Don't let satan afflict you, ...

hold you hostage forever.  That's your life, live it based on your decisions.  Don't let some GOD hating sick reprobate control you because you were pushed through her loins.

You have the right to live your own life on your terms.  Her sins are not your sins.  You don't owe her anything for doing anything good for you.  Any kindness she ever showed you was part of some scheme.  You know that.  I know you are shocked.  "My GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWDDDDDDDDDDDDD! Why Me!!!??? Why my family?  Why my grandfather?"

First, know that you are not the only one.  There are many rocking in your same old boat, terrified into silence.  Embarrassed beyond belief.  "Time changes all things." GOD will help you.  He is rescuing you right now.

It has been said that when some animals are caught in a trap they will gnaw their own foot off to escape that trap.  That's what I had to do to free myself from Martha.  I had to forsake my brothers and most of my family.  GOD blessed me with my wonderful daughter.   She has helped me more than she will ever know.

My mother always complained that her parents "nevah did nuttin' but beat my a**!"  If you ask me they didn't beat it enough.  They sure didn't beat the hell out of you.  You are the one that is nasty and common, full of hate and lies.  You hate people for being "better than you", for being darker than you, for asking you for money, for having more ambition or talent.

You hate the truth.  You claim that you hate liars.  Do you hate yourself?  Jesus said if your right eye offend you to pluck it out.


"If your right eye causes you to sin, pluck it out and cast it from you; for it is more profitable for you that one of your members perish, than for your whole body to be cast into hell." (Matthew 5:29)

I can't say for sure how Jesus meant  this scripture to be interpreted.  But, I know how I interpret it.  You were my mother always placing me in harms way with your perverted men. I know you gave me away and taunted me for it.  I know you abused me every day of my life for being born with the "wrong" color skin.  I know you called me a goody-two shoes, blabber mouth and Miss Rich B****!

I know that you were very sneaky with your witchcraft and conjure.  You were childish, screwed my 14 year old boyfriend, kept your house filthy pig nasty so that I would not invite any friends over.  I know that you have done nothing but stalk and try to destroy me for my entire life.

I know your "preaching" and screaming that you are an "Ordained Minister" is a load of manure. I know you murdered my grandfather and never put a headstone on his grave.  I know that you are eaten up with guilt.  You are in a deep pit.  You are in that pit that you dug for me and others.

I also know how you can get out.  You know too.  No, you don't have to gnaw your foot off.  All you have to do is tell the truth.  Tell the truth for once in your miserable life.

Martha, you are my "right eye" and I had to pluck you out.  I was never going to get into the Kingdom dealing with you.  Always having to defend my color, always your "footstool" for your mistakes.  Always having to take "low" and listen silently as you lied.

"And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut if off and cast it from you; for it is more profitable for you that one of your members perish, than for your whole body to be cast into hell." (Matthew 5:30)

"...love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you,and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you,"

I love you Martha and pray for your soul.  I pray that you will give up your pride and admit that you lived the most horrible life a woman can live.  I pray that one day you will admit that you were wrong.  That you weren't in your right mind.

I pray that you never want another woman to follow in your footsteps.  I pray that you do some good on this earth before you go.