I Don't Buy IT!

I'm not buying that load of crap. "I'm a poor miserable reprobate,I can't help it but please love me and forgive me anyway."


I know your story. It took me too many years but I finally figured you out. I do understand why I resisted the TRUTH so long. Your TRUTH is reprehensible. It is foul. "Mox nix"; to you too because you totally dismiss all your deeds as "collateral damage". You dismiss my pain and anguish with;"You should have known better." "You should have had better sense."; you announce. A lot of vulgarity, "curses", vows of retribution, but not one "I'm sorry." No hint of repentance.

Well I read my Bible also. You must be "born again", you must repent of your sins. You will not! But you are still running that; "I'm saved and sanctified game" on the gullible. "I'm just sending up timber."; we both laugh as you lie a hundred lies a minute. Do you not get what is wrong with this picture? You have wasted eighty-five years trying to beat and hammer Satanic lies into the TRUTH.

You have never changed your m.o. (modus operindi), commit some act so vile and evil that no one but GOD would know you did it. Then, if caught, perform like a raving maniac. "Curse" them, cuss them, lay hands on them if you can. Certainly threaten to kill them. I must say it worked for such a long time.

You tried to kill your father when I assume you were pregnant with *Leo. "I tried to kill my daddy when I was sixteen! Mistuh Wifford had to wrassel the shotgun outta my hands!"

"He was out 'dere running 'round wid dis woman. He wuz runnin' round on my mama! Spending all the tobbaca money on hur!" I listened. I listened to all your fantastic stories . It didn't occur to me then, but what did that have to do with you?

It was probably a lie anyway. I think it had something to do with *Alvin Bivens, *Leo's daddy. I think you and your mother had plotted to "capture" and marry that handsome movie star fine gentleman. Your pregnancy was no accident. "Ah didn't know where babies came from. Niggas just always took advantage of me."

No one has ever in your eighty-five years taken advantage of you!

The TRUTH is that you are an evil liar and will do anything to satisfy your lust and greed. There is nothing too low, too sick or demented. You don't know boundaries, age, sex, kinship. You are a woman who has always lived by ;"If it feels good, DO It! If you get caught, LIE!" It is as simple as that. A very intelligent woman you do over estimate you ability to "trick" and "con". A person does have to study your fruit to discover the real "Mathy Jane". I'm not at all sure that you know "her" completely. You lie for survival. You lie out of habit. You do lie for fun, just to see how gullible your victims really are? Naivety delights you. Gifts of money and presents embolden you. Christ condemns you.

Looking back over your life I am shocked by the number of horrible deeds you did in fact get away with. That's your real pleasure, "getting away", fooling your victims.

Yes, you love to pray with people. You will even give them scripture to read knowing full well how you really hate them and wish them nothing but harm.

You are laughing at me because you still think that you have won. You have made all of your resisters and detractors your mortal enemies.

Well, "lady" I thank GOD for His revelation. I thank GOD for delivering me from your evil.

You are a classic narcissist. You project your evil onto your victims. I understand now. You think that you have cleverly convinced people that I am YOU. Just how do you plan to convince people that I am the whorish one when I have been totally celibate for over twenty-one years?

Who really believes that I am lying on you? I know now that most of those bizarre tales that you pinned on *Emma Lou were in fact YOU. "Yea, we get on the ship and pretend that we are millionaire sisters. Can you believe that? Dat *Emma Lou is the lyingest woman that eva pissed between two shoes. I just go along wid it because she paying for the trips. You know I ain't got no money to go no where."

"Yea, *Emma Lou be going wid all dem young fine men. Just lying to 'um. Talking bout she gon git them a green card. It has been ten years and she ain't got that green card yet."

I didn't know that any one could live a complete lie for eight-five years. I don't believe that you have successfully fooled anyone. I do think too many people still feel sorry for you. You are a likable person minus your back stabbing treachery. Yea, you will buy your granddaughter a set or tires or keep her from getting evicted. But, you show your evil hand when you get on the phone and broadcast her business and low rate her character clear across the country.

It is shocking, I did not know that you were low enough to "work roots" on your "own" children, close relatives and friends until I caught you red handed.

You are right. I am the fool. Anyone evil enough, delusional enough to murder and eighty-four year old man and not blink should not be tolerated. How did I ever think that I could help you? How could I believe that you finally changed?

No, that is a character that you invented. Poor delusional sexually molested Mathy Jane is pitiful. She can't help it. Strange things will happen to you and around you but don't pay that any attention. Just love her. Stroke her ego non-stop. Neglect yourself. Put all of your dreams on hold. Don't out do her. Don't look better. Don't earn a college degree. As a matter of fact, why don't you just die a slow death. Die as a hopeless alcoholic, or drug addict. Die miserable, broke and alone. That's what you get for knowing.

"You remember too much!" What? I'm supposed to be retarded as well as too black, too fat, too broke, too grey, too hard lucked, too dumb and "no sense-ed". Just how dumb am I supposed to be? really? Should I play retard like you? Should I play the poor hapless victim?

No, it is your fruit. From the hot soapy enemas to treating me like Celie in the 'Color Purple' when I went to nurse you after your knee surgery.

No, there is no point in changing now. Too much wrong has been done. The TRUTH is too foul. Don't worry, if I out live you I will not go to your funeral. You didn't have to "un-invite" me. Why would I want to go other than to prove to myself that your evil a** was finally in the ground. If I have anything to do with your funeral you will be cremated. It is cheaper and you deserve to burn.

My book reveals a beautiful love story. It is about a pretty little abused child, unloved and unwanted by her "mother" who found abundant love and great wisdom from her tall handsome saintly grandfather. It is a story of redemption and undying faith. It is proof that GOD rights every wrong.

Stay in His WORD children. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel