Wednesday, July 31, 2013
I Found A Love by Johnnie Taylor
I'm so glad that my mother loved music. I know I couldn't have made it in a home void of soothing melodious music. If for some reason I had to lose one of my senses I would never pick hearing. I would rather lose my sight than my ability to listen to good music. I could see mental pictures in my mind. But, the ability to hear something soothing and healing would allude me and that would make me sad.
The lies got bigger and the gifts got smaller ...
She hinted that I would be the one to "betray" her one day. Of course I denied it; "I would never tell on you mother." I cooed softly. No, it was not that I was intentionally lying. I was just kissing her a** just like she conditioned me to.
We were groomed to be her perpetual dutiful slaves from birth. We were something to belittle and torture sadistically while she played beautiful starlet, Mother Theresa, Joan of Arc, Moms Mabley, Eddie Amin, Uncle Tom, Madame Watson and Reverend Watson.
One fool, one violent ignorant lying reprobate. A monster scaring the living wits out of her children while playing a role for the public. She wore the finest clothes, drove the finest cars while inflicting the most horrendous psychological and physical pain possible.
Why didn't some body ever tell us this woman was a sadist? This succubus has lived free for 87 years plaguing the world, getting her sadist kicks and laughing.
When your six year old child severely burns her two year old bother, when every one in the family has been branded by some type of excruciating burn. Somebody needs to pay attention. Stop the madness! You have a rank sociopath in your midst and you are harboring your own jailer and worst enemy.
I won't! You dummies can go down in her burning sinking ship, but I won't. Call me slow, call me dumb. GOD calls me blessed. He revealed you. You thought getting old was a blessing. GOD let you live long enough for me to figure you out. I discovered you on the Internet. I found out that I wasn't alone. Praise the LORD!
Man! when I finally figured you out, when I finally gained the courage to accept GOD's Gospel Truth I was amazed. You used the simple formula of terror. You used to beat Doster bloody when he caught you in your "indiscretion". If you expose small children to brutal savage beatings meted out by their mother you will never have to worry about those children being "disobedient".
GOD said you will reap what you sow. "The wicked shall cease from troubling."
Are you ever going to repent? The world is waiting. The pessimistic mean side of me, the part I learned from you, says no. My humanness says that you won't make it in. What say you?
That book is still GOD's WORD. No, GOD is not making any exceptions for you. You have lived a horrible life and ruined a lot of people. But, the person you hurt the most was your self.
I do laugh a lot though when recounting some of your heinous deeds. You were quite short on the vittles. Which resulted in our being super fine physical specimens. None of us had an ounce of body fat. Except for the "baby". You changed up for him.
Just like a prison warden you made one huge pot of pinto beans in this huge industrial pot and that is all we had to eat all week. No cornbread, no cool-aid, no meat, no cake or dessert. No setting the table, no table cloth, no flowers ... just what were you trying to tell us?
"*Sam, Gwen ! remember that pot of pinto beans!? Found a roach in'um!" Then you laughed uproariously for hours. That incident taught us to be more observant, if you didn't eat it, we didn't eat it.
Jesus is still on the main line. You can still call Him up, tell Him what you want. My good side, the side I got from granddaddy, told me to tell you to pray over it. To pray and fast, to ask for forgiveness. Yes, I forgive you and I am laughing. I am safe, happy, blessed in the arms of Jesus. Praise the LORD! You can praise Him too. You can take 87 years of wrong living to the LORD, confess your sins and leave your burdens there, at the foot of His cross.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 31, 2013 All rights reserved
We were groomed to be her perpetual dutiful slaves from birth. We were something to belittle and torture sadistically while she played beautiful starlet, Mother Theresa, Joan of Arc, Moms Mabley, Eddie Amin, Uncle Tom, Madame Watson and Reverend Watson.
One fool, one violent ignorant lying reprobate. A monster scaring the living wits out of her children while playing a role for the public. She wore the finest clothes, drove the finest cars while inflicting the most horrendous psychological and physical pain possible.
Why didn't some body ever tell us this woman was a sadist? This succubus has lived free for 87 years plaguing the world, getting her sadist kicks and laughing.
When your six year old child severely burns her two year old bother, when every one in the family has been branded by some type of excruciating burn. Somebody needs to pay attention. Stop the madness! You have a rank sociopath in your midst and you are harboring your own jailer and worst enemy.
I won't! You dummies can go down in her burning sinking ship, but I won't. Call me slow, call me dumb. GOD calls me blessed. He revealed you. You thought getting old was a blessing. GOD let you live long enough for me to figure you out. I discovered you on the Internet. I found out that I wasn't alone. Praise the LORD!
Man! when I finally figured you out, when I finally gained the courage to accept GOD's Gospel Truth I was amazed. You used the simple formula of terror. You used to beat Doster bloody when he caught you in your "indiscretion". If you expose small children to brutal savage beatings meted out by their mother you will never have to worry about those children being "disobedient".
GOD said you will reap what you sow. "The wicked shall cease from troubling."
Are you ever going to repent? The world is waiting. The pessimistic mean side of me, the part I learned from you, says no. My humanness says that you won't make it in. What say you?
That book is still GOD's WORD. No, GOD is not making any exceptions for you. You have lived a horrible life and ruined a lot of people. But, the person you hurt the most was your self.
I do laugh a lot though when recounting some of your heinous deeds. You were quite short on the vittles. Which resulted in our being super fine physical specimens. None of us had an ounce of body fat. Except for the "baby". You changed up for him.
Just like a prison warden you made one huge pot of pinto beans in this huge industrial pot and that is all we had to eat all week. No cornbread, no cool-aid, no meat, no cake or dessert. No setting the table, no table cloth, no flowers ... just what were you trying to tell us?
"*Sam, Gwen ! remember that pot of pinto beans!? Found a roach in'um!" Then you laughed uproariously for hours. That incident taught us to be more observant, if you didn't eat it, we didn't eat it.
Jesus is still on the main line. You can still call Him up, tell Him what you want. My good side, the side I got from granddaddy, told me to tell you to pray over it. To pray and fast, to ask for forgiveness. Yes, I forgive you and I am laughing. I am safe, happy, blessed in the arms of Jesus. Praise the LORD! You can praise Him too. You can take 87 years of wrong living to the LORD, confess your sins and leave your burdens there, at the foot of His cross.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 31, 2013 All rights reserved
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
Gerald Thompson - "Hallelujah I Found Him"
I'm so glad there are no pews in front of me right now. I know I could hurdle over four rows of them. It's a good feeling children. The best feeling you will ever have and it's Free! PTL!
Rejoice! and become your authentic unique self!
The first thing I want you to do right now is grin, grin from ear to ear and thank GOD for giving you one more day.
Now, take every piece of worthless advice and fear that was whispered in your ear and forget it. Sing, do a dance, just glow. Son, daughter, you just got saved.
One of the greatest lines I ever heard was from Ntozake Shange's "For Colored girls..." I am paraphrasing from the early 80's but the line was; "Somebody ran off with my stuff." I remember sitting in the Alliance theater saying "Yes!" Somebody ran off with my "stuff" too!"
Today I heard GOD clearly say; "Girl go get your stuff back!" That's right, no one can rob you of your talent, your gifts and blessings. If you run into someone so determined to see you ruined, they are willing to ruin themselves, you got you a n*****!
Don't get me wrong I don't mean that in a racist way at all. I use the "n" word the way my grandfather did. To him a n***** was a sorry person, someone common and without morals. Many people may refer to black people as n******. They are wrong. Sure, some black people are indeed n******, not all, and not most.
The world unfortunately is full of n****** of every color. Don't assume some one is of good character or good report simply because of the color of their skin. Jesus told you to look at their fruit.
Now, do know that you are unique, distinguished, beautifully made, loved and honored by GOD. GOD welcomed you to this earth for His own purpose. Go get your "stuff" back and honor Him. Love instead of hate, smile rather than frown, laugh instead of cry.
Pray for the poor pitiful ones that are on the wrong side, happy to be losing, glad to be miserable. Don't be part and parcel to this nonsense about racial categories and divisions. GOD did not tell us to chose teams.
There is only one race, the Human Race! If you are GOD's child, that is all that should concern you. No, "we" or "they". I don't think racism killed Trayvon Marin at all. It was "prejudice". I think George Zimmerman prejudged him based on the color of his skin and his attire. Did Zimmerman introduce himself as the neighborhood watch captain politely? Or did he speak to that young man like he was a n*****? Some thug up to mischief?
A very unfortunate fact of life, we are all prejudice. We are taught to prejudge from birth. The world may never rid itself of racism and prejudice. But, people that call themselves Christians should. We are set apart, a royal priesthood., a peculiar people.
"Judge not that you be not judged." Try not to judge people. Don't make certain assumptions based on your limited understanding.
GOD is so wonderful! His WORD is wonderful. Marvel in His signs and wonders. Let Him lead you to His Marvelous Light!
Try loving instead of hating, believing rather than doubting, thanking over complaining. You will get up every morning with a glow in your heart, ready to share and to bless. Every day will be a good day.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 30, 2013 All rights reserved
Now, take every piece of worthless advice and fear that was whispered in your ear and forget it. Sing, do a dance, just glow. Son, daughter, you just got saved.
One of the greatest lines I ever heard was from Ntozake Shange's "For Colored girls..." I am paraphrasing from the early 80's but the line was; "Somebody ran off with my stuff." I remember sitting in the Alliance theater saying "Yes!" Somebody ran off with my "stuff" too!"
Today I heard GOD clearly say; "Girl go get your stuff back!" That's right, no one can rob you of your talent, your gifts and blessings. If you run into someone so determined to see you ruined, they are willing to ruin themselves, you got you a n*****!
Don't get me wrong I don't mean that in a racist way at all. I use the "n" word the way my grandfather did. To him a n***** was a sorry person, someone common and without morals. Many people may refer to black people as n******. They are wrong. Sure, some black people are indeed n******, not all, and not most.
The world unfortunately is full of n****** of every color. Don't assume some one is of good character or good report simply because of the color of their skin. Jesus told you to look at their fruit.
Now, do know that you are unique, distinguished, beautifully made, loved and honored by GOD. GOD welcomed you to this earth for His own purpose. Go get your "stuff" back and honor Him. Love instead of hate, smile rather than frown, laugh instead of cry.
Pray for the poor pitiful ones that are on the wrong side, happy to be losing, glad to be miserable. Don't be part and parcel to this nonsense about racial categories and divisions. GOD did not tell us to chose teams.
There is only one race, the Human Race! If you are GOD's child, that is all that should concern you. No, "we" or "they". I don't think racism killed Trayvon Marin at all. It was "prejudice". I think George Zimmerman prejudged him based on the color of his skin and his attire. Did Zimmerman introduce himself as the neighborhood watch captain politely? Or did he speak to that young man like he was a n*****? Some thug up to mischief?
A very unfortunate fact of life, we are all prejudice. We are taught to prejudge from birth. The world may never rid itself of racism and prejudice. But, people that call themselves Christians should. We are set apart, a royal priesthood., a peculiar people.
"Judge not that you be not judged." Try not to judge people. Don't make certain assumptions based on your limited understanding.
GOD is so wonderful! His WORD is wonderful. Marvel in His signs and wonders. Let Him lead you to His Marvelous Light!
Try loving instead of hating, believing rather than doubting, thanking over complaining. You will get up every morning with a glow in your heart, ready to share and to bless. Every day will be a good day.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 30, 2013 All rights reserved
I'm cured!
Can I get a "like" for being cancer free!? Praise the LORD! GOD set me free from the most malignant gooey cancerous growth "unknown" to mankind. GOD help her! Slow her down. Bring her to your Throne of Grace. Bring Martha Jane Walters to your glorious truth. Let her reveal in it in her last days. May she know the beauty and the liberating healing of GOD's Grace.
Yes, I'm serious. I have no reason to lie. I'm laughing. I'm actually laughing, carefree, unencumbered ... I saw the light. Don't marvel or express any form of disbelief. GOD warned us, He told us about "long suffering". Just what did you imagine He was talking about?
We attend church on Sundays and get whipped into a frenzy recounting how Jesus raised the dead, feed the multitudes, gave sight to the blind. Yet we have difficulty believing a modern day miracle. GOD gave sight to my eyes. He took the handkerchiefs off.
A modern day Jezebel, a soothsayer, a murderer, everything GOD revealed to us in His Prophetic WORD.
Jesus cast out demons over 2,000 years ago and He is still doing it today.
If there is anything that bothers me, it is the nay-sayers, the non-believers. "Don't say that about your mother." "I find that hard to believe." "Women are not like that." "She has always been nothing but sweet to me."
Well, I am here to tell you, you better know that I am not the only one she targeted. You are just as much a victim as I am. If she baptized you, I think I would go and get baptized again.
For some reason I always believed the "church" vetted its preachers. You better pray, talk to GOD, keep your eyes open, practice discernment. Every one standing behind a pulpit hollering is not right with GOD. Some are not there for you or GOD's sheep. Many are there for "self". They are ravenous wolves in sheep's clothing.
No matter what, after all I've been through, what we've been through as a family, I know GOD was right there through it all. GOD is with us now, trying to save us from our "humanness" injecting us with His Holiness.
I'm blessed, truly blessed to be able to tell my awesome story.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 30, 2013 All rights reserved
Yes, I'm serious. I have no reason to lie. I'm laughing. I'm actually laughing, carefree, unencumbered ... I saw the light. Don't marvel or express any form of disbelief. GOD warned us, He told us about "long suffering". Just what did you imagine He was talking about?
We attend church on Sundays and get whipped into a frenzy recounting how Jesus raised the dead, feed the multitudes, gave sight to the blind. Yet we have difficulty believing a modern day miracle. GOD gave sight to my eyes. He took the handkerchiefs off.
A modern day Jezebel, a soothsayer, a murderer, everything GOD revealed to us in His Prophetic WORD.
Jesus cast out demons over 2,000 years ago and He is still doing it today.
If there is anything that bothers me, it is the nay-sayers, the non-believers. "Don't say that about your mother." "I find that hard to believe." "Women are not like that." "She has always been nothing but sweet to me."
Well, I am here to tell you, you better know that I am not the only one she targeted. You are just as much a victim as I am. If she baptized you, I think I would go and get baptized again.
For some reason I always believed the "church" vetted its preachers. You better pray, talk to GOD, keep your eyes open, practice discernment. Every one standing behind a pulpit hollering is not right with GOD. Some are not there for you or GOD's sheep. Many are there for "self". They are ravenous wolves in sheep's clothing.
No matter what, after all I've been through, what we've been through as a family, I know GOD was right there through it all. GOD is with us now, trying to save us from our "humanness" injecting us with His Holiness.
I'm blessed, truly blessed to be able to tell my awesome story.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 30, 2013 All rights reserved
Monday, July 29, 2013
It is never too late.
No children, it is never too late to live your dreams. I don't care who or what hindered you. Please define yourself. Don't ever let any one define you, tell you who or what you are.
Now, you may have to pursue your dream quietly and out of view of the nay-sayers. Do pray. Anything you ask GOD for, He will give you. Never give up.
Study your Bible. Search it. I can not understanding why so many people approach it as a chore. It is no more of a chore than brushing your teeth or taking a bath.
You must study the Bible for yourself. "Work out your own salvation." I knew a poor ignorant man once and he used to ride his Bible in the back window of his car, to show it off. He expected people to believe that he was "religious" or truly loved the LORD because he carried his Bible where every one could see it.
No, you could not find any evidence of such in the way he lived his life. Yes, he was an usher in the church but he bought his cocaine from his pastor. So, I told him that he should read it (Bible). He responded that he couldn't understand it.
I shook my head at the anti-intellectual, too lazy to earn a college degree because he refused to read. Went to college looking for a short cut, tried to ride on his looks. Don't believe everything this world tells you. You need a lot more than looks (color and hair) to be successful in this world.
If you got "waylayed" thinking this world loved you or owed you something, think again. Dismiss the ignorance nonsense that is spread all of this earth and love the Living LORD. Embrace GOD's Truth and live right.
Yours in Christ,
Rachel
Copyright July 29, 2013 All rights reserved
Now, you may have to pursue your dream quietly and out of view of the nay-sayers. Do pray. Anything you ask GOD for, He will give you. Never give up.
Study your Bible. Search it. I can not understanding why so many people approach it as a chore. It is no more of a chore than brushing your teeth or taking a bath.
You must study the Bible for yourself. "Work out your own salvation." I knew a poor ignorant man once and he used to ride his Bible in the back window of his car, to show it off. He expected people to believe that he was "religious" or truly loved the LORD because he carried his Bible where every one could see it.
No, you could not find any evidence of such in the way he lived his life. Yes, he was an usher in the church but he bought his cocaine from his pastor. So, I told him that he should read it (Bible). He responded that he couldn't understand it.
I shook my head at the anti-intellectual, too lazy to earn a college degree because he refused to read. Went to college looking for a short cut, tried to ride on his looks. Don't believe everything this world tells you. You need a lot more than looks (color and hair) to be successful in this world.
If you got "waylayed" thinking this world loved you or owed you something, think again. Dismiss the ignorance nonsense that is spread all of this earth and love the Living LORD. Embrace GOD's Truth and live right.
Yours in Christ,
Rachel
Copyright July 29, 2013 All rights reserved
"AND IT SHALL COME TO PASS ...
IN THE LAST DAYS , SAITH GOD, I WILL POUR OUT MY SPIRIT UPON ALL FLESH: AND YOUR SONS AND YOUR DAUGHTERS SHALL PROPHESY, AND YOUR YOUNG MEN SHALL SEE VISIONS, AND YOUR OLD MEN SHALL DREAM DREAMS:" (Acts 2:17)
I know it is the Truth! There is no doubt in my heart what so ever. I have knowingly been a conduit for GOD since age four. Actually before that. I use age four because that is the year she came and got us.
I know she feels miserable. Of all the people to torture and hate, she chose GOD's servants and His handmaidens. Good enough, shouldn't have been so wicked.
So who are you angry with now? Who can you curse and taunt like a dog now? Who can stand to be around you?
Dear LORD I thank you for planting your spirit in my heart. Yes, Martha has a long litany of repugnant sins that she must repent of if she is to ever see Christ.
You saved me LORD and I thank you. That woman, that fallen wicked woman that refuses to hear the voice of the LORD has done something evil and despicable to me, my brothers and family every single day. For 87 years she has been a wolf in sheep's clothing, hiding behind a 24 carat smile and a license to preach. Yes, she stole and ruined every dream I ever had. So what? GOD knows His plans for me.
I count it all joy. I am rejoicing that I was counted worthy to suffer shame for His name. "And they departed from the presence of the council, rejoicing that they were counted worthy to suffer shame for His name." (Acts 5:41)
I have a "family" that shuns me. Why? Is my truth too disturbing, too inconvenient at this time? Yes it is hard to know, too disturbing to accept. You have this false image that all demons are ugly hideous looking things.
No one wants to believe that their mother is a disciple of satan. Remain in disbelief if you want to. Her fruit doesn't lie.
She is the real deal alright, pure evil, low down, common as bat s***! You don't want to be in her presence, you really don't. Why? "For the wrath of GOD is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men who hold the truth in unrighteousness; " (Romans 1:18)
Why? "Because that, when they knew GOD, they glorified Him not as GOD, neither were thankful; but became vain in their imaginations, and their foolish heart was darkened. Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools. (Acts 1: 21 - 22)
Why? "Without understanding, covenantbreakers, without natural affection, implacable, unmerciful; (Romans 1: 31)
I understand. I can't help her. GOD released her over to a reprobate mind. I know that one day GOD " WILL RENDER TO EVERY MAN ACCORDING TO HIS DEEDS:" (Romans 2:6)
My family members can shun me, disown me, speak ill of me. I can take it. My skin has gotten very thick over the years. I will NOT give up the right for the wrong. The fact that this demon is my mother is only and accident of birth. Jesus told us that our enemies would be of our own household.
"Tribulation and anguish, upon every soul of man that doeth evil,..."(Romans 2:9) So she has lived a very long time. She will be 88 October 9, 2013. Her father was 84 when she took his life, when she decided that he had lived long enough.
Of course I don't know how long Martha will "live". 110, 116, no one knows. I do know that she is not living a godly blessed life. I know she is a miserable wretch. When a church's prayers can't reach you, you are in bad shape.
I am an over comer, a conqueror. I am blessed, Praise the LORD! "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love GOD, to them who are the called according to His purpose." (Romans 8:28)
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 29, 2013 All rights reserved
I know it is the Truth! There is no doubt in my heart what so ever. I have knowingly been a conduit for GOD since age four. Actually before that. I use age four because that is the year she came and got us.
I know she feels miserable. Of all the people to torture and hate, she chose GOD's servants and His handmaidens. Good enough, shouldn't have been so wicked.
So who are you angry with now? Who can you curse and taunt like a dog now? Who can stand to be around you?
Dear LORD I thank you for planting your spirit in my heart. Yes, Martha has a long litany of repugnant sins that she must repent of if she is to ever see Christ.
You saved me LORD and I thank you. That woman, that fallen wicked woman that refuses to hear the voice of the LORD has done something evil and despicable to me, my brothers and family every single day. For 87 years she has been a wolf in sheep's clothing, hiding behind a 24 carat smile and a license to preach. Yes, she stole and ruined every dream I ever had. So what? GOD knows His plans for me.
I count it all joy. I am rejoicing that I was counted worthy to suffer shame for His name. "And they departed from the presence of the council, rejoicing that they were counted worthy to suffer shame for His name." (Acts 5:41)
I have a "family" that shuns me. Why? Is my truth too disturbing, too inconvenient at this time? Yes it is hard to know, too disturbing to accept. You have this false image that all demons are ugly hideous looking things.
No one wants to believe that their mother is a disciple of satan. Remain in disbelief if you want to. Her fruit doesn't lie.
She is the real deal alright, pure evil, low down, common as bat s***! You don't want to be in her presence, you really don't. Why? "For the wrath of GOD is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men who hold the truth in unrighteousness; " (Romans 1:18)
Why? "Because that, when they knew GOD, they glorified Him not as GOD, neither were thankful; but became vain in their imaginations, and their foolish heart was darkened. Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools. (Acts 1: 21 - 22)
Why? "Without understanding, covenantbreakers, without natural affection, implacable, unmerciful; (Romans 1: 31)
I understand. I can't help her. GOD released her over to a reprobate mind. I know that one day GOD " WILL RENDER TO EVERY MAN ACCORDING TO HIS DEEDS:" (Romans 2:6)
My family members can shun me, disown me, speak ill of me. I can take it. My skin has gotten very thick over the years. I will NOT give up the right for the wrong. The fact that this demon is my mother is only and accident of birth. Jesus told us that our enemies would be of our own household.
"Tribulation and anguish, upon every soul of man that doeth evil,..."(Romans 2:9) So she has lived a very long time. She will be 88 October 9, 2013. Her father was 84 when she took his life, when she decided that he had lived long enough.
Of course I don't know how long Martha will "live". 110, 116, no one knows. I do know that she is not living a godly blessed life. I know she is a miserable wretch. When a church's prayers can't reach you, you are in bad shape.
I am an over comer, a conqueror. I am blessed, Praise the LORD! "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love GOD, to them who are the called according to His purpose." (Romans 8:28)
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 29, 2013 All rights reserved
Sunday, July 28, 2013
PURE EVIL!
PURE UNADULTERATED EVIL is real, it exist. It is not something that just crops up in third world countries or on the mean streets of New York, Chicago and Detroit.
I get chills when I think about it. It is true, my mother is pure evil. A worse person on this earth does not exist. Her list of foul, disgusting, despicable deeds is too long. She is a family secret, something we were taught to keep hidden, from birth.
I won't! People need to know how low satan can sink. People should be warned to put on the whole armor of GOD for their protection. Don't go out in this world naked thinking you don't need Christ. Thinking your degree, beauty and intellect will see you through. Pray everyday, thank GOD. GOD is not Santa Claus or your daddy, someone you run to when you want something.
Wait! Let me tell you, she is an Ordained Minister! For real! What collective group of imps did she deceive? I'll give you a hint. The African Methodist Episcopal Zion Church! Simon Temple A.M.E.Z. church in Fayetteville, North Carolina.
You've got to wonder, LORD what has become of the "church"?
I am on medication and proud that GOD enabled some chemist to come up with some medicinal formula to protect me from the night terrors and the uncontrollable sobbing.
I thank GOD for saving and healing me. Save my family LORD, save my brothers. Save the ones she successfully damaged and utterly destroyed. Restore their faith LORD. Piece them back together.
Pure evil! I know one thing, no one wants to be around evil. I will not lie to you, it is terrifying. A monster in your midst, pretending to be a Christian, pretending to love GOD. No lie, my truth, my life is horrifying. You have to pray for GOD's strength to read my blog.
At 87, still hanging around trying to do more damage, trying to prove GOD wrong. Just lingering, a worthless fagged out whore too elderly to entice and physically degrade her victims the way she used to. Her mind is still sharp, well sharper than the five sons and families she destroyed.
She hates me and she should. This poor fallen woman may pretend to you that her hatred is new but she knows full well that she pre-hated me long before I was born. I no longer hate her, she is not worth it. She is a mess, a pile of human garbage simply because of false pride. Simply because she fell prey to satan's lies. Wayward children sure make a mess of families. These demons are hard to overthrow simply because of unbelief. It is hard for the world to accept something so shocking and revolting.
I have a warning for you. What happened in my family could easily happen in yours.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
I get chills when I think about it. It is true, my mother is pure evil. A worse person on this earth does not exist. Her list of foul, disgusting, despicable deeds is too long. She is a family secret, something we were taught to keep hidden, from birth.
I won't! People need to know how low satan can sink. People should be warned to put on the whole armor of GOD for their protection. Don't go out in this world naked thinking you don't need Christ. Thinking your degree, beauty and intellect will see you through. Pray everyday, thank GOD. GOD is not Santa Claus or your daddy, someone you run to when you want something.
Wait! Let me tell you, she is an Ordained Minister! For real! What collective group of imps did she deceive? I'll give you a hint. The African Methodist Episcopal Zion Church! Simon Temple A.M.E.Z. church in Fayetteville, North Carolina.
You've got to wonder, LORD what has become of the "church"?
I am on medication and proud that GOD enabled some chemist to come up with some medicinal formula to protect me from the night terrors and the uncontrollable sobbing.
I thank GOD for saving and healing me. Save my family LORD, save my brothers. Save the ones she successfully damaged and utterly destroyed. Restore their faith LORD. Piece them back together.
Pure evil! I know one thing, no one wants to be around evil. I will not lie to you, it is terrifying. A monster in your midst, pretending to be a Christian, pretending to love GOD. No lie, my truth, my life is horrifying. You have to pray for GOD's strength to read my blog.
At 87, still hanging around trying to do more damage, trying to prove GOD wrong. Just lingering, a worthless fagged out whore too elderly to entice and physically degrade her victims the way she used to. Her mind is still sharp, well sharper than the five sons and families she destroyed.
She hates me and she should. This poor fallen woman may pretend to you that her hatred is new but she knows full well that she pre-hated me long before I was born. I no longer hate her, she is not worth it. She is a mess, a pile of human garbage simply because of false pride. Simply because she fell prey to satan's lies. Wayward children sure make a mess of families. These demons are hard to overthrow simply because of unbelief. It is hard for the world to accept something so shocking and revolting.
I have a warning for you. What happened in my family could easily happen in yours.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Friday, July 26, 2013
Exciting and Brand New!
Dear LORD thank you for another day on planet earth, for another day to serve You, for another opportunity to get it right. Praise the LORD! Thank You Jesus!
To be able to speak those words and mean them sincerely is the greatest blessing. When your love for the LORD is alive and well in your heart. When you can smell the flowers, see the magnificent beauty GOD created for us. When you are not side tracked and confused for one moment by the foolishness of this world, it's a good day.
Dear LORD I am electrified, on fire, glowing and growing. Hallelujah! I am doing a Holy Ghost two step!
Dear children don't wait on this world to honor you or listen to anything you have to say. Most people are just dumb, blind, cripple and crazy. Most people are subject to "mob mentality". A charismatic eloquent speaker can stir them to do anything. Look at Adolf Hitler, a tiny microscopic man that terrorized the world for much too long. A little half Jew that decimated "GOD's chosen people".
Yes, it happened, it happened very easily and it can happen again. "Why did GOD let that happen?" GOD didn't let it happen. Blind, deaf, and dumb men out of the will of GOD made it happen!
After 30 years of teaching I can testify most people will NOT read, will not so much as carry a book from their locker to the classroom. Most students demand to be spoon feed, catered to, and given good grades. If you don't know, I will tell you that generation of vipers that are predicted to come are here!
Don't fear them, just shun them. Teach the ones you can and move on. No matter what, do not let this world rob you of your dreams. Keep that dream GOD planted in your heart alive. As long as you live, work toward it. Study it, research it, pursue it.
If you don't like to be alone, it you demand to be popular and surrounded by tons of friends, you might want to change your mind. You are going to have to learn to stroke yourself. You will have to light your own fire. Do know little imps and vermin will come from every where, from out of the wood work to vex you, to destroy your dreams. Pay them no mind, move on.
Yes, you will have to study, practice self discipline. You will have to put on the whole armor of GOD. But I guarantee that you will feel good!
Have a very blessed day today children. Stay in His WORD! Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 26, 2013 All rights reserved
To be able to speak those words and mean them sincerely is the greatest blessing. When your love for the LORD is alive and well in your heart. When you can smell the flowers, see the magnificent beauty GOD created for us. When you are not side tracked and confused for one moment by the foolishness of this world, it's a good day.
Dear LORD I am electrified, on fire, glowing and growing. Hallelujah! I am doing a Holy Ghost two step!
Dear children don't wait on this world to honor you or listen to anything you have to say. Most people are just dumb, blind, cripple and crazy. Most people are subject to "mob mentality". A charismatic eloquent speaker can stir them to do anything. Look at Adolf Hitler, a tiny microscopic man that terrorized the world for much too long. A little half Jew that decimated "GOD's chosen people".
Yes, it happened, it happened very easily and it can happen again. "Why did GOD let that happen?" GOD didn't let it happen. Blind, deaf, and dumb men out of the will of GOD made it happen!
After 30 years of teaching I can testify most people will NOT read, will not so much as carry a book from their locker to the classroom. Most students demand to be spoon feed, catered to, and given good grades. If you don't know, I will tell you that generation of vipers that are predicted to come are here!
Don't fear them, just shun them. Teach the ones you can and move on. No matter what, do not let this world rob you of your dreams. Keep that dream GOD planted in your heart alive. As long as you live, work toward it. Study it, research it, pursue it.
If you don't like to be alone, it you demand to be popular and surrounded by tons of friends, you might want to change your mind. You are going to have to learn to stroke yourself. You will have to light your own fire. Do know little imps and vermin will come from every where, from out of the wood work to vex you, to destroy your dreams. Pay them no mind, move on.
Yes, you will have to study, practice self discipline. You will have to put on the whole armor of GOD. But I guarantee that you will feel good!
Have a very blessed day today children. Stay in His WORD! Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 26, 2013 All rights reserved
Thursday, July 25, 2013
Dear LORD,
Please forgive the collectively stupidity of your children. Forgive our "stiff neckness", our deafness and blindness. Give us eyes to see and ears to hear your WORD.
Yes LORD, we are lost but we do desire to be found. I know you are shaking your head. We can fill stadiums 100,000 strong, screaming and hollering for our favorite sports team. Will offer to fight anyone that feels differently. We dress up, paint up, wear ridiculous costumes and spend money we don't have and call ourselves fans, fanatics.
But, what do we do for GOD? We sit quietly while demons kill, maim, destroy and rape. We get jealous and try to sneak in our little digs and punches. We will see a "loved one" lying in a ditch and we will cross the street gleefully glad to see them suffering.
Many of us are glad to go along with the crowd that knows no GOD and declare proudly that we don't believe in Him either. Most of us blame every bad thing that happens on earth on Him, knowing full well we are the cause of our own problems.
When will we come to you LORD? When we have tried everything else? When all hope is lost. Will we come to GOD when He offers us irrefutable proof that He is real? Do we have to experience a very sad tragedy, experience a degraded life before we will look up and acknowledge our Father?
I only have one thing to say children of GOD. Learn to think for yourself.
Be Blessed,
Rachel
Copyright July 25, 2013 All rights reserved
Yes LORD, we are lost but we do desire to be found. I know you are shaking your head. We can fill stadiums 100,000 strong, screaming and hollering for our favorite sports team. Will offer to fight anyone that feels differently. We dress up, paint up, wear ridiculous costumes and spend money we don't have and call ourselves fans, fanatics.
But, what do we do for GOD? We sit quietly while demons kill, maim, destroy and rape. We get jealous and try to sneak in our little digs and punches. We will see a "loved one" lying in a ditch and we will cross the street gleefully glad to see them suffering.
Many of us are glad to go along with the crowd that knows no GOD and declare proudly that we don't believe in Him either. Most of us blame every bad thing that happens on earth on Him, knowing full well we are the cause of our own problems.
When will we come to you LORD? When we have tried everything else? When all hope is lost. Will we come to GOD when He offers us irrefutable proof that He is real? Do we have to experience a very sad tragedy, experience a degraded life before we will look up and acknowledge our Father?
I only have one thing to say children of GOD. Learn to think for yourself.
Be Blessed,
Rachel
Copyright July 25, 2013 All rights reserved
"Raise the Roof!"
Praise the LORD! Raise the roof! Scream to the top of your lungs! Do a Holy Ghost Dance all by yourself if you have to. But, don't, what ever you do, don't let any one put your Fire out!
Praise the LORD! Thank Him for His WORD. Never get so weary that you give up and just stop trying. That is what your enemy wants. Make sure you know that there are a significant number of people on this earth that are too sorry, too undisciplined, too unfocused, too full of carnal lust and evil to do any thing genuinely good.
Reeking with self hatred they run around discouraging, sabotaging, "gas lighting", planting seeds of destruction and deceit. Why? What is their issue? Nothing. They squandered their gifts and blessings, they are unhappy, miserable, and if you are to keep company with them you must do worse.
Your life can never measure up to or be better than the imaginary empire they built. You must be under them, kneel before them, prostrate yourself and always remind them of their supremacy. If you can't do that, if you still have any pride after 60 years of their clever concealed beatings, you can't be around them. Don't bring truth or GOD's true WORD any where near them. They are not going to tolerate you. They will scream liar! cry real tears and have a toddler's tantrum. They will pull every excuse they can think of out of their bag of tricks; "I'm your mother! I changed yo' s***** diapers! You Black! You're a bastard! You sneaky! You think you better than everybody else! Then they will start lying. They will tell a lie so long they soon forget it is a lie and actually believe it themselves.
GOD in His infinite wisdom made the woman the nurturer, the care giver. Your mother is your first teacher, she molds your little mind like clay. Too many babies are born to unworthy women, women that take advantage of their children and deliberately destroy them.
These women are secretly harboring deep self hatred. They don't trust GOD. They have no faith. "Oh ye of little faith." The awful truth is they know they should have faith. They just can't find it, too proud to ask. So dishonest, so delusional they refuse to be honest with themselves.
These poor women are caught in a perpetual hell of their own creation. They commit the worse sickest sins then turn around and almost have remorse, they always express a hint of regret. Never enough to change though, because they can always successfully convince themselves that their actions were justified. Plus, they didn't do it. You are lying. "Say I did what I did again and I will beat the living water s*** out of you! Shut your f******* mouth! I will stab you! I will lie on you! I will dump all my sins on you and make everyone hate you!"
"Count it all joy." GOD blessed you to know the truth. All those that can't hear you, that refuse to understand you, don't need to know. GOD's sheep can hear His voice. Not only can you hear His voice, you know and understand His plan. You can't carry out your mission being defeated and depressed. You can't do anything for GOD pretending you believe that witch's lies, being under her thumb waiting on her to die.
Kill her off now! Not literally. Kill her off in your mind. Go "no contact". She is nothing but a demonic liar and she should go somewhere and rot in hell for the rest of her life.
Excite yourself! Stoke those dying embers. Light your fire! Live! Love GOD! Love yourself! Do good! What ever you do on this earth, never let anyone or anything put your Fire out!
Pray for your enemies children and live the abundant life GOD created for you. Be abundantly blessed today.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 25, 2013 All rights reserved
Praise the LORD! Thank Him for His WORD. Never get so weary that you give up and just stop trying. That is what your enemy wants. Make sure you know that there are a significant number of people on this earth that are too sorry, too undisciplined, too unfocused, too full of carnal lust and evil to do any thing genuinely good.
Reeking with self hatred they run around discouraging, sabotaging, "gas lighting", planting seeds of destruction and deceit. Why? What is their issue? Nothing. They squandered their gifts and blessings, they are unhappy, miserable, and if you are to keep company with them you must do worse.
Your life can never measure up to or be better than the imaginary empire they built. You must be under them, kneel before them, prostrate yourself and always remind them of their supremacy. If you can't do that, if you still have any pride after 60 years of their clever concealed beatings, you can't be around them. Don't bring truth or GOD's true WORD any where near them. They are not going to tolerate you. They will scream liar! cry real tears and have a toddler's tantrum. They will pull every excuse they can think of out of their bag of tricks; "I'm your mother! I changed yo' s***** diapers! You Black! You're a bastard! You sneaky! You think you better than everybody else! Then they will start lying. They will tell a lie so long they soon forget it is a lie and actually believe it themselves.
GOD in His infinite wisdom made the woman the nurturer, the care giver. Your mother is your first teacher, she molds your little mind like clay. Too many babies are born to unworthy women, women that take advantage of their children and deliberately destroy them.
These women are secretly harboring deep self hatred. They don't trust GOD. They have no faith. "Oh ye of little faith." The awful truth is they know they should have faith. They just can't find it, too proud to ask. So dishonest, so delusional they refuse to be honest with themselves.
These poor women are caught in a perpetual hell of their own creation. They commit the worse sickest sins then turn around and almost have remorse, they always express a hint of regret. Never enough to change though, because they can always successfully convince themselves that their actions were justified. Plus, they didn't do it. You are lying. "Say I did what I did again and I will beat the living water s*** out of you! Shut your f******* mouth! I will stab you! I will lie on you! I will dump all my sins on you and make everyone hate you!"
"Count it all joy." GOD blessed you to know the truth. All those that can't hear you, that refuse to understand you, don't need to know. GOD's sheep can hear His voice. Not only can you hear His voice, you know and understand His plan. You can't carry out your mission being defeated and depressed. You can't do anything for GOD pretending you believe that witch's lies, being under her thumb waiting on her to die.
Kill her off now! Not literally. Kill her off in your mind. Go "no contact". She is nothing but a demonic liar and she should go somewhere and rot in hell for the rest of her life.
Excite yourself! Stoke those dying embers. Light your fire! Live! Love GOD! Love yourself! Do good! What ever you do on this earth, never let anyone or anything put your Fire out!
Pray for your enemies children and live the abundant life GOD created for you. Be abundantly blessed today.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 25, 2013 All rights reserved
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
What I've learned ..
In researching my mother's condition, malignant bipolar narcissistic Stupidity (disorder), I learned these people all use the same m.o. (modus operindi). They do not or can not love. They can't love anything or anyone. They can want . As a matter of fact, all they do is want. With big greedy eyes they want every thing they see.
They are often great whores, very promiscuous because they lack any self discipline, are very impulsive and the most convincing liars in the world. Their active imaginations kick in every time they spy their next prey.
One thing they make sure of is sibling rivalry. They make sure each child fights the others for attention. Of course she does this to her children. This is what she always did to her men. Martha was very beautiful in her youth and her favorite thing was to blow a man's mind, take his money and break his heart.
She always laughed, thought it was funny. Ladies, if you can't love your man chances are you will not be able to love your children. Some of you will want to punish them. If you are a jealous natured person you will be envious of your children, If you are slow and thick headed you will begrudge then the opportunities you claimed they robbed you of.
Psychiatrists declare it is a condition. I say she is demonic, demon possessed.
Well they play puppeteer with their young, assign each his or her role. She has the Golden Child, the one she praises and molds into the narcissist she is. And then there is me, the Scape Goat, the one she blames for everything, knowing full well she is the culprit.
Most will never tell on her because her sins must be kept hidden. If the world discovers your truth you will instantly become a leper. Your lack of faith in GOD will not let you see how she has totally ruined your life. (You are protecting your jailer, fool!) Just like the house n***** during slavery, you will remain loyal and vow to take her secrets to your grave. You love her more than she loves herself.
The other children are just flying monkeys (as in the Wizard of OZ), little imps she calls on to do her bedding from time to time. She calls them often to rant, rave, brag, cry and lie. They are so grateful for the attention that they don't care.
My mother left us alone (toddlers) with no food for about four days. She did it all the time. She would drive to the "country", put on an act in front of her father and beg to take us for the weekend (she just loved us so much). Then she would need some money of course, drive us to Bridges street in Fayetteville, and just leave us unattended," unfeed", unwashed for days.
How do I know? She told me, laughed about it. "Yall sho' wuz some smart churin ... nevah opened the do', never set no fi!"
What's my point? Why did she pick me out of the 6 to be her scape goat? What did she see in me that she had to suppress or destroy? Was she jealous that I was more disciplined, better looking, my long luscious hair, my intelligence, what was it?
The truth is out of 6 children, I am the most like her. By that I mean the meanest. It is only by the Grace of my Living LORD that I never caught a case for murder. Wrong me if you wanted to, you better prepare to die.
I can credit both my mother and grandfather for my sincere desire to protect myself and not ever let anyone get away with messing over me. When I was 8 years old my granddaddy took me out and taught me how to shoot a .22 rifle properly.
My grandfather was not a racist but he used the "n" word quite extensively because he was born in the south in 1894. As he taught me to shoot that day he reminded me again; "Dawthur don't you eva' let no sorry n**** mess ova' you. And don't nevah pull no gun on no n***** unless you plan to use it, and if you use it don't be playing, shoot tuh kill!"
I put the pieces together and understand better why my grandfather taught me to defend myself. He didn't want to tell me what happened to his little girl at eight years old but, he didn't want it to happen to me either. "Feisty" is what they called me. Some have called me masculine. Perhaps. I know one thing, with more people like me, we would have a lot fewer bullies in the world.
The truth is I am not mean. I'm just old, sick and tired of the wicked getting away with inflicting so much pain in the world. I'm tired of our children being misused and abused by parents that don't love them.
I am tired of the well heeled and powerful pretending that they don't hear and making sure you know that they don't care.
Here I sit, old, tired and too fat, running off at the mouth still trying to reach people, to teach people. " ... the arc of the moral universe is long but it bends toward justice." (Dr.MLK,Jr)
Stay in prayer children.
Rachel,
Copyright July 24, 2013 All rights reserved
They are often great whores, very promiscuous because they lack any self discipline, are very impulsive and the most convincing liars in the world. Their active imaginations kick in every time they spy their next prey.
One thing they make sure of is sibling rivalry. They make sure each child fights the others for attention. Of course she does this to her children. This is what she always did to her men. Martha was very beautiful in her youth and her favorite thing was to blow a man's mind, take his money and break his heart.
She always laughed, thought it was funny. Ladies, if you can't love your man chances are you will not be able to love your children. Some of you will want to punish them. If you are a jealous natured person you will be envious of your children, If you are slow and thick headed you will begrudge then the opportunities you claimed they robbed you of.
Psychiatrists declare it is a condition. I say she is demonic, demon possessed.
Well they play puppeteer with their young, assign each his or her role. She has the Golden Child, the one she praises and molds into the narcissist she is. And then there is me, the Scape Goat, the one she blames for everything, knowing full well she is the culprit.
Most will never tell on her because her sins must be kept hidden. If the world discovers your truth you will instantly become a leper. Your lack of faith in GOD will not let you see how she has totally ruined your life. (You are protecting your jailer, fool!) Just like the house n***** during slavery, you will remain loyal and vow to take her secrets to your grave. You love her more than she loves herself.
The other children are just flying monkeys (as in the Wizard of OZ), little imps she calls on to do her bedding from time to time. She calls them often to rant, rave, brag, cry and lie. They are so grateful for the attention that they don't care.
My mother left us alone (toddlers) with no food for about four days. She did it all the time. She would drive to the "country", put on an act in front of her father and beg to take us for the weekend (she just loved us so much). Then she would need some money of course, drive us to Bridges street in Fayetteville, and just leave us unattended," unfeed", unwashed for days.
How do I know? She told me, laughed about it. "Yall sho' wuz some smart churin ... nevah opened the do', never set no fi!"
What's my point? Why did she pick me out of the 6 to be her scape goat? What did she see in me that she had to suppress or destroy? Was she jealous that I was more disciplined, better looking, my long luscious hair, my intelligence, what was it?
The truth is out of 6 children, I am the most like her. By that I mean the meanest. It is only by the Grace of my Living LORD that I never caught a case for murder. Wrong me if you wanted to, you better prepare to die.
I can credit both my mother and grandfather for my sincere desire to protect myself and not ever let anyone get away with messing over me. When I was 8 years old my granddaddy took me out and taught me how to shoot a .22 rifle properly.
My grandfather was not a racist but he used the "n" word quite extensively because he was born in the south in 1894. As he taught me to shoot that day he reminded me again; "Dawthur don't you eva' let no sorry n**** mess ova' you. And don't nevah pull no gun on no n***** unless you plan to use it, and if you use it don't be playing, shoot tuh kill!"
I put the pieces together and understand better why my grandfather taught me to defend myself. He didn't want to tell me what happened to his little girl at eight years old but, he didn't want it to happen to me either. "Feisty" is what they called me. Some have called me masculine. Perhaps. I know one thing, with more people like me, we would have a lot fewer bullies in the world.
The truth is I am not mean. I'm just old, sick and tired of the wicked getting away with inflicting so much pain in the world. I'm tired of our children being misused and abused by parents that don't love them.
I am tired of the well heeled and powerful pretending that they don't hear and making sure you know that they don't care.
Here I sit, old, tired and too fat, running off at the mouth still trying to reach people, to teach people. " ... the arc of the moral universe is long but it bends toward justice." (Dr.MLK,Jr)
Stay in prayer children.
Rachel,
Copyright July 24, 2013 All rights reserved
Be confident!
"Being confident of this very thing, that He which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ." (Philippians 1:6)
Dear LORD thank you for renewing my confidence, for re-assuring me. Because I do get weary. I refuse to drag this albatross around on my back any longer. She is far worse than any canker sore, she is a malignant cancer. There is no cure for her, no relief, except through Jesus Christ.
Should I feel sorry for her because she is unteachable, unreachable? She is an abomination unto the LORD. Did she ever truly want Christ? Does she preach to be seen, to show off her fine clothes? Did she start preaching in an attempt to erase her wicked past? Did she falsely believe that her "preaching" would make people believe that she was indeed perfect, a woman of the GOD? She is mystifying and confusing, claiming to love a GOD that she secretly hates.
Poor Martha always proclaimed her love for us, for her father, very loudly. Yet she treated us miserably and forbade us to ever tell. Who taught Martha that you can do anything you want, intimidate your victims and get clean away? If Martha could ever hate her sin as much as she hates GOD's Truth maybe she can be saved.
Truthfully I feel very sorry for all of her little minions running around hopping and fetching at her slightest beck and call. All of them fighting to out do each other for just a smile, a hug or a false compliment from her. They refuse to look behind her mask. They will not snatch her robe off.
How can they heap the credit granddaddy deserves on her? They brag that they have forgiven her, that they will honor their mother. Not one remembers when she said "Please forgive me. I am sorry". They don't remember because she has never said it and never will.
The truth is they don't want to be out here with me, her outcast, the little black bastard that she abandoned again. Personally I thank her for finally setting me free.
Yes, there is still time. She is still living, unfortunately still lying, still wearing a beautiful mask in an attempt to hide her hideous ugly face. Lie after hateful lie will never change GOD's Truth, His WORD.
Children no one can conceal demonic hatred wrapped in insincere compliments and pass them off as evidence of love forever. The people you continue to "fool" are not deceived at all. I think they are just exhausted, tired, beleaguered and have just given up.
I will never give up. Knock me down again and again, I will get up and get in your face and tell you GOD's Truth. Beat me down to the ground again. Tell me how sorry and black I am, how no one loves me or will ever love me. Tell me I talk too much. Tell me that I am always running my mouth telling people your business. Keep laughing at my brothers, talking about them behind their backs. They will never know or believe me when I tell them.
Yes, I am the problem. I ruined the family with my fabricated ludicrous lies about you. Tell them that I am just mad because I wasn't born "yalla".
Dear LORD again I pray and I pray daily for the deliverance of my brothers and my family. Reach them LORD, touch their hearts with a finger of love and give them the courage to accept your Truth.
"And this I pray, that your love may abound yet more and more in knowledge and in all judgment: That ye may approve things that are excellent; that ye may be sincere an without offence till the day of Christ;" (Philippians 1: 9-10)
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 24, 2013 All rights reserved
Dear LORD thank you for renewing my confidence, for re-assuring me. Because I do get weary. I refuse to drag this albatross around on my back any longer. She is far worse than any canker sore, she is a malignant cancer. There is no cure for her, no relief, except through Jesus Christ.
Should I feel sorry for her because she is unteachable, unreachable? She is an abomination unto the LORD. Did she ever truly want Christ? Does she preach to be seen, to show off her fine clothes? Did she start preaching in an attempt to erase her wicked past? Did she falsely believe that her "preaching" would make people believe that she was indeed perfect, a woman of the GOD? She is mystifying and confusing, claiming to love a GOD that she secretly hates.
Poor Martha always proclaimed her love for us, for her father, very loudly. Yet she treated us miserably and forbade us to ever tell. Who taught Martha that you can do anything you want, intimidate your victims and get clean away? If Martha could ever hate her sin as much as she hates GOD's Truth maybe she can be saved.
Truthfully I feel very sorry for all of her little minions running around hopping and fetching at her slightest beck and call. All of them fighting to out do each other for just a smile, a hug or a false compliment from her. They refuse to look behind her mask. They will not snatch her robe off.
How can they heap the credit granddaddy deserves on her? They brag that they have forgiven her, that they will honor their mother. Not one remembers when she said "Please forgive me. I am sorry". They don't remember because she has never said it and never will.
The truth is they don't want to be out here with me, her outcast, the little black bastard that she abandoned again. Personally I thank her for finally setting me free.
Yes, there is still time. She is still living, unfortunately still lying, still wearing a beautiful mask in an attempt to hide her hideous ugly face. Lie after hateful lie will never change GOD's Truth, His WORD.
Children no one can conceal demonic hatred wrapped in insincere compliments and pass them off as evidence of love forever. The people you continue to "fool" are not deceived at all. I think they are just exhausted, tired, beleaguered and have just given up.
I will never give up. Knock me down again and again, I will get up and get in your face and tell you GOD's Truth. Beat me down to the ground again. Tell me how sorry and black I am, how no one loves me or will ever love me. Tell me I talk too much. Tell me that I am always running my mouth telling people your business. Keep laughing at my brothers, talking about them behind their backs. They will never know or believe me when I tell them.
Yes, I am the problem. I ruined the family with my fabricated ludicrous lies about you. Tell them that I am just mad because I wasn't born "yalla".
Dear LORD again I pray and I pray daily for the deliverance of my brothers and my family. Reach them LORD, touch their hearts with a finger of love and give them the courage to accept your Truth.
"And this I pray, that your love may abound yet more and more in knowledge and in all judgment: That ye may approve things that are excellent; that ye may be sincere an without offence till the day of Christ;" (Philippians 1: 9-10)
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 24, 2013 All rights reserved
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
"This is the day ...
the LORD hath made, rejoice and be glad in it." As my granddaddy would say; "Get up soon in the morning." Don't let your problems hold you down or keep you down.
GOD blessed us with such a beautiful earth, full of His beauty and splendor. We should never be so ungrateful that we refuse to see it. Get up early, take a walk, work in your garden, paint a picture, clean up your house, if you have a job, gladly go to work and do it to the utmost of your ability.
Now smile, radiate, beam with the love and glory that GOD has planted in you. Let the love of Jesus Christ ooze from every pore. Don't hate. Pray for GOD to take all ill feelings out of your heart. The best thing you can do for your enemies is to love them anyway. Pray for them.
I'm a born teacher. How do I know? My granddaddy told me so. He never told me wrong. He was a man in covenant with GOD just like Abraham. I love and cherish those days of walking his huge farm with him. Running behind the drag catching little short rides as he cropped his tobacco.
Like a good man he left and inheritance for his children. Unfortunately the world took them. They were too blind to see. Will I leave and inheritance for my daughter? Will I leave her acres of land, vineyards and orchards? I doubt it. I certainly will leave her my opinion, my thoughts and understanding.
She can use this blog to trace my grief and disappointment. She will learn that no amount of pleading will ever change anyone. It is only by the Grace of GOD that I have any understanding. His Grace delivered me from the strangle hold that demonic woman had on me. It was Almighty GOD that set me free.
Every day I get up and get on my knees and thank GOD for His tender mercies, for my beautiful brilliant daughter. Most of all I thank him for loving me and give me the knowledge and understanding to love others.
Enjoy this day children. Stay in His WORD. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing." And don't let any demon, any evil force keep you out of GOD's beautiful Kingdom.
May GOD's Grace,Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 23, 2013 All rights reserved
GOD blessed us with such a beautiful earth, full of His beauty and splendor. We should never be so ungrateful that we refuse to see it. Get up early, take a walk, work in your garden, paint a picture, clean up your house, if you have a job, gladly go to work and do it to the utmost of your ability.
Now smile, radiate, beam with the love and glory that GOD has planted in you. Let the love of Jesus Christ ooze from every pore. Don't hate. Pray for GOD to take all ill feelings out of your heart. The best thing you can do for your enemies is to love them anyway. Pray for them.
I'm a born teacher. How do I know? My granddaddy told me so. He never told me wrong. He was a man in covenant with GOD just like Abraham. I love and cherish those days of walking his huge farm with him. Running behind the drag catching little short rides as he cropped his tobacco.
Like a good man he left and inheritance for his children. Unfortunately the world took them. They were too blind to see. Will I leave and inheritance for my daughter? Will I leave her acres of land, vineyards and orchards? I doubt it. I certainly will leave her my opinion, my thoughts and understanding.
She can use this blog to trace my grief and disappointment. She will learn that no amount of pleading will ever change anyone. It is only by the Grace of GOD that I have any understanding. His Grace delivered me from the strangle hold that demonic woman had on me. It was Almighty GOD that set me free.
Every day I get up and get on my knees and thank GOD for His tender mercies, for my beautiful brilliant daughter. Most of all I thank him for loving me and give me the knowledge and understanding to love others.
Enjoy this day children. Stay in His WORD. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing." And don't let any demon, any evil force keep you out of GOD's beautiful Kingdom.
May GOD's Grace,Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright July 23, 2013 All rights reserved
Monday, July 22, 2013
"Ducking and Dodging"
I think the greatest pain and disappointment in the world is discovering that your "precious mother" is nothing but a lying, snake in the grass creep. When you finally accept the truth, there is no victory, no celebration. There is relief, GOD helps, soothes and heals you. You will get over it one day.
Unfortunately that person that has devoted her whole long life to playing head games, inflicting pain and robbing her children of their dreams, has to remain in the closet, ducking and dodging, hoping and praying she can die without be found out.
No, I don't know how a mind can become so corrupt and devious. I am sure I will never know how inflicting excruciating pain could ever be pleasurable to any one. Of course I would never smash a puppy, either. I am sure very few people on this earth would. Maybe I am not so sure. Remember Hitler and his Nazi regime. Over 6 million Jews were systematically exterminated in the most violent atrocious forms of torture ever imagined.
Hitler exterminated 6 million Jews and politely justified it in Mein Kampf. The Nazis and Hitler took millions of other lives as well. If you were considered to be inferior physically or mentally the Nazis played GOD and took your life. They killed the cripple, mentally infirm, Gypsies, homosexuals, people of color.
Did the world care? Finally. Will the world ever care about people like me? Will we ever know how many mothers like Martha Jane truly exist?
I found some quotes from Adolf Hitler that I feel compelled to share. "If you tell a big enough lie and tell it frequently enough, it will be believed." That is sure Martha's m.o. (modus operindi) That is what she has done to me for 62 years and very successfully I might add.
"If you win, you need not have to explain. If you lose, you should not be there to explain." What a coward! Do your dirt and run, duck and dodge. Make sure you are not around to face your accusers. Just be a foul filthy snake, then crawl away. Never apologize, never utter the words that you are sorry. Spew venom, curse your victims for finally knowing the truth.
"What luck for rulers that men do not think." Martha is a self styled ruler, a self proclaimed matriarch, surrounded by simple minions. Luckily for them they can't think. If it ever occurred to them that they have never been anything but her simple pawns, the truth would crush them.
I guess stupidity, duplicity and blindness can be a blessing. I also know that; "none but the righteous shall be saved."
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Unfortunately that person that has devoted her whole long life to playing head games, inflicting pain and robbing her children of their dreams, has to remain in the closet, ducking and dodging, hoping and praying she can die without be found out.
No, I don't know how a mind can become so corrupt and devious. I am sure I will never know how inflicting excruciating pain could ever be pleasurable to any one. Of course I would never smash a puppy, either. I am sure very few people on this earth would. Maybe I am not so sure. Remember Hitler and his Nazi regime. Over 6 million Jews were systematically exterminated in the most violent atrocious forms of torture ever imagined.
Hitler exterminated 6 million Jews and politely justified it in Mein Kampf. The Nazis and Hitler took millions of other lives as well. If you were considered to be inferior physically or mentally the Nazis played GOD and took your life. They killed the cripple, mentally infirm, Gypsies, homosexuals, people of color.
Did the world care? Finally. Will the world ever care about people like me? Will we ever know how many mothers like Martha Jane truly exist?
I found some quotes from Adolf Hitler that I feel compelled to share. "If you tell a big enough lie and tell it frequently enough, it will be believed." That is sure Martha's m.o. (modus operindi) That is what she has done to me for 62 years and very successfully I might add.
"If you win, you need not have to explain. If you lose, you should not be there to explain." What a coward! Do your dirt and run, duck and dodge. Make sure you are not around to face your accusers. Just be a foul filthy snake, then crawl away. Never apologize, never utter the words that you are sorry. Spew venom, curse your victims for finally knowing the truth.
"What luck for rulers that men do not think." Martha is a self styled ruler, a self proclaimed matriarch, surrounded by simple minions. Luckily for them they can't think. If it ever occurred to them that they have never been anything but her simple pawns, the truth would crush them.
I guess stupidity, duplicity and blindness can be a blessing. I also know that; "none but the righteous shall be saved."
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Sunday, July 21, 2013
Dear children,
Don't let any one mistreat you and make your life a living hell. Don't you dare suffer for some one else's so called mental illness. If they are diagnosed bipolar, malignant narcissistic, sociopath or psychopath and refuse to get help, tell them to lose your number.
Life is too wonderful and much too short to suffer with a lying fool. Kick that lying albatross to the curb.
A person can not love you and in turn do nothing but make you miserable. Be careful, they will be the first ones to tell you that Jesus said to forgive them seventy times seven. Don't forget Jesus also told you to shun the very presence of evil.
I would rather live in a cold dark cave all by myself forever than live with my wicked corrupt clamorous mother for one milisecond. Not only is she a "root working" witch, she is a fake preacher. "Be ye hot or cold"; dummy! "I will spew you out of my mouth!" Mathy you got spewed!
"Killed yo'own daddy!" Yea, I'm "shame" of you too. That was your undoing "heifa"! (heifer) You murdered my poor old 84 year old feeble granddaddy for no reason at all. You wanted his money! You stole his social security and VA checks for years. You are greedy and no count!
By the way, did I remind you that you are nasty, a nasty a** *'ho. Don't you cuss me out one more time. You know you nasty, you never had any restraint or discretion. Shame on you. You told me that when your mother was dying of cancer you promised the LORD that you would change if GOD let her live long enough to see you change. "And He did too! I changed."
No you didn't. But GOD told me to tell you the Good News! You can change. "Even in the last hour you can come into the Kingdom." (Jesus)
Aren't we blessed. We serve a GOD of second chances. We serve a GOD that sees all and knows all. Won't you come? Martha! Turn your back on all evil and proclaim the Living LORD as the head of your life! Tell Him that you were foolish, without knowledge and understanding. Tell GOD that you are sorry. Do something good and right for your entire family, for mankind, finally.
"GOD is moving by his Spirit ..."
Sincerely,
Your daughter Rachel
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Life is too wonderful and much too short to suffer with a lying fool. Kick that lying albatross to the curb.
A person can not love you and in turn do nothing but make you miserable. Be careful, they will be the first ones to tell you that Jesus said to forgive them seventy times seven. Don't forget Jesus also told you to shun the very presence of evil.
I would rather live in a cold dark cave all by myself forever than live with my wicked corrupt clamorous mother for one milisecond. Not only is she a "root working" witch, she is a fake preacher. "Be ye hot or cold"; dummy! "I will spew you out of my mouth!" Mathy you got spewed!
"Killed yo'own daddy!" Yea, I'm "shame" of you too. That was your undoing "heifa"! (heifer) You murdered my poor old 84 year old feeble granddaddy for no reason at all. You wanted his money! You stole his social security and VA checks for years. You are greedy and no count!
By the way, did I remind you that you are nasty, a nasty a** *'ho. Don't you cuss me out one more time. You know you nasty, you never had any restraint or discretion. Shame on you. You told me that when your mother was dying of cancer you promised the LORD that you would change if GOD let her live long enough to see you change. "And He did too! I changed."
No you didn't. But GOD told me to tell you the Good News! You can change. "Even in the last hour you can come into the Kingdom." (Jesus)
Aren't we blessed. We serve a GOD of second chances. We serve a GOD that sees all and knows all. Won't you come? Martha! Turn your back on all evil and proclaim the Living LORD as the head of your life! Tell Him that you were foolish, without knowledge and understanding. Tell GOD that you are sorry. Do something good and right for your entire family, for mankind, finally.
"GOD is moving by his Spirit ..."
Sincerely,
Your daughter Rachel
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I said ...
"Thank you LORD for speaking to my heart." I also said ; "LORD why have I been in perennial pain for my entire life? Why is Martha Jane Walters my mother? GOD directed me to the book of Ecclesiastes written by King Solomon.
"I have seen all the works that are done under the sun; and, behold, all is vanity and vexation of spirit." (Ecclesiastes 1:14)
"That which is crooked cannot be made straight: and that which is wanting cannot be numbered." (Ecclesiastes 1:15)
"For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow." ( Ecclesiastes 1:18) I said Amen! Praise the LORD!
May the Dear LORD add a blessing to the reading of His WORD.
May you be abundantly blessed for seeking GOD's Truth,
Rachel
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"I have seen all the works that are done under the sun; and, behold, all is vanity and vexation of spirit." (Ecclesiastes 1:14)
"That which is crooked cannot be made straight: and that which is wanting cannot be numbered." (Ecclesiastes 1:15)
"For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow." ( Ecclesiastes 1:18) I said Amen! Praise the LORD!
May the Dear LORD add a blessing to the reading of His WORD.
May you be abundantly blessed for seeking GOD's Truth,
Rachel
Copyright 2013 All rights reserved
Clean up around your own house ...
Sweep around your own front door. Clean up your yard, cut your grass. I refuse to be part and parcel of a bunch of whining lying hypocrites.
Yes, I love Trayvon Martin. He was a good boy and he could have been my son. He was minding his own business and George Zimmerman had no business following him. But, George Zimmerman was paranoid, a paranoia feed by the media, perhaps "rap music" and the disgusting visual images he viewed daily.
Was he prejudice? Did he pre-judge that young man? Certainly. "Vengeance is mine sayeth the LORD, I shall repay." If George Zimmerman is guilty of malice murder, GOD will get him.
I will not march, I will not burn another candle for any "racial" cause. I will not remain duped and easily led hating any one for the color of their skin. I refuse to blame others for the plight of the black community. How can I? I know first hand that one woman did deliberately and single handed destroy my whole family.
She personally pinned all of our problems on evil racist whites. My whole life I grew up listening to her blame all her problems and lack of progress on racism. No racist pried her legs open and made her bring illegitimate children that she secretly hated and tried desperately to covertly destroy into this world.
One of my brothers was appointed to West Point in 1969 and she, his own mother talked him out of going. Four out of six of us earned college degrees with absolutely no help from her. My brother earned a medical degree. No one in my family ever gave him a single cent. He was never anything but too black, nose too broad and niggerish all his life. My mother tortured that boy, just like she did all of us.
He had the first "black" medical practice on Owen Drive in Fayetteville, NC. He had a thriving practice and was the first doctor to introduce his patients to acupuncture in the 1970's. What did my mother do? The first thing she demanded was a Cadillac, a mink coat and a brick house. She didn't care that he was just starting out, that he still had student loans to repay.
It is very confusing when your own mother does nothing but try to destroy and sabotage you for your entire life. It is demoralizing. But thanks to my mother I learned quickly to think critically, to observe keenly. I learned independence and self-sufficiency.
Lonely and defeated I turned to GOD. I read and study my Bible everyday. I will not hate anyone at her behest. I will look well to my going. I will teach our children that we are under a covenant from GOD. I will tell my sons and daughters to not fornicate and bring children into the world to dump on their poor parents. I will tell my children to Live Right! Plant Jesus in your heart, don't be satisfied with Him just on your lips. "Love ye one another as I have loved you!"
I will not join in the blame game. And I will not let horrible hopeless whores continue to plague our communities, unidentified, unnoticed. I will not pretend that people that are suffering have no culpability.
What is my point? No matter your color, ethnicity, age or up bringing, take responsibility for your own actions. Don't be so quick to jump on every one's band wagon. People do have private agendas.
My mother has cast me as evil, selfish, thieving and ungrateful to my entire family. Few in my family have the courage to have anything to do with me. I have learned to accept my plight. I am indeed motherless. But, GOD is my Father. He loves me. He saved me! He gave me eyes to see and ears to hear. He delivered me from a woman that is diabolically evil. I know it is not caused by her pigmentation.
She is evil because she made it her choice. The devil deceived her, convinced her that she could get away with the lowest commonest life on earth if some one gave her a title, a license to preach.
I love the LORD and I love ALL of His children.
Caution, before you blame racism and evil racists for all your problems, sweep around your own front door.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright 2013 All rights reserved
Yes, I love Trayvon Martin. He was a good boy and he could have been my son. He was minding his own business and George Zimmerman had no business following him. But, George Zimmerman was paranoid, a paranoia feed by the media, perhaps "rap music" and the disgusting visual images he viewed daily.
Was he prejudice? Did he pre-judge that young man? Certainly. "Vengeance is mine sayeth the LORD, I shall repay." If George Zimmerman is guilty of malice murder, GOD will get him.
I will not march, I will not burn another candle for any "racial" cause. I will not remain duped and easily led hating any one for the color of their skin. I refuse to blame others for the plight of the black community. How can I? I know first hand that one woman did deliberately and single handed destroy my whole family.
She personally pinned all of our problems on evil racist whites. My whole life I grew up listening to her blame all her problems and lack of progress on racism. No racist pried her legs open and made her bring illegitimate children that she secretly hated and tried desperately to covertly destroy into this world.
One of my brothers was appointed to West Point in 1969 and she, his own mother talked him out of going. Four out of six of us earned college degrees with absolutely no help from her. My brother earned a medical degree. No one in my family ever gave him a single cent. He was never anything but too black, nose too broad and niggerish all his life. My mother tortured that boy, just like she did all of us.
He had the first "black" medical practice on Owen Drive in Fayetteville, NC. He had a thriving practice and was the first doctor to introduce his patients to acupuncture in the 1970's. What did my mother do? The first thing she demanded was a Cadillac, a mink coat and a brick house. She didn't care that he was just starting out, that he still had student loans to repay.
It is very confusing when your own mother does nothing but try to destroy and sabotage you for your entire life. It is demoralizing. But thanks to my mother I learned quickly to think critically, to observe keenly. I learned independence and self-sufficiency.
Lonely and defeated I turned to GOD. I read and study my Bible everyday. I will not hate anyone at her behest. I will look well to my going. I will teach our children that we are under a covenant from GOD. I will tell my sons and daughters to not fornicate and bring children into the world to dump on their poor parents. I will tell my children to Live Right! Plant Jesus in your heart, don't be satisfied with Him just on your lips. "Love ye one another as I have loved you!"
I will not join in the blame game. And I will not let horrible hopeless whores continue to plague our communities, unidentified, unnoticed. I will not pretend that people that are suffering have no culpability.
What is my point? No matter your color, ethnicity, age or up bringing, take responsibility for your own actions. Don't be so quick to jump on every one's band wagon. People do have private agendas.
My mother has cast me as evil, selfish, thieving and ungrateful to my entire family. Few in my family have the courage to have anything to do with me. I have learned to accept my plight. I am indeed motherless. But, GOD is my Father. He loves me. He saved me! He gave me eyes to see and ears to hear. He delivered me from a woman that is diabolically evil. I know it is not caused by her pigmentation.
She is evil because she made it her choice. The devil deceived her, convinced her that she could get away with the lowest commonest life on earth if some one gave her a title, a license to preach.
I love the LORD and I love ALL of His children.
Caution, before you blame racism and evil racists for all your problems, sweep around your own front door.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright 2013 All rights reserved
Saturday, July 20, 2013
Simply Red - Holding Back The Years
I love this song, in some ways it sums up my life. Here I am a 62 year old, still a toddler, still a little girl waiting on the mother that abandoned me to come back and finally love me. It is never going to happen. "There is none so blind as she who refuses to see." So, I'll keep holding on, still knowing that the worse liar in the world is the liar that lies to herself.
So I came into the world pre-hated and unwelcome. To this day my mother is not quite sure who my real father is. But she hates me! She still hates the men that refused to marry her or could not marry her. No, it is not that she could not get a husband. She married many times legally and illegally, over and over. Poor Martha is a very old woman that still refuses to know GOD's truth and refuses to let you tell her. Tell her if you dare and she will rain down curses of thunder and lightening. She will beat you and strip you naked. You will live in fear pretending that you don't know. She is so terrifying and abusive that you are willing to go to hell with her.
You don't dare remember all of those terrible sins she successfully committed against you. You scream aloud; "Where was GOD!? GOD why did you let her do that!? Where were YOU!?"
Little children, GOD was there. He promised to be with you always. What you don't know is that it would have been far worse for you without GOD holding you in the palm of His hand.
You don't have to live in shame. You no longer have to suffer in silence. Rebuke that devil! Study the book of Revelation. "...These are they which came out of great tribulation, and have washed their robes, and made them white in the blood of the Lamb." Revelation 7:14
That's me!; I cried. I certainly came out of great tribulation. Severely sexually, physically and psychologically abused by my own mother and her men. Stalked and hunted by a slut from the lowest rungs of hell for my entire life.
My beautiful testimony is that I don't cry any more. That malignant narcissistic psychopath can't squeze any more tears out of me. I refuse to be part of her narcissistic supply. " ... and GOD shall wipe away all tears from their eyes." Revelation 7: 17b (Study the book of Revelation. Pay close attention to chapter 7)
Stay in His WORD children.
Rachel,
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So I came into the world pre-hated and unwelcome. To this day my mother is not quite sure who my real father is. But she hates me! She still hates the men that refused to marry her or could not marry her. No, it is not that she could not get a husband. She married many times legally and illegally, over and over. Poor Martha is a very old woman that still refuses to know GOD's truth and refuses to let you tell her. Tell her if you dare and she will rain down curses of thunder and lightening. She will beat you and strip you naked. You will live in fear pretending that you don't know. She is so terrifying and abusive that you are willing to go to hell with her.
You don't dare remember all of those terrible sins she successfully committed against you. You scream aloud; "Where was GOD!? GOD why did you let her do that!? Where were YOU!?"
Little children, GOD was there. He promised to be with you always. What you don't know is that it would have been far worse for you without GOD holding you in the palm of His hand.
You don't have to live in shame. You no longer have to suffer in silence. Rebuke that devil! Study the book of Revelation. "...These are they which came out of great tribulation, and have washed their robes, and made them white in the blood of the Lamb." Revelation 7:14
That's me!; I cried. I certainly came out of great tribulation. Severely sexually, physically and psychologically abused by my own mother and her men. Stalked and hunted by a slut from the lowest rungs of hell for my entire life.
My beautiful testimony is that I don't cry any more. That malignant narcissistic psychopath can't squeze any more tears out of me. I refuse to be part of her narcissistic supply. " ... and GOD shall wipe away all tears from their eyes." Revelation 7: 17b (Study the book of Revelation. Pay close attention to chapter 7)
Stay in His WORD children.
Rachel,
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"Spare the rod, ...
spoil the child." Very good advice repeated by many. What does it mean? It certainly does not mean take a stick and beat the living hell out of your child. The "rod" is knowledge, teach your child. Teach them GOD's precepts, His laws. Tell them about the covenant with GOD they are under.
GOD warned us about this generation of vipers to come. Believe me, they are here. But, all is not lost. We can still be saved from ourselves.
Parents, sit down with your children and study the Bible. It is rather ironic. As wicked as my mother is, she always made us study the Bible. We were required to memorize a Bible verse weekly and repeat it on Sunday morning as we sat around the breakfast table with our grits getting cold, hard and stiff.
I loved it. I would show off by memorizing the longest verse I could find. I had one brother that was a bully. "Jesus wept" was his verse and we were all forbidden to take his verse.
Children, if you don't keep that covenant with GOD you will be cursed. It is a generational curse but it can be broken. Parents you can explain GOD's commandments without frustration. You can teach with kind words.
If you love your child and you see they are making very bad decisions, tell them. Don't enable your child. If you have uneducated, unskilled children making baby after baby out of wedlock. You have a selfish uncaring child. They are not concerned with the economic hardship they are putting on you and they can not care less about what they are doing to those fatherless children.
Pastors, preach the WORD. If some one gets offended and stops attending your church, so what? Trust GOD, He will send you some members.
"Lets go back to the old landmark." Let's go back to the WORD that got us here. A very shocking historical fact is blacks did better economically under blatant Jim Crow racism in this country than now. Emerging from the shadows of slavery that first generation of freemen acquired land, houses and businesses. It's rather sad but it was when the government started helping us that we began losing.
Real teachers of the WORD expired or were taken from us. Our children became wayward and disrespectful. Too many of us decided that it was better to suffer in silence than experience the rebuke these vipers were sure to rain down on our heads.
I say take your lumps and tell these children the truth. "Stop writing all over yourself!(tattoos) You are going to regret it. You don't know what is in that ink." "Flee fornication. If you can't flee fornication, then marry."
Just a WORD. Encourage your children with GOD's WORD, warn them when they are headed down the wrong path. Too many of us talk about our children while failing to even try to reach them. Is it their fault that there is nothing but filth on television? Did they sell out the real role models for filthy lucre?
Parents, teacher, coaches, please remind our children to look well to their going, their coming out and going in.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember:"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceeding proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright 2013 All rights reserved
GOD warned us about this generation of vipers to come. Believe me, they are here. But, all is not lost. We can still be saved from ourselves.
Parents, sit down with your children and study the Bible. It is rather ironic. As wicked as my mother is, she always made us study the Bible. We were required to memorize a Bible verse weekly and repeat it on Sunday morning as we sat around the breakfast table with our grits getting cold, hard and stiff.
I loved it. I would show off by memorizing the longest verse I could find. I had one brother that was a bully. "Jesus wept" was his verse and we were all forbidden to take his verse.
Children, if you don't keep that covenant with GOD you will be cursed. It is a generational curse but it can be broken. Parents you can explain GOD's commandments without frustration. You can teach with kind words.
If you love your child and you see they are making very bad decisions, tell them. Don't enable your child. If you have uneducated, unskilled children making baby after baby out of wedlock. You have a selfish uncaring child. They are not concerned with the economic hardship they are putting on you and they can not care less about what they are doing to those fatherless children.
Pastors, preach the WORD. If some one gets offended and stops attending your church, so what? Trust GOD, He will send you some members.
"Lets go back to the old landmark." Let's go back to the WORD that got us here. A very shocking historical fact is blacks did better economically under blatant Jim Crow racism in this country than now. Emerging from the shadows of slavery that first generation of freemen acquired land, houses and businesses. It's rather sad but it was when the government started helping us that we began losing.
Real teachers of the WORD expired or were taken from us. Our children became wayward and disrespectful. Too many of us decided that it was better to suffer in silence than experience the rebuke these vipers were sure to rain down on our heads.
I say take your lumps and tell these children the truth. "Stop writing all over yourself!(tattoos) You are going to regret it. You don't know what is in that ink." "Flee fornication. If you can't flee fornication, then marry."
Just a WORD. Encourage your children with GOD's WORD, warn them when they are headed down the wrong path. Too many of us talk about our children while failing to even try to reach them. Is it their fault that there is nothing but filth on television? Did they sell out the real role models for filthy lucre?
Parents, teacher, coaches, please remind our children to look well to their going, their coming out and going in.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember:"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceeding proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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Friday, July 19, 2013
Martha ...
stumbled upon a very devious plan. No, she never thought of it on her own. satan designed that plan and handed it right to her. As sick and as wicked as she is, she never intended to live the awful life she lived.
She is ashamed that she lived it and I am ashamed to tell it. But, I must tell it. If my testimony saves just one person from the awful torturous life I was forced to live my life will not have been lived in vain.
When GOD tells us that we can not live double minded, serving two masters, you will hate the one and love the other, don't minimize that scripture.
That's what happened to Martha. She just knew that she was so smart. She falsely believed that she could and would always get away with the worse crimes against mankind because satan convinced her she could. You better be careful. You can be fooled just as easily. No one ever said that satan was any kind of dummy.
Be careful of what you say and what you believe in.
When you men demand a woman that is a cook in the kitchen and a freak in the sheets, that is what you get, a freak. A freak of nature, someone with out natural affection.
One thing for sure lies will never take your troubles away. You can refuse to face the truth if you want to, you will remain "unfixable". If GOD's Truth and laws send you running and screaming, lying and scheming, you just better go ahead and get used to hell.
The devil will make you shame. he will you robe you of the good life GOD intended for you. When people finally realize what a sick demented person you always were, they will hate you.
Dear children, if you have good parents, a good father, please listen. Maybe you never had a father in evidence, don't forget your Heavenly Father. Go to Him! Read and study those Prophetic WORDS in the Bible.
Be abundantly blessed today.
Rachel,
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She is ashamed that she lived it and I am ashamed to tell it. But, I must tell it. If my testimony saves just one person from the awful torturous life I was forced to live my life will not have been lived in vain.
When GOD tells us that we can not live double minded, serving two masters, you will hate the one and love the other, don't minimize that scripture.
That's what happened to Martha. She just knew that she was so smart. She falsely believed that she could and would always get away with the worse crimes against mankind because satan convinced her she could. You better be careful. You can be fooled just as easily. No one ever said that satan was any kind of dummy.
Be careful of what you say and what you believe in.
When you men demand a woman that is a cook in the kitchen and a freak in the sheets, that is what you get, a freak. A freak of nature, someone with out natural affection.
One thing for sure lies will never take your troubles away. You can refuse to face the truth if you want to, you will remain "unfixable". If GOD's Truth and laws send you running and screaming, lying and scheming, you just better go ahead and get used to hell.
The devil will make you shame. he will you robe you of the good life GOD intended for you. When people finally realize what a sick demented person you always were, they will hate you.
Dear children, if you have good parents, a good father, please listen. Maybe you never had a father in evidence, don't forget your Heavenly Father. Go to Him! Read and study those Prophetic WORDS in the Bible.
Be abundantly blessed today.
Rachel,
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Be very careful ...
on your journey here children. Don't assume you are just precious and wanted, loved and admired simply for being born. Don't you dare think that you are never going to suffer. Jesus suffered for you and you will suffer for Him if you love Him.
GOD is not going to re-write or modify His WORD for you. As painful as it is every word of GOD's prophesy is True!
