The thing about being a bully ...

there is danger.   Some bullies (i.e. my mother) become so frightening , so terrorizing , they begin to believe their on press.

They say no one likes a bully, but all fear a bully.

Martha was a bully par excelente!  I know now she is what they called a "bulldagger"; the male equivalent of a homosexual woman, a lesbian.

My mother was born in 1925, there is no way she could have come "out of the closet".  I laugh now because her sheer hatred for all men was so obvious.  (No wonder she was so brutal.)  She MURDERED her own daddy!

My mother did reveal to me that she was indeed raped  savagely, three times, as an eight year old.  (That certainly explains my contrived rape and frequent physical and sexual abuse.)

Forced to live a lie, Martha raged, hated GOD.  Remained confused, tormented.  Martha just could not come to the truth, the truth about any thing.  She was indeed a great liar, pathological, for sure.  She was also a great flimflammer , a master magician.

She was a pure reprobate, sold out for satan.  She did not win.  She was deluded.  Accepted, satisfied just having more than most of her family, was grateful for the crumbs from satan's table.  She knew better.  She was am imp.  Mathy would rather drown,  die and go to hell for eternity, if she could take the vast majority of the world with her.

It doth appear that Mathy Jane destroyed a great doctor, a great musician.  She tried everything in her power to destroy this great writer, to silence my voice.  To keep her hidden pedophilia, incest, fornication, MURDERS, conjure, false preaching, quiet, silent.

GOD said No!

How dare you be so stupid, so long? "When I was a child, I thought as a child, but when I became a man , I put away childish things."

Mathy never put away childish, toddler, jealousy.  She never put away play acting, lying, tempting, leading astray.

Dear LORD, yes this world has offended me greatly for exposing this woman.  The world knows that it needs to know, must instantly recognize,  such creatures.  Blessing blockers, deliberate joy snatchers, hiding behind false smiles.  "Lying lips that hide hatred…"

How can we know for assurity that every word in that Book is real when we passively let Marthas get away with their madness?

"Oh well.";  is not good enough.  A great Christian life snuffed out too soon because his wayward demon possessed daughter played cowardly bully?  Was no mannered and common enough to just walk away unscathed?  When did Martha ever pay for one single deed? Never!

She always managed to get away, to pin, to label, to libel.  Martha was all mouth, all bluff.  If you ever bothered to read your Bible for yourself, for real, you would see her.  You would recognize her and never fear her.

Who wants to keep her secret?  "Birds of a fester flock together."  Please, if you recognize that you demand freedom to explore your carnal nature, you are in trouble.  You are already in the snares of the adversary. (Pray your way out)

If we are satisfied living in a world full of Marthas, we are forever lost.  Martha was very color conscious and deeply racist.  A woman full of rage and hatred.  So rank,  she made excuses to keep from touching her pulpit associates. "Germy *******!" (hilarious)

I know now that it was enmity .  GOD does put enmity between His children and satan's spawn.  You will not get along.  You will repel each other like magnets.  Don't give up.  Pray.  Pray without ceasing.