A Conversation With Myself

Who does that? really? Who is ignorant and primitive enough to be practicing some "hoodoo" black magic crap in 2011? My "mother"! Wait a minute before you go judging me too harshly, make sure you know I speak nothing but the pure unadulterated TRUTH.

It is like being in a bad movie. I am living "Gone With the Wind", "Mandingo" and "Uncle Tom's Cabin" all in one. My first question was "Why me LORD?", then I thought about it and the answer was ;"Why not me?"

You can laugh. It is funny, it is hilarious if you are not involved in this "mess". I actually have a "mother" that's a "Voodoo Priestess" and she is delusional enough to think she has some power.

No, I am telling because this kind of ridiculous ignorance must be exposed. People need to know what some oppressed people do to each other. This is a deliberate case of "I am too sorry and pathetic to do anything with my own life and I insist on destroying yours because I had you. I would have been somebody if it hadn't been for you. I am ignorant and blind and a team of mules could never pull me to the TRUTH."

No, this is not new. She was like this when I met her. Loud, ignorant, abusive, whorish, lying, stubborn, manipulative and scheming. I loved her. We all loved her anyway. I don't know why but all children love their mothers. Or most children anyway. I was also too young and naive to understand what was really happening.

It is still hard to take. I am not sure I would have ever guessed or fully caught on if she hadn't killed my grandfather. Even then I knew for nine years before I found the courage to say anything.

Yes, it was the letter with the fecal matter that pushed me over the edge. That act was not crazy or mean. That act was demonic. Why is she demonic? GOD only knows. Can she help it? I say yes. She has free will just like I do or you do.

In the end I see that her mistreatment of me and of others is for the best. "GOD will work it out."; just like my grandfather promised.

Pay attention to the signs. "Look well to your going." Stay prayed up children. Don't let any demons lead you astray.

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel