"Nobody Knows the Trouble I've Seen"

Nobody knows how I have been forced to suffer for fifty-nine years and frankly nobody cares. I hope and pray that this is my last blog. I am determined to move on.

I have been paralyzed by pain, shock and awe. How can I best sum this up? It is a very unnecessary tragedy feed by ignorance and absolute evil. It seems that I was born to a woman that considered herself to be the fairest in the land. An incorrigible reprobate notorious for black magic she ruled the day in little Wade, North Carolina.

Let me make this long story as short as possible. Today I have no doubt, it is obvious, there is no other possible senario. A demon birthed me and clandestinely tortured me for fifty-niine years. There is no good in this "woman". There really is no point to this story other than the fact that GOD will deliver you from evil if you ask him.

She is a black hearted demon addicted to infliclting pain. Unfortunately her pleasure is derived from inflicting sick insidious pain for no apparent reason. It has taken me my entire life to piece her diabolical schemes together.

This woman is a monster. She does not love, she has no idea what real love feels like. She lives to torture, get away scot free and laugh. A perfect demon she is hard to catch. Only, she left a few tell tell signs. Secret sexual pleasure seems to be her greatest joy. I wonder how many people know that she is a closet lesbian?

Evidently she has always hated me for no reason. She hates everyone for no reason. I guess you can say that she loves to hate.

There are some things that she did to me and others that can only be attributed to demonism. I have come to the conclusion that she is a Demon from Hell that pretends to be a Narcissist. She is evil and rotten through and through and pretends to be clueless and ignorant.

"Ye shall know them by their fruit." I recount her fruit and I am horrified. The mysterious pain in my eight year old vagina was just the beginning of this sick saga. The savage brutal cursings and beatings. On and on, year after year. Always committing something sick and repugnant and pretending to be innocent.

Thank you LORD for delivering me from her hands. "...let none of you imagine evil against his brother in your heart. Yea, they made their hearts as an adamant stone, lest they should hear the law, and the words which the LORD of hosts sent in His spirit by the former prophets: therefore came a great wrath from the LORD of hosts." (Zechariah 7:10b, 12)

That's her, she imagines that you have done her great evil and she punishes you for it. All of this is in secret. A total coward she rarely accused me. But, the things she did to me speak volumnes. There is no telling what kind of monster she made me out to be to my relatives.

I do know she lost her mind when her young gigalo third husband left her. She successfully spread horrible lies on him. That is the penalty you have to pay if you manage to escape her cluthes. She will manufacture the most heinous bizarre lies imaginable and continue to work her "roots".

It is all in my book, but I must tell you this. I guess she was rather careless in her "root working". I was her dutiful slave. I kept her room clean, hung up all of her fine designer clothes, kept her chest of drawers in order, etc. One day I found her underwear and his underwear and socks all intertwinded in a towel in the bottom of her drawer. She laughed and explained that was how she kept her man. "You put yo' draws and his draws and the the towel from your love making with his socks and he can never leave you." She must have put a lot of confidence in this "spell" because she sure treated him like a dog. Cursing him and emasculating him every day did not phase her one bit. My grandfather told her often;"Daughter, ain't no man gon' stay wid you talking to him lak that." Of cousrse she didn't listen, he left and she lost her her mind!

Well, I know this for sure, "No weapon formed against me shall prosper." She will be found out and she will be hauled out. She is very happy that she crucified me. She laughs at the fact that my brothers and other relatives will not have anything to do with me because she has successfully convinced them that I am crazy. She laughs hysterically for ruining my life. Everything I ever expressed to her that I wanted she tried to steal or destroy.

She didn't get every thing. She didn't get my beautiful daughter and she can't take my talent. I do hate her. I should not hate her. I must grow a great deal spiritually to overcome this abomnible hatred I have for her.

My victory is that she didn't fool me. I don't think she ever has. I always watched her carefully. I studied her, I analyzed her. I know her. She is a sick depraved demon. I bind her to Hell. "Get thee behind me Satan. I never knew you."

Dear children make sure you know that there is a GOD, He sits on high and He looks low and He is not happy with sick reprobates trying to destroy and prevent His Kingdom. "Shun the very presence of evil."

Stay prayed up. Study your Bible. Be a BlessING and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel