Lock stepping -

following in the the exact same footsteps of the blind sheep in front of you.  Never questioning, never wondering, where you are going.  Just supposing.  Someone told you,  that you, that we,  are on our way to Heaven by simply declaring it.  All we have to do is say  it.  Everyone that dies,  we put in "Heaven".  No we should not judge but we do not have to go into complete denial either.

The most wicked people are "said to be" in Heaven.  We all know full well they deserve to rot in hell.  We claim we can't or should not judge but we all have common sense.  Is recognizing judging? There lies the problem.  Most people are blind lock stepping sheep, saying and doing the exact same thing the dummy up ahead of them did. Year after year, century after century, millennium after millennium. , dumb ass man perishes for lack of knowledge.

Dumb ass man has decided s/he knows, can discern the Messiah by physical appearance, skin color, hair texture, gender and even age.  Remember, dumb ass man knows nothing.  Dumb ass man is a hindrance, pay him no attention.

When the woman was found in adultery and the people wanted to stone her Jesus intervened and admonished  the multitude; "Let he who is without sin cast the first stone."  Notice, Jesus did not excuse her behavior, He objected to the severity of the punishment.

We should not "stone people to death", persecute people for their human  frailties . We are all frail, subject to sin, to disobey.  Remember, Jesus told the woman to go and sin no more.

My mother knew this story well.  I am sure she must have preached it many
 times.  I know she used it to justify her extremely promiscuous nature.  Do know she knew full well she was lying, knew she was using GOD's Word, His Truth falsely.  That is what Martha did.  Martha used her intelligence, her knowledge of Scripture to deliberately  confuse and enslave,  in order to get her way.  That is just how selfish and greedy she was.  She did not leave a good legacy and had the unmitigated viperous nerve to cast her filthy dispersions on me to her dying day.

Casting dispersions on me, vilifying me,  may have made her feel better.  Poor Martha knew exactly who and what she was.  Unfortunately she was a "silly woman" that foolishly believed creating or forcing her own loved ones to be something worse, something lower was her solution to self improvement.

There are so many blind sheep lock stepping, repeating and believing everything they hear. Making the very word "mother" something to be worshipped.  Pretending every woman that opens her legs to give birth suddenly becomes a saint, every person that preaches loves GOD.

I do know that I was born into the clutches of a woman, a "mother" determined to ruin, utterly destroy every life she ever touched, on the sly, on the DL (down low).  It will NOT  happen!  It can NOT happen!

Yes, it "just so happens" Martha Jane Walters was a woman that came to this world and lived as a sick closet sadistic whore for eighty-seven years.  Why was she kept so secret? Our blind- lock- stepping- refusing- to -think critically - mentality.


How can anyone cut their mouth to lie and say an old unrepentant "root worker" is in Heaven?  Why would anyone volunteer to tell that lie?  Surely, no one on this earth is that ignorant. Or that terrorized.

I think you can be that numb, that defeated, that worn out.  That uninformed, that mislead concerning GOD's Word.  I must laugh.  Martha whored and whored, got completely away because we thought, if we said something,  we were judging.  If we told or revealed, we were gossiping.

 "A little learning is a dangerous thing."

Lesson learned, never let the evil one know more Scripture than you do.

Sadly, most people do not have need, do not possess an inner urgency to think independently, to actually read their Bible.  I was blessed with an evil mother that forced you to think, to lookout for yourself.

Praise the LORD!

What a wonderful world!

Up rejoicing! Praising the LORD! Bragging about where (He) brought me from!

Dear LORD I thank you for Jerome Walters, a true patriarch.  An Abraham and Job.  Thank you for placing that man in my life in my formative years.  I give credit where credit is due and I fully acknowledge and fully appreciate the great sacrifices this man made for me, made for us. (Praise the LORD!)

I do not remember my exact age, it was during a very stressful time with my mother.  She had gone completely off her rocker attempting to force a man she greatly and grossly abused to reman married to her.

"Leave heah and don't nevah come back!" was my grandfather's advice.  My immediate answer; "I could nevah leave you granddaddy."

That is what I said aloud.  I really wanted to ask why.  I knew she was cray, a damn fool.  I just never knew why.  I remembered those close encounters with the spirits she collected from graves.  No, I am not fully convinced, I KNOW!  I know it for a fact! You can solicit, conjure spirits from graves.  While you are laughing,  people like my mother are having a field day.

Before you dismiss me as just another idiot.  How many times does the Holy Bible make reference to witchcraft? Why does GOD warn us against envying?  Envying leads to hating, to lying, to plotting.

 My poor mother was caught in a web of deceit that she could not get out of because she refused to face the truth about herself.

She had no problem seeing your problems.  She was loud.  She loved to fight, break bad and insult.  Martha Jane Walters was an imp.  She was a witch.  Mathy would "chunk some dust on ya'"

It doesn't matter. "No weapon formed against me shall prosper!"  I do not have to disrespect my grandfather because my mother did.  I do not have to pretend she didn't MURDER  him because she did.

I thank GOD today, December 29, 2015 for the strength and courage to face, to remember the horrible things that fallen woman deliberately committed against her own family for eighty-seven years.  I rebuke satan!  I rebuke every lie from the evil one.

That fallen woman came here and decided out of sheer jealousy to make every life she touched dung! No one would or could have a better life than Mathy Jane.  Martha Jane Walters, a demonic toddler, a "silly woman" taken captive.  Intractable! Fierce! Fortunately for me, predicted and expected.   "Endure to the end."

Still standing! Still strutting ! "Head bloody but unbowed."


Dear LORD thank you for the ideas Jerome Walters, my grandfather, planted  in my head.

"You are a jewel in my crown!"

"Time changes all things!"

"Jesus will fix it!"

"Look well to your going, your coming in, your going out."

"Study to show yourself approved."

"Never do anything you would be ashamed to say you did."


Praise the LORD!

Tripping!

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PRAISE THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY! GOD is so Good! HALLELUJAH ! HALLELUJAH!

An old evil ignorant woman came to this earth, joined forces with every evil spirit possible.  Lived eighty-seven years waxing worse and worse and WAS A HORRID WHORE!

So why am I so happy? Absolutely jubilant? Because GOD kept me.  I can look back on mysterious devastating event after event for sixty-four years and rejoice.  How many people can say they are the  first in their family to earn a college degree? with honors?

PTL! Why? How? GOD!

I get it now.  I fully understand.  Pretty little brilliant Martha, treated like a princess, was as corrupt as corrupt could be.  She was demonic!  No doubt.    Why?  "It is written".  Any way, she came to this earth and made life miserable , a living hell for all she touched for EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS!   Was so selfish, so no-mannered,  so impish and so demon possessed she refused salvation!  Flat refused to repent of her sins knowing full well death was looming.

Get this MIRACLE FROM GOD! The excruciatingly long painful journey I experienced enduring Mathy Jane taught me to never be racist, to never doubt GOD.  My Mathy Jane Experience taught me that GOD has a Plan, a Purpose, that every word in His Book is true.

Almighty GOD taught me to Free Fall into the Savior's Hand!  Do pray! Do repent! Do fellowship! Do not fear! Do not ever think you can fool GOD.  Never be foolish enough to think you can use GOD to destroy GOD's anointed.

My mother collected her "goofer dust" in the name of the LORD JESUS CHRIST!  Poor foolish woman , "silly woman" taken captive by the enemy.

"From such stay away."

His eye is truly on this sparrow.

Praise the LORD!

Of course I never knew,

of course I was clueless.  That was Martha's forté.  My heartaches even now.  I suffered so trying to understand, trying to make sense of her accusation that I was a sneaky viper when I was thrifty-three.

If her intention was to deflate me, to cause me immeasurable pain, she sure succeeded.  There was no Internet.   I earned an "A" in Psychology and no mention was  made of personality disorders at all.

We thought we were doing the "Christian thing", just praying and forgiving.  Somehow we skipped or misunderstood that Jesus told us to shun such people, complete reprobates.  That is why my message is so important.  "You might want-to-ought-to consider reading and studying your Bible independent of some denomination".

If you know like I know, some of these denominations are "demon-nations".  Some of them are full of Soothe Sayers, root workers, practitioners of witchcraft . I know it for a fact!  My mother was a licensed MINISTER AND A NOTORIOUS ROOT WORKER!

Yes, she was evil enough, selfish enough, ignorant enough,  to only target her own family and friends.  Yes, I did do my Master's Thesis on Voodoo and Conjure and that was my major concern.  In my Thesis I revealed widespread witchcraft practiced in all slave communities.  I explained how voudun and  ancient African mysticism and ancestor worship mixed to form voodoo or hoodoo.  I traced it from Haiti to the colonies.  Yes, world, WITCHCRAFT is rooted in the very fabric of this nation whether you choose to recognize it or not.

I shared how some "slaves" only practiced good, healing or homeopathic "roots", some evil and some both.

The greatest wrong any practitioner could do was mix their "hand", practice good and evil.  Too bad my mother did not learn that secret.

