Be confident!

"Being confident of this very thing, that He which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ." (Philippians 1:6)

Dear LORD thank you for renewing my confidence, for re-assuring me.  Because I do get weary.  I refuse to drag this albatross around on my back any longer.  She is far worse than any canker sore, she is a malignant cancer.  There is no cure for her, no relief, except through Jesus Christ.

Should I feel sorry for her because she is unteachable, unreachable?   She is an abomination unto the LORD.  Did she ever truly want Christ?  Does she preach to be seen, to show off her fine clothes?  Did she start preaching in an attempt to erase her wicked past?  Did she falsely believe that her "preaching" would make people believe that she was indeed perfect, a woman of the GOD? She is mystifying and confusing, claiming to love a GOD that she secretly hates.

Poor Martha always proclaimed her love for us, for her father, very loudly.  Yet she treated us miserably and forbade us to ever tell.  Who taught Martha that you can do anything you want, intimidate your victims and get clean away?  If Martha could ever hate her sin as much as she hates GOD's Truth maybe she can be saved.

Truthfully I feel very sorry for all of her little minions running around hopping and fetching at her slightest beck and call.  All of them fighting to out do each other for just a smile, a hug or a false compliment from her.  They refuse to look behind her mask.  They will not snatch her robe off.

How can they heap the credit granddaddy deserves on her?  They brag that they have forgiven her, that they will honor their mother.  Not one remembers when she said "Please forgive me.  I am sorry".  They don't remember because she has never said it and never will.

The truth is they don't want to be out here with me, her outcast, the little black bastard that she abandoned again.  Personally I thank her for finally setting me free.

Yes, there is still time.  She is still living, unfortunately still lying, still wearing a beautiful mask in an attempt to hide her hideous ugly face.  Lie after hateful lie will never change GOD's Truth, His WORD.

Children no one can conceal demonic hatred wrapped in insincere compliments and pass them off as evidence of love forever.  The people you continue to "fool" are not deceived at all.  I think they are just exhausted, tired, beleaguered and have just given up.

I will never give up.  Knock me down again and again, I will get up and get in your face and tell you GOD's Truth.  Beat me down to the ground again.  Tell me how sorry and black I am, how no one loves me or will ever love me.  Tell me I talk too much.  Tell me that I am always running my mouth telling people your business.  Keep laughing at my brothers, talking about them behind their backs.  They will never know or believe me when I tell them.

Yes, I am the problem.  I ruined the family with my fabricated ludicrous lies about you.  Tell them that I am just mad because I wasn't born "yalla".

Dear LORD again I pray and I pray daily for the deliverance of my brothers and my family.  Reach them LORD, touch their hearts with a finger of love and give them the courage to accept your Truth.

"And this I pray, that your love may abound yet more and more in knowledge and in all judgment: That ye may approve things that are excellent; that ye may be sincere an without offence till the day of Christ;" (Philippians 1: 9-10)

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

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