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It Is Over!

It is finally over. I thank GOD. Something that should have ended over seventy or eighty years ago. Something so vile and hideous that it is unbelievable. It is certainly unbearable.

I found the answer. GOD delivered me from the hands of the most diabolical aberration possible. I call her an aberration because it is humanly impossible to be real. It is physically and psychologically impossible for a man or woman to be as sick and demented as "She" is.

"She" is the result of her own doing, her own cunning and craftiness. Truly, she is a woman that got exactly what she deserved, nothing.

My grandfather was a kind gentle wise man. I wonder did he ever imagine that you would murder him one day? He had to. You tried to blow his head off when you were sixteen!

Did anyone ever try to help you? By sixteen it was way too late. You were far too wicked and you absolutely refused to listen.

Now I understand why granddaddy made sure I had a firm foundation in the book of Proverbs, in the Bible.

"The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge..." That is a fact that you always ignored. A sick demented reprobate you were determined to have everything your way. You did! You won! But what did you win?

A scummy low life name, shunning, hatred, disgust, embarrassment, shock and awe. You vile sick woman you demand to be loved. You demand to be loved for the minimum begrudged "love" that you parcel out stingily ever so often.

You can't get it if you are prettier, more intelligent, "luckier", received a compliment or an award. You can't get it if you try to improve yourself. and you sure can't get it if you love GOD. If you are perceived as good, if you have earned a good name.

"Haters of those that are good." Read your Bible.

You are mad that no one really likes you. Who can? I tried for sixty years! What did I get for my trouble? Betrayal, stabbed in the back over and over. You will never get there. A lie can't get you to the truth. You know that. You don't care because you hate GOD. You know that you can't win. Your intention is to trouble and torture until the day you die. That's your plan. What is GOD's plan?

No one can trust you. That is all your fault. Your life is what you made it. You are accursed. You are a Demon1 You refuse to repent.

Thank you for "uninviting" me to your funeral. Why are you planning a funeral? "Man proposes, GOD disposes!"; that is what you always told me.

"GOD sits high and looks low."; you taught me that. I guess all that preaching and praying is some indication that you wanted to "serve" the LORD. Or was it just a ruse, another "Mathy Jane" scam?

All you ever had to do was ask. GOD will give you the meditation of your heart. If you want the indwelling of the Holy Spirit you have to pray for it.

I will admit that you have made my life pretty miserable, a living hell. Not just me, my brothers as well. Now that I have no doubt concerning the awful depths of your depravity I can't help but wonder about certain tragedies that befell our family.

No matter what,I will obey the LORD; "From such stay away." "Vengeance is mine sayeth the LORD. I SHALL REPAY!"

Children, you can look at that Bible. No one can make you read it or try to understand it. Do know that you need it. It is your GPS.

Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Stay in His WORD.

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

I Was A Senior In High School!

I was a senior in high school. I was popular. All my teachers and my principal loved me. Mr. E.E. Miller called me into his office often, just to chat. He trusted me, he admired me. I shared that with you. I thought you were really proud of me. I thought we had a real mother/daughter relationship.

Mr. Miller put me in charge of the charter bus. I told you. It was an honor. The principal of E.E.Smith Senior High school selected Me! You assed around, I kept begging you; "Mother! we have to go! We are going to be late! I can't be late Mother!" I didn't know what was going on. I didn't know why *Gino made you get in the car. I didn't know why *Gino took over and drove me. Sure enough I missed the bus.

I let Mr. Miller down. You were glad. *Gino drove me all the way to Raleigh. I never knew why. It was not until 2005! That incident happened in 1968! In 2005 you stood in my bathroom and asked me if my stepfather *Gino ever molested me. What a strange question? You never asked about the real molester. You never asked because you never cared. You never cared because you were always the succubus behind it.

That was just another incident that we never dealt with. Why? Fear kept me silent. What kept you silent? Were you too successful? Were you truly enjoying your secreted demonology?

I didn't know why you insisted on pulling all those evil tricks over and over. Throwing *Emma Lou's beautiful hand-me-down sandals away, making sure I never wore them. They were too pretty for me, too good for me. I know I was a jet black bastard that ruined your life. GOD entrusted my sorry little life to you and you were going to show GOD something. I was your "thing", something to be abused by your men. I was a dummy, too dim-witted to catch on to your real feelings, your real thoughts.

I was eight years old and too embarrassed to ask my mother why my "private area" hurt so excruciatingly. You were my mother. You didn't care, you couldn't care. You did the best you could. GOD saddled you with all of these mouths to feed. Being feed is not the same as being nurtured. Mistreating us was easier to do without that interfering daddy of yours. Mistreating was easier without those "church niggas in de country".

Learn how to blame them. Be loud and ignorant, be violent and vulgar. They will soon learn to leave you alone. They will some learn to shut up, to keep their "lying ass" mouth off of you.

You were going to fix GOD. You were going to make these burdens (children) suffer. GOD would think again before he saddled you with six children for some black ass no account niggas.

Did anyone ever confront you concerning your insane jealousy? Did Jean Johnson? You changed your name to Martha Jean because you were so jealous of your best friend. Why did she shun you, revile you, get shed of you? What did you do to her? How did you react when confronted?

Why did you hate your blind husband? Why did you hate your little short jet black husband? Why did you mistreat your tall good looking too young husband?

Have you ever been wrong? Have you ever apologized for any thing you ever did? Has anything ever been your fault?

Two or three times a year you got me with some terrible deed. Something unmentionable. I was riding right along with you. I was with you much of the time, never knowing that you are a pure demon. Think about, how many times was I riding in the car with you, or shopping with you, or just talking to you and you were just faking? Staring at me, hating me, laughing and talking to me while hating me with a passion. Just pretending to love me. Hate, full of sick demonic hatred. You hated me for no reason you Idiot! It was You that you were hating! You hated yourself for allowing men to run "trains" on you. You hated yourself for "loving" women. You hated yourself for touching children.

I was riding with you, living with you, sharing with you, never knowing that not one word of truth lives in you. I know NOW that you are a cruel black hearted demonic whore incapable of anything but hatred.

There were some things that happened, some things that happened to me that should have been dealt with. I didn't deal with them because I didn't know how. I guess I thought they would just go away.

We won't talk about all of the sexual abuse right now. I want to talk about why you sent me to my Girl Scout meeting looking like a fool? I want to know why you sent me to the prom looking like a sad sack? I want to know why you threw a brand new dishwasher away when I thanked you for buying it? I want to know why you killed so many of our pets? I want to know why you followed behind me throwing my pants and skirts away? I want to know why you wiped your shitty behind in my bath cloth? I want to know why you screwed men, women and children?

I want to know, what are you going to do? You are outed! You are no longer a mystery! Your sick demonic character is crystal clear. Are you still looking for victims? Your little "Goofer dust" black magic hoodoo voodoo will not work on me.

Have you found some new victims? We know that you are jealous of your so called best friend. What did you say about her being "rooted", about all of her money evaporating like water? What about your five sons? Which one are you picking on? All of them? Why do you hate your granddaughters? Are they too pretty? Not whorish enough for you?

Will you give up? Will you change? Not likely. It is your life. Sorry as it is, it is your life. There is no Christ in it, but it is the secret clandestine life you chose to live. CLAIM IT! You lived it, now claim it.

Children, if you don't want to live a life like Mathy Jane's, change. Heed GOD's WORD. Listen to the voice of wisdom. Put all of your TRUST in GOD.

Be richly Blessed. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

Who Do We Pray To?

Who do you pray to? Do you pray? Do you believe in a Higher Power?

I do. I believe in and know for myself that I have an advocate in Christ JESUS. I know I am part of a much larger predestined GOD anointed plan. I know that I hear from GOD. I know that there are people that scoff. Most people just shun me. Shun, avoid, disbelieve, disassociate, stand clear, prefer to observe from a distance or simply disdain.

I don't blame anyone. Maybe they are not avoiding me. Maybe I am avoiding them. I am paranoid. I do enjoy me. I do love my alone time. I would rather do some form of art and write than anything.

Let's face it, when you have a "mother" like mine, who needs company? I don't need company that thinks like she does. I will not associate with ignorant "color struck" people. I will not associate with jealous envious people. I will not abide liars.

There are over six billion people on this planet earth and many of those people are good. All people are not ignorant blind sheep.

We repeat the "LORD's Prayer"; "Our Father", "Our Father", not to Our Great White Father, or Our African-American Father. So, why do we continue to divide ourselves? Say things like ;"I care about children that look like me." GOD wants us to care about ALL children, All people. GOD is no respecter of MAN. Bore yourself with all that color, race and sex nonsense.

Do we think heaven is divided by race and ethnic group? Do we really believe in "heaven"? Is "heaven" something we merely repeat because everyone else does?

We tease little children and take them through the farce of "Santa Claus". It is fun for adults, makes money for retailers and keeps most people broke. Why do we do it? Are we too afraid to look "unkind"? Are we trying to prove to our children that we love them? How long do the kids "know" before they catch on? Before they announce that you can curtail the little "game"?

I caught on at four, but I don't think my "mother" tried real hard to fool me.

Is there a "heaven"? We must go some where? It is all too mysterious. I have too many "infallible proofs". I know that I am preparing to go somewhere. I know GOD prepared a place for me.

Do you live right for a reward or do you live right just to live right?

If you "live wrong", why do you? How does it profit you?

Is that how much you hate GOD, hate Goodness, hate all innocence? Did you ever think that you were going to win? Are you too proud to be ashamed? Are you so ashamed that you would rather die and and go to hell? Are you so ashamed of the deeds that you were stupid enough to volunteer to do? Where you so out of control with lust that you lost your mind? Are you really that selfish and demonic?

Why can't you cuss and curse the devil? Didn't you know that you would have to answer to your victims one day? Why did you think "sah-shaying" off pretending to be innocent was the solution? It was your magic, "Mathy's Magic" and only you could control it.

It wasn't magic. It was shock! I was shocked as a little girl. I guess you were shocked too. You kept committing criminal offenses and the world you lived in was too ashamed to identify you, to put you in jail. Remember, "un-convicted" doesn't mean innocent. "Un-identified" simply means the world is in shock. There is no vocabulary word for you. Those children came through you for GOD's Own purpose. GOD did not create those children for you to destroy.

Why couldn't you stop? They made it safely to adulthood? What do you want? When will you realize that you can't change GOD's Gospel into a lie?

You the self anointed princess of Wade could do anything you pleased and the world would continue to bow down as long as you pulled your "magic". Just pretend like you didn't do it. Just cut the fool, act like a stark raving maniac. That attempting to kill your daddy when you were sixteen was the best scam you ever came up with. People soon learned to leave you alone. People soon learned to let you have your way.

You know that's a delusion don't you. That's an awful delusion straight from the devil himself. You brought it on yourself. What did you think would happen? You were the one foolish enough or dumb enough to be down on that murdered man's grave at midnight during a full moon. ARE YOU CRAZY!!!???

You know you're crazy don't cha? You know you are lost! You picked the wrong road, the wrong team. Shame on you!

You knew this day was coming. What did you plan to say? What was going to be your excuse? How do you justify your cruel hatred?

Can you say you are sorry? Secretly, deep down in your heart? don't you feel something? When and how did you lose your "humanness", your soul? Was it worth it? Do you know why you have never been able to stop lying?

Yes, I am ashamed of you. I am ashamed to know you. I will not lie for you. You have a lot a nerve professing to hate people that will not lie for you. It really doesn't matter. Hate is the only feeling you are capable of. So blinded by jealousy that you invent ridiculous scenarios. Totally blinded by your sins you refuse to see. Totally addicted to "root working" you can't stop. It is in you. It is not your second nature, it is your first nature. Cruelty and hatred is your first thought. Keeping your secret desires secret is more of a challenge. Too many people are paying attention to you. Too many people are looking at your fruit. Too many people are remembering. Rats! You have to come up with a new strategy, a new game plan. You continue to play crazy and refuse to see.

We are both too old and I am too tired. Anyone that asks about you, I am going to tell them the truth. Yes, you are a child of GOD, but you are stupid. I am sorry, stupid is about the kindest word I know. Lost, out side the arch of safety, a back slider, none of those words ever worked.

Continue to work out your "own salvation". I am working on mine.

It is fine. The "wicked shall cease from troubling."

Why can't we acknowledge that there is only one race, the Human Race?

I made up my mind as a small child, I am not going to be stupid because you are stupid.

If you have problems, suffering from any form of lack, ask GOD why? He will answer, all you have to do is heed.

Be richly Blessed. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace, and Happiness,
Rachel

The Truth Is!

The truth is I could have had this confrontation with you over fifty years ago. I know now that I should have. I just couldn't find the courage.

Is that a good thing? Are you proud to know that you are so savage and ignorant that few will dare confront you with the truth?

What is the point? Nothing has changed. Hiding your "truth" doesn't change it. Why do want to be something that must be hidden? Why do you lie to yourself? Do you believe you?

"Ah ain't no back do' nigga. I went ova 'dere and got my refrigerator!" Why do you lie? You know why you manipulated your sons into emptying your son's medical office. You know that you made your son make a decision. Why would your son chose his "mother" over his wife? What kind of idiot are you?

If we ever thought you had good sense that one act proved that you are a stark raving maniac. The sad truth is you proved that you are a stark raving maniac many times before. Is it our fault that we didn't know how to get away from you? Didn't know how to reject you? Didn't know how to get free of you? Some how we always needed some of your blood money. You kept us tethered to a loan or a credit card or some sick secret.

How you can pretend to love GOD and remain a heartless whore I will never know. That's part of your "get over". Do things so repugnant, so offensive that no one will dare repeat it. Scare the "Be-Jesus" out of your victims. Taunt and destroy, taunt and destroy until the day you die.

Most will never catch on.

Be richly Blessed children. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

John Lee Hooker Blues Before Sunrise

You Have An Advocate!

You have no excuse! You have an advocate in Christ JESUS! Anything you want, just ask, "call him up, tell him what you want!".

Is that not common sense? Is that not the best news? So who wants to be on the wrong side? Who wants to dismantle GOD's plan? Who wants to pretend, destroy, hide secret hate?

Can anything so horrific be true? Can a "loved one" be burdened down with a sick demonic closeted hatred? How long can a person commit strange sick things against you and go unnoticed? Unpunished? "Unpunished" does not mean that you are innocent or blessed by GOD? It doesn't mean that GOD has ever taken His Eye off of You! For over sixty years you have had "your way" with me. Hiding in the dark committing despicable unmentionable sins. GOD knows why and GOD knows when

Jesus said; "Defraud no man!" but that is all most people do. Enron, Bernie Madoff, The Housing Bubble, Eddie Long, APS, on and on. "Robbing Peter to pay Paul."

I fled a school system where the idiot principal locked all of the bathrooms except for one. The dummy claimed that the students smoked in the bathrooms. True and so!? Put monitors in the bathrooms, put smoke detectors in the bathrooms, utilize the state of the art surveillance system the county put in every school.

Why should over two thousand people have to be treated inhumanely? Can you not think or empathize? do you not care because you don't have an office, you have a suite complete with a shower?

Who should we blame? The inept uncaring principal? The selfish uncaring "board"? The uninformed unconcerned parents? Parents that never have time for a PTA meeting. Parents that drive by the marquee every day and never read it. Parents that never open emails or letters with the school's logo or letterhead. Parents and students that demand to be enrolled in advanced placement classes made easy. Parents that believe that lying principal when he assured his parents that his AP teachers could bring a student reading on a second grade level up to speed in a semester.

Should we blame the school dietitian that is terrified of going over X county's stingy budget? So for years she pretends she can't determine how many chicken wings to prepare. So "D" and "E" lunch continue to get short changed . "D" and "E" must look forward to such delicacies as french fries, rice and canned peaches every day.

It usually takes a week for "D" and "E" diners to start skipping, always pretending they don't know their assigned lunch. This madness goes on for years. Assistant principals never listen to teachers.

Most parents just want to see some good grades on a sheet of paper. "Skin your own skunks." Don't send students to the principals office. Find your own way to reward or punish. Just love on them. Play to win. Do the best you can and count the days to retirement. Then, "get gone!"

"Get gone" but do know that you inadvertently contributed to the "dumbing of America". Pray for them. Hope and pray that they will pick up a book, buy some software. Pray that they will be able to recover the years lost in a sorry school system, a system that threw them away.

"Study to show yourself approved." a "degree" is something that You have to earn.

Be richly blessed. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace, and Happiness,
Rachel

When You Get The Holy Ghost!

When you get the Holy Ghost you get the HOLY GHOST! I can't explain it. It's like fire shut up in my bones. I want to run. I want to scream! I want to thank GOD. I want to be humble. I want to be bold. I want to slay the devil. The devil doesn't phase me. I will kick the devil's ass! I will not lie and cower to protect that demon that pretends to be my "mother".

It is not a title that she wanted. As a matter of fact she rejected it. The only reason she didn't abort me was because she knew that she had my "simple minded" daddy hooked. That was one she knew she could control. She played with his mind too much, was way too whorish.

Too late to abort she was stuck with me. The whores in the "whore house" were moved to compassion. That's sad when lesbian prostitutes have more compassion and love for a baby than the baby's own mother.

It can and does happen. It is not about color, race, status, sex or sexual orientation. I have to admit it. It is "free will". It is what a person wants and desires in their life.

Was she that spoiled? Was she born a monster? Did she wax into the demon that she is? Does she hate GOD? How could she be so brilliantly demonic so long?

Dear LORD Thank you for Your WORD! Thank you for delivering us from Evil!

Be richly blessed children. Continue to study His WORD. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace, and Happiness,
Rachel

Make No Mistake About It!

Make no mistake about it, the Bible is The Authoritative Divine WORD of GOD! Oh, absolutely. If you encounter a person saying; "It all ain't in 'dere!", you have cornered a demon, a fool that lacketh understanding.

"In whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of them which believe not, lest the Light of the Glorious Gospel of CHRIST, who is the Image of GOD should shine unto them." 2 Corinthians 4:4

They can't hear or see. GOD will not let closet demons share in His Goodness. They can fool foolish Man. Man is easily impressed with the way someone sounds, the way some one looks. Most of us love flattery. We live for it. How many of us look at a person's fruit? How many of us even remember being wronged repeatedly by the same person?

Some how that demon tricked us into believing that we were doing the "Christian" thing by forgiving them over and over. That demon constantly reminds you of the scripture; "We all have sinned and come short..." Demons love to hide behind that. They will never remind you that Jesus said "let no man deceive you." I never heard a demon remind me to "Shun the very presence of evil." Or say; "From such stay away!"

They will never admit that torturing and ruining you is their only pleasure. They can't help it. "Soul-less" they are easily bored and tire of your company within minutes. Because they are stingy and count every penny they can't stop measuring, comparing, ranking, judging. If you look better, have more money, a prettier house, a significant other, a good job, win anything, have a pretty smile, big legs, receive an innocent compliment, she bristles. It might take her a little while but she will get even.

One day she remembered that you called her a bitch for being a bitch, for emasculating you, for trying to defend yourself from her torture. So she called the police, turned you in and laughed and still laughs because to this very day you always thought it was some one else.

That is what the devil will do to you. Blind and deafen you and turn you into the most miserable untrustworthy creep that ever crawled on planet earth.

Yes, they are miserable. Yet they continue to grin and lie. Pay it no attention. It is habit. They lost their ability to love, to laugh to enjoy life too many eons ago.

Intimidated we end up agreeing that it is our fault. We caused them to cuss and curse us like a dog. We are dumb, no-sense-ED, unworthy, too old, too fat, just a hopeless loser that should be glad to be in their presence.

That is a lie, all lies, straight from the mouth of the devil. Anything that you want, thank GOD for. I thanked GOD for a house and I won one. I thanked GOD for a beautiful brilliant daughter and He gave her to me. I thank GOD for an excellent honest Agent. I thank GOD for my lucrative advance. I thank GOD for my editor, publisher, my movie. Yes mam! My movie! No the movie is not about you. You are merely incidental. My movie is about my grandfather, JR Walters, an unsung hero. A brilliant man, a sage, a prophet ahead of his time.

