Don't spend the day thankful for your elegant Easter outfit or overflowing Easter baskets. Rather spend the rest of your life thanking GOD for His sacrifice.
I am sure the day I finally accepted the awful truth about my mother it was the worse day of my life. She finally landed the crushing blow. She finally mistreated me one too many times.
For what ever reason the LORD Jesus Christ finally opened my eyes, opened my dull understanding. I was indeed crushed. I had suffered miserably for nearly sixty years. Why? Was I as dumb as she alleged?
I know now that GOD was shaping and preparing me. Breaking me to re-make me. GOD was purging me of all the filth she had instilled in me. Thank You LORD!
She is indeed a woman too demonic to recognize. Her deeds are too foul to repeat. She doesn't look like a demon her defenders claim. Well, what is a demon supposed to look like? Should she wear a red cape complete with satan's horns and a pitchfork?
What did the fallen angel Lucifer look like? I understand that he was beautiful.
I am humbled by the Goodness of GOD. I sit here in awe and amazement reflecting over His divine protection. I thank GOD for my beautiful wonderful life. For a daughter that is priceless, kind, brilliant and talented. A young lady that surely saved my life. A child that had patience with me and nurtured me through my pain. She never rejected me when I was raging with anger and cast down with grief.
"He rose!" The LORD Jesus Christ rose in my heart, picked me up, lifted me from the muck and the mire.
I have been shunned by many. Shunned by people that I truly thought loved me. I am cast aside by my entire family. I forgive them. They are not ready. They can not handle the truth.
"He rose!" Rose from the dead when this world thought it had defeated Him. Pontius Pilot washed his hands but he could not clean his heart.
I know that I have suffered. No little girl should suffer excruciating pain in her vagina due to the sick conniving cruelty of her mother. But her family should not ignore her and pretend that she is lying or should just forget it. The culprit that did it should not lie and curse her. She should not say; "That happened along time ago...I can't do nuttin' about it...so just forgit it!"
The family of men that have been beaten down and robbed of their manhood by this witch should not continue to nurse on her cold foul dried up "breasts". They should pray. Pray for GOD to rise in their hearts. They should pray and fast to finally see the light.
They should get on their knees and ask GOD for wisdom and understanding, to "unblind" their eyes and unstop their deaf ears. They should pray that GOD would purge them of all the ignorance this wicked woman has instilled in them.
Dear LORD I pray that you might heal my family. Bless each and every one. Bring them to your Glory. Ignite right in them. Let the wisdom and courage Jerome Walters planted in them arise. Dear LORD bring them humbly to your Cross.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Saturday, March 30, 2013
GOD is going to right every wrong.
Let me rephrase that, GOD is righting every wrong. He is doing it right now as we speak. If you have been wronged, lied on, rebuked and scorned, GOD is fixing it right now.
The evil doers are not in a "tissy". They haven't noticed. They can't notice because they are suffering in a blind stupor supposing that they are wise. They are still celebrating the evil they have done. The evil they think they got away with.
I am telling you GOD is working it out. He is rescuing the righteous, the patient from the hand of the enemy.
My grandfather taught me to always hold my head up, to walk tall. And to never do anything that I would be ashamed to admit I did.
Don't live defeated children. Don't you ever give up! I don't care how bleak it looks. You may have to endure some dark days. Just hold on. "Hold on to GOD's unchanging hand."
I want you to walk in GOD's beautiful Sunshine today. I want you to smile and celebrate GOD's victory over your life.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
The evil doers are not in a "tissy". They haven't noticed. They can't notice because they are suffering in a blind stupor supposing that they are wise. They are still celebrating the evil they have done. The evil they think they got away with.
I am telling you GOD is working it out. He is rescuing the righteous, the patient from the hand of the enemy.
My grandfather taught me to always hold my head up, to walk tall. And to never do anything that I would be ashamed to admit I did.
Don't live defeated children. Don't you ever give up! I don't care how bleak it looks. You may have to endure some dark days. Just hold on. "Hold on to GOD's unchanging hand."
I want you to walk in GOD's beautiful Sunshine today. I want you to smile and celebrate GOD's victory over your life.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Friday, March 29, 2013
What does the Book say?
You running around living random, hand to mouth, confused and abused. You're running from church to church, doctrine to doctrine, looking for a "religion" that will permit you to live your way.
Sure you study your bible searching for scripture that defends you, justifies you. You skip over everything that "offends" you. You hate people that try to correct you, that sincerely try to help you.
What does the Book say!? "Come ye out from among them!" "Fear NO man!" Don't fear GOD's Truth!
You can't hide your sin. You can't distance yourself. It will haunt you and track you down. I was Eight years old! You thought you got away didn't you? You conned yourself into believing it was merely a sex act, and act of lust. You had the right, you were the oldest, you were the smartest. Plus this was a way to tie a knot in this n*****'s tail. He could never quit you or leave you if you had some sick dirt on him.
"She ain't nuttin' noway. Just another luddle black bastard. No more than a blood clot. She bedder be glad I let her a** live. She bedder be glad I went and got her black a** out dat 'ho house.... It's done ni ...I can't take it back."
You can justify, you can lie. But, what does the Book say!? "You won't get away. What is done in the dark shall surely come to light!" "You will reap what you sow!"
You should know that was not a sex act. That was merely an example of your brutality and cruelty, your lust for Power. Your desire for supreme control. You have demanded to have supreme control over every life you ever touched. The irony is that you never had any control, any self discipline over your own life.
You can't even come to Christ! You have the nerve to stand in the pulpit preaching, calling others to Christ. Asking people to do something you have never been able to do.
Sure you can "preach". You put on a good act. After all you are a brilliant actress. A beautiful brilliant fallen woman. A woman too sorry to get up. Too lazy to earn her way. A foolish woman that bought into the lie that she was sitting on a gold mine.
What's with all the trappings? You have a Theological library. You have every Bible, Concordance, Key-Study Bible, authority and interpretation of the Bible. What are you searching for? Are you trying to find evidence that you can trade your good deeds for your sick sins? That if you preach long enough, bring enough people to Christ, GOD will forgive you?
What does the Book Say!? EXCEPT YE REPENT YOU SHALL NOT SEE GOD!!!
No, you are not ashamed of what you did. You would rather justify what you did than confess or say you are sorry. You won't tell XXXXX who his daddy is because according to you he is a "worthless alcoholic".
You can justify what you did to me because "she a 'ho anyway". You deliberately destroyed *Sam's life because he is "no-sense-ED". " I nevah tried to help XXXXXX because I gave him color and straight hair."
So how do you justify murdering your own daddy? He was old and sick anyway? "S*** I just put him out of hiz misery. If I had'na killed him he wudda killed me!"
Do all the fine robes, gold crosses and rings mean you love GOD? Or do you dress up in all that crap to fool people? Do you think that if you look religious you will suddenly become religious?
Do you really believe all your roaring, lying and manipulating will save you, protect you from our All Seeing, All Knowing GOD?
I may be the only person on this earth that ever has the courage to confront you. I don't care. I will not go along with wrong doing because it is more convenient. I will not protect you because I used to call you "mother". You will not frighten or terrorize me one more day.
You don't want to come to Christ. Don't! You don't want to repent or apologize for your 88 years of wrong doing. Don't! You would rather sit on your false pride pretending that you are the most brilliant beautiful woman that ever lived. Do it!
I know my Redeemer lives! I know that His eye is on the sparrow. I know that GOD has always been with me leading and guiding me and constantly protecting me from the likes of you.
Keep searching, keeping reading, keep lying and denying. There is only One way!
Stay in His WORD children! Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Sure you study your bible searching for scripture that defends you, justifies you. You skip over everything that "offends" you. You hate people that try to correct you, that sincerely try to help you.
What does the Book say!? "Come ye out from among them!" "Fear NO man!" Don't fear GOD's Truth!
You can't hide your sin. You can't distance yourself. It will haunt you and track you down. I was Eight years old! You thought you got away didn't you? You conned yourself into believing it was merely a sex act, and act of lust. You had the right, you were the oldest, you were the smartest. Plus this was a way to tie a knot in this n*****'s tail. He could never quit you or leave you if you had some sick dirt on him.
"She ain't nuttin' noway. Just another luddle black bastard. No more than a blood clot. She bedder be glad I let her a** live. She bedder be glad I went and got her black a** out dat 'ho house.... It's done ni ...I can't take it back."
You can justify, you can lie. But, what does the Book say!? "You won't get away. What is done in the dark shall surely come to light!" "You will reap what you sow!"
You should know that was not a sex act. That was merely an example of your brutality and cruelty, your lust for Power. Your desire for supreme control. You have demanded to have supreme control over every life you ever touched. The irony is that you never had any control, any self discipline over your own life.
You can't even come to Christ! You have the nerve to stand in the pulpit preaching, calling others to Christ. Asking people to do something you have never been able to do.
Sure you can "preach". You put on a good act. After all you are a brilliant actress. A beautiful brilliant fallen woman. A woman too sorry to get up. Too lazy to earn her way. A foolish woman that bought into the lie that she was sitting on a gold mine.
What's with all the trappings? You have a Theological library. You have every Bible, Concordance, Key-Study Bible, authority and interpretation of the Bible. What are you searching for? Are you trying to find evidence that you can trade your good deeds for your sick sins? That if you preach long enough, bring enough people to Christ, GOD will forgive you?
What does the Book Say!? EXCEPT YE REPENT YOU SHALL NOT SEE GOD!!!
No, you are not ashamed of what you did. You would rather justify what you did than confess or say you are sorry. You won't tell XXXXX who his daddy is because according to you he is a "worthless alcoholic".
You can justify what you did to me because "she a 'ho anyway". You deliberately destroyed *Sam's life because he is "no-sense-ED". " I nevah tried to help XXXXXX because I gave him color and straight hair."
So how do you justify murdering your own daddy? He was old and sick anyway? "S*** I just put him out of hiz misery. If I had'na killed him he wudda killed me!"
Do all the fine robes, gold crosses and rings mean you love GOD? Or do you dress up in all that crap to fool people? Do you think that if you look religious you will suddenly become religious?
Do you really believe all your roaring, lying and manipulating will save you, protect you from our All Seeing, All Knowing GOD?
I may be the only person on this earth that ever has the courage to confront you. I don't care. I will not go along with wrong doing because it is more convenient. I will not protect you because I used to call you "mother". You will not frighten or terrorize me one more day.
You don't want to come to Christ. Don't! You don't want to repent or apologize for your 88 years of wrong doing. Don't! You would rather sit on your false pride pretending that you are the most brilliant beautiful woman that ever lived. Do it!
I know my Redeemer lives! I know that His eye is on the sparrow. I know that GOD has always been with me leading and guiding me and constantly protecting me from the likes of you.
Keep searching, keeping reading, keep lying and denying. There is only One way!
Stay in His WORD children! Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Thursday, March 28, 2013
We all want to be normal ...
or at least pretend like we are normal. We readily accept the script and role the world gives us. "I'm a woman so I am supposed to be feminine and dependent on a man." "I'm a man, I have to be hard and masculine, I can't cry."
As soon as we arrive here on this earth people are lining up to tell us who and what we can be. Where we can and can't go, who we can love and identifying who and what we must hate.
I am here to tell you; GOD didn't call us to be "normal", He called us to be Righteous! to live right. He told us that we would suffer for it. Jesus suffered for it. You can't serve man and GOD. You can't be a little bit saved, just Christian enough to be well thought of, to get into heaven.
GOD didn't call us to Fear! either. He didn't tell us to beat our children. He said "Spare the rod, spoil the child." The ROD is knowledge, it's the WORD!
Don't be thick your whole life. Beating your child makes them cowardly and you a bully.
No! GOD didn't call us to be "normal". He called us to be brave, courageous, to spread the Gospel. If you know a demon and you are afraid to tell them what you really think. If you are related to a demon and you are prayfully waiting for them to finally die you are just as unsaved as they are.
You don't want to "Out" a demon because you don't want to be embarrassed, you are afraid of the spotlight.
You don't want the world to know your awful truth. So you will just pretend, blend in, help her hide.
You know that you don't trust her. You would not dare leave your little children with her. Not even for an hour. She has proved to you over and over that she is as crazy as a loon. Every once in a while she does something seriously sick and demonic and you push it into the back of your mind in disbelief.
You are so stupid you are waiting on GOD to do something. GOD gave you a Book! He gave you the WORD! But you decided to be "normal", to blend in, to not rock the boat. You decided to wait on GOD to move her. You are afraid of what your friends might say if they knew about your demon possessed relative. You don't want the Truth to come out! Yea, she got you too. Sunk you into some low sin when you were a small child. Yea, she lead you into captivity. You don't have to stay there!
You can confess your sins, give your life to Christ, repent of your sins. No you don't want to because you don't want the world to know that you are not normal. I've got news for you. The world already knows.
As soon as we arrive here on this earth people are lining up to tell us who and what we can be. Where we can and can't go, who we can love and identifying who and what we must hate.
I am here to tell you; GOD didn't call us to be "normal", He called us to be Righteous! to live right. He told us that we would suffer for it. Jesus suffered for it. You can't serve man and GOD. You can't be a little bit saved, just Christian enough to be well thought of, to get into heaven.
GOD didn't call us to Fear! either. He didn't tell us to beat our children. He said "Spare the rod, spoil the child." The ROD is knowledge, it's the WORD!
Don't be thick your whole life. Beating your child makes them cowardly and you a bully.
No! GOD didn't call us to be "normal". He called us to be brave, courageous, to spread the Gospel. If you know a demon and you are afraid to tell them what you really think. If you are related to a demon and you are prayfully waiting for them to finally die you are just as unsaved as they are.
You don't want to "Out" a demon because you don't want to be embarrassed, you are afraid of the spotlight.
You don't want the world to know your awful truth. So you will just pretend, blend in, help her hide.
You know that you don't trust her. You would not dare leave your little children with her. Not even for an hour. She has proved to you over and over that she is as crazy as a loon. Every once in a while she does something seriously sick and demonic and you push it into the back of your mind in disbelief.
You are so stupid you are waiting on GOD to do something. GOD gave you a Book! He gave you the WORD! But you decided to be "normal", to blend in, to not rock the boat. You decided to wait on GOD to move her. You are afraid of what your friends might say if they knew about your demon possessed relative. You don't want the Truth to come out! Yea, she got you too. Sunk you into some low sin when you were a small child. Yea, she lead you into captivity. You don't have to stay there!
You can confess your sins, give your life to Christ, repent of your sins. No you don't want to because you don't want the world to know that you are not normal. I've got news for you. The world already knows.
"Hi ya' feeling? ..."
"Wid my hands!" ... " I mean hi ya' gittin' long?" "On my feet!"
That's and old dry joke my grandfather used to tell. He was a very witty man fool of stories and oral history. He was truly a walking encyclopedia. If you wanted to know something, ask "granddaddy".
He was so unlike Martha. I can barely believe they are kin, father and daughter. Granddaddy always used to say; "All caught in yo' net is yourn."
You talk about polar opposites, one wise the other utterly foolish. One a true Christian, the other probably the greatest closet demon that ever lived. One full of wisdom and priceless advice the other spewing lies and always full of schemes to force you to fail.
What did she have over granddaddy? Nothing! He had to get old , sick and infirm with one leg before she had the courage to fully mistreat him the way she always wanted to. A coward! A complete utter coward! Targeting babies, small children and the infirm elderly!
Yes there is a place in hell reserved for creatures just like you. You have no power! You have a mouth full of lies and a closet spilling over and bursting at the seams with horrific abominations.
Children listen to that song again. "Stand up for your rights!" Don't let some worthless demon rob you of the joy GOD intended for you. Don't call her "mother". It is an accident of birth. Nature goes awry sometimes.
"S***happens!"
Some animals eat their young. They are animals, they don't know any better. But when you are smart enough to coo and play coy. When you deliberately manipulate everyone you know for your own selfish gain. When you will tell any lie no matter how sick and deplorable to get your way. When you will willing MURDER! KILL! and DESTROY! any one or anything that gets in your way in order to fill the emptiness you feel inside . You are an ABOMINATION! You are not fit for human contact.
When you are bold enough to don a costume, a clerical robe, get a license and pretend to be a minister of the Gospel of Jesus Christ knowing full well that you are a Shepard for the devil. You have lost your mind! "Dear LORD! Thank you for waking me up in my right mind!"
You should pray that prayer. You should fast. Go into your secret closet and don't come out until you are Saved! Repent of your Sins!
"Get up! Stand Up" is meant for you too. Stand up to that devil, that demon spirit you have served for 88 years! Praise the LORD! and mean it.
Dear children, keep the faith. Stay in His WORD! Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
That's and old dry joke my grandfather used to tell. He was a very witty man fool of stories and oral history. He was truly a walking encyclopedia. If you wanted to know something, ask "granddaddy".
He was so unlike Martha. I can barely believe they are kin, father and daughter. Granddaddy always used to say; "All caught in yo' net is yourn."
You talk about polar opposites, one wise the other utterly foolish. One a true Christian, the other probably the greatest closet demon that ever lived. One full of wisdom and priceless advice the other spewing lies and always full of schemes to force you to fail.
What did she have over granddaddy? Nothing! He had to get old , sick and infirm with one leg before she had the courage to fully mistreat him the way she always wanted to. A coward! A complete utter coward! Targeting babies, small children and the infirm elderly!
Yes there is a place in hell reserved for creatures just like you. You have no power! You have a mouth full of lies and a closet spilling over and bursting at the seams with horrific abominations.
Children listen to that song again. "Stand up for your rights!" Don't let some worthless demon rob you of the joy GOD intended for you. Don't call her "mother". It is an accident of birth. Nature goes awry sometimes.
"S***happens!"
Some animals eat their young. They are animals, they don't know any better. But when you are smart enough to coo and play coy. When you deliberately manipulate everyone you know for your own selfish gain. When you will tell any lie no matter how sick and deplorable to get your way. When you will willing MURDER! KILL! and DESTROY! any one or anything that gets in your way in order to fill the emptiness you feel inside . You are an ABOMINATION! You are not fit for human contact.
When you are bold enough to don a costume, a clerical robe, get a license and pretend to be a minister of the Gospel of Jesus Christ knowing full well that you are a Shepard for the devil. You have lost your mind! "Dear LORD! Thank you for waking me up in my right mind!"
You should pray that prayer. You should fast. Go into your secret closet and don't come out until you are Saved! Repent of your Sins!
"Get up! Stand Up" is meant for you too. Stand up to that devil, that demon spirit you have served for 88 years! Praise the LORD! and mean it.
Dear children, keep the faith. Stay in His WORD! Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Bob Marley Get Up Stand Up
You have to snatch your freedom and happiness from the demon that enslaves you
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Fred Hammond - No Weapon
No weapon formed against shall prosper! GOD will do what He said He would do. He will come through!
The William Sisters-Jesus Will Pick You Up
I don't care how low you let the devil sink you Jesus Will Pick you up!
GOD told me that it was alright ...
that it was o.k. with Him for me to go ahead and share our conversation. To tell you what He told me. Praise the LORD!
Before you can hear, before you can receive this "message" there are a few things GOD asked me to ask you.
#1 - Lose the attitude! Get off of your high horse of supposing that you are Somebody! Your looks, your weight, your education, your Intelligence Quotient , your material wealth, Your color! None of that matters to GOD.
#2 - Pray for GOD to create in you a clean heart. Rid yourself of all that filth, your foul language, evil thoughts. True it makes you popular with man but it keeps you from His blessings.
#3 - Get out of that marathon race to please your fellow man. You can't win! If you win they will covertly and overtly hate you. Try every scheme in the world to destroy you. If you lose they will mock you, ridicule you, "include you out". They will remind you every day that you are not good enough and will never be good enough.
#4 - Live to please GOD. Go ahead surrender your life to Him! Trust Him! Let Him fight your enemies. GOD can do far more to them in one millisecond than you could ever do in an entire lifetime.
#5 - Help somebody! Let your life be a walking talking sermon. "Let your little light shine" "Let your light shine before men that they may see your good work." Be at peace. Beam and radiate GOD's goodness. Spread the WORD! You will feel better. I declare you will. You will have a Joy that no one can steal. GOD will give you the desires of your heart!
#6 - Forgive! Forgive these foolish people. "Forgive them LORD for they know NOT what they do."
#7 - Be a peace maker. When they attack you with cruel words, attempt to assassinate your character and ridicule you with their lacerating tongue. Know that they are already hurting far worse than they could ever hurt you.
Now, to the The Conversation. I spent all day yesterday in conversation with GOD. It is not unusual. It is something I've done for my entire life. I was writing in my Journal, "Private Notes". I have to write in order to know what I'm thinking.
" Sunday, March 24, 2013
PTL! I was torn asunder. This monster (my mother) was screaming at me, lacerating me with her vicious tongue (again). I wasn't s***! I was black! I was a bastard! She hated the day she had me. I stood there frozen, mortified. My tiny body was rigid. I could not move. I felt like a huge jagged rock was lodged in my throat. I would not dare swallow. If I swallowed I knew I would die. I would drop dead right there on the spot.
I didn't want to die yet, I wasn't ready. I was only eight years old! I didn't want to die but, I did want to disappear. I wanted to vanish, to never be. It was all my fault, well it was all our fault. If we hadn't been born, if our fathers had not abandoned her, she would be happy. Her happiness was all that mattered. Mathy Jane had a right to be happy. GOD's world was created to make her happy. She was "light bright and damn near white". She had "good hair", "Jesus grass". GOD blessed her with big well formed legs and a flat a** (like a white woman). She had a beautiful face, pearly white teeth, was charismatic and brilliant.
We were a pain in her a**. We cost too much. She had to feed and house us. 'I keep you sorry black muthaf******* a** holes Open!' she would scream over and over like some lunatic banshee. Our clothes came from the Thrift Shop. My brand new shoes were always "runt-tovah" and broken down. She dressed me like a clown. I am sure I smelled.
Dear LORD in Romans 12:12 you told us that we should be patient in affliction. I've been patient in long suffering. I've endured excruciating pain. But she is still grinning, still manipulating and destroying. Still conning, conniving and robbing. She is still a terrorizing monster. Her hideous monstrous cackling laugh still terrorizes my dreams.
That harlot murdered my grandfather and got clean away. The Fayetteville Police said there is nothing they can do unless she confesses. "Mam, we are very busy. We don't have time for family disputes."
The LORD knew that once again I was prostrate with grief, was tired and weary. I've been dragging this demon on my back for over sixty years. My Dear LORD said; "Baby don't you feel bad. Feel Good! No you never had a mother to love you. But you had your grandfather. You know he loved you. He smothered you in hugs and kisses. You were his lap baby until you were 27! Not only did he love you. He praised you, encouraged you, admonished you and set you straight.
Don't you spend one more second of your life worrying about the mother you never had , never will have.
Love your brothers, forgive them for rejecting you. Love your entire family. Just like you they know and have always known. You were in your late fifties before you finally caught on, before you fully saw the light. They are "boys". This woman is their mother! What a horrible truth to face, to embrace. Let me strengthen them. Let me give them courage, wisdom and understanding."
"I know you have hurt baby. Surely you have suffered. But all that you suffered does not compare to the way she has suffered. She can't come to the light. She decided years ago to remain blind. It's Pride daughter. Pride is an awful thing. Deliberate rebelliousness and stupidity is the worse affliction."
"Yes, you are afflicted, your many enemies tear at you every day. But your mother's affliction is self inflicted. Her greatest joy is inflicting pain because she is in excruciating pain. I hate to tell you but she will remain in that excruciating pain until she comes to the foot of the cross. Until she comes to My Almighty Truth. She will suffer until she Repents!"
"You have a Great day baby! Remember that I love you! Suffered and died on that Cross for you! Suffered for All of you, for All my children."
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we a nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you , cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceeding proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Before you can hear, before you can receive this "message" there are a few things GOD asked me to ask you.
#1 - Lose the attitude! Get off of your high horse of supposing that you are Somebody! Your looks, your weight, your education, your Intelligence Quotient , your material wealth, Your color! None of that matters to GOD.
#2 - Pray for GOD to create in you a clean heart. Rid yourself of all that filth, your foul language, evil thoughts. True it makes you popular with man but it keeps you from His blessings.
#3 - Get out of that marathon race to please your fellow man. You can't win! If you win they will covertly and overtly hate you. Try every scheme in the world to destroy you. If you lose they will mock you, ridicule you, "include you out". They will remind you every day that you are not good enough and will never be good enough.
#4 - Live to please GOD. Go ahead surrender your life to Him! Trust Him! Let Him fight your enemies. GOD can do far more to them in one millisecond than you could ever do in an entire lifetime.
#5 - Help somebody! Let your life be a walking talking sermon. "Let your little light shine" "Let your light shine before men that they may see your good work." Be at peace. Beam and radiate GOD's goodness. Spread the WORD! You will feel better. I declare you will. You will have a Joy that no one can steal. GOD will give you the desires of your heart!
#6 - Forgive! Forgive these foolish people. "Forgive them LORD for they know NOT what they do."
#7 - Be a peace maker. When they attack you with cruel words, attempt to assassinate your character and ridicule you with their lacerating tongue. Know that they are already hurting far worse than they could ever hurt you.
Now, to the The Conversation. I spent all day yesterday in conversation with GOD. It is not unusual. It is something I've done for my entire life. I was writing in my Journal, "Private Notes". I have to write in order to know what I'm thinking.
" Sunday, March 24, 2013
PTL! I was torn asunder. This monster (my mother) was screaming at me, lacerating me with her vicious tongue (again). I wasn't s***! I was black! I was a bastard! She hated the day she had me. I stood there frozen, mortified. My tiny body was rigid. I could not move. I felt like a huge jagged rock was lodged in my throat. I would not dare swallow. If I swallowed I knew I would die. I would drop dead right there on the spot.
I didn't want to die yet, I wasn't ready. I was only eight years old! I didn't want to die but, I did want to disappear. I wanted to vanish, to never be. It was all my fault, well it was all our fault. If we hadn't been born, if our fathers had not abandoned her, she would be happy. Her happiness was all that mattered. Mathy Jane had a right to be happy. GOD's world was created to make her happy. She was "light bright and damn near white". She had "good hair", "Jesus grass". GOD blessed her with big well formed legs and a flat a** (like a white woman). She had a beautiful face, pearly white teeth, was charismatic and brilliant.
We were a pain in her a**. We cost too much. She had to feed and house us. 'I keep you sorry black muthaf******* a** holes Open!' she would scream over and over like some lunatic banshee. Our clothes came from the Thrift Shop. My brand new shoes were always "runt-tovah" and broken down. She dressed me like a clown. I am sure I smelled.
Dear LORD in Romans 12:12 you told us that we should be patient in affliction. I've been patient in long suffering. I've endured excruciating pain. But she is still grinning, still manipulating and destroying. Still conning, conniving and robbing. She is still a terrorizing monster. Her hideous monstrous cackling laugh still terrorizes my dreams.
That harlot murdered my grandfather and got clean away. The Fayetteville Police said there is nothing they can do unless she confesses. "Mam, we are very busy. We don't have time for family disputes."
The LORD knew that once again I was prostrate with grief, was tired and weary. I've been dragging this demon on my back for over sixty years. My Dear LORD said; "Baby don't you feel bad. Feel Good! No you never had a mother to love you. But you had your grandfather. You know he loved you. He smothered you in hugs and kisses. You were his lap baby until you were 27! Not only did he love you. He praised you, encouraged you, admonished you and set you straight.
Don't you spend one more second of your life worrying about the mother you never had , never will have.
Love your brothers, forgive them for rejecting you. Love your entire family. Just like you they know and have always known. You were in your late fifties before you finally caught on, before you fully saw the light. They are "boys". This woman is their mother! What a horrible truth to face, to embrace. Let me strengthen them. Let me give them courage, wisdom and understanding."
"I know you have hurt baby. Surely you have suffered. But all that you suffered does not compare to the way she has suffered. She can't come to the light. She decided years ago to remain blind. It's Pride daughter. Pride is an awful thing. Deliberate rebelliousness and stupidity is the worse affliction."
"Yes, you are afflicted, your many enemies tear at you every day. But your mother's affliction is self inflicted. Her greatest joy is inflicting pain because she is in excruciating pain. I hate to tell you but she will remain in that excruciating pain until she comes to the foot of the cross. Until she comes to My Almighty Truth. She will suffer until she Repents!"
"You have a Great day baby! Remember that I love you! Suffered and died on that Cross for you! Suffered for All of you, for All my children."
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we a nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you , cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceeding proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Saturday, March 23, 2013
"Tell tale" signs
What do I mean by "Tell tale" signs? Stories or events that point to GOD's Gospel Truth.
I heard the expression before I could reason. I am sure I heard it before I could form a sentence. The phrase was "Common as bat S***!" As time passed I realized that every one was talking about "Mathy Jane", my mother. I call her that because for the first four years of my life that is what I called her.
It was my granddaddy that informed me "Mathy Jane is yo' mama ... and I'm yo' granddaddy ... call me granddaddy ... not daddy."
I didn't know too much about this woman for the first four years of my life. (Thank GOD) She was in and out, loud and flashy, flamboyant and flighty. There were times she bought me gifts. Patent leather shoes with six sets of straps, panties with ruffles and crinoline slips. Some times she would paint my "foot nails" at my request. I remember she taught me to snap my fingers to some bluesy music.
I can't say I remember too many good times with Mathy Jane. I do remember her violent temper and vulgar cussing. I don't remember her ever hugging or kissing me. No, not once in my life. I remember that she loved to pick at me. Loved to bring tears to my eyes. She hated me because my grandfather loved me. She hated my grandfather because he loved me. She didn't love me and she tried to make damn sure no one else did.
Now you must imagine that it is very difficult to be a sick demonic creep that worships at the feet of satan while trying to pretend to be Mother Teresa. Saved, sanctified and satanic just don't go together. It is like trying to mix oil and water. It can't be done. Somebody is finally going to figure you out. Someone is going to gain the courage to expose you. And Almighty GOD is going to let you live long enough to reap what you sowed. "You might get by but you won't get away."
Back to being "common as bat s***!" It is true. Every word is true, poor woman. Carnal, without discretion. Selfish and heartless. Void of a conscious. No empathy or sympathy for any one.
I can understand all that but I will never understand all the plotting. All the attempts to destroy GOD's children and His WORD. You can't do it. It can't be done.
There is no point in asking you why you did what you did. Every thing you ever did was ridiculous, cruel and unnecessary. But I must ask you about Duchess. You remember Duchess the pedigreed German Shepard puppy granddaddy bought for *Sam.
That puppy replaced the ten speed Swinn bicycle granddaddy bought *Sam that you had someone steal. Don't pretend you forgot. I was fourteen, *Sam was fifteen. *Sam always wanted a nice bicycle and one day granddaddy surprised him with one. You went into a rage and would not let *Sam leave it in the storage room while we were out of town. We were on our way to Philadelphia!
You made him leave it Outside! in the rain, in the elements. Of course someone stole it! I'll never forget your purr, your siren; "I didn't know dese n***** wud steal lak daat *Sam...I thought it wuz lak when we lived on post, lak Ft. Bragg."
You lying s***! You just didn't want to see him happy! You were determined to make him suffer! You were bent on making us all suffer!
So granddaddy went out and bought him a very expensive pedigreed dog to replace the bike. Duchess was beautiful and brilliant. *Sam taught her to do all kinds of tricks. She could fetch, open the door, shake your hand, count. I used to call her Rin-tin-tin.
She couldn't get her own shots though. *Sam used to beg you every day to take her to get her shots. You refused, played stupid. She died of the worse case of distemper I every witnessed. You came around purring again with your please forgive me "I didn't know no bedder." tried and true sorry sloppy "I'm just a dumb 'ho" lame a** excuse again.
We grew used to your always playing the simple coon when you got in trouble. There were many times in my life that I truly hated you and that was one of them. You are not that stupid! But, you are that wicked. I see where one of my brother's lost his house in a fire. I know you are pumping him for all of the details so you can betray him again. You think he is blind and simple. You don't think he will ever catch on to your madness.
I assure you, one day he will finally see through you, will finally catch on like I did. How many of his pets did you kill? My poor little brother; "Gwen ... she killed another one." Poor little boy losing all his puppies, dogs and cats to "accidents".
You know better and knew better. You are nothing but a common jealous harlot. There is no good in you. If you had one single cell of decency in you, you would release my brothers from your demonic grip. You would confess your sins and give what is left of your miserable life to Christ.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you , cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn(the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
I heard the expression before I could reason. I am sure I heard it before I could form a sentence. The phrase was "Common as bat S***!" As time passed I realized that every one was talking about "Mathy Jane", my mother. I call her that because for the first four years of my life that is what I called her.
It was my granddaddy that informed me "Mathy Jane is yo' mama ... and I'm yo' granddaddy ... call me granddaddy ... not daddy."
I didn't know too much about this woman for the first four years of my life. (Thank GOD) She was in and out, loud and flashy, flamboyant and flighty. There were times she bought me gifts. Patent leather shoes with six sets of straps, panties with ruffles and crinoline slips. Some times she would paint my "foot nails" at my request. I remember she taught me to snap my fingers to some bluesy music.
I can't say I remember too many good times with Mathy Jane. I do remember her violent temper and vulgar cussing. I don't remember her ever hugging or kissing me. No, not once in my life. I remember that she loved to pick at me. Loved to bring tears to my eyes. She hated me because my grandfather loved me. She hated my grandfather because he loved me. She didn't love me and she tried to make damn sure no one else did.
Now you must imagine that it is very difficult to be a sick demonic creep that worships at the feet of satan while trying to pretend to be Mother Teresa. Saved, sanctified and satanic just don't go together. It is like trying to mix oil and water. It can't be done. Somebody is finally going to figure you out. Someone is going to gain the courage to expose you. And Almighty GOD is going to let you live long enough to reap what you sowed. "You might get by but you won't get away."
Back to being "common as bat s***!" It is true. Every word is true, poor woman. Carnal, without discretion. Selfish and heartless. Void of a conscious. No empathy or sympathy for any one.
I can understand all that but I will never understand all the plotting. All the attempts to destroy GOD's children and His WORD. You can't do it. It can't be done.
There is no point in asking you why you did what you did. Every thing you ever did was ridiculous, cruel and unnecessary. But I must ask you about Duchess. You remember Duchess the pedigreed German Shepard puppy granddaddy bought for *Sam.
That puppy replaced the ten speed Swinn bicycle granddaddy bought *Sam that you had someone steal. Don't pretend you forgot. I was fourteen, *Sam was fifteen. *Sam always wanted a nice bicycle and one day granddaddy surprised him with one. You went into a rage and would not let *Sam leave it in the storage room while we were out of town. We were on our way to Philadelphia!
You made him leave it Outside! in the rain, in the elements. Of course someone stole it! I'll never forget your purr, your siren; "I didn't know dese n***** wud steal lak daat *Sam...I thought it wuz lak when we lived on post, lak Ft. Bragg."
You lying s***! You just didn't want to see him happy! You were determined to make him suffer! You were bent on making us all suffer!
So granddaddy went out and bought him a very expensive pedigreed dog to replace the bike. Duchess was beautiful and brilliant. *Sam taught her to do all kinds of tricks. She could fetch, open the door, shake your hand, count. I used to call her Rin-tin-tin.
She couldn't get her own shots though. *Sam used to beg you every day to take her to get her shots. You refused, played stupid. She died of the worse case of distemper I every witnessed. You came around purring again with your please forgive me "I didn't know no bedder." tried and true sorry sloppy "I'm just a dumb 'ho" lame a** excuse again.
We grew used to your always playing the simple coon when you got in trouble. There were many times in my life that I truly hated you and that was one of them. You are not that stupid! But, you are that wicked. I see where one of my brother's lost his house in a fire. I know you are pumping him for all of the details so you can betray him again. You think he is blind and simple. You don't think he will ever catch on to your madness.
I assure you, one day he will finally see through you, will finally catch on like I did. How many of his pets did you kill? My poor little brother; "Gwen ... she killed another one." Poor little boy losing all his puppies, dogs and cats to "accidents".
You know better and knew better. You are nothing but a common jealous harlot. There is no good in you. If you had one single cell of decency in you, you would release my brothers from your demonic grip. You would confess your sins and give what is left of your miserable life to Christ.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you , cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn(the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Friday, March 22, 2013
I can't stop bragging ...
I won't shut up. I never knew I would be strutting like a peacock at 61. Praise the LORD! It is not idle talk. GOD will turn all your nightmares into sunny days. He Will deliver you form evil. Just ask Him!
Do pray for those that deceitfully use you. Do love All of your enemies. Show kindness to those who never have and never will show kindness to you. You Win!
You are not burdened down with hatred. You will sing. Your steps will be light and springy. Your delight will be in the LORD.
People will look at you and wonder how you received something so priceless, so special. It can't be duplicated or imitated. It can't be purchased or stolen.
Praise the LORD. It's a good feeling. It's GOD's anointing. You walk with confidence knowing that GOD walks with you, talks with you, protects and leads your way.
The wonderful thing is that anyone that truly wants it can have it. All you have to do is Love the LORD and live right.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn, (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Do pray for those that deceitfully use you. Do love All of your enemies. Show kindness to those who never have and never will show kindness to you. You Win!
You are not burdened down with hatred. You will sing. Your steps will be light and springy. Your delight will be in the LORD.
People will look at you and wonder how you received something so priceless, so special. It can't be duplicated or imitated. It can't be purchased or stolen.
Praise the LORD. It's a good feeling. It's GOD's anointing. You walk with confidence knowing that GOD walks with you, talks with you, protects and leads your way.
The wonderful thing is that anyone that truly wants it can have it. All you have to do is Love the LORD and live right.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn, (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Calling on All Believers!
Greetings World! Praise the LORD for His tender mercies and abundant blessings. Thank You for loving us and bestowing Your wisdom and understanding upon us. Thank You for patience and understanding.
Dear LORD I am standing before You, standing before the entire world as "an empty picture before a full fountain desiring to be filled with your goodness"
Thank You for all the years of study and worship. Thank You for all of the wonderful people you lined up and placed in my path.
Thank You for preventing her from doing more harm than she did. If I had to suffer as I did thank You for keeping me blind. Thank You for my desire to hold on to Hope.
I must confess she is a lost cause. She is too proud, too blind, too lost. But, I am praying that you release my family. Release my brothers, open their eyes, restore their sight. Let them know that all is not lost. That they do not have to continue living in the misery that she caused.
Let them know that they do not have to bear her shame. Forgive them of their ignorance, forgive them for being conditioned and programmed by her. Let them know "there is a balm in Gilead to heal the sin sick soul."
If you are a Believer I am asking you to pray with me, to pray for me. "Dear LORD release my entire family, my brothers from the powerful grip of this satanic woman. Bring them to the light . Bring them to eternal healing. Take the pain and shame! Heal all the brokenhearted. Knit all of our broken pieces back together. Make us whole .
I pray for the millions of children that are hurting around the world. Hurting because selfish monsters would rather hurt, malign and destroy. Hurting because some people would rather be sadistic than saved. Because some foolish mothers would rather pretend to love than love.
Dear LORD I pray for those that made the deliberate choice to serve satan rather than Our Loving Almighty GOD. I pray for the deliverance of All your children."
Stay in His WORD children. Never be ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Dear LORD I am standing before You, standing before the entire world as "an empty picture before a full fountain desiring to be filled with your goodness"
Thank You for all the years of study and worship. Thank You for all of the wonderful people you lined up and placed in my path.
Thank You for preventing her from doing more harm than she did. If I had to suffer as I did thank You for keeping me blind. Thank You for my desire to hold on to Hope.
I must confess she is a lost cause. She is too proud, too blind, too lost. But, I am praying that you release my family. Release my brothers, open their eyes, restore their sight. Let them know that all is not lost. That they do not have to continue living in the misery that she caused.
Let them know that they do not have to bear her shame. Forgive them of their ignorance, forgive them for being conditioned and programmed by her. Let them know "there is a balm in Gilead to heal the sin sick soul."
If you are a Believer I am asking you to pray with me, to pray for me. "Dear LORD release my entire family, my brothers from the powerful grip of this satanic woman. Bring them to the light . Bring them to eternal healing. Take the pain and shame! Heal all the brokenhearted. Knit all of our broken pieces back together. Make us whole .
I pray for the millions of children that are hurting around the world. Hurting because selfish monsters would rather hurt, malign and destroy. Hurting because some people would rather be sadistic than saved. Because some foolish mothers would rather pretend to love than love.
Dear LORD I pray for those that made the deliberate choice to serve satan rather than Our Loving Almighty GOD. I pray for the deliverance of All your children."
Stay in His WORD children. Never be ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
1 Corinthians 2:9
"But as it is written: 'Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, Nor have entered into the heart of man the things which GOD has prepared for those who love Him.' "
I Love the LORD. "He heard my every cry, pittied every groan."
Dear LORD you knew when I was suffering as a small child. She terrified us and brutalized us. But, you were with us. You are with us still.
She will NOT get away! She will NOT get away!
Who ever heard of such evil? The supreme coward picked on little children, the elderly and those she successfully brainwashed. Murdered her own daddy and sashayed away, cool as a cucumber.
Is she still "no-sense-ED"? Is she still without remorse? Or is she just playing, pretending?
"Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which GOD has prepared for those who love Him."
I am a child of GOD, of the Mighty One. He has kept me for sixty-one years and is keeping me still. You better look out world! Don't stand too close to her. Don't be found in her corner cloaking and loving on her. Don't give up the right for the wrong.
Don't cling to a demon when you know that you don't have to.
Be abundantly blessed today.
I Love the LORD. "He heard my every cry, pittied every groan."
Dear LORD you knew when I was suffering as a small child. She terrified us and brutalized us. But, you were with us. You are with us still.
She will NOT get away! She will NOT get away!
Who ever heard of such evil? The supreme coward picked on little children, the elderly and those she successfully brainwashed. Murdered her own daddy and sashayed away, cool as a cucumber.
Is she still "no-sense-ED"? Is she still without remorse? Or is she just playing, pretending?
"Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which GOD has prepared for those who love Him."
I am a child of GOD, of the Mighty One. He has kept me for sixty-one years and is keeping me still. You better look out world! Don't stand too close to her. Don't be found in her corner cloaking and loving on her. Don't give up the right for the wrong.
Don't cling to a demon when you know that you don't have to.
Be abundantly blessed today.
Jesus said;
"Fear NO man!" Jesus can tell you that because He has your back. He can not lie!
Jesus must have whispered that in my ear for over 50 years before I actually believed Him. I heard and I repeated but I still feared. My fear went deep. It was inculcated by the most evil woman on the face of this earth.
I was two years old the first time I remember seeing her evil violent temper. She tried to kill my uncle with a shot gun for criticizing the way she dressed me. I was wearing a little pair of dirty raggedy "draws", my hair wasn't combed and I had a snotty nose. In the course of their exchange he made the mistake of calling her a whore. (Which she was) She tried to kill him! Got the shotgun which her mother wrestled it out of her hands.
I will never forget the foul words that spewed from her mouth. The next time all those words were directed against me. Me, a mere three year old child. My cousin asked me if I knew who my father was and I told him, then proudly told her that I told him. She went ballistic! "You keep my muthaf***** name out 'cho luddle black muthaf******* mouf!" was just the beginning of her tirade. She held me hostage in the woods for what felt like hours cursing me. Perhaps beating me.
When this kind of brutality is witnessed you become conditioned and complicit. You join forces with your enslaver. " Go along to get along." You grow to hate every day of your long miserable life. You secretly hope the b**** would hurry up and die.
You falsely believe that her death will finally bring you peace. She is the kind of b**** that you can't escape even in death. Every day you live those terrible memories revisit you. You will never get her out of your mind.
The best you can do is warn others. Talking about her, exposing her to the world may help. Perhaps it can save some other poor child from such a monster.
Be abundantly blessed children. Do not let any imp from satan intimidate you or take your JOY!
Jesus must have whispered that in my ear for over 50 years before I actually believed Him. I heard and I repeated but I still feared. My fear went deep. It was inculcated by the most evil woman on the face of this earth.
I was two years old the first time I remember seeing her evil violent temper. She tried to kill my uncle with a shot gun for criticizing the way she dressed me. I was wearing a little pair of dirty raggedy "draws", my hair wasn't combed and I had a snotty nose. In the course of their exchange he made the mistake of calling her a whore. (Which she was) She tried to kill him! Got the shotgun which her mother wrestled it out of her hands.
I will never forget the foul words that spewed from her mouth. The next time all those words were directed against me. Me, a mere three year old child. My cousin asked me if I knew who my father was and I told him, then proudly told her that I told him. She went ballistic! "You keep my muthaf***** name out 'cho luddle black muthaf******* mouf!" was just the beginning of her tirade. She held me hostage in the woods for what felt like hours cursing me. Perhaps beating me.
When this kind of brutality is witnessed you become conditioned and complicit. You join forces with your enslaver. " Go along to get along." You grow to hate every day of your long miserable life. You secretly hope the b**** would hurry up and die.
You falsely believe that her death will finally bring you peace. She is the kind of b**** that you can't escape even in death. Every day you live those terrible memories revisit you. You will never get her out of your mind.
The best you can do is warn others. Talking about her, exposing her to the world may help. Perhaps it can save some other poor child from such a monster.
Be abundantly blessed children. Do not let any imp from satan intimidate you or take your JOY!
The first day of Spring
It is a beautiful day here in lovely Covington, Georgia. All my fruit trees are in bloom, my beautiful Azaleas and my pink Dogwood. GOD gave us a beautiful world. Why can't we live in peace and love with our neighbors, our families?
Some won't do it, just won't cooperate. They have a rebellious spirit. The fact is they are just plain Evil. Evil vile creatures live among us determined to have their way. Determined to intimidate us into silence in order to continue their evil reign. Too many evil doers accept their longevity as evidence of power, evidence that GOD doesn't care.
I am here to tell you that GOD does care and that He is righting every wrong. He is doing it right now. He is doing it through me and every right thinking individual on this earth.
I Googled some more last night. I found more information that was right on. "The Malignant Narcissistic Psychopath is pathologically grandiose, lacking in conscience and behavioral regulation with characteristic demonstrations of joyful cruelty and sadism. They are shameless. They crave possession and enslavement. Absolute power over another is Nirvana for the MNP. They are sadists. They enjoy your pain. They are absolutely incapable of the true emotion of love and compassion for another human being. MNP wish no one well. They are parasites. There is NO help for these monsters. It is a Choice. They make a conscious decision to harm others. You are dealing with a sadist that has the mentality of a three year old child."
"They are impulsive, irresponsible, unreasonable, feel entitled to do as they please. They have no regrets, no remorse, they don't get embarrassed or feel guilt or shame. They are unfit for human interaction!"
Everything I discovered on the Internet I know to be true. I know it for myself! Every source I found said the same thing;"Stay away! There is no cure!"
You can't help them. You can't cure them. I think the worse thing you can do is feel sorry for them. Feel sorry for yourself. Go it alone. Enjoy your Spring. Enjoy the rest of your life without them.
Emmit Till's mother knew that it was important to share her pain with the world. To expose the evil that was done to her son. I feel the same way. It is important that I "out" Martha Jane Walters! She is an 87 yea old demon living among us. Creeping. Pretending to be a preacher and a loving mother, grandmother, great grandmother. She is a snake, a two legged serpent. She falsely believes she is the most brilliant person on this earth.
She is a terrifying monster but, GOD gave us the power to tread on all scorpions and snakes. Don't let any demon intimidate you. Spit in their eye with GOD's Gospel Truth.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Some won't do it, just won't cooperate. They have a rebellious spirit. The fact is they are just plain Evil. Evil vile creatures live among us determined to have their way. Determined to intimidate us into silence in order to continue their evil reign. Too many evil doers accept their longevity as evidence of power, evidence that GOD doesn't care.
I am here to tell you that GOD does care and that He is righting every wrong. He is doing it right now. He is doing it through me and every right thinking individual on this earth.
I Googled some more last night. I found more information that was right on. "The Malignant Narcissistic Psychopath is pathologically grandiose, lacking in conscience and behavioral regulation with characteristic demonstrations of joyful cruelty and sadism. They are shameless. They crave possession and enslavement. Absolute power over another is Nirvana for the MNP. They are sadists. They enjoy your pain. They are absolutely incapable of the true emotion of love and compassion for another human being. MNP wish no one well. They are parasites. There is NO help for these monsters. It is a Choice. They make a conscious decision to harm others. You are dealing with a sadist that has the mentality of a three year old child."
