION  against "Defenseless Peoples",  since WWII, s/he has NEVER  been more than a racist hell hole.  Most people bought that bullshit about making the World safe for "Democracy". 

Or did WE? No, WE  were just Hoping. Hoping against hope, against common sense. Using a book , obviously written by the "Oppressor" to keep US in line. Yes, this shit is over five thousand years's old! The sheep are still blind!

So!? Think for Yourself! Jesus gave US permission!

Some of US still believe in the "Dream". PEOPLE!  The man that taught US about "The Dream", GOT SHOT DEAD IN THE HEAD TRYING TO GET US TO FOLLOW HIM , IN PURSUIT OF "THE DREAM" GOT SHOT IN THE FUCKING HEAD!!!

Hear WE are with OUR dumb asses, claiming "Freedom of Speech".

WE still do! YES! Black people are still losing their lives , trying to get what ninety-nine of white people don't have. FREEDOM!  REEDOM AIN'T NOTHING BUT A WORD! A dirty word to all m a g a ERS, tRMP-ERS.

 Black men, the greatest victims of white supremacy , are still signing up to fight for "Democracy" in SOME DESOLATE foreign LAND, (some) knowing full well , DEMOCRACY,  doesn't exist here.

Not, in this amerikkka, this white man's heaven, THIS Black wo/man's hell hole.

Worse, these CRETINS, THESE MONGREL MONSTROSITIES , DEMAND OUR SILENCE, OUR UNDYING LOYALTY! For what? My sick ass,  abusers demanded My silence, Our silence...for what?

To NOT work the "Roots" on Us, that s/he not so secretly worked! To NOT secretly hate, resent, and stalk Us.  SHOULD We Remain silent,  so the victims of this Horrid World , NEVER  realize they are NOT alone?

No, Martha Jane Walters was NEVER to be corrected, criticized, exposed,  or told on . You just better fear that bitch! You just better "go along to get along".

Why? You have no "Power" evildoers, disciples of satan, , NONE what so ever! You NEVER did! You were just "no mannered", savage, a brutal , greedy, COMMON IMP that was so repulsive you claimed your skin color ,  and hair texture , a gift from Almighty GOD. 

Claiming you and you only, could live and die a HORROR, AND BE HONORED FOREVER!

NOT So!

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***
Monday, September 28, 20/20

Peter Tosh - Reggae Mylitis

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME! Balling out of control, dancing on a dead cretin's , disgusting, unrepentant grave!

YES! I feel so Fantastic, I am FLOATING!  World, if you were ever held completely captive , by a creature so evil, so disgusting, so depraved, when you speak of , mention , just one of her HORRID , DELIBERATE ACTS OF DEPRAVITY, people run from You!

 Blame You! Hate you for shocking their innocent  sensibilities with your Truth!

Just SHUT UP!  ; says the "Christian", says fellow Victims, says every beneficiary of white supremacy.

"Take one for the team". "Shit, you are just another Black female! Shit, you should not have been born Black, female, illegitimate, poor, unwanted, brilliant, too attractive, too kind, too easily intimated.

No World, I TOTALLY DISAGREE!  A HORRID , FAKE, DEMON POSSESSED SLUT,  like Martha should NOT be able to get away with secretly, slyly, covertly,  and clandestinely , PRACTICING THE SICKEST, SADISTIC, EVIL,  ON HER OWN FAMILY FOR EIGHTY-EIGHT YEARS!

NO! I shall NOT keep quiet!

I shall brag! I SHALL STAND FLAT FOOTED OF THAT DEAD DEMON'S NECK, BRAGGING THAT S/HE DID NOT DESTROY ME!  I shall make sure I go on record comparing my enslaver/birther/mother,  to that thang that destroyed the Dream.

No, I am NOT mad or sad. Martha Jane Walters was a "needful thing".   So is that Albatross!

amerikkka is REAPING AND I'M BEAMING!!!

"Come Ye out from among them."

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Monday, September 28, 20/20

The Impressions - Gypsy Woman (1961)

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME! 

No, my "mother/birther" was NEVER a real Gypsy wo/man, s/he just played one in real life.  A "bono-fied" unqualified, "hoodoo doctor/prostitute/preacher",  demon possessed "stud", that  deliberately, covertly, clandestinely,  enjoyed afflicting Excruciating PAIN on  each and every person,  that tried desperately to love her. lying, common, sick, sadistic ass!

World! The only reason I've been trying desperately , for ages, to "tell on"  my sick, sadistic, "mother/birther", there ARE TOO MANY! HORROR IS UNLEASHED!

Women like my "mother/birther" are no longer "rare". THESE WHORES ARE PROLIFIC!  They are Everywhere! Wait! The MUTHAFUCKERS ARE PREACHERS! TEACHERS! LEADERS!

"Come ye out from among them!" Who told you "wealth" is a blessing? Who taught you to fear the evildoer, the oppressor?

Who taught you to lie? To lie pathologically? Non-Stop! Who taught you responding with anger, rage, withdrawal, was the answer?

Just Manipulate, Connive, Contrive, Plant lies, Plant seeds of doubt, just hurt people out of habit. Hurt people because you have been hurt. Hurt others because you think that is the way to win.

Who taught you that claiming to be an atheist, an agnostic, absolves you of morality? The Truth, Righteousness, has nothing to do with any "religion".  Black is black, white is white. Right is right, wrong is wrong.  "If there is one lie in it, GOD is not in it!"  Period.

Only people of little faith deliberately lie, do wrong , then pretend they had to,  out of fear. Malarkey! WE ALL have "Free Will".

At any rate,  I want the World to know about wo/men like My "Mother/birther" and that bottom feeder, bottom Fag-GOAT, I accidentally married.  What a Piece of Shit! 

SHUN ALL PATHOLOGICAL LIARS! Look for your happiness, your Joy, else where.

No, rest assured You are not forsaken. Let them laugh. Let them exclude you, leave you out. Keep your Faith. Learn to love yourself. LIVELAUGHOVE!

BEAMING!!!

Sunday, September 27, 20/20

Albert King - I'll Play the Blues for You, Pts. 1-2 (extended version)

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME! Another opportunity for Me to get it right, to "come correct".  To "slay" EVERY EVILDOER  trying desperately to block My path!

First of all , it can't be done.  No, I have "No Power" to speak of, BUT I AM ANOINTED!  Don't hate Me!  I didn't make myself, nor did I choose this "path".

While My "Road" has been rough, "my row to hoe , has been long, twisted, full of weeds, thieves, perverts, imps and low life cunts."  So? I have rarely missed a meal. And I know for a Fact , I have NEVER  been forsaken!

Yes, I Raged! That pervert that birthed me for a "meal ticket", stalked and deliberately terrorized  Me for Sixty-nine Years, is FINALLY GONE! EVAPORATED!

I learned my "Truth", found my answer. That low life swine that  deliberately lived a HORRID life,  for far too long, got WHAT S/HE GAVE! S/HE TOOK MY GRANDFATHER'S LIFE! HER SON TOOK HER LIFE!

As low, selfish, greedy, ill tempered and demon as possessed,  as Martha was, s/he did consider herself to be my GrandFATHER'S  favorite  living child.  There is no way Martha could ever compare herself to the Murdered son.  AS common as Martha was, s/he was never that common or wicked.

(Dear LORD, is that why Martha Murdered her own father , on the anniversary of her brother's death?  Was Martha jealous of her dead brother?  Why? He was certainly always "well spoken of".  S/he on the other hand , was greatly feared., hated, and shunned.)

At any rate, s/he took his life, played GOD, So? Her favorite son played GOD, pulled the plug on her lying, despicable , demon possessed ass.

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Sunday, September 27, 20/20

"Have A Talk With God" - Stevie Wonder

Yes, I certainly find My Life is too hard to bear.  Yes, I have a long list of complaints. Born into the clutches of one sick, sadistic, color struck, sad, angry, greedy, common,  low life cretin, a  creature,  that demanded this World accept her "clowny", fake, stolen sermons,  as a fair exchange for her fallen, destitute, deplorable, GOD forsaken life.

I WON'T! I CAN'T!

My CONVERSATION WITH GOD AFTER FINALLY ACCEPTING THE FACT MY BIRTHER NEVER IN HER LONG LIFE MEANT ME OR ANY ONE ELSE ANY GOOD!

Me: GOD, why was My "mother" always so horrid towardsMe? Why did s/he stalk Me for the last Sixty           nine years? Why was s/he always a closet maggot? Some thIng sick, sadistic, while pretending to be           extremely secretive?

GOD:  Demon possession, simple as that. Remember, I gave ALL of You Free Will! Of course Martha                  knew better. Martha preferred being a clever demon. Yes, Martha enjoyed every sick, sadistic act                s/he (silently) practiced for Eighty-Seven Years, Eleven months and Twenty-four days. But,  guess 

            what? Her time is UP!

Me: PRAISE THE LORD!

GOD: BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Friday, September 25, 20/20

Howlin' Wolf & Eric Clapton ~ ''Goin' Down Slow''&''I Want To Have A Wor...

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME!

Another GOD Blessed Day, another opportunity to "Teach", to Reach, connect to fellow hue-beings "suffering" , the masses, the many , in the "same shape I'm in".

The Truth, WE are all suffering, none of US are happy.  WE are ALL suffering from "Lack".  The wealthiest, the greediest, the most corrupt, LACK charity. While they brag about their great wealth and lavish lifestyle,  they suffer from the lack of character, truth, honesty.

That orange maggot, fag-Goat,  still occupying the white house, may shit on a gold toilet. He can skin and grin with his ugly, fagged out, cheap toupee, cheap suit , cheap shoes,  wearing ass.  So, his stanking shit , stank too.

Any body glad to be in that foul, filthmongers' face, can kiss my Black ass. I am not that low, that lonely, NEVER!

The evil greedy slave master lived,  pimping, exploiting, raping, and robbing.   Persecuting, plotting and destroying,  for their own sadist pleasure. Well, low life , common maggots, you must reap what you sow.

I am delighted! BEAMING, over sixty-six years ago, that mongrel monstrosity, held me in the woods for hours and hours, cursing me and beating me. My own "mother" a twenty-nine year old, failed, bottom feeder, held me, a poor, innocent, defenseless child, in the woods, in captivity, because s/he was too proud to admit that s/he was a fallen woman of the worse kind.

No, never admitted s/he was nothing without Christ.  Never accepted Christ as her savior , although s/he preached her father's sermons for over thirty years. Yes, s/he was foolish enough, horrid enough, to NEVER do anything but practice voodoo on her own family, her own children.

No, s/he NEVER stopped her Pathological lying. No, s/he remained a sick, sadistic bully on her deathbed.

Yes, wo/men have found themselves in "family way" , without the "father", since the beginning of time.  But, how many of those wo/men brag to their surviving "spawn" , how they flushed five of their siblings down the toilet?

Not many, (I hope). Then, how many such wo/men , turn around and gleefully molest, rape, rob and terrorize the children,  s/he never wanted in the first place? Again, I hope the answer is very few.

No matter how many people have been made to suffer in  silence,  by such swine that birth US, I WON'T!

That sick, sadistic slut has been dead Seven years, as of yesterday,  and I am still celebrating!

Reverse the curse! "Come ye out from among them!"

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Friday, September 25, 20/20

Al Green - Take Me To The River (Official Audio)

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME! "What is done in the dark", kept in the dark, shall surely come to light.  Especially,  when the evildoers are all low life predators, CHILD MOLESTERS, ROOT WORKERS, CLOSET HOMOSEXUAL LESBIANS, SADISTIC SOCIOPATHS, Murders and Thieves!

Yes, LORD, on this beautiful , AWESOME,  GOD blessed , CHRIST Protected day, I just want to thank you for my GrandFATHER, ROME WALTERS!  A true Beacon of LIGHT,  in a sea of darkness.  The only hope I ever had of escaping that SICK SUCCUBUS  , that birthed me deliberately, to Exploit, Use miserably,  Enslave, Torment, make miserable,  for Sixty-Two YEARS!

Why? Of little faith, empty imps, immoral, prophesied.  "For IT is written."

  Martha was just like most Christians, FAKE!  UN-READ, POORLY EDUCATED, MIND NUMBINGLY COMMON! CARNAL! JUST NASTY! RACIST!

Uppity, arrogant, stiff necked, everything s/he accused Me of. A projectionist, always calling Me, what s/he knew s/he was.

At any rate, I escaped her clutches. Not only did I manage to distance myself from her low, criminal, demon possessed ass, I found Nine whole years of happiness, free of that slut.

One of the best benefits of having such a common "birther", I had very little tolerance for that lying, common, ignorant fag-GOAT, I accidentally married.  Just like Martha, he tried to trade his abominable lies, skin color,  coarse rudeness, treacherous,  vile , manipulative, cunning, common, carnal ass, brutality and explosive bullying ,  as a sign of masculinity,  proof of his "power".

Sorry, the nigga was just an old faggot, an old jealous, fagged out, tired ass, worthless faggot, pretending to love a GOD that he doesn't  want to know.  Well, dumb ass nigger, I have NEVER been so hard up for a "man", for a mate, that I would ever want to be associated with the likes of you.

I was born into the clutches of my "mother. I could not help that. But, a faggot like you, a wo/man has to be brain dead,  to so much as let her name be put in the same sentence , with your low, common ass.   Fuck You, you lying Fag-GOAT!

BEAMING! Anyway!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Thursday, September 24, 20/20

Ray Charles - I Can't Stop Loving You ( 1962 )

Ray Charles - I Can't Stop Loving You ( 1962 )

Mahalia Jackson Elijah Rock

Look at them! Standing around grinning, provoking innocent , downtrodden people,  to wrath, them deliberately mowing US down like grass.

Go ahead evildoers, WE deserve it. WE witness it over and over, "Crabs in a barrel".   Relax, it is a "Hue-man" condition.  "Self preservation" is the first law of nature, wo/man claims.  A least that is what my old lying "mother/birther", exploiter, enslaver, sick , sadistic, pathological lying, Jezebel, " root working" , whore of a mother,  always claimed.

Today is the Seventh anniversary of her "death", of her final departure. Not only am I rejoicing, I am rejoicing,  because I am rejoicing.

Looking back over my long life, discovering and re-discovering,  facts deliberately hidden, kept from US. Important , terrorizing Truth, if revealed could have saved US.  Hidden, not for OUR protection, mind you.  Truth deliberately withheld, smothered, cloaked , in order for my maggot, fag-goat of a "mother",  to pretend s/he was happy.  To drive second hand Cadillacs, to preach falsely, to dress better, to stalk, destroy and grin.  To commit  one sick, sadistic act after another , for years and years.   Awful, terror filled,  decade after another.

I was "hushed" by my own family because I'm "Too dark, too Black". I was hushed so Martha could live  in a "white neighborhood", pretend s/he was happily married to a good man. 

Yes, WE were just props for Martha when s/he needed proof of her great nurturing, and  parenting skills . When the low life lying whore needed physical evidence , s/he pointed to "The Doctor", to the "School Teacher".  Knowing full well , s/he was mad as hell! Raging! It wasn't supposed to happen!  That low slut burned US, branded US, scalded US, raped US, molested US and beat US savagely! Fuck that bitch! I'm glad s/he is dead!

WE were forced into silence and submission by OUR demon possessed birther, by this evil, racist society WE inherited.  Well, FUCK THAT!  I want no part, I refuse to participate in the lying hypocrisy of Christians!

My mother was a Christian! HORROR UNLEASHED! No wonder these so called Christians support d t.

No matter. GOD got this! My "mother"  murdered my grandfather. No, it wasn't so much that s/he didn't love him. The lazy whore , was a lazy whore. Totally unmotivated to ever do anything good for anyone!  No, my mother would have spat on Jesus, before s/he would have drawn [HIM] a sip of water.

Yes, my "mother/birther" would have kicked Jesus' ass with a vengence, left him in a pool of blood,  if he dared called her the whore,  s/he always knew s/he was.

It is what it is! I shall not lie for a dead demon,  that not only refused repentance, but bragged that s/he wasn't repenting for shit!

 Yes, my mother was a lazy, lying,  common,  promiscuous, sadistic  whore , from birth. Was proud of it, only when s/he bragged about it. Nobody else,  better not ever say shit,  without her express permission.

Anyway, her day came. Yes, s/he probably could have lived a lot longer, (s/he was the picture of health , except for that pain in her back).

Wow! Except,  her favorite child, decided TO PULL THE PLUG!  One of the two children,  s/he deliberately treated better,  than the four of US,  s/he delighted in torturing on QT (Quiet Tip), on the DL (Down Low).

Why? Martha had very low self esteem. All that bragging, boasting, terrorizing, dream killing,  was false bravado. Envy, jealousy, deep impenetratable ignorance! Mind numbing STUPIDITY was the real Martha, the Martha s/he kept hidden from public view! Not private, the demon possessed whore was always comfortable in her 'home'.

 Jesus told US to shun the very presence of evil. WE were deliberately birthed into her clutches.  How can an innocent child shun their "mother"? Especially if the whore deliberately birthed them without fathers?

Slut, yes, you did successfully birth me without a "father", but not without My GRANDFATHER! BOW DOWN DUMB SLUT! I am the Progeny! The SEED OF ROME WALTERS!

Sure, you stole his mantel, preached his sermons , and still died an unrepentant Judas-goat, fag-goat, mag-goat! Why? Because you were of little faith? Loved evil more than good? Loved satan more than Almighty GOD? Or because it is written?

No! What you and your fellow racist, color struck evildoers did to me, to US is Not a bad thing!  IT is a good thing! A Blessing! I rejoice and count it ALL Joy!

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Thursday, September 24, 20/20

Blood, Sweat & Tears - Spinning Wheel

BEAMING!  Enjoying, savoring another Awesome,  GOD Blessed Day!

***Joke # 999,999,669

Me: Dear LORD, I want a husband, send me a HUSBAND!

Not too many days  after "marrying" what I thought was my "GOD sent" husband,  I was on the line complaining to GOD, again.

"Dear GOD! He is Ignorant! He has to be the dumbest person on planet Earth!   He can't Read! Is functionally ILLITERATE!  He is so dumb, he thinks his ability to call words , is enough, that he has true "intellect".

GOD, this slut has zero desire to improve himself, this lying, immoral whore, demands that I shrink myself, become something lower than his bottom feeding, deplorable stank ass.

GOD! He is Immoral! He is a pathological LIAR! He is a thief! He is Rude! Lazy! Sadistic! Sneaky! Vile! LORD, he is a closet homosexual , STILL DEMANDING THAT THE ENTIRE WORLD KEEP HIS "SECRET"!

GOD: "Well...you should have been more specific.....  All you said was, "send you a husband" .   You got a beautiful baby out of the whole experience...move on to bigger and better things.

Me: Thank You LORD! I Rejoice!

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Wednesday, September 23, 20/20

Ben E.King - Supernatural Thing [Parts 1 & 2] ℗ 1975

Awesome! Ova'here praising GOD! Rejoicing! Marveling! In "Sheer Awe".

So, this old vile serpent comes to this good Earth and swears for eighty-seven years, eleven months and twenty-four days , s/he is so brilliant, so clever, so cunning, so manipulative, so fierce, so hooked up with satan , so beloved by her victims, s/he can die without repenting, or apologizing .

Yes, many evildoers have been so successful in their wrong doing, practicing "white supremacy", for so long, they are comfortable, arrogant. Defiant! They will spit on you,  if you so much as hint their HORRIFYING PERSECUTION IS UNBEARABLE!

Dare refuse to pledge to a flag they know only benefits "them", SUFFER! That was my "mother", "birther", captor, so called "benefactor".

"I shall treat you worse if you dare know, the "Dream of Democracy" is dead. Please pretend that you don't know, the only way d t shall ever be removed from the "power" he stole, GOD will have to do it.  Please don't expect GOD to save amerikkka from reaping what s/he sowed.

Yes, World, the amerikkka I know, have known my entire long life, deserves d t and all of his minions.

My poor , ignorant, demon possessed "mother",  raged and acted the pure fool,  for her entire long life. All her lies are still lies.  Everything s/he did to Me BACKFIRED!

BEAMING!!!

So? Pay that shit "no mind".

Please pray. Humble yourself, forgive yourself! Love yourself enough to ask GOD/TheHOLYSPIRIT/UNIVERSALINTELLIGENCE/HUMILITY/LOVE/HONESTY to come into your life. To linger there. Now BEAM!

REVERSE THE CURSE!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Wednesday, September 23, 20/20

Believe in LOVE

JESUS! JESUS! JESUS!

REJOICING! REJOICING! REJOICING!

HEALING! HEALING! HEALING!

GOD IS RESTORING! RESTORING! RESTORING!

Yes, I receive it LORD!

Yes! I do think critically,  LORD!

Yes! I am of great Faith,  LORD!

Yes! A very, clever evildoer did hold me captive for sixty-two years. So? It was a BLESSING!  Thank You JESUS!

What if s/he had loved me, taught me her ways? 

I never would have bothered to achieve anything.  I would have sat right beside her, under her, a contented imp, her footstool, just more hue-man dung.  Another lock stepper, another greedy , "color struck" imp. 

Yes! I am sitting right here , MARVELING! Over whelmed with Joy! I lost my mind , was consumed by sheer GRIEF! My heart broken, first shattered into pieces, then fine dust.

Yes! I was angry! I raged! Martha , not only refused to repent, but laughed, scoffed Me, mocked GOD. Was perhaps proud that s/he did in fact murder her own father, got away by securing an ordination to preach,  and successfully  put on a stellar performance for over thirty years.

Well, the one "good son", the one son s/he treated halfway decent, pulled the plug on her. Wow! I'm humbled, in Awe! My GrandDADDY promised me; "Jesus will fix it."

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Wednesday, September 23, 20/20

"Amen, Come Jesus." - Revelation 22:20

 

d t you have been weighed in the balances

Yes World, while I most certainly do hate that ignorant, mongrel monstrosity , with a Purple Passion, s/he is not the only volunteer evildoer. As a matter of Fact; d t is just the tip of the "Iceberg"!

While s/he is a simple minded, hate filled,  racist mag-GOAT , ( the cross between a maggot and a Judas Goat), s/he is NOT New! 

In my Sixty-Nine years of struggle on this Planet, most of the hue-mans I have encountered have been just as low, just as lying, just as racist, hate filled, full of envy, jealousy, superstitious,  common, carnal, immoral, lying, murderous and LOVED THE CHURCH! Always up preaching! Taking over! Criticizing! Deliberately ruining! Reducing EVERYONE  to Dung!

NO WONDER! IT WAS THE ROMAN CATHOLIC CHURCH THAT ESTABLISHED CHATTEL SLAVERY IN THE FIRST PLACE!

Like I said, while I do take pride in hating that orange MAG-GOAT,   with every fiber of my being, his kind, I know very well.

Nearly every boss, principal, administrator and "colleague" , I've ever "worked" with, has been a dumb ass , dick sucking, lazy ass, immoral racist.  Just "Christian swine", greedy hogs running to "church", looking for a "Get Over".  Imps, pimps, coons, color-eds, po'whites, rich whites, big shot niggers,  and low ghetto niggers, proud to be lighter in complexion than me.

Yes, "Crabs in a Barrel" full of self-loathing and evil, despicable lies.

Don't get mad with Candice Owens, s/he is just capitalizing on the "System". While WE don't like it, WE all need to look into OUR own lives. It is a shame! Did Chattel Slavery create this horrid inhue-man system , that built this CONtry?

As I said, while I do hate d t, his kind,  all of his enablers and followers, I can't blame him for capitalizing on something this World clings to, can't live without; someone to blame. Capitalism is nothing more than "legalized GREED"!  White males are the birds and black people are the worker ants, white people the worker bees, that is why they get the honey.

Before poor whites shall ever admit the privileged white planters , used them like mules, made them "Cannon Fodder" for a useless, unnecessary War, they shall just "kill niggers".  Why ever think, why ever be fair? KILL NIGGERS! TERRORIZE NIGGERS IN THEIR FACE!

Poor whites have NOT always enjoyed the privilege of "just killing niggers for sport". No, a white man better not touch a rich white man's nigger , prior to the Civil War.

(The real reason poor whites went into a vicious feeding frenzy of hating and annihilating all Black people, during the Antebellum period, slaves ordered the poor whites off of the sidewalk, clearing the way for their white masters. It is a true fact, slaves did mistreat poor whites, looked down on them. because they mimicked the attitudes of their masters.)

Niggers were valuable Property, protected by Law!  Every SLAVE that was ever held in captivity,  in this CONtry , is listed AS VALUABLE PROPERTY!

Look it up! I was fascinated viewing the Tax Records in the Sate Archives of Georgia.  The shock of all shock, a few slaves were "valued" as WORTHLESS,  because of their age or some severe handicap.

My point is; "There exists on this good Earth, only One Race, The HUE-MAN RACE!"  Any one still ranking people by color, gender, status and wealth,  far into the TWENTY-FIRST CENTURY , is an imp and they deserve the life they live.

Every hue-man being on this Earth knows WE can bless one another as well as curse, if you choose to curse, afflict, persecute, annihilate, just remember; GOD IS JUST!

BEAMING!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Sunday, September 20, 20/20

Bonnie Raitt, Aaron Neville & Gregg Allman -Tell It Like It Is.mpg

Awesome! Awesome! Awesome! While I am sure I shall never know why my "birther" was such a HORRID  hue-man being,  for nearly nine decades, her final demise seven years ago is still AWESOME!   All I know is, I KNOW! I know what I know!

I also know GOD/THE HOLY SPIRIT,   saved me from that low slut's worse!  Who knew so called "bisexuals" were entering into marriages, homemade "Covenants" , with he'she wo/men?

My "mother". One thing I know, I know, now, Martha Jane Walters,  always knew s/he was a sexual Freak. A closet "Bulldagger" , a rapist, a molester , A DELIBERATE , VOLUNTEER DESTROYER OF HER OWN CHILDREN. YES, MARTHA JANE WALTERS LIVED EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS, ELEVEN MONTHS AND TWENTY-FOUR DAYS, KNOWING FULL WELL , S/HE FULLY INTENDED TO FUCK UP EACH AND EVERYONE,  FOOL ENOUGH TO LOVE HER, TO TRUST HER.

THAT'S IT!  It has been foretold for the last TWO THOUSAND YEARS! "The evil days draw nigh."

If one lie is in it, GOD is not in it!  Well, GOD why did I take that horrid, sick, despicable shit , off of Martha Jane Walters ,  for SIXTY-TWO YEARS?  "For it is written'.  "Endure to the end."

"What is done in the dark shall surely come to light."  Born into the clutches of a sick whore, I ended up marrying a sicker whore. But, thankfully, that sick whore(my birther),  was always extremely masculine, used to beat the dog shit out of niggers,  on the regular.  And s/he beat them for a whole lot less than foul stupidity committed by that maggot I married. 

Martha beat men if they did give her their entire check, uncashed! Martha beat her men if they said something when they caught her whoring, or if s/he felt like they "talked back".

Me coming from that back ground, then "accidentally' marrying a complete "sissy", a nigger that tied his bathrobe taunt around his Gay ass, "switched", pained his toenails like fingernails,  and was as dumb as "Kingfish", (Amos and Andy),  was a blessing.

No, it did not take me long to decide to kill this nigger. All I needed was an opportunity. I decided the method should be my .38, H&R,  pre-loaded with hallow point bullets.  Yes, World, that nigga was and is still,  too dumb to live.

Who the fuck thinks, actually believed, they could marry a fine woman of my calibur , and be a damn DICK  SUCKING, DICK LOVING FAG-GOAT!?  Hell No NIGGA! GET THEE BEHIND ME sATAN!

Wait, the nigga did not look that good! The nigga was Broke! Worse, the dumb nigger was DUMB!  The bitch still thinks you can actually, physically, stand on the Equator. Tell him the equator is an imaginary line and the dumb bitch shall lose his shit.

Yes, I''m  still mad! That 'hoe pursued me! He came after me! Men on the DL (down low), if you actively pursue a wo/man, as a MAN, as a heterosexual, you need to remain a HETEROSEXUAL! 

If you want to go back to being a homosexual, do not mistreat the poor wo/man foolish enough to marry your sorry, pathological lying ass.  Seriously, you should just stop dating wo/men. period.   Just Stop! Pick a Team!

It is not funny.  Worse, no one in this world ever cared that I accidentally married a Fag-Goat! NOBODY! World! I accidentally married a "man" that presented himself as a "man" until he had a tantrum , because I made his sorry ass marry me,  for deliberately impregnating me , knowing full well he was still married.

Well, I did not kill him. He is still alive. Still stupid! Still lying! Still trying to pretend he is merely a "bisexual".  No such thing.

No, I shall not tell one lie for my dead ass "mother", or that thang I accidentally married.  I shall never apologize for refusing to remain married to low scum, a bottom feeder. No, I shall never be silent!

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Saturday, September 19, 20/20

Esther Phillips - And I Love Him

Whew! Ain't got nothing to say but; "Thank You Jesus!"  "You brought me from a mighty long way."  Thank You for teaching Me that I shall know them by their fruit.

Most of all, thank You for Jerome Walters/ROME WALTERS! Yes LORD! For the whole , rest of my humble, afflicted, stalked by my lying, hating enemies , life, I shall praise you!

I know what I know! I know the filth that was deliberately kept from Us! Why? FEAR!  My family, the Walters and fellow "captives" have been taught since 1619 to fear the "white man".  Seriously, for at least the last two thousand years , so called Christians have successfully written, designed and popularized a "Book" that claims people of color must tote that barge, lift that bale, and endure Hell on Earth for the sake of every white man, wo/man and child, FOREVER!

BULLSHIT! You illiterate sons-of-bitches!

NOT Me! I served my time. I completed my sentence! The whore of Babylon is DEAD! I praise GOD. S/he was a HORROR! True enough, Martha Jane Walters was always demon possessed. Always a pathological liar, always a bottom feeder,  that suffered with low self esteem.

Always a plotter, a stalker, a con artist, a "root working" prostitute.  Always pretended to be a loving daughter, sister, mother, Christ Lover, NO SUCH THING!

Don't feel sorry for her. It was her choice.WE all have Free Will. Yes, it hurts when Our loved ones choose evil doing over Truth telling. It is painful to look into the face of someone you love with all your heart and know they are lying their ass off.  Struggling to keep you off balance, confused, screaming in excruciating pain they can't wait to make worse with more lies disguised, to hide their true feelings.

Why lie? All lies stem from fear.  Just what is it your loved one fears? If they are like Martha their greatest fear is not being feared.  Fear of anyone, any where,  "Out doing" them, having more money, a better car, a better home, a better "life".

No, All of these lying , narcissistic evildoers get off on their "trickery", insincerity, their stealth, their ability to spew a timely, believable  lie,  to block blessings, while they quietly savor their secret , sadistic supply.

Let's face it, Our unending hot stream of tears make Our enemies smile, seen and unseen.

There is one glaring fact the evildoers can Not continue to ignore; s/he has no power. My "mother" never had any power.S/he was a terrorist! She did rape, bludgeon, brutalize, scald, molest and murder for eighty-five years! But, s/he never had any power.

My GrandDADDY came to this Earth and did what very few men could do, then or now. Sure, his slutty, evil, demon possessed daughter did successfully murder him.  Steal his mantel, and preached falsely.  So?  

The only people dumb enough to still honor Martha are just as immoral, just as jealous and just as lying.

Those that desire to reverse the curse, shall. Those that actually believe they are benefiting, won't.

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Saturday, September 19. 20/20

Will Andrew & R. Jai Gillum Stay Married?

"Dis'heah got me laughing my ass off!"  I am screaming! This is the exact same shit that happened to me!

I married a CLOSET FAG GOAT thirty-seven years ago!  "My LORD from Zion!" BLUNT FORCE TRAUMA!

How could such a thing happen to me? I was shocked! Flabbergasted ! Out done! Laid low! Ambushed! "Led astray", Struck down!

Why? WHY? WHY? WHY?  Well, my "Biological Clock" was going off and at thirty-two years old I found myself craving "Motherhood".  Something, I clearly knew very little about.

I went on a "Husband Search".  Tried of being used by one tried, useless "nigga" after another , I went on a "Good Man" search.  Unfortunately Chattel Slavery (240 years),  and the terrorism intentionally inflicted upon all people of color,  since the idiots gave their lives for nothing , in that "Un-Civil War", there exist very few men worth "having".

I went to the Gym six and seven times a week, I gave up all pork and red meat! I gave up sugar! I trimmed myself down to one hundred and ten pounds, wore a size four like a model. Owned my own home! Was debt free! But , something went very wrong, Accidentally MARRIED A FAG GOAT! 

Mercy! Tender mercies Jesus! "My LORD from Zion!" sATAN DONE TRICKED ME , AGAIN!

Lady, I don't know you and you are right, the way you live your life is none of my business. But, HOW IN THE WORLD DO YOU DO,  WHAT YOU DO?

Now, you claimed you knew all the time , that you deliberately entered into a "Covenant" that you designed. Honey chile, that only proves you have no idea what a "Covenant" is!

Again, if you don't mind, I don't mind.  At least your "bisexual" has status, money,  I assume. He,  pulled you up, I assume.  My "case" was the total opposite! My fag-goat never earned a college degree, anywhere.  He did "attend" some "colleges", according to him. He had no fucking money, he was in debt up to his fag=goat ass! The lame, dry ass nigga, had no game, NOT ONE DAMN MASCULINE MUSCLE IN IS SNOW WHITE , PILLSBURY DOUGHBOY , TOO SHORT BODY!

 The dumb bitch could not even converse intelligently,  on any subject, ever, he was an avid "NON-READER"!   "Dick" was the only thing that ever lingered on his mind.

While, he pretended he was in search of money, of wealth, of comfort, for US both, that lying fag-goat, was never more than a lying fag-goat! "Shun the very presence of evil!"

And no, at no time did that "bisexual" ever indicate he was a fag-goat. He pretended to be a Christian, his lack of interest in Me sexually was due to his great respect for me.  BULLSHIT! LYING FAGGOT!

Yes, he respected Me alright, respected me enough to give me some SEXUALLY TRANSMITTED DISEASE, THEN TALKED CASH SHIT!  World, the Slut was proud! Crowed like a little "Bantum Rooster".

More Blunt Force Trauma!   More evidence, some one prayed for us.  World, dat nigga wanted to die! He was begging me to fucking kill him! To just SNAP!

World, not only was this Fag-Goat lacking in  any finances, the Bitch was taking my money and spending it on random 'hoes , in my face! Why? Was he trying to make me jealous? Was that kind of immoral behavior supposed to make me work harder to keep his worthless, pathological lying, horrid, dry, lame, always angry, always stupid, always lazy ass?

No, he was just more Blunt Force Trauma!

Who puts up with these wo/men, these sneaky, manipulative, cunning vipers? Too many of US, apparently.

One good thing about it, The HOLY SPIRIT  promises to make ever crooked way straight.  No, I got a "bad deal" from conception.  So what, even the ones that got a "good deal" didn't get much.  I would not trade my; "many dreams left un-full filled life",  for d t's miserable , monstrous, pathological lying, evil, empty, demon possessed  life. 

BEAMING!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Friday, September 18, 20/20

That's The Way Love Is Bobby Blue Bland 1963

Lean in;

Please!

True, "It is ALL IN  DIVINE ORDER" but , that doesn't mean the outcome is going to be  good or that you shall not suffer.

But, when you finally find out what you always suspected but , just could not wrap your brain around, something you thought you could not bear to "know".  Know it anyway! Just be stunned! 

"It is what it is." Jesus told US; "Ye shall know them by their fruit." While OUR "loved ones" can and do often shock US, betray US, use US, dispose of US , with disgust. Blame US for finally recognizing how disingenuous , pretentious, and fake they really are. Just know!

Jesus warned US! Some Truth is so painful , you will want to pluck out your own eye!

Don't blame them, when you find people that can't do better, won't do better, it is not necessarily their fault, entirely. Remember, "Many are called, free are chosen."

When I was a small child my grandfather warned me that my life would be hard, not because of my "mother" but, because of my wisdom. He told me that I would meet very few people on my level.  Rome Walters ain't "nevah" lied.

Make sure you know and understand what ; "Many are called, few are chosen." ; really means. Those not chosen, know they are not chosen.  Perhaps,  what they consider rejection from GOD causes them to  resort to serving every evildoer that shows them any attention, I shall never know.

All I know is they Rage, are always hard to get along with. Yes, if you are in love with a narcissist, you have to be the "Bottom". You must serve as their footstool, be their sadistic supply.

I do know if one lie is in it, GOD is not in it. A loud declaration of NOT believing in any GOD, bragging that You don't need GOD , does not absolve you of your responsibility to  practice morality, of always being a Truth teller.

A lie is a LIE! A lie is Filth! Verbal "do-do". A lie is an insult to everyone, the Liar and the listener. All liars are terrorists. Challenge their lies, you shall be beaten to a pulp. True, they will use their tongue first.

They may even flex like they want to hit you. World, that is horror unleashed!  Utter any part of the Truth around those they have fooled, conned, it is going to be a bad day for you.

The deliberate practice of "pathological lying" carries a lot of guilt, anger and Rage! Real rage, yes all narcissists are terrorists.  It is a shame, "hurt people , hurt people". No, there is no help, no solution.

No, they can't change. Before they will ever admit that they secretly hate you, are always comparing and coming up short, they will hit you with more blunt force trauma.  They will deliberately lead you astray, just to further humiliate you.

That's life, that's love.  At least that is what  WE have been taught, conditioned to believe.  "Pay that shit no attention." BEAM! Hold your head up! Do you,  and keep YOUR trust in The HOLY SPIRIT, DIVINE ORDER.

Yes, hue-mans suffering with demon possession, or people that deliberately hurt their "loved ones" over and over, are demon possessed. They know it  but, they actually love the demons , far more than The Holy Spirit. 

Yes, they know they are wrong but, they love being evil monsters. People that lie , love to lie. Yes, some of OUR loved ones are so sadistic they get off on OUR tears, OUR suffering.

Just pray for them. Yes, save yourself. Yes, rest assured The Holy Spirit knows.  Be Cool, GOD got this!

BEAMING!

Wednesday, September 16, 20/20

"It is what it is." 

NINA SIMONE on DAVID BOWIE, JANIS JOPLIN and singing STARS( Live at Mont...

Racism drove Nina Simone to MADNESS! Yes, she Raged! I understand. I also Rage!

I rage over stupid, unnecessary "white supremacy", child abuse, fake closet homosexual Christians. 

Yes, I hate every fake , phony Christian , that has never read the Book they judge me with.  Persecute and mock me with.  Slam every door shut and exclude me with.  Yes, I hate all Liars! Yes, the word "hate" is not too strong for me.

Dear LORD please deliver me from the clutches of all pathological liars. Thank You for revealing why that "closet homosexual" mistreated me to the point,  I still hate his guts!  I still wish him harm!

The worm is disgusting!  An old ass, fake ass, Crack addict, still lying, still pretending. still fake.

Dear LORD, please deliver all closet homosexuals, too vacuous to know, no GOD, no Super Natural Spirit any where,  has ever forbidden same sex love.

The LYING IS WRONG! LYING,  A FAKE FABRICATED  LIFE IS THE SIN!  LYING PRODUCES SELF LOATHING.  SELF HATRED FOR LIVING A LIE, IS THE SIN!

Yes, While I still RAGE, I know the source, "Unattended Sorrow".  Yes, I'm mad as Hell, mad as hot  fish grease.  Everyone knew Mathy was a low life whorish pedophile.  Yet, s/he was permitted to keep Us, play "mother", nurturer, healer, wife, daughter, sister, aunt, cousin, Pastor!  

 MARTHA JANE WALTERS HODGES DOSTER WATSON LAMOUREAUX Was NEVER more than a disciple for satan! Old Slewfoot in "drag". Our "secret" monster, Our nemesis.

Most knew s/he was a "root worker",  and more than a few always knew,  s/he was a closet Lesbian.

No matter, s/he is finally dead! Thank You Jesus! I do have to laugh, my "mother's" long life is a Testimony of WHAT NOT TO DO! What NOT to do; curse GOD and die because you got demon possessed trying to hide your sick, sadistic, carnal nature.

Well, I can understand my "mother's" conflict. I'm not sure I could own up to her horrid deeds,either.  S/he was pretty common! What , who can be worse than a "mother" that  bragged about flushing five of her own babies down the toilet?

That is straight DEMON POSSESSION!  No, that is beyond psychotic or a sadistic sociopath. That is why s/he preached.

 d t has made it abundantly clear, EVANGELICALS, wHITE ANGLO SAXON PROTESTANTS AND CATHOLICS ARE DEMONIC! ALL PRACTITIONERS OF wHITE SUPREMACY ARE DEMONIC!!!

I AM BEAMING BECAUSE I ALWAYS HATED HER! THANK YOU JESUS!  S/he did damage me but,  not nearly to the extent that Maggot intended. The dummy sold her soul for a second hand Cadillac! What an idiot. Too lazy to read, lived to lie and always cloaked her "perversions".

Yes, Mathy was a first class "Crab in a barrel".

BEAMING!

Tuesday, September 15, 20/20

Andrew Gillum Comes Out As Bisexual On “Tamron Hall"

I know one thing, I accidentally married a low, slutty, common, BOTTOM BITCH!  A nasty, common MAGGOT! A FAGGOT!

A "man" that deliberately  presented himself as a  college educated Christian , in search of a "godly wife".  Nothing was ever further from the Truth. The low lying, predatory viper was looking for a "fish",  a female he could use.

He was an idiot, an imp. Scum so low he joined the Church, the Usher Board , just to pass himself off as something decent, something desirable. Luckily for me, My old closet Lesbian, "Root working", jealous, envious, poorly educated , "bulldagging" "mother" , put "Roots" on him!

Ran him off like the dog he was!

Thank You demon slut! The sorry, lazy, lying, color struck, ignorant, illiterate, immoral,  lascivious reprobate,  claimed he didn't want me. Said I was too Black and too masculine.

Something the whore did not discover until the day I made him marry Me! Yes, I did make that faggot marry Me! He lied to me! He lied about being divorced and he lied about loving me, he lied about every aspect of his life.

The whore planned to use me to "get up". No, he never intended to earn anything. Lying , stealing and being a "bottom bitch" was always his highest aspiration.

I am sure Morgan State University never gave that dullard a degree. He could not even READ! He can barely call words.

One thing for sure, it all makes sense now.  

BEAMING!

I stood up to a closet faggot! I threw a closet faggot out of my house at gun point!  I threw a closet faggot out of the house that I won! A house that GOD gave me and satan's imps begrudged Me.

Yes, he is still a lying faggot! So is my dead , unrepentant "mother".

Yes, I do feel very sorry for ALL Liars. You may not be able to stop lying but, do know The HOLY SPIRIT shall always look out for me and direct my path.

Thank You LORD for delivering me from the hands of my lying enemies, seen and unseen.

BEAMING!

Tuesday, September 15, 20/20

Andrew Gillum Comes Out As Bi$exual During Interview With Tamron Hall ��...

This is truly  "Life Saving" Information for me. This man's Truth has set me Free!

Wow! It all makes sense now, I "accidentally" married a "Closet Homosexual" thirty -seven years ago!

My LORD from Zion, I was never so miserable in my entire life! The "wo/man" was one sick, pathetic, pathological lying worm. He served on the Usher Board, never missed "Church" but hated GOD.

Well, he hated what he thought was GOD's law and chose to hide in the Church. World, there are so many closet sexual freaks cloistered up in the "Church", when they get exposed, the "Church" is going to be empty.

Now, that  I know the source of his pathological lying, low self esteem, self-loathing , I can begin to understand, perhaps forgive him one day.

My x-"huz-band" was, is , a product of "white supremacy", Chattel Slavery,  and deep, disgusting ignorance, illiteracy, tremendous jealousy and envy.  While my evil, demon possessed "mother" took pride in claiming s/he destroyed Me, My "marriage", My life,  with her evil, demon possessed Voodoo, s/he is a LIE!

I rejoice! Thank You for helping me get rid of that total sniveling faggot! One damn, dick loving, dick sucking, dumb ass, blind ass, uncle tomming , dumb ass coon!

I do have to scream! The very idea of a "Bottom bitch",  ever believing his dumb , illiterate, cowardly ass could marry Me,  and oppress me, is RIDICULOUS!  I am covered by the Blood, Scum! Maggot! Worm! Something too disgusting to imagine.

Of course I am not against the practice of "homosexuality". There is no GOD against it either. Lying, exploitive, predatory "Wo/man" is!  Any Jesus pimp demanding you tithe to keep him rich and praying you never read, will tell you that you are in danger of hell fire.

What hell could be worse than being born a Black female in this "Mean World". My low stanking mother not only raped and ruined her own children. The low slut beat us like slaves on the regular, scalded , branded, bludgeoned Us , a the old whore was still ravenous!

Yes, LORD, September 24, 2013    WAS A WONDERFUL DAY! GOODGOTUHMIGHTYYYYYYY!

GOD  sent that whore back to hell s/he escaped from! Good Riddance to Bad RUBBISH!

My "mother" pretended to be against "i"t with her lying, closet "Bulldagging", "Root Working" , repulsive ,despicable,  COMMON ASS!

Much thanks to d t for snatching my blinders off! I shall not lie, prior to d t, I was an EVANGELICAL!

See, the problem with most "Christians", most "Christians" have not read the Book, never intend to. Most "Christians" are evil, jealous, racist liars, looking for a "hook up" from a white god for pretending to follow a book they have zero interest in , except to enslave and persecute.

Relax, they have no power and their time is up.

Wink, wink, be sure you know, the cause of all this madness, low life lying preachers,  just like my "mother"  and that thang I accidentally married.

I am Rejoicing because I never loved him! Rejoicing because I rejected him, rebuked him for being rude, selfish, ignorant and a greedy uncle tom before I knew he was a faggot!

BEAMING!

IT IS ALL IN DIVINE ORDER!

Freddie King and Eric Clapton - Farther on up the Road

Sending this one out to ALL the vile, low life, lying, lecherous, carnal, backbiting, backstabbing, so called "Christians", still  cheering that d t.  I am ashamed of you, even if you are not intelligent enough  to be ashamed of yourself!

Here I am ELDERLY,  still trying to reveal that low whore,  that stunted skunk,  that deliberately held Me captive for Sixty-two LONG, EXCRUCIATINGLY PAINFUL YEARS!

Why? "white Supremacy"; the written, and unwritten laws, customs and myths , that force Black Wo/men to be Beasts of Burden, Mules for men!

"My LORD from Zion"! Jesus shed [HIS] Blood over Two Thousand Years ago to prevent this SHIT!  What happened? Nothing. This SHIT IS PROPHESIED! WE have been TOLD! None of US have one excuse for OUR continued lying and denying.

I "accidentally" married a FAGGOT!  Why? THE CHURCH! ESSENCE MAGAZINE! THE VIET NAME WAR! THE SEASON WAS DRY! I HAD NO GAME! AN EVIL, SICK, SADISTIC, INCESTUOUS-PEDOPHILE , "ROOT WORKING" , PATHOLOGICAL LIAR BIRTHED ME!

Any excuse will do, but bottom line, nothing but LYING, "Man's Inhumanity to Man", Greed! Demon Possession! Hue-man Stupidity!

At any rate, I can finally laugh. I finally see the humor. I move to Atlanta in search of the "Black Experience". I am excited, consider myself fortunate, wise, for actually following my "mother's" advice and volunteering to leave the State University Of New York-Binghamton's fine Graduate program.

Yes, I actually traded a prestigeous Graduate School for "The Black Experience", Atlanta University!  My LORD, My LORD! gay heaven! GAY HEAVEN! Wait! I'm still blind, still clueless, still don't know, Atlanta,  the "black Mecca" , is the DL (Dow Low) Capitol of the entire World!

So, satan is so wicked, I follow the advice of so many; "Want a good man, want a husband...go to Church." BULLSHIT! At least that was BULLSHIT for Me!

SISSY!  SISSIES! NOTHING BUT GAY ASS SISSIES1 OUT OF THE CLOSET SISSIES! 

Ladies, be careful, all that "clean", dainty shit may impress you now, be careful.  Far too many men are ashamed that they crave "Dick",  far more than wo/men. While many "men" are "Bottoms" , they are ashamed.

A "Bottom" is considered the "bitch", the effeminate one.  Therefore the "man" that goes out in search of "Dick", the "man" that craves being dominated, "raped" , if you will, will not, can not make a good husband, ever.

He will over compensate for his "feminine" tendencies, behave like an ignorant cave man. He will be nasty, always angry, hostile, argumentative, ignorant and rude. Shun them!

Be alone ladies.  Not lonely, just along. Get a dog, a cat, perhaps a vibrator , if you have "sexual feelings".  At any rate, LOVE YOURSELF!

I am currently learning to Love myself sincerely, FIERCELY.  Yes, I am laughing, a "Bottom bitch" tried desperately to conquer Me! No son, go sit your faggot-ty , pathological lying, closet HOMOSEXUAL  ass down!

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Monday, September 14, 20/20

''Ain't No Cadillac''- Sam Lightnin' Hopkins (March 15, 1912 – January 3...

Awesome! Awesome! Awesome! I count it ALL Joy! Born in 1951 to what has proven to be the lowest, commonest, vile, selfish, greedy, envious, jealous, vacuous, lascivious , reprobate,  to ever slither on this good Earth! I stand flat footed! BEAMING! COURAGEOUS! A "THESE ARE THEY"!

I OVERCAME GREAT TRIBULATION , to get to where I am today!

Yes, my own "mother", "birther", crawled, sloshed, marched , close behind me for Sixty-two years attempting to do , what s/he could not do,  when I was formed in her corrupt belly, BE RID OF ME, KILL ME.

YES, MY OWN mOTHER WAS DISPATCHED BY THE SYSTEM OF wHITE SUPREMACY TO DESTROY ME.  Yes, World, my own "mother" Willie Lynched me.

No, it is indeed a fact, my own "mother" ;Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Lamoureaux,  was HORROR UNLEASHED!

Why? Was s/he prophesied ? Was s/he a "useful thing"? Just who knew, who could have ever imagined such a horrid person, an "Ordained Pastor", could live so long among "good people, fine people" ?

Did WE, her very victims know? WE knew to be quiet, to keep her sick, sadistic, demonic "secrets".  Secrets not so secret. Martha's secrets always depended on her audience. S/he was always  virtuous, prim and proper , in front of her Church, (Simone Temple African Methodist Episcopal Zion Church , on Yadkin Road in Fayetteville, North Carolina.)

Otherwise, always sneaky, low life, back stabbing, carnal, nasty, untrustworthy. She used to send my brother in Texas , unwashed Chitterlings!  S/he would call me, confess to me how s/he sent them "loaded with shit". S/he would laugh. I knew not to ever tell anyone.  If I told, s/he would know I was the "leak".  I just shook my head, glad I had refused to put Chitterlings in my mouth.

The irony is, this same brother has "un-friend-ed" Me! Excoriated me!   I still possess a long list of horrific, unimaginable acts of terror  s/he deliberately perpetrated on him

Why? He is also a "Christian" that has never bothered to read his Bible. S/he told that dumb ass that he had to honor her , no matter what. That he had to forgive her , no matter what.

So what? He was always lathargic academically. He is doing the best he can and "Many are called, few are chosen."

I always wondered why Martha picked that Church. I was curious as to why Martha rejected and rebuked Wesley AMEZ Church in Wade, OUR Home Church. The Church WE grew up in ,my granDADDY'S Church.

As wicked and as confident as Mathy was,  in her ability to mesmerize, manipulate and completely pull the wool over anyone's eyes, even s/he knew better than to test the good memories of old time Wade residents. "Country folk" that lacked a formal education but had and exercised common sense.

Yes, I witnessed some good "saints" from Wesley get right in my "mother's" face, tell her ass off! I was always shocked, the MONSTER  at home, turned snielving , humble worm when confronted by real Christ lovers!

