How much courage...

does it take to abuse a child? None.  How much courage does it take to admit that you made a mistake and apologize?  Evidently a lot.  A lot more than you have.

He hung and died on that cross just so your sins might be forgiven.  But you are too blind, too sorry, to full of false pride to accept His payment.

Your daddy told you; "The same things that make you laugh will turn around and make you cry."

It is still true.   You can't intimidate or "root" me out of my truth.  You can't destroy these manuscripts.  You can't even die.  You can't disappear like you want to.  Well, you always wanted to be in the "limelight".