Pluck it out!

"And if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: it is better for thee to enter into life with one eye, rather than having two eyes to be cast into hell fire." (Matthew 18:9)

Red letter WORDS, meaning Jesus delivered them.  These WORDS resonate with me.  I am gradually gaining more understanding.  GOD does not want us to gouge our eyes out.  He wants us to cut out the source of our pain and anguish.  If something is causing you to sin you should rid yourself of that thing.

I witnessed it.  I was nineteen, too young to fully understand but certainly old enough to remember.  There she was my mother in the day room of her lover's barracks.  Right there in the middle of the room engaging in a sexual act with multiple young men. AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I wanted to gouge my own eyes out.  Thankfully the young soldiers had enough decency to move to another room when they saw all eyes upon them.

"That's her mother." "That's her mother" "That's her mother" the other young recruits whispered.  I didn't know what to do.  I didn't know what to say.  I pretended to be stoic, unmoved, unshaken.  I wanted to die.  I wanted the floor to open up and swallow me.

The night finally ended.  We climbed in her Cadillac and drove back to 825 Dwain Drive.  I was screaming and crying; "Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy MOTHER!!!???"  She answered me not one word, looked straight ahead.  Eyes fixed on Bragg Boulevard she drove straight ahead.  She didn't say anything but I could tell that she was angry with me for mentioning it.  I could not know then.  It would take me decades to realize how much she hated me.

If you ever wondered what a reprobate looked like or acted like, now you know.  When any person falls low enough, dumb enough to solicit satan for power that is exactly what will happen to you.  You will live your life in a fog.  You will become a zombie doing every evil thing the crosses your mind.  The power and wealth you sought you will never have.  You will be so ashamed you will not be able to function.  You will grow blind with hate and wax worse and worse.

Stay out of graveyards harvesting dirt from murdered men's graves.  If someone or something is keeping you from GOD's best, from His Joy and the Holy Ghost, pluck it out.

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and cloak you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)