My Thesis posed the question, attempted to explore why the "slave" only used "it" on fellow victims.  Very few "slaves" dared use it on a white person while they rotted the cartilage out of noses, blinded, crippled and killed each other.

"We are a Heartbreak People.  We crush each other into fine little pieces 'til there is nothing left but dust."

Praise the LORD!

"This bitter earth …"

"Get in where you fit in."

"This is a dog eat dog world."

"Only the strong survive."

"The end justifies the means."

"By any means necessary ."

At no time has the evil one been without negativity, casting gloom and doom.  Predicting your failure, some ignorant ogre standing behind you or hiding behind a door spreading lies, WORKING ROOTS!

"Root Working" is a subject I fully intend to bring out of the closet.  Shut up dummy!   My whole life I have been met with ridicule and callous pious treatment because I warn about Soothe saying, conjure, voodoo, witchcraft, hexing, vexing, casting an evil eye.

Far too many people on this earth suffer with a Cain spirit, Jezebel, Saul, Absalom, all or a combination thereof.  My poor mother suffered from all of them.  She was demon laden.  Pretending an absolute demon is not a demon because you fear her or because she is a preacher is not the answer.  Especially now that she is long dead.  You can't claim you are scared now.  You are just disinterested.  The truth is , my mother's morality or lack or morality tainted most of us.
I do observe how most people are so busy earning a living they have no life.   Before you consider how big your bank account is, please consider what you have done for Christ.

Every luxury car in the parking lot of a church does not reflect a wholesome godly life.  Why do you need to prove to hypocritical, fickle , mortal man, anything?

Having a treacherously evil mother has never been short of a blessing in disguise.  I have known all my life that I can call on GOD AND HE WILL ANSWER!  A lot of people don't know that or don't want to know that.

Deliberately over looking evil for the sake of peace is not the answer.  "For it is written."  GOD has forewarned us, given us the 411.  All we have to do is read! Read. Study. Trust.  Put all of your trust in Almighty GOD.

If the world only knew, (if I only knew) how many times that hideously evil  woman tried to kill me.  There were many times.  I felt it.  GOD saved me.  Praise the LORD.  One thing about it, satan can NOT touch GOD's anointed.  The only thing I have to do is remain obedient.  GOD told me to tell.  I am telling .   I am keeping a "Red record".  There are far too many babies being savagely raped and tortured by their "mothers".

This is NOT a problem any of us can afford to ignore.  When will you wake up?  Like most people, we have to be personally touched by tragedy before we come to consciousness.  Even then , most people will hide and demand to keep secret all "rumors" of INCEST, molestation, abortion,  drug abuse, anything that tarnishes the family name.

What good is the family name when the "family" lets some evildoer tear it down?  It was my grandfather's constant admonition ringing in my ear that kept me from lowering my standards to "rock bottom".  "Don't nevah let no sorry ****** bring you down!"  

This too short "thing" with no muscles, no muscle definition what so ever.  This "man" that lacked the educational equivalent of a second grader, rejected me! Praise the LORD! GOD sees what we can't.

Incest and pedophilia are plagues we are taught to take to our graves.

IT IS A PROBLEM!  Whether you recognize it or not.  I survived it.  I have proof, sixty-four years worth.  Don't worry, I will teach you how to recognize it, how to protect yourself.

Most people do exactly what the evil one wants them to do.  You run away like a frightened child.  "My people suffer for lack of knowledge."

The Bible is replete throughout  with references to witchcraft.  It is important that you know what the word says about practitioners of such wickedness.  Yes, they are in the "church".  Our "churches" are full to the brim with people with a form of godliness but within they are ravenous wolves.

Practice discernment.  Don't be afraid to read their aura.  Look in their eyes.  Don't worry , no matter how hard they try, they can NOT destroy you .  Not without your permission.  "Gird up your loins."  Pray for strength.  The evil one wants you to feel hated, unwanted, unworthy.

Make sure you know all this torturous excruciating unnecessary pain is all from satan, the evil one.   Stand tall, remain strong, stay focused.  Keep your eye on the prize.  I have a deadly bead trained on the evildoer that rapes and molests children. YOU ARE REPUGNANT! I WILL NOT CLOAK FOR YOU!

Dear LORD thank you for moving in my life, leading,  guiding me. Thank you for my delivery, your tender mercies and many, many blessings.

Praise the LORD!

"A little piece of leather"

"I'm a little piece of leather , well put together."  I think that theory concerning Napoleonic personality types is true.  Not, in all cases, but perhaps in mine.

I am short.  Some say extremely short.  I no longer measure five feet tall.  I was always small.  Always the smallest kid in the class or in the group.  Often the only black kid as well.  I was picked on but not for long.  I was a fool!  I would **** you up.  You soon learned to not **** with me.

I never got off your ass either.  We were enemies for life.  I was unforgiving.  I was human.  Don't get me wrong, I was a good person.  I did not lie, steal or disobey.  I was a good student, a good citizen.  I did not litter and believe it or not, I did not curse (much) in school.

Would I try to kill you?  Would I plot your excruciating death?  If I thought you wronged me.

I am almost laughing now because little did I know, what I was going through.

Praise the LORD!

"There is none so blind ...

as he who refuses to see."

"Know ye the truth and be set free."  There it was, it  was always there , right out in the open.  Nameless, formless and unnecessary.  Something malicious, blood sucking.  Something so evil, the evil doer had to die in order to be discovered, to be discussed, dissected.   What was it?  The vile hatred Martha Jane Walters volunteered to carry in her heart for every innocent GOD loving human being that ever crossed her path.

Excuse the hell out of me but if you have a penchant, an inclination for INCEST and Pedophilia , stay away from me!  True, I may be as dumb as my mother always made me out to be but I knew (and know)  having sex with little children is wrong!  I always had that much sense.

When my own mother held me captive in the woods adjacent to my grandfather's farm for hours, I knew.  I was three years old and knew this bitch to be a total out of control monster.  Some where deep inside of me I knew instinctively  that I had to endure to the end.  (The knowledge of 2 Thessalonians was born in me!)   Somehow I knew GOD would always protect me and never leave me.

Why did she hold us down in the woods, in the dark, spewing her venom?  Because she knew she was wrong.  How could a woman so evil, so low, so depraved, live so long unrecognized?

GOD told me that is where I was wrong.  She was recognized for her extreme evil, for her repugnant carnal filthy nature.  That is precisely why she got away.  No one wanted her to know that they knew.  She was too evil, too sick, too depraved.  The stories of her extreme cruelty were too hard to bare.

  Pouring scalding hot coffee on her toddler son.  Fornicating on the pews of the church, mailing people fish guts, on and on, if it was evil Mathy  was going to do it, laugh and get away Scott free.

My LORD,  when you are too disgusting to be known, seen, discussed, revealed, you are a MARTHA JANE!

You hid it much too well Mathy Jane , which proves you knew, were well aware all the time.  It also proves what a selfish whore you were.  You enslaved many men, took their money, squandered every one's wealth.  Every one was your "trick".  You mesmerized men, conned and flimflammed them out of their hard earned money for yourself.  For yourself only.  You wore five hundred dollar suits daily  to a job that did not pay you five hundred dollars a month.

You plotted my demise for sixty-two years you "stanking" bitch!  You cast dispersions you earned on me.  Yes, you were a low slut.  There was nothing too low for you to do for very little money.

We laughed, I laughed with you.  You fleeced, you robbed, you shopped until you dropped.  We laughed.  I was too blind to see that I was just another "trick".

You arrived like clockwork on your father's front porch every payday begging for money.  Money you did not need.  You were a whore Martha, a prostitute.  You did believe every one should pay you for your lies and phony compliments.  It cost to take up your time.

Can  a whore "unwhore "herself?  Can a prostitute just stop whoring? slinging? pretending to be the exact opposite of what she is?

I do not have one single answer to my many questions concerning that human being Martha Jane Walters.  I know I refuse to be her bitch any longer.  I refuse to keep her deep dark secrets.  No, it is not revenge that motivates me.  It is common sense, common decency.

Low whore for satan,  you DELIBERATELY MURDERED  one of the greatest men to ever live, to ever walk this earth.  You, low whore, you  were not worthy to unlatch his shoes.

You told me not to piss on your grave when you died.  Why would I?   Who would ever want to do such a thing?  Women like you Martha Jane.   Rot!  The nerve, the unmitigated gall of an ignorant uneducated whore like you.  You tried to defeat GOD!  You were like a little tiny piss ant trying to chop down a mighty Red Wood  tree with her hands.

I was very young and you stung me with this insult that has always swirled around in my head; "If I could put yo'brain in my head,  it wud be lak putting a bb in a boxcar…if they put yo'brain in a jaybird he wud fly backwards!"

For all my friends and kin contemplating never repenting for your sins,  always remember Martha flat refused, did falsely believe that she got away.

Every Word in that Book is true.  Read it for yourself.

Praise the LORD!

Required reading ...

The number one book that should be required reading is the Bible!  I find it exciting, enlightening, a source of guidance.  Clearly that is GOD's intention.  You do have to read it.  You do have to find a quiet place, a spot, a secret closet .  You do have to  meditate, mull over, ponder, consider, interpret and apply.

"My people perish for lack of knowledge."  It is  very unfortunate but most people are lazy illiterates or functional semi-illiterates. The proof you need is called Donald Trump.  How such a common immoral carnival barker became so rich and so influential is obvious.  He is a modern day P.T. Barnum living by the principal that a sucker is born every minute.

My mother was just as narcissistic as Donald Trump.  I do not know if he is sadistic like my mother but he sure is just as insulting.  "Slong"(a long penis). [*slong/reference to Hillary Hilton Dec 20, 2015] Yes, he is vulgar just like my mother also.

People that deliberately do not read, people that actually shun academics, any and everything intellectual, suffer.  They suffer because they rely on old wives' tales.  That is exactly how my mother got messed up.  Permitted to live the life of a "princess" by her mother for the color of her skin, texture of her hair and her affliction (she was raped as a child) Martha Jane Walters waxed into one of the worse,  cruel, cowardly demons that ever lived.

Someone  taught  that little  dummy to practice witchcraft early in life.  Little simple impish idiot, just dumb enough to be impressed with her own repugnance.  There is no doubt in my mind, Martha Jane Walters lived to commit unspeakable evil and grin in your face pretending to love you, pretending to care , knowing full well she was the cause of all  of your misery in the first place.

Martha was a low whore without a lot of ambition.  She just wanted to be ahead of you.  Martha just wanted to be able to brag that she had more money than you, s bigger and better house, drove a better car and most importantly , to be hounded by men.  Martha believed to her dying day that she was a gift to all man kind.  Martha loved and worshipped her own very light skin.  It was impossible to love Martha than she loved Martha.

Martha never let Martha be deprived of anything. Sex, no problem.  No man around, eyeball your preadolescent son (sons).  "Go ahead, do it! No one will ever believe that you did in fact what you did! Grin and lie! Brutalize horribly! Tie that boy up! Beat him nearly to death! Now grin and lie.  Kiss him, make sure he thinks it was all his fault. Make him think he is attracted to men, that he can't win, that you have the power of life and death over him.  Now grin.  You did well Mathy Jane.  You will be long dead before this world even begins to figure you out."

Yes, Martha Jane Walters fell low, hit rock bottom.  Volunteered to become a human maggot. There is none worse.  I must pray for strength daily.  Just knowing Martha's deep dark sins cripples me.  Yes, there are times I crumble, melt into a hep sobbing uncontrollably because she successfully MURDERED my grandfather and I and only  one other cousin are the only ones in the entire  family to ever care enough to challenge her abominable lies.

2 Timothy , all of chapter 3.  Add my mother's name.  Dear LORD help me.  When I think, remember, review the hell this low slut for satan took us thorough,  simply because the little imp was a sadistic whore, I curl up in a ball, try my best to tuck my too fat body into a fetal position.

To think I would have remained clueless, enraptured by this "Spingali", this lying phony hypocrite , without first hand knowledge of GOD's Word.  What if I had relied on her interpretation of the Bible?

Just nasty!  Nasty! It is one thing to be common, carnal, promiscuous , but when it is a WOMAN! When that woman is your mother and you know this woman to be common as bat shit!  When you know for a fact that your own mother is a nasty common whore, you will count the days waiting on death.

Why try to do anything, achieve anything,  when you know your old common as bat shit mother is going to deliberately destroy it because she is a retarded whore with the emotional capacity of a two year old ?  But with  all the brilliant cunning of lucifer himself.

"From such stay away."

People of the Lie  by M.Scott Peck should be required reading also.  Dr. Peck leaves no doubt, there are some seriously evil people slithering on this earth posing as decent human beings.  Posing as pastors! Pretending to love when the are full of revolting hate for everyone and every thing.

IN THE CHURCH LORD! No wonder she told me to never read the book of Revelation.  Martha recognized herself! Praise the LORD.

"Study to show yourself approved."

Praise the LORD!

When you get too far away from being human ...

when you are deliberately cruel and savage. When you commit INCEST! Pedophilia! Witchcraft! you have gone too far. When you physically torture and bludgeon small animals to death as a young child you are on your way to becoming  the horrid monster my mother was.

I am not ashamed! I am proud! Look at the Glory of GOD! He saved me! Believe me , that low whore for satan tried her best to utterly destroy me for sixty-two years! Sure she roughed me up but I' M STILL HERE! Not only am I here  to tell on her , to reveal her, but her fellow phony demon laden pastor friends also!

Praise the LORD!

Jesus! He is the real thing!

I wonder what makes a person settle for the fake, the artificial ?  Why would anyone want to carry a fake designer bag? Let's say it is a good fake, barely noticeable , why do you want it?

Let's say you are not financially able to afford such an extravagant item, why must you pretend to? Are you trying to impress someone?  Are you trying to feel better about yourself?  What is it about you that keeps you from the "real thing"?

Do you have a bone to pick with the world, your female friends?  Were you deprived as a child, made to feel poverty stricken? Were you made to feel unworthy of GOD's gifts, His Goodness?  Were you told that you were just a "luddle black bastard"?  Were you told every day ; "You ain't SHIT!"?

Did the same person that raped, abused, and tortured you daily,  further confuse you by hauling you to church every Sunday?  Did your secret closet tormentor hold you hostage in a church for at least twelve hours every Sunday for eighteen, twenty, thirty years in a row?

That type of "Christian" has a form of godliness.  She is insincere.  She knows the words by heart, can recite them.  They just don't mean anything.  She is so dishonest, so untrustworthy she will not dare trust GOD.

I don't want a fake designer bag.  As a matter of fact I carry an extremely expensive handbag.  I have many designer handbags.  To be fair, I am old.  Still, I do not want anything artificial.

I used to accept fake and phony before I realized I deserved better.

GOD is real.  GOD is love.  GOD wants you to have unspeakable Joy!  Any thing less than that is not real, it is not GOD.  Pray.  Seek the real thing.

Praise the LORD!

Poor granddaddy ...

he couldn't do anything but walk away shaking his head.  That damn Mathy Jane had struck again.  What could granddaddy do?  It was too late.  She was gleaming graves for power before he heard, before he could attempt to intervene .

So now this woefully uneducated country idiot thinks she has some demonic power.  Look at the selfish bitch!  Just used it for herself.  Married a man young enough to be her son in order to keep fleecing him of his check.  Yes, Martha could have completed college, earned a true college degree.

Not Martha.  She was too much the whore.  There was too much whorish ass prostitute blood running hot in her veins. Money was just Martha's excuse.  The truth was she would have (Blanked) those men for free.

Mothers, if you really want to be good mothers, tell your daughters the truth.  Do not encourage them to be whores.  I don't think Mathy wanted to be a whore once she learned what a real whore was.  Was she ashamed? I don't know but I do know "whoredom" is the choice she made for me.

The nerve of that "stanking"  bitch! I must laugh.  Every man I would have had "relations" with she took! My mother took my fourteen year old boyfriend and screwed him!  She took my husband.  That's low.  That is exactly what I deserved for still associating with her.  For still casting my pearls before swine, for still smearing lipstick on a pig and calling her a prom queen.  For my intractable stupidity, my determination, my resolve of making a "hoe" into a loving mother.

It can't be done.  If it is not in you, it is not in you.  Low common people can not police themselves.  They live to hurt, they lust after humiliation, yours as well as their own.  You can not reason or compromise with them.  "From such stay away."

Hang around them , know them, you will want to claw your own eyes out.  (Couple in Cherokee Co , Ga savagely raped and murdered twenty-four week old infant/revisit.)

My mother tried to introduce me to "whoredom" at fourteen years old!  With her beat up,  abused , "tor'down" husband!  Dear LORD thank you for sparing me from Down Syndrome of some type of mental slowness.  This whore intended to produce her own brothel.  "The hell you preach satan!"

Stop following this world's order.  Think Critically.  Fear no man.  Seek the LORD, seek Goodness, Joy, righteousness .  "Every thing else will be added unto you."

You can believe that.  GOD said that, He can not lie. Do not fear homemade monsters, silly women taken captive.  Ignorant men and women practicing primitive witchcraft.

Most importantly Praise the LORD!

Only the dumbest, most depraved, intellectually deficient

imp for satan would demand that you follow in her foolish footsteps.  Make her same mistakes.  How can a woman demand that her only daughter become a common whore like her?  Why?  Why would any woman wish whoredom on any woman? Something is wrong!  Something has gone wrong in the body of Christ.

I watched her closely.  Observed her keenly.  Her hands did not shake.  Martha could engage in the most repugnant evil and you would never guess she was capable of such. Martha's evil came directly from satan.  No human being could ever manufacture, could think of such filth.  Martha did it, wanted to do it and you better not ever open your mouth!

 MURDER!  Not only did Martha commit murder, it is called patricide , to kill your own father. The true monster that raged inside Martha would never cross your mind.  Martha's Cheshire smile did not reveal what a hideous monster she truly was.  Of course we didn't know.  Martha was a consummate, brilliant actress.  The hostess with the most and the best liar in the entire world.

Martha put on the best "I love the LORD, saved , sanctified, washed in the blood,  fire baptized" act in the entire  world.  It was an act, all theatre.  I am glad she spared us her true thoughts.  Martha's fruit tells me we didn't want to know.

 She deliberately ruined Christmas, made it the most embarrassing longest two week break on earth.   Not only did she refuse to give us any presents, she demanded gifts from us!  We could not give her enough.  Nothing was good enough, nothing cost enough.  She mocked it, threw it back in my face!  Declaring it not good enough for her.  "I don't use no cheap shit lak that!" Then she would go into this long diatribe of how we had ruined her life!

 I really need therapy.   Years and years of the most disgusting Christmases possible.  (Some one should have cut Mathy's throat.  Someone should have put her out of her misery.)

Only a pompous idiot would refuse to recognize her very selfish, very cruel, very demon plagued "self". And sadly, only the very broken, extremely defeated, most emasculated , would let her.

Only the totally blind and pitiful would let a monster like Martha continue to rule and rob them from the grave.

It is a choice.  It is free will.  Today I thank GOD she made me her scape goat, treated me worse than my fellow "loved ones".  Yes, she used all of us for her sadistic supply.  But thank GOD she concentrated her greatest demonic energy on me.   Only the most extreme evil over far too many years could finally bring me to consciousness.

Am I the only one courageous enough to say I am exceedingly glad she is dead?

GOD is not sadistic! satan is.  My mother was a sadist, one so evil and common , she preached.  Preached carelessly, preached lies and never feared.

"From such stay away."

Praise the LORD!

Merry Christmas!

Give Love at Christmas!

I do thank GOD for another Christmas! I thank Him for knowledge, for experiences, for understanding. In my youth I agonized attempting to  get every one a gift.  I went into debt.  I know now the root cause of my humanness, my lock stepping.  I was  fresh out of college and reminded of my unfortunate "blackness" and feeble mindedness often.   I was trying to earn love.  Trying to impress, to prove I had made it financially.  And some how I knew I was trying to get people to love me that I knew did not care for me.  I knew she didn't care for me.  She said it out loud, often, all day every day.  "Gwen ain't SHIT!  She a viper! She sneaky!"

I did not know at the time Martha knew exactly what she was doing.  She knew she was destroying me emotionally.  This whore plotted my demise from my conception.  What woman arranges the rape of her own children? A DEMON!  What woman buys an expensive robe to preach abominable lies in? A DEMON!

I didn't think I was buying love because my gifts never broke the bank, just kept me in the same "broke" condition I was born in.   Rarely did I get any gifts back.  My relatives always showed great appreciation and surprise while receiving my gifts, never enough to give me a gift back.

I understand. Malignant narcissist are so selfish, giving you a gift never occurs to them.  The reason being, they actually think their rhetoric will suffice.  Plus they always have a long excuse for not having any money for a gift for you.  The unfortunate truth is, they don't want you to have a gift.  If they are mental midgets like my mother, they are looking for any and every  opportunity to make you suffer.

That is an imp.   "From such stay away."


I excused it, over looked it.  I am the only girl , I reasoned.  It wasn't my gender.  It was Martha, my mother taught my brothers, my relatives to hate me.  Why?  That is the way she felt.  What woman, what mother can give her beautiful little daughter away, deliberately plant her in a whore house, then rub that child's face in that filth for sixty-two years?

"You a bastard! Who knew a luddle black bastard like you would finish college!?" Martha said that boldly often, pretending to compliment me.

I do think my mother suffered with a form of retardation.  Her condition was worse than that of any ordinary sinner.  Martha was a horrid woman begging to be put out of her misery.  Unfortunately for her she was so loved, so admired, so looked up to, we refused to see.

Murdering our grandfather was the pink elephant in the room for me.  I understand my brothers had bigger issues they can not face.  It takes courage, you do have to gird up your loins to deal with a monstrosity like Martha.  You must have courage.  You must face that slut , look her directly in her demonic eyes and demand that she sit her repugnant demonic ass down!

This woman had no boundaries.  When a woman can not be shamed, corrected, admonished, criticized, she can not be helped.  You will drown in that cess pool with her.  She is a LIAR.  Worse than a LIAR.  A screaming, feigning, bangee.  When a woman becomes so disrespectful to GOD that she puts all of her energy in some homemade hoodoo in order to practice incest, pedophilia and all types of perversion , you are in trouble.

Your life is going to be rugged.  Thank GOD often.  Thank GOD for every rare moment of peace, perhaps tranquility. Thank GOD for your ability to think critically, clearly.  Clearly this woman is one sick demon.  "From such stay away."

Jesus is the reason for the season.  Christ was not born for us to go into debt trying to impress people that do not and will not ever love us.  "Look at their fruit."

If you know the reason for the season, if you can feel the love of Christ in your heart, Praise the LORD!

You can not afford to be a slow learner.

Catch on just as soon as you can.  What ever you do, hold onto your testicles.  Keep your balls! FEAR NO MAN!  That's from Jesus, straight from His mouth.  Pray!

Dear LORD I pray for all of the innocent children raped and taken advantage of by their own mothers and care givers.  This should not be a secret.  A couple in Cherokee County Georgia savagely raped and murdered a twenty-four week old infant the other day.  (*research/ make a Red Record)   This is not as rare a practice as we want to believe.

Child sexual abuse is rampant!  Vipers like my mother use the "church" and GOD's Word to hide their demonic evil.  They deliberately emasculate their victims in order to evade retribution.  Damned imps they swear that they will get away.  Do remember they are ALL LIARS!   All worthless scum for satan.  They cleverly implicate the "messenger".  I am the snitch.  Very foolish, uneducated people confuse my truth with their phony dishonesty.   They confuse virtue and prudishness.  They insist they are Christians yet they have never read the Bible.

Martha a brilliant viper,  she  prepared for this day the same hour she started vexing and plaguing.

These women, these cruel demon laden "silly women"  are the primary reason men choose men.  Help us Holy Ghost.

Praise the LORD!

I was in the right house, had the wrong …

Dear LORD save me from sin!  Save me from an evil, demonic, psychotic, sadistic mother!   Have mercy on me LORD.  Have mercy on all the remnants of Jerome and Rachel Walters, of Mary Wright  and Artemus Walters.

Reach and teach LORD! Pierce their hearts with your finger of love if it be thy will.

LORD DELIVER US FROM SIN!

When you start practicing witchcraft, playing god, preaching unrepentant and lying, you have gone too far.  You have lost your "cotton'pickin' mind"!  You are not that stupid.  We are not either.  We were conditioned.  We were trauma bonded by you.  We are all suffering with a debilitating case of PTSD!   You are a LIAR! The ultimate coward.  I wish to hell it had occurred to us to ever treat you the way you treated us, the way you treated others.

We should have ganged up on you, stripped your ass naked, torn off a vacuum cleaner cord and beat you to a bloody pulp!  I wonder if the law would have intervened on your behalf? I wonder if you would have changed?

Yes, you took too much stock, you put far too much confidence in your ability to con your own children.  How trifling. You can't blame that on the "man", on racism, sexism, race or color.    You can not blame it on GOD either.

You can not explain your filth away by claiming we are a cursed people. All disobedient people are cursed,  dumb ass!

The truth is I did not know you were actually that common, that evil, that treacherous, that lying, that phony.  No one, or very few knew the real you.  You thought granddaddy did, that is why you murdered him, Did you think getting rid of all of your reminders would change GOD's Truth into a lie?

 I did not know any one was as "common".  I had no reference.  It never crossed my mind.   I certainly can understand why you refused to repent at eighty-seven.  No, you were wrong, you were faithless in GOD.  You were a "silly woman" depraved enough to put her trust in witchcraft, conjure, cursing, vexing, interfering, digging ditches.

Martha you were deliberately ignorant enough to remain a two year old toddler for EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS!

Some people are human gad flys.  Shun them.  Learn from their torture.  NEVER RETREAT! NEVER GIVE UP! Keep heeding God's Word.  Bowl them over with your gifts!  Shine! Strut! Claim! Preach! Teach! Love! Share! Care! Give your closet enemies  something to be jealous of.

None of us have long to be here.  Life is a vapor.  Step on that viper's head.  Get that power! GET THAT HOLY GHOST POWER! Move on! The Victory is Yours!

Praise the LORD!

It's about that life

Life is precious!  All life is precious.  If you don't believe me, please observe an afflicted person.  A person suffering with a debilitating illness.  They struggle.  You can see the tremendous pain in their eyes as they struggle passionately to squeeze every bit of  precious life out of their excruciating pain.  I don't know if it is fear, instinct, natural order or what. We fight our way through the birth canal and many have to fight from their first breath to their last. So much fighting is unnecessary.  You should not have to fight your blood relatives, your loved ones.  We do though.  Something has gone wrong in the Body of Christ.

  Life is precious.  You can not buy an extra day.  Think about it.  Imagine what a great life or how much greater every life could be without the interference of our secret haters.  What if evil doers actually concentrated on self improvement rather than the destruction of people they pretend to love?

They can not be stopped.  Jesus told us to shun them.  If Jesus knew to get away from them, Jesus! And He was GOD!  "Stay 'way from'um!"  That is exactly what my grandfather would say.

Evil doers are always trying to pass off their evil as normal. THEY ARE NOT NORMAL AND THEY SHOULD NOT BE TOLERATED!

____________ you pounded a puppy to death between two bricks! I can not imagine it! I refuse to visualize it.  They let you off. They walked away.  Wrong!  Not the way to handle a future sadistic pervert!

You must observe.  You must remain keenly aware.  Please do not relax and trust because some one claims to love you or  because they are in fact blood kin.  Listen to Jesus! He told us our enemies would be of our own household.  He didn't tell us to hide the fact,  once discovered.   He certainly didn't tell us to fear such a being.

The word is intractable.  Vicious stubbornness. Demon possession.  Well deserved demon possession I might add.  Any time, any woman, any man engages in witchcraft, conjure, voodoo, soothe saying in the Twenty-first Century, you are over your head.  You have stumbled upon some sick repugnant betrayal, some demon possession.  You are going to suffer!

No, satan can not win.  Do not let his whore trick you.  She pretends that "we" are in this together, that "we have to stick together."  That death, our individual death,  is our only hope and salvation.

Martha is a beast.  Visualize her as the viperous imp she is.  The woman beat and raped her own children!  Case closed!  Proceed no further. There is no excuse. Common is common.  You can not defend common.

Age, managing to grow old, to become elderly on this earth,  is no excuse.  As a matter of fact , it makes that demon a worse demon than she already was. How can anyone live eighty-seven years on this earth and never grow, never learn?

 GOD said you would "wax worse and worse."

So! The world is supposed to back down, the entire world should lie and give up in order for you to be right?    So! Just how retarded am I supposed to be?

The LORD Jesus Christ bleed and died on the cross so you could come here and live just like you want  to live!?  Committing incest, pedophilia, perversion, sadistic, vulgar, demonic acts and demanding to get away!?   Always getting your way because you have enough demon possession to make the entire world wish to have never been born.  Because you sound good, look good preaching falsely?  You do not suppose you are the only one intelligent enough to read the Bible, to study GOD's Word?

You are supposed to be thought to be powerful, something to fear because you practice witchcraft? Really!?

No, no one is that cowardly but some are that wicked.

Praise the LORD!

When being cool ...

played out.   Just up and died when it got old,  an evil over burdensome unfair tax .  Overwhelmingly obvious as a curse, a pestilence, a black plague.   And just as obviously  unworthy of love, yet we loved her.  We could not help it because we are human.  I could not help it because I do have The Christ like Spirit.  I do love.  I love to love.  I do trust.  I love to trust.  I wanted a mother.  My mother  preferred to hate me on the sly.  (Oh ye of little faith)

Martha was much too cowardly and perverted to hate any one "honestly".  Martha was going to use her cunning, her charm, flattery, witchcraft, lies, deceit , any and everything in order to win.   Martha was going to win at any cost.  If it cost her,  her life, if she had to burn in purgatory for eternity,  Martha preferred that to GOD's Truth.

Martha was not going to be wrong, out done, or talked about.  If you could not praise her, you better not look like you thought something negative.  Yes, she was negative but you were supposed to be too dumb to notice.  Any foul sexual practices you saw, observed or were subjected to better get erased from your memory real fast.  No, she was never going to admit it but she was going to put on a world scattering show denying it behind your back.  No, she was never going to say a word to you.  Believe it or not Martha hated confrontation also.  It took so much out of her, feigning explosive anger for hours knowing full well that she was putting on, faking.  She was guilty.  Martha was always guilty but she was not about to ever admit it, ever, move on, you have hit a "rock solid rock" of the world's greatest stupidity.  Run! It will devour you, destroy all of your hopes and dreams pretending to love and admire you. 'LOOK AT THEIR FRUIT!!!"
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Martha knew that her jealousy, her insane reactions were wrong but she enjoyed the terror she saw in her victims eyes.  Martha was a SADIST! Full fledged, one in the flesh.  You heard of Marquis De Sadè.   Plus no one stopped her.  She could not be stopped.   She would not be stopped.   Too many actually believed she had power.  She had cruelty.  That is it!  She was common and uncaring.  She was a murderer!  How does anyone stop a demon common enough, treacherous enough, manipulative enough to murder her own father ?  How do you you stop a determined demon?  She was a practitioner of witchcraft.  She was evil.  She dared to preached.  No one stopped her.

Do know she was serving a purpose.  GOD is not stupid or blind.  Trust Him!

Martha was a coward!  That is precisely why she targeted the very young and the very elderly infirm for her most deadly painful acts of revenge.  It was revenge.  I wondered why she accused me of wanting revenge.  "Revenge" for what?  You claimed you had done me no wrong.

Being cool died when I finally accepted the fact I was on the receiving end of a wretched viper that saw no need to change. A creature as addicted to inflicting pain as breathing.  That's sad. A "birth mother" and a" mother"  are not necessarily the same.

Some demons do manage to acquire a license to preach.  They do accomplish their purpose, turning people away from Christ.  I cannot believe they deceive true Christ lovers,  however.

Be ever vigilant in your search for truth, for the path of a true  Christ lover.  Please do not confuse religious ritual with true Christian love.  The white man that risked his life, his reputation, purchasing the sixty-five acres of land for my grandfather was a Christian.  The woman that fought against GOD to bring our family down is revealed in GOD's Word.  GOD dotted every "i", crossed every "t".

We are all being weighed in the balances, we are all found wanting.  None of us are perfect.  Be you will not deliberately hate and smear my name, my grandfather's name, die lying and cursing, die leaving everyone one holding your garbage, your unrepentant filth.  GOD said No!


My grandfather took in, nurtured the "illegitimate children" his daughter dropped off.  Was he wrong permitting  her to take us away at ages four and five?  Did he know, could he know that she would molest and abuse us  horribly right under his watchful eyes ?  Was he living in denial? Hope?

No, some wickedness can not be expected.  Some evil is beyond human comprehension.  Martha Jane Walters did possess that type of sorry evil.  While her evil was extremely demonic she was much too cowardly to practice it beyond her personal reach.  She could never be a Donald Trump.

I notice they practice the exact same techniques.  Hillary Clinton clearly said that Trump's  rhetoric was being used as a tool to attract jihadist.  Old serpent toothed Donald immediately adds his spin about the "video". She never used the word video, not once.  The media takes the bait, pretends he is a decent man asking a legitimate question.

My mother did the exact same type of evil.  She said,  I said **** and ***** did not have the same daddy.  They don't!  I don't know if I said it or not.  I know she made many people hate me, pre-judge and pre-despise me based on her deliberate lies.  Martha needed an alibi.  She had to explain the absences of her most "successful" children.  So what does a liar do ? Lie of course

Martha was a Carnival Barker, the life of the party, unfortunately , it was just a matter of time before she turned ravenous, plotted against you.  "From such stay away."

 It is true, many in my "family" prefer her over me.   So what!  Any one wanting to hate me on the strength of any thing that (blank) had to say about me, so be it.

I know evil can't win.  I know when a woman plans to vex her own family, her daughter,  for a life time,  they better plan an exit strategy.

What are you going to do?  to say ? when you get caught?  You are going to get caught.  It is  impossible to not get caught.  Plus, how can you be dumb enough, ignorant enough, depraved enough to use primitive "hoodoo" against Almighty GOD!?

"The wicked fleeth  when no one pursueth."  Mathy you got away with your den of iniquity.  You got away with murdering your own father.   But, you were ravenous.  You just could not leave well enough alone.  You had to keep vexing.  GOD sent that "boy"" back.  Sent him back just as "addle brained" as you had made him.

You laughed.  You spread more deplorable lies in search of sympathy. You never feared, you never cared.  satan betraying you , never occurred to you.

Martha your serious unrelenting,  stalking, hunting me, betrayed you.  When caught,  your reaction was no less than extremely demonic.

The beauty, the silver lining, was your sick torture made me seek the LORD! Praise the LORD!

Martha your inhumane treatment forced me to study GOD's Word.  In my quest for some comfort, some understanding I discovered you, you Jezebel, Cain, Saul, Absalom spirited creature.
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JESUS told us from such stay away.

Praise the LORD!

Get out of GOD's Way! Ludacris - Move B***H ft. Mystikal, I-20

Your arms are too short to box with GOD.

My mother lived eighty-seven years,  evil.  Evil! Treacherous, untrustworthy.  A silly woman taken captive.  A woman that knew she was wrong but always remained too proud, too puffed up with pride to change.