I put his lessons in a book, The JR Walters Chronicles. You didn't get it. I'm sorry. "You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him drink."

Be richly blessed children. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

"The Unexpected Is Always There"

I am so happy. I am overjoyed! I am humbled by GOD's goodness. I am an heir! An heir of nobility! I have royal blood running warm in MY veins.

GOD saw fit to save Me! GOD had compassion on me and touched Me with His Finger of Love. That creature thought long and hard on ways to torture and abuse me. No, not just me, my entire family, ALL my kit and kin.

GOD saw fit to remove the blinders from my eyes. GOD opened my dull understanding to His WORD. What once mystified me became crystal clear. GOD snatched her cloak off!

Most of her victims still fear her and are waiting patiently for her to die. You don't have to wait for her to die physically. She is already dead, dead in her sins. An awful creature she will never admit to her crimes. Her deeds are too terrifying, too gruesome, too vulgar to admit to.

Let her go. You can't help her. Don't fear her "roots" and "spells". She has no power. GOD gave you Power to tread on serpents like her. Mash that copperhead's head into the ground. Stomp on her and all of her lies!

Who has the courage to admit to a wasted misspent life? Who can accept the fact that she flim-flammed herself trying to decimate others? What do you say when you realize that you fought like a vicious mangy dog for scraps from the devils table while GOD offered you one of the best seats at His banquet table?

What do you say when you are caught up to your eyeballs in conjure, murder and mayhem? How do continue to look "innocent"? How can you continue to convince people that your "daughter" is crazy, is jealous, is on drugs, is no-sense-ED?

What can you do about this GOD that she claims to believe in? You can holler the name JESUS louder, make sure you holler the loudest, then slip off to the graveyard again. Because you always believed that GOD needed some backup. You always believed GOD was too slow. Because you never fully trusted GOD to do what you wanted because you knew you wanted things that GOD forbade you.

You know that GOD is shaking them out, revealing reprobates. GOD is snatching robes, cloaks, and blinders off, but you still don't think it is happening to you.

Just don't think about it. "If I don't think about it it won't happen." "What about the good stuff I did? I married dat 'pre-vert' and got dem out dem sticks!" (Yea, you did do that , but how did you make them pay you back?) She (dat black ass heifer) will forget. They will forget. Wait a long time then come around with gifts and money. Tell some more lies. Promise them money and your house in your will. Collect stuff. Have so much stuff collecting dust in your house that you can dump tons on your hapless victim and never miss it.

Laugh when your son tells you how good that steak was. Laugh hysterically to yourself because only you know that that steak was in your freezer for over six years.

You are a hoot. Test out your "roots" periodically. See if you can still destroy a marriage. You are home free! You can get away with anything because you are their mother,their grandmther, their aunt, their cousin, their confident. No one will ever expect you. They don't have sense enough to look at your fruit. Plus "dem niggas are too dumb to remember".

Scorn her! Scorn that blabber mouth daughter. Talk bad about her. Tell horrible lies on her. Tell stories of things that you did but pen it on her. Thank the ones that betray her, help scorn her. Laugh with them. Make sure all of her brothers hate her, revile her, rebuke her, ignore her.

It is ALL in Divine Order. Do not hate GOD's messenger for His message. Be richly Blessed. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

ALPHA BLONDY Come Back Jesus

Bob Marley - Forever Loving Jah

"Be thou clean!"

It is the most beautiful Truth I ever heard. "And Jesus, moved with compassion, put forth His hand, and touched him, and saith unto him, I Will, BE THOU CLEAN." (Mark 1:41)

That is the beautiful TRUTH. It doesn't matter how low down you've been, Jesus can and will pick you up if you ask him. PTL!

The devil will tell you that I'm a religious fanatic, that I have lost my mind, that I've gone too far with this GOD thing. If those thoughts ever crossed your mind, do know that that is a message from the devil. Living will teach you that you can't have too much GOD.

"And he healed many that were sick of divers diseases, and cast out many devils; and suffered not the devils to speak, because they knew him." (Mark 1:34) "And he preached in their synagogues throughout all Galilee, and CAST OUT DEVILS." (Mark 1:39)

"And there came a leper to him, beseeching him, and kneeling down to Him, and saying unto Him, If thou wilt, Thou canst make me Clean. And Jesus, moved with compassion, put forth His hand, and touched him, and saith unto him, I Will; BE THOU CLEAN!" And as soon as He had spoken, immediately the leprosy departed from him, and he was Cleansed." (Mark 1:42)

I don't care what you've done, Jesus will pick you up. Paul was once Saul and killed Christians. GOD struck him blind and cleaned him up.

GOD cleaned me up. Jesus can and will clean you up if you ask Him.

Yea, you need Him. You can't make it in this cold cruel world with out Him. If you think you can you are delusional. You are not smart enough. You are not strong enough. There are too many evil people on this earth, too many false friends. Too many secret demons for you to navigate this earth without Divine intervention.

You don't have to believe me. Be a slow learner, try to do it on your own. Think that your education, your degrees, will get you any where. Depend on your friends. Hang your dreams on what your friends and relatives have promised you.

Be modern, forget GOD. Dismiss Christianity as primitive nonsense. Get you a rabbit's foot, or a "Lucky Hand", put lucky bamboo in every room, burn a bayberry candle to the socket. Sprinkle sulphur in every corner, then sweep it out the door. Never put your pocketbook on the floor, never put your hat on the bed, never let anyone sweep across your feet. Throw the spilled salt over your left shoulder. Live in denial. Holler, scream, curse, threaten , get some more "dust". Hate, hate, hate, lie, lie, lie. Blow smoke, cry, tell more lies. Try to generate some pity. Cry. Tell some more lies. Cry.

Do every thing but tell the truth. Do every thing but actually care about somebody else.

Leprosy was a foul awful disfiguring disease. All lepers were shunned and put away, forced to live out heir miserable lives in Leper colonies.

If you are not perfect in this world Man will revile you. The world doesn't like you if you are the wrong color, or the wrong weight, or you happen to be the wrong age or the wrong sex. the world will revile you if you don't wear the right clothes or drive the right car. This world is not interested in you if you live in the wrong section of town. GOD forbid that you never earned a college degree or you drop "esses" or you pronounce seven "seben".

Make sure you know someone of "importance". Be able to claim "important" people as your friend or kin. Depend on Man again and again. Make sure you get stomped into the ground before you come to the knowledge of GOD's Truth. No, never wake up. Remain in denial. It is more comfortable.

It is a matter or choice, of self will.

Be richly blessed. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

I WILL NOT!

I will not shut my mouth! I don't have a thing in this world to lose. The bitch took everything! The f****** slut went too far. The dumb uneducated illiterate whore tried to ruin me! She knew that she was wrong. She knew the whole time, that's why she hid her true character so cleverly.

No I am not angry. My foul language is a product of my up bringing. That is how she talked to me. That is how I learned to talk. There is no such thing as bad language, only bad experiences.

My bad experiences are fascinating, unbelievable, but true. There are a significant number of people on this earth that volunteer to do evil just for the fun of it. Just for the pleasure of seeing you fail. They don't care who you are or how old you are.

Quit telling that lie that I want revenge. "Vengeance is mine sayeth the LORD. I shall repay." Yes, I do want justice. Yes, I do want you exposed. Be careful what you tell your children. It may become a self fulling prophesy. You always told me that my mouth ran like goose s*** by the moon light. You were right. I kept all of this madness suppressed, bottled up inside me for sixty years. Now I can't stop telling. I can't stop talking. They tell me that I'm telling in my sleep. GOD called me out of my darkness into His marvelous Light!

GOD told me that a "godly mother" was His highest calling. Not a flake or a fake, not a closet perverted demon, not a blind deaf imp. GOD told me to tell YOU to stop it. Mess around if you want to. See if they don't find your cold dead body stretched out over your favorite murdered man's grave.

Are you still stupid? Do you still think you have some power? Do you still think that you can lie, scheme and con your way through life?

I know that you are not ashamed. I know that you don't care. But, if exposing you for the cold heartless sneaky demon that you are will help save one innocent child of GOD, it is well worth it.

You are soulless. Did you sell your soul to the devil for a mess of pottage? How could you hate your own daddy? How could you hate a good man? "...despisers of those that are good."

That's you! 2 Timothy 1: 1-6, that's sure you. But I am going to sing my grandfather's praises. I am going to honor his good name. Did you really think that YOU could rob him of his good name?

My life story reads like a Shakespearean play. GOD's prophetic WORD is revealed in my life. GOD's Supreme Authority and Power is made manifest in my life. I have JOY! Unspeakable joy. Joy that I can't fully articulate or describe. I can hold my head up. I can love my enemy.

You intended to rob me, but you ended up robbing your ignorant self. Praise the LORD! Didn't you know? You are a preacher. You sure can preach. You get the people to their feet. You claim you saved people, you turned their lives around, you blessed them.

How can you lead people to Christ? You can't lead where you won't go. GOD's Gospel is not for your entertainment! GOD"s Gospel was not written to serve as your bait.

Did you really believe that you were going to get away with your madness because you sprinkled some murdered man's dust? Are you really that stupid? Did you really think that GOD was going to let YOU destroy me?

There is still time. As long as there is breath in your body you have time. GOD told me; "For I am with thee, and no man (no so called "mother") shall set on thee to hurt thee..." (Acts 18:10a)

Attention, all readers of this blog, to all my cousins, nieces, kit and kin, if you think I have been her ONLY target all these years, you better think again. Right now, today! she is up to her ignorant nonsense.

Think for yourself. You're beautiful. You have every thing that a man wants, but you can't keep a boyfriend. You can't find a good man. Over six billion people live on this planet earth and you can't find a worth while man.

What kind of mother, grandmother, aunt, cousin, mentor are you? A worthless no count demon. If you wanted to be a demon why not a rich one? Too dumb? No, Haggai 1: 6-7b explains you and why you can't keep any money. Read the whole book of Haggai you lazy illiterate nigga. "Ever learning, and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth." (2 Timothy 1:7) "Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: FROM SUCH STAY AWAY!!!"

You are despicable! "Get thee behind me Satan!"

Stay in His WORD children. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Be richly blessed.

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

Growing up...

Growing up in the rural south I knew instantly the dogs that were abused. It was always the trembly half starved dog tied to a tree or a spike in the hot white North Carolina sand. If you went to touch him, to pet him he reacted with immediate fear. Always tucking his tail between his legs and cowering as he whimpered.

I identified heavily with those cur dogs, unwanted and maltreated. I knew I was "maltreated". I knew she lived to ruin me, to lead me astray. From my earliest memory, I knew that I was in trouble, trying to survive this cruel world with this b***as my "mother".

I did pretty well despite her treachery. I now know that "that" is one demon that will never repent. It is not possible, it would take too long.

Yea, I am scared and scuffed up, but I am healing. I know that if you are a human being on this earth you are going to experience some pain, some injury, some tragedy.

Remember, it is not what happens to you, it is what happens in you. If you don't have a mother or a father, GOD will send you another comforter.

"It is All in Divine Order!" "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Be richly blessed.

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

"Praise the Living Lord!"

Than you LORD for rescuing me. Thank you for delivering me from the hand of the unjust man. Thank you for planting a seed in my heart. Thank you for the gift of discernment.

Woman! I am telling because GOD told me to tell it. I can see you. I am looking right at you. Where are you going to run? Where are you going to hide? You ran out of lies. You ran out of excuses. Your longevity is not the result of GOD blessing you as you so proudly proclaim. GOD kept you here for a reason.

GOD wants the whole world to know that His WORD is real. His WORD is prophetic. GOD wants the world to know what happens to ignorant reprobates that try to destroy His anointed. GOD wants the world to know that it can happen in the best of families. GOD wants the world to know that GOD saves His own.

GOD will deliver you. Just wait on the LORD. GOD wants you to know that , that doesn't mean to sit down and do nothing but wait. Pursue your dreams, follow the urgings of your heart. Fulfill the destiny that GOD has laid out for you. Don't worry about the imps, GOD will take care of them in His own time, in His own way.

To GOD be the Glory!

Be richly blessed as you seek GOD's Almighty guidance in your life. Remember, GOD has not given us a spirit of fear. He has given us Holy Ghost Power! Use it or sit down there in that ditch and cry. Piss your life away feeling sorry for yourself. No one understands you. You got messed over by evil men so you are going to make up your lost by ruining every one that you can. When caught you will spew black sticky burning venom. "They will learn. Don't mess wid Mathy Jane! She de boss muthaf***** up in 'dis b****!"

Well, at least some time. Not when she is preaching, though. That's when she is a saint. That's what she wants credit for. "YOU remember too much!" she scowled, mad "Dat dis luddle black stanking b**** got the damn nerve to complain about the way I raised her black bastard ass. S***! I gave her puny narrow a** away! My damn black a** mama da one dat made me go get hur out dat 'ho house. S***! niggas make me sick."

A lie still will not get you to the Truth. "Apart from Christ you are still nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

"Come'ere!"

Sh-h-h-h-h-h! Come'ere! I got sumpin' ta tell ya. Hush ,I don't want hur ta hear me.
You got to promise! Promise you ain't gon' tell nobody. Promise, ni!

She a demon. No! Ah Dee-MAN! I swear ta GAWD! She a lying snake! Dat heifer will tell a lie 'fo fo'tee gods kin skin a minnow!

No-o-o-! She ain't Got No Dee-mon. She Is A DEMON! And one of de best, I might add. Oh she clever. She clever, ni. Don't think you 'gon run up on her and trick hur wid s***! Dat nigga be on it.

Man a long time ago she accidentally fell into the best scam of her conning dog-eat-dog life. She found out she could do anything she pleased if she pretended to love the LAWD! If she hollared LAWD! LAWD! in between her debauchery she could get over. And She Did! Fa' eighty-five long years!

She so good she even Murdered her Own daddy! And got away with it! Got clean away! You know she good! Who hur "root worker"? She is. She hur own "root worker". She got all dese books on the occult, black magic, chile. She got the Lost Book of Moses.

Oh she a god, ni! She play god, chile. She decide who hur chur'ren 'gon marry. Who 'gon stay married. Who get sick! Who 'gon be bent ova' and cripple. Who 'gon have to have surgery. Who 'gon get evicted. Who 'gon have a baby at eighteen and ruin dey 'sef lak she did. Who 'gon get in a big white college.

You kin be anything, jest not bedder d'dan hur.

Sad thing is de nigga never wanted nuttin'. No, she never wanted to be rich, de mayor, a writer, an actress, none of dat s***. She just wanted to be the top of the bottom. She just wanted eva'body in hur family ta haf ta come running ta hur when dey needed some help.

Dat's the only way she know hi ta make hursef feel good. She got ta see and know dat her "loved ones" are suffering in order to make hurself think she feel good about hurself.

No, she don't feel good about hurself. Really, deep down inside she shame of hurself. She just can't say it. She too proud. Yea, de Bible do say; "Pride goeth before a fall."

She fell! She fell on dat same sword she used to slay others. She a demon, but she a weak demon. She ain't got no power. GOD let her think she had some power. GOD let hur enjoy some minimal success because he had other plans.

Every thing she did backfired. Just like the Bible said it would. Dat old man, the one that she secretly hated and thought she murdered, the one she thought she got rid of, is still living. His spirit is still here on this earth. He is still teaching. His wisdom reigns! He taught me that; "Jesus will fix it."

Jesus fixed it children!

Be richly blessed.

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

"The Facts!"

Just the facts, as I know them. Over the course of my life I have learned a lot. I learned that this world tried to poison me with ignorant rot. I would have believed it all had it not been for my grandfather, Jerome Walters.

#1- There is no such thing as a superior race. There is only one race, the Human race. That is common sense. It is not "color" but character . Character should dictate and determine your "place" in this world.

Well, it doesn't. It should but some evil people think they have the right to use their power and deceit to manipulate, to pull strings. These evil doers are determined to do wrong. They sit in church right beside you. Hear the same sermon. Praise the same LORD. These individuals think that they are smart enough to use GOD's Gospel as a tool to enrich their dirty little closeted lives while robbing and deceiving every one else.

#2- People who insist on using "color" as a beauty standard, as a standard of worthiness or intelligence are ignorant or evil or both. There are people that are stupid enough to hate themselves for something they have no control over. Your assigned "race" is an accident of birth. How dare any one brag or be proud of being born a certain color. How dare you announce to the world that you are better because you think the world thinks you are something special. Something blessed. How dare you be ignorant enough to think that you can live an undisciplined life and commit every atrocity known to man because GOD blessed you with a certain hue.

#3- That Bible, this Bible is real. This is the only Book you need. The Bible is the only Book you will ever need. READ it! You will be blessed. You will discover that it is your GPS.

Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

"That Family!"

According to the AJC the matriarch of that family "bottled the secret up". Can you imagine a "family" permitting a man to savagely rape his own daughter (evidently repeatedly)? The "family" kept it a secret. Why? Were they too embarrassed to go to the law? No, the article said that the "law" came to them when she was so savagely assaulted that she had to be hospitalized. They still refused to "tell".

The "family" admits that "she" changed as a young teenage girl. She cut off all of her long hair, wore baggy clothes. Of course she did. She didn't want to look attractive to men. She didn't want to be lusted after.

I know the feeling all too well.

I come from a "family" very much like the one in the AJC. Her family was once well to do "coloureds", so was mine. That father that sexually molested his daughter over and over was no more than human vermin. He died and went to hell un-prosecuted, cloaked and secreted by a "family" of "good Christians".

His family protected him. Why? Were they afraid of the stigma? Or did they hear what I heard almost every day of my life growing up; "You! Don't tell a muthaf***** thang 'dat go on in dis house!"

We knew she meant it. How many brutal beatings, pistol whippings and stabbings do you have to see as a child to know this b**** means business?

How many "spells" do you have to see performed to know that this b**** will "root" your a**?

How many times do you have to listen to her lie and mislead to others on the phone before you realize that she hates you to?

The poor woman hates herself! She hates her weakness. She hates her "flesh". She took that 'the spirit is willing indeed, but the flesh is weak.' scripture to heart.

Poor "lady", there was no help for her. Some where she got very twisted and exchanged "sex" for power. Was that the only time she felt powerful?

Why would a grown woman hate her own child? Her own children? Then tell them!? You told me because you wanted to torture me. B**** you did torture me! When did you ever think you treated me right or fairly? Never!

I want to hate you but I can't. You are too damn ignorant! You are too f******dumb to hate. You are about the most "country" illiterate, unschooled, undereducated being I ever heard of. But, you fake so well. To talk to you ,one would think that you were Phi Beta Kappa with three of four PhD.s.

Again, it is not what happens to you, it is what happen in you.

I pray every day for GOD to take all of the hatred that has been placed in my heart away. I pray to love myself. I thank GOD for my brilliant , beautiful, talented daughter. I thank GOD for "natural affection".

I will "stay on the battlefield for abused children." I am just like the Little Red Hen,; "I will bake this bread by myself!"

What a great scam artist you are, Martha. You are the best. But, don't scam GOD. "He's been too good, down through the years." Yes, GOD's been good to you. GOD's been good to you and GOD knows your evil heart. Yes, He could have been much better. But, you would not let him.

Granddaddy always told you; "Dawthur, lean not to your own understanding." That is a good rule because most of our thoughts are wrong. That is why GOD gave us our own private GPS, the Bible.

You be blessed, now, you hear. And remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

"She is not worth it"

She isn't worth it. She is not worth all of the pain and grief she causes. She is evil! There is no doubt in my mind about that. Her incredible denial is worse than her episodes when she dishes out bone crushing terror with her mouth, with her secret hatred, with her schemes and scams.

A person that spends all of their time trying to destroy others secretly is destroyed. She is a very small person. She is a piece of dust. She has to do it secretly, these "things" are so low and depraved, she can't admit them even to herself. Sadly, she is demented indeed, but she is in full control. She likes "mess". She lives to stir up hatred, exploit jealousies. She is a trouble maker. (Without natural affection, truce breakers...)She is delusional, she knows it and she loves it. It is her choice.

She is right. Very few people in this world care about what she did to me. No one would care if she killed me. She killed my granddaddy. I think I am the only person in my entire family that gives a flying flip.

This great man didn't just love and help me. He was a great man with a great vision plagued by an evil daughter and a selfish uncaring society with too many *"all'fa de'sef" family members. (That is her exact term. The one she would manipulate me with so she could rob me over and over.)

I care. I care about my fellow man and I always will. (Love ye one another as I have loved you.)

I am injured but I will survive. She is not that special. She has no power. She is a witch, she is a demon. GOD has stopped her. She can't hurt me any more.

I hope all that cruelty goes into her dirty little grave with her. Her name will rot.

There was an article in the Atlanta Journal and Constitution today ("Broken home sheds light on a tragedy" By Tim Eberly Sunday, July 2, 2011), about a homeless woman that was crushed to death. This poor woman was seeking refuge in her abandoned house. I don't know if she was a crack addict. The article didn't say, it said that she was a homeless person that begged for spare change. The fact that she was or was not a crack addict and homeless is unimportant. What is important is the fact that she was a sexually abused child. So much so that she had to be hospitalized after a savage RAPE by her own FATHER.

Just another little black orphaned bastard. They said she never knew her mother. Some one let her slip into the hands of her "father". After he ruined her, the other men came. The most important part of this story must be relayed to you verbatim;
"At about 12 years old, she confided to Thomas' mother that her father had been sexually molesting her, according to Thomas and Durham's sister, Brenda Durham.
Thomas' mother took the accusation to her own mother, who was raising Durham. Instead of saving the girl, the matriarch bottled up the secret, the family said."

"...The molestation continued for years, family members believe, and Durham underwent a radical makeover as a teenager. She cut her hair off. She started wearing boys clothing. She stopped wearing bras and got baggier clothes."

"She shut down, " Thomas said. "Her whole personality - her way of thinking- she didn't trust men, ...Some people can bounce back from things like that and some people can't. And I just think she couldn't bounce back."

No she couldn't bounce back. This poor woman did not have a righteous man in her life. She did not have a good GOD fearing wise patriarch in her life like I did. I know the only man that saved me from a sick vile murdering pedophile was Jerome Walters.

You don't have to know. Stop up your ears. Call me crazy. Continue to revile me, rebuke me. Join in with her chorus of curses. Take her side so that she will give you fifty dollars worth of crap and five million dollars worth of secret curses and ditch digging.

You don't believe me? How many times have you been married? How much of your love life did you confide in her? Have you ever witnessed her go manic? Has she ever cursed you out? Has she ever told a big lie on you? Has she ever tricked you out of your money? Has she ever led you astray?

Family, this is a generational curse. Generational curses can be broken. I'm glad that I didn't end up crushed in the house that got bulldozed. I am glad that I don't have to depend on "closeted" family members to protect me.

No, I don't expect for you to do anything. The fact that you are willing to listen, to read this blog is a blessing. I know it is much too shocking. Much to macabre. It is unreal but it is as real as real can get.

There is no help for her. Don't waste any more of your time. You will probably find her cold stiff demonic body stretched out on some murdered man's grave one day. Yea, she will go out collecting "goofer dust". That is all she knows. "Root working" and destroying is all she wants to do.

Remember, GOD created some vessels for honor, some for dishonor. She was obviously created for dishonor.

I will not continue to live under this generational curse. I will be heard. I am a Truth Teller and I am telling.

Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love,Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

"I Don't Care Who You Are!"

I don't care who you are. I don't care where you are, how old you are, what color you are. You are going to reap exactly what you sow!

If you don't like it ,tough. Tell GOD!

I was still marveling over GOD's awesome mysteries when I remembered how you used to taunt us with that; "Come get ya beatin'!"

I understood. Come get your punishment. Let me beat all of the hope and life out of you. Let me sexually molest you to insure that you will be totally messed up. I am a selfish demonic creature and I don't have the capacity to care about any one else. I don't have the courage to leave you alone. I know that I messed you up bad and I'm glad. I wish I could have hurt you worse. I am going to continue to be a loving preacher so that I can 'get up on ya 'mo better.'

I am still the low life rattlesnake (that refuses to rattle) that I always was. I'm still "working my roots".

I can't help it! I can't stand 'fa nobody to out do me! You ought to know better. Plus I will always help you when you are down, if you are humble enough and don't owe me no money.

No one will ever know because you niggas are too scared to tell it.

No, you didn't admit, repent or even suggest that you are sorry. That's fine. That is not why I am telling. I am telling because GOD's WORD is REAL!!!

This succubus thought that she was playing GOD for eighty-five years and now it is obvious that she got played.

"For the wrath of GOD is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who hold the TRUTH in unrighteousness;" Romans 1:18

Brenton Wood - "Oogum Boogum" (1967)

Otis Redding - Rock Me Baby

Otis Redding - Glory of Love

"You Must Be Crazy"

You must be out of your mind! I am not taking it! Enough is enough. GAWD pleeeeze! I'm free! I can't help them.

Dear Lord, quell this "Harriet Tubman" syndrome burning inside me. I can't go back there to free others. They will just have to free themselves like I did. One day I realized that the door was open. The gate was unlocked. She did not tie a tether to me, I tied a tether to her!

I can be me! I can publish. I can love or not love. I can talk, I can dance. I can tell her demonic a** off with God's Gospel Truth.

I threw my burden off children. I cast my cares upon the LORD. Repent or don't repent. Please don't do it for me. GOD gave me one life and He told me to work out my own soul salvation.

He also gave me common sense. You are accursed. You are double minded common and low down. But, GOD loves you any way. Every bad thing that you ever did to me prospered me. So, I thank you.

I'm telling because GOD put it upon my heart to tell. Our children have no real voice. Perhaps I have a much greater passion for our abused children because it happened to me. I would hope that I would feel this way just so. But, GOD knows best.

I taught for thirty years. I know exactly what ails our children. Our children and teachers are being misused and abused in our pubic (pun intended) schools. Poor lunches, poor facilities, over all collective abuse. Our children are being warehoused 8, 10 some 14 hours a day. All too often too many of our caregivers should be serving decades in prison.

I am retired, sometimes I am not so proud of the behemoth monstrosity we've created called "public education". It is much too large and corrupt. It is visionless and the so called leaders are clueless.

The solution is real simple, teach the child not the test.

If you trust the child to learn the child will trust you to teach.

Lastly, never do to a child what you don't want done to you.

Be richly blessed. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

I Am That I Am - Peter Tosh

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"I Know It Sounds Weird"

I know it sounds weird. But, that is exactly what I did. I survived a serial murderer. I don't know the exact number of victims that she murdered. I know it was a lot.

Why all that bragging about killing? "Yea, I flushed five of dem muthaf******!"
I remember the first time I heard you make that boast. We were in your huge kitchen, 825 Dwain Drive. You were entertaining your white friend*Janice Ketting.

I took it to mean that you were an independent thinker. I thought you were rebelling against the white male chauvinist that controlled and oppressed women. I thought that it meant that you were bold and brutally honest.

I also knew that it meant that no one better ever f*** with you. I didn't plan to. I steered clear of you, always. Keep you pig nasty filthy house clean! You ain't said nothing but a word. I was your dutiful slave. I kept all of your name brand expensive clothes hung up. For some reason you relished announcing your arrival from work. You always called at four p.m. on the dot; "Gwen! Is that house standing tall!?"

Terrified, I stammered;"Yes, mother." That was our daily ritual. Every day of the week, except Saturday and Sunday of course. I hated Saturdays, all Saturdays. We all did. We hated Saturdays because we knew that that b**** would be home. Home to harass and terrorize us. To cuss us and torment us. "Home" to make our little lives a living hell.

I know now why you behaved that way. Self-hatred, self-loathing. You were sneaky and low life and foul. All you sick demented deeds were chocking you, mocking you. You were miserable and demanded that every one that loved you suffer a worse fate.

You knew that you were nothing but a lying slut, weak and powerless to your Sodom and Gomorrah lust. You denied it, but you knew it happened over and over again.

You missed the mark, you missed salvation because you refused to come clean. You refused to come boldly to the throne of Grace. You tried to scam GOD like you did all of your tricks.

You've got to feel bad. Wrong and miserable for eighty-five years! Did GOD let you live so long just to mock you? Just to demonstrate to the world how perfect His WORD is?

Well you look just like what you are, a fool, an imp for the devil. Hating and attempting to destroy every person on this earth that made you look bad. Any and every person that looked better, spoke better, had more education, more money, more love, more charity.

You have deep contempt for your fellow man Mathy Jane. You can't play GOD, pointing out every one else's flaw. Who are you to decide who gets what based on how well they treat you?

You know that you deserve ill treatment. You know that you should be shunned. You know that you are a lying sneaky snake. You can't even trust yourself. You have betrayed yourself for eighty-five years.

I don't know why you could not be the woman that you pretended to be. Every day GOD helps me to hate you a little less. Every day I understand why people need to hear GOD's real WORD preached from the housetops.

Study your Bible children. Trust GOD to "Work a Work" in your life. Be richly blessed. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

Peter Tosh "Rastafari Is"

"How I Survived A Serial MURDERER"

I still get chills, I get the willies. I am sure that you have heard it said that GOD takes care of babies and fools. GOD also takes care of His own.

I didn't know. I had no way to know. Her own daddy didn't know. It had crossed his mind too many times. But, he dismissed it, he was in denial like every one else. Who ever heard of a demon possessing somebody? A "sho nuff" demon in your own family! A "thang", a pathological liar, a sneaky practitioner of the "black arts", a "cooler", a back stabbing troll. A creature void of al honor, integrity. No scruples, a thing with a microscopic soul.

GOD promised and He will take care of His Own. I know that Jesus was always casting out demons. Did demons take a holiday? a two thousand year hiatus?

