They Hung Him High

"They hung Him high and stretched Him wide.", and He whispered "Forgive them Lord for they know not what they do."
She slithered up close to me and attempted to deposit shame; "I gave your luddle black ass away." But God beat her to it. Eons before He formed me in her corrupt belly He told me that I had a right to the Tree of Life.
"They hung Him high and stretched him wide." and He whispered "Forgive them Lord for they know not what they do."
Two red-eyed lecherous reprobates masquerading as a happily married couple raped me over and over. I shrunk and shrunk until I almost disappeared. No love, no happiness would this little black bastard get. Nothing would this little black heifer enjoy if MJ had any thing to do with it. What great fun MJ would have stealthily and secretly eviscerating this little bitch. Laugh. Set her up repeatedly , then rip her off. Laugh. Laugh secretly because no one thinks it is funny. Hate that bitch for loving you. Hate that bitch for daring to be prettier than you. She better not say it. She better not think it. Don't you dare love your sister. Hate that bitch as mush as I do. Hate her for trying to be so damn self righteous. I know she's a whore. She is a closet whore just like me. Set her up, rip her off. Lay her low, beat her ass. Slap her, slap her, now back slap her. Humiliate her again and again. Make her wear a grown woman's Girl Scout uniform to her girl scout meeting. Make her look like a fool. Smear red lipstick across her jet black face. Don't comb her hair make her look like Buckwheat. That blouse is too big. It is touching her little brown turned up second hand scuffed up shoes laced up with a dingy used to be white shoe string, an old shoe string cut in half. Slap that bitch again if she dares to say anything. Who is going to save you now bitch? I murdered your damn granddaddy. Make people laugh at her. Boy that is brilliant. That is not the best part. Pretend that you don't know what she is talking about. Always play crazy, people will get tired, they will forgive you or leave you alone. If they stay away too long give them a gift. It is easy to fool dumb ass greedy niggers. Pretend that you were just teaching her to tell time. What the fuck do you care about her learning to tell time with her little black blind pitiful ass. That dumb bitch is only seven years old and already crying herself to sleep. Kick her ass. Make sure she never tells. Make sure she never gets the nerve to tell. Fake like you are a preacher. Pretend like you love the Lord so that when she finally tells no one will believe her. Spit on her name. Curse her and your meddling ass daddy. Talk about those two the most. Don't worry those other niggers are too dumb, too cowardly, too selfish to care about anyone else.
"They hung Him high and stretched Him Wide." and He whispered ;"Lord forgive them for they know not what they do."
"Fear none of those things which thou shalt suffer: behold, the devil shall cast some of you into prison, that ye may be tried; and ye shall have tribulation ten days: be thou faithful unto death, and I will give thee a crown of life." Revelation 2:10
You really took advantage of me. You used your age and the fact that you had authority over me against me and you did everything you could to destroy me. All of your schemes backfired MJ. You sabotaged my financial aid when I entered A & T. But I graduated Magna Cum Laude anyway. Not one to be thwarted you came on stronger. I didn't want that "Gray eyed nigger". That was your lust. I got what I wanted, a beautiful brilliant daughter. Isn't it funny how God gave me the same thing He gave you.
Scheme after scheme, lie after lie, what have you gained? Desolation. Your desolation has finally come MJ. It is here. It is your choice, continue to live in your own shame or repent. Don't worry God is quick to forgive.
To all who read this blog, Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up as much as you can."
Pray for our deliverance from sin.
Much Love,Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
P.S.
Don't forget your homework. Read, study and extrapolate 2 Timothy 2:14 - 3:9

Poor Little Colored Girl

The white people around Wade, North Carolina referred to her as a little colored girl. Beautiful, pretty as a picture and smart as a whip. MJ was always quick of wit. A born word crafter, a talent handed down for many generations. My grandfather told me that was a gift from his "Af-e-cun" grandmother. The great great grandmother that he told me so many stories about. I loved to hear him tell me I was just like her. "She was short and fire-ry. Smart. She didn't take no guff from no man or woman , black or white. She hep-ed to raise me. She wuz my mama's mama My mama wuz Mary Wright, she married Artemus Walters."
It seems some white man helped himself to the little kidnapped African slave girl. The rape of his grandmother always bothered Jerome Walters. He never viewed his light skin as a badge of honor. It was a matter of dishonor to him. He always considered color prejudice ignorant nonsense. An unnecessary burden that people did not have to carry.
That message never resonated with my mother, MJ. She ate that ignorant nonsense up and still tries to perpetuate it. I do not believe there is any light skinned black person more proud than she is. Hair and color, color and hair, all day long. If you are not light bright and damn near white you hold no sway with MJW. To this day this woman bases and values her "friendships" on color.
She can't help it. You have to laugh, it is so ridiculous. I do not believe she is as half as ignorant as she pretends to be. Her greatest and most generous compliment to me when she tricked me out of graduate school was; "Gwen, I 'bleve you gittin' lighter!" Let me be perfectly honest, I think I said something on the lines of thank you or really.
I am affected. It took me about fifty years to discover that I am not crow black. I am chocolate, I am brown. Well brown to her is a stain, a badge of dishonor. A mistake, an oops, Lord take it back I don't want it.
Who can black people blame for such wrong thinking? Slavery has been over too long to continue blaming the white man. Look in the mirror people. You have not because you ask not. God is ashamed! Study his Word, think for yourself, run from idiots.
Thank you Lord for your goodness and tender mercies. We all turned out pretty good despite some shameful cruelty and utter nonsense.
Anyone that is still dumb enough to worship color and put themselves under some one's boot, is a lost soul.
"Wide is the road that leads to death and destruction, narrow is the path of righteousness." More people are going to do wrong than do right. Deceivers will keep on deceiving and the blind will continue to follow the blind.
"Talk about me all you please, I'll talk about you on my knees."
I don't know all of them but I love them. I love those people that influenced my life. My mother called me a "luddle black bastard, you luddle black heifer!" I didn't mind that much because her name calling was always preferable to one of her beatings. This strong woman could and did beat the absolute dog shit out of men. I was not about to challenge her. As a matter of fact that was one of her admonishments; "Don't you even think back! I'll beat your black muthafucking ass again. And dry up dem fucking tears!"
Hallelujah! Praise the Lord! I lived. "How I got over. My soul looks back in wonder at how I got over."
Life didn't serve it up to MJ as promised. I know she had many disappointments. "Yalla" didn't get her a husband. Her "Gold Mine" didn't turn out to be as lucrative as she expected. If you are a female relative and ask her for money she will give you the same retort; "You sittin' on a gold mine!" At some point early in her life she turned to witch craft and hoodoo and she was good. I know for a fact what she can do because I saw it. "What am seen can't be denied." was the reply of a former slave that described the powerful "Root Doctors" that ruled the plantations and the South. Or should I say world. I have documented evidence that Queen Victoria consulted Marie LaVeaux for love potions often. That information was in my master's thesis that MJ and that ignorant coon that I married, threw away.
You destroyed my thesis but you didn't destroy my brain Bitches!
She's a bitch because she is a bitch and he is a bitch because he is a faggot.
I'm telling it! I'm telling it!
You waylayed me, you eviscerated me, you left me on the dung heap of life to die. But one day my Lord and Savior came by and he lifted me UP! He pulled me up out of the muck and the mire and he took all of the fear that had been planted and cultivated in my heart and He told me to TELL IT!
TELL IT ! so that some misguided young girl will not follow that path. Our daughters need to know that that their Father is Rich, that He allows u-turns. Forsake wrath, forsake guile. Put your hand in the hand of the man that calmed the waters. He is a mighty God and He is quick to Save you. GIVE HIM GLORY!!!
Praise be to His Holy name. Do not hate anyone. Take the HATE Lord. Heal me and lift me up,
Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Love the Lord with all your might.
"Know ye the TRUTH and the TRUTH shall set you free."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness'
Rachel

A Mind Is A Terrible Thing To Waste

You don't know every thing. You can learn something. It helps if you seek knowledge.
I am a keen observer of people. I listen very carefully and watch every move of people close to me.
I am a loner, very self entertaining. Nothing I do is deliberate. It's just how I turned out, how I was shaped.
I am very intolerant of dumb people. Not uneducated people, dumb people. People that hold stupid opinions. I hate people that think white people are superior and deserve better treatment.
I don't like cruel disrespectful people, people that are mean to little children.
Don't worry I am not violent and I mind my own business.
I am fifty-nine years old and I have learned a few lessons about life.
#1 - Learn to think for yourself! Watch those people who volunteer to tell you what you need to do with your life. If you check closely they never did much with their own.
#2 - Define your self. If someone insists on telling you how you are; "You no sense-ED...you don't know how to get a man and get his check too." Study their comments closely before you react. These people like to start every sentence with "I would..."
#3 - Pursue your dream! If you don't have a dream get one. You don't have to tell every one. Quietly pursue your dream. Go to the library, research it on the Internet, enroll in some classes.
#4 - Love yourself! You may live to be a hundred and never find real love on this planet. But, love yourself, have some self respect. Most of all don't settle. If he is not your kind. If you have to get high to get with him, forget it.
#5 - Study! Study to show yourself approved. If you want real knowledge you are going to have to seek it. If you depend on others to tell you what you need to know you are going to go wrong. They are going to lead you down the path of ruin.
#6 - Start over! If you ever find yourself knocked down and ruined by life, get up, dust yourself off and start over. Oh, stay away from those people that helped to lead you astray.
Be Blessed.
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
P.S.
"Keep yourself up much as you can."

Don't You Hinder Me

"If you don't want to go don't you hinder me." I can still hear the congregation singing to the top of their lungs. It was a rousing Gospel song, we all sang it loudly and proudly. I didn't know what it meant exactly. I liked the sound. It's funny what you remember from your childhood.
The older I get the more I understand and appreciate. The world we live in is totally wrong and corrupt. But that does not give us permission to be ignorant and deceitful. "Know ye the TRUTH and the Truth will set you free!"
Why did Jesus tell us that? Because he knew how incredibly painful the Truth is. He knew how many people just lie out of habit. Or lie because we do not want to be confrontational. Do you go along with someone that you know is delusional because you are afraid of them?
All lies stem from fear. A lie is still a lie. There is no such thing as a little white lie. (What a racist expression) You don't have permission to lie to "keep people out of your business." It is one of the Ten Commandments; "Thou shalt not LIE!"
"You are a liar and the Truth is not in you!" "He said a liar would not tarry in his sight!" I heard those admonishments every day of my life growing up in MJW's house. I thank her for it. It threw me off though. It kept me blind and befuddled. I listened to her spill lies all day long. For some reason she had the impression that God gave her the right to lie. Some how her strategy to maintain her habitual lying was to intimidate. Anyone that had a problem or question about anything she did better come ready to take a beat down. How perfect, more people should be smart enough to adopt the MJW strategy for get over living. First of all you must be extremely selfish. You can not ever care for anyone else. Do not let the words tender mercies cross your mind. Pump yourself up to be irritable and cross twenty four seven. Yes you can pretend to be loving and caring only when it suits your plot. Yes you must plot continually. Never let an opportunity to destroy escape you. You must be alert for it. If they foolishly leave you in a room with a new born baby try to deafen it, make it handicapped. Don't forget to brag about your color to the point of nausea . Do not pursue your real gifts and talents, spend all of your time comparing yourself to some one else. If anyone looks better than you, is smarter than you or has more talent than you , you make sure you do every thing you can to destroy them. No you can't be obvious. This is where your gift of guile comes in. This is when you take advantage of their vulnerabilities. Oh Devil you are just too good. This is when you get to exploit their low self esteem. You know they have low self esteem because you gave it to them, you cultivated it. You planted those seeds with the cruelest psychological attacks ever imagined. Laugh uproariously, secretly of course, then trick them again. What fun is there in life if you can't toy with your little pathetic black bastard younguns. There is one problem though. At least one of them will back talk you, probably tell on you. Don't worry about that one wayward "Truth Teller". No one is going to believe her because you have made sure that her family hates her and perceives her as weird. Make sure you label her a sneaky backstabbing blabber mouth early in her life. Don't you ever change. Go to your grave a lying, root working, double minded, fake preaching, fake loving mother/grandmother/great grandmother. Go ahead and do it. You can do it because you are the most brilliant woman that ever lived and the nigga that can out think you has never been born. You are so good that you can fool God. You can fool God because you fool yourself first. You taught yourself this trick as a small child; "If I tell myself a lie ten times it becomes true. Wow! If I cut the pure tee nigger fool I can get away with anything I think of. Nobody wants to mess with MJ. She will tie your naked ass up, gage you and beat the bloody shit out of you, and be perfectly fine. Rob them! Don't let those damn black ass bastard nigger children do any thing that you never had sense enough to do. Never admit that you squandered your own youth and beauty because you depended on your good looks, high yalla skin and good hair to get you over.
What happened world? Why didn't you bow down and give MJ every thing she wanted? It was them damn black bastard children that you were left with. They are ungrateful and they remember too damn much.
I don't blame you, hate 'um. Shit you could have done something with your life if you hadn't taken the time to have those sorry ass niggers. You were only twenty five when you had that black ass nigga. You fixed him good. You made sure he knew how ugly you thought he was. You cloaked it in the words of your dead mother;"...at least he's human." And that little black cunt you had when you were twenty six, make sure you make her life miserable. Make her a eunuch! Assault her blind ass physically. Slap the dog shit out her repeatedly. No one is going to believe her. Beat her in the head with a wooden brush so she will not want you to comb her hair. Send her to school with stanking mildewed clothes on so that no one in her all white class will like her. Misuse and abuse her body as often as you can. No one is going to believe her. No one has ever heard of the kind of wickedness you practice. Wipe your ass in a letter and send it to her. If that won't scare the shit out of a nigger I don't know what will.
Don't forget the best part. Play innocent and pitiful. Run the scam. No one is better than you. You convinced a six foot four brown skin nigger that his father is jet black and five foot five. Scare the hell out of that nigger, cuss his ass out! That damn heifer started that shit. She need to mind her own business. He better not ever get enough grit in his craw to question you about who his real daddy is. His daddy is who ever you say his daddy is, ugly bug-eyed, pop-eyed nigger. He thought he was going to make it as a great musician. When you heard him playing with Donald Byrd you knew you had your treachery cut out for you. Why did that dumb nigger let you manage his band? Lord you know you tempted me. That was just too easy Lord, you know I couldn't help that one. Pretend you don't care. Sahshy down the road like you have always done. Keep repeating your philosophy;"Don't nobody give a shit about what some dumb ass black ass nigger got to say. Fuck her I'm MJ.".
Aside from all of my satire I think you got the point. I will not ask why. I will simply reiterate; "If you don't want to go don't you hinder me."
Learn to think for yourself children. We are all equal in the eyes of the Lord.
"Be what you are and live the life."
Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up as musch as you can."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
P.S.
Your homework is to sing about his "Grace and Mercy"

The Lord Gave Me Knowledge Of It

I can not explain it, you will just have to believe it. Something was deposited in my spirit before I came to this earth. Some one saw it years before I knew I had it. I have suffered a suffocating debilitating pain my entire life because of it. I have always told but few people have ever been able to hear me.
"Now the Lord gave me knowledge of it, and I know it; for You showed me their doings. But I was like a docile lamb brought to the slaughter; and I did not know that they had devised schemes against me saying, 'Let us destroy the tree with its fruit, and let us cut him off from the land of the living, that his name may be remembered no more.'" Jeremiah 11:18 - 19
There is only one reason that you should care about my plight; for your protection. Don't you ever think that you are safe and that you can't be victimized. Yes you should care and work to expose such evil.
I have a very disturbing truth that I am not going to keep bottled up inside me any longer. My birth mother is an evil succubus that pretends to be a minister and loving mother/grandmother. She is a selfish unrelenting whore that murdered her own father. For some reason she has escaped retribution for far too many years. I refuse to believe that she can continue in her demonism unrecognized.
Please forgive me for hating her. It is my humanness. If your mother did to you what my "mother" did to me you would be full of hatred and rage too.
I pray to find the strength to forgive her again. Yes again!I have forgiven this woman so many times that it makes me dizzy.
No I will not go around her, I will not speak to her. I will continue to pray for her and keep my distance.
I would keep her demonic deeds a secret forever if I could. I tell you that it is His Holy Spirit that compels me to broadcast this testimony.
Jesus commanded us "Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and do good to them that despitefully use you and persecute you;"
Did this demon force me to hate her just to block my blessing Lord? Take this Pain, take this deep dark hatred Lord. Remove it Lord! Clean me up, wash me, wash all the filth of my abuse from me. Wash my brothers. Clean us up and make us worthy Lord.
I just want an opportunity to set the record straight. She is famous for belittling and tearing down the good name of her father and children. Do you think that squares you with God MJ? Hiding your evil intentions and waylaying your children; does that elevate you? I am sorry but I missed something. I will never know. I can never live long enough to know why any mother would savagely and cruelly violate her own children. Well it happened, I can not change the past but I can protect my future. I will warn your future hapless victims.
I'm sorry MJ. I don't know what happened to you. I do not know what caused you to become such a sick creature. May the Dear Lord have mercy on your soul. I am advising you to tell the whole lie. The next time you tell every one how *B**** lost his job and his house and he is a worthless drunk be sure you tell them how you brutalized him as an infant. Tell them how you never did anything but beat the manhood out of him. Tell them how you cursed him and called him ugly just for your own pleasure. Tell them how you and your husband sexually abused me. Tell them about the excruciating pain in my tiny vagina. Tell them how you still work roots on every one that is dumb enough to associate with you. Do not forget to tell your children and relatives how you stalk them, turn them in to the police and IRS. I forgive you. You can't help it, it is an uncontrollable impulse that you developed in childhood. You mastered guile and diabolical evil as a child. Yes you are a bad seed. There is no goodness or kindness in you. No goodness! You only do good to get close enough to do your evil. I pity you.
Do know that I am healing, I am getting stronger and I am blessed.
Remember there is none so blind as he who refuses to see.
Dear children continue to study His Word. Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up as much as you can."
Remember, "Fear them not therefore: for there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; and hid, that shall not be known." Matthew 10:26
Much Love, Peace and Happiness
Rachel

If There Be Any Goodness

"A good name is better than precious ointment; and the day of death, than the day of birth." Ecclesiastes 7:1
My noble regal grandfather had a good name because he was a good man. To this day people tell me fantastic heroic stories about my grandfather. I am honored to know him. I feel so privileged to have his blood running warm in my veins.
Jerome Walters is my hero. His wisdom is legendary. Tall and handsome, eloquent, kind and patient, his presence radiated and illuminated every where he went. I walked many dusty country roads with this great man holding my tiny hand, protecting and teaching me.
God knew that my insignificant life would have been destroyed with out his influence.
This poor man suffered mightily on this earth. His seventeen year old son bled to death in his arms and his only daughter plagued him without ceasing until she finally relented and put him out of his misery in his eighty-fourth year of life.
"Vengeance is mine, saith the Lord, I shall repay." I am not seeking vengeance. I do want justice. I can no longer sit quietly while she dons clerical robes and preaches. Coos sweet lullabies and gets over on the world like a fat rat. That woman is evil incarnate and foolishly believes that she is unstoppable. She is daring God to touch her. I want you to pay very close attention because you are about to witness Biblical prophesy come to fruition. No I do not know when, where or how. I just know that it is going to come to past.
There are far too many times that I feel sorry for myself and my brothers. But my grandfather comes to me and interupts my tears to remind me ; "It is all in divine order, baby. God will take care of her, all in his good time." My grandfather was such a good Christian that he actually forgives her for ending his life.
"Sorrow is better than laughter, for by sadness of countenance the heart is mad glad." Ecclesiastes 7:3
Sadness of countenance is the perfect term for our condition. Broken hearted and worn down by life Jerome Walters turned his attention to his grandchildren. Every day he spoke healing and blessings over us. He told us repeatedly that we were the jewels in his crown. Thank you for that grandaddy. Thank you for standing in the gap.
I am still trying to understand the sad mess I find myself in today. It is a nasty mess, some call it nigger shit. Nigger shit is a real term. All black people have heard it and understand it's true meaning. Heartbreaking, numbing cruelty for nothing. Countless family members held captive by a stealth demon from the depths of hell for over eighty years.
I must share our story. It is healing me and if it pricks the heart of that woman it is well worth the effort.
To the shocked and repulsed do not be so quick to judge. If you sweep around your front door you may find some dark secrets lurking in your past.
I am not innocent. I am guilty of expecting a loving caring world. I am guilty of loving a "mother" that never loved me back. Of course it's OK. I survived, I nurtured myself. A lack of maternal love is not my issue. It is her unrelenting sabotage. It is her total phoniness. She is a complete fraud, an absolute fake. This blog is a warning. I've known her for sixty years and her treachery has never failed to slay me. Delivered into the clutches of this creature June 4, 1951 I never had a chance. Too cowardly or too cheap to abort me she settled on this secret sick sabotage. If you know her and she has convinced you that her children are worthless and no count; just watch your back. She can not help it. Hang around her long enough, that "demon" is going to come out. Oh yes, she has some pain layed up for you. She delights in naivety. Watch her, her favorite line is ; "Oh, I didn't know...I didn't know that." Yes she did, this "woman" is smarter than you and me put together. In all of her clever deceit she is not smarter than God. As powerful as she thinks she is she can not bend a lie into the truth. MJW can't erase my memory and she can't shut my mouth. "You don't tell a muthafucking thang that go on in this house!" was her mantra. I must compliment her incredible guile. You had a good run MJW. God gave you space, time and reason to repent. No chance. Well I tried, granddaddy tried.
"The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning; but the heart of fools is in the house of mirth." Ecclesiastes 7: 4
Are you still laughing? Still menacing? Still leading the innocent into captivity?
"Better is the end of a thing than its beginning; and the patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit."
That is my fervent prayer Lord; please give me patience. I do not know when this sad saga will end, but it will end, and I know that it will end on the side of the righteous.
God sent you two messages today MJ; "Your wickedness will chasten you, and your apostasy will reprove you. Know and see that it is evil and bitter for you to forsake the Lord your God; the fear of me is not in you, says the Lord God of hosts." Jeremiah 1:19
"Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things." Philippians 4:8
It is raining outside and in my heart. "Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:7-8
Be Blessed. "Keep yourself as much as you can."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

There Are Those...

