Monday, April 30, 2012
You don't understand...
and you never have to understand. No demon from hell is going to make me her foot stool. No demon from hell is going to take advantage of me and lure me into captivity because she was fool enough to go.
I read and study my Bible and I have good sense. She will not get away. She revealed herself and millions right a long with her. "Deceived Believers" crowding into "churches" every Sunday. Putting on a performance, a clown act, a dog and pony show, for entertainment.
GOD is not pleased with your "fakery", with your "puttin' on", with your evil diabolical deception. You would do better staying out of the "church". You bring a curse on yourself playing with GOD. "If you don't feel it, don't fake it."
Demanding the best seats, the seats of "honor" for their own glory, for their own pleasure. She will not lead me astray. She will not mock and humiliate me any longer. She may not have sense enough to beg GOD for forgiveness. But, you can. You can pray for her. You can ask GOD to make intercession for her. She is lost and does not want to be found. She is blind and does not want to see.
Yea, she messed up and she messed up bad. I don't think it was hard. Hating must be easier than loving because she is a creature full of hatred and self loathing.
But, her day is over. It is done. You be careful. Don't be like her. Don't you ever believe that cruelty is courage. Don't you ever believe that you can trade phony preaching for your sins.
Be careful as you try to navigate this planet. Take your GPS (your Bible) with you. Plant it in your heart. Become a proud fearless warrior. Do battle with the devil and put all evil under your feet. Tread on her!
I read and study my Bible and I have good sense. She will not get away. She revealed herself and millions right a long with her. "Deceived Believers" crowding into "churches" every Sunday. Putting on a performance, a clown act, a dog and pony show, for entertainment.
GOD is not pleased with your "fakery", with your "puttin' on", with your evil diabolical deception. You would do better staying out of the "church". You bring a curse on yourself playing with GOD. "If you don't feel it, don't fake it."
Demanding the best seats, the seats of "honor" for their own glory, for their own pleasure. She will not lead me astray. She will not mock and humiliate me any longer. She may not have sense enough to beg GOD for forgiveness. But, you can. You can pray for her. You can ask GOD to make intercession for her. She is lost and does not want to be found. She is blind and does not want to see.
Yea, she messed up and she messed up bad. I don't think it was hard. Hating must be easier than loving because she is a creature full of hatred and self loathing.
But, her day is over. It is done. You be careful. Don't be like her. Don't you ever believe that cruelty is courage. Don't you ever believe that you can trade phony preaching for your sins.
Be careful as you try to navigate this planet. Take your GPS (your Bible) with you. Plant it in your heart. Become a proud fearless warrior. Do battle with the devil and put all evil under your feet. Tread on her!
I survived!
Only by the grace of Almighty GOD. "I am more than a conqueror!" I am victorious!
Certainly I had no idea that a "human being" could become pure evil. I had no idea whose voice I heard at four years old. I know that a very kind voice spoke to me and assured me that He would protect me and never leave me.
I know something in my tiny four year old spirit knew this "woman" wasn't right. Something was very wrong with her. I am not telling you my life story for your entertainment. I am not telling you for the sake of gossip or for revenge. I am telling you because you need to know how wonderful GOD is.
You need to know everything in that Book is true. "Look well to your going, your coming in and your going out." You need to know that when your mother and father forsake you GOD will send you a comforter. Most importantly you need to know that you must stand up to evil. You must fight back! Be a brave warrior! Trust GOD! He has your back. He will guide your foot steps. He will never leave you.
How could my grandfather know? How could any one really know that pretty little girl was in fact a demon from the lowest bowels of hell? Who on this earth has ever revealed such a tale as mine? Note, I said "revealed". Her kind is quite common actually. But, fear keeps them "closeted". Fear is their ally, their greatest defense.
The sad truth about the demon in my life is she went too far for too long. She got comfortable. She got greedy. She just couldn't do enough evil. From violating her small children sexually, to brutal savage beatings, and sick exploitation. No, she will never admit to it. When has she ever admitted to anything? She will shock you with evil deed after evil deed, then force you to deny what you in fact witnessed.
Don't go by looks. "We walk by faith and not by SIGHT!" Jesus told us, He warned us; 'Beware of false prophets that dress up in sheep's clothing but inwardly they are ravenous wolves.'
That's her! That's the "woman" that calls herself my "mother". Jesus told us that we would know them by their fruit.
I am still horrified. Plagued, degraded and humiliated by a sick succubus for my entire life. She wants me to think she succeeded. She wants me to think she won as she gleefully reminisces over the plans she ruined, over the dreams she destroyed.
GOD wants you to know that the only life she succeeded in destroying was her own. Sick envy and jealousy made her a stark raving lunatic. Ignorant, primitive, rebellious and demon possessed, she did every sin known to man including murdering her own father.
Now caught, now exposed, she is finally learning that GOD is real. He will do just what He said if you follow Him. If you get in His WORD, He will get in you. He will save you, bless you and most importantly He will deliver you from Evil.
Blessed is the man or woman that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly. Don't let her counsel you or advise you. Don't ask her for money. When you associate with her or people like her you are out of the arc of safety. You can not walk that thin line between good and evil. She is what she is, a demon! An unrepentant, fake preacher, a false prophet.
The fact is she is the exact opposite of every thing she pretends to be. She can't wait to get her clutches on you, to slither up to you and coil her slimy serpent body around you, grinning in your face as she tightens her grip, laughing as she slowly destroys you just for her entertainment, just for her lustful pleasure.
No, children, there is no good in her. You can't help her. You can't love her enough. And sharing GOD's WORD with her is a waste of time. "If you see a fool shun him"
In the mean time, stay in His WORD. Study to show yourself approved. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, cloak and protect you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
Certainly I had no idea that a "human being" could become pure evil. I had no idea whose voice I heard at four years old. I know that a very kind voice spoke to me and assured me that He would protect me and never leave me.
I know something in my tiny four year old spirit knew this "woman" wasn't right. Something was very wrong with her. I am not telling you my life story for your entertainment. I am not telling you for the sake of gossip or for revenge. I am telling you because you need to know how wonderful GOD is.
You need to know everything in that Book is true. "Look well to your going, your coming in and your going out." You need to know that when your mother and father forsake you GOD will send you a comforter. Most importantly you need to know that you must stand up to evil. You must fight back! Be a brave warrior! Trust GOD! He has your back. He will guide your foot steps. He will never leave you.
How could my grandfather know? How could any one really know that pretty little girl was in fact a demon from the lowest bowels of hell? Who on this earth has ever revealed such a tale as mine? Note, I said "revealed". Her kind is quite common actually. But, fear keeps them "closeted". Fear is their ally, their greatest defense.
The sad truth about the demon in my life is she went too far for too long. She got comfortable. She got greedy. She just couldn't do enough evil. From violating her small children sexually, to brutal savage beatings, and sick exploitation. No, she will never admit to it. When has she ever admitted to anything? She will shock you with evil deed after evil deed, then force you to deny what you in fact witnessed.
Don't go by looks. "We walk by faith and not by SIGHT!" Jesus told us, He warned us; 'Beware of false prophets that dress up in sheep's clothing but inwardly they are ravenous wolves.'
That's her! That's the "woman" that calls herself my "mother". Jesus told us that we would know them by their fruit.
I am still horrified. Plagued, degraded and humiliated by a sick succubus for my entire life. She wants me to think she succeeded. She wants me to think she won as she gleefully reminisces over the plans she ruined, over the dreams she destroyed.
GOD wants you to know that the only life she succeeded in destroying was her own. Sick envy and jealousy made her a stark raving lunatic. Ignorant, primitive, rebellious and demon possessed, she did every sin known to man including murdering her own father.
Now caught, now exposed, she is finally learning that GOD is real. He will do just what He said if you follow Him. If you get in His WORD, He will get in you. He will save you, bless you and most importantly He will deliver you from Evil.
Blessed is the man or woman that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly. Don't let her counsel you or advise you. Don't ask her for money. When you associate with her or people like her you are out of the arc of safety. You can not walk that thin line between good and evil. She is what she is, a demon! An unrepentant, fake preacher, a false prophet.
The fact is she is the exact opposite of every thing she pretends to be. She can't wait to get her clutches on you, to slither up to you and coil her slimy serpent body around you, grinning in your face as she tightens her grip, laughing as she slowly destroys you just for her entertainment, just for her lustful pleasure.
No, children, there is no good in her. You can't help her. You can't love her enough. And sharing GOD's WORD with her is a waste of time. "If you see a fool shun him"
In the mean time, stay in His WORD. Study to show yourself approved. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, cloak and protect you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Hold up 'Ho!
You wait just a minute. Don't hate me because I can see through you. And don't hate me for not being you either. Don't hate me because I didn't make the same bad choices you did.
You're not GOD! You can't pick and choose who is going to have a good life. Who told you to decide that my life was a waste, something to be ruined because of the color of my skin? GOD made me dummy. GOD knew what color He wanted me to be and why.
Are you that stupid!? Are you really that stupid!? Did you ever truly believe that you could do anything you pleased because someone told you that you are "yalla". What is "yalla"? Skin tone has nothing to do with character. So you were pretty! So what? Pretty and common as bat s*** is still common as bat s***. Don't get mad with me because you're common. Get mad with yourself. Get mad enough to change. To change genuinely. Any one can start "preaching".
How dare you put on that robe without repentance. You got dressed up without bathing. You pulled that robe down over your filthy life and lies. Now you have the nerve to demand respect and loyalty. You demand to remain invisible. You demand to rule. I heard you referred to yourself as a matriarch. You may be a matriarch, but you are not mine.
You demand to stand in GOD's pulpit spewing lies and actually think the GOD I serve is not going to expose you! Woman you are out of your mind!
That's not news to you or anyone else that knows you. Yes, you are out of your mind! But, it is not a form of mental illness. It is pure Evil! You are possessed with a demon that you welcomed, solicited, cherish and still desire.
Not only did you successfully expose yourself with your demonic treachery. You exposed your "church". They don't seem to be too interested in you. That's not Christian. A "church" out of the will of GOD is not a church.
"Deceived Believers"* (*credit to my fb friend) do really believe their own self delusional rhetoric. You are a deceived believer. You are a clown. Sit down , go some where and read your Bible for real. Ask GOD for His strength and wisdom for real! Quit playing. It is later than you think.
Dear LORD thank you for your WORD. Thank you for that Book. Thank you for the power of discernment. Thank you for the Power of the Holy Ghost. Thank you for delivering me from sin. Thank you for Jerome Walters. Stay in His WORD children. Stay on your knees. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
You're not GOD! You can't pick and choose who is going to have a good life. Who told you to decide that my life was a waste, something to be ruined because of the color of my skin? GOD made me dummy. GOD knew what color He wanted me to be and why.
Are you that stupid!? Are you really that stupid!? Did you ever truly believe that you could do anything you pleased because someone told you that you are "yalla". What is "yalla"? Skin tone has nothing to do with character. So you were pretty! So what? Pretty and common as bat s*** is still common as bat s***. Don't get mad with me because you're common. Get mad with yourself. Get mad enough to change. To change genuinely. Any one can start "preaching".
How dare you put on that robe without repentance. You got dressed up without bathing. You pulled that robe down over your filthy life and lies. Now you have the nerve to demand respect and loyalty. You demand to remain invisible. You demand to rule. I heard you referred to yourself as a matriarch. You may be a matriarch, but you are not mine.
You demand to stand in GOD's pulpit spewing lies and actually think the GOD I serve is not going to expose you! Woman you are out of your mind!
That's not news to you or anyone else that knows you. Yes, you are out of your mind! But, it is not a form of mental illness. It is pure Evil! You are possessed with a demon that you welcomed, solicited, cherish and still desire.
Not only did you successfully expose yourself with your demonic treachery. You exposed your "church". They don't seem to be too interested in you. That's not Christian. A "church" out of the will of GOD is not a church.
"Deceived Believers"* (*credit to my fb friend) do really believe their own self delusional rhetoric. You are a deceived believer. You are a clown. Sit down , go some where and read your Bible for real. Ask GOD for His strength and wisdom for real! Quit playing. It is later than you think.
Dear LORD thank you for your WORD. Thank you for that Book. Thank you for the power of discernment. Thank you for the Power of the Holy Ghost. Thank you for delivering me from sin. Thank you for Jerome Walters. Stay in His WORD children. Stay on your knees. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
Saturday, April 28, 2012
"An empty closet"
No child, no little girl, should ever experience having an "empty closet". No little girl should ever have to push back a huge long accordion type screen to reveal nothing but wire hangers.
It shouldn't happen to anyone. It especially should not happen to a pretty little girl that did nothing but live to please, lived to love.
No woman, no mother, should take advantage of her own child to torture and humiliate. No coward should exact her own brand of vengence against her unwanted child.
No woman should insist on having the best and finest for herself while degrading her "loved ones". "Loved ones", poor unfortunate creatures, lost, forlorned by fate, by happenstance, tethered to a monstrosity.
How did that make you happy? You had a closet full of fine expensive clothes. But, your "loved ones" looked like little rag muffins, had a permanent thrift shop smell. Intimidating every one into taking your crap didn't make you right.
You wore two and three hundred dollar outfits to a job that netted you less than ninety dollars a week tops! You drove a Cadillac to a low level GS4 secretarial job!
What does that mean!? That means you are straight stupid! You sold your land, sixty-five acres with the timber on it! You are cursed!...out of covenant! You are the foolish woman that "plucketh down her own house!"
What is my point!? Must you ask!? Don't do wrong, don't do unspeakable evil and think you are going to get away. Don't put on a robe of GOD and think GOD is not going to reveal you.
Make sure you know, I don't have any "empty closets" now. My closets are full and overflowing. PTL!
It shouldn't happen to anyone. It especially should not happen to a pretty little girl that did nothing but live to please, lived to love.
No woman, no mother, should take advantage of her own child to torture and humiliate. No coward should exact her own brand of vengence against her unwanted child.
No woman should insist on having the best and finest for herself while degrading her "loved ones". "Loved ones", poor unfortunate creatures, lost, forlorned by fate, by happenstance, tethered to a monstrosity.
How did that make you happy? You had a closet full of fine expensive clothes. But, your "loved ones" looked like little rag muffins, had a permanent thrift shop smell. Intimidating every one into taking your crap didn't make you right.
