"He's Been A Shelter For Me & I'm A Soldier" - By The Soul Stirrers

At 63 I am still amazed.  My grandfather always calmly reassured me in his eloquent southern dialect; Don't worry dawthur …Jesus will fix it!"

Never one hint of doubt, not a shrewd!

When I heard that at TPH Sunday, I just swooned!

One said it in tongue and the other followed with interpretation just like GOD said! HALLELUJAH!

You better hurry up and know that GOD "rights every wrong"!

Yes,  our world is crawling with vipers.  "More than you can shake a stick at."  That does not mean to take low, to  keep silent, to be some one's coward, some dead demon's footstool.

I do believe the worse imp any one can be,  is an imp's imp.  That was what my mother demanded. She demanded that we be dumber than the Three stooges, as docile as brutalized, dehumanized field slave. She demanded to cheat.  My mother was a real Debow!

It is hilarious , if you are on the outside looking in, if you are watching a movie or a play.  Not in real life, not in real time.

My mother always cheated at cards.  It tickled her to death.  Yes, she was going to take your money, not that she wanted it or needed it.  She was just greedy and selfish.  She had to rule, had to be in charge.  Had to deliberately ruin your life.  She had to laugh at your dumb decisions,  that she would never admit that she deliberately lead you too,

I do understand now why she harbored such deep , not so hidden hatred,  for me, for all women.  That was self hatred masked  by boisterous ignorance, primitive superstition and brilliant conditioning.  Martha's brainwashing techniques deserve to be studied, disseminated .

GOD said No!  Every plot and evil deed she succeeded in torturing me with; GOD turned into a blessing.  Forbidden to talk; "Why don't you shut yo' ******* mouf!?  You talk too ****** much!" resulted in my becoming a brilliant word crafter, an artist. I learned how  to be alone without being lonely,  and most of  all I learned to trust GOD!

I learned to wait on Him!  No matter how long.  I also learned why my grandfather was so confident, so cool.  So truly saved and sincere!