I think I'm perturbed

Yes, I am singing, running around the house dancing a jig.  But I am just a little bit put off.  "Ding dong the wicked witch is dead!"  Very few people will ever celebrate with me.  Very ,very few people on this earth believe my plight is true. No ONE can fathom or dare image what the Walter's family lived through for 87 years!

She is too hard to take.  She is a total impossibility.  No person, no human being, no woman on this earth could ever be that common.  Not that common and get away with it.  Surly someone would stop her, arrest her and put her in jail.  People are just not that stupid, gullible, and easily fooled.

I can truly say those are all lies from the depths of hell.  When a person refuses to give their life to Christ, when a person deliberately gets involved in the occult seeking power, this is exactly what happens.  You become scum, despicable, repugnant and people refuse to see you, to recognize you, out of sheer terrifying fear.  "I can't know LORD! It is too terrifying!   Dear LORD take my hand! Lead me out of this barren land!"   I can testify that I overcame and survived one of the most treacherous demonic imps that ever crawled on this earth.  I dodged a bullet! I listened to the voice of the LORD and He led and guided me, protected me from one of the evilest spirits ever unleashed on this earth.


Thank you Jesus! Thank you Jesus! Thank you for whispering in my ear when I was four years old.  Thank you for taking my hand.

Some things my ordeal with Martha Jane Walters taught me; Love the LORD with all your heart. Humble yourself and submit your will to Him.  Never try to live double minded.  You will love one and hate the other!  If you want a good life, give your life to Christ.   Don't ever think that you can play it safe, ride the fence, or merely be an observer.

"Choose ye this day whom thy shall serve.";children.  Remember;"apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

Copyright October 29, 2013   All right reserved

"How sweet it is!"

Words made famous by the dynamic soul group, The Temptations.  When you love the LORD and know beyond a shadow of any doubt that GOD loves you, is blessing you, is keeping you, leading and guiding you , you will shout;.  "How sweet it is!"

"When you know that you know." , you don't mind being talked about, hated, scorned, laughed at, left out, excluded, shunned, judged, ridiculed, stepped on, used, cast aside.  You won't walk, you will glide, your smile will illuminate and radiate because you will know what many people will miss.  You will know what true humility is.  You will know what it means to be Glorified, Sanctified.  And you will smile and forgive all of your naysayers and haters.  Not only that, you will pray for them and wish them love.

Have a Great Blessed Day children.  Don't do anything without seeking the LORD's will.  Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."

Take five minutes, study His WORD, Google some scripture.

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

Copyright  October 23, 2013   All rights reserved

There it was...

emblazioned  in all caps RACHELLE WILLIAMS!  My daughter's by-line for the opening episode of
LOVE THAT GIRL, "To live and lie in LA"  It was wonderful! Excellent witty humor, excellent classy jokes.

I am not just proud of her because she is my daughter.  I am proud of her tenacity, her grit. Her raw determination.  No, I am not in the least bit surprised that she is a brilliant gifted writer. That gift is embedded deep in her DNA. I was amazed at her ability to create dialog and mimic foreign and southern dialect as a toddler. My little girl was born to write. She truly has something to say.

My heart is swollen because GOD told me He was going to do it!

" Won't He do it!"  (Our inside joke)

I have a grin (a radiant smile) stretching from ear to ear. GOD is blessing me, is blessing us. Martha is dead. Her carcass lies rotting in the ground. I am sorry that she is dead. "Every man's death diminishes me."
I am shaking my head.  "Oh ye of little faith..."  She had everything, looks, intelligence, charisma, a wise father, a loving mother.  She just could not believe, could not trust.  Really believed tearing down others would build her up.

GOD was just too good, too miraculous for her to believe in.  Make sure you know that anything you want; ask GOD for in the mighty name of Jesus, you can have.

Rmember; "I was born for greatness! If I am to be ,what I want to be, It is up to me!"


Stay in His WORD children.  "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn(the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch(JEROME WALTERS)

Don't let the devil use you

Today is the anniversary of my mother's birth, October 9, 1925.  She would have been 88.  What an honor.  I am finding her death to be very mysterious.  GOD revealed it to me.  Told me August 21, 2013 that she was on the verge of death.

GOD prepared me for her death in so many ways.  He exposed her impish nature.  Introduced me to the condition of NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder).  Made me understand her miss-steps.  She was raped as a child.  The man wasn't punished.  "Daddy didn't do nutttin' but run da n**** off."

What did that comment really mean? What secrets did she reveal that she felt forced to hide?  Did she feel betrayed or unloved?  Of course they never talked about it.  There was no such thing as psychological counseling.  Was she blamed? Called hot and fast?  She was extremely promiscuous. That is a fact.  But, rather than trying to correct it, she simply denied it, scorned every one that tried to help her.  Suffered with jealousy and perversion her entire life.

