You ugh ah lie!

Jest who you thank you talkin' to? You mean to tell me 'dat if you had thu choice, if you cud pick your so called race, you wud come back heah as black!?  Nukker you crazy!  Why!? Why wud anyone want to come back heah pre-grieving befo' they evan got heah?

Who wants to hear that they are too black?  How in the hell can a person be too black?  Too black for whom?  Can a person be too white? Too red? Too brown? Too yellow?

Why do we repeat ignorant s***?  No! worse, why do we believe ignorant s***? Then pass that stupid s*** on to our children?

No! I do not think white people are superior and I don't think all of their lives are easier.  It would just be easier for me.  It would be easier for me because I am an original , authentic, creative,( brilliant ) different thinker.  My uniqueness did not come free.  Every thing about me is me.  The Rachel Gwendolyn I know and trust was hard earned.  But, most importantly prayed up and prayed over by two wonderful grandparents.  (Rachel and Jerome Walters)

  I trust no man or woman on this earth.  I trust the LORD GOD Almighty.  I lean on the LORD, He guides my steps, He directs my path.  It is ALL in Divine Order.

If you don't or won't or can't hear GOD's voice, pray to.  It is not over.  If you think you made a mistake,  if you knowingly hurt someone, if you let a dark spirit or a dark idea control you for one minute, rewind, do it over.  Always do what you know in your heart is right.

Dear children do not let "common sense" be your spiritual guide.  Do not let the fear of being rejected, reviled, left out, or left alone control what you really feel or think.  Jesus will be with you when no one on this earth will.  He will make a way out of no way!  He will open doors that no man can shut!  He will make your enemy your footstool.

The evil one will snarl and growl at you, mock you, lie on you to your face and do every thing in her power to intimidate you.  That is when you will learn that the only power she has is a bad attitude,  She may threaten to withdraw her love.  a love you never had any way.  Reflect back, go back 40, 50, 60, 70 years ... there was never any love.  It was always tolerance, dependence and perhaps some mutual exchange.  It would have helped if I had remained retarded, my development "arrested" or frozen in fear.

Truthfully, I don't like her. ( I never liked any person I saw snatch and mistreat little children.)  That does make it easier to tell.  This is not  the story I wanted to tell, this is not the story I wanted to share with the world.  I wanted to tell you that she finally said that she was sorry.  That was the happy ending I wanted.  I certainly am a writer.  A writer of the greatest fiction ever written.  It would be if I told that lie.

Why couldn't that pathological liar tell that lie at 87?  She knew her time was up.  She had to know that she was down to years at the most.  Her cousin Wright lived to be 96 years old.  It's funny, when you finally get old, "old" is not so old.  "Old" discrimination is real.  I am not dying my hair! I DO care if people treat me like Uncle Ben, though.  I wonder if grey haired white women are disrespected on the level I am?

Is it me? Is it society? What did we do to this generation? Some principals  and assistant principals are permitting young ( black) men (and women) the privilege of thinking they can say and do just as they please.  Administrators that actually believe that we as educators should just pass them on and let "life teach them".  (Unfortunately when life finally teaches them it will be far too late.  Can we as a nation afford to throw away one single boy or girl?)

Let me get you straight right now! I did not say any particular race or color is superior to another!  What I said was, it is obvious to me that white people get treated better by all people.  I cud be wrong ... I cud be wrong! But if I had to come back heah! ... if I eva' got a chance to come back as any body I chose ... I wud come back as a young fine Paul Newman!  Not only was he good looking ... he was a fine man! Loved his wife ... loved charities!

But, since I can't come back, I am going to do the best I can while I am on this earth. I am not going to blame anyone for my condition.  I am going to warn people if you are foul!  Sorry! Don't bring your sorry, foul self around me.  If you do, you better change or  do better! If I catch you, don't cuss me out.
That is not the solution!  No, you don't get any credit for your phony preaching or playing crazy! Why!? Because you were still doing  it when you were old! You knew better!  You just cudden' stop cud you!?

The truth is, I'm not worried about how my fellow man treats me on this earth.  I am not going to change! I am going to treat my fellow man right! I am going to continue trusting GOD with my life because I know that He did not bring me this far to fail!

I will pray for my enemies.  I do ask GOD to bless my situation, my kit and kin, this world, every day!
I do thank Him for that Book and for every stripe.  Praise the LORD!

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

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