"There are those who curse their fathers and do not bless their mothers. There are those who are pure in their own eyes but are not cleansed of their filth. There are those -- how lofty are their eyes, how high their eyelids lift! There are those whose teeth are swords, whose teeth are knives, to devour the poor from off the earth, the needy from among men." Proverbs 30: 11 - 14. "The eye that mocks a father and scorns to obey a mother will be picked out by the ravens of the valley and eaten by the vultures." Proverbs 30: 17

When I read those words I was awe struck. You are not the first MJW. I tremble for you. My Lord, have mercy on our miserable souls. Yes I was a very slow learner. How could I find the courage to believe my own eyes? How many people have ever had enough courage to with stand a grubbing from you? I always suspected that you were a black hearted demon. Your deeds and antics never matched up with your words. Your father survived for eighty-four years on this earth until you decided to off him. I get it. When did you not get your way? I am sure that you can count on one hand the times that you did not succeed in your treacherous deceit. Murder and mayhem is your pleasure. It keeps you young, excited, it gives you purpose. MJ the brilliant puppeteer. One of your famous expressions; "Bullshit ain't 'nuttin' but chewed up grass." Is that you MJW; the master Bullshit Artist?
I'm a living witness. I know how you treated my grandfather. I know how you treated my brothers. And I know full well how you tortured me. What are you bored now? You don't have that "stanking luddle black heifer" to humiliate and degrade any more. Whoa! Hold up, your trademark is over kill. You tried to pistol whip my brother for returning your Cadillac an hour late. Any one that knows or ever knew you must agree that your anger is vituperative. Aren't you tired yet? Do you have a hint of remorse?
You are a sniveling coward. What kind of grown woman would curse her little three year old daughter until there was nothing left of her but breath? A fool that's who. An incorrigible miscreant that took advantage of her father's tender heart. A silly woman that believes more in the Occult and her "Lost Books of Moses" than the Bible. A demon that does not yet recognize that her sheep's clothing has grown too small for her monstrous hideous body. Keep following that devil. Follow him down to the depths of hell. Do not let repentance cross your mind. It is not that your "allies" do not believe me. They like me are horrified by this truth. It is too heavy, it is too dark, it is beyond any "normal" person's ability to comprehend.
God rendered you powerless to sin when He released you over to a reprobate mind. The Bible is my perfect guide. Void of natural affection you could not love me no matter how much I craved it. Your immaturity tries to make your "illegitimate" children jealous, bragging how you gave this one five thousand dollars. Reminding us that you were married to *B***s father, or *P******'s father. In or out of wed lock that doesn't diminish me in the eyes of the Lord. If you are dumb enough to rank and discriminate against your own children chalk that up to your stupidity.
There is only so much pain a person can take. I don't owe you anything. I wish I could forget how you treated us. I do pray every day to not hate you. I pray to forgive you. I know that it is all in divine order.
Do be very careful, do not dismiss my Lord and Savior. Look well to your going.
Try again, bend your stiff neck, fall down on your knees. Cry out to Jesus, He will be quick to save you. Rest in his arms. Thank him for a brilliant loving father. Thank him for a long life. Thank him for his Word.
Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up as much as you can."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

In My Right Mind

The years I spent in Wesley A.M.E. Zion Church were divinely orchestrated. I was a tiny little girl but I listened to those prayers. I memorized them and then went home and redelivered them to the chickens. One famous line that I loved was ;"Thanky Lawd for waking me up dis morning in my RIGHT MIND!" Right Mind thinking was very important to members of that little black church. I got the impression that they all knew that a Wrong Mind, that is wrong thinking was from the devil. They were absolutely right of course.
The script has been written. It is finished. All be it a tragedy it makes for good reading. A wise observant person can learn a lot from my life. Let's stop telling fairy tales. Pregnancy does not turn a whore into a housewife. If you are ever caught in wrong doing children be quick to repent, mend your ways. Above all do not beat and brutalize the person that caught you. And if some man impregnates you and leaves you with a baby, don't blame the baby. "Ladies" if you want to "freak" with your lovers do not involve innocent children . Now if you ever did something so low down, apologize. The most important advice I can give you is to rid yourself of deceit and guile. Do not get yourself involved in someone else's madness.
It is not about you and it is not about me. It is about the Kingdom. It is about Biblical Prophesy, His Word will go forth and every WORD will be fulfilled.
Where is Gwen? Gwen the little black bastard street urchin. You know, the little ashy leg, snotty nosed, matted "good" hair heifer. She is doing alright. Thanks for asking. God is healing her. He is healing that raped, brutalized, broken little girl. She is not whole yet. With the help of our Mighty Lord, our Dear Lord Jesus Christ she will be made whole.
What happened to her? Didn't you know? Birthed by an insanely jealous, immoral, ignorant gollum she suffered for sixty years before her break through came.
To this day this horrid whore demands inclusion, honor. Wait a minute, this truth will break your heart. MJW thinks that she deserves adulation. There is no point in trying to correct her. She flat out refuses to listen. A woman that has been a despicable reprobate for eight-five years is not about to change. Not this one Jesus. If brilliant Jerome Walters' words of wisdom could not penetrate her thick skull there is certainly nothing that you or I can do.
Gwen is singing today. She is singing because God turned MJW's throw away garbage into a fine vessel for his honor.
I know some of you can't believe it. Well you better believe it. And you better keep an eye peeled for pedophiles. I tell you they are every where. Some of you don't want to ask too many question because you don't want to discover the ones in your house or in your closet. Don't worry, God is shaking them out. He has them on the run, they just don't have anywhere to run to.
Your homework is James 1: 25; "But he who looks into the perfect law of liberty and continues in it, and is not a forgetful hearer but a doer of the work, this one will be blessed in what he does." Amen and Glory to God!
Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up as much as you can."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

"Some Through The Blood"

"Some through the water
some through the flood,
Some through the fire,
but all through the BLOOD,
Some through great trials,
but GOD gives us a song
In the night season
and all the day long." - Young

Praise the Lord! "Count it all Joy!"
Thank you for my journey Lord. Lord I am just standing here dumbfounded, astounded by your goodness.
Thank you for hating me MJW, thank you for your bruising torture, thank you for being a shining example of unadulterated evil.
Dear lord, thank you for your grace, granting me the courage and most of all thank you for your Word.
Turn them out Lord. Expose all of these reprobates and snakes. Snatch their clerical garb off. Let the world see and know the evil that lurks in their hearts.
I was robbed. MJW tried to rob me of every thing good and pure in this world solely because she is a selfish demonic Cunt that had the audacity to call herself a mother. You are not a mother you are a birther, a common baby factory. You birth babies for your own sick pleasure. Is there another creature on this earth such as you?
For eighty-five years you have railed against the Truth. You have schemed, plotted, connived, cajoled and orchestrated nothing but vile demonic deeds.
I just want to know if you are happy yet? Are you satisfied? I guess you are happy that I am finally hating you back. Strangely I can see and understand it so clearly now, you hated me for loving you anyway. Is that why you always called me dumb and stupid? The more I achieved the more names you called me. You know what a low down treacherous snake you are. Have you ever been ashamed of that fact? For some twisted reason you are obviously a very proud demon. Why? How can you possibly be proud of anything you ever did? I just want you to crawl away and stay away.
Enough is enough. All of this prolonged cruelty, for what? Nothing! Alas at the end you are still nothing. Angered by your father's constant admonition; "Daughter, apart from Christ you are nothing." He was right, you are apart from Christ and you are still nothing.
Children there is nothing that we can do for MJW now but wait on her to expire. "The wicked shall cease from troubling." But you can use her life as an example, a guide for what not to do.
Oh Heavenly Father "How Great Thou Art!"
Your homework is to study Psalm 18. Pay particular attention to verses 6, 19 and 20.
"...he delivered me, because he delighted in me."
He can and will deliver you if you live right.
Be Blessed, keep yourself up as much as you can. Do know that God rights every wrong.
Yes he rights every wrong. February 10, 1979 MJW shot her father through the heart. Do you ever think about that MJ? Have you ever had a single regret? Do you believe that God is going to let you exit this planet unexposed? What is the cause of your problem? Selfishness. There are few people on this earth more selfish than you. Selfishness leads to lust. Your entire life has been controlled by your lust. Powerless to lust you impulsively did the unthinkable, unconscionable. You did it greedily and insatiably. Never satisfied you are on the prowl for your next victim right now. I will not hush. I will not go away. God is working this out and He is tired of you. He is warning you and you better listen. Stop climbing up into His pulpit with the blood dripping from your jowls. You're filthy, unworthy, "no count", a despicable whore. You poor defeated miserable woman. Your whole life you have railed against the messengers of the Truth. The Truth is still the Truth and you are still the the world's greatest liar. You are fractured, double minded, diseased and confused. God is real and he is quick to forgive. He said you can come in even in the last hour. It is the Last Hour MJW. Won't you come in. Bend your stiff neck, drop down on your knees. No one loves you but the Lord. I can assure you that all of your children hate you just as much as you hate them.
Emancipate yourself from demonic slavery.
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

Niggas and Flies

"Niggas and flies I do despise. The more I see of niggas the more I love flies" My birther taught me that little ditty. Do not mistake me for a racist. There is only one race, the Human race. Niggas are all people of low moral character. They do exist. Why? Ask God. One of my cousins marketed some "Ban the word Nigger" bumper stickers once. I now see his marketing blunder. His sticker should have banned Niggas.
"Well I dropped by on my way to heaven" to tell you that Jesus told you to shun them. He said "From such stay away." Let's face it. Most of us put up with niggas out of fear. Do not let that simple coon act fool you. "Dem muthafuckers are brilliant!" They know how to hang on you like an albatross. The only way you can get a nigga off of you is to kill them. Of course you would never do anything that drastic. So I strongly advise you to RUN! Head for the hills. Leave no forwarding address. Do not answer the phone, don't pick up. If you do have to interact with them call on the name of Jesus. They hate Jesus. Wait, don't get me wrong. They love "church". You can't build enough "churches" to hold them. They go to be seen. After all they need some where to show off their fine clothes and state of the art technology. They demand the high seats in the pulpit. It is all about them. You are nothing if you are not lining up to kiss their corrupt ass over and over. Insatiable freaks they can't get enough of anything. They can't just whip your ass. They demand that you let them pulverize you and you better not say shit.
Jesus knew that no one can out lie a nigga. The "Nigger" has elevated guile and deception to an art form. Try to help him, see if you won't regret it. Don't worry about that nigga he will find another naive victim before he finishes cussing you.
Personally I think God put niggas on this earth to help the truly righteous to find the Lord. It is a test that you can't study for and you can't defeat a nigga on your on. You need the Lord Jesus Christ walking in front of you slaying these demons right and left. No you can't relax and don't you ever believe that you are safe. Yes a nigga is notoriously lazy. But, he is never too sorry to get "all up in your business". That is a symptom of a nigga, they want to know everything you're doing. No, they have no concern for you, they just want to block your blessing. Dumb niggas think that they are smarter than God and they should decide your destiny, your fate. After all they have rationalized and justified your demise. Plus your dysfunction gives them more pleasure than pursuing their own dreams. Pitiful they only have one dream; being a step ahead of you, having fifty more cents than you.
Do you want to ruin what is left of your life? Keep tolerating niggas, keep their secrets. Lay down and let them walk all over you. Most of all profess your undying love. See if you don't get a blot for your trouble.
Your homework is to interpret "The Lord's Prayer". Listen to the words. Whose Father? OUR Father...Thank you Jesus for your WORD!
Be Blessed children. "Keep yourself up as much as you can."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

An Open Letter To The World's Oldest Practicing Reprobate

What a dubious honor. Perhaps we can call you the World's greatest Liar. You are certainly the World's greatest hypocrite. True you do have a brilliant criminal mind and you are a bottom feeder when it comes to sick sex acts. I must commend your stealth tactics and covert execution. How brave of you to target innocent children and an elderly feeble one legged man. How did you strike upon such delicious debauchery? Securing a license to preach was genius. No one would ever suspect a minister of even thinking about the kinds of things you committed on a daily basis. That scheme to torture your "successful" children to the point that they would flee you and their loved ones was the best. Smear their names and declare them worthless bipolar drunks and dope addicts just to keep the scent off of you. It is incredible how keen and perceptive you are. You certainly have a talent for subterfuge. You missed your calling, you should have worked for the CIA. No, that would require a college degree, something you never earned. I know it wasn't your fault. It was all of those damn black ass niggers getting you pregnant all the time and refusing to marry you. I'm mad too. How could they refuse to marry a beautiful YALLA lady such as yourself. After all you had big legs, a nice shape and good hair. Didn't they hear you when you bragged for the millionth time ; "I'm light bright and damn near white!" Besides you could have any man you wanted and you did every night. I love the fact that you insisted on variety, some times multiple partners. Nothing could be better than having sex with four young virile men at the same time. Please don't forget the little children, those little black worthless street urchins. I know you couldn't help it. All those pretty young girls hanging around Fayetteville State trying to get and education. They were such easy prey just asking for it. Plus you had the ability to predict future reprobates such as yourself. Perverts recognise perverts, kind of like game recognize game. You are so right MJW no one will ever believe that little black "stanking" female that you birthed. How dare she tell on you. After all you kept her ass hole open with grits and grease. She should be glad that you fed her at all. Plus you were just trying to show the dumb bitch how she could make some money. She should be glad that you got that nigger to try to pay her for her fourteen year old pussy. I know ungrateful niggers make me sick too. How many mothers introduce their children to "the life" at such an early age? Brilliant, undetectable, your secrets can't be breached because no one is brave enough, no one has the balls to confront you. You are Mathy Jane the butch dike bull dagger, Madame Watson the Hoodoo Doctor, the shootingest, stabbingest, cut your motherfucking throat WHORE that ever lived. There were none before you and none will come after you. Plus FUCK all of them niggers that believe in a fucking god. Shit if they know like you know they better get any and every thing they want for themselves and FUCK all this praying an begging "god". If there is any proof that "god" doesn't exist you are certainly it. What kind of "god" would let a creature such as yourself exist unscathed for so long? Shit, how much more proof does the world need? You put that bullet in your meddling father's heart. They better recognize that you are not going out easily. No one is going to tell on you because you have too much shit on them. If they out you , you will out them. That's why you involved them in your demonic madness. Fool proof, someone should write a book about MJW the world's smoothest unrepentant demon. No one is going to believe it though. We all know the kind of evil you perpetuated is undefinable, unimaginable. Visualizing your life would make a strong man wretch.
I do have to wonder if this is what you planned? No I can't believe that you planned to become a broke ass demon possessed hag. It is funny how time changes all things. That's what you and *I*** *J** called me repeatedly when you tricked me into going on that cruise with you; "...wid 'yo broke ass". You made it abundantly clear that you invited me on that cruise to humiliate me. I had a lot of nerve graduating from college with honors and then being stupid enough to insist on loving and honoring you like a good daughter. Taking all of those tongue lashings and denying you your pleasure by sneaking off and crying in secret.
I know you just can't please some niggers. They expect you to be honest, loving, even protective. They are too sensitive about stalking and destruction. Why can't they play by your rules; "Don't out do me nigger. As a matter of fact why don't you just send me a check and go some where and fucking rot. I don't want to hear your whining and complaints. Line up and kiss my ass over and over because I had you sorry ass muthafuckers. Now I said it. Why couldn't you catch on and play your part? As a matter of fact you better not ever say one word against me. That stupid Judas Iscariot betrayed Jesus then he went out and killed his fool self. I won't 'cause I like what I did and what I'm doing. If "god" wants me to stop he better stop me because you wimpy ass niggers can't. I made damn sure of that. That's why I emasculated all of you."
You have been betraying, murdering and sabotaging lives for over seventy years and you haven't felt a hint or remorse. Repentance is just some bullshit designed by the "Man" to trick a nigga.
This is real children. I hope and I pray that you never have to endure such pain. But if you do call them out early. "Fear no man!" It is a fact the wicked shall cease from troubling. Your homework is Proverbs 13:5; "A righteous man hateth lying; but a wicked man is loathsome, and cometh to shame."
Do not feel sorry for me because I have "Unspeakable Joy". The God I serve is miraculous. He can and he will turn all of your tragedies into triumphs. He will reduce your enemy to your foot stool.
In the mean time do what you can to be blessed; "Keep yourself up as much as you can."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

Merciless!

*Con (my X-husband) and MJW are ignorant merciless reprobates. Thank you Lord for delivering me from those two. Yea, this saga gets sicker and sicker. That woman that was forced through a biological "mishap" to birth me, fucked my newly wed husband in MY house while I was having My baby in Southwest Community Hospital all alone. Fuck is a harsh word but it is the only one that is appropriate in this case. These two clowns have a lot in common. Both of them are "stuck on their color". What a strange expression; "stuck on your color". When the slaves and newly freed slaves used it they certainly had good reason to suspect that a person could feel better about their status if they were very fair skinned. Whites did show favoritism to light skinned blacks. It was often because they felt true kinship because the light skinned black was often the prodigy of the master. Yes, in some cases the mistress. Well this whole attitude about hair and skin color developed during a very dehumanizing time in the black experience. Slavery ended officially with the 13th amendment in 1865. Why would any one try to perpetuate that nonsense now? No one would. The bitch is putting on. This ignorant bitch even fakes being ignorant. There is only one thing wrong with you. Yes, I'm addressing YOU directly. You chose to have a baby at 16! That bullshit about not knowing where babies came from is utterly ridiculous. You dropped out or flunked of of Virginia Union. Your parents must have really thought a lot of you to send you to such a prestigious black school. How many years did you lie to your father and pretend that you were in school? He never told on you, you told on yourself. He didn't say, but I will say it. Low character. Only a very low principled individual would run a scam on their father. A true Coon you feign stupidity when it suits you.
Proverbs 7: 21 - 27 describes you precisely.
21 - With much seductive speech she persuades him; with her smooth talk she compels him
22 - All at once he follows her, as an ox goes to slaughter, or as a stag is caught fast
23 - till an arrow pierces its entrails; as a bird rushes into a snare; he does not know that it will cost him his life.
24 - And now, O sons, listen to me, and be attentive to the words of my mouth.
25 - let not your heart turn aside to her ways, do not stray into her paths;
26 - for many a victim has she laid low;
27 - Her house is the way to Sheol, going down to the chambers of death.

Every word of that Proverb is true. That's you , that's you exactly. Add sorcery and murder and that's you MJW to a tee.
Dear Lord you are so wonderful. I married a closet gay totally vacuous man. He claimed to have a degree, but there is no way that any one could earn a college degree and remain as ignorant as he was. At any rate good riddance.
I'm sure you have heard it said "Only a fool keeps doing the same thing over and over hoping for a different result." Do you mean to tell me that in 85 years you could not recognize the root of all your problems? You and *Con are both pathological liars. I screamed inside my head with shame and disgust when I realized that he couldn't pronounce or define it. "You called me a pas-co-lod-i-cal Liar Raychur!" That did it for me. I was finished. If I am an intellectual snob so be it. I would rather be alone than be with a dumb man. Intelligence is very important to me.
The glaring character flaws you two imbeciles share is uncanny. Both of you are anti-intellectuals, unwilling to earn knowledge you try to steal it, usurp it. A book is Kryptonite to you. Neither one of you has ever read an entire book. You live off of the "I heard" method. Too lazy to study you rely on myths and lies or just makeup your reality . You have to study in order to cultivate the brain. Did you really believe that bullshit about your color. Did your mother compliment you and promise you a great life? Did she tell you that you could escape the retribution due you simply because of your color? Lazy, perverted, over-sexed, narcissistic reprobates preoccupied with using others for your sustenance. Well neither one of you is that pretty. You are not that desirable. Who wants you? Who is willing to tolerate you? It was pure fear and intimidation that kept me under your boot so long. No, I don't like you and I don't like anyone that likes you. The horrible irony is that you know I speak the pure unadulterated truth but you are too vile and evil to accept it. You know that you have been cold busted, outed, revealed to the entire world and you are still trying to manufacture lies to conceal your guilt. What else can you do? Are you ashamed yet? No. You are incapable of feeling shame or remorse. Anger, rage and hatred are the only emotions you are capable of feeling. No one can say that you didn't enjoy sex. You made sex your only drive. When I look back over my life I can see clearly. You and that nasty *D*****. You two stanking perverts always having sex with the door open with children in the house. You should go to jail just for that. When *D***** went to Germany for two years you purely lost your nymphomaniac mind! You had a different lover every night, men, women,children. What fueled that lust? You are wrong about something else. Joyful over the fact that you successfully and clandestinely destroyed so many lives. No you did not destroy my life in any way. Yes, you have been the direct cause of my suffering, but you did not and can not destroy me. If anything you stimulated the gifts that God deposited in me long before you got your foul filthy hands on me. Let me remind you the devil that you serve is a trickster. He will make a fool out of you, he will sure embarrass your ass.
You were once a very beautiful woman. When I look at you now all I see is this horrid lecherous creature. Perhaps you were powerless to sin. Maybe it was your lot in life. A born demon, a primitive cruel creature unable or unwilling to take correction. Where did that guile come from? I inherited you. Your demon controlled manipulative personality was already in full force when I met you. I think some one knew that you should have never been entrusted with children. Weakened and worn down by your constant scams they acquiesced and trusted God to protect us from you. My grandfather's fervent prayers protected me and those same prayers are still protecting me.
I want you to look in the mirror. Look deep into your sunken black eyes. If there is a modicum of goodness in you fall down on your knees and ask God to forgive you. Repent of your sins. Cry out to Jesus, ask him to come into your heart and to make you whole. Acknowledge that you did wrong. Pray for intercession. Some where deep down in your heart you must have longed to live right once. Jesus said that even in the last hour you can come into the kingdom. You do have to come correct. Why lie? God knows your heart and he knows you. God knows every thing you ever did better than I do. Don't try to clean yourself up. Only the Lord Jesus Christ can clean us up, wash us white as snow.
The Book has to be full filled. We must all stand in Judgment and give an account of our sins.
Be Blessed children. Continue to study your Bible. Work out your soul salvation. Your homework is to study the book of Hebrews (2:9). Jesus by the grace of God tasted death, gave himself on Calvary for our sins.
Much Love, Peace and happiness
Rachel

How Does It Feel?

How does it feel to be an ancient whore? No, not old, ancient. Bitch you are eons past old. I know that I should not curse at you. But I curse you because I enjoy it. It is my language of choice dealing with you. It is the language that you taught me. Strangely, I feel very sorry for you. An eighty-five year old woman should be a saintly grandmother content with helping others and serving the Lord. No, not you, you are still running games, telling lies, working "roots" and up to no good. I know you don't read the Bible. There is not one page that you can turn to that doesn't indict you. I have to believe that you are absolutely miserable. Murderer, Liar, Thief, Rapist, Conjurer, is there one sin that you haven't committed? Well I know repentance is not on your agenda. You are too ignorant. Granddaddy summed you up in one sentence; "Don't pay no attention to your mama; she ignut." He was brilliant and insightful. Your ignorance was and is beyond any one's ability to grasp. Who could know the depths of your depravity? You drove to the "country" and snatched us from our grandfather for only one reason; our sexual exploitation. All giddy and excited because you found a husband as perverted as you, you could not wait to make us your sick sex toys.
You did right to keep your proclivities a secret. I am ashamed of you and I personally disavow any relationship with you. I do not intend to have any interaction with you ever again .
I just want to know was it worth it? What did you gain from you sick depravity?
"He that leadeth into captivity shall go into captivity; he that killeth with the sword must be killed with the sword. Here is the patience and the faith of the saints." Revelation 13:10
Granddaddy told you over and over; "Daughter, apart from Christ you are nothing." You spent over seventy years trying to prove him wrong. He is still right. You are nothing. Your name will rot.
Dear children please read and study your Bible. Use this sad legacy of a wasted life to learn what NOT to do. Don't Lie! Most of all do not lie to yourself. Learn to accept criticism. Pray for wisdom. Pray for Grace and Peace.
Be Blessed.
Much Love, Peace, and Happiness,
Rachel