I laugh now.  My mother's personality would make you want to commit suicide or murder or simply self medicate.  Her personality was very much like Moms Mabley , Bloody Mary and Sweet Daddy Grace combined.    Truth!? Don't bring her Truth!  Prepare to do battle with the loudest most vulgar violent out of control idiot on this earth.  It wasn't worth it.  "Let the b**** have her way....Move!  Get thee hence."  I thought "long distance" was the answer, the cure.  How could I know that she was dumb enough, ignorant enough to "work roots"?  Who does that?  According to the Bible a lot of people.

I really do appreciate her. I could have never known, had no idea how wonderful and magnificent our GOD is without her torment.  Perhaps I would have taken joy for granted.  GOD permitted me to forgive her. He took all the hate.  What is the point?  She hurt herself much more than she hurt me.

I learned every single prophetic WORD in that Book is true!  I am going to live by it.  I am going to  love my neighbor, spread the Gospel of Jesus Christ.  I am going to put on the whole armor of GOD.  When they come to revile or rebuke me I will stand strong knowing that my Redeemer lives.

I will continue my fight to save innocent children.  I will sound an alarm and warn the world against the greatest evil, Pedophilia.  Our innocent children are thrown away, destroyed by the millions every day while the entire uncaring world watches.  Jesus told you; "Suffer the little children to come unto me, forbid them not the kingdom of heaven."   Dear LORD save our children.

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

Copyright October 9, 2013   All rights reserved

Will the circle ever be unbroken?

Our Dear LORD designed a magnificent world for us.  Sin came into the world and destroyed the perfect plan, man called it Utopia, said it was an absolute fantasy, impossible to create.

  Said it was pure folly, that it  could never exist.  Well I know it can exist and it will one day.

I was born into a wonderful family, the best I ever heard of.  Something, rather someone went,  wrong.  Brought love, pride and Holiness to a crashing end.  Shocked and afraid we thought we had to take it.  She would not be criticized or corrected.  She was strong as any bull, had big field slave hands and shoulders.  We chose to fear her, stay out of her way.  Kept her secrets as demanded.  "That's love, that's family"; she said.

"You are stuck with me. There is nothing you can do.  You can't win for the fix you in. I can't lose fa'duh stuff I use."

I prayed every day for GOD to save us.  We called her mother but truthfully there was very little mother in her.  Year after year of closet demonic treatment we learned quickly to tolerate it, grin and bear it.   Prayed every day for adulthood so that we could get away.  Every thing came to a head February 10, 1979.  In my mind it was "D-Day".  Nothing has been right since.

She did not get right or better as we thought she planned.  She got worse, sunk deeper into the occult and evil.  Played a cat and mouse game with GOD, becoming an ordained minister and preaching the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

How did this happen? Easily.  It could happen to you, to me, to any of GOD's children.  What happened to Mathy happens to all selfish uncaring people.  The question is how did she get there?  I read in http://chinnstreetcounseling.com/zomerland/zomerland25.pdf by Gudrun Zumerland that ;"Closet narcissists are not bad people, they are adult children who have been deeply wounded and traumatized at a very early age."  "A deep shame developed about not being worthy of love and not being capable in the world."

That explains all of her bizarre evil lunatic behavior.  The truth is my mother was a child trapped in an adult body. An adult that grew old and feeble, never matured, never trusted GOD to rescue her  from a mountain of mistakes and shame.

Don't be like that children. Don't let ridiculous lies and fear keep you from GOD's Throne of Grace. Do know you are forgiven and loved.

Work on restoring that circle. Honor your blood . Honor your ancestors that paved the way for you, that established a covenant with GOD. Lived in fear and admiration of the LORD.

"Come by here LORD, some body needs you."

The shortest most effective prayer I ever heard. That was my grandfather's prayer.  It wasn't for every thing.  He reserved it for serious emergencies.  The first time I remember him praying it was when he had been declared dead by his doctors.  They sadly advised us to collect the family and prepare for his "Home going". "We regret to inform you that it is just a matter of hours. Mr.Walters is much too feeble and malnourished to survive the night."

The Red Cross contacted my brother serving in Viet Nam.  Cousins, nieces and nephews came from up and down the East coast.  Rev. Ethel V. McIver came, prayed over him and declared the announcement of his impending death much too premature.  She left confident with a smile on her face.

Granddaddy was in a lot of pain and he was tied to the bed like a hog because he kept pulling all of the tubes out.  My mother promised that we would "Special" him if the the hospital would untie him.  They gave us permission to remain with him around the clock.  My mother came up with a schedule for each one of us to serve our "watch".

I am sure that was the first time I heard him pray that prayer.  I adopted it.  It works, it covers everything and you don't weigh GOD down with some long winded soliloquy.

My grandfather lived about 15 more years. The news of his imminent death revealed some "undesirables" in the family.   A niece, nephew and some other relatives robbed him.  Stole everything out of his house,  freezer and smoke house claiming "first rights".  "Uncle Rome would have wanted me to have this!" I was outraged and ashamed.  No, I wasn't surprised.  Some people are just ignorant and greedy.  They have no shame, can not be made to feel embarrassed or remorseful.  Don't try to talk to them, advise them or correct them.  My grandfather told me to never waste my breath on a fool.  "Shun them!"  Shun ignorance, people that fight, carry guns, curse people out and generally act the fool.

Stand up for yourself.  Don't let people mistreat you because they claim to be kin.  Love is an action verb.  Don't tell me you love me, show me.  If you truly love me there are certain things that you will just not do.  But when you become selfish, you are unable to feel "natural affection".  You can mimic up to a point but you can't feel.  You learn to pretend.  Yes, you do fool some people.  You can fool people that refuse to think, are low functioning, dullards or fellow imps.

I just want to share one thing with you today.  Generational curses can be broken.  If you have an imp in your family, tell them!  Don't go along with wrong doing to be accepted.  Yes, you should pray for them and forgive them.  But, don't let them get away.  Don't cower.  Preach the Gospel to them.  Give them the opportunity to discern, to hear, to obey.

I am so grateful to GOD today.  Yes my heart is broken but GOD is healing me rapidly.  He is healing that little girl.  He is healing Martha.  Poor Martha's body survived for 87 years but she had the emotional maturity of a very precocious 14 year old.  A racist, ignorant, superstitious, corrupt 14 year old.  I helped raise my mother.  As we grew older I matured better than she did.  It saddened me to see how silly and immature she was but she refused to change.

 I moved away immediately after college.  The distance between us helped.  I kept observing, kept praying.  Yes, there were times I laughed.  The millionaire heiress boarding the cruise ships was her most hilarious scam. Taking the best estate rooms, playing dress up and raining money.   Telling lies and reliving her youth.  "What's done on duh ship stay on duh ship." Proof that my mother remained a child her whole life.

Poor Martha suffered with jealousy and confusion.  satan had her.  Did she ever let go of his hand? I don't know, can't know.  It is not for me to know.  I know that any of us can come into the Kingdom even in the last hour.

Martha was a wicked child playing house, playing pretend games for her sole entertainment.  How many of us are doing the same? Refusing self examination.  Jesus told us how we can be critical of every one else, see the mote in every one else's eye, but can't see the beam in our own.

I have learned that it is faith. Jesus came and rescued me from her brutal beatings when I called His name.  I was 8 years old and I have been hooked ever since. He has never failed me yet.  Not one of Martha's evil schemes worked out like she thought.  They all turned out for good.

Put all of your trust in the LORD children.  Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

Copyright October 7, 2013       All rights reserved.

It's a strange thing

to live your whole life, 62 years trying to win the love and approval of a "mother" that you know "secretly" hated you and wanted nothing more than to see your demise.  Some one that trilled over every ache you had.

You know it wasn't entirely her fault.  She had demons, she suffered with many issues and could not heal because she clung to lies, abhorred GOD's Truth.  Now, she is dead, can't trouble anymore.  But, did her life teach a lesson?  Did she live in vain? Her life taught me a mountain of lessons.

#1 - Put all your trust in GOD! He will see you through.

#2 - Never lie! It is pointless.

#3 - Read and study your Bible for yourself.  Don't leave your soul salvation up to some boot-leg preacher hooping and hollering and just "having church".  I think a lot of people miss Christ trying to get "religion".  Don't let a day go by without picking that book up.  Just let it fall open.  GOD will direct you to the right pages.

#4 - "Do the Ten"  Know the Ten Commandments!  Memorize them, honor them.  "Do the Ten"! If you can do the Ten I think GOD will be honored and you will be free of sin.

#5 - Seek peace with all men. Speak the truth, be positive and encouraging.  Bless others.  Do so secretly.  Don't wave a flag or cheer for yourself when people see and feel GOD's Goodness through you.  Do it but don't brag about it.

#6 - Be thankful in all things.   Thank Him for the Good and the Bad.  There is a blessing in every experience.

#7 - Be kind.  Refrain from sharp rude remarks.  Think before you speak.  Pray for wisdom in all things.  Refrain from cursing.  You are actually cursing yourself.  Rid yourself of all of those negative comments. Know that GOD loves you, wants to bless you abundantly.  It is GOD's good pleasure to bless you.  He wants everyone to know what a Good GOD He is.  "Try Him, taste Him."  You will never be the same.

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch , JEROME WALTERS)

Copyright October 4, 2013    All rights reserved