The worse thing a person can be ...

is a sneaky troll, a predatory viper that targets her own family.  Nothing can hurt you more than to finally accept the fact your own mother was your worse enemy for sixty-two years!  It is bone crushing to know a woman would allow herself to become a human maggot.

Yes, I do have CPTSD (Chronic Post Traumatic Stress Disorder), well earned I might add.

"My GOD from Zion!" A PERVERT! My mother was a PERVERT,  that wanted to be a pervert, that loved being a pervert and hated Almighty  GOD for forbidding her.

I don't know exactly how to describe this, I do not have an applicable word for it yet.  Some how I always knew.  There was something in my gut, in the recesses of my mind that told me this woman was extremely dangerous.  No, it wasn't just the brutality and torrential rages and rants, the curses and abuse.  There was something that I sensed, felt deeply , but could not put my finger on.

One of the last times I had any interaction with her face to face was in 2008.  We were traveling in her Cadillac through rural Cumberland County, North Carolina.   We rounded the bend and my mother pointed out Charity's Hill.  My mother recounted the story of this woman named Charity that murdered her husband and picked his brains out of his skull with scissors eating his flesh.  The woman horrified the community  and became famous because she ate her husband's brain.

I remember the look in my mother's eyes were those of horror.   I got the impression  she was recognizing herself, realizing she was just as demonic.  If was as if she was admitting that she was horrified of herself, deeply ashamed of what she became in life.   That she knew full well what and who she was but she was going to ride it out lying, raging and committing every demonic act she could before death took her.  And she did.  Repentance, Mathy said hell know.

My brothers demand that I permit her to Rest In Peace.  Read your Bible you vacuous, emasculated eunuchs. "Except ye REPENT!"  YOU KNOW FULL WELL SHE REFUSED REPENTANCE!  You know she cursed GOD!  All of you know full well she MURDERED OUR GRANDFATHER!

What kind of men are you?

You are all men of very low character.   None of you, not one of you is dumb enough, blind enough to believe for  one moment MARTHA JANE WALTERS was a good person, ever.

Sure she did some good things, some times.  Never was she motivated by true love or caring.  Martha was a predator, tried her best to make us all predators.  She did saturate me in fear but never enough to use other people.  Never enough to stop loving, to stop living.

She did keep hope alive in my heart.  I did so hope that one day she would finally change.  It never happened.

"Honor thy mother."  Is the scripture she taught you.  If you are too dumb, too lazy,  to read the rest of that passage perhaps you deserve to suffer.

"As for me and my house, we will  serve the LORD."

"Many are called, few are chosen."  All five of you sure prove that scripture is true.

Better luck in your next life.

Praise the LORD!