"Yea, you stupid! You can't do nuttin' 'bout GOD's Divine Order. You'a pawn baby. You a pawn. You don't control nuttin'! You can't determine any one's blessings or talent."
"So you don't think they deserve it! Who are you? Who asked you? You sic GOD on every body else. You pretend that you have a hook-up to GOD. "Well have a god-blessed-ED Day!" you scowl. We worship the same GOD fool. Well, we claim to any way."
"I discovered your god and your god ain't my GOD. You god is some "goofa dust", some red velvet bags, some Torot cards, some "misunderstanding." Your god is a little learning in the hands of a stupid n****". Your god is pretending to be perfect hoping and attempting to keep the whole world silent while you try to slip into the grave as Rev.Watson. Rev. Watson, the great Sunday school teacher, the great "prayer", the great actress of the theatre."
Well, it is not going to happen. That Mathy Jane of "sixteen" is still here, still wayward, still sneaky and untrustworthy.
If you can't care, you can't care. I can't help but see. I am not as stupid as you are or as you think I am. I am not that dummy you invented to protect you from the "family". I do notice things. I do have a memory. Most of all I have a loving GOD that looks out for me, that protects me, that leads and guides me every step of the way.
When your own mother will violate you for sixty years you are in bad shape. But Jesus told me; "When your mother and father forsake you I will be your comforter."
Praise The LORD!!!
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I feel for you and your pain. I hope that you can move past what was done to you as a child and "give the love you didn't receive" to another. Love and Light to you sister.
ReplyDelete@ thezenscribe, thank you for taking your time to send me your kind message. But, no, darling don't feel sorry for me. Celebrate with me! I feel sorry for my relatives that refuse to catch on, I feel sorry for adult children with the same kind of evil manipulative mother. I hope and pray that you and the world can see My Mighty GOD in me, working in me, re-creating me! By His strips we are healed. I am healed and determined to be a voice for ALL abused children. Our little ones have no voice and very few advocates. Thank you for your support and thank you for reading my blog. Please spread the word and join if you feel inclined. I am in search of an honest dedicated agent. GOD is sending me the right one.
ReplyDelete@ thezenscribe, I miss spoke. You never said the word "sorry". You said you "feel for me". At any rate, thank you. I am trying to start a conversation w/ America. Our children are being thrown away by the millions. Some one has to care. Some one has to speak up. Thanks!
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