Don't You Hinder Me

"If you don't want to go don't you hinder me." I can still hear the congregation singing to the top of their lungs. It was a rousing Gospel song, we all sang it loudly and proudly. I didn't know what it meant exactly. I liked the sound. It's funny what you remember from your childhood.
The older I get the more I understand and appreciate. The world we live in is totally wrong and corrupt. But that does not give us permission to be ignorant and deceitful. "Know ye the TRUTH and the Truth will set you free!"
Why did Jesus tell us that? Because he knew how incredibly painful the Truth is. He knew how many people just lie out of habit. Or lie because we do not want to be confrontational. Do you go along with someone that you know is delusional because you are afraid of them?
All lies stem from fear. A lie is still a lie. There is no such thing as a little white lie. (What a racist expression) You don't have permission to lie to "keep people out of your business." It is one of the Ten Commandments; "Thou shalt not LIE!"
"You are a liar and the Truth is not in you!" "He said a liar would not tarry in his sight!" I heard those admonishments every day of my life growing up in MJW's house. I thank her for it. It threw me off though. It kept me blind and befuddled. I listened to her spill lies all day long. For some reason she had the impression that God gave her the right to lie. Some how her strategy to maintain her habitual lying was to intimidate. Anyone that had a problem or question about anything she did better come ready to take a beat down. How perfect, more people should be smart enough to adopt the MJW strategy for get over living. First of all you must be extremely selfish. You can not ever care for anyone else. Do not let the words tender mercies cross your mind. Pump yourself up to be irritable and cross twenty four seven. Yes you can pretend to be loving and caring only when it suits your plot. Yes you must plot continually. Never let an opportunity to destroy escape you. You must be alert for it. If they foolishly leave you in a room with a new born baby try to deafen it, make it handicapped. Don't forget to brag about your color to the point of nausea . Do not pursue your real gifts and talents, spend all of your time comparing yourself to some one else. If anyone looks better than you, is smarter than you or has more talent than you , you make sure you do every thing you can to destroy them. No you can't be obvious. This is where your gift of guile comes in. This is when you take advantage of their vulnerabilities. Oh Devil you are just too good. This is when you get to exploit their low self esteem. You know they have low self esteem because you gave it to them, you cultivated it. You planted those seeds with the cruelest psychological attacks ever imagined. Laugh uproariously, secretly of course, then trick them again. What fun is there in life if you can't toy with your little pathetic black bastard younguns. There is one problem though. At least one of them will back talk you, probably tell on you. Don't worry about that one wayward "Truth Teller". No one is going to believe her because you have made sure that her family hates her and perceives her as weird. Make sure you label her a sneaky backstabbing blabber mouth early in her life. Don't you ever change. Go to your grave a lying, root working, double minded, fake preaching, fake loving mother/grandmother/great grandmother. Go ahead and do it. You can do it because you are the most brilliant woman that ever lived and the nigga that can out think you has never been born. You are so good that you can fool God. You can fool God because you fool yourself first. You taught yourself this trick as a small child; "If I tell myself a lie ten times it becomes true. Wow! If I cut the pure tee nigger fool I can get away with anything I think of. Nobody wants to mess with MJ. She will tie your naked ass up, gage you and beat the bloody shit out of you, and be perfectly fine. Rob them! Don't let those damn black ass bastard nigger children do any thing that you never had sense enough to do. Never admit that you squandered your own youth and beauty because you depended on your good looks, high yalla skin and good hair to get you over.
What happened world? Why didn't you bow down and give MJ every thing she wanted? It was them damn black bastard children that you were left with. They are ungrateful and they remember too damn much.
I don't blame you, hate 'um. Shit you could have done something with your life if you hadn't taken the time to have those sorry ass niggers. You were only twenty five when you had that black ass nigga. You fixed him good. You made sure he knew how ugly you thought he was. You cloaked it in the words of your dead mother;"...at least he's human." And that little black cunt you had when you were twenty six, make sure you make her life miserable. Make her a eunuch! Assault her blind ass physically. Slap the dog shit out her repeatedly. No one is going to believe her. Beat her in the head with a wooden brush so she will not want you to comb her hair. Send her to school with stanking mildewed clothes on so that no one in her all white class will like her. Misuse and abuse her body as often as you can. No one is going to believe her. No one has ever heard of the kind of wickedness you practice. Wipe your ass in a letter and send it to her. If that won't scare the shit out of a nigger I don't know what will.
Don't forget the best part. Play innocent and pitiful. Run the scam. No one is better than you. You convinced a six foot four brown skin nigger that his father is jet black and five foot five. Scare the hell out of that nigger, cuss his ass out! That damn heifer started that shit. She need to mind her own business. He better not ever get enough grit in his craw to question you about who his real daddy is. His daddy is who ever you say his daddy is, ugly bug-eyed, pop-eyed nigger. He thought he was going to make it as a great musician. When you heard him playing with Donald Byrd you knew you had your treachery cut out for you. Why did that dumb nigger let you manage his band? Lord you know you tempted me. That was just too easy Lord, you know I couldn't help that one. Pretend you don't care. Sahshy down the road like you have always done. Keep repeating your philosophy;"Don't nobody give a shit about what some dumb ass black ass nigger got to say. Fuck her I'm MJ.".
Aside from all of my satire I think you got the point. I will not ask why. I will simply reiterate; "If you don't want to go don't you hinder me."
Learn to think for yourself children. We are all equal in the eyes of the Lord.
"Be what you are and live the life."
Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up as musch as you can."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
P.S.
Your homework is to sing about his "Grace and Mercy"