You wore two and three hundred dollar outfits to a job that netted you less than ninety dollars a week tops! You drove a Cadillac to a low level GS4 secretarial job!
What does that mean!? That means you are straight stupid! You sold your land, sixty-five acres with the timber on it! You are cursed!...out of covenant! You are the foolish woman that "plucketh down her own house!"
What is my point!? Must you ask!? Don't do wrong, don't do unspeakable evil and think you are going to get away. Don't put on a robe of GOD and think GOD is not going to reveal you.
Make sure you know, I don't have any "empty closets" now. My closets are full and overflowing. PTL!
B****! just how ...
stupid are you? Of course I'm going to tell it! Why wouldn't I tell it? You tell every thing you know. What you don't know, you make up. What you don't like, you destroy.
No!...shut up! Shut your f******* mouth for once in your sick demented life! You were predestined, foretold, predicted. YOU would not listen, found out early in life that your loud vulgar tirades would get you off the hook. You learned early that few people were willing to get into loud ignorant physical fights with you.
You came from an intelligent, prosper family. You were the only girl, you were pretty, you were very light. Evidently you were very spoiled, certainly you have always been very manipulative. You are Evil! You are sadistic and cruel. (I always believed you smashed my fingers in that car door on purpose {8 years old}.)
You are one sick, depraved, demonic, savage, primitive cretin. You are a reincarnated slave! You are a true, genuine N*****!
No! I have to write about you. Not only am I healing, I am learning and the world is learning what happens to rebellious, lawless, fake wanna-be "Christians".
"All men have sinned ..." ;you are famous for quoting. That is not referring to you or your kind. You are a demon possessed (voluntarily, mind you). You are cunning, full of guile and pure hate. You are common! You are straight nasty, common and cruel.
If you think or ever thought you were getting off of this planet unrecognized, unknown, anonymous, you better think again. The terrifying fear you inculcated got old. I refuse to bear your shame any longer. ("don' you n**** tell it!")
Plus, it is out of my hands. It all is truly in Divine Order. The Holy Spirit compels me to stand up to you! The Holy Spirit compels me to indict you! You must be known. The world should prepare for creatures like you. You should be studied. Parents, if you have a child that bludgeoned a small animal to death, get that child some help. (Don't ever forget Jeffery Dommer. He started out killing small animals.)
I imagine you did this around 1930. There was no help for such behavior back then. Many people were still tying their lunatic relatives to the back porch or hiding them in basements. Such behavior was not discussed in polite company. I am sure every one thought mandatory church attendance was the solution. You went to church and loved it. Too bad you never believed it.
Ignoring your deed and pretending that you didn't have some deep seeded problems was not the correct course of action. Remaining mum all these years certainly has not helped. Just like the Bible says, you have "Waxed worse and worse."
You are proof that a person, a human being, can be totally void of all human decency. You are proof that a person will go to their graves with lies on their lips. You are documented proof that evil exists,it is real.
You are a wolf in sheep's clothing. You messed with the wrong one when you "messed" with Jerome Walters! You messed with the wrong one when you messed with this Bible reader. You messed around and "messed" with a real Christian! Shame on you!
You are reaping! Reap on!
Stay in His WORD, children. Read the book of Acts. Read it over and over until you get it. Don't get up out of that bed without putting your knees down on the floor everyday. Pray ! everyday. Thank GOD every day. (If you are ashamed to honor GOD in public, in private, how can He honor you?)
"Walk not in the counsel of the ungodly." Don't associate with known demons. Don't ask a demon for her advise. Don't tell her the intricate details of your life.
Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Peace engulf you, cloak you, and keep you in Perfect Peace forever,
Rachel
No!...shut up! Shut your f******* mouth for once in your sick demented life! You were predestined, foretold, predicted. YOU would not listen, found out early in life that your loud vulgar tirades would get you off the hook. You learned early that few people were willing to get into loud ignorant physical fights with you.
You came from an intelligent, prosper family. You were the only girl, you were pretty, you were very light. Evidently you were very spoiled, certainly you have always been very manipulative. You are Evil! You are sadistic and cruel. (I always believed you smashed my fingers in that car door on purpose {8 years old}.)
You are one sick, depraved, demonic, savage, primitive cretin. You are a reincarnated slave! You are a true, genuine N*****!
No! I have to write about you. Not only am I healing, I am learning and the world is learning what happens to rebellious, lawless, fake wanna-be "Christians".
"All men have sinned ..." ;you are famous for quoting. That is not referring to you or your kind. You are a demon possessed (voluntarily, mind you). You are cunning, full of guile and pure hate. You are common! You are straight nasty, common and cruel.
If you think or ever thought you were getting off of this planet unrecognized, unknown, anonymous, you better think again. The terrifying fear you inculcated got old. I refuse to bear your shame any longer. ("don' you n**** tell it!")
Plus, it is out of my hands. It all is truly in Divine Order. The Holy Spirit compels me to stand up to you! The Holy Spirit compels me to indict you! You must be known. The world should prepare for creatures like you. You should be studied. Parents, if you have a child that bludgeoned a small animal to death, get that child some help. (Don't ever forget Jeffery Dommer. He started out killing small animals.)
I imagine you did this around 1930. There was no help for such behavior back then. Many people were still tying their lunatic relatives to the back porch or hiding them in basements. Such behavior was not discussed in polite company. I am sure every one thought mandatory church attendance was the solution. You went to church and loved it. Too bad you never believed it.
Ignoring your deed and pretending that you didn't have some deep seeded problems was not the correct course of action. Remaining mum all these years certainly has not helped. Just like the Bible says, you have "Waxed worse and worse."
You are proof that a person, a human being, can be totally void of all human decency. You are proof that a person will go to their graves with lies on their lips. You are documented proof that evil exists,it is real.
You are a wolf in sheep's clothing. You messed with the wrong one when you "messed" with Jerome Walters! You messed with the wrong one when you messed with this Bible reader. You messed around and "messed" with a real Christian! Shame on you!
You are reaping! Reap on!
Stay in His WORD, children. Read the book of Acts. Read it over and over until you get it. Don't get up out of that bed without putting your knees down on the floor everyday. Pray ! everyday. Thank GOD every day. (If you are ashamed to honor GOD in public, in private, how can He honor you?)
"Walk not in the counsel of the ungodly." Don't associate with known demons. Don't ask a demon for her advise. Don't tell her the intricate details of your life.
Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Peace engulf you, cloak you, and keep you in Perfect Peace forever,
Rachel
Friday, April 27, 2012
I actually...
caught her, caught her trying to blame her "commonness" on her blind cousin. Then she caught the look on my face and "went to playing crazy and confused" again.
Yes, you're common. You have always been common. I guess you will always be common. No, it is your fault. No one has ever taken advantage of you.
It's called "Free Will", it's called a "choice". "Choose ye this day whom thou shall serve!"
You chose, chose incorrectly. You lived despicably and now you can die despicably.
It's your choice.
Yes, you're common. You have always been common. I guess you will always be common. No, it is your fault. No one has ever taken advantage of you.
It's called "Free Will", it's called a "choice". "Choose ye this day whom thou shall serve!"
You chose, chose incorrectly. You lived despicably and now you can die despicably.
It's your choice.
My beautiful...
daughter complimented my picture. I was on my way to South Carolina to marry the nightmare of my life. (Looking back, I knew deep down inside I was deliberately making the wrong decision. I did it anyway.)
My brilliant, beautiful daughter complimenting me! That feels good. (smile)
She called me a fox. Now she is the fox! Brilliant, beautiful and college educated. A world traveler, a brilliant writer an actress.
GOD sure is Good! (smile)
My brilliant, beautiful daughter complimenting me! That feels good. (smile)
She called me a fox. Now she is the fox! Brilliant, beautiful and college educated. A world traveler, a brilliant writer an actress.
GOD sure is Good! (smile)
If you are ...
living your life looking up to a demon, siding and confiding with a sick succubus, you are in bad shape. If you are consulting horoscopes instead of GOD's WORD for truth and guidance, you are in bad shape. If you had a brilliant , prophetic father, grandfather, great grandfather, uncle or cousin and are afraid to acknowledge him, you are in bad shape.
No demon in hell is going to shut my mouth! I am going to keep talking, keep telling!
Yea, you might be fearsome, awesomely primitive and savage. Your cruelty and stealth may be too sick to acknowledge or know. You will not silence me.
Shame on you! Shame on all people like you. Shame on people that think you should get away because you are too embarrassing to be identified with. Shame on people that will not tell because they are afraid of your little worthless "hoodoo".
GOD's WORD is being fulfilled and You know it.
To GOD be the Glory! PTL!
No demon in hell is going to shut my mouth! I am going to keep talking, keep telling!
Yea, you might be fearsome, awesomely primitive and savage. Your cruelty and stealth may be too sick to acknowledge or know. You will not silence me.
Shame on you! Shame on all people like you. Shame on people that think you should get away because you are too embarrassing to be identified with. Shame on people that will not tell because they are afraid of your little worthless "hoodoo".
GOD's WORD is being fulfilled and You know it.
To GOD be the Glory! PTL!
"How long...
will they kill our prophets while we stand around and wait?" Bob Marley asked us. I am the priviledged granddaughter of a very great man.
My grandfather was a very humble man, a gentle giant that loved his family and taught us well. His life was snuffed out, snatched from him by his very evil corrupt daughter. Some thing so evil, so vile, so corrupt, most people still refuse to believe she could ever exist. She has remained a closeted demon for eighty-six years.
Well, no more, her time is up. I will not keep her secrets any longer. She should be ashamed of herself. She should repent. It really doesn't matter what she does at this point.
What matters to me is what I do. My grandfather had too much wisdom to be buried in the grave and forgotten. GOD's Truth can not be silenced.
Read the book of Acts children. Do know that anything you ask in His name He will give you if you live right, if you walk worthy. Praise the LORD!
My grandfather was a very humble man, a gentle giant that loved his family and taught us well. His life was snuffed out, snatched from him by his very evil corrupt daughter. Some thing so evil, so vile, so corrupt, most people still refuse to believe she could ever exist. She has remained a closeted demon for eighty-six years.
Well, no more, her time is up. I will not keep her secrets any longer. She should be ashamed of herself. She should repent. It really doesn't matter what she does at this point.
What matters to me is what I do. My grandfather had too much wisdom to be buried in the grave and forgotten. GOD's Truth can not be silenced.
Read the book of Acts children. Do know that anything you ask in His name He will give you if you live right, if you walk worthy. Praise the LORD!
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Something I'm discovering...
you never got away. You never got away with a single thing you ever did. You have lived with burdening guilt your whole life.
I can't save you. I must use what little breath I have left to save my self.
You murdered my grandfather, took his life. You didn't put a dent in his wisdom. You can't touch his patience and understanding.
You robbed me but you don't have more. I'm still more educated. Still kinder, still merciful, still full of truth.
You have no daughter. You had one, a great one. You threw her away. I have a great daughter! A beautiful, brilliant, ambitious one. She is a great writer! She took your talent and did something with it.
You still have talent and you still have life. Won't you come to the light? Come to GOD's marvelous light.
I can't save you. I must use what little breath I have left to save my self.
You murdered my grandfather, took his life. You didn't put a dent in his wisdom. You can't touch his patience and understanding.
You robbed me but you don't have more. I'm still more educated. Still kinder, still merciful, still full of truth.
You have no daughter. You had one, a great one. You threw her away. I have a great daughter! A beautiful, brilliant, ambitious one. She is a great writer! She took your talent and did something with it.
You still have talent and you still have life. Won't you come to the light? Come to GOD's marvelous light.
"If you see a fool...
shun him." "Birds of a feather flock together." Yea, it all sounds lame. You've heard it all before. Wise people will listen. The rebellious will do exactly what they please, mess up and some how blame you.
If you've been dancing with the devil. If you know for a fact that someone you love is very evil, treacherous, and untrustworthy, you better take to the hills. "Git gone!"
Go ahead, try to love them, try to heal them. Play stupid, go along for the "ride". It is not going to end well. All the horrible things that you saw, that you know to be true, will aways be true. Her advanced age is no indication that she is blessed, anointed, pardoned, chosen or deserving of any good thing.
As a matter of fact she is deserving of the worse plague or painful death imaginable. "Vengeance is mine sayeth the LORD. I shall repay."
You may think she lived happily. No, she lived miserably. I know she did. She lived below her station. She foolishly lived below the life GOD planned and designed for her. Falsely believing her sly manipulative schemes assured her the best life , she lost. Became something hideous and revolting and was too full of shame and pride to admit it. She more than anyone else knows her sick deep dark secrets. She remembers every thing she ever did. She knows that they were foul and despicable. But, more than anything, she knows they were unnecessary, unwarranted.
She knows that scripture; "Do not let mercy and truth escape you."
You remember that! Don't you ever abuse anyone! Don't ever plot or plan on another human being. Do not ever believe that you have to become a human parasite in order to live , to achieve. Do know that you can not steal someone else's blessing, their anointing. "What GOD has for you, is for you."
Mothers don't secretly hate your children for being born. They are going to know. They are going to know because evil hatred is something you can't hide successfully. Your lies may sound sweet , but your "fruit" is rotten. If you make a mistake, admit it. Move on, do better. Don't plot and plan to destroy your daughter because she wasn't wayward and hard headed like you.
If you are plagued by a jealous, envious spirit, do something about it. If you have to follow your beautiful daughter around trying to hurt her, trying to destroy her, go get some help.
If you are common, admit it. If you can't get any help, if you are too ashamed to admit the truth to yourself, why aren't you ashamed to do it? You have no problem doing any and every thing that crosses your mind. Why does the truth enrage you?
You can't hide. The "gig" is up. You are despicable! You are lost. You are blind. Won't you give your life to Christ today? Won't you become the Christian you always pretended to be? Won't you come and wash in the blood He shed for you? He shed His blood for you and for me. Yes, you are forgiven. But, you must repent.
Stay in His WORD children. Pray for discernment. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
If you've been dancing with the devil. If you know for a fact that someone you love is very evil, treacherous, and untrustworthy, you better take to the hills. "Git gone!"
Go ahead, try to love them, try to heal them. Play stupid, go along for the "ride". It is not going to end well. All the horrible things that you saw, that you know to be true, will aways be true. Her advanced age is no indication that she is blessed, anointed, pardoned, chosen or deserving of any good thing.
