"That Family!"

According to the AJC the matriarch of that family "bottled the secret up". Can you imagine a "family" permitting a man to savagely rape his own daughter (evidently repeatedly)? The "family" kept it a secret. Why? Were they too embarrassed to go to the law? No, the article said that the "law" came to them when she was so savagely assaulted that she had to be hospitalized. They still refused to "tell".

The "family" admits that "she" changed as a young teenage girl. She cut off all of her long hair, wore baggy clothes. Of course she did. She didn't want to look attractive to men. She didn't want to be lusted after.

I know the feeling all too well.

I come from a "family" very much like the one in the AJC. Her family was once well to do "coloureds", so was mine. That father that sexually molested his daughter over and over was no more than human vermin. He died and went to hell un-prosecuted, cloaked and secreted by a "family" of "good Christians".

His family protected him. Why? Were they afraid of the stigma? Or did they hear what I heard almost every day of my life growing up; "You! Don't tell a muthaf***** thang 'dat go on in dis house!"

We knew she meant it. How many brutal beatings, pistol whippings and stabbings do you have to see as a child to know this b**** means business?

How many "spells" do you have to see performed to know that this b**** will "root" your a**?

How many times do you have to listen to her lie and mislead to others on the phone before you realize that she hates you to?

The poor woman hates herself! She hates her weakness. She hates her "flesh". She took that 'the spirit is willing indeed, but the flesh is weak.' scripture to heart.

Poor "lady", there was no help for her. Some where she got very twisted and exchanged "sex" for power. Was that the only time she felt powerful?

Why would a grown woman hate her own child? Her own children? Then tell them!? You told me because you wanted to torture me. B**** you did torture me! When did you ever think you treated me right or fairly? Never!

I want to hate you but I can't. You are too damn ignorant! You are too f******dumb to hate. You are about the most "country" illiterate, unschooled, undereducated being I ever heard of. But, you fake so well. To talk to you ,one would think that you were Phi Beta Kappa with three of four PhD.s.

Again, it is not what happens to you, it is what happen in you.

I pray every day for GOD to take all of the hatred that has been placed in my heart away. I pray to love myself. I thank GOD for my brilliant , beautiful, talented daughter. I thank GOD for "natural affection".

I will "stay on the battlefield for abused children." I am just like the Little Red Hen,; "I will bake this bread by myself!"

What a great scam artist you are, Martha. You are the best. But, don't scam GOD. "He's been too good, down through the years." Yes, GOD's been good to you. GOD's been good to you and GOD knows your evil heart. Yes, He could have been much better. But, you would not let him.

Granddaddy always told you; "Dawthur, lean not to your own understanding." That is a good rule because most of our thoughts are wrong. That is why GOD gave us our own private GPS, the Bible.

You be blessed, now, you hear. And remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel