I had a mother who could pray ... but she deliberately prayed the wrong way

Dear LORD thank You for deliverance. Thank You for your Book. Thank You for the spirit of discernment.

No good person, no righteous person,  sees color, then automatically uses it as a ruse, as an excuse to commit cruel, selfish, sadistic crimes against her fellowman.

What kind of person slyly picks at a wounded "bird", constantly jabbing it with verbal insults knowing full well the old woman is doing the best she can to walk and talk at the same time?

I do not know why.   I shall never be able to understand people that run from the Sun, loudly fearing it's affects.

 People that get physically ill when they notice the slightest tinge of "darkness" on their arm or face,  confuse me.

The only thing wrong with being black , are the fools that think it's ugly. Is double chocolate cake ugly?  Is precious Mahogany (wood) ugly? Is black ass Michael Jordon ugly?

One thing I know,  every word in that Book is good, is meat, milk, nourishment for "babes in Christ".

There is Power in the Blood. You can reject it, think and declare you did it on your own. Continue to lean to your own understanding.

 Someone I love with a passion looked at my SAT scores and laughed uproariously. Chided me, compared her scores to mine.   Sure I only made 833 but,  that was in 1967!

SAT prep was "not a thing" in the sixties.  (And it wasn't free. It was actually quite expensive.)  I only took the test once. While my score may seem laughable to you, please consider the "conditions". Please consider my "dysfunctional household", my lunatic mother, deep racism and the fact a score of 500 was the average score for blacks.

Do know that "low score" earned me National Merit Semi-finalist status. Yes, I was recruited by many "white schools".

But, I digress, how can you dare laugh at the one person that did everything in her power to help you earn the score you earned?  You are not better than me on your own. You are better than I am because I made sure! I made sure from the moment of conception you would be academically sound. Not to be laughed at and looked down upon. I just wanted to give you what my narcissistic mother never gave me.

Martha could not give me anything because she was always too jealous to love me. I was always too black , too dark to care about.

And that my dear is the history of my whole life; something too dark to love. I am an UNTOUCHABLE! Perhaps that's why I love Nina Simone so much. My mother hated her. I love her. I love me. Well, I'm trying to love me as much as I can, while I can.

I made it to old. That's a blessing.

I've been called crazy, a loud mouth fool with no filter , my entire life. So? I don't care. I will not lie for liars, steal for thieves or be anyone's foot stool.

I shall continue to clamor for hue-man rights. I shall continue to blast my mother's awful history on FB because the low whore for satan knew better.

I shall continue to remind "Christians" of what I think true Christ Lovers should think and do.  In the "Mean Time" I shall keep the faith.

I refuse to rank people by skin color, gender, wealth, status, age. I refuse to scorn GOD for what [HE] didn't do,  when I know how busy [HE] was just protecting me.

That whore was a HORROR!

Many or most shall look down on me and see a pile of destroyed whimpering flesh.  I say NO! Because I know where [HE] brought me from.

PRAISE THE LORD!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Set A Fire - Jesus Culture w/ Lyrics

If you really think there is a white god somewhere,  sitting on a throne keeping up with every one that doesn't tithe, attend church regularly , CUSSES, SMOKES OR DRINKS ,  while permitting the most horrible events in the history of mankind,  be practiced daily,  without so much as a wink, you deserve to suffer.

Dear LORD please help me understand the plight I'm in. I know for a fact, I have no doubt that you have talked to me, led, guided me , all the long days of my life.

Why would anyone doubt that? How is "Well, it never happened to me!" ; "justifiable disbelief" ?

You can't see a tooth ache but , you can damn sure feel it.

What does a reprobate do when s/he has run out of excuses? S/he rages but,  sh/he shall never admit the truth.

Fine! GOD got this! The Holy Spirit got this handled. You just get out of the way. Quit your blessing blocking. BEAMING!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

I do fiercely believe in the power of Love

"What a beautiful Christmas Eve" 

Here I am spending time with GOD on this morning , on this Christmas Eve.  Thanking GOD for explaining to me, for teaching me,  that delay of my dream is not denial.

This is one beautiful place and GOD I thank You for permitting my daughter to be blessed in her career, so she can share with me, so that I can share with her.

This is a beautiful world and we all need to do our part to make it beautiful for everyone.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I know for a fact the Holy Ghost is real! Nothing, no one can ever make me doubt the DIVINE ORDER!

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I am  crushed by the fact,  so many , with so much , don't believe in [HIM]. They claim they've never needed [  ], therefore [HE] must be a myth. They actually believed they did it on their own.

They foolishly brag about how much easier their life has been. Yes, they are so naive , they suggest , everyone should be able to do it,  because they did it.

Some can look at my life and say what a waste or oh,  how horrid. I say "Thank You Jesus!" because I know for a fact, had that whore been able to make my life a thousand times worse,  that low whore for satan,  would have.


No, it's a test. Remain ungrateful, remain too proud to pray. There shall come a day you will regret your gross arrogance, ignorance and vacuousness.  Let the imps of this world make you ashamed of your mother. Be ashamed of your mother because she was the victim of one sick,  diabolical wo/man for sixty-two years!
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<3 alone.="" has="" left="" me="" never="" p="" talks="" walks="" with="">Don't care! Don't give one wit because it didn't happen to you. Scoff those that have less than you, that are not as well educated. Look down on all people that are not as articulate, well travelled, privileged, fortunate.  
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<3 alone.="" has="" left="" me="" never="" p="" talks="" walks="" with="">Brag about how you have always made the right choices, how you have always been accepted because you are not too dark, your hair is not that kinky. Feel blessed, brag; ""I"s quality nigga!"

 Be ashamed that your mother  is proud to tell., that she brags about her scars, her narrow escapes.
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<3 alone.="" has="" left="" me="" never="" p="" talks="" walks="" with="">Be ashamed that she saved you from that mongrel. Brag that nothing like that ever happened to you and you can't understand why abused children have to discuss something so private for so long.  
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<3 alone.="" has="" left="" me="" never="" p="" talks="" walks="" with="">You are tired of hearing it! Your life is great! You have more money than you need! Why can't these whiners  and losers just shut the fuck up,  so you can live in your bubble of perfection? Where nothing can or will ever touch your cold heart.  Be proud that your skin is light enough to be accepted by quality white folk with money.

Forget every one that sacrificed for you. Forget the prayer warriors that made it possible for you.  Run, hide, cloak, make up as many excuses as you can manufacture. Be ashamed of your black ass nigger mother that never did anything but flee her demon possessed stalking mother TO PROTECT YOU!


Do like everyone else, demand your black ass nigger mother,  shut the fuck up. Just "grey rock". Just skin and grin, just kiss your ass, never challenge your lies. Be your foot stool, stooge, just someone good enough to empty your bedpan.


Don't worry, at the longest it ain't long.

No, I never got rich, never found wealth or fame but, I found Christ!

PRAISE THE LORD

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

If you know like I know, you pray every day. You are a keen observer, you discern. You live defensively.

I rebuke and bind every demon sent to vex me!

Martha left her boot print in the center of my forehead.

I didn't want to see! I refused to see! I preferred her lies, her fantasy world, her bubble.  It was more fun than my horrid reality.

I REBUKE sATAN - I REBUKE EVERY EVIL DIABOLICAL DEMONIC FORCE EVERY EVIL DOER EVER CAST UPON MY LIFE! I BREAK THE BONDAGE OF MARTHA JANE WALTERS!!!

And her minions, little brainwashed, faithless imps she left in place to guard her repugnant name.

I break and rebuke the repugnant evil of Ronald Williams, sneaky , viperous demonic cretin.

I bind and rebuke every ravenous wolf that envies me, covets my gifts and talents.

I bind and rebuke the evil demonic spirit of Donald J. tRump!

I bind and rebuke every demonic, unread, illiterate, racist spirit !

I bind and rebuke every imp that stands against me!

I bind and rebuke every health issue!

I bind and rebuke poverty! I bind and rebuke "Just enough".

Dear LORD I rebuke and bind every demonic spell, conjure, curse, hate and lie Martha Jane Walters lodged against me! 

I rebuke and bind every evil thought, lie, conjure and curse Martha convinced my brothers , my "loved ones" to lodge against me.

I rebuke and bind every evil doer still attempting to ruin, to curse my life. You know them LORD! You know they are jealous, Full of ENVY!

Cast them down LORD! Stand me up LORD! Give me COURAGE! 

Dear LORD give us the courage to finally know, finally recognize what a foul, filthy , demon possessed wo/man Martha was.

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"I've never seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread."

Family; while it is extremely painful to admit Martha was truly demon possessed , not knowing, not admitting, failing to acknowledge , failing to attempt to fix our broken selves is worse.

EVERYBODY DESERVES TO KNOW WHAT THE GLORY OF LOVE IS!

Dear merciful Father in Heaven, I pray every hue-man being on this earth gets to taste genuine love for once in their lives. No matter how momentarily, how brief, fleeting.

The sweet morning dew of Christ Jesus' tender mercies washes my excruciating pain away, briefly, often at least for one whole day.

I had a good man, a wonderful person in my life for twenty-seven years. So, I have known the Glory of sincere love.  Then one day (February 10, 1979, his daughter MURDERED  him. Straight shot him through the heart, got away and I'm labeled the pariah.) 

Bullshit, I'm not that damn stupid. Niggers lining up still trying to prove to the white man how assimilated and Eurocentric his black ass is. Yes, niggers do more to uphold "white supremacy" than white supremacists. Until, recently that is.

At least I made it to old. That is all I can say.

Dear LORD please grant each and every abused, sacrificed, unwanted, thrown away , innocent child at least one moment of joy. One sweet hour of peace.  In the Mighty name of Jesus Christ,  I pray.

Yes LORD, touch cold evil hearts, expose them , shake them out. Rebuke and bind every evil doer that dared to raise their hoary demon possessed head,  to attempt to block my blessings. It can't be done you simple imp. "I done been prayed for, my granddaddy fixed it up for me!"

Go sit your lying, impish, envious, jealous, manipulative, conniving, hating ass down, get  out of the way. GOD sees, GOD knows, GOD moves.

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

P.S.
"Apart from Christ we are nothing, none of us." Please do not use the excuse of pimp preachers and phony Christians as a reason to not recognize and honor CHRIST JESUS  in all that you do.

How dare you be so vacuous to assume you did anything on your own. You have never been smarter or better than one lowly slave, Native American, poor white ancestor.

Low *lutty '*oe plotted on me, on us, ...

Wrong one *itch. Granddaddy told you.You were warned,  your low  *lutty, '*oeish, jealous, lying, common, demon possessed ass,   did it anyway!

I must admit, your secrets were well kept while you were living but; "The cat is out of the bag now", dead unrepentant reprobate, malignant narcissist!

Where did you go wrong or where did we  go wrong for too fucking long? Granddaddy told you...shit I told you... you got to be hot or cold, good or bad.  You can not be both!

"Yo'can't serve two masters dawter."

Bitch, you were just a spoiled high yalla "daddy's girl"., proud to be any white man's bed wench.

Granddaddy loved you fiercely. You deliberated broke his heart every day. Yes, I roar! I FUCKING RAGE!  You low slut from the lowest possible hell, robbed my granddaddy of ever cent he ever had, squandered it, then laid him in the ground to rot without a headstone!

Bitch! I hope GOD has a spear straight up your sick,  demented ass, roasting your stanking ass on a spit.  No, I don't know, can't know either,  but,  I can only hope.

Yes, you finally gave up the ghost in "due time". My circle is tight. While I do hope and pray most people are not like you , they are. Most people are fake ass, lying ass muthafuckers. Shit, I almost went for it. Accidentally married a foggot, not no half a faggot,  a whole muthafucking closet faggot, a little Richard faggot.  A straight sissy. The bitch called  me masculine! (I should have whooped his ass for that remark, just kidding.)

I can laugh now but,  I damn near caught a case. Too much anger, too much rage, too much built up hostility. Far too much fuckery.

Now I'm old. Cool. I do like it, most of the time. I just hate being treated "old". Don't tell me shit! I will say what I fucking please, when and where I fucking please.

I shall "cuss" my black ass off . If you are actually stupid enough to believe there exists a great white Father somewhere in "Heaven", taking names, counting tithes, keeping a list of your infractions, punishing evildoers, your dumb ass deserves to suffer.

I watched my mother prostitute and preach  for over sixty years. GOD ain't punished that low slut yet.  Well, not in a way you could notice or she could notice.  Just know everything that glitters is not gold.  GOD WILL IX IT!

In the "Mean Time" try to hang out with "Groovy People".

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Shirley Brown - Woman To Woman

This was my poor mother. S/he would '"buy" a man if s/he deemed him fine and young enough.  Unfortunately, s/he mistreated them,  just as severely as s/he did us.

Wo/man make your choices carefully. Try to avoid wrong doing as much as possible. Shun jealousy.

If you ever find yourself sick with jealousy, go pray! Pray fervently for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.  What ever you do, don't practice WITCHCRAFT!

The idea of buying a man, "love",  is preposterous!

Yes, my mother drove luxury cars, wore fine raiment while feeding us "Grits and Grease". Took her stanking ass to church every Sunday! Why? False teaching, "slave religion". The "Church" is not a washing machine!

You can't do your filth all week for fifty, sixty, seventy years, then take your soul to church once a week to fool other fools.  At some point you should desire to change.

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Outkast - Take Off Your Cool (ft. Norah Jones)

Dear Family, every one in the Walters/McPhail Klan, all my "kit and kin". I love you abundantly and adamantly . I am your blood, I know your story.  I seriously doubt you could possibly ever know mine. 

Please do not judge me by what you heard. Discern!

I know you can't know, could not possibly know facts so HORRID,  so tragic and so unnecessary.

"WE" didn't know,  mainly because the "pieces" did not fall into place until my estranged brother returned to the clutches of one of the most evil reprobates that has ever lived. "HORROR UNLEASHED!"

Is is sad? No. Am I mad? No. It is the strangest thing, it is mysterious, GOD turned all my midnights into sunny days , when I finally accepted my truth.

Before I go any further revealing secrets we were taught to keep secret by our "jailer"-controller-master/mistress,  do know IT IS ALL IN DIVINE ORDER! Nothing has happened to me, to you , that GOD has not ordained.

"We shall all get our just and honest due on this planet earth."

Foolish Martha did live a riotous, repugnant life, for no reason. She read Proverbs, s/he knew s/he was condemned to forever search for the "precious life".  

Demon worship was Martha's passion, her choice.  I'm just telling you, warning you, praying you will not choose to follow her lead.

"KNOW YE THE TRUTH AND THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Alan Jackson - There Is Power In The Blood

Ova'here rejoicing! I'm so humbled, I'm liquid. Yes, you can pour ME  out of a boot.

Mainly my soul is screaming to high Heaven, Thank YOU Father! Thank you for an evil, demon possessed , "root working", jealous, narcissistic, sadistic, incestuous, pedophile, nymphomaniac , ignorant, incredulous, intractable "mother".

I never would have known, never would have discovered,  what a WONDER WORKING POWER YOU REALLY ARE without the needless pain that abomination to the Holy Ghost made me bear .

Without a HORRID , viperous , pathological lying snake , stalking me for sixty-two years.   I am sure I would have never known you.  I would have remained foolish like so many in the world.

I would have continued believing falsely. I would have held vehemently to cherry picked scripture meant to enslave me.

Yes, I would have held fast to my "slave religion". I am sure I would have never read and studied Your Word for over  sixty years.  No, I would have remained confused concerning my mother. I would have always assumed the "cursing" condemned in scripture , refers to language, not the practice of my mother.

Yes, my mother Martha Jane Walters , would run and scoop some dirt off of a murdered man's grave with a quickness, if you made her mad, jealous or if you ever "out did" her in anything.

My poor mother was an imbecile, tRump's twin.  Dyslexic, carnal, lying, vacuous, color struck, rabid racists.

Yes, I'm laughing, my mother was a "dirt chunker", but, MY GOD IS ABLE ...

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Cannonball Adderley Quintet - "Mercy, Mercy, Mercy" (1966)

I am attempting to read this post aloud.

'Your's is not to reason why, yours is to do what the fuck I say do."

"Shut the fuck up! The more your black bastard ass cries, the less you piss!"

"Shut the fuck up! Don't you sorry muthafuckers even so much as think back!"

"Hurry the fuck up! You sorry black muthafuckers know I got to pray!"

We would all gather around a huge dining room table,  in a cramped, nasty kitchen, in a tiny red brick hut, on Dwain Drive, in Fayetteville, North Carolina.

Martha demanded that we (each and every person under the sound of her masculine,  baritone voice)  , recite a Bible verse,  from memory, without stuttering, stammering or  repeating, every Sunday morning. It had to be new, fresh, delivered with power, confidence, and courage.

My lame ass took delight in this "commandment".   I was excited for the opportunity to recite long passages from the Bible (secretly hoping to impress my very un-impress-able, "I-am-better-and smarter-than-you" , mother) .

My brother *** could not be bothered. "Jesus wept" was his,  and none of us sorry black ass niggers , better ever think about stealing it.

I don't think any of us every wanted to, but, none the less, he always went first. The Bible verse "segment" of this long protracted bullshit , went on for what seemed like hours.  It  would generally go by smoothly , not  quickly, however.

After scarfing down very cold grits and liver pudding, and her hard ass biscuits,  s/he packed us into her long Cadillac and  we headed to Wade! A tiny little village where my grandfather commanded a sixty-five acre tobacco farm, a rambling ranch home , orchards, vineyards, a man made lake and NO DEBT!

Yes, I always looked forward to going anywhere,  attending any function,  where my mongrel mother was forced to behave for hours at a time. (Dear LORD, I thank You for your unending Grace and Mercy!)

 It was when Martha started reading long scripture, reciting long ass  prayers.   It was then,  the "fat-back" grease seemed to "freeze" over and turn white on the grits. That "What the fuck" look would form on  all of  our dismal faces. Our stomachs growled loudly, to no avail, Martha ruled. And the bitch was not going to shut up until she was confident she had fooled GOD, us,  and most importantly my "know-it-all" grandfather.

That whore would drone on and on . I guess we were supposed to forget she spent the week-end selling pussy to the highest bidder. That s/he lied , stole, abused, hated and tortured just because s/he could, her being "light bright, damn near white and all."

Did we say any thing, ever? Hell No!  Why? FEAR! Enslaved, abused , uninformed, uneducated , mis-educated "Christians".

What in the fuck did Martha think she doing? Was s/he trying to fool GOD? Us? Her pathological lying self? Or was this some more of Martha's homemade superstition? No, s/he was just Mocking GOD. What was her point? We were stupid, she was smart? S/he was winning! We couldn't. S/he got here first, s/he was the lightest. S/he had the BOOK (The Seven Lost Books of Moses)

 Martha really did think she was smarter than GOD, always,  because she falsely believed she was always winning. Always having more money than you need is not necessarily winning,  tRump, and tRump-ERS.

Did Martha really believe all her sins were "forgiven thee" ? Did she think fake tithing and sitting up in some hot,  funky church , for nine,  ten hours every Sunday, was some type of sacrifice? Was GOD honored to be in her presence?

I guess [HE] was because she sure made it clear, "WE" ruined her life. Not pride, not lying, not molesting, raping, robbing, murdering. "WE" did,  by always telling, by always running our damn black ass nigger mouth-es.

No matter, I know for a fact s/he cursed GOD, never meant one word that proceeded out of her lying , perverted, jealous, ignorant mouth.

I also know , "If it had not been for GOD on my side ..." ; you would have never cold blooded shot my grandfather in the heart, alerting me of your INCREDIBLE, REPUGNANT evil.

I never would have known you were merely an infantile, promiscuous, nymphomaniac narcissist, who just loved to play "church" for fun, for your sadistic pleasure.

You would have never shown your hand , mailing me that poison pen letter , full of your excrement.  If my poor broken, defeated, destroyed brother,  had never returned to your lair , so many secrets would have escaped revelation.

Yes, Martha, it was  the Holy Spirit directing him.

BEAMING!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Otis Redding "The Glory of Love"

At sixty-seven I no longer doubt or wonder. I am no longer puzzled or confused.  My own mother, Martha Jane Walters,  hated me with an incredible passion for sixty-two years. Molested, raped, and brutalized me physically, spiritually, emotionally, financially and socially.

Then this miscreant  had the nerve to hate me , us, for causing her to be such a low creature. How HORRID!  

While I was groomed by my own mother to hate myself, to hate my skin color, my ethnic group, my culture, GOD said NO!

"Really!? Have I not always protected you? Did I not warn you, alert you when that monster was at her worse? Haven't I always answered all of your prayers? Perhaps you didn't always like the answer, but I am Your GOD."

"Baby, your mother tortured you, burned you, raped you, all of you.  Darling I was there! If you don't know, you need to know, as much evil as Martha successfully inflicted, satan meant to use that imp to do far worse."

" Not only did she leave you for dead, she always hoped you would die.  Martha needed someone to be better than desperately. Committed to unspeakable evil Martha was truly a hideous monster that would not be stopped.  Yes, the whore always knew full well s/he was a lying maggot. That is precisely why she could never find joy. Pretending you have joy while rotting in self hate is not the answer."

"Cherry picking the Word to manipulate and deceive and control is not the way."

Not could not, but would not, did not. Yes, Martha Jane Walters was truly an ABOMINATION TO THE HOLY GHOST THAT HAD TO BE ENDURED TO THE END.

No, it was not just you. Of course it was your whole family. Of course it was every hue-man that ever came into contact with that "free range monstrosity".  A whore so low, so loose, she delighted in secretly spreading misery for eighty-seven years.

Relax daughter, prepare for your victory. BEAM on!"

Thank You LORD! I am humbled!

You told us in Your Word , any one that exalts themselves like my mother did, like tRump does, shall be debased.

BEAMING!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Yea, you bully muthafuckers might have a good time showing your sadistic ass on this side of the Jordon

Yea, I see why she hurried up and got the fuck on outta' here when dat boy come back home.

Well ...   Shit! Whut the fuck did she expect!?   She the one kept stalking him. 

She wuz shocked shitless when he showed back up after twenty-five years.  It wuz unreal. I had given duh nigga up fo'ded.  I didn't blame him ...ever. I fully understood. I just moved two states away. 

No, I didn't hang around fo'hur, it was my granddaddy! That slut could not hold a candle to my grandaddy. ... I've often wondered ... wuz he hur real daddy? ... That bitch sho'ain't had no love fo'him, no maternal/paternal/child instinct.

PREEEEEE-DUH-TOOOOOOORRRRRRRRR! (PREDATOR) 

Will some body please tell me why deze old muthafuckers seem to live fo'fucking'eva!  ...   Shit! Bitches be a hunnerd! Dried up turds still stirring up shit, ... lying, plotting, stealing ... and most of all,  sitting dey corrupt asses  up in somebody's church   ...swearing out they evil ass is going to "heaven" , cause they don't cuss, drink or smoke. 

GAWD aint looking fo'no perfect people! Dumb ass lying muthafucker! Shit bitch, you could have been "gay" or what ever the fuck you were trying to hide out of shame!

'Cause they lie and get in the  tithing lone.

Because they steal sermons and preach them like they wrote them, be proud too. 

Shit Nigga! A hunnerd and  muthafucking five!

I know why dem evil muthafuckers can't die.

Why?

Too fucking evil! GOD don't even want to be bothered wid their stank, treacherous asses.

One thing about it ... when they do finally die ... when eva'body realize they demonic ass is really finally gone ... niggas get tuh talkin' , mouths get to running, comparing notes, sharing secrets.... that's Bible!

Whur?

Read! Nigga , shit... that's yo'fucking problem ... too fucking lazy to read ... too fucking sorry to solve yo'own problems.

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"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Z.Z. Hill - Down Home Blues

Yes, in my eternal search for joy, peace, righteousness,  for my fair share of the pie , I discovered that  every Word in that Book is worthy of extrapolation, deep study.  Every Word is true ! With the exception of parables designed to teach us true righteousness, no one should be confused. Holy Scripture is created (revealed)  to ensure fairness, love and peace.

You must read it, study it personally for yourself. Never trust anyone to interpret The Holy Scripture for you. "What GOD has for you , is for you."

Yes, I always suspected "Christianity" to be extremely racist, just a "Slave Manuel". (Overrun with advice like; "Servant obey your master.)  I was alerted to the white man's bullshit when I was eight years old.

I was watching Oral Roberts on Television "healing" throngs of people , as they lined up and "fell out". I shall never forget it. Oral Robert's was sweating, the sleeves of his snow white dress shirt rolled up to his elbows. I mean that Elvis looking white man was working his ass off healing the sick.

Writhing, squirming, pretending to be Jesus Christ  reincarnated , he commanded every one at home to just put their hands on the TV and GOD would heal them immediately , THROUGH HIM!  So, I put my thick ass "20/80- 20/100 Ice cube " glasses on the TV. Yes, I closed my eyes and prayed.  Yes, when I finally opened my eyes I was still blind as a bat.

I remember distinctly! I said so  aloud , I said so extremely  annoyed; "This lying MOTHERFUCKER!"  (Ain't nobody assed (asked)  your lying white ass to get on TV fucking with people's dreams , for your fucking profit BITCH!)

I told my mother immediately, just went straight to her, told her that Oral Roberts MUTHAFUCKER WAS A FAKE!  To never trust him.  I never did. I didn't trust him many years later when I was recruited to attend Oral Roberts University.

Yes, the "Spirit" that alerted me to Oral Roberts, always warned me concerning my "mother".

Good looking out Jesus!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Joshua Fit The Battle Of Jericho-Mahalia Jackson

My GOD is AWESOME! 

MY LORD/HOLY SPIRIT is SUPERNATURAL! All knowing, all seeing. Always hovering protecting.

Yes, "It is ALL in Divine Order"!

How do I know, I know? I can feel (   ). Yes, [HE] walks with me , talks with me, has never left me alone.

Yes, Almighty GOD summoned by my grandfather, Jerome Walters' fervent prayers, saved me! THANK YOU JESUS!

Yes, Martha,  GOD knew , GOD saw you manipulate Aunt Olive, trick her out of  Uncle Will's  books on "conjure".  Yes Martha, GOD was watching when you coiled your slippery, slimy tongue around Aunt Olive and con her out of All Uncle Will's books and paraphernalia for your own evil. 

The Holy Spirit knows you stole his "The Seven Books of Moses". You should have read it thoroughly! While you were blocking blessings, destroying homes, marriages, careers, you were doing it to yourself!

Martha, you let satan trick you into sabotaging your own blessings.

SOMETHING HE USED FOR GOOD. Something you were determined to use for your own carnal lust.

You were never getting away with evil , you dumb slut, you were just rotting, decaying.  You were never winning, you were never rich, you were never smart or brilliant.  YOU WERE A PATHOLOGICAL LIAR !

You were too low, too common, too immoral, too greedy, too selfish, too carnal to be believed! (acknowledged, accepted as real)  Woman you were a "HORROR UNLEASHED"!

My (our) blessing stem from  enduring your deeply , depraved , demonic ass until the end.

Bitch! I still can't fantom , (believe), your deep stupidity ... Bitch! You deliberately put "dirt" plundered from a murdered man's grave up against The Holy Ghost AND PREACHED!

Bow down satan!

Joshua Fit The Battle Of Jericho-Mahalia Jackson

There is not one demon on this earth that can make me doubt the Holy Ghost!

No, nothing, no one can ever make me doubt or renounce The LORD Jesus Christ. I have INFALLIBLE PROOF!

I don't care if you believe me or not, for eighty-seven years a complete demon possessed monster lived among  us, stalking, ripping US  apart, abusing and laughing .   A WICKED SELF-LOATHING PATHOLOGICAL LIAR ! A SICK SADISTIC INCESTUOUS PEDOPHILE ROOT WORKING PROSTITUTING WHORE!  All while wearing the moniker the AFRICAN METHODIST EPISCOPAL ZION CHURCH  hung around her neck.

(Ye shall know your "Church" by whom they chose to ordain. Ye shall know a "CON-try" by the man they call POTUS)

A demonic troll ! HORROR UNLEASHED! Yes, s/he told on you, explained why you let her preach and kissed her yalla ass, you were just like  her, all lying , ravenous wolves, "Jesus pimps".

Don't worry, I have it on good authority "You shall go no further".

Guess what false "Christians" ? While you are following wo/men like Martha and t Rump,  you are the one's losing.

Yes, that evil, ignorant heifer is finally in the ground and I'm dancing on her dirty little grave.

Martha Jane Walters, that tiny new born infant I caught you trying to deafen by exploding a huge  paper bag in her ear, did not end up deaf. (She is doing EXTRAORDINARILY well,  you low, lying, sneaky, serpent, slut!)  

And yes, every evil spell you covertly lodged against me, against us,  BACKFIRED!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Blame Me Don't Blame My Heart James & Bobby Purify

If you grew up in Fayetteville/Fort Bragg, North Carolina , in the sixties and seventies,  perhaps we had the opportunity to interact.

Maybe you attended Newbold Training School, E.E.Smith, Fayetteville Terry Sanford  or Fayetteville State. If you recognize this song I hope you kept that great memory.

I remember dancing with one tall, fine, chiseled Adonis.  (The lights were dim but we were well behaved.)  Seabrook Recreation Center, probably the last dance before being dismissed at eleven.

No, we didn't have much but at least some "leader" thought enough of us to provide a place of safety. A place where "teens" could truly be "teens".

I have always been a good student, an outstanding scholar,  actually. I only had one problem, evil demonic RACISM! FUCKING WHITE MALE SUPREMACY!

I've grown old under this shit and I'm tired. Yes, I'm tired and I'm fucking raging! Why didn't somebody in my family tell me what a low stanking, demon possessed, sadistic, carnal , deplorable cretin,  my own "mother" was?

"GAWD don't put  NO mo'on you than you can bear." my ass! That slut should have been lynched as a CHILD!

And for your information, that was not GOD torturing and imprisoning us, it was sATAN! sATAN sanctioned, endorsed,  AND upheld by the "Church"!

Wait! Wait! Please know why I'm spitting nails; the low 'hoe for satan was an ORDAINED PREACHER! What the Fuck!?

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Chill! It is ALL in Divine Order

Yes, I love this song! Yes, I live this song! Yes LORD, I know, yea though I walk through the Valley of the Shadow of  Death you art with me.

"My LORD from Zion"! The evildoers think they have taken over Your Church. Yes, the miscreants own and control most "Churches", not one is Yours.

That wo/man, that horrid wo/man,  that lived to lust, to destroy, to vex,  is finally gone. Yes LORD, I can finally exhale.

t Rump and evil wo/men just like him are actually so  depraved and so disrespectful to GOD,  they actually think they can use GOD,  against the people of GOD for their (secret) love, satan.

Martha MURDERED  her own father in 1979! Spent the rest of her life ducking, dodging, chunking "goofer dust",  attempting to escape prison. Bitch! You were in prison, in the prison of your own mental illness. You were imprisoned in your PTSD!

You were imprisoned by your pathological lies, your extreme jealousy.

I figured it out for all people like you. People that can't stop lying. People that deliberately live in shame because they can't muster the strength to face what their "caretakers" did to them.

I was a talker, a "tattle-tell" according to my "mother" , siblings and everyone in my family.

(Dear LORD, thank you for making me a blabber mouth early in life!)

Why was telling my grandfather how you (and your husband) gave us hot soapy enemas EVERY MUTHAFUCKING DAY,  UNTIL I TOLD ON YOUR SICK PERVERTED ASS,  problematic for you?

SICK WHORE!

Martha Jane Walters! All the preaching in the world shall not save your ass from the bed you made, the grave you dug.

RIP (Rot In Purgatory)

Buddy Guy - Five Long Years

Try SIXTY-TWO YEARS!  Try living while trying to please your PSYCHOTIC/DEMON POSSESSED/INCESTUOUS PEDOPHILE MOTHER!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

"It is what it is"

"The Trill is Gone", words every narcissistic evil doer hates to hear. Well, time changes all things, dumb ass.

(I did ask GOD why I do so much "name calling". )

"Because that is all you ever knew, all you ever heard from the cretin that deliberately held you hostage, pretending to be a nurturing , caring mother.  Knowing full well she was a lustful, carnal INCESTUOUS PEDOPHILE!"

"WORSE,  Martha never  truly believed s/he was getting away . S/he was "biding her time". Believe it or not, Martha wanted to get caught, to be punished. But, alas, it was not to be. Martha was much too fierce, much too cruel and sadistic. Yes, Martha had to be endured to the end."

"How else could good , righteous, justice loving people , come to know the affects of racism, of being color struck."

Scripture tells us to know our truth,  to be set free. I am finally , learning my REAL truth. All the broken pieces are finally fitting into place. To think I had to grow "old". My daughter had to uproot me, move me to Southern California, get me NETFLIX  before the obvious crystalized in front of my "blinded eyes".  

It was on  NETFLIX where I discovered the awful truth my "demon possessed mother" cloaked so well for eighty-seven years! Martha Jane Walters was a full fledged INCESTUOUS PEDOPHILE ,  deeply complicated by her nymphomania , sadism and sick cruelty.

Stupid ass, uneducated Martha tried her hand at WITCHCRAFT! Half-ass, poorly read, poorly understood , homemade nigger witchcraft! Martha always got what she fucking deserved, nothing!

The documentary  that alerted me, informed me, is; "Chemical Castration". Wow! Little did I know! The pedophile really can't help it! It is a form of mental illness. It is true, some grown adult wo/men are sexually attracted to children. Worse, the dumb muthafuckers justify their actions by claiming the child came on to them.

That is certainly what my stupid ass mother did, what her second husband did. Yes, she knew it!

FUCK THAT BITCH! 

I rebuke that low life swine! Anybody, any of my relatives,  still claiming love for that slut can kiss my ass, miss me with that shit, move on. You are fucking stupid, defeated, worthless. I shall not drown in your boat. 

Any one claiming to still fear Martha's worthless demonic ass is not worth saving.

Save Yourself!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

"For at last it biteth as an Adder."

The excessively long winded,  pretentious "Obeseque" my "mother" took three days to prefect ,  had guilt written all over it. No, not enough guilt to cause Martha to confess, repent or change. Just enough to play "Grand Dame/Almost a Princess" daily for all concerned.

Yes, it  was pure pageantry. Tucker Funeral Home got "the body". Yes, he liked them but,  granddaddy had paid into Dafford Funeral Home for most of his entire life. (Why?)  When I think about it, smart ass Martha had to pick a funeral director that would rather remain silent about my grandfather's "suicide" than contact the "authorities".

I get it, shit, only one family member had the courage to accuse Martha of murder. If anyone knew what that low slut was capable of,  he was.

How strange, granddaddy always teased him, said" "**** , you blind and won't see."  He wasn't too blind or too fearful to call that murderous 'hoe out.

I know the stanking 'hoe made my granddaddy miss out on the funeral he always dreamed of.  I can't remember a great deal  about that day. I'm not sure if they played this song. I do remember the processional was miles long because my mother did have the courtesy to "hold the body out " for one week.  

That is what she said,  or claimed, in reality, s/he needed more time to shop. S/he needed more "outstanding outfits", complete with loud gaudy hats, shoes, bags, furs and kid gloves. Martha needed to prove to all "dem Wade niggers" she was somebody! That she came up! S/he had a husband! S/he lived in a brick hut! 

Martha needed to prove to them "Wade niggers in Wesley" that she was not what they said. It was all a lie! Them damn niggers always said Mathy Jane was common as bat shit. Little did they know how right they were.

Some of her children were successful , despite her bullshit, her unending stalking.

S/he needed more time to demean me, to curse me, to remind me of what a broke, needy, parasite I was. S/he needed more time to make jokes about why I should just climb my black ass in the casket with granddaddy,  because all of my "free loading " was over now!

(Freeloading! Bitch! I was a certified teacher! Bitch! I was trying to repay my fucking Student Loans! Something you never paid,  or ever  attempted to pay.)

I heard it was a grande funeral, "standing room only".  (Granddaddy would have liked that.) I don't know because I was so grief stricken , I was in a Zombie state.  I do remember the rage I had to suppress. I had to lie and pretend or risk prison. (You know this lying 'hoe will go slap off her fucking rocker, again if I dare accuse her.  Put granddaddy in the ground and "press on". "GOD will 'git hur'" "It will all come out in the wash.""Jesus will fix it.")

All that is true, but,  I am still livid! Seething will anger and pain this world, these "Christians" , refuse to let me express.

I'm still angry because I know the slut did it deliberately. Deliberately robbed my saintly grandfather of his last opportunity to shine, to out do her ,  to out smart her one last time. 

In the (black) "Church" it is called Protocol. The "Family" always followed behind the closed casket, first.to this song. We disassembled, quietly and reverently left the church from the front to the back, from close family to stragglers . 

No talking! Absolute silence! NO TALKING!  Hand gestures only. NO SMILES! 

It was beautiful pageantry,  if the "Church"  was filled to the rafters with heavy hearted mourners.  Ushers in nurse uniforms, passing out smelling salts and fans,  with snow white gloved hands.

Ushers in nurse uniforms running themselves raged fanning the bereaved, the overcome. The nurse /ushers were always sharp, crisp, one arm always held behind their back. (Why?)

 If you died well, like my grandfather did, the church was not only overrun with flowers, but that smell, that "funeral home" smell of carnations and tons and tons of "florist smell" hung heavy in the air.

Well, one of the reasons my deep anger and hatred for my mother is still so strong, this was his song. This was his moment!  My grandfather's life was not lived in vain. MY GRANDFATHER DID NOT COMMIT SUICIDE  as his lying ass, demon possessed daughter proclaimed!

My grandfather, Jerome Walters earned the right for throngs of loved ones and relatives to march behind his "closed casket" proud,  with their heads held high, never wondering, never doubting my grandfather's honor.

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!'

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

James & Bobby Purify I Don't Want To Have To Wait

Good music is healing, it is truly a balm for my still open oozing wounds. No, there is no excuse for me to still experience such excruciating pain at SIXTY-SEVEN YEARS of age!  Shit,  that is like three life times for so many people, for so many of my friends.

My friends and relatives starting "lefting here" at age eighteen. (Barry Bowser, Sherman Davis)

Dear LORD thank You for good music! Thank You for taking that low whore for satan,  when you did. Yes, I think it took you  too long, it was much  too painful, totally unnecessary. But, I'm hue-man. I don't know , can't know your plan.

Yes, I do know you protected me every step of the way. Yes, I'm deeply humbled. In awe. Speechless. Wordless. Yet,  I BEAM! WOW! WHAT A WONDERMENT! IT IS TRULY AMAZING! Deliberately standing on the tall shoulders of my wise , wonderful grandfather,  Jerome Walters!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSETHE CURSE!"

God Is So Amazing

Really.  GOD is truly amazing. Yes, the Holy Spirit can NOT lie. Yes, [S/HE] IS  right on time. ALWAYS!

"TRUST AND OBEY!"  Step out on faith. I am sitting here raging and rejoicing! The nerve of that witch! That bully! That lying, despicable demon possessed hypocrite,  actually believing GOD was going to permit her to live out her horrid life  just the way she demanded to, because she was common enough, dumb enough, low enough,  to practice WITCHCRAFT  and preach.

Martha, granddaddy didn't stop you because he knew it would take a bullet in your GOD forsaken heart,  to stop you. You were too deplorable!

Too hardheaded! Too intractable! Too lying! Too cruel! Too cowardly! Too selfish! Too ignorant! Too carnal and perverted! Too demon possessed! Too lazy! Too immoral! Too tRump-ish!

 It was not fear. It was patience. It was obedience to GOD's Word. [S/HE] told us to endure to the end. That [S/HE] would right every wrong, make every crooked way straight.

No, in "twenty-twenty hindsight"  Martha should have never been left around innocent children or the infirm. Martha was  a monster. No, she could never be trusted, by anyone, EVER!

No matter what the "One percent" do, have done,  or continue to do, they can't win. 

My mother turned out to be such a horrid hue-man being,  I am deeply  ashamed of her. Of course I am ashamed of her sickening, sadistic,  secret acts committed over and over,  for nearly a century. I am more ashamed of her  and shocked that she refused repentance.

S/he preached. S/he knew that even in the last hour s/he could have repented, come into the Kingdom. The low whore deliberately chose to die a volunteer slave for satan, because of her skin color. What an idiot!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

RVERSE THE CURSE!"

In the "Mean Time"

I mean in the "Mean Time", this time, this age, this season. Evil hearts have waxed cold. Very few have any real faith. While many crowd up into "Churches" two, three, four times a week, they are wasting their time.

Most "Christians" have never read The BIBLE.  Most "Christians" are deeply disturbed liars and yes,  ALL "Christians" are deeply racist.

They have to be , "Christianity" is a racist, white supremest religion. One woman, had triplets, three distinctly different "races".   Three distinctly different colors! The white color favored, the black color, cursed FOREVER! For what? For laughing at his drunken , naked ass daddy! Please! (But nasty ass, perverted ass tRump,  is your man, your savior, your hero!?)

 It is a demonic racket. Never forget "they" crucified Jesus! The Sadducees and Pharisees hated Jesus! Why ? He ran the greed mongers and "dove sellers" out of the "Church" (Temple).

These idiots hated Jesus because [HE] had the nerve, the courage, the unmitigated gall,  to answer them back when they made stupid demands,  according to the "Law".

Yes, Jesus broke the "Law", healed on the "Sabbath", ate the corn without washing it, hung out with the low life "poor". Freely associated with whores and prostitutes. (Probably smoked weed.)  Was always humble and shit, always walking. Didn't parade in a gold chariot.  Didn't hang twenty-four carat gold "crosses" around his neck.  Didn't flex by playing golf everyday. Didn't boldly wear a coat proclaiming; "I don't care, do you?".

Didn't adorn his body with rubies ,  diamonds or orange spray paint. Freely shared, preformed miracles with five loaves of bread and two fish. Jesus didn't tear gas little innocent  children (in someone else's country),   for showing up with "unfit" parents. Didn't send thousands to the border to put on a show for the most despicable, repugnant, sadistic piece of shit,  that ever lived.

The best thing this entire "tRump Debacle" has  done for me, is remove my blinders. Most people have no idea how evil,  fake,  hypocritical "Christians" really are. Jesus told us to look at their fruit. We don't.  We like fools just listen to their empty words, get excited by their wealth, their skin color, their "Power".

I look back over my own "mother's" life, my life  and vacillate from deep shock, excruciating pain, extreme rage and loathing, back to praising the LORD for saving me.

What a horror. *"HORROR UNLEASHED"- October 9, 1925 . "My LORD from Zion"! HORROR!  Martha Jane Walters committed every known and unknown sin, HORROR, rape, robbery, debauchery, castration, emasculation, humiliation and deliberate destruction,  on everyone in her entire family for EIGHTY SEVEN YEARS!


Why? PSYCHOTIC! ? DEMON POSSESSED!  ?  I am siding on the side of demon possession because she was. She had to be a demon,  if for no other reason , her dumb ass was low, common and perverted enough,  to practice WITCHCRAFT  and preach!

Pick a side dumb whore! "Be ye hot or cold, or get spewed!"

While I am still healing , that tiny,  tender hearted,  brown baby , remains severely raped and ruptured by her own "mother". Yes, I still rage because so few "Christians" give a shit about children. We all jump on them and crucify them for doing wrong,  while none of us stop such wo/men as Martha and tRump.

Why? Fear! Why fear stanking lying whores like Martha and,  tRump,  while proclaiming you love the LORD?  "Oh ye of little faith."

If you preach and practice "Prosperity Christianity", you don't believe in GOD, you believe in money, "white money", white privilege.  Not only do you believe "might makes right" , white makes right,  you are common and low life, you will do anything for money and straight lie when caught.

Yes, you shall get your "just and honest due on this planet earth."  It is just a "matter of time".

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I rage because more people are concerned with "image", with "language" , with man made laws, with ranking and persecuting by skin color and gender,  than with any form of righteousness, truth, or justice.

While my mother did brag, did appoint herself lord and master over everyone darker, she was miserable. Just another fucking fake. Sure she always profiled in luxury cars and always wore the most expensive raiment money could buy, she was miserable. Never had any joy.

Why? The stupid slut appointed herself the "Joy police" very early in her life.

We were all  born poor, born a "bastard", born too dark or  too black, according to Martha, our first teacher. No, there was no joy for us, ever .

Martha demanded to exact punishment, a pound of flesh from every one,  for being dumb enough to come out of her corrupt nasty ass.

S/he was only twenty-six years old when I came along and deliberately ruined the rest of her miserable whorish, nymphomaniac , sadistic, pathological lying, deplorable life.  I'm sure the very sight of my black ass always made her feel something ( bad perhaps). I'm sure I triggered memories of the all the debauchery she delighted in. (Sick sadistic racist bigot).

Did her "Church" adore her as much as she claimed? Or did they just live in fear,  like we did? Do you think Martha ever "shook goofer dust" in her "Church"?  Is the Pope Catholic? Every where that slut went, walked or rode, you can be sure she was shaking dust.

I did ask GOD, why was Martha always so low, so common, so cruel? Self-hatred! Why? She was a pervert, she was carnal, she was common. Martha could not feel, had zero empathy for anyone. But she hated like hell any one saying one word to her about anything.

If you complimented Martha on her evil , carnal nature, you were cool. Express grief, disagreement, you were finished, officially her enemy, just someone else to stalk. Just another face to grin in, to deliberately stab in the back, pretending to love.

Please understand, Martha loved and cherished every "perversion" she practiced. She was annoyed, pissed off,  that it was considered wrong, a sin,  by the very GOD she was supposed to pretend to love.

Do know Martha Jane Walters NEVER  loved,  never cared for another hue-man being on this earth. She was a fly in the ointment, the snake in the woodpile. Martha was a  "Chester".  (Chester the Molester)   Yes, she would molest you.  S/he was a Judas goat. A homemade witch doctor. A stanking whore that shot her own father in the heart and remained too cruel, too jealous, too full of envy and demons to ever repent or confess.

Martha was a stalker. Martha was everything the book of Proverbs predicts. She was a whorish wo/man and she did waste eighty-seven years searching for the "precious life".

Yes, Martha was about as "Christian" and Christ loving as your average tRump supporter.

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Touch Me Lord Jesus - Gospel Legends Volume 1 Margret Allison

Never let the devil get the upper hand. That is exactly what happened in my family.We let satan get her clutches on us and do know the slut refused to let go.

Rebuke every evil doer you know. Do it now!

PRAISE THE LORD!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Kal Ho Na Ho - Heartbeat Instrumental!

Where would I be without a keen sense of hearing? Lost? Devastated? Miserable?

Music is truly medicine for the soul. The powerful healing properties of music and prayer are very underrated in our world. Few know. Most just  stop at the beat, enjoy sweet melodies  momentarily,  then move on to more mischief.

Luckily for me my "mother" loved music. She could not sing or dance but,  she loved music. She was "tardy on the vittles". Yes, she hated feeding us. Made a point of clarifying that point every day with her brag; ""I keep you black muthafuckers ass holes open!"

"My LORD from Zion!"  I heard  that daily, witnessed things I shall never tell and still didn't know what great danger I was truly in.

If you know , like I know, you will keep away from the "Church". The "Church" let my "mother" preach for over fifty years, thirty plus under ORDINATION!

Wo/Man! You can NOT preach And practice WITCHCRAFT!  What kind of foolish imp are you, you dumb slut!

World, the type of evil my mother carried, practiced, and  perpetuated is extremely EXACERBATING   because it was so unnecessary. Martha raged with jealousy and hatred. Why? S/he was the "right color". S/he had long "straight" hair.  S/he was extremely intelligent compared to most. S/he kept money? What was her issue?

I asked GOD , what made my "mother" so unhappy, why was s/he so full of rage ? Why was s/he so perverted? Cunning? Sneaky? Manipulative? Could it be because she felt forced to deny her "sexuality"? Was my "mother" angry, raging against GOD's commandment against "homosexuality"?

Did my "mother" secretly hate GOD for forcing her to hide her true self? Did the "Church" force self-hatred on my "mother"?

One thing I know, she believed that bullshit about Ham, and Hagar's children. She definitely taught us that all people of color are cursed and immoral. S/he always supported the Klan and every racist agenda.  Yes, my own "mother" was secretly anti-black and an anti-mother. My "mother" did not mother to nurture, that slut nurtured to destroy!

My "mother" did believe that s/he was better than any and all people darker than she was. While my mother did hate dark skin people, s/he rarely let on.  She cleverly covered her revulsion for darker skin by pretending she feared germs.

My mother was a riot sitting on her "throne" in the pulpit, faking holiness , while constantly slathering hand sanitizer on her hands,  clear up to her elbows.

Skin is skin , you rotten slut! You were just putting on because you wanted to "dis-remember", "dis-connect" from your horrid past. I am sure there was not one day you looked at any of us and failed to re-call something horrid and unspeakable you had done.

You re-called it and enjoyed it, savored it,  you stanking sadistic slut!

Martha! Martha! Martha! You always ran from your accuser with daggers in your eyes, with vows to extract retribution , simply for being accused. Notice, never any investigation, never any question as to why your guilty ass was being accused.

Not only that, no concern for anyone's healing. Just a hateful , horrid scream of ; "Weeeeellllllll! I didn't do it! Fuuuuuuucccccckkkkkkkkkkkk You!!!!!"

No dumb bitch, you were never that retarded. It was a good act, a good ploy. You knew better. The fact that you had "sense enough" to live the horrid life you deliberately lived for eighty-seven years, while most of your many victims were  "pre-deceasing " you daily,  is not a testament to your brilliance. No, you did not out smart GOD.

GOD told me to ""Endure to the end."

No, you did not defeat or destroy me! Yes, you pissed me the fuck off! But, in so doing,  I learned a lot.   You sullied the "Church". No real Christ Loving church would dare let a cretin like you in. No, real true Christ Lovers can ever support men like tRump or wo/men like you.

No true Christ Lover fears a dead demon like you or a multi billionaire white male supremacists .

It is just a matter of time. While dumb, lustful, carnal ignorant imps like you have caused me incalculable grief, I'M NOT YOU! 

Nothing in me would ever permit me to commit the cruel acts you did over and over for eighty-seven years. Is there a Heaven or Hell? I don't know but, I do know where ever your dead ass is,  rotting, you are rotting,  knowing full well you died and unrepentant , sneaky, low life viper .


"Get thee behind me satan! I never knew you."


"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"


"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Zora Neale Hurston & Voodoo

I just want to know, who paid this lame, poor reader to bore me to death concerning such a fantastic woman.

Don't be fooled, don't overlook your spiritual power. My mother was a practitioner of voodoo. Do not let laugh, I am a witness! YES YOU CAN!

Most of the shit this lame, word caller is spewing is some bullshit. I did my master's thesis on Voodoo and Conjure and this tape is some bullshit!

POWER!

"You have not because you ask not."  Not because of your skin color! Not because GOD over blessed some undeserving peon that you secretly hate.  It is that simple. Billions of hue-man beings engaging in absolute repugnant filth! There is no excuse for that kind of "lack of faith". It doesn't cost one red cent to live as a decent hue-man being.

You don't have to be a scholar to understand the admonition; "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you."

My mother knew that, taught it, preached it, all while carrying a sick , deep, sadistic hatred for all things good and righteous in her black , jealous, envious heart.

My mother did warn me that I would grow to hate her with a passion when my blinders finally fell off.  She was right as usual. I have tried to convince myself it's her behavior that I hate. That's a lie. I hate that bitch.

I hate her for being a sadistic coward. I hate her for her brilliance , her perfect conniving con act. I hate her for being greedy, common, cruel and lustful.  I hate her for never recognizing one single boundary.  I hate her for being a pathological liar full of charming charisma. I hate her for being a successful INCESTUOUS PEDOPHILE ROOT WORKER!

But then, I say thank You LORD! The demonic evil my mother "washed my face in" for sixty-two years would have gone unnoticed if Martha had not gone too far, tormented for far  too long.

Now I'm looking at seventy-two year old tRump, my mother's evil twin. Yes, he has been too evil, too long. His vast wealth , white skin and gender have spared him about as long as possible.  tRump you have come to the end of your road,  demon possessed MUTHAFUCKER!

How ironic, my mother murdered the one man that always loved her unconditionally. As horrid as my mother was, I would have remained her dutiful stooge, her willing footstool,  if she had not murdered my grandfather. Not only did she take a good man's life, delighted in it.

Martha lived her entire long life bragging about her many schemes, scams and flimflams. Yes, s/he even bragged about the five babies she flushed down the toilet.

I must laugh and admit that while all this shit was going on I was rather clueless.  Did I think all wo/men kept multiple lovers? Did I assume that I was the lame loser, goody-two shoes my mother claimed I was because I refused to adopt her life style?

I don't know about you, but, I smell DESOLATION! What can tRump do? Can he repent? Is it too late? Shall he find the courage to take his own life?

tRump, my man, your ten billion dollars up against the Holy Ghost,  is like one lone piss ant up against Moby Dick. 

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

I Stand Accused (Long Version) - Isaac Hayes

I stand here today proudly rejecting the "Slave Christianity" imposed on me by my "mother", family and society in general.

I did not come here to be any one's slave, concubine, foot stool or the object of their narcissistic supply. No, I am not waiting for any fucking pie in the sky. White men enjoy their Heaven on earth while pawning off some  five thousand year old bullshit on all women and people of color.

Well, you evil muthafuckers got lazy, far too greedy and you dumb muthafuckers volunteered to follow that dumb muthafucker into captivity,  just because he is too rich and too white. Now "We" all shall suffer.  Many "Churches" shall dry up. Many pastors shall be exposed.

No matter , because many innocent children shall be saved.

"When I came to myself, to my consciousness, I discovered my "mother" was a complete DEMON! The shit is scary , the shit is real. I saw this demonic shit up close and personal for my entire life.

Now the UNITED STATES OF AMERICA  is fully in the grips of an ABOMINATION TO THE HOLY GHOST just like my mother.

My "mother" didn't win, neither shall this succubus. What he has done is snatch the blinders off. He has fully exposed "Christianity" , the "government", and all  forms of complete fuckery.

Yes, I attended "Church" for twenty-one years in a solid row. Yes, I was taught "The LORD" would curse me for failure to "remember the Sabbath".  Yes, I was very old before I realized I didn't have to sit under some lying, long winded hypocrite in order to "remember the sabbath".

Perhaps my grandfather was wrong for always coming to his evil daughter's rescue. Or, it is ALL IN DIVINE ORDER!

No evildoer shall ever get away. I don't care how much money you have, or think you have, never mock GOD.


"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

Steer clear of people, all people.

Very few people are worth knowing.  Most people are phony , envious, jealous , backstabbing liars. I am sixty-seven and I have infallible proof.  I am a genius. Yes, my I.Q. (Intelligence Quotient ) measured 146 at age ten. Yes, I always scored in the ninety-ninth percentile on the Iowa basic skills tests.

So, why am I broke, financially disabled? That faggot I accidental married would claim my lack of finance,  is my fault. Well, if I have to accept being a fucking urinal for a fucking, rude, lying, diseased, dumb ass faggot, I choose to be broke.

A white man once told me I didn't know my place. He got cussed the fuck out and that was in 1977.

Well, it seems racist imps like my mother and tRump can only see color. If you are the wrong color, fuck you, no joy for your black ass. What if I could have cured cancer? So fucking what, this world hates all people of color. People of color , hate people of color!

WARNING!  When it comes to "Christians", especially Evangelicals, steer clear.  LIARS! LIARS! LIARS! IMMORAL! IMMORAL! IMMORAL!  Why do you think that thing is president?

My mother preached for over fifty years. I swear to GOD I think satan feared her evil ass.

No matter. When I think things over, I'm glad the slut hated me. I'm glad the "Church" turned it's back on me. I'm glad s/he snitched on the "Church". Died confident that no one was ever going to tell on her,  finally reveal her because they are all the same.

Discern and pray is the best advice I can give you.

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

When did we know?

What did granddaddy know and when did he know it? Why was he always speaking in code? "When your head is in the lion's mouth, don't make any sudden moves?"   Was Martha supposed to be the lion? 

Bullshit! S/he was a wo/man, just a wo/man. True she was a liar and she was extremely cruel most of the time. But,  there were times she showed us kindness, ferocious as she pretended to be , she always knew better.  Yes, I did look forward to those days when she would behave, act 'normal", civilized, pretend to be kind, loving and nurturing.

Yes, she did promise to repent before she died. Of course she lied. Why were we always dumb enough to believe her? I think it is called hope. It is false faith. The Holy Spirit does not need to send satan to save you.

Of course that is one of the many lies my mother taught us. "The devil might have brought it but , GAWD sho'sent it."

Bullshit! Lying stanking whore! That wo/man should have been arrested for child abuse. She feed us "Grits and Grease" for months and "de-doubled-dog-dared" us EVA"  tell any muthafucking body.

Of course I went along with it. I thought we had died and gone to heaven. Lobster tails for lunch! Rib-eye steaks., shrimp, crab, ribs, rump roasts!   Everything was great until our "Meat man " went to jail.

He was a preacher, drove a Cadillac. used my mother's "gifts" of witchcraft for his own greed and pleasure.   "My LORD from Zion".

My mother sent me word via FB a few years before s/he passed. "What's been done can't be undone."

No, but you can apologize, repent, say excuse me, bitch!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

THE FALCONS - ''YOU'RE SO FINE'' (1959)

We are ALL fine! Don't miss your blessing pining over someone else's gifts. "What GOD has for you is for you."

One thing I know well; "The devil tempt, he no push."  My mother kept me in harms way, attempted in every conceivable way she could to destroy my life, our lives, for her entire long, extraordinary life.

No, she never won and she never knew consequences. S/he "knew" them, just refused to recognize them. Never recognized them because she had a good father that always came to her rescue. No matter how horrid, not only did Jerome Walters save his wayward daughter, he refused to "wash her face in it".

Well, did he refuse or was he just trying to keep the peace?  Bring up anything, bring up the slightest discretion ever made by Martha and prepare for WORLD WAR III. I can assure you, what ever your complaint was, your grievance, it was not worth Martha's wrath.

"Just git gone! Just stay the hell away from the bitch. Never be less than five hundred miles from her demonic reach. "Skin and gin", don't let on. LORD! When is this bitch gon'die!?"

The lying,  sick, demented whore died lying,  declaring that she had  won. Who the fuck is dumb enough to believe that lying slut? The same people that still love tRump. Hue-man pieces of shit.

I remember being hurt, devastated because my family chose Martha over me, chose a lie over the truth. Now I'm glad to know who is actually that stupid, that defeated, that lost. Stay the fuck away from me! You fucking idiot! You blind fucking sheep!

Do you think there is a god somewhere monitoring your conversation, giving you demerits for "cussing"? Well, your dumb ass deserves to suffer!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"

I'm so proud- Curtis Mayfield and The Impressions

Mahalia Jackson- There is a Balm in Gilead

LORD thank You. Thank You for these safe five Mathy Jane free years. Thank You for sparing me from most of her many, many schemes, over and over for sixty-two years.

Dear LORD help me to warn this world of the sick, sadistic cretins that live among us, with us, just to torment us. Dear LORD help me  alert innocent naive parents to the very predators that lie in wait in their own families. MOTHERS! FATHERS! PASTORS!  All hold up in the "Church" just so they can molest, rape, rob and destroy freely.

Not once in fifty years did my mother's "Church" ever rat her out. Shit, "we the family" didn't rat that wretched murdering, "root working" slut out. Why? "When your head is in the lion's mouth, don't make any sudden moves."

That was the advice our grandfather gave me every time I tried to "rat my mother out'.

Dear LORD help me to remind all predators that it is never too late. Martha was eighty-seven years old. The low slut still had possession of all of her faculties! Was still up to mischief of the worse order!  Why? No desire to change! Why? The dumb slut bragged that she was "light bright and damn near white".  Did more evil to black people than any racist ever would or could. Fucking idiot!

No matter, evil can't win.

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"

"REVERSE THE CURSE!"