Can't you see the hand writing on the wall!?

"Thou fool! Don't you know that this night your very soul will be required of thee?"

How could any one preach such a great sermon and never hear a word she said?  How many people are content with being thought a "good Christian"?  How many people just put on appearances while inwardly ravenous wolves?

Private Notes -  April 22, 2015

GOD gives us many gifts.   Some gifts for prophesy, preaching, healing, etc.  Our gifts are given to us to help uplift the Kingdom, not tear it down, not to deliberately lead into captivity.  The worse thing anyone can do is use their gifts against GOD, against innocent children.  

Sure you might do it.  You may be very successful in your foul deeds.  You may be at a lost to explain why you did the dastardly deeds you did.  You will rot in self hatred.  You will always feel like slim, like scum, because that is what you are.  No amount of money or praise will ever make you feel better.

You will live a paranoid paralyzed life.  You will continue to skin and grin,  just like a slave,  because you are a slave.  You are a slave to sin! You are satan's imp.  In my case my poor mother was satan's low "ride or die bitch"., his "bottom" whore.

Who wants that honor?  The best Mathy could do was take her whole family with her.  That way she would not have to face her demons, never have to come clean.  Mathy could feel better and dissuade (lessen) her guilt if she could prove, show evidence,  that we were the worthless "crumb snatchers", "Luddle black bastards" ; she always declared.

Me, I was special.  Why did I warrant so much hatred, vitriolic curses?  What did Martha do to me that she could not bear to face?  How low did she sink attempting to punish me for her deliberate mistake?mistakes?   Her; "You AIN'T SHIT!!!"  still burns in my head. 

Dear LORD thank you for this last laugh.  This poor ignorant primitive fallen woman was busy "chunking dirt" at me.  Never bothered to give me one red cent to go to college, did deliberately lie and inflate her income , to prevent me from getting financial aid!

GOD paid her back, made her have to sit there in her disgusting hypocrisy , and watch me march across that stage in the Greensboro Coliseum , wearing my honor cord! PTL!

Like a pesky little viper,  Martha was always around,  sniffing, signifying, comparing, contrasting and always coming up short.  So,  she  "chucked dust" in her ignorant desperation.  Martha was never going to admit that it was her ignorant pride that kept her stuck in the rut she found her fallen life in. 

  When you have to be long dead before you are fully discovered or known,  is a shame.

"Know your truth and be set free."   My truth, my own mother did in fact dedicate her entire life to secretly serving "the adversary".  Something we all knew.  Something we all dreaded and something none of us had the courage to confront.

Push the wrong button on the wrong day,  go too far in your criticism, your critique.  Just let your perception be right, straight forward, you were going to get cussed out, beat down, perhaps stabbed or ultimately shot.

So, why do I still remain in shock over her MURDERING  my grandfather?  Shooting  Jerome Walters,  a man  too beloved, too kind, too gentle, too wise.  That harlot knew it, she knew it all too well.  That is why she put on that Scarlet O'Hara act for years.  Wearing all black, declaring that she was in mourning.  Did I know that was a sign of her covert demonism?  No!  I just thought she was a "mentally ill" drama queen.  Yes, I was foolish enough to believe that she was mostly harmless.  (This ***** was more like a pet Python that did nothing but crush and poison as she pretended to love.)

Did it make me doubt the possibility of her guilt?  Deep inside,  I know,  I knew.  I knew when I got that phone call.  Conditioned.  Beat down.  A cowardly imp for my demonic mother.  Help me LORD!

Martha suffered from demon possession for sure.  Demon possession she well deserved.  I am not sorry.  If you are foolish enough, ghoulish enough, to raid graveyards seeking power; you deserve to suffer.

And there is no way I will fear you.  I have Jesus!  You never had any real power,  you lunatic!  Your victims suffered debilitating shame,  that you brought on them, cast on them, and flat refused to ever so much as care , for 87 years.

Demons are demons and demons are REAL! (Why did Jesus spend so much time casting them out?)  Preaching eloquent, exciting sermons,  that you do not mean one word of, does not remove your evil stain.

You MUST Repent!  Anyone too dumb to get that,  is not dumb, they are hopelessly evil.  "Shun them!"  That is what Jesus said.

Don't you come here and dare think your cowardly brutality, your vicious lying two edged tongue,  will prevent GOD's Divine Order!