It is alright ...

GOD sees and GOD knows.  He has always dispatched His angels to hover over you, to protect you.  Do read and study your Bible.  Do pray for wisdom and understanding.  Practice discernment.

Are you afraid of a demon possessed person because you call her mother?  Love is an action verb.  It won't let you hurt, haunt and destroy.

GOD knows that you want a mother.  Sure you want to be loved.  But, darling she is not the one.  GOD told you that when your mother and father forsake you He will pick you up. Don't let your desire to be "normal" keep you form GOD's blessings, His arms.  All lies, all denial is from the devil.

My research taught me that we had to lie and deny the truth to ourselves in order to survive.  She is too painful, too cruel.  The sad reality is that she inflicted too much pain, robbed too many for far too long.

"Fear No man.  GOD rights every wrong."; has been ringing in my ears for over 50 years.  I always heard you LORD.  I heard you when I was four years old.   No, I didn't understand but I trusted you.

I was three and she deliberately pushed me into a hot wood burning stove. I still carry the scar on my right arm.  She told my grandfather I fell into the stove.  Told me too, I was only three, what did I know?  No one ever explained the horrible scar branded on my oldest brother's beautiful face.

It is time family.  "Come ye out from among them."  She has no power.  We know a lot of the flim-flams she pulled were aided by magician's toys from South of the Border.  That "goofer dust" is dirt, just dirt.  It has no power.

GOD gave you the Power!  "Resist the devil and s/ he will flee."  Please don't let a lie that you know is a lie live forever.  Jerome Walters did NOT kill himself!

Just like my cousin *C*** *R*******, I knew from the beginning.  I knew the moment I got that phone call. I just didn't want to believe it.  I was terrified of her.  She taught me to shut my mouth and do as I was told.  She threatened to kill all of us daily.  Just like her private quarry slaves we became conditioned to her abuse.  "Don't you criticize Mathy.  Don't try to defend yourself.  Don't try to appeal to her intellect or sense of right and wrong.  Let her abuse you over and over. Ignore it and thank her for not taking your life.  Pretend that you haven't noticed that she is mentally unstable, slightly sexually perverted.  Attend church with her every Sunday.  Brag on her sermons.  Brag on her good looks, on the color of her skin, her "good hair" and big legs."

"Never want anything for yourself.  When you accomplish something, play it down.  Don't be too ambitious.  Don't out do her.  And never, never let her know that you are happy.  Put on the "po' mouf", never have any money because she will borrow it and cuss you out when you ask for it back.  Never establish a loving relationship with a spouse because she never had a decent relationship or decent man.  Well, she had one decent man but she abused him beyond measure."

She Has NO Power! Why do you insist on fearing her? GOD is disappointed in your lack of faith.  He knows! He cares! He is dispatching His angels to rescue you right now!  Take the blinders off! Stand up, tell the Truth.  Shake the devil off, put her under your feet. GOD's got your back!