Percy Sledge -- Warm & TenderLove

Creating my Soundtrack!  PTL!

ISAAC HAYES - Hyperbolicsyllabicsesquedalymistic

Caution! This may be too deep for the average uncultivated, un-read, un-explored mind.

Take your time!

And in all thy getting, get understanding.  "Gird up your loins!"  GOD wants us to have courage, to be manly.  That is why satan uses foolish , extremely whorish, primitively ignorant women to destroy the very possibility of a male child becoming the courageous man GOD designed.

No matter how disgusting satan is, how low his whorish imps, they can't stop or hinder GOD's Divine Order.  The world will know of every foul deed you ever committed and that you falsely believed you kept hidden.  GOD knew, and GOD saw.  GOD led, GOD provided and protected.

So, why did you do it?  GOD told us, He warned us.  We have no excuse for not recognizing you.  Actually we did, or I did recognize you.  It was like "looking in a glass (mirror) darkly."  You had to happen. You had to be endured, all of your tricks and lying cunning exposed.

Your brutal savage ignorance will be exposed.  Oh yes Martha, the world will know  of your slippery, serpent, kind.  The vipers predicted to come are here!

    You hated me because I resisted your stupidity.  Woman you were a fool!  "Shun and Run" should have been tattooed on your head!   Your comment; "You sitting' on a gold mine …whut you assin' me fuh money fuh?" was barely delivered to my innocent ears before granddaddy stepped out of the shadows and dressed you down eloquently with a verbal tongue lashing I shall never forget.

For once in your life you did not respond with vile curses, you did not pitch a fit.  You said nothing.  But, you plotted.  You always plotted because you were always a coward.  You targeted small children and the elderly because they could not tell.

All cowardliness, all forms of weak faith come directly from the adversary.  Martha did commit the vile sexual acts satan planted in her head.  It was Martha's jealousy, her extreme selfishness, that ultimately destroyed her.  Martha was indeed afraid that her marriage to a little black soldier troll was benefiting us,  the two little black bastards that she secretly hated, had no money to abort.  The only reason she collected us from our grandfather, was she heard ; "tuh Army make a ***** take care of dem younguns,."

We did go to fine schools, we did earn a great education.  But, we didn't owe you!  You owed us, you dimwitted imp for satan!  Was it worth it?  Was it worth the shame?  I probably would have never told either.   I am sure I would have taken it to my grave as you instructed.   But you threw me under the bus in order to justify your sudden love for the very young man,  that you were determined to marry.

You needed and alibi, I was an excuse.  I notice you never confessed your part in the alleged plot.

That was Divine Order!

You still "stank".  Every one knew you were a whore.  No, you never really tried to hide that part.  Or were you very open with your many, many,  male lovers, just to hide your lesbianism?  Why were you afraid to acknowledge that part of your life?   You always claimed to be so honest, so uncaring about the opinions of others.  Why did you accuse me and your granddaughter of being lesbians?

Where did your self hatred come from?  Becoming a ghoul, haunting graveyards, sealed your fate.  GOD would have forgiven you.  He is quick to forgive us of our sins.  You knew that.

GOD is restoring to me something you took from me, self love, confidence, the right to be me.  The right to be my genuine authentic self, regardless of any one's opinion.  The right to thrive!  The right to the Tree of Life GOD gave me.  Praise the LORD!

All of my favorite people were unique and widely misunderstood until they became famous for what they were once ridiculed for.   Elvis Presley had an unusual name, came from low "white trash" beginnings, sang like a *****, gyrated his hips.  He became so famous, he can't die.

Weird Michael Jackson, high water pants, one glove wearing, singing his heart out, could not please this world either.

So, what is the lesson?  Please GOD first, serve and obey Him,  and He will lead and guide you.  He will show you the way.

What ever you do children, have the courage to do it.  "Ner'do wells",  like my mother miss their opportunities being full of pride and rebellion, then spend the rest of their miserable lives blocking blessings like a ravenous  Hokey Goalie.

Pay them no mind.  Do you! Do you to the highest, the greatest!   Enjoy your uniqueness!  Shine baby, shine!

GOD told us to study our Bible

I knew a man once that beamed with pride because he rode his Bible in the back window of his car.  The poor man (college educated, supposedly) did genuinely believe that impressed GOD, was evidence of his faithfulness.

He also did it to impress his fellow man.  I did tell him that he had to read it.  His response floored me; "Ray-chur! I'm not gon' read it because I can't understand it!"

Anti-intellectualism, dullards,  satisfied with learning through the "I heard" method.  All their limited knowledge comes from myths, stereotypes, lies, superstition and the media.  Vacuous little imps easily persuaded.   Little "Flying Monkeys" eager to follow the crowd.

Wednesday, April 29, 2015  ***Private Notes***

PTL!

     Poor Martha was about as ignorant and fresh off the boat primitive as a human being could be.  She knew EVERYTHING! about EVERYTHING, was entitled to EVERYTHING, including YOUR body, your career, your money, your dreams!

You were going to pay.  She was going to enjoy every private moment she could gloating over how clever and stealth she was.  

In Martha' sick reprobate mind; YOU,  ruined her life.   Yes, she did throw it in your face at every opportunity.   She made sure "Luddle black bastard" and "You ain't ****!"  was ingrained in your brain.   If she ever thought you forgot, she would remind you with extreme  sadistic cruelty that you were forbidden to even notice.

You better not mention it! "Say sump'in'!"   Get cussed out!  Get slapped!  Get stabbed or pistol whipped!   If nothing else you instinctively knew you had foolishly incurred her wrath and you would have to pay dearly.  (The first thing she was going to do was withdraw her phony love, ice you out with the silent treatment, the cold shoulder, encourage every one she knew to hate you.  She would deliberately manufacture the filthiest lies or deliberately pin her sick repugnant acts,  on YOU.  A "root" was coming.  Mathy was chunking! And falsely believing she was winning.  Mathy did consider herself to be some kind of priestess/prophetess. 

 "I bet that'll learn ya'!" was always the look in those eyes.  Martha had eyes that would glow like red hot coals!  ( I saw it the morning I caught her trying to deafen my newborn baby)

"Be thankful I DIDN'T FLUSH YO'MUTHA******** *** down the toilet! lak I did dem other ones (5 in all)"

[II Thessalonians - revisit]

Martha was certainly as carnal as any common man, perhaps more so.  No, she knew she was forgiven. (If GOD could forgive Christian persecuting Saul and turn him into Paul, what can He do for you and me?)

 She did not want, seek, or care for GOD's forgiveness because she did not love Him.  GOD is love and if you love Him, you can NOT hate.

Poor Martha was deluded by satan, the adversary, to falsely believe she was winning, she was deserving, she was entitled and as long as no one knew of her true nature, just as long as no one "snitched", she could die revered as the "Mother of the Church".

Artificial! Fake!  "Would a man rob GOD!?"  Do you commit all forms of evil during the week and drag what's left to church?  Do you consciously  sit in the presence of  GOD unmoved? unconvinced? 

Do you doubt in your heart? 

16 - "Repent therefore; or else I am coming to you quickly, and I will make war against them with the sword of my mouth."  Revelation 2:16    In other words,  it is not a good idea to blaspheme the name of the Holy Ghost,  bragging that you are not repenting.  Instead of getting right with GOD in your last days, you became more manipulative, more hostile, more lying, more vulgar.  

You stay on your knees at midnight under a full moon, embarrassing yourself, taking hordes with you because you are too proud, too willful to apologize to your many, many victims.

GOD said No!  GOD and His children are not in the least bit  intimidated by your dirt.  It is dirt! you idiot!

(And you that still fear her "dirt" are dumber than she was!  I am ashamed of every relative that I have that is still terrorized by her.  I assure you, she is safely dead.  Thank GOD!

The sword of GOD's mouth is the prophetic wisdom He reveals in His scripture.  Poor Martha was so immature she would rage for years when one of her scams failed.

She married a young, tall handsome man.  She showered him with an expensive wardrobe one day after meeting him.  Bought him the most expensive set of golf clubs money could buy in the sixties.  Yes, she did whore on him, cuss him, fight him,embarrass him, often in the few years they were together.    She treated him the exact same way she had been permitted to treat people her entire long life.  Abysmal, abominable.

He left, he finally made his escape, his get away and she lost it!  (Why didn't I know she was demon possessed then?)

17 - "He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches .  To him who overcomes, to him I will give some of the hidden manna, and I will give him a white stone, and a new name written on the stone which no one knows but he who receives it."

Make sure you know I an an OVERCOMER! And I fully recognize that it is only by the Grace of GOD! The hidden manna GOD promises me is wisdom, knowledge,  a quiet calm understanding.  It is uncompromising faith.  It is FEARLESSNESS! The world can no longer offend me with it's insults and criticism for my "affliction".

I will no longer cry when I see the revulsion in the eyes of my love ones because my "affliction" embarrasses them.  The LORD Jesus Christ took far more for me.  He hung on a cross, His flesh was torn off.  He bleed, He died,He asked His Father to forgive me!

Calling me "lame", a kook, a tattle-tale, a rabble rouser, crazy.  Telling me to shut up! Telling me my story is boring, and to get on with my life, will not dissuade me from proclaiming GOD's Truth.

I will testify to my dying day the goodness of the LORD.

That white stone is a clean heart.  GOD will clean you up and stand you up, if you ask Him.  If you pray, if you obey, if you live right, if you Praise the LORD!

Woolly Bully-Sam The Sham & Pharaohs.

See, where Mathy went wrong, refusing to give me an out, an outlet, no sanctuary.

Insisting that she was right, was perfect, ... for 87 years!   *****! You better go some where and "sot down!"

Wooly bully.  My daughter said that I am just mad because I didn't beat your stankin' ass, one good time.

Perhaps.

No, you were not all bad.  But when you were bad, you were a bad *****!

No mas! No more like you!  I know, too late.

JAMES BROWN Honky Tonk (complete version)

Party until you leave here.  You can dance, enjoy good music and still love the LORD, be obedient to Him.

Watch those old lying hypocrites that put more on you than you can bear, add a thousand commandments to GOD's ten, Jesus's one.

"Love ye one another as I have loved you."

You did that!?

I told you what evil demonic creature one of your AME Zion preachers was, you haven't so much as grunted.

GOD see you.

In all thy getting ...

get understanding.   Do study.  Study well, study hard,  An easy degree is not worth the paper it is written on.

America, poor black America , in particular , is about to see some dark days.  Many innocent will die along with sick vipers.

"Be not deceived for GOD is not mocked."

Be righteous, be honest, be loyal, be a true good person.  Be the person you wish to be.  "Do unto others.."

Don't say that and not mean it.  Never advertise yourself as something you are not.  Don't count yourself so smooth, so good looking, so desirable, that you go to the highest bidder that is willing to play your pimping game.

My greatest hurdle ...

has been unlearning that "just another piss ant" mentality.  Unlearning the notion that I owed my mother something for rescuing me out of that whore house she abandoned me in.

Do know that I have come to learn that I still ended up in a whore house.  But, the best thing you did was leave me in the care of Rachel and Jerome Walters for the early formative years of my life.

(GOD's Divine Order, in effect.)

Look well to your going children.   Listen carefully.  Why are you so afraid to be an independent thinker?   How can you live on this earth, pray to GOD, yet walk on, spit on, trample anyone that dares to get in your way?

Out of sight is not out of mind.  GOD sees you, knows every thought before you think it.  GOD is going to use you.  No matter what you do, GOD is using it for the uplifting of His Kingdom.

How much courage does it take to scorn someone already down?  Do run after, fawn and faint over everyone you think is winning, or could possibly win?  You do know GOD is large and in charge don't you?

You do know, wealth, status, mean oohing to GOD.  Your very life could be required of thee in the next five minutes.  Billionaires have to leave here too.   All Steve Jobs'  billions could not buy him one single second longer than GOD intended.  (Did he jump in front of the line to get that new liver?)

Of course money is nice, status, fame, all that, is great.  ( What does it profit a man to gain the whole world and lose his soul? )  But once you have that, what do you have?  More headaches.  You once rolled your quarters , poured them out of a jar, to get some gas.  Now you have to pay an accountant or a team, perhaps it takes an entire firm,  to help you keep up with your money.

Are you any happier?  I will tell you for sure, the happiest days of my life were spent riding in a cart my grandfather made, with Billy the Billy goat pulling.  Running up and down his tobacco fields catching a ride on the drag.

Eating "raastin'ears" from homemade cinderblock smokers.  Running around getting in the way during hog killing season.  Taking my weekly "Saddidy'night" bath, putting on my "Sunday-go-tuh-meetin'" clothes.  Eating can Salmon, grits and a slice of crunchy fatback.

I do find it ironic that my mother's greatest call was; "Come git ya'beatin' ", in the end, refused to repent,   87 years old, died the same wicked, sneaky viper she lived.

No, Mathy never went to jail or faced the death penalty for killing her own father.  She suffered just the same.  I don't care what she said.  She was ashamed.  Granddaddy did warn her.  He did tell her to stay off of those graves.  She never listened to him, not one time in her entire life. (rebellious, full of pride)

  He was to kind.  He never refused her one dime when she came begging (more like demanding).  He took care of us just like we were his (we were) and never so much as murmured one complaint.  (Dear LORD, please teach me to be such a Christian)

So!?  Money will not buy you (me) happiness.  Another thing, why do you (I) need or crave so much money?  Is that what you (we) really want?  Or is that what society said that you (we) must have in order to be accepted, to be approved,  by man?

GOD first, every thing else will be added unto thee.

The thing about being a bully ...

there is danger.   Some bullies (i.e. my mother) become so frightening , so terrorizing , they begin to believe their on press.

They say no one likes a bully, but all fear a bully.

Martha was a bully par excelente!  I know now she is what they called a "bulldagger"; the male equivalent of a homosexual woman, a lesbian.

My mother was born in 1925, there is no way she could have come "out of the closet".  I laugh now because her sheer hatred for all men was so obvious.  (No wonder she was so brutal.)  She MURDERED her own daddy!

My mother did reveal to me that she was indeed raped  savagely, three times, as an eight year old.  (That certainly explains my contrived rape and frequent physical and sexual abuse.)

Forced to live a lie, Martha raged, hated GOD.  Remained confused, tormented.  Martha just could not come to the truth, the truth about any thing.  She was indeed a great liar, pathological, for sure.  She was also a great flimflammer , a master magician.

She was a pure reprobate, sold out for satan.  She did not win.  She was deluded.  Accepted, satisfied just having more than most of her family, was grateful for the crumbs from satan's table.  She knew better.  She was am imp.  Mathy would rather drown,  die and go to hell for eternity, if she could take the vast majority of the world with her.

It doth appear that Mathy Jane destroyed a great doctor, a great musician.  She tried everything in her power to destroy this great writer, to silence my voice.  To keep her hidden pedophilia, incest, fornication, MURDERS, conjure, false preaching, quiet, silent.

GOD said No!

How dare you be so stupid, so long? "When I was a child, I thought as a child, but when I became a man , I put away childish things."

Mathy never put away childish, toddler, jealousy.  She never put away play acting, lying, tempting, leading astray.

Dear LORD, yes this world has offended me greatly for exposing this woman.  The world knows that it needs to know, must instantly recognize,  such creatures.  Blessing blockers, deliberate joy snatchers, hiding behind false smiles.  "Lying lips that hide hatred…"

How can we know for assurity that every word in that Book is real when we passively let Marthas get away with their madness?

