First of all, please don't read this. I've had a lot of triggers today. That picture on FB of the little boy , shot six times , trying to save his little sister from a savage rape reduced me to tears. I just want to crawl up in a fetal position and cry myself into a deep sleep until I finally expire. Finally realizing how dumb I was for 62 years trying desperately to love my mother. A woman truly unlovable. Forgiving her, over and over, showering her with gifts. Someone I should have shunned like Jesus told me.
Please stop! Please stop protecting mongrel mothers. They not only exist, they are prevalent. You don't know because they deliberately reduce their own children to dung.
Don't hide Martha Jane Walters because she is "kin" or because she is black. Please do not shield her because she preached and therefore must have had some good in her.
Oh ye of little faith. You human beings that falsely think you know every thing and every thing. You know nothing if you don't know GOD, if He is not in your heart. If you think you can do anything without GOD, without the indwelling of His Holy Spirit, you are a fool!
Old nasty, despicable carnal man and woman falsely preaching while winking at satan. Doing so much abominable evil no one can bear to hear it. Of course no one wants to know it.
Refuse to know satan's abominable secrets. Play along with his scheme. Worship at the throne of hair and color. Blame racism and privilege for your miserable condition. Hate the messenger! Revile! Rebuke! Crucify her! Mock her! Stone her with your vitriolic insults! Keep abusing, keep using, keep plotting and living your predatory life.
Jesus told me to "Shun the very presence of evil". That is why you preach for cover. Buy fine raiment, expensive jewelry, to flaunt in front of your ignorant followers. You know they will never know because inwardly they ravenous wolves just like you.
But do know, every word in that Book you scorned, used as a weapon to enslave, abuse and use, is real.
I refuse to be discouraged because Jesus told me that few, very few would listen or heed.
A few years before my mother passed, she was lamenting her horrible childhood rape. The very memory of the event, the three savage rapes, when she was eight years old still terrorized her.
She described the day she finally found the courage to tell her mother. She said the ****** stood under the kitchen window, out side, listening. That he came flying in the house screaming; "She lying, she lying!" "Daddy didn't do nuttin' but run duh ****** off!"
Over eighty years old, still hurting, still in excruciating pain.
"Duh blood! Duh blood!"
Do know that very conversation triggered my memory. "Dun blood, duh blood!" Oh how I remember that awful day in the my mother's bedroom, 6C Honeycutt Road, Fort Bragg, North Carolina.
I remember so clearly the warm blood streaming down my legs. Praise GOD Almighty! Those two ignorant ghouls standing there proud! Falsely believing they had introduced me to something pleasurable, something I wanted. Like they had permitted me to open my Christmas present early.
They knew fully that they were wrong. But some "two headed doctor", some root worker convinced them that taking the virginity of innocent children would insure them power.
What idiots!
If you want Power, there is Power in that name Jesus!
Martha is not just now reaping. She was reaping the entire time she lived falsely for eighty-seven years. I know for a fact my mother hated herself deeply and she should have. Preaching for cover, to fool others, never believing one word that came out of her lying mouth.
I do thank GOD for my courage, that I know was passed down to me from my grandfather. That is exactly why she put that bullet in his innocent heart.
Dear LORD, I pray that you place some more Jerome Walters on this earth. Wise, righteous men with fervent prayers that will willingly stand in the gap for their grandchildren, for all future generations.
Poison will kill you. A skull and crossbones was placed on bottles to protect you from ingesting its contents accidentally.
We are clueless when it comes to environmental poisons, additives in our food and water. Few if any ever suspect our on mothers. The very word is sacred. That is why satan targets silly women and effeminate men. No manhood!
Think about it, Moses was a Man! David was a Man! Even Jesus was a Man! We live in a world where true MANHOOD is frowned upon.
My grandfather, Jerome Walters was a Man! If you want to know about true "manhood" learn from him,follow his example. His daughter successfully MURDERING him was not due to GOD's failure. It was our fear. We all feared that woman! Martha engrained terrorizing fear in us that last to this vey day.
It took me many years to shed my fear. I pray my brothers come to the light, rebuke her and rebuke satan. Martha was our poison.
There is another poison you must be made aware of. The poison of deep ignorance. The poison of evil, deliberately planted in the souls of soulless mothers, extremely whorish men and women, completely sold out to satan.
Completely depraved, morally bankrupt imps THAT PREACH FOR COVER!
No one ever told me. I had no idea. I had to learn the hard way. But, GOD delivered me! I am so grateful, I must tell you. I must share may repugnant past with you.
Don't let that heifer bat her eyes, lick her lips and bid you to come in to her. She will reduce you to a crust of bread.
Today, this day, I thank our GOD of "another chance". Our GOD of a million chances for saving me, for snatching me from the jowls of that monster, that monstrosity, that mongrel mother that lived 87 years to destroy every thing GOD created for good.
Bow down satan. Bow down all Mathy Janes , your reign of terror is over!
With each passing day GOD lifts the veil that had me blind, higher and higher. And with each passing day I thank GOD for keeping me blind for so long.
Please view my testimony, my life experience , as a warning to you. Don't you dare think GOD can be fooled or manipulated by predatory "Christians". The hordes that throng churches every Sunday putting on a show. Preaching loudly, saying nothing, just sounding brass.
Every morning I get up refreshed thanking GOD for a new day, another day to get it right. Thank you Jesus! Dear LORD thank you for saving me from that ignorant mongrel mother! A woman so sly, so cunning, so deceitful, so wicked, the very thought of her sends my body into muscle spasms. A woman so low she did abominable, the unspeakable and the unthinkable for 87 years! Dear LORD I want the world to know about her because she was unnecessary. Martha Jane Walters turned out to be a curse, a blight, a monstrosity, that died fully believing she destroyed every one and everything in her family. I refuse to be destroyed! I refuse to remain languishing in this pit of shame she buried me in. Martha was a monster! Kept in place by her extreme demonic cruelty. Martha was a false prophet, pretending to love GOD knowing full well she hated all authority, all wisdom, all innocence all goodness. Most of all Martha hated GOD with a deep passion. Pride! Flat refused to humble herself to His Holy Spirit. Yes, I pray she rots in hell! I pray her name rots BECAUSE SHE KNEW BETTER!
Don't play with GOD! Don't mock Him and demand that the whole world bow down to you, remain stupid and enslaved to make you happy. Martha demanded that we never breathe a word to any one about her true character.
As loving children we thought we were protecting her. Little did we know how much we needed around the clock protection from her.
What went wrong? This little red headed white monster came to this earth and was taught that the color of her skin gave her permission to do just like she pleased. Unfortunately for her, the only thing that pleased Martha was extreme sadistic cruelty.
This world must know what Jesus means, when He tells us, warns us about these ravenous wolves. We must understand what He means when He warns us that our enemies will be of our own household.
Dear LORD I thank you profusely, I thank you daily, every hour, every minute of the day! I thank you for delivering me from the hands of that albatross.
May many read and heed my warnings. May every one in my family come to know the truth. May we all shed her revulsion, her shame. May we all heal quickly from the secret lash of that Jezebel whore!
If you can't listen, refuse to read and study GOD's Word. If you are puffed up with pride, congratulating yourself for having no need for GOD. I have news for you, you are on your way to becoming a Mathy Jane. Do know she wasn't nearly as evil in her youth as she turned out to be in her old age. She did wax worse and worse, as GOD warned us.
If you are full of stubborn pride, pray over that. If you don't pray or read your Bible, pray over that. Prayer is our petition to GOD. He hears, He listens and He delivers!
Praise the LORD!
I press on …
P.S.
Do know that Martha Jane Walters was a very arrogant woman. FALSE! Everything about her was phony! Every cell in her body was envious and covetous. Do know ignorant Martha did falsely believe that with her conjure, her voodoo, combined with her extreme cruelty, brilliant extreme cunning, she won.
Martha is a dead idiot for satan. Go that way if you want to. Think you know everything, people should bow down and worship you for your color, if you want to. "I dun tole'cha!"
Stop the madness! No one "race" has the lock on morality, intelligence, natural gifts and talents. The myth of racial superiority, particularly "White Supremacy" was perpetuated long ago. It is a Lie!
Growing up, my history books were filled with all the great achievements of white men, WHITE MEN! The WASP (White Anglo Saxon Protestant) was fully in control. He was an enslaver, exploiter, rapist, hiding behind his "religion". Using the Bible, GOD's Holy WORD to enslave and exploit the ignorant.
The white man messed around and lost his grip when he let people of color have some freedom. Chattel slavery ended , the wars came, minorities gladly went off to fight in foreign lands. Soon "minorities" demanded the exact same freedoms and privileges enjoyed by the WASP.
To make a very long story short, we end up here, a nation on the brink of a racial divide. A black man becomes President, is stripped of the title President. He is just "OH Bomb Ugh". Generally spewed with barely hidden vitriolic hatred. No doubt about it, President Obama has paid a heavy black tax.
When this country was founded, our "Founding Fathers" considered all women inferior. Pseudo scientist declared that women's brains were too small. An education beyond rudimental math and reading was considered a waste.
Let's fast forward, women have proven that we can do anything a man can do. The threat of a woman President looms large. So the greatest WASP comes out swinging, blaming brown people for all that is wrong in America. The disingenuous lying braggart is an idiot! I would not follow him across the street. I am glad to know and identify his followers however.
I will not go along with anyone's racist wrong thinking. No, not any one's. I will not make out like blacks are poor victims. No more so than all of us are victims to our predatory government. Our predatory Capitalist system of wealth building.
Wrong is wrong. If hate is in it, GOD is not in it. If a lie is in it, GOD's not in it. My mother used to lie profusely. Always justifying her lies by proclaiming; "I lie tuh keep people out my business!" Now this illogic is from an ordained minister! "The blind leading the blind."
"As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he" If you think you are a loser, a criminal, you are. If you think you are great, a contributor, you are.
From my entrance into this "life" I have had to fight. Fight my old nasty predatory morally bankrupt mother. A beautiful woman that turned into a despicable thing due to her savage sexual assaults at age eight.
No matter what the reason, she was what she was. And what she was, was an ABOMINATION! Society assigned her to the black race, "colored". She was ignorant and hated every one that was not snow white, including herself.
The idea of "color" consumed and destroyed my mother's life for 87 years. She was a despicable person and I have the right to say it! I don't need a psychiatrist because I know my own mother was the vilest cunt any one has ever heard of. She was the worst thing that ever happened to me. She is the worse tragedy to ever befall the Walters family.
Jesus told us to know our truth. I know my truth.
I was born to illegitimate "parents". They did very little for me. I know, they did the best they could under the circumstances. My mother pretended to be loving and nurturing while deliberately pushing me into captivity. That was part of her elaborate con of fooling herself. A woman unable to control herself, her carnal urges demanded to control everyone else. If you came in contact with Martha Jane Walters, she demanded to control you.
I never set eyes on my "father" until the advanced age of eight. I do not blame him. I understand.
I also understand the lack of natural affection. I also understand emotional blackmail. I also understand that satan is a rude bully. Screaming, hollering loudly, saying nothing. Still dividing and conquering.
No, thanks. I want no part of all this bickering, name calling, ostracizing , excluding, blaming and flat out lying.
You can rank and compare yourself. You can aspire to assimilate, thinking that will get you in, closer to the Promised Land. When all you need to do is look in the mirror, know yourself. Stand up for yourself! Just be human! Practice some Humanity! Care, love, nurture, share.
Refuse to be bullied and intimidated. Find out who your real enemy is.
trying to love somebody. Please forgive me if I don't do it well. Something inside me always told me she hated me with the deepest secret passion. Why did she keep her deep loathing, her sincere hot molten hatred for me secret? Because she knew it was wrong. Martha always knew that she was a deeply disturbed person. But, she loved it. She welcomed evil, embraced it. Cherished it like it was the Hope diamond.
Brother James warned us to not be "double minded".
She was also secretly sadistic. Martha loved, lived to inflict excruciating pain , so she could play "mother". She would kiss your boo-boo maybe. She did slam all four of my fingers in the car door of her huge 98 Oldsmobile when I was eight.
I was screaming, accusing her of doing it on purpose. We were in my grandfathers driveway, in front of his house. I know now it was her jealousy.
She just walked away …smooth, not one care in the world. The secret whore did not so much as offer me a band-aide. I reflect on all the times I witnessed her walk away …smooth, sashaying, happy, actually gleeful. After my rape at 8, sexual assault at 14. She tied my 12 year old brother up , stripped him naked, beat him across his testicles. He was a bloody mess. She deliberately beat the manhood out of him.
She told us ;"You bed'not tell nobody!"
Martha's jealousy was insane, irrational and if you trace her life back to her childhood, all the evidence is there. (Look at her fruit!)
Do anything, get a compliment, a gift, praise, anything. Anything as innocent as a smile, a loving hug from your grandfather. Someone Martha secretly hated with a passion. You were going to suffer.
The fact is Martha was going to punish you for just being you, for merely existing. for being foolish enough to be born into her clutches, for trying desperately to love her.
"You should have never been born! I don't want you! I gave your black ass away! You were born yalla, but YOU TURNED BLACK!"
Black! Really Martha! You hated me for the color of my skin!? What about your first child? He looks white! He is white! His hair is straight! Why did you mistreat him? Why did you ruin his life? Why did you secretly stalk him to your dying day?
Maybe, I was no body to you. Perhaps my skin color is repulsive to you. But you my dear, are repulsive to me! A woman as common as you should never be permitted, tolerated. Not around decent people, NOT IN THE CHURCH! Not in Jerome Walter's family. A loving, intelligent family, once. One thing for sure, I should have never feared you. I do understand why. The sick secret assaults you committed in 87years are so disgusting, I break down daily!
Yes, I do get up and do a praise dance. No, I didn't piss on your grave as you demanded I not do. You deserve it though. You deserve worse. You do deserve to have your grave dug up by dogs, your bones scattered across Cumberland county.
I do thank you for this one thing you did for me Martha. Towards the end of your life you treated me so miserably, insulted me with your foul two-edged tongue, roared and raged with your powerful voodoo and conjure, that I rebelled.
You humiliated me Martha and not on the sly. You remarked that I was old, ugly, fat, broken down. You bragged that you had won. Were you right? No, I had no husband, never ever had a real boyfriend. I taught for 30 years at the lowest level, as a classroom teacher. No, I never became that great published author I so desired.
You plunged your dagger in deeper. Ravenous, you just could not get enough narcissistic supply.
I rebelled enough to open my eyes and to see you for the sick abomination you had been all the time.
No, I am not going to let you rest as my brothers demand. If they never wake up to your abuse, if they never realize how you destroyed their lives, in secret, on purpose, that's on them.
I have some pride! I knew you were a nasty perverted whore at three! I was three years old and knew you were one messed up, twisted sister.
You thought you were ruining me! GOD was perfecting Me! You laughed and laughed , dumped all of your sick repulsive perversion on me.
It won't work Martha! You, a little black piss ant, can dig every grave empty of every grain of sand, you will never defeat GOD! How dare you be dumb enough, evil enough, ignorant enough to try.
I will not be stopped! I will tell! I fully intend to tell this entire wide world about low perverted whores like you, are so disrespectful to GOD and His Glory, they preach.
That was your first wrong move, MURDERING your father, then acquiring a licence to preach for cover. That church will pay also. They have no manners. The least they can do is admit their mistake. Offer or recommend real baptism. Apologize for letting her teach Sunday school for decades.
Collective silence will not save us. You can't sweep a complete abomination under the rug. Wait until you find out her other evil , completely despicable deeds.
I do look at her friends, her family, and wonder. If you love her, if you demand that I cloak for her, what kind of person are you?
A rich white preppy co-ed is raped, allegedly. She is was only 15! This is viewed as a major tragedy. In my community, it would have been; "Oh …he just took it …get ova' it …or did he pay you?"
So, watching the News and remembering my own life. Remembering the savage sexual assaults I was forced to endure as a small child and as a teenager. I feel like a slave, something not even second class. I feel like a maggot.
If the world knew what sexual assaults most people without privilege, are forced to suffer, the world would cry.
My mother told me that I thought too much of myself! Said it and meant it! All because of the color of her skin. That was the excuse she always offered. "Shiiiiiittt! I'm light bright and damn near white!"
Worse yet, I do live in a country that certainly agrees. America hates people of color. Therefore my suggestion is we forget color. No longer label races. We are all human. If you can't tell what I am , you don't need to know.
Protesting, taking down flags and destroying mountains will not change the hate embedded in ignorant hearts.
I am not going to be mistreated, anymore! Sixty-four years of this BULLSHIIIIIITTT!
Nasty men and women , ruining children because they can, because they are considered too dark to love and nurture. You may feel that way, GOD doesn't!
I feel her rage! I'm pissed! Pissed to the maximum of pissafissatityy, of pissedoffability!
A "root working" slut! A fake common ass "Christian". A nothing, a nobody, trying to be somebody, the wrong way. Demanding to push people down, the very young and the very elderly in order to lift her self, in order to be seen as something she was not and never could be. A woman so low and so common she did things I have decided I will never tell. You will just have to guess, surmise, read between the damned blurred lines.
An imp for satan, too lazy to work. A "wanna be" whore, a slut that was going to be a WHORE and no one on this earth was going to stop or CRITICIZE her! A woman that lovesd whoring so much, she demanded her entire family join her.
She will be a secret! You will NOT tell on her! Do it! See what happens! You will be homeless, friendless, just like Jesus!
You will be crucified, lied on, betrayed, just like the real Jesus! You will be spat upon, talked about. And that is from the fellow "Christians" in your family. "Christians" too dumb to know that you do actually have to READ the Bible.
How are you going to know GOD's WORD without reading it? Without studying it? Without applying it's precepts to your life? Are you going to sit up under complete demon laden men and women like Martha? You will be lost! You will languish in hell with her.
Greed mongers, "'homungers", just like Mathy. LIARS! "Root Workers". Adulterers! Fornicators! I know my brothers work roots, some of them anyway. She taught them. That Jezebel heifer, taught them. Just like GOD said she would.
A "Dirt Chunker"! "Did you ever!?" Read a book!? Never! Lay up and formulate schemes that never work , then cast her "jandious" eye on what you have, on what you earned.
That was Martha. A very envious, devious mind. A mind always up to evil. Not just evil, sick EVIL! Perverted EVIL! Evil that involved bloodshed, rape, ruination.
Martha was determined to leave here unscathed. The world let her. My entire family let her. I'm the crazy one. I am the one that refuses to let it go.
Do they have any idea what Martha would have successfully done to them without Jerome Walters? We all would have been in whore houses, male and female. Granddaddy is the only reason she faked so. (Trying to throw him off of her dirty trail)
Her good faking permitted me to acquire a quality education, which prevented me from being the whore she created and designed me to be.
People need to quit trying to play brand new, pretending they have no idea what a "root worker" is. There were just too many cars lined up on both sides of Dwain Drive (when I was growing up) for "root working" to be such a mystery to so many.
Something went wrong in the body of Christ. Something is wrong in the AFRICAN METHODIST EPISCOPAL ZION CHURCH! Something is mighty wrong in Simon Temple A.M.E.Z. Church, on Yadkin Road in Fayetteville, North Carolina. How can good "Christian" folk fear satan? Fear the truth? Why don't you want to know? She said that you were just as phony as she was. She said worse. Claimed you were all a bunch of closet homosexuals! From the Bishop on down. Said you were a true den of thieves. Martha was wicked but she was by no means dumb. She was a mystery, wrapped up in an enigma. She was a corrupt black hearted sooth sayer. But, she was observant and truthful in a few things.
The only mystery, is how hard a case she had against me, that she had against all of us, for 87 YEARS!
what I really want to say? You are not that dumb! No one in my family is that dumb! You are not that controlled by Martha's evil voodoo, either.
This horrid whore from satan's lowest rung of hell, came to this earth and just embarrassed satan. Made satan shame. Sexually abusing small children, flushing babies down toilets! Plotting, planting "goofer dust", setting up, knocking down, raping, robbing, lying and leaching.
Bragging! Laughing! Terrorizing! Instilling incredible fear! Murdered a feeble 84 year old man and got clean away.
People tell me to forget how this complete ogre, this MONSTROSITY! THIS ABOMINATION for satan tricked the A.M.E.Zion Church out of a license to preach and went straight Fool!
I am supposed to keep this madness to myself because You NEVER HEARD OF SUCH!
"Sot your ignorant, no Bible reading, know-nothing ass down!" Get out of GOD's way! Just lurking, just looking.
At least Mathy always did you one better. She destroyed, flat out destroyed. Got her demonic claws on it, an mangled it. Your good name, your music, your medical career, my manuscripts, my art, my poetry.
"You'll NEVAH BE NUTTIN'!….YOU AIN'T TAKIN' NO PIANO LESSONS!" Martha Jane Walters, the Anti-Mother! Remember her! Remember that name! And if you honor her, you deserve all the pain you are going to reap!
The only people trying to keep Martha a secret are her "like kind". People that agree with her. People that agree that I am too black, too smart, too out spoken.
People that claim I don't know my place.
I know my place!
And I know GOD's place.
Cowardly silence and cloaking for such a beast has no place in a true Christian's heart.
You are so tired of me talking about my pain. You want me to be happy! You have not shared one single word! If anything, you try to keep me hidden, a secret. Wait until you discover that you have incurred the wrath of GOD for what you didn't do for me. You saw that I was hungry and refused to feed me. You knew I thirsted and you put your ice cold water in my face, just to see me beg.
My mother gutted me like a fish and you laughed. You are happy. One god thing about it. It is not over until GOD says it is over!
thing really always bothered me about my mother. She would or could be talking to me, telling me the most horrible things about some one in the family, one of my brothers , then turn on a dime. All of that vitriolic hatred she just spewed, meant nothing.
Right in front of me she would put on a show, a star studded stellar performance. Like the time my brother was having major surgery, having part of his hip removed.
This woman (this *****) stood right there in the VA , in Durham putting on a show about her first born. I wanted to barf. She was cussing, cursing him like a dog on the long drive up. She wished he would die for ruining her life.
She really said that; "I hate dat mutha*****! I hate dat *****! Dat ****** ruined My life!"
satan can NOT win. The only reason he seems to be winning is because of fear. I have severe PTSD as a result of my long association with a severely psychotic sociopath! Something I never would have known I suffered from, without the Internet.
My own mother was the foulest , most corrupt beast, to ever walk this earth , unhindered. Why? She was clever enough to put JESUS in her mouth, never meaning one single word.
Yes, I am terrified , my brothers are terrified. That woman walked this earth , maiming, murdering, chunking voodoo, working roots, doing all she pleased, to whom ever she pleased, because she had a baby at 16. Because she was raped at eight, her whole world, the whole black world had to suffer.
Oh, she was a racist coon! Martha would not so much as lie to a white person. She paid her bills on time all the time. Obeyed every law. ( Accept for that time she was arrested as a juvenile for prostitution)
Suffer sneakily, suffer in silence, in secrecy, because Mathy was too cowardly to take what she dished out.
She MUDERED a good man, deliberately destroyed countless lives for her selfish carnal comfort. BUT YOU BETTER NOT DO NOTHING! AND YOU SURE BETTER NOT EVER SAY NOTHING! Break this Chain LORD! Break this STRONGHOLD of ignorance, apathy, jealousy, covetousness cruelty, created by satan through Martha Jane Walters!
She died laughing at GOD , declaring herself the winner.
Many will never trust or love GOD because of her. Few will know that a great, truly Christian man , came to this earth and certainly left the world a better place, for simply living. For living a good example for others to follow.
He sure saved my life. What morals I have, he instilled. What courage and Biblical knowledge I have, he taught me.
Truthfully , Martha did too (leave this world a better place).
One thing I do not want. I do not want to be remembered as one of Martha's silent slaves,one of her imps. If I am going to be an imp of satan , it will not be to protect and cloak for her!
know the window of opportunity is small, is fleeting. You have to be prepared, actually over prepared, standing right there, eager to join, at precisely the right moment.
Your ability to escape your awful life dwindles when you make mistakes. Mistakes of promiscuity, thievery, assault, etc. Some young people make dreadful mistakes they can never fully recover from.
But the hovering mother that wants to lead her own children down the primrose path of destruction because she did, because she was too dumb to listen, is an ABOMINATION!
She is real! She is here! She is loud! She is pushy! Avoid her.
I had a friend in college. Toby C. W*******! He was a very tall, good looking, chap. He was a hilarious comedienne. He drove a souped up Road Runner! It was brand new, it was sharp.
He took me to the movies once. He laughed and picked at me for being so lame. For being a virgin in college, that refused to smoke weed. I explained to him , that I had escaped from my "mother" and I was not doing anything to jeopardize my life. That there was no way in the world I was ever going to risk making a mistake and having to live with that bitch, one more day than I had too.
We laughed. He said he understood. He said that was precisely the reason he rejected all free *****. "No! I don't want no girl given' me no free *****! If it's free …sumpin' wrong wid it! tuh bitch pregnant , trying to pin it on you or shit …she got some disease … shit the bitch just nasty .. if I can't trick auh gul out hur ***** …I don't want it!"
We laughed!
How true! Men need to teach their sons that today.
In due season, in due time. You just wait. Life is kind of like fishing. You bait your hook and you wait. Perhaps you study the water, observe others, inquire concerning their catch. Sometimes you change bait, change spots, change hooks, rods, fishing poles.
There may be times you give up. Just throw it all away, "hook, line and sinker!". You will hate those strong nibbles. Something big got away with your expensive bait.
[Stole your time, stole your years. You look back knowing that you will never be that fine again. You wasted your precious time on this lying loser. What an idiot. He is such a liar! He is ashamed of himself for being such a lying loser. (Keep him away LORD, keep him away.) ]
You lament, sometimes get depressed, recalling; the great jobs or great spouses that got away.
One thing for sure, no one wants to wake up to the knowledge that their own mother was their greatest nemesis, their greatest enemy all the time. You feel like she was deliberately giving you a concussion, plummeting you in the head with her iron fist covered with a velvet glove. A velvet glove and your blood. What did the world expect!? Look at her fruit! The woman/child/permanent-volunteer-toddler was murdering small animals as a child! Whose decision was it to hide this monster among family, among us? Just whose decision was it to keep her secret!?
You will rage when your courage comes far too late. The dead bitch is dead and you are finally catching on. Now, you know what had you confused for so long.
Now, you are mad! Outraged! Chagrined! What! How could she!? Nasty 'ho! And preached! So now you want to slap her , slap her silly. GOD tells you to warn. Warn to prevent. No, your testimony will not prevent those hell bent on such destruction. But, some will be saved.
Perhaps, more than some. Pray to GOD, some young girl will read this and learn.
I was feeling preachy, wanted to preach, to tell young women to not get impregnated by scum, just to have a baby. Then I remembered. I did. That was the best thing I ever did. I learned maternal love. I learned of what I had been missing. No greater joy had I , ever.
No, I dismissed the scummy partner, forthwith. I got shed of him. Glad to do it. He was a sperm donor. I thank him for his sperm. He was just going to waste it. Spill it on the ground or worse.
nevah receive ya …duh world gon' reject you 'cause you too black!"
First of all, who, what kind of mother greets her new born with such rot? An idiot. The feebleminded that GOD reminded us to "comfort". He told us to comfort them. He did not tell us to to let them flat run over our lives like a MAC truck.
Any woman that can NOT control her own life, her carnal urges, any woman that is common, low, filthy, should not be "suffered". WORLD DO NOT PUT UP WITH HER! What did we benefit? What did we gain? Rather, what did we lose?
"Go riddance to bad rubbish." Say it and mean it. Of course it would have done no good with Martha. She was going to do her evil regardless. She was an evildoer . I do believe, she did what she was sent her to do.
Maximum evil, for the maximum length of time , to prove to us how desperately we need to read, to think critically, to be covered by the blood. If nothing else, you learn there is something to baptism.
Go down in that water. Go down deep. Shed the weight of the filth of this world that was deliberately put upon you.
I have a friend, she possesses this expression;"You got me feelin' some kinda' way." In other words, something you said, something you did, unnerves me, causes me to pause, to study you closely.
Looking back over my entire Mathy Jane Experience I often feel very creeped out. Watching the young white preppy on trial for taking the virginity of a fifteen year old co-ed.
"Welp!"; I thought silently and stoically to myself. What if the world knew what my mother and her old perverted husband tried to do to me when I was only fourteen? What if the world knew what life was like growing up and surviving a bonafide, homemade fool? A low common woman that had zero control over her life, demanding to control ever life she touched.
A poisonous viper, drunk with the power of a MOTHER. A woman demanding to take your keys, deliberately destroy you mind, every sign of happiness you had or may ever have, because she thinks she is secretly righting a wrong.
This fool! This homemade idiot ROOT DOCTOR blames YOU FOR HER EFed up life!
This dumb whore does believe she would have had the good life sans all "dese black ass chullun!"
Never once in 87 years did Martha accept ANY responsibility for one child she had out of wedlock. "Whut about dem men!?" she still screamed. It is a sacrilege! A tragedy! An abomination! Martha was never that dumb. She played that dumb. She deliberately played the Step-n-fetch-it coon, in order to get her way.
The exact same way the slave played ole masa' . Pride! Anger! Martha was not going to be wrong! The whole world was going to be wrong! Martha had the ability to backtrack, dis-remember, create a new lie. Most of all Martha very successfully laid the blame at the feet of someone else.
Martha was never the pervert. It was that black ass ******! It was him. She had to go along with his perversions. She was tainted , tainted by men. She could never get a good man. So, she might as well play and manipulate these perverts to her satisfaction.
No, Martha never became "un-perverted". She learned how to keep it under wraps, behind closed doors. But, Martha was a freak until the day she died.
If you don't want to know, you don't need to know. All I know is, you won't preach to me! You will not disrespect GOD! Not and I know it! No mam! No sir!
And you will not get up in a pulpit clowning, hollering, screaming, putting on a show and you have not studied. You have not prayed! You still think it is about you. It is never about you, about us. It is about the Gospel of Jesus Christ. It always about the Good News.
Yes, we call be saved. We have to be receptive to the Word. We do have to discern it. Yes, we do have to come "ye out from among them".
Never fear, never be afraid or ashamed. "It is what it is". My mother was a bully . Terrified and tortured us just for the fun of it. It was all the evidence she needed to reassure herself that she was in control. That she was in fact driving your life straight down a cliff. Not only was she laughing, but she was laughing because she had you laughing, too dumb to know that you were laughing at and participating in your own demise.
Yes, viper mothers are real. You can tell them. They are identifiable. They never have mates. They are evil, treacherous, atrocious. They never have mates. Or they have many, many, mates.
So nice! I just found this. I love surfing the Internet.
Never stop learning. Never stop growing.
This man died tragically a young 54, of a heart attack in Paris. At least he could say he lived. He left something to make others happy. He shared his gifts.
Don't live a closed color struck existence. Share! Live your life to the fullest. Laugh loudly in low funky places, Dare to dream! Dare to love, to share, to care. Observe, honor, respect, give credit and share.
We are all addicted to love. At least we should be. What a wonderful world we could live in if all people loved genuinely, sincerely? What if people were not whorish? And lying? What if people were not predatory? Actually trusted GOD for real, instead of pretending?
It is character . Man's character is at an all time low. We deserve it. We tolerate it. Economic punishment is a bitch. Dummies and **** suckers do get rewarded. How they look in the mirror is beyond me. Some people have no morals.
That Sandusky dude, that Penn State coach. How about the people that witnessed his deeds? His assistants? His wife?
Bill Cosby's wife said she knew! Damn!
Why do these little horny perverts always get away?
People don't care. We just don't care about each other. I'm feeling the book of Acts, making and giving gifts, and some people ask me why I made them a gift? I answer honestly, the Spirit told me.
They look at me strangely.
I know GOD has a reason for everything. There is a reason for the common woman, the common man. Some had to go too far. We always go too far before we learn to pull back, to correct ourselves.
friends, I have really learned a lot about myself. I am tenacious. I do not give up easily. I am blessed with tremendous faith.
I fought an ALBATROSS, A MALIGNANT MONSTROSITY! for 62 years! I won! Few people can look back on all of the successes I enjoyed, DESPITE MY MOTHER!
Ignorant little troll! Dumb piss ant!
"No weapon formed against me shall prosper!" Prosper dumb ass! Prosper! GOD did not say your dumb, ignorant, primitive, fake, 'hoish ass, could Not do it. He said it would NOT prosper!
Your dumb, stupid, retarded, country ass, was stuck on "it's" success. You were so amazed that your "witchcraft" worked, you turned to it. Lived by it. Unfortunately you lived paranoid. Suspicious. Always fearing people were doing to you, what you in fact were doing to them.
Now look at you , "a thang". A dead thang, an unrepentant thang. A before and after picture. The best example of what not to do, of where pride will lead you.
Martha, you were an idiot. Always quoting good scripture and never applying it. There is no excuse for blatant dishonesty and cruelty like yours. None!
Get down on your knees, where ever you are right now! Thank GOD for life , such as it is. Thank Him for the beauty, for the joy you have experienced. Thank Him for saving you.
I thank Him, I thank GOD without ceasing for saving me from that Mathy Jane! A homemade MONSTROSITY! Shun manners, become a common whore , if you want to . You will be a Mathy Jane. Male or female, no one is leaving their children around you because every one knows that you always have something common and indecent on your mind. You are a known predator!
How did Mathy get so high up in the "church"? Pushy! She was pushy! A bully! Persistent! Tenacious! Ravenous! Always plotting! Always exploiting every opportunity to get in your face, to be in your space, spoiling.
Consciously spoiling! Doing it because she had authority over you. And she was so dumb, so purely ignorant, she deliberately misinterpreted interpreted "authority" to mean abuse. Just abuse because you are in a position to. Deliberately distort and lie because you are the oldest, therefore the wisest.
You are a pervert that actually loves being a pervert. A pedophile proud of her pedophilia! The only wrong is your talking about it. You are wrong for discussing her behind her back. You are wrong for attempting to discuss her to her face. You are wrong for noticing.
No, you are right about everything you saw. You just should not have seen it.
Martha loved to demonstrate her power. Luckily for me she had to brag to someone. She bragged to my brother. He abandoned us for 25 years. But, he came back, Returned with the truth. The "riddle" was solved.
Martha was not ashamed. She raged with guilt. Guilt , she was determined to hide with more lies, with more "goofer dust". Like some primitive "Witch doctor" from an old Tarzan movie.
This is a maddening movie because it is real life, my life. This bitch is bent. She is hell bent on destruction. They can go with her. I'm not! I am not about to cloak for any woman, so foul, so purely disgusting you have to run to her rescue helping her bury her shit. The nerve of this stank 'ho, committing such foul stank deeds no one can keep up! That whore had the nerve to invite me to not piss on her grave. "Don'tchu pas on my grave when I'm ded!"
Bitch! I would not spit on you if you were on fire! You have stained the word MOTHER. It will never mean the same to me. You have proved Snoop Dogg right, you can not turn a 'ho into a housewife.
"Don't tell on me because we be kin."; is some bullshit. It is about as good as that ordination you "earned".
Rot!
You knew the risk! You took the risks! What you tried to do to me when I was 14, though! You buzzards had already successfully raped me at eight! You two low vile creatures just had to come back again.
I am so glad you were the low. sneaky , vile, slippery , slimy, serpent , you proved to be. You had to be extra careful with me. I respect myself for that. I congratulate myself for that! You tried to elevate yourself through your lying, bullying mouth with no substance. No intellectual foundation.
Just a lot of loud, abrasive, abusive, yelling, screaming and crying. I marked you. Eventually caught on. Your main problem is that you are a liar. The worse type, you very successfully lie to yourself. You can fool yourself better than satan. You are common, very weak flesh, carnal. You do envy excessively. You are vain. You are a whore!
Buck naked! You came in to this world naked, you will leave naked. Meaning you will not take anything. Nothing, but the reputations we have earned on earth.
No matter your cunning ability to con. Your extreme cruelty and your ability to terrorize. No matter how famous your reputation, for your ability to "root", to destroy, to utterly ruin in secret, on purpose. Once you are dead, you are done.
When you are dead, you are done!
No, there is nothing I can do with your fruit but , fall on my knees thanking GOD. He saved me, He prevented you from doing your worse.
Praise the LORD!
I am sending out an S.O.S., a distress signal. Most people do not know, most people have no idea, any woman of your low calibre possible. Man or woman.
Respect yourself ladies! A spouse with nothing but dreams, no cash. No energy to get up early in the morning. Is always irritable, cross, intractable, totally unreceptive to knowledge, insinuates that they are an upgrade for you, is a whore.
A whore, is a whore, is a whore. A whore demands to be paid for his or her "services". A whore is intellectually lazy. You will never catch them reading more than the title of a book.
They have no intellectual curiosity, none! They and their just as vacuous parents will fight teachers to exhaustion for an excellent grade.
The worse thing about a whore is their extreme irrational jealousy. They rage with envy and will do anything to destroy you while proclaiming their undying love, loudly. You have to be a complete idiot to believe them.
I am not sorry. But, I have a very bad attitude around people that have wronged me. Wronged me and lost. Wronged me savagely! Wronged me , so wrongly , they have to feign amnesia , have to claim that I am too sensitive.
Imps with the ravages of their stupefying pride all over them. Human beings beat up on by life. People just clubbed, robbed, left for dead. You are utterly shocked! Flabbergasted! A human being , this dumb, this damn stupid .. someone you once admired. Thank you GOD for delivering me! For showing me what I refused to see.
They hate exposure more than they hate you. Yes, they do have Flying Monkeys, those dimwitted enough to do their bidding without thinking.
"Shun the very presence of evil" "From such stay away!"
"Well …as I live and breathe …I declare! Did you eva'?"
That's me, in my own mind, recognizing and recalling the human tsunami that hit me, hit us. "Toe us up chile!"
When a family is very successfully torn down by a despicable sociopath, a creature brilliant enough to plan her departure, coincidentally, when she was checking out. A very cunning woman conniving enough to plant seeds of doubt and discord as she prepared to leave this earth.
An imp so despicable she sought to build and solidify abominable lies , rather than repent and come to the truth, rather than ever take any responsibility for the 87 years of devastation she wrought.
The whore lived a wicked, despicable life, her entire life. Was common and disrespectful to GOD, she MURDERED her own father and PREACHED.
She knew that she was too wicked, too repugnant and horrifying to be believed. She had no conscience. She never felt remorse for any thing she ever did, one day in her entire long life.
She does not deserve honor. GOD said her name will rot. Why are you trying so desperately to block GOD? GOD sees you too. He sees and knows all of our hearts. GOD knows that "Cain spirit" attacks mortal man. Man and woman are gripped by it. They can't help it. They are insecure. A lack of proper preparation creates insecurity. Insecurity spawns envy, begets jealousy, begets hatred, begets blessing blocking, You become useless. You will hate your weak self for being your weak self.
If you feel that you are unprepared, unqualified, get qualified. And make sure you know that you must have some powerful gifts for satan to come at you through your mother. Attacking a child in the womb is really unfair.
That is why GOD reassures us; "When your mother and father forsake you, I will pick you up."
I have no idea why so many people try to pretend they stem from such perfect families. I know there are some messed up people on this earth. Which means someone is lying, putting up a front.
You have low morals. You have low morals and you are dumb. You claim that I am "unforgiving". "Unforgiving! For what!? She claimed she didn't do anything! Even if I am the only one she targeted, the fact that you don't care is an excellent signal to me.
You have low morals, low standards. You are weak. You have weak faith, if any at all.
GOD is too good! GOD is too good to me, my grandfather was too good to me, for me to let his life be lived in vain.
Hold fast to your dreams! Brother that wanted to be a great doctor. You still can, there is still time. Brother, that is a great musician. Get your horn out. Do not let that slut win. You had to lower and prostrate yourself, volunteer to become her footstool in order for her to have the courage to treat you decently. For her to love you. She deliberately treated you the way she thought she should be treated and she should have been treated miserably. How low, a low thang, demanding love for her whorish "crack house" love.
Love yourself! Spit on that bitch! Know your truth. All children are not wanted. When some babies can not be aborted , their old whorish mothers settle for torture.
Mark that bitch! Cast her away from you. Low stanking whore. "Welp! I did duh bess I cud!"
You stanking, low, scum dog, whore! Who the fuck do you think you are talking to? Scalding! Scalding, bitch! You should have just killed yourself. Right there on the spot, you should have had enough courage to just go and blow your own brains out! I would have felt better about you.
No, I have to find out when I am in my sixties! Naw, I never knew you. Just like Jesus said, I never knew you. But, you won't get away. You got by , but you won't get away. And the next viperous whore like you, predatory men like you, won't get away either.
First of all, you have that viperous , albatross cloud, hovering over you, following you every where you go. You are a freak. You can not turn down sex. Any opportunity to fornicate with any one willing, any one you can trick, is always open, on the table. Your feet are swift to run to mischief.
Then you have the nerve to be unpleasant. Always sacky mouthed, always irritable, anti-social. You have an attitude. You can not be criticized. You will not be wrong , ever, for nothing. Every thing is someone else's fault.
You are too full of pride. You really do think you are smarter than GOD. You are ungrateful, refuse to obey GOD, to get baptized. satan won you over to her side. Stay there.
You scream shut up!? You illiterate blessing blocker! "Go sot down, quit spreading ignorance!"
"Yet if any man suffer as a Christian, let him not be ashamed; but let him glorify GOD on this behalf." I Peter 4:16
I can't help myself. I am glorified! I am shouting glad! Every scheme , every trick , the evil one sent against me through my own mother failed. The old whore was not as smart as she professed.
Any one dumb enough to go to war against Almighty GOD, should be shunned. Their name should rot. She was not our mother, she was merely a vehicle . a mens by which GOD could transport our souls, our very lives, to this earth.
No stanking, lying, nymphomaniac, sadistic, foul demon laden, whore is going to vex me into old age.
Not, and claiming to be an ordained minister, that preached eloquently and just did a little "root working" on the side, because she really did not trust GOD at a lll and fully believed that you were a fool if you did. And told you that to your face repeatedly! "Any body trin' tuh be honest in did world is a damn ****************Fool! Ufh fool jest lak my damn daddy!!!"
Martha was confused, certainly. But more than confused, she was a cruel, sadistic, perverted , pedophile bitch 'ho! That had a passion for good looking pubescents , particularly males.
I am sure it shamed her to death. That is why she had to dump it on me. She had to project her filth on me. She refused to see that filth in herself. She was too pretty, too light skin. Her hair was too straight. Pick that " luddle ill deformed, black ass ", take all my shit, cowardly ass, Gwen. The dumb bitch will never know. None of these dumb black ass ******* will ever know. All they know, is what I tell them and I ain't 'bout to tell them this shit!""
Fortunately or unfortunately she poured way too much energy into destroying me. That is where you went wrong Martha. "The wicked fleeth when no one pursueth". Your burning desire to make me a worse whore than you, did not work. It backfired!
You're dead, you are rotting, while millions will have the opportunity to learn, to live demon free. No, you are certainly not the only slick, lying, manipulative, perverted, pedophile mother, still lurking, still slithering, still creeping.
GOD sees you. Yes, GOD will give you enough rope to hang yourself. It is your own fault. A dumb black piss ant, armed with "The Seven Lost Books Of Moses"; thought she found a gold mine, the key to her ruthless success.
What did you get, dumb bitch?
Shame! You reaped shame! You low whore!
GOD told me that if some ugly evil, got on me , like you did, like ugly on an ape, I was to tell! I'm telling! I told! I feel proud! Let the church roll on!
Love never fails, ever. Do what is right. Love your predatory relatives anyway. If they become too foul or too disrespectful, GOD will remove them.
Thank you LORD for this blog, thank you for my daughter that built it for me. For through this medium I have grown tremendously, through the power of prayer. My grandfather's fervent prayers, my own and many sincere prayer warriors.
Not those ignorant viper imps cloistered up in good families decaying, rotting and ruining. Men and women that pretend to have no shame and do the vilest things to small children, the elderly and the mindless flying monkeys they create.
No matter what these vipers steal, con and greedily collect for themselves, they remain unhappy. These are phony people, "Showcase People". People on permanent display. They don't want to be the "part", they are satisfied looking the "Part". Yes, they are empty vessels. The dumbest people on earth, content with looking the part.
People that insist on looking prosperous. They demand to wear the rich man's "gear" but want no part of the rich man's education. They are not about to sit down for hours reading anything. Not when they can be fornicating, lying, up to no good.
The generation of vipers predicted to come, are here. They are loud, clamorous and abusive and the worse fact of all, they are in charge. They are in high places of authority. The fact you are a parent you are in a high place of authority.
My mother successfully conned my brothers into thinking that it was their "fineness" she could not resist. She also re-assured herself that they would never resist or snitch on her because she beat them brutally and savagely.
I don't think she had sex with all of my brothers, but two for sure. And even, if she never had full fledged sex with them, she was certainly inappropriate. Martha was not nearly as crazy as she acted or pretended. I see she had sense enough to never get caught in 87 years!
That is a DEMON!!! full fledged! You will be one too, if you do what MARTHA JANE WALTERS DID! Be a complete primitive idiot, haunt graves seeking power. You are already mentally imbalanced for considering such.
Human beings are voyeuristic. That is why we slow down when we see an accident. We don't want to see, but something in our nature makes us curious. We don't want it to happen to us. But viewing someone else's pain, up close and personal, some how makes us feel a little bit better about our pitiful lives.
Is that what Martha was doing? No, the little mental nitwit was attempting her brand of sneaky vengeance. The commonest whore that ever lived was mad with GOD for embarrassing her with so many out-of-wedlock children. It never occurred to this whore to use one bit of birth control, ever!
I should have known when she declared how much she hated my oldest brother for ruining her life, she was a stone idiot. Then watching her put on her "Mother of the Year" performance at the hospital.
GOD said No!
Then this repulsive, sadistic whore is going to rub it in! "Ya'life didn't turn out lak you planned it ….did it!?"
[Holy Mackerel! I know this old wretch is not standing here still rubbing her filth in my face!? Bitch! You need to be repenting, not gloating! Get the behind me satan! You low whore! You are a low whore by choice! Your skin color and hair never impressed me! Your deep stupidity, your dull understanding, your obvious lack of common sense, common decency, has always astonished me.
Just how do you think you can persuade intelligent people to believe Jerome Walters killed himself? Even the ones that remain silent, prove they have no manners. They are immoral. They are common and they are cursed with a curse. They have never read their Bibles, probably never will.
They will not listen to me because I am female or have black skin. When GOD said He would pour out His Spirit upon all flesh, He could not have meant black female.]
Martha was an imp, a complete waste of human flesh. She did too much damage for far too long. But, again, it is Free Will. " Let who so ever will, let him come."
on a fool. If trying to advise someone that refuses instruction feels like you are talking to a wall, a rock, just save your breath.
"Cast not your pearls before swine…." (Go ahead, research that scripture.)
I am still savoring the wisdom I received Sunday; "The enemy taketh by force, violently." That is how the Holy Spirit works. GOD gives a good man , or woman, a good Word. That preacher is obedient to the Spirit. That must be the hardest part of being a pastor. Preaching the message that GOD gives us.
You know that Word is not going to be popular. The old evil one, will use the power of the purse strings. You must be strong and put your trust in GOD. You must Free Fall.
You must remember that GOD has never failed you. Also, consider the source . Ignorant little mental midgets that have not so much as read the Bible, at least once. It's cool. Some people have never so much as experienced an Excedrin headache. The don't think! They are what ever the media or the latest movie dictates. They are piss ants, shun them.
Get you a wife, a husband, a mate, get thee into a "far country". Get you some land! Move out of those horrid neighborhoods! Buy a trailer, a mobile or modular home. What is the difference? Keep it clean!
I only have one word thing to say; "Keep living." You judge me, you dare to tell some one how long they should hurt. Keep living.
Why do you attend and cling to a segregated church? Do you think color matters? Are you in fact racist? Ethnocentric? Are you poorly educated?
"Judge not that you be not judged."
GOD put this idea in my spirit today. Early this morning GOD planted this idea in my spirit.
D.O.V.E. - Daughters Of Virtuous Energy- (Perhaps it should be Daughters Of Virtuous Experiences) An organization, perhaps a support group, women of all colors, all ages, all ethnic backgrounds, coming together to save ALL children. Women that put GOD first in every deed, in every action, A sincere prayer group. Women of the village that are not afraid to admonish wrong doing. Love is their message. Protection of all children is it's objective. Character is taught, explained, stressed, Women that insist on being heard, or being counted worthy of the Crucified Christ. These women know because they have been crucified beyond human measure,human endurance. Women that surrender their all to Christ, for His Glory,His Honor.
Dear LORD, I pray, this day, August 22, 2015, on FB, on my blog, there exists a few good women of
like mind. To GOD be the Glory!
Betrayal is excruciatingly painful . I hope you never taste it. But I will tell you right now, nothing is worse than being stalked like a bird of prey by your own mother. To be used savagely as a footstool, a sex toy, a hideous "thang". Laughed at and taunted because the old buzzard did not have the womanhood, the courage, the decency, to ever face you, to face anyone. An old coward that fell into witchcraft early, perfected it, trusted in it, died in it, captured and ruined others with it.
Cain was a good man, he loved GOD, but he was jealous. Why was he jealous? Because he was insecure. Because HE didn't think his sacrifice was good enough. Because he was the one standing there judging, comparing.
"As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he." Human Cain raged in his own mind. He solved his problem, cured his hatred, the human way, MURDER!
Why, Cain did not even talk to GOD. He was too full of pride, too stubborn, intractable. No one could tell him anything. He was a pathological liar. He volunteered lies. Needless lies, lies you never asked for. Cain might walk up to you and tell you that she was going to buy you a brand new car, a brand new Cadillac, just to sucker you back into her evil web. Oh yes, Martha, fully intended to leave this world exactly as ignorant as she was when she first came here. She did!
Cain/Mathy Jane, did not pray about it. S/He hastily in anger murdered his brother (her father).
That Cain spirit is still here children. It is here, it is in you , it is in all of us , without the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.
First of all you must believe in it (The Holy Spirit) . Don't let this world talk you out of it. Do not reason and philosophize yourself out of it. Do know that satan wants you scientific, so scientific you are naked. satan is patient. he will reward you, say, 87 years, before he even hints that he was using you all the time.
Made you a delusional, loud, boisterous, prattling , ignorant, superstitious, demon plagued fool!
You will be far too ashamed to repent. You will look back over your long horrible life and run! You will throw dead bodies, carcasses, lies, alibis, excuses, half truths, guilt, shame, in your wake, running, screaming LIAR!!! Knowing full well, YOU are the liar. Your victims, also shamed to death, will uphold you, deny, pretend and wait on death.
They will rage with hatred for that truth teller, the only one with a smidgen of courage. You will hate her. You were commanded to. You do not think. You have never had one original thought in your entire life. You are a blind lock stepper. You are a dullard! You follow every ignorant, loud talking, lips flapping, empty , vacuous, nitwit , spewing your brand of hate.
You are a slave to the carnal pleasure your whorish mother introduced you to. and yes , you could be saved. You refuse to know the truth! You refuse to get baptized or pray. You are full of pride. You have the numbers on your side. All of your friend-nemies agree with you. Support you! You are popular.
You will run, screaming, looking for cover. Trying your very whorish tactics one more time. They will not work on all your victims. Especially, if you made the wrong one your scapegoat. Never make the most intelligent, the most vocal, the least afraid, your scapegoat.
You will finally push that girl too far. It will click in her head. It will click together like a Rubic's Cube. CLICK!
Jealousy and envy is every where. So is GOD. Never fear evil. Let evil rear it's horny head!
Be ashamed evil doer! You have been found out. You have been weighed in the balances and found wanting! You are highly illiterate ! "You are dumb to death". Bow down stupid!
First of all you must know that my strength comes from the LORD. Yes, Martha, that same LORD, you refused to believe in, had no faith in. Put all of your phony, best, brilliant acting into pretending that you loved Him.
Martha, no one likes cunning. The person that will hate you the most, is You! It was the deep hatred and self loathing that you secretly held for yourself that set you on that road to vile repugnance. That is why you burned with sickening, debilitating, raging, vitriolic hatred against me.
You knew I never so much as raised my voice to you. Were you ashamed that I was such a willing quarry slave? Why didn't you just stop? Why didn't you just pray? You knew that you could have prayed for the indwelling of The Holy Spirit.
Fake! Phony! Artificial! Double minded! Two-edged tongue! Predatory! Negative! Greedy! Lying!
Pride! AND MOST OF ALL INSANELY JEALOUS!
Pride goeth before a fall, before failure, before you mess your life up forever being rebellious and demonically cruel.
You knew that you were demonically cruel! Oh yes you did! You knew that you were sadistic! But it was such a good tool. It always worked. Your extremely savage behavior guaranteed that you would always get your way and getting your way was all you ever wanted.
The problem was your extreme primitive ignorance. You were not well read, Martha. You lacked the intellectual stamina required to read a book thoroughly. You really did think that you were siting on a Gold mine". How whorish.
Let me qualify that. You never had the intellectual stamina to read great books or the Bible but, you had no problem reading books on the Occult, your precious, "The Seven Lost Book of Moses".
You had the nerve to be the extremely whorish woman that demanded the respect of a "lady" because you thought you looked like a lady. Sure, you wore nothing but the finest and most expensive outfits, but, you were a low whore.
Martha! No one wants a whore! Male or female! A whore is something nasty, something stank! No one wants a woman that will go around the corner and do anything with any warm body. Forget how you got that way. The fact that you would try to dump your dead carne on me is an outrage!
And to never stop! To be up in your eighties, just as ignorant, primitive, lying and demonic as you were at 16! As a mater of fact you were worse. Rot! You should rot in hell forever and every one that loves you!
"Now we command you, brethren, in the name of the LORD Jesus Christ, that ye withdraw yourselves from every brother that walketh disorderly, and not after the tradition which he received us." II Thessalonians 3:6
A "root working", dirt chunking, sexually perverted mother should not be tolerated because she claims to be an ordained minister. And to add fuel to the fire, she called them fools. She had no respect for the people that ordained her!
Your ardent, rigid, intractable ignorance and stupidity gives me a mind numbing headache! There is no excuse for blatant idiocy like yours! It is Free Will! You are a volunteer imp! Yes, I am glad you are dead and your decision to mock GOD by crucifying me was GOD's mysterious blessing . To laugh at me, to ridicule me so cruelly, before you died spurred this rant , initially .
Now, I want to honor my grandfather, the man you so cowardly robbed of his life. Yes, you thought you had the absolute right! You are one person that truly believed that You could do as you pleased, as long as you pleased BECAUSE OF THE COLOR OF YOUR SKIN!
Woman, you and your kind are beyond ignorant! You are an ABOMINATION!
you need to know before you run out here messing your life up, more than you already have. You better learn to listen, to recognize when you are wrong and why you are wrong. Well, don't listen. Let me tell you about the greatest fuck up to ever live. My mother, Martha Jane Walters.
#1 You don't run nothing! "You run yo'shoes ova' and I'll run my business" Just one of my mother's brilliant quips. Martha was quite intelligent, extremely witty, quick. "****** will tell'a lie 'fo a cat can lick hiss ass!" "Who dat 'ho!? … Bitch give'way pussy out both drawlegs" We would be howling! No, you couldn't out cuss my mother. Do not engage in a game of playing the dozens with her, you would lose and lose badly. Perhaps, if my mother had not studied evil so passionately, she could have been a great actress, a comedienne . She certainly was a great writer, a great orator. She acquired the skill easily, from my grandfather. I must brag, my grandfather was brilliant! The wonderful thing about his brilliance, he was humble. But, mostly he was sincere. He was honest. He did not lie! He would hurt your feelings. He would tell you the truth. Don't run up to "uncle Rome" with your baby, you just had out of wedlock. "Ughhhh! …look lak you got duh cart a head duh hoss! ain'tcha?" How he ended up with a daughter like my mother is the best example of life imaginable. Martha was manipulative, corrupt, evil and took full advantage of her rape (rapes) to drive a wedge between her parents. And my mother was the equivalent of a P.K. (preacher's kid). All too often, very good parents have the worse children. Kind parents that try to listen and teach their children , often have the worse imps. Little vipers that take advantage of their parents naive- tivity . Parents blind to their children's faults. #2 Nothing is going to go right in your life , until you get right with GOD. The "whorishness", lying, two-faced, impishness , of mortal man, of most people I know, is terrifying. People will fucking LIE TO YOU! To your face! Out of all the sins, I declare lying is the greatest, followed right behind fornicating. Sometimes I wonder, am I that good because I don't fornicate or is it the simple fact, I just don't get it. Plus I am old. I keep forgetting. then I look in the mirror; "Shiiiiiitttttt! Wh is this old broke down bitch. Then I look up at GOD. Damn ….you cuddn wait!? … my granddaddy warned me that time would make you look like a monkey" I have no idea why so many people get so hot and bothered. I don't think I'm wrong. If sex is so geat, why do you have to have Viagra? Today they announced the pink pill , the female equivalent of Viagra. People are dumb. They do not think! Most of us are mental midgets, turning on that boob tube to get our opinions from the media. You can tell most people anything. People are simply illiterate, even the educated! I refuse to let the dumb ass media, speak for me. If I have to take a pill in order to feel amorous towards you, I really don't like you. You don't turn me on. Man, if you are so old and worn out, that you have to take dangerous drugs like Viagra and Cealis, maybe you are not that interested. I do believe sex is more mental than physical . Thus the need for pornography. We are in trouble however. Child porn. Our people perish for lack of knowledge. Our laws are much too lax. Too many predators are allowed to exist because most people are too embarassesed to reveal their predators. Mother!? MOTHER!? "LAWD hab'murcy! Not yo'muther!" Grandfather, uncle, brother cousin, close friend! PARENTS DO NOT LEAVE YOUR CHILDREN ANYWHERE WITHOUT CAMERAS! Holy Jesus! She would have gotten away except for GOD's Divine Order! PTL!
"Behold, the LORD's hand is not shortened, that it cannot save; neither his ear heavy, that it cannot hear; …..None called for justice, nor any pleadeth for truth; they trust in vanity, and speak lies; they conceive mischief, and bring forth iniquity." Proverbs 59:1 and 4
I fully understand why I have to tell my story alone. Most people are too vain and selfish to care about and old black woman with no evidence of wealth. And most people do not care about the Truth at all. They just want to get over "by any means necessary." Most people lie, plot mischief , plan marches and protest for their own self promotion. To get money, wealth and fame. Most people are disingenuous exploiters of the masses. Most people are unread, highly illiterate, and fear true knowledge. They just want to be loud, clamorous , spreading their brand of ignorance.
If I am the only remnant of Jerome Walter's kin demanding justice for his MURDER, a heinous plot, planned , orchestrated , and carried out by his evil daughter, so be it! GOD revealed why you refuse to help me, scream shut up when you know full well you are wrong. Most people are a bunch of lying hypocrites, marching, posting placards, declaring the "White Devil" your true enemy, knowing full well your enemy is in your house.
You are wasting your time and energy . "Get your house in order, sweep around your own front door."
You trust in vanity, your good looks, your degrees, your high status. You foolishly put your trust in lying hypocritical man.
You don't read, you don't study, you are a fake intellectual .
"For by means of a whorish woman a man is brought to a piece of bread; and the adulteress will hunt for the precious life." Proverbs 6:26
I wonder, what is the net worth of my family post the Mathy Jane Experience? Not much. Who ever heard of a broke medical doctor? A broke down, busted to his last dime, brilliant musician? By means of an extremely treacherous selfish whorish woman the entire Walters family has been brought to a crust of bread!
That was my mother, a woman so whorish, we were just ashamed. I lived in shame my whole life! We just walked away shaking our heads, over and over, and over. She was not going to be stopped. She wasn't even going to be discreet. You were just going to shut your mouth, pretend that you didn't see what you saw. No barriers! Not one boundary did Martha ever respect! NONE! Martha did not care how old you were, your gender or your kinship. Martha was not going to be stopped and you damn sure better not ever tell!
"For she hath cast down many wounded: yea many strong men have been slain by her. Her house is the way to hell, going down to the chambers of death." Proverbs 7:26-27 My mother finally married around the time I was two or perhaps three. She married and old blind man. Fleeced him of his money and committed nothing but adultery. He quickly divorced her, but she kept his name and was able to get VA preference which enabled her to get a job as a nurse's aid on the post, Fort Bragg. It was there that she targeted a little short jet black man , much too young for her, that she quickly enslaved for his benefits. I am sure Martha vowed to never be divorced again. Never believing in GOD, Martha trusted in her own clever well conceived schemes, only . It is clear to me why Martha had that man sexually molesting us as small children. The expression Martha used was: "Tie a knot in dat ****** tail!" She did, once we were thoroughly raped, robbed of all of our innocence, Martha could do just like she pleased. Just like the caught whore that hollers rape, Martha would holler "Child molester! Pedophile!" Loudly, knowing full well she was one too. As a matter of fact the true orchestrator, the originator. Her extremely devious mind knew that she was about two hundred years ahead of this world in her sick sexual proclivities. Don't scoff it worked! How else can a woman pin an outside child on a man? A little short jet black man producing a tall brown child? Immediately Martha started screaming at any one that would listen ;"He look lak my people! He look lak my mother's people." The poor unwanted baby that she tried desperately to abort at six month gestation lived! He lived! Weighing 2pounds, two ounces at birth in 1956! That was GOD's hand. That certainly pissed Martha off. The first and only time I witnessed a woman savagely beating a baby. I saw it! I stood there screaming as a six year old child. as she beat my little baby brother senseless. Her explanation; "I was jest potty training him." Do know she never did anything but mistreat him. Deliberately starved him for love, made him her bitch. The truth is Martha made us all her bitches. We were just as enslaved as any ancestor brought here on a slave ship.
That's my mother, Martha Jane Walters, every word is true. She was a disgusting foul whore! She stole our innocence in infancy. Dogged us and terrorized us secretly until the old whore finally gave up the ghost.
GOD promised to deliver me! PTL! "He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty"
I sought refuge in prayer, in scripture. I know now that I was minicing the behavior of my grandfather. The more my mother cut the wicked demonic fool, the more Jerome Walters prayed. The more he read his Bible.
"I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress: my GOD; in Him will I trust. Surely He shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.
He shall cover thee with His feathers, and under His wings shalt thou trust: His truth shall be thy shield and buckler.
Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day. Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday.
(The pestilence that walketh in darkness was my mother, a pest, an imp for satan that cleverly and stealthily did her dirt in secret, in the dark, under cover. My mother was truly and undercover 'ho, an undercover demon that took to preaching in order to hide her tremendous filth.)
A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked. Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation; There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
For He shall give His angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways. Dear LORD, I wonder how many times did you dispatch your angels to save me, to save us? Foolishly driving a car without brakes at her command. That time every one came down with food poisoning, had to be rushed to the Emergency Room, every one but her.
They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dast thy foot against a stone. Thou shalt tread upon the lion and adder: the young lion and the dragon shalt thou trample under feet.
Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high, because he hath known my name. He shall call upon me, and I will answer him, I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him, and honor him. With long life will I satisfy him and shew him my salvation."
Psalm 91
"Though hand join in hand, the wicked shall not be unpunished; but the seed of the righteous shall be delivered."
I am delivered! I AM THE SEED OF THE RIGHTEOUS! I am delivered from the hand of my vile wicked mother! A beast so common she dared to preach! Dared to call herself an ordained minister!
"As jewel of gold in a swine's snout, so is a fair woman which is without discretion." Proverbs 11:21-22
"A virtuous woman is a crown to her husband: but she that maketh ashamed is rottenness in the bones." Proverbs 12:4