Mathy Jane, didn't go around her own people too much after s/he MURDERED  her own daddy. Not, the outspoken ones. Not the one's that refused to be intimidated by her "Voodoo" threats.

I'm BEAMING!  Number one, I am glad, absolutely rejoicing because s/he did finally die,  seven years ago! Number two, s/he hated me so much, stalked me so long, I became Me! I love Me! No one can get me to lie for liars, steal for thieves or kill for murders.

Number three, I know Mathy won't SHIT!  A horrid curse the low slut always spewed on me, while never giving me a clue as to why.

It seems Martha was savagely raped , three times as an eight year old child. Apparently, for what ever reasons, s/he grew ashamed. Volunteered to become the monster, the RAPIST, s/he became

That makes NO SENSE!  My "mother", my "birther" became a rapist because s/he was raped! Ridiculous! What a lousy excuse! Martha became a rapist, a sick , sadistic con artist,  and remained so for eighty-eight years , because it was "her time".

WE ALL have Free Will! Nothing WE do is by accident!

I shall never apologize to satan, to any evildoer, claiming I am the idiot, the imp. sATAN  is a liar, the author of confusion. FUCK sATAN!

BEAMING!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Monday, September 14, 20/20

Donny Hathaway - "Superwoman" (Where were you when I needed you) - (Live)

Awe! Great! Another opportunity to attempt to impart knowledge to those in search of it.

Yes, "True , liberating Knowledge"; must be sought for,   hunted down. Particularly today, the evildoers know their time is up. The "Daze of white supremacy" make NO ****ING SENSE!

The "Masses" are Restless, Disturbed, Protesting, ...."Coming of Age." IT IS ALL IN DIVINE ORDER!

How can the "Man" claim to be the head of the house , as Jesus is the Head of the Church, when most "Churches" have NEVER seen Jesus?

"Men", haven't you noticed, You "masculized" wo/men, particularly Black wo/men. No one is dumb enough to be your toilet, your urinal, you snieveling slave , just because you have a swinging dick and a sack of nuts!

WE are twenty years into the Twenty-First Century and that old "religious" white supremacy bullshit you are spewing,  is too old.

MUTHAFUCKER! The **** is MIND NUMBING1 IT IS USELESS! I married a CLOSET FAGGOT! A BOTTOM BITCH! THE STANKING 'HOE DEMANDED TO USE A BOOK HE NEVER READ, REFUSED TO READ, TO ENSLAVE ME!

FUCK THAT SHIT!

I really would have to "pluck out My own eye" to accept some sick ass , sadistic, shit like that. THANK YOU LORD FOR DELIVERING ME!

My own , evil, demon possessed "mother" , knew full well,  s/he held on to her lies much too long. Yes, my own "mother" preferred to die, and just rot,  before s/he would ever give up lying.

"Man" if you are so brilliant, so brave, why do most wo/men have to work? The rich are working! No wo/man gets to stay home and bond with her baby.

But, WE All have to remain perfect! That FAGGOT  claimed I was too Fat and TOO BLACK! DEMANDED I SIT UP WITH HIS FAGGOT LYING ASS EVERY SUNDAY, FAKING SOME FAKE ASS, LOVE LESS MARRIAGE!

FUCK THAT, SHIT!

OUR elderly are treated like ****! Warehoused, forced to sit in their own feces and urine,  if they are poor, forgotten, or too far gone.

Tell the Truth, a lot of "Old People" are praying to die of Covid-19. And, a lot of relatives are hoping their old ass, burdensome ass, elderly parents,  will hurry up and die.  If they are considered poor.  If they did not plan well financially.

No, intellectual and artistic gifts,  don't count if you are not white.

At any rate, be glad to still be ALIVE!

I , for one, am glad to be learning, what I'm learning.  While getting "Old" does suck, particularly when you are financially "exhausted", it is still, ALL GOOD!

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Sunday, September 13, 20/20

Al Green - Let's Stay Together

Com'ere! "Let Me pull your coat."; It is all bull****! The fact I am considered offensive for daring to utter such an expletive , on My blog,  is BULL****!  MY Foul language is  deemed as horrifying rebellion by the contented, assimilated "masses". Those that still believe in the "System", that falsely believe  they have finally cracked the code.   

It is true the white man made me earn a "piece of paper" and I falsely believed I had "arrived".  that I would finally be welcome at the table.  Only to find out, very late in life, the best I can ever do is "eat in the kitchen."

None of US are privileged! Not even the horrid, racists "whites",  doing everything in their evil power to maintain "white supremacy".

"white supremacy" is more than an ideology, a flawed philosophy, it is OUR way of Life. No one on this planet has ever lived one day without feeling the affects of white "privilege". 

The fact that the most HORRID, INHUE-MAN, ATROCITIES  are being committed, Sanctioned by the CHURCH should alarm someone! Someone should wake up and smell the Coffee!

No, mister white man, No so called "Evangelicals", You have been found out! "you have been weighed in the Balances and found wanting."

RACISMS MUST DIE!

YES! BLACK LIVES MATTER!

NO!NO!NO! YOUR WHITE SKIN DOES NOT MAKE YOU BETTER, MORE INTELLIGENT OR MORE DESERVING! IF YOU ARE FOLLOWING  d t YOU ARE ONE FOOL!

I AM NOT A LOSER! SURE MY "mOTHER" AND A LOT OF HER FELLOW IMPS TRIED THEIR BEST TO DESTROY ME! IT DIDN'T WORK! IT ALL BACKFIRED!

SURE! s/HE DID SOME DAMAGE! ACTUALLY , VERY LITTLE WHEN COMPARED TO HER EVIL PLAN!

GOD ALWAYS KEEPS A RAM IN THE BUSHES!

"MAN PROPOSES, GOD DISPOSES!"

BEAMING!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Sunday, September 13, 20/20

R. L. Burnside - Rollin and Tumblin

Lean in!

First of all:"Giving honor to GAWD who is duh head of my life!" AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! (Shrill SCREAM) GOODGOTUHMIGHTYYYYYYY!

"It is well with my soul"!

Number one, make sure You know and NEVER forget, the evildoer can't Win! Yes, the evildoer can Hurt You. Deliberately break you down with "blunt force trauma",  that they pretend to be unaware of.

Some claim they can't feel your pain, that your pain causes them too much pain, therefore YOU JUST NEED TO SHUT THE FUCK UP!

WHAT! When I first started this blog ten years ago, it was not well received. I was told I should just suffer. My excruciating pain concerning my carnal, incestuous, pedophile, "root working", MURDERING  mother,  should be forgotten.

I was told to just shut the fuck up! It was over! It was done! s/he was Not sorry, would NEVER be sorry,  and the best thing I could do was get in the lock stepping,  pretend line,  with  everyone else. "See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil."

I should forget my gifts, my talents.  I was told to forget my "Dreams" because My life was "fucked" from conception.  There is actually no point in my continued "existence". I can no longer teach in a public school classroom, retired, too old and much too "Militant".

I should go sit myself in a corner, in the dark, in "East Hell".  Just fade to black. Bye! Don't need you no more! You are expendable , disposable. You are undesired, out of style, of no use to anyone. "Just go, already! Be gone!"

As a teacher, a dedicated educator, I should just acquiesce,  "go along to get along", read the script forced on Me by My "ben-carson" like principal.

Well! I AM NOT GOING TO DO IT! No pathological lying, envious, jealous, hateful, always irritable, backbiting, backstabbing , Counterfeit Christian slut,  shall slay me from her dead ass grave!

Yes, I am TENACIOUS!  I Still have Grit in My Craw!

Every day that I am Alive I shall Strive to slay all pathological lying, evil, greedy, selfish child abusers!

"Amen, Come Jesus".

IT IS ALL IN DIVINE ORDER!

BEAMING!

Sunday, September 13, 20/20

DRAMATICS IN THE RAIN

BEAMING!  Another Absolutely Awesome Day! I do have to laugh, it doesn't take much to make an "elderly" Black wo/man happy.

Man, I'm so glad to still be "here", a true Survivor, a "These are they", I REJOICE!

Here I am "Old", Black, "broke", broken hearted, alone, ..."yet,  still holding on."  I am up to losing at  least one "friend", a classmate, "kin", every other day.

Most young people are still vigiorously participating in the "Rat Race", trying to win, doing everything to be First.  Yes, they actually think "they" can win, that WE were just losers.  Yes, because they know "technology" very well, they think they are "In". "Got it made in the shade."

No! No! No! If ye be of color, female, or economically challenged, you got a long "row to hoe".

The evildoers are in fact Raging! However, when have they not? The only thing d t did was let the "Cat out of the bag". All these racists muthafuckers have been bullshitting the World with this "Dream of Democracy" bullshit,  too fucking long.

My horrid "mother" bullshitted the entire World, My entire family,  for nearly Eighty-Eight years. So!? Apparently, OUR Black lives were and are  still of little importance, to Black or white people.

That is Life! There may be as many as Eight Billion hue-mans on this Earth? Who knows? Who can WE Trust?. At any rate, the Rich are eating the Poor, SAVE YOURSELF!

It is Not color! It is Greed! Opportunity! WE are ALL Predators. Why? WE are of little Faith. Why? WE can Not trust OUR own "mothers".

I am Not about to trust anyone but GOD!

What you can do ,  what I can do , is Pray, Not Prey.  

Be abundantly blessed as you escape this madness in the "Mean Time".

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Saturday, September 12, 20/20

Nat King Cole An Evening With Nat King Cole HD

Lean in,

This is OUR mistake, "assimilation" .  Deliberately volunteering to become a "gentle, passive, form of Entertainment" , for the Oppressors.

Never expressing anger, rage. Never holding "them" responsible for their greed, selfishness. Accepting their "lying, Cherry Picked Bible as GOD"s Gospel Truth."  Five hundred years of the only one's actually turning the other cheek or carrying  some lazy racist's cloak.

**** that! NO! FUCK THAT!  There is No GOD , any where that hates Me or withdraws blessings from me for "cussing". Nor, is there a GOD that withdraws his hand from Me or Anyone,  for defending Myself from lying, fake, carnal, freakish, greedy, predatory "Christians", Atheist , Agnostics, Believers or Non Believers.

I certainly love Nat King Cole! He was truly talented, but a SELLOUT. No, I am not criticizing him, I am simply pointing out, tracing, revealing, attempting to understand  the history of our defeat.

While his turning the "other cheek", a "blind eye",  to racism, WE made No Progress. Appeasing your Oppressor is no way to win your Freedom. If People of Color are waiting on the day OUR white brothers and sisters, suddenly change their minds, stop hating, stop exploiting, stop lying; that day shall not come from demonstrating how "cowardly" and humble you are.

I can't do it. I can not smile through pain.  Am I  "Too 'Hood", or too real? Fuck wid Me, BE SURE YOU ARE GETTING FUCKED THE FUCK UP WITH A QUICKNESS!

Sure, I love Jesus, but you lying muthafuckers can take your bullshit and ram it straight up your racits asses! If you can't treat me like a "white wo/man", if you refuse to grant me all the rights and privileges you give that slut d t, FUCK YOU!

What do people of color have to gain by kissing d t's racist ass?

He has No Power! None! When Putin gets tired of him he shall be as used as those he has used his entire life.

Sure, My own "mother" enslaved me for entire life, but, what did s/he get?What did s/he truly earn? A bad name, a nasty taste in everyone's mouth.

In the "Mean Time", keep seeking The Truth.  Keep reading, evaluating, extrapolating, comparing, contrasting, interpreting, analyzing....growing.

STAND UP! "STEP OUT ON FAITH!"

YOU  know color, gender, wealth, status, age, have nothing to do with GOD's gifts, talents and blessings.

No matter what this World serves you, always STAND UP! Always be Honest! Always be Righteous! Always be Kind!

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Saturday, September 12,20/20

Saturday, 

K'JON On The Ocean

Dear LORD,

Thank You for this beautiful song, this beautiful life.  Thank You for the few people that have loved me sincerely, loved me fiercely.  Thank You for my grandfather, the greatest hue-man being this World has ever had the privilege of knowing, other than Jesus Christ.

Dear LORD, thank You for granting me  a sustaining SUBSTANCE,  something this World labels "Courage". Courage? Common decency, kindness, caring, honesty , righteousness and Truthfulness,  now labeled "Courage".

Something minimal, something FREE, now takes Courage to show! Fail to lock step with the cruel "Cagers of Children", dare to openly disagree with racist nazis , and get kicked to curb, told to hurry up and die.

Show kindness, let one tear be caught in your eye, DOORS SHUT, SLAMMED IN YOUR HONEST TOO CHRIST LIKE FACE!

No one should be rewarded for having the decency, morals , enough to SPEAK THE TRUTH! No Truth Teller should ever fear the wrath, the repercussions, ostracism, the repulsion,  the rebuke,  of any liar.

The Liar shall NEVER be happy! My poor "mother" ripped, roared, raped, abused, and even MURDERED for nearly Eighty-eight years.  Was never happy. Always pretended to be happy, doled out token "love" and trinkets , while pretending to be something s/he abhorred, HONEST! Christ like while wearing satan's cloak, camaflogued by his mantel.

matha jane walters hodges doster watson lamoreaux was always a sneaky, carnal SLUT! A SLUT! A CUNT! A COMMON DOG THAT MURDERED HER OWN FATHER! REDUCED HER ENTIRE FAMILY TO DUNG! THE FACT IS I AM THE ONLY BLOOD RELATIVE WILLING TO EXPOSE THAT SUCCUBUS!

Sure, you closet evildoers can believe you are blocking me, my blessings, my talents and gifts, no such thing. IT IS ALL IN DIVINE ORDER! When GOD gets ready, it shall all be known. There exists no hiding place.

Not only is there no rock big enough to hide mjw or d t supporters, the price they all shall ultimately pay is bone crushing, brutal. Death is a welcome reprieve. "COME JESUS!"

Did s/he ever become a Truth Teller? Never! Did s/he delight in being  Demon Possessed? Certainly. Just know it was her choice,  WE ALL have Free Will.

I feel especially good today. I feel Awesome! So, I had a horrid mother from conception?  What that got to do with me?  The low, evil, demon possessed whore  deliberately kept me in harms way. So? GOD LOVES ME! SUSTAINS ME! HEALS ME! RESTORES ME! COMFORTS ME!

BEAMING!!!

Thursday, September 10, 20/20

Peter Tosh - Rastafari Is - LIve 9/30/83

BEAMING!!!

Dancing on a dead, unrepentant demon's head.

Cool! Cool! Cool!

PEACE  is so Easy!

TRUE LOVE is Easy!

LIVE

LAUGH

LOVE

LIVE

LAUGH

LOVE

LIVE

LAUGH

LOVE

ENEMIES ON YOUR TRAIL?

LIVE

LAUGH

LOVE

ANYWAY!

BEAMING!!!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Tuesday, September 9, 20/20

Duane Allman & Eric Clapton 1970 - Studio Jams 1 thu 6

Up Again! WINNING! WINNING! WINNING! WINNING anyway, knowing full well it was never any evildoer's plan for Me to ever win anything.

No, my very own "mother" never planned for Me to ever have one good day on this Earth. No matter how long I lived. No matter how hard I worked. No matter how deserving, how pitiful, hoow perfect, or pretty.

The low slut would always lamblast me with the same excuse; "You're TOO BLACK!"  

The low slut birthed Me, birthed Us , to be her footstools, sex toys, beast of burdens.  Something to ridicule and sacrifice for her happiness.  That fake preaching was just some bullshit, designed to fool the fools.

The sick, sadistic , slut is finally dead , come September 24, 20/20, SEVEN COMPLETE YEARS!  

Yes, World, martha jane walters hodges doster watson lamoureaux , was such a Complete Slut WE  need Seven  full years to heal, to self correct, to un-taint, to un-learn HER UNLEASHED, UNSTOPPABLE HORROR!

THIS World needs Seven years to Scream, to Cry, to Praise the Living LORD for [HIS] continued Care, Anointing.

Thank You LORD!

LORD thank You for saving me from becoming the Pathological Liar my "birther", my "huzz=band", and most "Christians". Dear LORD, thank You for not permitting Me to be a deaf, dumb, blind lock stepper.

Thank You for not making me the Crab in a barrel , as most. Thank You for keeping my tongue from lying, my heart from envying.  Thank You for never permitting me to think acceptance by "them" is "winning".

Yes, I am Rejoicing! Jubilant! LIE Free!

While a sick, psychotic, sadistic,  malignant monster , did come to this good Earth, did successfully keep me bewildered, confused , for Sixty-nine years, the prolonged excruciating pain,  actually made me strong.

I do have to laugh, what made my "family" take my "mother's" vicious, horrid, shit so long? Fear! Yes, fear of getting treated worse, What a joke!

If your death is the best thing you can do,  after Eighty-seven years, eleven months and twenty-four days, you sucked as a hue-man being!   When the entire World is a million times better because your low, lying, common, putrid, stanking, "root working" , demon possessed ass, is finally dead, Damn!

You were Sickness, Putrid Scum come to life! A haint, a ghost, an errie imp, a succubus given an opportunity to do what you did for GOD's Own purpose, for GOD"s Plan.

 "Get thee behind me satan!" 

And I  am proud that you hated me! I am glad you were always such a snielving coward, you always vehemently denied the truth and  your demons always plagued you.

At any rate, I'm still dancing, still singing and glad to know you are finally  rotting from the outside in, not just the inside out.

BEAMING!!!

Tuesday, September 9, 20/20