Dear LORD,

Thank you for placing Mrs. Robinson , my 9th grade Home Economics teacher in my life. Thank you for giving her an uncanny sense of knowing without judging. It was Mrs. Robinson that pulled me aside and told me very gently to never  let my bra straps get in that shape again.

I was fourteen, very petite. I wore the only little bra I had everyday. I think it was 28 A, so I could have negelected wearing it on the days it had to dry after I washed it in the sink.  One bra was all my mother felt I needed. I am not sure she bought that one.

Mrs. Robinson was a tall elegant lady. Her husband was a professor at Fsyetteville State. They lived in a beautiful, well appointed red brick home in Brodel homes,  Mrs. Robinson drove a long Lincoln Continental. The one with the imprint of the spare tire raised beautifully above the trunk.

Mrs. Robinson loved jewelry, earrings, a ton of necklaces, mostly pearls. Bracelets,rings and pins.  You could be sure, Mrs. Robinson's outfits always said she had class, money, and uniqueness. Mrs. Robinson had her own style.  It could not be duplicated. She was a great teacher. She taught me to cook and sew.

I know now, Martha never had any sense. Was ruined when she was eight ( the same age she made sure my life  changed forever) Martha grew into a hedious immature secret sociopath. Just as ignorant and selfish as a two year old child.  Such a horrible vicious bully no one on this earth could reign her in. Such a foul fallen woman she mocked God! Enjoyed playing "preacher" the same as child playing house. She, Martha Jane, could lie, GOD understood. "I lie tuh keep dese n**** out my bizness!"

When the thought of you , when your actual memory, still strikes terror in the heart of your victims months after your death , you were the anti-Christ!

There are some that think I should hate GOD for allowing this mongrel monster to plague the world for 87 years. I choose to trust GOD. I know that deranged mind of hers was meant to destroy me, to grind me in the dust. GOD said No!

I thank GOD for her! I know I would not have the deep abiding faith I have without that woman with the Jezebel spirit causing me so much pain and grief .  I came to know the greatest love a human being can ever experience.

It is not over children. I am still reading, researching, trying to discover how and why such an orgre is still respected, still honored, still loved. Why are her victims willing to suffer and die broke and broken to save her tarnished name. A name she tarnished, dirtied, walked over, spat upon herself. Let me address those of you that don't believe in snitching. If family loyalty is as important as she claimed, why did she target her own children and the elderly?

"Don't you n****** tell it! Don't you black muthaf******* tell a muthaf***** thang dat go on in dis house!"

So that's it. That is how we ended up a beautiful attractive family with nothing. Nothing but fear, terrorizing fear. Well I'll say it , if you don't. Dear LORD thank you for finally putting Martha out of her misery.  Thank you for giving us some rest.

Dear LORD I hope and pray that many will see, easily recognize how a life can go wrong and remain wrong for 87 years if a person is determined to let pride destroy them. If a person refuses to listen, attacks kind admonitions with rudeness and ridicule . If a person has itching ears, can only hear what they want to hear.

"Dear LORD, if I get too high, bring me down."   My grandfather prayed that prayer every day.