"I broke rank" ...

a military expression.  Very appropriate because I grew up in the military.  I broke rank not a moment too soon.  The fact is, it took a very long time to see and accept how evil my "mother" truly was.  She was not an escaped lunatic from the mental asylum, but she should have been.

No one expects their mother to play them, to use them as pawns for money and or sexual pleasure.  Who knew a mind could become so low and depraved, so vile and sneaky?  GOD wants you to know that it is easy.  Stop praying sincerely.  Never pray for the Holy Spirit to enter your heart, to dwell there in.  Be more concerned with what the world sees than what GOD knows.  And above all, make sure you derive tremendous pleasure from the total destruction of others.  Always pretend to be a friend, a help-mate, a soul-mate.

Growing up one of my mother's favorite often repeated opinions was; "Find'um,  F***'um and Forget'um" I assumed she was just talking about the constant stream of men she fleeced.  I didn't know she meant us.  I didn't know she meant me.

I should have.  Anytime you have a mother that gets up screaming at the top of her lungs everyday, cursing and spewing pure filth, you are in trouble and you need Jesus!  Any time your mother at every opportunity threatens to let "Yo' muthaf**** a** hole close up"  When your mornings start like this before you get to school, you will study.  You will excel! And you will pray to get "Grown and Gone!".

TOXIC! TOXIC! Praise the LORD for saving me! Praise the LORD for Jerome Walters!  Just remember this; "He maketh not ashamed!"

Poor Martha became too ashamed, too foul to repent, to ask for forgiveness.  Dear LORD, please forgive her.  Martha was truly ignorant. satan convinced her that she was brilliant.  She fell for it.

My truth is timely and needs to be known.  When Dr. King started pressing for Civil Rights most of the black people I knew called him a damn fool.  Said he should shut up! Things were fine.  The black middle class loved things exactly as they were, "separate but equal" was perfect for the black undertaker, restaurateur, and business owner.

Through the Civil Rights Movement the world came to know of, disapprove of and dismantle a sick selfish  inhumane system.  The cry heard around the world was; "I didn't know!"

I want to do the same thing for child abuse.  I want to expose the sick sexual predators that think they can win, never get caught, never be exposed because they are on the side of GOD. Phony, fake, predators ...LORD forbid!

Dear LORD I pray so humbly for your forgiveness.  Thank you for loving US! for trying to save us from ourselves!

I am going to ask you to do one thing every day for the balance of your days; Pray!