It was you that clearly decided to "claim" I was nothing. You knew better. Your brilliant deceit is proof of what you called "corruption". I must admit that you did brag about being corrupt. You did tell us often. That always puzzled me. How could I know you were working for the enemy? The idea that my mother truly loved satan never occurred to me. Your actions, your fruit, leave no doubt.
Again I want to thank you for rescuing me from that whore house you left me in for 6 months and for dumping me on your parents to nurture for four years.
Martha, I do not want another person, another innocent child to fall under the spell of witches like you. May no "good man" ever be captivated by a woman like you.
It is so ironic. It was your phoniness, your excessive church attendance and Bible reading that saved me. Praise the LORD!
"Root Working" doesn't work dummy! Sure you got your way, held us down, back stabbed and destroyed. But, now you are reaping.
You can hate me, you can hate GOD's Truth all you want. It's still true! You are still low. Now I know why you tried so desperately to create in me a stench, a stain ... I know why you were determined to transform me into a whore worse than you. Guess what? It is impossible! The world claims that there is honor among thieves. Not with you.
A woman without honor. Help her LORD. Help all the women and young ladies that still love her. Lead them to your light LORD. Take the blinders off!
Thank you for living the worse life possible. Yes, I did hunger for your love. It wasn't you. It's called "natural affection", something you never had. But, look, your starvation tactics made me hunger for the love of the LORD.
GOD feeds me every day. Every day of my life I feast on His Daily Bread. "The just shall live by faith." and "Love never fails."
Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
COPYRIGHT MAY 30, 2014 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.
Friday, May 30, 2014
Wednesday, May 28, 2014
GOD sent His son
to save our dying world. Can't you believe Him? Wont your trust Him? Go ahead, put all of your love and trust in the true and living LORD!
Sure some very bad things happened to you. That doesn't mean GOD did not know or did not see. He saw, He shielded as much as He could. But, like all of us He gave your mother Free Will. It was her decision to hold on to anger and hatred. Why should you die and go to hell with her?
True, she was a true player, heart as cold and hard as a rock. The world's greatest and longest nightmare! More than likely can be described as the world's most whorish woman. It's a fact. There is no point in sugar coating it now.
For the rest of my life I will be running around shouting, catching the Holy Ghost, screaming; "He Saved Meeeeeeeeeeee! GOD looked down on me! Saw my suffering and saveeeeeeed Meeeeeee! Little old black, no daddy having, little black bastard me! Placed Jerome Walters strategically in my life so that I would not end up the street walker that demon that controlled and dictated Martha's every thought, wanted me to be. I escaped crack! I escaped whoredom! I escaped witchcraft! I escaped "weak faith"!
How? I just asked Him. I simply prayed. Are you in trouble today? Are you living in fear? Are there some things troubling you?
Pray! Step out on faith. GOD will rescue you. He will sit you on high, He will give you the Peace that surpasses all understanding.
Sure some very bad things happened to you. That doesn't mean GOD did not know or did not see. He saw, He shielded as much as He could. But, like all of us He gave your mother Free Will. It was her decision to hold on to anger and hatred. Why should you die and go to hell with her?
True, she was a true player, heart as cold and hard as a rock. The world's greatest and longest nightmare! More than likely can be described as the world's most whorish woman. It's a fact. There is no point in sugar coating it now.
For the rest of my life I will be running around shouting, catching the Holy Ghost, screaming; "He Saved Meeeeeeeeeeee! GOD looked down on me! Saw my suffering and saveeeeeeed Meeeeeee! Little old black, no daddy having, little black bastard me! Placed Jerome Walters strategically in my life so that I would not end up the street walker that demon that controlled and dictated Martha's every thought, wanted me to be. I escaped crack! I escaped whoredom! I escaped witchcraft! I escaped "weak faith"!
How? I just asked Him. I simply prayed. Are you in trouble today? Are you living in fear? Are there some things troubling you?
Pray! Step out on faith. GOD will rescue you. He will sit you on high, He will give you the Peace that surpasses all understanding.
"I broke rank" ...
a military expression. Very appropriate because I grew up in the military. I broke rank not a moment too soon. The fact is, it took a very long time to see and accept how evil my "mother" truly was. She was not an escaped lunatic from the mental asylum, but she should have been.
No one expects their mother to play them, to use them as pawns for money and or sexual pleasure. Who knew a mind could become so low and depraved, so vile and sneaky? GOD wants you to know that it is easy. Stop praying sincerely. Never pray for the Holy Spirit to enter your heart, to dwell there in. Be more concerned with what the world sees than what GOD knows. And above all, make sure you derive tremendous pleasure from the total destruction of others. Always pretend to be a friend, a help-mate, a soul-mate.
Growing up one of my mother's favorite often repeated opinions was; "Find'um, F***'um and Forget'um" I assumed she was just talking about the constant stream of men she fleeced. I didn't know she meant us. I didn't know she meant me.
I should have. Anytime you have a mother that gets up screaming at the top of her lungs everyday, cursing and spewing pure filth, you are in trouble and you need Jesus! Any time your mother at every opportunity threatens to let "Yo' muthaf**** a** hole close up" When your mornings start like this before you get to school, you will study. You will excel! And you will pray to get "Grown and Gone!".
TOXIC! TOXIC! Praise the LORD for saving me! Praise the LORD for Jerome Walters! Just remember this; "He maketh not ashamed!"
Poor Martha became too ashamed, too foul to repent, to ask for forgiveness. Dear LORD, please forgive her. Martha was truly ignorant. satan convinced her that she was brilliant. She fell for it.
My truth is timely and needs to be known. When Dr. King started pressing for Civil Rights most of the black people I knew called him a damn fool. Said he should shut up! Things were fine. The black middle class loved things exactly as they were, "separate but equal" was perfect for the black undertaker, restaurateur, and business owner.
Through the Civil Rights Movement the world came to know of, disapprove of and dismantle a sick selfish inhumane system. The cry heard around the world was; "I didn't know!"
I want to do the same thing for child abuse. I want to expose the sick sexual predators that think they can win, never get caught, never be exposed because they are on the side of GOD. Phony, fake, predators ...LORD forbid!
Dear LORD I pray so humbly for your forgiveness. Thank you for loving US! for trying to save us from ourselves!
I am going to ask you to do one thing every day for the balance of your days; Pray!
No one expects their mother to play them, to use them as pawns for money and or sexual pleasure. Who knew a mind could become so low and depraved, so vile and sneaky? GOD wants you to know that it is easy. Stop praying sincerely. Never pray for the Holy Spirit to enter your heart, to dwell there in. Be more concerned with what the world sees than what GOD knows. And above all, make sure you derive tremendous pleasure from the total destruction of others. Always pretend to be a friend, a help-mate, a soul-mate.
Growing up one of my mother's favorite often repeated opinions was; "Find'um, F***'um and Forget'um" I assumed she was just talking about the constant stream of men she fleeced. I didn't know she meant us. I didn't know she meant me.
I should have. Anytime you have a mother that gets up screaming at the top of her lungs everyday, cursing and spewing pure filth, you are in trouble and you need Jesus! Any time your mother at every opportunity threatens to let "Yo' muthaf**** a** hole close up" When your mornings start like this before you get to school, you will study. You will excel! And you will pray to get "Grown and Gone!".
TOXIC! TOXIC! Praise the LORD for saving me! Praise the LORD for Jerome Walters! Just remember this; "He maketh not ashamed!"
Poor Martha became too ashamed, too foul to repent, to ask for forgiveness. Dear LORD, please forgive her. Martha was truly ignorant. satan convinced her that she was brilliant. She fell for it.
My truth is timely and needs to be known. When Dr. King started pressing for Civil Rights most of the black people I knew called him a damn fool. Said he should shut up! Things were fine. The black middle class loved things exactly as they were, "separate but equal" was perfect for the black undertaker, restaurateur, and business owner.
Through the Civil Rights Movement the world came to know of, disapprove of and dismantle a sick selfish inhumane system. The cry heard around the world was; "I didn't know!"
I want to do the same thing for child abuse. I want to expose the sick sexual predators that think they can win, never get caught, never be exposed because they are on the side of GOD. Phony, fake, predators ...LORD forbid!
Dear LORD I pray so humbly for your forgiveness. Thank you for loving US! for trying to save us from ourselves!
I am going to ask you to do one thing every day for the balance of your days; Pray!
Tuesday, May 27, 2014
I dont care what this
world told you. You knew better! You are not fooling me in the least. You knew that it was so wrong you had to be very careful. You were very stealth and sneaky hiding behind your moniker, "mother".
In 2005 you told me I would be the one to tell on you, the "snitch". You had me apologizing. I didn't know why. I knew that I quaked in my boots every time you used that tone of voice.
Yea, I finally put it all together. Don't worry, I am not going to go there. I am just re-counting some of the things you did to me and granddaddy. I can merely speculate about the injuries you caused my brothers.
Now, back to your being sorry. You dashed all hopes I had of ever getting one of your lying phony apologies when you died suddenly at 87. (LOL)
Yes, I actually laugh a lot. I laugh aloud. Some of my triggers cause me to laugh, but most cause me to cry.
What did you do wrong? Wrong! That's what you did wrong. It is like you took the 10 Commandments as a challenge from GOD. How many of these things can I do over and over, never get caught and bully and terrorize the **** out of people that act like they got some gumption.
No, I am not judging, but something tells me you died and went straight to a burning hell. GOD didn't even let you stop over in Purgatory for a brief rest. So I thank you! You sure demonstrated what a bad attitude, hard head, think you slick, whorish a** skank determined to be worshipped, lauded and feared scheme for life will get you.
I found you in the Bible. You are on almost every page. So, you know I trust that Bible! It is my road map! Never Again!
Come ye out from among them children! You don't have to suffer for love. You don't have to put up with phony lying demons seeking their narcissistic supply.
Praise the LORD!
Feeling good! Praying GOD's tender mercies over you and your situation. I do pray that you pray for the indwelling of th Holy Spirit. I do pray you realize that we are nothing without Christ in our lives.
Stay in His WORD!
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 27, 2014 All rights reserved.
In 2005 you told me I would be the one to tell on you, the "snitch". You had me apologizing. I didn't know why. I knew that I quaked in my boots every time you used that tone of voice.
Yea, I finally put it all together. Don't worry, I am not going to go there. I am just re-counting some of the things you did to me and granddaddy. I can merely speculate about the injuries you caused my brothers.
Now, back to your being sorry. You dashed all hopes I had of ever getting one of your lying phony apologies when you died suddenly at 87. (LOL)
Yes, I actually laugh a lot. I laugh aloud. Some of my triggers cause me to laugh, but most cause me to cry.
What did you do wrong? Wrong! That's what you did wrong. It is like you took the 10 Commandments as a challenge from GOD. How many of these things can I do over and over, never get caught and bully and terrorize the **** out of people that act like they got some gumption.
No, I am not judging, but something tells me you died and went straight to a burning hell. GOD didn't even let you stop over in Purgatory for a brief rest. So I thank you! You sure demonstrated what a bad attitude, hard head, think you slick, whorish a** skank determined to be worshipped, lauded and feared scheme for life will get you.
I found you in the Bible. You are on almost every page. So, you know I trust that Bible! It is my road map! Never Again!
Come ye out from among them children! You don't have to suffer for love. You don't have to put up with phony lying demons seeking their narcissistic supply.
Praise the LORD!
Feeling good! Praying GOD's tender mercies over you and your situation. I do pray that you pray for the indwelling of th Holy Spirit. I do pray you realize that we are nothing without Christ in our lives.
Stay in His WORD!
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 27, 2014 All rights reserved.
Monday, May 26, 2014
I tell you jealousy and
envy is akin to cancer. Cain killed Abel because of jealousy. Jealousy is an internal anger, a primitive form of stupidity. Every time I hug my cat, my dog comes running. I have three animals that pretend to love me to death. I know they are conditioned by the good treatment, high quality food in clean containers, on time, the same time every day.
I love those tails straight up in the air, head nuzzling and circling my legs trying to make me dizzy. They give me something to do, something to love. Plus I can trust them. They are incapable of evil. Greed, yes, and my poor dumb pup will help herself to what ever is in the litter box. (I think my poor dog has Down Syndrome)
I am warning you about jealousy. I want you to know that it will lead you to ruin. Learn how to feel good about someone else's blessing! Yours is coming. GOD knows, He sees, He remembers.
What ever you do, don't play GOD. Don't try to get even. Don't plot, don't make plans to destroy someone because you don't like them. Mother's don't ever blame your children for ****! Wait before you open those legs. Do you even like this n*****?
Do you feel obligated because he took you out to dinner, opened the car door, complimented you? Are you looking for some help? Most importantly are you a whore? If you are, be one! Be a proud one, make business cards.
If you are not, don't be a part time whore, not even with your husband. Don't withdraw the body he loves from him in order to control him. That's wrong. That's whorish.
I love those tails straight up in the air, head nuzzling and circling my legs trying to make me dizzy. They give me something to do, something to love. Plus I can trust them. They are incapable of evil. Greed, yes, and my poor dumb pup will help herself to what ever is in the litter box. (I think my poor dog has Down Syndrome)
I am warning you about jealousy. I want you to know that it will lead you to ruin. Learn how to feel good about someone else's blessing! Yours is coming. GOD knows, He sees, He remembers.
What ever you do, don't play GOD. Don't try to get even. Don't plot, don't make plans to destroy someone because you don't like them. Mother's don't ever blame your children for ****! Wait before you open those legs. Do you even like this n*****?
Do you feel obligated because he took you out to dinner, opened the car door, complimented you? Are you looking for some help? Most importantly are you a whore? If you are, be one! Be a proud one, make business cards.
If you are not, don't be a part time whore, not even with your husband. Don't withdraw the body he loves from him in order to control him. That's wrong. That's whorish.
Old lady observes the
young girls *hipping their babies. Little black, yellow and brown babies, sucking their thumbs and clinging to the sturdy legs of their mothers. Three or four little ones surrounded each young lady. Living dolls , the cute little street urchins surrounding them looked just like little stair steps.
The old lady hurls a huge wad of tobacco juice into the wood burning stove. Red flames leap into the air. The spittle crackles. Old lady wipes the brown spittle clinging to old cracked lips on her flour sack apron.
"Dem chullun all you got ...all you gon' eva' git wurf (worth) anything in dis world. Luv and nurture that chile proper. Don't mistreat dat baby cause dey daddy don't want no part of you. It ain't duh chile fault. And don't you eva' put no man ova yo' chile!"
"Do if you wanna ... gon' live the rest of your days 'shame... In bondage."
*Hipping - carrying a child straddled on your hip. Usually because the young child is too young to keep up with his fast walking mother and older siblings. Many pregnant mothers have to hip the current baby in order to get ready for the new baby coming.
Excerpt from the JR WALTERS CHRONICLES
Copyright May 25, 2014. All rights reserved .
The old lady hurls a huge wad of tobacco juice into the wood burning stove. Red flames leap into the air. The spittle crackles. Old lady wipes the brown spittle clinging to old cracked lips on her flour sack apron.
"Dem chullun all you got ...all you gon' eva' git wurf (worth) anything in dis world. Luv and nurture that chile proper. Don't mistreat dat baby cause dey daddy don't want no part of you. It ain't duh chile fault. And don't you eva' put no man ova yo' chile!"
"Do if you wanna ... gon' live the rest of your days 'shame... In bondage."
*Hipping - carrying a child straddled on your hip. Usually because the young child is too young to keep up with his fast walking mother and older siblings. Many pregnant mothers have to hip the current baby in order to get ready for the new baby coming.
Excerpt from the JR WALTERS CHRONICLES
Copyright May 25, 2014. All rights reserved .
Don't sell me your wolf tickets!
Finally saw through all the smoke and mirrors. Finally found some courage. Still shocked and chagrined. Still knitting all these broken pieces together. I came up with a name for you; Mongrel Monster!
No heifer, you were more than a caution. You were and abomination unto the LORD GOD Almighty! You knew better! You just did it because you could. Perhaps the evil one convinced you that you were experiencing pleasure, inflicting carnal pain secretly became your passion until the day GOD finally stopped your evil heart from beating in your corrupt flesh.
satan did that to you, made a complete fool out of you. Made you destroy, take down and entire chosen family. It appears you were successful except for one. GOD told me that one is all He needs.
Some say my testimony is too disturbing. You liar! You watch reality television and pornography! There is nothing too disgusting for us to accept as palatable, normal, modern, popular ; from male enhancement products to feminine cleanliness.
I get it, this world just doesn't care. Many that were spared the humiliating degradation of childhood sexual, physical and psychological abuse, just do not have time to care about the pain of others. They can not feel. They also have no vision. Nothing like this could ever happen again! Nothing like this could ever occur in their perfect well to do, well educated, proper, upright , legally married, attractive, to-die-for family.
Martha confessed to me that she could not care, that she could not empathize or sympathize with any one. I am a witness, she could not! Martha would beat and brutalize a baby just like it was a grown man. (AND YOU N***** BED' NOT TELL IT!!! I'LL CUT YO' MUTHAF****** BALLS OUT!!!)
She is in that book! From Genesis to Revelation GOD is warning us about that woman with the Jezebel spirit. She is rough! She demands your manhood. She wants you to bow down. Know she is out there! Shun her!
Don't go out in the world naked, unread, unprepared. Your "superior intellect" and college degree are going to get you lynched. satan is going to tie you into knots and laugh. These Mongrel Monsters are crawling on this earth, over running it , right now!
A woman stabbed her new born baby, claimed she was trying to cut the cord and accidentally sliced the child's throat. Never explained why the little boy was stabbed in the back. That woman at 23 has reached the status of Mongrel Monster.
Her sister found the bloody mutilated body. Her sister turned her in. That would have never happened in my family. My family puts more faith in cloaking and denying than they do in Almighty GOD.
My grandfather always had that abiding unshakeable faith. He planted that seed in me. I know Jesus will Fix It!
Stay in His WORD! Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 25, 2014 All rights reserved.
No heifer, you were more than a caution. You were and abomination unto the LORD GOD Almighty! You knew better! You just did it because you could. Perhaps the evil one convinced you that you were experiencing pleasure, inflicting carnal pain secretly became your passion until the day GOD finally stopped your evil heart from beating in your corrupt flesh.
satan did that to you, made a complete fool out of you. Made you destroy, take down and entire chosen family. It appears you were successful except for one. GOD told me that one is all He needs.
Some say my testimony is too disturbing. You liar! You watch reality television and pornography! There is nothing too disgusting for us to accept as palatable, normal, modern, popular ; from male enhancement products to feminine cleanliness.
I get it, this world just doesn't care. Many that were spared the humiliating degradation of childhood sexual, physical and psychological abuse, just do not have time to care about the pain of others. They can not feel. They also have no vision. Nothing like this could ever happen again! Nothing like this could ever occur in their perfect well to do, well educated, proper, upright , legally married, attractive, to-die-for family.
Martha confessed to me that she could not care, that she could not empathize or sympathize with any one. I am a witness, she could not! Martha would beat and brutalize a baby just like it was a grown man. (AND YOU N***** BED' NOT TELL IT!!! I'LL CUT YO' MUTHAF****** BALLS OUT!!!)
She is in that book! From Genesis to Revelation GOD is warning us about that woman with the Jezebel spirit. She is rough! She demands your manhood. She wants you to bow down. Know she is out there! Shun her!
Don't go out in the world naked, unread, unprepared. Your "superior intellect" and college degree are going to get you lynched. satan is going to tie you into knots and laugh. These Mongrel Monsters are crawling on this earth, over running it , right now!
A woman stabbed her new born baby, claimed she was trying to cut the cord and accidentally sliced the child's throat. Never explained why the little boy was stabbed in the back. That woman at 23 has reached the status of Mongrel Monster.
Her sister found the bloody mutilated body. Her sister turned her in. That would have never happened in my family. My family puts more faith in cloaking and denying than they do in Almighty GOD.
My grandfather always had that abiding unshakeable faith. He planted that seed in me. I know Jesus will Fix It!
Stay in His WORD! Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 25, 2014 All rights reserved.
Sunday, May 25, 2014
Kilroy was here!
I am fairly sure it was a practice started by bored GIs in Europe during WWI. "Kilroy was here" was a strange organized "unorganized" form of graffiti that was smeared on bathroom walls, street signs, billboards, etc for a very log time through out the world. I got it. (understood) Found it amusing. I never wrote it. (I always respected property.)
No one ever knew who Kilroy was. Was he a real person, one man traveling the world writing graffiti? Why were so many people willing to deface property for mere amusement? Who was Kilroy? What had he done that made him so proud? Why did he or they leave their signature every where there was a blank wall?!
"Kilroy was here!" That's why I write. I want the world to know that I was here. "Rachel Gwendolyn was Here!" I want the world to know what this world did to me, what this world is still doing to its children. It may take 200 years. Someone will look back over my mountain of musings, blogs and attempted novels and know that every one was not selfish and uncaring in the 21st century. Everyone was not a spoiled selfish narcissist.
Someone tried to warn the world that they were destroying their greatest natural resource, our inspired brave youth. Deliberately cranking out selfish depraved zombies. Don't say you are glad you wont be here. You are here now.
There were some people that could care and understand. There were some men and women that tried to make a difference . Every one was not a pimp or a shark. There were some people that did not tolerate wrong doing from anyone . Some grandchildren do honor their patriarchs, will not let you murder them and remain too cowardly to ever say a mumbling word.
As a historian, I have to laugh. Why can't we get it right? Children have gone from being mistreated, forced into child labor, kidnapped and sold as indentured servants and slaves , to a generation of spoiled vipers. Poor ignorant children that really believe they must wear expensive elaborate "gear" in order to be popular, to be accepted , to be somebody. In order to count. Spoiled, disrespectful youth that feel entitled . Children that participate in their own destruction , collectively prevent themselves from becoming little more than "Minimum Wage Fodder". Teachers are making a mad dash to get out of the classroom. These children are like sharks or a school of Piranha, they smell the blood of kindness in the water and work well together harassing the hell out people that are trying to teach them.
A society, a true great civilization that casually and uncaringly turns out generation after generation of selfish, ignorant , cruel greedy people can't last long. The hand writing is on the wall for America. I am humbled and I am praying. I pray that more will do the same.
It is our fault. We created this generation of "entitled, you better give me!" pampered reprobates. ( Of course not all but far too many) Perhaps they should hear "No!" sometime. (Dear LORD take the anger and or disappointment out of my voice. My Granddaddy was patient with me. He just shook his head when I wore Hot Pants and Halter Tops.
It is not over until GOD says it is over. Remain in constant prayer. Never give up hope. "Jesus Will Fix It!"
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 27, 2014 All rights reserved.
No one ever knew who Kilroy was. Was he a real person, one man traveling the world writing graffiti? Why were so many people willing to deface property for mere amusement? Who was Kilroy? What had he done that made him so proud? Why did he or they leave their signature every where there was a blank wall?!
"Kilroy was here!" That's why I write. I want the world to know that I was here. "Rachel Gwendolyn was Here!" I want the world to know what this world did to me, what this world is still doing to its children. It may take 200 years. Someone will look back over my mountain of musings, blogs and attempted novels and know that every one was not selfish and uncaring in the 21st century. Everyone was not a spoiled selfish narcissist.
Someone tried to warn the world that they were destroying their greatest natural resource, our inspired brave youth. Deliberately cranking out selfish depraved zombies. Don't say you are glad you wont be here. You are here now.
There were some people that could care and understand. There were some men and women that tried to make a difference . Every one was not a pimp or a shark. There were some people that did not tolerate wrong doing from anyone . Some grandchildren do honor their patriarchs, will not let you murder them and remain too cowardly to ever say a mumbling word.
As a historian, I have to laugh. Why can't we get it right? Children have gone from being mistreated, forced into child labor, kidnapped and sold as indentured servants and slaves , to a generation of spoiled vipers. Poor ignorant children that really believe they must wear expensive elaborate "gear" in order to be popular, to be accepted , to be somebody. In order to count. Spoiled, disrespectful youth that feel entitled . Children that participate in their own destruction , collectively prevent themselves from becoming little more than "Minimum Wage Fodder". Teachers are making a mad dash to get out of the classroom. These children are like sharks or a school of Piranha, they smell the blood of kindness in the water and work well together harassing the hell out people that are trying to teach them.
A society, a true great civilization that casually and uncaringly turns out generation after generation of selfish, ignorant , cruel greedy people can't last long. The hand writing is on the wall for America. I am humbled and I am praying. I pray that more will do the same.
It is our fault. We created this generation of "entitled, you better give me!" pampered reprobates. ( Of course not all but far too many) Perhaps they should hear "No!" sometime. (Dear LORD take the anger and or disappointment out of my voice. My Granddaddy was patient with me. He just shook his head when I wore Hot Pants and Halter Tops.
It is not over until GOD says it is over. Remain in constant prayer. Never give up hope. "Jesus Will Fix It!"
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 27, 2014 All rights reserved.
Why are you looking for darkness?
Why are you pretending to be thick, like you are hard of understanding? You are not clairvoyent!! You do not know what the future holds. You can not predict what you will need or when you will need it.
Even demons know GOD is real! They know His power and they know His book. The book you are too sorry to read. You can't depend on Cliff Notes for this book. You have to read! You have to study! You have to search.
Luckily for me I never had a difficult time accepting the LORD Jesus Christ as my savior. I always knew my Redeemer lived. GOD talked to me every day, guided me through the hell of growing to adulthood with a ravenous wolf on my heels, breathing down my neck, trying to destroy me on the sly.
No, not just me. Never just me. This sick devious woman, this homemade clown witch doctor was too busy secretly corrupting and destroying to ever be happy. Jealousy got her there. Martha demanded to harbor and nurture envy. It was a cancer. It ate her up. More than anything I could not tolerate her lying nature. She lied out of habit, walked up to you and volunteered lies. If you had something she wanted, something she felt you didn't deserve, she would gaslight it. Trick you out of it, him or her, just to throw it away, to laugh in your face, cackle and laugh. But as soon as she caught you looking or perhaps finally catching on she knew how to change up , cry, insult, make it your fault.
"You think you too good!"
"You too honest!"
"Too bad you're so black. "
"Your daddy never cared nuttin' 'bout you!"
All Martha needed was the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. Something she did not want. Something she refused to pray for. But, it was something she wanted you to have wholeheartedly . No, not for kingdom building, but her personal greed . Dear LORD have mercy on our souls.
Even demons know GOD is real! They know His power and they know His book. The book you are too sorry to read. You can't depend on Cliff Notes for this book. You have to read! You have to study! You have to search.
Luckily for me I never had a difficult time accepting the LORD Jesus Christ as my savior. I always knew my Redeemer lived. GOD talked to me every day, guided me through the hell of growing to adulthood with a ravenous wolf on my heels, breathing down my neck, trying to destroy me on the sly.
No, not just me. Never just me. This sick devious woman, this homemade clown witch doctor was too busy secretly corrupting and destroying to ever be happy. Jealousy got her there. Martha demanded to harbor and nurture envy. It was a cancer. It ate her up. More than anything I could not tolerate her lying nature. She lied out of habit, walked up to you and volunteered lies. If you had something she wanted, something she felt you didn't deserve, she would gaslight it. Trick you out of it, him or her, just to throw it away, to laugh in your face, cackle and laugh. But as soon as she caught you looking or perhaps finally catching on she knew how to change up , cry, insult, make it your fault.
"You think you too good!"
"You too honest!"
"Too bad you're so black. "
"Your daddy never cared nuttin' 'bout you!"
All Martha needed was the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. Something she did not want. Something she refused to pray for. But, it was something she wanted you to have wholeheartedly . No, not for kingdom building, but her personal greed . Dear LORD have mercy on our souls.
Dear LORD,
Thank you for placing Mrs. Robinson , my 9th grade Home Economics teacher in my life. Thank you for giving her an uncanny sense of knowing without judging. It was Mrs. Robinson that pulled me aside and told me very gently to never let my bra straps get in that shape again.
I was fourteen, very petite. I wore the only little bra I had everyday. I think it was 28 A, so I could have negelected wearing it on the days it had to dry after I washed it in the sink. One bra was all my mother felt I needed. I am not sure she bought that one.
Mrs. Robinson was a tall elegant lady. Her husband was a professor at Fsyetteville State. They lived in a beautiful, well appointed red brick home in Brodel homes, Mrs. Robinson drove a long Lincoln Continental. The one with the imprint of the spare tire raised beautifully above the trunk.
Mrs. Robinson loved jewelry, earrings, a ton of necklaces, mostly pearls. Bracelets,rings and pins. You could be sure, Mrs. Robinson's outfits always said she had class, money, and uniqueness. Mrs. Robinson had her own style. It could not be duplicated. She was a great teacher. She taught me to cook and sew.
I know now, Martha never had any sense. Was ruined when she was eight ( the same age she made sure my life changed forever) Martha grew into a hedious immature secret sociopath. Just as ignorant and selfish as a two year old child. Such a horrible vicious bully no one on this earth could reign her in. Such a foul fallen woman she mocked God! Enjoyed playing "preacher" the same as child playing house. She, Martha Jane, could lie, GOD understood. "I lie tuh keep dese n**** out my bizness!"
When the thought of you , when your actual memory, still strikes terror in the heart of your victims months after your death , you were the anti-Christ!
There are some that think I should hate GOD for allowing this mongrel monster to plague the world for 87 years. I choose to trust GOD. I know that deranged mind of hers was meant to destroy me, to grind me in the dust. GOD said No!
I thank GOD for her! I know I would not have the deep abiding faith I have without that woman with the Jezebel spirit causing me so much pain and grief . I came to know the greatest love a human being can ever experience.
It is not over children. I am still reading, researching, trying to discover how and why such an orgre is still respected, still honored, still loved. Why are her victims willing to suffer and die broke and broken to save her tarnished name. A name she tarnished, dirtied, walked over, spat upon herself. Let me address those of you that don't believe in snitching. If family loyalty is as important as she claimed, why did she target her own children and the elderly?
"Don't you n****** tell it! Don't you black muthaf******* tell a muthaf***** thang dat go on in dis house!"
So that's it. That is how we ended up a beautiful attractive family with nothing. Nothing but fear, terrorizing fear. Well I'll say it , if you don't. Dear LORD thank you for finally putting Martha out of her misery. Thank you for giving us some rest.
Dear LORD I hope and pray that many will see, easily recognize how a life can go wrong and remain wrong for 87 years if a person is determined to let pride destroy them. If a person refuses to listen, attacks kind admonitions with rudeness and ridicule . If a person has itching ears, can only hear what they want to hear.
"Dear LORD, if I get too high, bring me down." My grandfather prayed that prayer every day.
I was fourteen, very petite. I wore the only little bra I had everyday. I think it was 28 A, so I could have negelected wearing it on the days it had to dry after I washed it in the sink. One bra was all my mother felt I needed. I am not sure she bought that one.
Mrs. Robinson was a tall elegant lady. Her husband was a professor at Fsyetteville State. They lived in a beautiful, well appointed red brick home in Brodel homes, Mrs. Robinson drove a long Lincoln Continental. The one with the imprint of the spare tire raised beautifully above the trunk.
Mrs. Robinson loved jewelry, earrings, a ton of necklaces, mostly pearls. Bracelets,rings and pins. You could be sure, Mrs. Robinson's outfits always said she had class, money, and uniqueness. Mrs. Robinson had her own style. It could not be duplicated. She was a great teacher. She taught me to cook and sew.
I know now, Martha never had any sense. Was ruined when she was eight ( the same age she made sure my life changed forever) Martha grew into a hedious immature secret sociopath. Just as ignorant and selfish as a two year old child. Such a horrible vicious bully no one on this earth could reign her in. Such a foul fallen woman she mocked God! Enjoyed playing "preacher" the same as child playing house. She, Martha Jane, could lie, GOD understood. "I lie tuh keep dese n**** out my bizness!"
When the thought of you , when your actual memory, still strikes terror in the heart of your victims months after your death , you were the anti-Christ!
There are some that think I should hate GOD for allowing this mongrel monster to plague the world for 87 years. I choose to trust GOD. I know that deranged mind of hers was meant to destroy me, to grind me in the dust. GOD said No!
I thank GOD for her! I know I would not have the deep abiding faith I have without that woman with the Jezebel spirit causing me so much pain and grief . I came to know the greatest love a human being can ever experience.
It is not over children. I am still reading, researching, trying to discover how and why such an orgre is still respected, still honored, still loved. Why are her victims willing to suffer and die broke and broken to save her tarnished name. A name she tarnished, dirtied, walked over, spat upon herself. Let me address those of you that don't believe in snitching. If family loyalty is as important as she claimed, why did she target her own children and the elderly?
"Don't you n****** tell it! Don't you black muthaf******* tell a muthaf***** thang dat go on in dis house!"
So that's it. That is how we ended up a beautiful attractive family with nothing. Nothing but fear, terrorizing fear. Well I'll say it , if you don't. Dear LORD thank you for finally putting Martha out of her misery. Thank you for giving us some rest.
Dear LORD I hope and pray that many will see, easily recognize how a life can go wrong and remain wrong for 87 years if a person is determined to let pride destroy them. If a person refuses to listen, attacks kind admonitions with rudeness and ridicule . If a person has itching ears, can only hear what they want to hear.
"Dear LORD, if I get too high, bring me down." My grandfather prayed that prayer every day.
Friday, May 23, 2014
"Seek ye first the Kingdom of GOD"
It is the Gospel Truth whether you embrace it or not. True, man will congratulate you and honor you for doing it "Man's Way". Man honors the perfection we pretend we have. Our looks, our weight, wealth, wit, our "too cool" persona, our "swag". When you play by man's rules he will pretend to love you, will actually laud you with gifts and titles, waiting with baited breath for you to mess up, to make one mistake. Don't fall. What ever you do, do not fall from grace.
Go along to get along. Keep your mouth shut out of fear of offending. Man's way, where our only genuine concern is for self first and most often. We have become a world of narcissists. "In love with self."
Do an inventory. Make a list of the things you really value. Tell the truth, do you waiver in your spirit, in your opinion , when it is not popular? Only Almighty GOD can give you the courage and boldness you need to navigate this serpent infested world.
Are you dishonest? Will you lie in order to get your way? Can you care about another person on this earth? Do you pray? Have you ever asked GOD to come into your heart and dwell there?
You do have to pray for that spirit. You must humble yourself and pray for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.
Please stay in His WORD . Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
RachelGwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS
Copyright May 24, 2014. All rights reserved.
Go along to get along. Keep your mouth shut out of fear of offending. Man's way, where our only genuine concern is for self first and most often. We have become a world of narcissists. "In love with self."
Do an inventory. Make a list of the things you really value. Tell the truth, do you waiver in your spirit, in your opinion , when it is not popular? Only Almighty GOD can give you the courage and boldness you need to navigate this serpent infested world.
Are you dishonest? Will you lie in order to get your way? Can you care about another person on this earth? Do you pray? Have you ever asked GOD to come into your heart and dwell there?
You do have to pray for that spirit. You must humble yourself and pray for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.
Please stay in His WORD . Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
RachelGwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS
Copyright May 24, 2014. All rights reserved.
""Real Talk"
I love young people and their "fresh" expressions. I especially like it when I am caught using one of "their" expressions correctly, with the right syntax and melody. I am amused by the fact that the younger generation think they have some lock on language or expressions. Instantly many people become judgmental and accuse "us" of trying to be "hip" or accepted. Language is simply one form of communication. "Real talk" sounds cool and you easily get the point. But some will judge me and say; "That old woman! really?"
I keep telling you there is no script! My brain is not in your head! Just who are we to judge anyone? Jesus told us not to judge. Don't judge by color, race, religion, lack of religion, size, or age! Don't judge! Do live and let love. Stop with the name calling and disdain. Stop joining groups to point pointy fingers at others. Get that beam out of your eye before you come after me.
Children! "Time changes all things!". This life here is a vapor! You can lose it or louse it up in a heartbeat! One tiny infraction can lead to a life of pain, misery and regret. I keep telling young people that "youth" is fleeting. It is indeed a vapor.
When I was young and fine, full of energy and vigor I never had any idea what "tired" was. I truly mean tired. Tired in let me set down in this chair while I water the grass. My hair turned grey overnight. Still dissatisfied, I want it to turn completely white. (Snow white with a fresh "young" haircut)
So what am I trying to convey to you today?
#1 Put GOD first! That is a must! Don't wait and use your spirituality as an emergency kit. Seek Him now in everything that you do! And thank Him! Thank Him in advance for leading and guiding you.
#2 Never be ashamed of who or what you are. Do not wait until you are a particular size, have had certain surgeries to finally love yourself. Love yourself right now! Love yourself enough to be kind, to be loving. Treat people the way you want to be treated.
#3 Have no part of jealousy or envy. It is cancerous. It will eat the fragile fabric of your relationship away. It will lead to ruin. Open your eyes and ears. See your mistakes. Take responsibility for your own actions.
#4 Trust GOD! Hang all of your hope and faith on the LORD.
I do hope and pray that my readers and supporters clearly pick up on the willful spirit of rebellion that was alive and well in Martha down to her last 87 year old breath. She could never be corrected! She was never wrong! She was a bully and she fully embraced that ignorant nonsense about color and hair. I know now it was because that was all she had. Much too evil to ever have a "normal" husband and home full of children she deliberately chose to torture and confuse. I say it was deliberate because she deliberately chose satan to be her god, her mentor. Poor Martha did falsely believe she was actually smarter than her father. She had the nerve to be secretly ashamed of him for being a poor tobacco farmer. Man! did she get it wrong? Got it wrong and kept it wrong for 87 years! She only pretended to believe all that "crap" he said about Jesus.
If you knew Martha, your money was her money. You may have enjoyed her company for a time. But the truth is her pain became overs\whelming. I did my part. I do thank her for her awful mistreatment because no one will ever mistreat me again! Real talk.
As an older person I will tell all young people; pay attention! Learn from your mistakes quickly. Treat everyone the way you want to be treated.
Have a blessed day children! Yes, you do have to choose and choose wisely. There is no fence setting. You are either for GOD or against Him. Real talk.
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
COPYRIGHT MAY 23, 2014 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.
I keep telling you there is no script! My brain is not in your head! Just who are we to judge anyone? Jesus told us not to judge. Don't judge by color, race, religion, lack of religion, size, or age! Don't judge! Do live and let love. Stop with the name calling and disdain. Stop joining groups to point pointy fingers at others. Get that beam out of your eye before you come after me.
Children! "Time changes all things!". This life here is a vapor! You can lose it or louse it up in a heartbeat! One tiny infraction can lead to a life of pain, misery and regret. I keep telling young people that "youth" is fleeting. It is indeed a vapor.
When I was young and fine, full of energy and vigor I never had any idea what "tired" was. I truly mean tired. Tired in let me set down in this chair while I water the grass. My hair turned grey overnight. Still dissatisfied, I want it to turn completely white. (Snow white with a fresh "young" haircut)
So what am I trying to convey to you today?
#1 Put GOD first! That is a must! Don't wait and use your spirituality as an emergency kit. Seek Him now in everything that you do! And thank Him! Thank Him in advance for leading and guiding you.
#2 Never be ashamed of who or what you are. Do not wait until you are a particular size, have had certain surgeries to finally love yourself. Love yourself right now! Love yourself enough to be kind, to be loving. Treat people the way you want to be treated.
#3 Have no part of jealousy or envy. It is cancerous. It will eat the fragile fabric of your relationship away. It will lead to ruin. Open your eyes and ears. See your mistakes. Take responsibility for your own actions.
#4 Trust GOD! Hang all of your hope and faith on the LORD.
I do hope and pray that my readers and supporters clearly pick up on the willful spirit of rebellion that was alive and well in Martha down to her last 87 year old breath. She could never be corrected! She was never wrong! She was a bully and she fully embraced that ignorant nonsense about color and hair. I know now it was because that was all she had. Much too evil to ever have a "normal" husband and home full of children she deliberately chose to torture and confuse. I say it was deliberate because she deliberately chose satan to be her god, her mentor. Poor Martha did falsely believe she was actually smarter than her father. She had the nerve to be secretly ashamed of him for being a poor tobacco farmer. Man! did she get it wrong? Got it wrong and kept it wrong for 87 years! She only pretended to believe all that "crap" he said about Jesus.
If you knew Martha, your money was her money. You may have enjoyed her company for a time. But the truth is her pain became overs\whelming. I did my part. I do thank her for her awful mistreatment because no one will ever mistreat me again! Real talk.
As an older person I will tell all young people; pay attention! Learn from your mistakes quickly. Treat everyone the way you want to be treated.
Have a blessed day children! Yes, you do have to choose and choose wisely. There is no fence setting. You are either for GOD or against Him. Real talk.
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
COPYRIGHT MAY 23, 2014 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
You ugh ah lie!
Jest who you thank you talkin' to? You mean to tell me 'dat if you had thu choice, if you cud pick your so called race, you wud come back heah as black!? Nukker you crazy! Why!? Why wud anyone want to come back heah pre-grieving befo' they evan got heah?
Who wants to hear that they are too black? How in the hell can a person be too black? Too black for whom? Can a person be too white? Too red? Too brown? Too yellow?
Why do we repeat ignorant s***? No! worse, why do we believe ignorant s***? Then pass that stupid s*** on to our children?
No! I do not think white people are superior and I don't think all of their lives are easier. It would just be easier for me. It would be easier for me because I am an original , authentic, creative,( brilliant ) different thinker. My uniqueness did not come free. Every thing about me is me. The Rachel Gwendolyn I know and trust was hard earned. But, most importantly prayed up and prayed over by two wonderful grandparents. (Rachel and Jerome Walters)
I trust no man or woman on this earth. I trust the LORD GOD Almighty. I lean on the LORD, He guides my steps, He directs my path. It is ALL in Divine Order.
If you don't or won't or can't hear GOD's voice, pray to. It is not over. If you think you made a mistake, if you knowingly hurt someone, if you let a dark spirit or a dark idea control you for one minute, rewind, do it over. Always do what you know in your heart is right.
Dear children do not let "common sense" be your spiritual guide. Do not let the fear of being rejected, reviled, left out, or left alone control what you really feel or think. Jesus will be with you when no one on this earth will. He will make a way out of no way! He will open doors that no man can shut! He will make your enemy your footstool.
The evil one will snarl and growl at you, mock you, lie on you to your face and do every thing in her power to intimidate you. That is when you will learn that the only power she has is a bad attitude, She may threaten to withdraw her love. a love you never had any way. Reflect back, go back 40, 50, 60, 70 years ... there was never any love. It was always tolerance, dependence and perhaps some mutual exchange. It would have helped if I had remained retarded, my development "arrested" or frozen in fear.
Truthfully, I don't like her. ( I never liked any person I saw snatch and mistreat little children.) That does make it easier to tell. This is not the story I wanted to tell, this is not the story I wanted to share with the world. I wanted to tell you that she finally said that she was sorry. That was the happy ending I wanted. I certainly am a writer. A writer of the greatest fiction ever written. It would be if I told that lie.
Why couldn't that pathological liar tell that lie at 87? She knew her time was up. She had to know that she was down to years at the most. Her cousin Wright lived to be 96 years old. It's funny, when you finally get old, "old" is not so old. "Old" discrimination is real. I am not dying my hair! I DO care if people treat me like Uncle Ben, though. I wonder if grey haired white women are disrespected on the level I am?
Is it me? Is it society? What did we do to this generation? Some principals and assistant principals are permitting young ( black) men (and women) the privilege of thinking they can say and do just as they please. Administrators that actually believe that we as educators should just pass them on and let "life teach them". (Unfortunately when life finally teaches them it will be far too late. Can we as a nation afford to throw away one single boy or girl?)
Let me get you straight right now! I did not say any particular race or color is superior to another! What I said was, it is obvious to me that white people get treated better by all people. I cud be wrong ... I cud be wrong! But if I had to come back heah! ... if I eva' got a chance to come back as any body I chose ... I wud come back as a young fine Paul Newman! Not only was he good looking ... he was a fine man! Loved his wife ... loved charities!
But, since I can't come back, I am going to do the best I can while I am on this earth. I am not going to blame anyone for my condition. I am going to warn people if you are foul! Sorry! Don't bring your sorry, foul self around me. If you do, you better change or do better! If I catch you, don't cuss me out.
That is not the solution! No, you don't get any credit for your phony preaching or playing crazy! Why!? Because you were still doing it when you were old! You knew better! You just cudden' stop cud you!?
The truth is, I'm not worried about how my fellow man treats me on this earth. I am not going to change! I am going to treat my fellow man right! I am going to continue trusting GOD with my life because I know that He did not bring me this far to fail!
I will pray for my enemies. I do ask GOD to bless my situation, my kit and kin, this world, every day!
I do thank Him for that Book and for every stripe. Praise the LORD!
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 21, 2014 All rights reserved.
Who wants to hear that they are too black? How in the hell can a person be too black? Too black for whom? Can a person be too white? Too red? Too brown? Too yellow?
Why do we repeat ignorant s***? No! worse, why do we believe ignorant s***? Then pass that stupid s*** on to our children?
No! I do not think white people are superior and I don't think all of their lives are easier. It would just be easier for me. It would be easier for me because I am an original , authentic, creative,( brilliant ) different thinker. My uniqueness did not come free. Every thing about me is me. The Rachel Gwendolyn I know and trust was hard earned. But, most importantly prayed up and prayed over by two wonderful grandparents. (Rachel and Jerome Walters)
I trust no man or woman on this earth. I trust the LORD GOD Almighty. I lean on the LORD, He guides my steps, He directs my path. It is ALL in Divine Order.
If you don't or won't or can't hear GOD's voice, pray to. It is not over. If you think you made a mistake, if you knowingly hurt someone, if you let a dark spirit or a dark idea control you for one minute, rewind, do it over. Always do what you know in your heart is right.
Dear children do not let "common sense" be your spiritual guide. Do not let the fear of being rejected, reviled, left out, or left alone control what you really feel or think. Jesus will be with you when no one on this earth will. He will make a way out of no way! He will open doors that no man can shut! He will make your enemy your footstool.
The evil one will snarl and growl at you, mock you, lie on you to your face and do every thing in her power to intimidate you. That is when you will learn that the only power she has is a bad attitude, She may threaten to withdraw her love. a love you never had any way. Reflect back, go back 40, 50, 60, 70 years ... there was never any love. It was always tolerance, dependence and perhaps some mutual exchange. It would have helped if I had remained retarded, my development "arrested" or frozen in fear.
Truthfully, I don't like her. ( I never liked any person I saw snatch and mistreat little children.) That does make it easier to tell. This is not the story I wanted to tell, this is not the story I wanted to share with the world. I wanted to tell you that she finally said that she was sorry. That was the happy ending I wanted. I certainly am a writer. A writer of the greatest fiction ever written. It would be if I told that lie.
Why couldn't that pathological liar tell that lie at 87? She knew her time was up. She had to know that she was down to years at the most. Her cousin Wright lived to be 96 years old. It's funny, when you finally get old, "old" is not so old. "Old" discrimination is real. I am not dying my hair! I DO care if people treat me like Uncle Ben, though. I wonder if grey haired white women are disrespected on the level I am?
Is it me? Is it society? What did we do to this generation? Some principals and assistant principals are permitting young ( black) men (and women) the privilege of thinking they can say and do just as they please. Administrators that actually believe that we as educators should just pass them on and let "life teach them". (Unfortunately when life finally teaches them it will be far too late. Can we as a nation afford to throw away one single boy or girl?)
Let me get you straight right now! I did not say any particular race or color is superior to another! What I said was, it is obvious to me that white people get treated better by all people. I cud be wrong ... I cud be wrong! But if I had to come back heah! ... if I eva' got a chance to come back as any body I chose ... I wud come back as a young fine Paul Newman! Not only was he good looking ... he was a fine man! Loved his wife ... loved charities!
But, since I can't come back, I am going to do the best I can while I am on this earth. I am not going to blame anyone for my condition. I am going to warn people if you are foul! Sorry! Don't bring your sorry, foul self around me. If you do, you better change or do better! If I catch you, don't cuss me out.
That is not the solution! No, you don't get any credit for your phony preaching or playing crazy! Why!? Because you were still doing it when you were old! You knew better! You just cudden' stop cud you!?
The truth is, I'm not worried about how my fellow man treats me on this earth. I am not going to change! I am going to treat my fellow man right! I am going to continue trusting GOD with my life because I know that He did not bring me this far to fail!
I will pray for my enemies. I do ask GOD to bless my situation, my kit and kin, this world, every day!
I do thank Him for that Book and for every stripe. Praise the LORD!
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 21, 2014 All rights reserved.
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
SONG & DANCE 1929 (Nina Mae McKinney)
We know if we ranked the "races", artificial political and social groups of the world, black people would rank last. If we could pre-select our "group" or our "team " prior to birth very few if any would pick black or anything remotely Negroid.
It is true. It is all psychological. The blind leading the blind. Throngs of ignorant people repeating and nurturing nonsense. We all know it is character. We all know skin is skin.
True, you individually may have a preference for a particular "race" or color. But, don't you dare think you scored or settled or came up or went down in the least regarding someone's skin color.
Please check out their character. I would avoid people that have no conscience, no empathy or sympathy. Shun greedy people that are liars, especially pathological liars.
Make sure you can distinguish fantasy from reality. Do not make certain assumptions about me because my color is black. Or because I am female or "old". Do not line up to disrespect me because my mother did. Do not dismiss me as nothing because my "father" did.
No, no one has to care about me now. I made it. I survived and thrived. Some picked at me and laughed. Some were glad I was molested and ruined.
I came to tell you I wasn't ruined. I was strengthened and made strong. Victimized and terrorized as a child I was not about to let another individual on this earth mistreat me. Ladies, gentlemen, do not every think that you have to compromise one minute of your life living with someone in order to front, in order to look "normal" to this world.
Men. Women, if you are gay, lesbian, transgender, be that! Be honest, be proud, be who you are. Once you start lying you start down a slippery slope. Be what you are and live your life! Love the LORD with all your heart!
It is true. It is all psychological. The blind leading the blind. Throngs of ignorant people repeating and nurturing nonsense. We all know it is character. We all know skin is skin.
True, you individually may have a preference for a particular "race" or color. But, don't you dare think you scored or settled or came up or went down in the least regarding someone's skin color.
Please check out their character. I would avoid people that have no conscience, no empathy or sympathy. Shun greedy people that are liars, especially pathological liars.
Make sure you can distinguish fantasy from reality. Do not make certain assumptions about me because my color is black. Or because I am female or "old". Do not line up to disrespect me because my mother did. Do not dismiss me as nothing because my "father" did.
No, no one has to care about me now. I made it. I survived and thrived. Some picked at me and laughed. Some were glad I was molested and ruined.
I came to tell you I wasn't ruined. I was strengthened and made strong. Victimized and terrorized as a child I was not about to let another individual on this earth mistreat me. Ladies, gentlemen, do not every think that you have to compromise one minute of your life living with someone in order to front, in order to look "normal" to this world.
Men. Women, if you are gay, lesbian, transgender, be that! Be honest, be proud, be who you are. Once you start lying you start down a slippery slope. Be what you are and live your life! Love the LORD with all your heart!
Al Green-1983-03-Leaning on the Everlasting Arms
What a blessedness! What a peace of mind. Leaning on Jesus, safe and secure leaning on the everlasting arms!
Parents, teach your children this song. You might not always be around to pick them up, to kiss their boo-boos. Let them know when their friends forsake them, they have a friend in Jesus.
More than anything, teach them there is a Jesus! If they arrogantly declare;" I believe in science!" Make sure you remind them that GOD created science. "He's got the whole world in His hands!"
Don't doubt children, that is disrespectful to GOD. Doubt is the litmus test for weak faith. Faith is something that you know! I know what GOD planted on the inside of me when He planted me in my mother's womb. I know that I know that I know! GOD has a purpose for you and for me. I know I am a part of His plan. Praise the LORD!
The evil slave master shamed the lowly slave; made him eat hog intestines, the feet and the tail. Human degradation ruled the day. Very few tried to rescue the poor wretched slave. Then God stepped in ... (I will finish that story later.)
That is how the evil one works; through humiliation, degradation. Martha tried to destroy my spirit. She humiliated and degraded us thoroughly. She did it until we accepted it, until it became a habit,
second nature. Her foul mistreatment was expected. Our silent loyalty was demanded. (But) Praise the LORD! GOD said NO!!!
Dear LORD I thank you for your Peace, Grace and Understanding.
Find the time! Make the time! Get into GOD's WORD!. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS )
Copyright May 20, 2014 All rights reserved
Parents, teach your children this song. You might not always be around to pick them up, to kiss their boo-boos. Let them know when their friends forsake them, they have a friend in Jesus.
More than anything, teach them there is a Jesus! If they arrogantly declare;" I believe in science!" Make sure you remind them that GOD created science. "He's got the whole world in His hands!"
Don't doubt children, that is disrespectful to GOD. Doubt is the litmus test for weak faith. Faith is something that you know! I know what GOD planted on the inside of me when He planted me in my mother's womb. I know that I know that I know! GOD has a purpose for you and for me. I know I am a part of His plan. Praise the LORD!
The evil slave master shamed the lowly slave; made him eat hog intestines, the feet and the tail. Human degradation ruled the day. Very few tried to rescue the poor wretched slave. Then God stepped in ... (I will finish that story later.)
That is how the evil one works; through humiliation, degradation. Martha tried to destroy my spirit. She humiliated and degraded us thoroughly. She did it until we accepted it, until it became a habit,
second nature. Her foul mistreatment was expected. Our silent loyalty was demanded. (But) Praise the LORD! GOD said NO!!!
Dear LORD I thank you for your Peace, Grace and Understanding.
Find the time! Make the time! Get into GOD's WORD!. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS )
Copyright May 20, 2014 All rights reserved
Monday, May 19, 2014
GOD is no respecter of man!
GOD is not impressed by your worldly goods, fame, "power" or so called might. Whether you acknowledge it or not GOD has the upper hand. Refusing to acknowledge or obey Him just makes you arrogant and full of pride.
Pray for wisdom and true humility. Make sure you know that there is no such thing as a superior race. Of course the most brutal , savage and organized race can claim to be superior intellectually. So called "weaker/inferior races" can acquiesce and give up, acknowledge their defeat. Genocide is real. Those that are determined to survive will acculturate, amalgamate, miscegenate . The will to survive is strong. I also believe the spiritual will to be a good person, a good parent is strong. It should be. But every once in a while, every now and then, nature goes wrong. A chain of tragic events can create or shape a child to become a monster.
By the same token you can shape millions, generation after generation to become blind sheep. I loved the Public school system because it saved my life. I was wrong. It was GOD that saved my life. (In the 5th grade my teacher sent me straight into the arms of my molester after I tearfully and primitively wailed and screamed for her to save me. My plea fell on deaf ears , very much like it does today.)
There is one thing all child molesters should remember; your victim will grow up one day. Your victim will finally put one and one together and clearly see two ignorant , demon controlled , equally yoked, ignorant common individuals. Mathy and Doster were not common because of their blackness or in spite of it. They were both carnal. They were both phony! Fake "no reading" pretending ass wanna-be-scholars. The were both extremely whorish and common. Both tried to pretend to be "high " class and decent. Both should have been imprisoned! Both, should have been kept away from children.
No book ever held Mathy's attention past the cover page. She was smart enough o get you to tell her what the book said but she was not about to read anything when she could cheat. Honesty was for losers and Mathy was going to win!
He maketh not ashamed!" Live right! Do for the LORD! Do His will and you will be proud! You will be able to stand on a corner hollering "Repent!" and not feel in the least bit ashamed. You will be able to blog about the goodness of the LORD and be as proud as a peacock!
Now, satan maketh ashamed! You will have to run and hide, wear camouflage, tell lies, be a secret. I dun' tol'cha.
Remember there is no such thing as a superior race or a superior language. We all speak the language of our conquerors and Might does NOT make right.
Copyright May 19, 2014 All rights reserved.
Pray for wisdom and true humility. Make sure you know that there is no such thing as a superior race. Of course the most brutal , savage and organized race can claim to be superior intellectually. So called "weaker/inferior races" can acquiesce and give up, acknowledge their defeat. Genocide is real. Those that are determined to survive will acculturate, amalgamate, miscegenate . The will to survive is strong. I also believe the spiritual will to be a good person, a good parent is strong. It should be. But every once in a while, every now and then, nature goes wrong. A chain of tragic events can create or shape a child to become a monster.
By the same token you can shape millions, generation after generation to become blind sheep. I loved the Public school system because it saved my life. I was wrong. It was GOD that saved my life. (In the 5th grade my teacher sent me straight into the arms of my molester after I tearfully and primitively wailed and screamed for her to save me. My plea fell on deaf ears , very much like it does today.)
There is one thing all child molesters should remember; your victim will grow up one day. Your victim will finally put one and one together and clearly see two ignorant , demon controlled , equally yoked, ignorant common individuals. Mathy and Doster were not common because of their blackness or in spite of it. They were both carnal. They were both phony! Fake "no reading" pretending ass wanna-be-scholars. The were both extremely whorish and common. Both tried to pretend to be "high " class and decent. Both should have been imprisoned! Both, should have been kept away from children.
No book ever held Mathy's attention past the cover page. She was smart enough o get you to tell her what the book said but she was not about to read anything when she could cheat. Honesty was for losers and Mathy was going to win!
He maketh not ashamed!" Live right! Do for the LORD! Do His will and you will be proud! You will be able to stand on a corner hollering "Repent!" and not feel in the least bit ashamed. You will be able to blog about the goodness of the LORD and be as proud as a peacock!
Now, satan maketh ashamed! You will have to run and hide, wear camouflage, tell lies, be a secret. I dun' tol'cha.
Remember there is no such thing as a superior race or a superior language. We all speak the language of our conquerors and Might does NOT make right.
Copyright May 19, 2014 All rights reserved.
Good Morning!
Praise the LORD! Now don't say that out of habit or some rote recitation. Mean it! The very first thing we teach our children is "good manners". The words "please and thank you" are hammered into our heads.
As parents we are tickled and gratified when we hear our little mini-me attempting to mimic us; "Skank ewe (Thank you)". I was gratified by the evidence of what I considered to be genius intelligence in my only child. (I was very relieved to discover my daughter was a quick aggressive learner. GOD spared her the low intelligence of her father. I know, I picked him but "the season was dry". LOL Atlanta was the growing black Mecca for closet (down low) homosexuals.) [a whole nother story]
My point is we teach our children to show or demonstrate their gratefulness. If we show some one kindness or give someone something we automatically expect a "thank you". But do we thank GOD? Do we take Him for granted? Number one, the very first thing you do upon rising is thank GOD! Thank Him for keeping you during the night. Thank Him that no hurt harm or danger befell you. Now thank Him in advance. Thank Him for the things you want. Thank Him for His guidance. Thank Him for opening your eyes and showing you the light.
Pray for the lost. Pray for the deaf and dumb. Remember, you didn't always hear. I didn't always hear and understand when my grandfather advised me correctly. He always told me to pray for my enemies. I thought that was the dumbest advice I ever heard. (I pray to put my foot up'dat n**** a**! ; I would think to myself)
Granddaddy was right of course. "Love your enemies!"; he told me. "Jesus will fix it!" Feel free to have a Good Morning, a Good Day, a Good Life. Feel free to love the LORD. Let the world hate you. If a person hates you or wants to destroy you, there is nothing you can do. There is nothing you can say to win their love.
Listen, tune in keenly to the voice of the LORD Jesus Christ. Humble yourself and love the LORD!
Walk by faith, not by sight. I don't care what it looks like. Don't get pulled in by satan's smoke and mirrors. If you find yourself in agreement with the evil one something is wrong!
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 19, 2014 All rights reserved.
As parents we are tickled and gratified when we hear our little mini-me attempting to mimic us; "Skank ewe (Thank you)". I was gratified by the evidence of what I considered to be genius intelligence in my only child. (I was very relieved to discover my daughter was a quick aggressive learner. GOD spared her the low intelligence of her father. I know, I picked him but "the season was dry". LOL Atlanta was the growing black Mecca for closet (down low) homosexuals.) [a whole nother story]
My point is we teach our children to show or demonstrate their gratefulness. If we show some one kindness or give someone something we automatically expect a "thank you". But do we thank GOD? Do we take Him for granted? Number one, the very first thing you do upon rising is thank GOD! Thank Him for keeping you during the night. Thank Him that no hurt harm or danger befell you. Now thank Him in advance. Thank Him for the things you want. Thank Him for His guidance. Thank Him for opening your eyes and showing you the light.
Pray for the lost. Pray for the deaf and dumb. Remember, you didn't always hear. I didn't always hear and understand when my grandfather advised me correctly. He always told me to pray for my enemies. I thought that was the dumbest advice I ever heard. (I pray to put my foot up'dat n**** a**! ; I would think to myself)
Granddaddy was right of course. "Love your enemies!"; he told me. "Jesus will fix it!" Feel free to have a Good Morning, a Good Day, a Good Life. Feel free to love the LORD. Let the world hate you. If a person hates you or wants to destroy you, there is nothing you can do. There is nothing you can say to win their love.
Listen, tune in keenly to the voice of the LORD Jesus Christ. Humble yourself and love the LORD!
Walk by faith, not by sight. I don't care what it looks like. Don't get pulled in by satan's smoke and mirrors. If you find yourself in agreement with the evil one something is wrong!
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 19, 2014 All rights reserved.
Sunday, May 18, 2014
It seems there was
this ugly one eyed woman that lay dying in a pauper's bed in a pauper's hospital some where in this desolate land. That poor ugly woman was pitiful I tell you. The nurses didn't bathe her often and sometimes she lost control of her bowels.
That old one eyed black woman wasn't really all that old, more like just "wore out". Life had taken it's toll on the one eyed old hag. She didn't have any family. All the family she had was either dead or didn't have the time to be bothered.
No one really knows how the old ugly one eyed woman ended up in such miserable straights. I heard she had been very beautiful, brilliant and talented once. Then the ravenous wolves of this world got hold of her.
They say she only lived for one reason; her beautiful, brilliant miracle baby girl. That old ugly one eyed woman gave that little girl everything she had to give. But because the world was so cruel to the old ugly one eyed woman she grew uglier and slower and weirder with each passing year.
No one liked that old ugly one eyed woman so her pretty little girl did not want to be hated like her hideous mother so she moved away just as soon as she could. Went very limited contact. The pretty little girl was so glad. She didn't have to be seen with this mess, this abnormal weirdo, too visibly broken to be denied or explained, mother
So the old ugly one eyed black woman lay dying in some desolate dirty hospital like I said. So she sent for her beautiful brilliant daughter because some how the old ugly black woman knew her time was up. But, wouldn't you know it! Beautiful brilliant daughter had no time for her old broke down mother. Beautiful brilliant daughter finally found a better class of friends and who can afford to be seen with some broke down old black woman that this world could give less than two s**** about?
Copyright May 17, 2014 All rights reserved.
That old one eyed black woman wasn't really all that old, more like just "wore out". Life had taken it's toll on the one eyed old hag. She didn't have any family. All the family she had was either dead or didn't have the time to be bothered.
No one really knows how the old ugly one eyed woman ended up in such miserable straights. I heard she had been very beautiful, brilliant and talented once. Then the ravenous wolves of this world got hold of her.
They say she only lived for one reason; her beautiful, brilliant miracle baby girl. That old ugly one eyed woman gave that little girl everything she had to give. But because the world was so cruel to the old ugly one eyed woman she grew uglier and slower and weirder with each passing year.
No one liked that old ugly one eyed woman so her pretty little girl did not want to be hated like her hideous mother so she moved away just as soon as she could. Went very limited contact. The pretty little girl was so glad. She didn't have to be seen with this mess, this abnormal weirdo, too visibly broken to be denied or explained, mother
So the old ugly one eyed black woman lay dying in some desolate dirty hospital like I said. So she sent for her beautiful brilliant daughter because some how the old ugly black woman knew her time was up. But, wouldn't you know it! Beautiful brilliant daughter had no time for her old broke down mother. Beautiful brilliant daughter finally found a better class of friends and who can afford to be seen with some broke down old black woman that this world could give less than two s**** about?
Copyright May 17, 2014 All rights reserved.
Once Up On a time
a pretty little girl was born into the clutches of an awful woman living in a very wicked land. For a very brief period that pretty little girl's mother did not see or recognize any worth in this child. Just feedings and diaper changes. This lazy mother wanted no part of "mothering" any thing so she dumped the baby on her kind ignorant parents.
One day it occurred to this corrupt mother that she could collect a check for two of her bastards by simply finding a soldier dumb and common enough to marry her and by forging two birth certificates. So that is what the evil mother did. But for some reason the evil mother knew that her extreme "whorishness" would get her divorced like that blind man did her. So, the evil mother got her some insurance. She got that stupid man to engage in some activities that were sure to get him lynched if revealed. Now the evil mother was free to do just as she pleased without any repercussions. That evil mother got so bold she put that man on a 25 cent a day allowance and forbade him to cash his check. She enslaved that man I tell you. Made him keep her apartment spotless! Then "whored" around with men, women and children , then laughed! Cussed that man down to his socks every day just for the fun of it. Then laughed, laughed, laughed.
"Hot damn! " (Clap and squeal) "It worked!" " Evil know how" in the hands of an ignorant pervert is NOT a good thing. Silence, secrecy and shame are her greatest weapons, her only assets.
Well I refuse to be ashamed! GOD just revealed to me how He is going to publish and promote my book. In My Mother's House is the name of my book. It has taken me 63 years to birth this book. I am proud of it. I am proud that GOD kept me, saved me, revealed to me His awesome plan!
I am not defeated! I will not be defeated! If I stand alone it is alright! I feel good! I feel righteous and I know I have been redeemed.
Copyright May 17, 2014 All rights reserved.
One day it occurred to this corrupt mother that she could collect a check for two of her bastards by simply finding a soldier dumb and common enough to marry her and by forging two birth certificates. So that is what the evil mother did. But for some reason the evil mother knew that her extreme "whorishness" would get her divorced like that blind man did her. So, the evil mother got her some insurance. She got that stupid man to engage in some activities that were sure to get him lynched if revealed. Now the evil mother was free to do just as she pleased without any repercussions. That evil mother got so bold she put that man on a 25 cent a day allowance and forbade him to cash his check. She enslaved that man I tell you. Made him keep her apartment spotless! Then "whored" around with men, women and children , then laughed! Cussed that man down to his socks every day just for the fun of it. Then laughed, laughed, laughed.
"Hot damn! " (Clap and squeal) "It worked!" " Evil know how" in the hands of an ignorant pervert is NOT a good thing. Silence, secrecy and shame are her greatest weapons, her only assets.
Well I refuse to be ashamed! GOD just revealed to me how He is going to publish and promote my book. In My Mother's House is the name of my book. It has taken me 63 years to birth this book. I am proud of it. I am proud that GOD kept me, saved me, revealed to me His awesome plan!
I am not defeated! I will not be defeated! If I stand alone it is alright! I feel good! I feel righteous and I know I have been redeemed.
Copyright May 17, 2014 All rights reserved.
Dont worry, my affliction is not contagious.
Yes, I have an "affliction", a terrible burden that I must carry for my entire cursed life. No I wasn't born afflicted. This is something my mother thought I should have, something she thought I deserved for bothering her, for disturbing her. For invading her beautiful body for nine months. For making her look like a whore. I was the third live birth. I was the third born without a father in evidence. The third to come to this earth without the proper papers or credentials. I was an outside child. Not only was I born a bastard in 1951, my mother boldly told at least two different men that they "be the daddy".
I don't care about being a bastard, unplanned, an "accident". I am glad to be here. But I refuse to be your b****! I refuse to be your lame flunky! You needed some help! You deliberately made sex toys out of us, your own children, then devoted your entire life to being some kind of sneaky slimy monster just so you could keep hurting us on the sly, on the DL (down low).
You afflicted me with a story, a testimony too terrible to tell. Too gut wrenching to read about. Fine! I don't have blonde hair or blue eyes. I don't have money. I don't have a name and I no longer have my youth. I am a person of very few friends, if any.
I am a social leper. I should be able to bear my affliction in silence. I should keep a stiff upper lip. When people tell me what a fine woman "Mother Watson" was, I should just nod my head and agree. No one wants to hear my truth. No one wants their dream disturbed. No one wants to know they loved a foul pedophile. No one wants to know that they got snowed, duped, deceived.
I know; no one wants to hear my story. It is far too disturbing. TMI (Too much information) I should just shut up and smile. Grin and lower my eyes, just take all of these sick secrets to my grave.
"Rachel! You were so beautiful! You had such a fine shape! You were so smart! Why weren't you able to marry well? Why did you knowingly marry a closet homosexual?"
"Did you feel ruined? Were you so desperate to have a baby that you knowingly agreed to the worse form of human degradation? Did you sacrifice for that child? Did you put your career on hold? Did you settle for your back up career ? Did you teach for 30 years just to remain afloat?"
There is a story in the NT where some of Jesus' disciples are badly beaten and stripped naked when they tried to exercise some demons. The demons sent them away badly bruised and bleeding but the disciples were rejoicing! They counted it a privilege to be abused for Christ.
That's how I feel. I too count it a privilege to be abused for Christ, to be reviled and ridiculed for my story. I am glad to finally find out how you really feel. I want to know those people who can not care about children, people void of empathy or sympathy. I want to know the people that believe that my story, my testimony is not worth telling, repeating or sharing because of my color black. Because I have been tainted by the dark continent of Africa. Because you don't believe brown eyes have the same value as blue eyes in the eyes of GOD.
"Though he slay me, yet shall I serve the LORD"
Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 17, 2014 All rights reserved.
I don't care about being a bastard, unplanned, an "accident". I am glad to be here. But I refuse to be your b****! I refuse to be your lame flunky! You needed some help! You deliberately made sex toys out of us, your own children, then devoted your entire life to being some kind of sneaky slimy monster just so you could keep hurting us on the sly, on the DL (down low).
You afflicted me with a story, a testimony too terrible to tell. Too gut wrenching to read about. Fine! I don't have blonde hair or blue eyes. I don't have money. I don't have a name and I no longer have my youth. I am a person of very few friends, if any.
I am a social leper. I should be able to bear my affliction in silence. I should keep a stiff upper lip. When people tell me what a fine woman "Mother Watson" was, I should just nod my head and agree. No one wants to hear my truth. No one wants their dream disturbed. No one wants to know they loved a foul pedophile. No one wants to know that they got snowed, duped, deceived.
I know; no one wants to hear my story. It is far too disturbing. TMI (Too much information) I should just shut up and smile. Grin and lower my eyes, just take all of these sick secrets to my grave.
"Rachel! You were so beautiful! You had such a fine shape! You were so smart! Why weren't you able to marry well? Why did you knowingly marry a closet homosexual?"
"Did you feel ruined? Were you so desperate to have a baby that you knowingly agreed to the worse form of human degradation? Did you sacrifice for that child? Did you put your career on hold? Did you settle for your back up career ? Did you teach for 30 years just to remain afloat?"
There is a story in the NT where some of Jesus' disciples are badly beaten and stripped naked when they tried to exercise some demons. The demons sent them away badly bruised and bleeding but the disciples were rejoicing! They counted it a privilege to be abused for Christ.
That's how I feel. I too count it a privilege to be abused for Christ, to be reviled and ridiculed for my story. I am glad to finally find out how you really feel. I want to know those people who can not care about children, people void of empathy or sympathy. I want to know the people that believe that my story, my testimony is not worth telling, repeating or sharing because of my color black. Because I have been tainted by the dark continent of Africa. Because you don't believe brown eyes have the same value as blue eyes in the eyes of GOD.
"Though he slay me, yet shall I serve the LORD"
Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 17, 2014 All rights reserved.
Friday, May 16, 2014
Is stupidity a choice or a curse?
Dear LORD in Heaven, please forgive me. It is my weakness, my snobbery, the thorn in my flesh. I will go ahead and say it; "I hate dumb people. Nothing infuriates me more than an illiterate, inarticulate person! It pisses me off! Makes me cuss. READ! Read N****! "
"Why are you so easily duped?Why do you go to a check cashing store? Why do you pawn your car at an exorbitant interest rate? Why do you make babies deliberately while still in high school, still on Free Lunch? Why do you curse at your teachers? disrupt the class? insure no learning takes place, ever? Why do you come to class high everyday? Why can't you keep a notebook? Why don't you ever have paper, pencil or a pen? Why do you copy some other dummy's homework? Why don't you have enough respect to listen to all of your teachers, not just the white ones? Why do you insist on believing that all black people are loud, or late, or dumb, or illiterate? Why are you always shocked when you finally meet a brilliant black person? Why do you reject all ideas, art and innovation generated from a contaminated black mind? Why do you secretly want that Michael Jackson disease ? Why do you line up and do every thing you are told without question if a white person or a white person's trusted coon is in charge? Why do you seek the easiest route in every thing? Why do you believe the color black is ugly? Why are you ashamed of your slave ancestors? Why are you engaging in freaky unusual sex practices? Do you enjoy it? Then why do you keep it a secret? Do you feel ashamed and degraded after attempting to please your mate?"
"Can't you feel? Can't you feel the loving, warm tender arms of the LORD Jesus Christ holding you? sustaining you? preventing any hurt , harm or danger from overwhelming you? Can you thank Him? Can you trust Him? Can you put all of your faith, every iota in His hands? Will you let the LORD Jesus Christ guide you? Not fickle, change my mind with the wind, man."
Copyright May 16, 2014 All rights reserved.
"Why are you so easily duped?Why do you go to a check cashing store? Why do you pawn your car at an exorbitant interest rate? Why do you make babies deliberately while still in high school, still on Free Lunch? Why do you curse at your teachers? disrupt the class? insure no learning takes place, ever? Why do you come to class high everyday? Why can't you keep a notebook? Why don't you ever have paper, pencil or a pen? Why do you copy some other dummy's homework? Why don't you have enough respect to listen to all of your teachers, not just the white ones? Why do you insist on believing that all black people are loud, or late, or dumb, or illiterate? Why are you always shocked when you finally meet a brilliant black person? Why do you reject all ideas, art and innovation generated from a contaminated black mind? Why do you secretly want that Michael Jackson disease ? Why do you line up and do every thing you are told without question if a white person or a white person's trusted coon is in charge? Why do you seek the easiest route in every thing? Why do you believe the color black is ugly? Why are you ashamed of your slave ancestors? Why are you engaging in freaky unusual sex practices? Do you enjoy it? Then why do you keep it a secret? Do you feel ashamed and degraded after attempting to please your mate?"
"Can't you feel? Can't you feel the loving, warm tender arms of the LORD Jesus Christ holding you? sustaining you? preventing any hurt , harm or danger from overwhelming you? Can you thank Him? Can you trust Him? Can you put all of your faith, every iota in His hands? Will you let the LORD Jesus Christ guide you? Not fickle, change my mind with the wind, man."
Copyright May 16, 2014 All rights reserved.
Thursday, May 15, 2014
LORD have abundant mercy on us!
I feel like I am trying to bring sight to blind people that refuse to see. Volunteer slaves, the "seven foolish virgins", dumb, vacuous people, easily led to mischief, lying, untrustworthy people.
All of this silly madness and confusion stems from weak faith and Biblical illiteracy. Luckily for me, I saw, witnessed, experienced the LORD's Saving Grace demonstrated in my life very early and fully witnessed His wonders to preform. Yes, "He has brought me." I don't have to be convinced . I know Him for myself! I have mourned, begged and suffered. My so called mother laughed. The ***** probably howled. Yes mam, Mathy Jane thought she was having a good time on this earth. Constantly robbing, stealing, manipulating, plotting and rotting in her jealousy. I know she read the Bible. She knows that she torn her own house down with her own hands. She knows why she refused to live on the 65 acres of prime land her father left her.
Poor Martha chose to run from her reputation rather than face it. Was it easier to destroy every one that knew you? Was continued secret debauchery really your choice? Martha chose a place far enough away from her "lying accusers" that she could feel comfortable as she sharpened her guile and weapons of deceit.
Poor Martha, most people saw through her, peeped her game within three months. We "the family" were stuck. Not only were we kin, we were her property! And damn'it we "better know it and shut thu f*** Up! I'll kill yo' n****!"
I know my poor grandfather suffered. He did all he could. There was no reaching Martha! Was she really ignorant enough to believe that she was truly fooling us? We just wanted to love the poor ignorant woman. We wanted to honor her. Well, I wanted to honor her. I forgave her. She had no reason in the world to continue living like a slimy serpent. Free Will is real. Real is real! We might not like the reality of a situation. But, "It is what it is!"
I just want to remind you to walk by faith and not by sight. Never forget the one that brought you! Make sure that you know and remember that it was GOD! Everything that happens on this earth happens as a part of His Plan for His Purpose!
May you grow and go in Christ Jesus. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 15, 2014 All rights reserved.
All of this silly madness and confusion stems from weak faith and Biblical illiteracy. Luckily for me, I saw, witnessed, experienced the LORD's Saving Grace demonstrated in my life very early and fully witnessed His wonders to preform. Yes, "He has brought me." I don't have to be convinced . I know Him for myself! I have mourned, begged and suffered. My so called mother laughed. The ***** probably howled. Yes mam, Mathy Jane thought she was having a good time on this earth. Constantly robbing, stealing, manipulating, plotting and rotting in her jealousy. I know she read the Bible. She knows that she torn her own house down with her own hands. She knows why she refused to live on the 65 acres of prime land her father left her.
Poor Martha chose to run from her reputation rather than face it. Was it easier to destroy every one that knew you? Was continued secret debauchery really your choice? Martha chose a place far enough away from her "lying accusers" that she could feel comfortable as she sharpened her guile and weapons of deceit.
Poor Martha, most people saw through her, peeped her game within three months. We "the family" were stuck. Not only were we kin, we were her property! And damn'it we "better know it and shut thu f*** Up! I'll kill yo' n****!"
I know my poor grandfather suffered. He did all he could. There was no reaching Martha! Was she really ignorant enough to believe that she was truly fooling us? We just wanted to love the poor ignorant woman. We wanted to honor her. Well, I wanted to honor her. I forgave her. She had no reason in the world to continue living like a slimy serpent. Free Will is real. Real is real! We might not like the reality of a situation. But, "It is what it is!"
I just want to remind you to walk by faith and not by sight. Never forget the one that brought you! Make sure that you know and remember that it was GOD! Everything that happens on this earth happens as a part of His Plan for His Purpose!
May you grow and go in Christ Jesus. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 15, 2014 All rights reserved.
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
P.S. to "Whoa! Hold Up'Chur!"
Wait jest a daggum minute! I sho' hope you don't thank you gon' afflict me from burth , din follow me around my whole life picking at me? laughing at me? stalking me? Because you thank I'm stupid and no sense-ED!
You are not going to git revolted by your self-image, your low self esteem and take your self loathing out on me while you lie, pretend, cut the fool, impress the lowest scum of this earth. You will not do things that are not pleasing to GOD, things that are disgusting, repugnant, foul and unimaginable and successfully pin that s*** on me!
You, satan, all of his imps, all of your loyal kit and kin, can go straight to the hottest hell of fire and brimstone. You can roast for eternity you stanking whore! That's what you called me b****!
What!? I'm supposed to be as blind as Ray Charles and Stevie Wonder in order to love you? I am supposed to be as deaf as a post, frightened as a chicken, dumb as a squirrel ?
You didn't want me, I was nothing but trash. Cool. But why harm a little innocent child? Why hate me for your mistake? Why make your children your sex toys? Now you knew we were not retarded. You thought your smooth cool lies could cover all of your sins forever. You thought your vulgar filthy mouth, arsenal of guns and tons of murdered man's dirt would save you, render you invisible.
Wrong! Just as wrong dead as you were wrong alive for 87 years. Pride and a stiff neck will land you in hell. I dun tol'cha.
You would have gotten clean away if you hadn't come after me in my old age. We were both elderly b****! You should have been trying to get into heaven for real instead of pretending, putting on a show, trying to impress people that really don't like you anymore than you pretend to "love" them.
You see your church didn't pray for you, didn't reach out to you. I don't hate to say it because you deserve it; Good riddance to bad rubbish.
(Excerpted from the JRWALTERS CHRONICLES)
COPYRIGHT MAY 13, 2014 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.
You are not going to git revolted by your self-image, your low self esteem and take your self loathing out on me while you lie, pretend, cut the fool, impress the lowest scum of this earth. You will not do things that are not pleasing to GOD, things that are disgusting, repugnant, foul and unimaginable and successfully pin that s*** on me!
You, satan, all of his imps, all of your loyal kit and kin, can go straight to the hottest hell of fire and brimstone. You can roast for eternity you stanking whore! That's what you called me b****!
What!? I'm supposed to be as blind as Ray Charles and Stevie Wonder in order to love you? I am supposed to be as deaf as a post, frightened as a chicken, dumb as a squirrel ?
You didn't want me, I was nothing but trash. Cool. But why harm a little innocent child? Why hate me for your mistake? Why make your children your sex toys? Now you knew we were not retarded. You thought your smooth cool lies could cover all of your sins forever. You thought your vulgar filthy mouth, arsenal of guns and tons of murdered man's dirt would save you, render you invisible.
Wrong! Just as wrong dead as you were wrong alive for 87 years. Pride and a stiff neck will land you in hell. I dun tol'cha.
You would have gotten clean away if you hadn't come after me in my old age. We were both elderly b****! You should have been trying to get into heaven for real instead of pretending, putting on a show, trying to impress people that really don't like you anymore than you pretend to "love" them.
You see your church didn't pray for you, didn't reach out to you. I don't hate to say it because you deserve it; Good riddance to bad rubbish.
(Excerpted from the JRWALTERS CHRONICLES)
COPYRIGHT MAY 13, 2014 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.
"Whoa! Hold up 'Chur!"
As a toddler I was allowed the privilege of running behind my grandfather as he plowed his tobacco field. I am amazed how clearly I remember, I can still visualize those wonderful days. I can smell the rich black dirt and the white North Carolina sand. One of my greatest pleasures was smashing dirt clods with my tiny brown bare feet.
I was a kid! I was carefree, permitted to get as dirty as a little piglet. I am sure that I was un-vacinated, in addition to being unwanted by my illegitimate parents. Yes I said it! Why can't an unwanted abused child complain? Why does the world refuse to hear or care?
Just who said I can't tell? Personally I am tried of people taking s*** to their graves, foolishly believing their "loyalty" is a form of honor. Poor victims are left skulking, running, hiding, avoiding human contact, self medicating, refusing to know GOD's Truth.
Refusing to believe there is only One Race, the Human Race! Refusing to believe that we are all the same, equal in the eyes of GOD. satan has convinced us to chase fame, money, power, but most of all acceptance. Insult, hate, plot against your own family members and friends just to look good to your "friends". satan tells you to follow him and he will give you the desires of your heart. Very rich white men like Bill Mahr convince you that "Christians" are stupid. That they are wasting their time praying to a GOD that does not exist, a GOD that can't hear them.
What convinced Bill that he is so brilliant and there is no GOD? Money! "He ain't nobody! Let GOD take that money away! Let GOD paint him black, render him homeless and sit him down under a bridge in Detroit somewhere. Guess what? That n**** will get 'religion' so fast! Broke will make a n**** change his mind about following the crowd, amening the nay sayers in order to be included in the In Crowd."
Do you really believe the labels this world and You put on me can prevent me from thinking critically? Can dirt from a murdered man's grave really prevent me from thriving, succeeding? Do I care if you dismiss me as just another kook, another black n****** woman gone wild? Another poor soul that snapped from too much pressure on her lazy ass.
I listened, paid rapt attention. "Heeeeeeeeeeee!" was the command for his mule to turn right. "Haaaaaaaa!" meant turn left. And of course "Whoa!" meant stop. "'Chur" is roughly translated as here, right here, this precise spot , right now.
Now I am telling you; "Whoa! Hold up'chur! Don't you go another further!" I don't care what this world says, what it promises or predicts, Almighty GOD is going to have His Way! If you are in sin come out! Repent of your sins! You know you can't cover them up or trade them for good works. Why are you chasing filthy lucre? Why are you letting satan and his imps dupe you, lead you astray, to lead you into captivity? Why don't you step out on faith and trust GOD? How can you be dumb enough to trust evil fickle man? Why don't you pray? Why don't you ask GOD for wisdom, His guidance, His protection?"
I don't know about you but I am going to keep listening, keep trusting, keep believing, keep celebrating. I am going to keep pressing on in Jesus' name.
Praise the LORD!
Stay in His WORD. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 13, 2014 All rights reserved.
I was a kid! I was carefree, permitted to get as dirty as a little piglet. I am sure that I was un-vacinated, in addition to being unwanted by my illegitimate parents. Yes I said it! Why can't an unwanted abused child complain? Why does the world refuse to hear or care?
Just who said I can't tell? Personally I am tried of people taking s*** to their graves, foolishly believing their "loyalty" is a form of honor. Poor victims are left skulking, running, hiding, avoiding human contact, self medicating, refusing to know GOD's Truth.
Refusing to believe there is only One Race, the Human Race! Refusing to believe that we are all the same, equal in the eyes of GOD. satan has convinced us to chase fame, money, power, but most of all acceptance. Insult, hate, plot against your own family members and friends just to look good to your "friends". satan tells you to follow him and he will give you the desires of your heart. Very rich white men like Bill Mahr convince you that "Christians" are stupid. That they are wasting their time praying to a GOD that does not exist, a GOD that can't hear them.
What convinced Bill that he is so brilliant and there is no GOD? Money! "He ain't nobody! Let GOD take that money away! Let GOD paint him black, render him homeless and sit him down under a bridge in Detroit somewhere. Guess what? That n**** will get 'religion' so fast! Broke will make a n**** change his mind about following the crowd, amening the nay sayers in order to be included in the In Crowd."
Do you really believe the labels this world and You put on me can prevent me from thinking critically? Can dirt from a murdered man's grave really prevent me from thriving, succeeding? Do I care if you dismiss me as just another kook, another black n****** woman gone wild? Another poor soul that snapped from too much pressure on her lazy ass.
I listened, paid rapt attention. "Heeeeeeeeeeee!" was the command for his mule to turn right. "Haaaaaaaa!" meant turn left. And of course "Whoa!" meant stop. "'Chur" is roughly translated as here, right here, this precise spot , right now.
Now I am telling you; "Whoa! Hold up'chur! Don't you go another further!" I don't care what this world says, what it promises or predicts, Almighty GOD is going to have His Way! If you are in sin come out! Repent of your sins! You know you can't cover them up or trade them for good works. Why are you chasing filthy lucre? Why are you letting satan and his imps dupe you, lead you astray, to lead you into captivity? Why don't you step out on faith and trust GOD? How can you be dumb enough to trust evil fickle man? Why don't you pray? Why don't you ask GOD for wisdom, His guidance, His protection?"
I don't know about you but I am going to keep listening, keep trusting, keep believing, keep celebrating. I am going to keep pressing on in Jesus' name.
Praise the LORD!
Stay in His WORD. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 13, 2014 All rights reserved.
Monday, May 12, 2014
Happy Mother's Day!
I would like to take this opportunity to wish the whole world a very Happy Mother's Day. But, I beg to ask the question; should every female that has birthed a child be honored?
Why not you might say. Just how bad can a bad mother be? My life has taught me, more horrible, more horrific and disturbing than any one can imagine. I found out a human being can become so depraved that you would rather just not know.
Fortunately for me I found Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers (DOMN) on line. Right now we have nearly 4,000 women, all devastated and attempting to heal ourselves because we live in a culture of "cover up", and pretend.
I am not criticizing, merely observing. I was the Great Pretender, the greatest pretender for years. Friends I attended elementary school with are shocked! Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureaux has to be the most deplorable woman that ever lived! People of the Lie (Peck) described her precisely . (Why didn't I know such evil people roam our earth pretending to be "normal" every day?) I grew to maturity trying to love the lying est, sickest, demonic whore that every lived! I know the stories of her never ending savage ignorant brutality may be hard to take. I must blog about them in order to "self-heal". It may shock you or cause you a great deal of discomfort. But the world must know!The world must be warned! Personally, I think Martha was just about 200 years ahead of her time, 200 years ahead of the current debauchery and low living. 200 years ahead of fierce resistance to the WORD of GOD. 200 hundred years ahead of this world in stealth demonisim. You should know that some of her sexual practices have become "mainstream" already. (Help us LORD!)
I just want to warn you, to caution and prepare you. No, you don't have to care about me, but you have sons and daughters. A Martha Jane might not get one of them, but she may get one of your grandchildren.
Turning our collective heads and "not seeing evil" will not help this problem. Demons are Real! Martha was one! I couldn't put flowers on her grave today if I wanted to. "Don't piss on my grave when I'm ded!"
She said that knowing I was (we were) raped, molested, treated worse than any animal! Trauma Bonded just like a slave! Brainwashed, taunted, humiliated and "rooted"!
My GOD from Zion! She got away with it because she was a cool liar, very attractive but Martha put the T in treachery. The A.M.E.Zion church pawned her off on us. It convinced me. I reconnected and trusted her after a 9 year hiatus. LIAR! MURDERER! RAPIST! THIEF! all hidden by a mother's coo, by a mother's soft breast and loving arms. What a shame, it was all pretend.
Most of all , a disrespector of GOD. An imp that lived for 87 years fully believing that she was in fact smarter than GOD. That the little dirt she collected from murdered men's graves was her gravy train.
Martha was never anything but a very hard headed rebellious woman that got in "trouble" early in life, refused correction and criticism and hated every one that obeyed and loved the LORD. Secretly hated everyone that graduated from college, thrived, could think, walk or talk, or received a compliment.
Every time I think I'm over it, I start seething again. All the Mother's Day gifts, all the gifts, all the money .... nothing ever won this harlot's heart for me.
Is that it LORD? Am I angry because that slut gave me her ass to kiss? ( That was one of her favorite brags after defrauding some man;"I gave dat n*** my ass to kiss.)
Or am I angry because she was a very successful wolf in sheep's clothing? Or could it be that I am furious because she was my mother?
Would I care about this woman and my story if I had been born to a good mother? Would I even believe such a woman possible?
I do hope and pray that a lot of people will read my story. (I pray for the courage to publish my book soon.) I hope my testimony will contribute to a tremendous sale of condoms. I do pray more men will pay greater attention and shun such women. I do hope young ladies will realize how easy it is to become a Martha Jane.
Most of all I do hope and pray that more men will seek young women that are modest, women that save themselves for marriage. (Men should do the same. A chaste woman should not marry a promiscuous man.) Women that pay their own bills, have careers, are intelligent,well read, civil, polite, honest.
Most of all I want to encourage young men and women to live right, live for the LORD! Maybe then we can stop so much pretending.
If you get the opportunity, please read Mark 4:22.
Stay in His WORD. Remember, "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
COPYRIGHT MAY12, 2014 All rights reserved.
Why not you might say. Just how bad can a bad mother be? My life has taught me, more horrible, more horrific and disturbing than any one can imagine. I found out a human being can become so depraved that you would rather just not know.
Fortunately for me I found Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers (DOMN) on line. Right now we have nearly 4,000 women, all devastated and attempting to heal ourselves because we live in a culture of "cover up", and pretend.
I am not criticizing, merely observing. I was the Great Pretender, the greatest pretender for years. Friends I attended elementary school with are shocked! Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureaux has to be the most deplorable woman that ever lived! People of the Lie (Peck) described her precisely . (Why didn't I know such evil people roam our earth pretending to be "normal" every day?) I grew to maturity trying to love the lying est, sickest, demonic whore that every lived! I know the stories of her never ending savage ignorant brutality may be hard to take. I must blog about them in order to "self-heal". It may shock you or cause you a great deal of discomfort. But the world must know!The world must be warned! Personally, I think Martha was just about 200 years ahead of her time, 200 years ahead of the current debauchery and low living. 200 years ahead of fierce resistance to the WORD of GOD. 200 hundred years ahead of this world in stealth demonisim. You should know that some of her sexual practices have become "mainstream" already. (Help us LORD!)
I just want to warn you, to caution and prepare you. No, you don't have to care about me, but you have sons and daughters. A Martha Jane might not get one of them, but she may get one of your grandchildren.
Turning our collective heads and "not seeing evil" will not help this problem. Demons are Real! Martha was one! I couldn't put flowers on her grave today if I wanted to. "Don't piss on my grave when I'm ded!"
She said that knowing I was (we were) raped, molested, treated worse than any animal! Trauma Bonded just like a slave! Brainwashed, taunted, humiliated and "rooted"!
My GOD from Zion! She got away with it because she was a cool liar, very attractive but Martha put the T in treachery. The A.M.E.Zion church pawned her off on us. It convinced me. I reconnected and trusted her after a 9 year hiatus. LIAR! MURDERER! RAPIST! THIEF! all hidden by a mother's coo, by a mother's soft breast and loving arms. What a shame, it was all pretend.
Most of all , a disrespector of GOD. An imp that lived for 87 years fully believing that she was in fact smarter than GOD. That the little dirt she collected from murdered men's graves was her gravy train.
Martha was never anything but a very hard headed rebellious woman that got in "trouble" early in life, refused correction and criticism and hated every one that obeyed and loved the LORD. Secretly hated everyone that graduated from college, thrived, could think, walk or talk, or received a compliment.
Every time I think I'm over it, I start seething again. All the Mother's Day gifts, all the gifts, all the money .... nothing ever won this harlot's heart for me.
Is that it LORD? Am I angry because that slut gave me her ass to kiss? ( That was one of her favorite brags after defrauding some man;"I gave dat n*** my ass to kiss.)
Or am I angry because she was a very successful wolf in sheep's clothing? Or could it be that I am furious because she was my mother?
Would I care about this woman and my story if I had been born to a good mother? Would I even believe such a woman possible?
I do hope and pray that a lot of people will read my story. (I pray for the courage to publish my book soon.) I hope my testimony will contribute to a tremendous sale of condoms. I do pray more men will pay greater attention and shun such women. I do hope young ladies will realize how easy it is to become a Martha Jane.
Most of all I do hope and pray that more men will seek young women that are modest, women that save themselves for marriage. (Men should do the same. A chaste woman should not marry a promiscuous man.) Women that pay their own bills, have careers, are intelligent,well read, civil, polite, honest.
Most of all I want to encourage young men and women to live right, live for the LORD! Maybe then we can stop so much pretending.
If you get the opportunity, please read Mark 4:22.
Stay in His WORD. Remember, "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
COPYRIGHT MAY12, 2014 All rights reserved.
It's a New Day Everyday!
Dear LORD help us to humble ourselves; listen to learn, not to respond with a quick retort. And most of all LORD tell us, show us when WE are wrong.
No LORD, I know there is only ONE RACE, THE HUMAN RACE, one body, one mind, one Holy Ghost. Dear LORD help us to see with Your Spiritual Eye!
PRAISE THE LORD!
Saturday, May 10, 2014
LORD Jesus!
You might want to know what I know. You might want to listen and listen carefully. Eve is at it again. Hordes of Jezebel spirited women have deliberately weakened our men, deliberately destroyed their own children.
Dear LORD , thank you for my assignment. "How can the people hear if they have no preacher?"
We have sunk low children! The devils imps are over running our pulpits, our "churches".
Why? Wimpy, weak faith so called Christians. Too nervous , too easily intimidated by satan.
Dear LORD , thank you for my assignment. "How can the people hear if they have no preacher?"
We have sunk low children! The devils imps are over running our pulpits, our "churches".
Why? Wimpy, weak faith so called Christians. Too nervous , too easily intimidated by satan.
Friday, May 9, 2014
Oh children!
It is not when you find out your mother is a total scumbag, it is when you finally accept the obvious fact that has been staring you right in your face for your entire life. A "problem" that wasn't your problem that you kept trying to fix. Some thing that you were blamed for, punished for, suffered for, but forbidden to think about, to know, or to question. "Shut the f*** up n****! Just go along to get along. This is what you get for being born too dark, a member of the "black race", female, lame, half blind, gullible, needy, some body dumb enough to believe she deserves love. Just play stupid and grin. The b**** can't live for ever. When she dies keep pretending. Keep up the lie. The world will never know. It will hurt like hell. You could benefit greatly from some Morphine.
Just grin n*****! Never curse! (It means you are immoral) Never cry! (It means you are weak) Never tell! (It means you are nothing but a snitch, something lower than the thing you are telling on.) Plus, you are black, n****! Every one is always going to prefer her over your black ass! Too bad! shouldn't have been born black!
LORD her feet were swift to run to mischief just like you said. My mother always claimed to hate people of color, any one darker than a paper bag. It wasn't my color she hated. She hated me! She was a Hater! The dumb idiot woman hated every thing, every one for no purpose. Just because she thought it was pleasurable. Just because she liked getting away with s***! Just because Martha Jane Walters loved to trick people, manipulate, for her own selfish gain. You were nothing, you didn't count.
It just hit me: "Yo' thank too much of yo'sef!" This is how she responded to my quizzing her concerning my awful "secret rape". Did this fool really believe that she had the right to violate me? Did she sincerely consider me to be her property? "I had yo'black ass! Dumb muthaf*****! S*** you owe me!"
No LORD, not for one moment do I believe she was ever as dumb, primitive, retarded or confused as she pretended to be. What she was, was a highly motivated reprobate, determined to carry out sick despicable, repugnant evil on the sly, stealth, cunning and sneaky, laughing all the way. Mocking GOD's Church, mocking the LORD Jesus Christ for 87 years! The dummy convinced herself that she was safe, that she got away clean. Just couldn't give up that "root working". It was too much fun. Mathy enjoyed it more than she did her illicit sex acts. No one would ever know except for that damn pesty, "Goody Two Shoes" nosey ass, can't keep her f*** mouth shut "dawthur", Me!
Thank You LORD Thank you for opening my eyes! For finally giving me the courage to acknowledge my horrible truth. Praise the LORD!
Yes, children GOD is Good! And He is right on time! He will right every wrong. It is all in Divine Order!
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 9, 2014 All rights reserved.
Just grin n*****! Never curse! (It means you are immoral) Never cry! (It means you are weak) Never tell! (It means you are nothing but a snitch, something lower than the thing you are telling on.) Plus, you are black, n****! Every one is always going to prefer her over your black ass! Too bad! shouldn't have been born black!
LORD her feet were swift to run to mischief just like you said. My mother always claimed to hate people of color, any one darker than a paper bag. It wasn't my color she hated. She hated me! She was a Hater! The dumb idiot woman hated every thing, every one for no purpose. Just because she thought it was pleasurable. Just because she liked getting away with s***! Just because Martha Jane Walters loved to trick people, manipulate, for her own selfish gain. You were nothing, you didn't count.
It just hit me: "Yo' thank too much of yo'sef!" This is how she responded to my quizzing her concerning my awful "secret rape". Did this fool really believe that she had the right to violate me? Did she sincerely consider me to be her property? "I had yo'black ass! Dumb muthaf*****! S*** you owe me!"
No LORD, not for one moment do I believe she was ever as dumb, primitive, retarded or confused as she pretended to be. What she was, was a highly motivated reprobate, determined to carry out sick despicable, repugnant evil on the sly, stealth, cunning and sneaky, laughing all the way. Mocking GOD's Church, mocking the LORD Jesus Christ for 87 years! The dummy convinced herself that she was safe, that she got away clean. Just couldn't give up that "root working". It was too much fun. Mathy enjoyed it more than she did her illicit sex acts. No one would ever know except for that damn pesty, "Goody Two Shoes" nosey ass, can't keep her f*** mouth shut "dawthur", Me!
Thank You LORD Thank you for opening my eyes! For finally giving me the courage to acknowledge my horrible truth. Praise the LORD!
Yes, children GOD is Good! And He is right on time! He will right every wrong. It is all in Divine Order!
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright May 9, 2014 All rights reserved.
I don't think ...
as a matter of fact I know, very whorish women do not make good mothers. Of course I am speaking from personal experience. I am talking about the extremely whorish, vulgar, violent, selfish, greedy type.
"Mother's Day" showing up just like clockwork this Sunday. This used to be a time I dreaded. She was rarely affectionate (if ever) towards me, enslaved me( I was her Quarry slave, down to washing her pissy "draws" by hand in the sink. She always demanded special care for her expensive undies), called me nothing but vile disgusting names, tried to pimp me out to my stepfather when I was fourteen after ten years of unwanted "touching" and other perversions.
This "Heifa" would demand big works on "Mother's Day". This was a day that you had to bow down (even lower than a normal day). She demanded gifts! Expensive gifts (although she had done everything in her power to keep you poor, broke, and begging).
It made no sense. According to her Easter was just another Sunday. No chocolate bunnies, jelly beans, baskets and never any new clothes. Just drag your sorry black dusty ass behind the "Queen Mother". Pretend n*****! Pretend! Don't let on! Never let the world know what you are going through, have been through. "Ain't nobody gon' believe you noway! I can't loose fuh duh stuff I use!"
[GOD! I am tethered to a f*** demon! Help! Help me LORD! Get this muthaf**** Off ME! Please Suh Jesus!]
I sent her a bouquet of flowers in '05. She complained that she had to arrange them herself. They arrived in a box. "You need to call dem people and complain." Then it hit me; (B****! You f**** whore scumbag! You better be glad I even speak to your stank ass! ... You are not that ignorant! You are not that stupid! But you are that wicked! ... A whore that will cut any one's throat that dares to criticize, mention or frown at any of her low despicable acts. That's pride. You are that very whorish woman in Proverbs that young men are warned against, told not to "turn in to", to avoid her. When GOD's children are born to such a whore He dispatches a host of Angels to protect us. Praise the LORD!)
I wonder how many other daughters will be faking Sunday? Afraid, living in mortal fear of their whorish, savage, primitive mothers that they are too ashamed of to reveal?
If you are truly one of the blessed, a child with a "good mother", a real one, an unselfish caring one, thank GOD and act like it. Love her back!
* Excerpted from The JR WALTERS Chronicles
Copyright May 9, 2014 All rights reserved.
"Mother's Day" showing up just like clockwork this Sunday. This used to be a time I dreaded. She was rarely affectionate (if ever) towards me, enslaved me( I was her Quarry slave, down to washing her pissy "draws" by hand in the sink. She always demanded special care for her expensive undies), called me nothing but vile disgusting names, tried to pimp me out to my stepfather when I was fourteen after ten years of unwanted "touching" and other perversions.
This "Heifa" would demand big works on "Mother's Day". This was a day that you had to bow down (even lower than a normal day). She demanded gifts! Expensive gifts (although she had done everything in her power to keep you poor, broke, and begging).
It made no sense. According to her Easter was just another Sunday. No chocolate bunnies, jelly beans, baskets and never any new clothes. Just drag your sorry black dusty ass behind the "Queen Mother". Pretend n*****! Pretend! Don't let on! Never let the world know what you are going through, have been through. "Ain't nobody gon' believe you noway! I can't loose fuh duh stuff I use!"
[GOD! I am tethered to a f*** demon! Help! Help me LORD! Get this muthaf**** Off ME! Please Suh Jesus!]
I sent her a bouquet of flowers in '05. She complained that she had to arrange them herself. They arrived in a box. "You need to call dem people and complain." Then it hit me; (B****! You f**** whore scumbag! You better be glad I even speak to your stank ass! ... You are not that ignorant! You are not that stupid! But you are that wicked! ... A whore that will cut any one's throat that dares to criticize, mention or frown at any of her low despicable acts. That's pride. You are that very whorish woman in Proverbs that young men are warned against, told not to "turn in to", to avoid her. When GOD's children are born to such a whore He dispatches a host of Angels to protect us. Praise the LORD!)
I wonder how many other daughters will be faking Sunday? Afraid, living in mortal fear of their whorish, savage, primitive mothers that they are too ashamed of to reveal?
If you are truly one of the blessed, a child with a "good mother", a real one, an unselfish caring one, thank GOD and act like it. Love her back!
* Excerpted from The JR WALTERS Chronicles
Copyright May 9, 2014 All rights reserved.
Thursday, May 8, 2014
*"So den I said..."
"I really don't care to hear bout it! It makes me feel unnnne-coommmm-for-TAH-bul (uncomfortable)!"
So den I said; "Makes You feel uncomfortable! Hi duh f***do you think it make me feel!?" Den she said my language was inappropriate! Inappropriate! My language is Inappropriate! Whut about dem two f***** perverts! Dey just git to leave this earf! Really! That's it! Hell NOoooooooooooo!
N*****! I swear! I don't believe it! I will not believe it. I didn't know my mother was really "as common as bat s***!", just like every one in Wade said. I should have believed them 60 years ago.) They didn't lie, no, not one of them.
No one ever said, or even hinted that I came from a common family. A few members were pretty low, lecherous and thieving. But, for the most part I thought we were "normal".
"Somebody knew that she was dangerous!Somebody knew she should not be left alone with small children, small animals or the infirm elderly, they never opened their mouth! We let a relative murder a relative, stage a suicide and never said a mumbling word. Dear LORD help all of us! Martha's pride left us in a mess. But, I am one person that intends for that "heifah" to go to hell by herself.
No, I don't think Mathy Jane is in regular hell either. GOD had to build a special hell for her and her kind.
(excerpted from the JR Walter Chronicles)
Copyright May 8, 2014 All rights reserved.
So den I said; "Makes You feel uncomfortable! Hi duh f***do you think it make me feel!?" Den she said my language was inappropriate! Inappropriate! My language is Inappropriate! Whut about dem two f***** perverts! Dey just git to leave this earf! Really! That's it! Hell NOoooooooooooo!
N*****! I swear! I don't believe it! I will not believe it. I didn't know my mother was really "as common as bat s***!", just like every one in Wade said. I should have believed them 60 years ago.) They didn't lie, no, not one of them.
No one ever said, or even hinted that I came from a common family. A few members were pretty low, lecherous and thieving. But, for the most part I thought we were "normal".
"Somebody knew that she was dangerous!Somebody knew she should not be left alone with small children, small animals or the infirm elderly, they never opened their mouth! We let a relative murder a relative, stage a suicide and never said a mumbling word. Dear LORD help all of us! Martha's pride left us in a mess. But, I am one person that intends for that "heifah" to go to hell by herself.
No, I don't think Mathy Jane is in regular hell either. GOD had to build a special hell for her and her kind.
(excerpted from the JR Walter Chronicles)
Copyright May 8, 2014 All rights reserved.
Wednesday, May 7, 2014
I know it is ...
revolting but that is how slavery, "our peculiar institution", worked. The master race ruling class had to persuade the subserviant class to believe wholeheartedly in their inferiority. (Real or imagined.) Brain washed into believing their color black is a curse from GOD. Intelligence is a gift that GOD only grants to the superior race and rarely some with mixed blood. But, none with pure n***** features , none with straight out African blood. We all watched those Tarzan movies. (Were made to feel ashamed by Hollywood. I was washed up at five because I was a little brown girl. Only Injuns and coons for me. (so, I quit playing.)
My mother taught me the best "diddy", that she told me her half white former slave grandfather used to tell her:
"White man born with a veil over his face, he can tell you things before they take place.
N******* born with a veil over his a**, can't tell you nothing 'til it come to pass."
It is all attitude. If people are convinced that they are hopeless, carnal, without discretion, evil, contemptible, that is what they will be. If you give an evil doer an excuse, any justification for their evil doing, they will take it.
I can understand my mother being bat s*** crazy if she was savagely raped by some grown man three times when she was eight years old. I can even understand her desire to secretly duplicate that entire scenario on us. But the continued, increasing evil is unnatural. Jesus told us to pray for our enemies, to turn the other check, to carry their cloak and extra mile.
But, why would you accuse me of screwing your husband or husbands when it was you that took my first boyfriend from me when I was fourteen years old and screwed him! (Talk about an awkward moment!)
I can not get over how flabbergasted I feel! How joyous! How liberated and free! Let me be the first to tell you, You could have been and out of the closet, lesbian, whore madame if you truly wanted to be one. Your problem was that you were indecisive, two-faced, ham scammy, back and forth, right then wrong, telling big lies sprinkled with some truth every now and then.
"You can't serve two maters, dawthur!"
Some body needs to listen, to heed.
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, Jerome Walters)
Copyright May 7, 2014 All rights reserved.
My mother taught me the best "diddy", that she told me her half white former slave grandfather used to tell her:
"White man born with a veil over his face, he can tell you things before they take place.
N******* born with a veil over his a**, can't tell you nothing 'til it come to pass."
It is all attitude. If people are convinced that they are hopeless, carnal, without discretion, evil, contemptible, that is what they will be. If you give an evil doer an excuse, any justification for their evil doing, they will take it.
I can understand my mother being bat s*** crazy if she was savagely raped by some grown man three times when she was eight years old. I can even understand her desire to secretly duplicate that entire scenario on us. But the continued, increasing evil is unnatural. Jesus told us to pray for our enemies, to turn the other check, to carry their cloak and extra mile.
But, why would you accuse me of screwing your husband or husbands when it was you that took my first boyfriend from me when I was fourteen years old and screwed him! (Talk about an awkward moment!)
I can not get over how flabbergasted I feel! How joyous! How liberated and free! Let me be the first to tell you, You could have been and out of the closet, lesbian, whore madame if you truly wanted to be one. Your problem was that you were indecisive, two-faced, ham scammy, back and forth, right then wrong, telling big lies sprinkled with some truth every now and then.
"You can't serve two maters, dawthur!"
Some body needs to listen, to heed.
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, Jerome Walters)
Copyright May 7, 2014 All rights reserved.
That's enough ...
This world can...
continue to ignore me because I am black, or top of the lowest financial class. This world can remain deaf to my pleas because I am female, a bastard, unwanted and secretly targeted and crucified again and again by my own mother. My relatives can line up to hate me, wish me nothing but bad luck.
But, not one will stand up and say I'm lying. Not one can say they ever met a woman more common and lying. I just want you to know GOD is right. The book of Provetbs is right. Turn into that honeycombed voice of that beautiful harlot sitting in the doorway of her house of ill repute, if you want to. You are going to be reduced to begging for a crust of bread.
Why is your self esteem so low in the first place? She did it! That common, low life vermin did it! Drug you into captivity with her. Having babies and abandoning and aborting them while daring Almighty GOD to stop her! Daring GOD and good Christian people to open their mouth. "You bed'da Not! I'll stab you! Ill shot you! I'll work roots on you, run ahead of you with abominable lies!
"Open your mouth and get a 'root' "; she said! "You can't win fuh duh fix you in, I can't loose fuh duh stuff I use!" Confident as hell this closet witch went about her demonic business for 87 years!
She probably would have never been caught, never detected if satan hadn't given her the confidence to murder her own daddy and viciously violate her own children. And trying to work roots on your daughter while you are on pain medication for knee surgery in your 80s is the same as GOD giving you truth serum. LOL!
My granddaddy promised me, told me and he didn't lie; "Jesus will fix it!" PTL !
Copyright may 7, 2014. All rights reserved.
But, not one will stand up and say I'm lying. Not one can say they ever met a woman more common and lying. I just want you to know GOD is right. The book of Provetbs is right. Turn into that honeycombed voice of that beautiful harlot sitting in the doorway of her house of ill repute, if you want to. You are going to be reduced to begging for a crust of bread.
Why is your self esteem so low in the first place? She did it! That common, low life vermin did it! Drug you into captivity with her. Having babies and abandoning and aborting them while daring Almighty GOD to stop her! Daring GOD and good Christian people to open their mouth. "You bed'da Not! I'll stab you! Ill shot you! I'll work roots on you, run ahead of you with abominable lies!
"Open your mouth and get a 'root' "; she said! "You can't win fuh duh fix you in, I can't loose fuh duh stuff I use!" Confident as hell this closet witch went about her demonic business for 87 years!
She probably would have never been caught, never detected if satan hadn't given her the confidence to murder her own daddy and viciously violate her own children. And trying to work roots on your daughter while you are on pain medication for knee surgery in your 80s is the same as GOD giving you truth serum. LOL!
My granddaddy promised me, told me and he didn't lie; "Jesus will fix it!" PTL !
Copyright may 7, 2014. All rights reserved.
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
I "swure" ...
they kept at least three old junked cars and at least two rusted out refrigerators and one old wringer washing machine strewn about the yard to remind the world of how good they used to have it. Some did kid themselves into believing that what ever was once dead could come back to life life Lazarus.
Unfortunately none of us had enough "Jesus" to pull off such a feat. I grew up in the era of; "Hush yo'mouf and stay outta' grown folks business! Quit starring down my throat! Chile I declare! I can't say nuttin' doubt yo'lazy behind in heah lissen.""
I did keep my mouth shut most of the time but nothing could keep me from observing, comparing, keenly evaluating.
So!? You called me a Lesbian, made me cry for years, for no apparent reason. You were the one that claimed to be so bold, so fierce and independent. You couldn't come out of the closet!? You couldn't enjoy your young girls without guilt!?
I should have known ...you had more cunts and t****** under your bed than your little bed frame could hold. Your pornography spilled out onto the floor. We never cared. I thought a real book or a real hobby might serve you better. But, I never said anything. You didn't think you were fooling us did you?
Children, don't do bad things then look for a scapegoat. Blame it on yourself. Don't even blame it on the devil. You did it! Now own it. "Go and sin no more!"
That is what Jesus told the woman found in adultery. "Go and sin no more!" GOD did not tell us to cover up our sins, to make sure our children and grandchildren turned out to be worse heathens than we were.
GOD did not tell us to grow jealous, envious, tyrannical , vicious, poisonous and viperous. GOD does not want women to use their feminine wiles against their sons and daughters. GOD Will NOT let you cover up your murders, rapes, incest, stabbings and vicious lies with some dirt off of a murdered man's grave!
It's a good thing you are dead because you look like a fool! A primitive, bat s*** crazy, lunatic, menace to society, imbecile that escaped from justice for 87 years!
I know you were possessed by a demon or something. What you had is not legitimate insanity. It is not stupidity either, because you rarely got caught.
You are a puzzlement, alright. Guess what!? The world is already better without you. I'm getting better everyday! Getting stronger! Yes, GOD is healing me. "He sho' is!" " And pleeze suh Jeezus! Come dis a-way! Come heal dese dat is still stiff-necked, still full of pride and ignorance. Open dey eyes LAWD! Hep'um"
(An excerpt from the JR Walters Chronicles)
Copyright May 6, 2014 All rights reserved.
Unfortunately none of us had enough "Jesus" to pull off such a feat. I grew up in the era of; "Hush yo'mouf and stay outta' grown folks business! Quit starring down my throat! Chile I declare! I can't say nuttin' doubt yo'lazy behind in heah lissen.""
I did keep my mouth shut most of the time but nothing could keep me from observing, comparing, keenly evaluating.
So!? You called me a Lesbian, made me cry for years, for no apparent reason. You were the one that claimed to be so bold, so fierce and independent. You couldn't come out of the closet!? You couldn't enjoy your young girls without guilt!?
I should have known ...you had more cunts and t****** under your bed than your little bed frame could hold. Your pornography spilled out onto the floor. We never cared. I thought a real book or a real hobby might serve you better. But, I never said anything. You didn't think you were fooling us did you?
Children, don't do bad things then look for a scapegoat. Blame it on yourself. Don't even blame it on the devil. You did it! Now own it. "Go and sin no more!"
That is what Jesus told the woman found in adultery. "Go and sin no more!" GOD did not tell us to cover up our sins, to make sure our children and grandchildren turned out to be worse heathens than we were.
GOD did not tell us to grow jealous, envious, tyrannical , vicious, poisonous and viperous. GOD does not want women to use their feminine wiles against their sons and daughters. GOD Will NOT let you cover up your murders, rapes, incest, stabbings and vicious lies with some dirt off of a murdered man's grave!
It's a good thing you are dead because you look like a fool! A primitive, bat s*** crazy, lunatic, menace to society, imbecile that escaped from justice for 87 years!
I know you were possessed by a demon or something. What you had is not legitimate insanity. It is not stupidity either, because you rarely got caught.
You are a puzzlement, alright. Guess what!? The world is already better without you. I'm getting better everyday! Getting stronger! Yes, GOD is healing me. "He sho' is!" " And pleeze suh Jeezus! Come dis a-way! Come heal dese dat is still stiff-necked, still full of pride and ignorance. Open dey eyes LAWD! Hep'um"
(An excerpt from the JR Walters Chronicles)
Saturday, May 3, 2014
Dear LORD in Heaven,
You know I loves you, always have, always will. But, dey is something dat been laying on my heart most all my life; why? Not too long ago you let a real heifa, a real hellcat, a woman crazy as a white mouf mule loose on dis earf?
Was she a test to see if we wuz paying attention, reading yo' WORD? Wuz you trying to find out if Jesus is just a word we plaster on our lips but refuse to carry in our hearts? Wuz you testing our Faith LORD? LORD I don't mean to complain or say anything negative about You or Your Plan but pleeze suh Jesus, don't send no mo' heifas, vipers, slithering serpents dressed up in designer ware complete with 24 inch weave and three inch nails, a Jezebel attitude, heah to plague and menace yo' churin NO MO'!
I learnt LORD! I ain't gon' do it no mo' LAWD! I ain't gon' love dem ho's no mo' LAWD! Imma stay way from'um. I ain't gon' have no truck wid'dim. I ain't gon' laugh at dey jokes. I ain't gon' turn my head and shut my eyes when I see dem do sumptin' wrong.
I surrender LAWD! I surrender ALL! You told me my enemy would be in my own household! It wudden that I didn't believe you LAWD. I believed ya. But I believed hur too. Dat heifa wuz good!
But I finally fount out. You made it crystal clear. Naw Suh, I don't have no doubt. LAWD Jesus dey is a heap mo' such mens and wimmens out heah ain't dey? Your hard headed stiff neck chullun jest wont listen will dey?
Do dey refuse to listen, to heed my warnings because of the color of my skin? Is dey ignut just lak my mama? LAWD dey cant see character fo' looking at color. S***! (scuze me LAWD) Mathy wuz as white as any white woman. So whut color got to do wid it?
Deze vipers are mind manipulators. Dey ain't got no conscious. Dey will do anythang and I do mean anythang cause dey ain't got good sense. Dey reprobates, steer clear. Let duh reprobates hang out wid reprobates. Dey is plenty of dem, dey aint nevah gon' get lonely. satan is a sadist and you will be one too if you git on hiz team.
I do thank you fo' bringing me out LAWD. I do pray that you will see fit to save the rest of my family one day. Praise the LAWD! Jesus will fix it! Be not deceived for GOD is not mocked. Press on! Go forward working for the LORD. Hold up the blood stained banner. Wait! Wait on the LORD! Wait for your change to come and do know it is coming.
(Excerpt from the JR WALTERS Chronicles)
Copyright May 3, 2014
Was she a test to see if we wuz paying attention, reading yo' WORD? Wuz you trying to find out if Jesus is just a word we plaster on our lips but refuse to carry in our hearts? Wuz you testing our Faith LORD? LORD I don't mean to complain or say anything negative about You or Your Plan but pleeze suh Jesus, don't send no mo' heifas, vipers, slithering serpents dressed up in designer ware complete with 24 inch weave and three inch nails, a Jezebel attitude, heah to plague and menace yo' churin NO MO'!
I learnt LORD! I ain't gon' do it no mo' LAWD! I ain't gon' love dem ho's no mo' LAWD! Imma stay way from'um. I ain't gon' have no truck wid'dim. I ain't gon' laugh at dey jokes. I ain't gon' turn my head and shut my eyes when I see dem do sumptin' wrong.
I surrender LAWD! I surrender ALL! You told me my enemy would be in my own household! It wudden that I didn't believe you LAWD. I believed ya. But I believed hur too. Dat heifa wuz good!
But I finally fount out. You made it crystal clear. Naw Suh, I don't have no doubt. LAWD Jesus dey is a heap mo' such mens and wimmens out heah ain't dey? Your hard headed stiff neck chullun jest wont listen will dey?
Do dey refuse to listen, to heed my warnings because of the color of my skin? Is dey ignut just lak my mama? LAWD dey cant see character fo' looking at color. S***! (scuze me LAWD) Mathy wuz as white as any white woman. So whut color got to do wid it?
Deze vipers are mind manipulators. Dey ain't got no conscious. Dey will do anythang and I do mean anythang cause dey ain't got good sense. Dey reprobates, steer clear. Let duh reprobates hang out wid reprobates. Dey is plenty of dem, dey aint nevah gon' get lonely. satan is a sadist and you will be one too if you git on hiz team.
I do thank you fo' bringing me out LAWD. I do pray that you will see fit to save the rest of my family one day. Praise the LAWD! Jesus will fix it! Be not deceived for GOD is not mocked. Press on! Go forward working for the LORD. Hold up the blood stained banner. Wait! Wait on the LORD! Wait for your change to come and do know it is coming.
(Excerpt from the JR WALTERS Chronicles)
Copyright May 3, 2014
Friday, May 2, 2014
"KNOW YE THE TRUTH!"
Only Jesus could see it. Only Jesus could predict and name the awful demonic possession my family would be forced to endure for so long. I witnessed the long stream of hot silent tears gushing down my grandfather's chiseled Geronimo Indian face often. I simply assumed that he was crying over his dead son. Little did I know he was crying for, vexing over that wayward, psychotic, nympomaniac demon possessed daughter.
That woman was one nasty 'ho. Made our lives a living hell. I am glad I didn't know the whole story. ( At least not all at once.) I am glad GOD has revealed it to me in drips and drabs. I also praise the LORD for helping me to forget a lot . Sure I "remember too much" according to her. She was terrified of redemption, of pay back, and rightly so.
Enough for today.
P.S. Look out for your own salvation. You see what some churches will pass off as a "preacher".
Copyright May 2, 2014. All rights reserved.
That woman was one nasty 'ho. Made our lives a living hell. I am glad I didn't know the whole story. ( At least not all at once.) I am glad GOD has revealed it to me in drips and drabs. I also praise the LORD for helping me to forget a lot . Sure I "remember too much" according to her. She was terrified of redemption, of pay back, and rightly so.
Enough for today.
P.S. Look out for your own salvation. You see what some churches will pass off as a "preacher".
Copyright May 2, 2014. All rights reserved.
Thursday, May 1, 2014
I for one ...
am very appreciative of the fact the British Soldiers worn redcoats while fighting the American Colonists. They played the drum and fife to announce they were coming. That's the way your enemy is supposed to fight you. Your enemy should fight you fairly.
No maggot blowfly of a relative has any right to crawl up in the very bone marrow of your family and try to destroy it secretly on the down low. No horrible harlot of a woman should prepare her only daughter (the only one that escaped abortion) to be her "sin eater".
During the Medieval Period, the Dark Ages, very wealthy families hired "sin eaters" to eat all of their earthly sins in order for the very wealthy and privileged to enter heaven upon their death. The very wealthy and privileged were allowed to live decadent lives provided they furnished a lavish banquet upon their death and the "sin eater" ate all of the exotic bountiful food to symbolically devour all of the rich person's sins. The poor man deliberately took on the rich man's sins in order to gorge himself on fine food and wine.
The unfortunate thing was the eldest son of a "sin eater" had to become a "sin eater" upon the death of his "sin eater" father. That ladies and gentleman is a generational curse.
My entire brilliant family (well some of them any way) is suffering from a generational curse. The Buck Stops Right Here! And Right Now!
I refuse to be Martha Jane Walter's (Mathy Jane) SIN EATER! *****! Eat your own Sins!
GOD is righting every wrong children! Now is the time to get yourself straight!
Copyright May 1, 2014 All rights reserved.
No maggot blowfly of a relative has any right to crawl up in the very bone marrow of your family and try to destroy it secretly on the down low. No horrible harlot of a woman should prepare her only daughter (the only one that escaped abortion) to be her "sin eater".
During the Medieval Period, the Dark Ages, very wealthy families hired "sin eaters" to eat all of their earthly sins in order for the very wealthy and privileged to enter heaven upon their death. The very wealthy and privileged were allowed to live decadent lives provided they furnished a lavish banquet upon their death and the "sin eater" ate all of the exotic bountiful food to symbolically devour all of the rich person's sins. The poor man deliberately took on the rich man's sins in order to gorge himself on fine food and wine.
The unfortunate thing was the eldest son of a "sin eater" had to become a "sin eater" upon the death of his "sin eater" father. That ladies and gentleman is a generational curse.
My entire brilliant family (well some of them any way) is suffering from a generational curse. The Buck Stops Right Here! And Right Now!
I refuse to be Martha Jane Walter's (Mathy Jane) SIN EATER! *****! Eat your own Sins!
GOD is righting every wrong children! Now is the time to get yourself straight!
Copyright May 1, 2014 All rights reserved.
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