As a matter of fact she is deserving of the worse plague or painful death imaginable. "Vengeance is mine sayeth the LORD. I shall repay."
You may think she lived happily. No, she lived miserably. I know she did. She lived below her station. She foolishly lived below the life GOD planned and designed for her. Falsely believing her sly manipulative schemes assured her the best life , she lost. Became something hideous and revolting and was too full of shame and pride to admit it. She more than anyone else knows her sick deep dark secrets. She remembers every thing she ever did. She knows that they were foul and despicable. But, more than anything, she knows they were unnecessary, unwarranted.
She knows that scripture; "Do not let mercy and truth escape you."
You remember that! Don't you ever abuse anyone! Don't ever plot or plan on another human being. Do not ever believe that you have to become a human parasite in order to live , to achieve. Do know that you can not steal someone else's blessing, their anointing. "What GOD has for you, is for you."
Mothers don't secretly hate your children for being born. They are going to know. They are going to know because evil hatred is something you can't hide successfully. Your lies may sound sweet , but your "fruit" is rotten. If you make a mistake, admit it. Move on, do better. Don't plot and plan to destroy your daughter because she wasn't wayward and hard headed like you.
If you are plagued by a jealous, envious spirit, do something about it. If you have to follow your beautiful daughter around trying to hurt her, trying to destroy her, go get some help.
If you are common, admit it. If you can't get any help, if you are too ashamed to admit the truth to yourself, why aren't you ashamed to do it? You have no problem doing any and every thing that crosses your mind. Why does the truth enrage you?
You can't hide. The "gig" is up. You are despicable! You are lost. You are blind. Won't you give your life to Christ today? Won't you become the Christian you always pretended to be? Won't you come and wash in the blood He shed for you? He shed His blood for you and for me. Yes, you are forgiven. But, you must repent.
Stay in His WORD children. Pray for discernment. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
Monday, April 23, 2012
Haters can't hide.
They can't and won't get away.
Ever notice how foul evil people try to pin their debauchery on you? They do something foul and stank, you call them on it and they try to make you the culprit. Like you did it, like you bear some guilt.
Every old person is not good. Quit believing that lie. Quit spreading that myth. A young freak becomes an old freak if they keep living. A young fool becomes and old fool.
I think my grandfather made a mistake by not discussing her evil. I certainly understand why he never talked about it. There is evil and there is Evil!
There are some people so shockingly evil you need to get old before you can bear that truth. There is some truth too hard to know. That is why Jesus told us; "Know ye the truth and the truth shall set you free!"
Only GOD can know the sick depravity of man. He gave us a book. A book we need to eat, to digest. (Thank you Brother Ricky). That book is our road map, our GPS.
You care enough to put GPS in your car as you try to navigate this earth. What about your spiritual GPS?
Follow that book and you are going to be alright. You are going to have Perfect Peace. That ole demon will not be able to get up on you to slay you.
You will be able to live in love, in peace and harmony. You will enjoy GOD's beautiful world.
There are certain people that you should avoid, "Covenant Breakers". Mark them, disassociate yourself from them. The first thing they are going to saddle you with when you wake up and leave is; "You always thought you wuz bedder than eva'body else."
If you are better you are better! You deserve better! You don't have to hang round and associate with closeted sick demons just because they call themselves "kin". Don't be afraid to shun them because they are going to do to you in the open what they have done behind your back your whole life. You felt it! You ignored it! You refused to believe it until GOD's infallible proof made her visible, crystal clear. Declaring that she is not what she obviously is will not help. "Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly."
So why are you listening to her advice? You know she is untrustworthy. You know she is going to trick you again, then laugh. Are you still stupid enough to think that she will finally change? You asked Her to pray for you!? Why didn't you just go to hell and ask Satan himself? You would have been better off.
I will tell you this right now, if you have to apologize for the color of your skin, there is a problem. You are associating with a known fool. That is a tiny microscopic person. She is so small, so unfulfilled, that "color" is her only "honor". Mark her! If this person picks at you, says unkind things to you on the sly, this person is not your friend. This is a person writhing and rotting in her own ignorance, her own rebelliousness, her own self imposed demonism. Run! This person has no good will or thoughts for you. Let that demon keep her chump change. She will never have enough money to buy or rent your love. Trust GOD! He will deliver you! He will give you the desires of your heart.
The first time you sense that someone is insincere, immoral, unprincipled, run. No don't walk away, run. That demon is too slick to let you get away. Don't give that evil spirit enough time to cast her "stank eye". Do not give her more credit than you should. Do not declare what she will not do. She has proven that she will do any thing! You can't shame her. She will not be embarrassed. She will not be brought to repentance. She can't! She can't care. She is a "Covenant Breaker".
Mark them, make sure you know the characteristics of a "Covenant Breaker". (Romans 1:31) undiscerning, untrustworthy, unloving, unforgiving, unmerciful.
If you know any one like that I would advise you to disassociate yourself from them. Do not use the ruse of "kin" as an excuse. Just because someone is related to to you by blood does not mean that person loves you or has any good intentions for you. Just because you have some relative declaring their undying love for you every hour on the hour. Dare to look at their fruit!
Love is truly an action verb. Don't be stupid your whole life. You may desperately want a mother, that doesn't mean you are going to have one. Jesus warned you.
There was a time, (even during slavery), when women had a true sisterhood. You remember "Grandma's hands". Older women took on the responsibility of teaching young women how to be "women", true women of GOD. Women met together, all ages, talked, discussed, admonished. My tenth grade Algebra teacher, Mrs. Bertha Reeder, interrupted an equation to turn around and face the class with; "Guls keep yo' dress down and yo' draws up!" Turned right back around and finished the equation. (I will always believe that was GOD working His mysterious plan) Where is the "sisterhood"? There was a time when women would not tolerate women that abused their children. Mothers, real women, in the family came to the rescue of those poor unfortunate children.
For what ever reason there are very few women in my family. At least at the time I was growing up. I was the only girl. My mother was the only girl. My grandmother died when I was three.
There I was without any female protection. My poor mother was void of any motherly instincts. A totally selfish, self absorbed, rebellious reprobate, she ran rough shod over a broken family. True, she was the smartest, the most manipulative. She could get anything from any man just by bating her long eyelashes. But she was corrupt and evil and most people were always afraid to tell her, to confront her.
Why? No one had the strength to revile her. There was no woman able to admonish her. Centuries ago in some West African tribe she would have been banished. She never would have been tolerated. No mere man can understand the depths of her depravity. Her evil can not be comprehended by the human eye. GOD has to reveal her. He will give you the power of discernment. GOD will warn you. He will give you the strength to resist her if you ask Him.
Dear LORD in Heaven! Thank you for delivering me from that awful succubus.
May GOD's Grace , Mercy and Peace engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
P.S.
Sisters! We have to stand up to All evil. Women can not stand silently by as these women work havoc on our world.
Ever notice how foul evil people try to pin their debauchery on you? They do something foul and stank, you call them on it and they try to make you the culprit. Like you did it, like you bear some guilt.
Every old person is not good. Quit believing that lie. Quit spreading that myth. A young freak becomes an old freak if they keep living. A young fool becomes and old fool.
I think my grandfather made a mistake by not discussing her evil. I certainly understand why he never talked about it. There is evil and there is Evil!
There are some people so shockingly evil you need to get old before you can bear that truth. There is some truth too hard to know. That is why Jesus told us; "Know ye the truth and the truth shall set you free!"
Only GOD can know the sick depravity of man. He gave us a book. A book we need to eat, to digest. (Thank you Brother Ricky). That book is our road map, our GPS.
You care enough to put GPS in your car as you try to navigate this earth. What about your spiritual GPS?
Follow that book and you are going to be alright. You are going to have Perfect Peace. That ole demon will not be able to get up on you to slay you.
You will be able to live in love, in peace and harmony. You will enjoy GOD's beautiful world.
There are certain people that you should avoid, "Covenant Breakers". Mark them, disassociate yourself from them. The first thing they are going to saddle you with when you wake up and leave is; "You always thought you wuz bedder than eva'body else."
If you are better you are better! You deserve better! You don't have to hang round and associate with closeted sick demons just because they call themselves "kin". Don't be afraid to shun them because they are going to do to you in the open what they have done behind your back your whole life. You felt it! You ignored it! You refused to believe it until GOD's infallible proof made her visible, crystal clear. Declaring that she is not what she obviously is will not help. "Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly."
So why are you listening to her advice? You know she is untrustworthy. You know she is going to trick you again, then laugh. Are you still stupid enough to think that she will finally change? You asked Her to pray for you!? Why didn't you just go to hell and ask Satan himself? You would have been better off.
I will tell you this right now, if you have to apologize for the color of your skin, there is a problem. You are associating with a known fool. That is a tiny microscopic person. She is so small, so unfulfilled, that "color" is her only "honor". Mark her! If this person picks at you, says unkind things to you on the sly, this person is not your friend. This is a person writhing and rotting in her own ignorance, her own rebelliousness, her own self imposed demonism. Run! This person has no good will or thoughts for you. Let that demon keep her chump change. She will never have enough money to buy or rent your love. Trust GOD! He will deliver you! He will give you the desires of your heart.
The first time you sense that someone is insincere, immoral, unprincipled, run. No don't walk away, run. That demon is too slick to let you get away. Don't give that evil spirit enough time to cast her "stank eye". Do not give her more credit than you should. Do not declare what she will not do. She has proven that she will do any thing! You can't shame her. She will not be embarrassed. She will not be brought to repentance. She can't! She can't care. She is a "Covenant Breaker".
Mark them, make sure you know the characteristics of a "Covenant Breaker". (Romans 1:31) undiscerning, untrustworthy, unloving, unforgiving, unmerciful.
If you know any one like that I would advise you to disassociate yourself from them. Do not use the ruse of "kin" as an excuse. Just because someone is related to to you by blood does not mean that person loves you or has any good intentions for you. Just because you have some relative declaring their undying love for you every hour on the hour. Dare to look at their fruit!
Love is truly an action verb. Don't be stupid your whole life. You may desperately want a mother, that doesn't mean you are going to have one. Jesus warned you.
There was a time, (even during slavery), when women had a true sisterhood. You remember "Grandma's hands". Older women took on the responsibility of teaching young women how to be "women", true women of GOD. Women met together, all ages, talked, discussed, admonished. My tenth grade Algebra teacher, Mrs. Bertha Reeder, interrupted an equation to turn around and face the class with; "Guls keep yo' dress down and yo' draws up!" Turned right back around and finished the equation. (I will always believe that was GOD working His mysterious plan) Where is the "sisterhood"? There was a time when women would not tolerate women that abused their children. Mothers, real women, in the family came to the rescue of those poor unfortunate children.
For what ever reason there are very few women in my family. At least at the time I was growing up. I was the only girl. My mother was the only girl. My grandmother died when I was three.
There I was without any female protection. My poor mother was void of any motherly instincts. A totally selfish, self absorbed, rebellious reprobate, she ran rough shod over a broken family. True, she was the smartest, the most manipulative. She could get anything from any man just by bating her long eyelashes. But she was corrupt and evil and most people were always afraid to tell her, to confront her.
Why? No one had the strength to revile her. There was no woman able to admonish her. Centuries ago in some West African tribe she would have been banished. She never would have been tolerated. No mere man can understand the depths of her depravity. Her evil can not be comprehended by the human eye. GOD has to reveal her. He will give you the power of discernment. GOD will warn you. He will give you the strength to resist her if you ask Him.
Dear LORD in Heaven! Thank you for delivering me from that awful succubus.
May GOD's Grace , Mercy and Peace engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
P.S.
Sisters! We have to stand up to All evil. Women can not stand silently by as these women work havoc on our world.
Saturday, April 21, 2012
We sit, we hope, we...
wait. We go to church almost every Sunday. We think it is a sacrifice. Two, four, five hours out of our day. Some of us can't wait until the service is over before we start our fresh sinning.
We blame our sins on our age, on our lack of experience. We get to holler; "I didn't know. I didn't know no bedder."
People feel sorry for us, being female and eva'thang. "She jest a chile...she made a mistake..fo'give hur."
Well two, three, four children down the line some one is going to notice that you are just a 'ho! And being a 'ho means you really have to do better. You need to slow your roll. You need to get by yourself and Think! You can't live your life random. You can't live with out a plan. Don't be too lazy to plan a course of action.
Don't assume your good looks will get you any more than an ugly woman. He left her for you. He will leave you for another. Nag, get on his nerves. Breathe too hard. Some bullies demand to control the expression on your face.
You can take care of your own children. Trying to parent and co-operate with a known fool might not work. The baby may be better off with just you. All this cussing and stress is causing you to age before your time.
Don't get with some loser for his money either. Be broke. Learn to live off of less. You don't need cable, read a book, do your homework.
I went to college with the bare necessities, turned out to be one of the best blessings I ever had. I had no money, no clothes, and no love. I was glad to exercise self discipline and study. Lack can be a great motivator.
Learn to take advise. Don't be so rebellious that you hurt yourself.
We blame our sins on our age, on our lack of experience. We get to holler; "I didn't know. I didn't know no bedder."
People feel sorry for us, being female and eva'thang. "She jest a chile...she made a mistake..fo'give hur."
Well two, three, four children down the line some one is going to notice that you are just a 'ho! And being a 'ho means you really have to do better. You need to slow your roll. You need to get by yourself and Think! You can't live your life random. You can't live with out a plan. Don't be too lazy to plan a course of action.
Don't assume your good looks will get you any more than an ugly woman. He left her for you. He will leave you for another. Nag, get on his nerves. Breathe too hard. Some bullies demand to control the expression on your face.
You can take care of your own children. Trying to parent and co-operate with a known fool might not work. The baby may be better off with just you. All this cussing and stress is causing you to age before your time.
Don't get with some loser for his money either. Be broke. Learn to live off of less. You don't need cable, read a book, do your homework.
I went to college with the bare necessities, turned out to be one of the best blessings I ever had. I had no money, no clothes, and no love. I was glad to exercise self discipline and study. Lack can be a great motivator.
Learn to take advise. Don't be so rebellious that you hurt yourself.
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Well, if you so...
"god blessed", so anointed, so full of the Holy Ghost, why come you ain't got no mo' than you got?
Trying to hold every body else back, trying to keep every body you know down, you kept your own simple self down.