People are going to believe what they want to .  Jealous haters are going to pretend to be blind, are going to deliberately hinder you just as long as you permit.

I would be a fool to pretend to not notice how tremendously evil my mother was.  She was truly a sadistic person.  What she got out of it I will never know.  She did not know.  She did in fact disgust herself.  Never enough to stop or slow down.  Just enough to rage and vex you more than she normally would if you dared to criticize her or give her the side eye.

Our best solution was to move hundreds of miles away.  You needed distance from Martha.  She was a bored lazy demon.  You fared better living beyond her interfering destroying reach. She was still poisonous, just not as deadly.  (So I thought)

Martha claimed she could not help herself.  It was your fault for letting her. Unfortunately Martha left us no alternative.  She was corrupt and foul with enough good manners to pretend to be something she never had any desire to be, good, righteous, honest.  According to Martha the only people that believed in honestly, living right, righteousness, were stupid.

Stupid, "no sense-ed,  like her dad."  While I watched my mother drive up in her big car demanding  my granddaddy give her money every month,  she was never kind or reciprocal to him.  Martha had a chip on her shoulder, a nasty attitude.  She did think she was the finest woman ever born.  Not only did she consider her physical beauty to be the best she considered herself to be the most intelligent.  The worst condition Martha suffered from was her tremendous selfish ignorance.  The idea of any one being as attractive, as intelligent caused Martha to rage, to go to her bootleg homemade hoodoo alter.

Delusion never occurred to her.  Martha did study the Bible, not one time for self improvement,   always for manipulation, for the enslavement and entrapment of others.  That is using GOD's name in vain.

Don't do it.  If you know someone that hollers LORD,  LORD,  LORD loudly while living a despicable unrepentant life, from such stay away.

Any one still confusing cussing, foul language with the demonic activity (cursing)  that kept my mother preoccupied for eighty-seven years,  deserves to suffer.

Study to show yourself approved.

Praise the LORD!

"A little learning is a ...

dangerous thing."

My mother was a sorry imp.  Knew just enough voodoo to plague her own family .  Never had the gumption, the nerve, the courage to take her evil past the loved ones forced to endure her.

I grew into maturity rapidly.  I had to.  My "mother" and her second husband were no joke. How many children are born into the arms of a child molester? A pervert? A closet demon?  How many people are actually dumb enough, depraved enough to employ black magic to influence someone else's life because they are jealous?

It must be frequent.  GOD's Word refers to it much too often. He warned us the evil one would take silly women captive. Any woman haunting graveyards for power is a "silly woman".  I pray for you.  Pray for yourself.  Save yourself.  Most people are just as simple, just as blind.  Leave them.  "From such stay away."

GOD can and will pierce the hearts of His children.  Evil doers know they are evildoers.  Evil greedy corporations and banks fleecing  hard working people through predatory loans.

Most people suffer with some form of pain.  Physical or mental,  most people go in and out of pain trying to survive this bitter earth.

My mother taught me that we live in a dog eat dog world.  Perhaps we do but that does not require every one to act like a dog.  That certainly does not force anyone to fake loving Jesus.  If you don't love, can't love Jesus, leave Jesus alone.  Leave His children alone.  Do not tarnish GOD's brand with your filth.  If you do not believe, don't play with Him.  Do not count Him as too slow.  This is GOD's World.  You are a mere piss ant.

Don't you ever think GOD is going to ever let any closet demon get away with MURDERING and torturing His children.

Caution evildoer, the fact that you think you have escaped retribution for your sick deeds is a lie. Your guilt is written all over you.  Don't rage against me because I possess good sense.  Why do you scream a lie, blatant ridiculous lies! ?   Your vulgar buffoonery does not make you appear less guilty.  Your "preaching" does not convince me that you are saved or love the LORD.  Your Bible quoting merely means you pick up your Bible from time to time looking for some scripture to hide behind.  Good luck.

Still ignorant, still selfish, still trying to destroy.  Still trying to garner sympathy for your selfish cause.  You know no one is going to speak against you to your face.  You are too ferocious. The ensuing fight is not worth it it.  The homemade hoodoo root is not worth the risk.

You are dead now.  What did you get?  The list of all that you ruined, the people, the ideas, the dreams, is much too long to enumerate.  But, what did you get?

Your extremely demonic behavior forced me to seek the LORD! Thank you!

Praise the LORD!

Attention all cat lovers

Some of us call ourselves cat owners or "cat havers". "I have two cats." The truth is you never own or have a cat. That cat has you.

Test: Do you dare buy off brand food you know your cat refuses to eat? Do you make sure their food bowl is spotless? Do you filter their water?

Do you shun non cat lovers? Do you ask yourself; "what kind of person hates cats?"

My cat hating friends claim it is because they claim cats are sneaky. Cats are not sneaky, they are cautious , intelligent. We can all learn a lot from the instinctive cautious behavior of a cat.

Praise the LORD!

Some glad morning ...

we will not have to listen to evil doers.  We will not have to tolerate them, be intimidated.  We will not have to stomach their vexing.  Praise the LORD they will have to stop.

I so understand why Jesus had to leave the multitude so many times.  I understand why he had to go "Yonder" and pray.  Not only is blatant evil a choice, it is the most popular choice.

"Thou shalt not lie."  is the commandment.   Lying is probably the most ignored commandment of all ten.  Why do people lie?  They claim fear.  Perhaps.  How long will you lie?  How long are you willing to live a blatant lie?  Forever isn't long enough for some people.

Why try to impress a potential mate with lies about your credentials?  How  can you build a relationship with any one based on lies?

"I thought you wouldn't like me.  I didn't think I was good enough." ; may be the answers of the humble but a demonic fool will spray you with insults about your color, about what they claim is wrong with you.  Do know that is the defense of an impish fool.   "From such stay away."

 Do you not recognize that you are a liar?  The lies you tell designed to manipulate others to think more highly of you than they should,  is actually your issue.  One of the symptoms of childhood trauma is pathological lying.  I think it begins as a defense mechanism.  I understand.  There are some things that happened to me that i have shut out, can't face.  I do suffer with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

I did well!  It is only by the grace of GOD I am not a snaggle toothed "Lot lizard".  That is what my mother wanted for me.  The idea, the thought, delighted her.  She wished it on me.  For what!?

She was the slut! Guilt.  It was the guilt she carried for all of her filth.  Filth she committed foolishly.  Filth she had to hide.  When it is easier for you to lay your guilt at the foot of the innocent in order for you to escape the retribution you know you are due, you are a reprobate.  GOD has released you over to a reprobate mind!

You do not have to be tolerated.  You should not be tolerated.  GOD's elect should turn the tables on you, turn and rend you.  You are a no mannered monster.  You are a wild rhino! You need a bullet dead between the eyes.  You are worthless as a human being.  You  came to make trouble, to thwart, to spoil, to destroy.

You did.  You did all you could.  Not only were you a low immoral pervert, you compounded your repugnance by being a coward.  A pathological liar that never learned to tell the truth about any thing , ever.  Liars, all liars clearly demonstrate their weak faith by lying.

If you are a human being that does not, can not, will not, has no interest in serving the LORD, why go to church?  Why smear GOD's image?  Did or did you not violate your young children sexually, physically, emotionally, spiritually and financially because you were a jealous imp? True or false?

When you got old, when you knew the possibilities of getting any older were rare you still lied didn't you?  What happened to all that bravado? What happened to your hoodoo?  You reasoned in your head that you would not care once you were dead.  Lies.  All lies from satan.  Your name will rot.  Your "loved ones" will question, will wonder about you.  You will be hated.  You knew that.  You knew when you deliberately did what you did, every time you did what you did,  that you would be hated.  You did it any way.  You lacked self discipline, personal restraint., common sense, dignity.  You were a common criminal, a thief.  You resisted knowledge, ignored GOD's truth.  You did live your life your way.  You feigned ignorance.  You were the "two dollar whore" you accused every woman you every knew of being.

The saddest fact of all,  only a true mother would let her child tell her such crap.  For some reason most mothers can see no wrong regarding their child. My child is perfect. Perhaps love can blind you, but not forever.

  Another imp squalls; "Let her rest in peace!" ; motivated more out of self preservation than love.  Why can't you see, know, recognize, there is no hiding place dow here?

Why do you think your lack of a college degree matters?  If a degree is that important to you, earn one.  Don't get jealous, behave like a two year old and attempt to hurt the person you are secretly jealous of.  If you suffer with extreme envy, jealousy, do something about that.

The more you lie, the more you have to lie.  the more you have to lie,  the more you condemn and hate yourself.  Pray for the courage to stop lying.  Pray to come to the truth.  I am finally coming into my truth.  Finally embracing the fact that I was made a cowardly imp  by my own mother.  It was easier and more preferable for her to enslave and abuse me than it was to love me.

She was a woman of very low morals, a pathological liar, a sadistic whore.  She finally died.

Praise the LORD!

A ribbon in the sky

I used to tell my students there was a governmental conspiracy against them, a scheme designed to enslave them, to keep us enslaved.  The public school system discourages, actually eviscerates and destroys any hope of critical thinking.

