"You better have Jesus...

that's all."  What a treasure I have found! Please listen to that old "blues" gospel song by Washington Phillips recorded between 1927 and 1929.

It's beautiful!  The message is even better; "You better have Jesus and that's all."

I Praise the LORD! I have Jesus! Thank you LORD!

I'm feeling a little melancholy today.  I got fired and forgot to take my medication last night.  I'm mot worried about my job, GOD supplies all my needs.

Today my mind is on the "lost" . The people too easily intimidated by evil.  Faithless people that will not trust GOD.  I know they say they do but, their actions sat they don't.

The "lost" think revealing GOD's Gospel truth is some kind of revenge.  They insist on believing that my testimony is some form of revenge.  I do want the world to know my story.  That's not revenge, that's justice.

GOD will punish ALL evil doers in His own time and in His own way.  Am I hurt? Of course I am. Am I disappointed in my life, the way it turned out? Sometimes. Again, I know GOD has a plan, He has a purpose.

I can not help looking back over my life without being shocked, stupefied.  That woman did so many sick things, so many horrible things.  I witnessed them, endured them but, I didn't know.  She treated me, treated us like she hated us.  But, we didn't know.  Is it that we didn't know or we refused to believe?

It couldn't be.  No one on this earth could be so evil, so cruel, so calculating.  It is humanly impossible for anyone to be that selfish, greedy and conniving.  Not My Mother!  I endured the shame and humiliation for nearly all my life unable to accept the truth.

She could be so sweet.  Just purr the kindest words in your ear.  She knew how to make me feel special.  She made me believe that she really loved me.  She was just putting on for "dem other n*****". I was different, I was special.  She promised to look out for me in her will.

You poor lost woman.  Without Christ you are nothing.  Your daddy told you everyday.   Who knew that you were just pretending when you made us go to church Every Sunday!? I went to every Sunday school, Vacation Bible School, church conference and retreat.

Who knew that you had nothing but hatred and jealousy in your heart? You knew and you know!
You better get right! You better repent.  The day is far spent.  None of us came here to stay always.

Yea, you fell pretty low.   But, lying and denying will not help you get better.  Tearing me down to my relatives and anyone that will listen is not going to help your soul.  Hating me for knowing and telling the absolute truth will not help you either.  Only Christ can pick you up.  Why don't you listen to some of your own cds and tapes?  You helped others.  Why can't you help yourself?

"You better have Jesus!"