Always calling everybody else a coon, you the coon. I know you shame! You got to be shame. That's why you trying to pretend to be mental. You ain't mental. Yea, you sho' 'hoish, just as 'hoish as you can be. According to you all wimmen is 'hoish. But, you! LAWD woman you make Jezebel look like Mother Theresa!
Why!? You didn't git nuttin'! Always criticizing wimmen fa' giving away free *****. You squandered yo' talent! You threw your knowledge and gifts away!
Well if you so smart, so much a prophetess, hi come you ain't got no money? Yea, you drive a Cadillac, but it's old.
You know why you still sittin' in the bottom of that pit don't cha? Lying! Lying and hating! Bragging on yourself. Trying to exalt yourself. Granddaddy told you. Warned you, you did it any way.
You have no excuse for your life ending up so sorry. I am not going to lie for you. No, I will not take your deeds to my grave and I will not wait for you to die. That's disrespectful to GOD. That's disrespectful to my grandfather.
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I am infuriated. There are so many stories that glorify the strong black woman and very few know of the strong black man. I know one, had one. He saved my life and the world will hear about him, will read about him. You will not steal a great man's mantle and wear it!
You silly little spoiled brat that never grew up. Playing silly dress up, pretending to be a prophetess, pretending to be a good daughter, a good sister, a good mother. Pretending! Why pretend, why can't you be what you pretend to be? You can and you always could. You just don't want't to be. You have no interest in GOD, in good, in love, in motherhood, in the WORD. "Let not mercy and truth forsake you." You have no mercy and you have no truth. "If there come any unto you, and bring not this doctrine, receive him not into your house, neither bid him GOD speed: For he that biddeth him GOD speed is partaker of his evil deeds." ( 2 John 1:11)
In other words if you cloak and conceal your demonic mother, grandmother, sister, aunt, cousin you are damning yourself. You put a curse on yourself. You will be held accountable for her sins!
Be what ever you want to be but don't involve me in your silly dress up games. You don't play fair. You cheat. You go too far. You lacerate with your tongue and you kill with your gun.
"But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of GOD: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned." (1 Corinthians 2:14)
I told you, GOD will pull your coat. He will let you know some "thangs". " But "they" shall proceed no further: for their folly shall be manifest unto all men, as theirs also was." (2 Timothy 3:9)
I will not keep a brilliant patriarch a secret.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
Trying to hold every body else back, trying to keep every body you know down, you kept your own simple self down.
Always calling everybody else a coon, you the coon. I know you shame! You got to be shame. That's why you trying to pretend to be mental. You ain't mental. Yea, you sho' 'hoish, just as 'hoish as you can be. According to you all wimmen is 'hoish. But, you! LAWD woman you make Jezebel look like Mother Theresa!
Why!? You didn't git nuttin'! Always criticizing wimmen fa' giving away free *****. You squandered yo' talent! You threw your knowledge and gifts away!
Well if you so smart, so much a prophetess, hi come you ain't got no money? Yea, you drive a Cadillac, but it's old.
You know why you still sittin' in the bottom of that pit don't cha? Lying! Lying and hating! Bragging on yourself. Trying to exalt yourself. Granddaddy told you. Warned you, you did it any way.
You have no excuse for your life ending up so sorry. I am not going to lie for you. No, I will not take your deeds to my grave and I will not wait for you to die. That's disrespectful to GOD. That's disrespectful to my grandfather.
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I am infuriated. There are so many stories that glorify the strong black woman and very few know of the strong black man. I know one, had one. He saved my life and the world will hear about him, will read about him. You will not steal a great man's mantle and wear it!
You silly little spoiled brat that never grew up. Playing silly dress up, pretending to be a prophetess, pretending to be a good daughter, a good sister, a good mother. Pretending! Why pretend, why can't you be what you pretend to be? You can and you always could. You just don't want't to be. You have no interest in GOD, in good, in love, in motherhood, in the WORD. "Let not mercy and truth forsake you." You have no mercy and you have no truth. "If there come any unto you, and bring not this doctrine, receive him not into your house, neither bid him GOD speed: For he that biddeth him GOD speed is partaker of his evil deeds." ( 2 John 1:11)
In other words if you cloak and conceal your demonic mother, grandmother, sister, aunt, cousin you are damning yourself. You put a curse on yourself. You will be held accountable for her sins!
Be what ever you want to be but don't involve me in your silly dress up games. You don't play fair. You cheat. You go too far. You lacerate with your tongue and you kill with your gun.
"But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of GOD: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned." (1 Corinthians 2:14)
I told you, GOD will pull your coat. He will let you know some "thangs". " But "they" shall proceed no further: for their folly shall be manifest unto all men, as theirs also was." (2 Timothy 3:9)
I will not keep a brilliant patriarch a secret.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
"Blessed is the (wo)man that walketh not in the ...
Counsel of the Ungodly." Psalm 1:1. You didn't have to get very far into your Bible study or Sunday school to hear or read that. But did you listen?
You will be "blessed". You will be protected, saved from harm. The ungodly want to pretend that they love you. Want to pretend they are offering you good advise. "Counsel", counselor, wise sage, prophet, prophetess, some one that you need.
A very good clue to heeding advice from your "mother" or father or some person in authority over you, is to ask; "What's their story?" What does their fruit look like? Is there something ham scammy going on here? Does she say one thing and do another? Does she manipulatively force you to keep her secrets?
It's cool. She got me too bro. I was in graduate school. State University of New York- Bingington. I was doing fine, enjoying my fellowship. Then that serpent slithered up beside me. She fell so in love with me she gave me her old Buick La sabre, put a phone in my room. Called every day. Talked me into leaving my fellowship. "Come on home to yo' mama baby!" I was twenty-two years old. An orphan, a "throwed" away baby. She knew why I sucked my thumb until I was eight. She knew that she hated me with a passion and she knew I didn't "know".
A week into returning to her lair, a week into finally being the proud recipient of the love I always craved. I was in some zombie like trance when I packed all my belongings and returned to the scene of my hellish torture. "What was I thinking!?" I screamed in my head. "Well you duh fool!" she laughed. Within a week I was the same jet black dumb a** worthless no-count n**** I always was.
I know now it was competition. Nothing as black as I was was going to ever out do her. If she had to lie, cheat, "work roots", it didn't matter. No one was going to ever out do Mathy. No black bastard son was ever going to be a successful doctor. No black bastard son was ever going to be a successful musician.
I was actually shocked when I overheard her laughing about me, telling my cousin how I had flunked out of graduate school. "What the f***!" I screamed (to myself, I didn't dare say a word to her.)
Why did you need me to flunk out? Why would you run ahead of me and tell that lie? Because you are the one that flunked out of college! Why do you have such deep hatred for me? Why were you always trying to attack my morality? Why did you accuse me of being a lesbian?
We know the answer don't we? "The wicked fleeth when no one pursueth."
Don't feel bad bro. That is what she does. She bashes dreams. She can't help it. It is spiritual warfare.
She is going to get hers brother. It is all in Divine Order. Rest assured and be content in that fact.
Stay in His WORD. Pick it up (the Book) . Let it fall open. GOD will guide you to the message He wants you to see. Remember,; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
You will be "blessed". You will be protected, saved from harm. The ungodly want to pretend that they love you. Want to pretend they are offering you good advise. "Counsel", counselor, wise sage, prophet, prophetess, some one that you need.
A very good clue to heeding advice from your "mother" or father or some person in authority over you, is to ask; "What's their story?" What does their fruit look like? Is there something ham scammy going on here? Does she say one thing and do another? Does she manipulatively force you to keep her secrets?
It's cool. She got me too bro. I was in graduate school. State University of New York- Bingington. I was doing fine, enjoying my fellowship. Then that serpent slithered up beside me. She fell so in love with me she gave me her old Buick La sabre, put a phone in my room. Called every day. Talked me into leaving my fellowship. "Come on home to yo' mama baby!" I was twenty-two years old. An orphan, a "throwed" away baby. She knew why I sucked my thumb until I was eight. She knew that she hated me with a passion and she knew I didn't "know".
A week into returning to her lair, a week into finally being the proud recipient of the love I always craved. I was in some zombie like trance when I packed all my belongings and returned to the scene of my hellish torture. "What was I thinking!?" I screamed in my head. "Well you duh fool!" she laughed. Within a week I was the same jet black dumb a** worthless no-count n**** I always was.
I know now it was competition. Nothing as black as I was was going to ever out do her. If she had to lie, cheat, "work roots", it didn't matter. No one was going to ever out do Mathy. No black bastard son was ever going to be a successful doctor. No black bastard son was ever going to be a successful musician.
I was actually shocked when I overheard her laughing about me, telling my cousin how I had flunked out of graduate school. "What the f***!" I screamed (to myself, I didn't dare say a word to her.)
Why did you need me to flunk out? Why would you run ahead of me and tell that lie? Because you are the one that flunked out of college! Why do you have such deep hatred for me? Why were you always trying to attack my morality? Why did you accuse me of being a lesbian?
We know the answer don't we? "The wicked fleeth when no one pursueth."
Don't feel bad bro. That is what she does. She bashes dreams. She can't help it. It is spiritual warfare.
She is going to get hers brother. It is all in Divine Order. Rest assured and be content in that fact.
Stay in His WORD. Pick it up (the Book) . Let it fall open. GOD will guide you to the message He wants you to see. Remember,; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
Monday, April 16, 2012
Hur son got married...
Well he won't really hur son...she ain't nevah done nuttin' fa' him. She cudden' you know...on auh count'thu hi he come heah. She didn't want him but she wuz too selfish and n****ish to let any body else have him. He wuz such a pretty chile. A rich colored doctor and hiz wife wanted him. But she said No!
She pretended lak she loved him to hur momma and daddy. She won't suddin' him. Nevah bought him a pair of socks. Made sho' he knew that she wuz depriving him. Luv won't wuff giving unless it wuz begged fa'.
Plus she wuz too pretty, too fine , to be bothered wid what any no count Wade n**** had to say. Hur daddy made hur sick. Hiz nosey a** always up in hur bizness.
So hur son come home to marry. "Dat dumb n*** going to Viet Nam and git hissef kilt and dat b****gon' git all de money. (not if I got anything to do wid it, she laughed)
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So the family put up with her. Tolerated and endured, year after year, after year. Some no preaching preacher told them to wait on the "LAWD", to "jest pray". "Gawd don' put no mo' on you than you can bear." ; they said, so Mathy went all out. "Take this!, and this! and this!...seem like murder is on my mind!!!...bet they won't tell dat either."
"And thou, son of man, be not afraid of them, neither be afraid of their words, though briers and thorns be with thee, and thou dost dwell among scorpions: be not afraid of their words, nor be dismayed at their looks, though they be a rebellious house." (Ezekiel 2:6)
She pretended lak she loved him to hur momma and daddy. She won't suddin' him. Nevah bought him a pair of socks. Made sho' he knew that she wuz depriving him. Luv won't wuff giving unless it wuz begged fa'.
Plus she wuz too pretty, too fine , to be bothered wid what any no count Wade n**** had to say. Hur daddy made hur sick. Hiz nosey a** always up in hur bizness.
So hur son come home to marry. "Dat dumb n*** going to Viet Nam and git hissef kilt and dat b****gon' git all de money. (not if I got anything to do wid it, she laughed)
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So the family put up with her. Tolerated and endured, year after year, after year. Some no preaching preacher told them to wait on the "LAWD", to "jest pray". "Gawd don' put no mo' on you than you can bear." ; they said, so Mathy went all out. "Take this!, and this! and this!...seem like murder is on my mind!!!...bet they won't tell dat either."
"And thou, son of man, be not afraid of them, neither be afraid of their words, though briers and thorns be with thee, and thou dost dwell among scorpions: be not afraid of their words, nor be dismayed at their looks, though they be a rebellious house." (Ezekiel 2:6)
"Have I therefore become...
your enemy because I tell you the truth?" (Galatians 4:16)
You can rail against me. Tell some more lies. "Work" some more "roots". (they ain't working). You poor foolish child. You have been lying, denying, hating, trying to play "god" your whole life. Always too blind and dim-witted to see that you were (are) losing. Always too corrupt and self-centered to see you had what you always envied.
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She demanded credit for her "work". Demanded that her brilliant" guile and stealth be recognized and commended. Nothing pleased her more than a "testimony".
"I got in the court house fust, jest lak you sed I should! I poured dust. I didn't sprinkle it. (ha-ha-ha) The judge sed 'Case dismissed!...I declare Mathy! You got a gift woman!"
I was standing there listening, in awe. There I was, a quarry slave and I didn't even know it. The phone rang every day at the exact same time, four o'clock on the dot ! "Hello Gwen!" she blasted harshly through the phone; "Is That HOOOOSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEE! Standing Tall!?" Translation; the b**** would sasshay in at 5:30 just to terrorize. She would just inspect what I did. I was held to a higher standard. I was the only girl. No matter how much I cleaned and scrubbed (I was a modern day black Cinderella) she complained and raised hell. Every thing was "WHAT MUTHA F****** !??? WHAT MUTHF******!? " on and on until sleep over took her.
I know now it was her guilt beating her, chasing her. She was filthy but couldn't scrub clean. Coming clean would require some truth telling and she wasn't about to do that.
I'll never forget her "stank eye", her loud complaints. "Yo' granddaddy paid all dat money fa' dem boots! and you only woe'em a few times....(my daddy always wasting hiz damn money on you!)".
I knew then. I always knew. You made sure I knew.{I gave yo' black a** away...ha-ha-ha...don't nobody know how much I hate yo' black a**...not even you ...you jet black, cold black, piece of s***}
She was bragging. She was ha-ha-ha-ing again. Translation; "I'm duh 'cause of yo' knee swelling up. But, you didn't see ME! You can't prove S***! Ha-ha-ha! (I put duh sneak in sneaky) I can't lose fa' the stuff I use and you can't win fa' duh fix you in. Ain't no body gon' eva' suspect me 'cause I'mma a fake preacha, I mean real preacha."
"You ain't gon' be popular and beautiful. You ain't gon' nevah be nuttin' but a 'ho lak me!"
[You tolerate that woman that calls herself a prophetess.]