The fastest growing industry in America is the prison system.  America already leads the world in incarcerations. Black  people go to jail more than any other group.  Is it disproportionate? Really? I taught for thirty years.   Some people use their "color" as a crutch.  Some people feel entitled  to gifts they have not earned.  Some people are just jealous haters.

As a parent, I would not put my child in a public school today. In our present institutions students are taught, encouraged and rewarded for lock stepping like blind drones.

The fact is "Critical Thinking" can not be taught.  The willing blind are blind willingly, on purpose.  Most slaves just gave up.  Became content with a nice side of fatback (streak-o-lean), grits, sugar, sweet potatoes, molasses, cornmeal, a roof and shirking work.  Pretending to work a lot harder than they actually would have , pretending to be more loyal to the master than any of the other "slaves.  Many were up to mischief, hilarious mischief. (I read all forty-eight volumes of slave narratives.)

It doesn't matter. The evil doer gets nothing.  Sure my mother clapped her hands, mesmerized and perhaps impressed fellow evil doers.  At some point we all grew.  At some point we all came to learn that Martha was noting but evil.

To say we must remain silent out of fear is no longer plausible.  She's dead.  What are you still afraid of?

Don't be like Martha.  Martha refused to look at herself.  That was trifling.  Good manners are free.

Praise the LORD!

Stevie Wonder - Don't You Worry 'Bout a Thing

My mother very deliberately weighed the cost and decided to enslave us any way.  My mother taught us the greatest and most grievous evil we could ever commit was defending ourselves against her.  That included "snitching"; revealing anything about the real Mathy Jane. The real Mathy Jane was a hideous monster that had to be kept hidden, kept secret for the sake of the family name.  Plus, she was too disgusting to be discussed any where,  at any time.  She was a human cyclone always rushing in unwelcome, tearing up, up rooting and destroying. Loud! Country! Ignorant! Crude! Vulgar!

The methodology  we employed for protection against my mother was not  the wrong one, just the only one.  What could we do?  Martha had to be endured in order for us to learn.  There was no precedent in my family to refer to.

Martha Jane Walters was not to be deterred, prevented, thwarted, denied.  Martha was a woman scorned and she was going to burn.   She was going to burn the innocent secretly and feign innocence.  She was going go burn inwardly with deep insane jealousy.  And she is going to burn in hell for eternity for her extremely long protracted unnecessary evil.

 Yes many innocent children would get burned by fire, scalding, branding.  Did Martha feel better afterward?  Yes she did.  Getting away with abominable , unnecessary,  unproductive evil thrilled Martha.  She was an imp.  She did not want much.  Martha just demanded to ruin.  She felt that GOD let her get ruined , therefore she should ruin.  She could not ruin effectively being her honest evil self , so she became something so despicable,  she had to refuse  self examination for eighty-seven years.

For sixty-two years Martha made me feel like David and she was my Saul.  GOD protected me from her evil, kept me and mine in  His loving protective arms.

"Know thyself! " "To thine self be true."

No matter what, no matter what condition your "condition" is in , Praise the LORD!

You will know

"You lefin' here!"  "We all got to go someday …didn't come here to stay always" -JR Walters.

The most grievous pain our mother made us suffer was the fact she knew better.  No one can so cleverly hide their dastardly evil deeds so long without being fully aware of how gross and despicable she is.

No wonder Martha was so full of hatred.  No wonder she sought such terrific retribution on the innocent.  No wonder no decent man would have her.

Be a reprobate if you want to.  You will have to get up and grace your mirror ever day.  You will have to look deep into the eyes of the world's greatest liar!   Greatest pervert!  Greatest pedophile!  Greatest serial rapist!  Greatest secret sadist!  Greatest murderer!   You will be the one carrying the burden of far exceeding the limits of common decency and demanding the right to preach UNREPENTANT! UNWASHED! UNASHAMED! UNRECOGNIZED AS THE LOWEST DEMON POSSESSED WOMAN THAT EVER LIVED!   Not only do you insist on preaching.  You demand to preach wrong!  You demand to lead GOD's innocent children into captivity.   You are such a delusional little blowfly you demand silence, cover, cloaking!  For what!?

What did you ever do for me, for any one?  Martha you slithered on this earth for eighty-seven years making this world more  miserable than it was before you were born.  Your deliberate refusal to repent does not make you innocent.  It does not erase your abominable sins.  It does doom your many victims to languish in  the same torturous hell you volunteered to wallow in until they finally expire.    Your supporters will meet you in hell.  You all deserve to be together in eternity.

GOD maketh not ashamed.  Only cowards belong to the evil one.  You are despicable.  It really doesn't take much courage to invoke the name Jesus!  It doesn't require a great deal of intelligence to believe in Him, to step out on faith proclaiming His love, His victory over evil.

I am so glad, I praise the LORD for removing my blinders just in time.

Praise the LORD!

WTF?

My mother always  excused her  evil by blaming our stupidity.  "Well …shit! Ya'll let me do it! Shit it's yo'fault …you the fool!"

Seriously!?  We let her get away that.   Fully enslaved, tightly tethered, what could we do?  We  accepted that poor, extremely selfish, ignorant excuse for a condition we did not know we were suffering from. Collective cowardice.  The exact same kind of fear that kept millions of docile slaves on plantations with very few overseers.

 Collective cowardice is unacceptable.  It is hell on earth.  It is vexation of the bones.  The saddest fact that must be faced is the fact Martha knew better.  She was just an evil hateful whore. A selfish ignorant whore that missed her opportunity for any hint at success due to her extreme promiscuity and just "triflingness".   Just another lazy whore that demanded to be worshipped, adored, for the color of her skin.

Poor Martha was an ignorant piss ant that demanded to be our god.  Just how retarded do we have to pretend to be before we hate ourselves?  How long must we be made to suffer before we have no self respect?  No money?   How long must we suffer in misery for this unrepentant whore's mistakes?

How low, cold and common is this bitch?  She cold blooded shot her own dear wonderful father in the heart!  Her hand did not so much as shake.  How evil do you have to be to do such?  You have to be a person that will smash a puppy, scald a toddler, burn, maim, assault, RAPE!   You have to be a female serial rapist!  You have to be a total imp for satan.  You have to be a woman low enough to literally slither up into a pulpit,  deliberately preaching falsely, deliberately continue to blame the innocent.  You must continue to be something so foul you return to your den of iniquity lying, laughing, pretending you are proud to do the bidding of the evil one.

Worse, how evil do you have to be to be able to hide such filth so successfully for eighty-seven years?   You must be a mongrel! A human maggot!  A MONSTROSITY!  You must be so disgusting you are too repulsed  to look at yourself.  "From such stay away."

No matter how great the evil doer.  No matter how long, protracted and successful her madness, GOD has a Plan.  It is all in Divine Order!

Praise the LORD!

Ponder this ...

our most precious and priceless gifts are free.   Truth, honesty, righteousness, virtue, natural beauty.  As I continue to peel back the layers of my mother's complicated deplorable life,  I grow more aware of GOD's loving arms.  I understand His guidance, His leanings, His call.  This communication can not be thwarted by the evildoer.  Nor understood.

My mother waged a secret devious war with me the moment I was conceived.  No, I know it was never just me, it was the entire world.  Was she really that stupid?  I doubt it.  Just that stubborn, that full of pride.  It did not help that she was the wedge between her parents.  Groomed to be manipulative and sly.

Plus, there were just too many secrets.  Fortunately for me this world has outgrown that fake Victorian modesty.  Born today Martha would have felt very comfortable (hopefully).  I do think her rape (rapes) triggered all of this trauma.  Families should not lie.  Men and women should not rape and molest children.  If they do they should be executed!  Right there on the spot.  Of course that is my human reaction.

Christ has a way of using that pain, using that abuser and her abused to serve His purpose. To teach, to bridge gaps, to heal the broken.  When I started my journey I thought I was the only person in the entire world with such a "problem" as mine, a demon possessed, ravenous viper mother.

I consider myself a good woman that tried to save herself for a good man.  I prayed for a good man but color coded what I would accept.  Why did I lock myself out of the banquet? Man taught me I could only have the crumbs.  My mother so deliberately crippled me I was glad to collect the garbage.  Dumb woman,  quit being a dumb whore at some point in your life!

It saddens me to report, the Martha Jane Walters of this world are prolific!  It is disgusting!  We are living in modern day Sodom and Gomorrah.  You laugh until it knocks on your door.  It is not funny when you find yourself married to a closet flaming homosexual so delusional he targeted you.

Is it a good thing I learned to be my own best friend?  Learned to live the life of a survivalist. With my mother, it was, "me or nothing".  We had to accept her!  We were dependent children.  Worse than being innocent dependent children, WE WERE BLACK!  ****! Just ****ing die already! No one will ever care!  Where are those little African school girls,  kidnapped?  Why are small children forced to become savage murdering "soldiers" for someone's lost cause?  Why does the richest and largest continent in the entire world have the most poverty?  Why are so many people forced to live the most disgusting lives?  Color coding! Racism! Demonic racism, assigning value to skin color, eye color , hair texture.

