''Ain't No Cadillac''- Sam Lightnin' Hopkins (March 15, 1912 – January 3...

Awesome! Awesome! Awesome! I count it ALL Joy! Born in 1951 to what has proven to be the lowest, commonest, vile, selfish, greedy, envious, jealous, vacuous, lascivious , reprobate,  to ever slither on this good Earth! I stand flat footed! BEAMING! COURAGEOUS! A "THESE ARE THEY"!

I OVERCAME GREAT TRIBULATION , to get to where I am today!

Yes, my own "mother", "birther", crawled, sloshed, marched , close behind me for Sixty-two years attempting to do , what s/he could not do,  when I was formed in her corrupt belly, BE RID OF ME, KILL ME.

YES, MY OWN mOTHER WAS DISPATCHED BY THE SYSTEM OF wHITE SUPREMACY TO DESTROY ME.  Yes, World, my own "mother" Willie Lynched me.

No, it is indeed a fact, my own "mother" ;Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Lamoureaux,  was HORROR UNLEASHED!

Why? Was s/he prophesied ? Was s/he a "useful thing"? Just who knew, who could have ever imagined such a horrid person, an "Ordained Pastor", could live so long among "good people, fine people" ?

Did WE, her very victims know? WE knew to be quiet, to keep her sick, sadistic, demonic "secrets".  Secrets not so secret. Martha's secrets always depended on her audience. S/he was always  virtuous, prim and proper , in front of her Church, (Simone Temple African Methodist Episcopal Zion Church , on Yadkin Road in Fayetteville, North Carolina.)

Otherwise, always sneaky, low life, back stabbing, carnal, nasty, untrustworthy. She used to send my brother in Texas , unwashed Chitterlings!  S/he would call me, confess to me how s/he sent them "loaded with shit". S/he would laugh. I knew not to ever tell anyone.  If I told, s/he would know I was the "leak".  I just shook my head, glad I had refused to put Chitterlings in my mouth.

The irony is, this same brother has "un-friend-ed" Me! Excoriated me!   I still possess a long list of horrific, unimaginable acts of terror  s/he deliberately perpetrated on him

Why? He is also a "Christian" that has never bothered to read his Bible. S/he told that dumb ass that he had to honor her , no matter what. That he had to forgive her , no matter what.

So what? He was always lathargic academically. He is doing the best he can and "Many are called, few are chosen."

I always wondered why Martha picked that Church. I was curious as to why Martha rejected and rebuked Wesley AMEZ Church in Wade, OUR Home Church. The Church WE grew up in ,my granDADDY'S Church.

As wicked and as confident as Mathy was,  in her ability to mesmerize, manipulate and completely pull the wool over anyone's eyes, even s/he knew better than to test the good memories of old time Wade residents. "Country folk" that lacked a formal education but had and exercised common sense.

Yes, I witnessed some good "saints" from Wesley get right in my "mother's" face, tell her ass off! I was always shocked, the MONSTER  at home, turned snielving , humble worm when confronted by real Christ lovers!

Mathy Jane, didn't go around her own people too much after s/he MURDERED  her own daddy. Not, the outspoken ones. Not the one's that refused to be intimidated by her "Voodoo" threats.

I'm BEAMING!  Number one, I am glad, absolutely rejoicing because s/he did finally die,  seven years ago! Number two, s/he hated me so much, stalked me so long, I became Me! I love Me! No one can get me to lie for liars, steal for thieves or kill for murders.

Number three, I know Mathy won't SHIT!  A horrid curse the low slut always spewed on me, while never giving me a clue as to why.

It seems Martha was savagely raped , three times as an eight year old child. Apparently, for what ever reasons, s/he grew ashamed. Volunteered to become the monster, the RAPIST, s/he became

That makes NO SENSE!  My "mother", my "birther" became a rapist because s/he was raped! Ridiculous! What a lousy excuse! Martha became a rapist, a sick , sadistic con artist,  and remained so for eighty-eight years , because it was "her time".

WE ALL have Free Will! Nothing WE do is by accident!

I shall never apologize to satan, to any evildoer, claiming I am the idiot, the imp. sATAN  is a liar, the author of confusion. FUCK sATAN!

BEAMING!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Monday, September 14, 20/20