Don't pretend that you are mad with me because GOD said "Woe Unto You!". "Woe unto you." all you back bitters, liars and snakes. You are going to get your just reward. Don't hate me for knowing GOD's Almighty Truth, for being His messenger. You knew when you started out wrong that you were going to reap exactly what you sowed.
Don't confuse GOD's mentality with your feeble mind. You love and adore people that praise you, that pretend to honor you. GOD is not pleased with your fake honor. GOD is not counting how many times you attended church, led the service, preached and prayed. GOD is not counting how much scripture you memorized. GOD knows your corrupt heart. He knows how many souls you ruined, led astray, kept from salvation.
Why did you do it? Did you prove that you were smarter than GOD? Or did you prove you could manipulate simple minds?
You are a liar and the truth is not in you. You confessed your deep hatred for my brother to me. Claimed HE ruined your life. You had him at sixteen, he didn't have you. When have you ever cared about him? When have you ever cared about a living soul on this earth? You hated and lied on your daddy. Claimed you would not have gotten pregnant if he had not been running a juke joint. Are you really that ignorant, that stupid? You hated your own mother, claimed you would have been prettier if your ignorant daddy had married a prettier woman. One less "Afree-coon-ish".
What did I do to you? Made you miss a party when you went into labor with me. Made you shame when the doctor at the indigent hospital commented that you were in the exact same position just twelve months prior. Did you hate me because my father refused to marry you? You claimed it was because men didn't marry women with ready made families. You knew and know it was because you were a notorious whore bent on violence. No one wants to marry a clamorous vulgar woman no matter how beautiful she claims to be.
Who told you that your color was a get over? Who told you that your "damn near white" skin was all you would ever need? Didn't any one ever sit down and talk to you about your morals?
DEGENERATE! You are a degenerate. That anger and violence you spewed was meant for you. That revulsion you felt was meant for you. Hard headed, willful, carnal, lustful, sneaky and wracked with guilt. I see through you. I didn't want to see. Still don't want to see. But, you went too far. There is no hope for you. Only caring for yourself to your dying day.
You murdered your own daddy, a good men and you could not possibly care less. You would just as soon take a life as smash a roach. You hate me because I can see through you. The truth is I would have never caught on if I had not obeyed GOD. GOD told me to forgive you, let "bygones be bygones." I let it all go. You know I was a kind loving daughter showering you with gifts. I took care of your through both of your surgeries.
What did you do? Increased, intensified your witchcraft. Told lies, plotted and burned in your envy. You may not read this blog. I know you have a computer. I know you have the capability. You can't hide from GOD's truth forever. You can't remain silent ignoring me, ignoring GOD's Truth.
You lived a horrible life Martha, stank from beginning to end. Some may line up with you. Some may still insist on defending you. I pray for them . Now, you could release them from their pain and anguish. You could admit your awful truth before you check out. I think that would please GOD. You could repent. You let your pride ruin you. You know your color is no special gift. You know that you are as common as bat s***. There is no point in being left out of the Kingdom because you played the fool for eighty-seven years. "Even in the last hour you can come into the Kingdom."
Won't you come into GOD's wonderful Kingdom, Martha? Won't you finally admit that in your attempt to rob others you only succeeded in robbing yourself?
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf and cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Friday, November 23, 2012
Heal me LORD!
No one cam take the daily bludgeoning and humiliation this world hands out and think they are unscathed, that they are not affected.
Yea, I'm messed up alright. I am a mess, shook senseless. I have just enough brains left to love the LORD. I know that only GOD can heal me. I have enough strength left to cry out to the LORD; "Save me JESUS!...have mercy upon me. Have mercy on my family. Free us LORD. Free us from that albatross, that ghostly haint that still haunts us. That malicious monster that still lives to destroy us.
Banish her LORD. Banish her from my presence, from my dreams, from my thoughts. Heal me LORD! Bless me. Bless my family. Bless my daughter.
Restore us LORD. Give us back everything that monster stole from us.
In JESUS' name I pray. Amen.
Yea, I'm messed up alright. I am a mess, shook senseless. I have just enough brains left to love the LORD. I know that only GOD can heal me. I have enough strength left to cry out to the LORD; "Save me JESUS!...have mercy upon me. Have mercy on my family. Free us LORD. Free us from that albatross, that ghostly haint that still haunts us. That malicious monster that still lives to destroy us.
Banish her LORD. Banish her from my presence, from my dreams, from my thoughts. Heal me LORD! Bless me. Bless my family. Bless my daughter.
Restore us LORD. Give us back everything that monster stole from us.
In JESUS' name I pray. Amen.
Pluck it out!
"And if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: it is better for thee to enter into life with one eye, rather than having two eyes to be cast into hell fire." (Matthew 18:9)
Red letter WORDS, meaning Jesus delivered them. These WORDS resonate with me. I am gradually gaining more understanding. GOD does not want us to gouge our eyes out. He wants us to cut out the source of our pain and anguish. If something is causing you to sin you should rid yourself of that thing.
I witnessed it. I was nineteen, too young to fully understand but certainly old enough to remember. There she was my mother in the day room of her lover's barracks. Right there in the middle of the room engaging in a sexual act with multiple young men. AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I wanted to gouge my own eyes out. Thankfully the young soldiers had enough decency to move to another room when they saw all eyes upon them.
"That's her mother." "That's her mother" "That's her mother" the other young recruits whispered. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what to say. I pretended to be stoic, unmoved, unshaken. I wanted to die. I wanted the floor to open up and swallow me.
The night finally ended. We climbed in her Cadillac and drove back to 825 Dwain Drive. I was screaming and crying; "Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy MOTHER!!!???" She answered me not one word, looked straight ahead. Eyes fixed on Bragg Boulevard she drove straight ahead. She didn't say anything but I could tell that she was angry with me for mentioning it. I could not know then. It would take me decades to realize how much she hated me.
If you ever wondered what a reprobate looked like or acted like, now you know. When any person falls low enough, dumb enough to solicit satan for power that is exactly what will happen to you. You will live your life in a fog. You will become a zombie doing every evil thing the crosses your mind. The power and wealth you sought you will never have. You will be so ashamed you will not be able to function. You will grow blind with hate and wax worse and worse.
Stay out of graveyards harvesting dirt from murdered men's graves. If someone or something is keeping you from GOD's best, from His Joy and the Holy Ghost, pluck it out.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and cloak you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Red letter WORDS, meaning Jesus delivered them. These WORDS resonate with me. I am gradually gaining more understanding. GOD does not want us to gouge our eyes out. He wants us to cut out the source of our pain and anguish. If something is causing you to sin you should rid yourself of that thing.
I witnessed it. I was nineteen, too young to fully understand but certainly old enough to remember. There she was my mother in the day room of her lover's barracks. Right there in the middle of the room engaging in a sexual act with multiple young men. AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I wanted to gouge my own eyes out. Thankfully the young soldiers had enough decency to move to another room when they saw all eyes upon them.
"That's her mother." "That's her mother" "That's her mother" the other young recruits whispered. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what to say. I pretended to be stoic, unmoved, unshaken. I wanted to die. I wanted the floor to open up and swallow me.
The night finally ended. We climbed in her Cadillac and drove back to 825 Dwain Drive. I was screaming and crying; "Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy MOTHER!!!???" She answered me not one word, looked straight ahead. Eyes fixed on Bragg Boulevard she drove straight ahead. She didn't say anything but I could tell that she was angry with me for mentioning it. I could not know then. It would take me decades to realize how much she hated me.
If you ever wondered what a reprobate looked like or acted like, now you know. When any person falls low enough, dumb enough to solicit satan for power that is exactly what will happen to you. You will live your life in a fog. You will become a zombie doing every evil thing the crosses your mind. The power and wealth you sought you will never have. You will be so ashamed you will not be able to function. You will grow blind with hate and wax worse and worse.
Stay out of graveyards harvesting dirt from murdered men's graves. If someone or something is keeping you from GOD's best, from His Joy and the Holy Ghost, pluck it out.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and cloak you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Thursday, November 22, 2012
"Prop me up on every leaning side"
"...prop me up on eva' leanin' side LAWD!" That was a prayer I heard often. Those old "country folk" didn't have college degrees, never studied in a school of divinity but they knew something about GOD and salvation.
If you are human, born of a woman, you have some leaning sides. You have some imperfections. Recognize them. Pray for GOD to intervene in your life.
Life lesson #1: quit pretending that your mother is a saint, the virgin Mary, loves you more than she does herself. True, yours may be. But in actuality birthing a baby transforms very few women. She is what she is.
As a society we gang up on the man for abandoning his manly duty. We scorn the man that walks away from the woman he impregnated. We chastise the man that beats his wife or girlfriend. We never want to admit the fact that some of these women drive men away. Some of these women are horrible whores that get pregnant deliberately. Scheming females exist.
Life lesson #2: Live right. Don't fornicate. Don't impregnate a woman that you would not marry. Flee fornication. "If you can not flee, then marry." If you want a woman with high moral standards you must have high moral standards.
Life lesson #3: Examine your scars. Know your frailties. Do not deny that you bear the afflictions of a cruel monster. Don't pretend that you are now suddenly "normal", that you can handle it. You can't handle it! You can't stand it. Take some medication. Seek professional help.
Life lesson #4: Do forgive but never forget. "Know ye the Truth!" No matter how horrible that truth is, face it. Cry, mourn, then release. Do not spend your time trying to turn a sows ear into a silk purse. "She is what she is."
The first time I heard her say it I was five. "Duh closer kin duh deeper in! he-he-he-he-he-he-he" Case closed! A total reprobate unfit to "mother". The fact is she should have been arrested for her assaults and stabbings. Immoral, no moral compass. A "thing" too repugnant to know.
What did we do wrong as a family? We tried to ignore her proclivities. Some one thrust her into the church, made her the MC (Mistress of Ceremony) for everything. That was a mistake. She should have been shunned, cast out. ("Shun the very presence of evil." Jesus)
Some one thought watching her carefully would work. Others thought prayers would save her. It turns out we had a plan and she had the master plan. A master plan that involved witchcraft and craftiness, deeds so demonic they can't be mentioned on this blog. Don't you dare think that old reprobate serpent has changed because she is old. It yet appears that she will go down in flames, loyal to satan, rotten to the core.
Life lesson #5: Listen to the voice of the LORD. Pray for courage to face your demons. Know that your enemies will be of your own household and you can't fix them. Only Almighty GOD can fix them.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
If you are human, born of a woman, you have some leaning sides. You have some imperfections. Recognize them. Pray for GOD to intervene in your life.
Life lesson #1: quit pretending that your mother is a saint, the virgin Mary, loves you more than she does herself. True, yours may be. But in actuality birthing a baby transforms very few women. She is what she is.
As a society we gang up on the man for abandoning his manly duty. We scorn the man that walks away from the woman he impregnated. We chastise the man that beats his wife or girlfriend. We never want to admit the fact that some of these women drive men away. Some of these women are horrible whores that get pregnant deliberately. Scheming females exist.
Life lesson #2: Live right. Don't fornicate. Don't impregnate a woman that you would not marry. Flee fornication. "If you can not flee, then marry." If you want a woman with high moral standards you must have high moral standards.
Life lesson #3: Examine your scars. Know your frailties. Do not deny that you bear the afflictions of a cruel monster. Don't pretend that you are now suddenly "normal", that you can handle it. You can't handle it! You can't stand it. Take some medication. Seek professional help.
Life lesson #4: Do forgive but never forget. "Know ye the Truth!" No matter how horrible that truth is, face it. Cry, mourn, then release. Do not spend your time trying to turn a sows ear into a silk purse. "She is what she is."