A woman trying to be a man. That's too much confusion. That is against GOD's law. It is not going to work. You can't hide it. It is going to be known. You should have faced your truth seventy years ago. At any rate you should have kept your filthy hands, thoughts and deeds off of me. You should have crucified your flesh instead of crucifying me. I guess crucifying me was easier. (So you thought)
A total dim-wit, dumb enough to engage in a war with GOD. Come Jesus!
You can rail against me. Tell some more lies. "Work" some more "roots". (they ain't working). You poor foolish child. You have been lying, denying, hating, trying to play "god" your whole life. Always too blind and dim-witted to see that you were (are) losing. Always too corrupt and self-centered to see you had what you always envied.
*********
She demanded credit for her "work". Demanded that her brilliant" guile and stealth be recognized and commended. Nothing pleased her more than a "testimony".
"I got in the court house fust, jest lak you sed I should! I poured dust. I didn't sprinkle it. (ha-ha-ha) The judge sed 'Case dismissed!...I declare Mathy! You got a gift woman!"
I was standing there listening, in awe. There I was, a quarry slave and I didn't even know it. The phone rang every day at the exact same time, four o'clock on the dot ! "Hello Gwen!" she blasted harshly through the phone; "Is That HOOOOSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEE! Standing Tall!?" Translation; the b**** would sasshay in at 5:30 just to terrorize. She would just inspect what I did. I was held to a higher standard. I was the only girl. No matter how much I cleaned and scrubbed (I was a modern day black Cinderella) she complained and raised hell. Every thing was "WHAT MUTHA F****** !??? WHAT MUTHF******!? " on and on until sleep over took her.
I know now it was her guilt beating her, chasing her. She was filthy but couldn't scrub clean. Coming clean would require some truth telling and she wasn't about to do that.
I'll never forget her "stank eye", her loud complaints. "Yo' granddaddy paid all dat money fa' dem boots! and you only woe'em a few times....(my daddy always wasting hiz damn money on you!)".
I knew then. I always knew. You made sure I knew.{I gave yo' black a** away...ha-ha-ha...don't nobody know how much I hate yo' black a**...not even you ...you jet black, cold black, piece of s***}
She was bragging. She was ha-ha-ha-ing again. Translation; "I'm duh 'cause of yo' knee swelling up. But, you didn't see ME! You can't prove S***! Ha-ha-ha! (I put duh sneak in sneaky) I can't lose fa' the stuff I use and you can't win fa' duh fix you in. Ain't no body gon' eva' suspect me 'cause I'mma a fake preacha, I mean real preacha."
"You ain't gon' be popular and beautiful. You ain't gon' nevah be nuttin' but a 'ho lak me!"
[You tolerate that woman that calls herself a prophetess.]
A woman trying to be a man. That's too much confusion. That is against GOD's law. It is not going to work. You can't hide it. It is going to be known. You should have faced your truth seventy years ago. At any rate you should have kept your filthy hands, thoughts and deeds off of me. You should have crucified your flesh instead of crucifying me. I guess crucifying me was easier. (So you thought)
A total dim-wit, dumb enough to engage in a war with GOD. Come Jesus!
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Note to self...
Do not involve others in your emotional roller-coaster ride and expect them to understand. Trust GOD with all your heart. Take your burdens to Him and leave them there.
"There is none so blind as he who refuses to see." Pray for their courage. Pray that GOD will strengthen their hearts as He opens their eyes. Do know that some eyes will never be opened. Their truth is too hard to bear.
Few people can accept your truth less they be rooted and grounded in the Holy Ghost.
"It is what it is." "A put on ain't nothing but a sham."
"If GOD be for you, who can be against you?"
For sixty years and evil closeted cowardly ogre has ridden my back and made me suffer for her sins. Her heavy perfume, double decker wigs and fine clothes conceal her. Her smooth honey-dipped words only fool the "unsaved" that think they are saved.
Look closely, listen intently, you will find no good in her, none. You are at a lost to know why. Why would a beautiful, talented woman permit herself to rot in insane jealousy for eighty-six years?
I don't know. I do know that GOD's Kingdom, GOD's plan is in Divine Order.
Study your Bible, stay in His WORD. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
"There is none so blind as he who refuses to see." Pray for their courage. Pray that GOD will strengthen their hearts as He opens their eyes. Do know that some eyes will never be opened. Their truth is too hard to bear.
Few people can accept your truth less they be rooted and grounded in the Holy Ghost.
"It is what it is." "A put on ain't nothing but a sham."
"If GOD be for you, who can be against you?"
For sixty years and evil closeted cowardly ogre has ridden my back and made me suffer for her sins. Her heavy perfume, double decker wigs and fine clothes conceal her. Her smooth honey-dipped words only fool the "unsaved" that think they are saved.
Look closely, listen intently, you will find no good in her, none. You are at a lost to know why. Why would a beautiful, talented woman permit herself to rot in insane jealousy for eighty-six years?
I don't know. I do know that GOD's Kingdom, GOD's plan is in Divine Order.
Study your Bible, stay in His WORD. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
Saturday, April 14, 2012
Stupid is as ...
stupid does. Don't tell me what I didn't see with my own eyes! Don't tell me she didn't have me down on a graveyard harvesting her "dust". Don't tell me the people were not lined up and down both sides of Dwain Drive buying her "wares" and using her services.
Don't tell me she didn't target me! Don't tell me she didn't send me her "rooty" letter full of fecal matter!
Oh she common! Common with a capital "C". I am not going to shut up! I am going to tell eva'body! Every where I go for the rest of my life I'm telling. She can forget that; "you bedder take dat tuh ya'grave."
For sixty years she has hated me secrely. Burned with a sick demented loathing. I intend to give her good reason to hate me. PTL!!!
Don't tell me she didn't target me! Don't tell me she didn't send me her "rooty" letter full of fecal matter!
Oh she common! Common with a capital "C". I am not going to shut up! I am going to tell eva'body! Every where I go for the rest of my life I'm telling. She can forget that; "you bedder take dat tuh ya'grave."
For sixty years she has hated me secrely. Burned with a sick demented loathing. I intend to give her good reason to hate me. PTL!!!
I must give it...
to her. Her stealth is brilliant. She will scramble your brains. GOD is is the only reason I stood a chance. That and the fact I am chosen, anointed and appointed. Gifted, talented, set aside, saved and sanctified. I "WALK THE WALK AND TALK THE TALK!" for real! I don't have to try, I do. I don't have to lie. I live the life I talk about in my song.
This greedy hate filled common woman demands to live in both worlds. GOD won't let you do it! You can not serve GOD and satan! You are stupid for trying. Then to top your stupidity off with more hatred for me will not work. I will not trade GOD's goodness for the likes of you.
You are not that smart. You have never been that smart. You succeeded in being so common and foul that no one could believe you were ever anything but a long bad dream.
Well GOD called me out of my self-induced coma. I can face your cruelty now! You were predicted, foretold of and now you are paying the price.
"So I will break down the wall you plastered with untempered mortar, and bring it down to the ground, so that its foundation will be uncovered; it will fall, and you shall be consumed in the midst of it, "Then you shall know that I am the LORD!" (Ezekiel 13:14)
"Untempered mortar" is fake "religion". It's "talking the talk" as a ploy, as a tool. Untempered mortar is covering your black magic soothe saying with the Bible! Untempered mortar is "preaching" without understanding, without sincerity. Untempered mortar is vile envy, covetousness, rank jealousy and hatred, it is sick incestuous lust confused and cloaked in a "mother's love".
The beauty in this story is that the GOD I serve loves you anyway! Will let you come into His Kingdom anyway. You know that but you are angry with GOD. You blame GOD for your mistakes. I used to feel sorry for myself. Now I feel the sorriest for you.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, protect you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
This greedy hate filled common woman demands to live in both worlds. GOD won't let you do it! You can not serve GOD and satan! You are stupid for trying. Then to top your stupidity off with more hatred for me will not work. I will not trade GOD's goodness for the likes of you.
You are not that smart. You have never been that smart. You succeeded in being so common and foul that no one could believe you were ever anything but a long bad dream.
Well GOD called me out of my self-induced coma. I can face your cruelty now! You were predicted, foretold of and now you are paying the price.
"So I will break down the wall you plastered with untempered mortar, and bring it down to the ground, so that its foundation will be uncovered; it will fall, and you shall be consumed in the midst of it, "Then you shall know that I am the LORD!" (Ezekiel 13:14)
"Untempered mortar" is fake "religion". It's "talking the talk" as a ploy, as a tool. Untempered mortar is covering your black magic soothe saying with the Bible! Untempered mortar is "preaching" without understanding, without sincerity. Untempered mortar is vile envy, covetousness, rank jealousy and hatred, it is sick incestuous lust confused and cloaked in a "mother's love".
The beauty in this story is that the GOD I serve loves you anyway! Will let you come into His Kingdom anyway. You know that but you are angry with GOD. You blame GOD for your mistakes. I used to feel sorry for myself. Now I feel the sorriest for you.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, protect you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
Friday, April 13, 2012
I don't know what Bible...
you're reading. But, I want you to know that it is complete. I don't know what passages or commandments you're looking for. "It all ain't in 'dere! It ALL ain't in 'dere!""
You're right. That book or that verse that says you can murder your saintly father and get away with it. No, that's not in there. The verse that says you can violate your children sexually, physically, psychologically and emotionally. That commandment; "You bedder not tell nobody but GAWD. You bedder take dat tuh de grave." ain't in there.
"Therefore lay aside all filthiness and overflow of wickedness, and receive with meekness the implanted WORD, which is able to save your souls" (James 1:21) is in there!
"For judgment is without mercy to the one who has shown no mercy. Mercy triumphs over judgment." is in there! (James 2:13)
"For where envy and self-seeking exist, confusion and every evil thing are there." is in there! (James 3:16)
"For the eyes of the LORD are on the Righteous, and His ears are open to their prayers; but the face of the LORD is against those who do evil."; is in there! (1 Peter 3:12)
"For it is better, if it is the will of GOD, to suffer for doing good than doing evil.";is in there! (1 Peter 3:17)
"If you are reproached for the name of Christ, blessed are you, for the Spirit of glory and of GOD rests upon you. On their part He is blasphemed, but on your part He is Glorified!" is in there. (1 Peter 4:14)
Keep playing crazy and confused. You're running out of time.
"...Surely I am coming quickly." Amen. Even so, come LORD Jesus!
You're right. That book or that verse that says you can murder your saintly father and get away with it. No, that's not in there. The verse that says you can violate your children sexually, physically, psychologically and emotionally. That commandment; "You bedder not tell nobody but GAWD. You bedder take dat tuh de grave." ain't in there.
"Therefore lay aside all filthiness and overflow of wickedness, and receive with meekness the implanted WORD, which is able to save your souls" (James 1:21) is in there!
"For judgment is without mercy to the one who has shown no mercy. Mercy triumphs over judgment." is in there! (James 2:13)
"For where envy and self-seeking exist, confusion and every evil thing are there." is in there! (James 3:16)
"For the eyes of the LORD are on the Righteous, and His ears are open to their prayers; but the face of the LORD is against those who do evil."; is in there! (1 Peter 3:12)
"For it is better, if it is the will of GOD, to suffer for doing good than doing evil.";is in there! (1 Peter 3:17)
"If you are reproached for the name of Christ, blessed are you, for the Spirit of glory and of GOD rests upon you. On their part He is blasphemed, but on your part He is Glorified!" is in there. (1 Peter 4:14)
Keep playing crazy and confused. You're running out of time.
"...Surely I am coming quickly." Amen. Even so, come LORD Jesus!
I don't think I...
minded the hatred and jealousy. I even managed to overcome the cruelty and sadism. Eventually I out grew most of her ignorant prejudices and societal myths.
I over came the "root working" and "hexing". It is the stalking. It's the following me around pretending to love me while deliberately trying to destroy me.
She is in a stupor. "GOD has given them a spirit of stupor, Eyes that they should not see and ears that they should not hear, to this very day." (Romans 11:8)
"Blind and won't see." is what my granddaddy said.
Don't be stupid your whole life. Look around, check out your situation. Make sure you don't have a "Mathy Jane" in your life.
Life is too short to suffer fools.
I over came the "root working" and "hexing". It is the stalking. It's the following me around pretending to love me while deliberately trying to destroy me.
She is in a stupor. "GOD has given them a spirit of stupor, Eyes that they should not see and ears that they should not hear, to this very day." (Romans 11:8)
"Blind and won't see." is what my granddaddy said.
Don't be stupid your whole life. Look around, check out your situation. Make sure you don't have a "Mathy Jane" in your life.
Life is too short to suffer fools.
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Yea, you might'a...
ruined me, snatched away or destroyed every dream I had. But, you ain't gon' laugh about it. No, you don't have to pretend to be sad. You don't even have to pretend to care. But, you not gon' laugh about it. You not gon' slander my name spreading lies about me to cover yo' a**!
I know you can't hep it. You 'splained that. I get that. Sumpin' went wrong. You got yo' wires twisted. Whut's good is bad, and whut's bad is good. I got dat! You made that clear.
No, you don't eva' hafta acknowledge that you is messed up. Don't nobody hafta say nuttin'. Don't nun of yo' no-count relatives hafta say a mumbling word. You know you did it! I know you did it! GAWD know you did it! That's all that matter.
That and ;"YOU gwine tuh hell dawthur!" He told you that enough. He told you that enuf to listen. You ain't nevah list-en. You ain't gon' list-en ni. But if dey one fast loose gal out dere that listen then it's worth it. If dey one dumb man in luv wid a 'ho, it's wurth it.
Naw, you ain't got to say you sorry. But, you sorry alright. Yea, you sho' sorry!
I know you can't hep it. You 'splained that. I get that. Sumpin' went wrong. You got yo' wires twisted. Whut's good is bad, and whut's bad is good. I got dat! You made that clear.
No, you don't eva' hafta acknowledge that you is messed up. Don't nobody hafta say nuttin'. Don't nun of yo' no-count relatives hafta say a mumbling word. You know you did it! I know you did it! GAWD know you did it! That's all that matter.
That and ;"YOU gwine tuh hell dawthur!" He told you that enough. He told you that enuf to listen. You ain't nevah list-en. You ain't gon' list-en ni. But if dey one fast loose gal out dere that listen then it's worth it. If dey one dumb man in luv wid a 'ho, it's wurth it.
Naw, you ain't got to say you sorry. But, you sorry alright. Yea, you sho' sorry!
The first thing ...
young people need to know is that the "devil" wants you to suffer. The devil wants you poor , broke and begging your whole life. That old devil wants to convince you that you can't do any better. The first thing that old evil spirit gives you is a list of reasons why you will never amount to anything. #1 is your color #2 is your hair, on and on.
If that old demon sees any potential in you she can't wait to scar you with vicious beatings and sexual molestation. The shame alone should keep your mouth shut. She is a bully but she will throw you a bone every now and then if you play along and help her keep her secrets.
No! she ain't "nevah" read that Bible she totes every where. That's a front! That's her ploy. The only passages that interest her are the ones she can use to enslave you. Like; "Honor thy MOTHER!"
She's laughing. Well she is pretending to be laughing. But, deep down inside she is scared. She knows the gig is up. No, she is still mad, still ignorant. Pray for "hur".
If that old demon sees any potential in you she can't wait to scar you with vicious beatings and sexual molestation. The shame alone should keep your mouth shut. She is a bully but she will throw you a bone every now and then if you play along and help her keep her secrets.
No! she ain't "nevah" read that Bible she totes every where. That's a front! That's her ploy. The only passages that interest her are the ones she can use to enslave you. Like; "Honor thy MOTHER!"
She's laughing. Well she is pretending to be laughing. But, deep down inside she is scared. She knows the gig is up. No, she is still mad, still ignorant. Pray for "hur".
A woman of dull understanding.
My grandfather was too intelligent, too much of a southern gentleman to call my "mother" what she was. He did call her a woman of "dull understanding". What he really meant was ; "Yo' ignut mama is dumb as a brick."
He would have been well within his rights to cuss her like a dog the way she did us. But, he never did that. He never called her a whore. She marched a different man into the house EVERY NIGHT while her husband served overseas. He watched her turn "whoredom" into "freaktum" and never said a mumbling word.
Did she really think she was that slick? Did she think she was fooling us? "Common", "common as bat s***!" That was the only comment made by most who knew her. Then would turn around and march her common a** to church every Sunday! Sitting just as proud on the front pew!
For some reason I think she thought "church attending" was a trade. I think she thought GOD would let her do what she pleased because she was so pretty, so "yalla", her hair was so straight; "didn't have a kink in it." She did what she pleased. What ever her appetite dictated; man, woman, child, pre-teen, what ever.
She could never be wrong. Call her out if you wanted to. You would be very lucky to crawl away bloody and bludgeoned with your life. She pretended that we didn't see, didn't know. We soon caught on and pretended the same.
Unfortunately we did not "live happily ever after". She murdered my grandfather. She sure did! She thinks she got away with it. I won't let her.
Her vicious brutal cruel treatment disguised by the word "mother" can't hide her any longer. Her "goofer dust" ain't working and I found out there is Power in that name Jesus!
No matter what my grandfather always had perfect peace. No matter what you did to him he always responded in a a Christ like manner.
His daughter was always a vicious ignorant primitive animal and he loved her dearly. Admonished her kindly. He got a bullet in the heart for his trouble. So I thought. Then one day I heard GOD say; "No, daughter! he got you!"
I am going to tell my story. Every where I go I am going to proudly proclaim my testimony!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
He would have been well within his rights to cuss her like a dog the way she did us. But, he never did that. He never called her a whore. She marched a different man into the house EVERY NIGHT while her husband served overseas. He watched her turn "whoredom" into "freaktum" and never said a mumbling word.
Did she really think she was that slick? Did she think she was fooling us? "Common", "common as bat s***!" That was the only comment made by most who knew her. Then would turn around and march her common a** to church every Sunday! Sitting just as proud on the front pew!
For some reason I think she thought "church attending" was a trade. I think she thought GOD would let her do what she pleased because she was so pretty, so "yalla", her hair was so straight; "didn't have a kink in it." She did what she pleased. What ever her appetite dictated; man, woman, child, pre-teen, what ever.
She could never be wrong. Call her out if you wanted to. You would be very lucky to crawl away bloody and bludgeoned with your life. She pretended that we didn't see, didn't know. We soon caught on and pretended the same.
Unfortunately we did not "live happily ever after". She murdered my grandfather. She sure did! She thinks she got away with it. I won't let her.
Her vicious brutal cruel treatment disguised by the word "mother" can't hide her any longer. Her "goofer dust" ain't working and I found out there is Power in that name Jesus!
No matter what my grandfather always had perfect peace. No matter what you did to him he always responded in a a Christ like manner.
His daughter was always a vicious ignorant primitive animal and he loved her dearly. Admonished her kindly. He got a bullet in the heart for his trouble. So I thought. Then one day I heard GOD say; "No, daughter! he got you!"
I am going to tell my story. Every where I go I am going to proudly proclaim my testimony!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
You can be a nit wit...
if you want to. It doesn't mean I have to be one. Just because some man was no senseED enough to hand you his check with out cashing it for years, doesn't mean eva'body is a fool.
I know you got used to people doin' yo' biddin'. You did'in' fool every body. Some people saw thru yo'. Yo' color and "beauty" didn't impress eva'body.
Bottom line, at some point character counts for something. There are some "churches" that won't have you. There are some "churches" that will tell you about yo'sef. You don't hafta go to Harvard to know GOD's WORD. Ray Charles can see from the grave that you ain't living right.
Fear you!? Why? If you had any real power you sho' wud have mo' to show fa' it!
GOD still luv ya'. GOD jest lak dat. He understands and suffers fools.
Ain't GOD Good! Praise the LAWD!
I know you got used to people doin' yo' biddin'. You did'in' fool every body. Some people saw thru yo'. Yo' color and "beauty" didn't impress eva'body.
Bottom line, at some point character counts for something. There are some "churches" that won't have you. There are some "churches" that will tell you about yo'sef. You don't hafta go to Harvard to know GOD's WORD. Ray Charles can see from the grave that you ain't living right.
Fear you!? Why? If you had any real power you sho' wud have mo' to show fa' it!
GOD still luv ya'. GOD jest lak dat. He understands and suffers fools.
Ain't GOD Good! Praise the LAWD!
Yea, you're...
bossy. You real good at tellin' other people what to do or tellin' them what they ought to do. Making out like you're so great, like you life has been so smooth. To let you tell it you are a mini goddess, a soothe-sayer, a medium, a seer, some kind of prophetess or sump'in.
Did you see this!? You the one that said; "n**** born with a veil ova' his a**, can't tell you nuttin' till it come to pass."
It don't pay to be stubborn. Seem lak to me, seem like I wudda' learned sump'in by ni! Seem like I wud-duh seen whur sinning , lying and general fornicating wudden' paying off. Seem to me lak I wuddah changed.
But, you keep doing it yo' way. Keep sprinkin' yo' dust. Keep making yo' luddle bags, yo' luddle pillows. Didn't do nuttin' but make you shame. Made you lie and scheme.
"Just and honest due" is sho' nuff' real ni! Relax, you ain't got but a luddle taste of what GOD got stored up fa' you.
Naw, you don't haffta repent. GO aftah GOD wid a switch you luddle piss ant. I blieve GOD take in consideration stupidity. He got a place in His heart fa' duh dim-witted. He sho' do.
Did you see this!? You the one that said; "n**** born with a veil ova' his a**, can't tell you nuttin' till it come to pass."
It don't pay to be stubborn. Seem lak to me, seem like I wudda' learned sump'in by ni! Seem like I wud-duh seen whur sinning , lying and general fornicating wudden' paying off. Seem to me lak I wuddah changed.
But, you keep doing it yo' way. Keep sprinkin' yo' dust. Keep making yo' luddle bags, yo' luddle pillows. Didn't do nuttin' but make you shame. Made you lie and scheme.
"Just and honest due" is sho' nuff' real ni! Relax, you ain't got but a luddle taste of what GOD got stored up fa' you.
Naw, you don't haffta repent. GO aftah GOD wid a switch you luddle piss ant. I blieve GOD take in consideration stupidity. He got a place in His heart fa' duh dim-witted. He sho' do.
"Common People"
Common people have no ambition of their own. Totally vacuous, they have no new ideas. Common people sit on porches, morning, noon and night. They just sit there, doing nothing. Nothing but talking. Talking negatively. Talking about every body else. They are full of " wudda, cudda, shudda".
Common people don't like any one. As a matter of fact they are full of hate. Stagnated in their own lies. Common people will never grow because they will never try. They are lethargic and sedentary. Demand you be too. Don't ever try to out do a common person. Jealousy is the only thing that motivates them to action, to think, to plot, to plan.
If you know such a common person, hurry up and admit it and move on. You can't fix them. The idea of You offering to help them. The idea of you giving them helpful advice infuriates them. You only cause greater jealousy and hate. She will put a "root" on you. Laugh if you want to. GOD's WORD is replete with examples. The simple little knot head imps do it any way. Like little children playing with fire.
My mother went down on a graveyard in Wade, North Carolina and harvested some dirt off of a "murdered man's grave". The ignorant imp did it just like she was picking cotton. She gave that demon a place to dwell, her heart.
No, she already had the demon. She needed an excuse to release the awful demonic hatred that had built up inside her. We can say it stems from her rape as a child. I can not judge. I can only testify. I will not tell the stories of my brothers. I don't know their stories, not totally. I can only surmise. I know what she did to me.
I know how much she hates me. I know how she followed behind me destroying, bad mouthing, stank-eyeing. I know she has a nasty vulgar hateful mouth. I know she deserves the word "minister" about as much as my dog Cleo.
I'm not taking her to my church introducing her as a "Reverend". Not, any more any way.
"Into each life some rain must fall. If it never rained we would never grow." Anonymous
No matter what. If you were blessed with a good mother, great. If not, join the club. You are still culpable. You are still held to certain "Christian" standards. You can't see a person thirsting for water and deny them drink. Not when you have it.
If you love Christ you are going to suffer any way. "For it is better, if it is the will of GOD, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil." 1 Peter 3:17
Ganging up with the devil, becoming a disciple for Satan will not save you from trouble. True, you become a trouble maker, but you suffer right along with your victims.
Yes, you do care. That is why you go to such elaborate schemes to lie and deny. A Preacher! You! Some of your "friends" are still laughing.
"You can't serve two masers dawthur!" And you hated him for telling you that. You better hope that you out live me. Because if I am still around I intend to mark your grave with two words; "Ignorant Imp".
Stay in His WORD children! Read the Book! Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Peace engulf you, comfort and protect you, may it keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
Common people don't like any one. As a matter of fact they are full of hate. Stagnated in their own lies. Common people will never grow because they will never try. They are lethargic and sedentary. Demand you be too. Don't ever try to out do a common person. Jealousy is the only thing that motivates them to action, to think, to plot, to plan.
If you know such a common person, hurry up and admit it and move on. You can't fix them. The idea of You offering to help them. The idea of you giving them helpful advice infuriates them. You only cause greater jealousy and hate. She will put a "root" on you. Laugh if you want to. GOD's WORD is replete with examples. The simple little knot head imps do it any way. Like little children playing with fire.
My mother went down on a graveyard in Wade, North Carolina and harvested some dirt off of a "murdered man's grave". The ignorant imp did it just like she was picking cotton. She gave that demon a place to dwell, her heart.
No, she already had the demon. She needed an excuse to release the awful demonic hatred that had built up inside her. We can say it stems from her rape as a child. I can not judge. I can only testify. I will not tell the stories of my brothers. I don't know their stories, not totally. I can only surmise. I know what she did to me.
I know how much she hates me. I know how she followed behind me destroying, bad mouthing, stank-eyeing. I know she has a nasty vulgar hateful mouth. I know she deserves the word "minister" about as much as my dog Cleo.
I'm not taking her to my church introducing her as a "Reverend". Not, any more any way.
"Into each life some rain must fall. If it never rained we would never grow." Anonymous
No matter what. If you were blessed with a good mother, great. If not, join the club. You are still culpable. You are still held to certain "Christian" standards. You can't see a person thirsting for water and deny them drink. Not when you have it.
If you love Christ you are going to suffer any way. "For it is better, if it is the will of GOD, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil." 1 Peter 3:17
Ganging up with the devil, becoming a disciple for Satan will not save you from trouble. True, you become a trouble maker, but you suffer right along with your victims.
Yes, you do care. That is why you go to such elaborate schemes to lie and deny. A Preacher! You! Some of your "friends" are still laughing.
"You can't serve two masers dawthur!" And you hated him for telling you that. You better hope that you out live me. Because if I am still around I intend to mark your grave with two words; "Ignorant Imp".
Stay in His WORD children! Read the Book! Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Peace engulf you, comfort and protect you, may it keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
"Hey ignoramus!"
"Yea, you stupid! You can't do nuttin' 'bout GOD's Divine Order. You'a pawn baby. You a pawn. You don't control nuttin'! You can't determine any one's blessings or talent."
"So you don't think they deserve it! Who are you? Who asked you? You sic GOD on every body else. You pretend that you have a hook-up to GOD. "Well have a god-blessed-ED Day!" you scowl. We worship the same GOD fool. Well, we claim to any way."
"I discovered your god and your god ain't my GOD. You god is some "goofa dust", some red velvet bags, some Torot cards, some "misunderstanding." Your god is a little learning in the hands of a stupid n****". Your god is pretending to be perfect hoping and attempting to keep the whole world silent while you try to slip into the grave as Rev.Watson. Rev. Watson, the great Sunday school teacher, the great "prayer", the great actress of the theatre."
Well, it is not going to happen. That Mathy Jane of "sixteen" is still here, still wayward, still sneaky and untrustworthy.
If you can't care, you can't care. I can't help but see. I am not as stupid as you are or as you think I am. I am not that dummy you invented to protect you from the "family". I do notice things. I do have a memory. Most of all I have a loving GOD that looks out for me, that protects me, that leads and guides me every step of the way.
When your own mother will violate you for sixty years you are in bad shape. But Jesus told me; "When your mother and father forsake you I will be your comforter."
Praise The LORD!!!
"So you don't think they deserve it! Who are you? Who asked you? You sic GOD on every body else. You pretend that you have a hook-up to GOD. "Well have a god-blessed-ED Day!" you scowl. We worship the same GOD fool. Well, we claim to any way."