No demons have been doing what they do best, terrorize, ruin, tear asunder, commit mayhem, lacerate, eviscerate, destroy, maim and murder.

But, GOD promised to pour out His Spirit, His sons and daughters shall prophesy.

I came to tell you that GOD is tired of this "Spirit of Fear". GOD is tired of this ignorance, too many ignorant reprobates crowd up into "churches" that are no more than entertainment centers. Good music, beautiful ambiance, theatrical performances, techno-magic and a guaranteed micro-message.

A message that is sure to massage the egos of it's supporters. A message that will not indict you, convict you, call you out or stir your conscience. We go to "churches" where they will be sure to call our name, let us sit up in the high seats. Recognize us on every occasion. Honor us with lying two-faced babble. Put our name on a parking spot, put our "portrait" every where.

There are some "preachers" that think that they deserve to be filthy rich because they take so much time perusing "this" Bible for references or examples of how they can have their way.

These "preachers" are self-delusional, convinced of their "anointing" they think they have the absolute right to fleece GOD's flock of "Sheeples" because if GOD didn't want them to do it He would stop them.

Well Devil! I got news for you, You've been stopped! Your day is done! You are no more! Your name shall Rot!

No, nothing has changed. "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Be richly blessed,
Rachel

P.S. Study II Timothy 1: 6 - 9

"You're Just Watching"

You're just watching, reading the blogs, just watching, just waiting. This "thing" is fascinating. You have never seen or heard about anything like this in your like.

"My GOD! Did you ever? What in the world? What is the world coming to? Somebody, some woman, some Black woman, some black a** nigga woman, standing up demanding her rights! Demanding to be heard."

"I never knew that I would live so long!"

"Luk at hur! Dey she is! Think she sump'in wid hur luddle shawt black a** sef. Always got a f***** opinion."

"Yea! She know sump'in 'bout every thang."

"I can't stand hur...til she give me some money. He-he-he-he."

"She lak to read and study de Bible."

"What fa?"

"That living right s***!"

"Not dat s*** again."

"Girl, pleeze...got's to go and make my paper. See you niggaz later."

"Dey she is on FB again!"

" Ugh! 'Dis dreamer cometh!' I ain't studdin hur and Ah ain't Re- PENT'IN cause Ah ain't sorry! Luddle black heifer bedder be glad I changed her s***** diapers."

"Gul, hand me my wig! No!, that blonde one chile! over 'dere. Dey having revival at Evans, dat tall fine good haired Rebben Jones preaching! He bring de fi' chile!...wid dem pretty pink lips."
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You can't stop me. I will be heard! No one is going to ruin countless lives,and lead GOD's innocent children into captivity and not expect to reap what she sowed.

I will not cower in the face of Evil any longer.

GOD left you here for a purpose. GOD brought me here for such a time as this and I Thank Him.

Eighty-five years of demonology can be erased. "...they brought unto Him many that were Possessd with devils: and He Cast out the spirits with His WORD!!!"

At Your WORD LORD!!!

"AND when He had called unto Him his twelve disciples, He gave them POWER against unclean spirits, to cast them out, and to heal all manner of sickness and all manner of disease." Matthew 10:1

"Behold. I come quickly: blessed is he that keepeth the sayings of the prophecy of this book." Revelation 22:7

Nothing has changed, "Apart from Christ you are still nothing."

Be richly blessed.

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

" He Told Me !"

He told me that my enemies would be of my own household. He told me that mothers would be against daughters and daughters against mothers. He told me to look at their fruit.

I heard but I didn't listen. I was selfish. I wanted love. I wanted my "mother" to love me. I wanted to be "normal". I wanted my "mother" to be "normal". To be kind for real. I wanted her to stop faking. I wanted her to have some integrity. I wanted her to have some discretion. I wanted to make her proud.

As the devil would have it. It didn't work out that way. That creature murdered my grandfather because he was in the way. He was much too wise, he was too well thought of. He made her look bad. He got in her way. He thwarted too much of her evil demonic influence.

Every time she "preached" he called her out. He would not let her get away with her hypocrisy. He would not let her get her lecherous hands on his granddaughter.

So the evil daughter sat down one day and devised her horrific plan:

#1 Underline that scripture in the Bible, you know that crap about "I got my letter". (Her mistake was that she drew perfectly straight red lines. Granddaddy could not draw a straight line or even write legibly. He was self educated. You forgot I was his secretary, his confident when it came to the written word. Any thing that he wanted written he dictated to me.)

#2 Make sure every one is out of the house. Make sure that there are no witnesses. Go ahead you can do it. You've gotten away clean with every evil deed you have ever plotted so far. 'Dese dumb ass niggas will never catch on.' Plus you are cool under fire because you learned to stop caring and loving before you were born. This is a dog eat dog world and I'm gonna get mine and yours, he-he-he-he. Da nigga ain't been born that can catch me in anything. If they catch me red handed I'm cool enough to get out out it. Like that Fort Gordon fiasco.

#3 I can't forget to sprinkle my "dust". My "dust" will protect me. Plus GAWD know my heart. Dis old ass man get on my last f******nerve and I hate him. De nigga ruined my life. He wudden make *Charles Oxendine marry me. How I look at sixteen wid a baby? He cudda made dat nigga marry me. Dat was de finest nigga in Wade. He looked lak a movie star. I wudden got pregnant if he hadden been runnin dat juke joint and runnin round on my mama. I hate de nigga. I'll be glad when he is ded.

#4 Call dat gal furst. She de one I really want to kill. I will wok on hur later.

And so it went. She murdered him. Got away with it. Now enjoys all the rewards of her "toiling in GOD's vineyard in the heat of the day."

She employed the devil's magic of wishing all of her deeds away. She is preaching now. Saving souls for the LORD. Know one knows that she is a demon,a succubus. Her sons refuse to betray her because she has convinced them that she is their "mother" and that they should fear and honor her.
If they bothered to read Revelation 2:20 - 21 they would realize that they are clinging to their curse. It is not that GOD will not bless them, GOD can not bless them in their ignorance. GOD can not bless if you will not let Him. If you refuse to TRUST Him. If you doubt and are double minded. Yes, she can put a curse on you if You think she can.

She has no power. Her day is done. She is finished.

And GOD's TRUTH is still the TRUTH. "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Be richly blessed.

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

Fools Die For Want Of Wisdom Peter Tosh

"Love Ye One Another"

"Love ye one another as I have loved you." A very simple commandment. So easy to be entreated. Why is it so hard for us to love? Do we look for excuses to hate? Are we hateful? hateable?

"Never fall so low as to let a man make you hate him." I will never forget that sermon preached in Ebenezer Baptist Church by Rev ML King, Sr. I was puzzled, I was amazed, his son assassinated, his wife mowed down with bullets in that same church while playing the organ.

I was still very young. I was just beginning to purge some of the vile garbage "knowledge" I had been feed growing up in rural/military Fayetteville, North Carolina.

I carried a lot of secret hatred in my heart. I thought that I hated all dark skin men because my "mother" told me that I did. I thought that I hated all white people for what they had done to me and my people.

That sermon stayed with me, lingered in my mind. Rev King planted a "word" in my heart. I will let no man revile or offend me. I will not shrink or diminish myself in the face of evil.

I will fear no man. I will cultivate the Christ in me.

When I am attacked and hated for existing, for being alive, for having more "talent". I know that my hater is a fool, a man or woman too small for this planet. A blind, deaf and dumb creature determined to never grow. A being whose soul is microscopic.

Now I understand why Jesus commanded us to love our enemies, to do good to those that hate you. I assure you that it is an indescribable Joy! It is a peace that passeth all understanding.

If you are reading this blog full of hatred and envy you need to grow. We all need to grow. We all need to come up a little higher, seek His Face and go and sin no more.

It is still true and His WORD will never change. "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Be richly blessed.

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

Alpha Blondy - I Wish You Were Here

Peter Tosh - Brand New Second Hand

"I hate damn dummies"

Dumb a** niggas make me sick! I swear to GAWD! F***** niggas always starting s***. You can't have a party for them. You can't have nutin'.

Yea, and you can't get rid of 'dem damn m****f******! Dey just like roaches, sneaky luddle creepy crawling m****f******.

Dumb ass niggaz repeat every thing they hear. Never pick up a f***** book!

You've got to cultivate the brain! you stupid ass. How do you expect to know anything? How are you going to learn accidentally? That teacher can't open up your head and pour knowledge down in it.

No! No! nigga, that's your job. "Study to show yourself approved."

You have to seek knowledge, go after it, like in Proverbs.

What's Proverbs?

Nigga you too dumb to talk to. Carry your ignorant a** some where and sit down. Shut up! Always spreading ignorance. There you go perpetuating that ignorant s*** about hair and color.

My granddaddy told me; "Cast not your pearls before swine."

Swine!? You don't know what swine is! Look it up nigga, damn.

How long must we suffer Jesus?

(Let me remind you of the fact that cussing and cursing are not the same. Please get that. My grandfather taught me that it was better to let it out than to keep it in. Plus I'm real. I'm just as real as "real" can get. If you can't bear the TRUTH, can't hear the TRUTH, insist on suppressing the TRUTH, don't come around me.)

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

"Come up out of that hole"

Come up out of that hole! Wha'cha doing down dere?

You were born down there! So? Who said that you had to stay?

You don't have to be ashamed. You didn't do it. They did it to you. You don't believe them do you? You think that you are nothing!? Fit only to be under the foot and control of a succubus, a demon?

Really? That's what you think? Who told you that you were nothing? Who told you that you weren't s***? Why do you believe every jealous covetous demon?

I'd read my Bible if I wuz you.

Peter Tosh - Reggae Mylitis

Peter Tosh - Rastafari Is

Nina Simone - If He Changed My Name

"You know you look like a fool don't 'cha?"

"You know you look just like a damn fool sitting down there in that hole! Look at you! Wrong, wrong, wrong , for eighty-five years! You won't cry LORD have mercy!, you won't utter the words 'LORD come into my heart, come into my life and dwell mightily there. You won't say LORD I did wrong! Please forgive me. I was ignorant! I didn't know any better! Some nasty man ruined me at eight years old and led me astray".

You won't say 'Have mercy on this poor sinner LORD.' I was jealous, covetous, envious, sneaky and low down'.

You will never admit that you were demonically cruel and out of control.

You are so blind, deaf and dumb, totally blinded and confused by that serpent that you serve in secret, that you can't humble yourself and ask God to forgive you. You still hate GOD's Right, GOD's anointed. The devil told you that you were smart enough to thwart GOD's plan for His child.

You thought that You were smart enough to serve both GOD and Man. You knew better, but you did it any way. You did it because GOD didn't stop you. (So you thought.)

Every evil thing you did to that little girl has come back to haunt you, to slap you in the face, to expose you, but to remind you of the Gospel that you preached so well. You fooled me, you fooled every body. It was only when I began to study my Bible more, it was only when I practiced true discernment, that I heard clearly from GOD.

"Fear no man"; I always knew that. I always practiced that. (So I thought) It was only when I began to examine your fruit. Yea, fruit. You taught me "fruit" referred to your children. No, baby, it refers to your deeds, your acts, things that you did and things that you DIDN'T do.

Oh yea, things that you didn't do. Did you stand up for Christ when every one around you was too ashamed? Did you see wrong doing, then turned your head? Do you agree that the color of a person's skin some how ranks them? Defines them? Limits them?

Then you are a Fool, an imp, a volunteer slave, a dummy, a damn nigga, an ignorant creep, a vile crawling thing! Get thee behind me Satan! I don't have to associate with you! I don't have to acknowledge you! I don't have to beg you to love me!

Jesus said;"Let the dead bury the dead." That means dead spiritually, dummy. I don't have to cry, get depressed. argue, fuss and fight. I don't have to shake out all letters and envelopes in mortal fear of "goofer dust". I don't have to sprinkle my doorways, and 'every corner of my house with Sulphur'.

I don't have to bite my lip, shut my mouth, quake in fear, snot and cry, appease, 'go-a-long-to-get-along', bow down, kiss behind, shrink, pretend, guard against, feign stupidity to a woman that claims to be my "mother".

You call me crazy. Yes, I'm crazy. You're crazy, you're as crazy as a 'white mouf mule'!

But I do know that generational curses can be broken. I do know that I don't have to go down in your ship! I do know that Almighty GOD gave me a voice and a mission.

I am a crusader for our greatest resource, Our Children, All Children!

"Suffer the little children to come unto me and Forbid them not the Kingdom of heaven."

GOD put that message in my heart when I was four years old and you better know it. All demons bow down in the presence of the LORD. Your day is done, you served your purpose. "Ye shall proceed no Further." Read the 35th Psalm again!

We all have to pray for the "Indwelling of The Holy Spirit". We all have to fall down and thank GOD for moving in our lives. Every one in the Walters family must thank GOD for placing Jerome Walters in our lives. We must thank GOD for his wisdom, for his righteous prayers. "The prayers of a Righteous man Availeth much!".

"Dear Lord, Come by here, Somebody needs You."

PTL!!!

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

PETER TOSH - I Am That I Am / Rasta Bicycle

Peter Tosh "Where You Gonna Run"

Peter Tosh - Stepping Razor

"You Low Life.."

"You low life down in the mud belly crawling snake! You ain't fit 'fa nuttin' Get on way from heah! Gon ni! Get!"

That's what her daddy wanted to say to her so many times but he couldn't. No, it wasn't his daughter that he wanted to save. He had given up on her years before. It was his grandchildren. They were good children. He wanted to save them. He knew that they deserved a chance.

So he sacrificed his life, he stood in the gap for his grandchildren. And it payed off. At least that is what every one thought.

That whore, that horrid whore burned secretly. On fire with rage, there was only one thought ever truly on her sick mind, destruction. The sight and thought of anything good or innocent upset her, tormented her. She didn't know why and she didn't care. No one was going to take her crown. She was "yalla" with "good" hair and big legs. The world better bow down because Mathy Jane was in town. "Dey bedder recognize!" Loud and proud, the belle of the ball, "da shit!".

When Mathy Jane walked in a room she scouted it carefully for any competition, there better not be any, because Mathy was "in the place" .

Too bad her claim to fame was all in her mind. Planted by an ignorant 'fresh out of slavery' community mentality. Her mother really worshipped her and told her every day how fortunate she was to be born "yalla". The world was going to sit up and pay attention to Rachel and Jerome's child. Born into a prosperous "colored" family, headed by a brilliant sage Mathy grew into a hard headed miscreant, a sick sociopath.

Mathy Jane really thought that she was royalty or a member of some secret priesthood. Priesthood, that is where the plot thickens. Mathy wasn't 'wid all dat religious s***. F*** dat s***!' Not her, not Mathy Jane. She wasn't about to be no lame for nobody. That living right and claiming to love the LORD was not for her. Maybe some old ugly black gal 'wid shawt hair!', but not her.

Her brown skin mother absorbed her abuse as she coddled and cloaked for her only daughter. Five of her beautiful little girls had been born dead. Every one agreed that they were the prettiest little angels anyone had ever seen. Rachel had to protect this one, spoil this one. And so she did.

I don't know why Rachel was shocked by her daughter's ill treatment and hostile attitude as she lay dying in the Cancer Institute. Rachel didn't know which pain was worse, the uterine cancer that was ravishing her frail brown body much too rapidly or the scornful belligerent attitude of her selfish bullying daughter.

Rachel prayed for GOD to take her quickly but before she left she warned Mathy Jane not to mistreat that little girl. Mathy agreed with a sly "yes ma'am" knowing full well that she planned the sickest torture for that "luddle black heifer" that had the misfortune of coming out of her womb, her gold mine. "How dare dis luddle black bastard nigga come into dis world and thank she gon out do me! Ah be damned!!!"

(I'm too pretty, eva man want me, Ah kin do exactly what I pleeze. What my daddy know? Dat dumb ass nigga don't know s***. Got us living out heah in deze sticks. I can't wait to get way from here and all dese country ass niggas!)

And so my story goes. I know that I am not the only person that has suffered a manipulative demon for far too long.

I'm finished with her now. I am free. I am on my way to bigger and better projects.
GOD wanted me to know that she is scum. Not worthy of my attention or a thought. I know, she will never repent. It takes courage to repent of your sins, to admit your wrong doing. Only a coward would abuse and ruin children, only a fool would be a primitive "Salem Witch Trials" root working witch. A person has to be socially retarded and demonic to scavenge graveyards for "goofer dust". Only the lowest creature on this earth would satisfy their secret hatred and jealousy by murdering her own father.

You murder your own father then suddenly you announce that you have been called to preach. "Called to preach", no anointing, no revelation, no confessions. One day you just got up out of your bed of fornication and felt that you were ready to preach GOD's Gospel. People praised you and encouraged you. You did well for a very long time. Few people noticed what a phony you are, even fewer cared.

"Money talk! Bullshit walk!" is her mantra. "Fear No Man!" is mine.

Be blessed. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

Let the Truth be Told!

The primary reason so many people have failed to launch in America is jealousy and envy. "Black" people, oppressed people, the most recently exploited, the masses suffer from "creeps". These creeps are evil dream stealers embedded in families for the sole purpose of destruction. (And a man's foes shall be of his own household." Matthew 10:36)

They are fake, phony, two faced, immoral schemers angry with GOD because they squandered their youth and beauty. (She was a hard headed rebellious miscreant that refused to listen to her father. She was rebellious and disrespectful, full of lies and venom. Pretty on the outside putrid on the inside.) Nothing pleases this succubus more than to lead her beautiful daughters and granddaughters into captivity. She wants to see her whole family destroyed.

"Remove thy way FAR from her, and come not nigh the door of her house: Lest thou give thine honor unto others, and thy Years unto the CRUEL." Proverbs 5:8-9

Obedience is an act of faith. She has no faith now, she had no faith then.

She is a known DEMON! and a proud one. Look at her fruit, look at what she did to you! "Remove your way from her lest strangers be filled with thy wealth; and thy labours be in the house of strangers. ...And thou mourn at the last, when thy flesh and body are consumed."

This is one of the best scriptures I've ever read. She confused me, loved and hated me, abused me and led me astray. Love, hate, lie, lie, lie. That woman hide her secret hatred and sick jealousy, always accusing everyone else of her sins and desires.

"Now the end of the commandment is CHARITY out of a PURE HEART and a GOOD CONSCIENCE and a FAITH UNFEIGNED." Timothy 1:5

Faith unfeigned. Who has to feign? Who has to pretend to love GOD? Who has to pretend to love their children? Demonic reprobates that think any lie they utter magically becomes true. Blind and deaf imps that think they have fooled GOD and know that they have fooled you.

I came to tell her that she shall proceed no further. Her time is up. Her cloak fell off.

"For the ways of man are before the eyes of the LORD, and he pondereth all his goings. His own iniquities shall take the wicked himself, and he shall be holden with the cords of his sins." Proverbs 5: 21-22

"They that sow in tears shall reap in JOY!" Psalm 126:5

You abused me beyond human comprehension and thought that you had won. "Now know I that the LORD saveth His anointed; he will hear her from His Holy Heaven with the saving strength of HIS RIGHT HAND!" Psalm 20:6

No demon from Hell is going to keep me from the Kingdom of GOD. "If you don't want to go , don't you hinder me!"

"The law of the LORD is perfect, converting the soul; the testimony of the LORD is sure, making wise the simple." Psalm 19:7

"...making wise the simple." Enough said.

Peace and blessings on this beautiful Father's Day! I salute you Jerome Walters. Thank you for saving me.

NO WEAPON!

"No weapon formed against me shall prosper." You look and laugh. Smug and conceited you are still confident in your deceit. Charming, clever, "yalla", silky hair, big legs and a white woman's flat ass.

Your little simple self delusional mind is churning as fast it can. It is early Saturday morning, June 18, 2011 and you are wondering who you should call first. Which son should you call? Should you call that "no sensed" crippled doctor? Or should you call the one that ruined your life? You were only sixteen when you had his ungrateful ass. "De nigga don't nevah come to see me til he want sump'in. Always sending dem thieving ass grandchurin here wid da begging ass."

"I ain't gon call dat drunk. Might hafta give him sum money. De one dat married dat white woman is a little skiddish. I'll have to creep up on him a luddle mo' careful. He too smart, he remember too much. You know dat nigga didn't invite me to his weddin' and didn't tell me his damn daddy was dead til de nigga was in his grave."

"Dat luddle jet black one in Texas is too far away. I got him doe. Well, his dawtur. Little black heifer come up here talkin' 'bout she want to go to UNC. I put the brakes on that shit! It hurt don't it? I know it hurt and what you don't know I'm gonna make it hurt sum mo. Dem slow dim-witted niggas. Dey ain't got sense enough to catch me. All you got to do is hollar 'Lawd! Lawd!' and you can trick a dumb nigga into anything."

"I've been torturing dese simple ass niggas for over seventy years and dey still doing lak dat Gee-zus tole dem. Dey forgive me and just when dey think everything is fine I rip dem a new ass hole again.He-he-he-he-he."

"Lawd! I'm good. Ain't nobody gon eva catch me. I'm too smart. Dat gal got de nerve to try and wake up. Got de nerve to warn people 'bout me. Shee-it! Don't nobody pay no attention to nuttin' no luddle black ass nigga got to say. She may as well shut her mouf, quit wasting her breath."

I am going to keep blogging. I am going to continue posting on FB. Nothing can destroy my faith. GOD is going to supply all of my needs, people brave enough to be followers of my blog, people brave enough to post their profile picture, an exceptional agent, a lucretive advance, an excellent editor and publisher, a best selling book, a block buster movie, and a brilliant voice.

Dear LORD I thank you. "You've been so good down through the years."

"After God had finished the rattlesnake, the toad and the vampire, he had some awful substance left which he made a SCAB. A SCAB is a two-legged animal with a corkscrew soul, a water-logged brain and a combination backbone made of jelly and glue. Where others have hearts he carries a tumor of rotten principles. A strikebreaker is a traitor to his God, his country, his family and his class." Jack London, 1904.


A "mother" cloaking "unnatural affection" is the equivalent of a strikebreaker, a human monster, a terrorist, the lowest form of vermin ever created.

GOD put that quote in my hand early this morning. That's what that "woman" that served as the vehicle to bring me to this earth is, a "Strikebreaker", a coon, the devil's imp. Now more people can have a better understanding of GOD's WORD. That term "unnatural affection" is powerfully illustrated by her mis-spent life.

Yes, GOD made some vessels for honor and some for dishonor. Mathy Jane, the woman that chose dishonor, sold her soul to the devil and she betrayed everyone that tried to love her, ripped and ran a muck for eighty-five years. Now she is in shock. The devil has finally abandoned her. Can you imagine? That evil spirit that she secretly loves and honors so much finally betrayed her. Can you imagine? The devil finally did to her what she did to others for far too long.

The gig is up! "Ye shall proceed no further."

It's not color, it is character. It is not material wealth, it's GOD's glory that you should seek.

Your daddy told you over and over for years but you couldn't hear him for lying and thinking of a millions ways to destroy GOD's children.

GOD doesn't lie, "No weapon formed against me shall prosper." No, I couldn't fight you. You were very successful in your sick treachery. But, look at what GOD did with all of those keyloid scars , all of the unnecessary pain you made me suffer.

Yes mam you devastated me, you knocked me flat, you debowled me slowly, threw your rocks and hid your hand. But GOD picked me up. Praise the LORD. It is still true you know; "Apart, from Christ you are still nothing."

Humble yourselves ye double minded and beg GOD to forgive you.

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

I am ashamed of America!

I am a loyal patriotic American citizen, but I am ashamed of America. What vile hypocrites we are. We spend all day twitting about some poor man's pecker that he accidentally "twitted" while millions of our children are being raped and murdered. A New Jersey doctor tapes himself savagely tearing the flesh of little children for years and it goes buried; "too unpleasant.".

Mothers rush back to work after having babies so they can drive a "nice" car or live in a "nice" house. Too many children are destined to be pawns and tools for evil men and women.

Google the number or names of women that chose to leave their children with "boyfriends" that violated, raped and killed their children. You will be astounded.

They called me a "throwed away" baby and I was. A few seconds of pleasure, a hot surge, some one not meant to be. Someone that was pre-hated.

My mother kept blaming my color. It was my color! My "color: made my "mother" hate me. I couldn't do anything about my color, so I studied, I honed my gifts and talents. I tried to improve myself. I was self-disciplined and hard working. I tried desperately to overcome the "stain" that destroyed what might have been.

I did every thing I could to "overcome" my color. I studied, I went to the library everyday, I read all of my textbooks the first week of school. I became a ravenous reader and a true scholar. I won awards, I was a good girl, I was the apple of my grandfather's eye.

I became somebody, so I thought. I was the first person in my family to earn a college degree! I won a degree with honors, was a virgin and my "mother" hated me. The sick succubus hated me, and has the nerve to hate me to this very day.

No one told me that she was jealous of me. How could I know? Her words are as sweet as honey. She has a gift, she can charm any man or woman.

GOD said that the wicked shall cease from troubling. He will deliver us from evil if we pray right.

What a phony dysfunctional nation of hypocrites, all of us. Captivated by a family's dysfunction we watch and judge while we shield "our" secrets. Some of us fight to get a seat up close and personal just so we can enjoy someone else's pain.

When will we finally admit that incest and child abuse is a real problem?

I'm telling and I am not ashamed. I am proud! I am proclaiming the glory of GOD because he saved me.

I am out here alone people. Am I alone because I am "black"? What does "color" have to do with my humanity, my character? When I was born someone put a label on me ; "poor black bastard female". In other words garbage, a thing, a blood clot, a "throwed away baby". A piece of s*** is what my "mother" called me.

Praise our Living LORD! He never put a label on me. He saved me. He plucked me up out of my "mother's" miserable muck and mire. Some how through GOD's miraculous power I grew to womanhood. Strong, determined and gifted.

I know that I could have never done anything successful in my life without my grandfather, Jerome Walters. I honor him this Father's Day and every day of my life.

I love you granddaddy and I will clear your good name. You will receive the honor you so richly deserve.

I know now that my "mother" is a bad seed. I think I realized it when I was fourteen but I could not bear to accept that truth then.

The only thing a man has is his name. Sociopath or not I am not going to let her continue to sully my grandfather's name.

Any woman that would violate the sexual innocence of children could easily pull the trigger and end the existence of the man she secretly hated.

If you watch a woman "work" evil "roots" on a close relative you better believe she will do it to you.

Any woman that is evil enough to be a closet demon for eighty-five years, a fake preacher, certainly has no problem pulling the trigger on someone she curses every day for being a burden.

Janis Joplin - Cry Baby (live in toronto 1970)

"The Fear Mongers"

The fear mongers are among us and they have over taken us. The fear mongers are loud talkers, discouragers, nay sayers, envious and corrupt. Fear mongers sit on the sidelines too frightened to move. Fear mongers are crowd watchers, they go with the flow. Fear mongers walk that wide road that leads to death and destruction.

You want to stay away from fear mongers because they will rob you of your dreams and when you finally wake up and discover the real cause of all your pain it is too late.

Perhaps it is too late for that dream, but it is not too late to do what the LORD has placed in your spirit to do.

I want the entire world to know that for sixty long years I have been victimized by a cruel sick sociopath. She brought a generational curse on our family and she laughed. She is a menace to society, an old toothless imp that lives to lead the innocent astray.

Of course my whole life I have wanted to know why? The simple truth is the woman that birthed me is a reprobate. She has no natural affection. She can only feel hatred and jealousy. She is sneaky and low life. Do not trust her!

Get this you vile reprobate if you don't get any thing else. I returned to your lair in 1997 at the urging of the Holy Ghost, not your "roots". Something in my spirit directed me to your den after nine years of estrangement.

GOD directed my steps because the Holy Spirit wanted me to know. GOD had some unfinished business, something He wanted me to see, something that He wanted me to know.

You asked me in your fake pretentious coon playing voice; "Why I do dat?" Because you are evil, because you are a "despisers of those that are good."

Yea, you have fooled some people, you call yourself a "precha". "Having a form of godliness, but denying the POWER thereof..."

He gave us POWER children. He gave you POWER to tread on these sly serpents slithering up to you, cooing, oooghing and ahhhing! Setting you up. Complimenting you and stroking you. Praising you to your face and stabbing you in your back. Jealous! Angry that you did more than they did. Determined to rob you they set you up over and over and laugh.

Make sure that you know that the GOD you pretend to believe in, the GOD you use to accomplish your foulest deeds, revealed you to me.

I would have never known if I hadn't heard your demonic laughter. You thought that I had hung up the phone. For some reason I kept the phone to my ear after you had so lovingly consoled me and soothed me. Your poor daughter's closet homosexual husband had left her with a two month old baby, no money and took both of the cars. The dumb nigger had thrown away her master's thesis and all of her manuscripts, poetry, love letters, art, clothes. Your daughter came home to a gutted house after having her daughter.

Little did I know. Who could know? Who could believe that a mother could be capable of such evil?

Madame Watson, GOD let you think you had disconnected your phone. You laughed, you howled, you celebrated your daughter's pain. You gloriously and uproariously celebrated my pain because you had done it! You were giddy with excitement because you thought you had won. You thought you had gotten me again. You are the culprit. You were laughing that same hideous demonic laugh that you always laugh.

Shame on you.

You are a maddening, sickening, frustrating, demonic cunt and you know it. You know it and you love it. Why? Only you and GOD know. Maybe you don't know. You are foul? You are messed up.

"I was delivered out of the mouth of the Lion! AND THE LORD SHALL DELIVER ME FROM EVERY EVIL WORK!"

"For the wrath of GOD is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who hold the truth in unrighteousness."

You hold the TRUTH in unrighteousness Mathy Jane. You are being spewed. GOD is spewing you out of His mouth.

Don't go down that road children, don't follow in her footsteps. "From such stay away!"