Will the circle ever be unbroken?

Our Dear LORD designed a magnificent world for us.  Sin came into the world and destroyed the perfect plan, man called it Utopia, said it was an absolute fantasy, impossible to create.

  Said it was pure folly, that it  could never exist.  Well I know it can exist and it will one day.

I was born into a wonderful family, the best I ever heard of.  Something, rather someone went,  wrong.  Brought love, pride and Holiness to a crashing end.  Shocked and afraid we thought we had to take it.  She would not be criticized or corrected.  She was strong as any bull, had big field slave hands and shoulders.  We chose to fear her, stay out of her way.  Kept her secrets as demanded.  "That's love, that's family"; she said.

"You are stuck with me. There is nothing you can do.  You can't win for the fix you in. I can't lose fa'duh stuff I use."

I prayed every day for GOD to save us.  We called her mother but truthfully there was very little mother in her.  Year after year of closet demonic treatment we learned quickly to tolerate it, grin and bear it.   Prayed every day for adulthood so that we could get away.  Every thing came to a head February 10, 1979.  In my mind it was "D-Day".  Nothing has been right since.

She did not get right or better as we thought she planned.  She got worse, sunk deeper into the occult and evil.  Played a cat and mouse game with GOD, becoming an ordained minister and preaching the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

How did this happen? Easily.  It could happen to you, to me, to any of GOD's children.  What happened to Mathy happens to all selfish uncaring people.  The question is how did she get there?  I read in http://chinnstreetcounseling.com/zomerland/zomerland25.pdf by Gudrun Zumerland that ;"Closet narcissists are not bad people, they are adult children who have been deeply wounded and traumatized at a very early age."  "A deep shame developed about not being worthy of love and not being capable in the world."

That explains all of her bizarre evil lunatic behavior.  The truth is my mother was a child trapped in an adult body. An adult that grew old and feeble, never matured, never trusted GOD to rescue her  from a mountain of mistakes and shame.

Don't be like that children. Don't let ridiculous lies and fear keep you from GOD's Throne of Grace. Do know you are forgiven and loved.

Work on restoring that circle. Honor your blood . Honor your ancestors that paved the way for you, that established a covenant with GOD. Lived in fear and admiration of the LORD.