Jesus said;

"Fear NO man!"  Jesus can tell you that because He has your back.  He can not lie!

Jesus must have whispered that in my ear for over 50 years before I actually believed Him.  I heard and I repeated but I still feared.  My fear went deep.  It was inculcated by the most evil woman on the face of this earth.

I was two years old the first time I remember seeing her evil violent temper.  She tried to kill my uncle with a shot gun for criticizing the way she dressed me.  I was wearing a little pair of dirty raggedy "draws", my hair wasn't combed and I had a snotty nose.  In the course of their exchange he made the mistake of calling her a whore. (Which she was) She tried to kill him! Got the shotgun which her mother wrestled it out of her hands.

I will never forget the foul words that spewed from her mouth.  The next time all those words were directed against me.  Me, a mere three year old child.  My cousin asked me if I knew who my father was and I told him, then proudly told her that I told him.  She went ballistic! "You keep my muthaf***** name out 'cho  luddle black muthaf******* mouf!" was just the beginning of her tirade.  She held me hostage in the woods for what felt like hours cursing me. Perhaps beating me.

When this kind of brutality is witnessed you become conditioned and complicit. You join forces with your enslaver. " Go along to get along."  You grow to hate every day of your long miserable life.  You secretly hope the b**** would hurry up and die.

You falsely believe that her death will finally bring you peace.  She is the kind of b**** that you can't escape even in death.  Every day you live those terrible memories revisit you.  You will never get her out of your mind.

The best you can do is warn others.  Talking about her, exposing her to the world may help.  Perhaps it can save some other poor child from such a monster.

Be abundantly blessed children.  Do not let any imp from satan intimidate you or take your JOY!