The first time I heard her say it I was five. "Duh closer kin duh deeper in! he-he-he-he-he-he-he" Case closed! A total reprobate unfit to "mother". The fact is she should have been arrested for her assaults and stabbings. Immoral, no moral compass. A "thing" too repugnant to know.
What did we do wrong as a family? We tried to ignore her proclivities. Some one thrust her into the church, made her the MC (Mistress of Ceremony) for everything. That was a mistake. She should have been shunned, cast out. ("Shun the very presence of evil." Jesus)
Some one thought watching her carefully would work. Others thought prayers would save her. It turns out we had a plan and she had the master plan. A master plan that involved witchcraft and craftiness, deeds so demonic they can't be mentioned on this blog. Don't you dare think that old reprobate serpent has changed because she is old. It yet appears that she will go down in flames, loyal to satan, rotten to the core.
Life lesson #5: Listen to the voice of the LORD. Pray for courage to face your demons. Know that your enemies will be of your own household and you can't fix them. Only Almighty GOD can fix them.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Modicum
Modicum. That is my vocabulary word for the day. Meaning; minimum, drop, jot, fragment, sliver, smidgen, small quantity, mite, bit, pinch, trifle, small amount, dash, little bit, particle, dab, tinge, sprinkling, touch, speck, snatch, fraction, grain, iota, handful, crumb, morsel, whit, atom, scrap, inch.
Modicum of happiness. That's all the notorious Mathy Jane (pronounced Moth-ee Jane) was going to let you have. She intended for you to have just enough happiness to know that you were totally miserable.
Christmas was her favorite time of the year. She was going to be sure to not give you s***! Now dare to be bold enough to neglect her if you dare. No, it never crossed your mind to be that stupid.
Every year I recall that scraggly pine tree leaning half buried in a bucket of white sand in a rusty foot tub with four broken bulbs dangling from it! What was the point? She had my brother drive out to the country in her Cadillac to pull the thing out of the ground.
I was so embarrassed when my friends inquired about it. It sat in the corner of our torn up living room. Junk, s***, clean clothes, dirty clothes and dishes piled a mile high. Clean up after her if you wanted to. The more you cleaned the more she messed. Nothing had a proper place. In she marched from work. Kicked off her shoes. They went flying hither thither and yon. Followed by the wig, the ear bobs, necklaces, scarves, skirts , blouses, coats, jackets, eye glasses, car keys. Stripped to her bra and half slip she marched around the house barking orders.
Did I hate her? I honestly can't say. I did hate Saturdays, the days I knew that b**** would be home. Would start hollering "Git duh F*** Up!" at about six am. That demon never slept. She never got any rest. She was never sleepy. I guess she was afraid she was going to miss something, a modicum of joy was going to slip by her.
I just want her to know that while she was deliberately robbing us she was robbing her stupid demonic self.
I am going to squeeze out as much joy as I can in the years that I have left. One of my greatest joys is revealing You! You husband beating fornicating baby raping brutalizing lying hussy!
Modicum of happiness. That's all the notorious Mathy Jane (pronounced Moth-ee Jane) was going to let you have. She intended for you to have just enough happiness to know that you were totally miserable.
Christmas was her favorite time of the year. She was going to be sure to not give you s***! Now dare to be bold enough to neglect her if you dare. No, it never crossed your mind to be that stupid.
Every year I recall that scraggly pine tree leaning half buried in a bucket of white sand in a rusty foot tub with four broken bulbs dangling from it! What was the point? She had my brother drive out to the country in her Cadillac to pull the thing out of the ground.
I was so embarrassed when my friends inquired about it. It sat in the corner of our torn up living room. Junk, s***, clean clothes, dirty clothes and dishes piled a mile high. Clean up after her if you wanted to. The more you cleaned the more she messed. Nothing had a proper place. In she marched from work. Kicked off her shoes. They went flying hither thither and yon. Followed by the wig, the ear bobs, necklaces, scarves, skirts , blouses, coats, jackets, eye glasses, car keys. Stripped to her bra and half slip she marched around the house barking orders.
Did I hate her? I honestly can't say. I did hate Saturdays, the days I knew that b**** would be home. Would start hollering "Git duh F*** Up!" at about six am. That demon never slept. She never got any rest. She was never sleepy. I guess she was afraid she was going to miss something, a modicum of joy was going to slip by her.
I just want her to know that while she was deliberately robbing us she was robbing her stupid demonic self.
I am going to squeeze out as much joy as I can in the years that I have left. One of my greatest joys is revealing You! You husband beating fornicating baby raping brutalizing lying hussy!
Can a sadist be saved?
Can a pathological liar quit lying? What if they have been lying for over EIGHTY-SEVEN years?
If they have the faith. A tiny bit of faith. The faith the size of a mustard seed. If her minions will quit "cooning", quit supporting her. Quit cloaking and ducking. Quit pretending. Quit playing her childish games.
True, we did what we had to do as children to survive her. She was a evil demonic terrorist slick enough to play "Christian" a few hours every Sunday. Didn't you ever wonder why she demanded to keep her distance from her saintly true Christian father? Why she demanded our secrecy?
Sixty-five acres of prime farm land and a huge farm house. A father that welcomed her. Deeded land and the house to her many years before he died. No thanks! she said. Claimed she hated the country, "them damn sticks". No it was that watchful eye she avoided. Any hint of goodness, innocence riles her. Causes her to plot. Look at her eyes! It is in her eyes! They turn fire red I tell you. They look like burning coals. It freaks me out to tell about it.
You so called friends and so called well wishers that tell me to get over it, to let it go. You go straight to hell with your blind dumb selves. You are dumb enough to "sow seeds" into "ministries" thinking you are going to reap a blessing. If you ever read your Bible you would know that you don't have to buy a blessing from GOD. All you have to do is ask. Ask, live right, love the LORD. How man y of these ministers ever tell you to live right?
You can't preach to me standing there with your dyed slicked back hair or toupee, clown suit, crotch stuffed with a roll of quarters. Quit playing the fool. Open your eyes! Throw these demons out of GOD's pulpit.
The fact is she is controlled by a demonic spirit completely. Every thought she has is corrupt. There is NO goodness in her! A thin layer of poorly disguised "Christian" love and maternal instinct is the only thing that prevents her from being joined at the hip with satan. No shame, no regret, just an insatiable hunger for more evil.
What can free Martha from this demon? What can lop its hideous head off? Prayer! Prayer and the Truth. Her victims yet tethered, ruined, suffering need to come to their senses and run!
"And GOD did extraordinary miracles by the hands of Paul, so that handkerchiefs or aprons were carried away from his body to the sick, and diseases left them and THE EVIL SPIRITS CAME OUT OF THEM." (Acts 19:11-12)
Yes, a sadist can be saved. I am not Paul but I do pray for Martha's salvation. I can no longer fear her. I can't continue to be terrified in order to feed her fragile ego.
No, she is not the only one that needs to come to Christ. We all need to come to Christ. "The times of ignorance GOD overlooked, but now He commands all men everywhere to repent, because He has fixed a day on which He will judge the world in righteousness by a man whom He has appointed, and of this He is given assurance to all men by raising him from the dead." (Acts 17:30-31)
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)i
If they have the faith. A tiny bit of faith. The faith the size of a mustard seed. If her minions will quit "cooning", quit supporting her. Quit cloaking and ducking. Quit pretending. Quit playing her childish games.
True, we did what we had to do as children to survive her. She was a evil demonic terrorist slick enough to play "Christian" a few hours every Sunday. Didn't you ever wonder why she demanded to keep her distance from her saintly true Christian father? Why she demanded our secrecy?
Sixty-five acres of prime farm land and a huge farm house. A father that welcomed her. Deeded land and the house to her many years before he died. No thanks! she said. Claimed she hated the country, "them damn sticks". No it was that watchful eye she avoided. Any hint of goodness, innocence riles her. Causes her to plot. Look at her eyes! It is in her eyes! They turn fire red I tell you. They look like burning coals. It freaks me out to tell about it.
You so called friends and so called well wishers that tell me to get over it, to let it go. You go straight to hell with your blind dumb selves. You are dumb enough to "sow seeds" into "ministries" thinking you are going to reap a blessing. If you ever read your Bible you would know that you don't have to buy a blessing from GOD. All you have to do is ask. Ask, live right, love the LORD. How man y of these ministers ever tell you to live right?
You can't preach to me standing there with your dyed slicked back hair or toupee, clown suit, crotch stuffed with a roll of quarters. Quit playing the fool. Open your eyes! Throw these demons out of GOD's pulpit.
The fact is she is controlled by a demonic spirit completely. Every thought she has is corrupt. There is NO goodness in her! A thin layer of poorly disguised "Christian" love and maternal instinct is the only thing that prevents her from being joined at the hip with satan. No shame, no regret, just an insatiable hunger for more evil.
What can free Martha from this demon? What can lop its hideous head off? Prayer! Prayer and the Truth. Her victims yet tethered, ruined, suffering need to come to their senses and run!
"And GOD did extraordinary miracles by the hands of Paul, so that handkerchiefs or aprons were carried away from his body to the sick, and diseases left them and THE EVIL SPIRITS CAME OUT OF THEM." (Acts 19:11-12)
Yes, a sadist can be saved. I am not Paul but I do pray for Martha's salvation. I can no longer fear her. I can't continue to be terrified in order to feed her fragile ego.
No, she is not the only one that needs to come to Christ. We all need to come to Christ. "The times of ignorance GOD overlooked, but now He commands all men everywhere to repent, because He has fixed a day on which He will judge the world in righteousness by a man whom He has appointed, and of this He is given assurance to all men by raising him from the dead." (Acts 17:30-31)
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)i
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
"You ain't dat pretty!"
She always told us how pretty she was. According to her she was the prettiest thing livin'. "..none befo' and none to follow." Not only was she extraordinarily beautiful she was equally brilliant.
Now the problem we had with her sick cruelty was our own fault. Our eyes were lying, she didn't do it, we were crazy and the whole world was against her. Besides if our "sorry a** black a**n**** daddies had'ah married hur" she could afford to be a better parent. After all we cost too much, we ate too much, we needed too much. It was our fault for tempting "hur" with our beautiful bodies.
"Take dat tuh yo' grave ni!'" So, let me get this right. I am supposed to keep you a secret? I am supposed to look back over my life and recall all of the cruel sick things you did and be afraid that you might do worse?
"F" you b****! and the train you rolled up in! You are not that fine or smart. Yes you are mean. GOD will have to search the world over to find one more cruel than you.
It is funny how you always called me dumb, called us all a bunch of dummies. You are the one without a college degree.
You always hated Africans, dark skin people. You turn out to be the primitive one. There is no witch-doctor in the deepest darkest jungle of Africa more primitive than you.
The plain fact is that you were stuck on yourself, loved yourself more than anything. Thought you were smart enough to do as you pleased. You did just as you pleased. Made a complete mess out of your life.
Well... you ain't that fine or smart either.
Now the problem we had with her sick cruelty was our own fault. Our eyes were lying, she didn't do it, we were crazy and the whole world was against her. Besides if our "sorry a** black a**n**** daddies had'ah married hur" she could afford to be a better parent. After all we cost too much, we ate too much, we needed too much. It was our fault for tempting "hur" with our beautiful bodies.
"Take dat tuh yo' grave ni!'" So, let me get this right. I am supposed to keep you a secret? I am supposed to look back over my life and recall all of the cruel sick things you did and be afraid that you might do worse?
"F" you b****! and the train you rolled up in! You are not that fine or smart. Yes you are mean. GOD will have to search the world over to find one more cruel than you.
It is funny how you always called me dumb, called us all a bunch of dummies. You are the one without a college degree.
You always hated Africans, dark skin people. You turn out to be the primitive one. There is no witch-doctor in the deepest darkest jungle of Africa more primitive than you.
The plain fact is that you were stuck on yourself, loved yourself more than anything. Thought you were smart enough to do as you pleased. You did just as you pleased. Made a complete mess out of your life.
Well... you ain't that fine or smart either.
Just One!
Just one! That is all that is needed to call her out. Just one brave soul willing to be humiliated, crucified, hung on a cross and scorned.
What is the difference? That is all you ever did to me any way, made me the fodder for your humiliation, the butt of your cruel jokes. GOD can't get hell hot enough for you. Very few people brutally sexually assault their own children. (I hope)
You did it. I'm telling. You are hiding. You've never been this quiet in your whole eighty-seven years of existence. Didn't the devil warn you that he was going to let you down one day? Were you enjoying your debauchery too much to hear?
Granddaddy warned you to keep "yo' hands and mouf" off me. Couldn't listen could you? Always had your way didn't you? Always loved making the whole world miserable because you were miserable. Now I know why you cussed and raised holy hell 24/7. Miserable! You were a miserable wretch wracked with guilt for your filthy life. You had to look at my brother (maybe brothers) every day and know what you had done to him (them). No he wasn't going to tell. Who could tell anything so sick and depraved?
You still did it. Had sense enough to hide it. You claim to hate men. You hate period. You hate GOD. You hate all authority. I am going to tell you what you told me. "Get ova' it!"
GOD is large and in charge Miss Mam. You are not getting off of this planet alive. Still strutting around jingling your five son's testicles in your pocket. Happy as a lark, falsely proclaiming that you got over, that you fooled GOD. You may have fooled them n****** in Simon Temple A.M.E. Zion church(that's what you call them), but everyone is not your stooge.
"Suffer the little children to come unto me and forbid them not the kingdom of heaven." Why did you target children?
You have never picked on anyone your own age, your equal. You slammed my head in the wall when I was too little to defend myself. You sexually abused me when you thought I didn't have sense enough to know you were wrong.
Tell GOD you are sorry. Tell the world you are sorry. Tell your church you are sorry for taking up their time.
Just one. Just one righteous brother, cousin or grandchild. Just one human being on this planet willing to risk scorn and humiliation for Christ Jesus. There are children suffering and dying in hospitals right now because of selfish lustful "adults". Pedophiles that can't keep their lecherous hands off of GOD's children.
All of you remain silent spectators. Shaking your heads, walking by, minding your own business. May your life be spared. May you never know the deep dark secrets of your family. May you get to pretend that your life and your loved ones are perfect to the day you die.
"If you did it unto the least one of these my children, you did it unto me."
Do something for the "least ones", share this blog.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
What is the difference? That is all you ever did to me any way, made me the fodder for your humiliation, the butt of your cruel jokes. GOD can't get hell hot enough for you. Very few people brutally sexually assault their own children. (I hope)
You did it. I'm telling. You are hiding. You've never been this quiet in your whole eighty-seven years of existence. Didn't the devil warn you that he was going to let you down one day? Were you enjoying your debauchery too much to hear?
Granddaddy warned you to keep "yo' hands and mouf" off me. Couldn't listen could you? Always had your way didn't you? Always loved making the whole world miserable because you were miserable. Now I know why you cussed and raised holy hell 24/7. Miserable! You were a miserable wretch wracked with guilt for your filthy life. You had to look at my brother (maybe brothers) every day and know what you had done to him (them). No he wasn't going to tell. Who could tell anything so sick and depraved?
You still did it. Had sense enough to hide it. You claim to hate men. You hate period. You hate GOD. You hate all authority. I am going to tell you what you told me. "Get ova' it!"
GOD is large and in charge Miss Mam. You are not getting off of this planet alive. Still strutting around jingling your five son's testicles in your pocket. Happy as a lark, falsely proclaiming that you got over, that you fooled GOD. You may have fooled them n****** in Simon Temple A.M.E. Zion church(that's what you call them), but everyone is not your stooge.
"Suffer the little children to come unto me and forbid them not the kingdom of heaven." Why did you target children?
You have never picked on anyone your own age, your equal. You slammed my head in the wall when I was too little to defend myself. You sexually abused me when you thought I didn't have sense enough to know you were wrong.
Tell GOD you are sorry. Tell the world you are sorry. Tell your church you are sorry for taking up their time.
Just one. Just one righteous brother, cousin or grandchild. Just one human being on this planet willing to risk scorn and humiliation for Christ Jesus. There are children suffering and dying in hospitals right now because of selfish lustful "adults". Pedophiles that can't keep their lecherous hands off of GOD's children.
All of you remain silent spectators. Shaking your heads, walking by, minding your own business. May your life be spared. May you never know the deep dark secrets of your family. May you get to pretend that your life and your loved ones are perfect to the day you die.
"If you did it unto the least one of these my children, you did it unto me."
Do something for the "least ones", share this blog.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Monday, November 19, 2012
"...right on time!"
"He may not come when you want Him, but He is always right on time!" "Amen!" "Preach it!"
I heard that WORD preached to me all my life. I was taught that I could rest assured that GOD would always come to my rescue in due time. I was forewarned of the "long suffering". That the devil would look like he was winning. That my enemies would be of my own house hold. But NOTHING I every heard or read prepared me for the notorious "Mathy Jane"! A human haint, demon spawn, satan's shepard, as evil and demonic as inconceivable. You can't know the depth of her depravity unless you lived it.
If GOD spared you such a "person" GOD bless you. To GOD be the Glory. No matter what never be afraid of such a "person". Let go of all fear. "Fear No man!"
Despicable, deformed, ungodly, a fake phony "christian". A "thang", a miscreant playing dress up. A fool playing with GOD, His WORD, falsely believing that she was going to get over forever. Knowing that her horrible cruelty would keep her a secret. No one would ever dare tell on her and if one of them did the world would not believe her. She would be safely hidden behind all of her Bible quoting, memorized prayers and sermons she gleamed from the Internet. She would "talk the talk" while blatantly refusing to "walk the walk". She would mesmerize with her beautiful eloquent voice, charismatic oratorical skills. No one would ever be smart enough to catch her. Too brilliant, too sharp, too cunning. "They are all a bunch of dummies. They will never catch me. For eighty-seven years I've gotten away. Surely to GOD GOD would not expose me now! Not after I've made it this far...been honored by my church. People love me, bow down to me. I fooled them all."
No one is every going to believe that daughter. Mathy totally destroyed her early in life. Made sure that she was savagely raped. She would never be normal. Never want a husband or a family. She would always be a little wimp hidden behind thick glasses. Her nose would always be stuck in a book. A social misfit. A woman out of place. No one will ever like her. She will always be considered too weird.
Mathy demanded that we attend church every Sunday. She went to show off her furs, fine clothes. She went to drive up in her sleek new Cadillac. Did she ever hear? Mathy prayed. She moaned and groaned out good sermons never believing one word. She had the nerve to secretly hate the people she scammed.
Did she think we were forsaken? Did she really believe that GOD was going to let her get away? Jerome Walter's body lies rotting in a cheap casket, in an unmarked grave. Did she win? Did she shut his mouth? He told her everyday and I am telling her now; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
You can't put on Christ and carry out your demonic plans. So you did it and got away for eighty-seven years. Time up! Time up for your horrid stupidity and demonic rule. You better run. Run down to the foot of His cross and beg GOD to forgive you. Do it now!
P.S.
I never was as dumb as you thought.
I heard that WORD preached to me all my life. I was taught that I could rest assured that GOD would always come to my rescue in due time. I was forewarned of the "long suffering". That the devil would look like he was winning. That my enemies would be of my own house hold. But NOTHING I every heard or read prepared me for the notorious "Mathy Jane"! A human haint, demon spawn, satan's shepard, as evil and demonic as inconceivable. You can't know the depth of her depravity unless you lived it.
If GOD spared you such a "person" GOD bless you. To GOD be the Glory. No matter what never be afraid of such a "person". Let go of all fear. "Fear No man!"
Despicable, deformed, ungodly, a fake phony "christian". A "thang", a miscreant playing dress up. A fool playing with GOD, His WORD, falsely believing that she was going to get over forever. Knowing that her horrible cruelty would keep her a secret. No one would ever dare tell on her and if one of them did the world would not believe her. She would be safely hidden behind all of her Bible quoting, memorized prayers and sermons she gleamed from the Internet. She would "talk the talk" while blatantly refusing to "walk the walk". She would mesmerize with her beautiful eloquent voice, charismatic oratorical skills. No one would ever be smart enough to catch her. Too brilliant, too sharp, too cunning. "They are all a bunch of dummies. They will never catch me. For eighty-seven years I've gotten away. Surely to GOD GOD would not expose me now! Not after I've made it this far...been honored by my church. People love me, bow down to me. I fooled them all."
No one is every going to believe that daughter. Mathy totally destroyed her early in life. Made sure that she was savagely raped. She would never be normal. Never want a husband or a family. She would always be a little wimp hidden behind thick glasses. Her nose would always be stuck in a book. A social misfit. A woman out of place. No one will ever like her. She will always be considered too weird.
Mathy demanded that we attend church every Sunday. She went to show off her furs, fine clothes. She went to drive up in her sleek new Cadillac. Did she ever hear? Mathy prayed. She moaned and groaned out good sermons never believing one word. She had the nerve to secretly hate the people she scammed.
Did she think we were forsaken? Did she really believe that GOD was going to let her get away? Jerome Walter's body lies rotting in a cheap casket, in an unmarked grave. Did she win? Did she shut his mouth? He told her everyday and I am telling her now; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
You can't put on Christ and carry out your demonic plans. So you did it and got away for eighty-seven years. Time up! Time up for your horrid stupidity and demonic rule. You better run. Run down to the foot of His cross and beg GOD to forgive you. Do it now!
P.S.
I never was as dumb as you thought.
"Too common to know"
A subject too revolting, too despicable and disturbing. She is a nightmare, a bad dream, a total impossibility.
No beautiful, intelligent, right thinking woman would deliberately immerse herself in the occult, in primitive "hoodoo". No right thinking daughter, sister, or mother would deliberately try to bring shame and anguish on her loved ones.
"Right thinking" is the key to this mystery. When did "Mathy Jane" ever think right? The day she smashed that puppy between two bricks she foretold our future. A volunteer menace to society. A cruel cunt hell bent on inflicting pain and destroying everything she thought was good or godly. Mathy, a fallen soldier, a child of GOD given over to a reprobate mind. Now a demon from hell she is never going to be controlled or corrected. She intended to live a very long life shocking and destroying just for the fun of it. Mathy is a sadistic sociopath hidden and cloaked by a family of cowards. People of weak or little faith. Born into her clutches, ashamed to acknowledge GOD's truth, they "pray" and wait for GOD's deliverance.
As a little girl she picked on a tiny defenseless puppy. Truly a sneaky coward she would always avoid her equal. All of her lovers and husbands were much too young for her. Many of her "lovers" were still children. Yes she is a pedophile. Small children and the infirm elderly would always be the target of her wrath.
Now she is old and exposed. Will she repent? She declares Never! She claims to be a preacher and a mother. Is there a church blind enough to continue to let her preach and pray over them? The mother of six children. How many still fear, tolerate her madness?