"I discovered your god and your god ain't my GOD. You god is some "goofa dust", some red velvet bags, some Torot cards, some "misunderstanding." Your god is a little learning in the hands of a stupid n****". Your god is pretending to be perfect hoping and attempting to keep the whole world silent while you try to slip into the grave as Rev.Watson. Rev. Watson, the great Sunday school teacher, the great "prayer", the great actress of the theatre."
Well, it is not going to happen. That Mathy Jane of "sixteen" is still here, still wayward, still sneaky and untrustworthy.
If you can't care, you can't care. I can't help but see. I am not as stupid as you are or as you think I am. I am not that dummy you invented to protect you from the "family". I do notice things. I do have a memory. Most of all I have a loving GOD that looks out for me, that protects me, that leads and guides me every step of the way.
When your own mother will violate you for sixty years you are in bad shape. But Jesus told me; "When your mother and father forsake you I will be your comforter."
Praise The LORD!!!
How much courage...
does it take to abuse a child? None. How much courage does it take to admit that you made a mistake and apologize? Evidently a lot. A lot more than you have.
He hung and died on that cross just so your sins might be forgiven. But you are too blind, too sorry, to full of false pride to accept His payment.
Your daddy told you; "The same things that make you laugh will turn around and make you cry."
It is still true. You can't intimidate or "root" me out of my truth. You can't destroy these manuscripts. You can't even die. You can't disappear like you want to. Well, you always wanted to be in the "limelight".
He hung and died on that cross just so your sins might be forgiven. But you are too blind, too sorry, to full of false pride to accept His payment.
Your daddy told you; "The same things that make you laugh will turn around and make you cry."
It is still true. You can't intimidate or "root" me out of my truth. You can't destroy these manuscripts. You can't even die. You can't disappear like you want to. Well, you always wanted to be in the "limelight".
Woe unto You, all you...
reprobates, liars and snakes. All you "Chesters" and molesters, all you "Jesus pimps", all ye ravenous wolves in sheep's clothing.
Jesus is coming back. He is looking for a church with out spot or raiment. So, He is not looking for you. You know that. But, you don't believe. You can't believe because you are a person of very weak faith. You have no trust. The little trust you do have you put in something primitive and ignorant.
You are foul, but mainly you are stupid. You "preach" with great conviction not believing a word you utter. True, we are saved by Grace. By His strips we are healed. You have to believe that. You have to know that in every fiber of your being.
No matter what. You are not getting off of this planet unpunished, unrecognized. You will pay the "very last mite."
Be careful! Take inventory. Are you a liar? a fornicator? a user? a spoiler? a menace? a blessing blocker? If so, why? Are you an imp? a volunteer slave for the devil?
Is your neck still stiff? Pray!
Jesus is coming back. He is looking for a church with out spot or raiment. So, He is not looking for you. You know that. But, you don't believe. You can't believe because you are a person of very weak faith. You have no trust. The little trust you do have you put in something primitive and ignorant.
You are foul, but mainly you are stupid. You "preach" with great conviction not believing a word you utter. True, we are saved by Grace. By His strips we are healed. You have to believe that. You have to know that in every fiber of your being.
No matter what. You are not getting off of this planet unpunished, unrecognized. You will pay the "very last mite."
Be careful! Take inventory. Are you a liar? a fornicator? a user? a spoiler? a menace? a blessing blocker? If so, why? Are you an imp? a volunteer slave for the devil?
Is your neck still stiff? Pray!
Monday, April 9, 2012
" I wuz gon'...
kill yo' huzband....I sho' wuz...kill'im deadER dan anythang in the drug stowe! Oh yea I wuz gon' take hiz life. I wuz only fourteen, but I had mo' sense than you. I said "LAWD if you want dis m********* to live you bedder not let dat n**** touch me no mo'! He bedder not evan look at me! (Yea, I said mf to GOD. 'scuze me LAWD...I didbn't know no bedder)
I got me'ah pocket knife. Every night for what seemed life years I sat on our back patio sharpening that knife, rubbing it back and forth between the grooves, between the bricks. I made up my mind and I wuz gon' do it! I didn't plan to go for the neck. I was going straight for his black heart. I rehearsed it, practiced how I was going to plunge that knife into his perverted heart ova' and ova'.
For some reason I nevah plotted yo' murder. I did plot many a murder. Dear LORD thank you for delivering me. Thank you for saving me.
No, I didn't know you were behind it. Did I suspect it? Yes. You were pretty carnal.
I cudden blieve it though. That wuz too hard. It still makes me sick.
The fact that you had sense enuf to hide it so cleverly only makes it wouse. The mo' the LAWD reveals about you, the worser and worser you get. You bedder hurry up and die! I can't take no mo'!"
Luv,
yo' dawthur
Gwen
I got me'ah pocket knife. Every night for what seemed life years I sat on our back patio sharpening that knife, rubbing it back and forth between the grooves, between the bricks. I made up my mind and I wuz gon' do it! I didn't plan to go for the neck. I was going straight for his black heart. I rehearsed it, practiced how I was going to plunge that knife into his perverted heart ova' and ova'.
For some reason I nevah plotted yo' murder. I did plot many a murder. Dear LORD thank you for delivering me. Thank you for saving me.
No, I didn't know you were behind it. Did I suspect it? Yes. You were pretty carnal.
I cudden blieve it though. That wuz too hard. It still makes me sick.
The fact that you had sense enuf to hide it so cleverly only makes it wouse. The mo' the LAWD reveals about you, the worser and worser you get. You bedder hurry up and die! I can't take no mo'!"
Luv,
yo' dawthur
Gwen
No, I don't know...
what you know. I don't know what kind of ideas are floating around in your empty head. I am glad it is not me. I am glad that I have never been a slave to lust. Did your sick perversion push me to my strong resolve? Perhaps? I am the winner, the victor.
I must say that I feel the sorriest for you. Any grown woman that allows herself to be jealous of infants, babies, small children, has to be in agony.
It is not funny. It is a revelation. I kept reading Revelation 2:20-29. I've questioned GOD a thousand times. Asking him when;"When LORD? when are you going to lay this "woman" on her bed of affliction?" The Dear LORD showed me, revealed to me that you've been on your bed of affliction for over seventy years.
When you can't control your "animalistic" impulses you are on a bed of affliction. When your children and loved ones need you and your first jealous envious thought is to lead them astray. When a mother knowingly puts her children, her sons, in harms way for a few pennies, she is on a bed of affliction.
When a woman deliberately stalks the children she did nothing but abuse, she is on a bed of affliction.
When a woman calculates and carries out the greatest murder every perpetuated on the greatest man I ever knew outside of Jesus, she is on a bed of affliction.
When a woman can't attend her granddaughter's graduation from Boston University without publicly writhing with jealousy, she is on a bed of affliction.
When a woman of beauty and intelligence is too sorry and lazy to pursue her own dreams, but would rather spend her entire long life dashing the dreams of every one dumb enough to share with her, that is a woman suffering. That is a woman in bondage. No, Mathy, you don't have to die and go to hell. You've lived in "hell" your entire life.
No, you are not suffering with cancer, diabetes, a stroke, a heart attack. You have a new hip, a new knee. You have enough stupid men lined up to take care of all your financial needs for the rest of your miserable life. Your cowardly "church" is too busy fleecing blind sheeplets to expose you.
The vast majority of people will leave you alone. They will never say a mumbling word until you are safely in the ground. Those that believe in ghosts will still remain silent.
You came. You saw. You conquered and You Lost!
"Your pride destroyed you dawthur. Pride!...pride goeth before a fall. Yes, you did. You fell decades ago...jest nevah had sense enuf to know it."
Stay in His WORD children. Pray when your feet hit the floor. Pray for the indwelling of His Holy Spirit. Pray to never become a rebellious, lying, fallen "woman". Pray for GOD's courage, His wisdom. Ask GOD to lead and guide you every step of the way. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Peace engulf you, protect you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
I must say that I feel the sorriest for you. Any grown woman that allows herself to be jealous of infants, babies, small children, has to be in agony.
It is not funny. It is a revelation. I kept reading Revelation 2:20-29. I've questioned GOD a thousand times. Asking him when;"When LORD? when are you going to lay this "woman" on her bed of affliction?" The Dear LORD showed me, revealed to me that you've been on your bed of affliction for over seventy years.
When you can't control your "animalistic" impulses you are on a bed of affliction. When your children and loved ones need you and your first jealous envious thought is to lead them astray. When a mother knowingly puts her children, her sons, in harms way for a few pennies, she is on a bed of affliction.
When a woman deliberately stalks the children she did nothing but abuse, she is on a bed of affliction.
When a woman calculates and carries out the greatest murder every perpetuated on the greatest man I ever knew outside of Jesus, she is on a bed of affliction.
When a woman can't attend her granddaughter's graduation from Boston University without publicly writhing with jealousy, she is on a bed of affliction.
When a woman of beauty and intelligence is too sorry and lazy to pursue her own dreams, but would rather spend her entire long life dashing the dreams of every one dumb enough to share with her, that is a woman suffering. That is a woman in bondage. No, Mathy, you don't have to die and go to hell. You've lived in "hell" your entire life.
No, you are not suffering with cancer, diabetes, a stroke, a heart attack. You have a new hip, a new knee. You have enough stupid men lined up to take care of all your financial needs for the rest of your miserable life. Your cowardly "church" is too busy fleecing blind sheeplets to expose you.
The vast majority of people will leave you alone. They will never say a mumbling word until you are safely in the ground. Those that believe in ghosts will still remain silent.
You came. You saw. You conquered and You Lost!
"Your pride destroyed you dawthur. Pride!...pride goeth before a fall. Yes, you did. You fell decades ago...jest nevah had sense enuf to know it."
Stay in His WORD children. Pray when your feet hit the floor. Pray for the indwelling of His Holy Spirit. Pray to never become a rebellious, lying, fallen "woman". Pray for GOD's courage, His wisdom. Ask GOD to lead and guide you every step of the way. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Peace engulf you, protect you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Pray tell...
does GOD's Mighty Truth offend thee? Is it me? Am I the one you really hate? It is GOD and His Truth that you hate! You consummate coward.
Gather together with your weak dwindling posse. Grow weaker and weaker. Become minute. Disappear. The world will not mourn you or miss you.
You will not wear His mantle. You will not continue to slander my grandfather's good name.
How dare you hate me, continue to try to destroy me for daring to speak GOD's WORD.
For eighty-six years you have lived the life of a rank reprobate. You knew better. Know better now.
It is another Ester Sunday. I hope no one put you on "program". You lived to be on program. You lived to be recognized by man. You love phony praise. Too bad you can't discern the difference.
"HE rose!" HE rose for you and me. He rose for us. He is still calling out of darkness, still delivering from evil. Still forgiving. To GOD be the Glory!
Gather together with your weak dwindling posse. Grow weaker and weaker. Become minute. Disappear. The world will not mourn you or miss you.
You will not wear His mantle. You will not continue to slander my grandfather's good name.
How dare you hate me, continue to try to destroy me for daring to speak GOD's WORD.
For eighty-six years you have lived the life of a rank reprobate. You knew better. Know better now.
It is another Ester Sunday. I hope no one put you on "program". You lived to be on program. You lived to be recognized by man. You love phony praise. Too bad you can't discern the difference.
"HE rose!" HE rose for you and me. He rose for us. He is still calling out of darkness, still delivering from evil. Still forgiving. To GOD be the Glory!
Feigning ignorance...
will not help you. In other words pretending that you don't know what the WORD says will not protect you. You will be held to every letter of GOD's law. You know that. You always knew. Rebellious and wayward you were determined to have your way. And so you did.
For some reason "Mathy" always thought anything done in secret, in the dark, any taboo secret, was permissible for her. [What's done on duh ship stay on duh ship.] All she had to do was lie and deny, "cop a bad attitude", brutalize and threaten, have a "s*** hemorrhage" if needed, cuss, curse, "root", hex, put the "bad mouth" and "evil stank eye" on and she would be o.k. She would remain on top. Remaining on top is her only motivation. She never wanted much in life. A second hand Cadillac that she could lie and pretend that she bought brand new. More clothes, a prettier house, a better job, lighter skin, better hair. She just wanted things she didn't have to work hard to get. A little lying, a little stealing, a little scheming. After all 'GOD knew hur heart.'
Just attend "church" every Sunday. Send up phony praise that she stopped believing over eighty years ago.
"I am going to do what I please. I am going to do what feels good to me. I will let my "lust" control me. I am going to say all the right things at the right time."
"I am going to keep Jesus in my mouth, never meaning one word, one syllable. You think the Bible is not real? Just another tool designed for your exploitation?
You don't look so good now that you are incredibly old and dried up. You lost your flare. You lost your mojo. Who can you fool? Who is still dumb enough, blind enough, to listen to you?
You may think she never wronged you. You may believe that she really loves you. I will remind you; look at her fruit.
Were you not constantly frustrated, manipulated, enticed, lured, led astray, only to be abandoned and laughed at? I will not abide her. Revelation 2:20 -29 reminds me. Saves me! Glorifies me! Thank You Jesus!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing." Nothing, no one can or will ever change that fact.
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Peace engulf you, cloak and protect you, keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
For some reason "Mathy" always thought anything done in secret, in the dark, any taboo secret, was permissible for her. [What's done on duh ship stay on duh ship.] All she had to do was lie and deny, "cop a bad attitude", brutalize and threaten, have a "s*** hemorrhage" if needed, cuss, curse, "root", hex, put the "bad mouth" and "evil stank eye" on and she would be o.k. She would remain on top. Remaining on top is her only motivation. She never wanted much in life. A second hand Cadillac that she could lie and pretend that she bought brand new. More clothes, a prettier house, a better job, lighter skin, better hair. She just wanted things she didn't have to work hard to get. A little lying, a little stealing, a little scheming. After all 'GOD knew hur heart.'
Just attend "church" every Sunday. Send up phony praise that she stopped believing over eighty years ago.
"I am going to do what I please. I am going to do what feels good to me. I will let my "lust" control me. I am going to say all the right things at the right time."
You don't look so good now that you are incredibly old and dried up. You lost your flare. You lost your mojo. Who can you fool? Who is still dumb enough, blind enough, to listen to you?
You may think she never wronged you. You may believe that she really loves you. I will remind you; look at her fruit.
Were you not constantly frustrated, manipulated, enticed, lured, led astray, only to be abandoned and laughed at? I will not abide her. Revelation 2:20 -29 reminds me. Saves me! Glorifies me! Thank You Jesus!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing." Nothing, no one can or will ever change that fact.