Narcissistic Demons

I just discovered this author on the Internet; Dr. Linda Martinez-Lewi. She describes a Narcissistic mother. I was floored. She described my birth mother precisely:
-severe personality disorder
-self absorbed
-cold
-manipulative
-deceitful
-exploitative
-toxic venom
-relentlessly cruel
-maternal deprivation - the bitch rolled up a towel to feed Billy. She refused to hold him! I was there. I know what I saw. The poor little baby nursed on a bottle hanging out of the side of his mouth with most of the milk spilling on the towel. If he had loose stool she beat the shit out of him and he was a baby! What kind of woman would encourage her husband to rape her little girl? She is a sick twisted Cunt and people continue to "love" her out of FEAR.
-incapable of love - but she is smart enough to PRETEND! What has she ever done for you but cause you excruciating pain and misery and she is still not satisfied.
-coldness and lack of empathy - that explains "De 'mo you cry the less you Piss!" she spewed on me until I was nearly deaf
-deliberate sabotage - that explains all of the "Root Working" and trickery
-envious on every level
-ferocity
-vituperative rage - pistol whipping, stabbing, and MURDER!
-pitting siblings against each other - That is and has always been her master plan. She taught us to hate each other. She re-named me Miss Rich Bitch and that was to my face. I have no idea what she called me behind my back. Granddaddy taught us to love each other.

The most frightening truth here is the fact that there are so many of these demons that books are written to warn us and to help deliver us. Her book is "Freeing Yourself From the Narcissist in Your Life"

Dr. Lewi did not mention emasculating her five sons. She has no way of knowing what a sick twisted woman can do to her sons to rob them of their manhood. She also does not mention the Occult or Black Magic. I wish we could present a united front. Your manipulated hatred of me will not permit you to THINK for yourselves. From the oldest to the youngest she has you pegged for cowards. She knows what she created. I am warning you. She is not finished. MJW will not be satisfied until all of you are sitting beside Lamb zombiefied out of your mind bringing her your check so that she can continue to gamble and do what ever she pleases. Do not wait for her to change, and do not waste your time waiting for that Bitch to die. She fully intends to make a hundred at the very least. She laughs about how many husbands and lovers she has buried. She has no reason to change. She is living a great life spending everyone else's money. It is just like when she was Madame Watson. The humble frightened slaves lined up on both sides of the street waiting for and revering this "Powerful" Hoodoo Doctor.
My Lord, what a sorry mess.
Be Blessed. Stay in His WORD children.
How long? Not long.
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

Prolonged Unnecessary Pain

I am suffering from a prolonged unnecessary heartache. What did I do to deserve such a life? I made the mistake of not aborting myself. Had I known my fate I surely would have killed myself in her corrupt womb. At any rate I am here and have been on this earth for quite some time paying for my crime of craving life. I am more than mad or angry. I am well beyond grief stricken. I am a mere pile of dust ground down to nothing by my MOTHER. Today is her eighty-fifth birthday and she is more of a monster today than she ever was when she brutalized and raped me as a child. I scream WHY? over and over. There is no answer, there is no solution. Distance is about the best I am ever going to get from her. She knows I hate her guts. But this wacko loves being hated. Being hated rationalizes and justifies her deep hatred for every good and kind person that she persecutes. Fear is what she still uses very skillfully to tether her prey. If you love her, talk to her or interact with her in any way you are exactly that, her prey. What can a person be to a Predator other than prey? Is she happy? God only knows. I know that she can not be as ignorant as she pretends to be. Do not under estimate her potential to lay you low just because she is ancient. That creature has many plots hatching in her brain right now. If you love her you will be victimized over and over. She hates herself, therefore she must hate and destroy you for being dumb and gullible enough to love her. I pray every day. I know the God I serve will not fail me though he tarry. I often wonder; how does this Thing look in the mirror? There is not one word of truth in her. She is proud that she murdered her own father and got away clean. At least "clean" in her mind. Her savage primitive debauchery paid off. Who has the courage to call her out? Who will tell her about herself? I do regret the fact that I hate her with an absolute passion. I pray daily for God to remove this black hatred from my heart. Yes I want her to be found out, exposed. What is a fitting punishment? Should she die in the street and be devoured by dogs like Jezebel? No. I just want her to recognize the fact that her life is punishment enough. Living and knowing full well her real character is surely excruciatingly painful to her. A total fake, from her Fashion Fair make-up, double decker wigs, "anointing", marriage, sexuality, and pretense of being a loving caring mother. Better than anyone she knows her true character, her real legacy.
How can she stand herself knowing that she sexually abused underage children. I could not know as a child that I was witnessing a sick twisted demon. Our baby sitter J***** F***, my boyfriend, G***** S**** and countless unnamed victims. She was a grown woman sexually abusing teenagers (male and female) in our community! A prostitute, laying up under that fat ugly crow black walrus looking nigger, Mr. Lizzard. Forcing me to clean up her nasty cum rags and empty Emko bottles when I was eleven years old. I often thought that being orphaned as a child was the worse thing that could happen to a person. I was wrong. The worse thing that can happen to anyone is to be born to a succubus. You see a succubus will not leave you alone. They stalk you, dig pits, tell lies, attempt to work roots on you ,while secretly relishing in your pain. Pain gets her off. A woman with a high male sexual libido she can not be satisfied. MJW's life is unbelievable. It is too hard to bear. My relatives ignore me, pretend to be in disbelief. No one is capable of such evil is their erroneous rationale. Wrong. She is capable and she is still laughing. The world's greatest con artist she is delighted by the fact that so many revere her and call on her to pray and preach. Well I am here to tell you MJW that your time is up. It is finished. God gave you time and he gave you many opportunities to change and repent. You refuse, YOU KNOW THE TRUTH. You have always known the truth. You were a rebellious incorrigible adolescent and refused to heed your father's constant admonishments. Instead of hearing you hated him, hated God and continued on your path until you finally got up enough nerve to shoot him in the heart. Your only regret was that you had not done it sooner. Well, all I have to say is that it was totally unnecessary. You didn't change anything. You are still the common miscreant that brought nothing but shame and degradation to your family. Your Lies are still Lies. You are still COMMON! Your color can not protect you, your phony preaching can't save you and your sniveling cowardly minions that serve you and pretend to love you will forsake you.
It is called "free will" and you made your choice. Jesus said that you would wax worse and worse and you have. Perhaps your stiff necked unrepentant life can serve as an example of how not to live. Maybe someone will realize that "freaking" can lead to horrible consequences. Maybe some good people will read my blog and be moved to enact laws to prevent people like you from terrorizing for so long. Perhaps someone will now be able to identify the demons that plague them for no reason. Maybe you will finally take responsibility for your own actions and repent.
How long? Not long.
Be blessed children. Continue to read and study His Word.
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

PRAISE THE LORD!!!

