I will not be enslaved by EVIL. Our "connection" is an accident of birth. You didn't want me and I would have never picked you. GOD saw differently. Yes, GOD has a purpose, He has a plan.
I will not allow the excruciating pain and relentless demons sway me from GOD's purpose for my life. I will not drown in their sea.
Dear LORD thank you for sparing me. Thank you for your protection and intercession.
I am sure that I will go to my grave mystified, puzzled by her EVIL. How can anyone be so evil so long?
I look back over my life in horror. Thank you LORD for my grandfather that stood in the gap. I know that she beat and abused me as a baby. I feel it in my spirit and I watched her viciously beat my little brother when he was a baby. I cried for him when she cursed him and called him ugly everyday of his life.
It is sad but it is the TRUTH. The only interest this woman has ever had in me has been sexual. What kind of mother arranges and orchestrates the sexual abuse of her little girl? This woman is a sick monster that made a very tragic mistake. She should have never used GOD as a ruse to violate his children.
I needed to know, the World needs to know that our world is crawling with these foul demons. Sick demented terrorists they demand to be feared, revered, loved, placated, honored. WRONG! Your name will ROT!
You will not torture, destroy, decimate and MURDER and escape the wrath of Almighty GOD.
You did it. You ruled for eighty-five years. What did you gain? You can't even look in the mirror. You can't open your mouth without spewing lies. You ruined your OWN life Mathy Jane. You could have done better. You didn't have to turn out so sorry.
Make sure that you don't follow her path. Selfish lust put her on this path, greed and arrogance kept her where she is.
Mathy Jane you are a lost amoral creature and you must pray and fast if you are to have any hope for salvation. You must call on the name of Jesus!
In the Name of JESUS BIND THIS DEMON LORD!!! Bind her demons. "Deliver US from EVIL for thine is POWER and the GLORY!"
Children if you have a demon in your life shun them. If a loved one has given their life over to EVIL trust GOD to save you. What ever you do don't you dare fear that creature. "FEAR NO MAN!"
Study your Bible. Stay in prayer. Be Blessed!
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Life is a Vapor
"Here today, gone tomorrow." Poof! and it is all over. We come to this earth, journey briefly, then we are gone.
From the moment we breathe our first breath someone is telling us what to do, how to live, who to love, what to think. At some point many of us realize that we must learn to think for ourselves.
You will discover on your sojourn that there are some people that will not let you. They demand to rule you, to control you, to crucify you. They are not motivated by love or concern. They have ONE mission, one interest, your destruction, your demise.
These creatures are relentless. You can not stop them. Once a person decides to live for EVIL you need to run. "From such stay away."
Just make sure that you don't follow their path. Never lie, never engage in backstabbing and backbiting. Don't do things that you are ashamed to admit that you did.
When you see a demon, when you know that a person is EVIL, do not shrink. Confront them boldly with GOD's WORD.
Never go along with wrong doing for any reason. Most importantly, LEARN TO THINK FOR YOURSELF!
Dear LORD, thank you for your WORD. Thank you for your revelations. Thank you for Righting Wrongs! Thank you for casting out demons.
To GOD be the Glory!
"Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
From the moment we breathe our first breath someone is telling us what to do, how to live, who to love, what to think. At some point many of us realize that we must learn to think for ourselves.
You will discover on your sojourn that there are some people that will not let you. They demand to rule you, to control you, to crucify you. They are not motivated by love or concern. They have ONE mission, one interest, your destruction, your demise.
These creatures are relentless. You can not stop them. Once a person decides to live for EVIL you need to run. "From such stay away."
Just make sure that you don't follow their path. Never lie, never engage in backstabbing and backbiting. Don't do things that you are ashamed to admit that you did.
When you see a demon, when you know that a person is EVIL, do not shrink. Confront them boldly with GOD's WORD.
Never go along with wrong doing for any reason. Most importantly, LEARN TO THINK FOR YOURSELF!
Dear LORD, thank you for your WORD. Thank you for your revelations. Thank you for Righting Wrongs! Thank you for casting out demons.
To GOD be the Glory!
"Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
There Are Some People
There are some people on this earth that have to be described as "an abomination". There are some events on this earth that are due entirely to GOD's miraculous intervention. There are some people on this earth that are truly blessed.
I know a woman that is "an abomination". The poor woman suffers from demon possession and ignorance. She lived a horrible life for a very long time. I wonder if she ever wonders what might have been? What if she had not dissuaded her son from attending West Point? What if she had not destroyed his brilliant medical practice? What if she hadn't abused him beyond any human being's ability to endure?
What if she had not abused her daughter repeatedly just for the "fun" of it? What if she had not destroyed all of her manuscripts? What if she had been a real mother, nurturing and honest?
What if she had never destroyed her son's musical career? The son that started a touring band when he was fourteen. What if she had really wanted him to be successful? Would he have ended up in Cameo with his friends? What if she quit lying to him about who his father really is?
What if she quit lying and gave her life to Christ? What if her wimpy friends and relatives could find the courage to tell her the TRUTH about herself?
It was GOD that miraculously intervened in my life and saved me from a fate that I fear to imagine. I am a person that is truly blessed, saved by the hand of GOD. I believe in the power of prayer. A great man, JR Walters, prayed for me. "The prayers of the righteous availeth much."
What if we ALL loved the LORD with every fiber of our being? What if we loved one another as we are commanded to?
What if YOU really cared about abused children with your actions not just your mouth?
What a wonderful World we ALL could enjoy.
"Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
I know a woman that is "an abomination". The poor woman suffers from demon possession and ignorance. She lived a horrible life for a very long time. I wonder if she ever wonders what might have been? What if she had not dissuaded her son from attending West Point? What if she had not destroyed his brilliant medical practice? What if she hadn't abused him beyond any human being's ability to endure?
What if she had not abused her daughter repeatedly just for the "fun" of it? What if she had not destroyed all of her manuscripts? What if she had been a real mother, nurturing and honest?
What if she had never destroyed her son's musical career? The son that started a touring band when he was fourteen. What if she had really wanted him to be successful? Would he have ended up in Cameo with his friends? What if she quit lying to him about who his father really is?
What if she quit lying and gave her life to Christ? What if her wimpy friends and relatives could find the courage to tell her the TRUTH about herself?
It was GOD that miraculously intervened in my life and saved me from a fate that I fear to imagine. I am a person that is truly blessed, saved by the hand of GOD. I believe in the power of prayer. A great man, JR Walters, prayed for me. "The prayers of the righteous availeth much."
What if we ALL loved the LORD with every fiber of our being? What if we loved one another as we are commanded to?
What if YOU really cared about abused children with your actions not just your mouth?
What a wonderful World we ALL could enjoy.
"Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
Saturday, March 26, 2011
I Don't Agree
According to Dr. Joan Tabachnick; 84% - 88% of sexual abusers are never reported. I think that number is much higher, it is probably more like 99%. Especially when the abuser is the victim's MOTHER! Who would tell on their own mother? I assure you, it is the most revolting feeling a person could ever have. You feel filthy, you feel like used garbage.
You must know that any woman low enough to abuse her own children is manipulative and maniacal, totally void of any scruples.
Our World is hurting, our children are in pain while we pretend to be happy and "normal". "Every one is so wonderful, life is so great. No one would ever do anything like that! She must be crazy! She must be on drugs."
I tell you this, any woman that would savagely mistreat her children "secretly" will murder her own father and laugh at you "secretly" for being so gullible.
"Ye shall know them by their fruit."
Peace,
Rachel
You must know that any woman low enough to abuse her own children is manipulative and maniacal, totally void of any scruples.
Our World is hurting, our children are in pain while we pretend to be happy and "normal". "Every one is so wonderful, life is so great. No one would ever do anything like that! She must be crazy! She must be on drugs."
I tell you this, any woman that would savagely mistreat her children "secretly" will murder her own father and laugh at you "secretly" for being so gullible.
"Ye shall know them by their fruit."
Peace,
Rachel
I Don't have to be Stupid
I don't have to be stupid just because you are stupid, Stupid! I don't have to cower in fear because of your homemade hoodoo, or threats of disinheritance, or your stash of illegal guns. I am going to "out" you if I have to do it all by myself.
Make sure that You know; "It is All in Divine Order!" You can not escape the wrath of Almighty GOD.
Yes, you are an enigma, a psychotic riddle, a confused demon, just another lost soul groping in darkness because you refuse to hear. Yes, you are a child of the KING that was delivered over to a reprobate mind. It's called Free Will. You willfully became a reprobate demon! You think that you are smarter than the whole World. There is one thing that you forgot. We share the same DNA. I am just as smart as you are, if not smarter. Your father was brilliant. He had a photographic memory. So do I.
I was the only little black child in my first grade class. You sent me to school looking homeless. I forgive you for that. But, those dry peanut butter sandwiches you had me gnawing on with nothing to drink. After begging you finally bought me a Superman lunch box. I don't know what you did with the thermos. I can't forget sitting in my "white" class with my "white" teacher gnawing on a dry crusty sandwich.
You deserve to be skinned alive. At eighty-five you deserve to be publicly flogged and skinned alive because you knew better.
Where you mad with me because *Cornelius didn't marry you? I'm sorry Mathy Jane, No man or woman wants to marry a rank a** ho. You have no morals! Your morals are too low! Your behavior is too common. You know this. Skillfully hiding your indiscretions doesn't turn you into a lady. "If a man haf'ta pay enough fa' it he will always call you a lady." Where did you get that ignorant rot from?
What is worse, an eighteen year old 'ho or and eighty-five year old 'ho? At least the eighteen year old has a chance for salvation.
I just want to remind you that You know that you made the wrong decision. Pride, ignorance and your vile cruelty will not let you repent or care.
Don't cry for me, it is beautiful children; "Know ye the TRUTH and the TRUTH shall set you free."
I am starting a conversation. Child abuse is a secret epidemic. Epidemic! Shame on us, shame on America, shame on our World.
Thank you LORD for your TRUTH. Vile selfish people live among us and with us confidently and comfortably. These demons rely on your fear, on your cowardice to keep their awful secrets. Don't do it! Out them!
TRUTH is liberating!
"Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
Make sure that You know; "It is All in Divine Order!" You can not escape the wrath of Almighty GOD.
Yes, you are an enigma, a psychotic riddle, a confused demon, just another lost soul groping in darkness because you refuse to hear. Yes, you are a child of the KING that was delivered over to a reprobate mind. It's called Free Will. You willfully became a reprobate demon! You think that you are smarter than the whole World. There is one thing that you forgot. We share the same DNA. I am just as smart as you are, if not smarter. Your father was brilliant. He had a photographic memory. So do I.
I was the only little black child in my first grade class. You sent me to school looking homeless. I forgive you for that. But, those dry peanut butter sandwiches you had me gnawing on with nothing to drink. After begging you finally bought me a Superman lunch box. I don't know what you did with the thermos. I can't forget sitting in my "white" class with my "white" teacher gnawing on a dry crusty sandwich.
You deserve to be skinned alive. At eighty-five you deserve to be publicly flogged and skinned alive because you knew better.
Where you mad with me because *Cornelius didn't marry you? I'm sorry Mathy Jane, No man or woman wants to marry a rank a** ho. You have no morals! Your morals are too low! Your behavior is too common. You know this. Skillfully hiding your indiscretions doesn't turn you into a lady. "If a man haf'ta pay enough fa' it he will always call you a lady." Where did you get that ignorant rot from?
What is worse, an eighteen year old 'ho or and eighty-five year old 'ho? At least the eighteen year old has a chance for salvation.
I just want to remind you that You know that you made the wrong decision. Pride, ignorance and your vile cruelty will not let you repent or care.
Don't cry for me, it is beautiful children; "Know ye the TRUTH and the TRUTH shall set you free."
I am starting a conversation. Child abuse is a secret epidemic. Epidemic! Shame on us, shame on America, shame on our World.
Thank you LORD for your TRUTH. Vile selfish people live among us and with us confidently and comfortably. These demons rely on your fear, on your cowardice to keep their awful secrets. Don't do it! Out them!
TRUTH is liberating!
"Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
Friday, March 25, 2011
Dear Mother,
"Mother" is the word that we were paid a quarter to call you. At four and five years old we were easily bribed. Calling you "mother" never bothered me. I always thought it was quite classy, dignified. Deep inside somehow I knew that it represented a new beginning, a fresh start for you. I was really still an infant but intuitively I knew you weren't right. I always knew something was wrong with you. I was a small child but I knew when you came around I was going to suffer.
I am not exaggerating, I felt your hatred in the womb. It is as mysterious as death. Who can explain it? It is the miraculous Power of Our Living LORD. It was GOD making intercession in my life. From the moment of my conception The LORD has been with me. My life is proof of the Goodness of GOD.
Cruelty wasn't a word in my vocabulary. I couldn't name it but You sure made me, made us, feel it everyday. I watched my brothers suffer at your hands, my grandfather, your many lovers. I felt your lacerating tongue EVERY day of my life.
You are a very CRUEL woman, you are now and you have always been. I am not going to ask you why because I know the answer. Demonic cruelty is your choice. Any one can change if they want to. Why didn't you ever want to change?
I am assuming that heartless diabolical EVIL is much too easy for you. Why change? You are getting away like a "fat rat".
Why so much hatred? Why the scam? I don't believe you have ever been "double minded", you're just a demon that pretends to be double minded. You are far too clever, far too successful in your foul deeds to be mentally ill. I love the way you always feigned "mental illness" when I would get too close to discovering the real you.
I will never say that there is no such thing as a "perfect crime" again. You successfully pulled off the greatest scam on earth. For eighty-five long years you have deluded yourself and many others into believing that you are a warm loving sanctified mother. You and I know better.
A heartless selfish demonic bull dagger you have made your entire family suffer all of your life.
You are twisted, some where in this life you got messed up. You have done too much wrong. Why the stealth? Why be underhanded and back stabbing?
You don't play fair Mathy Jane. You cheat. You love hating me and injuring me over and over. I am heart sick to know that a "mother" like you actually exist. You are so horrific few people believe my story and even fewer care.
"De 'mo you cry the less you PISS!"; I still hear that every day, sometimes all day. Sometimes I relive those awful beatings. Yes I remember and feel your scorching hot tongue every time you cussed me out.
You didn't have to take us from our grandfather. That was very selfish of you. Were we just another ploy, another way to pimp your dad? You never had to marry a man that you didn't love. Why did you make him suffer? If you didn't like the fact that he was "too black" why did you marry him?
I can sum you up in three words; berate, humiliate and sabotage. That's what you do. That's what you have always done. Do you know better? Yes. Will you do better? No!
I must admit I have enjoyed telling my story. It has been quite therapeutic. I am still healing and I have a very long way to go yet. But, I am thankful for my voice. I am thankful to GOD for giving me the opportunity to start this debate, to start a conversation about "family secrets". I will not tolerate child abusers. If I have to tell the entire World that my mother is one in order to save one child I will.
You went too far Mathy Jane, you went too far for far too long. You are a sadistic bully. You have no remorse. The saddest fact of all you have no regrets. You murdered a kind beautiful man simply because you could. Shooting granddaddy in the heart was just "smashing" another puppy. You have been secretly "smashing puppies" your entire life. You "smash puppies", then laugh, prowl for more prey, then smash some more puppies. Set them up with compliments and lavish them with gifts then slay them on the sly. That's your life, you are a selfish whore and you killed your daddy because you were tired of his TRUTH.
Who did you really want to kill? GOD. You did, you do, You want to kill GOD. You are an idiot and there is no hope for you.
Go ahead, go out of the world backwards just like you came in.
I do sincerely thank you. Your miserable treatment made me discover the LORD. Your constant unrelenting torture taught me trust Him. Broken, dejected, humbled and thrown away I searched the scriptures and found salvation.
"We've got to fulfill the Book." children. GOD's WORD is sure, salvation is free.
Stay in His WORD children. Be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
P.S. You can't kill the TRUTH and you can't stop the time.
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
I am not exaggerating, I felt your hatred in the womb. It is as mysterious as death. Who can explain it? It is the miraculous Power of Our Living LORD. It was GOD making intercession in my life. From the moment of my conception The LORD has been with me. My life is proof of the Goodness of GOD.
Cruelty wasn't a word in my vocabulary. I couldn't name it but You sure made me, made us, feel it everyday. I watched my brothers suffer at your hands, my grandfather, your many lovers. I felt your lacerating tongue EVERY day of my life.
You are a very CRUEL woman, you are now and you have always been. I am not going to ask you why because I know the answer. Demonic cruelty is your choice. Any one can change if they want to. Why didn't you ever want to change?
I am assuming that heartless diabolical EVIL is much too easy for you. Why change? You are getting away like a "fat rat".
Why so much hatred? Why the scam? I don't believe you have ever been "double minded", you're just a demon that pretends to be double minded. You are far too clever, far too successful in your foul deeds to be mentally ill. I love the way you always feigned "mental illness" when I would get too close to discovering the real you.
I will never say that there is no such thing as a "perfect crime" again. You successfully pulled off the greatest scam on earth. For eighty-five long years you have deluded yourself and many others into believing that you are a warm loving sanctified mother. You and I know better.
A heartless selfish demonic bull dagger you have made your entire family suffer all of your life.
You are twisted, some where in this life you got messed up. You have done too much wrong. Why the stealth? Why be underhanded and back stabbing?
You don't play fair Mathy Jane. You cheat. You love hating me and injuring me over and over. I am heart sick to know that a "mother" like you actually exist. You are so horrific few people believe my story and even fewer care.
"De 'mo you cry the less you PISS!"; I still hear that every day, sometimes all day. Sometimes I relive those awful beatings. Yes I remember and feel your scorching hot tongue every time you cussed me out.
You didn't have to take us from our grandfather. That was very selfish of you. Were we just another ploy, another way to pimp your dad? You never had to marry a man that you didn't love. Why did you make him suffer? If you didn't like the fact that he was "too black" why did you marry him?
I can sum you up in three words; berate, humiliate and sabotage. That's what you do. That's what you have always done. Do you know better? Yes. Will you do better? No!
I must admit I have enjoyed telling my story. It has been quite therapeutic. I am still healing and I have a very long way to go yet. But, I am thankful for my voice. I am thankful to GOD for giving me the opportunity to start this debate, to start a conversation about "family secrets". I will not tolerate child abusers. If I have to tell the entire World that my mother is one in order to save one child I will.
You went too far Mathy Jane, you went too far for far too long. You are a sadistic bully. You have no remorse. The saddest fact of all you have no regrets. You murdered a kind beautiful man simply because you could. Shooting granddaddy in the heart was just "smashing" another puppy. You have been secretly "smashing puppies" your entire life. You "smash puppies", then laugh, prowl for more prey, then smash some more puppies. Set them up with compliments and lavish them with gifts then slay them on the sly. That's your life, you are a selfish whore and you killed your daddy because you were tired of his TRUTH.
Who did you really want to kill? GOD. You did, you do, You want to kill GOD. You are an idiot and there is no hope for you.
Go ahead, go out of the world backwards just like you came in.
I do sincerely thank you. Your miserable treatment made me discover the LORD. Your constant unrelenting torture taught me trust Him. Broken, dejected, humbled and thrown away I searched the scriptures and found salvation.
"We've got to fulfill the Book." children. GOD's WORD is sure, salvation is free.
Stay in His WORD children. Be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
P.S. You can't kill the TRUTH and you can't stop the time.
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
Monday, March 21, 2011
Peter Walked On Water!
Peter walked on water! That's what the Bible says. The Bible is GOD's WORD and I believe every word of it. Peter walked on water at Jesus' WORD.
It is not a secret, Jesus told us that we could tread on scorpions, serpents, on the enemy, at His WORD. "Every knee shall bow, every tongue shall confess that Jesus is LORD." Oh YES! Have no doubt children....there is POWER in that WORD! If you don't believe me, just try Him.
I will not shrink in the face of the devil. You are a "piss ant" in the eyes of GOD. The only reason you got away with so much "dirt" is no one could believe their "lying" eyes. The "unspeakable", the "unthinkable", vile low life, incomprehensible! Who could know what they could not conceive?
Only GOD can do the miraculous, because only He is Miraculous.
I didn't want to know it. Granddaddy didn't want to know it. We saw it, we lived it, but we didn't know it. Well, I didn't know it. You did all of those horrible things to me and I didn't know it. I wasn't as dumb as you thought I was. GOD put me to sleep. GOD let grow, thrive, live and succeed until I could handle your evil.
You can search the world over, there are very few people that could survive or endure your sick madness. It is so horrific you play "crazy" to avoid it. The sad thing is you can't avoid it. You are not leaving this earth until you have paid every last mite. Read your Bible!
Stop grinning and congratulating yourself for being so smart. Yes, you are "smart". You have a brilliant criminal mind. But, you're not GOD. Are you really that ignorant? Did you think that you could pull a scam on GOD? Do you think some graveyard dirt from some murdered man's grave has an iota of a chance against GOD?
You are not that stupid. You are that stubborn, you are that evil. But, you are not that dumb. Your problem is that you are too smart. Smart enough to run a scam on most people, not ALL people. I'm not the only one that has peeped your "REV" scam.
It is a good thing I'm not GOD. It is a good thing that GOD doesn't think like MAN. After all the wrong you've done for eight-five years, GOD still loves you.
What an awesome GOD I serve.
Peace!
Rachel
It is not a secret, Jesus told us that we could tread on scorpions, serpents, on the enemy, at His WORD. "Every knee shall bow, every tongue shall confess that Jesus is LORD." Oh YES! Have no doubt children....there is POWER in that WORD! If you don't believe me, just try Him.
I will not shrink in the face of the devil. You are a "piss ant" in the eyes of GOD. The only reason you got away with so much "dirt" is no one could believe their "lying" eyes. The "unspeakable", the "unthinkable", vile low life, incomprehensible! Who could know what they could not conceive?
Only GOD can do the miraculous, because only He is Miraculous.
I didn't want to know it. Granddaddy didn't want to know it. We saw it, we lived it, but we didn't know it. Well, I didn't know it. You did all of those horrible things to me and I didn't know it. I wasn't as dumb as you thought I was. GOD put me to sleep. GOD let grow, thrive, live and succeed until I could handle your evil.
You can search the world over, there are very few people that could survive or endure your sick madness. It is so horrific you play "crazy" to avoid it. The sad thing is you can't avoid it. You are not leaving this earth until you have paid every last mite. Read your Bible!
Stop grinning and congratulating yourself for being so smart. Yes, you are "smart". You have a brilliant criminal mind. But, you're not GOD. Are you really that ignorant? Did you think that you could pull a scam on GOD? Do you think some graveyard dirt from some murdered man's grave has an iota of a chance against GOD?
You are not that stupid. You are that stubborn, you are that evil. But, you are not that dumb. Your problem is that you are too smart. Smart enough to run a scam on most people, not ALL people. I'm not the only one that has peeped your "REV" scam.
It is a good thing I'm not GOD. It is a good thing that GOD doesn't think like MAN. After all the wrong you've done for eight-five years, GOD still loves you.
What an awesome GOD I serve.
Peace!
Rachel
Just One More Thing Before You Go
I have a dear friend whose grandmother is transitioning. The beautiful lady is One hundred years old. President Obama sent her a proclamation congratulating her on her milestone. She is indeed a beautiful woman that lived a beautiful life. She leaves a lasting beautiful legacy.
You on the other hand will leave a stench. YOUR NAME WILL ROT! You are a despicable demon. No, you are not that smart, you are unspeakable, unthinkable. You have been able to practice your evil for over eight-five years not trough you genius intelligence or you black magic. Your evil is too hard to recognize, too hard to suspect.
The man that loved you dearly, the greatest father any child could ever want , you MURDERED! And you are still laughing. GOD gave you beautiful children that you violated in "unspeakable" "unthinkable" ways.
A blood thirsty Demon you are still prowling around looking for someone or something to destroy.
It will not happen. "When your desolation comes it will come as a whirlwind".
It's coming! Justice is coming. Justice is on it's way.
Stay prayed up children. Seek ye the LORD while He can be found. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
You on the other hand will leave a stench. YOUR NAME WILL ROT! You are a despicable demon. No, you are not that smart, you are unspeakable, unthinkable. You have been able to practice your evil for over eight-five years not trough you genius intelligence or you black magic. Your evil is too hard to recognize, too hard to suspect.
The man that loved you dearly, the greatest father any child could ever want , you MURDERED! And you are still laughing. GOD gave you beautiful children that you violated in "unspeakable" "unthinkable" ways.
A blood thirsty Demon you are still prowling around looking for someone or something to destroy.
It will not happen. "When your desolation comes it will come as a whirlwind".
It's coming! Justice is coming. Justice is on it's way.
Stay prayed up children. Seek ye the LORD while He can be found. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
Saturday, March 19, 2011
I Don't Buy IT!
I'm not buying that load of crap. "I'm a poor miserable reprobate,I can't help it but please love me and forgive me anyway."
I know your story. It took me too many years but I finally figured you out. I do understand why I resisted the TRUTH so long. Your TRUTH is reprehensible. It is foul. "Mox nix"; to you too because you totally dismiss all your deeds as "collateral damage". You dismiss my pain and anguish with;"You should have known better." "You should have had better sense."; you announce. A lot of vulgarity, "curses", vows of retribution, but not one "I'm sorry." No hint of repentance.
Well I read my Bible also. You must be "born again", you must repent of your sins. You will not! But you are still running that; "I'm saved and sanctified game" on the gullible. "I'm just sending up timber."; we both laugh as you lie a hundred lies a minute. Do you not get what is wrong with this picture? You have wasted eighty-five years trying to beat and hammer Satanic lies into the TRUTH.
You have never changed your m.o. (modus operindi), commit some act so vile and evil that no one but GOD would know you did it. Then, if caught, perform like a raving maniac. "Curse" them, cuss them, lay hands on them if you can. Certainly threaten to kill them. I must say it worked for such a long time.
You tried to kill your father when I assume you were pregnant with *Leo. "I tried to kill my daddy when I was sixteen! Mistuh Wifford had to wrassel the shotgun outta my hands!"
"He was out 'dere running 'round wid dis woman. He wuz runnin' round on my mama! Spending all the tobbaca money on hur!" I listened. I listened to all your fantastic stories . It didn't occur to me then, but what did that have to do with you?
It was probably a lie anyway. I think it had something to do with *Alvin Bivens, *Leo's daddy. I think you and your mother had plotted to "capture" and marry that handsome movie star fine gentleman. Your pregnancy was no accident. "Ah didn't know where babies came from. Niggas just always took advantage of me."
No one has ever in your eighty-five years taken advantage of you!
The TRUTH is that you are an evil liar and will do anything to satisfy your lust and greed. There is nothing too low, too sick or demented. You don't know boundaries, age, sex, kinship. You are a woman who has always lived by ;"If it feels good, DO It! If you get caught, LIE!" It is as simple as that. A very intelligent woman you do over estimate you ability to "trick" and "con". A person does have to study your fruit to discover the real "Mathy Jane". I'm not at all sure that you know "her" completely. You lie for survival. You lie out of habit. You do lie for fun, just to see how gullible your victims really are? Naivety delights you. Gifts of money and presents embolden you. Christ condemns you.
Looking back over your life I am shocked by the number of horrible deeds you did in fact get away with. That's your real pleasure, "getting away", fooling your victims.
Yes, you love to pray with people. You will even give them scripture to read knowing full well how you really hate them and wish them nothing but harm.
You are laughing at me because you still think that you have won. You have made all of your resisters and detractors your mortal enemies.
Well, "lady" I thank GOD for His revelation. I thank GOD for delivering me from your evil.
You are a classic narcissist. You project your evil onto your victims. I understand now. You think that you have cleverly convinced people that I am YOU. Just how do you plan to convince people that I am the whorish one when I have been totally celibate for over twenty-one years?
Who really believes that I am lying on you? I know now that most of those bizarre tales that you pinned on *Emma Lou were in fact YOU. "Yea, we get on the ship and pretend that we are millionaire sisters. Can you believe that? Dat *Emma Lou is the lyingest woman that eva pissed between two shoes. I just go along wid it because she paying for the trips. You know I ain't got no money to go no where."
"Yea, *Emma Lou be going wid all dem young fine men. Just lying to 'um. Talking bout she gon git them a green card. It has been ten years and she ain't got that green card yet."
I didn't know that any one could live a complete lie for eight-five years. I don't believe that you have successfully fooled anyone. I do think too many people still feel sorry for you. You are a likable person minus your back stabbing treachery. Yea, you will buy your granddaughter a set or tires or keep her from getting evicted. But, you show your evil hand when you get on the phone and broadcast her business and low rate her character clear across the country.
It is shocking, I did not know that you were low enough to "work roots" on your "own" children, close relatives and friends until I caught you red handed.
You are right. I am the fool. Anyone evil enough, delusional enough to murder and eighty-four year old man and not blink should not be tolerated. How did I ever think that I could help you? How could I believe that you finally changed?
No, that is a character that you invented. Poor delusional sexually molested Mathy Jane is pitiful. She can't help it. Strange things will happen to you and around you but don't pay that any attention. Just love her. Stroke her ego non-stop. Neglect yourself. Put all of your dreams on hold. Don't out do her. Don't look better. Don't earn a college degree. As a matter of fact, why don't you just die a slow death. Die as a hopeless alcoholic, or drug addict. Die miserable, broke and alone. That's what you get for knowing.
"You remember too much!" What? I'm supposed to be retarded as well as too black, too fat, too broke, too grey, too hard lucked, too dumb and "no sense-ed". Just how dumb am I supposed to be? really? Should I play retard like you? Should I play the poor hapless victim?
No, it is your fruit. From the hot soapy enemas to treating me like Celie in the 'Color Purple' when I went to nurse you after your knee surgery.
No, there is no point in changing now. Too much wrong has been done. The TRUTH is too foul. Don't worry, if I out live you I will not go to your funeral. You didn't have to "un-invite" me. Why would I want to go other than to prove to myself that your evil a** was finally in the ground. If I have anything to do with your funeral you will be cremated. It is cheaper and you deserve to burn.
My book reveals a beautiful love story. It is about a pretty little abused child, unloved and unwanted by her "mother" who found abundant love and great wisdom from her tall handsome saintly grandfather. It is a story of redemption and undying faith. It is proof that GOD rights every wrong.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
I know your story. It took me too many years but I finally figured you out. I do understand why I resisted the TRUTH so long. Your TRUTH is reprehensible. It is foul. "Mox nix"; to you too because you totally dismiss all your deeds as "collateral damage". You dismiss my pain and anguish with;"You should have known better." "You should have had better sense."; you announce. A lot of vulgarity, "curses", vows of retribution, but not one "I'm sorry." No hint of repentance.
Well I read my Bible also. You must be "born again", you must repent of your sins. You will not! But you are still running that; "I'm saved and sanctified game" on the gullible. "I'm just sending up timber."; we both laugh as you lie a hundred lies a minute. Do you not get what is wrong with this picture? You have wasted eighty-five years trying to beat and hammer Satanic lies into the TRUTH.
You have never changed your m.o. (modus operindi), commit some act so vile and evil that no one but GOD would know you did it. Then, if caught, perform like a raving maniac. "Curse" them, cuss them, lay hands on them if you can. Certainly threaten to kill them. I must say it worked for such a long time.
You tried to kill your father when I assume you were pregnant with *Leo. "I tried to kill my daddy when I was sixteen! Mistuh Wifford had to wrassel the shotgun outta my hands!"
"He was out 'dere running 'round wid dis woman. He wuz runnin' round on my mama! Spending all the tobbaca money on hur!" I listened. I listened to all your fantastic stories . It didn't occur to me then, but what did that have to do with you?
It was probably a lie anyway. I think it had something to do with *Alvin Bivens, *Leo's daddy. I think you and your mother had plotted to "capture" and marry that handsome movie star fine gentleman. Your pregnancy was no accident. "Ah didn't know where babies came from. Niggas just always took advantage of me."
No one has ever in your eighty-five years taken advantage of you!
The TRUTH is that you are an evil liar and will do anything to satisfy your lust and greed. There is nothing too low, too sick or demented. You don't know boundaries, age, sex, kinship. You are a woman who has always lived by ;"If it feels good, DO It! If you get caught, LIE!" It is as simple as that. A very intelligent woman you do over estimate you ability to "trick" and "con". A person does have to study your fruit to discover the real "Mathy Jane". I'm not at all sure that you know "her" completely. You lie for survival. You lie out of habit. You do lie for fun, just to see how gullible your victims really are? Naivety delights you. Gifts of money and presents embolden you. Christ condemns you.
Looking back over your life I am shocked by the number of horrible deeds you did in fact get away with. That's your real pleasure, "getting away", fooling your victims.
Yes, you love to pray with people. You will even give them scripture to read knowing full well how you really hate them and wish them nothing but harm.
You are laughing at me because you still think that you have won. You have made all of your resisters and detractors your mortal enemies.
Well, "lady" I thank GOD for His revelation. I thank GOD for delivering me from your evil.
You are a classic narcissist. You project your evil onto your victims. I understand now. You think that you have cleverly convinced people that I am YOU. Just how do you plan to convince people that I am the whorish one when I have been totally celibate for over twenty-one years?
Who really believes that I am lying on you? I know now that most of those bizarre tales that you pinned on *Emma Lou were in fact YOU. "Yea, we get on the ship and pretend that we are millionaire sisters. Can you believe that? Dat *Emma Lou is the lyingest woman that eva pissed between two shoes. I just go along wid it because she paying for the trips. You know I ain't got no money to go no where."
"Yea, *Emma Lou be going wid all dem young fine men. Just lying to 'um. Talking bout she gon git them a green card. It has been ten years and she ain't got that green card yet."
I didn't know that any one could live a complete lie for eight-five years. I don't believe that you have successfully fooled anyone. I do think too many people still feel sorry for you. You are a likable person minus your back stabbing treachery. Yea, you will buy your granddaughter a set or tires or keep her from getting evicted. But, you show your evil hand when you get on the phone and broadcast her business and low rate her character clear across the country.
It is shocking, I did not know that you were low enough to "work roots" on your "own" children, close relatives and friends until I caught you red handed.
You are right. I am the fool. Anyone evil enough, delusional enough to murder and eighty-four year old man and not blink should not be tolerated. How did I ever think that I could help you? How could I believe that you finally changed?
No, that is a character that you invented. Poor delusional sexually molested Mathy Jane is pitiful. She can't help it. Strange things will happen to you and around you but don't pay that any attention. Just love her. Stroke her ego non-stop. Neglect yourself. Put all of your dreams on hold. Don't out do her. Don't look better. Don't earn a college degree. As a matter of fact, why don't you just die a slow death. Die as a hopeless alcoholic, or drug addict. Die miserable, broke and alone. That's what you get for knowing.
"You remember too much!" What? I'm supposed to be retarded as well as too black, too fat, too broke, too grey, too hard lucked, too dumb and "no sense-ed". Just how dumb am I supposed to be? really? Should I play retard like you? Should I play the poor hapless victim?
No, it is your fruit. From the hot soapy enemas to treating me like Celie in the 'Color Purple' when I went to nurse you after your knee surgery.
No, there is no point in changing now. Too much wrong has been done. The TRUTH is too foul. Don't worry, if I out live you I will not go to your funeral. You didn't have to "un-invite" me. Why would I want to go other than to prove to myself that your evil a** was finally in the ground. If I have anything to do with your funeral you will be cremated. It is cheaper and you deserve to burn.
My book reveals a beautiful love story. It is about a pretty little abused child, unloved and unwanted by her "mother" who found abundant love and great wisdom from her tall handsome saintly grandfather. It is a story of redemption and undying faith. It is proof that GOD rights every wrong.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
A Conversation With Myself
Who does that? really? Who is ignorant and primitive enough to be practicing some "hoodoo" black magic crap in 2011? My "mother"! Wait a minute before you go judging me too harshly, make sure you know I speak nothing but the pure unadulterated TRUTH.
It is like being in a bad movie. I am living "Gone With the Wind", "Mandingo" and "Uncle Tom's Cabin" all in one. My first question was "Why me LORD?", then I thought about it and the answer was ;"Why not me?"
You can laugh. It is funny, it is hilarious if you are not involved in this "mess". I actually have a "mother" that's a "Voodoo Priestess" and she is delusional enough to think she has some power.
No, I am telling because this kind of ridiculous ignorance must be exposed. People need to know what some oppressed people do to each other. This is a deliberate case of "I am too sorry and pathetic to do anything with my own life and I insist on destroying yours because I had you. I would have been somebody if it hadn't been for you. I am ignorant and blind and a team of mules could never pull me to the TRUTH."
No, this is not new. She was like this when I met her. Loud, ignorant, abusive, whorish, lying, stubborn, manipulative and scheming. I loved her. We all loved her anyway. I don't know why but all children love their mothers. Or most children anyway. I was also too young and naive to understand what was really happening.
It is still hard to take. I am not sure I would have ever guessed or fully caught on if she hadn't killed my grandfather. Even then I knew for nine years before I found the courage to say anything.
Yes, it was the letter with the fecal matter that pushed me over the edge. That act was not crazy or mean. That act was demonic. Why is she demonic? GOD only knows. Can she help it? I say yes. She has free will just like I do or you do.
In the end I see that her mistreatment of me and of others is for the best. "GOD will work it out."; just like my grandfather promised.
Pay attention to the signs. "Look well to your going." Stay prayed up children. Don't let any demons lead you astray.
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
It is like being in a bad movie. I am living "Gone With the Wind", "Mandingo" and "Uncle Tom's Cabin" all in one. My first question was "Why me LORD?", then I thought about it and the answer was ;"Why not me?"
You can laugh. It is funny, it is hilarious if you are not involved in this "mess". I actually have a "mother" that's a "Voodoo Priestess" and she is delusional enough to think she has some power.
No, I am telling because this kind of ridiculous ignorance must be exposed. People need to know what some oppressed people do to each other. This is a deliberate case of "I am too sorry and pathetic to do anything with my own life and I insist on destroying yours because I had you. I would have been somebody if it hadn't been for you. I am ignorant and blind and a team of mules could never pull me to the TRUTH."
No, this is not new. She was like this when I met her. Loud, ignorant, abusive, whorish, lying, stubborn, manipulative and scheming. I loved her. We all loved her anyway. I don't know why but all children love their mothers. Or most children anyway. I was also too young and naive to understand what was really happening.
It is still hard to take. I am not sure I would have ever guessed or fully caught on if she hadn't killed my grandfather. Even then I knew for nine years before I found the courage to say anything.
Yes, it was the letter with the fecal matter that pushed me over the edge. That act was not crazy or mean. That act was demonic. Why is she demonic? GOD only knows. Can she help it? I say yes. She has free will just like I do or you do.
In the end I see that her mistreatment of me and of others is for the best. "GOD will work it out."; just like my grandfather promised.
Pay attention to the signs. "Look well to your going." Stay prayed up children. Don't let any demons lead you astray.
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
Monday, March 14, 2011
People Just Don't Get It
People are always talking, telling you what you ought to do. It is so easy for other people to identify your short comings, to tell you what is wrong with you. I'm guilty too. But how do you tell people, how do you describe a "curse"? I feel like Noah warning the people about the impending flood.
"She is EVIL!"; I scream. No one listens as they line up to get their pittance. Her little chump change dole that she hands out very begrudgingly from time to time. The groveling that you have to do to get it is not worth it for me. True, she does not treat all her minions the same. One, her favorite doesn't have to do anything. All he has to do is show up and ask. He's knows to be careful though. He has seen her in action many times. Why should he stand up to her? He is on the gravy train.
It is incredible. It is unreal, it is a living nightmare! My "mother" is Esau's mother multiplied by about ten thousand. Esau's mother was treacherous and manipulative. She took advantage of her old blind husband and manipulated her son Jacob to steal his brother's birthright. I never liked her. I always thought she was despicable.
No one knows or can ever know how I feel. I don't feel good. To know that you have a mother so selfish, so common, so lustful that she would willing violate the innocence of her own daughter. That is worse than a shameful truth. This is an abominable TRUTH! To say I feel very "creepy" is the best I can say right now without a slew of curse words.
No, the plot thickens. I always knew something was wrong with her. Any perceptive person can see it. Everyone knows how vulgar she is. She passes it off as humor, but I know that she is not joking.
Anyone that would violate her children sexually then spend her whole life trying to destroy those same children secretly, sneakily, clandestinely is a "CREEP". Keep her away from me.
People that are still afraid of her, still admire or love her, keep them away from me also.
Of course I am not perfect but I sure try to be. I live right. I do "The Ten". Like every person on this earth I struggle. I struggle with my weight, my blood pressure sometimes I struggle with wanting to "cuss" somebody out. I try not to judge, but I do "gossip". I like to think of it as spreading information that might otherwise go "overlooked".
I do love myself. I am very proud of my accomplishments, my talents, my love for the LORD. I do think that I grew "old" much too fast. Youth is fleeting. It is a vapor. That's why I have this seething rage right now. A succubus stole my childhood, my youth, tried to destroy my life.
I know there is no point in my being angry, it will not help. Maybe it's not anger or hatred, perhaps I should call it sad frustration.
I am saddened by the fact that it took me fifty-eight years to finally accept the fact that my "mother" is a hopeless Demon! I stuck by her because my grandfather stuck by her, gently admonished her and loved her unconditionally.
Well I can't afford to love her "unconditionally". She is too dangerous, too wicked, too far gone, far too diabolical.
I am frustrated by the fact that everyone seems to be intimidated by her. She can't work any "roots" on me. GOD has always protected me from her. GOD turned every despicable thing she did to me into something positive.
A "root worker" is a "Root Worker"! A demon is a Demon! You can't serve GOD and Man!
I know what that "woman" did to me! I know it was deliberate and savage. I know that she is so full of hatred that she can't stop. She is EVIL and sneaky as any serpent. No one in my family has to listen to me. They will not be able to say that they were not warned.
I am angry because she thinks she can and should get away with her dirty "deeds".
I am shocked by the fact that a woman that passed herself off as being so independent, courageous, open and honest is anything but. A closeted coward totally void of any honesty or decency. They say that there is honor among thieves. Not with her. She is so dishonest I wouldn't trust her shadow.
I thank GOD every day for delivering me from her Evil!
You better pay attention children. GOD is moving. Look at Japan, look at the Middle East, look at Haiti. "Look into your own life."
Pray for discernment. Pray for wisdom and understanding. "We will understand it all by and by."
Be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
"She is EVIL!"; I scream. No one listens as they line up to get their pittance. Her little chump change dole that she hands out very begrudgingly from time to time. The groveling that you have to do to get it is not worth it for me. True, she does not treat all her minions the same. One, her favorite doesn't have to do anything. All he has to do is show up and ask. He's knows to be careful though. He has seen her in action many times. Why should he stand up to her? He is on the gravy train.
It is incredible. It is unreal, it is a living nightmare! My "mother" is Esau's mother multiplied by about ten thousand. Esau's mother was treacherous and manipulative. She took advantage of her old blind husband and manipulated her son Jacob to steal his brother's birthright. I never liked her. I always thought she was despicable.
No one knows or can ever know how I feel. I don't feel good. To know that you have a mother so selfish, so common, so lustful that she would willing violate the innocence of her own daughter. That is worse than a shameful truth. This is an abominable TRUTH! To say I feel very "creepy" is the best I can say right now without a slew of curse words.
No, the plot thickens. I always knew something was wrong with her. Any perceptive person can see it. Everyone knows how vulgar she is. She passes it off as humor, but I know that she is not joking.
Anyone that would violate her children sexually then spend her whole life trying to destroy those same children secretly, sneakily, clandestinely is a "CREEP". Keep her away from me.
People that are still afraid of her, still admire or love her, keep them away from me also.
Of course I am not perfect but I sure try to be. I live right. I do "The Ten". Like every person on this earth I struggle. I struggle with my weight, my blood pressure sometimes I struggle with wanting to "cuss" somebody out. I try not to judge, but I do "gossip". I like to think of it as spreading information that might otherwise go "overlooked".
I do love myself. I am very proud of my accomplishments, my talents, my love for the LORD. I do think that I grew "old" much too fast. Youth is fleeting. It is a vapor. That's why I have this seething rage right now. A succubus stole my childhood, my youth, tried to destroy my life.
I know there is no point in my being angry, it will not help. Maybe it's not anger or hatred, perhaps I should call it sad frustration.
I am saddened by the fact that it took me fifty-eight years to finally accept the fact that my "mother" is a hopeless Demon! I stuck by her because my grandfather stuck by her, gently admonished her and loved her unconditionally.
Well I can't afford to love her "unconditionally". She is too dangerous, too wicked, too far gone, far too diabolical.
I am frustrated by the fact that everyone seems to be intimidated by her. She can't work any "roots" on me. GOD has always protected me from her. GOD turned every despicable thing she did to me into something positive.
A "root worker" is a "Root Worker"! A demon is a Demon! You can't serve GOD and Man!
I know what that "woman" did to me! I know it was deliberate and savage. I know that she is so full of hatred that she can't stop. She is EVIL and sneaky as any serpent. No one in my family has to listen to me. They will not be able to say that they were not warned.
I am angry because she thinks she can and should get away with her dirty "deeds".
I am shocked by the fact that a woman that passed herself off as being so independent, courageous, open and honest is anything but. A closeted coward totally void of any honesty or decency. They say that there is honor among thieves. Not with her. She is so dishonest I wouldn't trust her shadow.
I thank GOD every day for delivering me from her Evil!
You better pay attention children. GOD is moving. Look at Japan, look at the Middle East, look at Haiti. "Look into your own life."
Pray for discernment. Pray for wisdom and understanding. "We will understand it all by and by."
Be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
"Nobody Knows the Trouble I've Seen"
Nobody knows how I have been forced to suffer for fifty-nine years and frankly nobody cares. I hope and pray that this is my last blog. I am determined to move on.
I have been paralyzed by pain, shock and awe. How can I best sum this up? It is a very unnecessary tragedy feed by ignorance and absolute evil. It seems that I was born to a woman that considered herself to be the fairest in the land. An incorrigible reprobate notorious for black magic she ruled the day in little Wade, North Carolina.
Let me make this long story as short as possible. Today I have no doubt, it is obvious, there is no other possible senario. A demon birthed me and clandestinely tortured me for fifty-niine years. There is no good in this "woman". There really is no point to this story other than the fact that GOD will deliver you from evil if you ask him.
She is a black hearted demon addicted to infliclting pain. Unfortunately her pleasure is derived from inflicting sick insidious pain for no apparent reason. It has taken me my entire life to piece her diabolical schemes together.
This woman is a monster. She does not love, she has no idea what real love feels like. She lives to torture, get away scot free and laugh. A perfect demon she is hard to catch. Only, she left a few tell tell signs. Secret sexual pleasure seems to be her greatest joy. I wonder how many people know that she is a closet lesbian?
Evidently she has always hated me for no reason. She hates everyone for no reason. I guess you can say that she loves to hate.
There are some things that she did to me and others that can only be attributed to demonism. I have come to the conclusion that she is a Demon from Hell that pretends to be a Narcissist. She is evil and rotten through and through and pretends to be clueless and ignorant.
"Ye shall know them by their fruit." I recount her fruit and I am horrified. The mysterious pain in my eight year old vagina was just the beginning of this sick saga. The savage brutal cursings and beatings. On and on, year after year. Always committing something sick and repugnant and pretending to be innocent.
Thank you LORD for delivering me from her hands. "...let none of you imagine evil against his brother in your heart. Yea, they made their hearts as an adamant stone, lest they should hear the law, and the words which the LORD of hosts sent in His spirit by the former prophets: therefore came a great wrath from the LORD of hosts." (Zechariah 7:10b, 12)
That's her, she imagines that you have done her great evil and she punishes you for it. All of this is in secret. A total coward she rarely accused me. But, the things she did to me speak volumnes. There is no telling what kind of monster she made me out to be to my relatives.
I do know she lost her mind when her young gigalo third husband left her. She successfully spread horrible lies on him. That is the penalty you have to pay if you manage to escape her cluthes. She will manufacture the most heinous bizarre lies imaginable and continue to work her "roots".
It is all in my book, but I must tell you this. I guess she was rather careless in her "root working". I was her dutiful slave. I kept her room clean, hung up all of her fine designer clothes, kept her chest of drawers in order, etc. One day I found her underwear and his underwear and socks all intertwinded in a towel in the bottom of her drawer. She laughed and explained that was how she kept her man. "You put yo' draws and his draws and the the towel from your love making with his socks and he can never leave you." She must have put a lot of confidence in this "spell" because she sure treated him like a dog. Cursing him and emasculating him every day did not phase her one bit. My grandfather told her often;"Daughter, ain't no man gon' stay wid you talking to him lak that." Of cousrse she didn't listen, he left and she lost her her mind!
Well, I know this for sure, "No weapon formed against me shall prosper." She will be found out and she will be hauled out. She is very happy that she crucified me. She laughs at the fact that my brothers and other relatives will not have anything to do with me because she has successfully convinced them that I am crazy. She laughs hysterically for ruining my life. Everything I ever expressed to her that I wanted she tried to steal or destroy.
She didn't get every thing. She didn't get my beautiful daughter and she can't take my talent. I do hate her. I should not hate her. I must grow a great deal spiritually to overcome this abomnible hatred I have for her.
My victory is that she didn't fool me. I don't think she ever has. I always watched her carefully. I studied her, I analyzed her. I know her. She is a sick depraved demon. I bind her to Hell. "Get thee behind me Satan. I never knew you."
Dear children make sure you know that there is a GOD, He sits on high and He looks low and He is not happy with sick reprobates trying to destroy and prevent His Kingdom. "Shun the very presence of evil."
Stay prayed up. Study your Bible. Be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
I have been paralyzed by pain, shock and awe. How can I best sum this up? It is a very unnecessary tragedy feed by ignorance and absolute evil. It seems that I was born to a woman that considered herself to be the fairest in the land. An incorrigible reprobate notorious for black magic she ruled the day in little Wade, North Carolina.
Let me make this long story as short as possible. Today I have no doubt, it is obvious, there is no other possible senario. A demon birthed me and clandestinely tortured me for fifty-niine years. There is no good in this "woman". There really is no point to this story other than the fact that GOD will deliver you from evil if you ask him.
She is a black hearted demon addicted to infliclting pain. Unfortunately her pleasure is derived from inflicting sick insidious pain for no apparent reason. It has taken me my entire life to piece her diabolical schemes together.
This woman is a monster. She does not love, she has no idea what real love feels like. She lives to torture, get away scot free and laugh. A perfect demon she is hard to catch. Only, she left a few tell tell signs. Secret sexual pleasure seems to be her greatest joy. I wonder how many people know that she is a closet lesbian?
Evidently she has always hated me for no reason. She hates everyone for no reason. I guess you can say that she loves to hate.
There are some things that she did to me and others that can only be attributed to demonism. I have come to the conclusion that she is a Demon from Hell that pretends to be a Narcissist. She is evil and rotten through and through and pretends to be clueless and ignorant.
"Ye shall know them by their fruit." I recount her fruit and I am horrified. The mysterious pain in my eight year old vagina was just the beginning of this sick saga. The savage brutal cursings and beatings. On and on, year after year. Always committing something sick and repugnant and pretending to be innocent.
Thank you LORD for delivering me from her hands. "...let none of you imagine evil against his brother in your heart. Yea, they made their hearts as an adamant stone, lest they should hear the law, and the words which the LORD of hosts sent in His spirit by the former prophets: therefore came a great wrath from the LORD of hosts." (Zechariah 7:10b, 12)
That's her, she imagines that you have done her great evil and she punishes you for it. All of this is in secret. A total coward she rarely accused me. But, the things she did to me speak volumnes. There is no telling what kind of monster she made me out to be to my relatives.
I do know she lost her mind when her young gigalo third husband left her. She successfully spread horrible lies on him. That is the penalty you have to pay if you manage to escape her cluthes. She will manufacture the most heinous bizarre lies imaginable and continue to work her "roots".
It is all in my book, but I must tell you this. I guess she was rather careless in her "root working". I was her dutiful slave. I kept her room clean, hung up all of her fine designer clothes, kept her chest of drawers in order, etc. One day I found her underwear and his underwear and socks all intertwinded in a towel in the bottom of her drawer. She laughed and explained that was how she kept her man. "You put yo' draws and his draws and the the towel from your love making with his socks and he can never leave you." She must have put a lot of confidence in this "spell" because she sure treated him like a dog. Cursing him and emasculating him every day did not phase her one bit. My grandfather told her often;"Daughter, ain't no man gon' stay wid you talking to him lak that." Of cousrse she didn't listen, he left and she lost her her mind!
Well, I know this for sure, "No weapon formed against me shall prosper." She will be found out and she will be hauled out. She is very happy that she crucified me. She laughs at the fact that my brothers and other relatives will not have anything to do with me because she has successfully convinced them that I am crazy. She laughs hysterically for ruining my life. Everything I ever expressed to her that I wanted she tried to steal or destroy.
She didn't get every thing. She didn't get my beautiful daughter and she can't take my talent. I do hate her. I should not hate her. I must grow a great deal spiritually to overcome this abomnible hatred I have for her.
My victory is that she didn't fool me. I don't think she ever has. I always watched her carefully. I studied her, I analyzed her. I know her. She is a sick depraved demon. I bind her to Hell. "Get thee behind me Satan. I never knew you."
Dear children make sure you know that there is a GOD, He sits on high and He looks low and He is not happy with sick reprobates trying to destroy and prevent His Kingdom. "Shun the very presence of evil."
Stay prayed up. Study your Bible. Be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
Friday, March 11, 2011
Are You Crazy?!!!
Act normal!? Just how am I supposed to do that? I am not NORMAL! That all ended the day you decided to put your nasty hands on me!
"Just go be normal." I can't be normal. I lost normal along with my innocence. If you wanted me to be normal you should have been normal. Of course I'm telling. Why shouldn't I tell? People deserve to know. What have you always done? Talked about people. I'm full of more stories, more gossip, more wives tales than anyone I know.
Aunt *"Mury" poisoned Uncle Tom for leaving her for a young pretty woman. Sister *Slovella used to be a 'ho. *Aunt ThisandThat had an abortion and all of her teeth fell out., on and on.
There is a difference here. I am not telling my story for entertainment value or out of a sense of revenge. I am telling because this is a subject that must be talked about. We are ruining thousands, perhaps millions of children every day.
These children are being robbed, they are traumatized. Do not worry about the victimizer worry aboiut the VICTIMS!
You don't have to care about me. I am used to people not caring about me. I came in this world alone and I will leave alone. But, I will not keep your dark secrets. Your mother died in 1954! She is about the only person that would love you enough to cloak for you.
If you can't fit in, stand out. You "fixed" me so that I can't fit in. I was fine! I was beautiful. I had the most beautiful head of luscious hair you've ever seen. You had to wear wigs. I am not saying that in a conceited way. It is a fact. I have photographic evidence. What good is fine when you are cold as ice? You two perverts deserve the death penalty.
You did that on purpose. You are the "C" word. You knew better. You always knew better. That is why you were always so clever in your deceit.
You were a wayward reprobate that ran from the TRUTH. You ran to the dark side. You made a conscious decision to do evil. You don't get a pass because you "preach". Your "preaching" makes you a worse reprobate.
It is not about you. You are the exact same selfish whore at eighty-five that you were at fourteen. You will soon be gone. None of us came here to stay always.
GOD established His laws for a reason. You can not sexually victimize children! Then when you get caught, you can not verbally abuse your victim. Wrong strategy.
No, you can not undo it. You can repent! You have that much sense. You are just arrogant and full of pride. Plus, I know that you really don't care, you know that you really don't care. If you cared you would not have done it. It would have never crossed your mind. The term is "common", you are common. You are exactly where you want to be. "Nobody put a gun to yur head." You haven't changed. You are still "working roots". That embarrasses me more than the sexual abuse.
Hey, get a grip. You never stopped me from doing anything I wanted to do, and you never will.
Just like granddaddy always told you; "Apart from Christ you are nothing." May the Dear LORD have mercy on your miserable soul.
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
"Just go be normal." I can't be normal. I lost normal along with my innocence. If you wanted me to be normal you should have been normal. Of course I'm telling. Why shouldn't I tell? People deserve to know. What have you always done? Talked about people. I'm full of more stories, more gossip, more wives tales than anyone I know.
Aunt *"Mury" poisoned Uncle Tom for leaving her for a young pretty woman. Sister *Slovella used to be a 'ho. *Aunt ThisandThat had an abortion and all of her teeth fell out., on and on.
There is a difference here. I am not telling my story for entertainment value or out of a sense of revenge. I am telling because this is a subject that must be talked about. We are ruining thousands, perhaps millions of children every day.
These children are being robbed, they are traumatized. Do not worry about the victimizer worry aboiut the VICTIMS!
You don't have to care about me. I am used to people not caring about me. I came in this world alone and I will leave alone. But, I will not keep your dark secrets. Your mother died in 1954! She is about the only person that would love you enough to cloak for you.
If you can't fit in, stand out. You "fixed" me so that I can't fit in. I was fine! I was beautiful. I had the most beautiful head of luscious hair you've ever seen. You had to wear wigs. I am not saying that in a conceited way. It is a fact. I have photographic evidence. What good is fine when you are cold as ice? You two perverts deserve the death penalty.
You did that on purpose. You are the "C" word. You knew better. You always knew better. That is why you were always so clever in your deceit.
You were a wayward reprobate that ran from the TRUTH. You ran to the dark side. You made a conscious decision to do evil. You don't get a pass because you "preach". Your "preaching" makes you a worse reprobate.
It is not about you. You are the exact same selfish whore at eighty-five that you were at fourteen. You will soon be gone. None of us came here to stay always.
GOD established His laws for a reason. You can not sexually victimize children! Then when you get caught, you can not verbally abuse your victim. Wrong strategy.
No, you can not undo it. You can repent! You have that much sense. You are just arrogant and full of pride. Plus, I know that you really don't care, you know that you really don't care. If you cared you would not have done it. It would have never crossed your mind. The term is "common", you are common. You are exactly where you want to be. "Nobody put a gun to yur head." You haven't changed. You are still "working roots". That embarrasses me more than the sexual abuse.
Hey, get a grip. You never stopped me from doing anything I wanted to do, and you never will.
Just like granddaddy always told you; "Apart from Christ you are nothing." May the Dear LORD have mercy on your miserable soul.
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
To Whom It May Concern:
Yes, I wrote a book about you. I had to, I couldn't help it. It started out as a book to "out" my devious demonic "mother" but it turned into a praise song for GOD and a tribute to my honorable grandfather. Writing this book was therapeutic and enlightening. I learned that most people are just like you, selfish and uncaring, ignorant and pompous. I did discover a glaring difference. Unlike most people your evil is extreme, all of your actions are calculated and premeditated.
You are a very sick woman, well beyond any hope for redemption. I also discovered that some of my relatives are just as ignorant, uncaring and jealous as you are. Unlike you they are not cruel and perverted. Unfortunately most of them are clueless regarding your witchcraft and sexual perversion. Some pretend that they don't know what a notorious liar you are.
You did not win. You wasted your life. You are a miserable wretch. I am infuriated by the fact that you have been so successful as a closet demon. I am sorry that I held on to you too long, hoping to help you, praying that you would change.
I can promise you this, I am going to tell my story. I have dedicated my life to helping poor abused children. I want the World to know that we are suffering from a secret epidemic;CHILD ABUSE. Most people just give it lip service. No one wants to talk about it or do anything about it. I guess we have to be victims to care.
I would like to believe that I would care regardless. I will never believe surviving your sadist torture made me more caring.
You will not repent, it will never happen. Take your shameful legacy to your dirty little grave. You still did not win. Yes, you did a lot of sick repugnant "things" in your life, but you did not win.
You exalted yourself and you are now debased. No, not to you because you are delusional. You are the scum of the earth. There is no getting around it. Sick, perverted, murderous, menacing. There is no good in you.
You disappointed your father, you disappointed me. You are a bully but you are not stupid. I just want to ask you, have you ever loved anyone? I seriously doubt that you know what love feels like.
I hate you, I truly do. I hate you all day long and I hate you in my sleep. I wish that you had never been born. There is one thing that I must know, where do you get the nerve to commit your sick perversions and demand that your victims remain clueless? any attempt by your victim to defend himself, speak up for himself is a signal for your ultimate torture.
Your son became a doctor and you were jealous. No, it was not new jealousy. It was always there. You know you tortured and brutalized him. You know that YOU are the one that made him repeat the second grade. Your sick devious mind has always been up to no good. He became a doctor and you tried to pimp him. Too bad he couldn't see through you at first, with all of your "my black Prince" flattery. You raided his office and ran him out of town. You know why he shunned you for twenty-five years. I will not go there yet.
You stole *Goat's money and blamed it on your son. I have no idea how many lies you have spread on me. I know you have lied on me and slandered my name. I feel sorry for anyone that has any faith in any thing that you say.
Just how ignorant are you anyway? You stalked *Gino. You followed him to Ft. Lee, Virginia demanding that his C.O. make him come back to you. You stole his Gulf credit card and filled up strangers gas tanks and bought them tires and batteries. Why or how could you expect him to come back to you? You treated that man like a mangy dog while demanding he treat you like a queen. You whored around on that man with your ex-husband and the man you are married to now.
You are an abuser! a batterer! Any act of self defense enrages you more. "Get thee behind me Satan!"
Your "preaching" might fool people that are just as lost as you are. But, you can't fool GOD.
You married a man much too young for you. You used me as an excuse to get rid of your perverted husband knowing full well that you were more guilty than he was. Then you turned around and mistreated your young husband. You tortured that man just like you did us. Yes, he left you, he should have. No one with good sense is going to take your crap. You stalked him and you "rooted" him all to no avail, you couldn't get him back.
Who told you that you were that pretty or that smart? Who told you that you have the right to violate people over and over then lie on them over and over to cover your bloody tracks?
You are a savage batterer, a selfish hedonists, a jealous reprobate and a pathological LIAR. You will not win.
I pray that all of my brothers and relatives finally get the courage to tell you off and to get "shed" of you.
Make sure you know that I know you are a despicable monster. You are not nearly as smart as you think you are. "Vengence is mine sayeth the LORD, I shall repay."
I know that I am not the only person victimized, slandered and reviled by a "predatory mother". I know some of my relatives bear the scars of sexual child abuse that they think they have successfully buried.
I will not let you leave here unexposed. The World will know of you and your kind. "Resist the devil and he will flee."
Was it fun? Did you enjoy being a creepy reprobate? Are you still "preaching"? Are you still crawling up in GOD's pulpit trying to pull off the ultimate scam?
"You are blind and won't see."
May the Dear LORD have mercy on your sick soul.
Children put all of your faith in the LORD Jesus Christ. Trust Him to deliver you from Evil.
Be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are NOTHING!"
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
You are a very sick woman, well beyond any hope for redemption. I also discovered that some of my relatives are just as ignorant, uncaring and jealous as you are. Unlike you they are not cruel and perverted. Unfortunately most of them are clueless regarding your witchcraft and sexual perversion. Some pretend that they don't know what a notorious liar you are.
You did not win. You wasted your life. You are a miserable wretch. I am infuriated by the fact that you have been so successful as a closet demon. I am sorry that I held on to you too long, hoping to help you, praying that you would change.
I can promise you this, I am going to tell my story. I have dedicated my life to helping poor abused children. I want the World to know that we are suffering from a secret epidemic;CHILD ABUSE. Most people just give it lip service. No one wants to talk about it or do anything about it. I guess we have to be victims to care.
I would like to believe that I would care regardless. I will never believe surviving your sadist torture made me more caring.
You will not repent, it will never happen. Take your shameful legacy to your dirty little grave. You still did not win. Yes, you did a lot of sick repugnant "things" in your life, but you did not win.
You exalted yourself and you are now debased. No, not to you because you are delusional. You are the scum of the earth. There is no getting around it. Sick, perverted, murderous, menacing. There is no good in you.
You disappointed your father, you disappointed me. You are a bully but you are not stupid. I just want to ask you, have you ever loved anyone? I seriously doubt that you know what love feels like.
I hate you, I truly do. I hate you all day long and I hate you in my sleep. I wish that you had never been born. There is one thing that I must know, where do you get the nerve to commit your sick perversions and demand that your victims remain clueless? any attempt by your victim to defend himself, speak up for himself is a signal for your ultimate torture.
Your son became a doctor and you were jealous. No, it was not new jealousy. It was always there. You know you tortured and brutalized him. You know that YOU are the one that made him repeat the second grade. Your sick devious mind has always been up to no good. He became a doctor and you tried to pimp him. Too bad he couldn't see through you at first, with all of your "my black Prince" flattery. You raided his office and ran him out of town. You know why he shunned you for twenty-five years. I will not go there yet.
You stole *Goat's money and blamed it on your son. I have no idea how many lies you have spread on me. I know you have lied on me and slandered my name. I feel sorry for anyone that has any faith in any thing that you say.
Just how ignorant are you anyway? You stalked *Gino. You followed him to Ft. Lee, Virginia demanding that his C.O. make him come back to you. You stole his Gulf credit card and filled up strangers gas tanks and bought them tires and batteries. Why or how could you expect him to come back to you? You treated that man like a mangy dog while demanding he treat you like a queen. You whored around on that man with your ex-husband and the man you are married to now.
You are an abuser! a batterer! Any act of self defense enrages you more. "Get thee behind me Satan!"
Your "preaching" might fool people that are just as lost as you are. But, you can't fool GOD.
You married a man much too young for you. You used me as an excuse to get rid of your perverted husband knowing full well that you were more guilty than he was. Then you turned around and mistreated your young husband. You tortured that man just like you did us. Yes, he left you, he should have. No one with good sense is going to take your crap. You stalked him and you "rooted" him all to no avail, you couldn't get him back.
Who told you that you were that pretty or that smart? Who told you that you have the right to violate people over and over then lie on them over and over to cover your bloody tracks?
You are a savage batterer, a selfish hedonists, a jealous reprobate and a pathological LIAR. You will not win.
I pray that all of my brothers and relatives finally get the courage to tell you off and to get "shed" of you.
Make sure you know that I know you are a despicable monster. You are not nearly as smart as you think you are. "Vengence is mine sayeth the LORD, I shall repay."
I know that I am not the only person victimized, slandered and reviled by a "predatory mother". I know some of my relatives bear the scars of sexual child abuse that they think they have successfully buried.
I will not let you leave here unexposed. The World will know of you and your kind. "Resist the devil and he will flee."
Was it fun? Did you enjoy being a creepy reprobate? Are you still "preaching"? Are you still crawling up in GOD's pulpit trying to pull off the ultimate scam?
"You are blind and won't see."
May the Dear LORD have mercy on your sick soul.
Children put all of your faith in the LORD Jesus Christ. Trust Him to deliver you from Evil.
Be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are NOTHING!"
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
"Love ye one another"
"Love ye one another as I have loved you.": a simple enough commandment I always thought. Treat people the way you want to be treated. You know; "Do unto others as you would have others do unto you." I learned that in church, my grandfather and my "mother" taught me that.
My "mother" always said that but she rarely lived it. The fact is my "mother" is no more than a selfish heartless blood thirsty whorish Demon. No you don't, don't you dare feel sorry for her or show her any sympathy. Sympathy is the tool she uses to enslave you. A very skillful manipulator and a perfect Demon you have no chance of ever outwitting her.
The fact is MJW has lived the life she loves to the fullest. She willfully engaged in and continues to practice witchcraft, the occult, "root working" or what ever you want to call it.
Of course she denies it. She is not stupid. "I don't do dat no 'mo." she declares. Why would she stop? She claims that she gave her life to the LORD. "If any man be in Christ he is a new creature." If you are a new creature your behavior, your fruit supports that assertion. You can't claim to be in Christ and continue to Lie! You can't be in Christ and continue to harbor hatred and jealousy.
The "magic arts" served her too well to just give up, to just let go. She still drives her trademark Cadillac, lives pay check to pay check, wears fine clothes and travels a bit on someone else's dime.
Anyone who wants to believe that she suddenly found the LORD and mended her evil ways better think again. If you know her and share your business with her I can assure you that you will suffer IRS audits, college loan collectors, broken relationships and poor health. If you have any kind of suit pending you will lose. You will feel snake bit. Read your Bible, associating with her will render you broke and disgusted.
This blog is my release. I vent in order to heal. Perhaps the facts of my life will help others to learn to love and trust in the LORD only.
It seems that my mother was on target to be "somebody", attractive, intelligent, loving supportive parents, a financially prosperous father. Every thing was lined up for her then she made a "mistake". She got "messed up", had a baby at sixteen. No, her family did not revile her or shun her in any way. So she had no excuse for mistreating her son.
I don't know much about what happened in the ten years following her first child's birth. All I know is that I woke up one day and I was in Hell living a horrific nightmare.
I really don't care about all the things she did before I was born or the torture that I survived in my childhood. It is the stalking and sabotage after reaching adulthood that infuriates me! It infuriates me because she knows better. Visualizing her slithering around working her "black magic" enrages me. I feel this way because I am human. But my LORD Jesus told me not to worry about her. He told me that in due time he will take care of her for good.
Growing up with her as a "mother" was not easy. Looking back I can see clearly that I became the mother figure. We reversed roles. My "mother" the perennial wayward adolescent, funny, fun loving, always up to mischief, I learned how to survive, how to circumvent her. I had to be more mature, more responsible. Certainly I became a more cautious person, a critical thinker, a determined force.
Coming home from school having no choice but to clean a filthy nasty house, cook dinner and supervise my little brothers all before sitting down to do my homework strengthened my resolve to be "somebody". Stretching two blouses, three skirts, one sweater and one pair of shoes into clean decent "outfits" taught me creativity and independence.
Blocking out her rants, rages and frequent tirades taught me concentration. Her sexual proclivities encouraged my celibacy.
Nothing prepared me for the discovery of her true vile nature. I knew that she was ignorant, over sexed, greedy and lying. I even knew that she was cruel and insensitive. I did not know that she was pure EVIL!
GOD knew and GOD knows. She knows the TRUTH, yet refuses to accept it.
She has no power over me because Jesus told me; "Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you." (Luke 10:19)
I know that you have to be born again (John 3:7) I know that we all have to repent of our sins (Acts 17:30) You must believe in the Lord Jesus Christ to be saved (Acts 16:30-31), not voodoo and hoodoo.
I know GOD saved me! plucked me out of the muck and the mire. Thank you Heavenly Father. Thank you for my story.
Stay in His WORD children. Be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
My "mother" always said that but she rarely lived it. The fact is my "mother" is no more than a selfish heartless blood thirsty whorish Demon. No you don't, don't you dare feel sorry for her or show her any sympathy. Sympathy is the tool she uses to enslave you. A very skillful manipulator and a perfect Demon you have no chance of ever outwitting her.
The fact is MJW has lived the life she loves to the fullest. She willfully engaged in and continues to practice witchcraft, the occult, "root working" or what ever you want to call it.
Of course she denies it. She is not stupid. "I don't do dat no 'mo." she declares. Why would she stop? She claims that she gave her life to the LORD. "If any man be in Christ he is a new creature." If you are a new creature your behavior, your fruit supports that assertion. You can't claim to be in Christ and continue to Lie! You can't be in Christ and continue to harbor hatred and jealousy.
The "magic arts" served her too well to just give up, to just let go. She still drives her trademark Cadillac, lives pay check to pay check, wears fine clothes and travels a bit on someone else's dime.
Anyone who wants to believe that she suddenly found the LORD and mended her evil ways better think again. If you know her and share your business with her I can assure you that you will suffer IRS audits, college loan collectors, broken relationships and poor health. If you have any kind of suit pending you will lose. You will feel snake bit. Read your Bible, associating with her will render you broke and disgusted.
This blog is my release. I vent in order to heal. Perhaps the facts of my life will help others to learn to love and trust in the LORD only.
It seems that my mother was on target to be "somebody", attractive, intelligent, loving supportive parents, a financially prosperous father. Every thing was lined up for her then she made a "mistake". She got "messed up", had a baby at sixteen. No, her family did not revile her or shun her in any way. So she had no excuse for mistreating her son.
I don't know much about what happened in the ten years following her first child's birth. All I know is that I woke up one day and I was in Hell living a horrific nightmare.
I really don't care about all the things she did before I was born or the torture that I survived in my childhood. It is the stalking and sabotage after reaching adulthood that infuriates me! It infuriates me because she knows better. Visualizing her slithering around working her "black magic" enrages me. I feel this way because I am human. But my LORD Jesus told me not to worry about her. He told me that in due time he will take care of her for good.
Growing up with her as a "mother" was not easy. Looking back I can see clearly that I became the mother figure. We reversed roles. My "mother" the perennial wayward adolescent, funny, fun loving, always up to mischief, I learned how to survive, how to circumvent her. I had to be more mature, more responsible. Certainly I became a more cautious person, a critical thinker, a determined force.
Coming home from school having no choice but to clean a filthy nasty house, cook dinner and supervise my little brothers all before sitting down to do my homework strengthened my resolve to be "somebody". Stretching two blouses, three skirts, one sweater and one pair of shoes into clean decent "outfits" taught me creativity and independence.
Blocking out her rants, rages and frequent tirades taught me concentration. Her sexual proclivities encouraged my celibacy.
Nothing prepared me for the discovery of her true vile nature. I knew that she was ignorant, over sexed, greedy and lying. I even knew that she was cruel and insensitive. I did not know that she was pure EVIL!
GOD knew and GOD knows. She knows the TRUTH, yet refuses to accept it.
She has no power over me because Jesus told me; "Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you." (Luke 10:19)
I know that you have to be born again (John 3:7) I know that we all have to repent of our sins (Acts 17:30) You must believe in the Lord Jesus Christ to be saved (Acts 16:30-31), not voodoo and hoodoo.
I know GOD saved me! plucked me out of the muck and the mire. Thank you Heavenly Father. Thank you for my story.
Stay in His WORD children. Be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
In Due Time
I saw you! I caught you busting a bag in my new born baby's ear. You told a smooth lie and never waivered. Walked away cool and collected.
I saw that before. You sent your perverted husband , red eyed and drooling, you sent him with a rock hard penis in one hand and a wad of money in the other hand. You sent him to ruin me. I was fourteen years old and you sent your trained minion to do what you could not do. Again you walked away cool and collected. Don't you ever forget that I did escape! You evil plan failed. There you were like some vile troll hiding behind the door declaring; "Rats! foiled again!"
You had sex with all those men in *Goat's barracks. When you were "satisfied" you walked away cool and collected.
You shot your own father in the heart and got away clean.
Who can stop you? GOD When? When he gets ready.
Let me interrupt your celebratory gleeful laugh right now. It is not your brilliance and skillful lies that have kept you, it is your pure EVIL! No one on this earth believes that a cretin like you can exist.
I know because I survived you. It was the hand of GOD that rescued me from your foul filthy clutches.
I will speak the TRUTH. People need to know what happens to families that suffer demons, keep them close and cover for them. It will not end well. That vile serpent will wax worse and worse. That ignorant animal lives to strike terror.
Be sure you say The LORD's Prayer every day children. Pay close attention to the words "...and deliver us from EVIL!"
GOD delivered me and He will deliver you if you ask Him.
Dear LORD! Bind that Demon creature! Bind her to the lowest depths of Hell. Cleve her lying tongue to the roof of her mouth! Interrupt the activity of her sick demented brain! DELIVER US FROM EVIL LORD!!! At your name LORD every knee shall bow and every tongue shall confess. In the Holy name of my LORD and Saviour I pray.
Thank you LORD for Saving ME! Save my family LORD! Save those that are willing and want to be saved. Save the ones that love you LORD. Give them courage LORD. This maneater emasculated her sons. Deliver them from her Evil. Shake them out LORD! Put a spot light on them.
Dear LORD cleanse me, remove every spot and blemish. Prop me up on every leaning side.
"Come by here LORD , somebody needs you." Be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
P.S. Stay in His WORD. Read and study your Bible every day.
I saw that before. You sent your perverted husband , red eyed and drooling, you sent him with a rock hard penis in one hand and a wad of money in the other hand. You sent him to ruin me. I was fourteen years old and you sent your trained minion to do what you could not do. Again you walked away cool and collected. Don't you ever forget that I did escape! You evil plan failed. There you were like some vile troll hiding behind the door declaring; "Rats! foiled again!"
You had sex with all those men in *Goat's barracks. When you were "satisfied" you walked away cool and collected.
You shot your own father in the heart and got away clean.
Who can stop you? GOD When? When he gets ready.
Let me interrupt your celebratory gleeful laugh right now. It is not your brilliance and skillful lies that have kept you, it is your pure EVIL! No one on this earth believes that a cretin like you can exist.
I know because I survived you. It was the hand of GOD that rescued me from your foul filthy clutches.
I will speak the TRUTH. People need to know what happens to families that suffer demons, keep them close and cover for them. It will not end well. That vile serpent will wax worse and worse. That ignorant animal lives to strike terror.
Be sure you say The LORD's Prayer every day children. Pay close attention to the words "...and deliver us from EVIL!"
GOD delivered me and He will deliver you if you ask Him.
Dear LORD! Bind that Demon creature! Bind her to the lowest depths of Hell. Cleve her lying tongue to the roof of her mouth! Interrupt the activity of her sick demented brain! DELIVER US FROM EVIL LORD!!! At your name LORD every knee shall bow and every tongue shall confess. In the Holy name of my LORD and Saviour I pray.
Thank you LORD for Saving ME! Save my family LORD! Save those that are willing and want to be saved. Save the ones that love you LORD. Give them courage LORD. This maneater emasculated her sons. Deliver them from her Evil. Shake them out LORD! Put a spot light on them.
Dear LORD cleanse me, remove every spot and blemish. Prop me up on every leaning side.
"Come by here LORD , somebody needs you." Be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
P.S. Stay in His WORD. Read and study your Bible every day.
Friday, March 4, 2011
Unspeakable JOY!
"Count it ALL Joy!" I have unspeakable Joy! My soul looks back and wonders how I got over. It was the divine hand of the my Living LORD. I am humbled by GOD's Goodness. I am in Awe because I know He chose me! GOD picked me up out of the muck and mire and set my feet on a solid rock. "On Christ a solid Rock I stand."
I bear my soul and expose my life so that others might have the opportunity to share in this Faith, this Knowing, this Blessing.
I was set up from the beginning. Born to a perverted sick demented woman, what hope did I have? None! Not only is she depraved beyond human comprehension she is supernaturally brilliant. No male brain can match her intelligence. This woman is a formidable foe. You would be hard pressed to defeat or outwit her in anything.
Living, surviving and thriving while under her jaundiced eye is no less than a miracle. If you have never had to endure the maniacal screams, rants and raves of an absolute lunatic you are truly blessed. Foul filthy cussing and cursing for hours and hours. This woman would get up at five or six in the morning and start ranting and raving until sleep over took her well past midnight.
What I thought was her worse "infirmity" was in actuality the kindness. This sick maniac was busy "working roots".
Dear LORD I am so ashamed. I announce to the world that my "mother" is ignorant and primitive. She is a left over slave, a volunteer slave, a skank.
I am telling you that you better walk wide. From such stay away.
Now I know what was eating you, that Demon you serve.
It is more than ironic that you are always "testifying" about how GOD removed the scales from your eyes while you manufacture lie after lie on people that you have violated. People with the potential to "Out" you.
N**** if you wanted to be a Lesbian why didn't you tell somebody. Who told you that you had to play "mother"?
Yes, I have something against you. I will not discuss all of the pre-teen sexual abuse I suffered right now. That Ft. Gordon situation? Just what did you hope to accomplish? I could not have been for money. You took all the n****'s money. You laughed about how you put him on an allowance. He could have money for one pack of cigarettes per week. All of his E-6 money had to go to you. If it wasn't the money what was it? I was tiny, I was fourteen, I am sure that I didn't weigh eighty pounds.
It was my innocence that you were after. What kind of mother tries to force their child into whoredom?
You two demons raped me when I was eight then you had the damn greedy lustful sick nerve to come back when I was fourteen! "A dog will return to his vomit."
You miscalculated that time, my fifteen year old brother was there to rescue me. That was the hand of the LORD Mathy Jane.
I tell you this before you go. I am ashamed of you and all women like you. I am ashamed of all the people that continue to cover for you.
How dare you demand that I respect you. I don't even like you.
I must tell you how I finally caught on to you. Your behavior concerning cousin *Emma Lou. You lost your jealous mind when she earned her master's degree. The horrible things you said about her. Your jealousy is irrational, it is uncalled for.
You will get your just and honest due on this planet earth. "I tell thee thou shalt not depart thense, till thou hast paid the very last mite." (Luke 12:59)
Yes, you destroyed all of my writing, book manuscripts, dug ditches and set your traps, but I am not defeated.
GOD is restoring every thing you stole from me. "Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ." (Philippians 1:6)
You! be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
I bear my soul and expose my life so that others might have the opportunity to share in this Faith, this Knowing, this Blessing.
I was set up from the beginning. Born to a perverted sick demented woman, what hope did I have? None! Not only is she depraved beyond human comprehension she is supernaturally brilliant. No male brain can match her intelligence. This woman is a formidable foe. You would be hard pressed to defeat or outwit her in anything.
Living, surviving and thriving while under her jaundiced eye is no less than a miracle. If you have never had to endure the maniacal screams, rants and raves of an absolute lunatic you are truly blessed. Foul filthy cussing and cursing for hours and hours. This woman would get up at five or six in the morning and start ranting and raving until sleep over took her well past midnight.
What I thought was her worse "infirmity" was in actuality the kindness. This sick maniac was busy "working roots".
Dear LORD I am so ashamed. I announce to the world that my "mother" is ignorant and primitive. She is a left over slave, a volunteer slave, a skank.
I am telling you that you better walk wide. From such stay away.
Now I know what was eating you, that Demon you serve.
It is more than ironic that you are always "testifying" about how GOD removed the scales from your eyes while you manufacture lie after lie on people that you have violated. People with the potential to "Out" you.
N**** if you wanted to be a Lesbian why didn't you tell somebody. Who told you that you had to play "mother"?
Yes, I have something against you. I will not discuss all of the pre-teen sexual abuse I suffered right now. That Ft. Gordon situation? Just what did you hope to accomplish? I could not have been for money. You took all the n****'s money. You laughed about how you put him on an allowance. He could have money for one pack of cigarettes per week. All of his E-6 money had to go to you. If it wasn't the money what was it? I was tiny, I was fourteen, I am sure that I didn't weigh eighty pounds.
It was my innocence that you were after. What kind of mother tries to force their child into whoredom?
You two demons raped me when I was eight then you had the damn greedy lustful sick nerve to come back when I was fourteen! "A dog will return to his vomit."
You miscalculated that time, my fifteen year old brother was there to rescue me. That was the hand of the LORD Mathy Jane.
I tell you this before you go. I am ashamed of you and all women like you. I am ashamed of all the people that continue to cover for you.
How dare you demand that I respect you. I don't even like you.
I must tell you how I finally caught on to you. Your behavior concerning cousin *Emma Lou. You lost your jealous mind when she earned her master's degree. The horrible things you said about her. Your jealousy is irrational, it is uncalled for.
You will get your just and honest due on this planet earth. "I tell thee thou shalt not depart thense, till thou hast paid the very last mite." (Luke 12:59)
Yes, you destroyed all of my writing, book manuscripts, dug ditches and set your traps, but I am not defeated.
GOD is restoring every thing you stole from me. "Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ." (Philippians 1:6)
You! be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Deja Vu
Deja Vu all over again. I get it. You poor woman. A depraved decadent life caught in a loop. Never able to admit the truth about your frailties you cleverly covered them up and repeated them over and over.
As a child you smashed a puppy and sexually violated your little brother. If it is a lie you told it. "My mama was always accusing me of touching *Zack's peepee! that damn luddle shawt a** nigga wuz playind wid his own peepee."
I didn't know how to take it when you dropped that bomb on me. Like always I just listened and tucked that "information" neatly away. I had a place deep down in my soul reserved just for you, just for your "acts", those unexplainable events that I had no name for. GOD promised to help me deal with them one day and he has.
As an adult mother you could not quell your lustful desires. So you violated your children knowing they loved you and would never tell. That added layer of terrifying fear certainly has helped you pull off the perfect scam.
As the years passed you perfected your lies and disguises. You did well. Some one gave you a license to preach. That license to preach doesn't make you worthy! A license to preach is not substitute for repentance!
You did wrong Mathy Jane. Take a poll, there are very few women of any color or creed that would do what you did.
Here is the irony; here is the beautiful silver lining in all this misery; your taunting and ridiculing your children indicts you, it proves every word I tell is true. You see Mathy only a cold calculating common predatory "mother", common enough to commit the kinds of acts you did would compound the effects of her abuse with sour ridicule.
You ridicule and low rate your children trying to pull them down to your level. That laugh, that attitude could only come from a heartless reprobate.
True your type of evil is rare(I hope) and can only be explained by the book of Acts ( chapter 19).
Study that scripture children. Please allow me to give you my interpretation of that scripture. These vagabond Jews that called themselves exorcists tried to mimic Jesus and His disciples. But, the demon in the possessed man called them out;"Jesus I know and Paul, but who are you?" That vicious demon proceeded to beat the so called exorcists so brutally that they escaped bloody, beaten and naked.
You and I laughed about that same scripture many times. We laughed at the fact that that had to be a serious demon. A demon so horrid and diabolical that he could not be defeated by those that were unworthy. Those vagabond Jews didn't come correctly, they were making light of Jesus and His power.
I think there are a lot of vagabond Christians in this world. Believing that they can mimic the power of Jesus. No one should ever pretend that they have the Holy Spirit. If you don't have it, pray for it, but don't fake it.
You have to live right! You can not fake GOD's anointing. True there are enough fakes hiding in the "Church" for you to get by. But one day they are all going to be found out, just like you.
No I am not trying to exercise any demons out of you. You have a demon that only Jesus Christ can defeat.
You are hilarious, snake bite, it would take you to go out and collect the most diabolical demon known to mankind.
Well you keep that demon to yourself.
GOD is so wonderful. You gave me "religion" to enslave me and GOD showed me how it could free me.
I only have one thing to say; "Praise the Lord!"
You! be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
As a child you smashed a puppy and sexually violated your little brother. If it is a lie you told it. "My mama was always accusing me of touching *Zack's peepee! that damn luddle shawt a** nigga wuz playind wid his own peepee."
I didn't know how to take it when you dropped that bomb on me. Like always I just listened and tucked that "information" neatly away. I had a place deep down in my soul reserved just for you, just for your "acts", those unexplainable events that I had no name for. GOD promised to help me deal with them one day and he has.
As an adult mother you could not quell your lustful desires. So you violated your children knowing they loved you and would never tell. That added layer of terrifying fear certainly has helped you pull off the perfect scam.
As the years passed you perfected your lies and disguises. You did well. Some one gave you a license to preach. That license to preach doesn't make you worthy! A license to preach is not substitute for repentance!
You did wrong Mathy Jane. Take a poll, there are very few women of any color or creed that would do what you did.
Here is the irony; here is the beautiful silver lining in all this misery; your taunting and ridiculing your children indicts you, it proves every word I tell is true. You see Mathy only a cold calculating common predatory "mother", common enough to commit the kinds of acts you did would compound the effects of her abuse with sour ridicule.
You ridicule and low rate your children trying to pull them down to your level. That laugh, that attitude could only come from a heartless reprobate.
True your type of evil is rare(I hope) and can only be explained by the book of Acts ( chapter 19).
Study that scripture children. Please allow me to give you my interpretation of that scripture. These vagabond Jews that called themselves exorcists tried to mimic Jesus and His disciples. But, the demon in the possessed man called them out;"Jesus I know and Paul, but who are you?" That vicious demon proceeded to beat the so called exorcists so brutally that they escaped bloody, beaten and naked.
You and I laughed about that same scripture many times. We laughed at the fact that that had to be a serious demon. A demon so horrid and diabolical that he could not be defeated by those that were unworthy. Those vagabond Jews didn't come correctly, they were making light of Jesus and His power.
I think there are a lot of vagabond Christians in this world. Believing that they can mimic the power of Jesus. No one should ever pretend that they have the Holy Spirit. If you don't have it, pray for it, but don't fake it.
You have to live right! You can not fake GOD's anointing. True there are enough fakes hiding in the "Church" for you to get by. But one day they are all going to be found out, just like you.
No I am not trying to exercise any demons out of you. You have a demon that only Jesus Christ can defeat.
You are hilarious, snake bite, it would take you to go out and collect the most diabolical demon known to mankind.
Well you keep that demon to yourself.
GOD is so wonderful. You gave me "religion" to enslave me and GOD showed me how it could free me.
I only have one thing to say; "Praise the Lord!"
You! be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
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