What you allow ...

will continue .

"If you try to keep the peace by giving in to a controlling person, you will set a pattern for the future.  What you allow will continue." Anne McCrea

My grandfather, Jerome Walters was truly a good Christian, actually a real one.  He was honest and peace loving.  Was it a mistake for him to always be the peace maker concerning his demonic daughter? No, because it is all in Divine Order.  

I am elated , humbled, purely jubilant all at the same time.  I am chosen, I am anointed , appointed and GOD will not let me disappoint.  

While this  world is living in terror I am walking in peace because I know GOD is real!  Not only is He real, He is moving by His Spirit.  GOD is a Spirit, S/He has no gender or gender preference.  S/He is LOVE.

LOVE is everything.  The LOVE of my Father/Mother  GOD sustains me, keeps me, motivates me.

While my own "mother" loved secretly terrorizing me, us, it was all to no avail.  I am not destroyed.  That was her mission.  A canker sore embedded in a good family so that others might learn of the Goodness of Our Awesome GOD.  

No, she really had no idea what she was doing.  Martha was simply a slave, satan's imp, a reprobate following the dictates of her father satan.

I see so many people like my mother, LIARS!  LIARS that rage when you refuse to believe their lies, resist their enslavement and never ending torture.  Just reflecting on the brutal acts my mother confessed to me, shameful acts she bragged about,  I can see so clearly how accurate this quote is.

"I busted  dat nigger in the head with an iron skillet …  he was trying to choke a piece of sausage out my mouth…the blood spewed!" 

First of all her little brother was only two years old.  I do not know how many brutal deeds followed that act.  I do know Martha was an unholy terror, someone you never want to know.   But she did tell me; "I hated dat damn nigger …my mama beat me for playing wid his pee pee. I wudden touching dat nigger …he was playing wid his own pee pee.  My mother wud come out the field and accuse me of playing wid his pee pee because it wud be red."

I see a pattern  here, a sexual predator in the making.  Ignoring Martha's sexual proclivities was certainly not the answer.  But what could Rachel and Jerome do?  Both uneducated, poor black farmers in the rural south.  Did they beat her?  She claims they did.  I don't believe her.  I don't think my gentle grandfather ever laid a hand on her.

The story concerning the smashed puppy was learned by accident.  A cousin got drunk at a family reunion and spilled that "tea".  Strangely, Martha did not cruse her and act the demonic fool as she always did with  us.  As a matter of fact Martha said nothing, became strangely silent.

Now I am connecting the incidents.  My mother said my brother reached up and poured a pot of hot coffee on his chest when he was a toddler.  After enduring Martha's brutality for sixty-two years I have no doubt it was just another  deliberate sadistic act perpetrated by her.

I close my eyes and remove the mask my "mother" always wore and see nothing but a sneaky troll, a vile serpent always slithering around seeking whom she could destroy.  A coward!  Martha never had the womanhood or the decency to admit what a horrible person she was.

My mother often bragged of attempting to kill her father with a shotgun when she was sixteen and pregnant with her first child.  

Again, my grandfather was always the peace maker.  He forgave her and never mentioned it.   Martha waxed worse and worse as predicted in GOD's Word and ultimately Jerome Walters got a .38 bullet straight to his heart at age eighty-four.    Of course she was not arrested.  Of course Martha's lies and brilliant acting saved her from the rebuke she deserved.

Long story short.  Study your Bible , know it for yourself.  Lazy "Christians" that rely on charismatic preachers all suffer.  Flipping through my many channels last night I saw this preacher eloquently quoting the Bible.  "The Word, as a man SOWETH HE WILL SURELY REAP!"   This man had a telethon calling it Common seed, telling people the money they sent him, his ministry,  was seed and they would reap according to how much money they sent him.  

I had to laugh.  People that dumb deserve to be fleeced.  I remember how my mother used to do the exact same thing as Madame ******.   Dressed in her garb, complete with head dress and speaking in a fake foreign accent she used to fleece her customers of thousands of dollars promising to sacrifice their money in the Cape Fear river.

"My people perish for lack of knowledge."   If you think the color of your skin entitles you to privileges you did not earn, you deserve to suffer.  If you think you should live a low predatory life because of the color of your skin, you also deserve to suffer.

"When you believe in things you don't understand you (deserve to) suffer."

My grandfather taught me to "cultivate the brains."  He told me to study, to always read.  I am gald I listened to my grandfather.

Praise the LORD!