I was once certain that I was alone in my anguish. I must say that I once was totally convinced of my superior intelligence. I cherished my very high IQ score, always being placed in gifted classes and graduating from college with honors, earning two graduate school fellowships.
I never earned that Ph.D I always wanted, never published that best selling book. What went wrong? Life! Life and a very vicious, corrupt hate filled maniacal monster. She did everything she could to destroy me, to destroy us, before we could read the Bible. She played Bible toting, Bible quoting "Christian" to the hilt. That woman messed us up. One minute loving and nurturing, then a horror from hell for the rest of the day. When she told us that she didn't want us and hated the day she had us she sure meant it.
The truth is Martha only has one problem, she hates GOD. A true demonic imp, there is no help for her. I lament the lost lives, the tremendous talent destroyed. If my brothers ever intend to be free, they are going to have to do what I did, pray.
Pray for those that would spitefully use you. Pray for any and all creatures on this earth that would stoop low enough to harm a child or an elderly person.
GOD helped me to climb out of that ditch that whore from the bowels of hell forced me to "live" in. My deep love and passion for the LORD Jesus Christ compels me to tell the Truth, to rescue my brothers.
They do have a choice. "Choose ye this day whom ye shall serve." You know all that slobbering, bragging and praising is just as phony as she is.
You keep saying I hate her. Sure I hated her. But, I don't hate her any more. She is not worth hating. She is frustrating because I know my words will never reach her. Any woman foolish enough to carry out a secret clandestine war against GOD for 88 years is not your friend. Wearing a clerical robe does not make her a woman of GOD. Preaching and quoting the Bible makes her the greatest hypocrite and the biggest fool on earth, the greatest LIAR that ever lived!
(Don't be afraid but steer clear.)
She is a nasty disgusting thing and I wipe the bottom of my feet of her stench. Jesus said;"If you enter in and they receive you not, shake the dust off your feet."
I once asked her in this blog what did she get? What was her reward for 88 years of lying, conjure, pedophilia, and MURDER? Nothing but a shameful disgusting life that she is too cowardly to claim.
Now I am asking you, what do you get? What do you get for defending, cloaking, loving and lying for such a female? You can no longer pretend that you don't know, that you are clueless. In my research I discovered a term called "Golden Child". These narcissistic mothers pit their children against each other. I was made the "Scape Goat". Every mistake she made was my fault. I had to absorb all of the vulgar cursing. I was forced to drag her dead disgusting schemes and scams around on my back until I finally got feed up and "knew the Truth!". The Golden Child was bragged on and lauded. She even called him her Black Prince. I am sorry to see that he is too dense to know, too crippled to recognize how she utterly destroyed him.
The greatest GOD blessed thing this evil troll every did was force us to attend church and Sunday school every Sunday. I learned Nothing, No One, can ever destroy GOD's purpose or plan.
Be abundantly blessed today. Pray for strength and wisdom, understanding and GOD's Grace.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn(the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright 2013 All rights reserved
GOD is not going to re-write or modify His WORD for you. As painful as it is every word of GOD's prophesy is True!
I was once certain that I was alone in my anguish. I must say that I once was totally convinced of my superior intelligence. I cherished my very high IQ score, always being placed in gifted classes and graduating from college with honors, earning two graduate school fellowships.
I never earned that Ph.D I always wanted, never published that best selling book. What went wrong? Life! Life and a very vicious, corrupt hate filled maniacal monster. She did everything she could to destroy me, to destroy us, before we could read the Bible. She played Bible toting, Bible quoting "Christian" to the hilt. That woman messed us up. One minute loving and nurturing, then a horror from hell for the rest of the day. When she told us that she didn't want us and hated the day she had us she sure meant it.
The truth is Martha only has one problem, she hates GOD. A true demonic imp, there is no help for her. I lament the lost lives, the tremendous talent destroyed. If my brothers ever intend to be free, they are going to have to do what I did, pray.
Pray for those that would spitefully use you. Pray for any and all creatures on this earth that would stoop low enough to harm a child or an elderly person.
GOD helped me to climb out of that ditch that whore from the bowels of hell forced me to "live" in. My deep love and passion for the LORD Jesus Christ compels me to tell the Truth, to rescue my brothers.
They do have a choice. "Choose ye this day whom ye shall serve." You know all that slobbering, bragging and praising is just as phony as she is.
You keep saying I hate her. Sure I hated her. But, I don't hate her any more. She is not worth hating. She is frustrating because I know my words will never reach her. Any woman foolish enough to carry out a secret clandestine war against GOD for 88 years is not your friend. Wearing a clerical robe does not make her a woman of GOD. Preaching and quoting the Bible makes her the greatest hypocrite and the biggest fool on earth, the greatest LIAR that ever lived!
(Don't be afraid but steer clear.)
She is a nasty disgusting thing and I wipe the bottom of my feet of her stench. Jesus said;"If you enter in and they receive you not, shake the dust off your feet."
I once asked her in this blog what did she get? What was her reward for 88 years of lying, conjure, pedophilia, and MURDER? Nothing but a shameful disgusting life that she is too cowardly to claim.
Now I am asking you, what do you get? What do you get for defending, cloaking, loving and lying for such a female? You can no longer pretend that you don't know, that you are clueless. In my research I discovered a term called "Golden Child". These narcissistic mothers pit their children against each other. I was made the "Scape Goat". Every mistake she made was my fault. I had to absorb all of the vulgar cursing. I was forced to drag her dead disgusting schemes and scams around on my back until I finally got feed up and "knew the Truth!". The Golden Child was bragged on and lauded. She even called him her Black Prince. I am sorry to see that he is too dense to know, too crippled to recognize how she utterly destroyed him.
The greatest GOD blessed thing this evil troll every did was force us to attend church and Sunday school every Sunday. I learned Nothing, No One, can ever destroy GOD's purpose or plan.
Be abundantly blessed today. Pray for strength and wisdom, understanding and GOD's Grace.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn(the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright 2013 All rights reserved
Thursday, July 18, 2013
"Finally, brethren, ...
whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, if there be any praise, think on these things." Philippians 4:8
Praise the LORD for His WORD. It is a very hot day here in Georgia. The gnats and mosquitoes are competing to see which species can vex me the most. Strangely it made me laugh, made me think about fishing with my granddaddy, catching little "brims". I loved the little ones fried in my granddaddy's black iron skillet. We didn't believe in a weight limit. If it was big enough to eat your bait, it was big enough to fry.
The strange thing is I don't like fish as a food at all. I only ate the fish to cure the hunger. I don't like fishing. I never did. What I did love was spending time with my granddaddy. I loved listening to his stories. I learned a lot about life just watching him.
My grandfather grew his own worms, red wigglers. He is the only man I ever knew to have a worm farm. Granddaddy was truly self-sufficient. He grew his own food, canned his vegetables and fruit, smoked his own meat. He even made his own soap.
He was never in debt. "If you want something, save your money and pay cash for it. Debt ain't nuttin' but slavery, dawthur."
I'm smiling, thinking on the good things.
Be blessed.
Praise the LORD for His WORD. It is a very hot day here in Georgia. The gnats and mosquitoes are competing to see which species can vex me the most. Strangely it made me laugh, made me think about fishing with my granddaddy, catching little "brims". I loved the little ones fried in my granddaddy's black iron skillet. We didn't believe in a weight limit. If it was big enough to eat your bait, it was big enough to fry.
The strange thing is I don't like fish as a food at all. I only ate the fish to cure the hunger. I don't like fishing. I never did. What I did love was spending time with my granddaddy. I loved listening to his stories. I learned a lot about life just watching him.
My grandfather grew his own worms, red wigglers. He is the only man I ever knew to have a worm farm. Granddaddy was truly self-sufficient. He grew his own food, canned his vegetables and fruit, smoked his own meat. He even made his own soap.
He was never in debt. "If you want something, save your money and pay cash for it. Debt ain't nuttin' but slavery, dawthur."
I'm smiling, thinking on the good things.
Be blessed.
Come And Get Your Love Redbone 1974
I thank GOD for good music, the ability and desire to dance. If everyone wants to be happy, why are so many of us so sad? Because there are too many foolish people that truly believe causing you excruciating pain makes them feel better about their low lives. Low common lives that they refuse to take any responsibility for. You can't do anything for a fool but shun them. Don't ignore them. Don't pretend that they don't exist. Keep them out of your life, out of your business, out of your pocket. Open your eyes, see them for what they are and go "No Contact".
Don't worry, they can't care. They won't even miss you. They will find some other vulnerable fool to take up your slack. GOD did not make a mistake. They did. GOD said that He created all vessels. He created some for good, some for bad. Trust GOD, put your faith in His plan. It is all in Divine Order.
Don't worry, they can't care. They won't even miss you. They will find some other vulnerable fool to take up your slack. GOD did not make a mistake. They did. GOD said that He created all vessels. He created some for good, some for bad. Trust GOD, put your faith in His plan. It is all in Divine Order.
Get up! ...
and get on your knees. Say thank you to your Heavenly Father. Have some manners. Now, ask Him for wisdom, ask Him to lead and guide you, to protect you and keep you from the evil forces that are crawling on this earth.
Serve Him! Put GOD first, everything else will line up. " Come ye out from among them." You can be in the world without being of the world. Don't you tell another lie. Study your Bible, live right. Teach the children by example.
Dear LORD thank you so much for blessing me. Thank you for eyes that see. Thank you for your vision.
Children I'm so glad about it. I'm glad Jerome Walters prayed for me. I'm glad that he was instrumental in my life. I thank the LORD for the awesome wisdom GOD anointed my grandfather with. I am elated because my life is in Divine Order. Yes, I am on medication. I thank GOD for it. I take meds for the pain, to prevent me from collapsing, breaking down and gushing tears every five minutes.
It''s cool. One day I won't have to take any medication. One day the wicked will cease from troubling. I readily admit that I am on medication. I have also observed that a lot of people need them and unfortunately the people that need them the most refuse to take them.
I have vowed, if you have mental issues and refuse to get help, I will not associate with you. Life is too short to be burdened down with you. Get help or get out of my way.
I am glad I majored in History and always read voraciously. Man is cruel. When people tell you that they are about to go Medieval on you , you are about to receive some slow torture. The rack, de-boweling slowly, thumb screws, etc. Don't forget this time period was also called the "Dark Ages". People were seriously ignorant and superstitious. Mob mentality ruled.
But when you think about it, when has man every been intelligent or enlightened? Certainly, during the Renaissance. But the Renaissance enlightened thinkers in no way represented the masses. My grandfather used to tell me that the world was in "bad shape".
We are still in "bad shape", still ignorant. Just as blind and deaf as Adam and Eve. My poor mother still thinks the ability to lie, con and manipulate is a sign of intelligence. Most still fear her, unable to see that she has about as much power as a piss ant.
Finally, pray for Man, pray for our fallen world, in the Mighty name of Jesus I pray.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn(the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright 2013 All rights reserved
Serve Him! Put GOD first, everything else will line up. " Come ye out from among them." You can be in the world without being of the world. Don't you tell another lie. Study your Bible, live right. Teach the children by example.
Dear LORD thank you so much for blessing me. Thank you for eyes that see. Thank you for your vision.
Children I'm so glad about it. I'm glad Jerome Walters prayed for me. I'm glad that he was instrumental in my life. I thank the LORD for the awesome wisdom GOD anointed my grandfather with. I am elated because my life is in Divine Order. Yes, I am on medication. I thank GOD for it. I take meds for the pain, to prevent me from collapsing, breaking down and gushing tears every five minutes.
It''s cool. One day I won't have to take any medication. One day the wicked will cease from troubling. I readily admit that I am on medication. I have also observed that a lot of people need them and unfortunately the people that need them the most refuse to take them.
I have vowed, if you have mental issues and refuse to get help, I will not associate with you. Life is too short to be burdened down with you. Get help or get out of my way.
I am glad I majored in History and always read voraciously. Man is cruel. When people tell you that they are about to go Medieval on you , you are about to receive some slow torture. The rack, de-boweling slowly, thumb screws, etc. Don't forget this time period was also called the "Dark Ages". People were seriously ignorant and superstitious. Mob mentality ruled.
But when you think about it, when has man every been intelligent or enlightened? Certainly, during the Renaissance. But the Renaissance enlightened thinkers in no way represented the masses. My grandfather used to tell me that the world was in "bad shape".
We are still in "bad shape", still ignorant. Just as blind and deaf as Adam and Eve. My poor mother still thinks the ability to lie, con and manipulate is a sign of intelligence. Most still fear her, unable to see that she has about as much power as a piss ant.
Finally, pray for Man, pray for our fallen world, in the Mighty name of Jesus I pray.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn(the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright 2013 All rights reserved
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
Children, never be ...
ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Have no fear, let His Spirit live in you, through you. "Gird up your loins." In other words toughen up, develop a thick skin. They will gather to disparage your name. No one will speak up for you. They will all laugh together and spew their hateful venom against you.
They will not know or understand until it happens to them. Right now they are so pleased with her token gifts, a Coach bag or a Michael Kors purse. Don't blame them. They have been down so long they don't realize life could be better. The poor little misguided children think the crumbs she makes them beg for are the best they could ever hope for.
Perhaps one day they will finally read the Bible and pray for understanding. Maybe at least some of them will be saved.
You do have a choice, it is called "Free Will". Key word is Will. What are you willing to do for Christ? You are on your knees every day begging GOD to do something for you. You want healing in your body. You pray for a financial blessing, the perfect spouse, fame and fortune. But what are you Willing to do for Christ?
Will you ever tell, ever agree that one of the most notorious, commonest woman that ever lived, you know? Will you tell how she tried to ruin you? Or will you go to hell with her, lying and cloaking trying to make out that she was more than she was? Will you keep your secret because the truth is inconvenient?
Will you ever exam your many deep scars and trace them back to her? Will you continue to let her rob a good GOD fearing man of his good name? A man that feed and clothed you, the man that you know saved your life.
Do what you will. " As for me and my house, we will serve the LORD!"
Rachel,
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They will not know or understand until it happens to them. Right now they are so pleased with her token gifts, a Coach bag or a Michael Kors purse. Don't blame them. They have been down so long they don't realize life could be better. The poor little misguided children think the crumbs she makes them beg for are the best they could ever hope for.
Perhaps one day they will finally read the Bible and pray for understanding. Maybe at least some of them will be saved.
You do have a choice, it is called "Free Will". Key word is Will. What are you willing to do for Christ? You are on your knees every day begging GOD to do something for you. You want healing in your body. You pray for a financial blessing, the perfect spouse, fame and fortune. But what are you Willing to do for Christ?
Will you ever tell, ever agree that one of the most notorious, commonest woman that ever lived, you know? Will you tell how she tried to ruin you? Or will you go to hell with her, lying and cloaking trying to make out that she was more than she was? Will you keep your secret because the truth is inconvenient?
Will you ever exam your many deep scars and trace them back to her? Will you continue to let her rob a good GOD fearing man of his good name? A man that feed and clothed you, the man that you know saved your life.
Do what you will. " As for me and my house, we will serve the LORD!"
Rachel,
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What does the book say!?
I know you got away with the greatest flim-flam, a brilliant con game for 88 years. But, what does the Book say!? You fooled them all, but one or two. But, you never fooled GOD for one nano-second. You said you didn't care, couldn't care. You lied, you cared. The low self-esteem and repulsion you assigned to yourself made you burn with ridiculous envy, insane jealousy.
You can't get to the True and Living GOD lying! Just how long do you plan to live the life of a total nit-wit?
You can't pin nothing, none of your filth on your daughter. She certainly could not turn out to be the promiscuous whore you were after being savagely sexually abused by you and your husband. Yes, it was your plan, Not GOD's plan.
No, the world may not know, your friends and relatives can keep saying "No!", your church refuses to say yea or nay. You Know!
What does the Book say!? You know the Bible. You are an expert whore and liar. You steal sermons and prayers and pretend like GOD gave them to you. You entertain the simple. But, what does that Book say!?
You better run sinner! Find a rock, a boulder, a mountain, find some where to hide. You know there is nothing, no one that can protect you from the wrath to come.
Praise the LORD! Thank You Jesus!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright 2013 All rights reserved
You can't get to the True and Living GOD lying! Just how long do you plan to live the life of a total nit-wit?
You can't pin nothing, none of your filth on your daughter. She certainly could not turn out to be the promiscuous whore you were after being savagely sexually abused by you and your husband. Yes, it was your plan, Not GOD's plan.
No, the world may not know, your friends and relatives can keep saying "No!", your church refuses to say yea or nay. You Know!
What does the Book say!? You know the Bible. You are an expert whore and liar. You steal sermons and prayers and pretend like GOD gave them to you. You entertain the simple. But, what does that Book say!?
You better run sinner! Find a rock, a boulder, a mountain, find some where to hide. You know there is nothing, no one that can protect you from the wrath to come.
Praise the LORD! Thank You Jesus!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright 2013 All rights reserved
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
It is all in Divine Order!
Let me break that down for the people that pretend they don't or can't understand what that phrase means. GOD is going to have His way. Evil is defeated!
Lying and stealing, living the life of a total hypocrite will not profit you one thing! You will lose in the end. "Another one bites the dust." You will leave nothing on this earth. Your very memory will be hated and reviled.
Any one encouraging you to consult or cavort with the occult is evil, shun them. "Have no others gods before me!" Get that through your thick head. No rabbit's foot, no salt thrown across your left shoulder, no "goofer dust", no "lucky hand".
My grandfather used to remind us that the lucky rabbit's foot; "Didn't do the rabbit no good."
I often wonder why so many Churches and Synagogues, Temples and Mosques are packed on their sabbath. But, there is scarcely any evidence that GOD loving, GOD fearing people even exist. It is so hard to believe that we live in a truly religious world. It is like we are a bunch of robots, just going through the motions, repeating a long list of religious words that we never incorporate into our real lives.
Jesus told us that we would have Him on our lips but He would be far from our hearts.
My deep disappointment in my fellow man forces me to testify, to share my story so that you will know how wrong you are to be of such little faith.
First of all I have had this "familial spirit" since I was in my mother's womb. My grandmother claimed I was a baby with an "old spirit", that I had been here before. I don't know about that. But, I do know that GOD has always talked to me, warned me and given me many premonitions.
I was a tiny little girl and every time I talked (when my grandfather wasn't around) my mother would tell me to "Shut duh F*** UP!". "You talk too f****** much!!!!" Then she would spend the rest of the day telling me how black and worthless I was and how I was never going to be s***.
Because I wasn't allowed to talk, to participate in family conversations or discussions I started writing. I had ideas and I had to express them. You guessed it. I honed my skills and became recognized as a great writer. So, that set old demonic mom into action.
It was jealousy and envy that she thought she was smart enough to keep hidden. GOD fooled her, let her live a long time. Let her live long enough to realize what a big fool she has been.
GOD is still giving her time to repent. Won't you pray for her. Family, friends, world; please pray for my mother.
In the Mighty name of Jesus our LORD I pray.
Rachel,
Lying and stealing, living the life of a total hypocrite will not profit you one thing! You will lose in the end. "Another one bites the dust." You will leave nothing on this earth. Your very memory will be hated and reviled.
Any one encouraging you to consult or cavort with the occult is evil, shun them. "Have no others gods before me!" Get that through your thick head. No rabbit's foot, no salt thrown across your left shoulder, no "goofer dust", no "lucky hand".
My grandfather used to remind us that the lucky rabbit's foot; "Didn't do the rabbit no good."
I often wonder why so many Churches and Synagogues, Temples and Mosques are packed on their sabbath. But, there is scarcely any evidence that GOD loving, GOD fearing people even exist. It is so hard to believe that we live in a truly religious world. It is like we are a bunch of robots, just going through the motions, repeating a long list of religious words that we never incorporate into our real lives.
Jesus told us that we would have Him on our lips but He would be far from our hearts.
My deep disappointment in my fellow man forces me to testify, to share my story so that you will know how wrong you are to be of such little faith.
First of all I have had this "familial spirit" since I was in my mother's womb. My grandmother claimed I was a baby with an "old spirit", that I had been here before. I don't know about that. But, I do know that GOD has always talked to me, warned me and given me many premonitions.
I was a tiny little girl and every time I talked (when my grandfather wasn't around) my mother would tell me to "Shut duh F*** UP!". "You talk too f****** much!!!!" Then she would spend the rest of the day telling me how black and worthless I was and how I was never going to be s***.
Because I wasn't allowed to talk, to participate in family conversations or discussions I started writing. I had ideas and I had to express them. You guessed it. I honed my skills and became recognized as a great writer. So, that set old demonic mom into action.
It was jealousy and envy that she thought she was smart enough to keep hidden. GOD fooled her, let her live a long time. Let her live long enough to realize what a big fool she has been.
GOD is still giving her time to repent. Won't you pray for her. Family, friends, world; please pray for my mother.
In the Mighty name of Jesus our LORD I pray.
Rachel,
The blind leading the blind!
Dear LORD protect us from our collective stupidity. Give us eyes that can see, ears that can hear your Truth. Teach us that it is not black against white but GODLY against the ungodly, the wheat against the chaff, the sheep versus the goats.
Dear LORD I thank you for working so magnificently in my life, for all the good people you have put in my path. You know everyday I thank you for Jerome Walters. Today I am thanking you for Martha Jane Walters. Where would I be today without this woman afflicting and wounding me over and over?
Dear LORD you enabled me to see how low we can sink without you. Most of all I learned every word in that Book is true. I learned to have faith. I learned that I can walk on water if I want to. I can move mountains!
Dear LORD thank you for being with me every step of the way. Please forgive me for the times I did not listen. You came to me at 18 and told me that my mother was nothing but an evil witch trying to destroy me. I refused to listen. I was not ready to know. For some reason I believed if I became a better daughter she would become a better mother.
The more I did to win her love the more she did to destroy me, all the while pretending that she was a wise caring mother. I was confused. Jerome Walters, a good man was her father, so I wanted to believe there was hope.
When GOD plants knowledge in your heart you better listen the first time. You better look at the fruit of those that claim to love you. Stuff your ears, refuse to listen to that demon's siren, her cooing. Don't take her "gifts". Believe, know that a person can become demon possessed. Many will sell their souls to satan because they have no faith, no love, no humanity.
"Man's inhumanity to man." is the source of all our problems. Some may be shocked by the evil I have revealed in this blog. You must know that it is just the tip of the iceberg. If you don't want to end up in that bottomless pit with vermin like Martha you better hurry up and give your life to Christ. Surrender the man in you. Stop trying to solve your problems alone. Let GOD fight your battles. Put on the whole armor of GOD.
Don't go out in this world unarmed, naive and simple, thinking that your college degree or good looks will save you. Never believe you can placate the devil and she will leave you alone.
Dear LORD thank you for delivering me from what must be the most deplorable woman that every lived. The sad truth is there are many just like her. The world remains mystified, scratching our collective heads, wondering why so many of us shoot us, rob and rape us. It's the mothers and the lack of fathers. Most of these father did not abandon their responsibility as these women would have the world believe. They could not live with these "manly women", theses women that collect testicles like nuts. (No pun intended)
These women are whores and live only to satisfy their own pleasure. Unfortunately their greatest pleasure is destroying and emasculating. This world better hurry up and identify these women, put a collective foot on their necks. Pull these witches out of the pulpits they occupy. Identify them, sit them down, snatch their robes off, isolate them.
Dear LORD thank you for permitting me to have my say today. Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright 2013. All rights reserved. This blog is the intellectual property of Rachel Gwendolyn Doster.
Dear LORD I thank you for working so magnificently in my life, for all the good people you have put in my path. You know everyday I thank you for Jerome Walters. Today I am thanking you for Martha Jane Walters. Where would I be today without this woman afflicting and wounding me over and over?
Dear LORD you enabled me to see how low we can sink without you. Most of all I learned every word in that Book is true. I learned to have faith. I learned that I can walk on water if I want to. I can move mountains!
Dear LORD thank you for being with me every step of the way. Please forgive me for the times I did not listen. You came to me at 18 and told me that my mother was nothing but an evil witch trying to destroy me. I refused to listen. I was not ready to know. For some reason I believed if I became a better daughter she would become a better mother.
The more I did to win her love the more she did to destroy me, all the while pretending that she was a wise caring mother. I was confused. Jerome Walters, a good man was her father, so I wanted to believe there was hope.
When GOD plants knowledge in your heart you better listen the first time. You better look at the fruit of those that claim to love you. Stuff your ears, refuse to listen to that demon's siren, her cooing. Don't take her "gifts". Believe, know that a person can become demon possessed. Many will sell their souls to satan because they have no faith, no love, no humanity.
"Man's inhumanity to man." is the source of all our problems. Some may be shocked by the evil I have revealed in this blog. You must know that it is just the tip of the iceberg. If you don't want to end up in that bottomless pit with vermin like Martha you better hurry up and give your life to Christ. Surrender the man in you. Stop trying to solve your problems alone. Let GOD fight your battles. Put on the whole armor of GOD.
Don't go out in this world unarmed, naive and simple, thinking that your college degree or good looks will save you. Never believe you can placate the devil and she will leave you alone.
Dear LORD thank you for delivering me from what must be the most deplorable woman that every lived. The sad truth is there are many just like her. The world remains mystified, scratching our collective heads, wondering why so many of us shoot us, rob and rape us. It's the mothers and the lack of fathers. Most of these father did not abandon their responsibility as these women would have the world believe. They could not live with these "manly women", theses women that collect testicles like nuts. (No pun intended)
These women are whores and live only to satisfy their own pleasure. Unfortunately their greatest pleasure is destroying and emasculating. This world better hurry up and identify these women, put a collective foot on their necks. Pull these witches out of the pulpits they occupy. Identify them, sit them down, snatch their robes off, isolate them.
Dear LORD thank you for permitting me to have my say today. Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright 2013. All rights reserved. This blog is the intellectual property of Rachel Gwendolyn Doster.
Monday, July 15, 2013
"Never go bear hunting with a switch."
My grandfather, Jerome Walters, taught me to never go bear hunting with a switch. I had no idea what he meant. I get it now. For all these years we have been treating our mother like she was a real "mother". Trying to help her with gifts and words of encouragement, earning degrees and honors that she just hated us for. You can't treat a monster like a mother.
This woman is beyond any thing any human can do to help her. I can't appeal to her. Nothing I can ever say or do will ever penetrate her reprobate mind. This poor woman is lost and refuses to be found.
Caution, she fully intends to take as many as she can with her. She thinks she will be happy in hell just as long as she is surrounded by the people she wounded and destroyed.
Some monsters you need to shun and let GOD handle. Know when you are out numbered and out gunned. Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureaux I surrender you to the The LORD GOD Almighty!
May the DEAR LORD have mercy on your unconquerable soul!
This woman is beyond any thing any human can do to help her. I can't appeal to her. Nothing I can ever say or do will ever penetrate her reprobate mind. This poor woman is lost and refuses to be found.
Caution, she fully intends to take as many as she can with her. She thinks she will be happy in hell just as long as she is surrounded by the people she wounded and destroyed.
Some monsters you need to shun and let GOD handle. Know when you are out numbered and out gunned. Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureaux I surrender you to the The LORD GOD Almighty!
May the DEAR LORD have mercy on your unconquerable soul!
GOD prepared the banquet table for you!
He created this beautiful opulent world for you. Why are you satisfied with the meager crumbs from His table? You are invited to the feast! You are welcome!
Who put that seed in your heart that you are nothing? Who told you that the world would reject you, despise you for the color of your skin? Who called you ugly, bug-eyed, nappy haired, flat gun-barrelled nose? Who rebuked, scorned and Raped you? Made you too ashamed to tell? Who feed you to her perverted men?
Who is that woman that does nothing but menace and plant seeds of hate and repulsion? Who is the woman that made your life a living hell? Identify that woman that stalks you, runs ahead of you to snatch, smash and destroy any possible happiness you may hope to have.
Who hides in her secret closet, laughing, grinning, praising herself for remaining anonymous. "Dey ain't gon' nevah know, dumb black a****, he-he-he-he!"
Well if you get all of your Bible teaching and knowledge from her, you deserve to suffer. "Come ye out from among them!"
I am 62 years old and for every single day of my life that woman has cursed me, used me and tried to destroy me. She taught my brothers to hate me. Not one of my five brothers can point to anything I ever did wrong to them. Yet, they shun me, refuse to associate with me based on her lies. She rebukes me for my truth and they follow her lead. She threatened to cut their testicles out every single day they lived. Did she succeed? Are my five brothers psychologically castrated?
I have two brothers that refuse to set foot in a church for fear that all Christians are like her. They refuse to get baptized by going under the water because she is a preacher and told them not to.
Just like the whore sitting in the doorway beckoning young men to come in to her, to lie with her. She dips her sweet words in honey in order to slay her own young. If you are still too blind to see in this late hour of your life perhaps GOD doesn't want you to see. You refuse to hear the truth, quivering and quaking in fear of a nothing. A mere piss ant. She has NO Power! And you are a dummy if you still think she does.
You hate me, but let me remind you I am merely the messenger. GOD's WORD is the pure liberating Truth! Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you Free!
I done tol'cha!
Who put that seed in your heart that you are nothing? Who told you that the world would reject you, despise you for the color of your skin? Who called you ugly, bug-eyed, nappy haired, flat gun-barrelled nose? Who rebuked, scorned and Raped you? Made you too ashamed to tell? Who feed you to her perverted men?
Who is that woman that does nothing but menace and plant seeds of hate and repulsion? Who is the woman that made your life a living hell? Identify that woman that stalks you, runs ahead of you to snatch, smash and destroy any possible happiness you may hope to have.
Who hides in her secret closet, laughing, grinning, praising herself for remaining anonymous. "Dey ain't gon' nevah know, dumb black a****, he-he-he-he!"
Well if you get all of your Bible teaching and knowledge from her, you deserve to suffer. "Come ye out from among them!"
I am 62 years old and for every single day of my life that woman has cursed me, used me and tried to destroy me. She taught my brothers to hate me. Not one of my five brothers can point to anything I ever did wrong to them. Yet, they shun me, refuse to associate with me based on her lies. She rebukes me for my truth and they follow her lead. She threatened to cut their testicles out every single day they lived. Did she succeed? Are my five brothers psychologically castrated?
I have two brothers that refuse to set foot in a church for fear that all Christians are like her. They refuse to get baptized by going under the water because she is a preacher and told them not to.
Just like the whore sitting in the doorway beckoning young men to come in to her, to lie with her. She dips her sweet words in honey in order to slay her own young. If you are still too blind to see in this late hour of your life perhaps GOD doesn't want you to see. You refuse to hear the truth, quivering and quaking in fear of a nothing. A mere piss ant. She has NO Power! And you are a dummy if you still think she does.
You hate me, but let me remind you I am merely the messenger. GOD's WORD is the pure liberating Truth! Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you Free!
I done tol'cha!
Dear LORD, ...
I pray for my family, friends and citizens of the world that are afraid or too proud to give their lives to you. I pray that you give understanding to our youth that think they can do anything on their own, without you.
I pray for the wrong thinkers that think I am "too saved", a fanatic, or a lunatic. You are the way LORD! The only way! You open the doors! You slay the dragons, reveal the serpents. It's you LORD!
Where would I be without the LORD on my side? This demonic monster that has done nothing but plot and exercise evil for 88 years is yet unrecognized! Intelligent, "GOD fearing" people remain terrorized pretending to be blind. Pretending they don't know or don't care.
Family! You are enslaved! Get up off of your knees, come out of that bondage. Follow me out of Egypt!
The woman is a fool! An imp for satan. She does not love You! She doesn't love herself. Please know the Truth. Please be set free!
GOD told me that family curses can be broken. Cling to her if you want to. You will never have anything. You will never amount to anything. Every time you deliberately refuse to acknowledge Jerome Walters, your blessed ancestor, you are cursed.
You can let satan lead you to hell if you want to. Remain too blind, too deaf. Keep your blinders on. Sit up under her influence. Take her advice. You will be reduced to a crust of bread.
Pray and fast family. Seek His wisdom.
I pray for the wrong thinkers that think I am "too saved", a fanatic, or a lunatic. You are the way LORD! The only way! You open the doors! You slay the dragons, reveal the serpents. It's you LORD!
Where would I be without the LORD on my side? This demonic monster that has done nothing but plot and exercise evil for 88 years is yet unrecognized! Intelligent, "GOD fearing" people remain terrorized pretending to be blind. Pretending they don't know or don't care.
Family! You are enslaved! Get up off of your knees, come out of that bondage. Follow me out of Egypt!
The woman is a fool! An imp for satan. She does not love You! She doesn't love herself. Please know the Truth. Please be set free!
GOD told me that family curses can be broken. Cling to her if you want to. You will never have anything. You will never amount to anything. Every time you deliberately refuse to acknowledge Jerome Walters, your blessed ancestor, you are cursed.
You can let satan lead you to hell if you want to. Remain too blind, too deaf. Keep your blinders on. Sit up under her influence. Take her advice. You will be reduced to a crust of bread.
Pray and fast family. Seek His wisdom.
"Physician heal thyself."
My sweet LORD, thank you for your wisdom, understanding, patience and guidance. I learned more about my mother's condition today. The term is Histrionic Personality Dsorder. "(HPD) is defined by the American Psychiatric Association as a personality disorder characterized by a pattern of excessive emotionality and attention-seeking, including inappropriately seductive behavior and excessive need for approval, usually beginning in early adulthood. People afflicted by HPD are lively, dramatic, vivacious, enthusiastic, and flirtatious. HPD affects four times as many women as men. It has a prevalence of 2-3% in the general population. ...They may exhibit sexually provocative behavior, express strong emotions with impressionistic style, and can be easily influenced by others. Associated features include egocentrism, self-indulgence, continuous longing for appreciation,and persistent manipulative behavior to achieve their own needs."
Well it seems GOD not only enabled me to "mother" myself, He is guiding me in my healing process. Thank you LORD!
We always knew that she was crazy. We never knew there was a name for it. Malignant narcissistic sociopath! She murdered, so I guess that makes her a psychopath.
Dear LORD thank you for taking the awful hatred out of my heart, for putting Jerome Walters in my life to save me from her maniacal plans. Help her LORD. Touch her poor feeble brain. Release her blind cripple prisoners. Grant her a church, pastor and first lady with the courage to pray for her. Give her a church that will readily acknowledge her illness and lay hands on her. Give her a family that does not fear her but love her. Love her enough to pray for her healing and deliverance.
May my brothers learn to love themselves, define themselves and escape this abomination that has entrapped them since birth.
May she humble herself and come to your cross before it is too late. In the mighty name of Jesus I pray.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Well it seems GOD not only enabled me to "mother" myself, He is guiding me in my healing process. Thank you LORD!
We always knew that she was crazy. We never knew there was a name for it. Malignant narcissistic sociopath! She murdered, so I guess that makes her a psychopath.
Dear LORD thank you for taking the awful hatred out of my heart, for putting Jerome Walters in my life to save me from her maniacal plans. Help her LORD. Touch her poor feeble brain. Release her blind cripple prisoners. Grant her a church, pastor and first lady with the courage to pray for her. Give her a church that will readily acknowledge her illness and lay hands on her. Give her a family that does not fear her but love her. Love her enough to pray for her healing and deliverance.
May my brothers learn to love themselves, define themselves and escape this abomination that has entrapped them since birth.
May she humble herself and come to your cross before it is too late. In the mighty name of Jesus I pray.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Sunday, July 14, 2013
It is alright ...
GOD sees and GOD knows. He has always dispatched His angels to hover over you, to protect you. Do read and study your Bible. Do pray for wisdom and understanding. Practice discernment.
Are you afraid of a demon possessed person because you call her mother? Love is an action verb. It won't let you hurt, haunt and destroy.
GOD knows that you want a mother. Sure you want to be loved. But, darling she is not the one. GOD told you that when your mother and father forsake you He will pick you up. Don't let your desire to be "normal" keep you form GOD's blessings, His arms. All lies, all denial is from the devil.
My research taught me that we had to lie and deny the truth to ourselves in order to survive. She is too painful, too cruel. The sad reality is that she inflicted too much pain, robbed too many for far too long.
"Fear No man. GOD rights every wrong."; has been ringing in my ears for over 50 years. I always heard you LORD. I heard you when I was four years old. No, I didn't understand but I trusted you.
I was three and she deliberately pushed me into a hot wood burning stove. I still carry the scar on my right arm. She told my grandfather I fell into the stove. Told me too, I was only three, what did I know? No one ever explained the horrible scar branded on my oldest brother's beautiful face.
It is time family. "Come ye out from among them." She has no power. We know a lot of the flim-flams she pulled were aided by magician's toys from South of the Border. That "goofer dust" is dirt, just dirt. It has no power.
GOD gave you the Power! "Resist the devil and s/ he will flee." Please don't let a lie that you know is a lie live forever. Jerome Walters did NOT kill himself!
Just like my cousin *C*** *R*******, I knew from the beginning. I knew the moment I got that phone call. I just didn't want to believe it. I was terrified of her. She taught me to shut my mouth and do as I was told. She threatened to kill all of us daily. Just like her private quarry slaves we became conditioned to her abuse. "Don't you criticize Mathy. Don't try to defend yourself. Don't try to appeal to her intellect or sense of right and wrong. Let her abuse you over and over. Ignore it and thank her for not taking your life. Pretend that you haven't noticed that she is mentally unstable, slightly sexually perverted. Attend church with her every Sunday. Brag on her sermons. Brag on her good looks, on the color of her skin, her "good hair" and big legs."
"Never want anything for yourself. When you accomplish something, play it down. Don't be too ambitious. Don't out do her. And never, never let her know that you are happy. Put on the "po' mouf", never have any money because she will borrow it and cuss you out when you ask for it back. Never establish a loving relationship with a spouse because she never had a decent relationship or decent man. Well, she had one decent man but she abused him beyond measure."
She Has NO Power! Why do you insist on fearing her? GOD is disappointed in your lack of faith. He knows! He cares! He is dispatching His angels to rescue you right now! Take the blinders off! Stand up, tell the Truth. Shake the devil off, put her under your feet. GOD's got your back!
Are you afraid of a demon possessed person because you call her mother? Love is an action verb. It won't let you hurt, haunt and destroy.
GOD knows that you want a mother. Sure you want to be loved. But, darling she is not the one. GOD told you that when your mother and father forsake you He will pick you up. Don't let your desire to be "normal" keep you form GOD's blessings, His arms. All lies, all denial is from the devil.
My research taught me that we had to lie and deny the truth to ourselves in order to survive. She is too painful, too cruel. The sad reality is that she inflicted too much pain, robbed too many for far too long.
"Fear No man. GOD rights every wrong."; has been ringing in my ears for over 50 years. I always heard you LORD. I heard you when I was four years old. No, I didn't understand but I trusted you.
I was three and she deliberately pushed me into a hot wood burning stove. I still carry the scar on my right arm. She told my grandfather I fell into the stove. Told me too, I was only three, what did I know? No one ever explained the horrible scar branded on my oldest brother's beautiful face.
It is time family. "Come ye out from among them." She has no power. We know a lot of the flim-flams she pulled were aided by magician's toys from South of the Border. That "goofer dust" is dirt, just dirt. It has no power.
GOD gave you the Power! "Resist the devil and s/ he will flee." Please don't let a lie that you know is a lie live forever. Jerome Walters did NOT kill himself!
Just like my cousin *C*** *R*******, I knew from the beginning. I knew the moment I got that phone call. I just didn't want to believe it. I was terrified of her. She taught me to shut my mouth and do as I was told. She threatened to kill all of us daily. Just like her private quarry slaves we became conditioned to her abuse. "Don't you criticize Mathy. Don't try to defend yourself. Don't try to appeal to her intellect or sense of right and wrong. Let her abuse you over and over. Ignore it and thank her for not taking your life. Pretend that you haven't noticed that she is mentally unstable, slightly sexually perverted. Attend church with her every Sunday. Brag on her sermons. Brag on her good looks, on the color of her skin, her "good hair" and big legs."
"Never want anything for yourself. When you accomplish something, play it down. Don't be too ambitious. Don't out do her. And never, never let her know that you are happy. Put on the "po' mouf", never have any money because she will borrow it and cuss you out when you ask for it back. Never establish a loving relationship with a spouse because she never had a decent relationship or decent man. Well, she had one decent man but she abused him beyond measure."
She Has NO Power! Why do you insist on fearing her? GOD is disappointed in your lack of faith. He knows! He cares! He is dispatching His angels to rescue you right now! Take the blinders off! Stand up, tell the Truth. Shake the devil off, put her under your feet. GOD's got your back!
Pearl #9 ...
Don't give the devil any space in your heart. Make sure satan knows there is no room for him. Don't hate, don't harbor or plot revenge. If you give evil an inch it will take a mile. There is no such thing as being a little bit corrupt. There is no such thing as a "little lie". A lie is a lie and if you tell a lie, that makes you a LIAR!
My mother used to run around the house screaming at the top of her lungs; "He said a LIAR wudden tarry in hiz sight!!!" Yes she knows the WORD, taught me, just could not accept it for herself.
We would laugh when she announced; "I'm 'gon lay my religion down, cuss yo' black a** out, den pick it back up again." Sad to say, I think a lot of people think that way. When we perceive that we have been wronged we instantly forget about GOD and want to handle it ourselves. I think most people still bristle at Jesus' advice to turn the other cheek.
We don't want to be seen as weak , plus we are mad. I grew up in a very violent family and I would fight. To be perfectly honest, I still have a lot of that hostility in me. I love Jesus, but I am not Jesus. Don't push me. I hope and pray that I would pray first. But, I know that I am not there yet.
The problem with reserving a tiny bit of room for evil is that it will take over. The devil is a shrewd manipulator. He is the author and creator of paranoia. You know; "The wicked fleeth when no one pursueth."
The devil made my mother see every one as a potential enemy or a pigeon to be plucked. She had no respect for anyone because she had none for herself. She couldn't love anyone because she couldn't love herself. The devil made her ashamed to ever be wrong. He made her compare herself to every one, made her burn with envy. He would not let her have any joy. He made her think that her con games were victories. In order to boost her low self esteem she was forced to steal, destroy and most of all to LIE, to live in denial and to take her whole family with her
I told you that my mother told me that some man, some friend of the family raped her viciously 3 times when she was an eight year old little girl. This is why I am so adamant about my cause. This is why I demand a conversation about child abuse.
I don't know what kind of little girl my mother was. I suspect she was a little precocious, a little" Lolita". No matter what, no grown man had any business touching her in that way. I also suspect that she was rejected and scorned by the entire tiny community she lived in. I am sure that stroked the fires for her tremendous secret hatred.
I know that she was very disappointed in her father's reaction; "Daddy didn't do nuttin' but run duh n**** off." She lamented sadly.
I am sure I will never get the the whole story. I do know that it is estimated that 25 to 50 percent of children that are sexually abused become abusers themselves. I know that is why she secretly molested us, arranged our sexual assaults.
Of course she knew she was wrong and was deeply ashamed. That's why she has always been a master of deceit and subterfuge. Sadly, it is hilarious in 20/20 hindsight. I went my whole life being constantly puzzled. Why was I always losing one shoe? I always worked, earned my own money and bought my own clothes. My favorite pair of expensive shoes, now worthless. Many beautiful suits that fit my size 4 frame perfectly, ruined. Strangely, the skirt or the pants would turn up missing.
I was in the 3rd grade, showed my mother my homework. Proud! It was beautiful. When I went to turn it in the next day I couldn't find it. I never found it. Again I was mystified.
Sneaky and covert, that's what the devil will do. He will turn you into sneaky slimy vermin and you will hate yourself. You will do things to dishonor yourself compulsively. You will have no restraint or self discipline, no dignity. You will become a woman without virtue, with out discretion. You will want it, crave it, but that little evil you secretly harbor will forever prevent you
I now understand why my mother had sex with all those men in that day room of the barracks in my presence when I was 19. She could not help herself. She had sold out to satan and he was having his way with her, degrading her. Poor Martha has been lost in self hatred for her entire life. She can't hear GOD, can't listen and can't see. Pray for her. Pray that she will finally hear the LORD tenderly calling. Pray that one day she will realize that she is forgiven.
Spewing hatred, curses and lies on me is an instant satanic reaction. It could happen to you , to me, if you reserve even a small space for evil. If you think or say; "Jesus is too slow, I'm gon' cuss yo' a** out right now!"
Let GOD handle your problems. Let Him fight your battles. In due time Jesus will fix it. Trust GOD, He rights every wrong.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
My mother used to run around the house screaming at the top of her lungs; "He said a LIAR wudden tarry in hiz sight!!!" Yes she knows the WORD, taught me, just could not accept it for herself.
We would laugh when she announced; "I'm 'gon lay my religion down, cuss yo' black a** out, den pick it back up again." Sad to say, I think a lot of people think that way. When we perceive that we have been wronged we instantly forget about GOD and want to handle it ourselves. I think most people still bristle at Jesus' advice to turn the other cheek.
We don't want to be seen as weak , plus we are mad. I grew up in a very violent family and I would fight. To be perfectly honest, I still have a lot of that hostility in me. I love Jesus, but I am not Jesus. Don't push me. I hope and pray that I would pray first. But, I know that I am not there yet.
The problem with reserving a tiny bit of room for evil is that it will take over. The devil is a shrewd manipulator. He is the author and creator of paranoia. You know; "The wicked fleeth when no one pursueth."
The devil made my mother see every one as a potential enemy or a pigeon to be plucked. She had no respect for anyone because she had none for herself. She couldn't love anyone because she couldn't love herself. The devil made her ashamed to ever be wrong. He made her compare herself to every one, made her burn with envy. He would not let her have any joy. He made her think that her con games were victories. In order to boost her low self esteem she was forced to steal, destroy and most of all to LIE, to live in denial and to take her whole family with her
I told you that my mother told me that some man, some friend of the family raped her viciously 3 times when she was an eight year old little girl. This is why I am so adamant about my cause. This is why I demand a conversation about child abuse.
I don't know what kind of little girl my mother was. I suspect she was a little precocious, a little" Lolita". No matter what, no grown man had any business touching her in that way. I also suspect that she was rejected and scorned by the entire tiny community she lived in. I am sure that stroked the fires for her tremendous secret hatred.
I know that she was very disappointed in her father's reaction; "Daddy didn't do nuttin' but run duh n**** off." She lamented sadly.
I am sure I will never get the the whole story. I do know that it is estimated that 25 to 50 percent of children that are sexually abused become abusers themselves. I know that is why she secretly molested us, arranged our sexual assaults.
Of course she knew she was wrong and was deeply ashamed. That's why she has always been a master of deceit and subterfuge. Sadly, it is hilarious in 20/20 hindsight. I went my whole life being constantly puzzled. Why was I always losing one shoe? I always worked, earned my own money and bought my own clothes. My favorite pair of expensive shoes, now worthless. Many beautiful suits that fit my size 4 frame perfectly, ruined. Strangely, the skirt or the pants would turn up missing.
I was in the 3rd grade, showed my mother my homework. Proud! It was beautiful. When I went to turn it in the next day I couldn't find it. I never found it. Again I was mystified.
Sneaky and covert, that's what the devil will do. He will turn you into sneaky slimy vermin and you will hate yourself. You will do things to dishonor yourself compulsively. You will have no restraint or self discipline, no dignity. You will become a woman without virtue, with out discretion. You will want it, crave it, but that little evil you secretly harbor will forever prevent you
I now understand why my mother had sex with all those men in that day room of the barracks in my presence when I was 19. She could not help herself. She had sold out to satan and he was having his way with her, degrading her. Poor Martha has been lost in self hatred for her entire life. She can't hear GOD, can't listen and can't see. Pray for her. Pray that she will finally hear the LORD tenderly calling. Pray that one day she will realize that she is forgiven.
Spewing hatred, curses and lies on me is an instant satanic reaction. It could happen to you , to me, if you reserve even a small space for evil. If you think or say; "Jesus is too slow, I'm gon' cuss yo' a** out right now!"
Let GOD handle your problems. Let Him fight your battles. In due time Jesus will fix it. Trust GOD, He rights every wrong.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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