Dragnet

It took a dragnet for me to catch my mother.  No, it wasn't that she was nearly as brilliant as she claimed to be.  It wasn't that her demonic voodoo and conjure was nearly perfect.  The fact is she was beyond common, far exceeded and surpassed any known form of protracted cruelty.

Martha Jane Walters was ****ed Up!  She should have been murdered.  She deserved to be executed so many times.  When you become something so horrible people refuse to recognize how despicable you are,   when people choose to just walk away because you are a mongrel.  I finally had to admit what no one had the coruage to ever tell me, to say aloud.  Martha Jane Walters was a MONSTROSITY!  A mongrel homemade monster that GOD warned us was coming.

Praise the LORD! Praise the LORD! I was barely eight years old, standing there bleeding and hurting from the deeds of my sick , sadistic, demonic, ignorant, whorish ass, common ass, scum dog of a mother, and her "husband"  had done to me,  crying, screaming; "I'm gon' tell GOD on you!"  This "stanking", illiterate, retarded, immoral prostitute whore, standing their  yelling back; "YOU AIN'T TELLIN' SHIT!"

Lies you tell "stanking" bitch!  You were never that dumb!  You are a liar! You never felt that  sex  was that good.  That is the bullshit you sold my brothers.  What a low whore you are!  How many women are really like you?

satan convinced your dumb ass to move up in the Church.  Commit you sick repugnant perversions all week long and just move into the Church every Sunday. Just stay all day! Never miss a Sundy.  Look religious.  Look and act the part.   Sunday school, Service that never ended, evening service, conferences, church, church, church.   We had to languish there, live there , with you,  with your greedy whorish immoral ass. Bitch! You dumb ass!  What did you think?  Were you paying some kind of penitence ?  Were you doing time?  Just who do you think you were fooling?

 I was listening!  I was reading!  Jesus told on you!  Jesus revealed your low stupid ass.  GOD warns us of how satan takes simple women captive.  He sure got your dumb ass.

A preacher!  ******** please! *****! Just how ******** retarded does a person have to be to honor you for fifty, sixty, seventy,  years? Damn! You must have believed your own bullshit about color.  No you didn't.  You had children of every color in the rainbow and mistreated all of us.

You better be glad GOD kept me blind, kept me in a semi-coma, kept me terrified of you because I would have straight  killed your ass,  bitch!  If I had known, had comprehended and processed that you had actually shot my grandfather in the heart , that would have been your last day on earth.

GOD has a purpose and and a plan.  While I measure less that five feet in my stocking feet, I feel twenty feet tall.  I went to The Potter's House yesterday and danced all over your bur head!

Praise the LORD!