Who Do We Pray To?

Who do you pray to? Do you pray? Do you believe in a Higher Power?

I do. I believe in and know for myself that I have an advocate in Christ JESUS. I know I am part of a much larger predestined GOD anointed plan. I know that I hear from GOD. I know that there are people that scoff. Most people just shun me. Shun, avoid, disbelieve, disassociate, stand clear, prefer to observe from a distance or simply disdain.

I don't blame anyone. Maybe they are not avoiding me. Maybe I am avoiding them. I am paranoid. I do enjoy me. I do love my alone time. I would rather do some form of art and write than anything.

Let's face it, when you have a "mother" like mine, who needs company? I don't need company that thinks like she does. I will not associate with ignorant "color struck" people. I will not associate with jealous envious people. I will not abide liars.

There are over six billion people on this planet earth and many of those people are good. All people are not ignorant blind sheep.

We repeat the "LORD's Prayer"; "Our Father", "Our Father", not to Our Great White Father, or Our African-American Father. So, why do we continue to divide ourselves? Say things like ;"I care about children that look like me." GOD wants us to care about ALL children, All people. GOD is no respecter of MAN. Bore yourself with all that color, race and sex nonsense.

Do we think heaven is divided by race and ethnic group? Do we really believe in "heaven"? Is "heaven" something we merely repeat because everyone else does?

We tease little children and take them through the farce of "Santa Claus". It is fun for adults, makes money for retailers and keeps most people broke. Why do we do it? Are we too afraid to look "unkind"? Are we trying to prove to our children that we love them? How long do the kids "know" before they catch on? Before they announce that you can curtail the little "game"?

I caught on at four, but I don't think my "mother" tried real hard to fool me.

Is there a "heaven"? We must go some where? It is all too mysterious. I have too many "infallible proofs". I know that I am preparing to go somewhere. I know GOD prepared a place for me.

Do you live right for a reward or do you live right just to live right?

If you "live wrong", why do you? How does it profit you?

Is that how much you hate GOD, hate Goodness, hate all innocence? Did you ever think that you were going to win? Are you too proud to be ashamed? Are you so ashamed that you would rather die and and go to hell? Are you so ashamed of the deeds that you were stupid enough to volunteer to do? Where you so out of control with lust that you lost your mind? Are you really that selfish and demonic?

Why can't you cuss and curse the devil? Didn't you know that you would have to answer to your victims one day? Why did you think "sah-shaying" off pretending to be innocent was the solution? It was your magic, "Mathy's Magic" and only you could control it.

It wasn't magic. It was shock! I was shocked as a little girl. I guess you were shocked too. You kept committing criminal offenses and the world you lived in was too ashamed to identify you, to put you in jail. Remember, "un-convicted" doesn't mean innocent. "Un-identified" simply means the world is in shock. There is no vocabulary word for you. Those children came through you for GOD's Own purpose. GOD did not create those children for you to destroy.

Why couldn't you stop? They made it safely to adulthood? What do you want? When will you realize that you can't change GOD's Gospel into a lie?

You the self anointed princess of Wade could do anything you pleased and the world would continue to bow down as long as you pulled your "magic". Just pretend like you didn't do it. Just cut the fool, act like a stark raving maniac. That attempting to kill your daddy when you were sixteen was the best scam you ever came up with. People soon learned to leave you alone. People soon learned to let you have your way.

You know that's a delusion don't you. That's an awful delusion straight from the devil himself. You brought it on yourself. What did you think would happen? You were the one foolish enough or dumb enough to be down on that murdered man's grave at midnight during a full moon. ARE YOU CRAZY!!!???

You know you're crazy don't cha? You know you are lost! You picked the wrong road, the wrong team. Shame on you!

You knew this day was coming. What did you plan to say? What was going to be your excuse? How do you justify your cruel hatred?

Can you say you are sorry? Secretly, deep down in your heart? don't you feel something? When and how did you lose your "humanness", your soul? Was it worth it? Do you know why you have never been able to stop lying?

Yes, I am ashamed of you. I am ashamed to know you. I will not lie for you. You have a lot a nerve professing to hate people that will not lie for you. It really doesn't matter. Hate is the only feeling you are capable of. So blinded by jealousy that you invent ridiculous scenarios. Totally blinded by your sins you refuse to see. Totally addicted to "root working" you can't stop. It is in you. It is not your second nature, it is your first nature. Cruelty and hatred is your first thought. Keeping your secret desires secret is more of a challenge. Too many people are paying attention to you. Too many people are looking at your fruit. Too many people are remembering. Rats! You have to come up with a new strategy, a new game plan. You continue to play crazy and refuse to see.

We are both too old and I am too tired. Anyone that asks about you, I am going to tell them the truth. Yes, you are a child of GOD, but you are stupid. I am sorry, stupid is about the kindest word I know. Lost, out side the arch of safety, a back slider, none of those words ever worked.

Continue to work out your "own salvation". I am working on mine.

It is fine. The "wicked shall cease from troubling."

Why can't we acknowledge that there is only one race, the Human Race?

I made up my mind as a small child, I am not going to be stupid because you are stupid.

If you have problems, suffering from any form of lack, ask GOD why? He will answer, all you have to do is heed.

Be richly Blessed. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace, and Happiness,
Rachel