"Oh well.";  is not good enough.  A great Christian life snuffed out too soon because his wayward demon possessed daughter played cowardly bully?  Was no mannered and common enough to just walk away unscathed?  When did Martha ever pay for one single deed? Never!

She always managed to get away, to pin, to label, to libel.  Martha was all mouth, all bluff.  If you ever bothered to read your Bible for yourself, for real, you would see her.  You would recognize her and never fear her.

Who wants to keep her secret?  "Birds of a fester flock together."  Please, if you recognize that you demand freedom to explore your carnal nature, you are in trouble.  You are already in the snares of the adversary. (Pray your way out)

If we are satisfied living in a world full of Marthas, we are forever lost.  Martha was very color conscious and deeply racist.  A woman full of rage and hatred.  So rank,  she made excuses to keep from touching her pulpit associates. "Germy *******!" (hilarious)

I know now that it was enmity .  GOD does put enmity between His children and satan's spawn.  You will not get along.  You will repel each other like magnets.  Don't give up.  Pray.  Pray without ceasing.

Aretha Franklin - Full Album - Try a Little Tenderness

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Wow! Listen to what I found! I like this as much as Otis Redding's version.

We must be tender and loving with one another.  But no one should be evil enough, stiff necked, rebellious and demon possessed to the point they make us suffer for our love.

How dare you punish me because you squandered your gifts!  Because you were whorish., couldn't keep your legs closed if someone tied them up with rope!

I endured the "grits and grease", the savage beatings, the savage rape, the many molestations, never quite understanding.

GOD has made the life of Martha Jane Walters abundantly clear to me, now.  And I am on this blog to thank GOD,  in the presence of the entire world; THANK YOU!

Thank you for making that abomination hate me! PTL!

Young ladies!

Young ladies, don't you ever forget, GOD gave you the keys to the kingdom.  Not to sell or trade, not to engage in a filthy lascivious life style ,  that you will loathe yourself for later.

Forgive yourself.  Ask GOD to come into your heart.  If you truly want a good man, be the woman a good man wants to see.  Set the example for other women around you.

Yes you can be a jewel in your man's crown.  You will not be a jewel for a man that you don't want, that you are just using until times get better.

It is alright to be alone.  Why be with someone that you can't stand, truly loathe? That is not godly!  GOD did not tell you to do that.

Trust and obey.  And never put any man (or woman) above your child or children.

You be a "do right woman"!  Never tolerate a low common man.  Never tolerate a man that cheats.  Never have to doubt your man.

Be alone.  You will be happier!

"It is no secret what GOD can do…"

" What He has done it for others, He'll do  for you."  He did it for me! I am rejoicing! Testifying!

People of low morals accuse me of "snitching".  People still tethered to her corrupt dried up breasts  consider their blind allegiance , love.

One thing for sure you can not honor Mathy without lying.  Some lies are of omission , some permission or submission.  By omission,  I mean you will have to leave a lot out.   There is a great deal you must "dis-remember", never think about , or bring to your memory ever again in your life!

 Permission, you let her, you gave up, you are defeated.  That's my family, my brothers, enslaved by their permission.   Submission, not only are you her slave, it is your greatest desire to be just like her. I have a very good idea which brother this is, or possibly two.   Even you shrink at committing some of the sick deeds she did.

You have to be full of rage, of old ancient demons.  You have to be possessed.  Possessed of the demons you went down on graves hunting, conjuring up.  Serves you right to suffer.

Why am I so excited?  Full of joy? satan can not manipulate and intimidate me (any more). (GOD snatched your wig off Mathy Jane! And your phony robe, your phony mantel that you stole but were unworthy to wear, to even touch.)  Almighty GOD tripped you up in your phony walk, in your phony uncaring, lying, hypocritical "church".  They just let you die and go to hell! Not one prayer, not one parishioner was brave enough to confront you because you were so offensive.

Mathy was a sick sadistic bully.  Demanded to be a terrorizing bully on the "down low".  Demanded to be a closet lesbian prostitute on the "down low".  She always bragged to us about her brilliance and her "gifts".  My mother claimed that she "prayed" for her boss and "god" rotted his "ass'ole" out , for her. Just for her.  She was just that tight with GOD.

 We were forbidden to lie or steal, but she could.  (Seriously, that is how out of touch, how delusional,  satan will render you , fooling with him.)   He did die of cancer of the anus exactly one year after my mother "threw" at him.

"No mas! No mas!" I am laughing (now)  because it kept us in line. LOL.  It kept me in line until I read and studied my Bible, until I learned to not lean to my own understanding.  It worked until I got tried of scratching my head and losing.  It worked until GOD opened my eyes, unstopped my ears. PTL!

Mathy Jane demanded that the world respect and honor her skin color, her hair texture.

Pure proof she was demonic!

The poor woman lived 87 years,  faking, pretending to be the last thing that ever crossed her mind, a "true Christian".

That's cool.  Demand what you want but don't you dare think your bad attitude, your malicious witchcraft against ME is ever going to work.

• "Study to shew thyself approved unto GOD, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth."  2 Timothy 2:15

• "But seek ye first the Kingdom of GOD, and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you." Matthew 6:33

• "Yet if any man suffer as a Christian, let him not be ashamed; but let him glorify GOD on this behalf." 1 Peter 4:16

That self esteem, that confidence, that self assurance you seek can only be found in the LORD Jesus Christ!  

Allah ain't got it.  Neither Buddha, Mohammad, Confucius, None of them.  And of course the only thing collecting dirt off of graves is going to get you is an eternity in hell.

Don't hate me for being right.  Don't hate me for being chosen by GOD, for being delivered from the hands of satan.

Ask Him, GOD is sure to deliver you too.  PTL!

Quit playing.  "Come on in this house!"

Wow!

When you finally learn the truth, prepare to be bowled over1 PTL!

Wow! I so get it!  Who knew that any woman was capable of such abominable evil , of such low repugnant disgusting low morals, of absolutely no moral standards what so ever?  Of such subterfuge and stealth?  I remember  sitting in Sunday school reading the story of Esau and Jacob .   Of how their sneaky mother fooled her husband, Isaac,  to rob Esau of his birthright.

Right there I decided this woman was the lowest woman on earth.  Little did I know I was residing in the belly of the beast.  I should have known what she was when she sashayed off all non chalant  after trying to push me out on the "track" at  fourteen,  with my "own" so called "stepfather".

Common! "Common as bat ****!"

There is a certain irony that I must make you aware of.  We were doing just fine after my return from a nine year no contact initiated by me for my own protection.  I played dutiful daughter and foolishly believed I finally had the mother I always wanted, always deserved.

She was on the phone further ruining her own granddaughter's reputation with a foul filthy lie.  The same granddaughter she said was "too black", "too dumb", too ignorant" and a host of other lies and alibis.

I demanded that she stop.  She called it "gittin' grit in my craw", "feeling myself ", "thinking too much of myself".

 What did I do that for?  Martha instantly forgot she was saved and sanctified.  Cussed me like a dog.

Mathy, it was not me you hated.  You hated the truth.  You hated GOD for His rules, His laws, His commandments,  that you felt were ridiculous, unwarranted.  You never understood why you were forbidden certain carnal acts, why you could not lie or steal.

You demanded to be worshipped, adored, feared, lied to and cloaked for, simply for the color of your skin.

GOD said No!

Divine Order in effect!

PTL!

Martha died a bitter, hateful, lying, cowardly fool.  Died a complete fake with a long line of conditioned traumatized zombies staggeringly behind her worn out , long dead corpse.  Five sons hopelessly tethered to her deplorable ignorance and filth.

GOD said No!

As a matter of fact Martha purely hated GOD!  Blamed GOD for all of her misery.  Don't feel sorry for her.  That was her "hook".  Martha played pitiful poor fallen fragile female better than anyone.  Better than Scarlett O"hare in Gone With the Wind.

Actually a ravenous wolf, a viper, a ******, a greedy carnal whore.  Someone I hope and pray you never have the misfortune of attempting to love.

Why am I telling you, the world, all this?

# ONE- So that you have an authentic witness, emphatic proof, every WORD in that Book is true!

# TWO - I demand to restore the good name of Jerome Walters! His good name and his mantel were stolen from him by his mentally defective, demon possessed, prideful abomination from the bowels of hell, daughter.

GOD said No!

GOD bless you abundantly for simply taking the time to read this blog.  Always remember to do what you can to save innocent children.  Don't you dare ever turn your back on a child!  

Remember the motherless, the fatherless.  If you see a whorish woman mistreating her child, her children, call her out.

Do not be offended by or fear satan and her imps.

Martha Jane Walters controlled our entire family, all my kit and kin, for 87 years!

GOD said No!  We refused to listen, to heed, to hear GOD's WORD.  We did not shun, we didn't pluck.  We simply lock stepped in our fear.  We accepted our pain, grinned and beared it.  We endured to the end.

Anybody that hates me, shuns me for the likes of Mathy Jane, bye!

True, like you, I feared her while she slithered, roamed, roared, seeking whom she could destroy.  But, one day GOD delivered me!  Set this captive free.  I pray the same for everyone smothered by such a low lying creature as the woman I called mother. 

May the Dear LORD help, deliver,  all those still fearing this dead demon.  "Know your truth.

He's in the room!

HE IS IN THE ROOM!   Dear LORD thank you for coming in that room!  For saving me from those low, common, carnal, lascivious beasts!  Those two low buzzards!

Both died unrepentant swine!  Both were sorcerers !  Equality despicable !  Both claiming this is our "little secret".

GOD said No!  He said He will make EVERY crooked way straight.  He WILL right every wrong!

Imps looking at me with a greasy eyeball, insulting me under their breath.  Hating me for my courage.  Yes, I WAS her dishrag, her footstool.  Notice, I said WAS!  Almighty GOD picked me up!

She provoked me to tell by cursing me one too many times.  By telling one too many lies.  By pinning one too many of HER sick repugnant sins on me!

Mock GOD if you want to, you are going to be a Mathy Jane.  GOD is not going to leave you root nor branch!

GOD said you would not repent!  But, He also told me and I am am telling you, when your mother and father forsake you; GOD WILL PICK YOU UP!

PTL!

"He's Been A Shelter For Me & I'm A Soldier" - By The Soul Stirrers

At 63 I am still amazed.  My grandfather always calmly reassured me in his eloquent southern dialect; Don't worry dawthur …Jesus will fix it!"

Never one hint of doubt, not a shrewd!

When I heard that at TPH Sunday, I just swooned!

One said it in tongue and the other followed with interpretation just like GOD said! HALLELUJAH!

You better hurry up and know that GOD "rights every wrong"!

Yes,  our world is crawling with vipers.  "More than you can shake a stick at."  That does not mean to take low, to  keep silent, to be some one's coward, some dead demon's footstool.

I do believe the worse imp any one can be,  is an imp's imp.  That was what my mother demanded. She demanded that we be dumber than the Three stooges, as docile as brutalized, dehumanized field slave. She demanded to cheat.  My mother was a real Debow!

It is hilarious , if you are on the outside looking in, if you are watching a movie or a play.  Not in real life, not in real time.

My mother always cheated at cards.  It tickled her to death.  Yes, she was going to take your money, not that she wanted it or needed it.  She was just greedy and selfish.  She had to rule, had to be in charge.  Had to deliberately ruin your life.  She had to laugh at your dumb decisions,  that she would never admit that she deliberately lead you too,

I do understand now why she harbored such deep , not so hidden hatred,  for me, for all women.  That was self hatred masked  by boisterous ignorance, primitive superstition and brilliant conditioning.  Martha's brainwashing techniques deserve to be studied, disseminated .

GOD said No!  Every plot and evil deed she succeeded in torturing me with; GOD turned into a blessing.  Forbidden to talk; "Why don't you shut yo' ******* mouf!?  You talk too ****** much!" resulted in my becoming a brilliant word crafter, an artist. I learned how  to be alone without being lonely,  and most of  all I learned to trust GOD!

I learned to wait on Him!  No matter how long.  I also learned why my grandfather was so confident, so cool.  So truly saved and sincere!

I endured to the end!

Praise the LORD from whom all blessings flow.  My granddaddy never came out and told me directly that my mother was certainly satan's spawn, but he knew.

He knew well.  He never talked about her, never let on that he had to bail her out of jail for prostitution , or any of the many awful sandals Mathy Jane found herself engulfed in.

While Martha bragged about being brilliant, light bright and damn near white, she didn't mean it.  It was a loud boisterous offensive brag designed to hide her deep self hatred.  Poor Martha, if only she could have just come to the light, to the truth, to the true knowledge of the Holy Ghost.

If she could have or would have stopped lyng long enough for The LORD Jesus Christ to dwell genuinely and sincerely in her heart.  Martha let evil covetousness keep GOD out.

Don't you do it!  Have faith.  Put GOD first.  Do pray for deliverance.  Do obey.  Do humble yourself. And always PTL!

"So glad to still be in the land of the living ...

one mo' time! Glad to git to praise the LAWD…one mo' gin!

Dear LORD I thank you for a praying grandfather, a wise patient man.  A good Christian man in true covenant with GOD.  No fake, no lies, no pretense, all genuine.

Unfortunately a man saddled with a great burden, Martha Jane Walters, a "human" being, so corrupt, so foul, so lost, so demon possessed, she had to be taken out to be known, to be studied, to peel back the 87 long torturous years of treachery.

Daily demonic deeds, after demonic deeds.  A reprobate mind is quick to run to mischief.  Why sexually abuse, torture tiny children?  Why make them lie?  What made you do that Mathy Jane?  Is that the price you had to pay when you sold your soul to the devil?  Did satan give you what he promised? No! he lied to you the same way you lied to us.  satan led you astray, strung you along the same way you did us!  Good enough for you.  Serves you right.  Murdered your own daddy and never had the decency to repent!

Just who do you think you are?  Insisting on robbing me, on robbing us, forcing us to eat ten miles of your ****!  Because you were dumb enough to choose satan, to be his low volunteer whore.

I know you did not think, you never believed you were going to win or that you were winning.  The fact is, you preferred cruelty, demonic cruelty, hated,  over love.  Rot! Rot , hard headed, prideful fool! "Thou fool!"

And all of you that still love her, still too afraid to reveal her, you rot too!

Dear LORD thank you for revealing her in Your Book.  I never would have known.  She was too good, her deceit too covert, her evil too stealth.

I just want to warn the world about these women, these "anti-mothers".  Women dedicated to wanton evil, low vermin,  that have babies like a blow fly laying its eggs.  Not one iota of care, of maternal love.  These demonic creatures have to watch closely and mimic "motherly affection".  They have none ,so they get up early every morning declaring their false love,  while working their voodoo and conjure.  GOD said No! Praise the LORD!

  Women so low, so fallen, not only do they refuse to get up, but declare an "unholy" war against you for simply knowing how low and foul they actually are.  They know you can't harm them.  They also know that you are clueless.  That your nimble brain is putty in their hands.

Be careful world, these women, these vipers,  are only here to create worse.  Do know they can sense GOD's Goodness in you, His Love in you, that is why she must destroy you!  Like a blind zombie she must follow satan's orders.

"If your right eye offend thee, pluck it out!"

No heifer!  You will not come here and MURDER my grandfather, the only friend I ever had, the only man that ever loved me and think I am going to let you get away.

World,  I have been on the demonic trail of Martha Jane Walters since 1988! I contacted my "family", contacted the Fayetteville Police Department,   over and over, all to no avail.  No she never repented (GOD said she wouldn't).  But, she had to leave this earth a lying,  sniveling coward!

Women, masquerading as mothers, demanding to be called MOTHER ,  knowing full well they are the lowest imps satan ever produced.  Men and women that  believe falsely  worshipping, and falsely preaching,  gives them well deserved cover.

"satan tempt, but he no push."; an African Proverb.  Mathy was a low whore simply because she wanted to be, that was truly her preference.  But by the Grace of GOD , her horrible cruelty and deeply disturbed true character,  made me something she hated with a passion.

I was the chaste, humble woman my mother always wanted to portray.  I did not say "be".  She had no interest in being chaste or humble, a pearl, a joy, a help-mate, a mother, a pastor, or anything genuinely or sincerely  good.  She just wanted to look like one (something good, something she secretly loathed, often declared openly that "honesty" was just plain stupidity, a lame trick from GOD ) while she maintained she was having her "fun".

Poor Mathy Jane, I am warning you, don't be like her.  Purge yourself of all her characteristics.   Number one,  was her pathological lying and number two, was her insane jealousy.  If that is in your spirit, get rip of that immediately.  Pray that feeling away.

The Supremes - Where Did Our Love Go [Extended Stereo Mix]

The Soundtrack to my life!  PTL!

The Truth is ...

I am embarrassed to know that my own mother was that dumb, was as dumb and primitive as she turned out to be.

What a lost!  Well, what does my mother's life prove?  It proves exactly what my grandfather always maintained; "You must cultivate the brains." A brain must be exercised.  "Idle hands are the devil's workshop."

Martha was pampered, never allowed to wash a pair of socks.  Unfortunately the world did not pamper Martha Jane.   The world made a fool and a whore out of her.

She was a liar, a person of weak faith and evidently a great deal of gullibility.  Actually believing that "chunking dirt" was preferable to reading, studying, earning.

"Whoring"!

No ladies, no men, earn your way!

"I AM NOT AN ANIMAL!" Junior Wells Hoodoman Blues

While I am "black", relegated by society to the "negro race", female, short in stature, fat, too old, too poor and broke, I AM NOT AN ANIMAL!

Born June 4, 1951, totally unwelcome , I over came tremendous obstacles,  only to be snatched back into that deep dark pit by an ignorant, jealous, deceitful, whorish, root working,  mother.

She justified her cruelty and perversion by declaring that I was "too black!".  The world that I have occupied for 63 years agrees with her idiot logic.  I married a man, so foul, so equally ignorant, he declared the same thing.

Like my grandfather, I will not have it!   You will not espouse your ignorance around me and expect me to be grateful for your company.  You dullard! You filthy, carnal, swine!  GO read a book!

Develop one original thought in your life.

I promised GOD that I will gird up my loins, that I will not be offended by weak minded, weak faith, racists.  People that rank people by skin color, by hair texture, by social standing, by wealth.

No, I will not associate with you.  I will not associate with people that place boundaries on  me, on any one.  There is only One GOD, ONE Race, The Human Race!

Stop spreading ignorance.

Can't you see the hand writing on the wall!?

"Thou fool! Don't you know that this night your very soul will be required of thee?"

How could any one preach such a great sermon and never hear a word she said?  How many people are content with being thought a "good Christian"?  How many people just put on appearances while inwardly ravenous wolves?

Private Notes -  April 22, 2015

GOD gives us many gifts.   Some gifts for prophesy, preaching, healing, etc.  Our gifts are given to us to help uplift the Kingdom, not tear it down, not to deliberately lead into captivity.  The worse thing anyone can do is use their gifts against GOD, against innocent children.  

Sure you might do it.  You may be very successful in your foul deeds.  You may be at a lost to explain why you did the dastardly deeds you did.  You will rot in self hatred.  You will always feel like slim, like scum, because that is what you are.  No amount of money or praise will ever make you feel better.

You will live a paranoid paralyzed life.  You will continue to skin and grin,  just like a slave,  because you are a slave.  You are a slave to sin! You are satan's imp.  In my case my poor mother was satan's low "ride or die bitch"., his "bottom" whore.

Who wants that honor?  The best Mathy could do was take her whole family with her.  That way she would not have to face her demons, never have to come clean.  Mathy could feel better and dissuade (lessen) her guilt if she could prove, show evidence,  that we were the worthless "crumb snatchers", "Luddle black bastards" ; she always declared.

Me, I was special.  Why did I warrant so much hatred, vitriolic curses?  What did Martha do to me that she could not bear to face?  How low did she sink attempting to punish me for her deliberate mistake?mistakes?   Her; "You AIN'T SHIT!!!"  still burns in my head. 

Dear LORD thank you for this last laugh.  This poor ignorant primitive fallen woman was busy "chunking dirt" at me.  Never bothered to give me one red cent to go to college, did deliberately lie and inflate her income , to prevent me from getting financial aid!

GOD paid her back, made her have to sit there in her disgusting hypocrisy , and watch me march across that stage in the Greensboro Coliseum , wearing my honor cord! PTL!

Like a pesky little viper,  Martha was always around,  sniffing, signifying, comparing, contrasting and always coming up short.  So,  she  "chucked dust" in her ignorant desperation.  Martha was never going to admit that it was her ignorant pride that kept her stuck in the rut she found her fallen life in. 

  When you have to be long dead before you are fully discovered or known,  is a shame.

"Know your truth and be set free."   My truth, my own mother did in fact dedicate her entire life to secretly serving "the adversary".  Something we all knew.  Something we all dreaded and something none of us had the courage to confront.

Push the wrong button on the wrong day,  go too far in your criticism, your critique.  Just let your perception be right, straight forward, you were going to get cussed out, beat down, perhaps stabbed or ultimately shot.

So, why do I still remain in shock over her MURDERING  my grandfather?  Shooting  Jerome Walters,  a man  too beloved, too kind, too gentle, too wise.  That harlot knew it, she knew it all too well.  That is why she put on that Scarlet O'Hara act for years.  Wearing all black, declaring that she was in mourning.  Did I know that was a sign of her covert demonism?  No!  I just thought she was a "mentally ill" drama queen.  Yes, I was foolish enough to believe that she was mostly harmless.  (This ***** was more like a pet Python that did nothing but crush and poison as she pretended to love.)

Did it make me doubt the possibility of her guilt?  Deep inside,  I know,  I knew.  I knew when I got that phone call.  Conditioned.  Beat down.  A cowardly imp for my demonic mother.  Help me LORD!

Martha suffered from demon possession for sure.  Demon possession she well deserved.  I am not sorry.  If you are foolish enough, ghoulish enough, to raid graveyards seeking power; you deserve to suffer.

And there is no way I will fear you.  I have Jesus!  You never had any real power,  you lunatic!  Your victims suffered debilitating shame,  that you brought on them, cast on them, and flat refused to ever so much as care , for 87 years.

Demons are demons and demons are REAL! (Why did Jesus spend so much time casting them out?)  Preaching eloquent, exciting sermons,  that you do not mean one word of, does not remove your evil stain.

You MUST Repent!  Anyone too dumb to get that,  is not dumb, they are hopelessly evil.  "Shun them!"  That is what Jesus said.

Don't you come here and dare think your cowardly brutality, your vicious lying two edged tongue,  will prevent GOD's Divine Order!

Let Freedom ring!

Let it ring from every house top! FREEDOM! Praise the LORD!

Dear LORD, were we made to suffer low these many decades so a low whore could have her way?  So that a very immoral, sexually perverted woman could falsely believe she was "having fun"?    Did Martha demand to have her cake and eat it too?

Witnessing her take on all those young men when I was 19 has rendered parts of my brain dead.  Did she care what affect, what psychological damage it could possibly do to me? NO!

Martha Jane Walters lived the life of a complete low predatory sorcerer for 87 years!  If any one in this world thinks or demands that I shut up, keep this abominable truth bottled up inside me, better think again.

I am not Prissy in Gone With the Wind.  Nor am I a hapless dullard.  I am not a "coon".  True I do occupy a world drowning in stupidity, an Intellectual Dark Age.  People have gone backward instead of forward.

I will not be labeled by race, color, gender, political affiliation, age or any barrier the adversary throws at me.

No, I will not, nor will I ever say most black people are ignorant and corrupt.  I hope not.  I will say that most of the ones I've met in my long life are complete vermin.  Do know that some low common vermin vipers are slithering on this earth right now, doing the unthinkable while professing to be a loved one, close kin.

"LOOK AT THEIR FRUIT!"  The first time Martha did something demonic, she should have been put away.  No, she was allowed to continue , unhindered,recognized.  Her strength and confidence grew strong as she raided graves and threw "dirt" continuously!  Laughing at us, mocking us.  Snubbing her "high yalla" face at GOD!  Sincerely believing she was getting away,  falsely proclaiming that she could never be stopped, and would never be known.

After all, who could believe such a kind, beautiful woman could be so corrupt? so lost? so sneaky? so low?

We were her pawns, her foot stools.  She laughed, insisted she was winning, knowing full well she was losing.  "You can't win fuh duh fix you in! I can't lose fuh duh stuff I use!"  (Always followed by s demonic howl that would curl your hair.)

My mother had to watch me win, foiled plot after plot for over 60 years.  Yet, she refused to change.  Died lying and cloaking disgusting sin.  Died a cowardly loser.

Yes, I will tell you.  I will remind this world daily of the wages of sin.

PTL!

Not only did GOD release Mathy over to reprobate mind, satan abandoned her too.  satan let her slip up in her old age.  satan let her get confused, let her think I was her sister/cousin.  Let her spill the beans.

PTL!

Buddy Guy - Man and the blues (full album).

Know your purpose ...

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pursue it!  It is that cut and dry.  Do know "blessing blockers" will get in your way.  "Blessing blockers" are individuals that squandered their gifts being foolish childish imps.

They refuse to read, study, honor, respect, be truthful or loyal to anyone or anything.  They do demand to be worshipped, lauded, honored while they lacerate you with their two edged tongue .  A person has to be a pure fool to tolerate such a creature and a bigger fool to keep her  a secret.

No,  Martha I will never piss on your grave as you warned me not to.  I am not even tempted to dance on it.  Your sorry phony life was punishment enough.  GOD bless you.  Thank you for permitting your father, Jerome Walters,  to influence me.  Thank you for using him for his money.

I am sorry that you could never love, never trust.  I am sorry that you were foul, that your morals were low.

When they (Blessing blocking imps)  finally wake up enough to realize their loss, they burn with envy.  Suffer with hatred and covetousness.  Pay them no mind.  Do remove yourself from them.  Don't buy that ton of bull**** they are selling.  Listen closely.  Beware of a person that is on fire for something, for a movement or a person, temporarily.  Just as soon as they accomplish what they want, they vanish or like most they are only nice and loving when they want something.  "Viciously nasty nice" is their normal.

That man or woman that professes to love you so much, yet cheats on you, begs for forgiveness, yet continues the same pattern of abuse.  Puts on a spectacle to prevent you from leaving or calling it quits.  Cut your losses now! RUN!  I assure you, you are dealing with a lost and "ain't gone never be found" soul.

I assure you, they are not worth the worry, the vexation, the impending sorrow.

If your right eye offend thee, PLUCK IT OUT!"  A loved one like my mother should never be tolerated.  Do not expect a blessing from GOD for shielding such a woman from her just deserts.  If anything you will reap a great curse.

Observe closely, listen carefully.  Do their words line up with their life,  with their deeds?  For nearly every day of my young life my mother did nothing but profess her love for me, for us, for her entire family.  Yet, she treated us worse than mangy dogs while heaping phony praise and plotting our destruction.  While lying to relatives!  While casting her sins on us!

Martha knew full well what she was and why she was.  Don't you ever forget; it is Free Will!  You do have to pray for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.  You do have to desire it.

I can still see it and actually smell it (Martha's favorite Sunday pastime).  We sat like four obedient dogs, lined up beside Martha in her finest attire, on the front pew of Wesley Chapel A.M.E. Zion Church.  A three hundred dollar Ben Mart suit in the 50s!   Kid gloves, Alligator shoes with matching bag, fur stole, little foxes chasing each other, biting each other's tail, feet dangling.  Martha sat movie star fine, gloated, demanded to be seen, honored, complimented.

And there we were,  four brown street urchins, smelling up the church in our brand new Thrift Shop clothes , ripe with mildew.   Nothing matching, nothing in style, nothing new.   Martha glowed with all of her ill gotten gain.  We were too dumb to know, just glad not to be naked, I guess.

Yes, we arrived in a long sleek car, always the most expensive on the yard.  Poor Martha preferred things to truth and righteousness.  Just look the part and make them envy.  "Pay back is a bitch!"

Was Martha attempting to get those Wade ******* to eat their words?  Calling her common, for saying she was common as bat ****!  they know she was raped, attacked 3 times!  They know her daddy didn't do nothing but run the ***** off.  Claimed her mother had something to do with it.

No matter what your truth is, come to grips with it, accept it.  Do not cower.  You can not live well or successfully as a coward.  Believe me I know.  I was a deliberate coward for my mother.  I just knew that one day she would apologize, tell me how sorry she truly was.

Lies I told myself!  I did cry when she laughed at me and cussed me out for having the nerve to question her about my molestation!  I sure had some nerve believing I had a right to the Tree of life, pestering a pervert about equality.

Martha always swore that she did the best she could.

"From such stay away!"

I never knew I would be quoting Snoop Dog, but;"You can't turn a 'ho into a housewife."  It can not be done.

I am so happy!  I do not know how to describe discovering my mother in the book of Malachi!  She was a sorcerer!   For SURE!  And actually a good one.  She threw her "dust" (not so covertly) and marriages were destroyed, houses lost, dreams deferred.

So what!?  It did not profit her one thing.  She did destroy her name.  She did put flesh on every WORD in that BOOK!

JOHNNIE TAYLOR TRY ME TONIGHT

Look what I found!

Just testifying ...

I am tempted to brag, but I won't.  I just want to testify, to demonstrate another one of the many times GOD made intercession for me while I remained unawares.

In my early twenties and fresh out of Graduate school,  I was tight with my mother.  We were like sisters (so I thought).  My mother was still very youthful looking, very beautiful and she had "game".  My mother was the life of the party.  She was the master of the "one liner".  She did keep us in stitches.  Her vocabulary for insults was extraordinary.  Martha could take any one's flaw and embellish it to the point that you would purely hate them. Every time that person's name was mentioned, that flaw flew in your face first.  I was "Miss Goody Two Shoes" and "Miss Rich Bitch", to my face.  There is no telling what I was behind my back.

Like; "Old lady Hock Heel", was the name my mother gave a nosey neighbor.  A woman that dared criticize my mother's swinging bedroom door.

My mother could also do characters, so I did characters, we all did characters and voices.  I know now it ( impromptu comedy retinues)  was to mask our deep unexplainable pain.

Well, any way, I thought my mother was cool keeping me supplied in Valium, Librium, drugs she smuggled to me in her capacity as Quality Control Officer at Womack Army Hospital.  Little did I know, how could I know that she knew better?  Why would my own mother want me to be drug addicted?  Was she ever drug addicted?  Was that the "pink elephant" in the room?

My doctor put me on Valium for "stress".  I would become so stressed, the muscles in my buttock would tighten, become rigid, rendering me unable to walk.  I would literally paralyze myself.  My only recourse was to call her, or anyone, be taken to the ER,  for a shot, for a muscle relaxer in the hip.

This paralyzing malady plagued me since high school.  Was it fear? terror? anger?  Yes,  I wanted to cuss my mother out!  I wanted to jump on her and beat the dog **** out of her dumb lying whorish ass!

I couldn't!  So the anger went directly to the muscles in my buttock.  My mother was really a pain in my ass!  A true, through, everlasting vexation of the soul!

GOD delivered me out of that drug addiction early.  Had some no account to break into my apartment and steal my stash.  (Warned me first! Prepared  me!)  GOD told me to go cold turkey.  I did! satan was foiled again!

Facts:

#1 My own mother did neglect her own gifts in deference to whoring.  She did in fact prefer, choose prostitution over hard work.  satan convinced her it was easier. She was pretty, she was the "right color".

Did she know that she would feel ashamed? Forced to lie and deny?   What was the point of her awful cruelty?

#2  My mother was a SADIST!   How dare she, how dare granddaddy try to pass her off as decent!

#3 Martha was something so corrupt and untrustworthy you could not trust a word she said, EVER!

#4  My brother X once called her;  "an enigma wrapped in a mystifying mystery"

C

#5 She is dead!  I must heal.  But first I must lick my wounds.  I am still in "discovery mode".  She did not lie, she was corrupt.

#6  I do thank her for my manhood (LOL)  I am sure in many ways I model my mother's "I wish a ****** wud!" mentality.  She said she was like that from watching my grandfather beat my grandmother.  True or not, fear no man, no woman.  "Defend yourself in a prayer meeting."

Conditioning ...

preparing, making ready, receptive.  Some conditioning is brutal training.  I knew a man that trained dogs by beating them viciously.  The poor dogs were as obedient as lambs for him and brutal, foaming at the mouth beasts,  he commanded, lorded over, ruled over,  like a tyrannical god.  If he shouted devour, they mauled and chewed,  without question.

How well I now recognize that conditioning, that training, in myself, in my entire family.  That wasn't smart Martha.  That was the reverse of GOD's plan.  You served satan Martha!  And you knew it!  You fool!  You really believed you were winning with your "dirt throwing".  You could have better used your 87 years studying to IMPROVE YOURSELF,  instead of playing 87 years of lie, cover up, beat up, covertly destroy and suppress.  Hate! Hate GOD's truth! Hate the truth teller! Just hate to hate! Hate while grinning and lying!  Hate while committing the most abominable sins ever!   Hate GOD for forbidding them to YOU!  Hate those who dare to tell of your true wickedness!  Die rotting with hatred!  Die holding onto the manhood of your five sons!  Die laughing, proud of every evil deed you succeeded in!  Die making sure every one in the Walters family hates that snitch that you did deliberately lie on for 62 years!  Die laughing because you did successfully steal her mantel!  Die laughing because there are more dummies that think you are in Heaven,  than don't.

He (The dog trainer)  was proud of himself.  I felt very sorry for his two huge Rottweilers . Sometimes secretly hoped they would turn on him one day.

My poor, simple, ignorant. primitive as a slave,  mother conditioned me, (us).   She was a brutal, vulgar savage, playing dress up when she felt like impressing or scamming.  Was she as clueless as she claimed to be?   Impossible!   She could not have escaped so much retribution for 87 years if she had been as dumb and naive as she claimed.

Martha was a good liar, is what she was.   (Common as bat ****!)  She was cruel!  Cruel beyond any human being's capacity to know.  Pounding that puppy to death as a child, was only the tip of the iceberg.  When I look back on the sick deeds my mother very successfully pulled on me,  I cringe.

Eighty-seven years of being a creep, a viper, something she was too ashamed to face, was punishment enough for Martha.

Eternity is more than a longtime.  It is forever and ever and ever.  Eternity never ends.  It does serve her right to suffer.  Poor Martha would lie with the truth in her favor.   She rotted.  She did the unthinkable.  I can not go down with my family.  Any one that wants to honor that "root working", Jezebel, insanely jealous whore…go right ahead.

Thanks for letting me know that you are just as lost, miserable, blind, foolish, deaf, stiff necked and full of pride as she was.

Martha had Jesus eloquently on the lips, hanging around her neck with a $5000 price tag .  She wore only the finest robes money could buy,  while sitting on a rostrum full of unrepentant sin!  Just rotting! Stinking up the place with brags about 5 abortions, stabbings, stealing, brutalizing.  I see now Martha was selective in her bragging.  She never barraged about raping her small children.  Or pouring hot boiling coffee on a toddler, or pushing me and others into a hot burning stove.  She never bragged about that puppy.  Some evil she would admit to, very little though.  She would broadcast your evil.  She would embellish it.  It would be a million times worse once Mathy got trough hiding behind your mistake.   That is why she could not bow, could not love.  Could only mimic, could only copy and profess her phony love with great pretense.

satan did condition me good, for a very long time.  GOD restored me! February 19, 2012, got baptized in The Potter's House.  The water was really cold.  The heater was broken.  My soul was tired, weary.  I pleaded to GOD; "Help me! No mas!"

It works! Jesus is real.  No wonder my mother always advised me to never get "re-baptized", that sprinkling was enough.

"Bow down satan!"

I will wait on the LORD!

Incredulous!

Incredulous! It is beyond stupefying , brain numbing, embarrassing .  It is an abomination!  It is a repugnant, pathetic truth.  But, it happened.  I am living proof.  I am not ashamed.  I am actually very proud!  I know it was the Hand of Almighty GOD, Jerome Walter's fervent prayers, that saved me.

Martha went off the deep end.  She became too delusional, too demonic, too insanely jealous, too common (incest), brutal, savage, a pathological liar, a MURDERER, a menace to society.  Something GOD said He released over to a reprobate mind.

When GOD releases you, He lets go of you!  You will become a foul, filthy common beast!  Your carnal primitive nature will over take and consume you.  You will become something that you are ashamed of, your family will become so ashamed,  they try to pretend you are , what ever you say you are,  on any given day.   (Just so they don't have to fight with you, argue, cry, get insulted, get their feelings hurt, get "rooted"  and most of all have to feel you roaring unnatural vile hatred staring at them, burning a hole in them from where ever you are).

Hatred that you should have had the courage to  direct at your common self,  instead of constantly blaming others.

That "preacher lie"  satisfied us all,  made us all feel "some what safe" around you.

That "preacher ruse"  was so disrespectful to GOD.   She did dare to entertain, to tickle the ears of her horde of admirers, by mocking GOD!

GOD said No!

GOD's Divine Order is awesome!  No wonder granddaddy introduced me to the book of Proverbs at age eight.

"He that hideth hatred with lying lips and uttereth a slander is a fool."  That was my mother alright, a blithering idiot!  Living in a brick hut, driving a brand new Cadillac.   Feeding us "grits and grease", sacrificing us, so she could profile and look good on a permanent entry level GS-4 level secretarial job.

  Refusing to live in the free home and 65 acres of land her father gave her.  Land just 12 miles away.

Why?  "I hate 'dem Wade *******! "Dem talkin' ********!"

Obviously Martha was running away from something very bad.  Something every one in Wade knew.  She was a rebellious hell raising,  always in trouble, stop-everything-and-rescue-me-NOW, teenager, that never grew up.

Martha's constant, perennial drama took up all of our time.  You learned to keep your mouth shut, to see and not see.  Martha had a right to every scam she dreamed up, after all, how could she help herself?  It was her victims' fault, they should not have loved her.

Martha's love was for sale, never for keeps.  But,  to pull that "'ho, slut mentality" on your own sons, to refuse to release them from the torturous  of the "mind f***ing" she did deliberately enslave them with.

Martha could have let go, eased her demonic grip.  She could have come clean.  She could have confessed.  Was she too ignorant or too wicked?

"Only a fool hideth hatred with lying lips."  That was Martha.  But the hatred she held for me was very visible, actually obvious.   Why did I refuse to see it?  Why did I pretend that I didn't see it or that it didn't really matter?  Was I conditioned?  Caught up in a perennial hope that never came? Was I too a victim of her flirting, cat- and- mouse game?  Or was it the best I could ever hope for?  Was my mother the best I had? No!

No, indeed, when compared to the love I received from my grandfather,   180 degrees, diametrically opposed!

It was some kind of sick game to her.   Constantly mystifying me with sheer cruelty.  Like using my bath cloth to wipe her behind.  It is like Martha was perverted, knew she was perverted, enjoyed her perversions.  But hated GOD for labeling things she liked, loved and lusted after, as perverted.  So, Mathy, just like the bully sadist she was, was going to punish you and attempt to make you (me) the pervert she was.  So she could in turn,  laugh at you and put your name "on the highway".

As I look back over Martha's perversion,  I see a pattern of fascination with fecal matter.  Smearing a neighbor's door with it to make her move.  The hot soapy enemas, sending me a filthy vitriolic laced letter,  she wiped her behind in.

Only a primitive fool would attempt to work "roots" and preach!  And only a piss ant dimwit would attempt to hide or cloak such an abomination!

Again, I am reminded of the fact that we are saved by Grace.  I am so glad Grace came in my mother's bedroom when I was five and permitted me to have sense enough to run for my life! (  I was only five years old!!!)

May those two unrepentant buzzards rot in hell for eternity!

Dear LORD I thank you for your WORD!  Thank you for placing Jerome Walters in my life.  Thank you for his wisdom, his faith, his anointing!

"No weapon formed against me shall prosper."

Oh LORD! Can these dry bones live!?

Oh LORD! Can , will you raise the early dead from the grave their evil mother sealed, incased,  them in?    Will they deliberately remain ignorant?  blind?  lost?   cloaking for a dead demon?  Forever!?   Do they not know "the gig is up!?   " Come ye out from among them,  the volunteer imps, satisfied to scrimp and slave, lie and steal.  Happy to be a fellow predator!  Forgive them, they have low aim, no ambition, are easily impressed with dung, crumbs.  Shun them, totally, but pray for them.  Love them from afar.

GOD said No!  So what is your excuse!?   Will you remain permanently stupid? blind? cripple? crazy?  Thank GOD she laughed at my pain and made ME her target!.  Praise the LORD!

How many times must GOD demonstrate His Divine Order to you?

Fredrick Douglass once chastised and humiliated a slave that whined to him that he was helpless,  because he was a "slave" and therefore could not do anything about his condition.    Frederick Douglass bellowed back at his lame excuse; "Well you deserve to be a slave then!"

I agree, if you are poor, broke and busted, living like some vermin, hollering racism or "we are Hagar's Children", then you deserve to suffer.  Knowledge is Free! dumb ***!  You can go to the library, get up, clean up, STUDY!

I was insulted, chagrined when my mother pointed me towards prostitution, always telling me that I was sitting on a gold mine.  Dumb woman! Every woman on this earth has a Gold Mine!  Which would render my gold not so special.  D  know that GOD does give us something special, the ability to think and resist satan! Praise the LORD!

Like my granddaddy, I am not associating with people of low morals.  He was stuck with my mother.  But he used his influence, his living by example, to destroy most of her ignorance. Praise the LORD!

Don't YOU ever give up on GOD!  GOD will NEVER give up on you!

"Too late" is in the grave.  Come out of that early grave! Dance on that viper's head! And most of all PTL!

Come boldly to the throne of Grace!

Come honestly, come truthfully, scars and all.   Do not let satan rob you because she was low and common enough to commit abominable sins and refused to repent.   The " mannish- no-mannus"  heifer hauled off and died suddenly at 87!   The cold selfish Iceberg Slim pimp,  she always was.   Died laughing at the church, at GOD, at all the "dummies" she fooled,  flim-flammed.

"Know ye the truth"!   Accept it!   We were had!   Bamboozled by satan's concubine!   Do NOT be ashamed!   Praise GOD that we survived pretty much intact!

The fact is; Martha only succeeded in flim-flamming herself.    She rotted in her self imposed filth.   Too proud to come clean with herself,  about herself,  she behaved primitively, savagely, impishly for her entire long life.

That is satan's gift to all liars.   All pathological selfish liars are lost in their own delusion.   I do wonder if her lying, her fantasy world living,  was the result of her savage rapes?    Did society plunge my mother into the world of "No Return".

The world of "No Return", a place where inconsiderate, merciless, man puts you.    A place with labels and no understanding.

I refuse to live, to dwell, to pay rent,  or a tax,  to the world of "No Return".    My whorish mother did not and could not make me the low whore she was.    It frustrated her.   Rather than giving up, she tried harder. 

"Chunked dust, told abominable lies, plotted, schemed, ran interference, blocked blessings.  Fell so low as to MURDER your own sweet wonderful, kind, wise, tall, handsome, popular, well revered, daddy!  You robbed him too!  Took all the money he had saved for his "other grandchildren".  

 Was that why you relegated me to one pair of shoes in high school Martha?  You were jealous! Wickedly jealous!  You were embarrassingly, savagely and primitively ignorant!  Good enough for you.   Always bragging on your light skin.   "I'm light bright and damn near white!"   While cunningly and cleverly hiding your bush African "witch-doctor"  primitive field slave ignorance.

Praise the LORD! "satan is a liar and a conjurer too!".  Yea, you rotted Mathy!  You finally got the house you claimed you wanted, the one you did nothing but brag on.  She you had a bay wndow in the kitchen.  But you kept it cluttered with junk.

You heard GOD calling and urging you every day .  Why couldn't you hear Martha?  Did you hear and refuse to listen.  I know we are saved by Grace.  Did Grace skip you, elude you, or were you stupefyingly ignorant?  Hopelessly lost for ever?

Who can be saved!  The humble man or woman that can listen, can heed, can trust?   Praise the LORD!  Did I tell you how I won a house?  A solid red brick house in the SWATS!?

satan thinks she took it.

No,  I am not ashamed to tell the whole world what a low fallen whore you became.   This world needs to know!   Needs to be able to identify you.   The world must examine your fruit carefully, lest we become a world totally infested with creatures like you.

No,  I will not shut up!   I will shut up when GOD tells me to shut up! Not one of Martha's conjured flying monkeys.   Not one more "stanking" imp,  just as low, just as primitively ignorant,  covert and sneaky,  and closet low life,  as Martha will offend me, will ostracize em, will insult me into silence!

(She always said you ALL were a bunch of absolute "no-sense-ED dummies!)

I know full well why fellow imps want me to shut up.  Don't worry, GOD is not concerned with your simple sins Martha unwittingly enticed you into.

GOD is upset with that AMEZ Church.  They have gone too far.  Have strayed too far into the "world."

  This one thing I know!  GOD has not given us a spirit of fear!  "Fear No Man!"  Not, only that, He gave us HOLY GHOST POWER! POWER TO TREAD ON SCORPIONS! VIPERS!

Our viper is our mother.  A snake that trauma bonded us.  She is dead!  Let her rot!  Let her lies rot! Her false image rot!

Did she want to be that low whore?   She once told me (at age 14) ;"I know you have urges!".   Poor Martha never learned to crucify her flesh .   (Did I dare or could I dare tell her what I really felt at that time?  "Woman you have been so common and open with your free love life style, I will just chill for a minute."   Or was I just too embarrassed to tell her;  "No thanks.  Your wanton lascivious lifestyle has pretty much chilled me of "urges".

Dear LORD, you know that is a shame.  I should have known she was controlled by a demon!

People need to know! SAY OFF OF GRAVES!