Thank You Jesus! Thank you for your tender mercies! My grandfather taught me that the unexpected is always there. I am bowled over, knocked down, prostrate on my face with grief and joy. I am grief stricken over that succubus that birthed me and tortured me for sixty years and I have unspeakable joy over God's Goodness. I am dancing and singing; "How I got over!" When I look back over my life I tremble. The horrible sick demonic things those two ghouls did to me as a small child. But, God saved me. He put in me a right spirit, a humble spirit, a desire to live right. I am still mystified. I will never know the answer because she does not know herself. To say that I am still shocked is really an understatement. Was I fooled by her "preaching"? Yes. How did I find out? The only answer is His Holy Spirit. Am I angry? Yes. I am angry because it was all so unnecessary. MJW was born into a good family, She became accursed. It was her choice. Incorrigible, rebellious and COMMON! A beautiful narcissist, a brilliant liar and a charismatic demon. Always plotting and planning the destruction of her loved ones. No I am not the only one. If you looked better, were perceived to be smarter or had five more dollars than she had you became her target. Why has she been so successful? Fear. You better fear her or get your scull busted open or shot or stabbed or at the least get cussed out. Loud, clamorous, violent and ignorant. For some reason she depends on intimidation and lying. The funny thing is that now that she is ancient she gets mixed up, she will say what she has been secretly thinking. She exposed herself to me. She gave me all of the pieces to the puzzle. It is hilarious, a senile "root worker", a Hoodoo doctor in the beginning stages of Alzheimer's. This fool is working roots on herself! Can you imagine crying and laughing all at the same time? As funny as she is I can't go near her. As pitiful as she may become I will not be able to help her. She knew this day was coming. To her "loved" ones, do what you can for her. I tried, I totally forgave her for all of her wrong doing and the ignorant demon started that "mess" all over again. Help her if you can, but watch your back.
Read your Bible children. Study!
Be Blessed.
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

Is Mother/Daughter Jealousy Prevalent?

I know that it is not normal. I know it exists because I am a victim. Could it be as high as twenty-five percent? I know that it has nothing to do with culture or race. I want every one to know that it is real. It is shameful, disgraceful and deeply painful. I have gotten over the fact that very few people on this earth care what happened to me. I am the only person on this earth that tried to get that creature prosecuted for the murder of my grandfather, Jerome Walters. I often feel like some one crying in the wilderness. No one cares, go on with your life, just get over it. Well I can't. I'm stuck on RAGE! It is not like my life was ever going to be easy. To be born poor, black, female and illegitimate in 1951 was actually a prison sentence. I was doomed from birth. Some how God saw to it that I was nurtured and loved by my grandfather for the first four years of my life. Then that succubus came and snatched me from his loving arms and guidance. Thankfully she was so greedy and conniving she did not totally cut him off. Too hurry up and make a very long story shorter, the sick sexual abuse began that day. Oh yes, she is a closet homosexual, a reprobate. Homosexuality has nothing to do with her depravity. It's her, it is her character, it is her choice. A brilliant woman that decided to become a predator probably over seventy years ago. A cunning Cunt (pardon the pun, I could not resist) Eighty-five and unrepentant she will not change. Habitual negativity and annihilation is fun for her. "To do evil is like sport to a fool, But a man of understanding has wisdom" Proverbs 10:23
It is crystal clear to me now. I have put most of the pieces of this bizarre puzzle together. A woman of very low character gave birth to me and has hated me and blamed ME for all of her problems and short comings my entire life. My destruction became an obsession with her. She is some where right now plotting my demise. Why? You can't touch me Bitch! Yes I "cuss". I do not "curse". That is what she does. When her son finally got a house, she cursed him every day until he lost it. I warned him, but he was unwilling to listen. Well she is laughing now as she recounts what a dumb ass he is to all that are willing to listen. It is misdirected hatred. Did she want to hate herself for being a common prostitute? Did this fool blame me for my rape? Was it my fault? At eighty-four years old she bitterly scoffed and was still upset about my birthday. "I was on my way to the beach. We were going to party!...when I went into labor wid 'yo ass!" Is this mental illness or demon possession? You told me more than once how you hate my oldest brother. "I hate dat damn nigger...that damn nigger ruined my life." You screamed that repeatedly when I begged you to visit him in the VA hospital. I could not believe the act you put on when we got there. "Dat's my Son! Dat's my son!" I was scratching my head; "What the Fuck? Who is this bitch? Does she have no shame?" Is this a person with multiple personalities? Now I know it's guile, deceitful guile. She is a pathological liar bent on the destruction of anyone that loves her. She doesn't want your love. If you love her, she knows that you are stupid and are worthy of nothing but annihilation while she secretly laughs. YOUR destruction is HER pleasure. She can not be saved. There is no hope for her. The best you can do is gather your little broken self together and move on down the road. Yes, she will stalk you. She will call in a month or so, or a year, it depends on your gullibility. She will trick you again, ruin you again, and laugh.
Again, no one will listen. She will use her charming personality to beguile you. She will use her "motherly" instinct to lead you astray, again. She will bust you down to nothing and call you a drunk or a dope addict. Any good name you ever had she will destroy. She will lie on you, make up all kinds of sick depraved shit that she did and pin it on you. That's her joy, that's her fun, don't deprive her. No, you will never stop her from "root working", that's her hobby. It is as natural to her as breathing. She doesn't believe in God or Karma, that's for fools. She believes in the god of Mathy Jane. To this day she is very confident in her imagined power because she thinks she is invincible. She is a full fledged Voodoo Priestess. She went through a ritual that promised her at least one hundred years of life and total invincibility. She had to kill a baby or a real Christian. You could not find a man more Christian than Jerome Walters. How do I know? Other than the Holy Spirit revealing this truth to me, I just happened to do my master's thesis on Voodoo and Conjure. There is not one word in the Bible that she believes in. So why does she preach? Could there be a better place for a demon to hide? Jesus warned us. We don't listen. "FEAR NO MAN!" Yet we run and hide, cow tie, bend and bow down just be be eviscerated over and over again.

An Open Letter to the Entire World

I am very ashamed to be a human being right now. To be a member of this Human Race is revolting. For the past year I have been collecting horrible news articles concerning the rape and murder of babies by cruel and despicable people. The sick demented torture of our children goes unreported or under reported. There is no outrage. No one really cares. A few give it lip service then we move on to the next topic. Gossip rules the day in the media. Who is the latest whore monger to be outed by his or her victims? We are told what car to drive, where we should live, who is handsome, who is ugly, who is fat, who is gay, who and when we should marry. We are told when we are happy and who we should hate. Few are brave enough to THINK! Where are the CRITICAL THINKERS? Surely to God we are not all deaf and dumb. It is as if we are all asleep. Weak, frightened, clueless, we let the demons rule as we passively submit, covering our own asses just hoping to get by.
Well, All of us will have to give in account to God for what we did or did not do to save our innocent children from predators.
I am a victim and a survivor. I am tormented by the fact that she will turn eighty-five years old on the ninth of October and I am the only one in my family that has the strength or courage to out her. Is it because she is a "Root Worker"? Are they gutless? Are they waiting for her to die? Or is it because she is a horrible Succubus? I don't know, but I know I hate her. I do wish that she would hurry up and fucking die! That is for someone to finally lower her rotting corpse into the ground. She's been dead. Why does she exist? Why do people keep her secrets? I will not!
Maybe that is what I will have to do, climb to the top of Stone Mountain and out her. I am told that no one cares because I am black, that I am nobody. I am not famous. I am not even rich. So? I am a child of God and that makes me eligible, that makes me equal.
To my family that pretends to not believe me. I have documented evidence, undisputed proof that she killed our grandfather. She didn't just kill him, she MURDERED him and dared God to touch her! What a CUNT! That's why she shot him in the heart. It was to scare the living shit out of us and that's exactly what she did. She was his only care giver, she could have overdosed him. We never would have known. No, this creature is power hungry. When she dressed up and "played" Madame Watson , I never really took her seriously. When she tricked Aunt Olive out of Uncle Will's "Root Working" books, I didn't give her any credence. It was when I saw for myself what she could do that I really paid attention.
I have a photographic memory concerning her evil decadence and I will not bow down to her. I do intend to fully out her to the ENTIRE WORLD!
I know that the Lord has kept her on this planet for his own purpose. You do not have to believe me today, but her exposure will come to past. Someone needs to know that creatures of this kind do live among and with us, but we do not have to tolerate them.
Death to ALL tyrants!
Study the Bible for yourself. Do not be a lazy "Christian", study to show yourself approved.
"FEAR NO MAN!!!"
Again, I am standing flat footed on His WORD demanding to be heard! This is an inconvenient TRUTH, but IT MUST BE TOLD!
Be Blessed.
Much Love, Peace, and Happiness,
Rachel