Good enough! It is obvious to any human being that GOD is not concerned with race, ethnicity, or religion.  Demanding to kill innocent people based on your religion is not "religious".    It does not line up with any "religion's" book of knowledge.

You are lock stepping.  You are an unthinking flying monkey.  My mother's entire eighty-seven year experience, her entire long reign of filth, of demon possession depended on her flying monkeys.  She thought she was winning.  She was losing.  Martha Jane Walters had to be endured.  How else could we learn such evil possible?  How can the world learn what danger we are in?

When the likes of Donald Trump is sitting on the precipice of world rule ,  when his  ravenous mouth is salivating to become President of the United States!  When the masses are dumb, blind, greedy, flying monkeys, we are in trouble.

"Come Jesus"

There are far too many people on this earth that are pushy pathetic  parasites.  LORD please never let me become a pushy pathetic parasite.  Deliver me from evil.

The primary reason we have so many men and women exactly like my mother is fear.  Trauma bonding. A society that does not care.  Extremely poor institutions masquerading as school systems run by uncaring adults,  masquerading as educators, care givers.

Bottom line, we will get the government, the world, the life, we deserve.  The ignorant evildoer insists on flaunting her power,  doing the will of her father (satan) .  She never counts the cost.  So excited by her ability and deliriously satisfying her sadistic supply , she lives in her imagination.  The silly woman taken captive drives  a second hand Cadillac and pretends to be a queen.  Only the weakest of the weak, the most  deprived of the most deprived,  still fawn over her.  Still flatter her, still compliment her color more than she does. Blind sheep. "From such stay away."

This woman is so wicked, so harmful, you can not bear to know her.  You can not recognize her without crumbling into pieces.  "Gird up your loins"  This monster must be faced, lest she take over.  This monster is out of control.  She refuses to so much as self regulate.  She will not kill herself.  That would be too kind.  Notice, she readily murders, aborts freely.  Creeps into destroy, flashing her serpentine smile.  Always grinning, flattering, always bearing gifts. .  Never forget Judas planted a big juicy kiss on Jesus.

 "From such stay away".  Do not whine; "But, she is my MOTHER!"

"Grid up your loins"  Be motherless.  "When your mother and father forsake you, I will pick you up."

 Count the cost.  Count the collateral damage.  Recognize she was not worth it. She should have been put away that first day.  The day she smashed that puppy , this world should have been spared. We were not spared.  We endured.

This world must know.  The town criers of this world must tell!  These monsters must not be kept secret.  No one should remain the victim of a dead demon.  That is ungodly.  That is deliberately choosing the wrong for the right.  That is deliberately siding with satan in GOD's face, in open view of the entire world.  You can no longer claim your terrorizing fear.  She can not tie you up, strip you naked, gag and beat you unmercifully any more.  Pray!  Pray that Almighty GOD will restore the manhood your mother stole from you.

Pray for freedom from your excruciating private pain.  You do not have to endure it any longer.  Your tormentors finally dead. Celebrate! Get up out of that pit she sealed you in. There is no excuse because salvation is free.  It is a choice.

You can not help your drowning brother if you throw him a life saver and he throws it back.  GOD is real.  Prayer is real.  It is all in Divine Order.

Praise the LORD!

"Keep some sunshine on your face."

I so identify with Ray Charles. Both bastards, both fiercely independent. He  had a good mother. She died young.

I had no mother, just some ignorant beast cunning enough to live too long as a fake ass preacher.

My mother did love music. I am glad she never deprived us of good music.

Praise the LORD!

It's Christmas!

What you do for Christ will last. Frivolous, mediocre things you do for phony hypocritical man will perish.  Line up with the wrong doers, the hate mongers because it is popular.  You will lose.

Jesus Christ was crucified, sacrificed for our sins.  How dare you refuse to repent!  How dare you reject His sacrifice for you.  Have you ever pondered how long eternity is? Were you really that vain?  Based on what?  Did you really ever derive any pleasure from the sick acts you engaged in?  Was it worth it?

Were you never ashamed to be a liar?  Did you really believe you could engage in a full fledged secret war  against GOD ?  Did you want all of us to lose,  so much,  that you volunteered  to destroy yourself?  Was your self-esteem so low that treachery, destruction and deceit were your only choices?

Why couldn't you come to grips with yourself?  Why couldn't you see, admit what a horrid viper you allowed yourself to become? PRIDE! "Pride goeth before a fall."

Please do not blame the stupidity of your victims as justification for your abominable evil.  The best thing you ever did was reveal GOD's word is spot on!  2 Timothy 3, is perfect!  You are identified.  Our world is described and identified.  Men will become lovers of themselves, vipers.  You became a viper in the flesh!

"From such stay away!"

I think the biblical scholars left the exclamation point out.

Praise the LORD!

In all thy getting, get ...

understanding.  Believe what ever you want to believe but have a reason.  Be able to defend your decision.  Don't claim that you believe something because that is what every one else believes.  Do NOT consider something to be your opinion if  it is something screamed at you, beat into you by your horrible whore of a mother.

My mother always claimed that "black men (*******) weren't shit!"  She really meant it.  Claimed that they were all extremely whorish.  "A ******* will **** a snake if somebody hold his head."  No, it never occurred to me that she was confessing, bragging or describing herself.

Being extremely immoral and cruel is a choice.  My mother always played the poor victim. A woman left all alone, abandoned by her lovers , for no cause of her own.  The truth is , Martha should have been incarcerated in some institution for her entire long life.

Martha Jane Walters was a viper!  She had no manners, no respect.  She was an animal.  There was a very brief blip on the "News".   A man was arrested for murdering his girlfriend's twenty-four week old infant daughter (Atlanta, 12/15/2015).  He savagely raped her. ( I refuse to describe)  I know something of that nature was done to me.  I can not recall if specifically.  My body knows.

That is how much my mother hated me.  I embarrassed her.  No man wanted to marry her.  Martha was a known whore.  Did she blame her childhood rape? Did she blame her father? Apparently. She hated him enough to murder him successfully, to brag about her first attempt when she was sixteen.

The most heartbreaking aspect of my whole ordeal,  is the fact my "mother" chose to curse me like a dog at age eighty-seven.  She knew she was on her deathbed.   Martha left here as ignorant and arrogant as she lived.  She was a sexual beast that actually felt she had the right to be because of the color of her skin! Because she called her hair "Jesus grass"!    A serial rapist that took sexual liberties with her own sons.  Yes, Martha was the sickest of whores.  Do not ever forget it is a choice.

We all must repent of our sins. That is why GOD teaches us the value of truth, honesty, justice,  in His scripture.  How can a woman call herself a preacher and disrespect GOD with the foulest, filthiest, lowest common acts?  It is a choice.

I do believe Martha really did believe in that color coding nonsense.  And she did seem to believe it was sanctioned by GOD.  She also believed in gleaming graves for demonic power by invoking ;"In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost!"

That one act alone,  is proof of Martha's deep delusions , demon possession.  Satan will take silly women captive.  My mother was a silly woman and she was taken captive.  She was too dangerous however.  Rape is not an act that can be ignored.  Every one in my family gets a zero for morality.  You do not hide demonic sex perverts!  At least warn somebody! Put a bell on the *****! I warned my daughter about my mother's last husband.  I kept an eagle eye on his ass.  Why did I tolerate him?  Too much drama.  I held on to hope.  Yes, I should have known better but I had to see it through. I had to carry this journey out to the end.  Like a bad movie that you want desperately to have an happy ending.  Sometimes we do not get an happy ending no matter how long we wait.

Turning a blind eye to these monsters, out of a need to appear normal,  is no longer valid.  That monstrosity is dead.  She can not win.  Well, she can't win over me.  GOD is good.  I could not comprehend my truth. I had no help.  When I told,  every one ran from me , like I'm the pervert.

My "mother", her husband, her many lovers, were all deeply perverted pedophiles, homosexuals and demon possessed vipers.

GOD said No!  Martha went too far when she shot her innocent father in the heart, stole his mantel, preached falsely and targeted me for sixty-two years with her filthy lying mouth.

If you can't read the entire Bible, skip to the back of the Book,   satan loses.

Praise the LORD!

P.S.
satan will make a fool out of you.  My "mother' roared at us, carried on like a savage bangy if she didn't get her way.  Unfortunately giving her, her way, always ended up in our excruciating pain.  She never changed.  News flash! No one is that fine, that desirable, that skillful of a liar.  No one is that conceited either.  Martha knew.

No one can use terror to get their abominable perverted way forever.  When a man or woman is found to be filthy perverted vermin, that is what they are.  "You can not put lipstick on a hog and call her a prom queen."   I will not cloak for such filth.  The fact she was my mother was merely an accident of birth.

The fact Martha had such a long successful run is our fault, our weak faith, our collective stupidity.