She has no power! She is a blow hard, a magician. She can't help her stupid self. Dumb feet swift to run to mischief. Why did she murder her eighty-four year old infirm father? She hated his righteousness. No matter what she did he always forgave her, always loved her. He was a true Christian, something she knew she could never be.
Why does she hate me? Why did she always haunt and stalk me? It was more than jealousy and envy. It was my innocence that she hated. My desire to love and forgive. No matter what she did I always forgave her, found some excuse for her demented mind. I admit now I was always ashamed of her. Ashamed and afraid. I no longer fear her. Am I still ashamed? I think so. I am ashamed that she refuses to repent, refuses to accept GOD's Truth. She is a miserable mess, human garbage that she volunteered to be.
Lesson learned; don't try to play GOD. Don't think you can run game on GOD. He promised to reveal you and He will. "When your desolation comes it will come as a whirlwind."
I will keep telling you what Jesus said until you get it. "Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you Free!"
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
No beautiful, intelligent, right thinking woman would deliberately immerse herself in the occult, in primitive "hoodoo". No right thinking daughter, sister, or mother would deliberately try to bring shame and anguish on her loved ones.
"Right thinking" is the key to this mystery. When did "Mathy Jane" ever think right? The day she smashed that puppy between two bricks she foretold our future. A volunteer menace to society. A cruel cunt hell bent on inflicting pain and destroying everything she thought was good or godly. Mathy, a fallen soldier, a child of GOD given over to a reprobate mind. Now a demon from hell she is never going to be controlled or corrected. She intended to live a very long life shocking and destroying just for the fun of it. Mathy is a sadistic sociopath hidden and cloaked by a family of cowards. People of weak or little faith. Born into her clutches, ashamed to acknowledge GOD's truth, they "pray" and wait for GOD's deliverance.
As a little girl she picked on a tiny defenseless puppy. Truly a sneaky coward she would always avoid her equal. All of her lovers and husbands were much too young for her. Many of her "lovers" were still children. Yes she is a pedophile. Small children and the infirm elderly would always be the target of her wrath.
Now she is old and exposed. Will she repent? She declares Never! She claims to be a preacher and a mother. Is there a church blind enough to continue to let her preach and pray over them? The mother of six children. How many still fear, tolerate her madness?
She has no power! She is a blow hard, a magician. She can't help her stupid self. Dumb feet swift to run to mischief. Why did she murder her eighty-four year old infirm father? She hated his righteousness. No matter what she did he always forgave her, always loved her. He was a true Christian, something she knew she could never be.
Why does she hate me? Why did she always haunt and stalk me? It was more than jealousy and envy. It was my innocence that she hated. My desire to love and forgive. No matter what she did I always forgave her, found some excuse for her demented mind. I admit now I was always ashamed of her. Ashamed and afraid. I no longer fear her. Am I still ashamed? I think so. I am ashamed that she refuses to repent, refuses to accept GOD's Truth. She is a miserable mess, human garbage that she volunteered to be.
Lesson learned; don't try to play GOD. Don't think you can run game on GOD. He promised to reveal you and He will. "When your desolation comes it will come as a whirlwind."
I will keep telling you what Jesus said until you get it. "Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you Free!"
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Monday, November 12, 2012
What do I really think?
In the stillness of the cold mornings or around four thirty a.m. when my deep slumber is interrupted by terrifying dreams. What do I really think? Do I say I don't hate her because it is the Christian thing to say? Do I still hate her with every microscopic cell in my body? Am I angry that few people every seemed to notice or care about my pain? Do I want to explode when I know what she did to my brothers, robbed them of their "manhood" and the b**** laughed. Still laughs, still preaches, is still adored by far too many.
What do I really think of a world that will let such a creature continue to exist? Have I grown impatient with GOD, not understanding His plan? Do I want to lay hands on her, throttle her, beat the "living water s***" out of her? That is what she always threatened to do to us. "I'll beat the livin' wadder S***! out ugh yo' black sorry A****!"
Is she crazy? Two distinct personalities in one body? Hell No! She is a demon from the lowest bowels of hell and she loves it. Lauds it. Swears by her "goofer dust" that she will never lose.
I must rush to work now. I guess I will ponder this question the rest of my life.
I wish you well. I hope that you do not have a Martha Jane Walters in your life and that you never will.
What do I really think of a world that will let such a creature continue to exist? Have I grown impatient with GOD, not understanding His plan? Do I want to lay hands on her, throttle her, beat the "living water s***" out of her? That is what she always threatened to do to us. "I'll beat the livin' wadder S***! out ugh yo' black sorry A****!"
Is she crazy? Two distinct personalities in one body? Hell No! She is a demon from the lowest bowels of hell and she loves it. Lauds it. Swears by her "goofer dust" that she will never lose.
I must rush to work now. I guess I will ponder this question the rest of my life.
I wish you well. I hope that you do not have a Martha Jane Walters in your life and that you never will.
Sunday, November 11, 2012
"Would a (Wo)Man Rob GOD?"
A woman filled with pure hatred and brilliant manipulative deceit. A woman at war with GOD and all goodness. A pure demon from the lowest bowels of hell determined to maim, massacre and destroy everyone and everything she touched. GOD forbids such. GOD rocked me to sleep, made me semi-comatose in order to survive her. Put Jerome Walters in my life in order to circumvent her. Billing herself as honest and righteous with a few n*****ish tendencies. A helpless hapless thief stealing uncontrollably. Stealing towels and dinnerware every where she lighted. I laughed, thought it funny. Except when she stole all of the toilet paper out of my dormitory's bathroom suite and proudly placed all twenty rolls in the trunk of her brand new Cadillac. I was embarrassed. "Is that your mother!?" my dorm mates questioned. That was ghetto. That was selfish and ignorant. It was needless. She had money to buy toilet paper. She was trying to embarrass me (again). I was a senior attending N.C.A.&T. State University., on the Dean's List, well thought of by my peers and professors.
I still could not connect all of my mistreatment. Holding me hostage in the woods for what seemed like hours when I was three. Cursing me and shaking me, breaking my little heart. Making sure I knew that I was a worthless bag of s***. A thing too black, too dumb to love. My cousin Wright asked us if we had the same father. My brother remained stoic, said nothing. (He never talked anyway.) I was precocious, smart. I rattled off the name of my father and my brother's father , then proudly (foolishly) told her of my deed. She went ballistic, ranting and raving. Cursing me like I was a grown woman, her rival. Cursing me and calling me every name she could think of. Declaring her love for my brother because he had sense enough to keep his mouth shut. I was a little black heifer, a slut, a cunt, a nothing. "Stay out my bizness! you dumb black muthaf****** piece of S***!"
Why did she hold us in the woods just beyond my grandfather's house? Why didn't she spew her guts in front of him? Why did she hate me so? Why did she ruffle every time someone complimented me? Every time someone made mention of how pretty I was she always had to counter that I was much too black for anyone to notice or appreciate. My good looks were wasted on someone much too dark. My dark complexion made me hideous according to her. I grew up thinking I was blue black only to find out that I am coco brown.
She made sure I suffered for every compliment. I remember praying for no one to compliment me or say anything kind to me in her presence. Why did I do so well in school? Was I seeking her approval, her love? No, I couldn't help it. I was a voracious reader. I didn't play much, had few friends and even fewer toys. I didn't want "him" to do to my friends what he had done to me. He was jet black. Blacker than any piece of coal. His eyes were permanently red, blood shot. True she mistreated him. Talked to him like he was a cur dog. Whored around on him every single day! Took all of his money. He wasn't permitted to cash his own check. I didn't care. I thought he deserved to be mistreated. My mother prayed for him to die every day, to get killed. So did I. Yet I refused to believe my mother was a part of "it". True she mistreated me but she just couldn't be that cruel.
The years waxed on. I prayed for adulthood. "LORD please let me see eighteen! Dear LORD I'll never come back...I promise!" I lied. I came back. I could not leave my granddaddy. Besides she changed. Stopped all that vulgar cursing and cussing. Became very loving and kind. She said that she was very proud of me. She gave me her old car, and old Buick. She started bragging on me. Gave me more token gifts. I foolishly thought that she had finally grown up, saw the error of her ways. There was nothing I had ever heard, read in any book to suggest such a creature could live on this earth. Walk among us, live in our homes. I know that Jesus said that our enemies would be of our own household but I had no idea what that scripture meant.
We all went down together. My brother XXXXX's band "Black Brew" fell apart. Some members joined Cameo.He played with the famous Donald Byrd. He bragged to her about it and the next thing I knew this NCCU honor student was dropping out of college and enlisting in the army.
My older brother made one of the highest scores on MCAT, SAT, was a Fisk University Presidential scholar and graduated from Meharry Medical College was suddenly turned out of his internship from a very prestigious medical hospital in Ohio. I suddenly left graduate school. I won two graduate fellowships to two universities. She was always there somewhere hiding and scheming. "You will nevah do what I wudden able to do!"
Her lack of success. Her inability to earn a college degree was her own fault. She was a promiscuous WHORE! A nymphomaniac! Could she help it? I think so. Anything you can selfishly and skillfully hide, you can help.
Can a man or woman rob GOD? Can you deny any one their GOD given gifts and talents because you are rotting in putrid jealousy? Will GOD let any piss ant of a fake phony preacher go to war with Him and win? Will her many victims remain silent too ashamed to tell?
Will GOD ever arouse them from their slumber, remove the blinders from their eyes? I think so. Her name will rot for murdering her father and her children. Her name will become synonymous with the vilest sin. I am delivered today, jubilant and triumphant. I am a victor and no longer a victim.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
I still could not connect all of my mistreatment. Holding me hostage in the woods for what seemed like hours when I was three. Cursing me and shaking me, breaking my little heart. Making sure I knew that I was a worthless bag of s***. A thing too black, too dumb to love. My cousin Wright asked us if we had the same father. My brother remained stoic, said nothing. (He never talked anyway.) I was precocious, smart. I rattled off the name of my father and my brother's father , then proudly (foolishly) told her of my deed. She went ballistic, ranting and raving. Cursing me like I was a grown woman, her rival. Cursing me and calling me every name she could think of. Declaring her love for my brother because he had sense enough to keep his mouth shut. I was a little black heifer, a slut, a cunt, a nothing. "Stay out my bizness! you dumb black muthaf****** piece of S***!"
Why did she hold us in the woods just beyond my grandfather's house? Why didn't she spew her guts in front of him? Why did she hate me so? Why did she ruffle every time someone complimented me? Every time someone made mention of how pretty I was she always had to counter that I was much too black for anyone to notice or appreciate. My good looks were wasted on someone much too dark. My dark complexion made me hideous according to her. I grew up thinking I was blue black only to find out that I am coco brown.
She made sure I suffered for every compliment. I remember praying for no one to compliment me or say anything kind to me in her presence. Why did I do so well in school? Was I seeking her approval, her love? No, I couldn't help it. I was a voracious reader. I didn't play much, had few friends and even fewer toys. I didn't want "him" to do to my friends what he had done to me. He was jet black. Blacker than any piece of coal. His eyes were permanently red, blood shot. True she mistreated him. Talked to him like he was a cur dog. Whored around on him every single day! Took all of his money. He wasn't permitted to cash his own check. I didn't care. I thought he deserved to be mistreated. My mother prayed for him to die every day, to get killed. So did I. Yet I refused to believe my mother was a part of "it". True she mistreated me but she just couldn't be that cruel.
The years waxed on. I prayed for adulthood. "LORD please let me see eighteen! Dear LORD I'll never come back...I promise!" I lied. I came back. I could not leave my granddaddy. Besides she changed. Stopped all that vulgar cursing and cussing. Became very loving and kind. She said that she was very proud of me. She gave me her old car, and old Buick. She started bragging on me. Gave me more token gifts. I foolishly thought that she had finally grown up, saw the error of her ways. There was nothing I had ever heard, read in any book to suggest such a creature could live on this earth. Walk among us, live in our homes. I know that Jesus said that our enemies would be of our own household but I had no idea what that scripture meant.
We all went down together. My brother XXXXX's band "Black Brew" fell apart. Some members joined Cameo.He played with the famous Donald Byrd. He bragged to her about it and the next thing I knew this NCCU honor student was dropping out of college and enlisting in the army.
My older brother made one of the highest scores on MCAT, SAT, was a Fisk University Presidential scholar and graduated from Meharry Medical College was suddenly turned out of his internship from a very prestigious medical hospital in Ohio. I suddenly left graduate school. I won two graduate fellowships to two universities. She was always there somewhere hiding and scheming. "You will nevah do what I wudden able to do!"
Her lack of success. Her inability to earn a college degree was her own fault. She was a promiscuous WHORE! A nymphomaniac! Could she help it? I think so. Anything you can selfishly and skillfully hide, you can help.
Can a man or woman rob GOD? Can you deny any one their GOD given gifts and talents because you are rotting in putrid jealousy? Will GOD let any piss ant of a fake phony preacher go to war with Him and win? Will her many victims remain silent too ashamed to tell?
Will GOD ever arouse them from their slumber, remove the blinders from their eyes? I think so. Her name will rot for murdering her father and her children. Her name will become synonymous with the vilest sin. I am delivered today, jubilant and triumphant. I am a victor and no longer a victim.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Scum!
She is evil scum now and she was evil scum the whole time she pretended to love me, to nurture and protect me. To nurture and protect us. Loudly proclaiming to the public and anyone foolish enough to listen; " I luv my churnin! I jest luv my churin!" Parading around in her furs and driving her sleek Cadillacs.
Corrupt and demonic for no reason. Broke and fake. Jealous and stupid. Foul and despicable! I will NOT let her in my house laying her "roots", fouling my home with her conjure. Her picture should be in every dictionary under the word Cunt. Preacher! My cat Scrappy has more religion and more sense. He has enough sense to turn over the bag of cat food and feed himself. This woman reads the Bible every day searching for a way out of her "mess". The mess she deliberately created, manipulated and maintained at her own peril. She will never get anything form GOD's Bible, form His WORD because she doesn't have sense enough. She lacks the integrity, the intelligence to read and understand. Falsely believing that she can use GOD's WORD against His children, against true believers. At least my cat gets nourishment when he turns the bag over and feeds himself. Poor Martha reads the Bible and continues to confuse herself. Finds false facts, cherry picks the Bible for continued cover. Martha you are not covered!
Why didn't she know that she would be found out? Why does she continue to skip over all the scripture that describes and condemns her? Why does she think she can hide sick putrefying demonic hate with fake love?
Why does she demand undying love and loyalty from the very people she is determined to destroy? Why does she still think some dirt from a murdered man's grave can protect her from the wrath of GOD?
How and when did she fall so low? Does she still think a cheap gift and phony fawning "love" can cover her multitude of sins? Sure she did some good things some times. Not out of love or concern. Simply subterfuge so she could continue her monstrous "mothering".
What kind of mother takes her little children to her bed with her many partners to be a sex toy, something to abuse and mutilate? Then has the nerve to demand their silence, play "Christian". Does she think her pathological lies will suffice forever?
Brutalize, maim, utterly destroy, then laugh. Play loving mother, push into captivity, then laugh. Get up in a pulpit ,put on a show, perform like a clown, then laugh. Scoff at those dumb n****** that only gave you a hundred dollars. They are too dumb. They will never know. No one is every going to believe that daughter. She is too black, too mealy-mouthed, to inarticulate, too dumb. You fooled her for fifty-seven years. You got over on the world for eighty-seven years. The world will not out you. They are too dumb, too scared to ever say a mumbling word against you. Besides if they do you will "root" them, destroy them with your conjure.
GOD will not throw you out of His church, ripe off your robe and expose you to the world. You won because no one on this earth is smarter than you. Who has the courage to believe GOD? Who trusts GOD enough to "fear no man'? "Know ye the truth and the truth will set you free!" That is nonsense. These no-sense-ED numb sculls will never have the courage to embrace and believe. They still walk by sight. "I look like a humble sanctified saint. I have the credentials. The A.M.E. Zion church gave me a license. They will never have the nerve to take it back."
GOD's WORD is true. You will reap exactly what you sowed. It may take a long time but you WILL reap.
Corrupt and demonic for no reason. Broke and fake. Jealous and stupid. Foul and despicable! I will NOT let her in my house laying her "roots", fouling my home with her conjure. Her picture should be in every dictionary under the word Cunt. Preacher! My cat Scrappy has more religion and more sense. He has enough sense to turn over the bag of cat food and feed himself. This woman reads the Bible every day searching for a way out of her "mess". The mess she deliberately created, manipulated and maintained at her own peril. She will never get anything form GOD's Bible, form His WORD because she doesn't have sense enough. She lacks the integrity, the intelligence to read and understand. Falsely believing that she can use GOD's WORD against His children, against true believers. At least my cat gets nourishment when he turns the bag over and feeds himself. Poor Martha reads the Bible and continues to confuse herself. Finds false facts, cherry picks the Bible for continued cover. Martha you are not covered!
Why didn't she know that she would be found out? Why does she continue to skip over all the scripture that describes and condemns her? Why does she think she can hide sick putrefying demonic hate with fake love?
Why does she demand undying love and loyalty from the very people she is determined to destroy? Why does she still think some dirt from a murdered man's grave can protect her from the wrath of GOD?
How and when did she fall so low? Does she still think a cheap gift and phony fawning "love" can cover her multitude of sins? Sure she did some good things some times. Not out of love or concern. Simply subterfuge so she could continue her monstrous "mothering".
What kind of mother takes her little children to her bed with her many partners to be a sex toy, something to abuse and mutilate? Then has the nerve to demand their silence, play "Christian". Does she think her pathological lies will suffice forever?
Brutalize, maim, utterly destroy, then laugh. Play loving mother, push into captivity, then laugh. Get up in a pulpit ,put on a show, perform like a clown, then laugh. Scoff at those dumb n****** that only gave you a hundred dollars. They are too dumb. They will never know. No one is every going to believe that daughter. She is too black, too mealy-mouthed, to inarticulate, too dumb. You fooled her for fifty-seven years. You got over on the world for eighty-seven years. The world will not out you. They are too dumb, too scared to ever say a mumbling word against you. Besides if they do you will "root" them, destroy them with your conjure.
GOD will not throw you out of His church, ripe off your robe and expose you to the world. You won because no one on this earth is smarter than you. Who has the courage to believe GOD? Who trusts GOD enough to "fear no man'? "Know ye the truth and the truth will set you free!" That is nonsense. These no-sense-ED numb sculls will never have the courage to embrace and believe. They still walk by sight. "I look like a humble sanctified saint. I have the credentials. The A.M.E. Zion church gave me a license. They will never have the nerve to take it back."
GOD's WORD is true. You will reap exactly what you sowed. It may take a long time but you WILL reap.
Never Fear!
Never fear, if GOD is near and dear in your heart there is no demon from hell that can ever hurt you. She tried to block all of our blessings, destroy all of our dreams while pretending to be a "loving mother". GOD gave her six beautiful children and she hated us with a passion. Why? Perhaps it is the sick deep hatred that she harbors for GOD in her heart. She hates GOD, she hates all authority. She certainly hated her father, MURDERED him, thinks she stole his good name.
A selfish cruel demon she beams with pride foolishly believing that few will ever know her deep dark secrets. Foolishly proud that she is the greatest con artist, MURDERER, that ever lived. Preaching and praying in public just to "prey" on her innocent victims. Preaching and praying eloquently every Sunday, never meaning a single word. Loudly proclaiming her love and salvation while hiding her hatred and resentment for people she thinks are gullible and stupid. "GOD" is her cover. There is nothing in the Bible she believes. Falsely claiming to be saved and sanctified she worships the devil, studies and practices witchcraft. Purely delighted, positive that her conjure worked and is still working.
GOD exposes her and her kind through out the Bible. Jesus Christ told us, fore warned us. Believe! Cherish His WORD and admonitions. She can hate me all she wants. GOD took my blinders off, set me free, gave me the courage to finally accept this awful repugnant truth.
My poor foolish brothers still "love" her. Is it love or simply terrifying fear and shame? They fear her conjure and "stank eye", her vulgar lacerating tongue. Afraid that she will not leave them the thousands of dollars that she promised. Ashamed that their own mother destroyed them, ruined their lives, led them into captivity. They continue to cower in the degradation she created. Deeply ashamed they refuse to share their pain, deny the absolute truth. The world can not know the sickness their "own mother" plunged them into.
They shun me. Leave me alone, pretend that I'm crazy, just another female jealous of their beautiful powerful "mother". I am the rebel, the truth-teller. I am the blabber-mouthed snitch. No one ever had to know of her sick " illness, her incredible unbelievable evil. The Holy Ghost will not let me hold my peace. The true love and admiration I have for my grandfather will not let me let her ruin the legacy of a good man.
Love her if you want to. Continue to pretend that she is something she is not, never could be. You will rot in hell with her. The world is watching all of us, every member of my family. Continue to pretend that you really think I have lost my mind. Pretend that I am lying on your dear elderly mother. Continue to think that she is more powerful than GOD. Fear her "roots" and conjure. Bend and bow like a coward so she will not curse and cuss you out, will not lacerate you with her foul vulgar tongue. Let her spew her putrid "love" on you, dole out fifty dollars at a time, very begrudgingly. Let her pay your rent, keep your heat on , pay for your divorce. Remain on her dole. You know she hates you. You know that you are no more than another "John", a trick. She deliberately stole and destroyed your life and you let her.
Let the world be horrified. Stand up for GOD! Stand up for yourself! Embrace His Truth, accept His mercy. You don't have to suffer and cry, stay high and wait for that b**** to die. You can't drown this truth in alcohol. There are not enough drugs. No pill is powerful enough to eradicate the pain and memory of this demon. The foul acts she preformed on you plague you. Face them! Face her! Tell her you finally know the truth. Jesus told you. Don't let her con you to the grave. Spit on her memory. Stand on her neck. You know GOD gave us the power and the authority to tread on all scorpions and snakes. Pray. Repent. GOD loves you. Her love is in her mouth. There is nothing but sick deep terrifying hate in her black heart.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
A selfish cruel demon she beams with pride foolishly believing that few will ever know her deep dark secrets. Foolishly proud that she is the greatest con artist, MURDERER, that ever lived. Preaching and praying in public just to "prey" on her innocent victims. Preaching and praying eloquently every Sunday, never meaning a single word. Loudly proclaiming her love and salvation while hiding her hatred and resentment for people she thinks are gullible and stupid. "GOD" is her cover. There is nothing in the Bible she believes. Falsely claiming to be saved and sanctified she worships the devil, studies and practices witchcraft. Purely delighted, positive that her conjure worked and is still working.
GOD exposes her and her kind through out the Bible. Jesus Christ told us, fore warned us. Believe! Cherish His WORD and admonitions. She can hate me all she wants. GOD took my blinders off, set me free, gave me the courage to finally accept this awful repugnant truth.
My poor foolish brothers still "love" her. Is it love or simply terrifying fear and shame? They fear her conjure and "stank eye", her vulgar lacerating tongue. Afraid that she will not leave them the thousands of dollars that she promised. Ashamed that their own mother destroyed them, ruined their lives, led them into captivity. They continue to cower in the degradation she created. Deeply ashamed they refuse to share their pain, deny the absolute truth. The world can not know the sickness their "own mother" plunged them into.
They shun me. Leave me alone, pretend that I'm crazy, just another female jealous of their beautiful powerful "mother". I am the rebel, the truth-teller. I am the blabber-mouthed snitch. No one ever had to know of her sick " illness, her incredible unbelievable evil. The Holy Ghost will not let me hold my peace. The true love and admiration I have for my grandfather will not let me let her ruin the legacy of a good man.
Love her if you want to. Continue to pretend that she is something she is not, never could be. You will rot in hell with her. The world is watching all of us, every member of my family. Continue to pretend that you really think I have lost my mind. Pretend that I am lying on your dear elderly mother. Continue to think that she is more powerful than GOD. Fear her "roots" and conjure. Bend and bow like a coward so she will not curse and cuss you out, will not lacerate you with her foul vulgar tongue. Let her spew her putrid "love" on you, dole out fifty dollars at a time, very begrudgingly. Let her pay your rent, keep your heat on , pay for your divorce. Remain on her dole. You know she hates you. You know that you are no more than another "John", a trick. She deliberately stole and destroyed your life and you let her.
Let the world be horrified. Stand up for GOD! Stand up for yourself! Embrace His Truth, accept His mercy. You don't have to suffer and cry, stay high and wait for that b**** to die. You can't drown this truth in alcohol. There are not enough drugs. No pill is powerful enough to eradicate the pain and memory of this demon. The foul acts she preformed on you plague you. Face them! Face her! Tell her you finally know the truth. Jesus told you. Don't let her con you to the grave. Spit on her memory. Stand on her neck. You know GOD gave us the power and the authority to tread on all scorpions and snakes. Pray. Repent. GOD loves you. Her love is in her mouth. There is nothing but sick deep terrifying hate in her black heart.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Woke up this morning ...
the same way I went to bed, praising and thanking the LORD. I'm blessed and I know it. Some question and don't understand. "How can you claim to be blessed saddled with the burden of a loathsome demonic 'mother'?"
Praise the LORD! I have an answer for you. As horrible, horrendous and as low as she is, she fully intended to be worse. Her demonic goals were far worse than anything you can ever imagine. GOD saved me! He gave me eyes to see and ears to hear. I can discern and think for myself. From the first awareness of myself as a human being I knew that GOD was holding my hand and leading me through.
"Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death...thou art with me." GOD has never left me alone. When she was successful in her treachery, it was something GOD did not want for me at that time.
I trust in the LORD. I will not hate her. She wants me to hate her because she hates me. She knows her hatred is wrong, is sick and demonic. Yes, she knows full well that she is a demon. It is her preference, it is her choice.
No, she never expected to lose. She foolishly always believed that she was winning. Our tears and screams of anguish always gave her joy. She is a pervert in a perverted world, struggling, fighting, trying to get away from GOD while pretending to get close to GOD. Or is she like too many people, "faking it till she makes it"? trying to get to GOD the wrong way? Trying to get to GOD on her own terms?
Most of us are lost in this miserable world. Attending church every Sunday on our way straight to hell! Praising GOD, singing, shouting and full of the "Holy Ghost" . Sitting in pews hating people for the color of their skin. Seriously believing "race" matters. Believing every demonic word satan offers. "What's done on the ship stays on the ship" "What's done in Vegas stays in Vegas". " Black people are inferior, white people are superior."
Racially divided pointing fingers at each other, harboring secret hatred and judgment against your fellow man. You know better. There is only one race, the Human race! You know that it is character and not color. You insist on being ignorant imps, measuring and judging people by the color of their skin and texture of their hair.
Our world is like a bloody car wreck, it's hard to look at, but we will strain our necks and slow our cars to a crawl to see. We just have to see. Most of us will not stop or lend a hand. A few will call 911. Most will just continue to rush to work. All too glad that it didn't happen to us. Some will be glad, ticked to death to view someone else's misery.
My "mother" is a demonic monster, has been one for eighty-seven years as near as I can figure. Very few care to know. They don't have time to be bothered. Too busy congratulating themselves for their perfect lives and their perfect families. Some are truly jealous. They hate everyone with more talent and better looks. Of course no one wants the image or knowledge of such a "person" in their mind. GOD wants you to know that she is not the only one. There are far too many "people" like her on this earth.
Why? Most people do nothing and say nothing. Black people, and all people of color suffered miserably in this country until the late sixties. Until the Civil Rights movement. Why? Very few people in this huge beautiful country were courageous enough to say anything, to do anything in mass. You can let child abusers and pedophiles run rampant in this country but, I WON'T! I'll tell on the S***! I don't care what she calls herself or pretends to be.
No, you don't want the image of such a being in your brain. But, you need to know for your protection. You don't want to follow in her footsteps. You need to know where envy, lying, hating and "root working" will lead you. GOD wants you to know. He wants you to know how these creatures have infiltrated the "Church", deceived the simple with their fair words.
You better study the Bible for yourself. No, don't wait for her to repent or confess. No, don't hold your breath. I have known her for 61 years and she has never been wrong about anything. Catch her in something and tell her and she will crucify you!
Martha is not going to be wrong! Martha is going to do what ever she pleases for her carnal pleasure. You are not going to say anything. She really believes that her color and hair entitle her. She really believes that her lies are perfect and that she is covered because she "preaches". The poor woman misleads herself with her faulty thinking
" Do all the wrong you care to do. Commit every carnal sin you can. Do some dynamic preaching, save some souls and you can trade your demonic deeds. God is impressed! Those 'dinny dimwits' in the church are impressed. You get to play holy. The world will honor you. People will envy you. You will get to strut around in your fine robes and five thousand dollar gold cross. The congregation will burn with envy. Your pastor will fear you because you will always back up your position with conjure. Your church will honor you. No one will ever have the nerve or courage to say anything to you. No one is ever going to believe that little black worthless bastard of a backstabbing daughter that you wish you flushed down the toilet like you started to in the first place. Like you did the other four you bragged about killing."
Change, come to repentance, is it ever going to happen? Her pattern and habit of lying and denying was set early. Her feet were always swift to run to mischief. Will she stop? Will she ever give her life to Christ? Anything is possible with GOD.
What is my point? Never be ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. If she led you into sin, into captivity, come out. "Come out from among them." She is wrong and an abomination unto the LORD. She knows it and she knows that she can be SAVED! "Even in the last hour you can come into the kingdom."
Stretch out your hand Martha. Touch the hem of His garment. You can be made whole! Did you preach to fool people? Or was it something that you really always wanted? Do you love the LORD? Are you ashamed of your sin? Are you sorry that you let your foolish pride lead you astray? Are you sorry that you let your carnal lust turn you into a monster? Do you know how many lives you could save if you finally came clean? Do you know the absolute joy you will feel when you break the shackles of your abominable sin?
You are not the only person with a closet full of skeletons. We are human. GOD forgives us. He loves us. He paid the ultimate price for us. Christ gave His life that we might be made whole. GOD is with you and He will protect you. Shun and reject all evil. Shun all liars and deceivers. Pray for the unrighteous, the unsaved. Be made whole today!
Do know that GOD has a Purpose and a Plan. He will take the pain and agony and give you absolute Joy! To GOD be the Glory!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster, (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Praise the LORD! I have an answer for you. As horrible, horrendous and as low as she is, she fully intended to be worse. Her demonic goals were far worse than anything you can ever imagine. GOD saved me! He gave me eyes to see and ears to hear. I can discern and think for myself. From the first awareness of myself as a human being I knew that GOD was holding my hand and leading me through.
"Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death...thou art with me." GOD has never left me alone. When she was successful in her treachery, it was something GOD did not want for me at that time.
I trust in the LORD. I will not hate her. She wants me to hate her because she hates me. She knows her hatred is wrong, is sick and demonic. Yes, she knows full well that she is a demon. It is her preference, it is her choice.
No, she never expected to lose. She foolishly always believed that she was winning. Our tears and screams of anguish always gave her joy. She is a pervert in a perverted world, struggling, fighting, trying to get away from GOD while pretending to get close to GOD. Or is she like too many people, "faking it till she makes it"? trying to get to GOD the wrong way? Trying to get to GOD on her own terms?
Most of us are lost in this miserable world. Attending church every Sunday on our way straight to hell! Praising GOD, singing, shouting and full of the "Holy Ghost" . Sitting in pews hating people for the color of their skin. Seriously believing "race" matters. Believing every demonic word satan offers. "What's done on the ship stays on the ship" "What's done in Vegas stays in Vegas". " Black people are inferior, white people are superior."
Racially divided pointing fingers at each other, harboring secret hatred and judgment against your fellow man. You know better. There is only one race, the Human race! You know that it is character and not color. You insist on being ignorant imps, measuring and judging people by the color of their skin and texture of their hair.
Our world is like a bloody car wreck, it's hard to look at, but we will strain our necks and slow our cars to a crawl to see. We just have to see. Most of us will not stop or lend a hand. A few will call 911. Most will just continue to rush to work. All too glad that it didn't happen to us. Some will be glad, ticked to death to view someone else's misery.
My "mother" is a demonic monster, has been one for eighty-seven years as near as I can figure. Very few care to know. They don't have time to be bothered. Too busy congratulating themselves for their perfect lives and their perfect families. Some are truly jealous. They hate everyone with more talent and better looks. Of course no one wants the image or knowledge of such a "person" in their mind. GOD wants you to know that she is not the only one. There are far too many "people" like her on this earth.
Why? Most people do nothing and say nothing. Black people, and all people of color suffered miserably in this country until the late sixties. Until the Civil Rights movement. Why? Very few people in this huge beautiful country were courageous enough to say anything, to do anything in mass. You can let child abusers and pedophiles run rampant in this country but, I WON'T! I'll tell on the S***! I don't care what she calls herself or pretends to be.
No, you don't want the image of such a being in your brain. But, you need to know for your protection. You don't want to follow in her footsteps. You need to know where envy, lying, hating and "root working" will lead you. GOD wants you to know. He wants you to know how these creatures have infiltrated the "Church", deceived the simple with their fair words.
You better study the Bible for yourself. No, don't wait for her to repent or confess. No, don't hold your breath. I have known her for 61 years and she has never been wrong about anything. Catch her in something and tell her and she will crucify you!
Martha is not going to be wrong! Martha is going to do what ever she pleases for her carnal pleasure. You are not going to say anything. She really believes that her color and hair entitle her. She really believes that her lies are perfect and that she is covered because she "preaches". The poor woman misleads herself with her faulty thinking
" Do all the wrong you care to do. Commit every carnal sin you can. Do some dynamic preaching, save some souls and you can trade your demonic deeds. God is impressed! Those 'dinny dimwits' in the church are impressed. You get to play holy. The world will honor you. People will envy you. You will get to strut around in your fine robes and five thousand dollar gold cross. The congregation will burn with envy. Your pastor will fear you because you will always back up your position with conjure. Your church will honor you. No one will ever have the nerve or courage to say anything to you. No one is ever going to believe that little black worthless bastard of a backstabbing daughter that you wish you flushed down the toilet like you started to in the first place. Like you did the other four you bragged about killing."
Change, come to repentance, is it ever going to happen? Her pattern and habit of lying and denying was set early. Her feet were always swift to run to mischief. Will she stop? Will she ever give her life to Christ? Anything is possible with GOD.
What is my point? Never be ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. If she led you into sin, into captivity, come out. "Come out from among them." She is wrong and an abomination unto the LORD. She knows it and she knows that she can be SAVED! "Even in the last hour you can come into the kingdom."
Stretch out your hand Martha. Touch the hem of His garment. You can be made whole! Did you preach to fool people? Or was it something that you really always wanted? Do you love the LORD? Are you ashamed of your sin? Are you sorry that you let your foolish pride lead you astray? Are you sorry that you let your carnal lust turn you into a monster? Do you know how many lives you could save if you finally came clean? Do you know the absolute joy you will feel when you break the shackles of your abominable sin?
You are not the only person with a closet full of skeletons. We are human. GOD forgives us. He loves us. He paid the ultimate price for us. Christ gave His life that we might be made whole. GOD is with you and He will protect you. Shun and reject all evil. Shun all liars and deceivers. Pray for the unrighteous, the unsaved. Be made whole today!
Do know that GOD has a Purpose and a Plan. He will take the pain and agony and give you absolute Joy! To GOD be the Glory!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster, (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
My message to the youth of this world
Learn to stand alone, prepare to leave alone. You came into this world alone and you will most certainly leave alone. If you are brave, courageous, honest, truthful and wise very few will stand with you. The truth is most will never have sense enough. Jesus told us that "Wide is the road that leads to death and destruction. Narrow is the path of righteousness." Most people will follow foolish people and foolish whims.
Very few "churches" will be able to help you. Most have been completely taken over by "Jesus Pimps", gaudy flamboyant "preachers" entertaining and raking in cash. Too many believe that "church going" is for a good time, getting a good feeling, lying and pretending to serve the LORD. Very few real members will ever read the Bible for themselves. Most people are content to repeat some ignorant rhetoric they heard some "preacher" say.
If you know like I know you will get it for yourself. You will pray and ask GOD to open your understanding, grant you wisdom and protection from the evil demons that prowl and menace this world.
Our country is at war with "Muslims" never knowing or believing GOD when He told us that our enemies would be of our own household. Some of us will surrender early in life, falsely believing the enemy is too powerful to conquer.
Many will deliberately do wrong, join the crowd, hide behind their "color", believing every lie from the devil. Yes, there are far too many people on this earth that just love to hate. Passing judgment, spewing lies and insults makes them happy. When the truth is they are suffering from envy and "sorriness". Too sorry to read or study. Too sorry to accept responsibility for their own actions. They line up to blame others. Sorry semi-illiterate students, too sorry to pick up a book, take notes or study will blame every teacher they ever had. "The sorry lazy teachers that didn't care enough to give me the questions, the answers and ask me to regurgitate a mere one tenth of what I heard."
These miscreants are truly first class bullies. They learned to intimidate teachers early. Play dumb and thick, make the teacher dumb down her lessons slow and simple enough for a monkey to pass. They demand to be served. "Give me a pencil! Supply me with paper, tissue, ink pens! Keep a book in the class for me because I am too sorry to carry one. Permit me to litter "your" class. Pick up after me while my parents demand to be e-mailed and called frequently. "
Few parents will ever hold their own child responsible for anything. It is always someone else's child that led their child astray. "Peer pressure" is the cause of every self-inflicted malady our children suffer from.
Teachers are looked down upon for earning meager salaries. "Those that can, do. Those that can't, teach." The teacher is blamed for her inability to inspire and instill values in an unmotivated spoiled generation. A generation that has been served everything their little minds could phantom . At two their parents bought them a four hundred dollar motorized Escalade or Benz. They don't have to clean their rooms or cut the grass. Rewarded for whining , complaining, demanding to be "served" with their hateful deceitful attitudes, they think they are winning. Never knowing they are a heartbeat from failure. Too many will continue to fail the End of Course tests, the Georgia High School Graduation tests, enter some one's college and fail miserably. Not due to teacher failure or burn out. They will fail due to their own negligence and serious anti-intellectualism . Failure they truly earned and fully deserve.
The teacher rarely got a chance to teach because mocking and destroying is much too much fun. Following the crowd of sleepers, inattentive ipod listeners and texters is the thing to do. It is the teacher's fault "she can't control her class". She is boring, she is unorganized, she is too old, etc. Any excuse will do. Very few students will touch a book or study. Why should they when the society we live in is so near sighted and uncaring, blaming the teacher first, never knowing or caring what a real teacher has to suffer through. Too many teachers count off the years, praying that retirement or perhaps a peaceful death will come soon.
Learn to stand alone. Far too many students in most public schools are anti-intellectuals, miserable miscreants that only show up because it is the law. They come to cause havoc, disrupt and create dismay. While the poor teacher is swimming in minutia, frivolous paper work and the insurmountable task of attempting to teach the uninterested and totally uncooperative , they continue to laugh.
Satisfied they destroyed another dedicated teacher's day, thwarted every attempt to teach anyone. They return to their miserable homes determined to menace their parents, siblings and neighbors as much as they did their teachers and administrators.
Learn to stand alone. Never be content to be a part of the crowd. "Look well to your going." If the teacher is unable or unwilling to teach, teach yourself. Read your book. Apply yourself, learn to study.
As my third grade teacher Mrs. McDonald taught me; "Don't make excuses, make good."
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Very few "churches" will be able to help you. Most have been completely taken over by "Jesus Pimps", gaudy flamboyant "preachers" entertaining and raking in cash. Too many believe that "church going" is for a good time, getting a good feeling, lying and pretending to serve the LORD. Very few real members will ever read the Bible for themselves. Most people are content to repeat some ignorant rhetoric they heard some "preacher" say.
If you know like I know you will get it for yourself. You will pray and ask GOD to open your understanding, grant you wisdom and protection from the evil demons that prowl and menace this world.
Our country is at war with "Muslims" never knowing or believing GOD when He told us that our enemies would be of our own household. Some of us will surrender early in life, falsely believing the enemy is too powerful to conquer.
Many will deliberately do wrong, join the crowd, hide behind their "color", believing every lie from the devil. Yes, there are far too many people on this earth that just love to hate. Passing judgment, spewing lies and insults makes them happy. When the truth is they are suffering from envy and "sorriness". Too sorry to read or study. Too sorry to accept responsibility for their own actions. They line up to blame others. Sorry semi-illiterate students, too sorry to pick up a book, take notes or study will blame every teacher they ever had. "The sorry lazy teachers that didn't care enough to give me the questions, the answers and ask me to regurgitate a mere one tenth of what I heard."
These miscreants are truly first class bullies. They learned to intimidate teachers early. Play dumb and thick, make the teacher dumb down her lessons slow and simple enough for a monkey to pass. They demand to be served. "Give me a pencil! Supply me with paper, tissue, ink pens! Keep a book in the class for me because I am too sorry to carry one. Permit me to litter "your" class. Pick up after me while my parents demand to be e-mailed and called frequently. "
Few parents will ever hold their own child responsible for anything. It is always someone else's child that led their child astray. "Peer pressure" is the cause of every self-inflicted malady our children suffer from.
Teachers are looked down upon for earning meager salaries. "Those that can, do. Those that can't, teach." The teacher is blamed for her inability to inspire and instill values in an unmotivated spoiled generation. A generation that has been served everything their little minds could phantom . At two their parents bought them a four hundred dollar motorized Escalade or Benz. They don't have to clean their rooms or cut the grass. Rewarded for whining , complaining, demanding to be "served" with their hateful deceitful attitudes, they think they are winning. Never knowing they are a heartbeat from failure. Too many will continue to fail the End of Course tests, the Georgia High School Graduation tests, enter some one's college and fail miserably. Not due to teacher failure or burn out. They will fail due to their own negligence and serious anti-intellectualism . Failure they truly earned and fully deserve.
The teacher rarely got a chance to teach because mocking and destroying is much too much fun. Following the crowd of sleepers, inattentive ipod listeners and texters is the thing to do. It is the teacher's fault "she can't control her class". She is boring, she is unorganized, she is too old, etc. Any excuse will do. Very few students will touch a book or study. Why should they when the society we live in is so near sighted and uncaring, blaming the teacher first, never knowing or caring what a real teacher has to suffer through. Too many teachers count off the years, praying that retirement or perhaps a peaceful death will come soon.
Learn to stand alone. Far too many students in most public schools are anti-intellectuals, miserable miscreants that only show up because it is the law. They come to cause havoc, disrupt and create dismay. While the poor teacher is swimming in minutia, frivolous paper work and the insurmountable task of attempting to teach the uninterested and totally uncooperative , they continue to laugh.
Satisfied they destroyed another dedicated teacher's day, thwarted every attempt to teach anyone. They return to their miserable homes determined to menace their parents, siblings and neighbors as much as they did their teachers and administrators.
Learn to stand alone. Never be content to be a part of the crowd. "Look well to your going." If the teacher is unable or unwilling to teach, teach yourself. Read your book. Apply yourself, learn to study.
As my third grade teacher Mrs. McDonald taught me; "Don't make excuses, make good."
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
"He that hath ears let him hear."
PTL!
Dear LORD!
Thank you for delivering me from that awful demonic woman!
Many may wonder and ask why I took it so long? I am sure it is the same reason millions of slaves remained in bondage from 1619 to 1865. I was born shackled, manacled from birth. No, not physically, but mentally, psychologically, emotionally tethered. Strung up, gaged, hog tied. Her property, her dirty dish rag. A useless burden that she could use or toy with as she pleased.
There would be no help or sympathy for us. Who would or could believe that any human being calling herself a "mother" could be so evil, devastatingly cruel? Certainly too brilliant and manipulative to ever be detected. A true sociopath living among us, with us, controlling our every thought and deed. The b**** truly controlled our very dreams. We were her prisoners, hostages, trophies to be trotted out whenever she needed evidence of her pretend "humanity". Coyly delivering kind words and compliments that she never meant. Quoting scripture that she holds no stock in, claiming to love a GOD that she truly hates.
Knowing full well that she is truly revolting, repugnant and repulsive she sought refuge in subterfuge, mixing GOD's Holy scripture with voodoo and witchcraft. Playing the role of a loving "mother" while totally void of a single maternal instinct. It is all a game to Martha. "Pretend to be something you ain't. Play dress up and fool the hell out of these dummies. They will never know. I'm too good. I'm too brilliant. These dummies serve a god that permits them to suffer. I serve satan and I've been winning for eighty-seven years! He-he-he-he-hehehehehehehe!" Play the part and play it well. Go to church EVERY Sunday. Play the holy sanctified saved "Christian" to the hilt. (These dummies will never know.)
Martha has truly lived a double life. A preacher and Sunday school teacher for over fifty years. A sick demonic voodoo priestess her whole long life. Wearing a phony mask while committing sins I can not mention on this blog. Her very victims remain clueless and confused to this very day. Torn between loving a "mother" they never had and accepting GOD's Truth.
The truth about Martha is too hard to accept, more excruciatingly painful than her many sick acts. What was it that finally gave me the courage to stand up to her? To tell the world about her? GOD! I prayed and GOD answered my prayer.
It was also the pain. I just couldn't take it any longer. I knew, I always knew, I just could not accept it. It was too terrifying. I am sure the mortifying paralyzing fear she skillfully instilled in me kept me as her silent witness. One day I realized that I was a co-conspirator. My silence unwittingly helped her to continue successfully wounding, decimating and destroying.
I looked at my brilliant medical doctor brother, broken and destroyed and I cried. I have another brilliant brother. He is one of the greatest musicians that has ever lived. She deliberated destroyed him and continues to laugh. The Bible tells us that to love such a woman is a curse. She is living proof that GOD's WORD is true.
Did I ever believe her humiliating insults delivered daily, served with a diet of grits and grease when she felt like starving us? Was I really too black to be loved or appreciated in any way? Did her white skin really make her superior and exempt from living a godly life? Did I have to turn a blind eye to all the sick carnal acts I witnessed in silence?
Did I subconsciously believe her voodoo, black magic was truly as powerful as she claimed? I know now that I am not the only child born tethered to a demon. We live in a very cruel demonic world. satan's time is up! Glory to GOD! GOD is exposing her and millions with her.
You will not win Martha. You can not win. Of all the terrible things you did MURDERING your own father was the straw that broke this camel's back. You deliberately rocked my world and laughed in my face.
You never loved Jerome Walters, but I did. You used him the same way you used us. Yes, you sexually abused me. I know for a fact you sexually abused my brother. You feed us to your men. Tied us, gaged and beat us, assaulted and bludgeoned us and had the nerve to haul us to church EVERY Sunday.
What was your point? Were you trying to make us believe that GOD was easily fooled, powerless to the likes of you? Yes my five brothers seem to remain your hapless victims, your dutiful slaves. But I firmly believe that GOD will touch their hearts with a finger of love. One day all five will finally wake up and accept GOD's truth. You will continue to rot in the hell that you truly deserve.
Praise the LORD! "He that hath ears, let him hear." Stay in His WORD children. Remember:"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Dear LORD!
Thank you for delivering me from that awful demonic woman!
Many may wonder and ask why I took it so long? I am sure it is the same reason millions of slaves remained in bondage from 1619 to 1865. I was born shackled, manacled from birth. No, not physically, but mentally, psychologically, emotionally tethered. Strung up, gaged, hog tied. Her property, her dirty dish rag. A useless burden that she could use or toy with as she pleased.
There would be no help or sympathy for us. Who would or could believe that any human being calling herself a "mother" could be so evil, devastatingly cruel? Certainly too brilliant and manipulative to ever be detected. A true sociopath living among us, with us, controlling our every thought and deed. The b**** truly controlled our very dreams. We were her prisoners, hostages, trophies to be trotted out whenever she needed evidence of her pretend "humanity". Coyly delivering kind words and compliments that she never meant. Quoting scripture that she holds no stock in, claiming to love a GOD that she truly hates.
Knowing full well that she is truly revolting, repugnant and repulsive she sought refuge in subterfuge, mixing GOD's Holy scripture with voodoo and witchcraft. Playing the role of a loving "mother" while totally void of a single maternal instinct. It is all a game to Martha. "Pretend to be something you ain't. Play dress up and fool the hell out of these dummies. They will never know. I'm too good. I'm too brilliant. These dummies serve a god that permits them to suffer. I serve satan and I've been winning for eighty-seven years! He-he-he-he-hehehehehehehe!" Play the part and play it well. Go to church EVERY Sunday. Play the holy sanctified saved "Christian" to the hilt. (These dummies will never know.)
Martha has truly lived a double life. A preacher and Sunday school teacher for over fifty years. A sick demonic voodoo priestess her whole long life. Wearing a phony mask while committing sins I can not mention on this blog. Her very victims remain clueless and confused to this very day. Torn between loving a "mother" they never had and accepting GOD's Truth.
The truth about Martha is too hard to accept, more excruciatingly painful than her many sick acts. What was it that finally gave me the courage to stand up to her? To tell the world about her? GOD! I prayed and GOD answered my prayer.
It was also the pain. I just couldn't take it any longer. I knew, I always knew, I just could not accept it. It was too terrifying. I am sure the mortifying paralyzing fear she skillfully instilled in me kept me as her silent witness. One day I realized that I was a co-conspirator. My silence unwittingly helped her to continue successfully wounding, decimating and destroying.
I looked at my brilliant medical doctor brother, broken and destroyed and I cried. I have another brilliant brother. He is one of the greatest musicians that has ever lived. She deliberated destroyed him and continues to laugh. The Bible tells us that to love such a woman is a curse. She is living proof that GOD's WORD is true.
Did I ever believe her humiliating insults delivered daily, served with a diet of grits and grease when she felt like starving us? Was I really too black to be loved or appreciated in any way? Did her white skin really make her superior and exempt from living a godly life? Did I have to turn a blind eye to all the sick carnal acts I witnessed in silence?
Did I subconsciously believe her voodoo, black magic was truly as powerful as she claimed? I know now that I am not the only child born tethered to a demon. We live in a very cruel demonic world. satan's time is up! Glory to GOD! GOD is exposing her and millions with her.
You will not win Martha. You can not win. Of all the terrible things you did MURDERING your own father was the straw that broke this camel's back. You deliberately rocked my world and laughed in my face.
You never loved Jerome Walters, but I did. You used him the same way you used us. Yes, you sexually abused me. I know for a fact you sexually abused my brother. You feed us to your men. Tied us, gaged and beat us, assaulted and bludgeoned us and had the nerve to haul us to church EVERY Sunday.
What was your point? Were you trying to make us believe that GOD was easily fooled, powerless to the likes of you? Yes my five brothers seem to remain your hapless victims, your dutiful slaves. But I firmly believe that GOD will touch their hearts with a finger of love. One day all five will finally wake up and accept GOD's truth. You will continue to rot in the hell that you truly deserve.
Praise the LORD! "He that hath ears, let him hear." Stay in His WORD children. Remember:"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Saturday, November 3, 2012
Praise the LORD!
In all that you do Praise the LORD! He will never leave you or forsake, that is a promise you can believe in, know it in every fiber of your being.
GOD did not tell us that we would not have problems, horrible horrendous hedonists plaguing us every step of our way. I can assure you if you love the LORD the ENEMY is watching, plotting, digging ditches attempting to thwart GOD's plan.
Do know the enemy will lose, you will suffer, but know that GOD is shaping you, preparing you for His Greatness. Those volunteer imps will laugh and celebrate their "victories" prematurely. Those foolish volunteer slaves may never know the depth of their stupidity. They may never believe that GOD is protecting you, leading and guiding you.
Celebrate your beautiful GOD given life. Wake up praying and thanking GOD. Go to bed praising the LORD. If you love the LORD and live right you can never be defeated.
"I am walking on air, ain't touching ground nowhere!" I am delirious with the Joy GOD has given me , placed in my heart. These demons live to tear you down. They want you to give up, lose your faith. They want you to rot in that pit with them.
I refuse! There is no evil treachery that can befall me that will ever make me forsake my loving LORD. Beware, read your Bible. You may be a "child" like me. Born to, locked in the clutches of the most evil, sick perverted demon that ever lived. No, you can't tell or identify her by looking. She is hiding in plan sight, dressed to the nines in fine garments. Her hideous face is covered up in Fashion Fare and huge elaborate wigs. She has the audacity to call herself a "preacher", a minister of the Gospel.
Jesus told us that we would know them by their fruit. She is eighty-seven, saddled and burdened by the worse fruit a person could ever imagine. A foul demon, a sick perverted woman foolish enough to think she had gotten over, succeeded in her filth.
No Martha there will never be a day on this earth that such a creature can live in peace, depart this earth hidden and cloaked by the many victims she robbed and decimated. Your time is up Martha! Your day is done. May the Dear LORD have mercy on your sinful soul.
Yes, I was your unwitting victim, a thing you wiped your feet on, attempted to lead astray and utterly destroy. You failed. Were you really dumb enough, stupid enough to thing your little demonic pea brain was clever enough to challenge my Almighty GOD?
You will reap, you are reaping every rotten seed you sowed. I will not put your sadist deeds on this blog. You are exposed in my book. Why? The world must know. Your would be followers must be warned, perhaps deterred from the likes of you.
We can not pick our "parents". Small fragile innocent children can not fight the likes of you. But, GOD in His infinite wisdom plants the seeds of His love in our hearts. He places His Angels in our path to protect us. The LORD Jesus Christ planted Jerome Walters in my path, in my life. Praise the LORD!
Run and hide your hideous face Martha. Find a rock, a mountain, find someone that can say something good about you. Find someone that can vouch for your character. Manipulate and convince someone to say something good about you.
I always knew that you were "crazy", deranged, double-minded, sex crazed, a loud boisterous braggadocios fool. I refused to believe that you were totally rotten and despicable to the core. You made your move too soon. You celebrated my demise prematurely. My brother, the medical doctor that you firmly believed you had totally destroyed, returned after his twenty-five year absence. He filled in the gaps. You horrid creature! How dare you call yourself a woman, a mother? You are lower than any animal that has ever crawled on the face of this earth. Your treachery and tortured life finally made sense. Shame on you, you sick creature!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
GOD did not tell us that we would not have problems, horrible horrendous hedonists plaguing us every step of our way. I can assure you if you love the LORD the ENEMY is watching, plotting, digging ditches attempting to thwart GOD's plan.
Do know the enemy will lose, you will suffer, but know that GOD is shaping you, preparing you for His Greatness. Those volunteer imps will laugh and celebrate their "victories" prematurely. Those foolish volunteer slaves may never know the depth of their stupidity. They may never believe that GOD is protecting you, leading and guiding you.
Celebrate your beautiful GOD given life. Wake up praying and thanking GOD. Go to bed praising the LORD. If you love the LORD and live right you can never be defeated.
"I am walking on air, ain't touching ground nowhere!" I am delirious with the Joy GOD has given me , placed in my heart. These demons live to tear you down. They want you to give up, lose your faith. They want you to rot in that pit with them.
I refuse! There is no evil treachery that can befall me that will ever make me forsake my loving LORD. Beware, read your Bible. You may be a "child" like me. Born to, locked in the clutches of the most evil, sick perverted demon that ever lived. No, you can't tell or identify her by looking. She is hiding in plan sight, dressed to the nines in fine garments. Her hideous face is covered up in Fashion Fare and huge elaborate wigs. She has the audacity to call herself a "preacher", a minister of the Gospel.
Jesus told us that we would know them by their fruit. She is eighty-seven, saddled and burdened by the worse fruit a person could ever imagine. A foul demon, a sick perverted woman foolish enough to think she had gotten over, succeeded in her filth.
No Martha there will never be a day on this earth that such a creature can live in peace, depart this earth hidden and cloaked by the many victims she robbed and decimated. Your time is up Martha! Your day is done. May the Dear LORD have mercy on your sinful soul.
Yes, I was your unwitting victim, a thing you wiped your feet on, attempted to lead astray and utterly destroy. You failed. Were you really dumb enough, stupid enough to thing your little demonic pea brain was clever enough to challenge my Almighty GOD?
You will reap, you are reaping every rotten seed you sowed. I will not put your sadist deeds on this blog. You are exposed in my book. Why? The world must know. Your would be followers must be warned, perhaps deterred from the likes of you.
We can not pick our "parents". Small fragile innocent children can not fight the likes of you. But, GOD in His infinite wisdom plants the seeds of His love in our hearts. He places His Angels in our path to protect us. The LORD Jesus Christ planted Jerome Walters in my path, in my life. Praise the LORD!
Run and hide your hideous face Martha. Find a rock, a mountain, find someone that can say something good about you. Find someone that can vouch for your character. Manipulate and convince someone to say something good about you.
I always knew that you were "crazy", deranged, double-minded, sex crazed, a loud boisterous braggadocios fool. I refused to believe that you were totally rotten and despicable to the core. You made your move too soon. You celebrated my demise prematurely. My brother, the medical doctor that you firmly believed you had totally destroyed, returned after his twenty-five year absence. He filled in the gaps. You horrid creature! How dare you call yourself a woman, a mother? You are lower than any animal that has ever crawled on the face of this earth. Your treachery and tortured life finally made sense. Shame on you, you sick creature!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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