Dear Mother,

"Mother" is the word that we were paid a quarter to call you. At four and five years old we were easily bribed. Calling you "mother" never bothered me. I always thought it was quite classy, dignified. Deep inside somehow I knew that it represented a new beginning, a fresh start for you. I was really still an infant but intuitively I knew you weren't right. I always knew something was wrong with you. I was a small child but I knew when you came around I was going to suffer.

I am not exaggerating, I felt your hatred in the womb. It is as mysterious as death. Who can explain it? It is the miraculous Power of Our Living LORD. It was GOD making intercession in my life. From the moment of my conception The LORD has been with me. My life is proof of the Goodness of GOD.

Cruelty wasn't a word in my vocabulary. I couldn't name it but You sure made me, made us, feel it everyday. I watched my brothers suffer at your hands, my grandfather, your many lovers. I felt your lacerating tongue EVERY day of my life.

You are a very CRUEL woman, you are now and you have always been. I am not going to ask you why because I know the answer. Demonic cruelty is your choice. Any one can change if they want to. Why didn't you ever want to change?

I am assuming that heartless diabolical EVIL is much too easy for you. Why change? You are getting away like a "fat rat".

Why so much hatred? Why the scam? I don't believe you have ever been "double minded", you're just a demon that pretends to be double minded. You are far too clever, far too successful in your foul deeds to be mentally ill. I love the way you always feigned "mental illness" when I would get too close to discovering the real you.

I will never say that there is no such thing as a "perfect crime" again. You successfully pulled off the greatest scam on earth. For eighty-five long years you have deluded yourself and many others into believing that you are a warm loving sanctified mother. You and I know better.

A heartless selfish demonic bull dagger you have made your entire family suffer all of your life.

You are twisted, some where in this life you got messed up. You have done too much wrong. Why the stealth? Why be underhanded and back stabbing?

You don't play fair Mathy Jane. You cheat. You love hating me and injuring me over and over. I am heart sick to know that a "mother" like you actually exist. You are so horrific few people believe my story and even fewer care.

"De 'mo you cry the less you PISS!"; I still hear that every day, sometimes all day. Sometimes I relive those awful beatings. Yes I remember and feel your scorching hot tongue every time you cussed me out.

You didn't have to take us from our grandfather. That was very selfish of you. Were we just another ploy, another way to pimp your dad? You never had to marry a man that you didn't love. Why did you make him suffer? If you didn't like the fact that he was "too black" why did you marry him?

I can sum you up in three words; berate, humiliate and sabotage. That's what you do. That's what you have always done. Do you know better? Yes. Will you do better? No!

I must admit I have enjoyed telling my story. It has been quite therapeutic. I am still healing and I have a very long way to go yet. But, I am thankful for my voice. I am thankful to GOD for giving me the opportunity to start this debate, to start a conversation about "family secrets". I will not tolerate child abusers. If I have to tell the entire World that my mother is one in order to save one child I will.

You went too far Mathy Jane, you went too far for far too long. You are a sadistic bully. You have no remorse. The saddest fact of all you have no regrets. You murdered a kind beautiful man simply because you could. Shooting granddaddy in the heart was just "smashing" another puppy. You have been secretly "smashing puppies" your entire life. You "smash puppies", then laugh, prowl for more prey, then smash some more puppies. Set them up with compliments and lavish them with gifts then slay them on the sly. That's your life, you are a selfish whore and you killed your daddy because you were tired of his TRUTH.

Who did you really want to kill? GOD. You did, you do, You want to kill GOD. You are an idiot and there is no hope for you.

Go ahead, go out of the world backwards just like you came in.

I do sincerely thank you. Your miserable treatment made me discover the LORD. Your constant unrelenting torture taught me trust Him. Broken, dejected, humbled and thrown away I searched the scriptures and found salvation.

"We've got to fulfill the Book." children. GOD's WORD is sure, salvation is free.

Stay in His WORD children. Be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

P.S. You can't kill the TRUTH and you can't stop the time.

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel