I so understand why Jesus had to leave the multitude so many times. I understand why he had to go "Yonder" and pray. Not only is blatant evil a choice, it is the most popular choice.
"Thou shalt not lie." is the commandment. Lying is probably the most ignored commandment of all ten. Why do people lie? They claim fear. Perhaps. How long will you lie? How long are you willing to live a blatant lie? Forever isn't long enough for some people.
Why try to impress a potential mate with lies about your credentials? How can you build a relationship with any one based on lies?
"I thought you wouldn't like me. I didn't think I was good enough." ; may be the answers of the humble but a demonic fool will spray you with insults about your color, about what they claim is wrong with you. Do know that is the defense of an impish fool. "From such stay away."
Do you not recognize that you are a liar? The lies you tell designed to manipulate others to think more highly of you than they should, is actually your issue. One of the symptoms of childhood trauma is pathological lying. I think it begins as a defense mechanism. I understand. There are some things that happened to me that i have shut out, can't face. I do suffer with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
I did well! It is only by the grace of GOD I am not a snaggle toothed "Lot lizard". That is what my mother wanted for me. The idea, the thought, delighted her. She wished it on me. For what!?
She was the slut! Guilt. It was the guilt she carried for all of her filth. Filth she committed foolishly. Filth she had to hide. When it is easier for you to lay your guilt at the foot of the innocent in order for you to escape the retribution you know you are due, you are a reprobate. GOD has released you over to a reprobate mind!
You do not have to be tolerated. You should not be tolerated. GOD's elect should turn the tables on you, turn and rend you. You are a no mannered monster. You are a wild rhino! You need a bullet dead between the eyes. You are worthless as a human being. You came to make trouble, to thwart, to spoil, to destroy.
If you are a human being that does not, can not, will not, has no interest in serving the LORD, why go to church? Why smear GOD's image? Did or did you not violate your young children sexually, physically, emotionally, spiritually and financially because you were a jealous imp? True or false?
When you got old, when you knew the possibilities of getting any older were rare you still lied didn't you? What happened to all that bravado? What happened to your hoodoo? You reasoned in your head that you would not care once you were dead. Lies. All lies from satan. Your name will rot. Your "loved ones" will question, will wonder about you. You will be hated. You knew that. You knew when you deliberately did what you did, every time you did what you did, that you would be hated. You did it any way. You lacked self discipline, personal restraint., common sense, dignity. You were a common criminal, a thief. You resisted knowledge, ignored GOD's truth. You did live your life your way. You feigned ignorance. You were the "two dollar whore" you accused every woman you every knew of being.
The saddest fact of all, only a true mother would let her child tell her such crap. For some reason most mothers can see no wrong regarding their child. My child is perfect. Perhaps love can blind you, but not forever.
Another imp squalls; "Let her rest in peace!" ; motivated more out of self preservation than love. Why can't you see, know, recognize, there is no hiding place dow here?
Why do you think your lack of a college degree matters? If a degree is that important to you, earn one. Don't get jealous, behave like a two year old and attempt to hurt the person you are secretly jealous of. If you suffer with extreme envy, jealousy, do something about that.
The more you lie, the more you have to lie. the more you have to lie, the more you condemn and hate yourself. Pray for the courage to stop lying. Pray to come to the truth. I am finally coming into my truth. Finally embracing the fact that I was made a cowardly imp by my own mother. It was easier and more preferable for her to enslave and abuse me than it was to love me.
She was a woman of very low morals, a pathological liar, a sadistic whore. She finally died.
Praise the LORD!
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