"They are impulsive, irresponsible, unreasonable, feel entitled to do as they please. They have no regrets, no remorse, they don't get embarrassed or feel guilt or shame. They are unfit for human interaction!"
Everything I discovered on the Internet I know to be true. I know it for myself! Every source I found said the same thing;"Stay away! There is no cure!"
You can't help them. You can't cure them. I think the worse thing you can do is feel sorry for them. Feel sorry for yourself. Go it alone. Enjoy your Spring. Enjoy the rest of your life without them.
Emmit Till's mother knew that it was important to share her pain with the world. To expose the evil that was done to her son. I feel the same way. It is important that I "out" Martha Jane Walters! She is an 87 yea old demon living among us. Creeping. Pretending to be a preacher and a loving mother, grandmother, great grandmother. She is a snake, a two legged serpent. She falsely believes she is the most brilliant person on this earth.
She is a terrifying monster but, GOD gave us the power to tread on all scorpions and snakes. Don't let any demon intimidate you. Spit in their eye with GOD's Gospel Truth.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
"Don't you hinder me!"
"If you don't want to go don't you hinder me!" I grew up singing that song often. I watched people in my church get "happy", "shout", full of the Holy Ghost.
I must admit that I used to giggle when I watched grown people flipping, jumping and running wildly all over the church when they got the "spirit". I knew it was real though. I knew it was real because I got it sometime. I never wanted to get it in church though.
I didn't want every one looking at me strangely, questioning my motives, my convictions. So, I sat there quietly loving the LORD. Knowing that He loved me. I sat there listening and learning.
"If you don't want to go, don't you Hinder me devil! Stay out of my way. Go to hell by yourself and take all your little hellions with you."
You don't have to live right if you don't want to. Why are you bothering me? Do you want every one to be stupid and blind like you?
I'm sitting here moaning;"My LORD! My LORD!" Why didn't somebody tell me? I Googled "Malignant Narcissistic Psychopath" yesterday and my blood ran cold!
Definitions, descriptions and books two miles long popped up on my screen. "My LORD! My LORD!"
The first description was of the Pathological Liar- skillfully deceptive and very convincing. Avoids accountability by diverting topics, dodging questions, and making up new lies, bluffs or threats when questioned. Constant chaos and diverting from reality is their chosen environment. "That's my life! my brain screamed! That's Mathy Jane!"
2. The Contract Breaker- agrees to anything then turns around and does the opposite. Marriage, normal social protocol are meaningless. That's why she was such a whorish wife I thought. Enjoys playing the role of the 'poor me' victim. "Everybody is always lying on me. I did the best I could. N****** didn't nevah do nuttin' but git me pregnant and leave me wid all dese black a** n**** churen."
3. The High Roller- is charismatic, eloquent, and intelligent. Often fakes abilities and credentials. That's Mathy, pretending that she is shy hours from holding a Ph.D. Boarding cruise ships pretending to be a millionaire in order to trick young men into having sex with her. Charismatic! is not the word! She can and will charm you out of all your money and leave you standing, grinning and saying thank you for letting her take advantage of you. Needs to have ironfisted control, relies on her manipulation skills. Will ruthlessly exploit and target, mercilessly abuses power. Uses treachery and terrorism to rule. Is a vindictive bully often suspicious and paranoid. "My LORD! My LORD!" Where was this information when I was a child? a young adult?
Her ironfisted control has plagued me for my entire life! Put Martha Jane Walter's picture next to this definition. Put it on wanted posters. Put it on the Internet!
4. The Sexual Narcissist - Hypersexual- will commit incest, any kind of sexual act, knows no sexual boundaries. (That explains why she had sex with all those men in front of me when I was 19.) They will have sex with anything, anyone, young, old, male, female. You exist for their sexual gratification. She will degrade you, will tell lies about your sexuality to evade exposure of her own. She has lied on me for my entire life. She claims my niece is a lesbian and two of my brothers are gay. Put her name on a billboard! Put out fliers, nail them to trees and telegram poles. The world needs to know about such people. Give people a warning, a head's up, please.
5. The Blame-Game Narcissist - never accepts responsibility for her own actions. Blames other for her failures and circumstances. A master of projection. (projection - will assign her faults to you). "My LORD! My LORD!" She accused me, blamed me for my brother's 25 year estrangement. She knew full well she was the sole culprit! She blamed my grandfather for her getting pregnant at 16. "If daddy hadn't been running a juke joint I wudduh nevah got pregnant! If dem ignut n***** had taught me whur babies came from I wudd'nah got pregnant."
Dear LORD from Zion save us all from sin. Save us from evil men and women that line up to take advantage of us before we know your way. Deliver us from all evil LORD.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of as great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
I must admit that I used to giggle when I watched grown people flipping, jumping and running wildly all over the church when they got the "spirit". I knew it was real though. I knew it was real because I got it sometime. I never wanted to get it in church though.
I didn't want every one looking at me strangely, questioning my motives, my convictions. So, I sat there quietly loving the LORD. Knowing that He loved me. I sat there listening and learning.
"If you don't want to go, don't you Hinder me devil! Stay out of my way. Go to hell by yourself and take all your little hellions with you."
You don't have to live right if you don't want to. Why are you bothering me? Do you want every one to be stupid and blind like you?
I'm sitting here moaning;"My LORD! My LORD!" Why didn't somebody tell me? I Googled "Malignant Narcissistic Psychopath" yesterday and my blood ran cold!
Definitions, descriptions and books two miles long popped up on my screen. "My LORD! My LORD!"
The first description was of the Pathological Liar- skillfully deceptive and very convincing. Avoids accountability by diverting topics, dodging questions, and making up new lies, bluffs or threats when questioned. Constant chaos and diverting from reality is their chosen environment. "That's my life! my brain screamed! That's Mathy Jane!"
2. The Contract Breaker- agrees to anything then turns around and does the opposite. Marriage, normal social protocol are meaningless. That's why she was such a whorish wife I thought. Enjoys playing the role of the 'poor me' victim. "Everybody is always lying on me. I did the best I could. N****** didn't nevah do nuttin' but git me pregnant and leave me wid all dese black a** n**** churen."
3. The High Roller- is charismatic, eloquent, and intelligent. Often fakes abilities and credentials. That's Mathy, pretending that she is shy hours from holding a Ph.D. Boarding cruise ships pretending to be a millionaire in order to trick young men into having sex with her. Charismatic! is not the word! She can and will charm you out of all your money and leave you standing, grinning and saying thank you for letting her take advantage of you. Needs to have ironfisted control, relies on her manipulation skills. Will ruthlessly exploit and target, mercilessly abuses power. Uses treachery and terrorism to rule. Is a vindictive bully often suspicious and paranoid. "My LORD! My LORD!" Where was this information when I was a child? a young adult?
Her ironfisted control has plagued me for my entire life! Put Martha Jane Walter's picture next to this definition. Put it on wanted posters. Put it on the Internet!
4. The Sexual Narcissist - Hypersexual- will commit incest, any kind of sexual act, knows no sexual boundaries. (That explains why she had sex with all those men in front of me when I was 19.) They will have sex with anything, anyone, young, old, male, female. You exist for their sexual gratification. She will degrade you, will tell lies about your sexuality to evade exposure of her own. She has lied on me for my entire life. She claims my niece is a lesbian and two of my brothers are gay. Put her name on a billboard! Put out fliers, nail them to trees and telegram poles. The world needs to know about such people. Give people a warning, a head's up, please.
5. The Blame-Game Narcissist - never accepts responsibility for her own actions. Blames other for her failures and circumstances. A master of projection. (projection - will assign her faults to you). "My LORD! My LORD!" She accused me, blamed me for my brother's 25 year estrangement. She knew full well she was the sole culprit! She blamed my grandfather for her getting pregnant at 16. "If daddy hadn't been running a juke joint I wudduh nevah got pregnant! If dem ignut n***** had taught me whur babies came from I wudd'nah got pregnant."
Dear LORD from Zion save us all from sin. Save us from evil men and women that line up to take advantage of us before we know your way. Deliver us from all evil LORD.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of as great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Monday, March 18, 2013
Babies need milk
"Wherefore laying aside all malice, and all guile, and hypocrisies, and envies, and all evil speaking, as newborn babes, Desire the Sincere Milk of the WORD, that ye may grow thereby:" (1 Peter 2:1-2)
Take all of that hatred (you have been taught), all the lies and double dealing, all the envy and jealousies, vulgar language, and filthy thoughts you have learned from this world and cast it away from you. Pray for GOD to create in you a clean heart.
Purge your mind and body of all the ignorance, prejudice and putrid lies you have been feed and lead to believe. "Your color makes you special." "Get them before they get you." "It's a dog eat dog world so you must become the biggest dog, the fieriest most feared dog." "GOD is too slow." " I was born a poor black bastard, GOD doesn't care about me." "Get what you want by hook or crook."
Shed every lie from satan! "Come ye out from among them!"
Perhaps you were not born with a silver spoon in your mouth. From birth you have been despised abused and ridiculed. So what!? Get up! Get up off your knees trying to please and appease a demon.
She is not worthy! She is not your mother! She is a ravenous she wolf, a demon planted on this earth to devour you. No, we never had a decent mother. But we all had a great grandfather, a true Patriarch! He feed us the WORD, the sincere milk of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. He taught us by example.
True, she successfully murdered him. But, she didn't get away. We all knew and all know to this day. So the world ignores us, could not care less. Every day of my life I remember him. Every day I hear his voice and gifted admonitions. Her successful murder is not a sign of power. It is just another example of her extreme cruelty, depravity.
The truth is she made a tragic mistake taking the life of Jerome Walters. A woman so careful and meticulous in her deceit and treachery I would have never known her true nature. She shot her own daddy in the heart and proceeded to put on the greatest performance of her stellar career as wicked Sooth Sayer.
Truly a modern day Jezebel, a self styled prophetess, a hypnotist and mind mesmerizer. She nurtured us on terrifying fear, brutal savage beating and Lies! She is a liar because her father satan is a liar. A woman so deeply disturbed and lost she preaches. She doesn't preach for GOD. She preaches for herself to be seen of men. To be admired and lauded.
GOD told us in Proverbs that such a woman will bring you to a crust of bread.
"For the lips of a strange woman drop as an honeycomb, and her mouth is smoother than oil: But her end is bitter as wormwood, sharp as a two-edged sword. Her feet go down to death; her steps take hold on hell. Lest thou shouldest ponder the path of life, her ways are moveable, that thou canst not know them. Hear me now therefore, O ye children, and depart not from the words of my mouth. Remove thy way far from her, and come not nigh the door of her house: Lest thou give honor unto others, and thy years unto the cruel: Lest strangers be filled with thy wealth; and thy labours be in the house of a stranger; And thou mourn at last, when thy flesh and body are consumed, " ( Proverbs 5: 3 - 11)
"For by means of a whorish woman a man is brought to a crust of bread: and the adulteress will hunt for the precious life." (Proverbs 6:26)
Oh that's her brothers! That's your mother. She plotted and continues to plot against everyone of us. She thinks she stole the mantel and good name of a good man. Lies directly from satan!
If you want to sit up under her whipped, abused, scorned, lost and destitute refusing to hear the voice of the LORD, you go right ahead. There is no point in you trying to keep her a secret any longer. The world knows. Surely you do not believe her little "goofer dust" has any power. You can't believe that you truly love her and must remain loyal to her.
Get off of her tainted tit! It is sour and corrupt! There is no good in her! She has crippled you, destroyed you, sucked the marrow in your bones dry. She needs you around to prove to the world that she is in fact the modern day Jezebel. She is nothing but a despicable demon! Deliberately feeding her children poison in order to be a "Queen", Queen Mathy Jane!
Had five sons and destroyed every one of them. She had one daughter that she hated too violently, too openly. She had one daughter that could see, could hear the voice of GOD from the womb. GOD knew from my conception that He had to equip me lest I be utterly destroyed.
Spew her sour milk out of your mouth. Drink the milk of kindness. Study GOD's WORD. Seek His Face.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Take all of that hatred (you have been taught), all the lies and double dealing, all the envy and jealousies, vulgar language, and filthy thoughts you have learned from this world and cast it away from you. Pray for GOD to create in you a clean heart.
Purge your mind and body of all the ignorance, prejudice and putrid lies you have been feed and lead to believe. "Your color makes you special." "Get them before they get you." "It's a dog eat dog world so you must become the biggest dog, the fieriest most feared dog." "GOD is too slow." " I was born a poor black bastard, GOD doesn't care about me." "Get what you want by hook or crook."
Shed every lie from satan! "Come ye out from among them!"
Perhaps you were not born with a silver spoon in your mouth. From birth you have been despised abused and ridiculed. So what!? Get up! Get up off your knees trying to please and appease a demon.
She is not worthy! She is not your mother! She is a ravenous she wolf, a demon planted on this earth to devour you. No, we never had a decent mother. But we all had a great grandfather, a true Patriarch! He feed us the WORD, the sincere milk of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. He taught us by example.
True, she successfully murdered him. But, she didn't get away. We all knew and all know to this day. So the world ignores us, could not care less. Every day of my life I remember him. Every day I hear his voice and gifted admonitions. Her successful murder is not a sign of power. It is just another example of her extreme cruelty, depravity.
The truth is she made a tragic mistake taking the life of Jerome Walters. A woman so careful and meticulous in her deceit and treachery I would have never known her true nature. She shot her own daddy in the heart and proceeded to put on the greatest performance of her stellar career as wicked Sooth Sayer.
Truly a modern day Jezebel, a self styled prophetess, a hypnotist and mind mesmerizer. She nurtured us on terrifying fear, brutal savage beating and Lies! She is a liar because her father satan is a liar. A woman so deeply disturbed and lost she preaches. She doesn't preach for GOD. She preaches for herself to be seen of men. To be admired and lauded.
GOD told us in Proverbs that such a woman will bring you to a crust of bread.
"For the lips of a strange woman drop as an honeycomb, and her mouth is smoother than oil: But her end is bitter as wormwood, sharp as a two-edged sword. Her feet go down to death; her steps take hold on hell. Lest thou shouldest ponder the path of life, her ways are moveable, that thou canst not know them. Hear me now therefore, O ye children, and depart not from the words of my mouth. Remove thy way far from her, and come not nigh the door of her house: Lest thou give honor unto others, and thy years unto the cruel: Lest strangers be filled with thy wealth; and thy labours be in the house of a stranger; And thou mourn at last, when thy flesh and body are consumed, " ( Proverbs 5: 3 - 11)
"For by means of a whorish woman a man is brought to a crust of bread: and the adulteress will hunt for the precious life." (Proverbs 6:26)
Oh that's her brothers! That's your mother. She plotted and continues to plot against everyone of us. She thinks she stole the mantel and good name of a good man. Lies directly from satan!
If you want to sit up under her whipped, abused, scorned, lost and destitute refusing to hear the voice of the LORD, you go right ahead. There is no point in you trying to keep her a secret any longer. The world knows. Surely you do not believe her little "goofer dust" has any power. You can't believe that you truly love her and must remain loyal to her.
Get off of her tainted tit! It is sour and corrupt! There is no good in her! She has crippled you, destroyed you, sucked the marrow in your bones dry. She needs you around to prove to the world that she is in fact the modern day Jezebel. She is nothing but a despicable demon! Deliberately feeding her children poison in order to be a "Queen", Queen Mathy Jane!
Had five sons and destroyed every one of them. She had one daughter that she hated too violently, too openly. She had one daughter that could see, could hear the voice of GOD from the womb. GOD knew from my conception that He had to equip me lest I be utterly destroyed.
Spew her sour milk out of your mouth. Drink the milk of kindness. Study GOD's WORD. Seek His Face.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Sunday, March 17, 2013
"You have not ...
because you ask NOT!"
Oh yes you ask. As a matter of fact you stay on your knees begging GOD for stuff! You ask for material wealth and beauty falsely believing that will make you happy.
You ask for a beautiful or handsome mate with a lot of money. You pray for a flashy or expensive car. You pray to not have any problems. You want to be popular and loved, to be famous.
Some times we get ourselves in trouble and pray for GOD to get us out never acknowledging that it was our disobedience to His WORD that got us there.
Some lose their health and immediately demand a miracle from GOD. To often we falsely proclaim great faith while deep inside we have very little. Grow your faith. Trust GOD. Live right.
I know it's hard but, do not hate! I am sure that is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I used to hate with a passion. I enjoyed hating people, cussing them out, hurting their feelings. In my youth I carried a pistol and couldn't wait to use it. (I never did thank GOD)
What a waste. I could have, I should have prayed for the Holy Ghost! My granddaddy had it. He was always tranquil and happy. He was inspiring. I live to be more like my grandfather the most Christ like man I ever knew.
He told me. He told me everything I'm telling you. He told me peacefully and kindly. Most importantly he taught by example.
Why do so many people have to get old before we finally live right? I guess we have to see for ourselves before we finally listen.
Oh yes we pray, we ask, we beg. We are told that GOD's delay is not denial. It isn't. We pray and ask amiss. We have our priorities mixed up. Seek Christ First! Ask for the Holy Ghost!
Ask GOD to dwell in your heart. Ask Him to lead and guide you. Then and only then ALL that you ask will be added unto you.
How do I know? I learned the hard way.
Be abundantly blessed.
Oh yes you ask. As a matter of fact you stay on your knees begging GOD for stuff! You ask for material wealth and beauty falsely believing that will make you happy.
You ask for a beautiful or handsome mate with a lot of money. You pray for a flashy or expensive car. You pray to not have any problems. You want to be popular and loved, to be famous.
Some times we get ourselves in trouble and pray for GOD to get us out never acknowledging that it was our disobedience to His WORD that got us there.
Some lose their health and immediately demand a miracle from GOD. To often we falsely proclaim great faith while deep inside we have very little. Grow your faith. Trust GOD. Live right.
I know it's hard but, do not hate! I am sure that is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I used to hate with a passion. I enjoyed hating people, cussing them out, hurting their feelings. In my youth I carried a pistol and couldn't wait to use it. (I never did thank GOD)
What a waste. I could have, I should have prayed for the Holy Ghost! My granddaddy had it. He was always tranquil and happy. He was inspiring. I live to be more like my grandfather the most Christ like man I ever knew.
He told me. He told me everything I'm telling you. He told me peacefully and kindly. Most importantly he taught by example.
Why do so many people have to get old before we finally live right? I guess we have to see for ourselves before we finally listen.
Oh yes we pray, we ask, we beg. We are told that GOD's delay is not denial. It isn't. We pray and ask amiss. We have our priorities mixed up. Seek Christ First! Ask for the Holy Ghost!
Ask GOD to dwell in your heart. Ask Him to lead and guide you. Then and only then ALL that you ask will be added unto you.
How do I know? I learned the hard way.
Be abundantly blessed.
"Harden not your heart"
Jesus told us not to. He told us to "Love ye one another as I have loved you". James told us to; "Count it all joy".
So why are you rigid, frozen in hatred an unbelief, with Jesus on your lips and far from your heart. Why do you still believe cruelty is courage?
Why are you pretending to be happy? Flaunting all your "worldly stuff" making out like you have it made?
"The LORD giveth and the LORD taketh away."
You cling to a demon possessed woman. Why? Is it out of habit? Were you conditioned to go along with evil simply for self preservation? Or are you just afraid of this GOD awful Truth?
It is terrifying! You find yourself in love with an abomination, a cruel temptress, a homemade prophetess. It is mind boggling but, every word is true.
I watched her from birth with the eyes of a child. I watched in shock, locked those events in my brain. I could not understand them then. I could not defend myself or my siblings. Nothing can erase my memory. I was a tiny six year old when I witnessed her beating my baby brother unmercifully for having a leaky diaper.
I felt sorry for him, hurt for him but, he did something he should not have done. His loose bowel movement went all over her new rug and she had to clean it up. She was enraged (again). We knew better. We were older. "Don't make "mother" mad! Don't upset her! Stay out of her way!"
Sure there were good times. She would come in late at night after waitressing at the Officer's Club. She would be loaded with half eaten steaks, crab, shrimp, olives and pastries. Food she savaged from the plates of white officers. She would dumb pounds of quarters, nickels and dimes in a huge bowl. That was her tip money and sometimes she would give me a quarter.
We never had a baby sitter, just the stern order; "You black a** n***** bed NOT open dat damn do' fah NOBODY! not even you damn granddaddy!" We were very smart children, extremely dutiful and obedient for six and seven. Actually we were obedient for any age. Was it truly obedience or terror?
We watched her beat her husband bloody many times. She wasn't that big but she was sure strong. One night she pistol whipped him. She crashed the butt of that gun over his head over and over trying to crush his thick black skull. The blood spewed like a broken faucet. We stood there terrified as a full grown man crumbled to his knees.
A woman determined to strike fear she called the MPs (military police) on him! She had the nerve to have him arrested. Then laughed, howled like a rabid wolf.
I know now that I grew up terrified. I hated being "home" when they were there. We both did ,so we sought solace in the library. We found comfort in books. Of course there were times we could not escape her wrath. I prayed, got the Holy Ghost. My brother put on three pairs of pants. Jesus saved me so many times. My poor brother suffered the brunt of her evil.
You must know that all the while this was going on we never missed a Sunday in church or Sunday school. She wore the finest clothes in Wesley Chapel A.M.E. Zion church. She was always on program, always the mistress of ceremony or featured speaker. I know now that she was nothing but a wolf in sheep's clothing.
I also know that GOD loves her still. He has forgiven her. She must repent and forgive herself. She hates me with a passion, always has. She is raging with anger because GOD finally revealed her to me. He took the blinders off.
Is she ashamed of her true self? Or is it GOD she hates? Rebellious and corrupt from birth she always had to have her way, terrorize and destroy.
Well you didn't destroy me Mathy! You made me strong and I thank GOD for you. "Harden not your heart." "Turn from your wicked ways and hear from Heaven."
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
So why are you rigid, frozen in hatred an unbelief, with Jesus on your lips and far from your heart. Why do you still believe cruelty is courage?
Why are you pretending to be happy? Flaunting all your "worldly stuff" making out like you have it made?
"The LORD giveth and the LORD taketh away."
You cling to a demon possessed woman. Why? Is it out of habit? Were you conditioned to go along with evil simply for self preservation? Or are you just afraid of this GOD awful Truth?
It is terrifying! You find yourself in love with an abomination, a cruel temptress, a homemade prophetess. It is mind boggling but, every word is true.
I watched her from birth with the eyes of a child. I watched in shock, locked those events in my brain. I could not understand them then. I could not defend myself or my siblings. Nothing can erase my memory. I was a tiny six year old when I witnessed her beating my baby brother unmercifully for having a leaky diaper.
I felt sorry for him, hurt for him but, he did something he should not have done. His loose bowel movement went all over her new rug and she had to clean it up. She was enraged (again). We knew better. We were older. "Don't make "mother" mad! Don't upset her! Stay out of her way!"
Sure there were good times. She would come in late at night after waitressing at the Officer's Club. She would be loaded with half eaten steaks, crab, shrimp, olives and pastries. Food she savaged from the plates of white officers. She would dumb pounds of quarters, nickels and dimes in a huge bowl. That was her tip money and sometimes she would give me a quarter.
We never had a baby sitter, just the stern order; "You black a** n***** bed NOT open dat damn do' fah NOBODY! not even you damn granddaddy!" We were very smart children, extremely dutiful and obedient for six and seven. Actually we were obedient for any age. Was it truly obedience or terror?
We watched her beat her husband bloody many times. She wasn't that big but she was sure strong. One night she pistol whipped him. She crashed the butt of that gun over his head over and over trying to crush his thick black skull. The blood spewed like a broken faucet. We stood there terrified as a full grown man crumbled to his knees.
A woman determined to strike fear she called the MPs (military police) on him! She had the nerve to have him arrested. Then laughed, howled like a rabid wolf.
I know now that I grew up terrified. I hated being "home" when they were there. We both did ,so we sought solace in the library. We found comfort in books. Of course there were times we could not escape her wrath. I prayed, got the Holy Ghost. My brother put on three pairs of pants. Jesus saved me so many times. My poor brother suffered the brunt of her evil.
You must know that all the while this was going on we never missed a Sunday in church or Sunday school. She wore the finest clothes in Wesley Chapel A.M.E. Zion church. She was always on program, always the mistress of ceremony or featured speaker. I know now that she was nothing but a wolf in sheep's clothing.
I also know that GOD loves her still. He has forgiven her. She must repent and forgive herself. She hates me with a passion, always has. She is raging with anger because GOD finally revealed her to me. He took the blinders off.
Is she ashamed of her true self? Or is it GOD she hates? Rebellious and corrupt from birth she always had to have her way, terrorize and destroy.
Well you didn't destroy me Mathy! You made me strong and I thank GOD for you. "Harden not your heart." "Turn from your wicked ways and hear from Heaven."
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Saturday, March 16, 2013
An evil mother ...
can and will put a hole in your soul, so big and wide, that only the Holy Ghost can fill it. An evil mother can and will render her children destitute, void of all hope. She will sneer; "I gave you black a** muthf******
Life!" No! children she permitted you to exist, to cringe before her. She needs you to wipe her feet on, to feed you a daily dose of hatred. Her greatest joy stems from continuously and constantly assaulting you. To block your way, to deny you entrance into GOD's Kingdom.
Her greatest pleasure is to deny GOD. To prove to GOD that she is in fact more powerful. Dear children, that evil woman is writhing in sin, consumed by evil thoughts, delusioned by satanic dreams. No! she is not mentally ill. She is spiritually ill.
You can pray for her. Continue to pray for her. But, pray for deliverance from such a being. Pray to untangle yourself from her lecherous tendons. Pray that all such women will be exposed. Pray for the courage to tell her the truth about herself.
She can't stop GOD. She can't block GOD's blessings from you. You don't need the meager pennies she doles out to keep you shackled to her.
There are far too many people crawling on this earth that purely hate GOD. They hate GOD with a passion, with every fiber of their being. So wicked, so cowardly they try to hide. They "talk right" but they don't live right. They adorn themselves with the finest robes, solid gold crosses and clerical rings. They successfully manipulate "churches" into bestowing titles on them. They glory in and hide their filth and dirt behind "Reverend", "Minister", "Pastor", "Prophetess" and "Mother of the Church" Their voices are smooth and kind. They know GOD's WORD better than you do.
Don't be deceived little ones. Never stop looking at their fruit. She will yell and scream that you are digging in the archives, that you live in the past, that you are unforgiving, that you remember too much. Flee from her. She is a Liar and the Truth is not in her. She is an Imp! A volunteer demon. She will destroy you, bring you to a crust of bread.
Don't wait on GOD to stop her. You stop her! Stop dealing with her. You know that you can't win. Stand up to her. Don't give her the satisfaction of destroying you and laughing in your face.
"Honor thy mother!" she sweetly sings. She stops short of the part; "...parents provoke not your children to wrath lest they become disencouraged."
Don't blame GOD for her. She is not a curse to you but, a blessing. GOD blessed you to know the Truth. To hear and see the Truth. Now accept it.
Be abundantly blessed today children.
Life!" No! children she permitted you to exist, to cringe before her. She needs you to wipe her feet on, to feed you a daily dose of hatred. Her greatest joy stems from continuously and constantly assaulting you. To block your way, to deny you entrance into GOD's Kingdom.
Her greatest pleasure is to deny GOD. To prove to GOD that she is in fact more powerful. Dear children, that evil woman is writhing in sin, consumed by evil thoughts, delusioned by satanic dreams. No! she is not mentally ill. She is spiritually ill.
You can pray for her. Continue to pray for her. But, pray for deliverance from such a being. Pray to untangle yourself from her lecherous tendons. Pray that all such women will be exposed. Pray for the courage to tell her the truth about herself.
She can't stop GOD. She can't block GOD's blessings from you. You don't need the meager pennies she doles out to keep you shackled to her.
There are far too many people crawling on this earth that purely hate GOD. They hate GOD with a passion, with every fiber of their being. So wicked, so cowardly they try to hide. They "talk right" but they don't live right. They adorn themselves with the finest robes, solid gold crosses and clerical rings. They successfully manipulate "churches" into bestowing titles on them. They glory in and hide their filth and dirt behind "Reverend", "Minister", "Pastor", "Prophetess" and "Mother of the Church" Their voices are smooth and kind. They know GOD's WORD better than you do.
Don't be deceived little ones. Never stop looking at their fruit. She will yell and scream that you are digging in the archives, that you live in the past, that you are unforgiving, that you remember too much. Flee from her. She is a Liar and the Truth is not in her. She is an Imp! A volunteer demon. She will destroy you, bring you to a crust of bread.
Don't wait on GOD to stop her. You stop her! Stop dealing with her. You know that you can't win. Stand up to her. Don't give her the satisfaction of destroying you and laughing in your face.
"Honor thy mother!" she sweetly sings. She stops short of the part; "...parents provoke not your children to wrath lest they become disencouraged."
Don't blame GOD for her. She is not a curse to you but, a blessing. GOD blessed you to know the Truth. To hear and see the Truth. Now accept it.
Be abundantly blessed today children.
"There is a WORD ...
from the LORD."
"Be Still and know that I am GOD." We have a GOD that loves us and will make intercession for us.
He gave us power to tread on scorpions and serpents (evil doers). You will become dismayed and waylayed on your journey children. That's a given. Trust GOD to walk before you, to slay all of the dragons in your path.
Your flesh and heart will smart and ache and you will ask why. The answer is simple; Jealousy. Lucifer was a beautiful angel but his heart became darkened with jealousy. He hated GOD, wanted to be GOD. The Dear LORD cast him out of Heaven, permitted him to reign here on earth.
He is a great trickster, a brilliant manipulator. Don't forget he tried to deceive Jesus, tried to entice him with wealth. Jesus could not and would not be tricked and manipulated because He is GOD. GOD knew from the beginning what Lucifer would do.
GOD sent us His WORD, burned His WORD into the hearts of His prophets. We have no excuse when we are deceived. He told us to "...study to show yourself approved." If you can read, hear and discern you have no excuse for falling short. You have no reason to live fearful, depressed and despondent.
Put down that bottle, those pills, that pornography. Stop lying and denying. Trust GOD. "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil: for thou Art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me."
GOD is your Shepard and He has a rod, a stick to beat back those evil doers and they are mad, angry as Hell. So they gang up on you, call you names and ridicule you. They shun you, hate you openly and secretly.
Keep on pressing on children. GOD will supply all of your needs. GOD can NOT lie. His WORD is His bond, His promise. "I have never seen the righteous forsaken nor His seed begging bread." You can depend on every WORD from the LORD. "Let not your heart be troubled."
No, you can't be double minded. You can't decide to have just a little bit of Christianity. You can't "lay your religion down" when it suits you and then"pick it up again".
GOD knows your heart, He knows your every thought. Don't you dare think because you have gotten away with evil for decades that you are immune, are the rare exception. Don't you dare think your cunning lying manipulative tongue holds any sway with GOD.
I have a testimony. The love of a mother is the greatest love a person can know. We instinctively crave it. The woman that nurtures you at her breast is your first teacher. She can teach you to love and share. She can teach you to love the LORD with all your heart. Or she can teach you to fear. She can beat and brutalize you, harm you physically, sexually, psychologically and emotionally. She can get away with it for a very long time. Brain washed terrified children will not tell.
A woman can sink her children into the sickest shameful evil before they have time to develop properly. She can turn them into her little puppets, slaves to her every desire. GOD can save them. He gave us His WORD. Those children must study. Those children must scrape up some self esteem. They must pray to be delivered from such evil. They must pray for the courage that was savagely beaten out of them by an ogre to be restored by the LORD Jesus Christ.
It can be done. I know it can be done because Almighty GOD did it for me.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
"Be Still and know that I am GOD." We have a GOD that loves us and will make intercession for us.
He gave us power to tread on scorpions and serpents (evil doers). You will become dismayed and waylayed on your journey children. That's a given. Trust GOD to walk before you, to slay all of the dragons in your path.
Your flesh and heart will smart and ache and you will ask why. The answer is simple; Jealousy. Lucifer was a beautiful angel but his heart became darkened with jealousy. He hated GOD, wanted to be GOD. The Dear LORD cast him out of Heaven, permitted him to reign here on earth.
He is a great trickster, a brilliant manipulator. Don't forget he tried to deceive Jesus, tried to entice him with wealth. Jesus could not and would not be tricked and manipulated because He is GOD. GOD knew from the beginning what Lucifer would do.
GOD sent us His WORD, burned His WORD into the hearts of His prophets. We have no excuse when we are deceived. He told us to "...study to show yourself approved." If you can read, hear and discern you have no excuse for falling short. You have no reason to live fearful, depressed and despondent.
Put down that bottle, those pills, that pornography. Stop lying and denying. Trust GOD. "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil: for thou Art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me."
GOD is your Shepard and He has a rod, a stick to beat back those evil doers and they are mad, angry as Hell. So they gang up on you, call you names and ridicule you. They shun you, hate you openly and secretly.
Keep on pressing on children. GOD will supply all of your needs. GOD can NOT lie. His WORD is His bond, His promise. "I have never seen the righteous forsaken nor His seed begging bread." You can depend on every WORD from the LORD. "Let not your heart be troubled."
No, you can't be double minded. You can't decide to have just a little bit of Christianity. You can't "lay your religion down" when it suits you and then"pick it up again".
GOD knows your heart, He knows your every thought. Don't you dare think because you have gotten away with evil for decades that you are immune, are the rare exception. Don't you dare think your cunning lying manipulative tongue holds any sway with GOD.
I have a testimony. The love of a mother is the greatest love a person can know. We instinctively crave it. The woman that nurtures you at her breast is your first teacher. She can teach you to love and share. She can teach you to love the LORD with all your heart. Or she can teach you to fear. She can beat and brutalize you, harm you physically, sexually, psychologically and emotionally. She can get away with it for a very long time. Brain washed terrified children will not tell.
A woman can sink her children into the sickest shameful evil before they have time to develop properly. She can turn them into her little puppets, slaves to her every desire. GOD can save them. He gave us His WORD. Those children must study. Those children must scrape up some self esteem. They must pray to be delivered from such evil. They must pray for the courage that was savagely beaten out of them by an ogre to be restored by the LORD Jesus Christ.
It can be done. I know it can be done because Almighty GOD did it for me.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Friday, March 15, 2013
Get your heart right!
Do you enjoy inflicting pain upon your fellow man? Do you rejoice when you see others suffering? Do you smile when you think you made someone sad?
Do you lie, lie on people to get your way or to make yourself look better? Do you scowl and cloak your hatred in "Have a blessed day?"
Do you think the color of your skin or "race" make you better? Do you believe that the world or GOD have a preference for you? Do you think you have it made because of your title, house or car? Do you rate yourself better because you have a high credit rating?
Do you judge others without knowing their journey? Does your heart burn with jealousy because someone you consider to be inferior seems to be smarter or prettier? Are you a "racist"? Do you really think GOD divided us? Made some of us smarter, more moral, more deserving and color coded us accordingly?
Do your feet run to mischief? Are you quick to insult and inflict pain? If you answered yes to half of what I said you are in misery. Get your heart right. Seek GOD's face. Pray for GOD to touch you with a finger of love.
"Love ye one another as I have loved you."
Do you lie, lie on people to get your way or to make yourself look better? Do you scowl and cloak your hatred in "Have a blessed day?"
Do you think the color of your skin or "race" make you better? Do you believe that the world or GOD have a preference for you? Do you think you have it made because of your title, house or car? Do you rate yourself better because you have a high credit rating?
Do you judge others without knowing their journey? Does your heart burn with jealousy because someone you consider to be inferior seems to be smarter or prettier? Are you a "racist"? Do you really think GOD divided us? Made some of us smarter, more moral, more deserving and color coded us accordingly?
Do your feet run to mischief? Are you quick to insult and inflict pain? If you answered yes to half of what I said you are in misery. Get your heart right. Seek GOD's face. Pray for GOD to touch you with a finger of love.
"Love ye one another as I have loved you."
"GOD's going to have His way!"
Let me say that the way I always heard it; "GAWD gon' have Hiz Way!" For far too long far too many people have believed that dialect (the way you talk and sound) is a sign of ignorance, a lack of intelligence.
Speech is a form of communication. No matter where we live we all have certain dialects. My cousins in Chester, Pa called it pop. We called it soda or co-ca-cola. No one was wrong. It is just communication.
I grew up around a lot of old county folks that talked "funny". My granddaddy said "yesdiddy" instead of yesterday, "Ah reckon so" for maybe. But, he was brilliant!
Colloquialisms don't color your brain or prevent you from critical thinking. I might slip up and say "sump'um" for something. But don't you dare think I'm a dummy.
Those old people taught me a lot about Christ. The first song I learned was "Jesus loves me." "Jesus loves me this I know because the Bible tells me so." That was music to my ears. It was obvious to me that I wasn't loved by a lot of people. But, I knew this man named Jesus loved me.
You are going to be rebuked and reviled in this world children. Many people are going to try and take advantage of you. Some will try to trade your little body for money. Some will try to convince you that you are nothing. Just another blood clot.
There will be some that will lay hands on you, beat you unmercifully. Call you foul names, hurt your feelings, break your little heart daily for their sadistic pleasure. Don't you worry about them. You just hold on. Live right, love the LORD. Listen to the wisdom of your elders.
GOD will take care of all those evildoers in His own time and in His own way.
I'm proud to be a country girl. Proud that I can speak "country" and Standard English. I am proud that my granddaddy was a saved sanctified Christian man. I'm glad I listened to him when he told me to;"Keep yersef up! Don't let nobody tear you down. Love duh LAWD wid all your heart baby."
It will not hurt us as a people to go back to some of those old country ways. Listen to some of that old country music. We need to introduce our children to the Harmonizing Four, the Swan Silvertones, the Mighty Clouds of Joy.
"Dear LAWD if I git too high, bring me down." Come back down children. Come back to the old roots, the old sayings that brought you here. Do not dismiss your old relatives, grandparents and great grandparents as a bunch of old ignorant fogies. They knew some things that we should never forget.
Go back to the old landmark. Go back to loving and sharing. "Don't git too big fa' yo' britches." "Don't start smelling yo'sef. Don't forgit GAWD!"
Speech is a form of communication. No matter where we live we all have certain dialects. My cousins in Chester, Pa called it pop. We called it soda or co-ca-cola. No one was wrong. It is just communication.
I grew up around a lot of old county folks that talked "funny". My granddaddy said "yesdiddy" instead of yesterday, "Ah reckon so" for maybe. But, he was brilliant!
Colloquialisms don't color your brain or prevent you from critical thinking. I might slip up and say "sump'um" for something. But don't you dare think I'm a dummy.
Those old people taught me a lot about Christ. The first song I learned was "Jesus loves me." "Jesus loves me this I know because the Bible tells me so." That was music to my ears. It was obvious to me that I wasn't loved by a lot of people. But, I knew this man named Jesus loved me.
You are going to be rebuked and reviled in this world children. Many people are going to try and take advantage of you. Some will try to trade your little body for money. Some will try to convince you that you are nothing. Just another blood clot.
There will be some that will lay hands on you, beat you unmercifully. Call you foul names, hurt your feelings, break your little heart daily for their sadistic pleasure. Don't you worry about them. You just hold on. Live right, love the LORD. Listen to the wisdom of your elders.
GOD will take care of all those evildoers in His own time and in His own way.
I'm proud to be a country girl. Proud that I can speak "country" and Standard English. I am proud that my granddaddy was a saved sanctified Christian man. I'm glad I listened to him when he told me to;"Keep yersef up! Don't let nobody tear you down. Love duh LAWD wid all your heart baby."
It will not hurt us as a people to go back to some of those old country ways. Listen to some of that old country music. We need to introduce our children to the Harmonizing Four, the Swan Silvertones, the Mighty Clouds of Joy.
"Dear LAWD if I git too high, bring me down." Come back down children. Come back to the old roots, the old sayings that brought you here. Do not dismiss your old relatives, grandparents and great grandparents as a bunch of old ignorant fogies. They knew some things that we should never forget.
Go back to the old landmark. Go back to loving and sharing. "Don't git too big fa' yo' britches." "Don't start smelling yo'sef. Don't forgit GAWD!"
"Suffer the little children...
to come unto me. Forbid them not the Kingdom of heaven." By "suffer" Jesus means let, permit. Permit children to find their way to GOD's Kingdom. Don't prevent them, don't block them. Do not deliberately lead them astray.
As a society we have been weighed in the balances and found wanting. We are deliberating throwing our children away to satisfy our own selfish needs. From birth our children are bombarded with filth. Filthy movies, sick degrading music, fast food and racist propaganda.
What can a teacher do with four and five year olds that are accustomed to using foul language, simulating sex acts, fighting, belligerent and already resistant to acquiring real knowledge? Yes, we blame society. But what do we do to help?
Why do we still have school systems that force teachers to waste valuable teaching hours collecting data comparing races? It is not color people, it is Character!
How can we expect our children to have good character when we refuse to teach it? As long as I have breath in my body I will preach Possibilities! I will ask them to stand and repeat the affirmation that GOD gave to me;"I was born for Greatness! If I am to be what I want to be It is up to Me!"
I will tell them that I am a living testimony. Yes I was born black and unwanted by my mother. (I had no father in evidence) So what? GOD equipped me with many talents. He strengthened me, enabled me to withstand the greatest evil. Made a way out of no way. He made a way for me to pay my tuition, buy my books.
GOD lined up the greatest people and put them directly in my path. Rev. Cleo McCoy hired me to teach his classes, read and summarize his books when I was a Freshman in college!
Children I have a long list of faithful good Christians that GOD directed to help me. He will do the same for you. Just ask Him. Don't believe this world. The term "Jesus Freak" is from the devil. It is evil. Evil people want you unprotected, unmotivated. They want you to throw your life away, to throw in the towel before you have a chance to thrive.
Never be ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. It is all you have. This world will destroy you. It will rob you of the ability to think critically. It will rob you of your self esteem and innocence.
I sit here one proud woman today. Tried, delivered and sanctified! Who knew, who knows that Martha Jane Walters is a monster, a monstrosity? How many have the capacity to know or conceive of such great evil still breathing, still walking, still contaminating on the face of the earth?
I was 33 when she called me a sneaky snake. I was crushed, confused. I kept trying to love her. I kept trying to be a dutiful daughter. "Why does my mother think I'm a snake?"
By and by, many years later the answer came. My dear brother, the medical doctor had been estranged from us for over 25 years. She convinced us that it was because he was a drug addict. I assumed it was because she humiliated him in his medical office. Stormed in like a psychotic fool and ordered every "muthaf*****" to "git dey a** up!" "Ah bought dese muthaf***** couches and chairs!"
It was a day no one can ever forget. My brother educated himself. Paid his own tuition. Earned a college degree and medical degree on his own. What was his mistake? He came back to Fayetteville, North Carolina and let her control him once again. She called him her black prince. Fell madly in love with her "son the doctor". He got married and she had a fit, went ballistic, demanded that he divorce his wife of two days. She behaved like a scorned lover.
GOD fit all the pieces together for me. You will not get away Martha. GOD is not going to let you off the hook for torturing and abusing us. He will not let you get away with your witchcraft and murder (perhaps murders)
The world will not shut me up, it will not prevent me from telling by its scorn and rebuke. I have "friends" and relatives that say they are tired of hearing about it. I listen to GOD, not you. What have you done to help a living soul on this earth? You live with and tolerate a demon when you don't have to. You declare your undying love for her! Why? Do you really think she is going to leave you great sums of money?
The world needs to know! You need to know! You need to know that you have men and women hiding in pulpits, hiding their deep dark evil behind titles and clerical robes. Snatch them off! Reveal them to the world. To know someone is a demon, a charlatan, an abuser and never say a mumbling word is a greater evil. That means you don't care. If you don't care, how can you claim to love? Your volunteer blindness and deafness will not protect you.
You pray and ask GOD to protect your children. What about the other children? Are you really that selfish and self-centered? Selfishness was the beginning of Martha's problems. Look at her now! Look at her at 88. You don't want that. You don't want to slide down that slippery slope.
The world needs to know that we have school systems, teachers and administrators preventing children from entering GOD's Kingdom. They don't teach character or critical thinking skills. They don't encourage students to read or even carry books. They simply "warehouse" children until they graduate.
They send them into the world ill equipped to function. Our school systems know full well why so many students lose their Hope Scholarships. We know full well why they fail in life. We call it a "failure to launch". We all know why.
Don't let it happen to you children. Do not let anyone or any system lead you astray.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
As a society we have been weighed in the balances and found wanting. We are deliberating throwing our children away to satisfy our own selfish needs. From birth our children are bombarded with filth. Filthy movies, sick degrading music, fast food and racist propaganda.
What can a teacher do with four and five year olds that are accustomed to using foul language, simulating sex acts, fighting, belligerent and already resistant to acquiring real knowledge? Yes, we blame society. But what do we do to help?
Why do we still have school systems that force teachers to waste valuable teaching hours collecting data comparing races? It is not color people, it is Character!
How can we expect our children to have good character when we refuse to teach it? As long as I have breath in my body I will preach Possibilities! I will ask them to stand and repeat the affirmation that GOD gave to me;"I was born for Greatness! If I am to be what I want to be It is up to Me!"
I will tell them that I am a living testimony. Yes I was born black and unwanted by my mother. (I had no father in evidence) So what? GOD equipped me with many talents. He strengthened me, enabled me to withstand the greatest evil. Made a way out of no way. He made a way for me to pay my tuition, buy my books.
GOD lined up the greatest people and put them directly in my path. Rev. Cleo McCoy hired me to teach his classes, read and summarize his books when I was a Freshman in college!
Children I have a long list of faithful good Christians that GOD directed to help me. He will do the same for you. Just ask Him. Don't believe this world. The term "Jesus Freak" is from the devil. It is evil. Evil people want you unprotected, unmotivated. They want you to throw your life away, to throw in the towel before you have a chance to thrive.
Never be ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. It is all you have. This world will destroy you. It will rob you of the ability to think critically. It will rob you of your self esteem and innocence.
I sit here one proud woman today. Tried, delivered and sanctified! Who knew, who knows that Martha Jane Walters is a monster, a monstrosity? How many have the capacity to know or conceive of such great evil still breathing, still walking, still contaminating on the face of the earth?
I was 33 when she called me a sneaky snake. I was crushed, confused. I kept trying to love her. I kept trying to be a dutiful daughter. "Why does my mother think I'm a snake?"
By and by, many years later the answer came. My dear brother, the medical doctor had been estranged from us for over 25 years. She convinced us that it was because he was a drug addict. I assumed it was because she humiliated him in his medical office. Stormed in like a psychotic fool and ordered every "muthaf*****" to "git dey a** up!" "Ah bought dese muthaf***** couches and chairs!"
It was a day no one can ever forget. My brother educated himself. Paid his own tuition. Earned a college degree and medical degree on his own. What was his mistake? He came back to Fayetteville, North Carolina and let her control him once again. She called him her black prince. Fell madly in love with her "son the doctor". He got married and she had a fit, went ballistic, demanded that he divorce his wife of two days. She behaved like a scorned lover.
GOD fit all the pieces together for me. You will not get away Martha. GOD is not going to let you off the hook for torturing and abusing us. He will not let you get away with your witchcraft and murder (perhaps murders)
The world will not shut me up, it will not prevent me from telling by its scorn and rebuke. I have "friends" and relatives that say they are tired of hearing about it. I listen to GOD, not you. What have you done to help a living soul on this earth? You live with and tolerate a demon when you don't have to. You declare your undying love for her! Why? Do you really think she is going to leave you great sums of money?
The world needs to know! You need to know! You need to know that you have men and women hiding in pulpits, hiding their deep dark evil behind titles and clerical robes. Snatch them off! Reveal them to the world. To know someone is a demon, a charlatan, an abuser and never say a mumbling word is a greater evil. That means you don't care. If you don't care, how can you claim to love? Your volunteer blindness and deafness will not protect you.
You pray and ask GOD to protect your children. What about the other children? Are you really that selfish and self-centered? Selfishness was the beginning of Martha's problems. Look at her now! Look at her at 88. You don't want that. You don't want to slide down that slippery slope.
The world needs to know that we have school systems, teachers and administrators preventing children from entering GOD's Kingdom. They don't teach character or critical thinking skills. They don't encourage students to read or even carry books. They simply "warehouse" children until they graduate.
They send them into the world ill equipped to function. Our school systems know full well why so many students lose their Hope Scholarships. We know full well why they fail in life. We call it a "failure to launch". We all know why.
Don't let it happen to you children. Do not let anyone or any system lead you astray.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Thursday, March 14, 2013
Praise the LORD!
What a Joy I have found! It breaks my heart to see broken people. People that have given up, surrendered to evil. You don't have to.
Stay in prayer children. Stay in His WORD. Keep reading, keep praying and remain patient.
I am sitting here in my office, (PTL!) on my computer telling you to hold on. Trust the LORD! Not too long ago I was constantly confounded and bewildered. I was trying to love a mother that didn't love me.
I knew she didn't love me all the time. But, I did believe that she loved me sometime. In my youth I thought she sold me out sexually to my stepfather because she needed the money, didn't trust GOD to supply all her needs.
I thought her cruelty was the result of a single mother desperately trying to raise her children the best she could. No, I didn't know that she was a pathological liar. I knew that she would lie and turn to violence to get herself out of a jam. I did not know her whole life was built on a mountain of lies.
I knew she was "nasty" but I didn't know that she was a nymphomaniac. I knew that she was jealous of me sometime. I had no idea how much she truly hated me.
What is my point? A very sick diabolical woman has devoted 88 years to torturing and afflicting her entire family with the worse pain possible. A woman so clever and demented she wrapped herself in GOD's WORD and became an ordained minister. Not once did she think she would ever get caught, ever be exposed.
She certainly committed every sin known to man. Is she ashamed? That remains to be seen. Will her family let her get away? Are they still stiffened by the awful fear she inculcated, nurtured and grew. Will they ever trust our loving GOD to deliver them? Are they still manipulated by her? Will they always lack the confidence to think for themselves?
Is she too great a monster to confront? No, she is just an old woman, an old murdering pervert pretending to love GOD. She has no power! She is not the conjuring Madame she claims to be. She can conjure all day. She will never defeat GOD.
It seems I always "knew" the truth, just fought it, refused to believe it. How could I believe my own mother was such a sick psychopath, a true sociopath. One day I finally looked at her fruit. I do believe she would have gotten away with her clever subterfuge and diabolical acts if she hadn't murdered my grandfather.
Killing your own father was your undoing Martha.
Don't be afraid children. If some monstrous demon or evil is stalking you, pray for them. Wait on the LORD He will deliver you.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Stay in prayer children. Stay in His WORD. Keep reading, keep praying and remain patient.
I am sitting here in my office, (PTL!) on my computer telling you to hold on. Trust the LORD! Not too long ago I was constantly confounded and bewildered. I was trying to love a mother that didn't love me.
I knew she didn't love me all the time. But, I did believe that she loved me sometime. In my youth I thought she sold me out sexually to my stepfather because she needed the money, didn't trust GOD to supply all her needs.
I thought her cruelty was the result of a single mother desperately trying to raise her children the best she could. No, I didn't know that she was a pathological liar. I knew that she would lie and turn to violence to get herself out of a jam. I did not know her whole life was built on a mountain of lies.
I knew she was "nasty" but I didn't know that she was a nymphomaniac. I knew that she was jealous of me sometime. I had no idea how much she truly hated me.
What is my point? A very sick diabolical woman has devoted 88 years to torturing and afflicting her entire family with the worse pain possible. A woman so clever and demented she wrapped herself in GOD's WORD and became an ordained minister. Not once did she think she would ever get caught, ever be exposed.
She certainly committed every sin known to man. Is she ashamed? That remains to be seen. Will her family let her get away? Are they still stiffened by the awful fear she inculcated, nurtured and grew. Will they ever trust our loving GOD to deliver them? Are they still manipulated by her? Will they always lack the confidence to think for themselves?
Is she too great a monster to confront? No, she is just an old woman, an old murdering pervert pretending to love GOD. She has no power! She is not the conjuring Madame she claims to be. She can conjure all day. She will never defeat GOD.
It seems I always "knew" the truth, just fought it, refused to believe it. How could I believe my own mother was such a sick psychopath, a true sociopath. One day I finally looked at her fruit. I do believe she would have gotten away with her clever subterfuge and diabolical acts if she hadn't murdered my grandfather.
Killing your own father was your undoing Martha.
Don't be afraid children. If some monstrous demon or evil is stalking you, pray for them. Wait on the LORD He will deliver you.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Have some courage ...
grow a backbone. Stand up to your enemies. I don't care if she does call herself your "mother", your "grandmother", your "aunt", your "cousin", your "mentor", and LORD forbid your "pastor".
Stand up to evil! Evil can't win! GOD has your back. Don't you believe that? Then act like it. Why do you cave in to evil doers? You go to church every Sunday talking about and singing about Daniel in the Lion's den, the three Hebrew boys in the fiery furnace. Jesus rose on the third day from the dead. Are you just talking? Where is your faith?
You actions prove that you are lying. You talk a good game. Got you pocket full of rabbit's feet and goofer dust. You carry a "lucky hand", a high John the Conqueror root. You run to every "root worker" Sooth Sayer and Madame Swanee you can.
You ought to be ashamed of yourself! Going on the psychic hotline, reading and believing your horoscope.
Where is your courage? What happened to your manhood?
Go Get IT! How dare you let some imbecile steal it. No matter how savagely she beat you. She can't beat you any more. Don't listen to her! You know she is a liar, a selfish c***! Stand up to her! Knock her on her old a** with the Truth!
She is walking around rattling your testicles in her pocket. She has no right to them. She stole them from you when you were a little boy, still a toddler. Take them back! Rip them out of her old demonic hands.
GOD gave you the power! Take it!
Have some Courage! If the truth be told black people would not have suffered in bondage for nearly as long if more of us would have had some courage. Harriet Tubman had to use a gun to lead the few that she did to freedom. Nat Turner, Gabrielle Prosser, Denmark Vesey and even John Brown were all betrayed by snitches.
Stand up to her! Tell her that you know the truth! She is nothing but an old lying murdering pervert masquerading as a preacher!
Stand up to her and snatch your manhood back. You owe her nothing! What has she ever done for you? She succeeded in making our lives a living hell! Every one of us! If she is not a demon from the bowels of hell there has never been one.
She deserves to be skinned alive, disemboweled slowly, devoured in the streets by dogs for what she did to you alone.
Trust GOD! Lean on him. Pretending that you are alright, that we are alright, that we are "normal" will not help. We played along with her game, kept her proclivities secret. Did it help? Did she ever stop? Going along with a demon will not stop a demon. Assuring them that you are afraid of them will not appease them. Show her that you serve a Mighty GOD that will not fail you.
If your faith is not strong yet, pray and fast. Repeat the LORD's prayer until you mean it, until you understand it. I am praying for you brother. I love you and I understand your plight. I pray that my whole family will finally stand up to that ignorant imp.
May the Dear LORD touch your heart with a finger of love and deliver you from the most hideous selfish monster of a mother that ever lived.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Stand up to evil! Evil can't win! GOD has your back. Don't you believe that? Then act like it. Why do you cave in to evil doers? You go to church every Sunday talking about and singing about Daniel in the Lion's den, the three Hebrew boys in the fiery furnace. Jesus rose on the third day from the dead. Are you just talking? Where is your faith?
You actions prove that you are lying. You talk a good game. Got you pocket full of rabbit's feet and goofer dust. You carry a "lucky hand", a high John the Conqueror root. You run to every "root worker" Sooth Sayer and Madame Swanee you can.
You ought to be ashamed of yourself! Going on the psychic hotline, reading and believing your horoscope.
Where is your courage? What happened to your manhood?
Go Get IT! How dare you let some imbecile steal it. No matter how savagely she beat you. She can't beat you any more. Don't listen to her! You know she is a liar, a selfish c***! Stand up to her! Knock her on her old a** with the Truth!
She is walking around rattling your testicles in her pocket. She has no right to them. She stole them from you when you were a little boy, still a toddler. Take them back! Rip them out of her old demonic hands.
GOD gave you the power! Take it!
Have some Courage! If the truth be told black people would not have suffered in bondage for nearly as long if more of us would have had some courage. Harriet Tubman had to use a gun to lead the few that she did to freedom. Nat Turner, Gabrielle Prosser, Denmark Vesey and even John Brown were all betrayed by snitches.
Stand up to her! Tell her that you know the truth! She is nothing but an old lying murdering pervert masquerading as a preacher!
Stand up to her and snatch your manhood back. You owe her nothing! What has she ever done for you? She succeeded in making our lives a living hell! Every one of us! If she is not a demon from the bowels of hell there has never been one.
She deserves to be skinned alive, disemboweled slowly, devoured in the streets by dogs for what she did to you alone.
Trust GOD! Lean on him. Pretending that you are alright, that we are alright, that we are "normal" will not help. We played along with her game, kept her proclivities secret. Did it help? Did she ever stop? Going along with a demon will not stop a demon. Assuring them that you are afraid of them will not appease them. Show her that you serve a Mighty GOD that will not fail you.
If your faith is not strong yet, pray and fast. Repeat the LORD's prayer until you mean it, until you understand it. I am praying for you brother. I love you and I understand your plight. I pray that my whole family will finally stand up to that ignorant imp.
May the Dear LORD touch your heart with a finger of love and deliver you from the most hideous selfish monster of a mother that ever lived.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Ladies...don't trade
your body for money. Do not perform loathsome sex acts for material gain. You will hate yourself. You may grin and congratulate yourself as you stack your dollar bills. But, you will feel empty and used.
He may flatter you and tell you how fine you are. But you know he calls you a whore.
What is every prostitute's greatest problem? Drug abuse. Why? She is trying to forget. She is trying to numb herself. It is a vicious cycle.
You will feel dirty, self conscious. You will never feel good enough. You will suffer with very low self esteem. That will lead you to jealousy. Jealousy will lead you to hatred. You will go from hatred to plotting.
So don't do it. Don't let anyone talk you into it. No! You are not sitting on a gold mine. You are sitting on your behind. Read a book! Go to school! Pursue a real career.
So you have a baby. So what? Trust GOD to see you through. He has never seen the righteous forsaken. So you are not righteous. Get righteous! Live right! Love the LORD. Love your child.
"Go and sin no more."
He may flatter you and tell you how fine you are. But you know he calls you a whore.
What is every prostitute's greatest problem? Drug abuse. Why? She is trying to forget. She is trying to numb herself. It is a vicious cycle.
You will feel dirty, self conscious. You will never feel good enough. You will suffer with very low self esteem. That will lead you to jealousy. Jealousy will lead you to hatred. You will go from hatred to plotting.
So don't do it. Don't let anyone talk you into it. No! You are not sitting on a gold mine. You are sitting on your behind. Read a book! Go to school! Pursue a real career.
So you have a baby. So what? Trust GOD to see you through. He has never seen the righteous forsaken. So you are not righteous. Get righteous! Live right! Love the LORD. Love your child.
"Go and sin no more."
You won't get away!
I don't care who you are, how smart you are. It doesn't matter what color you are or how much money you have. It doesn't matter if you have tricked simpletons into believing you have some kind of occult power. You will NOT get away!
Now you are too ashamed to live and can't die. You are afraid to die. You know that just as soon as you confess, repent, you will surely die. We all have die one day. "We didn't come her to stay always." You mean that you would rather suffer the burdens of your sick awful sins than cast your cares upon the LORD. Do you mean that you would rather leave this world as a foul skank rather than as a woman that finally saw the light and gave her life to Christ?
What are you holding on to? You are not living! You are engulfed in the greatest shame imaginable. You are caught! An abomination! There is no one on this earth worse than you.
You have to feel stupid. What did you do it for? What did you get?
Christ still loves you. What kind of GOD do we serve? A Good GOD! Praise the LORD! A woman of your low caliber can still find Christ, can still give her life to Christ.
Praise the Living LORD! I believe I will shout! I got a two-step for Christ!
Now you are too ashamed to live and can't die. You are afraid to die. You know that just as soon as you confess, repent, you will surely die. We all have die one day. "We didn't come her to stay always." You mean that you would rather suffer the burdens of your sick awful sins than cast your cares upon the LORD. Do you mean that you would rather leave this world as a foul skank rather than as a woman that finally saw the light and gave her life to Christ?
What are you holding on to? You are not living! You are engulfed in the greatest shame imaginable. You are caught! An abomination! There is no one on this earth worse than you.
You have to feel stupid. What did you do it for? What did you get?
Christ still loves you. What kind of GOD do we serve? A Good GOD! Praise the LORD! A woman of your low caliber can still find Christ, can still give her life to Christ.
Praise the Living LORD! I believe I will shout! I got a two-step for Christ!
"Ye serpents,
ye generation of vipers, how can you escape the damnation of hell?" (Matthew 23:33)
Jesus Christ predicted the coming of this awful generation in Matthew 24. You better read it! You better know it!
"For many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and shall deceive many." (Matthew 24:5)
They will come and "de-double-dog-dare-you" to say anything. They will put on robes, acquire titles and Preach!
"And ye shall hear of wars and rumors of wars; see that ye be not troubled: for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet. For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be famines, and pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places. All these are the beginning of sorrows." (6-8)
"And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many. And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold." (11-12)
I can tell you about love waxing cold. I can tell you something about false prophets. I can tell you about two legged serpents walking among us, living with us. Praise the LORD!
I was thirty-three years old going on five. Beaten down, dependent, lost and confused. My mother came to my house and put my "husband" out. Cussed him out and put him out. I was in the bed trying to heal from a twenty-eight hour delivery without an episiotomy. I have forgotten the number of stitches I had. I know I was alone in Southwest Community hospital. For twenty-eight hours I suffered. No husband, no mother, no doctor and very few nurses.
Where was my mother? After all I am her only daughter. Where was my "husband"? He was smarting because I was finally feed up with his mistreatment and called him a faggot. (Which he was)
Back to my mother. Why wasn't she there? She knew that I had three great manuscripts. We laughed and talked on the phone everyday. She was so proud of me, at least that's what she said. I had won a house on a very large piece of land. It was solid red brick sitting on a hill. She said it wasn't s*** because it was in a black neighborhood.
She said my husband was pretty because he was "yalla" and had grey eyes.
They both left me alone in that hospital to suffer. I know now they were both extremely jealous. I also know that she screwed him. Can you imagine? A daughter in the hospital birthing her first and only child and her closeted homosexual husband and demonic mother sharing drugs and illicit sex?
I came home to an empty house. I mean Empty! All my art, clothes, collections, books and manuscripts, throw away! So she came. Put on a show and put him out. The look of shock on his face was priceless.
Vipers! A generation of Vipers! Jesus warned us, told us they were coming. They are here children!
A woman so common and cruel she is not to be believed. Out of all the terrible things she did and continues to do Murdering my grandfather, Jerome Walters was the worse. He was the most Christ like man you could ever know. That's why she killed him. She is a Christ Killer! Any goodness she sees, recognizes, she runs like a rhinoceros to stamp it out.
You have lost Martha! You can't Kill Christ! You can't kill me or shut me up. At least Judas had enough sense to kill himself when he betrayed Jesus. You can't die, won't die and yet you refuse to confess, to repent. The demons you serve left you to fend for yourself. You have been exposed, found out and you have no answer. You have no words to say. Didn't you know this day was coming?
How could you murder such a good man? You permitted and directed you husband to savagely sexually abuse US! And you never said a word. You continued to take his money and to have sex with him after you divorced him. You were the first to put your credit card down for his funeral.
Yes Martha you are an abomination and I am ashamed of you. "Get thee behind me Satan!"
She is fearsome. She will scare the "be-Jesus" out of you. Especially if she has controlled you since birth.
I was thirty-three, standing in her beautiful kitchen with the bay window. My aunt *Pearl was sitting at the kitchen table. Suddenly out of no where she called me a snake. "Gwen's a snake...a sneaky serpent!"
I was grief stricken. I went into shock. No, I didn't say anything. I didn't try to defend myself. "My LORD!" I thought. "She got me again. Stung me again" I was twenty-three when she accused me of being a lesbian because I refused to help her get back with her pretty husband.
You don't need to look for them (the vipers) I assure you they will find you. They are every where. You can't throw a rock without hitting one. Yes, they do out number the righteous. Don't worry GOD will protect you. Lay GOD's WORD on them. They will flee.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Jesus Christ predicted the coming of this awful generation in Matthew 24. You better read it! You better know it!
"For many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and shall deceive many." (Matthew 24:5)
They will come and "de-double-dog-dare-you" to say anything. They will put on robes, acquire titles and Preach!
"And ye shall hear of wars and rumors of wars; see that ye be not troubled: for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet. For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be famines, and pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places. All these are the beginning of sorrows." (6-8)
"And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many. And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold." (11-12)
I can tell you about love waxing cold. I can tell you something about false prophets. I can tell you about two legged serpents walking among us, living with us. Praise the LORD!
I was thirty-three years old going on five. Beaten down, dependent, lost and confused. My mother came to my house and put my "husband" out. Cussed him out and put him out. I was in the bed trying to heal from a twenty-eight hour delivery without an episiotomy. I have forgotten the number of stitches I had. I know I was alone in Southwest Community hospital. For twenty-eight hours I suffered. No husband, no mother, no doctor and very few nurses.
Where was my mother? After all I am her only daughter. Where was my "husband"? He was smarting because I was finally feed up with his mistreatment and called him a faggot. (Which he was)
Back to my mother. Why wasn't she there? She knew that I had three great manuscripts. We laughed and talked on the phone everyday. She was so proud of me, at least that's what she said. I had won a house on a very large piece of land. It was solid red brick sitting on a hill. She said it wasn't s*** because it was in a black neighborhood.
She said my husband was pretty because he was "yalla" and had grey eyes.
They both left me alone in that hospital to suffer. I know now they were both extremely jealous. I also know that she screwed him. Can you imagine? A daughter in the hospital birthing her first and only child and her closeted homosexual husband and demonic mother sharing drugs and illicit sex?
I came home to an empty house. I mean Empty! All my art, clothes, collections, books and manuscripts, throw away! So she came. Put on a show and put him out. The look of shock on his face was priceless.
Vipers! A generation of Vipers! Jesus warned us, told us they were coming. They are here children!
A woman so common and cruel she is not to be believed. Out of all the terrible things she did and continues to do Murdering my grandfather, Jerome Walters was the worse. He was the most Christ like man you could ever know. That's why she killed him. She is a Christ Killer! Any goodness she sees, recognizes, she runs like a rhinoceros to stamp it out.
You have lost Martha! You can't Kill Christ! You can't kill me or shut me up. At least Judas had enough sense to kill himself when he betrayed Jesus. You can't die, won't die and yet you refuse to confess, to repent. The demons you serve left you to fend for yourself. You have been exposed, found out and you have no answer. You have no words to say. Didn't you know this day was coming?
How could you murder such a good man? You permitted and directed you husband to savagely sexually abuse US! And you never said a word. You continued to take his money and to have sex with him after you divorced him. You were the first to put your credit card down for his funeral.
Yes Martha you are an abomination and I am ashamed of you. "Get thee behind me Satan!"
She is fearsome. She will scare the "be-Jesus" out of you. Especially if she has controlled you since birth.
I was thirty-three, standing in her beautiful kitchen with the bay window. My aunt *Pearl was sitting at the kitchen table. Suddenly out of no where she called me a snake. "Gwen's a snake...a sneaky serpent!"
I was grief stricken. I went into shock. No, I didn't say anything. I didn't try to defend myself. "My LORD!" I thought. "She got me again. Stung me again" I was twenty-three when she accused me of being a lesbian because I refused to help her get back with her pretty husband.
You don't need to look for them (the vipers) I assure you they will find you. They are every where. You can't throw a rock without hitting one. Yes, they do out number the righteous. Don't worry GOD will protect you. Lay GOD's WORD on them. They will flee.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Monday, March 11, 2013
What a Joy I have found!
I wish I could put it in a bottle and mail it to you. There is no way for me to package it. There are not enough words in the English language for me to describe it to you.
I know and I know that I know. That's all I know. Praise the LORD!
Born unwanted and pre-hated! Hated before I breathed a breath. Abandoned and done wrong. Tortured, taunted, sexually, physically, psychologically and emotionally abused for my entire life.
Praise the LORD! I'm still here. Pretty much intact, a little raggedy around the edges. But, I'm still here. Still talking back. Still fighting, still standing up for the right.
Make sure you know that I feel good down in my sanctified soul. I feel good!
I feel sorry for the selfish lowlife bottom feeders that just don't get it. I feel sorry for anyone that can't hear the voice of the LORD, those that can't come to Christ. I feel sorry for anyone still trying to hide behind the Bible. Still trying to sound "religious", still trying to fool people when they know that they know they are low down and rotten.
I feel sorry for people that use the power and authority they were afforded to ruin people. I feel sorry for people that have to grin in your face while they twist the knife in your back pretending they are just doing their job.
I feel sorry for any woman forced to be a "mother" because she couldn't afford and abortion. A mad "mother" determined to make those children suffer. So intent on her diabolical plan she has to pretend to love. A woman too cowardly to admit that she can't love, has never loved. A woman so foolish she thinks performing in a pulpit is "preaching".
I feel sorry for people whose feet are swift to run to mischief. A woman who sees a hot stove or a boiling hot pot of coffee and an innocent toddler and must strike. "There are no adults around, I can get away with this!" I feel sorry for any woman that insists on inflicting the same kind of pain she inflicted on that little puppy years ago. She smashed it with a brick, pulverized it. Did it, enjoyed it, then straight away denied it. Skipped right on her merry way.
That was her at eight and that's her at eighty-eight. I may need love and I may need a mother. But, not that bad. "I would rather drink muddy water and sleep in a hollow log." "If I never see her again in this life it will be too soon."
Can you imagine your own mother pretending to love you to your face and contacting the IRS, the police, your job, the college loan collectors, behind your back . All the while "making out" like she loves you so much. That's a sick woman, she is suffering, you better run!
I feel sorry for anyone that can't say no to the devil, must follow every evil impulse. Jealousy will make you do some terrible things. It will make you over kill and over hurt.
Why let her teach three more months? That's too easy. Humiliate her! Make her suffer! You made sure you never gave her a decent computer, an LCD player or any other auxiliary she asked for . You never made her students behave. You ignored most of her behavioral referrals.
What did she do? She tried to teach! She tried to make a difference in some poor child's life. We can't have that. Make sure these public school students march lock step into ignorance. Make sure they never learn that they can make a difference. That "they were born for Greatness!"
Didn't let her say goodbye to her students. Surely some of them liked her, had become attached. You didn't help her pack her things. Told her to "sneak" quietly out the door.
I hope that made you feel good. No matter how good it made you feel. Nothing compares to the feeling of the true Holy Ghost. Nothing can compare to that fire shut up in my bones.
You'll never feel it Martha. You decided long ago that you would rather feel lust and greed. The feeling you got from unnatural sex acts was preferable to you.
You can't take my Joy devil. I don't care who you send or how you send them.
Don't let anyone take your Joy children. When they call you names and line up and lie on you, pray for them. GOD has your back. He will fight your battle.
Praise the LORD! I got the Holy Ghost! Thank You LORD!
I know and I know that I know. That's all I know. Praise the LORD!
Born unwanted and pre-hated! Hated before I breathed a breath. Abandoned and done wrong. Tortured, taunted, sexually, physically, psychologically and emotionally abused for my entire life.
Praise the LORD! I'm still here. Pretty much intact, a little raggedy around the edges. But, I'm still here. Still talking back. Still fighting, still standing up for the right.
Make sure you know that I feel good down in my sanctified soul. I feel good!
I feel sorry for the selfish lowlife bottom feeders that just don't get it. I feel sorry for anyone that can't hear the voice of the LORD, those that can't come to Christ. I feel sorry for anyone still trying to hide behind the Bible. Still trying to sound "religious", still trying to fool people when they know that they know they are low down and rotten.
I feel sorry for people that use the power and authority they were afforded to ruin people. I feel sorry for people that have to grin in your face while they twist the knife in your back pretending they are just doing their job.
I feel sorry for any woman forced to be a "mother" because she couldn't afford and abortion. A mad "mother" determined to make those children suffer. So intent on her diabolical plan she has to pretend to love. A woman too cowardly to admit that she can't love, has never loved. A woman so foolish she thinks performing in a pulpit is "preaching".
I feel sorry for people whose feet are swift to run to mischief. A woman who sees a hot stove or a boiling hot pot of coffee and an innocent toddler and must strike. "There are no adults around, I can get away with this!" I feel sorry for any woman that insists on inflicting the same kind of pain she inflicted on that little puppy years ago. She smashed it with a brick, pulverized it. Did it, enjoyed it, then straight away denied it. Skipped right on her merry way.
That was her at eight and that's her at eighty-eight. I may need love and I may need a mother. But, not that bad. "I would rather drink muddy water and sleep in a hollow log." "If I never see her again in this life it will be too soon."
Can you imagine your own mother pretending to love you to your face and contacting the IRS, the police, your job, the college loan collectors, behind your back . All the while "making out" like she loves you so much. That's a sick woman, she is suffering, you better run!
I feel sorry for anyone that can't say no to the devil, must follow every evil impulse. Jealousy will make you do some terrible things. It will make you over kill and over hurt.
Why let her teach three more months? That's too easy. Humiliate her! Make her suffer! You made sure you never gave her a decent computer, an LCD player or any other auxiliary she asked for . You never made her students behave. You ignored most of her behavioral referrals.
What did she do? She tried to teach! She tried to make a difference in some poor child's life. We can't have that. Make sure these public school students march lock step into ignorance. Make sure they never learn that they can make a difference. That "they were born for Greatness!"
Didn't let her say goodbye to her students. Surely some of them liked her, had become attached. You didn't help her pack her things. Told her to "sneak" quietly out the door.
I hope that made you feel good. No matter how good it made you feel. Nothing compares to the feeling of the true Holy Ghost. Nothing can compare to that fire shut up in my bones.
You'll never feel it Martha. You decided long ago that you would rather feel lust and greed. The feeling you got from unnatural sex acts was preferable to you.
You can't take my Joy devil. I don't care who you send or how you send them.
Don't let anyone take your Joy children. When they call you names and line up and lie on you, pray for them. GOD has your back. He will fight your battle.
Praise the LORD! I got the Holy Ghost! Thank You LORD!
"Prop me up!"
"Prop me up on every leaning side!" I'm leaning LORD, I'm leaning on you. I have been rejected once again. My "boss" called me into his office Friday, March 8, to tell me that it was my last day.
"Unwanted again"; was the first thought that crossed my mind. A mere nothing in his eyes. Did he care that I got up at 4:30 every morning to make sure that I was prepared and equipped to "teach" the "little darlings" left in my charge. Did he ever notice that I had never been late or absent one single day?
What about all of the money I spent out of my meager wages? I bought basket ball hoops, and one that kept score, a felt dart game,exercise balls, Nerf balls, all to keep my students excited because they accused me of being boring.
What about all of the tissue, hand sanitizer, pencils and pens. I am sure I bought tons of candy to bribe and appease this motley crew. I didn't mind. I love teaching. My greatest joy is motivating and stimulating young people to be the best they can be.
So, they didn't want me. Many, not all, made that fact abundantly clear everyday. I absorbed their insulting remarks. I let them call me names and pick at me for being old and slow. I forgave them. "Forgive them LORD for they know not what they do."
I couldn't do anything right at that school!. I was too old, too short, I wore too many rings. My daily affirmation; "I was born for Greatness! If I am to be what I want to be, it is up to Me!" was considered to be just another worthless chore by most of my students.
Don't ask them to stand. None of them pledge to the flag, not even the students in ROTC. They sit while in uniform. I told them that they live in the greatest nation in the world and they pelted me with insults and said that isn't so. I asked the young man to name a better country and he sneered; "Mexico!" because they have better weed.
Don't ask them to read the book or keep a notebook. Don't ask them to bring their own supplies to class. "That's your job"; one "student" told me repeatedly. "You're trying to make us read the book, to think on our own."; one Advanced Placement student complained; "we don't do that anymore...I can't learn like that."
I could tell "they" were very happy to see me go. So now they are rid of me. I was told that it would be best for me if I simply went into the county office and resigned. "I WILL NOT!" I've done nothing wrong. I taught for 30 plus years without one single blemish on my record. I was named Teacher of the Year in 2000. Stanford University honored me and credited me for sending them a great student. Every year my students scored the highest on the GHSGT in social studies. My students always earned the highest scores on the APUSH exam. In 2002 my students earned four 4s.
I will not be pushed around and bullied by "grade grubbing" parents. I will not put a bridle in my mouth and guard every word I say to students that call me out of my name and pelt me with insults. I will not cow tie to a school that chose the easy route of merely teaching the test. They have taken "teaching to the test" up a notch and simply teach the test.
I can't do it. In all good conscious I can't do it. If it cost me my job I can't do it. I Will NOT Shut Up! No one, no system will take my first amendment freedom from me.
Unwanted again! Cast out, talked but and hated again! Hold me up LORD. Take my hand. I know that you will never forsake me. David was chosen by GOD but hated and persecuted by King Saul. As a result he wrote Psalm 13; "How long wilt thou forget me, O LORD? forever? how long wilt thou hide thy face from me? How long shall I take counsel in my soul, having sorrow in my heart daily? how long shall mine enemy be exalted over me? Consider and hear me, O LORD my GOD: lighten mine eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death. Lest mine enemy say, I have prevailed against him; and those that trouble me rejoice when I am moved. But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation. I will sing unto the LORD, because he hath dealt bountifully with me."
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and cloak you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
"Unwanted again"; was the first thought that crossed my mind. A mere nothing in his eyes. Did he care that I got up at 4:30 every morning to make sure that I was prepared and equipped to "teach" the "little darlings" left in my charge. Did he ever notice that I had never been late or absent one single day?
What about all of the money I spent out of my meager wages? I bought basket ball hoops, and one that kept score, a felt dart game,exercise balls, Nerf balls, all to keep my students excited because they accused me of being boring.
What about all of the tissue, hand sanitizer, pencils and pens. I am sure I bought tons of candy to bribe and appease this motley crew. I didn't mind. I love teaching. My greatest joy is motivating and stimulating young people to be the best they can be.
So, they didn't want me. Many, not all, made that fact abundantly clear everyday. I absorbed their insulting remarks. I let them call me names and pick at me for being old and slow. I forgave them. "Forgive them LORD for they know not what they do."
I couldn't do anything right at that school!. I was too old, too short, I wore too many rings. My daily affirmation; "I was born for Greatness! If I am to be what I want to be, it is up to Me!" was considered to be just another worthless chore by most of my students.
Don't ask them to stand. None of them pledge to the flag, not even the students in ROTC. They sit while in uniform. I told them that they live in the greatest nation in the world and they pelted me with insults and said that isn't so. I asked the young man to name a better country and he sneered; "Mexico!" because they have better weed.
Don't ask them to read the book or keep a notebook. Don't ask them to bring their own supplies to class. "That's your job"; one "student" told me repeatedly. "You're trying to make us read the book, to think on our own."; one Advanced Placement student complained; "we don't do that anymore...I can't learn like that."
I could tell "they" were very happy to see me go. So now they are rid of me. I was told that it would be best for me if I simply went into the county office and resigned. "I WILL NOT!" I've done nothing wrong. I taught for 30 plus years without one single blemish on my record. I was named Teacher of the Year in 2000. Stanford University honored me and credited me for sending them a great student. Every year my students scored the highest on the GHSGT in social studies. My students always earned the highest scores on the APUSH exam. In 2002 my students earned four 4s.
I will not be pushed around and bullied by "grade grubbing" parents. I will not put a bridle in my mouth and guard every word I say to students that call me out of my name and pelt me with insults. I will not cow tie to a school that chose the easy route of merely teaching the test. They have taken "teaching to the test" up a notch and simply teach the test.
I can't do it. In all good conscious I can't do it. If it cost me my job I can't do it. I Will NOT Shut Up! No one, no system will take my first amendment freedom from me.
Unwanted again! Cast out, talked but and hated again! Hold me up LORD. Take my hand. I know that you will never forsake me. David was chosen by GOD but hated and persecuted by King Saul. As a result he wrote Psalm 13; "How long wilt thou forget me, O LORD? forever? how long wilt thou hide thy face from me? How long shall I take counsel in my soul, having sorrow in my heart daily? how long shall mine enemy be exalted over me? Consider and hear me, O LORD my GOD: lighten mine eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death. Lest mine enemy say, I have prevailed against him; and those that trouble me rejoice when I am moved. But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation. I will sing unto the LORD, because he hath dealt bountifully with me."
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and cloak you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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