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Peace engulf you, cloak and protect you, keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
Friday, April 6, 2012
"Journey to Wholeness" (part 2)
My grandfather was a tobacco farmer. He was a wizard with plants. He taught me how to grow things. No, he never tried to push his way of thinking or learning onto me. He taught by example. I learned by observing him.
"We the family inherited a great legacy and heritage, our lives have been made richer by having a father and uncle like him. He was a legend in his own time, a philosopher, a man full of wisdom. He taught by precept and example, a peace maker...." on and on she rambled his praises. THERE IS A GLARING DISCONNECT HERE! It is a fact! It is a crime of the highest magnitude! A clever demon she MURDERED her own father!
No, you never got away. You got a pass. GOD gave you time and space to repent.
"He taught us that it is not the quantity of a man's years, but the quality." That's what she put in the proud "Obsequiae" she wrote; "We the family wish to say the cuff link has been broken, but we know one day when the book is opened and Christ shall return, Jerome Walters' name is in the book. His last and fleeting breath..."When I get to the river, I got my letter, everything is alright, I got my letter and I can cross over."
First of all there was no "We the family". The bossy, take-over, "know-eva'thang" dictator took over the entire funeral. Never consulted one single person. Ran over her "brothers" like a Mack truck. Went out and bought herself four or five lavish outfits, made sure her long white Cadillac was washed, waxed and clean. Made sure the "photographer" took plenty pictures of her only.
GLARING MISTAKE #1 - How or why would a man that was as good as you claimed in that long five page obituary you wrote, kill himself!?
****Attention Readers! The rest of my journey to wholeness is in my biography. I am in search of an honest, dedicated agent, publisher, editor and professional typist. I know that GOD will continue to supply all my needs.
Stay in His WORD. GOD will work it out. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Peace engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
Thursday, April 5, 2012
Let me tell ...
you something. GOD did not place you in a "normal" blessed family for you to feel better than other people. He didn't place you in an "upper class" for you to look down on the "poor misfortunate".
You are not better than anyone else! You are not taking that fine home or car with you. No one will care about how good looking you used to be.
GOD will ask you. He will judge. What did you do for my children? What did you do for the suffering?
Did you know that she was a demon? Did you pretend to not see? Did you agree with that demon? Do you think "color" matters? Do you think your money and things will save you?
Do you think any rank reprobate is smart enough to out smart GOD!?
You are not better than anyone else! You are not taking that fine home or car with you. No one will care about how good looking you used to be.
GOD will ask you. He will judge. What did you do for my children? What did you do for the suffering?
Did you know that she was a demon? Did you pretend to not see? Did you agree with that demon? Do you think "color" matters? Do you think your money and things will save you?
Do you think any rank reprobate is smart enough to out smart GOD!?
I started out...
as some one's thrown away trash. My cousin calls them "throwED away babies". You've seen them. Often "black", unkempt, ashy, snotty nosed. Dirty and smelly, old nasty diapers handing off of them.
That is not the worse thing they suffer. Some do not know when they will eat again. Some are horribly violated, sexually and physically.
No, I am not talking about some far away god forsaken county in Africa. I am not talking about Biafra. I'm talking about right here. Right here in America. The greatest country in the entire world.
I'm one of them. My "mother" tried to kill her own brother for criticizing her for letting me run around in an old pair of dirty "raggedy draws". Offered to kill him! Blamed my father. She was standing there in fine "raiment". She didn't think I deserved better because my father refused to marry her. She believed that I should be punished for making the mistake of being born black. "Hi Im gonna have such a black a** chile! light as I am?"
Now she is old and thinks that I remember too much. No, she has not stopped being a demon. As a matter of fact she has only gotten worse. "Waxed worse and worse" just like the Bible said she would.
Pray for her. Pray for all men and women like her. We will have a better world. GOD promises.
For some reason I started collecting trash, old juice bottles and started turning them into beautiful art. Why not? GOD took me, some one's trash and turned me into something beautiful.
To GOD be the Glory!
Much Love,
Rachel
That is not the worse thing they suffer. Some do not know when they will eat again. Some are horribly violated, sexually and physically.
No, I am not talking about some far away god forsaken county in Africa. I am not talking about Biafra. I'm talking about right here. Right here in America. The greatest country in the entire world.
I'm one of them. My "mother" tried to kill her own brother for criticizing her for letting me run around in an old pair of dirty "raggedy draws". Offered to kill him! Blamed my father. She was standing there in fine "raiment". She didn't think I deserved better because my father refused to marry her. She believed that I should be punished for making the mistake of being born black. "Hi Im gonna have such a black a** chile! light as I am?"
Now she is old and thinks that I remember too much. No, she has not stopped being a demon. As a matter of fact she has only gotten worse. "Waxed worse and worse" just like the Bible said she would.
Pray for her. Pray for all men and women like her. We will have a better world. GOD promises.
For some reason I started collecting trash, old juice bottles and started turning them into beautiful art. Why not? GOD took me, some one's trash and turned me into something beautiful.
To GOD be the Glory!
Much Love,
Think about it!
Approximately four million human beings were still held in bondage in 1865 when the Civil War ended. After the war, after the 13th, 14th, and 15th amendments "people of color" remained in bondage.
So concerned with social mores and societal laws and expectations, millions lived and died as "slaves", coons, some one's property. Most former slaves stayed right there, remained on the same plantation. Most insisted on carrying the master's sir name. Make sure you know, most slaves did not hate their former masters! It is complicated. Who feed them, clothed them, named their children? Master-slave relationships were fascinating, intriguing, unique. Some vile slave owners deliberately impregnated their own daughters, then sold them off. But, many masters educated their slave progeny, sent them to private boarding schools and colleges in Europe. Some white men married that "black concubine" just as soon as the institution ended. Many white men left all of their wealth to their black loved ones.
I've never held the notion that "white" people are the sole source of the "plight" of the black man. Take responsibility for your own actions! Woman! you sexually abused your own children! You lived your life as a foul whore! WHAT DID YOU EXPECT?
No, I'm not going to let you off the hook! You ought to have sense enough to be ashamed of yourself! Calling me a lot of filthy names and convincing the "blind" that I am lying will not work.
The fact is you are too despicable to recognize. Some people would rather not know about you. We let you go. We let you get away with murder. But, you couldn't stop. Your evil vile nature could not be satisfied.
Why would you get up in the church "preaching", telling your members that your daddy couldn't hold out, "cud'den wait on duh LAWD!" Is that what I needed you to say to me to stir me to act? "The wicked fleeth when no one pursueth."
While "racism" is certainly still an issue. Let's tell the truth! The real reason so many people fail, suffer, become drug addicted, suicidal or just generally messed up can be traced directly back to their "mother".
If you have a good "mother", a woman blessed to have natural maternal instinct, you have no one to blame for your mistakes, for your failure to launch. Whoa! before you go there, by the same token, if you have the worse possible lying, sadistic sociopath, you have no one to blame for your failure to launch but yourself.
We all have GOD. We all have an intercessor, a segue to power. GOD gave us His WORD! We can call on Him. We can ask Him. We can pray. Yes, it may involve some "long suffering". Have no fear, GOD is just refining you, preparing you.
To GOD be the Glory. I am a debtor to the wise and to the unwise. In every experience GOD sends you a lesson. GOD will pull your coat. He will give you the power of discernment. You do have to live right. "The Just shall live by faith."
Keep living right. Keep loving. Keep trusting GOD. Do listen to yourself. Do look at yourself. Don't get involved with a "church" that will give any old reprobate a license to "preach". Listen to your preacher. Does he or she sound like a man or woman of GOD? Or do they sound like pimps? Are they greedy? insensitive? Can you see their "aura"? Practice discernment!
"Fear no man!" Four million black souls held in bondage. Excusing their misery , accepting their fate, blaming the white man. Claiming; "I's a slave!"
What were they waiting on? True, some black men did fight on the side of the Union. Some ran away, joined up with the Union soldiers. Some were confiscated and called "contraband". Some fought on the side of the Confederacy. Some hid the gold and silver from the lecherous Union soldiers, just to give it back to the master. Many were honored to be owned by Mister Fine Genteel Southern Aristocrats. They bragged; "I's blong to Mister Alexander. I's quality nigga! I's Mister Alexander's nigga!"
I think the greatest fun I've ever had was reading volumes of "Slave Narratives". Laughed with my ignorant "mother" about it. She payed me back with envy and jealousy. Worked "roots" on me.
(GOD told you that no weapon formed against me would prosper. But you didn't listen. You have never listened. "Witchcraft" is a form of rebelliousness.)
Most just sat there, lived in "fear" and waited on a handout. They lived in fear and spread fear. Some used the excuse of "I's a slave" to do the unthinkable, the ungodly.
You might not stop. You may never confess. But, I will tell. The world will be more careful. Maybe some will actually read and study their Bibles for themselves.
GOD told you not to be covetous, envious, jealous. GOD told you not to lie and plot. He told you not to slander. Calling me a liar will not continue to work. Every one is not dumb.
When were you not knee deep in your mess? Name, identify one year in your life when there was no shocking controversy concerning you. But, I'm the fool. Granddaddy was the fool. All six of your children are lying backstabbers. You continue to hate every body, continue to lie and slander, and demand to be honored.
You continue to call every body a "dim-wit". You continue to lie and plot. It is 2012, you are eighty-six and you are still a slave! No, Mathy Jane, you can't blame your sorry life on the "White Man".
You can't blame your sorry life on me, on your daddy, on your mother. It's YOU! No, I don't have to honor you. I don't have to pretend that license to preach the A.M.E. Zion "church" gave you as proof, as justification , as evidence that you are anything but what GOD says you are.
Stay in His WORD children. Read and study your Bible for yourself. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, potect you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
So concerned with social mores and societal laws and expectations, millions lived and died as "slaves", coons, some one's property. Most former slaves stayed right there, remained on the same plantation. Most insisted on carrying the master's sir name. Make sure you know, most slaves did not hate their former masters! It is complicated. Who feed them, clothed them, named their children? Master-slave relationships were fascinating, intriguing, unique. Some vile slave owners deliberately impregnated their own daughters, then sold them off. But, many masters educated their slave progeny, sent them to private boarding schools and colleges in Europe. Some white men married that "black concubine" just as soon as the institution ended. Many white men left all of their wealth to their black loved ones.
I've never held the notion that "white" people are the sole source of the "plight" of the black man. Take responsibility for your own actions! Woman! you sexually abused your own children! You lived your life as a foul whore! WHAT DID YOU EXPECT?
No, I'm not going to let you off the hook! You ought to have sense enough to be ashamed of yourself! Calling me a lot of filthy names and convincing the "blind" that I am lying will not work.
The fact is you are too despicable to recognize. Some people would rather not know about you. We let you go. We let you get away with murder. But, you couldn't stop. Your evil vile nature could not be satisfied.
Why would you get up in the church "preaching", telling your members that your daddy couldn't hold out, "cud'den wait on duh LAWD!" Is that what I needed you to say to me to stir me to act? "The wicked fleeth when no one pursueth."
While "racism" is certainly still an issue. Let's tell the truth! The real reason so many people fail, suffer, become drug addicted, suicidal or just generally messed up can be traced directly back to their "mother".
If you have a good "mother", a woman blessed to have natural maternal instinct, you have no one to blame for your mistakes, for your failure to launch. Whoa! before you go there, by the same token, if you have the worse possible lying, sadistic sociopath, you have no one to blame for your failure to launch but yourself.
We all have GOD. We all have an intercessor, a segue to power. GOD gave us His WORD! We can call on Him. We can ask Him. We can pray. Yes, it may involve some "long suffering". Have no fear, GOD is just refining you, preparing you.
To GOD be the Glory. I am a debtor to the wise and to the unwise. In every experience GOD sends you a lesson. GOD will pull your coat. He will give you the power of discernment. You do have to live right. "The Just shall live by faith."
Keep living right. Keep loving. Keep trusting GOD. Do listen to yourself. Do look at yourself. Don't get involved with a "church" that will give any old reprobate a license to "preach". Listen to your preacher. Does he or she sound like a man or woman of GOD? Or do they sound like pimps? Are they greedy? insensitive? Can you see their "aura"? Practice discernment!
"Fear no man!" Four million black souls held in bondage. Excusing their misery , accepting their fate, blaming the white man. Claiming; "I's a slave!"
What were they waiting on? True, some black men did fight on the side of the Union. Some ran away, joined up with the Union soldiers. Some were confiscated and called "contraband". Some fought on the side of the Confederacy. Some hid the gold and silver from the lecherous Union soldiers, just to give it back to the master. Many were honored to be owned by Mister Fine Genteel Southern Aristocrats. They bragged; "I's blong to Mister Alexander. I's quality nigga! I's Mister Alexander's nigga!"
I think the greatest fun I've ever had was reading volumes of "Slave Narratives". Laughed with my ignorant "mother" about it. She payed me back with envy and jealousy. Worked "roots" on me.
(GOD told you that no weapon formed against me would prosper. But you didn't listen. You have never listened. "Witchcraft" is a form of rebelliousness.)
Most just sat there, lived in "fear" and waited on a handout. They lived in fear and spread fear. Some used the excuse of "I's a slave" to do the unthinkable, the ungodly.
You might not stop. You may never confess. But, I will tell. The world will be more careful. Maybe some will actually read and study their Bibles for themselves.
GOD told you not to be covetous, envious, jealous. GOD told you not to lie and plot. He told you not to slander. Calling me a liar will not continue to work. Every one is not dumb.
When were you not knee deep in your mess? Name, identify one year in your life when there was no shocking controversy concerning you. But, I'm the fool. Granddaddy was the fool. All six of your children are lying backstabbers. You continue to hate every body, continue to lie and slander, and demand to be honored.
You continue to call every body a "dim-wit". You continue to lie and plot. It is 2012, you are eighty-six and you are still a slave! No, Mathy Jane, you can't blame your sorry life on the "White Man".
You can't blame your sorry life on me, on your daddy, on your mother. It's YOU! No, I don't have to honor you. I don't have to pretend that license to preach the A.M.E. Zion "church" gave you as proof, as justification , as evidence that you are anything but what GOD says you are.
Stay in His WORD children. Read and study your Bible for yourself. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, potect you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel
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